messages to aeka:
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from ollia :
I think it's important for the members of any relationship to realize that they are still two separate people, though. Sometimes it doesn't hurt to make a little room for old friends, even if it requires some sacrifice.
from raven72d :
16 November 08... Do we need to discuss this?
from ollia :
Thank you! I thought so, too. I mean, they're peep-toe -- how bad can they be, really?
from raven72d :
11 November 08--- yes, exactly!
from raven72d :
04 November 08--- a lovely elegy.
from raven72d :
utterly lovely 2 November entry.
from raven72d :
i'm now so insanely curious about your first love...
from raven72d :
melancholy v. sad... yes.
from raven72d :
I never knew you did fashion sketches.
from raven72d :
13 October 08... such a beautiful entry...
from raven72d :
Try your hand at the Romance Meme I posted...
from raven72d :
I hope you will write here about the whole issue of age difference...
from raven72d :
That is a lovely entry. And you know how much faith I have in you, and you know that with your drive and talents you *are* unstoppable...
from raven72d :
I love finding Aeka notes...
from raven72d :
I like that James Salter line. Hmmm... I was...working on my PhD when you were born.
from raven72d :
Lovely descriptions of melancholy...
from raven72d :
"Waking Life" is excellent.
from raven72d :
I'm glad you're back here. I have missed you, however much we speak on the phone or by Skype. If you're here, you should also read Delighted and OftenAbsent--- both girls whose writing I adore. And OftenAbsent is Lissy--- like you, a key L-Girl in my life.
from raven72d :
I like that version of the message.
from minstrelite :
Left out the word "be." (Great to *be* back in the mix.) You probably figured it out and didn't care, but I just got nailed by my perfectionism.
from minstrelite :
Have talked with Vin twice at length, and she asks about you. I'm at the new job, and they gave me a 2nd contract already, an additional 3 weeks. They're talking like hiring me year-round starting in September, plus my roommate who is connected is advocating for me because she knows my situation (and experience and potential), and is empathetic. In fact, she gave me an apartment to myself near the prep school free of charge throughout July, as long as I take care of her cat while she's on vacation. The prep school is the campus on which the theatre is holding its summer Conservatory. Great to back in the mix. It's such a different environment out here, so much more supportive and appreciative of people like me. Everyone thinks I should re-locate, even people in the Village. Anyway, I'll turn my cell on this weekend and call you. Take care.
from itsjustmeliz :
I'm here. And yes, I'd like the password. Still have my add? If not I'll mail you. Peace & love, Liz xox
from aijia :
yes please
from beagle47 :
"...For I spoke bad poetry" why, yes, i know the feeling well. thank you. i am not worthy, but most appreciative.
from minstrelite :
I read it now. I feel you. Not at the moment, of course, since I'm still somewhat dazed in the reveling of an unexpected sudden girlfriend, but I do know what you're going through.
from minstrelite :
I see you have another new entry, so I'll read it forthwith. Nice to hear from you. Uh, not sure if you've been reading me lately, but you should. I have fallen in love, quite unexpectedly.
from childofgaea :
hey, i didnt know minstrelite reads you too...but i think i can relate with your breaking up entry...how it feels alien to one day wake up and not feel anything...guess that's coz I'm going through that right now...feels weird...but I still love him too...
from minstrelite :
Nice entry, March 1.
from raven72d :
Lovely 01 March 06 entry...
from ivanhoe :
You should be making more entries!
from minstrelite :
Are you taking it already? And is it a benzodiazepine? I took klonopin for anxiety, started hearing voices in my head, and had a manic episode. Be careful.
from minstrelite :
I just read your entry of 2/8/06, which prompts many thoughts. I fixed my cell plan and can conceivably call you, but I wanted to leave a note first. I've been growing spiritually, and feeling a lot better about myself. My temperament being roughly similar to yours, I have found meditation to be very helpful, and Buddhist philosophy in particularly helpful at this time, even though my spiritual identification throughout most of my adult life has been with Christianity. I think that the principles of Buddhism tie in very neatly with modern psychology in its highest application. And I would venture to guess that you can overcome all your social anxieties without needing to rely on medication. But these are only immediate thoughts.
from ivanhoe :
It's a nice picture, by the way.
from ivanhoe :
Ah, political science. I can only hope you love it as much as I do. As for me, I think I am okay. Do you wish you weren't okay, though?
from minstrelite :
That was an interesting entry, in which you brought out the contrast between your quiet, contemplative space (representing spiritual growth) and the sort of "blast from the past" assault of your ex's sudden appearance on your instant messenger. Also, I really like Vivaldi's "Winter" too. By the way, I've wanted to call you recently, but I got stuck with a horrible cell phone plan out here, and it's impractical for me to call at any time other than weekends or after nine o'clock Pacific Standard Time, which of course is out of the question. Hope you're well.
from frosted-fae :
Boo! It's been a while... Lost generation... loved it.
from minstrelite :
Wow--for all the times we've talked, I never knew you were keeping up your diary! I must have projected my having left DiaryLand onto everyone else. I just read from 12/4 up. Now I remember why I was originally drawn to you--through your journal. It shows me a beautiful side of you that I always know is there, but that I don't always see. In your diary, I see it. And of course, your writing is excellent. Makes me want to put some effort into my blogspot--I always write so randomly, unthinkingly, carelessly.....also, I like your template. And the new picture is so great I saved it. Seeing this tempts me to return to DiaryLand. But of course, you know the old saying: Insanity is repeating the same thing over and over again, and expecting different results." But maybe I'm stronger and more self-confident now. I don't know. Random thoughts! ttys....
from frosted-fae :
Complicated, exhausting shit is right! Still, the complication is somehow entertaining or, at the very least, distracting.
from finjamartens :
OK,wait.So I am shortsighted,yeah,and it means I can see things well that are near. So it does get named after what you are good at.
from finjamartens :
Hey,I want to start an argument about myopic,being shortsighted. Cause:I had a girl friend who was,and she didn�t have much of a damage,you know,was just a little bit shortsighted,only two dioptrin aberration. And she couldn�t even watch TV cause it was too blurry,she needed her glasses for that. That means to me that when you�re shortsighted you can�t see what�s close,but far away things like ships you should be able to see better. I�m also wearing glasses,but I can watch TV and I also could read without glasses when I was -younger,although I have 4 dioptrin. (Like 14 is blind). And I can never see things in a distance,I�m always like:huhhhhhh? And I also know that some people get automatically farsighted when they grow older,because that eye ball thing,the lense can�t make a ball good enough anymore,you know,like the muscles are gone,and therefor you can�t focus that well anymore. And you need glasses to read,and take them off if you wanna see something in a distance. I�m only telling this cause I have also always been told by mum and stuff that I was myopic. But it�s not true,I can see relativly well the close things,and the things far away I can�t. It also makes sense,the term touches the illness,you know,names what is wrong,and not what�s right. If you�re myopic,no good vision in short area. Far-wait,no. That should mean when you grow older you get myopic. I must look that up.
from minstrelite :
I locked my diary. Please e-mail me if you would like a password.
from minstrelite :
Sounds as though you've made a choice. We can talk later if you want--I'll be around, but then am going to the Bay Area for the weekend. I'll still have my cell with me, of course.
from minstrelite :
Done. I also see you've updated, and I'll try and read it when I get home from church and my voice student. I won't have Internet access at home until Thursday, however, and I don't want to abuse the privelege of free Internet at the nearby cafe. But I ought to be able to read you sometime soon. Take care.
from minstrelite :
Interesting. Randomly, among Dostoyevsky, I've only read "Notes from Underground" and "Dream of a Ridiculous Man." I've never read "Crime and Punishment," probably because it's so huge I figured I'd never be able to finish it.
from minstrelite :
Thanks, Libet. I think it will be all right to keep it locked for now. I saw your e-mail also and wrote back. It sounds as though you are taking things well. Buzz me if you need to.
from minstrelite :
Very nice entry. I'm sure you will be fine at Rochester.
from godmoney :
i am soooooooo excited 4 u peace out
from minstrelite :
Thanks for updating. I'm just out the door, but saw the light on my buddy list flashing, meaning someone had updated. And it was you! I only skimmed it, but will be sure to read it when I get home tonight. ~ Andy
from minstrelite :
Yeah, I like this one better too. It's more "me." One of my readers complained about the purplish one, as you can see from my notes.
from minstrelite :
hey libet - there's a cool new template on my d-land right now, i happened upon it randomly....also got about 8 or 9 entries there & links to my poetry & my daughter's deadjournal & other stuff
from hamiltonian :
Just me saying hello...
from minstrelite :
Great writing, Libet - You're painting vivid yet peaceful pictures.
from frosted-fae :
I don't think I've ever discussed my country's state of affairs at the dinner table. o_O Interesting though. Pretty writing. <3
from for-you-only :
Is Aeka your name?
from godmoney :
donde esta PICTURES? i kno u looked hot and think of u w/e i hear "latin girls" by the balck eyed peas.
from hamiltonian :
I FINALLY updated...
from hamiltonian :
Horowitz has advocated the genocide and persecution of all those of islamic religious faith for personal and nationlistic reasons all of which are not only sick and genocidal but against everything America was founded on. He is a true traitor.
from aijia :
hey dear. hope you had a lovely prom as did i!
from aijia :
ape shit, ape shit, everything is apeshit. ok. it will be amazing libet because how can you go wrong with a man you love, all your friends around, and a custom-designed dress? i'm so excited. now i really must pretend to study for my ap tomorrow!
from aijia :
desafortunadamente, no tengo el tiempo ni el dinero para un vestido. i went to macy's but they have so many ugly dresses. sigh. afortunadmante, i will wear my red red spanish dress with a embroidered bodice that is longer in the back than the front (it was $5 at a thrift store). send me pictures of your dress so i can ogle it!
from ceciliaruns :
good for you aeka. way to be a she-wolf.
from aijia :
serias "goldenpear" tambien? sabes lo que estoy diciendo?
from aijia :
hola libet, despues de mi examen de espanol, quiero hablar espanol todo el tiempo! como va tus examenese? !buena suerta!, si aun no los haya tomado. cual es el "mascot" de la universidad de "rochester"?
from frosted-fae :
Voltaire is absolutely delicious. Candide was awfully entertaining. We read a bit of it for French class actually... Also, some Moliere. But Voltaire was better. XD Sorry, I just noticed his name in your profile...and I have no life.
from aijia :
thanks!! i'm supposed to be studying for my calculus ap. ick. ok i will actually go and do so now. (i was born in beijing, came here when i was 6. naturalized now. thanks for asking. i usually fail to mention it.) good luck on your aps!
from godmoney :
i thought u loved me 4 my sexual prowess? it is so ironic when the lesser, beta "other man" (really just a disconnected voice) refers 2 the love or ur young life as THE OTHER MAN. pssh!
from aijia :
i haven't heard back from you in a while. i am going to berkeley, so we will still be on opposite coasts. that man is such a narrow-minded pedophiliac asshole. now that i think about it, his thing with little imaginary creatures is really quite creepy.
from godmoney :
::shudders:: put ur profile back up, girl. u had a fling--the internet is (under all the forced eloquence) a vocation to you. for him, it's his life. leafing thru this guy's life's work--fucken pathetic! does he ever leave his hovel? damn--what a pathetic old fart. seriously. "childlike"? try CHILD PREDATOR. he needs 2 get what's coming to him...damn.
from frosted-fae :
-glomps- New computer? What are his/her specs? ^_^' I don't note enough these days. I became fed up with diaryland making me wait to update... so I basically moved to a xanga. How are things? Life is still good?
from godmoney :
i wanna double major in the same thing! love the economist...
from ivanhoe :
Congratulations on your gradution and long live political science!
from aijia :
yeah i feel like that too. something to do with having to make a super important decision that makes even choosing what salad i'll have for lunch a difficulty. i'm glad about your "re-evaluation." i'm visiting chicago next week (!?!?).
from godmoney :
are you doing work-study? working summers? we're gonna be how close?
from destinymaker :
hey just wanted to say LOVE the new layout. I emailed u a while back after u sent me ur password, but dont think u got it. Keep up the amazing writing, I have to say it makes me smile... ~m~
from aijia :
oh my! what's a charmeuse? sounds like a dessert. you know, you can stand out and not spend more than a developing country's GNP - try a thrift shop? or, vintage - no one else will have it, for sure.
from godmoney :
there was a phase when i ocd perused "how to get published" stuff and from that i know that there is ABSOLUTELY NO copyright infringement in publishing companies. just a lot of competition. my advice: find a lit agent.
from godmoney :
i'll put it this way: u have enough talent to amuse all the losers who read your blog (and, most importantly me: number one stunner). i assume al thinks you're talented in more ways than one... xoxo
from morganlight :
Dude, I've known since I started reading your diary that you deserve to publish. :) It's actually really rewarding once you get past the industry bullshit.
from aijia :
publishing? your english teacher is a publisher? holy shit! that's amazing! and adorable - you and al, both putting out books. think of the genes your children will have.
from aijia :
no, i am definitely going to college. it's just that fafsa thinks we're much, much richer than we are, as my dad will be unemployed in a few months, and i didn't get as much scholarship money as expected. i can't remember if i called you (oh i am aging!). . . i think i might have a few weeks ago. i promise to go to college, whether i have to take a $35000 loan or take the year off and work. hooters is hiring.
from hamiltonian :
I hope to hear from you sometime, I would really like to chat sometime.
from ceciliaruns :
ps. i've been in that situation exactly. remember, he has no right to make you uncomfortable and you don't have to be nice. he KNOWS he's being rude. you can write me if you like. [email protected].
from aijia :
happy birthday! i'm trailing behind you, turning 18 in april.
from ceciliaruns :
Aeka! I know I left a note already not long ago. But I had to write to your last entry. I wanted to gather up my "grown woman" self and wrap her arms around that particular reflection of your psyche. Fact or fiction? If fact, you should never take responsibility for the ravenous actions of others. Or feel guilt for your own bits of daily brushes with sexuality. Read Women Who Run With the Wolves by Clarissa Pinkola Estes. This is your time to get in touch with your "Wild Woman".
from godmoney :
yous a ho... in a good way! play on, playette--beauty and sex appeal (which you have in and out) are nothing to be ashamed of.
from ashtraygurl :
funny thing is, i also felt old at 19, even older at 20, and now that i am almost 23, i realize (with much embarrassment, i must admit)i am very young and that i was very VERY young then. by forty, i will be reliving my teens. yep, i'm one of those people. happy birthday.
from ceciliaruns :
dear aeka...if you understand the short terms of life already you're set to savor every moment of the long present moments you hopefully have left which is priceless. age has always been meaningless. i always enjoy your writing like tea and morning air and my dear alaskan forests.
from morganlight :
Requiem is the only Mozart piece I ever liked.
