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from readnglst999 :
Where is clarity25? Recent vacation blog - http://twoshotsoftequila.blogspot.com/ "Eric's" Photobucket account - http://s795.photobucket.com/home/sketchbookshark/index
from rdhdprincess :
I'm sorry to see you go dear. I will miss you! I don't know what I would do without a place to vent and write. When you figure it out, let me know:) Mwah!
from lindzeeleigh :
I am sad that you are ending this diary because I have been reading for so long! :) I understand why and I still think maybe you should think about joining me over at blogspot with a blog that your DH will know about. I am glad that we can still keep up with each other on fb. Good luck with the paper diary, i try to still write in one occasionally but it is hard for me to keep up with it. Take care and I will see you on fb!
from lindzeeleigh :
Just popping by because I saw your latest update about your friend grabbing your husband. when you say groping, do you mean his package?? Any touching is totally unacceptable, but that would be the worst. She is not a friend. And perhaps you should not hang around them anymore if that is how they are going to behave. I hope things will be okay. xoxo
from lindzeeleigh :
Just wanted to let you know I read this and am thinking of you. I have no easy answers or solutions as to whether or not you should ask. Think about it some more and see what your heart and head let you decide. Big hugs to you! xoxo
from elizamark :
Hello dear, I am Miss. Elizabeth Mark the manager of bill and exchange at the foreign remittance department SG-SSB bank limited, The board of directors mandated me to look for any known relation of late Mr. Morris Thompson who deposited a huge amount of money in our bank without claim, so l decided to contact you in confidence I pray with trust due to the way you receiving this sincere mail from me with surprise ,so you can apply for the claim of this funds with my full corporation so I can join you later in your country for better investment for more details and confidentiality contact in my private email addresses l4lisa26@yahoo.com or elizabethmark28@gmail.com God will surly bless you, Yours truly, Miss. Elizabeth Mark
from lindzeeleigh :
I don't think you're petty and pathetic at ALL. You are going through a very hard time as well and things are never easy when it is about your marriage. I am sorry to hear that you still feel unsure and that there are doubts. I know there is nothing I can say that will make things better or somehow ease your mind, but I did want to leave you a note to tell you I am thinking about you and am hoping that things will be okay. Do you think you could suggest some counseling that focuses on communication? Take care of yourself. xoxo
from lindzeeleigh :
Are you okay? This entry worries me. I am sure you have a long life ahead of you to do lots of things, just keep plugging along one day at a time and try and look to those things and people that you love. I am thinking of you!! xoxo
from bookafly :
hey - I wish you'd update more! Don't know if you've followed me from bookafly.dland to flybynyght.wordpress.com or not ...but there I am! btw - glad it was in your head - it can happen to the best of us. Becky
from violetsmile :
Glad it was only paranoia. Trust your heart. Ignore the voices. I was on a horrible progesterone only contraceptive pill before the one I'm on now, which played havoc with my head and my emotions, so I understand. Hugs! x
from lindzeeleigh :
So glad you guys got to talk and that things are okay. :) That males me so happy to hear!!! Enjoy each other, your new house and the wonderful season that is upon us. xoxo
from ingridwrites :
Listen to your heart. Talk with your husband. I'm thinking of you.
from lindzeeleigh :
This entry makes me so sad to read. I am sorry that you feel so unsure and that you don't know what to think. It is frustrating that you have tried to talk to him and that he brushes it off as a joke. I would try to talk to him again and tell him that it is a serious concern and that you want to know if everything is all right. That must be so disconcerting. :( If you want to chat or get things off your chest, let me know. I am definitely thinking of you and sending you hugs. xoxo (((HUGS)))
from lindzeeleigh :
Enjoy your much needed holiday. You DESERVE it after all of the shite that has gone on with you lately!! And as for your sister, I really don't know what to say there.... how disappointing, but you sound as if you're not really surprised. Maybe all of the kajillion people I know and you know that are pregnant could send some of those vibes over this way! :P
from ingridwrites :
Good luck. I hope this can be cleared up for you. 'C' is a scary word. The silence you hear after the question you ask, speaks loudly.
from lindzeeleigh :
Hey Jen, just wanted to say thanks for popping by my blog and leaving me such nice notes. :) Thank you for thinking of us. And in regards to your entry....wow, I can't believe all that has gone on with you. And I am SO glad your GP put you in touch with an OBGYN because you were able to get checked out and have the D&C, which I really hope has helped you so that you don't have to get a hysterectomy, if you guys decide to try for kids. I will agree that kids are not for everyone and know that whatever decision you make it will be best for the two of you and your life. Kids are something my husband and I always wanted, i just didn't think it would be such a tricky road to get there. I will be crossing my fingers that everything will be well for your next appointment in the fall. Thinking of you and sending you BIG hugs!! p.s. Want to add me on fb? lindzeeleigh AT hotmail DOT com. If not, that is cool too, I totally understand. :)
from xxholding-on :
hey i saw you were online and i really wanted the vote/review from diaryland members towards an art contest i joined. It's a coach marketing contest and i need as many votes as i can get! I'm already in 19th out of 2700, please help me out! http://www.brickfish.com/Pages/PhotosAlbums/PhotoView.aspx?picid=975395_34070543&pid=2767347&scid=452
from betchy :
Hey hun, Hows you? JUst look for Becky Tomkins Bristol network, and thats me. I'm wearing a purple top in the pic and I'm with another girl and guy. See you on Facebook!!!!
from lindzeeleigh :
That is so awesome that you are fostering animals until they can be found a new home. What a wonderful and giving thing to do. I know they are going to be in great hands with you. How are other things? How is the husband, with all of the other health things you had mentioned in previous entries? Hope things are well! xo
from bluecharis :
Hey Jen! Thanks for the nice comments! Feel hugged! I wish you and your loved ones a very happy 2009! Love, Charis
from lindzeeleigh :
Great looking back entry!! :) I always love to do those and you have just reminded me that I better get on doing it. Not much time left! Happy new year, wishing lots of love, happiness and health [ a big one for your hubby] in 2009.
