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hey. i joined ur ring sum time ago and put up the link for it on my diary. now due 2 my new layout the diaryring doesnt look as good. do u mind if the link is not up or wuld u like me 2 quit?

from inca-roads :

anxiously awaiting

from a-la-carte :

thank you.

from pianosa :

I had a friend whose mother was like that. Whenever she got a pay check, her mother would blatantly say: "Give me money, give me money!" I'm not kidding. Of course, her mother did have turet's syndrome.. Glad to see that you are back. I've been fiddling with my site finally and idly browsing the few notes and guestbook love I have and thought I'd check up on you.

from petrichor :

Ruth, you need some get-away time, reaally need it.

from girl101 :

i relate too. much. to you. exhibit a: I just need to do those damn English papers. I'm struggling a lot in English this year, which is particularly annoying because usually English is my best subject. But I just can't seem to be able to sit down and read stuff like the Canterbury Tales. At all. I've got the notes from Pink Monkey and I'm trying to start on my paper, but I can't even figure out what [insert my teachers name] wants it to be on.

from cw4418 :

the "fuck" diaryring IS fun~go you!

from tofukiller :

k you get a password. tomorrow.

from heysaydie :

as i reappear, you disappear.. breaks my heart. xoxo.

from guinevere77 :

I'm sorry about what happened, people you didn't want to know about your diary finding it and all that shit... Same thing happened to me not too long ago. If you've moved on to another diary, please consider giving me the address. I really like reading you.

from tofukiller :

aww ruthie baby. <3

from rightvsleft :

you suck. you locked your diary. i guess it's really not any of my business what you do anyway, considering we don't know each other and never have and in all likelihood never ever will. i'll just have to find someone else's deep thoughts to enjoy. thank's for all the memories! be good to yourself.

from veryfairy :

Awww. In those prom pictures you truly look like Miss Juliet with Romeo(from your expressions it's clear how in love you are), especially the one where he kisses your hand. You're changing so much...and always for the better. I'm very happy for you. Smile always.

from godlvr02 :

Did you know that gettin on birth control makes you a lot more in risk of getting an STD? heheh. Just thought I'd tell you that. Not just to be smart. I just thought of it. Well, you seem really awesome possum (really cool), so IM me sometime on aim if you have it. My sn is ChildofGod040887. Peace� ~*~Samantha~*~ http://godlvr02.diaryland.com username: outlook password: pentium

from jayw :

Fruck U!

from tofukiller :

roofie poo, get on aim.

from tofukiller :

you dork! you stole hannah's picture!

from bendme :

hello...you dont know me but i have been reading your diary for a long time and ive just decided to come out and leave a note...my name is lauren and i think you are just amazing. keep writting and dont loose the guy. he seems simply wonderful... so tell me more about your pretty self...love ya~lauren

from fallencupid :

Hi there! I just got done looking through your diary and I enjoyed it. I am sure I will come back frequently to see how things are going. In fact, I even put you as one of my favorite diaries. :-) Hope you get a chance to stop by my diary and check things out. Leave a note if you would like. Hope to see you around! :-) ~Fallen

from brutalsugar :

yah, so... i think you rock. :) consider yourself bookmarked.

from anesthetic :

Just thought I would say...I love your layout. Skulls are such cute objects. Very nice.

from renegadepill :

this is fun. rah rah.

from penguinwhore :

*wines* dude, i didnt relize i didnt have the code up, can i have it again....

from you-dont-see :

Hey, my name's Vanessa. You don't know me, but I've been reading your journal, and in a lot of things you say I totally know what you mean. I understand where you come from, and though you have no idea who I am, and this probably isn't something you want to hear, I'm here for ya. You know my diarylink [though its locked leave a note and i'll open it for you]. I know where you are, and I'm there too. Maybe we can talk. :) You're a great writer, by the way. :)!

from krunked :

Why, Thankee ... *lol* I loved your poem 'The Simple Truth' it was beautiful. I've never been able to write things like that. ~Krunked P.S. Your note made my day ::grins::

from linnyeg :

Hey im really curious as to what exactly went on up at the beach. Im kinda lost as to how the cops got into this and shit.

from bingoguy :