from hamiltonian :
"Turning and turning in the widening gyre The falcon cannot hear the falconer; Things fall apart the center cannot hold; Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere The ceremony of innocence is drowned The best lack all conviction, while the worst Are full of passionate intensity."--William Butler Yeats
from godmoney :
id...id...id...id...id
from godmoney :
lemme kno when u need my addy. in the backwards tongue of ur ppl: muchas gracias.
from godmoney :
danku. i need it 4 the weekend (clubbing ::raises the roof::)
from godmoney :
babe- can u hit me up w/an id?
from aijia :
yay!
from aijia :
it will be fine, it will be fine, it will be fine . . . say it with me now . . .
from miss-shirty :
I hope everything works out for you, no matter what happens. Don't ever panic though, life just throws you for a loop sometimes. It can be very loopy. :)
from godmoney :
then be flattered cuz of all the hos sweating me (hugenot or not) i chose you!
from hamiltonian :
White pickets fences? sounds like something I wanna destroy!
from miss-shirty :
Awe. You give me hope.
from hamiltonian :
I know how you feel
from aijia :
awww have fun in canada!
from aijia :
thanks dear. please point out faults, the assignment is over, but hopefully i'll have time to keep working on it on my own, there's still much to say. so criticism would be helpful, if you have time.
from aijia :
did you get the posters?
from aijia :
haha, your red friend - even your period is a commie!
from miss-shirty :
Thanks for reminding me that love can be something beautiful. It should be. -miss shirty
from hamiltonian :
I wrote that late at night so will re-write it as it was misunderstood.. I'd tried saying something in a simplistic way and as it turns out doesnt come across too good that way.
from hamiltonian :
I have felt what you say and experienced it, fought for it, gone crazy over it, and worked till I dropped and even went to hell for it. But don't admire me, please whatever you may do, make sure you don't show me or anyone like me admiration. Becareful what you wish for...
from aijia :
amen. what fitting rooms have you been going to? love you, lijia.
from aijia :
shit. i always forget to email you the images. maybe tonight, when i go to school for the school play.
from aijia :
i'm done applying to schools, not done applying for financial aid. the joys of not being able to afford. i won't hear back from the schools until march for ucs and april for everyone else. i feel like a very long held breath. yes, EMAIL will work, i hadn't even thought of that. i will do it. wait for me to clog your inbox like a pore. le sigh, it's a time for bad metaphors.
from godmoney :
i'm reading "the god of small things" because i am told there are many commie shout outs. a chick in it goes 2 rochester, raise the roof. :) love you.
from ceciliaruns :
very wise. and i loved the walls that watch us dream. thank you for reminding me my cracking plaster is as good as any other... and yes...blind competition bites ass...
from aijia :
that is generous of you . . . no, alas, i have not heard from either of them. i'm surprised i haven't bumped into hope, she is so close by. i want to show you my photo project, you would get it. it's like ex-communist-citizen humor. and don't think that i've forgotten about the painting i'll do for you.
from godmoney :
that's soooooo sweet!
from aijia :
yes it is. i am aiming for her hair-do - i am considering a. chopping off all of my now-long hair (it's grown since july) or b. perming it so i have loose waves - i want curly bangs like her! what do you think? this might be hard for you to answer given you haven't seen me in 5 months . . . do you remember what i look like? my mental impression of you is the way you look in that group photo in front of the capitol, so determined-looking you're breathing fire - also, of you giggling. i also remember that yellow skirt that you bought from h&m and natalie's red skirt with her dinosaur t-shirt. and hope's tie-dye t-shirt that she wore to sleep. i think we all developed a "signature look" over the 3 weeks since we had a rather limited change of clothes. oh, colors. remember tombs and their pine nut & spinach salad? remember that beautiful restaurant on m street with the beautiful bathroom and beautiful waitresess? and the national cathedral (where bush had his inauguration prayer, damn him) where natalie bought about 500 dollars worth of church memorabilia . . . she also bought about 6 pairs of slippers.
from bloodandgold :
You are a brilliant writer! Just thought I would point that out, that you are well versed. Sincerely, Cordelia
from aijia :
ok you have a point, but they would (and i have nothing backing this up) have to drop significantly, like a letter grade down. all i'm saying is: take care of yourself.
from aijia :
someone should remind you - and it might as well be me - that you are a SECOND SEMESTER SENIOR. you're in college already! and if you ever have to choose between work and sleep (every day, probably), choose sleep. that's all i have to say.
from frosted-fae :
Just dropping in to say hello!
from aijia :
rhode island school of design . . . right.
from aijia :
el arroz estaba un poco . . . mojado, y hay mucho pollo, pero me gusta mucho los mariscos, si. no me gusta mucho, pero no estaba mal. it was like soggy rice. i don't know if it's supposed to be soggy like that or if it was just the restaurant (laurel's). hm?
from raven72d :
Rochester-- congrats!!
from ashtraygurl :
ED makes me giggle--AND reminds me of Bob Dole. Congratulations!
from aijia :
! congrats! ! whoa... now if i can only get into nyu (i have no hopes for columbia), we'll be in the same state! fock yes!
from godmoney :
my shoutout was good luck (i had no idea so small)! oh, yeah, CONGRATUFUCKINGLATIONS!
from godmoney :
bffs HAVE to be accepting--it's in the job requirements. i speak my mind, get my point across, and then i adjust to YOUR decision, w/e it may be. i wouldn't accept your choice if it was to, for example, HAVE A BABY (and not name it vin, that is), but everything short of ruining your life is up to you. thanx for the props, ho. now tell me what that entry was all about, don't make me whip you...
from godmoney :
uhhhhh.... why? (hilarious sex comment, btw) it's so hip to be anti-israel. while i agree that the press is majorly slanted towards israel and that's unfair, one fact remains: Israel is the closest thing to a democracy in the middle east. i think arab guys are hot and all but women as second-class citizens? not cool.
from godmoney :
Dear Diary, That Libet is soooo hot... do you think I have a chance? Dear Diary, She's flirting with me--do you think she likes me? Dear Diary, Wow! That Libet is smoking in bed! ...
from ceciliaruns :
your entries feel so familiar to me. i can understand everything you're saying. it makes me happy.
from godmoney :
oh, and i'm trying to link everyone i mention with a blog, right, so i searched "Libet" on my diary and you came up SOOOOO many times i couldn't begin, so i'm going to link you when i have a week free--a month a day or something.
from godmoney :
a certified babe who�s going to Rochester (say my name, bitch!!!)
from hamiltonian :
Sorry I ahvent emailed you the written email I never send... anyway will do tonight and umm I will maybe add something else on. Hope to chat again soon...
from godmoney :
hey--i watch 1-1.5 hours of "The Pianist" and i couldn't take it. i had to turn it off.
from ceciliaruns :
YES!!!
from ceciliaruns :
aeka my dear - i think you will find that college and smarts and so called pseudo-intellectualism mean nothing on the day you find yourself a very small ant in an enormous universe. don't let the accolades demons get you down. they are full to their teeth of shit.
from aijia :
happy new year!
from godmoney :
i meant "word 1000%). tangent: don't you h8 how the dland banners have motherfucken ADS now?
from godmoney :
take my work 100% (really) that i kno what u mean ~ the essay disgust. "raven", eh...? hmmmmmmm--i'm too busy, but i'm going to have to write you an em... also, i've perused too many of your bullshit overglammed entries for you to stop now! don't you dare pull out of dland, y'hear?
from godmoney :
thanx 4 noting advice + the shout out. silly ass--you didn't follow directions. i specified, how would your FEELINGS for the young lad change. :p
from godmoney :
the question is: would we accept their professorship? we would have to lay down the law with certain demands. like, only well-hung hot guys could be in our classroom. and joyce carol oates would make guest appearances.
from godmoney :
"kinghts + squires" is possibly my fave recent entry. love you!
from hamiltonian :
I love how passioante you are and hopeful. I wish i were more like you instead of what I am... I will email you back tonight...
from hamiltonian :
I never see you online anymore, I miss our chats.
from hamiltonian :
You are a blessed writer with heart.
from aijia :
i love the part about the quest of life being ripplies.
from hamiltonian :
i am doing rings, so if have any suggestions please email me
from hamiltonian :
missed chatting with you.. if ever want to send me an e-letter and just let me know when you would like to chat...
from godmoney :
"hunger hurts but starving works." -fionna apple.
from ceciliaruns :
visceral. i love it.
from aijia :
what communist slogans do you know? i've only got "revolution is not a dinner party" which is somewhat weak. this is for my art project.
from ceciliaruns :
[email protected]
from hamiltonian :
You sent me a name/password but it doesnt work...(??)
from itsjustmeliz :
Don't be sad! *hugs*
from godmoney :
lol + love
from aijia :
why?
from godmoney :
re: the entry before ur last i was just going 2 say, "um... shouldn't u be passwording this...?" neway, i demand an apology because i am an overweight ultra-liberal non-capitalist!
from aijia :
got it.
from ashtraygurl :
Thanks dear!
from miss-shirty :
Sure! It's [email protected] Big thanks... -miss shirty :)
from aijia :
does this mean you two are back together?
from godmoney :
he is decent, not spectacular. i'm just telling it like it is. i got one which i will reply 2 promptly. school is eating my life! i'm failing half my classes!
from apple-cutter :
http://groups.msn.com/CuttersSideLife join today my new site and tell friends please
from aijia :
oh that was mango lassi! i totally forgot . . . yeah lassi is yogurt, so it does exist. are you off from school too? happy thanksgiving/break!
from aijia :
hehe. that sounds like something that might have actually happened. except i don't know what indian yogurt is. does that exist? i just remembered we never actually got to eat cuban food there (sad face), because the cuban restaurant was serving something odd . . . or something. i still haven't had cuban food! we really ought to go do that sometime . . . and i just remembered my black bunnie that i couldn't buy. damn was it cute. that was a good time.
from aijia :
you're great. (sorry i couldn't help myself - it's injuns, not engines.)
from hamiltonian :
LETS KILL US SOME ENGINES! Happy Thanksgiving!
from aijia :
no, libet. not the last time. i am not completely certain of what you're saying, but i see you allowing youself to be defeated. but i am not there and i do not understand the situation. why are you so immoral? write me an email if you'd like. love, lijia.
from hamiltonian :
*bravo*
from aijia :
thanks. correct my grammar if you'd like, please.
from aijia :
i am happy for you.
from hamiltonian :
http://www.nov3.us/index.php
from morganlight :
Amen. America has such a fucking ego problem. Not to mention too many people dependent on an ancient book to make their decisions for them.
from hamiltonian :
I wish we had finished chatting. The phone rang and dog s were going nuts and when I came back you were gone *frown*. Look forward to chatting again...
from for-you-only :
Hi.
from frosted-fae :
Terrible sentiments about the election too? Oh, the layout's quite pretty.
from aijia :
i just called you but no answer. i cried when i heard that kerry had conceded. the run of emotions today: hopeless -> disbelief -> disappointment (that one's staying with me) -> anger at gore and kerry -> i don't know. i sure am excited though to go to iowa tomorrow and check out a swing state. sure, let's do spain. puedo hablar con mi accento americano y iremos a "tapas bars." toma cuidado (=take care), chica, y no "despair." hay esperanza, pero aun no se donde hay. dime donde hay.
from apple-cutter :
Emily a friend told me she is happy bush won only because bush was the president for 4 years.Hello ok yes he was but,there is a bigger deal then that.My head hurts from trying to make her understand.Lol
from apple-cutter :
Love-N your layout
from hamiltonian :
voite for me president of diaryland! Vote today!
from aijia :
oh libet! what's wrong? write me a email if you want to - i promise to write back if you do. i miss our getting take out together too and eating it on suspicious dorm floors. after i got back to the city, i tried to play tennis with my dad which is of course not the same. we should get together sometime! let's see... i'll be in iowa this weekend...see you there? (or, you know, it's highly likely that we'll end up in colleges on east coast and the metro rocks i hear.) take care. love, lijia.
from aijia :
i love your layout.
from hamiltonian :
read that link!
from hamiltonian :
http://www2.gwu.edu/~nsarchiv/news/20010430/doc1.pdf
from hamiltonian :
Hope we can chat soon.. btw.. UPDATE!
from hamiltonian :
Hey ... great design!
from aijia :
what you give to one person is not something you take away from someone else. the love a person is capable of giving is limited but there is enough to love genuinely more than one person at a time. can't you admit you love them both? (now i sound preachy)
from aijia :
was your last entry about the canadian? why do your feelings for one of them have to be superficial? why can't you feel for both of them genuinely? in the beginning i thought that perhaps you had called roger to talk to him like you had wanted. it sounded like a continuation of "you know, again." (sorry if this sounds like an aggressive set of questions.)
from frosted-fae :
Hey! Just dropping in. -shakes fist- That code is driving me mad.
from godmoney :
uh... congrats on the party invites?
from aijia :
thanks so much so much. i'll write a book if you become a professional skateboarder, does that sound fair? hey do you read or like gertrude stein? i am reading keats in my poetry class, i thought he seems like your kind of guy, especially the ode to a nightingale/grecian urn. wordsworth too.
from apple-cutter :
I printed "You Know,Again."
from apple-cutter :
I printed out one of your diary's and placed it out side on my coffe table.Ok college students dont have a coffee table.LoL but I but it out side on a table to show my friends who great you are.I cant say it enough how good you fucking write.Also thanks for adding me in your favs cause I got a new person from your site.Bye
from aijia :
that sounds like a good day to me(despite the headache). paella and skateboarding. i didn't know you could skateboard, impressive.
from hamiltonian :
The point is you wrote a new entry! Yahoo!
from hamiltonian :
"I know of no more encouraging fact than the unquestioned ability of a man to elevate his life by conscious endeavor."--Henry David Thoreau
from apple-cutter :
Oh,my god yes it did!The crowd was going crazy over that.It was a mad house out there listening to B.
from apple-cutter :
Ya,I saw the debate on ASU it was cool.I stood about 20 feet from Kerry.I am so happy your for Kerry and hope he wins.
from hamiltonian :
UPDATE!
from hamiltonian :
What a beautiful well written and expressed entry. *in awe*
from apple-cutter :
well I am not real educated in the whole "stock" field.lol I guess i should I be because I am majoring in a law and embalmbing. Well today I wrote a poem if you can give advice on how to make it better then thanks.
from godmoney :
wow... way 2 join the capitalists ring... if che ever comes back 2 life don't expect 2 b invited 2 the orgy... u didn't miss much on the vp debates, btw. i didn't kno how how edwards was, now i do. the end.
from hamiltonian :
hope you likied the quotes today
from hamiltonian :
can we switch bodies?
from apple-cutter :
Nice entry,your the most perfection taste yet.Well I am adding you to my favs and you can drop me a note if you would like.Have a good day
from hamiltonian :
Nice entry but saw some romatic letter writing and could not read anymore, too painful to think of anything romantic or sweet.
