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from dangerspouse :
It's now mid-August 2020, and if memory serves Lara should be around 3 now, no? How about an update on that? Hoping you're all well....
from whaleart :
"Bam chicka wa wa" -- got my attention immediately. Hahahaha.
from strawberrri :
It's a 7.45 am slot luckily. I'm going to take a load of food with me for when it's finished! Yes, not long now :) Hope Mel is doing okay with her twins! Starting to think about birth now - how terrifying. I have to have IV antibios as I have strep B (going to start taking some prego friendly probiotics soon and eating a load of yogurt, just in case that helps). Hope Lara is bringing you lots of joy xx
from strawberrri :
Thanks! I'm about 7 and a half weeks I reckon, so Mel's a bit ahead of me. My gran was a non-identical twin, eek. Did my first pregnancy vom this morning :'( Luckily it was just a glass of water xx
from strawberrri :
Ps. Just read your entry. So sorry to hear about your friend Mel, but exciting she's now expecting twins. Lara is completely cute and adorable. Congrats on the night training! xx
from strawberrri :
Coughs like a 20-a-dayer! Funny but also sweet and sad, hope she shakes it off soon. Thanks for the Mothercare tip, really good to know. Hope they don't go bust in the next 8 months! Still have terrifying 12-week scan to get though (13th April) however xx
from strawberrri :
Hey! I haven't been on Dland since Xmas so sorry for being so slow to the party. Sorry to hear Lara was poorly although hopefully that's all a distant memory now and she's back to being a happy cherub. What did you use to cart Lara round the parks on your hikes? Asking for a friend! ;) Xxx
from dangerspouse :
Thanks for the birthday wishes, babe! And yeah, ain't those cakes grand? I was pretty sorry not to get one this year. Oh well. Awww, I'm sorry to hear Lara's sick. I hope she pulls out of it soon. And...CHECK IN TO THAT MOTEL FOR AN UNINTERRUPTED NIGHT'S SLEEP! That's better than any old cassata, I can tell you that. :)
from dangerspouse :
Hey hey, great to see an update! Great to hear things are going well with you and the sprout. Merry Christmas, and looking forward to reading more from you in '18!
from aryssa90 :
Glad you and Lara are doing well!
from strawberrri :
How you going Holly? Hope all is okay with Lara and you're not TOO sleep deprived xx
from strawberrri :
Hi homy (just tried to write Holly but homy will do!), I bet you are doing amazingly, even if it doesn't feel like it. Sorry to hear you're finding it tough :( Do you try and do one outside the house thing per day, like a walk to a park? Hope things get more fun v soon xx
from narcissa :
7-14-17: oof, sounds really tough, I don't know how anyone does it. Hope it gets easier soon.
from blujeans-uk :
Ah, the monotony of small baby parenting. Yep. It eats your soul. It will get better though as she starts getting a bit more interactive. I remember feeling such utter relief when Mario would come home and I could have a brief respite from the relentlessness of it all. It helps to get some mum friends.. does your health visitor have any contacts? Then you have some other people going through the same thing and you get a bit of peer support. Don't feel guilty about naps. I still love nap time. You are still you, not just mummy now, and its easy to get lost when you're up to your eyeballs in nappies and lamaze hallucinations, but this too will pass. These are the longest weeks. But pretty soon you'll be looking back and wondering where the hell the time went. Big hugs xxx
from onlyemma :
Congratulations on beautiful Lara! You have done so well. I felt quite emotional reading your entry because your experience was so similar to mine in some ways with your birth and then feeding afterwards, but I have to say that you seem to have coped a lot better than I did! As Kirst said in her note, I had an emergency c-section as well and it sounds like we had similar complications, I only got to 5cm and never got to push either, I was totally gutted too, so I really feel for you. I still get teary when I think about Ruth's birth because it was horrific and I felt cheated, then when she was finally here all I felt was guilt, fear and burden and I felt no joy whatsoever. But thank goodness you can't undo it and there's no CTR ALT DEL, because it does get better and you will be happy again even if that feels very far away now. You will find a new version of normality in your life that you will truly enjoy, I promise. If you ever need to talk I'm off Facebook but still on messenger, so feel free to get in touch. I second the Lansinoh cream that Kirst mentioned, I remember asking my midwife if I will ever stop thinking about my boobs all the time, but everything (EVERYTHING) improves, that is a fact. Keep going, you are doing better than you think. And well done too, you have done amazingly well this far, you need to give yourself a lot of credit. All you can do is keep going, don't beat yourself up, ask for help when you need it and be kind to yourself. Lara has an amazing mum, she is very lucky.
from blujeans-uk :
Well done Hol, sounds like an awful time. You should talk to Emma, she had an emergency section too. And the first few weeks are just a shit storm of guilt and anxiety that no one warns you about. At least pommy didn't have to go back to hospital like Emilio did- you did well to avoid that! It will get better. It's always hard, in different ways, but she's here and she's safe, and that's about as much as you can hope for. Lansinoh saved my nipples. Big hugs xxx
from strawberrri :
God, being trapped on a hot, boring, noisy ward sound hellish. I am SO pleased and relieved she made it here safely. I hope you are feeling much better, physically and mentally. I can't imagine how hard it is being flung into new mum-hood, especially with c-section recovery, anaemia, bleeding nipples (sounds horrific) and the like. Big love to your new family! Xxx
from dangerspouse :
Man, that account took almost 42 weeks to read! But worth it, of course. CONGRATULATIONS! What an ordeal for Mom, though. Wow! I've read that childbirth places as much stress on a woman's body as going through a war. Sounds like yours was the 30 Year War! Glad to hear you've finally been rewarded with such an amazing gift after your long travail...even if that amazing gift shits all over you while you're trying to tend to it. (My wife has the same complaint about me.) All the best, and again: woo hooooooo! :) (ps. I wish you'd stuck with "Pommy". Oh well.)
from aryssa90 :
So happy for you! Pommy is beautiful! Lara is a beautiful name but I'll always think of her as Pommy lol :)
from strawberrri :
Still thinking of you Holly. I hope she's out now and everything is okay. I keep stalking your Facebook for news like a weirdo. Much, much love xxx
from dangerspouse :
Crossed, crossed, and crossed. Good luck - hope you do it naturally too!! Awaiting the good news :)
from dangerspouse :
Haha! Hang in there, Tubby!! I'm sure you'll be back in fighting trim sooner than you know it, once you get that homunculus out :)
from strawberrri :
Thanks! I'm making myself useful today by doing boring chores for moving, like booking removals (and now fretting they're not going to turn up) and researching doctors, dentists, broadband and the like. Oh my god you are so close to your pommy arrival date, it's so exciting! I'm sure you definitely look pregnant, not barrel, but i can imagine that's how it feels since, y'know, you're carting another human around squashed up against your guts. Hope the next 35 days (and any beyond if she arrives late) go smoothly, that James's parents' visit is a breeze and you get as many naps as possible. Will be thinking of you over the next few weeks! :) Xxx
from onlyemma :
Oh it's so nice to read your diary again. I'm so happy that you're having a baby! Sounds like you're coping well, and I can commiserate on the lack of sleep in pregnancy as I was fine until 30 weeks and then ended up waking up at 4 every morning after that and watching a couple of episodes of The Good Wife before I could go back to sleep. I didn't know about the sieve! I was in the pool for some of my birth and it wasn't mentioned but sadly I found out you're not allowed to wee in there, they make you get out! Horrifying :( hope you don't mind me reinstating myself as a regular reader :) x
from dangerspouse :
Ooo, I've got a really nice sieve you can borrow! Er, I mean, have.
from strawberrri :
Holly! Left you a note on kirsty's diary (by accident) x
from dangerspouse :
Woo hoo! The world needs more girls! Congratulations :)
from dangerspouse :
Haven't been able to check in for a few days (weeks?), so it's quite a relief to read things are still going well! Well done, and...are you gonna share the 3 shortlisted names?? Don't tease us like that!
from strawberrri :
A couple of hours sleep is better than none I suppose! The heart stuff sounds ghastly but you're right that it'll pass (and be massively worth it when she's here). Jenn had her second baby, a girl named Eva, in November and had a really good birth (assisted by apparently awesome epidural), which I was so pleased to hear do actually exist :) That's so kind to ask after my dad - he's quite chipper really! The op removed all the cancer and he's finished round 1 of 3 of follow up chemo before a reversal op someone in the spring to remove his stoma. Feeling positive. May Santa bring you all the sleep you could wish for!! Xx
from strawberrri :
Happy Christmas Holly, James and Pommy bump! Six days without sleep though...Man, you can just reel that out when you want to get her to do the washing up or something. Here's to the home stretch of your pregnancy - I so hope every day is a little easier than the one before. What a lovely and exciting time xxx
from dangerspouse :
14 weeks! And yoga! And the British Bakeoff show!! Good to know that there are still things left to cheer about, Trump/Brexit or no :)
from dangerspouse :
While I was away for a few weeks there I often wondered how you were faring. Great to see you made it through 14 weeks and things are still looking good! Well done :)
from blujeans-uk :
Yay baby! Xxx
from strawberrri :
Awesome scan pic...yaaay! 8-) xx
from strawberrri :
I'm so sorry you're having such a shit time. It definitely sounds good to just take each day in a series of small steps and you shouldn't feel you have to socialise at weddings or anywhere else if you damn well don't want to and it will affect your health. One day this will be a distant memory and you will be in love with a wee person who is half you, half James! <3 Xx
from strawberrri :
Thank you Holly. Had an agonising 2 week wait to find out if the cancer had spread to his liver (they found an anomaly in a scan) but it's thankfully not so he can have his operation in a few weeks, so keeping hopeful. Also hope you're doing okay with everything! xx
from dangerspouse :
Yowza! I feel bad complaining about a mere Girly Arm now (tragic as that my be). Geez, you sure have been getting walloped there. C'mon, beta blocker time!! And to answer your question(s): yes, that's what Labor Day is REALLY about. And the reason you can't wear white after it is that white signifies virginity, and if you've gone through labor you're obviously not a virgin. So, no white for you. See how it all falls into place now?
from strawberrri :
Lovely, exciting news Holly! I'm hoping your next entry will be about strange cravings - how about cauliflower dipped in marmalade xxx
from dangerspouse :
Good luck this time. Seriously, I hope for the best for you here.
from dangerspouse :
LOL! /your "bleeding a bit again" made me cringe, so we're even. And for what it's worth, I have always imagined James as a horse. :)
from strawberrri :
Oh Holly, that sounds a horrible ordeal - you're so brave to go through it and to speak about it so eloquently in your entry. I'm really glad you didn't have to take the methatrexone, sounds nasty stuff. Here's to a new month and new opportunities. Big love xxx
from dangerspouse :
I'm very sorry to hear of your continuing travails, but it is heartening to know that James and the gang are so supportive of you. All the best.
from strawberrri :
OMG, just caught up on your entry. I hope you're okay! Xxxxxxxxx
from dangerspouse :
You...you two have sex while walking around?? Maybe THAT'S your problem - leakage! "And on that bombshell..." Anyway, seriously, I'm sorry you're still not great with child. But have you at least considered sharing your travail with the in-laws? Or they not the sympathetic, understanding types? If nothing else, it would keep you from having to hide your urine. I know how much trouble that can be when I myself attempt that. Especially at work. CONGRATS ON THE CAR!! But, er, not to use the phrase "typical woman" or anything, however...you didn't say what kind! Sheesh. Women!
from strawberrri :
Christ, getting pregnant sounds complicated! Many days of high fertility sounds good though and I'm still keeping my fingers crossed it happens expeditiously for you :) I just saw your note...thank you! I just realised I wrote my part 1 wedding tales 40 days ago, oops. My gran died two days after my wedding, which was good in a way(totally sounds the wrong word to use) as it meant my aunt and uncle didn't have to abandon the wedding to be with her (my aunt and mum got a phone call the day after saying it was likely she'd pass away in hours) and my cousin and brother (who live in Dorset and Germany respectively) were able to see her a last time. I loved my wedding car, even sans exhaust pipe xx
from dangerspouse :
Thankfully, once I discovered the wonder that is Sippy Straws I've never had to lift a beer, wonky elbow or no wonky elbow! And you can't fool me - you and your twin sister are BOTH sex goddesses of the first order. Say it!
from dangerspouse :
Don't kid yourself. You ARE a sexual, highly seductive Love Queen. I know. I have the internet.
from strawberrri :
Thanks! My wedding feels a lifetime ago already - you will be celebrating your one-year anniversary in no time! xx
from blujeans-uk :
Don't try, just shag. The stress will not help things. Don't worry about windows, just enjoy some spontaneous nookie! His swimmers will be better if you're doing it regularly, not saving it up for one day a month x
from strawberrri :
Good luck with all the baby stuff! Jenn's sister fell pregnant first go (honeymoon baby!) but jenn herself took a good 10 months to fall prego so my advice would be don't fret. I will keep my fingers crossed for you though :) I don't want one just yet - need to buy a house (outside of london) first and not have to give birth in Whitechapel hospital or indeed anywhere in London preferably xx
from strawberrri :
I slept terribly Friday, Saturday and Sunday then I was so exhausted yesterday I slept all night, except I had the crazy pudding dream. I tried on my dress today to make sure my shoes went okay and I'm now even more ridiculously excited, aaaaaah! Xx
from strawberrri :
It's 12th March, three weeks today! Guess what Holly, a wonderful doctor has given me many propranalols (shr said "save the rest for when you're giving a presentation or flying"). Actually managed to cram wedding anxiety in to the end of my acne appointment for which I now smear a vile-smelling macrolide antibiotic on my face twice a day. I love the NHS. Your honeymoon looked and sounded INCREDIBLE! Xx
from dangerspouse :
"Prude DNA"? In the land of Page 3 girls and Graham Norton? Hmmmmmm....... I'm not sure my Lacaster City grandmum would agree. (GO DOLLY BLUES!!) :)
from dangerspouse :
SOFT porn? You want me to dial it back?! Damn Puritans....
from dangerspouse :
I can well imagine that you never want to see another episode of CSI as it is, so I'm not surprise. Anyway, brilliant pictures and even more brilliant writing. That was a very fun read this morning for me, and I've added you to my favorites. All the best in your marriage going forward! I hope you enjoy as happy, long, and satisfyingly filthy a union as my wife and I have :)
from dangerspouse :
Welcome back! Watch any more CSI's since you've been home?
from strawberrri :
Ahhhh I have to look into these ebay sparkly hair pins! Hair is sorted now THANK GOD. She tried two styles on me yesterday. I've decided to go for this one http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v344/strawberrri/myhair_zpskpkg9fpa.png as from the front I look exactly the same as I always do, just with a little bit of back-combing and a tiara. And she's suggested I get a few diamante pins for the little bun! She tried this style too http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v344/strawberrri/myhair2_zpsvk6ujfql.png which after I saw the photo I thought looked nice from the side but it was a bit weird from the front and not really like me. I go back for my final hair and make-up trial two weeks before the wedding anyway as she wants me to try all the slap and hair with my dress (luckily all trials after the first one are freebies) so I can still tweak things if need be xx
from strawberrri :
I had a Christmas miracle and all my spots died for Katie's wedding last Saturday! The make-up lady just covered up my scars with foundation which did the job perfectly :) It was such a fun day too, but I did have a nerve attack walking down the aisle (to Jurassic Park!). And I was soon relaxed and laughing as Katie over-enthusiastically said "I do!" as the registrar was still reading out the words. I've started thinking weddings aren't half so bad and scary - I'm still so glad you ended up having a wonderful time at yours :D xx
from strawberrri :
I've just caught up on your incredible wedding entry (I did an actual LOL at your sister and Ryan "hooting away through the wall" at your photos). I'm so glad you enjoyed your wedding day in the end (it sounds like it all went pretty seamless! :D ) but sorry that stress got the better of your heart beforehand, that's just really rubbish. Your friends sound brilliant though. And bless your gran. My current biggest worry for my wedding day is dreaded acne. I have had what is essentially a boil on my chin for the past two weeks (Ollie likes to pretend he's scared of it and run away) and have given myself extra spots by putting foundation on it to cover up the redness. Sigh. I have started taking Dianette from my doctor but I'm still waiting for it to kick in. Anyway, enough rambling, I hope you are having the best time on your honeymoon!!! xx
from strawberrri :
Thank you thank you thank you in advance for the beta blockers. Although maybe I will see if I can find a sympathetic doctor to give me some of my own prescription!? We'll see. One hour of sleep is rubbish. I remember jenn's husband had 0 hours the night before theirs and when my cousin got married last month my aunt said she'd had two hours a night in the week running up to it. WHAT'S THAT ALL ABOUT EH? We finalised pretty much everything with our reception venue yesterday. I'm kindly allowing Ollie to spend £50 of our wedding budget on balloons :) xx
from strawberrri :
You did it, YAAAAAAY! You looked utterly beautiful and not at all stressed from the FB photos I've nosily peeked through xx
from dangerspouse :
Yeah, I know. Now stop messing around with D-Land and get back to your haggis (or whatever euphemism you use for it)! ;)
from dangerspouse :
Congrats! And may I add: those are three beautiful dresses. Many happy years together :)
from stepfordtart :
enormous amounts of love and good luck wishes to you both - may you have all that you truly wish for. xx
from strawberrri :
Oh God, you're nearly there now Holly...you can do it! I just want to wish you and James a tonne of luck and enjoyment for your wedding day tomorrow. Not sleeping is de rigueur but I'm sure you'll function on wedding day excitement :) Sending you all my positive thoughts and love. Will be thinking of you! <3 xxxxx
from blujeans-uk :
Sending big love and the very best wishes for Friday. What will be will be and things usually turn out alright in the end! xxx
from aryssa90 :
Good luck! Stress is totally normal, I probably aged ten years in the week before my wedding. Also, I was told that it's kind of good if something crazy happens because then that means the rest will go smoothly? I dunno how true it is but, the main part to remember is that you're marrying a person who loves you and that's the best part. Also, when the actual ceremony is done, alcohol. Lots of alcohol.
from dangerspouse :
Ah yes. Wine cures all ills!
from dangerspouse :
If you want your marriage to last, NEVER do arts and crafts together ever again. Trust me on this one. Have fun at the wedding, and all the best for a long happy life together!
from strawberrri :
Haha, I've had "Thank god I'm not pregnant" periods too! 10 DAYS HOLLY! A terrible thing happened this evening - I looked in the evening invitations (about 18 of them) and realised they all said "Please RSVP by 31st January 2015". I nearly cried. It's both our faults; Ollie made the inserts and I proofread them (albeit whilst knackered/hungover on Sunday). I have had to PHOTOSHOP THEM WITH MY OWN HAND. Here is one in its blatant doctored-ness for your amusement! http://smg.photobucket.com/user/strawberrri/media/RSVP_zpsxvcgin6m.jpg.html
from strawberrri :
YAAAAAY, glad your period arrived timely! You look perfect xx
from stepfordtart :
You look lovely, just as I thought you would. The pre-dinner thing sounds vile. Sit where you damn well like, next to people you actually want to watch eating and everyone else can fuck right off. Life is too, too precious and short to have a miserable time when youre supposed to be celebrating. Let the misery belong to others and their self-imposed constraints. They are twats. s x
from strawberrri :
BLAH! I think I want plum dresses for my bridesmaids (I've seen lovely ones in Debenhams), I'm having about four different purples in my bouquet, most likely Cadbury purple for groom/best man/ushers' ties so nothing is going to match at ALL! I cannot believe how close your wedding is, and will be insanely jealous of your freedom from wedding planning forevermore :) xx
from blujeans-uk :
If you think wedding dreams are weird wait till you have pregnant dreams.. Seriously bizarre.. And for the record, our ties didn't match the dresses, or anything else for that matter. I couldn't believe slaters didn't do hot pink or lime green! Missing a trick there! (and I couldn't be bothered trying to source them elsewhere) Don't sweat the small stuff... Just enjoy the day and all the days that will come after when you're actually married! X
from stepfordtart :
I feel your pain, I really do, but Im laughing so hard at this entry. s xx PS no fucking WAY can extra guests come at the last minute. No. Fucking. Way. Thats outrageous.
from strawberrri :
Thanks! I'm glad my dress is sorted :) The only other bits I'm looking forward to is wedding ring shopping and bridal jewellery and jewellery for my bridesmaids shopping. I am not looking forward to invitation-making (which needs to start soon), table plans and many other things which I've surely blocked from my mind out of sheer despair. We're having a non-religious ceremony - not even sure if we're going to have readings and whatnot. We had to pick some vows from a booklet the ceremony venue sent and without fail I plumped for the shortest ones of each set. Plus there were stupid ones that said things like "our family and friends have an important role in our being together" and "saying the words are easy, but being married is an uphill struggle" (okay, I'm paraphrasing/slightly exaggerating but some were bloody awful!). I think silver and blue go awesomely btw. I will keep my fingers cross for you to be sans period on your wedding day!!! Xx
from strawberrri :
Paper lanterns are great! Jenn had those in the marquee used for her reception and they looked brill. We're having 50-55 day guests then a few more for the evening. In my heart of hearts I would prefer maybe a 20 guest wedding but family eh! I have a dress! It's this from Monsoon http://uk.monsoon.co.uk/view/product/uk_catalog/mon_4.1/3531574608 I had a 20% off voucher too which means we can spend extra money on booze and a 'cake' made of roundels of cheese!! Ollie has painted little peg dolls to go on top :) I am enjoying your wedding planning diary entries v much xx
from strawberrri :
We have to provide our reception decs too - we're going for flowers in jars and candles in jars with a bit of fancy ribbon/netting. Luckily Ollie's sister is doing a flower making course and is offering to do these flowers for us but we tried it out ourselves with supermarket flowers and it looked lovely and rustic! Ollie keeps talking about balloons which makes me go scrunchy faced. Or what about napkin rings in your colour scheme...oh I don't know :) I clicked back an entry to see you in your dress again. Love it so much! Xx
from stepfordtart :
I TOLD the Chinese five-year-olds to make those for you. They were cool with that. s x
from stepfordtart :
If I lived nearer and we were proper real life friends I would totally come and do your decorations. I love all that shit, me. :-) s x
from strawberrri :
You look so so SO beautiful in your dress...exciting wedding times!! xx
from blujeans-uk :
On the subject of readings, the one from captain corelli's mandolin is lovely.. The one about the roots.. Emma had it at her wedding last week and it's a really nice non-religious piece x
from blujeans-uk :
The dress is beautiful Hol.. Good choice! How long to go now?
from stepfordtart :
gorgeous frock! s x
from student-bum :
You look incredible in your dress. Seriously. Pretty much did this face: :-O So glad things are going well in the run-up to the wedding. I'll drop you a facebook message soon and we can attempt to catch up properly at some point xxx
from strawberrri :
Hello, Holly, hello! Sorry if this note is miles late - I never get email notifications from Diaryland anymore. So sorry to hear about all the crap with your dad, and the palpitation stuff, but luckily (!!!) you have all the wedding prep stuff to take your mind off things!? My date is 12th March next year, so absolutely ages away, yet it still feels like there's something to do almost every day (or Ollie to do rather, as he has taken the lion's share of the work due to my tendency to have mini meltdowns every time a decision needs to be made). However he thought small cacti would be a good favour idea for our guests. Who in their right mind wants to spend their evening with a cactus in their possession!? You are quite wise to avoid wedding fairs. I'm sure that aloe vera woman must have seen the fear and unease in my eyes as she harped on and on, and don't get me started on all the £600-odd cakes. We're doing M&S or Waitrose cakes I reckon. Thank you so much for the kind beta blocker offer - will definitely take you up on this when it's time to get me down the aisle! :D xx
from stepfordtart :
I used to drive to Norfolk (Hunstanton) every November for the east coast guitar show. It regularly used to make me cry. Once year it took an epic seven hours (from Winchester). I feel your pain. s x
from stepfordtart :
Uurgh. Wedding planning. Have you got to the stage where everyone can JUST FUCK OFF yet? You will. Here's my wedding plan advice: have whatever you fucking well want and everyone else can go to shit. If they dont like it they can stay at home. Oh, and first person to say "but you've GOT to have..." gets a punch in the face. s x
from strawberrri :
"...whenever I feel sad I just picture him eating a steak with picnic cutlery and feel a lot better." AHAHAHAHAHA HA :) X
from randomrabbit :
That made me happy reading you're engaged, congratulations x My heart is well and truly warmed, and I'm pretty sure it's not just indigestion.
from strawberrri :
So heartwarming - so so happy for you lovely pair xx
from student-bum :
Ooooh yeeeeah ENGAGEMENT! I know I already did the whole YAY thing on Facebook already but you can never have too much of it. With regard to readings, I'm doing one for my brother's wedding - The Ent & The Entwife from LOTR. It's quite nice and not too mushy, although I keep imagining reading it dressed as some poncy elf. Anyway, my long-winded point is have a look to your favourite literature, as you may find something suitably non-Goddy and close to your heart :) xx
from stepfordtart :
Amanda just sounds like a DREAM! s x PS I hope gram's selfie was a duck-face selfie cos, really, whats the point otherwise!? :-)
from strawberrri :
Happy happy happy birthday for tomorrow! 29 is quite pleasant :) xxx
from stepfordtart :
Merry Birthday, old pip! s x
from student-bum :
Whatever it is, being proactive may make you feel better. Chatting to someone (anyone, even if it's just the Samaritans) about it may help, possibly a visit to the GP if it gets really bad. But, please do something about it - my relationship recently broke down because he was depressed and didn't do anything about it until it got to breaking point, and he stopped feeling anything for anyone at all. Also, a holiday may help, or a weekend away - a change of scenery can do wonders. Good luck, and you definitely won't feel this way forever *hugs* xx
from strawberrri :
I don't think I can offer any decent advice so... *massive hug*. Exercise can be a mood booster, if you can overcome the dread of thinking about having to do it (see, my advice is terrible!). I hope you feel lots better soon and that you can open up to James, if you need to xxx
from strawberrri :
Thanks, it is very yay! In the week I might try and make him a celebratory never before attempted lasagne in my new le Creuset dish :) xx
from strawberrri :
Thanks, it is very yay! In the week I might try and make him a celebratory never before attempted lasagne in my new le Creuset dish :) xx
from aryssa90 :
Bachelorette parties here don't usually suck. They usually involve copious amounts of alcohol, tight clothing and possibly male strippers. It's like a giant party for girls to be crazy. I've never heard of Disney characters being involved in a non-naughty way :) Hope all is well with you and yours!
from aryssa90 :
what's a hen do? Also, what disney character were you? And also, I hope all turns out well with your gran!
from stepfordtart :
hen nights suck hairy goat balls. s x
from strawberrri :
My blood is boiling on your behalf...your poor gran and what a fucking scummy sub-human shitbag. What about an attack alarm (not linked to the police station or owt, just makes an almighty racket)? I got handed one by some nice policemen when I was out in Greenwich a while ago at night. It has a little torch thingy and if you pull the pin out it emits an ear piercing alarm intended to spook any predator. It's just been sat on my shelf for a couple of months so let me know if you want it for her and I'll post it to you. This isn't anywhere near as bad but some teen boys conned my gran into paying them 45 fucking pounds to mow her lawn. She is nearly 88 and has dementia. Luckily my uncle had popped round to check on her and caught them. One of them gave his name as Will Smith! Unfortunately old ladies alone in their homes are a source of worry for their loved ones. I hope yours is okay after this and knows she is lucky to have such a lovely caring granddaughter xx
from stepfordtart :
Aww, thanks for going to that trouble for me, I really appreciate it. Guess I'll just have to obsess over something else then, huh? ;-) s x
from stepfordtart :
Found out recently that there is a higher than normal risk of bone cancer in breast cancer 'survivors'. Know anything about that (so I can obsess over it, natch!)? s x
from musikoid :
You're welcome. :)
from strawberrri :
Oh my god, poor Hannah :( At least now she is in the safest hands. I hope she has a speedy and full recovery and I hope you're okay too - what a horrible shock xx
from musikoid :
I just prayed for your friend Hannah and I hope she's okay. I admit I only clicked on your name out of boredom, just a name I didn't recognize here. A few months ago, I got dehydrated from running and had to go to the hospital. They said the potassium levels were too high (from dehydration) and I'd have lost a kidney had I not gone in. I hope she survives this all right.
from stepfordtart :
Argh. Poor thing. Fervently wishing for the best. s x
from strawberrri :
Ps. My sympathies with the hangover. The Friday before last I got smashed with my friend Katie on fizzy wine (luckily most of the drunkenness was in the safety of my flat). At midnight I proceeded to phone Ollie (who had to be up early for a wedding next day) and apparently sang that Avicii song at him and was incomprehensible. I had no memory of this entire event until he told me the next day and I checked my phone record xx
from strawberrri :
Oh Holly I can't tell you how pleased I am that you're diarying again! I am slack (though an excuse is I've been away camping til yday) but sometimes things happen and I think "I will want to remember this". I'm not ashamed to admit I've read parts of my own diary from years back and started cracking up at something funny I'd completely forgotten. Fingers crossed for Miami - that sounds like it'd be an incredible experience :) xx
from stepfordtart :
Yes. Yes I would. The configuration of basin/loo seat/cistern lends itself particularly well to all kneeling/bending/resting-of-foot combinations. Oh, and there's a mirror. And wipe clean surfaces. s x
from stepfordtart :
We dont have a computer room but I dont consider a house is truly mine until Ive fucked in every single room in it. Even the downstairs lav. s x
from aryssa90 :
I've had computer room sex. I loved it, those computer chairs are really handy.