We are the sum our accomplishments and our mistakes. You're not a bad person. You're a person who did something bad. At least you realize that there are consequences for your actions and you're willing to accept whatever that may be. The fact your feel shitty about yourself, it's a good thing. It means you have some concept of right and wrong. It means there's hope for this god forsaken idea we call society.

from veryfairy :

hey.yah i just read ur little convo with cheerhchick and it kinda seemed a bit harsh. although i totally understand where you're coming from, talking to a 12-year-old isn't exactly exciting.just from reading your diary and from comments you make in it, i always wanted to ask you advice, make you feel better to some degree, and basically let u know that even though i don't know you personally i admire how you present yourself so honest and blunt.then again i figured you'd care less about talking to me and have every reason to b/c not only do u not know me but i am not that punk,say-whatever-i-want-so-kiss-my-ass type of girl. my point is, you give much of who you are and how you feel for others to read about and when someone like cheerchick, who you don't feel like talking to nor can possibly relate to, IMs you then it must have been because she truly thought there was something special about you. maybe she didn't say so out right but that was probably the case and she called you bitch b/c she was hurt by the "fuck off ur-not-cool-enough-for me" response she got from you. hope this doesn't sound like a lecture but remember that you might not be interested in the person, but the fact that they actually took even the little bit of interest in you is quite sweet, especially when they are random.

from sadeyes85 :

ok..so she's not your friend and hasn't been in a long time...i'm still not understanding why you would go say something harsh like that to someone you know is going to tell someone else..i'm sorry she talks about you...but wouldn't it cause more shit if you keep talking about her?? maybe eventually she would get the idea that you don't give a fuck about her... thanx for the note. and you have every right to be defensive..i would be the same way.

from sadeyes85 :

that was great how you basically directed your response to me...i'm not saying there is an afterlife..i don't believe in shit like that..I believe in fate just like you..but I can believe in karma b/c ne thing I have ever done in my life has come back and bit me on the ass. and i didn't just read 1 entry and blah blah blah..I read it everytime you update and i don't have to know your "the history of my friendships with people, the history of my relationships or the history of me essentially whatsoever read one entry in my diary and think they have a right to lecture me on karma and how I deserve everything that I get." and i don't know where the fuck you get i was lecturing you on karma..i said karma was a bitch..watch out..wow..what a lecture! put yourself in your friends position..you wouldn't exactly be thrilled if you heard this thing going around about you ...true or not. so all i was saying was have some common curtesy for your friends and what not..is it your whole goal in life to make them look bad..b/c if that's what it was..hey girl..you succeeded!!!

from sadeyes85 :

you were talking how you were feeling betrayed..and disrespected..um..not to burst your bubble or ne thing..but what you did to your friend was the same thing you are feeling. ok..maybe the 12 guy thing was true..but why tell your bf if you know he's going to tell his ppl?? karma is a bitch..watch out.

from pinkrazor :

if you changed because you were recognised you'd be no better than a pop star. i thought about cutting off my dead dirty blond locks and gettin myself some spiky pink hair but i got the usual "not while you liver in this house missy!" bullshit. gr.

from mojogrl :

Hey chica- followed your banner to get to your site. enjoyed your entry and your background. if you cut off your hair, donate it to Locks of Love - they use it to make wigs for kids who can't grow hair. That way, if someone gives you grief you can say "i did it for charity" and make 'em feel like jerks.

from tracybd :

Just read your entry - don't ever change yourself to become something you think others will like, or that you perceive will be desirable for the "masses" ... people read you because you're you ... you're wonderfully out there - beyond everyone else. I enjoy how honest, real and "don'tgiveashit" you are.

from cimerian :

Hello, cool diary. I especially like your poem, SIMPLETRUTH. Cool.

from badgergirl :

i'm sorry to have to tell you this...but i have your perfect guy. (well i don't know how you like your men to dress, but he looks sexy). i'm sorry...i hope you can forgive me ;) ellie xx

from cerebralgirl :

I am reading about the 1920's in class right now too (Feminism in America) and I am pissed because the white middle class were a bunch of thieves. I don't think it was punk. They weren't rebelling, they were taking culture (jazz music) from the blacks and calling it their own. They were obsessed with beauty and the new sexuality was strictly limited to heterosexual and was only acceptable in marriage.

from petrichor :