from godmoney :
lol! i thought u'd never change ur layout! hilarious note, btw
from aijia :
send me the picture whenever you like. i will look at it and ponderify. i haven't written any essays...maybe i should start? yes i received you last email a long time ago and i am sorry i haven't replied. i will. your last entry (was it about roger?) nevertheless made me glad for you. take care.
from aijia :
sure i promise to do a painting of you sometime in my life (like after college apps.) you can always hold me up to this promise. send me the picture and tell me whether you want it like a commision (without the cost...you tell me what to do) or leave it up to me. i even have a canvas i can finally use! exciting!
from aijia :
ah libet, if you were not so far, I would do a painting of you. except one time i drew my friend jon and he came out looking like the unibomber. and another friend drew jon and he looked like john kerry. i vow, were i to do a painting, to never make you look like a serial killer or a politician.
from hamiltonian :
wow
from godmoney :
u 4got the "m" in edumacated, btw. u kno Nader's not Green this year, right?
from hamiltonian :
wow you like melt banana too? I saw them live twice... Plus you like Hamilton? most people dont even know hes mr$ten
from hamiltonian :
Your well read! Tahnk you for nice comments! If you dislik Bush just wait till my journal in october when i go supergold...
from aijia :
libet i am so excited for YOU because i discovered that "Howard Zinn: You Cant Be Neutral On A Moving Train" (it's a documentary about him) is showing in san francisco, which means it might be showing in florida.
from morganlight :
Haha. Oh wow. Those reviews always crack me up.
from godmoney :
You capitalise, use commas, full stops and use paragraph.
from fallstarrevu :
Sorry. I meant that you could find it at http://fallstarrevu.diaryland.com/aeka thanks!
from fallstarrevu :
Hi it's kisstiara here. I finished your review. You can find it at http://fallstarrevu.diaryland.com Thanks for requesting and all the best! <3 xxx
from kisstiara :
Oh sorry my bad. It's fallstarrevu.diaryland.com. Thanks <3
from destinymaker :
Hi there I am so sorry for the late reply, im finally back home so I can access diaryland..yea!(my email isnt working but hey thats comps 4u!) glad to see that uv updated, I just want to say that I hope u dont think/thought that ur work had lost any of its potency, because that really is not the case. I have to say that whether u mean it to be or not, ur work is full of life, I think it inspires a lot of us not because of the manner in which it is written but because your entries verbalise (i cant spell!!) what many of cannot convey in our own diaries. Please dont ever think that ur work appears manufactured or any less geniune-although it may seem that way to u, they dont appear that way when read. I hope the confusion u were feeling has lifted and things are better for u takecare hun,
from itsjustmeliz :
*frantically rips open the box* Oh hawneee, you shouldn't have! You really shouldn't! You could have kept him yourself and just sent me the nudie pics! But since he's here now... excuse me... *cackles* *exists room with gackt look-a-like on leash* Love you, Liz xox
from kisstiara :
Hi. This is kisstiara from fallstarreview. I beleive you requested a while ago. I am ready to start your review as soon as you put a link up to our site. A simple text link is fine but I cant start one without it. If you would no longer like a review inform fallstarrevu on the notes page and we can remove you from the waiting list. Thanks. Kisstiara@fallstarrevu xxx
from aeka :
Damn, that's a fine idea! Or we can go with plan B...I be Thoreau, you be Whitman.
from aijia :
let's start a writer's colony halfway between florida and california, but far away from texas....you can bring your friends and i will bring my friends and we will have ducks (but not the kind that say, aflac!) and a canoe but none of us will own anything not even our writing, so naturally our collective writing talents will be discovered, then exploited by malicious big apple agents. hey, it's better than a nudist colony.
from aijia :
let's start a writer's colony halfway between florida and california, but far away from texas....you can bring your friends and i will bring my friends and we will have ducks (but not the kind that say, aflac!) and a canoe but none of us will own anything not even our writing, so naturally our collective writing talents will be discovered, then exploited by malicious big apple agents. hey, it's better than a nudist colony.
from godmoney :
none of us have ne literary value, babe. but ur writing has made leaps + bounds by my estimate. on another note: u go, girl.
from ivanhoe :
I do some writing, but mostly I like to generate ideas (I've now got books of point form notes and paragraphs) and the actual task of writing happens so slowly that it can be quite frustrating. I have written a script for a movie that I shot with a home video camera and am working on a couple of other projects. I would love to read your own work! Is there a way to exchange E-mail addresses without the world seeing them?
from ivanhoe :
Perhaps there is a balance to be struck between experience and innocence. I would think, nonetheless, that a very strong person would be able to maintain their optimistic outlook despite the hardship they have endured.
from ivanhoe :
No matter the attraction of giving up on innocence, don't be discouraged. Life is about change, but our outlook does not have to be sullied. There is poetry to life and, if anything, the harder moments only make it more vibrant and profound. And if these experiences reveal truth in our lives and universe, whether the truth is joyful or painful, they remain well worth it. We've embarked on a journey called the human experience! People are naturally social creatures, so if you ever lose your way, just look to others for inspiration as a sort of jump-start. Afterwards, you are free to venture out on your own, bringing your experiences to society through chance encounters with others and perhaps even being enriched through these encounters.
from godmoney :
LOVE ur l8st entry, babe.
from aijia :
holy shit libet, that sounds amazing! what does politk do? you make me want to do even more for kerry...
from ivanhoe :
It is quite an experience to have such potent memories triggered...It's nice to visit the past.
from aijia :
hi libet. just here to hope you're doing well, because i haven't heard from you in a while. sleep, eat, repeat!
from ivanhoe :
Thanks for the suggestion! I'll do whatever it takes to maintain my optimism!
from ivanhoe :
It's a mysterious thing how dreams, even the most pleasant of them, can be so unsettling. I once thought about cursing them altogether, doing what I could to banish them. But then decided that I've enough innocence to justify believing that at a least a few of them will pan out in life. Dreaming when ill has never been something I look forward to. The dreams tend to be tedious and boring. What's the point then?
from itsjustmeliz :
Well, thank you for keeping my advise in your calculator. I think you should come over to Scotland for a few days to chill out and relax, you do seem stressed. Then we can drink cream-tea and eat cheesecake in the rain under a big parasol. I love you, Liz xox
from aijia :
dailycandy is awesome. i want a takeout menu organizer. don't forget that i'm the one who introduced you to takeout peking duck.
from ivanhoe :
To have the reputation as a revolutionary would be appealing, and I'll take any help I can get in appearance. Can you ever be too "hot"? Now Yasser Arafat, there's a handsome guy!
from itsjustmeliz :
Farm? Physics experiments? *looks confused* Well, I have some advise or words of consolance or whatever for you and am in the position you were with me and so I don't know if you're gonna wipe your arse with my advise but here its anyway: At some point in our lives Libet, we must all sell-out. There is no avoiding it. Why don't you just write whatever they want now to help you get where you want, THEN write whatever you want! Uh oh, I feel like the devil's helper telling you this so, you just do what you think's best. You're my senior, you'll know what to do eventually! I love you, Liz xox
from itsjustmeliz :
And I don't think your writing is mediocre either. In fact, when I first read your prose, I was somewhat astounded. Love ya, Liz xox
from itsjustmeliz :
*bellows* MERDE! A lil french for you! *giggles* That's the one word I remember since dropping French last year. So, this being-a-whore-by-writing-what-they-want jazz. (Is that it?) Why are you so upset about it? I feel inferior and 12yrs old for asking but tell me? Love Liz xox P.S And damn our male-gurlfriends for being so damn charming and pretty and stealing all the hot guys! *sniffles*
from ivanhoe :
You'd be most welcome!
from itsjustmeliz :
Yes, precisely what i was thinking. Are you a senior in High School? How many years of High School do you get in America? If I was in an American High school right now would i be a sophomore? Because I'm actually right now in my first senior year. Love ya, Liz xox
from itsjustmeliz :
It wasn't a FABulous job. I was just saying I looked FABulous. *chuckles* *flicks hair* Well, I didn't get the job after all. Oh well... Love ya, Liz xox
from itsjustmeliz :
And you better send me a copy of that novel. Then, when you finally DO get recognised for your genius I can be all, I know her! I know her! IKNOWHER!!! Love ya, Liz xox
from itsjustmeliz :
Yes, I managed to kidnap and brainwash Gackt for you so that you may do with him whatever strikes your fancy. I did NOT wipe my arse with your advise! Instead, I put it in a little box in my heart for safe-keeping. Thank you, btw, it DID make me feel loadz better. *sighs in a contented kinda way* I love you Libet! Liz xox
from itsjustmeliz :
DING! DING! DING! Libet, 16 yrs is the correct answer and you win the fancy house, the fancy car and the hoard of fancy androgynous-male strippers! Wooo! Love ya, Liz xox
from itsjustmeliz :
How old do you think I am? Be honest! Love ya, Liz xox
from seelendurst :
Yes, a bad dilemma... Mere ideals or a realistic choices? Think you have to face reality that the whole Us electoral system structure is not democratic at all. (sucks) But i am sure I'm just telling you something you already know. However Things aren't going so well on the other side o the pond, Just having to face a return of totalitarism here in Italy, for example; you could feel it in the eyes of those voting teenegers too. Take care. (you have great musical tastes by the way)
from ivanhoe :
And in Canada, people wanted desperately to vote Green or New Democrat (wannabe Communists). In the end, they felt compelled to be more reasonable or to vote strategically. So we have a Liberal government and a strong Conservative opposition. I say, stick with yer guns. If democracy is to be useful, people have to vote where their heart is.
from ivanhoe :
Finding and then standing by political ideals can be difficult. In Canada, many "great" leaders have been known to fight vehemently for a cause, only to "flip-flop" at a later time. Their struggle, however, is no different than that of the plebes (that'd be us) as both we and the politicians are playing the same game. So don't lose heart. If you have any faith in yourself as a rational, coherent being, it is duly owed to your fellow citizen. For myself, leaning quite naturally and heavily to the left certainly helps maintain that optimism for society and political systems.
from aijia :
i'm sorry - i will.
from ivanhoe :
That's a damn fine idea! Sadistic cartoon pirate-bunnies, who are fond of opera...And some of them can be your average, adventure seeking and not-quite-so sadistic kind. Even a pirate crew has to be well-rounded.
from ivanhoe :
What I found by scrolling down the main page was an "Aliens" parody. Looked for an Exorcist version, didn't find it.
from itsjustmeliz :
Well, I am glad you're doin fine and dandy. I can't believe you stayed at home when you KNEW the hurricane was coming your way! I would have fled. But it's good you're right as rain. Love, Liz xox
from ivanhoe :
I took a closer look at the site, and found the parody you mentioned..."Aliens" vs. rabbits. Sadly, it's always funny pitting the pure and good with hostile evil. And to hear cute little bunny rabbits curse is always a riot. Have you ever seen Peter Jackson's "Meet the Feebles"? THAT's screwed up.
from ivanhoe :
I checked out "albinoblacksheep", but alas, couldn't find the Exorcist parody. As for coffee, it is interesting that you mentioned the Caribbean treatment of it. When in the D.R., I had coffee that was saturated with sugar for the first time. Until then I had always, almost in principle, drank it black. So when I become nostaglic for the exotic tropics, I resurrect the tradition of saturating my coffee in sugar. It is certainly a fine thing!
from ivanhoe :
It sounds like you used a good opportunity very appropriately! I'll keep an eye out for the sites you mentioned!
from morganlight :
'the faint whispers of the summer breeze makes things far more dramatic, as if I were living in a perpetual love-story.' Wow, I love that feeling. Glad you survived Charley, and I love the new layout.
from itsjustmeliz :
I just realised that you updated 24 hrs ago which to my knowledge was BEFORE this hurricane... right? Oh my goodness! I love you! Liz xox
from itsjustmeliz :
*SCREAMS* GODDAMIT LIBET ARE YOU OK??? ARE YOU ALIVE??? IT WAS ON THE NEWS- IN SCOTLAND! SO IT WASN'T ONE OF THOSE LIL HURRICANES BUT ONES OF THE BIG SCARY VARIATY AFTER ALL! ARE YOU OK???
from itsjustmeliz :
Even though I like rain, it saddens me to know that a place like Florida rains... Isn't that where Disneyland is? Love you, Liz xox
from frosted-fae :
We don't have SATs, but we do have provincials (very similar). Apathy is a terrible thing to fight. I find that once it takes hold.... it becomes quite the inner struggle. Mmm... piano. I've always found it to be a beautiful instrument. I regret my parents never bothered to introduce me to the world of music (I'm still determined to learn piano when I get settled down with a career). Nevertheless, it's wonderful and breathtaking (specifically, I'm a sucker for baroque).
from lovejunky :
"semi-skin hugging" - Abercrombie t's are muscle-fit. Helpfully yours, xxxianxx
from itsjustmeliz :
This fly costume jewellery you speak of is a bloody marvellous idea. Is it rainy over there? It feels like that when I read your entres. It's rainy over here. Love and all that jazz, Liz xoxo
from frosted-fae :
Ugh indeed. School is unpleasant in the extreme. Your grades are pretty good. Nothing wrong with a B...-shudders- You can remedy the situation with your SAT (I'm sure you can do it). Last school year, I ended up with Chem, Phy, Bio (plus the usual, plus French). I'm glad my deadlines were a bit more reasonable.... Randomly, I'm curious as to why you chose that quote as a description on your favourites list. :)
from morganlight :
Oh man. Love Song. Oh man. TS Eliot is a god.
from frosted-fae :
+bit (sorry, the mistake was bothering me)
from frosted-fae :
Harvard? Hmm... it's another option I guess. Why are you so worried about applying? Whatever your reasons are, we're in the same boat. Of course, circumstances are quite a bit different... (yay, Canada...). How well do you do in school? Specifics have probably been posted somewhere, but I must have missed them... Sorry if that sounds a prying... oO I've weirded myself out....
from itsjustmeliz :
Thank you for your advice. Greatly appreciated, it was! Yes. I know the bleach was bad for my hair. That stuff stings worse than battery acid! Ahhh... the lengths we go to for beauty... Hugs and kisses, Liz xox
from frosted-fae :
Good luck. Taking a step back won't hurt what you have. Writing is a beautiful art. I'd hate to see anybody give it up. :)
from aijia :
good luck with your writing hiatus.
from ivanhoe :
If you truly love writing (as you seem to!) then no matter your frustration or how hard you try to keep away from it you'll eventually come back to it. Take a break from writing if needed, but keep track of where you go without it. When you return to it you'll have gained important insight into yourself, your natural talent, and your level of skill. Don't quit - just take a break!
from ivanhoe :
Your cousin is just a healthy dose of reality. That is not to say he is right, but only another perspective. Today's entry was great. Just don't get too caught up in his world. If it is any consolation, many families have the same sort of people as your cousin.
