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Day 16: Self-Forgiveness!
April 20, 2010 � 11:24 pm

Self-Forgiveness

ACTIVITY

Take the following meditation of friendliness and self-love to heart. Repeat throughout the days to come: "I accept all of who I am, who I was, who I ever will become."

Yes, it really says that, it is not a typo incase anyone was wondering.

JOURNAL PROMPTS

1. Make a list of qualities you admire in other people including your family, friends, and public and fictional heroes.

Self-assurance, honest, dependablitliy, selflessness, thoughtful, helping, pride, control, orginization, faith, strength, thoughtfulness, hopefullness and compassion. Those are some of the traits that I admire in others. From family, friends, to famous people and fictional heroes.

2. How do you know when someone loves you? How do you know when you love someone?

I feel like someone loves me when they do little things to prove it. When they try to be there, talk, hang out, pay attention, do little things for me, not just say I love you. I mean you can kind of feel if someone loves you. I mean like when your with someone and all they do is ignore you or are yelling at you or being mean all the time, you really don't feel very loved. When they make everything about them, you really don't feel very loved. I know I am in love when I can look at someone and really not like who they are or how they are acting and still would give my life for them because I could not bare to go a day without them. No matter how bad they treat me or what they do or say to me. I guess that sounds weird but that is how I know. When I am without them and I feel the loss way into my heart.

3. Today...

Well, today Ian and I went to marriage counseling, finally we made it. It was mostly about our past, the kids, and our communication skills. She said we are going to really get intense next week for our session. I sure hope it helps. I mean we didn't really get into anything this week but we have our next appointment on day 23, so you will hear about what happens at that session when day 23 comes around. This time there was nothing intresting. I mean I knew about everything we talked about today in his past already and he knew all about mine as well. We use to talk and share a lot. She does seem to think he has pstd from the last deployment and then it brought up the issues from his childhood. I already knew that though. I mean he has not gotten over the last deployment in a year and half... that is just not normal. Maybe 3 to 6 months to adjust back to real life but not a year and a half. I mean by the time he adjusts back to real life, if he even does, he will be gone again... and the cylce is going to start all over again.... YAY for me... Sigh... Anyways... I guess it went okay, we didn't get into a fight when we got home. Actually we have not fought since he left for that week, but then we have not really been spending much time talking to each other. He ignores me and I don't push the subject at all, cause I really don't want to fight about it. The thing I am not getting is if you can't bring it up without fighting over it, then how are you suppose to change the things that need to be changed? There are just to many unresolved issues. Well, I think it is time to go to bed. I finally got caught up on here. I think that I am going to start just typing these out instead of writing them in the book first because by the time I do that I am tired and ready to go to bed and then I have to catch up. Grrrr.... I guess that is not working. I am going to just type it all out. Well, night night...

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