I think how it works is that what you tell your therapist is confidential. I don't know if it works differently because you are a minor. Good luck with everything.. my silence at your guestbook more denotes my near complete death of energy and will power. Keeping yourself busy, exercising or not, is generally a good thing. Sitting and rotting away like I am generally is a bad thing. Hoping the best for you.. petrichor

from billyidol :

hi. thanks for the comments. melt-banana scares me. o_o

from somastelford :

hi! just saying thanks for leaving me a message, i always appreciate it. your diarie's so great, especially the depression test. your friend meg sounds like one of my friends whose taking like EVERYTHING and still has a 99 average. it's crazy. i think i'd meltdown!

from pippin-took :

thanks. :)

from somastelford :

you're diary is really cute. i love it. whenever i get depressed i read it. it rocks! if you could check mine out i would be so happy (no this isn't a self promotional note-gah, i hate those, from ppl who havent even read your diary-i get rid of them) i just wanted you to kind of critique it or whateverrr. anywayyy keep up the good work ~soma

from caerydd :

hhmm, essay like� eeek! essays bad essays bad! *wanders off*

from caerydd :

In-ter-rest-ing. Perhaps only snippets of conversations instead, to help boost your thoughts�

from xxfadeawayxx :

During WWII the U.S. put Japanese in internment camps as well. I was actually going to write that but I never did. And fadeaway actually derived part from Empire Records when Rex Manning said "Why don't you all just fade-away" and part because I wrote a shitty poem called Fade Away once...It's somewhere in my diary, I'm just not sure where. And I think I will end this note right.....here.

from srch-n-dstry :

Do as the prompt tells you to do and remember: Search And Destroy. http://members.diaryland.com/edit/addpub.phtml?user=srch-n-dstry

from bunnyfool :

welcome to the ring where we celebrate habits of self destructive pleasure! i changed the code thingie today, but you don't have it up on your page anyway so it won't matter.

from darcyargue :

Thanks for joining the anti-hot topic ring!!!

from erica2175 :

thanks for joining the candy-canes diaryring! =)

from dazy81 :

Thanks for joining the weeeeeee diaryring. Drop me a note or email if you'd like the funny squirrel pic :) WEEEEEEEEEE!

from petrichor :

Well, I am relieved that my frequentness is appreciated. I'm sorry, but I don't see a a conflict-free future with Crystal. I tried to be as polite as possible without just letting myself be trodden upon. So, ya, sorry about that, I might have had a bite or two that I probably, come to think of it, refrained, but well I can't edit my own guestbook enties once the submit button is pushed. Pity. I actually have three internet diaries. One is kept secret and is solely for my darkest or deepest matters. Petrichor diary is pretty personal too, and compared to most diaries on diaryland, it is pretty deep and personal. But amazingly (perhaps) enough, I still have another diary for things even more personal and private than that. The third one I have not written in for many, many months. My advice for Tod for now is to be a ***little*** more forthright to him. See how he reacts. And I can't put my finger on a demonstrating example of this but... but... hmm... damn, I don't know. Maybe the next time he makes you guilty for something tell him that... no... argh... well, here's an idea: write an e-mail as if you were going to send it to Tod and telling him how you feel about the whole thing -- how you he often makes you feel guilty for innocent things or how you don't think you are ready for the kind of intense relationship he is. Don't send it, just write it. You might have already done this, but if you haven't give it a shot. I know you have written about it in your diary, but try it in letter form as if it was a real letter. I don't know. I am stumped for now.

from petrichor :

If I wrote in your guestbook as often and much as I do for my own diary, I'd easily be at my 100th entry by now - easily. And I have tried to learn how to write short guestbook entries, but damnit, its hard for me. I speak my mind and well, sometimes my mind rambles, a lot, frequently, actually most of my time my mind rambles, like right now.

from silverbiker :

you have such a cute diary! :)

from symmetrikan :

i have no idea wut the ice cream was all bout.. o wait.. i think it was when u had the links that read the ice cream flavors?.. or the entry titles that said it?. i have no clue.. =\ i'm a lamer.. sorrieZ bout dat hehe..

from rudey :

Yes, great minds DO think alike. Do you know how fucked up you'd be after seeing that much porn? It would turn your brain to mush!

from tofukiller :

yeah, jewels is pretty good. its what my gym teacher calls them. she's perky.