from maoer :
hang in there, hope everything works out.
from lindzeeleigh :
It was nice to read an update from you. I am sorry to hear that things are not going as well as they could be for you right now. I hope you do have a very good Christmas with your husband and family. i am thinking about you and wishing you the best for the new year.
from starlight42 :
Awww, Jenn, I'm so sorry to hear what's going on with your hubby!! I'm never on here but I came on to clean up stuff as I'm going to delete my diary....and read your last few entries. I will be thinking about you both and I hope you get a diagnosis soon and it's something that is easy to fix or deal with. ((hugs))
from violetsmile :
Have you heard anything yet? I'm thinking of you!! Hugs! THank you so much for your lovely note on my last entry! xx
from lindzeeleigh :
I can't believe that it has been a month and you still don't know anything! That is so frustrating and disappointing. :( I am still thinking of you both and I know you are being strong. I hope they are able to find a diagnosis so that they can start treatment and not leave you constantly wondering. i find not knowing to be one of the worst feelings out there. Sending good thoughts and prayers your way! xo
from lindzeeleigh :
Thinking of you and praying for you and your family. xoxo
from lindzeeleigh :
That sucks about your friends, but at least you are realizing it now and not later. People do change and it isn't always for the better. I think you are making the right decision with them, so stick to it! :)
from bluecharis :
Oh gosh... I'm so sorry to hear about your friends! I don't know how one goes one with life with a loss like that. I'm sending you lots of strength and prayers! You are in my thoughts, love, Charis
from lindzeeleigh :
I am so sad to hear about your friend's precious little baby. They must be so devastated. I don't think anyone can prepare for something so terrible. My heart goes out to them. <p>How are you doing? I miss you!!
from lindzeeleigh :
That is so sad....but so true. :(
from rdhdprincess :
That is a fabulous quote! Thanks for the note. I hope you enjoy the Mexican Riviera. It is one of my favorite places!
from chaosdaily :
sounds like fun... I enjoyed reading you, I sure wish you would post more!!
from starlight42 :
That's awesome you are planning for another cruise!! I think it's a fabulous idea to do that and enjoy yourselves before kids. I am envious of those who can travel all over while we can only go a short distance with a toddler....but cest la vie! I will live vicariously through others. :)
from lindzeeleigh :
Hey you! How are you? Glad you did the survey off my diary. :) I thought it was kind of different and interesting one to do. That is so exciting that you guys are off on another cruise! i am jealous! We are still hoping to get away this summer in July, if Ben doesn't get into the police force. I will keep you posted because I might need your travelling expertise! And as for having a baby, you are right, you have lots of time and i love the quote at the end because it is so true!!
from bluecharis :
Wow, what a nice thing to offer! Thanks a lot! It could save me money, but I think it's kind of rude to come to the great people of the yarn store, make them help me out all the time and then buy the yarn some place else, you know? :-) So, I'm kind of doing my part of helping the local economy by buying directly from them... Anyway, how are things with you? You haven't updated in a while, everything okay? Love, Charis :-))
from lindzeeleigh :
I just wanted to pop in and thank you for the birthday wishes! :) How are things going with you? You haven't updated in quite some time, so I was wondering how you were doing and what you are up to. Hope all is well. :)
from lindzeeleigh :
Awww, I am sorry to hear that you had to put your puppy to sleep, that is never an easy choice, but it was the right thing to do, as you wouldn't want her to suffer. I know just how you feel. Big hugs!!!
from lindzeeleigh :
YAY! I am glad for the update, even if it was kind of a year in review. i hope you'll update more, I've missed reading you. We also got a Wii this year and I love it, it is lots of fun! I hope you have a great weekend!
from lindzeeleigh :
How was the trip to Europe? How are you doing? Thanks so much for leaving me the note, I will look into other places as well, but you are right, it is best to be safe. I will let you know what pans out. hope you are doing well and I hope you are going to update to soon! xo
from starlight42 :
Just wanted to check in and say hi, I don't get on here too much. :( How did the Europe trip go?? Happy Holidays if I don't talk to you before then!
from lindzeeleigh :
Glad to hear everything is going well! I can't believe you leave so soon for your big trip! Have an awesome time and i can't wait to hear all about it!! :)
from bluecharis :
Are you coming to Germany as well? If so, contact me at blueATthe.addict.de... Have a safe and fun trip! :-))
from ingridwrites :
Have the BEST time EVER in Europe!!
from lindzeeleigh :
I am glad that you got to see your neice. I bet that was a special moment for you. And good for you for not letting them get to you and being the better person and going there to see her. At least you can always visit her if you are not ready to have your own kidlets yet! LoL.
from bluecharis :
Sending you a big, BIG hug, sweetie! You're such a wonderful and caring person and there ARE people out there who care for you big time. Keeping you in my thoughts and sending you strength, love, Charis :-)) *hug*
from lindzeeleigh :
I can't believe your family, that is absolutely ridiculous. I can understand how you would feel so whatever to them after constantly being hurt. I hope you are able to see your niece soon because that is really important and it sounds like she needs an auntie like you in her life!
from starlight42 :
That sucks about your P BFF!! Well, getting drama out of your life is a positive change though. Oh, I was looking at your books list, is Janet Evanovich or whatever her name is, any good?? I am almost done with Anyone but you by Crusie, you're right, it is a good book! You know who I also like is Luanne Rice and Anita Shreve, you might like them.
from lindzeeleigh :
I love the song "chasing Cars" m It is one of our favoruite songs and in fact, part of the song in on our wedding invitation! Pretty neat!