from strawberrri :
Oh thank you so much! I was wondering whether the docs might be sympathetic - I was allowed valium for flying to Vegas, but it made me a bit sleepy. Getting married's not on the cards yet but Ollie and I are planning on moving in together in Feb, yay :) xx
from student-bum :
I BLOODY LOVE STRIP THE WILLOW I DO.
from stepfordtart :
*kind of
from stepfordtart :
Yeh, me too! Suki is kin dof ok for a name....as long as their surname isnt Fukifivebucks, I guess. s x
from blujeans-uk :
I'm still reading! I saw a documentary about hippos once that made me so sad - there was a bit about this lil baby hippo swimming alongside its mother and the narrator was saying how it had to stay close otherwise the dominant male would attack it because it was competition or something, but it got separated and the big boss hippo killed it, then it showed this little dead baby hippo just floating in the water... :-( Boo.
from stepfordtart :
Happy Belated Birthday! 27 seems SO long ago to me now : ( s x
from blujeans-uk :
I think the five-year point is when me and mario had a similar chat. We'd not really talked about it before we got married apart from him saying in passing one time that he thought he'd be married with kids soon after graduating the first time. 3 degrees later, and here we are!
from strawberrri :
I think it's perfectly natural to talk about things like whether you're gonna want to have children (it's a bone of contention between my friend Katie and her boyfriend of three years, as she does want them in the future and he doesn't but I suppose may come round...he's 30 this year). It all sounds exciting though! And not knowing stuff about the future like where you're going to be living can be fun too :) xx
from stepfordtart :
This entry made me laugh - it was very much needed, so thanks. s x
from stepfordtart :
Mmmmmmm, nice geetar! s x
from shot-of-tea :
Such sad news about John, thanks for letting us all know xx
from strawberrri :
Hi Holly, thanks for saying about John - I don't think I would have ever known otherwise. I have so much sadness in my heart about this as he was a good guy and very kind :( More positively, I'm glad James makes you really happy xx
from blujeans-uk :
Omg about john! How did you find out? Thar's so sad, i'd noticed ge hadn't updated in a while but thought he was taking another break. Poor guy. Also, hello and happy new year and a belated thank you for the note :-) xxx
from stepfordtart :
My mum (72) just got a kindle. She's not exactly techno-literate so I may have to warn against the [email protected]'s as thats exactly the sort of thing she'd do! Sorry to hear about John - I only 'knew' him by reputation, but it was a prodigious one nonetheless. s x
from student-bum :
That's really sad about John - I knew him on and off. Such a shame :( xx
from stepfordtart :
Looking forward to hearing about your new geetar - my husband was UK Takamine endorsee for yonks so Ive heard everything there is to say about electro acoustic guitars over the years. Hope you get something splendid! s x
from stepfordtart :
My mum (73) also had a Kindle for Christmas, despite not having a computer or any kind of internet access with which to load shit onto it. My kids have been helping her. Bless. Oh, and I had a glass cabinet courtesy of a deceased grandparent but I lost custody of it when I got divorced. Boo. It was a very pretty mirrored little thing and it was filled with pretty little glasses. *feels wistful* Now we have a massive bar in our house filled with glasses which hold large amounts of alcohol. s x
from stepfordtart :
Happy Hogmanay to you too! s x PS We once had Indian food for Christmas dinner, but we went and fetched it on Christmas Eve and they did us some special stuff that we could heat up on Christmas Day. It was really good........but not at ALL Christmassy. We enjoyed it, but we all felt a bit short-changed, to be honest - especially as there was no leftover cold turkey for sandwiches in the evening!
from randomrabbit :
I've got a thing where I can read someone's symptoms and develop them so I really hope I don't as that sounds like a right old shit fest. Hope your Christmas makes up for the recent crappery x
from strawberrri :
That sounds bloody horrendous! I had some antibiotics once whose side effects included nightmares and I did have nightmares until I stopped taking them (I can't remember what they were unfortunately). I wish you a HEALTHY 2012 lovely Holly xxx
from stepfordtart :
Oh my goodness, what a time youve been having! So sorry to hear - it sounds like its been awful, but very glad to see that it looks like you might be on the mend. Hope your Christmas turns out just as you'd like. s x
from stepfordtart :
Oh my goodness, what a time youve been having! So sorry to hear - it sounds like its been awful, but very glad to see that it looks like you might be on the mend. Hope your Christmas turns out just as you'd like. s x
from strawberrri :
Last night I dreamt you were picking me up in a street near my mum's house. Our mode of transport was a flying contraption, a bit like a Batmobile mixed with a Chuckle Brothers self-pedalling affair. It had dangling fake bats and we had to REALLY will it to get up in the air if we wanted it to take off (I am actually laughing to myself as I type this) :) x
from strawberrri :
Hi Holly, thanks for your note - only just saw it today so sorry for the delayed reply, but it meant a lot! I hope things aren't too bad and that CBT is going alright if you're still attending the sessions. I still feel a bit lost, albeit without the pressure of having to find somewhere else to live right away, although I need to face up that I can't stay here forever. However apparently there's a bird sanctuary round the corner so that is cheering :) xx
from stepfordtart :
Oh, and my husband is a professional musician/producer so I am appropriately impressed with your Martin Simpson gift! s x
from stepfordtart :
Thanks! Dont worry, the CBT entries are still interesting - not everything's got to be sunshine and rainbows. I know we only just 'met' but I wish the very best for you with this. Im sure its not going to be the easiest thing youve ever done. s x
from stepfordtart :
Hi! I see we have quite a few buddies in common. If you dont mind me reading, would you please send me a p/w to [email protected] or leave one in my notes and I'll delete as soon as I see it. Thanks everso. s x
from frogeye :
Screw the shrink. Set up a tribute web page for your mom, one for yourself to visit. Express your feelings to her on the page and write to her regularly. I did something similar for my dad who passed away when I was very young. Made me feel great.
from strawberrri :
I hope it all goes as well as it possibly can. Fuck off, palpitations. Sending my love xx
from student-bum :
Good luck with the CBT. I'd love it if you did keep us up to date on how it goes, partly because for all I've studied CBT I still don't know anyone who's actually experienced it (and mostly because I just want it to work for you!). It's meant to be very effective for your sort of situation, as you probably already know, and I really do hope it goes well xxx
from theswordsman :
"updated more than 3 months ago" ***crickets chirping" ***thick layer of dust on the template***
from blujeans-uk :
Thank you! Did you decide to defect to blogspot in the end? Miss you on D-land!
from randomrabbit :
Noooo don't leave diaryland! I know it's not very good. Or even any good, but I'm terribly fond of it and the people who still write here despite it being a bit crap.
from theswordsman :
Hey Hols. If you switch, I'll add you to my Google Reader. I've done cycling blogs on Blogspot, but since I'm set up here to avoid search engines and things, I won't post my life out there. I'm not locked here, but I figure it's part of the Dland give and take that strangers who post here are welcome to read me if they want. I understand about wanting to leave things behind - I've gotten fresh starts with new usernames in the past. Updates are more scarce now that people are out of uni and don't write about jumping on a bed flinging apple cores out the skylight, or bravely capturing spiders under a glass in the bathroom:) So write wherever you're comfortable and it's convenient. Take care
from student-bum :
Up to you! I'm only moving because I fancy a change and I've written a whole bunch of crap on DL that I'd rather forget I ever even thought. I feel like I've become whiny on here because of the word 'diary'; with a blog it's more... upbeat? I don't know, I have very strong feelings attached with certain words and 'diary', for me, conjures up a very different image and style to 'blog'. I may also over-think things. Nonetheless, I'll always be checking back here xxx
from strawberrri :
nein! but then i'm just a homebody. i've been on dland ten years so if i'm going anywhere then it's blogging quitsville x
from student-bum :
Also I have a horrible feeling I was drunk when I wrote the note before the one below. xxx
from student-bum :
I do love to overshare. I forgot to include that is a particularly lurid shade of pink xxx
from skinnylizzie :
As good as I think you'd look with a beard, it is obviously very good news that the PCOS is mild, and that definitely deserves a pretendy high five (although the antibiotics will be getting the exact opposite, even if I'm not sure what that is). At least you know what it is and how it can be treated, sometimes I think the not knowing is worse xxx
from blujeans-uk :
I really enjoyed the King's Speech! It was funnier than I expected. Take your PCOS and stamp on it. It doesn't necessarily lead to type 2 diabetes: the thing is most women with it are on the larger side which by itself is a risk factor. As for babies, clomifene/metformin will help if you have any trouble.
from strawberrri :
Ah that is shite - very sorry to hear about the PCOS. I'm glad you're not very hairy, very fat and lacking in periods though. The King's Speech is good, though I did have a 30 min nap in the middle of it, complete with head lolling from side to side. If your gran likes the Royal family then she'll love it x
from strawberrri :
My sympathy to James (and you) xx
from skinnylizzie :
Aww, big yay for the award (and the moolah)! I shall keep my fingers and my toes crossed for the scan, stupid lady bits causing problems. Hope you had a good night last night xxx
from strawberrri :
Agh, a lot of that is rubbish. So glad you're getting the medical stuff sorted. Back pain is shite as is cervical probs (my best friend Katie had to get some abnormal cells lasered off fairly recently). The James bit is lovely though so yay to that xxx
from student-bum :
Happy 4 year :D I still remember (vaguely!) your first date with James. Not that I'm creepy or anything, I just remember stupid things. But huzzah all the same. I hope you enjoy the festivities and all without worrying too much :) xxx
from randomrabbit :
My neighbours were sledging off the roof of their outhouse in to a pile of snow (about a 10 foot drop). It did amuse me in a point and laugh at the simple people sort of way. I like your snowman. And I see you resisted the urge to add genitalia, which I rarely do.
from omfggwtf :
stumbled on here 'cos i'm bored and nosey.. you have a good taste in films, and you mentioned battle royale so that's even better! aha (:
from student-bum :
The motorway used to terrify me, especially as my shitty Micra (god bless it) struggled to get up to 60mph on its awesomely powerful 0.9 litre engine... hah. I'd get beeped a lot by angry Glaswegian pensioners, scary stuff. Glasgow is a very pretty university, my dad (and everyone else) says the cloisters reminds them of Hogwarts. If only it was Hogwarts... if only xxx
from student-bum :
OH MY GOD were you at my uni?! (I recognise the building. If I'm right, that's where I graduate from next year.) If only I'd known, and if only you'd been able to sneak away for a couple of hours. I live literally a three minute walk away from campus... Also, love the dress xxx
from shot-of-tea :
Heeey there, just to inform you that I'm temporarily locked up, username: shots password: andtea
from strawberrri :
hormones are horrible. teeth stuff is awful too and you've been so brave! btw, you think the penis birdbath was bad...that was actually one of the 'family friendly' things in the museum... :S xx
from frogeye :
Ouch! Just thinking of what you went thru makes me twinge. Can't wait to see the Alaska photos as I am quite the outdoorsman at heart.
from frogeye :
By now you would have already had your trip to the dentist. Hope things went well and you are not in any pain. Teeth can be so very annoying. Any Alaska photos?
from strawberrri :
ah, that's brilliant :) my gran got me a horrendous giant ornamental snail from a holiday a couple of years ago. i hate it but won't throw it away...yet! x
from pink-fairy :
You look exactly the same and wow 4 years!! I have so much reading to catch up on. I hope life is treating you really really well xxxx
from skinnylizzie :
Yay for the moving in! I was wondering how it was going and then I saw a facebook status earlier (ah, facebook, that lovely invention that frequently makes me forget that although I may have stalked somebody's profile recently, I haven't actually spoken to them) and was filled with joy and all good things. Good luck with moving day, and an even bigger good luck for the fraught-filled curry experience. God, that woman sounds like a twat and a half xxx
from wombaby :
Ooh good luck with the moving! I have around 35 boxes so far - and most of that is just books!!
from pink-fairy :
Can I have a password please? I haven't visited in nearly a year! x
from skinnylizzie :
On the serious side of things, oh god, BOYS. They are utterly ridiculous. Tell him I will come and beat him with a pointy stick if he doesn't stop complicating things, and I can be quite feisty when I want to be. On the trivial side, PS3, without a doubt. And can I also recommend Call of Duty when you are struggling with rage issues? It's helped me no end xxx
from vanoonoo :
we've got a ps3 and it's pretty awesome :) on the other stuff .... get some sort of talking therapy lined up - I see a psychiatric nurse (Gary) for my emd checks and also for reminders on cognitive behavioural therapy (one to one, not group!) and its reallyhelped over that past 3 years. I am stull nuts but I control it better. Perhaps you could send the boy and get his house sharing angst sorted ;) whichever way you go with all these choices (PS3 PS3 PS3!), good luck xxx
from randomrabbit :
Just to confuse you more - I just asked my housemate who has both and he prefers the PS3. He reckons it has a more powerful processor, comes with blue-ray, has wi-fi built in and free online usage whereas the Xbox has a subscription. He is a bit of a gobshite though so not sure how accurate all that is. I've never used either for gaming so I have no idea, but I do like the PS3's blue-ray for films.
from student-bum :
Xbox 360, definitely. From what I know anyway. Hope things get better soon xxx
from theswordsman :
I couldn't sleep last night, so I didn't get up until 2-2 in the third. Guess I'll skip the first set when I watch the replay. Dulko won her doubles in a walkover, so there was nothing to see, & Wozniacki is getting spanked. I've still got the Clijsters Mixed, & I might watch to root for Sharapova to beat Serena.
from theswordsman :
Me too. Never embraced the Henin, as good as she was. I'm putting you in charge of reminding me for the U.S. Open just how hot Gisela Dulko is. So, were those the famous Chicago Mooses? We seem to be missing a detail or two about the trip. Hope you had a great time.
from frogeye :
And the first pic we get is a moose-butt! Is there a statement behind that?
from wombaby :
The moose (meese?) are so cute!! Welcome back.
from skinnylizzie :
Is it wrong that I actually just had the spasm to end all spasms and nearly fell off my chair when I saw that picture? I LUFF IT. Almost as much as I love and cherish my postcard which is proudly pinned up next to my computer xxx
from frogeye :
Look down as you cross NY. I'll be the house with the 'Welcome to America' sign on it's roof. Have a great time!
from randomrabbit :
Have a wonderful time. I'm somewhat jealous of your going to Canadia - it's on my list of places I should really get off my arse and see at some point. The furthest I'll be venturing this year though is Wales, which isn't at all exciting in the slightest. You'll be fine on the plane. I found my fear of flying got less as I got older and it now has to compete with other things to worry about. I no longer have to hold someone's hand on takeoff and I can keep my legs from nervously bouncing up and down for minutes at a time.
from theswordsman :
Hah! You'll be within 300 miles of me for the first time since 1998. If you're in Chicago for a bit, and you like pizza, you have to try a "Chicago style" one. Have a wonderful trip!
from strawberrri :
hope you have an amazing time...enjoy! :) much empathy on the flying front, but it'll be more than worth it xx
from skinnylizzie :
Okay, absolutely never having a smear test now, you heathen! And musk oxen are surprisingly exciting, I shall add them to my list of favourite creatures that currently only says 'meerkats' and 'moose'...xxx
from wombaby :
Well done on the papers! Enjoy Alaska.
from frogeye :
Men, even young men, sometimes don't want to have change thrust about them. Maybe he is just comfortable with the way things are right now. Let him think about the change for a bit and then try to open the conversation.
from strawberrri :
hopefully it's just a case of him thinking 'everything's so fantastic already'. men - i despair! x
from student-bum :
Good luck with the difficult conversation. Boys are silly about this sort of thing. xxx
from shot-of-tea :
Oh BUM, I had to wipe my laptop and so don't have passwords anymore. If you could provide me with your's on here or through fb that would be fabularse!
from frogeye :
Happy Happy Birthday! You sing and play divine. Thanks for the tune.
from theswordsman :
Hi Holly. I was going to wait and leave a multi-purpose note on Friday. but was afraid I would seem ungrateful. Thanks for the song - I really enjoyed it. I understand how much you didn't want to do it, so this makes up for the time you were going to start a brothel, and I had a lifetime pass, and then you went and got a real, non-brothel mouse job:) I just watched Stephanie says again, and saw how much more comfortable you are with a second person, preparing for a performance. I hope that if you do a public performance again, you'll have someone film it for your friends who aren't there. Happy Birthday tomorrow. I hope the next quarterlife is filled to the brim with health and happiness. Take care.
from strawberrri :
what outstanding musical talent young holly! and i hope you have the happiest birthday yet tomorrow. sorry it's early but i won't have internet then (cousin's wedding = spending the day at a church service [gah!] then getting pissed and probably have my grandmother try to set me up with someone. lovely) xxx ps. i sincerely hope your sister will be ok, especially as it sounds bloody painful - perfectly natural to be concerned as you are xx
from student-bum :
Lovely stuff my dear :) I love Belle & Sebastian! Hope everything's ok with your sister xxx
from wombaby :
Hey, you make good music! I don't know the song, so couldn't spot any mistakes, but it sounded nice (and in tune!) and that's the main thing. Really hope your sister is ok soon - fingers crossed.
from shot-of-tea :
"It aint sex unless shes screaming ,scratching or biting..." Confusing sex with rape.
from omfggwtf :
nice taste in filmsssss! :D xo.
from shot-of-tea :
"SEX IN THE MORNING, IN THE EVENING, IN THE NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!" ... clearly these people are too busy in the afternoons. I don't blame them, what with Dickinsons Real Deal, A New Home In The Country and Countdown all being on.
from theswordsman :
OK, I let you slide on the whole Shakespeare sock puppets because you're busy drinking and having the sex, but I don't know about this one. You can tell people that I was desperate to hear some acoustic guitar and singing, and you got tired of listening to me grovel. I'm pretty sure alcohol might help with the shyness - I'll remind you I once held my own roving beauty pageant in Edinburgh, and there's a blackmail video of me singing On the Dark Side by Eddie & the Cruisers with some band after a bachelor party. You actually have talent and a voice, while I relied on Kamikaze shots and a fast getaway car.
from shot-of-tea :
Haha, please do, I need to know someone out there is as irritated as I am. One that's just popped up on my news feed: "Don't you just hate having crumbs in your bed." No, I love it.
from shot-of-tea :
I hate the majority of Facebook fan pages! They are so absolutely idiotic and people are just becoming 'fans' of the basic elements of life. It won't be long until people are fans of 'breathin oxygen so u don't die :)'.
from strawberrri :
thanks holly. day 3 now and don't feel as hideous as i thought i would. i actually LOL'd in lidl today, when i saw a chocolate rabbit with its eyes poked out xx
from theswordsman :
Hi Holly. Would you please get Maria out and play and sing us a song? Hallelujah just played on my blip.fm and it reminded me of you.
from strawberrri :
aw thank you :) it's like a revelation - feelings: I HAVE SOME! my dad for one is pleased after asking for the past few years 'have you got a boyfriend yet?' and when i replied in the negative telling me i would 'end up on the shelf'. charming! xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Oo-er missus! Consider my hastily thrown together entry dedicated to you! xxx
from shot-of-tea :
Oh, you have to love St Paul and his total waffly nonsense :) I very much doubt that my flatmate had any such source though, she is literally just a bullshitter. Once I had said to her "Well I used to go to Catholic church every week, and I've been to C of E services and so I know it's not the generally done thing", she said "Well I think it's more a case of, if you have a hat on already then they make you keep it on." Utter ramblings.
from strawberrri :
how shitty - really, really hope you feel better soon. glad james is helping so much though xxx
from wombaby :
Aww, that sounds miserable! Hope you feel better soon.
from skinnylizzie :
Oh, well THANKS, now I can never stop! I will be churning out this dross until the day I die! I still love reading everybody else's, it's just that I have literally NOTHING to say. Well, I did nearly get blown up by two pretend bombs in the past month, but I've just realised I forgot to say that, and that was the only interesting thing that really occurred, damn it. And I am eagerly awaiting my cartoon sequel, I have the first one pinned up in my room, it is a work of pure genius xxx (PS: I found a website I think you'll really appreciate, I'm so buying those shoes in the first post for you - http://www.twilightsucks.com/forum/phpBB3/viewtopic.php?f=6&t=5105)
from skinnylizzie :
Why are all the good places in the world so damn far away? Still, on the positive side, at least with all of this snow you're getting plenty of practise in for Alaska. I really need you to try and steal a baby moose and bring it back for me, I think it would really enhance my life xxx
from blujeans-uk :
Happy Christmas! Looking forward to reading more in 2010 xxx
from strawberrri :
i hope if not all of your christmas is wonderful then at least the majority of it is! i think you should roast amandroid's head in the oven instead of the turkey. and happy 3 year anniversary - so very heart-warming :) xx
from wombaby :
I suspect you're right, but sometimes people pleasantly surprise me, and it is the season to be optimistic ... isn't it? :)
from frogeye :
Have a very Merry Christmas! Wishing you and yours the very best!
from wombaby :
Happy Christmas Hol! Hope the travelling isn't too bad - I don't envy you not having a reservation but fingers crossed people will be at their shiny best and everyone will be polite and helpful.
from student-bum :
You were in my dream last night! You and James were meant to get married but he dumped you for a 50 year old. You were understandably pissed off. Especially as you were meant to be the bridesmaid at another wedding and you had to wear a horrid milky-tea-coloured dress for it. I really hope this doesn't happen to you! xxx
from randomrabbit :
A line of Lemsip before you leave and Night Nurse in your hip flask should do the trick. Or you could hire a lookalike and get them to do all your drunken dancing/I love you I dos/fighting/vomiting on sausage rolls while you have a nap under the table.
from wombaby :
Congratulations! I do not think he is mad. Hope the cold all goes away soon; a couple of weeks is ages to have a cold.
from skinnylizzie :
Aww, I got to be in your title and everything! I am still on the look-out for that magical mystery present, although I'm not sure I can top that board game (on a side note, I told one of my managers about it on Tuesday night and she's decided she's asking for it for Christmas, oh dear!). And the fountains were on when I traipsed back through the Gritty City again today! If I had been less full of a cold I might've taken a moment to appreciate their full glory xxx
from frogeye :
I do hope you were able to tame that damn computer of yours. I had Firefox and deleted after five minutes as I didn't like the way it handled things.
from skinnylizzie :
Well, I do have some unexpected holiday in two weeks, but I bet you're working through the week? Really REALLY must learn how to drive as I'm not brave enough to tackle the trains at a weekend, my memories of the bus replacement service have not yet faded...and yeah, I wouldn't be that impressed. I just logged into his Facebook and am currently full of the Rage again at what I found. Why oh why do I do this to myself? I am quite clearly seven shades of mad xxx
from skinnylizzie :
I agree totally, this time of year sucks. In fact, this whole year in general has sucked, can we write off 2009 a couple of months early and just have done with it? I'm sending lots of hugs your way, just because I can (and also doing it here seeing as I still can't do it by text, how very inconvenient! I finally manage to save your number right in my phone and then the stupid thing dies!) xxx
from blujeans-uk :
Yay for James's job! Hol, do you get the emails that go to your diaryland email address?
from strawberrri :
thank you - i'm doing ok. that's wonderful about james's job, btw. also, i just noticed my note saying 'move over david mitchell'. how things turn out..! xx
from randomrabbit :
Congratulations! Do I need to take a little extra care when crossing roads for a while?
from strawberrri :
oh it was great :) he is absolutely not my type but we got on well (the kissing, of which we did a lot, was very nice) and he is hot! move over david mitchell!
from strawberrri :
oops, was quite drunk when i sent that note (date with mr bean last night ;) so apologies for any over-enthusiasm, though i did mean all i said! it's so weird being in a car on your own for the first time. having the radio on is nice for a bit of companionship! x
from strawberrri :
oh my god, i have literally spent this week (because i am a saddo) thinking "holly has her driving test - must think positive thoughts" and i've thought *tonnes* but today i forgot but i am SO JOYED that you passed. "Resist urge to play fanfare on the car horn." hahahahaha brill! i also did the thumbs up to my instructor :) i am so happy for you! bask in the wonderfulness that you're fantastic at driving and deserved so utterly fully to pass. YAAAAAAY again! xx
from wombaby :
That's bloody brilliant, well done!
from shot-of-tea :
HURRAH, well done :)
from skinnylizzie :
Congratulations, you big qualified driver you! xxx
from student-bum :
WOOO HOOO! Five minors is EXCELLENT, you can officially go into Smug Mode, as my dad would say. You automatically did far better than I did because I suspect that one of your minors was NOT for hitting one's head on the driver's window while doing observations. Oh, how I wish I was joking. xxx
from blujeans-uk :
Boo yah! How did you get another one booked so quickly?
from theswordsman :
Sweet! Congratulations.
from blujeans-uk :
Don't worry too much, I've failed twice already. Not even booked number three yet.
from skinnylizzie :
My dearest Holly, have I ever told you much I love you? And not just big sweaty pseudo lesbian love either. That diagram actually made me snort like a pig; you are an artistic genius. I don't know if you've said exactly when your test is or the holes in my memory have just let it disappear, but I wish you muchos luck if you haven't already taken it; one reason I keep putting off learning to drive is because of that damn test, I'm convinced I'm going to lose my head, let go of the wheel, cover up my eyes and shout 'I'M NOT DOING IT, STOP PRESSURING ME!' in the middle of the dual carriageway xxx
from wombaby :
This is your first test right? I'm sure you'll be fine! And if you're not - you're right, it doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things. Love the diagram!
from blujeans-uk :
I've been putting off booking my test with the excuse that I can't find my paper counterpart after mving out of mum and dad's. That won't hold water anymore tho as I kind of found it in a box while ferreting around looking at pictures this weekend. D'oh! I don't want to be a driver either!
from wombaby :
I think it was Falls Road that we accidentally went down (confused by a one way system - my navigation! - and desperately trying to return the hire car and catch a flight on time). Very interesting, but quite scary for all that. I completely agree with you about driving, but I'm sure you'll be fine and it's a useful skill for job applications and the like even if you never use it.
from student-bum :
Thanks! It's good to be back... have finally caught up on everyone's entries! Ooh you went to Belfast :D I haven't found it too unsettling when I've been, but I did have a local with me each time, which always helps...
from strawberrri :
how I LOATHE amanda on your behalf! aaaaaaarghh x
from wombaby :
Holly you did very well to *not* punch her. What a bitch! Also, good for you for sticking up for your gran.
from strawberrri :
thank you. i think it's also the journey i'm dreading really (oddly very similar to zoe's - 5 hours each way to devon, going one day and coming back the next). the lovely boy (or in his case, 37 year old man!) is so, so lovely. just trying to keep my head out of the clouds at present :) also, i am glad your tooth is better! i sympathise with the driving fear. i think i spent the entire 5 weeks before my test absolutely shit scared terrified. i know it's easy to say but you just have to show you can drive, which you CAN if your instructor has put you in for your test x ps. answer should be *your* face and *your* boobs clearly!
from xxholding-on :
hey i saw you were online and i really wanted the vote/review from diaryland members towards an art contest i joined. It's a coach marketing contest and i need as many votes as i can get! I'm already in 19th out of 2700, please help me out! http://www.brickfish.com/Pages/PhotosAlbums/PhotoView.aspx?picid=975395_34070543&pid=2767347&scid=452
from moosehunter :
I also have my practical test booked. Mine's in about 3 weeks. Nerves are frayed at best! Good luck!
from skinnylizzie :
Hmm, on a totally unrelated note to your entry (because the thought of root canal surgery or fillings makes my head hurt SO MUCH, you have my sympathy for tooth of doom, and also I sit firmly in your camp vis-a-vis the thoughts about religious healing), did I ever tell you I no longer have your phone number? It turned out that the reason I could never text you properly on my other phone was because I accidentally added a random digit to your phone number, and days after I figured this out, a horse stepped on my phone, smashed it into oblivion and I don't save numbers on my sim card and didn't have your new one on my old phone. I'm not just being antisocial, honest!
from wombaby :
Argh, I know people who are religious like that. It's a bit scary. One person told me my Dad would get better if I prayed for him. Er, no. Wouldn't it be lovely if the world actually worked like that!
from skinnylizzie :
Muchos congratulations on the theory test m'dear! I was thinking about this earlier, I really need to get a move on and start driving, you're all just getting on with it and I'm going to be ninety years old and driving a go-kart (or even worse, one of those mobility scooters. Which are fine in themselves, but I will be the lunatic that rides it on the ROAD because in my deranged mind it constitutes a road-worthy vehicle). Note to self: change this. Immediately.
from wombaby :
Welcome back!
from theswordsman :
I saw Dulko for the first time yesterday - she's cute. I still like Cibulkova from the French Open. (For some reason I'm attracted to women who can barely reach the "you must be this tall" sign to ride a roller coaster.)
from randomrabbit :
I could say that I'm sorry for causing your depression but it would be an absolute fib! It actually tickled me that you're going to learn to play it. Tis a gorgeous (and depressing)song.
