So what do you do when you don't want to be the reason someone's in pain?
Being patient is very difficult. I know things are being put into order behind the scenes and I just need to wait. I need to get used to being in this uncomfortable limbo, until we know which way we want to go.
I'm just feeling guilty. Like I'm hurting him by going along with what he wants. It would be easier if I could just go along with it.
Then I start second guessing myself: should I want to be with someone new? Am I just throwing away something good? Because he's a good friend. He could be a good friend, he's becoming a good daddy. But I just don't feel that spark of romantic love. And it sucks.
Because I don't want to fake it. because I feel that's wrong. But on the surface, it's ok. On the surface, it's survivable.
2:43 p.m. - 2016-01-15