from bookafly :
Thanks so much for your encouragement and your positive thoughts. I'm just so glad that I finally know one way or the other - near the end it was starting to kill me! But I actually stopped by to say that I understand not wanting to update sometimes (ya, look who went a month without updating) - but I sure enjoy reading it when you do!!! --Becky
from lindzeeleigh :
But you have to keep updating - I like it when your name lights up in red. :) However, I understand the feeling of not really wanting to write or not having much to say. I go through periods like that and then there are times I write every day. So who knows what will happen??
from starlight42 :
I did your survey but I was boring when I answered the share one thign about yourself part......I need to thikn of somethign better. I can't believe it's been 2 years, I remember diong the first one!
from starlight42 :
Did I mention I'm so jealous of your trip....?!
from lindzeeleigh :
Your trip to Europe sounds so great! You guys are going to see and experience SO much! I am with Starlight - maybe you'll make a baby somewhere in Europe! :P
from starlight42 :
I think going to Europe is a great idea!! Once you have a baby, things like that just don't happen, unless you're rich or you have a nanny or something, LOL. Have a great time and everything will come to you guys at the right time. Who knows, maybe you'll make a baby IN Europe!! ;)
from bluecharis :
Cool! Europe rocks! Come to Germany and let's meet!! When are you going? Love to hear from you soon, Charis
from lindzeeleigh :
Oooh, a trip to Europe for two weeks! That sounds awesome. Where are you going to go? I think that is a great idea before you settle down and have a little one. :) You still have lots of time!
from lindzeeleigh :
That is awesome that you are going to try for a baby this fall! How exciting. :)
from harakiri :
oohhhhh congrats on the big decision!
from lindzeeleigh :
Cute bootie!! :) Hehe. Are you knitting these for any reason in particular? *wink* LoL.
from lindzeeleigh :
I hope all is well!! xo
from waterford :
1/10/07- Hey there girl. I came by to check in on you but you locked down...so anyway wanted to give you some love! hope all is well. -Jes-
from lindzeeleigh :
Yay - I am glad you did the survey, I thought it was fun! :)
from harakiri :
Yeah, all your pics will still be there if you buy gold again. Personally, I wouldn't pay anything to diaryland. They suck. I used to love DLand but one reason I left was the ripped me off (8 dollars but still!) and are horrible with costumer service. Flickr's free and fun though there is a monthly limit you can upload. If you do Flickr let me know, I'll add you as a contact.
from lindzeeleigh :
If you renew all your pictures will still be there - you wont have to upload them again. Or you can upload your pics to flickr for free and not pay anything. It is entirely up to you! :)
from lindzeeleigh :
Happy New Year to you too! :) xo
from starlight42 :
I'm going to have to edit my entry...the situations are totally real!! lol
from lindzeeleigh :
Merry Christmas!! xo
from lindzeeleigh :
Those are some beautiful pictures! I am imagining myself there!! :)
from chaosdaily :
thanks for the pics! beautiful!!
from lindzeeleigh :
Listen to some Christmas music, eat some candy canes and wrap some presents. That alwys gets me into the Christmas spirit! :) As for having a baby, I think that is wonderful news and you will be a great mommy. Take things one step at a time and when you are both ready you will know! xo
from lindzeeleigh :
That is an awesome gift - he will love it! Oh and if you want to post pictures, you don't need gold, just upload pics to flickr, that is what i do! Then you can put the link to those pics on your diary for FREE! :)
from warcrygirl :
Hey you! I'm Tanya on MySpace; I've added you to my friends' list. As soon as Freefall's site is up and running you can add him, too.
from lindzeeleigh :
YAY that you are alive and yay for pictures. Can't wait! I hope you had a wonderful time. :)
from lindzeeleigh :
Have an awesome time!!! I can't wait to see pics when you get back. :)
from bluecharis :
Wow, very nice! It's great that you've taken up knitting again - just like me. And boy, oh boy, it sure is addictive! Thanks for the note you left the other day and HAPPY THANKSGIVING to you and your loved ones!
from harakiri :
Nice! Glad you picked up the sticks again! And you speak way to kindly of me! Yarn is addicting but luckily I am a)cheap and b)indecisive. lol
from lilpeanut80 :
I am very impressed, you crafty woman you! Love the scarf!
from lindzeeleigh :
That is one helluva scarf! Nice work. :)
from starlight42 :
That totally sucks about your aunt. What is up with her, I think she's eating crazy beans....screw her! I know it sucks when family can be like that. I hope you guys end up having a nice Thanksgiving despite her!
from lindzeeleigh :
I ended up doing THanksgiving at our house this year because Ben's parents were renovating and it all turned out okay, so maybe it will for you too. :)
from ava-reborn :
Thank you lovely! Hugs much needed and appreciated!! xx
from libbyo :
Came upon your diary, enjoying the read and just thought I would say hi!
from lilpeanut80 :
I'm a Chick-fil-A diet lemonade fan myself. And I'm in the "big feet club". Who knew we had so much in common. :)
from lindzeeleigh :
Writing letters sure does help to get everything out, doesn't it? I think in the middle letter you are blaming yourself too much, when in fact it is because of both of you. just my two cents. ;)
from chaosdaily :
i think the last one is the best... it doesnt really blame either one of you, but both in a way.
from ava-reborn :
Thank you so much for your note! It was so inspiring! Yeah, maybe Jason was the reason for my meeting Josh! Maybe in that way it was fate! It's all a jigsaw!
from lindzeeleigh :
I LOVED The Mermaid Chair - what a great book. Have you also read The Secret Life of Bees by Sue Monk Kidd as well? What a talented writer.
from harakiri :
"If you want two wives I suggest you start looking for *both* of them now." :P
from bluecharis :
I'd say: NO! And I like your new template, very autumn-y...
from lindzeeleigh :
I like the new template - it is pretty! AS for the two wives thing can we get a big HELL NO on that one? That is my vote. I think the whole thing is stupid. I watched a whole documentary on TLC about it [this guy had three wives] and it was horrible. They all bitched at one another, fought for his time, the kids were embarrassed, etc. There is no way I would share Ben with anyone - I want him all to myself!