from moosehunter :
Two and a half years! Woo! Celebrate good times come on! Doo doo doo do... do... doo doo doo (musical interlude.) Time to put Joni aside for a while and try something like REM and Sesame Street singing 'Furry Happy Monsters'. Ahahaha
from wombaby :
Aww that's gone so quick, but two and a half years, that's ages! Congratulations to you both.
from blujeans-uk :
Yay team Hol n James!
from blujeans-uk :
(Referring to video:) Again, just lovely.
from strawberrri :
thanks for your lovely note holly :) i still have to watch your little video but i LOVED the wedding pics (what an attractive group of people!) and you looked absolutely stunning, truly x ps. rejected the offer of a second date with guy #3 today and he said 'thank you for being honest.' phew!
from moosehunter :
Glad things went ok. The dress and hair did look lovely. Oh, and Christian Rock is perhaps the lowest form of life, scuttling in just after Amoeba!
from randomrabbit :
Stating the obvious and that, but you have a really good voice. A Case of You by Joni Mitchell should you ever consider doing requests!
from theswordsman :
I went straight from watching Britain's Got Talent to your video, and you were better! Your singing voice is brilliant, and even in practice it's obvious that you're so into it and sincere. Thanks for sharing.
from student-bum :
Your singing voice is amazing :)
from moosehunter :
Hope it all went really well.
from strawberrri :
ah, i'm quite a kimberley fan personally! lovely face and not quite as skinny wretch as the others. good luck with the driving, i still hold you almost entirely responsible for passing my test nearly three years ago (has it been that long?!) :D
from skinnylizzie :
Can I just say a big fat thank you for making me laugh so much with that entry that I actually snorted twice? The best bit was your proposal to Cheryl...two words: I would. xxx
from blujeans-uk :
Did you survive the hen night of doom? Starting to worry that you're lying in a cowgirl shaped heap somewhere in Manchester! (or didn't manage to escape and got dragged to church and locked in...)
from skinnylizzie :
I am currently in the midst of a stinking spring cold, aided by hay fever, and every time I sneeze at work some fool shouts 'SWINE FLU' and I feel like a leper, boo. Enjoy tonight's Disneytastic drinkathon and please God, take a picture of those boots...xxx
from randomrabbit :
If you ever happen to queue across the pedestrian crossing at that roundabout and some angry beardy bloke starts mouthing obscenities at you - yay that's me!
from frogeye :
Yeeee Haaaa little mama! Have a great time on Sat as a cattle rustling varment!
from wombaby :
Yes but did you see that in some poll Cheryl Cole got voted as sexier than Jessica Alba? I mean, wtf, Jessica Alba's definitely the hotter :-)
from skinnylizzie :
I am indeed feeling a million times better after the Pot Noodle of DOOM, thank you m'dear. I am still mortally afraid of instant noodles though, I saw the Pot Noodle advert on TV last night and had to run out of the room. How's your sister now? xxx
from strawberrri :
thanks :) i know i did the right thing in the end. it's 'character building' as my step-dad tells me! x
from blujeans-uk :
Get some norethisterone and delay it a few days. Didn't your instructor take you around some quiet roads for your first lesson back? That was a bit mean. I have some nice brown shoes. They're all glittery and unfortunately a size 8 as they were the only ones wide enough and were a bargainous 12 down from 60...
from skinnylizzie :
Oh yes, I second Annie's note below me! I did mean to say this after I read your entry about six years ago but my brain just doesn't want to work at the moment, stupid thing xxx
from student-bum :
Frame that botantic gardens one because it is BEAUTIFUL!
from student-bum :
Brown... and turquoise? Is your mate blind as well as mad? Deary me. PS: even better if her mum's there ;)
from skinnylizzie :
Oh no, did your sister fall victim to a rogue Pot Noodle as well? She has my sympathy, especially with it being her birthday. And I did have a few sicky feelings but I moved past them by munching Rennies, sitting down for the songs I didn't know and drinking about six thousand gallons of water, hurrah! Of course, having the car parked right underneath us was excellently excellent as well, which you and James take all the credit for, and both Gav and I thank you from the bottom of our hearts for saving us from a certain argument as we attempted to find a car parking space... Oh yeah, what else did I want to say? Brown and turquoise? NICE...! xxx
from wombaby :
I nearly choked on my beer when I read "brown and turquoise". Good luck!
from strawberrri :
"knobbing Pocahontas" ah, you're so fab :) btw, i know i completely missed your birthday (i think i am actually 10 days late now. i should never be responsible for anything ever) but i hope you had a fantastic time xxxx
from blujeans-uk :
Walking twice up and down the hill the day that I have to go to the other site for teaching is starting to get ridiculous, so I figured try and pass now so that when I'm doing shifts and clinics next year I'm not waiting for the bus while everyone else pootles off in their cars. If it weren't for that, I probably still wouldn't bother :-)
from blujeans-uk :
HA! Disney theme I understand, but 'sexy lingerie' for a scary evangelist (who is probably still a V and could be setting herself up for a lifetime of disappointment...) and requested by her younger sister?! That's just wrong on so many levels...
from frogeye :
Maybe we could summon Mary Poppins to protect you gals on you naughty night out!
from student-bum :
Mel is right. Repay this gross distortion of a hen party (Disney?! I could understand Sexy Disney, almost, but *just* Disney...?) with something absolutely hideous and Un-Christian. Like this: [http://www.ioffer.com/img/item/767/496/76/o_90076redzo6.jpg] Or this: [http://img.en.china.cn/0/0,0,23,2907,277,600,6a1726fc.jpg] Oh yeah, not safe for work...! God forbid anyone look at my search history now, after 'erotic lingerie' 'bondage fetish' and so on. All in the name of tasteless humour.
from theswordsman :
Yep! I Googled Girls Aloud Bone and there it was. The lyrics are there too. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pvCaaMVYtoI
from theswordsman :
Girls Aloud - Dog Without a Bone. Perfect!
from frogeye :
You are so right. I have been itching to fire up the grill and sit outside. I've done a couple of burgers and chicken, but it's not the same when you can't stand around the grill and be smothered in the smoke. It's been cold and windy the past two weekends. I hope Saturday turns out nice. Check you out later!
from theswordsman :
Of course I meant Cheryl from X Factor. Must have developed a mental block after Diana got voted off.
from theswordsman :
I looked up ISA, and came up with International Society of Arboriculture? Doesn't seem right in context. Apparently Hannah Montana has four versions of Bones Song. There's what used to be called a Negro Spiritual called either Dem Bones or Dem Dry Bones, you could have a singalong of the song used to teach bones to children, do an instrumental version of the theme song from Bones, and top it off with a bit of Sock Puppet Shakespeare with the "Alas Poor..." speech and the skull. You'll sell out faster than Michael Jackson, and Cheryl from Fear Factor will come and lust after you.
from blujeans-uk :
hurray! You updated! All is good in the world again :-)
from frogeye :
It's nice to read a Buffy entry. I'm glad you had the chance to write.
from skinnylizzie :
I have a very important question - what in the name of arse is korfball?!
from student-bum :
I'll tell you what's happened to Carol Smilie, so you can satisfy James' rather mundane curiosity. She's plastered over every frickin' bus in Scotland, advertising that annoying postcode lottery, and her grinning mug pops up on STV every so often with the show itself. I'm surprised that I've not seen any neds on it yet, though.
from strawberrri :
*beams* thanks :) our first snowman was about 6 ft! we wanted to bring them home but agreed it wasn't the most practical of ideas. but yay snow! x
from randomrabbit :
Ooh which pub was it? I promise not to stalk you retrospectively!
from theswordsman :
You're gigging in a pub tomorrow? Go Team Holly!
from wombaby :
There are no rules. Also, it's more like 5 weeks til Spring, as Spring officially starts in March.
from blujeans-uk :
Mario keeps telling me to go to the GP but half of me can't really be bothered since I know what it probably is. I dunno... Is probably good enough? It is annoying though.
from shot-of-tea :
Hope today went okay xx
from strawberrri :
thanks holly. i *was* feeling like i was handling it ok til i woke up this morning feeling panicked and depressed! it was weird though, cos that feeling passed really quickly. ho hum. i think it's just fear of the unknown. hope you're well - got a few diaries to catch up on as i was seeking refuge at gaz's the whole weekend x
from strawberrri :
rebecca was the best book i read last year too :)
from theswordsman :
All those drunken opportunities, and not a single spontaneous sock puppet Shakespeare performance? Happy Holidays
from strawberrri :
thanks! it was a truly great night. weird fake christmases with friends should be made compulsory.
from moosehunter :
Hmm. Secret Santa is also causing me trouble. My slightly bizarre Mrs, who organised our 8-person Secret Santa group, also set the price limit at 3. What the hell are we going to get for 3?!?! So far I have decided to give my target one sock and a hard-boiled egg. That means I've still got 2 to spend and a spare sock for next year's target! Ahahahahaha. Moosey.
from theswordsman :
Santa is an anagram for Satan (but doesn't apply unless the word "secret" is attached to it) Secret is an anagram for certes, so Secret Santa becomes "Satan, of course".
from wombaby :
Do you enjoy your job? Does it pay you enough to live on? If the answer to both of those is yes, not much point in changing it unless there's something else that you want to do more.
from kimluvs2read :
Would love to read your diary, if you don't mind please email me the info to get in at [email protected] Thanks
from skinnylizzie :
But I LIKE the drunk phone calls, I've had some very funny voicemails over the years! Most notably the New Year one, which is making me chuckle even now...By the way, how in the name of arse has it been two years?! TWO YEARS! I remember you getting together and it still only feels like a few months ago, where the flying fuck have the last two years gone?! xxx (PS: Oodles of good luck for the singing, I'm sure you'll knock them dead)
from skinnylizzie :
Boys are indeed retards, and he is no different, alas. Although I had some very interesting texts last night...not so sure what will happen when I see him later this evening and he's all sober and every thing though...xxx
from shot-of-tea :
Gosh darn it, I keep forgetting I need to gather everybody's passwords again! Can I have yours please?
from wombaby :
I haven't got myself a new one yet. I miss it though! Went looking at new ones today and I'm torn between the nano (capacity might be an issue but it's much nicer to touch) and the Very Big classic (too much capacity, I don't like the sharp edges and the click wheel isn't as nicely responsive as my old one). I want the same model as I had! Unfortunately they don't make it any more.
from shot-of-tea :
Ohh no, that is Sinead the Spade :)
from randomrabbit :
Ooh I was at the same place as you on Saturday! Or to put that in a slightly less creepy way: I too went to see Russell Howard. If you happened to look up to right at the back of the balcony as far away from the stage as possible and seen a bald(ing) yet rakishly handsome chap squinting to see - that was me!
from wombaby :
My iPod drowned too! On Thursday actually, but I didn't realise til yesterday morning (just thought the battery was flat on Friday). Also, at the MNDA quarterly branch meeting / lunch today, they mentioned the research project / centre thing in Sheffield.
from blujeans-uk :
Whoops, just left myself a note by mistake! Lol, looks a bit sad... I don't know if weird cousin's wife even had a hen night. Their idea of a fun activity was to sit at home reading the bible together. OTT christians can be hard work. Just try not to let them make you angry, and if necessary, take a hip flask...
from blujeans-uk :
The worst wedding I ever went to was some third cousin whom I had never met before. They were one of those weird christian offshoots. The ceremony was pretty much "woman, your place is at home. Man, your job is to lead" The bridesmaids looked like they were wearing gold pillowcases. The reception was alcohol free (me, my mum and my aunt ordered a few bottles of wine to many disapproving looks). The only music at the reception was a little bit of greenday during a video of the two of them doing wholesome couply things like rock climbing, canoeing and not shaving their legs. I wore jeans, a gel bra and a fishnet top and was so bored I ate til I vomited. Have fun!
from wombaby :
"First thing I said when Becky asked me if I would be her bridesmaid: Oh Jesus. Yes, I mean Id love to!" ... was I supposed to laugh really loudly there? Luckily Karen isn't home yet!!
from skinnylizzie :
Okay, firstly, yay for not being unhealthy! Secondly, as the authority on all things Next Directory, I concur. And thirdly, oh, your photos filled my heart with joy to see my former home once again! And they've only made me all the more excited about my trip up there in two days, huzzah! PS: Excellent Scottish accent, I was really rather impressed xxx
from blujeans-uk :
LOVED the video! Made me miss being at sixth form with you and Em and Kate...
from blujeans-uk :
What?! Seven months?! I've been wangling for this for the past two and a half years and so far have only managed a half-proposal without a ring! And we already live together! Argh, it's so unfair... Incidentally, co dominant arteries is not a bad thing, as if you clog one up when you are old and eccentric the other one will carry enough blood to near-enough compensate. That is a very long entry and I shall read the other half after dinner. I got distracted by the Becky news and had to come straight to the notes page before I stopped being indignant. Ciao! xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Bum, I forgot to leave you a note about your evil hospital appointment; not being able to get online is bad for my memory, it seems. Anyway, it does sound like it was horrendously evil (particularly the weeing bit) but at least it's over now and you can cross it off your list of things that you don't want to do before you turn forty but will probably have to do anyway (the less fun version of the normal list) xxx
from wombaby :
Oh no, you can't put awful and Singapore right next to each other in a sentence! Awful and Grand Prix I'll let you get away with though. Look out for the spiky building (the Esplanade/Durian) - I had the biggest crush on the son of the architect when I was about 15. He did not help my mental health. And it's a hideous building. In terms of pseudolesbianity and the X-Factor, Dannii Minogue before Cheryl Cole! I think your cryptic hints are enough for me to work out what the problem you mention is (I'm aware that notes aren't password protected). And lastly, (damn, why won't Diaryland allow paragraph breaks in the notes?) GOOD LUCK on Wednesday. Let us know how it goes.
from skinnylizzie :
Okay, I've been at work all day so my brain isn't working right, does that mean we might end up in Newcastle at roughly the same time? How exciteamondo! Although I have undoubtedly gotten the timing totally wrong in my head and we'll be in the same place about a month apart or something. And as a totally straight girl (apart from the odd pseudo-lesbian tendencies), I don't think I could say no to Cheryl Cole either. Big fat girl crushes all round.
from student-bum :
Good luck - or lick as I just typed - for the CT scan. Will be thinking of you xxx
from vanoonoo :
am I allowed the keys? vanoonoo @ gmail . com (take out the gaps obv!) Vx
from wombaby :
Oh dear, how much did you have? Hope you feel better soon. Drink lots of water and eat lots of sensible food.
from student-bum :
I forgot the password :(
from wombaby :
*hugs*
from baybear310 :
well, i tried to add you to my MSN Messenger, but i assumed you weren't using it. I saw your name on Diaryland and I was like, hmmm... why is her name buffylass? Buffy? The vampire slayer? lol. Hmmm.. but i couldnt check out your diary. i was sad. :(
from strawberrri :
there were various chastity...implements. very difficult to work out whether they were intended for men or women! mr kellogg said men should be circumcised with no anaesthetic and women should have their genitals burned with carbolic acid to stop them from enjoying sex. i want to dig up his corpse and give it a big slap.
from wombaby :
I'm still trying to grow out my fringe, chopped in January. Never, ever attempt to cut your own hair. Disaster *will* ensue.
from randomrabbit :
Thank you. Not egotistical at all, I did very much want the password.
from blujeans-uk :
Hello! Only just got the internet back so thank you for the password :-)
from strawberrri :
thanks. and it's deleted :) god, amandroid sounds irritating and stressful beyond belief. i would happily swap my stepmother with yours (all she does is *entirely* ignore me and adam - bar a hello and goodbye - and talk to the cat and dog) to give you some respite x ps. i hope james is envious at missing out on the skeleton exhibition with the anti-maturbation contraptions upstairs. there was also napoleon's (rather grim-looking) toothbrush, which led to a 'how much would you have to be paid to use that' conversation.
from wombaby :
Have you locked up the whole thing? And are you ok?
from frogeye :
May I be honored with the keys to the kingdom - please!
from wombaby :
Keys please. And I hope Sunday's not too bad, and that you don't kill Amandroid on Saturday!
from student-bum :
"I still sometimes wonder why he thinks I am apparently so great though, when I sit and stare at him for a good three minutes whilst hes reading the paper, and then when he finally notices me say thoughtfully: I like you. Youre nice." Yeah, erm, I totally don't do that with Colin. Ahem. Anyway, yes, keys please :D
from shot-of-tea :
Ah well as long as we're all allowed our one fit..! KEYS PLEASE.
from randomrabbit :
I'm not sure men could cope with independently moving breasts. They're distracting enough as it is without having them dancing about under your pullovers of their own accord! We'd be permanently mesmerised. And there'd be drool. It wouldn't be pretty.
from skinnylizzie :
'like Im some kind of raging nympho'...I KNOW YOUR DIRTY SECRET. It's too late to hide it from me, I've heard your psuedo-lesbian banter! Anyway, of course you will already know this using your psychic powers but I am of course demanding the password xxx
from strawberrri :
hopefully it's superfluous for me to say i would like the password when you lock up! and micro-blub is the best word/s ever. i am glad you left the note, this way i can report back and you can let james know what he did or didn't miss :D thursdays are good though as it stays open til 10. rather strange for a first date though. maybe 'it's not me, it's him,' and he just wants to be friends?!
from wombaby :
Alcohol is indeed the best thing ever. I walked half way home singing "Remember you're a womble" tonight. Mind you, I would do that sober too, so can't blame it all on the alcohol :-)
from theswordsman :
Drunk posting is always a good idea. I wish more people would do it.
from strawberrri :
it was bizarre. we saw a load of people crowded round to watch some filming, so wandered over expecting it to be something crappy. i was shocked! i love him too, hence the taking of stalkerish photos :) x
from skinnylizzie :
Oh I'll live, just got a bit of a headache and the odd dizzy spell now but that'll go in a day or two. And I keep getting words wrong, I told somebody earlier that I needed a 'nav' instead of a 'nap'...?! Mind you, that might just be stupidity rather than getting my head bashed. Just had payday so let me check what glorious shifts I'm down to do over the next few weeks and I'll have to try and get over to the Gritty City for a day of fun xxx
from frogeye :
I just might take you up on that. Check out the tune: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V_LT8Jm4zD4&feature=related
from theswordsman :
Finally, a subject on which I'm an authority. (Which apparently doesn't include writing a proper sentence). Age difference rules don't apply to minions, or to natural blonds in most instances. But older minions can be a mixed bag. You can find one that feels you've given them a second chance at life, and they'll be loyal and work hard. On the other hand, if they had minion skills, you have to wonder why someone else hasn't snapped them up. And if they have experience it's worse, because they're always going on about how they didn't do things that way at the old place, or going on about their precious relationship. Sucks the life right out of you. If you think they might have potential, and keeping in mind that they can always be replaced, you might put them on on a trial basis, like on House. Test them out my having them get your tea, or having them repeatedly hit the refresh button for you during major sporting events. You'll soon discover whether they're worth keeping. If I ever start dating again, that's probably how I'll do it. Take care.
from blujeans-uk :
The guitar clip was lovely, quite lovely. I hope there will be more x
from frogeye :
That was absolutely a lovely tune that you played. Wants to make me dig out my old six string and limber up the fingers.
from theswordsman :
Nah, you came up with that idea back when you had John amounts of free time, but then people came and offered you a career and things before you could come through. But still, if in the future you're to have one of those long weekends where you are able to get hammered every night, it's always good to have a video camera on your person. I mean like in a hand bag or something, not in a Girls Gone Wild sort of way. That way if a spontaneous sock puppet Shakespearian play should occur, and why wouldn't it, you've got it done. Are the two new people to be your minions?
from wombaby :
And that's quite all right, you may; it's careergirl/spinster. Aren't you 23 now though?
from wombaby :
Ham fisted my arse. I was watching those fingers, and I noticed that you only pressed the string you need with your fingertips, instead of splaying the whole first two joints over the whole fingerboard. I'm no guitar expert, but on the violin, that's a Good Thing. Plus it sounded musical and pretty. Also, pension schemes, bring it on! I've joined mine. Doesn't it make us sound depressingly old talking about pension schemes :-(
from strawberrri :
right back at you holly - you look lovely in your piccies. they're fab, as are your guitar skills! it's nice that you get on with james's parents - always helps in a relationship i find. massive congrats on the promotion too. really, really pleased for you :) xx
from student-bum :
Alas I am not as mother dearest is on the warpath (e.g. storming up to me with a birthday card and spitting, "Shall I write this birthday card to myself, save you the bother?" and throwing it on the table before storming out, etc) and has even forced dad out of the house to god knows where. Thank GOD I only have 3 more nights left at home, with a week away halfway through. I may attempt guitar this year if I have time... my brother gave up long ago so if I nicked off with the guitar back to uni I doubt he'd care too much!
from falabella :
Hey Hols. Congratulations on the promotion - that's awesome. I enjoyed your playing, and when I clicked to see your other videos, I saw the When Will I See You Again one and was reminded that a promised sock puppet performance was promised but not delivered. Hah. Take care.
from student-bum :
Ooh this note will be full of positivity, you may want to go and watch EastEnders or something after reading it to balance out! I was going to say two things: 1) You're looking very happy and pretty and healthy in your photos, and I really hope you feel it too; 2) Have a slice of cake for the promotion! *gives cake* But then I heard your guitar-playing and I wanted to say it sounded lovely and you've made me want to learn guitar, damnit. Which is a silly idea as I have no patience and couldn't even play the ukelele at school, plus I have a gammy handa at present. Tomorrow, the urge will wear off. I hope.
from theswordsman :
Zoe and I just worked through that. I did the research and left massive notes there, but my conclusion was that scones have sugar and sometimes eggs and cool ingredients to make them more solid and tasty. Biscuits are plainer and attempt to be fluffy, and are pretty much working class bread substitutes used to flesh out a meal of good things but not much use on their own. Have a great day.
from wombaby :
Self-hating is nobody's friend. Also, it almost never reflects the way people really see you. And even if it did, that's their problem not yours.
from blujeans-uk :
I had a fleeting fantasy of wanting to take my children to see the 2012 olympics. Somehow I don't think that will happen...
from student-bum :
So sorry I didn't get to your last entry in time. You're not selfish at all; a selfish person wouldn't care as much as you do *hugs* How on EARTH can you watch the Olympics?! I can't imagine anything more dull!!!
from skinnylizzie :
Oh, the Olympics are ACE, I curse every moment that work gets in the way of watching them! I did (briefly) consider ringing in sick to work to day to watch the end of the eventing but thankfully my lack of money forced me to see sense. Glad your gran's doing okay as well, the NHS are brillo pads with after care (they discharged my nan on Easter Sunday with no family to pick her up, seemingly oblivious to the fact that my nan is now officially senile. Hmm). Anyway, thank you very muchly for the texts earlier m'dear, they did make me smile xxx
from strawberrri :
i would never use selfish as a word to describe you. i'm so sorry things are so utterly shite for you. be strong *hugs* xxx
from wombaby :
*hugs*. I don't think not going to Len's funeral was selfish. You said it wasn't an exam day - that means it was during exam time ... one funeral is more than enough, any time, especially during exams, especially when it's family.
from skinnylizzie :
Ooh, enjoy Paris, wish I had somebody to take me there on the Eurostar!
from strawberrri :
it's leg 2 of 3 of my summer holiday! day of fun in brussels tomorrow, then thursday off to a belgian music fest called rock werchter for 4 days :)
from wombaby :
Thank you. I'm pleased!
from strawberrri :
thanks, it was amazing beyond belief :) i'm off on the eurostar on weds too, at 10 o' clock to brussels!
from onlyemma :
you're so lovely to me, I don't feel wonderful at all. I feel pretty down about the whole thing - he knocked me off my feet and I was totally unprepared because I wasn't expecting someone like him to like me. I owe you an email explaination though; I'm so sorry its been ages. I still love you! xxx
from theswordsman :
Hey Holly. I hope you're having a much better week this time around. Take care. John
from frogeye :
Hope all works out for you and Indie. Work can be the worst of all places at times. Been there, done that...
from strawberrri :
holy crap. i hope things get better very, very soon xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Oh bummer, obviously I have no idea what's happened but I hope it all manages to work itself out xxx
from falabella :
Hang in there.
from wombaby :
A work bollocking really doesn't sound very nice! Is it for something you can fix though? Because work bollockings shouldn't be unconstructive, they should be more like "here's a problem, sort it out, this is how, and consider this a warning" not just "you suck, goodbye". Good luck! Send me an email if you want to rant in greater detail than you can on here, if that would be helpful. I don't guarantee a timely or useful reply but I do promise to read it!
from pink-fairy :
Big hugs, give it a few days, both of you need thinking time xxxx
from shot-of-tea :
Oof, I I don't know how I would handle all of this at all. You're amazingly strong and you'll pull through :)
from frogeye :
As you pointed out: don't look back. Go forward from here, talk to your dad again, once you are fully composed. Get all your feelings out in the open, same with dad. Some things will never change though, you both will have to deal with those. Here's wishing you the best in things to come.
from wombaby :
Oh Holly. Like Zoe and Annie there is nothing I can say but send lots of hugs.
from skinnylizzie :
Hmm, I was just thinking to myself yesterday 'I wonder what Holly is up to', and lo and behold, here you are updating! And anything I say will just sound totally inadequate now, so I will just tell you that I'm sending many huge hugs and happy thoughts your way, because if anybody deserves them, it's you xxx
from student-bum :
Oh god, Holly. That's awful. Big squeezy hugs to you. I say keep writing here, there's a load of people here who care about you and want the best for you, and hopefully writing it down gets it out a bit - it can't do much good bottled up in your head. xxx
from wombaby :
I know - I changed it :-) the new one is nearly graduate, but I'm going to change it again when I graduate/think of something better - whichever comes sooner.
from wombaby :
I had humous for lunch today. It is gorgeous. With regard to what your entry was *really* about - well, it's better to talk than to bottle up. At least you're opening a dialogue. And I was shocked speechless this morning when I read that your gran didn't even know where her daughter was. I don't really know about the etiquette of such things, but I have a feeling that breaches it.
from pink-fairy :
I can see that the letter is hard to write. You have to remember that no matter how you say it there will probably be a fall out. I guess its best to be as honest as you can be and have a fall out than hold back and still have a fall out. I have found that time is a great healer of arguments. Good luck xxxx
from theswordsman :
Hey Hols. I wish I had a bit of wisdom to share. It might be less threatening to the relationship to do it one issue at a time with a cooling off period in between, or maybe the first part might start a dialogue. But it would be tougher on you having to keep some of it in for a longer bit of time. If your sister feels the same way about any of it, maybe she could address part of it so it's not all coming from you? Whatever you do, I'm thinking of you and I care. Cheers.
from strawberrri :
i hope writing the letter makes you feel better (i think letter-writing is meant to be therapeutic even if it never gets sent). of course you shouldn't keep these feelings inside and it's important your dad knows...sorry i am crap at this giving advice and having opinions stuff, especially over something so important xx ps. i am quite a humous expert though. try it on toast (the warmth makes the oil in the houmous go a bit melty and it's divine. oh my god i really want some now!).
from frogeye :
You know, the shot of James with the kettle makes it look like he was taking a pee on it. Tell me this isn't so!
from wombaby :
Ah you two make a cute couple!!
from student-bum :
Nice photos! Your shirt is the exact same material as a skirt I have. I'm torn whether to wear that tomorrow to the park or my new one... decisions decisions. Glad you have a normal heart structure! :D
from randomrabbit :
I think I took the exact same picture of the bluebells on Sunday! In the second pic if you were to walk for about 5 minutes in the direction of your head you'd end up at my house! You'd be more than welcome to call in for a cup of tea and a KitKat if you were passing!
from theswordsman :
And I have no way of knowing for sure, but it probably looks really nice in person as well, unless you PhotoShopped it.
from theswordsman :
Your hair looks really nice in the pics.
from wombaby :
I don't know quite how to phrase this, so please forgive me if it comes out wrong, but ... I think perhaps it's an improvement that you're devastated now, or at least that you're able to admit to being devastated. Also, I don't think there are time limits on being devastated about losing a parent. Sure you get to the point where you can get on with daily life and not be devastated 24/7 but it's always there. (and for me it's only the future-losing-of-parent and as an adult, so the actual-losing and as a child, well, much more potential for devastation there). I also think you're right that confronting your dad won't help much.
from skinnylizzie :
Hello, we just updated at the same time and after reading your entry I just thought I'd stop by to tell you that I love you and you're brillo pads. I wish all of my emails could be that eloquent (might help if I stopped calling everybody sweater monkeys though, I suppose) xxx
from skinnylizzie :
I think the tree's a beautiful idea. And as for the other things, I shall give you a great big fat hug. It's okay that you don't like to show other people when you're hurting, if they love you they'll realise this and support you. So yeah, have that great big fat hug on me, missus xxx
from moosehunter :
Awww, Hol. Everyone's allowed to feel cut up when it comes to something like that. Hell, I still have times when I struggle with my Grandad's going! You deal with it anyway you can my dear, and if anyone has trouble dealing with you, then that's their problem, not yours. I think the tree's a beautiful idea. We got rose bushes to commemorate my grandparents. If you go to Rufford Park for it, say hello to the place for me. Love it. Be happy and lucky. Moosey.