from itsjustmeliz :
I just had the overwhelming urge to say, I love you Libet. Liz xox
from godmoney :
lol. libeeet, the palace of profanity is "simply the musings of an innocent, youthful soul." get over it + stop searching 4 outside validation. just don't become bitter like ur dick of a cousin.
from ivanhoe :
If your cousin ever becomes a famous artist and someone chances across those "secret" works of his, they will probably be dusted off and placed on display as a revelation into his character. Whether they draw harsh criticism or praise, they'll be appreciated for what they are: proof that even he is human.
from lovejunky :
Your cousin seems to confuse the word "art" with the word "craft". Until he's resolved such a basic fundamental, which is no doubt fuelling his bitterness, I wouldn't heed a damn word he says regarding what you want to write.
from aeka :
LOL
from aijia :
awww thanks a lot, libet! i suppose your hair comment was in response to my wanting to buy bleach. i don't think i am going to do it. i read your email (twice) and will reply as soon as i get free internet access. take care!
from godmoney :
ROFL! i love ur cousin! he's fucking stupid! lol. he thinks that he has been disproportionately been blessed w/insight. lol. and by putting down a few poseurs (and a few geniunely tormented artists) he elevates himself to godlike status. HI FELIPE--WOO HOO--FUCK OFF!!! ha ha, i find u silly + i am only ::counts fingers:: 17 years old! ur words will be worth mulling over when u paint the next guernica (i suspect u have sketches, no? secret fantasies of grandeur, and enlightenment?), then ur words will have me rapt. u do not have uncommon wisdom, only marginally exceptional eloquence. ::yawn:: u r destined 2 impress the feeble-minded. Good luck, loser.
from ivanhoe :
Actually, that sounds like exactly what I need right now! Perhaps I can get a job in a remote area of Canada as a park ranger...A $23 cabin would be a hard find, I agree, and you can't sign aboard a random ship in the harbour anymore. I'll find what I'm looking for just the same! I wonder if I can convince myself that I'm Captain Nemo. He pursued his principles, lived a life of adventure, and had a kick ass submarine.
from godmoney :
the euphemism "safety school" is wholly misleading. while i'll adjust to going to st. john's or tulane (perhaps amherst... i'm still reaching feelers out for safety schools. duke doesn't count, does it?), my mom would die. DIE, libet. DIE DIE DIE. she refuses 2 even BROACH the subject of "safety" schools. oh, and i got ur e/ms but am 2 busy 2 reply. no fears: i will get on it asap.
from ivanhoe :
Things will look brighter in the near future, I am certain. In the meantime, however, I'll explore Mahler (as per your suggestion) and later in the evening blast Puccini's "E lucevan le stelle". Don't know what the lyrics mean, but opera raises any struggle to epic proportion and brings into communion the spirit of the music, its artist and the listener. And there never has been a better crutch.
from aijia :
it's so strange that we both names that start with li - and a-a(aeka, aijia). you know what i mean?
from godmoney :
it's beacuse we live in a capitalist society, dear. and we're not denmark.
from godmoney :
i much liked ur l8est
from aeka :
Yay! Lijia wrote! Except ur link won't show up on my blog...
from aijia :
libet! i assume you got my last email? i have to get myself down to an internet cafe to read your next email... i want to read your stories and poetry. i'm sorry that you destroyed your story, i would have liked to read it, but if it will help you write more, then best of luck to that. i am trying to write some poems right now. i would ask what you've been up to lately, but i will just wait for your email to find out. love, lijia.
from aijia :
libet! i assume you got my last email? i have to get myself down to an internet cafe to read your next email... i want to read your stories and poetry. i'm sorry that you destroyed your story, i would have liked to read it, but if it will help you write more, then best of luck to that. i am trying to write some poems right now. i would ask what you've been up to lately, but i will just wait for your email to find out. love, lijia.
from aekarambles :
do u love it? i thought the asian print would be appropriate because we both are.
from aekarambles :
LOVE the Che quote! only prob is... i can't change the layout while ur still on! i'll wait until u log off, lol.
from godmoney :
whee! i'm so excited! i have some more conditions/ assignments, tho. #1. You write the intro for the mag. Not just a blurb, but an actual preface. Add it as an entry and before you click "done!", type in the "html" box the words "aboutme" so you can access the entry at "aekarambles.diaryland.com/aboutme.html." this is important. #2 On the main page I'm going to put links up to both our profiles--not the aekarambles profile. On the aekarambles profile make up some blurb and just put our s/ns on the buddy list--take down all that classical music crap :) #3 I'm so glad i inspired u + i hope i'm not being pushy!
from godmoney :
Wait! I thought of a title: The Revisionists.
from godmoney :
ok: i got the layout. alls i need is the password and a title. u didn't think i'd say no, did u?
from godmoney :
well now u can't have it for it's mine. u never answered my question: what do u mean by accusing me of being a bad stalker! how dare u!
from godmoney :
aah! i almost used this layout!
from ivanhoe :
Aeka, I'm honoured! This is like first contact between two peoples. Here is to a long and informative exchange!
from the-theatre :
Wow, props to you, Eastman school is a great school, or so I've heard. My teacher wants me to look into Julliard, but I don't know. Ivy league names don't usually appeal to me. But i might, also Northwest has great arts..We'll see though. How old are you anyway?
from frosted-fae :
I'm warning you... my diary is a bit annoying (sometimes). I am also an "academic" but avoid writing a whole lot about it because some of my friends are readers and it bothers them. I guess it's because I'm never happy with my grades... perfectionism. Hm. Sorry for rambling.
from the-theatre :
That's very cool. It's interesting, I studied piano in the States for some time, and my friend who was originally from Russia said the same thing. She studies in CHicago now, and has found a good teacher, but before she told me that it just wasn't the same, and the approach was just weirder. Yes, but I love piano music, especially Romantic, and Chopin. Im' known as the queen of waltzes, because I do believe I've played all of them. oh they're so grand.
from frosted-fae :
I came across this through Ivanhoe... "Grade Posting" is an excellent entry. I find myself understanding... giving up so much for academics. I enjoy your entries very much...
from the-theatre :
p.s- are you a pianist?
from ashtraygurl :
i find your prose to be delicious
from aeka :
Oh my...I hadn't thought of that! He'll most likely issue a spanking. Salacious. Oh, but he is on my fucklist. ; )
from godmoney :
::gasp:: what will gakt do when he hears he's off ur fave music list???
from for-you-only :
I shall now confess that I just actually looked at your diary it self for the first time. *laughs* I have not been in the mood for actually reading diaries in a while... I don't know why. My interest in anime is partly an art interest, and party a sexual interest. I plan on changing my layout around agian, something about it just doesn't strike me as being either "me" or interesting. -Pink
from godmoney :
how ~ this sunday???
from ivanhoe :
Obsessions are great. But then why is that when a person obsesses about another, it's creepy? Has the world gone mad and forgotten its love/hate relationship with itself in favour of a quiet, bland existence? Long live Bocelli and all artists, but especially opera!
from for-you-only :
Intesting layouts? layouts with an "S"... meaning for diaries with an "s"? I am considering making a new layout again, I don't like the way the current one looks. It's soo much work to make them - at yet, I want to change it again. :) So which author of mine have you heard of?
from for-you-only :
Hmm, I haven't heard of the authors in your profile... I feel so ... dumb? When I look at the authors in people's profiles, I've never heard of them. Yeah, I like the name of your diary. :) I didn't know it was the 4th of July until the morning of the day, so don't feel bad. ;) -Pink
from for-you-only :
Profantiy is always fun!!! Yeah!!! Hey, you don't know me, but I go by Pink. (This is because every other shirt I own is pink) Happy belated 4th of July. Hope your hoilday is and was fun. :) TTFN! -pink
from godmoney :
::bites tongue:: funny... ur l8st was... funny.
from aeka :
Weel...I prefer SiOP, but I put Yellowcard on because of this one particular song that I like. : )
from godmoney :
yellowcard--::wrinkles nose:: not my cup o' tea. But good live! i can just pic u on the laptop w/the headphones looking very professional-like. lol. xoxo
from godmoney :
I love u happy, libet! Keep it up!
from godmoney :
oh, by the way, i just archived my 205 entries. u should 2, w/e ur bored.
from godmoney :
Undergoing retail therapy is one thing (let�s not forget who donned Abercrobie for the week in UM), but promoting it as a worthy cause over child labour is another. Yeah, I half-figured u were playing devils advocate although frankly I just throught u were being DUMB (I was like, �What�s up??? When is she gonna say, �You win�?�). I don�t appreciate u arguing a point u don�t wholly believe when all my words carried the weight of passion and truth. U can flex ur argument muscles w/some other friends�not me. It�s not the cold-hearted bitchiness (a worthy trait, in my book) that scared me, it was the hollowness of ur argument (which I found out u don�t wholeheartedly believe it, no wonder). Don�t play devil�s advocate unless u can do it thoughtfully w/out giving urself away. Ur not Howard Zinn (YET, anyway). LOL @ �peace out and dismantle the corporations��I love it! I haven�t seen Mickey Moore�s documentary�can u believe it? I haven�t gotten around 2 draggin ne1 2 the theatre but it�s gonna be released in more locations this weekend so it�s high on my to-do list.
from aeka :
Yes, I believe I am confused. I mean, don't get me wrong, I very much admire you for not being so materialistic, but in my defense, I would like to point out that I am undergoing retail therapy. HONESTLY, you have every reason to be confused re: my standpoint with free trade. Halfway, I am playing devil's advocate, and the other half I actually believe in what I'm saying. However, if you're in any way concerned and asking yourself, "why is she being such a coldhearted bitch?" then the answer is that I'm really not. I know perfectly well how immoral it is. Yet, playing devil's advocate is much too enticing. It's the same technique I picked up from Howard Zinn when he was arguing w/ that really conservative Harvard historian. Peace out and dismantle the corporations! BTW, I HOPE that you have already seen farenheit 9/11...if not, I'll give you one clue: John Ashcroft singing!! ::sings:: let the eagle soar!!!
from godmoney :
u admit u have no morals (or at least priority over materialism), i say those who root 4 free trade application have no morals. end of argument. i don't understand u. at um u said that i piqued ur interest because i wasn't as materialistic as the rest. at one point ur profile advertised that thoreau was the one person u could relate 2. now ur like, "yey for european fashion!" and turning ur back against a struggling nation ur family was lukcy/ resourceful/ intelligent enough 2 escape 4rm. i think ur confused, child.
from aeka :
Not exactly a cold-hearted free trade sheep, just someone who enjoys purchasing European skirts and dislikes those pesky tariffs.
from aeka :
As a cuban, I will say this: it is those bastards' fault that they are suffering! One, look what they rooted for: some fucking communist regime that takes more than it produces! And after all these years...after having such a fucking high literacy rate (96%) they still don't overthrow that bastard. How many chances did they have? So, no...I don't sympathize for the Cubans despite the fact that I grew up there. Look for a better argument.
from aeka :
Yes, yes and yes! My sympathies are limited regarding other human beings, and I don't expect them to have the same sympathy towards me. Yes, I am a survivalist. Vin, money is money...I don't expect for human emotion to fuck up the economy. Yes, I'm convinced it's unethical, but who the fuck follows ethics these days?
from godmoney :
You say: �Obviously the United States will take advantage of the fact that these people live in the type of "apathetic-towards worker's rights" government in which they do--It's completely normal!� �It�s normal.� Libet, but is it ethical? Don�t you love Thoreau, and shit? He would fucking slap you in the face. Maybe you�re �obviously in this life, if you don't screw someone, you'll end up getting screwed� philosophy is rooted in Darwinism, but have you heard of kin evolution? That�s how ALTRUISM evolved�animals will sacrifice theirselves for their kin, and ultimately, their species. Sometimes the screwing for others is necessary�I�d kick someone in the face for the last NIN tix�but it shouldn�t be the way of life for anyone, let alone the world�s only SUPERPOWER. What are you, survivalist? Do you have a bombshelter-shed in the middle of nowhere stocked with guns? Thinking realistically, like you vehemently recommend, I know that American sweatshops are rampant and eternal�but I don�t support them . Realistically, racism/ sexism/ homophobia will never be conquered�does that mean you support racism/ sexism/ homophobia? You�re arguments are porous. �Yes, perhaps they do want to go to school, but it's quite unfortunate that they can't.� Are you smoking crack, Libet? Is that all the sympathy you can muster? Yes, this argument started out with free trade. In theory, free trade is happy win-win harmony. Yey free trade. But in reality free trade is sanctioned exploitation. It�s that simple. You�re arguing free trade in theory (which I�ll throw my support behind, why not), whereas I�m arguing cold hard free trade reality. My problem rests on the reality of free trade��what is happening to these people� under your beloved free trade proposal. As an abstract if-all-the-raindrops-were-lemondrops-and-gumdrops idea�again, WHOPEE! But it�s pandora�s box for the exact reason you specified��each country will do with it as it pleases.� Do you see what I�m saying? How a cross can be twisted into a swastika? You say that �free trade doesn't contain any stipulations on how workers will be treated or how the environmental standards should be handled,� I wholeheartedly concur: MY POINT EXACTLY. You continue, �It is certain that the United States Companies take full advantage of the situation, but why should they care? Those people can't sue them, they don't even live in this country. What's even sadder is that their own government doesn't care about them,� and I wonder, �Who�s side is she arguing for???� No, �free trade does not force their government to turn the other cheek to their workers' plight. Free trade does not force that government to provide a working environment free of any worker's protection laws. Free trade doesn't force countries to lower their environmental standards.� What it does do is allow �civilized corporations� to seek out countries that exploit their people and their environment, and take advantage of them (suckers) in the NAME of Free Trade. It�s like making bets on a dog fight. You say that, �The other governments, with officials who are infinitely more corrupt than the ones we have here couldn't care less about their people, and that's even sadder than the U.S. companies taking advantage of them. Why? Because when it's a different country, they owe nothing to them.� EXACTLY, Libet�my point EXACTLY! Because in the name of free trade our gov�t will take advantage of third-world gov�ts taking advantage of their citizens�we�re partaking in a chain of exploitation and lowering ourselves (THE UNITED STATES) to their level of corruption. It IS arguably sadder when the United States�the good ol� Land of the Free�sneaky-snakes its corporations into the lands of the not-so-free. Their gov�ts owe their citizens the right to liberty bla bla bla� in a perfect world. Duh I�m pissed off at their gov�ts. While your typed-and-addressed-rant suggestion is cute, touching, I�m not wasting postage (like you said about idealism) for them to chuckle at some ego-inflated little girls compunctions and how she�s �pissed off� (which I am). They�re the ones breeding the dogs for the dogfight, I guess. Boo them. But the people making bets (�because it�s expected�) are the American Corporations. Boo on them, too! That�s just as evil. Even more evil is the mayor of the town who signed a law allowing the dogfights in the name of family fun or whatnot in the name of free trade. Therefore, until free trade can be amended to protect little third-world doggies, I can�t support EXPLOITATION. The farthest I can go is, �::sigh:: Free trade sounds WONDERFUL, but I happen to know that in practical application it means outsourcing jobs to kids with no rights, so, no, I can�t support it. But in theory, it�s great�don�t get me wrong. My conscience just won�t allow to me to overlook the exploitation aspect.� You�re victimization spiel, I don�t get. For these kiddy-factory workers victimization is a way of life. How do you suggest they break away from this vicious cycle, O Wise One? We aren�t all gifted little Asian girls. When the alternate to not being victimized is not feeding your family� I don�t get it. These kids don�t have EDUCATIONS�PRINCIPLES don�t put food on the table. I don�t how you can go on how they ALLOW themselves to be victimized, when they don�t have an alternate�? Seriously. You say �the rest is up to them,� but it�s NOT. It�s up to gifted Asian girls and civilized governments and their informed and compassionate citizens. When you say that, �it's their government's duty and responsibility to make sure that these corporations don't take full advantage of them,� you�re being idealistic again. These gov�ts aren�t going to do shit. And until they do, we shouldn�t take advantage of their miserable circumstances. Yeah Cuba�s gov�t sucks�duh. Why don�t those stupid Cubans do something else besides make rafts all day? Oh yeah, because they get their fucking families killed if they step out of line. But, sorry, it�s their fault for being victimized�poor bastards, they deserve to starve (my sympathy only goes so far, you see). Hello�I�m being sarcastic. Revolt is obviously not going to come from the inside, so there should be some international relief going on. But not by your philosophy. The enemy is the corrupt 3rd-world gov�ts, the corrupt Nike bosses, and the corrupt USA gov�t if we were to open Pandora�s Box marked FREE TRADE. I am disgusted because you are being a yey-free-trade sheep not because boys will be boys.
