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11:55 p.m. - 2016-12-02 It felt like my parents marriage failed whilst I was battling the elements off shore. It was as though I had capsized for 10 years without hope, without assistance. My parents were alive but my idea of marriage and love was forever impacted like a ship cutting through an iceberg in a way not dissimilar to the proverbial knife through butter. There were days when I did capsize during a race and had to scramble to right the boat and sail on regardless of position of hope or of redemption. I became myself at that time, able to cope by myself, to lift myself to right the boat and to steady the ship. The year was 1988. At that time I also developed a callousness. My parents separating would deplete my apathy, my empathy, my sympathy. The level of carelessness I could display would become legendary as, later, I would put all at risk. FALLEN ANGEL Spread your wings and show your foe White of feather but all for show Heart of black and red and snow Promising to stay but prepared to go |