from student-bum :
Just read your entry. To be fair, your sister said IF you want to do it together - she's giving you a choice, it seems. You could, for example, plant it yourself but let Al decide on the wording of the plaque if you have one, or something like that. But I personally don't see anything wrong with you saying you want to do it all yourself. It doesn't make you a bad person and it doesn't mean you have a problem, emotional or otherwise. You'll have been told this so many times, I know, but people have different ways of coping with death (however long ago it was) and if it helps you to do it alone, your sister should understand. I hope she does :)
from theswordsman :
Hey Holly. I hope you get good results back from all your tests. Take care.
from frogeye :
Don't let the stress get you down! Fight the beast!
from wombaby :
Good luck with the ulstrasound. Or even the ultrasound. I'd say I'll be thinking of you, but I'll have forgotten three minutes after I leave this note. I'm thinking of you now though.
from strawberrri :
*hugs* and i hope the ultrasound goes alright tomorrow - hope you're not stuck by a dripping tap while it's happening xx
from strawberrri :
thanks for your lovely note. sorry about my lack of discretion in regards to your pharmacist on the side, i promise not to say anything about the crack cocaine ;) (whenever i tell people about my driving test you are thought of with awe!) x
from theswordsman :
I hope this isn't another false alarm, but surfthechannel.com does have ten seasons of ANTM including fresh episodes.
from student-bum :
I thought you'd been on it before, which is partly why I chucked the name in! My dosage is 40mg 3 times a day. Are you not meant to drink ANY alcohol? And can you skip it on days you're drinking? I'm terribly cavalier with medicines, it's awful. Emotionally numb may be good, I'm always either euphoric, massively tired or absolutely distraught in some form. I feel sorry for Colin and my folks, they get the worst of it, especially Colin. But thank god he's there. But yes, thank you for your note. At the moment I'm thinking of doing counselling for a while and if I don't start to feel any better I'll pump myself with chemicals. Hurrah.
from the-moo :
aaaw I hate times like that.. where you're just in a BAD place emotionally but you don't feel like you can fully justify it to yourself and then you end up MORE annoyed because you're annoyed THAT you're in a bad mood and just around and around. I have no words to help or advise or anything but I just wanted you to know I send you BIG INTERNET HUGS *hug* and I'm thinking of you!! xxx
from the-moo :
Hey I'm just trying to catch up on stuff and I seem to have missed a LOAD with you... I'm so sorry *hug* xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Haha, in that case I shall claim all of the credit personally as if it was all down to me that the designs look good! Or something like that. I like their jeans, which I suppose is a good thing nowadays...xxx
from randomrabbit :
You didn't happen to pass 2 blokes in the Peak District did you, one of them looking slightly perplexed with mud up to his thighs? If so that was me, so a belated cheery hello to you!
from frogeye :
As always my prayers are there for you. I'm sure the hosp exams will go fine.
from wombaby :
Good luck with hospital!
from onlyemma :
I'll be thinking of you. Let me know when you go to the hospital and I'll think plenty of positive thoughts and (secret) prayers at that time. Love you. You'll be fine xxxxx
from shot-of-tea :
Oh, poooo. I'm sure everything at the hospital will be fine. Fingers crossed for you :)
from moosehunter :
Fingers crossed Holly. Hugs from a moosey.
from student-bum :
Oh Holly :( Sending lots and lots of good thoughts your way, full of fluffy kittens and sweeties. xxx
from strawberrri :
oh god *hugs* i will be thinking of you and thinking lots of positive thoughts for you...when are you having these tests? x
from theswordsman :
Are prayers from friends allowed? And I just saw from Claire's note that I may have missed your birthday, which means my mental note to leave you a real note must have been erased. Happy Birthday. Take care.
from shot-of-tea :
Happy Birthday for tomorrow :)
from strawberrri :
your gran would hate me - i have NO butter/margarine on my sandwiches AT ALL! i'm not sure what the deal is with sheffield, but i know there was some crazy train deal a little while ago for people travelling between manchester and london that you could get a train for 1 to 3 if you were prepared to travel at a certain time (like 9 o'clock on a friday night). just an idea anyway :)
from frogeye :
lichtekooi-Gotta love language. A new word for my rather dull and unimpressive vocabulary. Some other Dutch sayings are: Dikzak-fat ass, Sukkel-loser, Zoon van een hoerige kameel-son of a horney camel and the ever popular Mierenneuker-ant f**ker. And here I never loved English in school. What's not to love?
from onlyemma :
I love you so much. So glad you're updating again. I definitely owe you an email! xxxxx
from frogeye :
Hey One Arm! I am excitingly impresed that you have returned to the family. My depressing search for your entries, I hope is over. God bless America and that Queen thing also.
from student-bum :
Ooh, type http://100.0.0.8 into the address bar (it works best in Internet Explorer) - IPTV, live TV streamed through your PC. It's a godsend here. You have to install a flash thingy but it takes just a few minutes. I'm unsure of its legality but they advertised it at Freshers Week so... yeah. You may want to try it until LandBaron gets her act together :) Glad you're doing well and I'm even gladder (word?!) you're back.
from skinnylizzie :
Hehe, I know I've just sent you a text but I had to inform you that we are currently sandwiched right together on the users online list, hurrah! And you've just sent me a text so I shall go and read that now. Gosh, this note is a real insight into how interesting my life really is...xxx
from shot-of-tea :
It has taken me foooorever to get round to leaving you a note but oh, I miss you so much I could weep. I hope everything's okay and keep my fingers crossed for a return!
from frogeye :
Tick tock, tick tock, tick tock..... still anxiously waiting!
from randomrabbit :
You bugger, I do enjoy reading you very much! Hope you come back x
from theswordsman :
Hey Hols. I hope everything is OK, and I'll look forward to your return. Cheers, dude.
from student-bum :
Aw, I'll miss your entries, they make me chuckle. Hope this is just a temporary thing and that you come back soon. Best wishes for the future, I'll probably email you at some point demanding to know how you are! Take care xxx
from frogeye :
I'll keep a light burning in the window so you don't trip when you come back.
from strawberrri :
i hope you do return to d-land someday as i've become really fond of you and your diary over the past number of years and think of you as a diaryland *friend* rather than 'someone on diaryland whose diary i read'. but of course there's no point writing if you don't want to. hopefully all you need is a hiatus xx
from strawberrri :
i don't *think* there's a dress code but anyone at all can come in and watch any court from the public gallery. just if it's a high profile case it'll probably be rammed and sometimes family members of victims or defendants get a bit rowdy or hysterical. luckily security is very high!
from strawberrri :
hehe thanks! you should come stalk me if you come to london to visit the boy :D
from frogeye :
Welcome back! Missed your entries. I can understand the Claustrophobia attack. I had one when I went for an MRI. Not pleasant by any means.
from skinnylizzie :
I had a dream about you last night; I dreamt we were watching TV together when the new Young's advert came on and you proceeded to piss yourself laughing. And, erm, that was it. Which I think says something about my life! Sorry I didn't reply to your text the other day, I was in counselling for gibbering the word 'fish' over and over again. At the football on Saturday (Young's being the sponsor of the club), there was a man dressed as a giant fish finger wandering around. You would've LOVED it.
from skinnylizzie :
I said a silent prayer of thanks yesterday afternoon that I flew to America and back three months BEFORE this happened. I wish you luck with your giant floating hunk of metal in the sky, and also a pilot as ace as that dude yesterday. Plus, yesterday used up this year's quota of flight accidents so you're totally safe xxx
from theswordsman :
I haven't seen any CSI shows. They guy is like a regular FBI investigator or something, and the main woman is a bones specialist. They have another woman who figures out what faces used to look like, and another guy that does bugs and things to figure out where someone was killed or whatever. The scientific stuff gets done at a place that I guess is patterned after the Smithsonian Institution. I've watched maybe seven episodes online, and there are some good laughs along with the unusual crime scenes and stuff. I'm pretty desperate for entertainment these days, so it's good to find something watchable.
from theswordsman :
Do you ever catch her crying out "King of the Lab!" or Queen, I guess, when she figures something out? I think that having to figure something out completely in an hour gives them focus, or in the Internet version it's only 44 minutes. But then they get a week to rest in between. I haven't been leaving you notes about the various things that have come up, not because I don't care, but because I can't think of anything to say that would make anything better. But I'm still here rooting for you, as always.
from shot-of-tea :
Lots and lots of internet *hugs* to you over the next few days xx
from student-bum :
I say this every year... but you're in my thoughts. xxx
from frogeye :
I would grill every night if I had the chance. Indoor cooking is so boring. Hope you are feeling better. I had read the UK had a flu type bug problem going around.
from strawberrri :
it sounds rubbish. love to you holly xx
from wombaby :
It sucks beyond belief about your Mum's jewellery. Grannie has just let on to us that she has sold (yes, *sold*!) some of Granddad's lepidoptery books. Now I have to go and be nice to her for the rest of Christmas. She sounded so pleased about it - must be losing her mind. Hang in there girlie.
from wombaby :
Wow, already a year! I'm so pleased you two are still together, you're so mushy, but in a good way.
from strawberrri :
to the both of you! - i love when i read a diary entry that makes me actually laugh, which that bit did! congrats on the 1 year. i don't find the separate xmas card thing weird, just unnecessary and expensive! i'm using the christmas cards my mum bought this year so (and this is if i even bother to write her one out) she's getting one of her own cards!
from shot-of-tea :
Thank you :) I wasn't entirely sure what to make of it (except to be at least pleased it didn't really hurt)(I share too much) but knowing that other people go through the same thing definitely helps me be more okay with everything.
from frogeye :
So sorry to hear of the loss of your cat. Pets are especially close friends who provide us with unconditional love and attention. I lost my first dog 13 years ago and can still shed a tear when I think of her.
from student-bum :
Aw *hugs* It's horrible when pets die *extra hugs* He was a gorgeous little thing. Hope James is looking after you. xxx
from strawberrri :
i'm so sorry about your cat. he was a beauty :( xx
from wombaby :
*hugs* 14 years is a hell of a long time. Hope that James is giving you plenty of TLC.
from shot-of-tea :
Ach, very sorry about your cat. I completely get the upset-over-pets thing, and I've never had a pet for 14 whole years.
from theswordsman :
Thank you. I have bleeding somewhere up there because from time to time my left eye goes all bloodshot and then it comes out my left nostril. Yesterday the eye only got a little bloodshot, but it came gushing out of my nose good and proper and thoroughly unprovoked. I'm one of those people who can have surgery and not take painkillers afterwards, so I don't know about the pain, but there are other physical symptoms up there. I'd just like someone to give it a thorough look. Have a great week.
from wombaby :
I like!!! Except I need someone to cover my life while I'm away (work, dissertation, St John, choir commitments ... off the top of my head!!)
from skinnylizzie :
Ah Holly, that note is number 28974986739874598 on the list of reasons why I love you (in both a friendy and a pseudo-lesbiany way) xxx
from wombaby :
The flight isn't so bad - provided you don't get food poisoning and cover the entire plane with vomit (that only happened to me once, out of about a dozen flights, and I only covered one row, not the entire plane). Are you going from Stansted, or somewhere Norther? I've forgotten what other places they fly to from there. It's a teeny tiny aeroport; in the summer it's practically empty and there's only two flights a day - on a busy day. In ski-season there's about 15 flights a day and it's completely packed. Half of it was a tent last time I was there; you'll have to tell me if it still is. In fact, when I first arrived, what is now the arrivals hall wasn't built; you arrived into what's now the departures hall and you departed through the bit next to check-in which is now sealed off. Um ... sorry ... have I gone on about Grenoble airport enough? (It's actually called St-Geoirs, be warned, the coach will probably say that.) I'm so jealous. Will you take me as a stowaway? Or I'll go on the flight instead of you and you can write my dissertation? Seems a fair deal to me!
from aneles :
I'm sorry I couldn't really appreciate your whole entry, I was laughing too much at a) - couldn't help it! lol Love, A.
from wombaby :
Skiing is absolutely awful, you are wise not to. Hot chocolate with Chantilly (whipped cream) is definitely the way to go). If you're anywhere near Grenoble (les Deux Alpes?) get chartreuse in it too. Mmmm ....
from she-bitch :
Laughed a much-needed laugh at 49. on your 101 Things List. Thanks.
from skinnylizzie :
Thank you for your lovely note my sweet; I return the message! Eleven months is definitely something to be happy about, as are working kidneys, huzzah! (oh, and it makes me chuckle that Call On Me makes you think of me...I would've said that when you actually sent the message if I ever managed to stick within text limit...)
from strawberrri :
urgh that lack of period thing does sound a nightmare...i think pregnancy has to be my most greatest fear in the world. i wonder if your period's failed to show up through stress (wedding, etc?)? or your body's trying to sync up with a random female's?! on a different topic, i thought it was you who had constance briscoe on your book list thingy of people you like. she's my prosecuting barrister in the case i'm in at the moment :)
from shot-of-tea :
Ah you looked lovely. Amanda looks crap.
from student-bum :
"Its like the badness of the whole thing is being shown through the medium of dance." That made me laugh so so much. Shame about the context though. You look lovely in your photos, and you and the boy look so happy and sweet together :)
from skinnylizzie :
Oh Hol, that picture of the two of you where you're not looking at the camera is quite possibly the sweetest picture I think I've ever seen. Seriously, I am quite literally one big human-shaped scoop of mush right now. I thought your Facebook profile one was gorgeous, but that beats it by a long mile (takes some doing). I'm off to continue being mushy somewhere other than your notes page... xxx
from theswordsman :
Wait - are you saying that amazing silent orgasms DON"T exist? If that cat was just a bit smaller, he'd look like one of the panthers at the zoo. Nice pics.
from strawberrri :
1) you and the boy look so adorable together, it should have been your wedding :D 2) "Its like the badness of the whole thing is being shown through the medium of dance." *dies laughing* and 3) thank you for your note, especially as i had an involuntary fringe going on and the horrible being in a hot club so my hair is melted onto my head - yum, thing also going on. hehe.
from shot-of-tea :
All sounds HORRIBLE. However I wish to see a picture of you looking lovely in the outfit :]
from student-bum :
Sending hugs your way for the impending Friday of doom. *hugs*
from wombaby :
Best of good luck for Friday, particularly with not standing up when they ask if there's any reason why this man and this woman should not wed. I feel for you. Also with the whole ME thing, as my meds seem to be messing me up and I go through phases where I'm incredibly tired and sleep ten hours a night then supplement that with a three hour nap in the afternoon - not as bad as yours I guess but still a bloody pain in the arse. So, much sympathy, and have a period!
from skinnylizzie :
It went quite well thank you my lovely, as well as any interview can go. Fingers crossed eh, don't want to say I'm optimistic because I never know what they're really looking for, but I did my best. Those are my philosophical thoughts on the subject! Hope you're having a better Friday night than I am xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Haha, the sheer volume comment I'll agree with! I had to chop it down as well, Facebook only allows 60 photos per album. Although to be fair, over half of them are my dad's. I don't know why I'm trying to justify myself, my whole family and I are clearly just photo whores. xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Yeah, eight hour flights are nobody's friend. Even half hour flights are heinous! I was alright on the way over there but the night flight on the way back was full of turbulence which, I'm sure you can imagine, thrilled me no end to see the plane wing bouncing around ominously. Ugh. Let's keep our feet on terra firma forever more! xxx
from frogeye :
As long as you know your own history. That's why God made google.
from skinnylizzie :
It was lovely thank you! Far too hot, trust me to go over there whilst they're having an October heatwave with temperatures of 30-35 degrees C, bloody typical. Consequently I'm rather bloated and puffy (with humidity-frizzed hair) in many of my photos so I seriously doubt they'll hold a candle to yours! The scenic ones are pretty though. And now I need my bed, because I haven't slept since yesterday morning and I feel rather unwell, bah xxx
from shot-of-tea :
Holla! (Sometimes I just too ghetto.) Thanks for the lovely note :] And aww, beeeeautiful pictures my friend! I liked Berlin a lot when I went as well. But did the German's absolute GIANTNESS scare you at all?
from skinnylizzie :
You look lovely in all of those photos, lovely lovely lovely :)
from blujeans-uk :
On that last pic he kinda looks a little bit like Antonio Banderas. If you squint and turn your head and imagine him spanish. Sort of. Glad you had fun in Germanland!
from frogeye :
Lovely photos! By the way that was the Potsdam Conference of August 1945 and the American One was President Truman. Wiedersehen!
from frogeye :
Basically, the remainder was just border crossing stuff: "Where are your papers and do you have anything to declare?" Somewhat East German coldwar.
from theswordsman :
Stupid Americans! I'm sorry about that, and will try to figure out some sneaky way of getting around it or something. How about if I win the lottery, tape the shows on a fancy DVD burner and Overnight Express them before they get stale? Or have one of my female assistants do the actual work but with the same spirit that I would? Meanwhile, I'll delete your note of conditional possible love as I've not earned it. Drat. Back to paying $2.95 a minute for it.
from strawberrri :
berlin looks very guten indeed! (is it guten or just gut? in my defence i never learned any german at school) you and the boy look so happy together, it warms my heart :) x
from frogeye :
Genoen Sie Fest im Oktober? Welches Bier tranken Sie? Wo sind Ihre Papiere und haben Sie irgendetwas, um zu erklren?
from student-bum :
YAY for Holly being alive! :)
from theswordsman :
Best note ever. Cheers, Dude.
from theswordsman :
Hey Holly. I hope you're having a great time in Berlin. I just watched my first ever TV show on computer -I forgot to tape Chuck last night. it was great - good picture quality and no commercials. Anyway, I went looking for more new shows, and I saw that the new episodes of ANTM can be watched legally and for free. I didn't know if you just like the old ones or whatever, but here's the link in case you haven't seen it. http://cwtv.com/cw-video/americas-next-top-model/full
from frogeye :
Auf Wiedersehen! Have a wonderful time in the fatherland.
from wombaby :
Have fun in Berlin! I'm sorry about your Dad's being a tosser :(
from skinnylizzie :
Gro! All you really need to know is 'wo ist das Krankenhaus?' (where is the hospital in case of leg falling off emergencies) and 'haben Sie hier eine Diskothek?' (because who doesn't want to know where the nearest discotheque is?). Enjoy Berlin my lovely, you deserve a good holiday xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Ah Holly, I just read your answers to John's survey (the blissful empty life of the unemployed!), and we are clearly one mind in two bodies. I KNEW there were more reasons that you were my pseudo-lesbian girlfriend apart from the fact that you're hot. xxx
from wombaby :
I actually feel more strongly about keeping jewellery in the family than I do about keeping books in the family. I feel quite strongly about keeping books in the family.
from wombaby :
*hugs* maybe say that actually you kinda wanted that chain? I dunno. I can't imagine being in such a horrible position. It would make more sense for you and your sister to split the stuff between you, that's how it should be, especially for the stuff that's worth anything. Oh Holly, I don't know what to say!
from shot-of-tea :
UGH. That whole jewellery business is horrible - to be honest I don't see how your dad cannot see the pure tastelessness in it all. :/ Hope you find a way to tell him how you feel.
from skinnylizzie :
And now I have read the entry...man. I wish I could say something more eloquent, but I can't believe somebody would do that. I was considering making a voodoo doll of my old property manager but you're welcome to it instead xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Never mind...I have awful timing as usual. I shall go and read your new one! xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Oh oh oh, did you delete an entry earlier or am I going bonkers? xxx
from strawberrri :
uuggh that sounds almighty shitty. how does your sister feel? maybe if you both voiced similar opinions it wouldn't sound like you're doing it because you don't like amanda. *hugs* xx
from strawberrri :
I KNOW! i was absolutely busting as well as i hadn't wee'd since before i left home. i was going to wee on my changeover train from leeds (didn't have time at the station) but the toilet stank like a big hairy skunk had died in there so i held it in until manc. even kings cross only charges 20p!
from skinnylizzie :
Oh, thank you my lovely, it's much appreciated. Tried to leave you a similar note last night but my internet's been unpredictable to say the least over the past day, stupid thing. I think the main gist of the note might've been 'Josh, Dad's found your scooter!' anyway... xxx
from theswordsman :
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=1006052024880
from wombaby :
I confess I interpreted it as your being only just female, rather than his being only just male! Don't hit me, please ...
from strawberrri :
sorry realised you might not want to read through all that crap. the instructions i followed were these: 'First thing to do is restore the drivers from before the problem started. From the start menu: Start>Programs>Accessories>System Tools>System Restore Follow the instructions to restore your PC to a date before the problem started and reboot. '
from strawberrri :
is blue screen of death where it freezes then restarts without your permission? if it is, i had the same problem and got some nice people on a forum i go on to help me (and the help just involves restoring your drivers back to a time when the problem never happened). info's all here anyway http://www.mugwuffin.com/Computer_Help_PLZ%21%21.1520.1.html x
from theswordsman :
The full-time camera job would be greedy of me. I'll settle for walk-on roles as "man with moustache" or "serendipitous window washer" during the naked bits. Sorry, Zoe brought out the scamp in me earlier and now I'll lock myself inside until its passed. Enjoy the rugby. John
from theswordsman :
Hey Holly. Congrats on the full time. That's great. I'll let your lovely female readership address the rest. Have a great weekend. John
from theswordsman :
That whole post should be made into the pilot for a TV show. Guaranteed hit. I'll play the window washer. Hope your neck feels better soon.
from skinnylizzie :
BERND. Pronounced 'Bert'! Oh, happy days! xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Haha, was that one of my schneid texts? It made me laugh all through the game, my dad kept asking me what was so funny...I'm still not really sure. Was even better when I discovered his first name as well xxx
from student-bum :
Refried beans! Oh god. I've gone off beans a bit since getting food poisoning from them a couple of years ago :D Didn't even know it was possible. Pasta is good, I shall be living off a diet of pasta, chips and pizza. And toast, delicious toast. Carbs galore!
from student-bum :
Lovely... I almost ate goat once. Blergh. I'm in self-catered, so hopefully I'll lose weight by living off Aldi 9p noodles or something. Or I'll befriend someone who can cook and bribe them to cook for me with alcohol...
from wombaby :
Amanda has a weird smile.
from skinnylizzie :
Ah, just say the word and I shall stop. But I know you love it really! Plus, I think I have some pent-up sexual energy building inside me and you are the poor unfortunate soul I am taking it out on. Being cooped up in the house all day is not good for the state of mind xxx
from skinnylizzie :
I apologise profusely my lovely, it's just that sometimes I get so over-excited and it slips out before I can stop it (oo-er!). You may call me Zo as often as you like, to atone for my sins. And I am most definitely not a liar! xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Ah Hollipop, just wanted to stop by and say I hope your gran's okay. I get freaked out by even small nosebleeds so she has all of my sympathy (mind you, I bet she's more sensible than I am and doesn't deal with it by just shoving a tissue up there. Thinking of it, that's how I deal with colds as well). Oh GOD, why haven't I shut up yet? Oh yes, and you are a sexy beast xxx
from strawberrri :
haha imagine if i'd gone out with him, i would definitely have referred to him in my diary as Jury Boy :) your pics are lovely - i especially like the sunsetty ones and the one of you writing x
from theswordsman :
I HATE IT when your boobs get smaller. Damn.
from clairecav :
Stepmums. They're evil.
from theswordsman :
Hurrah! Holly is back and the world makes sense again. I thoughtfully deleted all of my old entries before you got back, because that would be too much to expect of anyone. Take care. John
from wombaby :
Aren't you back from France yet?
from skinnylizzie :
Haha, just read your note now, I stayed away from the internet on Friday night and most of yesterday because I was too afraid of having it ruined! Finished it yesterday afternoon after six hours straight in bed (my brother very rudely inferred that I have no life, which I take offence at)...is it normal to have cried so much I could've cured drought? xxx
from clairecav :
Ahh bon voyage and Bon Jovi! Have fun in Frarnce ;]
from wombaby :
That is indeed how you spell Brittany (although I just typed it wrong myself lol) - but the French spelling is Bretagne. Sadly I'm supposed to be working Monday, Wednesday and Saturday next week, and I think they might take it amiss if I didn't turn up (added to which I'm a bit skint just now so I need to work so that I'll be paid!) But next time ...
from strawberrri :
'The first time James and me had sex, I decided to up the romance stakes by saying, midway through, My boobs are different sizes, have you noticed?' HAHAHA, brilliant :)
from skinnylizzie :
Haha, I'm sorry! In my defence, there was already pseudo-lesbian smuttage on my profile referring to you, I just reworded it slightly to confuse everybody whilst also subtly announcing our pseudo love to the world. Also, WHY ISN'T IT SATURDAY YET? xxx
from wombaby :
Have a fantastic time in la belle France ... I'm so unbelievably jealous although I have discovered Reblochon cheese in Waitrose today so I'm feeling a little tiny bit less France-sick. If you get a chance, eat tartiflette, one of Europe's best contributions to my stomach. Where are you going in France?
from blujeans-uk :
What did you think of the film? I dragged Mario to see it after preordering tickets for the first day it opened :-) It's so so so unbelievably unfair that it comes out the weekend before my essay is due in... I'd originally told myself I wasn't allowed to read it til I'd handed the bastard report in but now I'm trying to calculate in my head how many all-nighters I'd need to put in if I took the weekend off to find out what happens...
from strawberrri :
thanks! i wore my hair up in a clip today to try to disguise it and noone said 'what the hell have you done to yourself woman?!' so maybe it's not as noticeable as i think. am hoping it fades a bit when i wash it though! x
from clairecav :
Oh I know. I'm sure in a few years I may look back at it in a romanticised, be-young-be-foolish way, but for now it is just filed under 'completely shit' in my memory box (also known as a brain to some...) Also hurrah for having internet accesage again! On the ANTM front, can you help me out in identifying which was the first series? I always thought it was the one with Camille et al but apparently that was the second. Enlighten me?
from skinnylizzie :
I have a slight crush on Harry so I may well shed a tear (or a few thousand...I bawled like a baby when Dumbledore died) if he pops his clogs. And Ron and Hermione MUST get together and have little ginger babies! xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Oh God, I know, why won't it just COME OUT already? I must know what happens? I can feel next Saturday will be one of those days where I just lock myself away until I've finished it. I won't dare look at a newspaper, turn on the TV or mooch about online until I know whether Harry dies or not. And now I have revealed the true extent of my sad and boring life to you, oh dear xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Haha, my friend Stacey dropped her hood about ten seconds before the congregation started and she had to leapfrog three rows and find somebody to fold it again for her. Those things did weigh a ton, and why are they designed specifically to strangle you?! Somebody hates graduates, clearly. And after reading your graduation entry back, I have to say yours looked about a million times scarier than mine, that hall was HUGE! I pretended not to notice the gallery full of people above me and so it only looked like a couple of hundred people. Yours was...well, I definitely would've thrown up if I'd been at yours, let's put it that way... xxx
from skinnylizzie :
I have just confirmed what I already knew, and that is that you do indeed look far better in robes than I do. Plus you had the snazzy hat and everything! (by the way, I don't think I left you a note to say this because I am ridiculously forgetful at the moment, but I'm so glad your gran's okay) xxx
from johnguinness :
Hey Holly. That's great news about your gran. Congrats on the impending excellent evaluation, etc. Living with someone who uses multiple olive oils should be really interesting. Take care. John
from wombaby :
Oh I'm so glad your Gran's ok! And James sounds absolutely lovely. Fingers crossed for all things good for the pair of you in the future.
from the-it-man :
Hope you nans ok , first and foremost !! Secondly it amazing how the lack of electricity stops us doing things. I was travlling the the flood plains ( ok east midlands and yorkshite ) earlier last week and was amazed that to get home i had to travel so far south to then progress west then north. Crazy world we live in
from wombaby :
Did everything go ok with your Nan? *hugs*
from johnguinness :
Thanks a lot, Dude. Have a great, dry, safe week yourself. Cheers. John
from anibananie :
Hope your gran's operation goes ok :) And Lancaster is nowhere near the canoe-needing stage yet. There's a few rivers running down the roads when it does rain, otherwise we're all moaning about nothing. Though the playground my friends and I played in was about four/six inches deep in water in places.
from clairecav :
Your drunken nan sounds HILARIOUS. I'm sure the operation and everything will go just fine :]
from skinnylizzie :
I hope your gran's operation goes okay, my lovely. I shall keep some fingers crossed all day for her. Man, I really want to ring you but I'm going to have to wait another few days; why oh why do I keep using up all my sodding free texts and minutes so quickly?! Oh, and by the way, anything that can be described as both fishy AND sweet is not present material...apart from a festive haddock, OBVIOUSLY xxx
from strawberrri :
no i find that very interesting indeed! did you manage to get a picture of her? i seem to have doppelgangers all over the place, it's peculiar :)
from skinnylizzie :
Aww Hol, I just literally sent you a text but I'm still leaving you a note anyway as I just read your note after my last entry...I don't know what you were reading but you are a far better writer than I am! And I've made about three plans to come visit you in the past three months and have been thwarted each time. Just you wait, one day very soon I will actually have the money (and there will be no flood waters, DAMN THEM) and I shall arrive on your doorstep for some pseudo-lesbian fun. It shall be joyous. xxx
from anibananie :
I almost emailed today to ask if you had been affected by the flooding but then stopped myself. Glad the mountain saved you :D
from strawberrri :
ta! men can be alright sometimes can't they :)
from frogeye :
Buddy Holly rocks! And for James to watch Indy and drink beer, a man after my own heart.
from clairecav :
Congrats on your six month anniversary! Can I just say as well that Berlin is LOVELY and they do all speak English (which is useful as the only things I remember in German are 'orangesaft' 'elf' and 'winkelmeiser' - probably all spelt wrong - and I did not get much use out of 'orange juice', 'eleven' and 'compass', surprisingly). Also, although I doubt it matters now you have your och-aye lover, but Berlin men are extremely hunkeh!
from wombaby :
Well, you get a relationship with a boy in the same town as you, I get to go travelling. If you could make it to Tours any time tomorrow you'd be more than welcome to tag along ...
from anibananie :
*manic waving* I don't really have anything to say either, so I shall settle for an old-fashioned 'hello' back. Oh, except maybe it would be a good idea if I told Zoe about the plot to come and see you...! I kind of agreed on her behalf, hehe. Oh well!
from wombaby :
Good luck to your Gran. My Dad's in surgery on the 3rd - all routine and planned, but a little worrying all the same. I'm sure they'll both be fine - fingers crossed, eh?
from frogeye :
I never did get to make the hot dog/pea soup but I did make a sausage & pepper concoction. De-lish! As James is an Indy enthusiast, I vote for him. Does he get to watch Nascar? What about the drag races? A amn after my own heart.
from strawberrri :
at school we'd sing 'he's got the whole world in his pants'. hilarious i'm sure you'll agree :)
from anibananie :
Deal, we'll both descend on you at some point! Like the plague, but nicer.
from anibananie :
You and James make me happy, sad as that is. That is all.
from frogeye :
That university is one of the most conservative of the religious schools in the US. It is typical of our down south, bible belt type schools. Paise the Lord and pass the peas.
from skinnylizzie :
Sigh, I wish I could, but he mocks Grimsby just a little bit too much for my liking. You know how seriously I take the mocking issue! xxx
from strawberrri :
thanks...feel quite sure it was the right thing to happen though - sort of feel like a black cloud has gone from above my head?! x
from anibananie :
Hehe, I wondered too if James had sent you the block of wood as a quirky Scottish tradition... now feel like a pillock. On that note, if you want people to visit you, I shall have a whole summer of doing nothing and hopefully a lisence and motorway experience to go with it. Or a train ticket. Either way, Lancaster's only an hour or so away so I am putting in an offer of a visit :D There was something else... ooh yes, The Apprentice. This: [http://www.radiotimes.com/content/features/the-apprentice/01/], bracketed for no reason at all, made me laugh way, way too much. I spent almost an hour reading through it... Have a good evening x
from wombaby :
Card bollocks. Just tell him you're being ecologically aware or something. Or saving money. Tell him congratulations on the phone, that should be enough.
from anibananie :
*tunnel THING, damnit. I'm getting obsessive about correcting my notes now.
from anibananie :
Thanks for the note :D I think the tunnel things seems reasonable. Still a stupid answer though... *grumblegrumble* Anyway. I hope you get to feel better about the stuff with your dad. I guess it must be weird trying to be happy for someone when they're happy but you're unsure. Families are crap sometimes, aren't they! Oh, and my brother was born in Coventry, and from what I've heard from my folks it's not exactly paradise ('gangsta' or otherwise) xxx
from clairecav :
"Then we eventually reached Coventry, which is such a fucking cesspool Im lost for words to adequately describe it." Of course Coventry has one good thing - I'M THERE! You should have looked me up ;) Good histoire lesson from John there though, he knows his stuff! Anyway I don't know what to say about the news about your dad, I hope you're okay with it all. I guess anything is better than being alone, I wish my dad would find someone new, but it is still very early days on that one. :]
from johnguinness :
I was only in Coventry for a couple of hours, as part of a Stratford trip,and saw mostly the new cathedral and the remnants of the old one and did a bit of walking about. The city did have a totally different feel than the other places I visited over there. They used to have a factory that made either the Hurricane or Spitfire fighter planes, and after the planes kicked the Germans butts during the Battle of Britain, the Germans decided in November 1940 to bomb the bejeezus out of the place. It was continuous and relentless, and afterwards a German general bragged that the place had been "coventrated." At the end there were only three, or twenty-three buildings left untouched, I forget which. They had to start from scratch with WWII looming and lots of other places needing help. I can't imagine Lincoln without the Castle and Cathedral, or Stratford without the Shakespeare sites, or Nottingham without the Ye Olde Trip to Jerusalem. Take care. John
from wombaby :
Make your Dad come visit you! *hugs*
from frogeye :
Cheers little one! Happy to hear from you. I do have to update on a regular basis. Keep those cards and letters coming.
from wombaby :
What would I do? Could you have found a more difficult question to ask? Ok, the answer is coming as an email because this note box is too small and my answer is too long.
from wombaby :
I had something to say. But I've only gone and forgotten what it was! Oh yeah, I remembered. Your technicians day sounds like a St John meeting. And evangelism, ugh. I know Becky's a good friend, but apart from that, evangelism, ugh. Glad your gran is doing better.
from anibananie :
Ha, I just realised I leave QUALITY notes. Sorry.
from anibananie :
In order: ugh, yay, yay, boo, boooooo. I hate it when people force religion on me. Hope it works out. And I hope the chat with your dad goes ok too x
from wombaby :
At least you *do* visit your Gran. She appreciates it, I'm sure. Do you have no cousins?
from skinnylizzie :
Hello, just dropped in to say I love you. And once again, that's an incredibly cute picture. I'm glad he makes you feel all mushy and funny inside :) xxx
from strawberrri :
thanks :) people keep putting up unflattering photos of me also - i am grateful for that untag button!
from anibananie :
Ooh go on, do a video, come over to the DARK SIDE...! I did one the other night but it was so whiny and horrible I decided not to bother. But you should definitely do one, yes, and then I can hear what accent you have. I'm nosy like that.
from strawberrri :
oh you look all lovely :)
from wombaby :
Hurrah :) glad the wedding didn't seem to go as badly as you were expecting!!
from onlyemma :
Your description of your usual 'shouting the song words in the other person's face' dancing, made me laugh my head off. I remember that from our Sixth Form days and it made me miss you so much! I'm so glad the wedding went well and I'm also glad you and James are in the "I love you so much" stage now too as you totally deserve that. Oh I do miss you xxx
from johnguinness :
Now that you've showed off your ceilidh (it turns out there is no correct spelling for that word)dancing superpowers, he'll definitely let you touch is sock daggers next time. These things must happen in the proper order. I'm sure the people who saw me ceilidh dance are still talk about it, but they roll their eyes and shake their heads slowly at the memory.
from anibananie :
Thanks for the note! Hope the wedding jazz went ok. Mmm, kilts. Anyway, back to what I was going to say: considering yours and Zoe's psuedo-relationship I figured you'd approve! And I have to agree with you about Eliza Dushku. Your note made me chuckle anyway, so thanks, it was much appreciated.
from skinnylizzie :
Well, I guess you're at the wedding right now, I only have my crappy non-working laptop to thank for this tardy noting. Oh well, I hope it's going okay! xxx
from randomrabbit :
I know it's highly unlikely but if Aggie McKenzie happens to be at the wedding would you mind taking a picture for me? And if you could get her to hold a feather duster or some sort of paddle that would be just lovely.
from wombaby :
We want a kilt picture! The wedding probably won't be as bad as you expect (you seem to be expecting pretty bad so that probably won't be too difficult!) At least you should take it as a compliment that you get to meet his family. Chin up chuck.
from anibananie :
If you post a picture of said kilt I will love you forever! Hope you have fun, I'm sure you will. x
from johnguinness :
It's been ages since I fell asleep in a nice pile of other people's coats. Must put it on my to-do list, once the red string on my finger reminds me to start said list. Take care. John
from anibananie :
The only thing I can think of for Amanda is the old 'Friends' joke - "A. Man. Duh!" which I suppose doesn't help. Oh well. And as for the ME, yay, go team Holly! :) *waves pom-poms*
from moosehunter :
Aha. So bonny Scotland was it? And Dumfries? One of the few areas I know quite well. The castle appears to be Caerlaverock and I'd have given a history lesson too. Glad you had a good time and that things are going well. Moosey
from wombaby :
Aww he makes you look so happy! And he's rather cute. And I want you to be happy so I think he's a Good Thing.
from anibananie :
I believe he says he'll make a sandwich and then do some work, but I could be wrong! I was concentrating on the dogs. But yes, I didn't mean to make the video have such a mundane ending... Oh well!
from skinnylizzie :
Hello, it's me, the BIG FAT DESERTER who still has your birthday haddock here sitting on my desk glaring at me. Anyway, Scottish lambs look fluffier than English lambs, and the last picture just about thawed my cold unyielding heart, you make a lovely couple xxx
from anibananie :
Oh yes, I forgot - you two are massively cute together!
from anibananie :
Hehe I have a photo of myself, high on sugar, looking at a Scottish tenner with undue fascination. But yay for Scottish people! And yay for James the Scot also! I'm so damn jealous it's untrue.
from clairecav :
Have fun in bonny Scotchland! By the way, far be it from me to tell you what to do but if you stop updating then I may have to kill you. That is all =D
from swordmaster :
Hey Holly. It was just the other day that I was thinking about my attempt at a falabella joke, "No, it's just a little horse," that had you jumping up and down on the bed singing and chucking apple cores out the sky light. I miss knowing more about what's going on in your life, but I know it's because you're busy with good things, and that you have someone there to listen to the things you used to tell us. Heaven knows I'm not the strongest advocate for Diaryland this week, but for those of us who may never know you in any other way, perhaps it could be at least a weekly or monthly routine, just so we know things are still going well? I hope it turns out that way, but I'm just not ready for the "and she lived happily ever after" phase. Cheers Dude
from anibananie :
I'd quite like (read: am desperate for) you to keep writing, personally, but it's your decision. Sounds like you're going to have a good week! Hope it is. Good luck with the boy clan, make sure to tell us any mad, Scottish or madly Scottish things they do. xxx
from onlyemma :
The conversation with geography teacher made me laugh and laugh! Brilliant. Please don't stop writing, I don't know what I'd do with myself if I couldn't catch up with your life and feel close to you that way. Love you xxx
from wombaby :
Hurrah. I'll be trying to hold you to that ...
from wombaby :
Aww please don't shut up shop - yours is one of my favourite diaries! And I would have laughed at Matt. No worrying about rudeness for me. You are very restrained :)
from onlyemma :
Happy belated birthday! I hope you got my text and facebook birthday message on the day too, as I wouldn't want you to feel neglected. I'm so, so happy that things are going well with you and Mr Scotland. I'm jealous, yes, but far more happy for you. You really do deserve so much love. Anyway, my main reason for writing this was to say I miss you. Because I do. Very much so. And I love you loads too xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Shock horror...you mean my visit with a BIRTHDAY HADDOCK won't keep you going for the whole two weeks?! Scandalous. xxx
from wombaby :
Your work sounds just like extended uni, but with pay. Sounds great. And if you want a listening ear for other things, you know my email address, but don't feel obligated - gah that came out really awkwardly but you know what I mean.
from johnguinness :
Hey Holly. I sent you a Facebook balloon, but figured I'd better wish you a proper Diaryland Happy Birthday in case you didn't see it in time. Um...Happy Birthday! I hope it turns out to be both ace and kickass all at once. Take care. John
from clairecav :
Wahey! I am mighty pleased for you and your Scottish lover officially being LOVErs now. It is very nice indeed! Also, in case I forget (which I may well do, being me and all), happy birthday for Monday!
from randomrabbit :
Also, if it's not a silly question - why did you take a hairdryer to the Natural History Museum? Also also, Happy Birthday for Monday. 22! Shit!
from randomrabbit :
I can't believe he bought the hair dryer line so easily. It seems the threat to the nation's stuffed animals by Barbarellaesque ray-gun toting girls isn't been taken seriously enough. Had you been in your burka with a bag full of fertiliser, you'd have been wrestled to the floor and shot. There's just no consistency with these things.
from the-moo :
woooohooo you told him you love him and he loves you back and takes you to museums in london and loves and loves you some more!!! *is very happy for you in case you couldn't tell* glad to see you update and yaaaaaay for turning 22 I'll be 25 on my next birthday... *sob* xxx
from moosehunter :
Excellent. Things sound pretty good and you got to use the word Phobophile which is a truly excellent word. Kudos to you. I shall be updating my own page today with a phobia story, and I wonder whether I can manage to use it myself. Whatever you do Easter, it'll be good. Moosey
from johnguinness :
Hey Holly. I just saw a story about the World's Smallest Horse, Thumbelina, and had to share. It's actually in St. Louis, so I could go see it if I want. As always, I hope all is well with you. Take care. John http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/17611396/
from anibananie :
I, also, am glad you're not dead and I, also, read the last sentence as beer with me. Hmm. Now... GET BACK TO WORK! (despite the fact it's now nearly 7 - I'm hoping you read this when you're next slacking at work. Otherwise it's pretty redundant.)
from wombaby :
Pleased to hear you aren't dead. Although I did initially read your last sentence as "beer with me". Mmm.
from the-it-man :
You got a great guy in James. But then all James are great ;o). What a guy i hope he looks after you as well has he has been for the rest of your life, you got a good one there
from skinnylizzie :
Holly, I do love you. And I say that with all the pseudo-lesbonic love in my heart. I went looking for Birthday Haddock materials the other day xxx
from johnguinness :
I'll update that immediately. It's good to hear from you - I had no idea that you were reading me at all this year. I hope things are going better. John
from the-moo :
aaaaaaaaaaw I know this was meant to be a sad story but reading it I just feel warm and happy and hopeful because you and james are so CUTE!! *hugs* I'm sorry things have gotten on top of you recently I shall up the prayers and up the love because you're wonderful and that image of you in the car reminded me so much of me a few years ago that I nearly cried too!! OODLES of love to you xxx
from skinnylizzie :
*AND ten minutes. I tried to go back and change that before I clicked 'done', but my laptop had the spaz to end all spazzes because a bit of dust landed on it or something and by the time I got back it had posted it for me. Stupid thing. xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Ha, yeah, that was a real 'brain not engaged' moment! If it's any consolation, my mum came into my room last night to say goodbye, and when I told her that the next time she saw me I'd be 21, she said 'yeah, you'll be in spinsterdom then, no man by your side. I'm going to start calling you Spinster Girl'. Ouch! Aww I enjoyed our wondrous chat too, it was an hour of ten minutes of utter fun and frolics, except for the bit where I insulted you xxx
from strawberrri :
oh how awful...all of it. i am very glad you have james (and he is immensely lucky to have you of course). *huge hug* xx
from clairecav :
Well, GAH. The last few weeks sound like a large pile of cack. Glad you've come through them and seem to be getting better =) Also, immensely glad your sister is okay! How scary. Shudder.
from skinnylizzie :
I was going to come here and pollute your notes page some more, but now I'm here and I can't bring myself to do it. Hope Mr Tesco is bringing you lots of fun things! I'm off to design your birthday haddock xxx
from moosehunter :
I too have been through times like that in the past, where you sit and think 'why bother'. It's never nice and usually for no reason and wears off eventually. The strangest things pull you out of it. I had a fit of it for a week or two when I was at university, but I happened to be walking down the high street in Newcastle Under Lyme one morning and saw a drunken man who'd obviously slept on the bench after leaving the pub the night before. He was wearing one of those silly Irish pixie hats you get on St Patrick's Day and as I walked past, he bent down and picked something up he'd dropped. As he did so his hat fell off and he stared at it in something between surprise and horror and then ... took out his eye, polished it on his jacket, put it back in and stared at the hat again. I laughed almost until I was sick. Depression gone. My, this note's longer than my diary entries! Anyway, good luck as things pick up Hol. Hope there's a drunk with a glass eye and a silly hat out there waiting to make you smile. You never know, it might be me! Moosey.
from wombaby :
Aw Hol, that nearly made me cry! *huge hugs* Depression sucks a huge amount, but there is light at the end of the tunnel. Usually it's round a bend so you can't see it, but it's there.
from anibananie :
Aaw, that's not good :( I get that stupid random sadness what's-the-point-in-anything moods as well, so I can sympathise a little bit. It's crap. Really hope you feel better soon, and I'm sending good vibrations (ooh-ooh-ooh good vibrations!) your way. Ha, that sounded dodgy. But still. Thank god for James, though, that's all I can say really. He seems like a star.
from swordmaster :
Hey Holly. I hope everything is going okay. Just wanted you to know that people are thinking of you and sending good thoughts your way even when you don't post for a while. Take care. John
from wombaby :
**hugs**
from wombaby :
Holly! It's been nearly two weeks! Have you dropped off the face of the planet? Nige xx
from the-moo :
hi hi hi hi hi *SQUISH* he loves you and you love him and this entry made me very very VERY happy indeed!! I love you too.. just so you know! xxx
from skinnylizzie :
*hears. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?
from skinnylizzie :
*resemblance. I'm a fool.
from skinnylizzie :
It's just a girl called Lisa who I know through a friend...the resemble isn't uncanny but you both have blonde hair, it's styled the same way and you kind of talk the same too. Except you're a trillion times better, OBVIOUSLY. And I will never understand your 'thing' about your voice, at least you're not Squeaky Squeakerson! Good God, I'd annoy myself if I heard the same voice everybody else heres. Ooh, and I'm off tomorrow, would tomorrow be groovy gravy with you for a talk of the chatty kind? xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Ooh, I'm glad it went well! And you've made me crave a fry-up now, wench. You'll have to let me know when you're free this week so I can give you a ring (oh God, I sound like a needy Nigel), I miss your dulcet tones. And I've FINALLY worked out who it is you look like that I know, it's only taken me a year. It's not at all interesting, but I thought I'd tell you anyway xxx
from clairecav :
Aw, I am goofily happy for you and your LOVAH BOY. And out of curiosity, does his conscience have a Scottish accent? I'd imagine it does but then my conscience doesn't really talk like me (ie a twat) so p'haps not. Oh and I know about as much about Shakespeare as I do about mice spleens, but I do believe As You Like It is the supposedly funny one (as IF) so just chortle loudly when other people do, and you may pull off the sophis' look.
from moosehunter :
Sounds like things are well and truly on the up for you at the moment. I'm happy for you. You'll have to have a valentine's re-enactment after his mum's gone back. Moosey
from skinnylizzie :
If I wasn't full of pseudo-lesbian jealousy right now, I'd probably say something along the lines of 'awwww'. I think we need to talk very soon, you have enough fun news to make even my life interesting too! xxx
from anibananie :
Haha, 'a normal voice'. Oh that's a classic. I am SO jealous, I want to go see Shakespeare! Even if it is a horribly confusing one. Grr! Have fun anyways, sure you'll like it xxx
from johnguinness :
Even with the lurgy, you managed the best Valentines Day of anyone I know. It's great to hear that life is treating you so well. Teach Maria some happy songs. Take care. John
from strawberrri :
can i just say, awwww :) <3
from anibananie :
Oooh, even if you are wanting to run for the hills I cannot help but be jealous of your Scottish bloke. *Does* he think in Scottish? I hope your evil lurgy pisses off back to the hell from whence it came, as does James' mother. I'm sure you'll be fine. Enjoy the Shakespeare. God, I'm getting far too jealous for my own good...
from onlyemma :
Sorry for taking an age to get back to you, but YES! I do remember the Have They Lost Their Virginity Or Not game! That was fantastic and what an insight. The geek's corner was often a mytery though as Amanda jumped just about every boy in that group *shudders* I miss you, I think a little visitation is in order soon! xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Right back at you, gorgeous. It's so nice to have a pseudo-lesbian girlfriend to get me through days like today! xxx
from frogeye :
Whatever happened to our theatrical opening night staring the ten talented digits?
from onlyemma :
I play the Who D'ya Think's The Best At Sex In This Room game too! And the less saucy one that I can allow participants in on: the Who Looks Like A Good Kisser In This Room game. Good times :) xxx
from randomrabbit :
Not sure there's enough snow to build a snowman, maybe just a baby one. Glad you're feeling a lot better, my dear.
from strawberrri :
hooray for feeling more energised! (which you really need as i'm convinced it's going to be snowmania across britain tomorrow which means you'll be building a mega-snowman...should i even bother attempting trying to get to work? hmm.) i used to love that freestyler song...nearly seven years old it is now. argh x
from anibananie :
Fucking YES!
from clairecav :
Remission is... good, yes? =D
from swordmaster :
That is so awesome!
from wombaby :
Hurrah!
from clairecav :
Oof, that I most certainly do not want! Dammit, I keep meaning to watch Shameless just so I can spot Ciaran and feel very roughly connected to you, but I keep missing it.
from moosehunter :
Heya... Henry Moose sends his regards. 2007 seems to be bringing you better times than 2006. Too early yet for me to tell, but let's hope eh? Moosehunter.
from wombaby :
Whoo :) life looking good again is fantastic, and I am pleased for you. And lucky lucky James ;-)
from clairecav :
Haha, a yay or a 'oosh, loser'? That is the question =P
from skinnylizzie :
Schneidtastic, that is all I have to say. Oh yes, and a big fat I wuv you! Apparently I can't contain my feelings for you any longer, I don't know where this random burst of affection has come from. I don't want to ruin any possible surprises (if I remember this time), but you may be getting a Festive Haddock for your birthday. It's a Celebration Haddock! And I'll attempt to remember to bring it when I hopefully make a trip to the Gritty City. I was planning this earlier whilst trying to avoid revision, is that obvious? Oh God, I've just reached a whole new level of weirdness. xxx
from the-it-man :
I thought my year had started bad but my feelings and admiration for your strength is emmence. Go Girl, keep on fighting
from skinnylizzie :
Favouriter than Grimsby? You blasphemous minx! Can't believe it's been nearly a whole year, doesn't feel like more than a few months to be honest. Possibly due to all of this pseudo-lesbian love between us. Ah, it is joyous! I don't half spout some bollocks when I'm trying to put off revision, you know. xxx
from frogeye :
Thank you for sharing your inner thoughts. I hope you are feeling better.
from skinnylizzie :
Yes, but I think you might be slightly biased as my pseudo-girlfriend, my lovely. By the way, I meant to text you earlier - today I'd give you my last After Eight, as the Matchmakers finally met the inside of my stomach. I love After Eights, but I would sacrifice my last one for you. Was kind of loosely planning a trip to the Gritty City during Easter, if that's okay with you? xxx
from clairecav :
Hope today has been okay for you, my lovely.
from frogeye :
Ask Dr. Bone if you can knaw on the pig femur. Anything left in the fridge is fair game, first come, first serve.
from frogeye :
Buffylass...this is Houston. Just checking in as we haven't heard from you, over.
from anibananie :
*hugs* for tomorrow and Monday x
from wombaby :
Sending you good vibes and hugs for tomorrow and Monday. Anniversaries are pants, and so are Januaries. But afterwards it's a whole year til they come round again ...
from strawberrri :
wishing you a ton of strength for tomorrow and monday xxx i'm also very happy for you and the tall scottish man :)
from frogeye :
Earth to Buffylass, Earth to Buffylass. Come in Buffylass...............
from anibananie :
Thankfully we never had to do that one... I'm sure I would have come up with something equally rude. I decided to remember Little Hans, who asked his mother if she could touch his willy, as Little Hands... *eyebrow waggle*
from wombaby :
Thank you :) and did you see Zoe's note? Pseudo-lesbian threesomes!
from anibananie :
The SAM is almost as bad, but not quite. HPA is the ultimate, really, for the ridiculously long name. But I found a good way of remembering the nervous system: autonomic nervous system becomes ANuS, peripheal nervous system becomes the PeNiS (I look like I'm doing chav text), and the somatic nervous system becomes the Scrotum. Because that so works. It's not as bad as what I came up with for the central nervous system, though... Still, it works, and that's all that matters.
from anibananie :
I shall keep a look out for Ciaren and his obscenely-named woofy. Thank you for the luck, I'm going to need it I think! But right now I'm going to do bugger all. The bloody HPA has had enough of my attention today; it's getting demanding. xxx
from frogeye :
I like the new attitude and regimen. Ye Old Scot is one lucky guy!
from anibananie :
Every time I see Shameless ads I wonder which one Ciaran is. In fact, you seem to be invading my life at the moment - one of the best teachers EVER (he's brilliant: half-Italian, half-Scottish, and loves the League of Gentlemen) has suspected ME, and I had to reassure my anxious friends that I know someone with ME who is doing immensely well so they wouldn't fret (I hope that didn't sound horribly patronising in any way, though). xxx
from skinnylizzie :
You truly are the best pseudo-lesbian lover a girl could have. Don't think you'll be escaping from a visit for much longer missus, because this year I'm in the MONEY! xxx
from johnguinness :
Hey Holly. Sorry to hear the year didn't start the best. I was concerned for you when my buddy list had your name lit up but then there was no entry, but I decided to respect your privacy, which is of course totally unlike me. I'm off to buy a ticket for the $201 million (I beleive that's about four pounds seventy at current exchange rates) lottery drawing, and I'm calling this the Year Where Anything is Possible, so I don't think you'd be out of line making a list of fallabella names. As for the year, it's not how you start, it's how you finish, and I'm sure you've got great things ahead. Hopefully it will start with you hunky Scotsman and a well-filled picnic basket. Take care. John
from frogeye :
Happy New Year! Dont give up, you must fight the stress you are now experiencing. Try to release the pressure through exercise or other physical activity. Your body and mind work together. Keep the avenues of communication open and talk to someone about your concerns and worries as you did with your dad. And dont forget, a good cry can be a healthy way to bring relief to your anxiety. So get on that bridge and yell as load as you can. Never give up the fight!
from wombaby :
Good luck! And yeah, can we all call you Hollipop now? I think it suits you - sweetness on a stick. *hugs*
from pink-fairy :
*Gives ya a big squeeze till your face turns blue* I hope your ok, its really crap what you are having to deal with. Keep your chin up and maybe slip a little rum into that cuppa ;) xxxx
from johnguinness :
I'm sorry about the long distance - I've had my new phone a few weeks now, and it would have been nice to know if the ringer works. I just read Zoe's entry - are we all allowed to call you Hollypops now, or is it just her, or what's the deal? Oh - you'll be pleased to hear that I've resolved that in 2007 I won't attempt to use "snog" in a sentence, or a phrase, or any of those other things people use words in. I really do hope you have a great year. I'm thinking on this side it will change from the Year of Rapid Change to The Year of Living Dangerously. Take care. Oh - I just bought a lottery ticket, and if I win Tuesday night, it's fallabellas all around.
from johnguinness :
Happy New Year, Holly. I hope yours is filled with fun and with pleasant surprises. Take care. John
from frogeye :
"Im going to end up gorging my brain out through my eye sockets". Ever just sit there and actually think about someone doing that.
from randomrabbit :
"Answer: cumbersome" What were you expecting? But I agree - I have webbed toes and fingers and they are rather cumbersome, and also a bloody nuisance. No I don't, that's a lie. Not sure why I said that. Boredom, maybe. A lass once showed me her webbed toes in a pub though because I didn't believe she had them. I was disappointed they weren't like duck feet, more just gross. No, I don't know why I felt the need to share that either.
from frogeye :
Glad to read that your Christmas turned out OK. Don't fret about New Year's. Nothing that friend vodka can't make better.
from onlyemma :
Thank you for the comment, it really is a shame that things ended up like this. I really liked him! Bah :( Thank you for the Christmas card by the way, I have it up in my room. Seeing your writing made me miss you loads! Love you loads and loads. Merry Christmas! xxx
from frogeye :
Merry Christmas!
from johnguinness :
Thanks. Your hair looks really nice like that.
from meganwaits :
As usual, always a wonderful read to click too. Wishing you lots of bliss this season.
from skinnylizzie :
Aww, I'm your number 1 favourite? Even though I missed all the Christmas post and your Christmas Haddock will now end up being a New Year Haddock? You are truly the best pseudo-lesbian girlfriend I've ever had. Schneid over and out xxx
from strawberrri :
THANK YOU! god, i'm going to had to read the big wad of documents they sent later as i still feel a bit drunk from a christmas do last night, hehe :) x
from skinnylizzie :
As your favourite pseudo-lesbian lover, I've decided I am willing to share you over the festive period so this BOY (shock horror, what are you doing, playing with boys?!) can stick around for a bit. My, my grace and understanding never fails to amaze me. What did I actually come here to say? Oh, I remember, and it wasn't interesting either. My period showed up yesterday which means we are officially in sync. I don't know, it seemed much more impressive in my head. On that creepy note, I'm off to find some food xxx
from johnguinness :
Oh, and I like your shoes.
from johnguinness :
WOOOHOOOO!!! You are SO hilarious. And the idea that periods have Daddys will give me much to think about when I'm sat here Christmas day. Cheers, Dude.
from wombaby :
Festive goodness! I get festive goodness!!! Ok, maybe I'm getting into the holiday spirit just a little bit :)
from frogeye :
James the Snog, I mean James the Scot appears to be a very nice gentlemen. Whoot man, can ya no hear the pipes laddy!
from randomrabbit :
I was going to turn Hes coming over to the flat tomorrow night for a bit in to something smutty, but Christmas really isnt the time for vulgarity. And while I agree with you about the amazingness of Flip Reverse, Im a little hesitant to condemn it as lyrically bollocks as to be honest I dont understand most of it and while the lyrics might sound like total cack they could turn out to be quite deep and meaningful.
from johnguinness :
Thanks for the advice. That's my general plan, but if it's meant to last me a while, I'm willing to pay extra for a really good one. Whatever it is.
from johnguinness :
I'm not exactly sure what a Christmas Snog is, but it sounds absolutely ace, so I'm heading out to the mall and I'm not coming back without one. Perhaps I can find a Buy One Get One Free deal.
from skinnylizzie :
Your Christmas card is still sitting on my desk, overseeing things like...er, some kind of god. Yes, that's exactly what it's like. What in the name of arse am I on about now? Anyway, much rejoicing for the being over Paddy thing again! And also for the cheeky snog, you can never have too many for them. As for the Christmas period (of Doom), I've had one for about the past six years, and am set for one again this year. Joy. xxx
from onlyemma :
Ooooh hol, he's Scottish? I'm so very very jealous. Mmmm that accent :) well done! xxx
from clairecav :
Hope things go well with James the Scot! Also hope you feel better soon xXx
from wombaby :
You're allowed to write the sad stuff too if you want to. Hope James the Scot works out; yes, Scottish accents are very sexy. Sexier than French ones actually.
from skinnylizzie :
Oh no, now I feel bad! I'll endeavour to send it tomorrow, but it may end up being a New Year's gift if I don't get my act together. I'm so sick of decorating for Christmas, I may have to throttle somebody with some tinsel very soon... xxx
from skinnylizzie :
You KNOW you can always ring me if you want. Even though I make stupid jokes and generally ruin the whole serious chat thing. And I have a confession...your Christmas haddock might not actually reach you on Christmas. I know, it's scandalous. I'm so behind on cards and letters, I only just sent a letter off to America this morning. I think I was a little too encouraged by my mum's tale of receiving a letter from Australia that had only taken two days to get here. And finally, YAY for the lovely new boy! xxx
from johnguinness :
Merry Christmas, then. I got the other from watching the O.C.'s Chrismukkah/Alternate Universe episode last night. Definitely need to keep the TV off for a bit. Have a great weekend. John
from johnguinness :
That sword and the stone bit was some excellent writing. I'm going to hand write a version of it on a piece of note paper, and after my next car crash I won't remember I didn't write it, and then I can feel all chuffed with my talent. Happy Chrismukkah. John
from clairecav :
Thankyou =) Now I must insert some of my legendary(ish_bad, bad taste and ask whether it's really fair to send the poor family a picture of you and a giant ice cream. "Look at me. I am wealthy. Do you know what an ice lolly IS?"
from anibananie :
ARGH I keep forgetting things in notes. Must proof-read. Anyway, I was going to say that we also got to see a cervix in action on that video. I have to say that I have never been more scared and I doubt Mr K has ever been more uncomfortable.
from anibananie :
Well, if I want to know anything else about female orgasms, I'll ask you. Wow, this is sounding supremely pervy.
from skinnylizzie :
Oh, a pond environment! I think you should make that, even if it is dead when it arrives. And then send me pictures. Er...no. I think your Christmas haddock might be of the less smelly and more fake variety. But, of course, with tinsel. I'm working on constructing the bugger now to put in a Christmas card, if I ever get round to sending any this year. And I meant to text you the other night after I read your last entry, and have just now realised I never did, how shameful. Vair, vair glad that the scary therapy things seem to be working. It is truly excellent news. Almost as excellent as the Christmas haddock, in fact! xxx
from frogeye :
Cheers to you and your therapy sessions. Hope things work out for you the way you want them to. Nice to see that Christmas has been worker out also.
from anibananie :
Glad CBT is working out for you. It does sound absolutely horriffic, but of course it's all worth it in the end. Like I said, so glad things are working out xxx
from clairecav :
*Applauds* So glad that shittily horrible therapy things actually appear to work!
from johnguinness :
Hey Hols. Great to hear things are going well. PLEASE don't get too much hair cut off. But if you have to, please post the parts you don't want to me so I can use it as extensions and reach MadMartigan length even sooner. Have a great week. John
from wombaby :
Hooray!!
from clairecav :
Hope today's went okay for you xXx
from wombaby :
Well if you really really want to ... stick a pretty stamp on it. But don't feel you have to!
from clairecav :
Thank God I'm not alone! Most of my friends just give me filthy looks whenever I start "Flip it rip it lick it"-ing at them. Except for Katherine, who has developed a little flip reverse dance with me.
from anibananie :
*Individual, damnit. Can't type. Sorry for multiple notes, I keep doing it!
from anibananie :
Also, I love schizophrenia too, and Psychopathology in general. But Indivuidual Differences is the BEST SUBJECT EVER. Aah, I love being a geek.
from anibananie :
It WOULD be her ultimate dream present, yes. You should do it, definitely. Can I be there when she opens it? Mwahaha. (PS: you're welcome Zoe! *innocent beam*)
from johnguinness :
Fish??? Oh, you want the Grimsby Special. I'm afraid my carving abilities are limited to cutting a grilled cheese sandwich into four squares (which somehow tastes better than four triangles, but is of course less exciting). If I should receive a financial windfall today, I'll arrange to have the ace ebony carving champs from the Phillipines start on yours straightaway. Maybe they can stain it to match Maria - that would be a good look. Hope you're having a good day. Mine hasn't started yet, really, but I've got that phone conversation with the lawyer I don't trust, and then class with the guy who might be curious why I left. Take care. John
from wombaby :
I need to know: how did Lisa set fire to herself while making tea? Last time I made tea (this morning actually) fire didn't even come into it. I admire you greatly for doing Christmas cards - I have decided not to bother because it's just too expensive, and I never get them all done on time.
from skinnylizzie :
Aww YAY, a festive fish card! I might send you a fish with a bow on it. And perhaps some tinsel. Entirely separate to the fish I'm sending to atone for my besmirching of your Facebook wall. And phwoar, Gordon Ramsey... xxx (PS: Cheers Annie!)
from johnguinness :
I've never told a woman this before, but you need (and well deserve) a wooden dragon bokken.
from anibananie :
*knows full well that Zoe will read this* I have it on good authority (ie from the horse's mouth, so to speak) that our good friend Zoe has a HUGE GIANT MASSIVE crush on Gordon Ramsey and I think if you do get such an apron you should send it to her as a Christmas present. *finishes playing Devil's Advocate* Mwahaha. Hey, I just had to write a stupid essay on schizophrenia so forgive me if it's rubbed off on me somewhat.
from the-it-man :
Wish you well with all the neorogical stuff. I am sure you'll get it your life sorted. Your head strong sweetheart. As for not going to your dad ladyfriend, personal i think christmas is for family. Dont let your dad down for the single day, but do let him know you are only doing it for him. Perhaps he may dosomething special for you then. Take the moral high ground and dont let his ladyfriend get the better of you.
from frogeye :
Yes, the amygdala organ. The hidden anxiety center. But don't you think a bit of "you are getting very sleepy" sessions are better than shock therapy or more medications? Wish you well. As for your production company, sounds like you have some cost overruns. Remember, we have a limited budget and your actors are very tempermental. Now, shake up the cast or we'll have them replaced with toes.
from skinnylizzie :
It's about bugger all, that's all you need to know about it. And I can think of a number of horrible C words; unfortunately, the most prominent of which ends in 'unt' after this recent pseudo-lesbian discussion. I have a feeling I may be wrong though xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Bugger. I can't help but find the male form attractive, which is most likely where my lack of lesbianism stems from. Oh yeah, The Aeneid's a great bedtime book! Every time I pick it up, I last a page before falling asleep. I wish I was joking. xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Yeah, same here. There aren't any decent men this side of the North Pole. Do you reckon it's possible to be a lesbian without actually really finding women attractive? Or is that still pseudo-lesbianism? I need to stop reading The Aeneid, it's frying my brain... xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Ha, I'm a very demanding lover! Could you put up with my OCD ways and constant need for pseudo-lesbian love? xxx
from anibananie :
Shakespeare sock puppets? Two fantastic things - combined! You'll be videoing it all, I take it... :D
from wombaby :
Good luck with CBT. Just think, however shit it is in the short term, it's entirely on the cards that it will make things better in the long term. Better is good.
from strawberrri :
i think if anyone can get through this you certainly can. you're dealing with everything so admirably and i really hope the hippocampus (i like that word) thingy works xxx
from anibananie :
CBT, owch. I really hope it works for you. I don't really know what to say apart from that... Just loads o' good luck, really xxx
from the-it-man :
The thing wrong with you the guys a clingy. I been with my no wife for over 11 years. We didnt marry year. And we didnt move in with each other until after 3 years. So the guys got some major issues. One of the girls in our office got dumped for alot worse (wouldnt do bottom sex as she called, yet now she doesnt shut up about it weird people eh ). So you shouldnt be to upset. The are plenty of guys and girls out there and your still young.
from frogeye :
A day late and a dollar short. Who cares! Thank you for the kind note. I haven't had a meal like that since last Christmas. Now I've had to double my gym time to work off the extra calories. Sweat, where is thy sting? Speaking of which, how's the finger puppet theatre coming along? Any casting problems?
from wombaby :
Aha. I can't believe I didn't know that already, having once upon a time pretended to be a scientist. But thank you for lifting my cloud of disenlightenment (ok so I'm clearly not a linguist today either).
from moosehunter :
Mmm. Well he does sound a bit like a fruitcake, but without the cakeyness and not too fruity. Hmm. Could use the phrase nutter, but that implies scrumptious too. Idiot? Freak? Lunatic? Let's settle with bastard, eh? But don't let it get you jaded on the whole relationship thing. You're still young and I was in my 30s before I met Mrs Moosehunter. I went through my fair share of freaks, nutters, psychos and so on beforehand. Glad you're feeling a bit better about it, but don't get cold over it. It won't help. Just bimble along having as much fun as you can and things will eventually fall into place. Moosey.
from wombaby :
Holly ... what is an epp?
from onlyemma :
Sending a bajillion hugs your way (what a funny looking fake word 'bajillion' is). So sorry about Peter, he sounds like he really has no idea what he wants and has done the man thing of running away and avoidance. Men Are From Mars explains it better than me, but to borrow your phrase it definitely sucks ass to be on the other end of that. You're amazing though, and don't you forget it. I have no doubt that one day soon he'll realise what he's turned his back on and that he's a fool. Love you an incredible amount xxx
from skinnylizzie :
There's nobody prettier than you Hol ;) xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Don't make me prove you wrong! I swore those photos would never see the light of day after Christine nearly pissed herself laughing at them. And what in the name of arse is 'emotional connections' meant to mean anyway? I've been sitting here pondering the matter for a while now...stick to pseudo-lesbianism, I think
from frogeye :
Yes, relationships do require quite a lot of work. And yes, friends are sometimes set aside and they shouldn't be. In a way, maybe this was a gift to you. Better it should happen now than later on when you might have been even more "emotionally connected". So ta ta to Twatto, next.....
from skinnylizzie :
Of COURSE I'm still your pseudo-girlfriend! Pseudo-relationships can't just disappear, they're built on a whole foundation of pseudoness. One day I may well make some sense in the note. And you only say that about those photos because you haven't seen the ones I decided not to post. I'm almost afraid to enlighten you... xxxxx
from anibananie :
Why do I keep talking about Hitler?! (I love that Radiohead song by the by.)
from anibananie :
God, it's like note-tennis again. Mitchell is DAMN SEXY, and it's been decided already that Hazel and I are somewhat attracted to the Mein Kampf look, which is plain disturbing, really. Not actual Hitler, though, because personality is of course key and let's face it, his wasn't brilliant.
from anibananie :
Also, your entry today made me chuckle, even though I'm sure it shouldn't have. Calling him The Twathead was part of the reason I think. But yes, he does sound like a bit of a nutter (like Hitler was a bit nasty), and you're well out of it. Go you go xxx
from anibananie :
Thank you for your note :) You're "honoured" to receive the Longest Note Annie Has Received Award, which sadly has no trophy, just credibility. But yeah, I know where you're coming from - I only stuck at a waitressing job for a month when I was 13 because it paid 2.44 an hour and they were all evil. So stuff Wattakar's (though I am MATURELY and PROFESSIONALLY - hahaha - working for them until Xmas). And David Mitchell IS sexy, oh so sexy. Those eyes, those wonderfully dark eyes... and the wit! The intelligence! Webb is inferior in comparison (still brilliant, as he is one of the duo, but Mitchell is by far superior).
from frogeye :
A pox on him and his family!
from wombaby :
Bastard. *hugs* the rest of us love you! I know internet love isn't the same, but at least it's there.
from vanoonoo :
argh *hugs*
from skinnylizzie :
Ah anger, my old friend. I'll fell him with the Zidane headbutt, never fear xxxxx
from strawberrri :
oh sweetheart *hugs* :( xxxxx
from onlyemma :
Hol, I'm so sorry for whatever it is that Peter's done. If you want to talk just send me a text and I'll be on the phone as quick as I can. Love you xxx
from anibananie :
Peter is a big pile of wank. No clue what he's done but evidently you're far from happy, ergo he is aforementioned pile of WANK.
from pink-fairy :
Who is peter? Shall I go round and beat him up for you?
from frogeye :
And here I would have pegged you as a jazz enthusiast. A Thelonias Monk kind of gal. Oh well, can't have everything. And please, refer to "the boy" with his proper name or a made up one. I think he's shown that he deserves that. In other news, oh wait, this is a note to you not an entry. In that case, have a great day!
from the-moo :
*squiiiiiiiish* I'm glad you had the boy there to help and be nice and listen!! I'm also glad that you're seeing a "light at the end of the tunnel" as it were... :o) lovely lovely you - you deserve to always be smiley!! xxx
from anibananie :
You really love that Johnson one, don't you! "I'm 85% sure I'm straight."
from anibananie :
I LOVE Sir Digby Chicken Ceasar. "Let me fix that broken telly for you. No, don't get up, I won't hear of it. DON'T GET UP, or we'll be BACK! Dundundlundlundlun dundundundundundundundun dududuudududuududu DUUUH!"
from frogeye :
You are to be applauded for your sound decision to attend counseling. Perhaps it will help, perhaps not. But you do need to see if it will assist. Every counselor is different. The boyfriend sounds like a terrific person and stood by you when you needed him. My hat's off to him.
from anibananie :
Aah, M&W. Seeing them live day after tomorrow - can't wait. Hazel and I are hoping beyond hope they do a live version of Numberwang. Our register is done by numbers (I'm number one, mwahaha - or, as I shouted the other day, "NUMERO UNO!") and every so often one of us will go "That's a Numberwang!" or "Dast ist Numberwang", because we're cool like that.
from vanoonoo :
blah - what a pain all this is for you sweetie. pleased to hear about the counselling - I found it a great help with my "issues" i hope it works well for you this time xxxx
from anibananie :
Just remember: heal and grow, Holly, heal and grow. (I really hope you've seen that Peep Show episode otherwise I'll sound like a right patronising twat.) I'm so glad you have fantastic people like the boy around you :)
from the-moo :
hey hey hey no need to apologise for not being able to write about it *hugs* just know that you can write about NOTHING if you want to you don't have to entertain us we're here because we love you (yes yes I CAN speak for everyone *is authoritative* haha) I am thinking of you and shall have a nice pray for you (because whether you beleive or not I do) can I help at all? can I do ANYTHING?? email me [email protected] xxx
from clairecav :
Oh bum for feeling down and the stupid twatting anxiety gig! Really hoping things look up for you very soon =) (oh, and after now sampling both boys and girls, I think I CAN say I do prefer boys, but yes, girl kissing is okay!) xXx
from strawberrri :
thinking about you and lots of hugs xxx
from frogeye :
Do take care of yourself. We all wish you well. Take you time to come back online.
from wombaby :
*hugs* don't worry about not writing but remember we all care about you!
from johnguinness :
I'm praying for you, whether you like it or not. Take care. John
from moosehunter :
Hi Holly. Don't let it all get on top of you. There's a lot of people who really care about you and worry about you. You can see that just from your notes! Things always have a way of getting better, and I'm sure they will for you. Good luck and don't feel you have to write anything until you're up to it. x Moosey.
from anibananie :
Nooo, I don't like it when you're upset :( Just write when you feel like it, don't worry. Really hope things get better xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Your notes page just took an age to load, you popular wench you. Just thought I would amble on by and shower you with loadsa love. Because I'm still chuckling now at our conversation the other night, like some mad fool with a chuckling disease. I still dare you to lick a seabass. Possibly not of the euphemistic kind, though xxxxx
from frogeye :
Don't worry about your big date. Spill as much as you like. Maybe that's just part of your wonderful character.
from wombaby :
*hugs* On the bright side, you are battling the anxiety gig and not letting it take over your whole life. This is a good thing. If I think of any others, I'll let you know. Hope the meal goes well, and don't worry about spilling stuff, everyone does it! In my family it's traditional to feed the table every meal (and I don't mean my generation either!)
from johnguinness :
Box-warming? You mean like coal or firewood or something? It's Zoe's box, so I have no say. I'm sure you could get an invitation, though, and possible offered my spot next to Clive the fish...
from johnguinness :
So, if she's going to spend the rest of her life with you, does that mean you're joining us in the Box of Wonder? She's got fairy lights, and I'm bringing chocolate...
from johnguinness :
Hey Hols. (Observe that I didn't call you Hollipops) I was just going through my morning sports websites and came across this. Take care. John http://www.runnersweb.com/running/rw_news_frameset.html?http://www.runnersweb.com/running/news/rw_news_20061109_TSH_CFS.html
from skinnylizzie :
Haha, I was just about to dare you to lick a seabass! You're very welcome, my ear wasn't half hot when I got into bed, my poor phone was about ready to explode xxx
from skinnylizzie :
LICKING THE MACKEREL
from skinnylizzie :
Hehe, I'm talking to you on the phone, and somehow lesbians have come up already...! xxx
from johnguinness :
Hey Holly. 1) Congrats on being published! That's Great. 2) Thank you for the good luck wished - that probably had at least as much to do with my success as anything I did on this end. 3) I went all weekend without seeing enyone's shiny bits 4) or being able to show off my rocket 5) good luck with the Neighbours campaign 6) I hope everythings going okay on your end 7) whenever my own scurvy flares up, I prefer Clementines 8) I prefer it to the common treatment of being called a dog and tied to a yardarm(it's so cliche) 9) Take care. 10) John
from wombaby :
Hooray for the journal! I am still in limited internet land but hopefully that will be fixed today and then you'll get an actual email :)
from skinnylizzie :
HA! Would you like me to send this crate of oranges down now or tomorrow? Scurvylicious! xxx
from clairecav :
Woo! I am so proud of your publication that I am almost tempted to find it and read it. Almost.
from frogeye :
You get a big gold star. I'm going to put it on the fridge.
from frogeye :
Double congrats on your publication. Quite a big feat and you should be very proud of yourself and all of your hard work.
from randomrabbit :
Congratulations on being published! I once had a letter published in Viz, but I think yours is marginally more impressive.
from frogeye :
So, you were pushing ahead of an young and impressionable young boy. What, did you think you were an American for the moment. We pride ourselves in being pushy and arrogant.
from johnguinness :
Okay, so I've sent you one card with nice fireworks but you have to ignore the bit about the 4th of July, but then I found another with a Guy Fawkes poem, but they weren't clear in the instructions, so if they try to tell you MY name is Holli Pops (or any other soft-porn sounding name), it totally wasn't my fault. And I don't see how Annie can say that my notes are the least bit disturbing...
from johnguinness :
Please check your hotmail as I've sent you fireworks. The Management
from anibananie :
So would I, actually... I think I will go and make one and continue watching bad X Factor auditions on YouTube. I love bad auditions.
from johnguinness :
It's just that we don't have a fireworks holiday here in November. You'd probably be encouraged to shoot one off there, and if you'd care to point it towards North Korea, you could probably get a subsidy. I skipped the big bonfire when I was there to make sure I didn't see the right woman with the wrong guy. I ended up alone in the manor house atop the hill, and happened to look out the front window on the 4th floor and was able to see all of the small towns around shooting theirs off at once. See, there was nothing sexual at all in that note - it must have all been your doing before. And this isn't getting my group project done, so that's all for me.
from anibananie :
*revenue belongs, damn my typing.
from anibananie :
Hmm, I'd say Robbing Bastards' Revenue, as the revenue (allegedly but so clearly doesn't) belong to the robbing bastards in question. Does your grammar gene want a cup of hot, sweet tea?
from anibananie :
Aah yes, that is excellent. But should it be Robbing Bastards Revenue or Robbing Bastards' Revenue? Oh the decisions...
from johnguinness :
"Oh but John, I want to see your rocket!" If I had a dime for every time someone's tried that line on me... You know I'm taking these writing courses - I believe in January there's one on soft-core porn. Maybe you can help with my homework. Or just write it for me and put my name on it.
from anibananie :
Also, John's notes are always fun and slightly disturbing to read, so don't delete them. Mwahaha.
from anibananie :
Hell yes. Of course, the name would need changing - Inland Revenue is shit. I suggest Devilspawn Revenue, to steal one of your delightful phrases, because that is what it is.
from johnguinness :
Feel totally free to delete that, BTW.
from johnguinness :
I've wanted to see your sparkly bits for some time, but you have a boyfriend now...And this is why I need to stop leaving notes. I'm also not sure I could explain to local authorities why I'm sending up rockets in November.
from johnguinness :
Wow, emotional blackmail - well played. It just occurred to me that Guy Fawkes is coming up, and I think that you should cook up some splentastical place for you and the new beau to watch the Fireworks. Maybe a picnic on top of something high, like a hill or something...
from anibananie :
I lost my P45 :( I have to sort out tax at Waterstone's, and I only JUST got the tax back from Superdrug! Death to Inland Revenue!
from johnguinness :
Oh crap - I just remembered that I said I was too a) busy b) important or c) much of a loon...to leave notes. Well, carry on then...
from the-it-man :
Good to see you have someone to love. I hope it all works out for you
from onlyemma :
Hol you are definitely suited to relationships, you just don't know it yet. Just try and go with the flow a bit and let things happen, you'll have more fun that way if nothing else! Try not to worry, you're so amazing and your new guy is so lucky to have you xxx
from johnguinness :
Nope, you need one more food group. I suggest something chocolatey, if that's not been covered by the muffin. Otherwise something involving cheese.
from johnguinness :
I looked back at your first message of the day, and noticed the "just had a hit" on Netscape. I guess it wasn't me, because I had just gotten up, and hadn't done the search since right after Zoe posted last night - maybe five or so this morning your time?
from johnguinness :
We haven't done the numbers bit in a while. 1.Okay, I brought that one upon myself. I'm afraid that I don't actually knit, as I'm committed to doing all things rugged and manly. 2. In the and/or option, I was more into planning an ongoing series of international bachelorette parties for you, to which I would of course tag along to make sure things run smoothly and to provide security and things. 3. I would also take complete responsibility for the guest list. 4. Take care. 5. John
from johnguinness :
Oh - that reminds me - she left a note the other day that was especially mushy for you, in fact including the word mushy, but I had to delete it as she instructed me to "enjoy the hot guys at the gym" and there's no way something like THAT stays in my diary. I don't need the world to be encouraging more guys to follow me around. I felt bad about deleting the rest of it, though.
from johnguinness :
If you could look at the new guy and pretend you're seeing Zoe, the rest of us could start planning bachelorette parties and/or knitting tiny sock puppets.
from frogeye :
Fear not fair maiden, the new guy sounds terrific. Look for all the positives and forget the negatives. Yeah, times are tough and life sucks every now and then. But you know what, jump back onto that horse of life and have fun.
from johnguinness :
I have googled the Happies several different days because they've been the talk of Diaryland for weeks. I was actually looking for a store or manufacturer or something to see exactly what they are. I don't recall that anything ever came up in the search, but it could have been me. Have a great day. John
from the-moo :
that IS something and you know what else.. YOU are something... you are SOMETHING that you probably will never grasp.. YOU ARE WONDERFUL *hugs* and I creepyinternetlove you xxx
from anibananie :
I am going to grasp at all the good points from your entry and say I am very VERY happy for you :D And I'm glad Michelle's ok. And I hope the other stuff gets easier xxx
from frogeye :
Hey! How you coming along with the auditions for your socky Shakespear thingy?
from johnguinness :
So, your Facebook sends me your updates - the one had you in a relationship with Zoe, the next just had you in a relationship, and then there was the broken heart thingy and I didn't know which it referred to. I was worried, and then it turns out that you've actually had a good weekend. Well in. Have a great week. John
from strawberrri :
damn you and your tantalising ending. it's like neighbours! :) x
from skinnylizzie :
Saying you have news but are saving it for next time sends my nosiness into overdrive and makes me want to get on a train and prod you until you reveal it. I'm such a good friend. Oh, and I apologise for removing my relationship status on Facebook and forgetting to warn you, the messages were getting a bit odd...lesbianism is hard work xxx
from anibananie :
Isn't it just great! Though watching it with Mum... could have been worse; could have been Dad. I am beginning to think we have similar tastes in comedy, I think I remember you saying a while back you like the League of Gentlemen too. Hurrah!
from wombaby :
I want to be able to give you a proper hug and lots of tissues and chocolate!
from the-moo :
aaaaaaaaaw this entry made me laugh AND nearly cry all at once!! I enjoy the convo you had IN public on the mobile (so you probably looked like you were talking to yourself haha) but I'm so so so so sad that you're hurting and scared and sad and *hugs* if you want to tell me anything you can even if it's just a long empty email.. anything that would make you feel better.. what can I do to help? I know you said nothing but maybe you just think it's too much to ask of anyone.. I would love to cheer you up I send you rainbows and fluffy pink hearts and bunnies and caloriefree chocolate! xxx
from frogeye :
Flight #435 out of JFK is on it's way. Happy sugar rush!
from onlyemma :
Thank you muchly for putting my hugs up to 200, you're are right that round numbers are everyone's friend. I have been looking at that hug counter a lot lately, wondering if it would move. So thank you again :) Hope you're feeling a bit better now, have you been on your date yet? I'll email soon and we can have a big catch up and talk about girly stuff (it's been so long, usually our girly chats consist of talking about something like Hannah's "all my family are disabled" comments, which still make me laugh a bit inside). Love you loads xxx
from frogeye :
Here's hoping that you are feeling better! If not, perhaps a case of Milky Ways would do the trick.
from wombaby :
*hugs* all that sounds very bollocks to be going through and I am sending you virtual chocolate in the hopes that it cheers you up at least a tiny bit. And I hope the crash stops soon.
from strawberrri :
*hug* x
from anibananie :
Don't be scared, if it's going well it's going well. I know it's easy to say, but try not to worry about what MIGHT happen. Hmm, none of this is coming out the way I want it to so I shall leave you by saying WOO one month job! Same here. We rule xx
from randomrabbit :
I hope not as that would make me look like some sort of weird perv. I meant the Scottish one, which I'm hoping is a perfectly normal fantasy.
from skinnylizzie :
Ha, maybe not a grammar rule but most definitely an 80s cultural rule. Yeah, I don't really want to go either, I'm going to get asked loads of tricky questions I don't know the answers to. Hmmph xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Oi, I was not slandering! You know you love it, I was just spreading the joy of the word. And all those damn apostrophes and quotation marks really upset me, but I did it because I have great pseudo lesbian love for you. I'll go to work for you if you go to my meeting with Prof Mad for me xxx
from randomrabbit :
Youre right golf is ridiculous. And dull. And worse are the golfers, but when you find yourself sitting in front of How Clean Is Your House thinking that you quite fancy Aggie and have an urge to have her tell you how very very dirty you are then you realise you need a hobby to get you out more. I should maybe give it more thought.
from vanoonoo :
things like mango and chick peas have happy drugs in them so if the natural stuff ahs been working for you then give those a go by including them in your diet. or get prozac and a pre payment certificate for prescriptions like me ;)
from the-moo :
hahaha for the longest time ever living with Gareth was JUST like that I know exactly what you mean I love you i've missed you and we should have a nice long natter some time soon xxxxxxx
from frogeye :
Thank you for your kind words. They are much appreciated.
from anibananie :
Ooh, dates! Fantastic. Even though I may not know you that well, I think you could do relationships and you should at least try. Taking it slowly and all that crap. Good luck :D PS: don't read Tess, unless you like your brain being bent out of shape from Hardy's convuluted sentences.
from frogeye :
Dont be too upset with your flatmate. Frustration on her part is especially likely if her stress is so intense to her. Aggression in response to frustration is not always aimed at the people causing it, but may be displaced if the preferred target is too threatening or not available. You, unfortunately, were an easy (accessible) target. Wrong time, wrong place, type of thing. Dont despair, you are too good of a person to fret over such insignificant woes. Let a smile be your umbrella..
from clairecav :
!!! You've been on dates with some guy? You kept that quiet :P
from wombaby :
Enjoy Newcastle! Just because you haven't managed a relationship that lasts yet doesn't mean you never will - for goodness sake, you're about six months younger than me and have probably had about six times as many relationships (no, seriously, I'm only counting Robert!). I keep thinking I'll never find anyone either - but we're both bound to one day. Even if it is only once we're well past reproductive age! *hugs* hope the flat blues turn pink or some other cheerful colour. What is your favourite colour?
from frogeye :
Forget your past mistakes and focus on your successes, encouraging yourself to greater achievements in the future. And if that doesn't work, drink heavily. Have a great week and feel better.
from johnguinness :
It will be okay. And we care. John
from anibananie :
Aaw you were a very sweet babba!
from frogeye :
You know, with the non-beret beret you look more like a Babette than a Holly. Babette, I like that! And the orange hat fit you to a tee. Any chance mom has it hidden away?
from johnguinness :
So, you're going to keep up with the whole secret life thing, huh? Hope you feel better soon. Probably you need to find just the right mix of alcohol to feel better, so it's good you're going out with science people. Have fun. As soon as my student loan comes in, I'm hiring a private investigator to have you followed properly.
from anibananie :
But blood vessel pathways sound pretty cool. Am I wrong? (Sorry to leave two notes...!)
from anibananie :
I love pipe cleaners. And that is all I have to say on the subject. :P
from anibananie :
Took me ages to figure out what you meant then! Yeah I think they are. Well done for spotting it :P Imagine those pages times a whole academic year and you have Dr Psycho's boring boring boring notes... I'm getting Dad to have a go at her on parents' evening about it, as he was appalled, mwahaha.
from moosehunter :
Thanks my dear. Obviously, my work-related crap holds nothing to your health-related crap, but it's nice to know someone listens and understands occasionally. Hope you feel better. Moosey
from frogeye :
I was thinking, you could always practice the witch's scene from Macbeth. You know, the "Eye of newt, and toe of frog..." But don't hypnotize yourself.
from johnguinness :
Hey Hols. Several of your readers followed the "John is insane" link to my diary. I'm thinking of using it in a banner a now. Sorry you're feeling so poorly. I wish you were here - I've turned the place into antioxidant central and it's all healthy and stuff. Totally lacking in lesbian action, pseudo or otherwise, however. So, just how insane HAS life gotten recently??? I hope you feel better soon. John
from frogeye :
You do not have permission to die. You can puke black stuff, cough up blooding crap, but you can't die. Face it, you are stuck here with the rest of us miserable sots. Hope you are well and practicing your Shakespearian puppet act. I can't wait for opening night. The lights dim, the curtain opens.........
from kungfukitten :
Did you do actual shots through the show or shots of Nyquil? Hope you feel better soon and hurrah for spider killing friends! (I have cats, they take care of all my bug problems for me).
from johnguinness :
Okay, "insane" was a bit harsh. I guess you were one of the two people who read the magical disappearing entry that I wrote after my air mattress tossed me out (around 4 A.M.) The notes were turned on again when I woke up the second time and deleted the new entry. Sorry you're feeling so rough. Striptease isn't that horrible a film if you resist turning on the sound. Have a great week. John
from wombaby :
You're right, there is no such thing as too many hugs. Thank you :) - and of course, *hugs* back!!
from the-it-man :
I was reading your ME Deal, and that you may think it was Fibromayalgia. My GP was absolutely useless for 2 years, saying i am imagining the pain etc etc etc, then said it must be Fibromayalgia. I was sent for an MRI as a precaution at which point it was found that I actual have spondilysis ( i think that how you spell it ). Anyway its a further complication to the spina bifida. But at least now I can be alot more comfortable when i get my chest pain , leg pains etc. Your a strong lass and what ever they rooot to the issues dont give up. It took me 3 years to get a diagnosis. I now have a new GP who is fully understanding, but i couldnt help put tell the previous GP ( who refered me ) how he had ruined the best part of 2 years of my life not investigating things early. You keep fighting on. My one recommendation is to keep moving, maybe some light training at the gym. But then I am not a specialist, just a concerned friend
from frogeye :
I hope you are feeling better and more robust.
from skinnylizzie :
Oh Holly, where do I start? This year's not going so well at the moment. I might email you rather than tell you about Gonad Boy in a note. I suppose it's quite amusing if you don't live with it! And I hadn't even been in Newcastle for 24 hours before getting a cold, it's just bloody ridiculous. But I got to have Nando's tonight so it's not all bad xxx
from frogeye :
I think the scene wher eLysander speaks to soothe Hermia would be a good one: "Ay me, for aught that I could ever read, Could ever hear by tale or history, The course of true love never did run smooth..."
from clairecav :
"Things like this make me realise that its better to be single than to be in a relationship with a complete loser." In relation to that, I thank you for your kind note! Oh, the appropriateness of some things amazes me sometimes :P Anyway smanyway, I can't WAIT for a bit of Shakespearean sock fun.
from skinnylizzie :
The tinfoil thing was amazing, I still have that email. At least nobody caught you doing it - Christine found me wearing all that stupid blue eyeshadow and wouldn't let me take it off, I had to go out to Blu Bambu in it. And I've just realised I'm late to meet my friends at the bar. They've had the great idea of getting drunk before our first meeting of the year, but I'm full of cold and am very poor without my loan. Do you want to go for me? xxx
from johnguinness :
For brief performances, a lot of people do the "play within a play," which has the guy with the donkey head tht you mentioned. It's the local yokels trying to put together a play good enough to be performed for a fancy reception, and it's quite hilarious when done well (no pressure). Tin foil? A perfectly good substitute performance would be to play guitar and sing the Hey Nonni Nonni song from Twelfth Night. A guy named Kevin played it at our talent contest and brought down the house. Take care. John
from frogeye :
Great video and with no accent. Do the words "All right, Mr. DeMille, I'm ready for my close-up" apply here?
from randomrabbit :
Your video just made me smile. Thanks for that. I should stop now though as people at work arent used to it and theyll get all scared and confused and sit on the floor rocking. Or something. You missed Dance Nation playing at the Bluebell on Friday! They were like a gay Journey South. I bet youre gutted.
from johnguinness :
That would be SWEET! Glad you thought of it. Have a wonder-filled week. John
from johnguinness :
Well, I guess you could do bits of A Midsummer Nights Dream with sock puppets. Or you could put on your beard and do the "Band of Brothers" speech from Henry V. Personally, I'd like to see you and Maria do something together. Have a great second week at work. John
from skinnylizzie :
Haha, I love the tags on the video - 'song songy songsong'! I dance just like that in the privacy of my own bedroom, it really is quite therapeutic! And thank you once again for the Milky Ways, I ate one yesterday and I felt all cheered up just at the chocolatey goodness :) xxx
from anibananie :
Aaw that was an ACE video!
from johnguinness :
Kickass video, dude.
from anibananie :
Glad work's going well, but it won't let me watch the video! Apparently you have to send me a request :( That makes me sad.
from frogeye :
Good luck with the new job. I'm sure you will do well.
from clairecav :
Glad work's going so well!
from strawberrri :
yay you with the awesome science job!! :) x
from anibananie :
I wanted to be a vet, a teacher and a psychologist, in that order! Woo for unoriginality. Difference between most people and myself is, though, that I truly truly DO want to be a psychologist, and know the difference between CSI and real life. It's amazing how many people ask about CSI or 'if I can read their minds'. *eye-rolling* I always liked dissection in Biology, I was very disappointed when we only got to do kidneys and something else. Should have done Bio A-level, really, but when I saw my old Bio teacher the other day and he asked how I was doing and I pointed out that I chose English over Bio and got 6 marks off full marks. I think it was the right decision. And damn you for seeing Little Miss Sunshine, I want to see it! xx
from skinnylizzie :
You're the best pseudo-girlfriend I've ever had (in fact, this is probably the best relationship I've ever had...!). Milky Ways rule, I may have to go out and buy one now xxx
from the-it-man :
Chin up.... Hey you might have seen one of my work colleuges hes totally gay and loves the hoff... He drove from birminghan all the way to manchester. He even asked if i knew manchester. Prick he knows i do...
from moosehunter :
Hard day, but then there'll be a lot of hard days and a lot more good ones. You're a strong person with a good sense of humour, and a person like that can get through just about anything. Hey, if you can make it through the Trafford Centre at a weekend, the rest of life should be a breeze for you. Moosey (best wishes)
from wombaby :
*hugs*
from skinnylizzie :
I say ace quite a lot as well, it's because we miss the 90s so much that we feel the need to keep reviving the lingo. Oh, the 90s! The time of boybands, girl power and mega fringes! I miss them so. There's a 90s bar in Newcastle, that's how far away the 90s are now. What did I really come here to say? Oh yeah, I'm always online in the morning, I feel unsettled if I haven't checked my emails before a certain point in the day. Although I have no idea why... Ursel, that's me. Ursel Spangelferkel xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Oh, and it's mein name ist Holly! Well, my name isn't, but you know what I mean. 'Name' in German isn't feminine. Ah, I feel this makes up for my utter shiteness at French somehow! Woo for the Germans! Although somehow I think knowing German makes me even more of the butch one. I haven't thought this through, you know
from skinnylizzie :
Yeah, I quite happily watched all of Match of the Day last night and then the first thing I read this morning was the football supplement in the Mail on Sunday. So I am quite clearly the butch one! Although I did dream about buying loads of shoes, so I'm the feminine shoe-buying butch one? Something's gone very wrong here... xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Bah, I only did French for a year when I was 10 at my Nazi private school, I should really start saying 'meine kleine' but French is just so much nicer sounding than German. And you could still turn out to be the butch one...! Unless I give in to your minx-like ways and actually get that mullet. And I'm afraid the cocktail wasn't at all lesbo, it just tasted really yummy and as we are both appreciative of fine alcohol (even if my stomach isn't), I felt the need to share it with you xxx (PS: I'm not going to ask why you felt the need to write ''riding'', you filthy wench you)
from clairecav :
Gah, it's completely understandable, the way you're feeling. Doesn't make it any less pooey though! Cliche as ever and probably useless, but I do hope you feel better about it soon... =)
from skinnylizzie :
Oh, and apologies for not replying to your text earlier...I was out last night and, erm, a little grumpy and half asleep this morning. But I've been riding now (not in a filthy way, I heard you thinking it) and the bad mood has gone. So...yes! xxx
from skinnylizzie :
I was so confused about the fact that Diaryland was telling me you'd updated again but your entry was the same one I'd read earlier. And then I got down to the final paragraph and my brain started to work again. I'm glad it wasn't too excruciating, that is at least something to be thankful for. Oh no, I have the urge to say something truly stupid because it makes me all sad when you're sad too. One day we shall have an excellent night out together and I've got a brilliant new cocktail for us to try. Pencil that in your diary and amuse yourself thinking about all the nobby things I will inevitably do that night. (mush alert) Oodles of love and hugs, mon petite Hollipop xxxxx
from vanoonoo :
yup - that would suck. arse. *hug*
from frogeye :
We are made not to forget. That is part of our uniqueness amongst the other creatures of this world. Perhaps a fault the good Lord built into us by mistake. We are able to keep our feelings alive and yet tucked away when they need to be. Isnt it nice to be able to remember someone special in our lives whether they are here or not. Dont they somehow feel closer than ever, after they have gone. But dont feel guilty about letting go of these feelings and looking forward. Holding on can cause tension and may restrict your freedom. Letting go does not mean losing or having to give something up. Letting go means allowing things to exist as if they were in the palm of your hand. Be well!
from johnguinness :
When I read your spider story, I had this image of the daddy long legs swooping in on a huge vine and crashing feet-first (all eight of them) through the window, kind of like the scene in the Bourne Identity (although I don't think that one was a spider _ I'll have to rent it again and get back to you). The meddling gift I wanted to send you is a month's supply of this FRS Plus stuff to see if it would help. My one concern is that from what I read at the post office website (US)you might get slammed with VAT and customs duties. I couldn't find anywhere in the UK that sells the stuff. If you want to take a shot at it, let me know and I'll order away. Take care. John
from frogeye :
Ah, spiders, so little but just so frightening. And yet we are enthralled by lions and tigers and other animals that can harm us severely. Strange, isn't it! Welcome back.
from moosehunter :
Thanks for dropping by, and for your note. Always cool to meet someone new with a sense of humour, and I shalt take it personally that in your profile, you've put me down as Mousehunter, not Moosehunter!!! Ahahahaha. That way, madness lies...
from blujeans-uk :
Just read your ME bit. I think the thing about the antidepresants is that they can help with the physical manifestations of depression, sme of which are common to ME, like the tiredness, (in your head, not your body) lack of concentration and sleep problems. They will give your brain a bit of a boost even if they won't make the muscle problems and tingling go away. In any case, it's worth giving them a try - if they work, great, and if they don't you're not going to lose much. Take care xxx
from moosehunter :
Argh. Spiders are the world's biggest NO! Heights, courgettes, seafood and anything Des O'Connor was ever involved in come runner up places. And by god have we seen a lot of flies, spiders and crane-flies this year? Just been pointed to your diary by a friend laughing at our apparent mutual hatred of arachnids. Go, team Extermination! Moosehunter.
from skinnylizzie :
Hmm good thinking Batman. Maybe I'll harvest some eggs instead? This would all be very simple if I were male, what with the huge lack of sperm donations in this country at the moment. Oh, and thanks for the postcard! I was just about to text you but as I'm here I'll say it now instead. It made me laugh A LOT, so much that I spilled sugar all over the kitchen counter xxx
from vanoonoo :
ok the previous notester just answered my question - it was about daddy long legs and if they were the ones with wings - cos you know - I had five of them in my room last night and they are fucking annoying.
from pink-fairy :
When I was in primary school me and my friends used to catch daddy long legs and pull their wings off. Now I am 23 and three quarters and I run away at the sight of them! Not so brave anymore! I agree they should be made extinct or something!
from skinnylizzie :
Haha, I'm sorry, that erectile dysfunction text is STILL making me chuckle all these days on...my dad was demanding what to know what was so funny all the way to the football. God, I'm laughing now just remembering it! Am considering selling a kidney to fund a trip to the Gritty City xxx
from randomrabbit :
Hope you found yourself a nice ladyfriend down with the West Country folk.
from frogeye :
Days without a post to read? What shall I do now, work perhaps.
from clairecav :
Thankyou thankyou! And Holly, when you get back from your holiday, which I hope you have a fab time on, *stern voice* POST THAT VIDEO!
from wombaby :
I want a postcard!!
from anibananie :
Have a good time! Bah, I wanted to see the dancing video. Oh well. I'm sure I'll live. I also hope that the cosy family meal isn't too cosy :P xx
from johnguinness :
Except that with postage, customs, and VAT, I could probably just fly it there myself. I need to think about this. Have a great weekend. John
from johnguinness :
Thank you very much. I kind of have a gift idea for you (sorry, it's not any sort of miniature animal). If you trust me, and you're willing to let me meddle in your life a bit gift-wise, please e-mail me your mailing address to my gmail account (let me know if you need it again). Have a great fam weekend. You saw on google earth that time how close I live to farm land now. For most of my life, I could have hit a tennis ball either north or west from my front yard and could have bounced it into a wheat or corn field. I remember many a Saturday morning when I'd put the top down on my car and end up behind a combine or manure spreader or something equally speedy and pleasant.
from frogeye :
Sorry about a bad URL, try this one instead: http://www.barricksinsurance.com/virginia.html Merry Christmas!
from skinnylizzie :
Wait a minute - have I actually given you my address?!
from skinnylizzie :
Yes, yes, a thousand times yes! Postcard me up real nice! Oh Holly, I'm watching Peter and Paul and I still feel your loss. They're talking about Peter getting excited and Paul's wearing a very fetcdhing red shirt and berry tie xxx
from skinnylizzie :
G'day Mrs Zoe! I was going to email you later but then you sent me a note and I remembered that my laptop hates Windows Live Mail (as do I, incidentally. Why did I think pink was a good colour scheme, why?). And as you lost your thread in your note, I think I should end this one here before I think of something very stupid to say... xxx
from frogeye :
Sorry, I didn't mean to burst your Santa bubble. I was trying to infer that we are all getting older and things ain't always a bowl of cherries. As far as Santa is concerned, I'll refer you to the followng web site: http://www.stormfax.com/virginia.htm. I'll hang my hat on that editorial. Hope the migraine has migrated elsewere.
from anibananie :
Aah, I just checked and it IS Unleash The Dragon. Or Lesbo. Mwahaha. Glad you like the package! (nudgenudge winkwink package :P) Even if it took forever from its conception (ick) to arriving at your front door. I eagerly anticipate the Sheffield postcard, I collect postcards :D
from johnguinness :
I was going to respond to your note, but I can't find the straight guy message board. Tom, are you out there somewhere???
from anibananie :
Oh, and this is becoming like the Lesbian Message Board. You should be proud ;)
from anibananie :
For some reason, I keep thinking of that Sisquo guy who was around at the time of Now 47 (why oh WHY is it still in my cd collection?!) who sang "Enter The Dragon"... now all I have in my head is "Enter The Lesbian". Shame it's not 2 syllables, unless I used 'lesbo'.
from skinnylizzie :
Good GOD, I can't believe I just made a turning 30 joke. The end is nigh xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Mwahaha, did I ever tell you about the time I passed out in front of 200 people and smacked my eye on the corner of a piano? Good times, good times. Although I haven't been able to do public speaking since. Ah I knew you'd appreciate the lesbianism, I'll send you some more lesbo vibes tomorrow. But for now I have to go off and pretend to be straight, woe is me xxx (I think I may get a little bit stranger with every passing day...I'm going to be certifiable by the time I hit 30)
from skinnylizzie :
Good Lord, I just left Annie a note and saw my name connected with lesbianism, and now I come here and the same shit's going down! I just came to tell you that you HAVE TO FACE IT - we are lesbian lovers and it's too late to change it. And as your big lesbo girlfriend (oh no, I'm the butch one!) I would give you a big hug tomorrow. Just because. Ooh and finally, I apologise for not replying to your text yesterday (was it yesterday? My brain's finally dissolved). For some bizarre reason that bug made me a little disorientated and every text I received I promptly deleted without even reading. I don't know what I was on, really xxx
from the-moo :
haha HI Flufflebunnies next entry is her 700th too - I just wanted to tell you that and now I am off to actually READ the entry!! xxx
from anibananie :
Aw, that SUCKS. To be fair, the package is a cube, so it's hardly suprising, unless you have a catflap. And also, I think Tim below has more of an obsession than you and Zoe about lesbians (if possible) as he has also left a note to me about lesbians. Haha. Sorry Tim ;)
from randomrabbit :
Lesbians lesbians lesbians. Its even a nice word to say. I have the third week in September in the sweepstake for when you finally become one, so if you can manage to hold off until then Id be grateful! And then you should write about it. In wonderfully vivid, graphic detail. I think I need to go lie down.
from the-it-man :
Hope all goes well. Surely the more todo in Manchester. I was Manchester born and bred, when i was single and foot loose fancy free Manchester was teh place to go. I am sure Manchester hasnt changed, sadly I have..Lol Married getting old (well 30's oldish )and a family man. Get yourself out in town, maybe i'll see you around one day when i get up there again until then i stick with boring wolverhampton
from wombaby :
Hope meeting Ladyfriend goes well!
from johnguinness :
Sadly, I actually enjoyed the video, and am now even more dedicated to my study of Economics (for three weeks, then it's gone from my life forever). As will be the hot blonde when I serve no further purpose. Good luck with Ladyfriend. John
from leggierox :
Haha same, Ultimate Guitar is my top tab site, but if they've started on OLGA, who knows whats next?...damn those greedy bastardy types
from wombaby :
Haha don't worry, I'm distinctly not taken either! And I want one too!!! (a man)
from johnguinness :
Seriously? There's even homosexuality in the prison system now? What's next, the priesthood? Anyway, will your jailers accept s student loan voucher or possible a pile of things they can sell on Ebay? Right now I'm trying to watch the US Open but Ernesto is still raining everywhere so they're showing Andre Agassi's greatest hits. Speaking of which, one of the cheap DVD's I got when I closed out my Columbia House thing is the Empire Records Special Fan Edition, so might switch to that in a minute. But I just went to my supermarket, and they were barbecuing breakfast steaks outside for sandwiches, so I scored some cheap and tasty steak sandwiches. And keeping with the theme, I got some sale ice cream sandwiches for dessert. Oh - they had skittles and peanut M&M's on sale three bags for a dollar, so I stocked up so I can keep the brunette snacked up through the Econ course. If I do get money next week, I'm finally signing up for a class at writers.com, so maybe I'll learn how to actually do this. Sorry again about the prison thing - hope you get a really cute one. Heterosexually yours. John
from johnguinness :
Let's see...I left England in December 1998, which means that my ban will expire in four months and I'll be around straightaway to get you out. At least some prison time will get you away from the lesbian environment you've been concerned about. Perhaps your Dad can work in the prison garden to keep up his love of all things horticultural. It's also a good place for networking. I hope you're having a weekend of wonderfulness. John
from anibananie :
Can't say I ever felt the word package was dodgy, unless said in a dodgy way, but now it shall always be so... all because of you ;)
from johnguinness :
Hey Holly. I was just reading CNN Int'l and saw there were raids that arrested two people in Mancs? I'm glad they're being found, but they seem to be everywhere. Take care. John
from skinnylizzie :
Dammit we need to find some willing victims...I mean, men. I want hot, sweaty blatant sex too! And going for football did NOTHING for my burning loins. I don't know why I insist that it does. It just gets me all fired up (I just wrote 'fried up' there which made me chuckle) and makes me want to do bad things to almost every man I see in the street. Okay, I've gotten myself worked up again, I need to think calming thoughts... xxx
from johnguinness :
Thanks Holly. I'd understand if you'd like to keep all you've got for yourself. I think I might try to track down that dwarf mongoose tomorrow. Have a great weekend. John
from skinnylizzie :
Ah he was actually my dealer, he flew all the way over from Columbia to see me today so I can provide the good chavs of Grimsby with their fire power to get them through the day (one day I'm going to get into trouble for saying things like that...). And talking to you was a vair nice way to start the day too, I'm ridiculously chirpy now xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Oh Lordy, I'm sorry for gabbling on at you for an hour at stupid o'clock this morning...I enjoyed it, but then I talked your ear off so I had no reason not to! And the lesbian smut jokes were kept to a minimum which I think is a hefty achievement for us xxx
from frogeye :
Apologize? Hell no, we want more............!
from strawberrri :
there is a blue vibrator in ann summers which unintentionally looks like a cactus, which i find rather amusing :D
from frogeye :
Ah, lesbian love stories. And here I thought I'd have to search the net for smut.
from blujeans-uk :
I never get to talk about lesbianism here - swap you! I feel guilty thinking about it sometimes because I'm in a straight relationship but sometimes all the old buried feelings just come bubbling back... For some reason I had a dream about Lisa last night. Not anything like that though. She was just around, with very red hair...
from pink-fairy :
I have the pump it up dvd and its SOOO hard to do! But if its the lesbian bandwagon that you are after - its great for perving at the women! Enjoy xxx
from anibananie :
If it helps, I do not have a man and consequently am not having lots of sex. (Nor have I ever but that's beside the point.) So you're not ENTIRELY alone...! Also, your package is worming its way to your Sheffield residence at this VERY PRECISE MOMENT, I had a wonderful (eye roll) time this morning wrapping it and sending it off. Beware: it looks funny because I couldn't find any brown paper so it's basically a box in a jiffy bag. Originally I had the wonderful idea of stealing a brown envelope and cutting it up and using it as paper but that failed miserably for reasons I can't quite recall, and I had ten minutes before my bus so I had to grab a jiffy bag and put it in. God, I'm classy.
from the-it-man :
I love your diary, reminds me of the cosmopolitan days i was at university.
from skinnylizzie :
Ah I apologise for all the lesbian jokes last night, I was far too worked up from seeing all those lovely jubbly footballers to notice what I was saying (and I hid that so well, I'm sure!). But yes, I like to talk about men too. And if you sounded like a sweaty perv then I dread to think what I sounded like. And I'm not taken or coupley or getting pounded (my, I hope nobody else reads this note) either. Bizarrely, as I write this, there's a banner for a lesbian diary flashing above me. I give up. xxx
from frogeye :
Going insane? Yippie! That way you will be forever happy. Why? Ever see a nut case not smiling? As far as talking to yourself, that's not a big problem. Only problem is when you answer yourself or fight with yourself: "I'm not, you are, I'm not." For the ME shit, have you considered Aroma Therapy? I knew a gal who had ME and that seemed to help thru some of the phases. Other than that drink often and heavily. Won't help but can't hurt! Vodka, where is thy sting!
from wombaby :
Welcome to the lightweight brigade!! I got embarrassingly tipsy after a pint last night. I know I should know better. On other matters, hopefully you will one day recover - and if not, learn to live within the limits you have. I think the former is more likely, but that the latter will get easier as time goes on. And I'm thinking of you and hoping it gets easier.
from skinnylizzie :
Ooh just you wait until I've found some more money, you won't be able to get rid of me... And ack, my new phone STILL isn't here despite it being lunchtime but when it does arrive in all its glorious shinyness, you shall be the first to receive a text as you have put up with more Phone of Doom activity than anybody else. Which I'm sure you're just overjoyed about xxx
from anibananie :
Deleted an entry? ...Nope, not that I know of. Probably DLand screwing up. It's showing up on my computer anyway.
from anibananie :
Guardian soulmates? Like from the Guide? Because, erm, I collect the weird ones... haha, maybe your dad's is one! Just kidding. And I actually lived in Glossop till I was 9, so there's two coincidences, if the first one is correct. Never been to New Mills though. Btw, package being bought soon, yay! As in, tomorrow soon if I can swing it.
from strawberrri :
ta, the worst bit is when i locked it up at the station danny said 'is it safe there?' and i replied 'no one wants to steal my bike, it's only worth 20 quid!' it's almost comical in a way. and the person who stole it may well be a drug addict and if that's so then i feel a bit sorry for them really. anyhoo, yay farthing wood! i will have to see if there's any episodes on youtube :) x
from pink-fairy :
FAN-BLOODY-TASTIC NEWS! Huge well done on the job!!!!
from frogeye :
My international menu includes curry chicken, sweet potato pie and chocolate cake with hot chocolate syrup, sprinkled with pieces of semi-sweet chocolate. Would you like a table for one madam?
from skinnylizzie :
Okay, I've read that cunting ME bit back and it sounds wrong but I don't know why...I'm sure you know what I mean though :)
from skinnylizzie :
No no no, I owe you a visit in the Gritty City! I've only been putting it off because I don't want to knacker you with your cunting ME out in full force at the moment, I appreciate that even an hour of my company can be quite tiresome. And yes, I know you love the doorbells and gay men in hats talk. I still haven't plucked up the courage to ask him whether he does bat for the other team or not xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Ack Holly, I'm getting a new phone! No more phone of doom! No more getting shouted at by my dad for ringing mobiles (hehe)! HUZZAH! I hope the happy afterglow of being employed is still as good as ever today, I actually did a little dance for you when I got your text :) xxx
from clairecav :
I am totally pouting at you now. =D
from johnguinness :
Hey Holly. So, when I first heard about your job, and potential jobs, I was of course ecstatic for you because it's the big turning point that you needed, and you've got an income, and understanding bosses, and so many of your worries are gone away and you can concentrate on having a life and working at getting better. Then, a few minutes ago, I pulled up to the Post Office to mail my essay to the unemployment people on "Why the Bastards Fired Me and You Should Give Me Money Anyway," and out of the blue it hit me......there isn't going to be any brothel, or a lifetime 24-hour pass.... I need to go be sad now. Good for you, though. John
from blujeans-uk :
Yay! Big Congratulations! And excellent for still being a half-student! Aww... Still studenty but with money, how great will that be...
from strawberrri :
can you also tell your kettle a big CONGRATUMALATIONS!!!! to you :D xx
from anibananie :
Indeed. And I've said all of 3 words to Mum today, and two of them were 'fine'. The other was 'mm-hmm'. I dunno, I just really don't want to talk to her, but according to Dad we have to 'try'. I hope it just all blows over soon.
from anibananie :
Thanks :) I'm coping. Ish. We'll be eating tea soon... as a family. *shudder* Should be interesting.
from clairecav :
WOO! Go the you =D
from frogeye :
Confuckinggradulations! What a great position for you. I'm very happy for you.
from anibananie :
Heh I need to read it again because I need something to cheer me up :)
from anibananie :
SWEET MOTHERFUCKING YEEEEEEES, HOLLY! God, I'm so happy for you right now. Your package will be coming next week, as soon as I get my money on Monday I will go and buy it as a big CONGRATULATIONS present!
from johnguinness :
Woohooo! I'm really really happy for you. The world's a different place when you have a steady income, and you're earning yours doing something you love and worked very hard to qualify for. Congratulations. John
from wombaby :
BLOODY FANTASTIC!!!!!! I'm sitting in the computer lab with a big geeky grin on my face for you :)
from meganwaits :
I crave strong coffee in the morning..but by 3 in the afternoon..I must have tea. Usually, iced, but not always.
from leggierox :
Aw bless ye cotton socks =) And I'm only "substantially" lovely?! That is totally inacceptable! =D Take care my dear ;) x
from frogeye :
Good luck on the interview tomorrow!