from aeka :
Obviously the United States will take advantage of the fact that these people live in the type of "apathetic-towards worker's rights" government in which they do--It's completely normal! Obviously in this life, if you don't screw someone, you'll end up getting screwed. LOL, it's not "hip" to be nonchalant about these issues, but it's better to start thinking realistically. Yes, perhaps they do want to go to school, but it's quite unfortunate that they can't. This started out with free trade, right? And this is your problem with free trade, the fact that this sort of thing is happening to these people? NO, it's not free trade. Free trade is an idea, and each country will do with it as it pleases. Free trade doesn't contain any stipulations on how workers will be treated or how the environmental standards should be handled. It is certain that the United States Companies take full advantage of the situation, but why should they care? Those people can't sue them, they don't even live in this country. What's even sadder is that their own government doesn't care about them. Free trade does not force their government to turn the other cheek to their workers' plight. Free trade does not force that government to provide a working environment free of any worker's protection laws. Free trade doesn't force countries to lower their environmental standards. The other governments, with officials who are infinitely more corrupt than the ones we have here couldn't care less about their people, and that's even sadder than the U.S. companies taking advantage of them. Why? Because when it's a different country, they owe nothing to them...yet, their government does! It owes everything to them! This isn't free trade you should be getting pissed off at, or even the American Corporations (because it's even expected) but rather, why don't you write an angry letter to one of those countries' officials? It's nice to piss off at the American CEO of Nike, but why don't you piss off at the person who REALLY deserves it? The person who KNOWS this is going on, yet does nothing! The REAL whores that run the show, and I am referring to the governments themselves. So, this isn't free trade, and I'm not being hip with my "apathy"...I am realistic and know who to get angry at. One more thing, you can only be victimized so much. My sympathies only extend so far...because Harvard or no Harvard, it's human nature to know right from wrong, and one only allows themselves to be victimized. They have my pity, but the rest is up to them. It's their government's duty and responsibility to make sure that these corporations don't take full advantage of them. And this, no one can question me on, because I know what it's like to live in a government that would sell you in a minute. So think who the enemy actually is: free trade and Nike, or the corrupt governments that those people live under. If you are indeed disgusted, then I am truly sorry because this is the world you will have to live in for the rest of your life--this is reality.
from godmoney :
�The jobs that Nike provides to to the little girls is actually better than the job they would have if they were to work in a job provided by some company in their country, which would actually pay ten times less.� Hmmmm�. That�s like saying, �Damnit, the abuse we inflicted in Abu Gharib is 10X better than the abuse that Hussein and his henchmen carry out� which is a reasonable statement, and following it up with, �So I support American prisoner abuse! Amen!� (ur best argument, I might add) You say, �The wages they get paid by the US companies are actually in balance with their standard of living. Many times, these people want to work for the companies.� Saying that the companies calculate standard of living when considering wages is wishful thinking, or, plainly BULLSHIT. They�ll pay them as low as they can to puke out Nike shoes as cheap as they can�it�s called LAISSEZ-FAIRE CAPITALISM, hon. More times than not, these people WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL, because these eager little worker bees are CHILDREN. Firing someone from the only job they�ve known is �giving unemployed Americans an opportunity to move into the sevice sector�???!!! A lot of these people obviously DIDN�T GO TO HARVARD (like u joked) and aren�t qualified to do much else than labor. YES, the problem is lack of workers� rights in third-world countries�but the US should not capitalize on tragedy and move shop. The United States gov�t has a higher obligation towards a pesky thing known as morality and ethics. Maybe you�re taking this stance cause it�s hip to be nonchalant over overseas suffering, I dunno. It disgusts me.
from godmoney :
there's a mini-rebuttal 2 ur mini-rebuttal on my notes page but i'd wait 4 my massive argument.
from godmoney :
LOVED ur l8st entry!!! WISH i was there!!!!!!! but u kno that. (KGB flask!!! long live the ussr!) i'm sorry that u rn't as in love with love as i am. not that the delight i take in being utterly at another's mercy is love. thanx 4 the dland shout out, as always!
from godmoney :
i find ur argument outrageous and apalling and will adress it at a l8r time. meanwhile, the answer of the pointless question u posed in ur last entry is this: u + i ENJOY having our hearts in captivity. end of story. (love u)
from aeka :
Well, I don't have an ounce of patriotism either, so I'll agree with you on that. Anyway, the jobs that Nike provides to to the little girls is actually better than the job they would have if they were to work in a job provided by some company in their country, which would actually pay ten times less. Relatively, we're paying them fair wages, and usually people look at it from our standards. Yes, it is exploitation for someone here to get paid two bucks an hour for some factory job, but that's because we have a completely different standard of living--things are way too expensive. In their country, or whatever other third world country, the economy is a euphemism for a porter-potty. The wages they get paid by the US companies are actually in balance with their standard of living. Many times, these people want to work for the companies. When you look at the people being unemployed in Texas...well, DAMN them for not going to Harvard!!! LOL, I'm sorry, I had to say that...I'll be serious now. Listen, the jobs being outsourced are labor jobs, which gives the unemployed Americans an opportunity to move into the service sector. Either way, as long as Starbucks is open tomorrow, everything's A-OK... LOL, sorry, I had the urge to say that as well. But, generally, U mainly have a problem with exploitation? The problem here is not the U.S. companies or free trade, because free trade is just trading sans restrictions. The problem here is those thirdo-world workers' governments who haven't bothered to inch toward progressivism or worker's rights, or unions, etc. etc. The governments have the obligation to care for and act as an expedient for its citizens. The US corporations capitalize on the lack of labor laws (and they are at fault for that) but this is not the fault of free trade, this is a lack of activism in order to better one's working and living conditions.
from godmoney :
::exhales slowly:: ok, after taking deep breaths + counting 2 10, I�m ready to continue� My beef with free trade is not outsourcing, exactly. I don�t have an ounce of patriotism so if more jobs are being exported to the godfearing citizens of Bangladesh, power to Bangladesh. My problem is who the jobs are being outsourced to. 14 yr old little Kharap Jutas! When Nike has a sneaker plant in Texas and they get the go ahead from w/e legislation, they�ll pack up shop and leave for Bangladesh where workers don�t have pesky inclinations to join unions or notions of silly workers rights like weekends and minimum wage. Lol�or HUMAN rights for that matter (human rights�another �antiquated restriction.�). So back in the lone star state the Richmonds, the DeLuises, the Gonzalez�s are all out of work and out of luck because Dan Gonzalez never technically finished high school and Neil DeLuise never got around to getting that GED and Jake Richmond is getting old, damnit! So explain to them and their families the intellectual and practical superiority of free trade and explain to Kharap how he�s ALLOWING himself 2 b exploited. On the plus side: Nike�s now cost only $40! And where do you think they�re gonna invest your $40? Not on health insurance or watercoolers. Ps. Al updated a few days ago. If he behaves, I might let him back on my buddy list.
from aeka :
Um, give me a few more days for that. btw, I would love it if you came to Cuba w/ me one day.
from godmoney :
�all I can do is call upon the painful pictures filtering through my head�pictures taken by time.� That�s good. I might quote that on my blog sometime. Meanwhile, I have 2 start on my anti-free trade rant�.ughhhhhhhhhh.
from lovejunky :
I really like what I've read so far; I think you have a flair for writing, I really do.
from godmoney :
u say "thanx 4 the interest!" as if i wasn't obsessed w/u. pssh. i've yet 2 get 2 railing against u over the free trade bit. i want 2 visit cuba sooooooo bad. mayb we could go 2gether one day. i'd like that lots :)
from godmoney :
i loved "anti--?" Not that u asked but i have so many and so few opinions on the war. i mean, i hate the concept of it--god is always on the side of the person with the bigger guns. and i HATE how it was handled--from the START bush had an agenda and he tried different angles of propaganda, plain + simple. but we did free a people, right? but truly, there HAD to be an alternative. s-hussien seemed pretty complacent w/the wmd searches and shit, what's to say we couldn't scare some humanity in2 him? i kno they'll be some ppl out there who'll laugh in my face over an argument like that, and i almost want 2 believe that there was a mass conspiracy--a real threat--to justify the billions and the hundreds of money and lives (of families, soldiers alive and dead and prisoners wrongfully detained and prisoners tortured). and u kno i'm marxist but i don't think any major nation has yet to really adhere to marxist principles. i won't say, "but cuba has an excellent health care program." i'd love more entries on cuba--really, what was the median standard of living? was it really starvation??? i am so fascinated by ur expereinces...
from itsjustmeliz :
Norah Jones make me feel all warm and tingly and happy and sad all at the same time. I love her. Love that album too. Love you, Liz xox
from itsjustmeliz :
Oh you! *gets all jittery* Hokay, I was thinkin more about it and decided I couldn't bear leaving my diary anyway. So I'm keeping it. But won't be updating every day like I used to. Love you lots, Liz xox
from godmoney :
lol--which entry was well-written?
from godmoney :
ooh--a guy! what's his religion then? HIT THAT, libet, HIT THAT!
from brixen :
You're a great writer. Your descriptions are so vivid and you have a way with words. Keep writing!
from godmoney :
yes, i did delete the OVERRATED "quixotic philosopher" from my buddies. childish, yes? he deserves it 4 not updating or kit w/me since ur prolonged fling. and since i have a rep of being a guru of sorts, here's some advice: KEEP AWAY FROM INDIAN GIRLS. i'll tell u what i told cxa: INDIAN GIRLS BLOW! By the way: i had a dream w/you and the one you hate init! i dreamt that we were at a summer camp and we HAD to go to church (coincidentally, his) and we ended up having a food fight in the fancy breakfast area. because church's have a breakfast area?
from godmoney :
when will u b back? have u made friends? met ne1 cute? cooler than me?
from godmoney :
i finally linked u even tho ur not e/ming me
from godmoney :
::tear:: She called me the Jackson Pollock of literature... Now explain it to me. Also, I am FIFTY entries ahead of you! Someone's been falling behind!
from aeka :
Well, there are Huguenots, and there are Polocs...damn their beauty! ::shakes fists numerous times::
from godmoney :
i call deSade cuz he knew how 2 pimp dem hos. don't BEAUTIFUL boys SUCK?
from aeka :
tru dat...
from godmoney :
well u SAID "post internet."
from aeka :
lol. cute--that is true, but just because he abandons his diary, doesn't mean he abandons me ::coughs and mumbles:: email...
from godmoney :
lol! uh, but ur an ONLINE gf! lol. sry. u must explain ur note. soon cuz tomorrow is... tomorro!
from aeka :
true...::sighs:: he's going through his "post-internet" mood right now...
from godmoney :
wine... bruises... yum ;p finally: that link 2 al is useless cuz u kno he don't update.
from godmoney :
hey! i can be sweet too! (sometimes)
from itsjustmeliz :
Everything will be alright Miss Aeka. I promise with all my might. Love, Liz xoxo
from godmoney :
...then i'll just bitchslap u 4 u! now. tell me what's wrong.
from itsjustmeliz :
Bloodyell girly! You are not unintelligent! But I know when you are going through these times no one can make you feel better about these things... but I'm going to say it again- you are not unintelligent. I love you, Liz xoxo
from godmoney :
libet... what's the big deal ~ being not all that smart? did u ever really think u were Thoreau's successor??? what's up w/the l8st intrigue, neway? love
from godmoney :
i'm in the midst of replying 2 ur e/m as we speak...
from godmoney :
the way she commited suicide makes me want to LAUGH...:) I hope u don't think i'm a jerk fo what i just said... give me virtual kisses if u still love me! XOXO AND--i MOS DEF have not receieved mail of ANY SORT from thou, Libet. i'm telling u--fucking get a YAHOO account. the name itself is cooler.
from godmoney :
libet... don't take this in the wrong way, but: plz don't become obsessed w/her. let it b my thing, if u don't terribly mind. she's mine (:)).
from godmoney :
libet. aeka. can u PUH-LEEZE give me insignificant advice? plz believe that this is what i want/need right now despite w/e u may sense i want/need. plz. i don't need ur wisdom until AFTER he graduates. i just need picayune analysis. (please). i'm asking u 2 go against ur better judgement + wallow w/me. if u don't, a small part of me might hold it against u...
from godmoney :
(i meant a response-entry, to clarify)
from godmoney :
i'm touched... why did u write a whole entry on me??? And: I wrote a response. Visit if u dare. Yours, Vin.
from godmoney :
uh...yeah she's prolific. she is my ho.