from ingridwrites :
No. I, personally, could not accept another woman in our house/bed/lives, etc. Call me old fashioned, but one wife per customer.
from chaosdaily :
can he afford two wives???
from nmnohr :
Another wife? Nope.......not this cookie. I'm all for being giving, and sharing, but there are some things I just won't share. One of those is my husband!
from lindzeeleigh :
I HATE it when you write someone an important email and they don't write you back - and you know they have received it! How annoying.
from lilpeanut80 :
Haha...you are so cute "Only 68 more days until vacation!" :)
from lindzeeleigh :
Happy Birthday to the hubby and I am gald your trashy neighbors are moving out! How are things with your family??
from chaosdaily :
lol you know they say that god works in mysterious ways...
from lindzeeleigh :
HAPPY BURFDAY!!! :)
from chaosdaily :
by the time you get to where you are going, your life will have changed enough that you dont want to be there anymore..
from nmnohr :
I'm so sorry. The worst thing about family drama is that it's so much harder to get away from. They are your family, so you're tied to them forever - but that doesn't mean you have to let them treat you this way. You deserve so much better than what you are receiving. I hope that moving away will atleast give you some distance from the pain.
from starlight42 :
I'm so sorry to hear that you've had a such a bad day. More sorry to hear how horribly your family treats you!! That makes me so mad. :( They must not know that they are missing out. I'd give ya a call on your bday! That stinks about your friend too. Heck, she could have even asked to see if you'd mind if the kids came along and you guys did something kid friendly. Well, I hope you have a good weekend and don't let all this stuff get you down! You're such a great person, you deserve to be happy.
from lindzeeleigh :
AWwww. Big Hugs!! I am sorry to hear that things are not going well for you. :( It always seems like it is one thing after another, doesn't it? I am going to email the pic tonight. :)
from chaosdaily :
gee i dont think moving away would make things any worse. you could just start fresh in a new town.. ive done it, and i am itching to do it again, although now i have kids to think about..
from lindzeeleigh :
Jen, I have the pictures, so leave me a note or if you want, send me an email to lindzeeleigh AT hotmail DOT com and I can reply back to you with the picture. :)
from lindzeeleigh :
i hope you have some pee your pants type of happiness soon - that would be great! You deserve it! I have no idea what you should do about your mom and the trip. Maybe try and talk to her before the trip gets closer and see where she stands. I lvoe that Dr. Suess quote. I have it on the wall in my classroom!
from clarity25 :
I understand what you mean about hiding yourself away, I do that too. Sometimes it's just easier and you feel the need to be alone. I'm sorry about your friend's money troubles, it must be frustrating to be unable to help and deal with resentment from her because you're not going through the same problem at the same time. I hope that all works out. I also hope your sis had a fun birthday:)
from starlight42 :
I had the same problem with my cell phone company- Sprint- ended up leaving and going to Cingular. I even asked them why new customers would get better deals than a customer of over 5 years......Thanks for the note and hope all is well!
from lindzeeleigh :
Wow - good long entry! I like that! It seems like things with your family are a little better, that is encouraging. I am glad that you went to the game anyways and said goodbye to your mom, that makes you the bigger person. I am also excited about prison break, I watched the season premier, so good!! :)
from clarity25 :
First of all, I'm sorry about the lost entries! That's awful, how exactly did that happen? I'd be frustrated and upset about that too. but you have a good outlook. You can't change what has occured, so it is best to look forward. I'm also sorry about your family and how they've been treating you. That's not right and I can understand your desire to move. Good luck with everything, I hope things get better soon
from lindzeeleigh :
It says you updated, but there is no new entry?? I think diaryland is being crazy again!!!
from nmnohr :
Hi.....I was just catching up on your diary, and I want to give you a huge hug! I'm so sorry for how your family is treating you. No one deserves that. Your little sister is lucky to have you. She will always realize that regardless of how your mom and other sister act.
from bluecharis :
Mmh, I feel so sad for you now. Because I _know_ what you're talking about. And I know how devastating that kind of treatment can be. My solution to the way my family treated/treats me is to distance myself. I don't see them more than two or three times a year. We're living 3 hours away, so it's not all that difficult to achieve. When I was growing up, my little brother _always_ was the favorite one and he still is unto that day. Although I never caused much trouble growing up and he's still giving them pain by being a soldier constantly going to foreign lands... It's just as it is. Instead of trying to be nice to be like, be real. Mirror the behaviour they are showing you. For me, it means that I've stopped being nice to people that are not nice to me. (Even though - as you know - much progress still needs to be made with the in-laws). But showing some members of my family the cold shoulder's helped me a lot. So I don't go see that nasty aunt. So I visit the one I really, really like, who stays in contact with me, every time I'm home. And people do notice _my_ behaviour. And maybe that helps getting what _you_ want instead of behaving the way _they_ want you to behave. Hang in there and try to live your life so it's filled with fun and pleasure for _you_ not for everyone else. If you want to move to a different part of the country - do it. Don't be stopped by inconsiderate family members. Natural consequences, baby! Love, Charis :-)
from lindzeeleigh :
That is soooo awful. :( I can't believe that your family is so selfish and hurtful. I don't blame you for being angry and upset at all. When people treat you like that it is not as if you are jumping up and down to spend time with them. And I can;t believe about your mom's wedding. I just don't get what is wrong with people. How can they not see how they are behaving? Who are the adults here? Grrrrr. I am mad for you!
from lindzeeleigh :
I read the begninning of that entry and I thought, hey I know that song! Then I realized it was Anna Nalick and I had to listen to the song right after I read your entry. :) I am glad you are feeling better. Keep your head up!
from clarity25 :
31% isn't bad! Your map is so much "redder" than mine was. lol. I know what you mean about music. You can just get lost in it. Sometimes the words hit a chord and you can't stop the tears from sliding down your cheeks. That's how I felt at the Fiona Apple concert. Music can have a deep impact like that. Thank you so much for your advice concerning the Texas situation. I really appreciated your insights. It helped.
from nmnohr :
You've never been to WI? Get up here!
from ingridwrites :
I've only seen 15%!!
from chaosdaily :
wow what a dilemma! what would dear abby tell you to do?
from lindzeeleigh :
Oh My! I am not even sure what to say, escept for confronting them both about what they are doing and reminding them that they have spouses/kids. But other than that, your hands are sort of tied. I mean they are supposed to be adults and they need to figure out this on their own. I really wonder, why do people find it so damn hard to be monogamous these days?? Is the grass that much greener on the other side?
from lindzeeleigh :
I am with Clarity, I checked out some of Anna Nalick's music and it is really pretty. I like her voice and the lyrics. Thanks for sharing!
from clarity25 :
After reading your entry, I decided to check out Anna Nalick out of curiosity. I listened to her album online and her music is beautiful! I loved "Breathe 2 A.M.", "Forever Love", "In my Head" and "consider this". Thanks for bringing her music to my attention!:). I want to get the album now! I hope you had a good weekend!
from lindzeeleigh :
I like ology quiz! I think I might just have to do it. It is a fun way to pass the time! Hehe.
from chaosdaily :
id go!
from lindzeeleigh :
I am happy to hear that you had such a fun time on your trip. I look forward to the pictures and I hope your car will not be expensive to fix!
from starlight42 :
I know you'll have a nice trip to Chicago, it's a great city!!
from lindzeeleigh :
I hope you have a wonderful time! I will think of you when you are having fun! :) [Will you think of me?? LOL!]
from chaosdaily :
you will be very close to me!!
from lindzeeleigh :
Yes, post some pictures! I love pictures. :)
from lindzeeleigh :
I think they both looked nice. :)
from ingridwrites :
Good. Me too ;)
from lilpeanut80 :
Our 6 year wedding anniversary was May 27th. Congrats to you, too.
from chaosdaily :
i like the shells, but i liked the pears too!
from ingridwrites :
I like it. It looks 'fresh'! ;)
from starlight42 :
Thanks for the e-card!! I see only 2 more weeks till you go to Chicago, such a fun city! I'll keep my fingers crossed you have nice weather. Have a good weekend.
from lindzeeleigh :
I don't know about anyone else, but I am dying to hear the bra story!
from bluecharis :
Sister, I feel for you! I HATE BRAS, although I definitely do need them... Take care, Charis :-)
from chaosdaily :
the museum in chicago has a king tut exhibit.. they suggest getting tickets in advance. we are going in july!
from ingridwrites :
Stephanie Rosenfeld. I have 2 of her books (her only 2?) and I really like her.
from lindzeeleigh :
Hope you have a great weekend too! Have fun cleaning, I have to get some cleaning and grocery shopping done. The dun never ends around here! Hehe.
from clarity25 :
Good luck with the plans for the trip and receiving a response from your G-ma. I really hope everything works out in the end!
from lindzeeleigh :
Parents and other family members can be very aggravating sometimes. Oh my, I feel for you! I hope that it will all work out in the end for everyone! keep us posted!
from clarity25 :
I know what you mean about the fear of something happening to your hubby. I think that's also my greatest and deepest fear. If he's late coming home, I always imagine the worst and it makes me ill to my stomach. We haven't discussed health insurance although that's something we SHOULD talk about in the future. You never know what is going to happen and it's a terrifying prospect. It's wonderful that you want your parents to move in with you in the future. It will be a big change, but your reasons are beautiful. I'm sure whatever happens it will work out for the best at the end.
from starlight42 :
Awww, that's great you're going on 6 years!! As for your mom, well, I can see how she'd be hurt, but I'm sure you had your reasons back then, and in part it may have been due to how she treated you? Anyway, maybe the 4 of you can go out to dinner to celebrate your 6th anniversary and her wedding in the next month or so?
from harakiri :
I wouldn't put Eli or Anna in school that young, even if th school pushed it, its my decision, I'd do another year of pre-k. My best friend put her son in and he'd just turned 5, he wasn't ready and they had to keep him back and repeat kindergarten again.
from ava-reborn :
Your husband sounds wonderful!! You're a lucky girl! But then again, he's lucky to have you, too!!
from lindzeeleigh :
Wow, good idea for Mother's Day and neat post with listing the ten different feelings!
from clarity25 :
Wow, I loved that meme. Now the question is: Do I have the courage to post that in my own blog? Everyone will read it and think I mean THEM. Which I guess is part of what makes it such an intriguing meme...plus very therapeutic and freeing at the same time. hmmm:)
from ava-reborn :
Have a great weekend lovely! You're not alone, I kill everything too!! Apart from weeds and brambles!! I seem to have a knack of cultivating them!! Thanks for your sweet note the other day! It's not Mothers' Day here, but I hope your mum and MIL enjoy their Mother's Day. And I don't think it's tacky to give them the same present. It's a sweet idea! And it leaves no room for jealousy! Perfect!
from lindzeeleigh :
Jen, I think everyone is generally grumpy these days. I don't know what it is, but everyone seems to be grumpy at my work as well. maybe it is because it is almost summer and it is nice out and people have spring fever? Or was it a full moon this week?? Who knows. :S
from clarity25 :
Thank you for your caring shout out and Good wishes. THat meant a lot. I hope you have a good weekend, Jen:)
from ingridwrites :
Friends are people who are happy for you even when they are envious of your life. My husband and I give up a lot for me to stay home. But the trade off works - because we also gain a lot too. ;) I hope you find a friend to do things with who is supportive of your choices and celebrates your highs and lows without getting petty.
from ingridwrites :
I agree on the calorie counting. I've done it before - lost 10lbs in less than 4 weeks without exercising. That felt good. This feels icky, like I'm deprived of things I enjoy and what is the point in that?
from betchy :
You lucky girl. And to have it engraved too? You must be loved xxx
from lindzeeleigh :
What a great present! Happy Early Anniversary! Now what are you going to get him?? :)
from clarity25 :
An IPOD! Sweet! That IS the perfect anniversary gift and what he wrote on the back is beautiful.:) Thanks so much for your caring note, That really meant a lot to me. It helped me look at everything in a better light and was a vote of confidence that I kind of needed right now because I've been doubting myself pretty hardcore lately. Thank you, Jen. P.S. You're right with your "Kill em with kindness" approach. I think that's the route I'll go. :)
from cleanstart :
How sweet, that's awesome~ Happy early Anniversary to you..
from harakiri :
So sweet!
from clarity25 :
I can understand your feelings with this friend and the distance you feel. Sometimes when you have little in common with someone and that person makes you feel bad with their side remarks.. it's best to take a break. Even if that person makes you feel guilty about it. You have to do what's best for you. But that's just my two cents, I don't know the details. I really hope it all works out for the best.:). P.S. thanks for your caring note and advice regarding the job situation.
from ingridwrites :
Oh I totally LOVED the cruise ship for the food. You could never starve on a ship. When we discovered we could order coffee and muffins for breakfast (before going to the dining room) we were in heaven and pretty soon we'd convinced everyone we spoke to that they should do the same. Funny how no one ever thought about having coffee delivered to them before. Are you getting an outside room? I'd splurge on the outside room if I did it again. Just because it would make sitting in the room a bit better. At least there'd be a veiw ;)
from cleanstart :
THANKS~
from clarity25 :
Thank you for the beautiful Happy Anniversary wishes and the poem! That brightened my day. I really hope your ankle gets better soon!
from starlight42 :
Ouch, hope your ankle gets better!! ...Patient?! I have to be patient? I am so bad at that...LOL
from betchy :
hello sweetie, i guess i not been a very good buddy of late!!! I'm SORRRRREEEEEEE!!! i hope your ankle gets better soon, but make sure you get it checked out as it could be broken. i fell over once (drunk as usual) and my ankle swelled up real bad and i thought it was broken, and i walked round on it for weeks without getting it checked out and now its still weak! so be careful!
from cleanstart :
Yikes, I hope you ankle gets better! And see, I was right... other people are much more intersting than us, huh? lol...
from lindzeeleigh :
Happ Easter! I hope you are having a lovely long weekend. :) As for MySpace, I don't even have one, so I am no good for the advice!
from clarity25 :
Thanks for the boxset suggestion. As for MYSPACE friend requests. A good indicator (if you're curious) is checking their profile. (because sometimes people don't log on to their page every day. I only go on MYSPACE about once a week or every two weeks.) -- If it shows that they logged on AFTER the request, chances are they are either waiting to check you out first or they declined because they don't know you. (some people just have myspace for their closest friends that they know in every day life). Okay, rambling. I hope you're having a good weekend!:)
from harakiri :
Maybe it will make you feel better- Me- Hairstylist - 2 years ago. Doctor - Last year, only because I had babies and needed to see the doc and make sure everything healed OK from the last c-section. Dentist - about 8 years, I even have a molar thats broken and falling out and i still wont go. Makeup counter lady - Never Psychologist - Last year only because I was afraid my depression would lead to PPD and I'd hurt the kids.
from ingridwrites :
I'm not sure how long I'd wait. Knowing me, I'd wait a long time. I'd feel hurt though, that it wasn't instant.
from cleanstart :
Maybe it's just you being natural and you were fine with that...and now you just wanna change? There's nothing wrong with being natural. I'm here is you need or want any tips in transitioning over to the "made-up" type of person?
from clarity25 :
That entry you wrote for your father was really touching. I'm so sorry for your loss, Jen. I wish I had better words to convey this sentiment and my thoughts. Birthday greetings going out to your sister! thank you so much for your supportive notes and insights lately. That means a lot. I hope you're doing well.
from ava-reborn :
*hugs* Thinking of you!!
from bluecharis :
Hi Jen! I wanted to leave you a detailed message on how to proceed with that MySpace "problem". But when I got here, I read the last message left by Clarity and I must say, she's told you the exact same things and step I would have told you! So just follow her advice, take it nice and slow and let the bond of friendship develop. Good luck with it and thanks for the nice notes you've left me in the past. Sorry for not responding earlier, but whenever I find some internet time, I usually spend it reading up on everyone... Hope you have a nice weekend, love, Charis :-)
from clarity25 :
My thoughts are with you for this monday, Jen. Even after seven years, the pain of loss doesn't go away. As for making friends on MYSPACE. Don't worry about looking foolish, just be yourself. Drop a message saying "Hey, I saw you lived in my area, wanna be MYSPACE pals?" and at the same time post a friend request. If they accept the request, than you can start corresponding. Commenting on their blog or just leaving friendly greetings. That's what everyone does, so there is nothing strange about it. I know what you mean though, it's hard getting to know new people and I'm shy like that too. I always wait for someone to approach me FIRST. But definitely go for it. Just think about it this way "What have you got to lose?". Thanks for your caring notes lately. I really liked those song lyrics you shared, they fit my current circumstance perfectly. I have to check out the actual song now. I hope you're having a good weekend!
from starlight42 :
First, I'll be thinking about you on Monday. I can imagine it will be a hard day for you & your family. As for making friends on Myspace, my recommendation would be to first add them to your friends and trade notes for a bit. That way each of you are more comfortable with each other. Then, if you hit it off, suggest meeting up some time for lunch or something. People are much more receptive to meeting someone, I think, once they kind of "know" you for a little bit. At least, that's how I am. For instance, if we lived closer, I'd agree to meet you, but if some random person on DL asked, I wouldn't. Hope this helps.
from ava-reborn :
The older you get the harder it is to make friends, and the more of your friends move away and get wrapped up in their own lives. It can be lonely getting older!!! Try leaving a note for the people you've found on Myspace saying something like "Hello 'Myspace person' I've been reading your blog and thought I'd drop you a note to say hello. I notice you like 'fill in: band, sport, hobby, film, whatever'! Me too. By the way, I'm from 'your area' too!" Or something to that effect! Everyone loves receiving notes!! Have a great weekend. xx
from ingridwrites :
I am the same way with friends. How do you make them? Actually I did try to make IRL friends from the internet and it was weird for me. I don't even know where those people are today... Good luck!! I hope they are nice and fun and friendly!!!!!
from clarity25 :
Hey! Thanks for taking my quizzes and for your caring notes lately! I hope you have a great weekend, Jen!
from starlight42 :
I like the new layout! Also, hope you are feeling better, being sick sucks. :( Snow?! Yikes, we had a few flurries today, hope it is warmer tomorrow!
from lindzeeleigh :
Cute new layout! I really like it. :) I hope you have a snow day tomorrow, I am crossing my fingers for you! Feel better soon.
from cleanstart :
I hope you feel better soon. *sending snow vibes your way*
from coexistapart :
I *almost* chose the template you have when I redesigned my blog. It's quite lovely. That business about the "charity" car wash is absolutely sickening.
from clarity25 :
That's so messed up!! I'm sorry you had to go through something like that! I would have been so upset and freaked out. I can't believe the guy chased you down for cash after he had scratched your car during the wash! That's completely wrong and uncalled for. I can understand fully your frustration with this. You try to do something good and it ends up causing more trouble. I've had situations like that in life and I left feeling disheartened. I have to remind myself that not everyone out there is like that, it's just so hard after you go through it. I know what you mean.
from lindzeeleigh :
Wow, I am so sorry to hear about the whole car wash thing. That is just crazy. :( It is sometimes hard to know what is legit and what is not. I hope your car will be okay. Are you going to get the scratch fixed?
from starlight42 :
WOW- that is crazy!! You guys should have gotten his license plate and filed a complaint. Besides, how were they doing washes in the middle of a paking lot, I don't get it? I don't blame you for being frustrated with humanity!
from ingridwrites :
Oh no! I also don't like 'donating' at stores or when people come to my door. I only buy from the school kids who live in my neighborhood now.
from lilpeanut80 :
The "Bean feast" line was always my favorite. I mean, what is a bean feast anyway?!
from lindzeeleigh :
I just watched Willy Wonka [old school] the other day because it was on TV. I love that show, so I know exactly what you are talking about. I love it when the girl falls down the bad chute! Hehe. you are doing so well, so don't be upset with where you are in life right now. you have lots of great things going and I believe that we are in certain places in life because that is where we are meant to be.
from harakiri :
oohh Czech republic, *I'd* like to live or at least vacation there. Oh, Prague!
from clarity25 :
I loved the lunchable part too! Congrats on the new bed and I know exactly the feeling you're describing! Those lyrics kind of hit home for me too. Thank you for your caring note. That meant a lot to me. Thank you for understanding and for being a friend!
from starlight42 :
That's cute about the lunchable!
from lindzeeleigh :
You will have to post some pics of the new stuff! YAY. :)
from betchy :
thanks for the Val day wishes!!!! i just did your johari window. i love 'em, i'm doind everybody's!!!! loadsa love xxx
from clarity25 :
I was four "I am Unique" haha..it actually fit. Crazy from only TWO questions!
from clarity25 :
I'm going to check out that enneagram test! I just wanted to thank you so much for your supportive, caring and wonderful notes. Thanks so much for reaching out. I hope you have a good weekend!
from starlight42 :
I used to have one of their designs. I swear when I was looking for one last month they were closed...but I see they're back. awesome!
from starlight42 :
I love the new design!! I thought francey closed down though? Hmm. Thanks for the shout out and congrats.
from lilpeanut80 :
Hey, I really like the plum blossom template! Maybe it is just my love for all things Asian.
from ingridwrites :
Thank you for the birthday wishes!
from lindzeeleigh :
Awww, thanks for the Valentine's wish! And I love that little lion, he is cute. :)
from clarity25 :
Thanks for your caring note and V-Day greetings. Those flowers are beautiful, I hope your day was wonderful. I filled out your Johari Window, I have one up on my site too. It's fun:)
from cleanstart :
Thanks and Happy Valentine's Day to you too! What a sweet hubby!
from rdhdprincess :
Happy Valentine's Day! Pretty roses and the lion is adorable! Good husband!
from ingridwrites :
Happy Valentine's Day to you!!
from ingridwrites :
Thank you. Yeah...I think making him a card and a nice dinner should be *enough*.
from starlight42 :
Nepolean is adorable! As for the old friends and closure, I hope you can find what you're looking for there.
from ingridwrites :
YES! You do get a gold star. I am terrible at those things too. And mostly I'm so transparent that I tried to make it hard. Heh.
from starlight42 :
Yay, new kitties are fun!! Cant' wait to see pics
from harakiri :
We're still working on ideas! We know we want to get Eli a couple outdoor toys. Anna, no clue since she has all Eli's hand-me-down toys that we didn't get rid of since they are so close in age. Also, your link to your notes on your diary is broken :) And in response to another commenter- being overweight doesn't mean you'll have a bad pregnancy. I'm incredibly overweight and my second pregnancy was perfect. My first I had Pregnancy Induced Hypertension but my doc said that was more due to family history and higher risk of ANY first time pregnancy developing it (it's quiet common in first time pregnancy's my OB tells me) and NOT my weight :)
from starlight42 :
awww, I didn't know you had a 3 yr old sister.
from cleanstart :
How neat, I'd love to have a little toddler sister! Happy Burfday to her! lol..
from lindzeeleigh :
Wishing you LOTS of luck for a new job!!! :)
from cleanstart :
Hugs ,I am sorry that you have had a bad work day! I hope you find a wonderful job soon where there's minimal office conflict!
