Talk to me on AIM at: INDEEDDonMann Past Entries at a Glance I'm 36 now. - Wednesday, Apr. 21, 2021
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Don Mann: Focusing on my Craft Wednesday, Apr. 21, 2021 - 12:51 a.m. I was barely 18 when I started this diary. It was half a lifetime ago. It's hideous, but so am I. I haven't changed much. More pain. More to do. Still sad all the time. Cleaner, but not healthy. Tired but not from work. I have a daughter, she's six now, and is all the happiness in my life. I try not to be a disappointment to her. I wish I didn't keep disappointing myself. Big changes are coming soon, whether I like it or not. I don't have anyone but my family. Fear is the air I breathe and bravery is a mask. I have no idea what I'm doing. I'm lost. Every time I shatter and put myself back together, there are so many parts left over. I'd gladly go back to any of the dates on this page. I wouldn't do anything the same way. The biggest difference between me now and before, is that I used to have potential. It feels like once I stopped growing I started dying from the inside out. I can't even imagine another decade like this, but it's coming. |