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from fan4 :
What's the name of your new diary? I'd like to check it out.
from confusedpain :
Hi! I'm a new diary for survivors of anything. If you've survived, you're welcome. We're an anonymous diary where you can come to vent, and no one has to know who you are unless you want them to. We also have a feature where you can become a regular member. If you plan on posting more than once, you have the option of having your name under the members list on the entry pages. All you have to do is leave a note and I'll put you in.
from less-than3 :
congrats! :) please send me the diary name? xox
from yvette18 :
hey michelle I would love to continue reading your diary. Congradulations on the new start, everyone needs one.
from nicky-d :
You know I definitely would love to continue reading about your life, Michelle, especially this wonderful new chapter, so if you wouldn't mind, please pass along the new diary name. :) And I'm so thrilled for you guys. Much love and happiness to both of you! :D
from less-than3 :
holy moley! congrats! you sound so happy! and you deserve it!
from nicky-d :
I'm so unbelievably happy to hear that you're so happy and apparently found the man of your dreams. I hope this is just the beginning of a lifetime of happiness for you two. :)
from less-than3 :
I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
from less-than3 :
oooh. there's a story there. eagerly anticipating... :)
from less-than3 :
wow.
from nicky-d :
I'm so sorry to hear all that happened with your sister. I hope things don't get as bad as they were before with her. Hang in there. And I certainly hope you feel better, too! Keep your guard up with the boy (I would, too, of course), but hell, let him treat you like gold, too. You deserve it. :)
from less-than3 :
yikes! hope you're okay. hm...painkillers?? heheheeh. and YAY for roses. rock on.
from less-than3 :
yay for dates! you rock hardcore. i'm so happy for you. i love when you sound happy.
from less-than3 :
*hug*
from nicky-d :
Fuck yeah! Vent your heart out. But, fuck, what the hell? I can't believe he's being that way with you now. Write or IM me if you need to. *HUGS*
from dododing :
YOU ROCK SSOOOO HARD!!
from less-than3 :
what a fucking dick. alkdjfa;ldkj! that's all i have to say. dickdickdickdick. *hug*
from nicky-d :
Hey, I'll be around on IM if you want to talk tonight before you go to bed. If not, you can always e-mail me and let me know what's up if you need a "fresh ear" for what's going on. *hugs*
from dododing :
I think punk rockers and their hair are cool. Tell Benny to go eat his own shit.
from less-than3 :
woo hooo! virginia beach!!! VA is going to be all about non-health (running? who needs it! hahaha!) and vices (i've started smoking too. shhhhh). and we're going to love every freakin' minute of it! woo hooooo!
from nicky-d :
*sigh* When will men get brains? I really hope he wakes up and realizes soon what an amazing person you are and how much it would benefit him to admit that you would make his life that much more complete. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you! :)
from less-than3 :
wow. i'm speechless. everyone's writing classic entries...and yours is stellar. it just sounds so....sad. :( xox
from less-than3 :
nice jacket, sexy. ;)
from dododing :
Write more journal entries terd head.
from yvette18 :
yay,congradualations, you are doing so well. I am happy for you. *smile*
from less-than3 :
congrats on the JOBS!!! wooooooo hooo!
from dododing :
I think the trick is to find someone who truly loves you REGARDLESS... after that I don't think there's any "risk" that that love wouldn't take. Look at me. I am a total wreck in relationships. Sam's been hurt 100 times over but we have that "regardless" kinda love. He's willing to take any risk just so he doesn't lose me. That's the kinda love to look for. Remember "regardless love."
from less-than3 :
ugh. med withdrawl suuuuuucks. bleh. but cereal and protein shakes RULE! w00t! hang in there, doll. xox.
from nicky-d :
Hey, I just read your last two entries. I'm glad you seem to be feeling better, but I hope you know that you can always pick up the phone and give me a call if you need someone to talk things out. I don't care what time it is, okay? Just hang in there, girlie... *hugs*
from less-than3 :
goddammit....*hughughug*...get your ass online and talk to me. please? i'm so worried, because i've BEEN there. please?
from less-than3 :
send me pictures!!!!! :)
from less-than3 :
my grandmother visits me all the time...in the form of ladybugs. (long story) but yeah. it's such a cool feeling.
from nicky-d :
Wow... that's so weird that we both just updated and mentioned our deceased grandparents. I'm *sure* your great-grandmother is proud of you. I've been wondering about the same thing with my grandfather, only I just don't know... :\
from nicky-d :
Awww, I'm so glad that you're having a great time there. And whoo-hoo! for a new boy. Can't wait to hear how things progress. Keep us posted! :)
from less-than3 :
YAY!!! sounds like you are having a BLAST!!! WOO HOO!
from less-than3 :
hey hon. i hope all is well with you. xox. i know you're having a rough go. i read your locked diary...the your dr's right...welcome to the club...*sigh*
from nicky-d :
You're NOT alone, I promise. (But, I do know what you meant.) I'm sorry you're going through this, but if he doesn't realize what a huge mistake he made, I KNOW someone better will come along soon. I'm here if you need to talk, okay? *hugs*
from less-than3 :
...sometimes, you read my mind...xox
from emiline220 :
Hey, so sorry about you and Benny. Can I have the password to your new diary, please?
from nicky-d :
Michelle, I'm sorry things turned out the way they did. But, I do believe it's like you said - things turned out for the best in the end. I'll be honest and say that I think he was kind of dumb in using his past as an "excuse," but you probably truly are better off. If it's meant to be, your paths will cross like this again. If not, I am SURE you will find someone a hundred times better. It may not feel like it now, but I truly believe that. Cry as much as you want for however long you have to. It's healthier that way. As always, I'm here if you need to talk. You know I know what you're going through, so I'm more than willing to listen and sympathize just like all those times you did with me. Love ya'! *HUGS*
from less-than3 :
oh my god. xox. i'm so sorry. i'll be reading the other diary later. but...oh god. *hug* i'll check up on you later...
from less-than3 :
*waves* can i have the password? if not, no big deal. but, you know. i thought i'd ask. xox
from less-than3 :
yikes. i hope you feel better soon. :( good luck tomorrow too. give me a full report. i miss you. xox
from less-than3 :
wow, a lot of symbolism in that dream. oh, by the way...your images are gone on your diary. :(
from suggest :
you've been suggested as a great diary :)
from less-than3 :
you are so the epitome of grace and maturity. i wish i could learn those things...
from less-than3 :
yourself is #1! xox
from nicky-d :
Good for taking care of yourself first! :) Question... not that it matters, but is Rick gay? Because, ummm, why would he have that book? Hehe.
from less-than3 :
hot damn! woooo!
from tothefloor :
hi, i'm a new reader of your diary and i've already learned something new. the sharks in the gulf? i wouldn't have suspected! thanks, elle-emme
from nicky-d :
Wow, glad you didn't get eaten by a shark and that you got your purse back! Talk about luck! :) Sorry the boy is being stupid, but I'm so glad you stood up to him about that. I hope you guys figure out what the deal is once and for all; I know how much being in "limbo" can suck. But, hey, at least you got some fun out of it. ;)
from neon7c :
*hug*
from neon7c :
welcome back!
from neon7c :
*hug* i'm SO sorry about the whole benny thing. come find me if you need me, okay hon? oh, and yes, gay men SO rock! i'm with ya on that. xox
from molzo :
Mmm...I hope everything works out with you and theboy. If he needs more help, tell him I vote for you! That could be the tie breaking decision or something. And who cares if he doesn't even know me. I'm a very important person, right? K, I'm gonna stop babbling now. Anyway, I hope everything works out, and I hope you have a good day!
from neon7c :
oooh. sounds promising. hopefully??? i need an update!!!! aaaagh
from neon7c :
hi? haven't see ya around lately. how are things. i'm thinking of you. xox
from neon7c :
meh. you didn't get it? :( WTF? i sent it to the address that was on the return address of the card you sent me. crikey hell. i'm sorry about that.
from neon7c :
first of all, love the new layout. 2nd of all...i'm praying for you, hon. keep me posted. xox
from neon7c :
woo hooooooooooo! birthday sex!!! hope i get some this year. i have to wait until the end of july to find out. dammit. heh. and woo hooo for post-marathon partying!!!!! xox
from laurie2002 :
smiles and Happy Birthday! woohoo, you go!
from neon7c :
oh, do tell about your birthday evening! can't wait to hear! woo hoo! happy birthday my love. xox. ps - check your mailbox. the real one that the letters come in. not today, because, you know, i'm slow like that. but probably tomorrow. depends on the USPS, i suppose. :)
from nicky-d :
Happy, Happy Birthday, Michelle! I hope you have a wonderful day and an even greater year. May you get all happiness, love, and success that you desire. You deserve it! *HUGS* :D
from neon7c :
*hugs you supertight* YAY!!!! YAYAYAYAY!par-tay! [in 4 months] heh.
from nicky-d :
I know all of those "What if?"s all to well. As much as it sucks, time will definitely answer each one of those. I'm sure you'll get what you want, though. You deserve it. :) Feel better, too, and good luck on your exam!
from neon7c :
"I'm confused about my relationship right now. I guess I shouldn't try to put labels on anything." -- *sighs wistfully* yeah. preach it, girl. meh.
from neon7c :
you guys are TOO FUNNY!!!! :)
from neon7c :
it's so hard when they leave and you REALLY miss them. i wish i could say it was getting easier for me. but it's not. and being the paranoid little freak you know that i am...hehe. but it's my turn this weekend - i'm the road trippin' fool. wish me luck. xox
from special-ones :
i like your layout...just thought i'd drop by and see how a fellow spark is going...i can't believe you swing dance...! i've always wanted to learn how to do that, but i've never got around to it...
from neon7c :
yay! sounds like you're having a blast! yay for losing weight, but keeping the rack!! heh. i hear ya on that one, girl!
from laurie2002 :
The key to your baby coming out looking just like you is to love, love, love the baby's daddy the whole time your pregnant. What do you mean old wives tale? hmmmm! Oh, and I'm open for business so no need for a password. If I ever close again, I'll send you a password. :)
from nicky-d :
Glad to see you updated! I've been wondering where you've been. Sorry to hear that you've been sick, though. Even though it sucks that it led to your getting sick, at least you had a good time. Yay! Hope you get back to feeling well quickly. Talk to you soon... :)
from neon7c :
ugh. being sick sucks. being depressed sucks. *hugs* to you my dear. catch up soon, yes? xox
from emiline220 :
That's awesome about your walking! It's a great thing to do and I'm glad it's making you feel better. I've started walking a lot lately, too, so I know how great it can feel. Anyway, I donated some money to your cause. Hope it helps!
from neon7c :
wow. you had such a great weekend!!! i did too. ;) we'll have to dish soon! and i would also like to volunteer my services as a personal cheerleader for you! you've got awesome goals, and i have all the faith that you'll reach them!!! maybe watching you as an example will help me get MY ass back in gear [she says while munching on a blueberry muffin...] love you!!!
from starkitten01 :
Well, what counts is you updated. :)
from neon7c :
awwwww yeeeeahhh! you are a total BITCH. :) i love you!!!
from emiline220 :
Hey, I'm glad things are starting to work out for you. Keep it up and all the bad stuff will be a distant memory soon!
from neon7c :
<3
from lauralgood :
Hey you. Glad you are feeling better. Try to keep smiling. Laural
from molzo :
I can't tell you everything will be ok. That is such a relative term, and I believe it's the person who makes the situation ok. I can tell you that I used to ask God "Why?" all the time. It never really got me anywhere, because there isn't an answer...and if there is an answer it generally ends up being something like, "because he doens't love you" or "because that's the way life is." Neither of those answers is ever helpful...at least not to me. I'm pretty sure it's not a sin to pose those questions to God, though. It's hard sometimes, really hard. I could give you a bunch of advice right now, but I'm pretty sure you're not feeling the advice vibe. I just wanted to let you know, that I can dig what you're feeling. I know what it feels like to believe your life is limited and there's nothing you can really do about it. I'm sorry. I'm listening, though.
from prettykay :
hey it's kay (from the spark) i've seriously forgotten the password and I wanna write already! doyouthink you could help me out? i tried to e-mail molzo but she hasn't responded yet :-( (kayREMOVETHISdkinz@aol.com)
from neon7c :
ok. apparently the FDA wants all these warnings on our "happy pills" that we could become suicidal and want to self-harm, too. god. first me, and now you? i just want to fucking cry. you don't deserve this. you're always telling me how strong i am, and that i'm a fighter. well, now it's my turn to tell YOU. so many similarities between us -- not least of which is that we're survivors. it's so hard to have faith right now. trust me, i'm trying, and i didn't have even NEARLY as much as you to begin with! our day will come. i'll be praying for you today. you know where to find me. and i owe you an email too. i love you sweetie. xox
from dododing :
Here goes, about the sleeping pills...Keep in mind it's not the sleeping pills that are bad it's the ABUSE of those pills. Second issue...if someone is bugging you to do something you don't want to or can't simply tell them to fuck off even if you have to be a bit hardcore with it. YOU ARE YOUR OWN PERSON (See it's coming back to haunt you-are you still doing your morning theraputic talk?), don't let others push you into something you don't want.
from neon7c :
your entry directed to pete ...god. it's as if i could have written it myself. xox
from neon7c :
thank you for the compliment on my entry. heh. i just wrote another one. sheesh. it's all about catharsis today. oh, by the way - fanfuckingtastic weekend. <33333
from neon7c :
i know exactly what you mean about the whole not wanting to talk on line for hours on end thing...i've been going through that lately. the away message is our friend! hehe. love you!
from neon7c :
hot damn! congrats on the weight loss, chica! that ROCKS. and i think you've got the right idea about "dating hiatus" [which i've always called "boy hiatus"] -- don't stress it. but if God happens to drop a boy in your lap...lol. of course, i SAY these things, but we all know that i don't necessarily practice what i preach. here's to boys dropping in laps! xox
from nicky-d :
Hope going to the doctor gives you some relief. Let me know if there's anything I can do for you. I know what those late, sleepness nights are like, too, so if I'm up late again one of these nights, I'll try to remember to hop on to AIM and we'll chat and keep each other company. Feel better soon! :)
from neon7c :
stay strong, hon. we'll catch up soon - hopefully tonight! xox.
from nicky-d :
Thank you so much for the e-card, Michelle! It was such a sweet message, and I appreciated it a lot. You've been more than a great friend, too, and I appreciate that more than anything. *hugs*
from neon7c :
you're very welcome sweetie. xox. it should have been completed and sent a while ago. you're just an amazing friend, hon. you've been there 2000%, and you have no idea how much i appreciate it!
from nicky-d :
I'm so very sorry to hear about your cousin. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. *hugs*
from neon7c :
oh my god...there's really no words, are there? you know my heart is breaking for you and your family. if you need me, i'm here.
from emiline220 :
I'm so sorry. I'm keeping your family in my thoughts.
from neon7c :
happy un-anniversary! you know what i mean. :) i'm sorry you had a rough night. i'll email you today! love you!
from starkitten01 :
Hope you had a good trip out this way! Have fun..Don't let the men thing get ya down. Smile. :)
from neon7c :
men. pfft. who needs 'em??!! heh. hey, i got your card yesterday. damn girl, you made me cry. in a good way. :)
from lauralgood :
well it can only go up, right? keeping my fingers crossed. laural
from nicky-d :
Awww, thank you! I wish you all the same and then some in return. :)
from neon7c :
i <3 u so much!!!
from neon7c :
hm...are you "falling"? :)
from neon7c :
hm. maybe your swing dance partner will be hot! heh. shocker...that's the FIRST thing i think about! ;)
from dododing :
Dance lessons... I know you'd be good at the suicide hotline but let's face it - when you surround yourself with something you start thinking in that aspect and right now you need all the positive influence you can get. I think right now the suicide hotline would bring you down. Go for the dance lessons.
from kaykay99 :
I think the swing lessons would be more beneficial to YOU in the long run. At this point you're trying to focus on unburdening yourself and by volunteering for something like a suicide hotline you'd be creating extra pressure. It would force you to deal with individuals going through situations that may be very close to your past situation and you may have trouble handling that. I'm not saying that you WILL have trouble, I'm just saying you might and I think you should do something that is just for you right now. You deserve it!
from lauralgood :
I understand there are good points to each choice you have. I feel you should take the dance class, however, as you need to reward yourself for the hard work you have been doing discovering your emotions. Make sure you tell us which you choose. love me.
from neon7c :
call me the morbid one [shocker, really...], but i think you should do the suicide hotline. since i know from personal experience that you're quite good at that sort of thing. xox
from yvette18 :
I think you should do the dance lessons and the dance afterward.
from lauralgood :
I am hoping for you too. You can do it. Hope your day is glorious. love me.
from neon7c :
wow. great letter to dustin. and what your cousin said that you should say to yourself everymorning...is exactly what my mom told me last night...wow. xox
from lauralgood :
love your new look! congrats! love me
from emiline220 :
Thanks so much for the e-card. That kitty was so cute! And re: your template, I like it, but the picture never shows up when I go to your site at work. It works fine for me at home, so I'm not sure what the deal with that is.
from lauralgood :
oh ok. good luck getting it fixed. I know it is a pain. laural
from jeris-song :
sorry guys...this is michelle. i fucked up my template by mistake...aarrgghh!!! so I temporarily locked my diary until i get it fixed again. sorry about this. check back in a couple days.---michelle (bttrflychic)
from lauralgood :
I am glad you are beginning to adjust. I hope we get to talk soon. Keep smiling! Laural
from sheldonius :
Here's a simple little note I wrote. you can't smoke it, or make a boat. it's wont lose you weight from under your coat. nor help u know where to vote. But just maybe, it will make a you wanta quote. To a person that you wish to dote. Some wonderful words from this simple note... Be Goodly. S.
from lauralgood :
Hey girlie. Just wanted to say I am thinking of you and hope the next 7 months pass quickly. Don't get mad at yourself for being angry. There is a reason for it. Just don't stay in it for too long, if you can help it. love me.
from neon7c :
<3
from neon7c :
i don't think you set a bad example at all. i think that, at some point down the line of "recovery" , you figure out whether you are someone who "can" or "can't". i don't think that there's an absolut [ha ha, pun intended] yes or no across the board. i think that's an individual determination. [the AAers would KILL me for saying that] ;)
from neon7c :
yay for a happy v-day!!!! :) and about the wagon - just be careful, ok? i'm not lecturing or anything. just be careful. if you've got the self-control...the damn, you're a better woman than i!!!!! xox
from yvette18 :
I am happy that you had a great time, and glad that you did not fall off the wagon. *smile*
from neon7c :
sounds like a great song. :) you've come into your own, girlie. that's for sure. i haven't known you that long, but knowing what little i know of your story..it's obvious how great and strong you are!!! i love ya! happy valentine's day. :)
from yvette18 :
I cannot find the older entries titled what you told me, could you direct me to them?
from yvette18 :
wow really emotional husband. I did not know you were married. I forget, how old are you again? You are good at writing poems, those words just came so freely. I am happy you are not being hurt by him anymore.
from neon7c :
oh my god. i hope both you and your sister are okay. hopefully we'll catch up soon. :)
from yvette18 :
my goodness girly, you be careful, a whole couch falling you. wow, and you lifted the thing over your head too? you are stronger than me. *smile* I hope your sister will be okay, that is horrible a hit and run. You sound so busy girly. Slow down a bit. I tell myself to do the same, but I am going to run myself into the ground.
from non-descript :
Nothing too out of the ordinary for me: Khakis (kind of like a tan color), green long sleeve shirt, white t-shirt underneath, my dark brown jacket. The shirt was new, everything else wasn't.
from barely-jeri :
They usually ask a ton of questions, but I just make some stupid lie up. I told once and they did have him arrested in may, but that was as far as it got. and that just pissed him off. not gonna try that again. wouldn't matter if i hid the pain pills, he can tell if i've taken them - i get loopy. i gotta run, dogs want out. ttyl
from lauralgood :
Hey you! I am glad you did the survey though it sure seemed like it was going to be more fun in the first part of it. by the 80th question I was like: shit I have to finish this because I started it, but I am not sure i want to! I hope you have a wonderful night and I will talk with you soon! Hope your health gets better. Love Laural
from yvette18 :
I am sorry to hear that, I hope with through physical therapy, you will be okay.
from emiline220 :
Well, I have had pinched nerves before and my mom had disk problems in her back and I can tell you both are very very painful. I think they are pretty fixable though and not a long term thing. Either way, it sucks and I'm sorry you are going to have to go through it at all. I'm going to take your advice about the melatonin. I'll tell you how it works out. Thanks. Feel better soon.
from yvette18 :
I would not know what a blood clot felt like, but I have had a cyst on my spleen that bulged out, which I Had to have surgery for in July, so I think having a pinched bulging disk in the back would feel worse. YOu don't have both do you?
from neon7c :
:(
from lauralgood :
hmm. that is a hard question. I have had back pain though and I will pick the bulging disk because I don't know what having a blood clot would feel like but I know I hate back aches. Laural
from yvette18 :
I am glad that you had fun at the concert. I hope that you do not have a blood clot in your leg, that would horrible.
from neon7c :
ooooh. i hope you had fun! do give the details when you can! :)
from lauralgood :
Make sure you tell us how the Symphony is. I am sure you will be moved by it. Oh, by the way I am sorry I have missed you online lately, I have been running 50 miles an hour this week and just have not had time to talk. I know you understand that, though. Have a wonderful day! Laural
from yvette18 :
oooh, I have never been to an orhchestra performance before, sounds fun.
from lauralgood :
I am sure you know that you are playing the savior role in your family (I play the same role in mine) and you need to remember to take time for yourself or you will burn out quickly. Try to take time to relax. talk with you soon. Laural
from emiline220 :
I don't know how you do it sometimes. Sorry about the rough day with your family. Hopefully, now that you have some answers (albiet, not from the expected source -I can't believe the doc never got in touch with you, that is just lame) you and your sister can move on and get better. Hope today is nice relaxing day for you. And I'm happy your kitty is fine too.
from neon7c :
wow. i'm sorry for your rough day. i've had the same problem with p-docs not getting back in touch in a timely manner. sheeeesh. you really are amazing, you know that? wow. you'd be a great p-doc yourself!!! xox
from yvette18 :
wow really emotionaly draining entry. I am so sorry your family is going through so much right now. I will keep all of you in my thoughts. Yeah, my mom is bi polar too, but she has never had the wrong med combo to make her do stuff that she normally does not do. It very hard to live with a family member who has a mental illness, but the Lord helps us through it.
from molzo :
Hey, I enjoyed the entry on porn and masturbation. Iw as going to say something else, but I can't remember!
from lauralgood :
I will add you to my aol buddy list. my name is glaural on it, by the way. I really liked your answers to sheldon's questions. I love the fact that you are open to those types of questions, so many are not. I am going to answer them in an entry as well. He sure is a cool guy, huh? I think he must of found me through you, so thanks. I hope your night is wonderful. Laural
from yvette18 :
lol, it is true, that girls do masturbate, do not let them tell you otherwise either. *smile*
from sheldonius :
Legend answers m'dear! I like the fact that u comprimised your good image, and fallen on that sword pour moi.. You totally made my day, I am truly honoured.. Thanks Gurl. There will be many more questions to come in the coming weeks. Stay tuned. Mwaaah. S.
from sheldonius :
Shit, Shit, Shit... sorry Laural... I am so used to typing the other that i typo'ed in here... Shit.. sorry.... I hate that. (Shakes fist at screen)
from sheldonius :
Ahh its good to see that you and Laurel found each other too... you are both random finds of mine, and its cool to see you relating :-). As for the story.. it will come soon.. I keep getting blocked even though i know the ending.. Glad you like it tho.. its my second ever story, so its a little basic :-).. Take care you.. Heart S.
from lauralgood :
It is always good to figure out a way to describe yourself. Quirky-alone is as good as any...I was really surprised when I found out even a Man can be a feminist! But it makes sense if you think about it. Laural
from yvette18 :
you sound like just a great person in general. If you are happy being single, great for you, but I do believe that love will come knocking on your door one day when you are least expecting it.
from laurie2002 :
Hey! I found ya! :)
from lauralgood :
Keep feeling well. Thinking good thoughts for you. Laural
from emiline220 :
I'm glad you finally got some sleep and are feeling better. I hope it continues!
from lauralgood :
you sure are a sweet lady! I hope people tell you that a lot. Laural
from neon7c :
that sounds AWESOME! i can't wait to hear more about what you'll be doing. it's about time you feel better, you know? ps - i'm ok. i'll email you to explain. xox
from yvette18 :
hey there, just wanted to say hello. I am trying to get better acquaited with the other sparklers.
from neon7c :
ugh. i hope you got some zzzz's, hon. xox
from emiline220 :
Those dreams you are having right after you fall asleep that feel very real are called Hypnogogic Hallucinations. They are a form of parasomnia. I had those kinds of dreams a lot when I was very stressed out, but I haven't had one in a while. The feeling of paralysis comes hand and hand most of the time. It can be very scary, but I have gotten to the point where I can realize that I am having a hallucination and it doesn't scare me any more. I talked about it in an entry sometime last fall and I also know some good websites to visit if you want some more info. Just knowing that those dreams have a name and that other people have them too was enough to make them stop happening to me so much, so I hope it's the same for you. Email if you want to talk. (((hugs)))
from lauralgood :
I love bringing up baby! Girl thanks for the encouragement in my "crush" though I doubt it will go anywhere. It may just be good fantasy material, though. either way it will be fun. I am going to add you to my buddy list ok? Laural
from neon7c :
hey sweetie -- just wanted to let you know that your notes link doesn't work. and i've tried to put my mark on your map, and it won't show up! arrrrrrrrgh!
from lauralgood :
Just thought I would say hello since I was in the neighborhood. Hello. Laural
from neon7c :
*mwah* anytime. :) what are friends for??
from neon7c :
*hug* oh hon, i wish i knew what i could do for you...i'm so sorry you're going through this. email me if you need me. xox
from neon7c :
hmm. perhaps. good theory. oh, and thanks for your sweet IM. i'm starting to lose hope that i'll get better...EVER. xox
from sheldonius :
G'day Michelle, Thankyou for your note gurl, thats exactly the way I feel too, just that sometimes the sun fades the lawn furniture that is me, and it was a truly hot sunny day yesterday.. So a few drinks, and lack of Z's put a few slashes in them and what you saw was the result, a simple reflection. I guess what I am sayin, is thanks for taking the time to write such a long note, I have been down the dusty track of "living up to someones sun spotted expectations", and have learned thats not to take that one again. Thanks, Be Goodly. S.
from neon7c :
oooh. good luck on your 1st day!!! *hug* abnormal psych is AWESOME! of course, i'm a head-case, so psych classes always rocked, in my opinion! i know that stored deep somewhere in my parents' house, i have some of my psych books packed away -- i kept a bunch of them from school, because i love that stuff. let me know how it goes!!! xox
from barely-jeri :
Hey. Yes, I do have AIM. My screen name is onexmorexhour. Talk you you soon. Jer
from lauralgood :
I think your new layout suits you really well. It is pretty. I emailed you my friends name let me know if you get it. Hope your night is good. Laural
from barely-jeri :
Hey. Thanks for listing me. I read some of your diary, and it appears that we have quite a bit in common. I'd like to stay in touch with you, if that's alright. My msn is i_jeri@hotmail.com and yahoo ID is princesskiller375. xx
from lauralgood :
Hey girl. One of my best friends, Michael, is from picyune. He is a bit younger though (22 or so at the most) so you probably don't know him. Your layout is nice; I like that it is a bit understated but that is just my taste. Change at will that is the best way. Hope your sleep is good. I will be checking back to your diary. I have for the last few days or so. Laural
from vacantlegend :
doesnt sound familiar .. im sorry .. but hey, i may be easier to continue this conversation thru email or AIM or somethin .. my contact info is everyhwere :) -0ut
from neon7c :
*bighugeoutrageoushug* i don't know what to say...
from neon7c :
*hug* thanks hon. i love you too. i'm just having a really rough time in my head right now...
from lauralgood :
Hey. I live in Biloxi. I like it. It could be more exciting at times. I will be looking at your diary more as well. I really like your layout. And your idea to live on a farm with your pets. I miss the country. I can't remember if I read you were in Tenn now? I just met a really nice guy from Memphis. Now that can be fun place. Stay happy. I have no idea why I am writing in short choppy sentences usually I am the queen of run-ons. Thats better. Laural
from vacantlegend :
Ello :) I am in pensacola, and i do wonder if i kno him? i kno alot of ppl, but not nearly all fo them .... um ... so yeah ... grr?
from lauralgood :
Drinking sweet tea from a mason jar is the only way to go. No doubt. Have a great night. Laural
from no-regretz :
I love your template. It's plain but catchy.. I really have to like people's templates before i even begin to read their diary. does that show im shallow? hmm.. haha anyway ima read some more than just your 100 things.
from captainron :
Good luck with the rest of your life :-)
from nicky-d :
Hey, Michelle! Yep, I know that this is your new diary, and I finally got around to updating my buddy list last night. Sorry it took me so long! As for my nickname, well, most of my family knows that this is a nickname that was given to me by my friends years ago, but they never call me that (no one close to me actually calls me "Nicky"). But, they've sometimes seen/heard me refer to it, especially if they have my AIM SN, unfortunately. Hopefully, my sister won't think to look it up on D-land! As for my trip next month, I'm not going to GA. I'm going elsewhere. I don't think I need to say specifically as I'm sure you can probably guess. So... yeah, I'll leave it at that. Anyway, this note is insanely long already, but I'm loving your new diary! Once I get all caught up on my diaries, I'll get back into commenting more, I promise. Until then, glad to see you hanging in there. :)
from loopyboi :
I'm a man, and I am admittedly a jerk. But I'm gay as a picnic basket, and I think that gives me "plus points". ;) Nice diary. :) ~ Jamie
from vacantlegend :
Coolies. Yep ... out of words ... Coolies.
from neon7c :
uh oh...i see from your rings that you're a pacey lover too...back off! he's mine!!!!! :)
from neon7c :
wow. this was an AWESOME entry between you and "self". self is a smart cookie -- so are you. *hug* ps - SO great to talk to you last night...i hope you got some rest!!!
from neon7c :
you are too cute for words! yay for faces to names!!! and the kitties are adorable! and crawfish...yummmmm. :) love you!
from petrichor :
Well, perhaps it seeing it as a tragedy that the baby was born on that day, perhaps look at it that something incredible and good also happened on that day as well. Any day of the year if you look deep into it has loads of tragedies and triumphs, sorrow and joy, its just life.
from sheldonius :
G'day, I was jandomly passing by, and read your words... Keep the faith. Ghosts of the past lead us to te lights of our future... Be Goodly. S.
from neon7c :
testing 1-2-3. hi chica!
from bttrflychic :
testing

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