from ingridwrites :
Good luck! My last job was the exact same way!
from starlight42 :
Ok, I read your entry on the kids/travel the other day- but I didnt' have a moment to comment. It's so ironic, your debate is the same Dave and I had. We came to the conclusion to have a baby- since I am 30 now! And I am like you, I hate having one so late, but at the same time, the time was never right before. Duh, wasn't even married. Anyway, I totally understand your decision. It sounds like you've already thought about it- as you mentioned in the later entry- and I thikn it's awesome you have put together a plan! Circumstances can never be perfect, as everyone tells me, but still, it's so much better to get things ready financially etc. As for the healthier lifestyle, it makes all the difference in the world between a good and bad pregnancy! I have 2 friends- one very thin and healthy- the other quite obese (which I know you're not at that point, but just for argument sake) the healthy girl had a perfect pregnancy. The obese one, had the WORST I've ever heard of. She was sick the entire time, among many other issues she had. However, at least the baby was healthy. Anyway, I look at it as what ever you're eating and such the baby is getting. Plus, I know for me, even losing the 15 pounds will make a difference because say when I get preg. I may only gain 25, well, that only puts me 10 pounds above where I was before! not much at all. Plus, I've heard the weight comes off easier after.
from harakiri :
WATP is great but gets a bit boring, easy to work up with. FIRM kicks your ass. I have both, I bought WATP with plans to work up to the 3 miles, kick its butt Adan move on to the FIRM. I got pregnant again and only tried the FIRM once and I thought I was gonna die lol Hopefully one day I can work up to it again.
from lindzeeleigh :
You could always do pilates. There are loads you download off the internet and do in the comfort of your own home. I really like it. :) I think it is great you decided to have a baby in a couple years - you sound slike you have it all worked out. Exciting!
from starlight42 :
http://www.bookwyrm.us/100.html I had the link up but took it down since I didn't do much reading this last year.
from harakiri :
Thank you for the delurkign comment! :) I'm so very very bad at responding to e-mail, the girl child has decided she wants to party all night party all night and its wearing my ass out.
from ingridwrites :
Interesting question. Probably a question that a lot of people ask. I, obviously, never got to ask that question as fate struck me pregnant at a young age. Well, it was fate or stupidity. One child is the way to go IF you want to do things. They are easily toteable - if my daughter can't do what we are doing we generally don't do it. Like movies and dinners out. Vacations. We take her. We took her to Alaska on the cruise ship this last fall and the year before we drove her through three states/Yellowstone. Although we will be going to Sin City this summer, Grandma will watch her for that week. She goes visiting with us and shopping and, quite frankly, she is my buddy in most all things. I have always admired people who don't have children by their own choice. I think that must be a tremendously difficult thing to do, since people always assume everyone will have kids. My uncle never had children (by choice) and he hasn't regretted it a single day in his life. He has travelled the world and does as he wishes, when he wishes. I have no idea what that kind of life is like. I do agree with you on the not having kids past 30. I didn't want them past then either for the selfish reason of wanting kids out of my house at some point before I croak! ;) I had Mini a month before I turned 30.
from lilpeanut80 :
Even if you are writting about yourself and the way you view the world, in 5 years you will be a different person, so your diary will have served its purpose when you look back on 2006.
from starlight42 :
ohhh, good to know you like cheeseburger in paradise! I was thinking of getting the mushroom and swiss, I'd checked out their website. I love mushroom burgers. I read your entry earlier and couldn't think of what to say. I was going to think about it and come back. I think the way people write is just how they're feeling in the moment. I certainly feel like I write much differently then I used to. But, I guess you have to write what you feel, if you feel like sharing a story, you feel like bitching, or talking about the past etc. I don't think how you are is too realistic. I know people like the girl you described. There's a difference between being realistic and pessimistic. I mean sure, I'm probably more like you too and maybe to be more optimistic is better. But, it's better to be cautious then to walk aroudn with blinders on and fail! That's just my opinion. :) Have a good weekend.
from lindzeeleigh :
Cute puppies - I LOVE them! Makes me really want one of my own. I miss seing my puppy at my mom's house. Awww.
from starlight42 :
Oh man, that sucks about the paychecks and the car! This economy is so terrible that right now everything is going up in price, and wages are staying the same, which is basically like losing money each year because of the cost of living going up! Are your gas bills doubling over there? Ours are. Costs apparently went up that much. It's insane and I wonder where it will end. At this point though, I'm just so happy to have a job, and that Dave still has one. Keeping my fingers crossed on that since his company will be doing layoffs end of this month. So, that's what helps me get through this stuff, as terrible as it is, it's worse when you have no money coming in.
from lindzeeleigh :
Sounds like a fun challenege....:S Money sometimes makes me crazy. UGH! I feel for you. I know it will all work out though, things have a way of doing that.
from clarity25 :
I'm glad you're back! I'm sorry to hear about the new financial demands they're making regarding the company car and the pay check changes. I know how frustrating money issues are, especially when you have a plan and then it gets turned around a bit. Eric and I are just getting by, so when someone comes and pulls money out of our account earlier or at an unexpected time, we crash. I hate money stress. I hope you had a good New Years though. I'm wishing you the best for 2006
from ingridwrites :
Yes. Money does suck! Even though we make similar to last year (with me not working even) we seem to have less and that makes me worry more. Sigh. Such is life.
from nmnohr :
Yey notes! I'm glad you're back!
from lindzeeleigh :
YAY, your notes are working! I wanted to leave one earlier and say WELCOME BACK! :) Hope 2006 will be awesome for you.
from starlight42 :
I was wondering who you were yesterday and then I got your note! Yay, glad you are writing again. :) Hope you had a nice new years.
from lilpeanut80 :
It works now! :) Thanks for adding me as a fave! I look forward to watching your diary "bloom", or something. I wasn't trying to sound weird but I couldn't think of another word.
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