from aeka :
I think I took a look at her "glamorous pic"...and lol I was JUST about to pick that book but the title made me think and I passed. I'm reading the Garden of Earthly Delights and am definitely enjoying the early description of the wife. I was going to take "Them", but passed once more. She's quite prolific...I saw all of those books and was almost overwhelmed. btw, I was going to give her the password "boyzinmakeup"lol
from godmoney :
lol. just 'plied 2 ur e/m. gakt--i should've thought've that. NEWAY--jco right now is frail/gothic/almost-beautiful. she USED 2 b glamourous as fuck + i mean that even if i wasn't a stalker-psychofan as u kno me 2 b. NEWAY, u r fucking dumb as shit--u didn't tell me what book. i HOPE it's not "big mouth + ugly girl" 'cuz i fucking hate that novel. outties!
from aeka :
Elizabeth�s password is Gackt, lol...I couldn�t think of something very creative, but just wait...I will soon enough.
from godmoney :
hello--i haven't gotten NE email 4rm u! none that i haven't replied 2, @ least. AND--LOVE the password :) heh heh. u must tell me elizabeth's so i can chuckle 2 m'self some more.
from itsjustmeliz :
thanks for not forgetting me... are you sad right now? *hugs you tight* Liz xoxo
from aeka :
Many things make me sad, Godmoney-Vin...many many things. Perhaps you should read my e-mail that I sent you, and you can get more insight. Um, after you read it, I'll explain things to you in more detail.
from godmoney :
what makes u sad, aeka-libet? by the way--i feel like i'm TALKING 2 myself on this board!!!
from godmoney :
eeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!! i'm so HAPPY! which book??? may i suggest "I'll Take You There"? I suggest it! ur the best (just like JCO)!
from godmoney :
Hey again Libet! I just want 2 say that I finished ur �crux of my soul�s dilemma� entry (+ all the rest i missed) and I absolutely relate, actually. I�m very sure I do. About the baby thing: some ppl r born 2 be intellectuals, some ppl r born 2 b mothers (or both). There is no universal definiton of �success.� Plz don�t shove statistics in her face. U can b a bitch sometimes + that�s y I love u, but I felt I had 2 say that� Also: I LOVE ur whole �ephermeral bouts of happiness define me� line! I wish I had thought of it!
from godmoney :
HEY!!! i'm returning from an exile of the internet + will now proceed 2 reply 2 the e/ms u sent (i haven't been able 2 reply) + ur note, which i haven't read yet. u can be assured that i will read ALL of ur entries @ least once. i just want 2 say BIG TIME CONGRATULATIONS on ur award-thingie. it sounds much prestigious + impressive. prestigious + impressive indeed.
from itsjustmeliz :
Do your day-of-the-week panties have MONDAY, TUESDAY, WEDNESDAY etc printed on them? If so, how very geek-in-the-uber-cool-sense-like of you. I wish my monthly friend had specific times to visit me, however, she tends to be rather spontaneous with these visits. Kisses and all that jazz, Liz xoxo
from itsjustmeliz :
Wow, I wouldn't have thought a guy would act that way... Maybe he secretly fancies you and is feeling very insecure. What do you mean when you say it annoys you the way he stereotypes? Ah well, he's being a right arse right now and if I were you I'd just leave him alone for a while. Kisses and all that jazz, Liz xoxo P.S Is he gay?
from godmoney :
It�s a �he�? What a sissy. Tell him 2 suck it up. There�s this theory called the epistemological principle or something that proposes that the closer an individual is to �god��s resemblance, the more blinded they are by prejudice. Like, it�s harder 4 a white/rich/able/male 2 accept racial/gender equality than a black/poor/disabled/female. I suppose if SHORT DARK-SKINNED SEXY ASIAN GIRLS were afforded all the oppurtunities in the world, we�d have a harder time accepting equality 2. Just between us: sexy asian girls KICK.
from itsjustmeliz :
Ok, I put off my music and re-read your entry. Well, good luck and best of wishes with your APAH exam. Please don't cry, dearest Aeka, we all think you're lovely. Love and all that jazz, Liz xoxo
from itsjustmeliz :
Confession:I had to look up the word supercilious. To the point- I felt compelled to write you a lil note of encouragement because I myself suffer from a similar situation where my friend gets pissed at me for things that aren't my fault because they don't understand MY situation and refuse to listen. Well, dearest aeka, the only thing you can do is try again to sit down with her and firmly tell her that you love her but you REALLY need to study for this- I forget what it is coz I'm listening to music so loud I can't concentrate properly. Ahhh... tell me if this helped in any way. After my religious epiphany thing all I want to do nowadays is try to help people. *hugs* It will work out I promise. Love and all that jazz, Liz xoxo
from godmoney :
P.S. she is a selfish jerk + u never gave me ur lj, buddy.
from godmoney :
*u said "vin" in ur entry~* ok: i shalst shower my precious advice on the grounds that u visit my notes page + ramble ~ BB. deal? deal. ok: ppl suck. ppl r stupid + ignorant. i have friends like A + E who get stressed and over-study, 2. and because i love them, i hold my tongue. i don't say, "jeez, ur going overboard," because that would only make them feel like crap. i shouldn't even say, "jeez, how 'bout hanging out w/me instead of that fucking TEXTBOOK?" because that, too, would make them feel guily + LIKE CRAP. the role of any real friend is support. it's what socrates or plato or aristotle called the "perfected friendship" where each party exists solely 4 the other's sake. i'm sorry ur friend is like this--accept that she is frustrated at u + is lashing out. accept that she has a shortcomings + it is by no means a negative reflection on u. u r awesome. ~Vin~
from godmoney :
ROFL!!! i LOVE ur new godmoney-comment! keep it! also: tell me how u got the text that isn't in bold on ur profile.
from godmoney :
"no one wants 2 hear the over-exhaustive ramblinds of a histrionic writer." NO. i LOVE that sentence, btw, but i have direct proof on the contrary: i read UR blog + as far as i kno u read mine. :)
from itsjustmeliz :
Thankin you for adding me dahhlin! And for the lovely comment! Btw, ain't it shite that there's no Gackt d-ring? Someone should make one... Love and all that jazz, Lix xoxo
from godmoney :
hey FUCK-UP--u r NOT the most fucked up creature on the planet. by the way, check out my profile + my notes page while ur @ it. (hint: i changed ur comment + wrote u a note) peace!
from itsjustmeliz :
My dear Aeka, the make-up looks damn hot on him, it ain't even funny!!! Wooo! You lovely person, you! Yes, we are both kick-ass dudettes with excellent taste in men. I have a fetish for nancy-boys including the lovely Mr Gackt and Mr Molko. I am giving you the honour of having your space in my faves list by the way. BIG HONOUR! Kisses and all that jazz, Liz xoxo
from itsjustmeliz :
WAY! Someone loves me! *hugs you lotso* I noticed you like Gackt- me too! Though I haven't actually heard any of his music I just like him cuz he's hot. *hangs head in shame* I'll read your diary. Kisses and all that jazz, Liz xoxo
from godmoney :
can't decide if i like ur current more'n ur last.
from godmoney :
ya, i kno what u mean. i want NOTHING MORE than 2 b in print, have a fiction novel(la) of mine published and begrudgingly accepted by most critics and perhaps cherished by little wannabes like me.
from godmoney :
HA HA HA HA HA HA. i think it's funny how u think that ODing/slitting wrist/ hanging urself/ jumping off a dramatic cliff/ suicide method of choice takes guts. LIVING takes guts. if u want 2 talk 2 me (and not be all abstract about ur puported misery), "should your drama prove sincere" (A Perfect Circle), i'm here.
from godmoney :
::spazzes:: inhale, exhale, inhale.....exhale. see? i'm getting the hang of it. glad i didn't lose my stalker. although reading my convolutedness might impair ur literacy-quest. no matter! neway: there already is an aeka on lj and it is not u. what's more, the person u have listed as ur friend is not me! ur name is not showing up on my friends list! e/m me! (remember: it's godmoney_GIRL) love u.
from aeka :
I'm sorry, I knew that this would cause some disturbance...but, think of it this way, it will be like a husband going to rehab! Afterwards, the entire family is happy. Don't worry, May 7 will be here soon enough : ). I must do this...I need to venture out on a spiritual journey toward literary enlightenment ::chants:: I will still come to the site and read your diary though--you can count on it.
from godmoney :
month off dland!!! ::vin promptly loses reason 2 live::
from godmoney :
i wanna start studying for SAT-2s!
from aeka :
Well, thank-you... ::smiles with appreciation:: so how's your spring break? Mine has ended--today was the last day. It was good while it lasted, and now we must gear up for a few more grueling weeks with no days off... ::voice cracks in sobs::
from godmoney :
love the layout the best. very artsy + orange is a fave colour.
from aeka :
lol, ah...I see, a flashback to the hell-driven week at UM. ::yawns:: so tired...
from godmoney :
lol! just wondering! no ulterior motives here!
from aeka :
Yes, actually I have...why? ::stares at you with inquisitive eyes::
from godmoney :
lol. that's hot. talked w/MONICA of late?
from aeka :
No sweat gal! This wasn't exactly written because someone in particular called me pretentious, but rather, because in the past people have thought of me as such because of the way I act. It's like UM...when I was bull-shitting around with everyone and Sequondria called me a prude. Usually people think that I act that way because I think that I can lecture everyone and such, but that's not the case. So, I thought that it was time (so there are no confusions amongst my few, but adored readers) to tell them who I am and what it is that I stand for, or something like it. Either way, lol, I'm so happy that you have back up...for some reason I have this image of you plastered in my head as a chick in a tight green outfit that has KGB on it, and two hot ruskies on each side. Of course, I know that you can also go global... ::winks:: lol
from cdghost :
came across your words and enjoyed reading them.. thank you..thecdghost
from godmoney :
WHO INSINUATED THAT U WERE PRETENTIOUS??? Whose ass do I need to kick? Is back-up required? I'll have the KGB AND G-Unit on their ass--pronto. (lots of love, Vin)
from aeka :
I know, I know....
from godmoney :
get a new e/m addy! ur old one sends in stuff 1, 2 days l8! seriously! i just got ur e/m TODAY.
from aeka :
well, that's good : )
from godmoney :
oh. see, i really wouldn't kno the feeling. things pretty much come 2 me effortlessly.
from aeka :
I mean that we can't all be perfect, or else we wouldn't get the satisfaction that we do from being able to work at something and get it. The statement was not meant to be offensive.
from godmoney :
what do u mean "wouldn't it b utterly boring if we were all prodigies"???
from godmoney :
sometimes we must resort 2 violent measures 2 get a fellow writer off her ass. what can i say?
from aeka :
Yeah...Marquis came to my house last night, and mumbled something about a whip and a spanking if I didn't get my ass up??? Gee, you don't happen to know ANYTHING about this...do you? I am determined to write the best chapter in months.
from godmoney :
::incriminating:: FORCE urself 2 write! stop indulging urself w/this slump! i made a promise 2 start mon... u should 2.
from aeka :
yup
from godmoney :
libet... did u anony post on mi LJ?
from aeka :
Happy Birthday to me!
from aeka :
Yeah...that's where I got it from! And then yesterday, at work, this other girl was like, "yeah...my life is that soundtrack" so I'm like, "damn it...I don't have a soundtrack" lol. I dunno...I'm thinking of just writing like mad (something which I have no problem with) and then going back to edit--it will take long, but I can do it. However, the biggest obstacle right now is that I'm not in the mood. I hate these dry-spells.
from godmoney :
it was I who used the soundtrack phrase--twice--in reference 2 the mighty billy corgan. i have a similar gripe on my own new-novel-but-not. i have 2 great characters in mind and and awesome setting and proposed writing style, but no plot, u see. i am so impatient and depressed that i need 2 b writing so i thought, "what the hay" and didn't let a little obstacle like "no plot" stop me from scribbling and typing like mad. so Chapter 1 is mostly my main character rambling. talking like me, basically.
from theelsons :
Dear aeka - You left me a note regarding the author Chaim Potok. "My Name Is Asher Lev" by Chaim Potok ( http://www.lasierra.edu/~ballen/potok/ )is a book that had a great impact on me when I read it soon after my conversion to Judaism. Potok's theme of conflict between cultures, though coming from a different angle, resonated with my own struggle to belonging. It hit me between the eyes. I read the book more than 20 years ago and no longer remember it in great detail. Thank you for jogging my memory. We're leaving for Spain in a few days and I think I'll take "Asher Lev" and "The Chosen" to reread on the plane (this will also explain why theelsons diary will not be active for the next few weeks.) All the best. I'm sorry I got between you and your friend the other day. It's no excuse that I didn't realize it was you I was pontificating about. I should know better. Love, --Val
from godmoney :
visit notes page...:)
from godmoney :
"and for the first time i'm telling u how much i need + bleed 4 ur every moment waking sun in my time."
from godmoney :
yo new layout is the shizzle. werd.
from theelsons :
A note of appreciation. --Val
from aeka :
I wouldn't take yo' man...you know this...I can't have you go ghetto on my arse.
from godmoney :
did u say FITTY CENT? now u kno i is his baby momma.
from aeka :
Well, a better guy did come along...I really don't want to drop any names, but he has a certain diary in here somewhere, and his name starts with the letter "A". I'll give you fifty cents if you guess his name...
from godmoney :
"happy b-day, u bastard." lol. i kno i shouldn't be laughing. u just have 2 keep faith that a way bette guy will come along + blow his memory-ghost out of the water. i mean, i thought Mike was the be-all, end-all. Then it was You Kno Who. And i'm sure they'll b another! ::crosses fingers::
from aeka :
Sweet! And all the strip clubs are close to where you live. I was talking to her yesterday, and she's like, "yeah, they're all in Ft. Lauderdale, and you have to be eighteen.." so I'm like yes...no prob--male strippers, here we come.. anyway, that was my #101 entry? whoa....didn't notice...I like the sound of that--101 entries...I think I'll leave it as such for a few days. Hey Vin, I'm worried ::virtual hug:: my precalc grade...WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO? NOW WE'LL NEVER GET INTO HARVARD!!!!!!!!!!
from godmoney :
tell sophia 2 hook me up w/the fake id. i'll stard hoarding one-dolla billz. *ha ha--> ur "apathy" entry is just like the way i feel! congrats on entry #101.
from aeka :
VIN! This is what we'll do for Spring break: you get a fake ID, and I'll be 18 anyway, so we'll go to a strip club w/ sophia and partake in the rampant male degradation.
from aeka :
I know what ur thinking.... ::grins also::
from godmoney :
some1 say 'baccardi'? ::grins::
from godmoney :
LOL! yes, u LOSER, i was being FACETIOUS. i was trying to convey my sarcasm in the "GEE WHIZ," which is normally NOT integrated in my vocab, thank u!
from aeka :
dude, that was me... LOL. Wait, you knew and are just being facitious with me right?
from godmoney :
Gee-whiz, Libet, u won�t believe what happened! Some1 made an anonymous post on my lj! The spooky part was, they knew about this blog, 2!�my names + everything! If u can think of ne leads, drop me a line! (ps: what did u think?)
