2023-04-27 - 8:44 p.m.
I don't know, I just feel totally and utterly unhinged lately. Focusing purely on my romantic life....I have become obsessed with this man. Checking the feed on Feabie obsessively, seeing if he is online. The non stop intrusive thoughts over texting him are relentless. I keep fantasizing about him...sexually. I'm just really completely crazy at this point, truly. I know he moved by his location change on Feabie, I can't help but wonder if he lives alone, if he's with someone. He's on Feabie every day and honestly if he IS with someone that's shitty. I don't know I wouldn't put it past him.
I'm honestly just still so confused over what happend with us, what happened?? Why did he go cold? DId I misread it? I really don't know anymore, I felt like he tried to gaslight me into thinking I did something wrong saying we didn't have a conversation because he didn't initiate it. Saying nothing changed on his end. What?? But I saw him on Wooplus that same week, and Bumble and Feabie. COME ON. Granted, maybe he saw me too and thought the same thing. Was this just a massive miscommunication?? But when I tried to get clarification he totally blew me off and made me feel like he didn't give a shit.
I don't know anymore man. I second guess myself every time and everything I do and think. There's so much I want to say but I don't even have the energy.
�
�
