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I'm 36 now. - Wednesday, Apr. 21, 2021
I've come crawling back to myself... - Sunday, Feb. 28, 2010
The offspring of stars... - Wednesday, Nov. 29, 2006
Seasonal Introspection... - Sunday, October 29, 2006
You are NOT bringing sexy back... - Thursday, November 02, 2006

Don Mann: Focusing on my Craft

Wednesday, Apr. 21, 2021 - 12:51 a.m.

I was barely 18 when I started this diary. It was half a lifetime ago.

It's hideous, but so am I.
I hate to look at it, so it must be a faithful piece of myself.

I haven't changed much. More pain. More to do. Still sad all the time. Cleaner, but not healthy. Tired but not from work.

I have a daughter, she's six now, and is all the happiness in my life.

I try not to be a disappointment to her. I wish I didn't keep disappointing myself.

Big changes are coming soon, whether I like it or not. I don't have anyone but my family.

Fear is the air I breathe and bravery is a mask. I have no idea what I'm doing. I'm lost.

Every time I shatter and put myself back together, there are so many parts left over.

I'd gladly go back to any of the dates on this page. I wouldn't do anything the same way.

The biggest difference between me now and before, is that I used to have potential.

It feels like once I stopped growing I started dying from the inside out.

I can't even imagine another decade like this, but it's coming.

Delve Into The Past - Onward Into The Future

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