from godmoney :
p.s. if u want 2 link my blog (yey), u'll need 2 e/m me the template so i can screw around w/it. mucho love! ~Vin~
from godmoney :
Libet! I liked ur �torment� entry + underneath all the flowery description I saw somber, pointed observations. like, i liked the "deny the wine that is not offered" bit. isn't it interesting how i cherish my follies + u spurn ur follies? we're like yin and yang--idealistic in our own ways... :)
from godmoney :
:( ... i kno what u mean...
from godmoney :
wait! nvm! i just made my account PUBLIC. my username is my e/m s/n. Toodles.
from godmoney :
wait! nvm! i just made my account private. my username is the same as my e/m's sn
from aeka :
hey! sophia has one...hmm...I'll look into it.
from godmoney :
JUDAS IS GOD (lol). LIBET: IMPORTANT: u NEED 2 join livejournal! i've opened an ultra-private account that only my "friends" can read so u need 2 sign up 4 an account so i can add u as a friend. u don't need 2 actually maintain a blog, just sign up. ok? tell me when u do... I WANT U 2 CRITIQUE MY LJ BLOG.
from godmoney :
"trent"! aah--thou shalt not speak his name in vain!
from aeka :
no way! remember when I accidentally quoted Trent in my book? LOL...awesome...phrase of the week--"shooting the crap" and I know that you are aware of the origins of that phrase...
from godmoney :
ah! u almost quoted sp! "ur the one that i adore/ and u will always be my whore/ we must never be apart/ lovely girl." peace out.
from aeka :
what can I say? I will always be your reader/whore...LOL
from godmoney :
what, u missed my ramblings? share w/al? ~Vin, hot on ur trail~
from aeka :
I only have these concerns because of my past experiences...but I have to remind myself that you are a completely different person from the others...in fact, they have all been different from one another. People are just people, and we just happen to be two people that want to be with each other. I'm sorry if I have to force you to reassure me of your feelings...hey, we are willing to put up with so much (distance, mainly) then that must mean something. If you forget my birthday, I know you didn't do it on purpose...and our six month anniversary? Hell, I'm not even counting...January, February, March, April, May, June, July, August, September, October, November, December...and start all over again. You bring feeling and personality into my life, and I bring order into yours, and I guess that's the way it fits. I will be there After May, which is a year and two months from now approximately. Also, I am thinking about a December trip, which is ten months away. Ah! I was so happy when you told me about the time-share that your dad's girlfriend has...it's so convenient, but so horrible that it's already rented out. Your dad has some really crazy, but interesting ideas (I love the one about the wolves)...it would be great to meet him when I go up there. The individual can't survive without society? Are you putting yourself in the individual's shoes at the moment?
from aeka :
Why sweetie? Are you suffering from it? LOL, just kidding...yeah, I'll write for your newspaper, but you might get frustrated with me at times, because I like to go and on about some topics. Anyway, you have a good point. I think that the groups that the individuals choose to be in, or feel most comfortable in reflect that individual's personality. Everyone is in the group that they feel most comfortable in. People will choose to become part of a group or society because to a certain extent, that group or society is a reflection of themselves. So now that I have said that, I suppose that it is safe to say that a society is a microcosm of people with general similarities, therefore, neither the individual nor the society is more important than the other. Like you said, the individual is there to enhance the group. The group could not exist without the individual, but could the individual exist without the group? Here's a random thought that vaguely pertains to this topic: the Republican party and the Democratic party--individuals coming together to try and reach similar objectives. Observing the history of both the Republicans and the Democrats in the past elections, which group is more solid? In my opinion, the Democrats are much more scattered than are the Republicans, and the only time that I can recall of any breaks was during the "Reconstruction of the South" after the Civil War when we had radical republicans and conservative republicans. I think there's more, but I have now forgotten. Was it really snowing? It must have been very lovely...it must be nice to live in Canada--oh no...your subconscious manipulations are working! lol.. ttyl my hockey-obsessed Polar Bear.
from aeka :
Well, I had a bit of a difficult time with that...we were actually speaking about that in business class. Listen, have you read "Ishmael"? How about "Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance"? Well, I began to think about these two books, and the message that they convey--one is preoccupied with society in general and the other with quality. I believe that the individual is very important--after all, that is what we spend our lives (some of us) trying to do--not to compromise our individualism...don't sell oneself. I think that the individual contributes to society in a very large way, but the degree with which they do so vary from person to person. Society is often very generic, or better yet, it inhibits us (to some extent). Nonetheless, the individual needs the society (you made that point didn't you?). I know that I'm probably using the wrong term for this, but the relationship that the individual shares with society strongly resembles and endosymbiotic one...usually this term is applied to organisms that live off of each other--i.e. mitochondria in cells. Anyway, sorry for the brief tangent...I think that society would not survive without a certain level of individualism, and the individual could not make it without society. I had this exact same conversation with my father yesterday (he likes these types of conversations)...essentially, he said the same thing that you are saying right now, but I believe that this topic can lead to many different things. Religion, for example, has been the topic of debate for as long as we humans can remember. I'm trying to think: how does the society/individual relationship play into religion? It's like Soren Kierkegaard...I wouldn't say that he was conventional, but he also was not a radical...wait, I must have gotten off topic again. Sorry, but please, can the northern polar bear tell me what he thinks?
from aeka :
Al, what do you think is more important--the individual, or the society? Someone asked me that today, and I couldn't really answer.
from aeka :
that's scary...
from aeka :
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
from godmoney :
(!!!!!!) rofl. actually, i do kno of some1 who really did have a cucumber incident.
from aeka :
That's what Marquis says about the times that you two have together--shit! I've spoken again...damn. Hey Vin, he told me about the cucumber incident ::shocked face:: vin...and I thought that Voltaire and I were freaks...
from godmoney :
lol! this is 2 much fun. :)
from aeka :
::gasps:: Al...there are children around...you naughty boy, you.
from aeka :
Damn! I spoke too soon...he was getting you a new whip... ::whip noise in back::
from godmoney :
like which?
from godmoney :
WAIT A SECOND: what is the Marquis doing in Sarasota???? he told me he was visiting a sick aunt!
from godmoney :
aaah--s+ m innuendo. libet + i have SO many inside jokes! i can't believe u put the play-e/m on here libet--aah! >p
from aeka :
thanks! Wow, your parents must have really considered your name...but it's a good thing that you're not like that. BTW, Marquis saw the pseudo-email that you and Joey wrote to each other...he's taking out the stick...."Dear Vin, God is Dead...I want to hit that. I go to Berkeley. I play in a band"
from godmoney :
urs is one of the prettiest names ever. of course, al has a paul simon song named after him so his is pretty kewl, 2. mine's a big joke w/in the family because it means "modest, obedient, humble" + i'm the opposite of all those things w/in the indian community.
from aeka :
Guess what! I found out the origins of my name, and it's Latin. It means "someone who is pleasing or agreeable"
from aeka :
Yes Al, but my definition of "a while" means at most five days...I'll probably be writing again by Monday...
from espagnola71 :
Hola akeka. Gracias por tu nota. No te creas, ahora ya hay m�s gente que escribe en espa�ol por aqu�, solo hay que buscar un poquito. Saludos ;-)
from godmoney :
(he is so having an emotional affair w.u) Congradulations! That is one AMAZING honour! Feel proud and revel in ur talent before going to the obligatory pattern of self-doubt that characterizes TRUE intellectuals.
from aeka :
He has a girlfriend you know...I don't know, sometimes it feels like I'm the damned mistress or something. I don't blame him, after all, I put him through a lot with the whole Roger thing. I understand if he doesn't trust me...I wonder if he still likes me, but if he does, is it even worth it? Right now...I really don't feel like writing. In fact, I won't write for a while anyway...I wrote my last few entries today. I'll write again shortly, but you, the reader, will have to wait. You can thank the Gothic Prince for that...
from aeka :
Vin....read my blog. Nothing new of course, but read it anyway. If only you were here, you'd know what to do...
from godmoney :
lol. we're such dorks. aah--calculus beckons.
from aeka :
Marquis? Oh! not him! oh no!!! Vin! Remember, you and I must take the trip to Vatica city, where we will go and confess ourselves to these YOUNG, SUPPLE monks...but of course, you and I must WORK for forgiveness... Al--I think the Dutch strategy only works for the black pieces, I just recently learned it. One of my friends taught it to me. Hey! I got challenged to another chess duel. Only this one isn't going to be online, but I have to go to the library for it.
from godmoney :
Libet: ::ears perk up:: did some1 say spanking? ::Marquis in the background w/cat-o-nine tails::
from aeka :
::rolls on floor and laughs ass off:: LOL! My computer won't let me in either! So I'm thinking--"crap...I must tell Al what happened, he might think I backed out of our chess duel" ::sighs:: I was going to try my new Dutch strategy too...up for another round another time?
from aeka :
Well, it wasn't the teacher that gave me a detention...it was that substitute--that feeble minded, lethargic woman! All I did was sit down and start my precalc homework, and strike up a convo about eugenics with a classmate. Then, without giving me a warning (I'll look that one up in the law book) she gives me a detention. In fact, she gave the entire class a detention...others had referrals...but anyway, serving a detention with my business law teacher is a piece of cake! She is the funniest lady I've ever met. It could have been worse you know, I could have gotten suspended for having alka seltzer tablets ::coughs:: Aaron... Vin, I don't really talk to Aaron anymore because we abused each other emotionally, and he's still with the goddamn freshie.
from godmoney :
when ur going thru a difficult time in ur life (even if outsiders attempt 2 negate such a reality) u don't need h8rs like aaron giving u strife.
from godmoney :
did u delete the note i wrote? it was a more cocky, stinging version of "ur a 17 yr old girl, boo hoo, self-pity doesn't become even the best of us, get inspired, then get over it." ur l8est descrption of Jared fits Matt to a TEE!
from aeka :
I got my first detention today!
from aeka :
::sighs:: ain't it the truth? Shit...I'm getting depressed again.
from godmoney :
well, libet, there is such a thing as moral development. we don't reach our peak 'til 25.
from aeka :
I think humans are beasts, and I'm just one of those creatures who is sorely disappointed in this entire race--myself included. When I was smaller (true story) I used to torture animals, and had ideas about torturing babies that looked funny (even if they had a round face I would want to torture them) I just think, we ALL get bloodthirsty sometime, I know I do...
from godmoney :
i swear, libet, sometimes u r SO weird... visit my diary, will u, + leave me a note ~ what u think. <3 u!
from aeka :
Dean Martin tune in background: "How lucky can one gal be? I kissed him and he kissed me...like a fella once said, 'ain't that a kick in the he-ead....duh-doo, duh doo, doooo duh duh....sailor said quote, 'ain't that a hole in the bo-oat....if this is just the be--gi-ning, my life is gonna be ::thump, thump:: beeee-a-uu-ti-FUL!"
from aeka :
Well, my friend is going to pose as my boyfriend for all of next week. I think I have this covered...hopefully
from godmoney :
:( i kno what it's like 2 b a fetish + not enjoy it. :( my sympathies r w/u...
from godmoney :
yes! the UN is a PERFECT example of middle ground! what did they do when Bush slapped them across the face w/Operation Iraqi Freedom? Nothing! they "took it up the ass" as u so elequently put it.
from aeka :
I don't want to play devil's advocate, but that was not middle ground, that was bending over and taking it all up the ass. One thing is to let Hitler rule Germany. Another thing is having him take Sudetenland, Rhineland, and Poland. Once he did that, he was infringing on someone else's rights--the people from the Rhineland, the Sudetenland, the Polish people. Middle ground in politics is knowing when to stop, and trying to make a decision that is good for you, and not harmful or restrictive of those around you--basically, it's impossible, but a good example are the peace talks that occur. United Nations is a pretty good example--more like, mediation, without having your toe stepped on. What Chamberlain did was not mediation, it was "let's give him this so he can keep his mouth shut", but that certainly was not mediation. If they had gone to war the minute Hitler said he wanted to expand, that could even be excused, because they would be trying to maintain a balance of powers in Europe.
from godmoney :
u do give off a very cold vibe which some guys consider creepy. but if that's who u r, then don't change. if it's an image ur projecting, then find urself.
from godmoney :
i don't believe in "stipulated" rights. i like how thoreau put it about human rights and how a thinking man cannot be governed only shackled and even then his senses (thought, smell) are beyond gov't control. I think middle ground is dangerous. Middle ground is Neville Chambelin�s Germany appeasement policies.
from aeka :
Yeah, that's the point that I wanted to get across--knowing when and where to stop, and to be conscious of the fact that there are other people. A business owner certainly has the right to make a profit and contribute to his own upward mobility. However, if and when he exercises such right, someone elses rights are endangered, then I believe we should limit the owner's rights to the point where he is no longer endangering someone else. Either way, he would still make a profit, thus, his rights have not been infringed. Anyway, "rights" don't grant absolute autonomy, rather, I see them as stipulated liberties.
from aeka :
Good point, and I do care about the environment. I don't want to have children because this world is so disappointing. If I have children, they will just end up having to try and live their lives always trying to figure something out, always asking questions--"Why did that woman bring me here?" "What is my fucking purpose, this sucks" I don't why people bring more children into this world, and to proliferate the human race would mean disaster. We ARE to egotistical. I hate hearing people call animals stupid, when they don't know that we are animals, in fact, we are very close relatives to the gorilla. They ignore the phylogenetic tree, and miss the fact that the earth does not belong to us and that we are just borrowing stuff. Middle ground in court? No....but neither is it black and white. Middle ground in the way you view things? Don't overdo it, don't get too fanatical, my rights stop where yours begin, yeah...that's good.
from aeka :
Ok, maybe I will just play devil's advocate today and say that I will always believe in a middle ground. It doesn't work for politics, but for stuff like theology and other complexities born out of the human mind, it does... I don't think that we should always cling to one idea, but rather be open to others and take things as they come. I see why that wouldn't work with politics--too much of a weak approach. But with society, I think we'd all be happier if we did that--like, "don't worry, be happy".
from godmoney :
aw, i don't believe i'm better than ne1. i think there are different tupes of integrity + dignity, and i'd like 2 think i've achieved a level of integrity, tho... i think some1 only has the right to be "better" than some1 if they've makd the world a better place in their lifetime. if u don't leave ur mark on the world, it doesn't matter what the psychologist who adminsitered an IQ test on u said.
from aeka :
They feel that we are damned and many of them pity us in the "isn't it such a shame? A smart girl like her, if only she could see the light" trust me, I used to be Roman-Catholic...lol, this is how they act sometimes. When I was smaller, I would always look at Jewish people and say, "it's such a shame they're going to go to hell, many are really nice ppl" Of course, then I became agnostic, and now it doesn't matter. But x-ians are just blinded by a belief, just like the Marxists in Cuba are blinded. In life, we should pursue a middle-path, because we can only speculate at what is truly right and what is truly wrong.