from tofukiller :

cause cause rezillos were making me all energetic. and the soy cheese i had was okay in a chemical cardboard kind of way, it was like soy mac n cheese.

from battled :

Hey Ruth, I love the new layout! (Just thought I'd add that...) Hope all is well.

from petrichor :

Now, if you were ugly, do you think you'd feel the same way? I personally don't care either way -- my life ambition is to be a hermit and live in a forest. Heh. Sad thing is, I'm not kidding. You know what I am going to say: you're getting/are depressed. When you kid about dying et al and were laughing about it, I've done that and do that too. I took a life expectancy test a couple of years ago that stated rather bluntly that I was going to die by age 21. I often joke about that: "Oh, damn, two more years ago!" and the likes. And just over the course of a few days now, well, put it simply, I may have cancer. And I really don't know what to think of it. It really hasn't changed my thinking very much. Maybe I am just in shock. I wouldn't be able to tell either way. And I am not here to inspire you to live. I don't know why I do any of things I do. And I don't even know where I am heading in all these words. You're smart, attractive, and have the quality where people can love you, like Steve did or does. And, maybe, maybe I even envy you. I do not understand when I read certain things. It is probably because I am naive or dumb. I do not understand why people want love, but then they avoid loving someone because they don't want to hurt them. Is withholding love, loving them? And I guess by love I mean in all its degrees, crush love too. Anyway, I'll end this rambling.

from emeraldmound :

excellent news. your life is complicated enough without that to add to your angst. Seems today everyone had a bad start to their day...Seems all those intelligent people forgot that they alone are responsible for their own behaviors. In other words, if you get screamed at for being late, it does not help resolve the situation to scream back.You are still late. You end up feeling bad and hating people for the rest of the day Your sleepless dad is not your problem. Take responsiblity for youself to get up in time. . How about getting a better alarm clock system so you can wake up in time? One simple change of behavior that will generate more positives. I am still trying hard not to be too preachy - trying to be helpful with suggestions and maybe a differing point of view that you have not considered before. One of the things I admire about you is your willingness to consider differing points of view.

from emeraldmound :

Pregnancy comes to mind as symptons can include fainting, hormonal mood swings -- such as today -- and fatigue.

from emeraldmound :

have you eliminated the obvious reason for fainting?

from petrichor :

Duller? Actually, I find your latest entries interesting. The ones around the period where you wanted to "walk on the wild side" were the ones that rather bored me.

from biglizard :

let's travel 'round the world. just you and me, punk rock girl.

from petrichor :

The thing si, a part of him is in you and vice versa. No matter how much I bitch at everything and/or you -- compared to what I've had in my life, you still had something special. And you do. And perhaps you did experience true love. And I'm not saying this to be the optimist, but simply to correct a silly Hollywood myth, that true love can only happen once. Sure, it doesn't happen left and right, but is there some written law out there that its "only once". And I don't doubt that some people will never experience true love, that some people will experience it and lose it and never have it again, but -- but I bet there are some people, somewhere out there who have lost true love and, later in life, find it again. It won't be the same love. It can't be. But just because it isn't exactly the same doesn't mean its lesser or even greater. It may be just different. Now, you also have to consider that this entire philosophy is based on entirely no experience of my own. So, eh. Good luck.

from forgiveness :

Is that you in your diary? The girl in the background of your entry page is lovely. Have a good day.

from emeraldmound :

I would like to share my latest diary entry with you. I have been trying to follow the suggestions. Suggestions! Not commands; not advice. I thought you might want to think about these suggestions as well. I hope your encounter with Steve was not as awkward as you feared.

from nakedthought :

i think i've visited your diary before. did you just change your layout or something? :)

from emeraldmound :

Congratulations! You indeed sound like you are starting to pull your act back together over the past few days. Sounds like you have been doing some serious thinking. The quality of your writing -- your unique and enjoyable viewpoint on life -- is beginning to emerge again, after being gone for so long. Seems to me that you are enjoying being "in charge" again of your life -- instead of being a typical girl, you are indeed emerging as atypicalgirl.

from heysaydie :

there is no need to worry...

i've learned my lesson from my past 2 journals that i've had on here & deleted ALL the entries because i flipped out.. but ahhh yes, i'm nowheres near dematerializing from here!

muahahahha!!!!!