from godmoney :
they're happy, but only cuz in their minds they're better than every1 else. i couldn't feel entirely comfortable around ne1 who believed that i was damned, no matter how much they "love thy neighbor." the only ppl on earth who should be allowed 2 feel so godfucking superior are Marxists. :)
from godmoney :
UM = university of miami, where journalism camp was held, where Libet + i shared a suite (and many fun times). winos = homeless alcholics. xianity is dangerous because it is based on the principle that god is essentially human + petty enough 2 put a "believers only" sign on heaven. i have 2 give them props 4 ending slavery, tho.
from aeka :
Spending on deficit is only wise if the country is facing deep financial troubles--DEEP financial troubles. To get things going again, it's nice to spend on deficit, and thus Keynesian economics encourages such a thing. You are right, Bush does not know what he is doing. When you mention UM, I automatically think of the people. I didn't really notice anything outside of the campus, I suppose that I am not that aware of things around me most of the time. I should be more aware...
from godmoney :
xianity = good dictator? xianity says that we should find the homosexuals among us and kill them. also, libet--wtf r u talking ~ the ppl @ UM? i mentioned that they were WINOS living outside campus, symbolizing the disparity between the priviliged and the NOT. those desperately conservative, and those unhappy + spoiling for revolution. and from an economics standpoint, a deficit is a good thing (Keynes, i think) because it promotes healthy foreign relations and internal capital, i think. i don't kno how 2 argue it, but i don't think Bush knows what he's doing either. so deficicit is good if carefully regulated. I CAN'T BELIEVE GEORGE W. BUSH IS THE PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES!
from aeka :
I do ride the bus, I do have conversations with many people simply because I don't believe myself to be above anyone, therefore, I will have a conversation with the drunk sitting right next to me as I would with a friend's grandma. My parents are republicans guys, and they think Bush can do no wrong, but I told my mom yesterday that this election (my first one) I'm NOT voting for Bush. The guy is fucking running up our money supply, spending on deficit (which is sometimes ok, only if you have a crisis--Iraq is not a fucking crisis), and who the hell is paying for Mars? WE ARE PAYING so that republicans can say, "Yeah, we are ahead of everything". The rich will always be there, and there's nothing that we can do but vote for a president who has our best interests at heart. Vin, the ppl at UM don't know anything, they don't know life if it bit them on the ass! Those will be the next republicans with an average 2.5 kids and two Mercedes sitting out in their garage. Personally, I don't care if I ever wear Liz Claiborne or whatever, because I'm over that shit. I don't shop at big chain stores (only when I absolutely NEED to, in fact, I don't go shopping very often anyway, more like, once a year) I don't go to restaurants (I go to graineries), and I don't shop at Barnes&Noble, rather, a quaint little cafe/bookstore downtown (I love that place so much). I'm not a Marxist, and I probably never will be, but I'm not totally capitalist either. But I think that we should think like Teddy Roosevelt--big corporations are necessary, but we should always keep them in check.
from godmoney :
oh, america's broke alright. america is (and this is my fave self-quote) THE DORIAN GRAY OF THE WORLD. just cuz we put up a nice face 4 the rest of the world, doesn't mean that we're not poisoned 2 our rotten core. something like 95-96% of the nation's wealth is concentrated in that hands of, like, 4-6%. we have the worst child care progarms of any civilized country (save Ireland). we have ghettos every 2 feet--you + i just happen 2 live in suburbs. remember the winos we saw in Miami, Libet? i couldn't 4get that shit if i tried. it's one thing 2 see that in India--but we should be above this. i've had 2 ride the bus 2 fucking community school and i've had marxist convos w/one of the bus drivers--there are plenty ppl here fixing 4 revolution. u don't kno the ppl of america until u ride the FREE BUS TRANSIT. everytime i got off the fucking bus i wanted 2 puke or cry + i hated myself 4 not doing both.
from aeka :
People are not so easily changed. The Germans were willing to sell themselves like whores because they were desperate, and of course, that will happen when a country has been economically devastated to the extent that Germany wass--weak and poor, not a good combination. The same thing happened with the French. They hated the crown, so they went to the man that offered them a new vision, a republic, but at the end made himself emperor. America does not have the need to change itself so radically. "if it ain't broke, then don't fix it"
from godmoney :
i disagree firstly with the whole "you are your own dictator" bullshit. i am a fiathful existentialist so, yes, i do believe in taking responsibility 4 ur actions, but i believe that en masse, ppl DON'T WANT TO BE THEIR OWN DICTATOR. they want to open to Verse X in The Bible + have their morals in front of them. Hitler got all of Germany 2 swallow its conscience. they surrendered their innate sense of righeousness to him--the very thing that defines us as a race. i think that a good dictator could create a new culture. initially, it will be a shock, like the French Revolution (u 4got Napoleon!) a bunch of ppl w/be scared + riotous--but once a new world order is laid down, America can step into a new age--and out of its Old Puritan ways.
from aeka :
Perhaps that came out wrong--the whole intellectual superiority thing. The intellect that I am referring to is not just confined to how many physics experiments you can conduct, or whehter or not you can graph imaginary numbers on a cartesian plane (I ask if that is even possible). Intellect comes in many ways, and for some reason (often by their own merits, except for George Bush, I don't really think he counts)these men--Hitler, Kim, Castro, Mussolini, Mao, etc. etc. have been able to manipulate the masses. They have been able to become entities in the eyes of their followers. Whether it is natural genius, charisma, or a certain deep-hidden desire, these men posses something that has elevated them above the common man. In a society, there will be individuals who question, and their will be individuals who don't. Those who don't will ultimately have someone make the decisions for them, and those who have a normal tendency to question (the radicals, the mishaps, whatever you will) are the ones who will find the right group and speak for them. Think if we were all questioning individuals--would we have election campaigns? Would we have passionate beings waving a little red book, or would we have millions of people weaping their eyes out at the news of their dead leader? Have they lost a limb? Apparantly, they have...dictators function as a voice that a large body of people do not have. They are idealists in their own right, but that of course, does not go to justify their many actions. However, we simply cannot change anything because it is the natural order of things. We cannot change people, because we would be disrupting the natural order. It's more like Social Darwinism, but, with my own twist. I do believe that as humans, we should be cautious of what we do, but we certainly should not endeavor to change the world--an impossible task. I think of it this way--the dictators aren't geniuses. They are only human, they bleed and they die. However, why are they feared? Their armies that back them up? Well, why do their soldiers back them up?
from aeka :
Alright, I have questioned the whole China domination theory, mainly because I think that the Chinese are much too conventional and oftentimes weak. In order for a peoples to conquer and take power, it is of most importance that they have aggression, which is something that the Chinese lack, but the Japanese and Koreans have. Look at it, how did China get ruled by Japan? We are weak! (yes, I do mean "we" remember guys, I'm also half Chinese). I don't know too much about the Europeans, but hey, anything can happen. I have always believed though, in an Asian coalition, as radical as it may sound. I do not believe in dictators because I am very ardent when it comes to self-governance. The individual is the individual, and cliche as it may sound, they have the inalienable right to self-governance and freedom. Dictators are vile creatures who think that they can play the deity, but oftentimes, people do need a voice. It all goes back to Darwin--in a society you have the weak and the strong. In this society you have the intellectually enfeebled, and the intellectually superior (although I do like to refrain from using such a word). The latter will ultimately rule the former, and that's what happens with dictators.
from godmoney :
whoa--u guys rn't familiar w/the whole china-superpower theory? i thought it was an accepted fact. well, then, i'm telling u: accept it. i have historian analysts + maynard james keenen on my side. (maynard james keenan!) it's projected that by 2050 1. China 2. USA (so sad) 3. India (hell yes). not only is China gaining in space tech, but they have an underground military AND the fastest growing economy. and the HUMAN RESOURCES: and they consume NOTHING like American pigs. we just have 2 PRAY that China doesn't get expansionist urges. also, 2 my knowledge, they haven't signed ne nuclear treaties. also, they are strict about warding away Americanization + they don't have patience w/human rights or environmentalist groups. plus, China is smart about monitoring its imports/ exports.
from aeka :
Personally, I don't believe in dictators. Besides, dictators are not chosen, they take power themselves. Hmm...Al does have a good point in regards to Canada. But, if there is one country that I would like to see rule the world is Japan. Think about it--we would all be quasi-geniuses. Sorry this isn't long enough, but I have to finish up work. ttyl guys.
from godmoney :
i think it's just a matter of finding the right dictator (i nominate... me!). a totalitarian gov't for a while would do the US some good, i think. some1 2 str8n out the world on some moral truths, break down degenerate relgious thought, scare the starfuckers on the top, reach out 2 the ones on the bottom.
from aeka :
I think that it would be hysterical if I said I didn't like Asians when my last name is "chang"--LOL. Anywho who am I responding to? Ok, I'll throw stuff out in the open. Yeah, I was talking about the Long March, but I have always emphasized on the cultural revolution because there was so much violence! Plus, a lot of books, paintings, and other miscellaneous things that represented the Chinese culture were destroyed. That always bothers me, because the culture is so rich. Don't you guys agree? Anyway, I think that one, Vin is right--the Chinese will rule the world by 2050, and two--China will ultimately be capitalist. Now tell me this you guys, is capitalism best for China? Wouldn't it be cool if we invented our own political philosophy that actually works?
from godmoney :
btw, u guys know that China will dominate the world by 2050, right? lucky those who have an asian fetish. u don't understand how many guys that's got me.
from godmoney :
tamara bunker--look her up. she's my theoretical idol. so... on 2 the wonderful world of politiks.
from aeka :
yeah, but I think his mom was pretty sweet--it was the Dowager Empress who was a bitch. Tamara Bunker? I must see a pic. Hey, that Kierkegaard certainly was a looker huh? Seriously, I have seen pics, and he's HOT
from godmoney :
Pu-yi? imagine having HIS mom 4 a mother-in-law, hunh. i think i'm over J. really. also, the hottest cuban revolutionary was mos def TAMARA BUNKER.
from aeka :
Operation:Cold as a witch's tit? I'm in stitches! ROFLMAO!!!!!
from aeka :
Mao wasn't cute! Maybe Che was quite the looker, but...let's not push it. Yes Al, it is Mao Tse-Tung, actually, it's pronounced that way, but I think that phonetically it's spelled Mao Zedong--Zedong being his first name. Btw, Vin, let's not even get into the Jesuit! Tell him to read Mao's bio, and he'll learn something. You know who was really hot? Emperor Pu-Yi...
from godmoney :
rn't we just one big happy family? Libet: Hey! I wanted 2 give u some words of encouragement 4 operation: cold as a witch�s tit. If I can do it, u can, babe. I was saying something in Calc (J has 2 sit by me by default) and he says something 2 me and I look at him and give him a confused look and say, �Are you TALKING to me?� sarcastic-like. Brandon laughs and J�s like, �Yeah, I�m talking 2 u� and I look away. L8r I�m reading Mao Ze Dong�s �On Guerilla Warfare� and I see J watching me and he says, �Mao Ze Tong�Mao De�I know about him.� And I�m like �Do you, now?� �Yeah. Mao�� �DO YOU EVEN KNOW HOW 2 PRONOUCE HIS NAME?� �No, but I know stuff about him.� �Like what?� �He was Chinese wasn�t he?� �Uh, yeah (duh).� �bla bla bla obvious facts bla bla bla.� �Did you learn that from sophmore world history, J?� �No. I mean, yes. I mean, no I didn�t learn it from class.� �What? You just KNOW? Do you even read books?� Tell me what you think!
from godmoney :
here i am! me again! wanted 2 ask exactly what was ur thesis behind The Crucible? i didn't love it 2 bad. thought abigail was hot. l8rs.
from godmoney :
hey! i think u will find a nice surprise in ur inbox! just once i want a beautiful boy 2 fall completely for me--i hate these relationships where i'm made the sadist, u kno? i miss being at someone else's whim. guys that fall 4 me r just so... EASY. bryan's personality + mine would NEVER be compatible. but my OTHER friend that likes me... i have no excuse other than "i'm vin + vin's a shallow bastard" as 2 y we're not dating cuz his personality's fuckin' amazing.
from godmoney :
look: the issue should NOT be athiest/ Catholicism--it should be athiesm/ deism. also, i applaud u 4 not shrinking away from ur great inner demon (gothic prince). one day his chapter will come 2 a close--they all have their turn ruling our thoughts but one by one they are replaced.
from godmoney :
we r each other's #1 fans! oh my god Libet oh my god ::tears::
from godmoney :
aaaaahhhh--mortification! no worries, always look down on your peers and the embarassment will deflect. As for the threatened report to Marquis--i can think of worse punishment ;p. And i kno what it's like 2 think of a stupid guy 24/7. like 2day i was talking 2 C but the whole time i was listening vaguely to J--who has moved to sit by A, and was chatting. Good news: he didn't walk out with her! For the sole purpose of having an obsession, i hope that we get closer next semester. i promised myself i wouldn't write again + i've turned this note in2 an entry! aah! :)
from godmoney :
Weak + Powerless/ APC "Tilling my own grave to keep me level Jam another dragon down the hole Digging to the rhythm and the echo of a solitary siren One that pushes me along and leaves me so Desperate and ravenous I�m so weak and powerless over you Someone feed the monkey while I dig in search of china White as Dracula as I approach the bottom." nice, hunh. u said "weak + powerless" so that's what immediately came 2 mind...bye!
from bottledbitch :
well, i am going through the same thing in ap euro. and as for wishing to take it. i once did. but not anymore. it's a whirl of wars and countrys and leaders and beheading. this whole conundrum of economics and politics and rulers and steam engines.. anyhow, much luck in everything that comes. and if we don't talk again before the ap tests, we should plan a freakout fest.
from bottledbitch :
dbq= ap euro?
from aeka :
she compared me to Thoreau!!!!!!!
from godmoney :
on "sleep:" very thoreau. i cherish those moments when i think like that.
from godmoney :
::narrows eyes suspiciously:: ...must keep an eye out 4 that one... ;p love u!
from godmoney :
who WAS it, tho? u KNO i got connections 2 the KGB...
from godmoney :
who said that ~ ur diary??? ::threatening anxious:: do u have another fan-girl? cuz i'll take her down! Also, thanx 4 making an effort 2 join the cause. love always--VIN! VIVA LA REVOLUCION!
from godmoney :
2day's--what?--the 16? i like the third 2 last paragraph of ur "so many things" entry + i'm gonna copy/paste it 2 my blog, fyi. i'm outtie.
from godmoney :
finally! the notes r back up! now i can online stalk u! o wait, i already do. ;)
from aeka :
Thank-you everyone...
from velvet-rose :
aw! a forbidden one..i've had my share of those.
from godmoney :
Libet, you rock! And you CAN'T be Jane Eyre cuz ur HOT, remember?

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