from strawberrri :
I lived with a lesbian couple at uni and it was bloody awful, always screaming and throwing things at each other.(Oh and Good Luck! x)
from johnguinness :
That's okay - I just headed over to the gym. As to the value of your opinion, (ignoring the fact that you're my friend which makes it nearly priceless), with the godawful (from this end) exchange rate, that amounts to $.0000000189341 American, which at this stage of my life is serious money. Good luck with both jobs. John
from wombaby :
YAY felicitations on your Long QT mark and Bonne Chance avec tes interviews. Sorry, I'm thinking more in french than english just now :)
from skinnylizzie :
Good God, you know the only way I notice insensitivity is if it jumps up and bites me on the arse! Not that I think that was insensitive, it actually made me chuckle which can only be a good thing :) xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Heh thanks - and on the bright side, you wouldn't have to stay in the cupboard under the stairs now! I'm usre it'll all get sorted, just don't much fancy having to live with a complete stranger again. Ah well, what will be will be. And thank you for the Worty vibes, they were glorious! xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Hey, thanks for the note, you're right that I probably would've missed Laptop of Doom but I have no idea why (although it does give me something to whine about when everything else is going well!). Did you delete an entry the other day? And finally, I hope things are going well. If I remember rightly (and there's a high chance I haven't), you have an interview tomorrow so I'll say good luck now, and if I turn out to be right then I shall also send my good lucks via the excellent medium of SMS if my phone's feeling up to it! xxx
from johnguinness :
I found three versions of the song. The legacy version is two seconds longer, and then there's a live version that goes more than nine minutes. Help?
from johnguinness :
Thanks for the thought - I actually have St. Johns Wort on top of the fridge. (It's in a bottle, but I think there might be some growing naturally in the spare bedroom since I've turned off the air conditioning). I'm just afraid to mix my herbs right now - I'm still on the stuff with gingko and things. I'll be fine once I know for sure where my next money is coming from, and when. Take care. John
from randomrabbit :
Pitchpipes? How posh was your school!
from anibananie :
I think Radiohead were wasted on us, what with all the slow cheesy dance moves... I'm sure that many people wanted US dead!
from randomrabbit :
Your school had glockenspiels? I had to learn to play the drums on a table.
from the-moo :
hahahhaa *hugs* I love it's nice to hear you joking and such I send you MASSIVE hugs and MWAS and loves xxx
from johnguinness :
I was looking for a version of Hallelujah a couple of months ago after hearing it on a West Wing re-run and somewhere else. The best I managed to do on I-Tunes was a Sonny Boy Mick version, which is quite good but not the one I was looking for. Good luck with the jobs. John
from pink-fairy :
oh chic thats awful what a horrible doctor. i wish i could give you a big hug and tell you everythings gonna be alright. i find that the endorphins in chocolate mostly always make me feel better when i'm pissed off! xxxxxxxxx
from onlyemma :
So sorry you're feeling rubbish. Love you so much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from johnguinness :
Okay. I found the six fallabellas. They're so matched that they're all named Maria, even the boys, which was really just a time-saver and pretty much inevitable. They've been assigned twelve quality faeries. also named Maria, for petting duties. Now all I need is to win the money, and to gradually convince you that on your wee ranch you should keep my pet mongoose for protection against snakes falling out of airplanes. Hope you have a good weekend. John
from wombaby :
I don't think you get dependent on SSRIs. Of course, I would say that. But I hope the SJW helps, and I hope you never ever have to put up with Dr BloodTest again!
from anibananie :
Thank yooou :) Hope your day has been good x
from frogeye :
So sorry to read that your are a bit down in the dumps. I'll have to email you a Monty sketch. That should help to cheer you up. Be well!
from leggierox :
Hey, just wanted to say I think that was pretty brave of you. It's a big step revealing something that you've unintentionally not mentioned. It makes it seem a bigger thing than it is in a way. Your courage is incredible =) x
from johnguinness :
"other than the obvious?" Ouch...I'll do some research - it would be easiest if there were fallabella sextuplets, but probably first cousins might do. Take care. John
from johnguinness :
Hey holly. I wish there was something I could say or do to help you. I feel guilty posting training sessions and improving medical news. I know - I'll win the lottery, then get you a team of six matching fallabellas (or would you flippantly prefer contrasting ones) with a cart to help you get around town in style until we can find you some decent medical help. I'll get right on that. Never be afraid to be honest with you - we wouldn't be reading if we didn't care. Have a fine day. John
from anibananie :
I seem to be bombarding you with notes at the moment, but I just wanted to say, for the millionth time it seems, how sucky the whole ME thing is. But like you said, you have wonderful friends helping you and I really really hope it gets better for you, I'm sure it will. Don't feel bad about moaning, you have every single right to moan! xxx
from wombaby :
Aww. I don't mind reading your moaning, you know. Hope you're having a good day today.
from anibananie :
Ooh you've given me an idea of something else to send! It'll be what Lancaster is 'famous' for... or rather, Kendal. You may have guessed what it is. And who doesn't want steel? ;)
from frogeye :
Great zoo pics. Your camel is actually a Bactrian camel. They are often confused with Dromedary camels, who only have one hump and live in hot, desert climates. In contrast, Bactrian camels have two humps and are native to the cold, mountain and high desert climates of Central Asia. Over here we call the marmot a goundhog or prairie dog. I love the zoo also. The closest zoo here is the Bronx Zoo which is an amazing place. Glad you got the net working.
from blujeans-uk :
I love the zoo pics! They came out a lot better than the ones we tried to take in Panama... Hope you're doing ok xx
from wombaby :
It says you updated since the zoo entry, but nothing more is showing up :-( give us some entry-love!
from anibananie :
Yay, merchandise! I got a postcard this morning from Adam (aka Gaffor) and my mum read it and did a nudge-nudge wink-wink "Who's Adaaam?" thing, which I got annoyed at. I expect a similar (with less of the nudge-wink thing) enquiry when you send me stuff. Bloody mother.
from anibananie :
I really want to send it noooow, but alas I have no money! :( I'm having to borrow off my folks even though I owe my dad over 100. I am so going to have to get a job.
from leggierox :
Cheers, it was truly incredible. Highly recommended if you ever get the chance =)
from onlyemma :
I'm also really sorry you've been feeling crappy lately. All I can do is send you helpful health-related vibes to try and make you feel better, so they're winging their way to you *sends helpful vibes*. Wish I could do more. Love you so much xxxxx
from onlyemma :
I'm also really sorry you've been feeling crappy lately. All I can do is send you helpful health-related vibes to try and make you feel better, so they're winging their way to you *sends helpful vibes*. Wish I could do more. Love you so much xxxxx
from onlyemma :
Love you too xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from anibananie :
The package... I think you'll be able to guess what it is! It may not be for a couple of weeks (I am skint and don't get my money till the 28th) but I am positive you will love it! xx
from anibananie :
And ooh, I may have a package to send to you soon... therefore I may have to (possibily creepily) ask for your address soon, if that's ok with you xx
from anibananie :
THE ZOO! I love zoos. Penguins are always a favourite with me, especially since watching March of the Penguins. I hope you have a lovely time, and remember... eat cake. Cake is good. xxx
from the-moo :
WOW I've missed so much here in the rampant busyness that is being me and now I feel about the most bad moo ever! *hugs* I suggest you check out aliceastronaught (diaryland) and flufflebunny (also diaryland) they're both on my buddy lists and they probably far better know how to say helpful tihngs... I am here also... and I bring hugs!! *hugs* xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Bonjour! That was an incredibly nice thing to say to somebody who's as crap on the phone as I am, so I thank you very muchly. And of COURSE I'll ring you, just name a rough time and day and I'll do my very best to do it then. Don't let the buggers get you down xxx
from blujeans-uk :
I was trying to think of something supportive to say but nothing really sounds right. You'll pull through. It'll take a while but I know you will. And it's not MS or Guillain Barr or myaesthenia gravis like I was worrying so that's good. Sending hugs and a cup of tea xxx
from wombaby :
http://batsgirl.blogspot.com/ is a blog from someone dealing with ME. I haven't read all of it, and I don't know if you'd find it helpful or not, so it's up to you if you look at it or not.
from johnguinness :
Hey Holly. I'm pulling for you, as always. Take care. John
from onlyemma :
Love you loads Hol. Sending lots of love and hugs your way xxxxxxx
from onlyemma :
Love you loads Hol. Sending lots of love and hugs your way xxxxxxx
from strawberrri :
what a fucking gip, you have my thoughts and sympathies :( hope you're not gone for too long... x
from blujeans-uk :
Aw, Hol. Hugs xxx
from frogeye :
Sorry to hear about the ME. But keep a good spirit. Your in all of our prayers.
from anibananie :
Also, eat a lot of cake. Cake helps.
from anibananie :
I actually kind of thought over this past week that it might be ME. At least it's not something life-threatening. I hope - well, I was going to say 'feeling ok' but that's stupid, so I shall just say I hope you're back online soon and you're in my thoughts xx
from clairecav :
Hmm, I'm sorry about the ME thing. At least you know what it is now, right? Hope you get online again sometime soon, and wishing good luck for you!
from wombaby :
*hugs* I hope. Not sure what I hope, but I'm hoping hard for you.
from skinnylizzie :
Aww, well I'm glad telling her went well. I guess this is just a crappy period of adjustment for you which won't be too much fun, but take comfort in the fact that in a few days, when you've come to terms with it, things will seem that little better. And you're totally welcome xxxxx
from skinnylizzie :
Oh no, did telling Lisa not go okay? Be strong, Hollipop (God, I'm sorry, I love that nickname). And remember I'm here with my crappy Phone of Doom if you ever want to rant to somebody! xxx
from clairecav :
It sounds odd, but I will absolutely be looking out for that, then!
from skinnylizzie :
Ha, I just got off the phone to you and my mum did her 'so who was that then?' bit. I swear she thinks I have a secret boyfriend. So you are now officially my 'friend from uni' according to her. Hope things are going ok :) xxx
from blujeans-uk :
You could never be the boring friend, and the MI isn't a 'minor ailment' anyway. A minor ailment would be something like when a woman gets man-flu... She sneezes once or twice and gets on with it. Hopefully it's not that major either and the docs can fix whatever's broken. Until then, you may have to resort to charging for over-eager med students to examine you...
from clairecav :
I hope that the MI fucks off as well! We should all have some sort of voodoo night or something, to banish it. Just because that sounds really groovesome. Because I am a celeb-whore, what part has Ciaran got in Shameless, by the way?
from wombaby :
*hugs* grief does NOT make you damaged goods! It's great that your Dad's happier now, but the fact that you still have demons doesn't make you in any way less of a person. I don't think the MI qualifies as a minor ailment any more though. I have no idea what it is, but I think you're more than entitled to complain about it, and the NHS should sodding well hurry up and help you, and get rid of the bastard!
from anibananie :
And don't feel bad for talking about the damn MI (I've been at the wine), it can no longer be classed as a 'minor ailment'. It's full-out war against the MI of doom! I really really hope it gets sorted soon, you deserve so much to feel better.
from anibananie :
Carrot cake is very hit-and-miss, it can be absolute shite. Most is, actually; I'm not a fan. Paddy is a fool: chocolate cake forever and ever and ever, ad infinitum.
from clairecav :
Thankye for the nice note =) Horribly, it seems that everyone has some sort of relevant story. I know that young people do die, and so it was always possible that maybe somebody I knew might. But... it doesn't stop it being horribly unfair! Anyway, like I said, thanks for the note. On the bright side, this note might be typo-less, you never know!
from skinnylizzie :
Actually, thinking about it, why is the Grimsby/Cleethorpes dialling code longer than most other places in the UK? Now there's something to keep me amused for the next 3 minutes...
from skinnylizzie :
God, that's so weird, I was just literally opening up your profile to leave you a note when I got yours...anyway, I wanted to apologise for being a craptacular friend over the past couple of weeks, things have been a bit odd here lately and I am coping as well as I usually do (i.e, taking to my bed and watching Disney films all the time. I never realised Beauty and the Beast's true comedy value until last night). I am feeling the urge to ring you and have one of our random conversations about ice cream and clouds again, so if you get a call from a number with the dialling code 01472, tis just little old me! xxx
from anibananie :
You can say thankyou better with cake! Hehe, Jess and I made some weird red and green ones today. Half were red, half green, and they had red and green icing... it went spectacularly wrong and I feel ill, but I'll be back there in about an hour (it's 6pm, I came home to shower and get my overnight stuff), no doubt eating the rest. Also, that paragraph about the ads had me laughing like a loon, so thank you!
from johnguinness :
Finally, something to look forward to;) !!!
from katanabright :
Hello sweet and lovely lady, my computer is working again so I had to say hello and let you know that so many of us think of you every day & toss out a prayer for your health very often . BUT - I think you MAY be a candidate for 'DOS' - no, not Disc Operating System, but Drama Overdose Syndrome, what with all the other people frantically trying to drag you into their weirdly high-energy Scenarios d' Bizarro! Takes a physical & emotional toll on ya, if you're not careful! But keep pressing on, dear friend - we're all with you. Just...uh...watch out for the chemists ;o)
from johnguinness :
Hey Hol. Tough luck on the whole porn ban thing - people can be so unreasonable. Way to bounce back, though, with the brothel. I totally expect a full-color brochure to be sent to me in a plain brown wrapper or probably leftover newspaper. I left work early today with brain issues and am currently killing time until I see a neurologist and probably the inside of an MRI machine this afternoon. I'll try to mix some of your symptoms in with mine and see if I can get you some answers. I HATE it when I've been in a place less than two weeks and there's already three years worth of cleaning up. But since I never have guests, I can just view a lot of it as redundant. Take care. John
from onlyemma :
Love you so much Hol. Sorry things are getting you down right now, I hope everything picks up in every aspect of your life. You deserve so much more, you are wonderful and beautiful and clever and if you ever need anything at all that I can help you with, let me know. Thinking about you always and I'm sending more virtual hugs than you'll know what to do with xxxxxxx
from skinnylizzie :
Ack, FINALLY, I am back online! You missed a great Look North the other night, I contemplated ringing you so you could hear it but Phone of Doom put an end to that. A python escaped in some stupid town somewhere in Lincolnshire, and in true crap Look North style they decided to bring in a snake expert, along with a python...and our mate Levy is terrified of snakes. Great TV viewing, watching him sweat and then go 'AARGH, he looks ANGRY' was just comedy genius. I am still so sad for you that you miss these little moments of pure sunshine. Oh oh oh, and I got the train to Cleethorpes the other day and it goes RIGHT PAST the Dock Tower! I've never been on the docks before. God, why am I even telling you this? Hope things are going well, all your fellow Sheffield dwellers are currently in North East Lincs taking over Cleethorpes beach xxx
from frogeye :
Not to worry my dear, the job situation will come around soon. It takes time for the world market to know of your superior talents. Remember, each job is just a stepping stone to the next. I can feel for your dad as I am not a doctor person also, but put up with the one I have. Don't get wrapped into too many TV soaps. Ain't daytime TV shows horrible?
from frogeye :
Welcome back to the net! A void has been happily filled.
from katanabright :
Hi - been missing you; I can relate to the 'non-internet' situation, my home computer hasn't worked in weeks... we shall both simply have to 'hang in'. And had I ONLY known you would be trying to assemble DIY furniture with a knife-blade screwdriver, I would have airmailed you a battery powered / rechargeable driver. On large jobs, those little items pay for themselves in the first hour of use, by saving you sprains, strains, aches and pains...as well as weeping pools of fatigue and frustration. I'd better get back to work now, lunch break is over. Thinking of you often. All the best to you, j
from skinnylizzie :
Hmm, I have to be quick because the internet won't stay hooked up for longer than 2 minutes at a time (VAIR annoying), but I have faith in you to educate her about the joys of Grimsby! She obviously just hasn't heard about its truly fishy charm, nobody can resist THAT xxx
from anibananie :
Hiii, I got back about an hour ago and WOO, graduation! You looked lovely, MI clearly not affecting your physical appearance :D
from blujeans-uk :
Hey Holly :) I like the graduation photos. Sounds like you had a decent day. They have white graduation robes in Miami, maybe I should find some and snitch them... And yay for you getting t'internet again!
from skinnylizzie :
Okay, my dad's literally just walked out of the door to go to the post office, and I gave him your postcard so he could put a stamp on it and he took one look at it, said 'the Dock Tower?!', and left the house chuckling to himself. Bastard.
from leggierox :
Yay for graduating...loads of people seem to be at ceremonies/smashed off their faces these days, congrats! =)
from strawberrri :
thanks again :) and congrats on the non-tumbling over! sounds like it was a good day but i agree, clapping for every single person is INSANE x
from frogeye :
Excellent photo shoot! And hoorah for the soon to be internet connection. Ain't life grand!
from johnguinness :
Hey Hols. Congrats on your grads. Cheers, dude.
from strawberrri :
my grad was horrifically hot last year though not 32 deg. hope you enjoy it regardless! i think everyone suffers from the tripping up phobia, it'd probably be funny if someone did though :)
from frogeye :
Have a great time at your graduation! Don't be too uncomfortable in the heat.
from pink-fairy :
Good luck tomorrow - don't worry about the robes, worry about your flatboard hat thing not falling off!
from blujeans-uk :
Hey Hol, Hope you don't sweat too much in your funky graduation robes. Sending many happy vibes for the day. (Just be happy that you don't get 90% humidity like over here - I'm sat in my PJs and still sweating...). Looking forward to seeing the pics. You couldn't lend me your SEH could you? I was missing a few beats after I ran up the stairs to my lecture at the hospital the other day...
from the-moo :
bleeeeuuuuuugh!! stupid heat but yaaaay that you updated!! xxx
from wombaby :
Happy Graduation Day! I feel sympathy for your sister and her bike, even if you don't - I have been in the bike situation too much. And I hope your Dad's ok.
from johnguinness :
Then you said, "no, it's just a little horse..."
from strawberrri :
in other comical news, i lost the letter i need to take to my driving test! i hid it when it arrived as it scared me. i have just under a month to find it :)
from strawberrri :
i was going to try 'argentium nitricum' but if you think beta blockers are best then i would be the most grateful nervous person ever!
from frogeye :
I guess I really meant the government asses. And that would appl y to most countries. The food, the wine and the women are truely quite lovely. And who can deny a French accent? "Allons enfants de la Patrie ....................." And yes, we here in the States, will certainly miss your entries. Please beg the net people to hook you up quickly. And cheers to dad and his newly gotten supply of, hmmm, ummm... Mother Earth!
from skinnylizzie :
Aww, woo for the 1st! They always give me an incredible sense of achievement (not that I've had one since first year, mind). And I guess that at the end of the day, it's only really the final grade that counts, so another woo for scraping it! At least you managed to still have a life whilst taking exams :). I firmly believe that scraping it is the way forward and I fully intend to do that next year xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Haha, you moose (and I mean that in a highly affectionate way), don't worry about it! Your fabulous postcard will be winging its way to you very soon. And my phone seems to be behaving itself at the moment (only on texts...the phone calls still seem to be beyond its capabilities, pile of crap) so you may even get a text too, shock horror! xxx
from clairecav :
Have plenty of fun moving into your flat, not that I think moving anywhere can be fun. But then unpacking my school bag makes me tired, so maybe I'm just lazy when it comes to packing? Anyway, I echo the notes of below and say get net access soon... or else we shall miss you and have to start a club. And nobody wants that.
from wombaby :
I shall miss having your entries to read! Can only echo Annie's sentiments and say GET NET SOON. Plus a "fuck off" to the mystery illness. x
from anibananie :
And, having read your entry, I feel I should say (truthfully) that I will miss your updates this week! Get net asap.
from anibananie :
Aaw thank you :) I didn't think anyone would! :P
from frogeye :
And yes, the French do suck ass royally. No redeeming characteristics for those asswipes.
from skinnylizzie :
I'm not sending you it until you've moved in, you numpty! I'm always afraid of sending postcards because I say stupid things on them and I KNOW other people can read them...rest assured, it will turn up. Dock Tower postcards seem to be very popular this year, I only wish I knew why xxx
from anibananie :
Hehe, thanks. I haven't made them cards in recent years, maybe she thinks I'm growing out of it now... or maybe I just forget.
from leggierox :
Yay! Nose away to your heart's delight! I was starting to feel a bit lonely on the new-friends front ;)
from blujeans-uk :
I HATE daddy-long-legs! Horrible horrible flying spidery things. I can't decide which type are worse - the eerie, hovery, floating-maliciously-towards-you type or the aggressive, frantic, wings-make-a-horrible-noise-when-they-brush-against-the-wall type. There was a huge one in the bathroom the day before I left England. Ick.
from anibananie :
Creatures, (n): consist of Teddy, Bunny and about 4 other Teddies. Are over 40 years old and still wearing same clothes which have merely been darned over the years. They 'talk' and occasionally require kisses from my great aunt's guests. They're manky. And smelly. And I have to make them Christmas cards... my God, I never realise till I tell people about them just how batty my great aunt is, the crazy old coot.
from theswordsman :
And was I hallucinating, or wasn't there some promise of a beret photo???
from theswordsman :
Just trying to figure out which part of my body gets the ice pack next. (And still far enough out if it to be leaving myself notes).
from theswordsman :
Hey Holly - watcha doing???
from anibananie :
Your first paragraph was hilarious :) Also, the Stockport thing gave me the heebie-jeebies because Stockport is home to my batty 92 year-old great aunt and her Creatures... shudder.
from theswordsman :
My hearing is fine - no need to yell...thud
from theswordsman :
sorry...coulldn't reed tha 1. Type bigggggggggg?
from theswordsman :
post...it...sooon....cough...hack...swoon
from theswordsman :
fading fast...cough...cough...must not let Holly wi.............................................
from theswordsman :
I can't even sit up straight, and ninety percent of my brain (okay, of the bits that normally work) aren't even functioning. And you're going to make me sit up and type rubbish when I could be in the recliner and possibly live to fight another day? Ah. funny hats.
from theswordsman :
Ha. You just made me leave myself a note. Did I mention I might have a concussion or um...what was I saying? You're six hours ahead of me, and I refuse to go to bed before you (this once), so why don't you hit the hay and not make me type any more? Please??? Come on, Holly, you can do it - don't reply...
from theswordsman :
I had to look that up. It's beer mixed with lemonade for a total alcohol content of 5.2%. It's in a clear bottle and has a sweet taste (so it says) and is apparently marketed towards small children or something illegal like that. Ow...my head.
from theswordsman :
I'm afraid the Firemen aren't selling brandy. I did see a sign across the street for Mike's Hard Lemonade - will that do?
from theswordsman :
As before, yes ma'am.
from anibananie :
Nah, I never got any posted. :( I think if I did I would have to tell someone, which defeats the point :P And yep, I agree with you about the God thing.
from frogeye :
I have to admit, your random ramblings did make me laugh quite a bit. Keep up the good work Sparky!
from skinnylizzie :
Oh no, what did he say? (I realise you may not want to write that on a notes page...or even tell me at all, which is fine). I didn't realise you'd kept in touch with him (unless this was a really randomly random email). And I did NOT visit your notes page to talk about fish, dammit! You are the bigger fish lover of us both, wanting to go and see the great phallic symbol of GY that is the Dock Tower! I hope the email hasn't head-fucked you, you know where I am if you want to chat (in the Land of Fish...which I know you love due to your manic love of fish) xxx
from skinnylizzie :
I think moist is a nasty word. I don't know why. And 'fadge', although sometimes when I'm really frustrated I'll just yell FADGE incredibly loudly to let off steam (that's Laura's fault, the foul-mouthed minx). I recommend you try it! And now I can't remember what I actually came here to say...crap. xxx
from anibananie :
I love your mad little conversations :) And I LOVE Postsecret! Been reading it for yonks. I have actually written 3 secrets to send in, one of which I actually did - the others are sitting in my room, festering away between some coloured paper. Now you know one of my secrets ;) (and so does everyone on your notes page)
from wombaby :
Don't worry about painting yourself in a bad light on my account at least - if you want to share (some of) your secrets and it will make you feel better, I think you should. If it won't, then don't. I have a locked diary where I write all the things that are too dark, dirty, or plain painful to be shared - perhaps that or a paper diary would help?
from frogeye :
Cheers for Churchill! He was the best and history has proven it so. His speaches were magnificent. If I ever need a pick-me-up I just go and read one of his talks to the House of Commons. I particularly like his June 4, 1940 speach: We Shall Fight on the Beaches He just had a certain way about himself. Did you know that his daughter, Sarah, wrote poetry? She penned a beautiful poem titled "The Bombers". Good luck on the mandolin. Tough instument to master. And the chords are all different from the guitar. Very confusing at times.
from strawberrri :
hehe, claude was pretty cool. i think he just wanted to make friends but if the dogs were let loose they probably would have eaten him. poor claude...
from skinnylizzie :
I just tried to leave a note to myself, I'm losing it I swear. I just got distracted by Jo's note down there, now the nosy side of me wants to know what it was about! ANYWAY - the donkeys on Cleethorpes beach are quite nice, but you're right, they're no goats. Goats on the beach would be amazing, I'll suggest that to the council too. You are single-handedly turning Grimsby and Cleethorpes into the cultural metropolis of the country, hurrah! xxx
from theswordsman :
Yes, ma'am.
from theswordsman :
Thanks Holly. I've still got a two week supply of denial I need to use up first. Waste not, want not, that's what I always say. Well, I said it the once. Take care. John
from wombaby :
Aww thanks :-) And to follow on from Zoe's note, I had a dream which involved both you and Zoe while I was on holiday. I'll post it at some point - I made a note of it on a scrap of Sudoku so I wouldn't forget.
from skinnylizzie :
Ha, 'brick paradise in the sky', I LUFF it! I might write to the council and suggest that they market it with that tagline because I LUFF it so much. I am indeed a big fan of that giant pointy structure, although I do have a good excuse for actually owning a Dock Tower postcard - a) my Newcastle friends think it's hilarious that I actually live in Grimsbeh and demand postcards on a regular basis. Funnily enough, they all demand fishy ones too, and b) the Dock Tower one is a new design, woot! So you will be one of the FIRST PEOPLE in the whole world to get one! Jeez, I definitely need to get a life. You were in my dream last night xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Wow, that was some incredible love for a Dock Tower postcard! I do actually have one lying around my room (don't even ask), so if you email me and let me know where you want me to send it, I shall get on it. Because the Dock Tower brightens up everybody's day, of course. Hope things are going well in la belle Manc and that you haven't tried to gnaw your own arm off due to extreme boredom yet xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Why thank you! One day I hope to make a full-time career out of job avoidance. Although don't be too impressed, because it does mean I have to do wank things like go and visit the grandparents, which I'm off to do in a minute (bleurgh). I think you should visit a beach of some kind, because beaches always cheer me up. And you know I'm just saving up this pseudo-love so you get an extra big package of it soon! I can send you a postcard of the Dock Tower if that would cheer you up (who WOULDN'T it cheer up?!) xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Bonjour! I haven't spoken to you for AGES (well, since last week) courtesy of Phone of Doom which has now started preventing me from hearing people on phone calls, and all they can hear is me going 'fuck, I can hear sweet naff all...fucking, fucking phone of doom' before hanging up on them. ANYWAY - hurrah for the new place! And I know this doesn't help in the slightest, but sexy people work in catering. It's got to be better than working with a load of munters in a factory on the docks (I don't know that they're munting but I can make a pretty good guess). Okay, stupid note over, schneid out xxx
from frogeye :
Yiddisha = Jewishness. Kind of slang of Yiddish, a Jewish language which includes German and Hebrew. For example, Yiddisha Mama, would be a woman or girl acting in a Jewish way. Would be like calling someone: "Joey Bag O'Donuts". An Italian mafia wanna be. Capiche?
from frogeye :
Oy Vey = Oh My! Yiddisha Princess = You in your Jewish Mafia hat. Shiksa = Non-Jewish Woman. Does that help?
from theswordsman :
Hey Holly. No worries - there's nothing you could have known. It's probably a good thing I had to get it off my chest and into the diary - I'd actually forgotten that it was half the reason I started going to HQQters, and why I don't bother going to clubs and things or approach women at the gym. This was your contributiob to my Year of Rapid Change that forces me to reevaluate things and make decisions. I know that when I went looking for a photograph to post, Rhonda looked pretty good to me again. I've got a busy today. Off to the gym when they open, from there to the urgent care place with hopefully someone who actually has a clue what my leg is doing, then it's tennis, trying to figure out soccer once again, and seeing if anyone is left at the Tour de France. {Zoe - I dare you to leave Holly a longer note than this one}. Holly - cheers, dude. John
from clairecav :
Oh feck it, I don't care about my typos anymore! Your page clearly curses me.
from clairecav :
Ach, absolutely terrifying Jewish Mafia! And don't worry, I love your grammar, it's big sexy-beast grammar! I've realised that I've started to make all of my note to you really quite short in fear of the dreaded typos. So now I feel like I should really ramble on and tell you lots of things. Like did you know that you are fifteen times more likely to be killed in a road accident in Turkey than you are here in lovely England (thought clearly the compiler of that survey never rode in a car with my sister's boyfriend... being in his car does that same thing to your neck that the Waltzers do)? Yeah, fact. And erm... that's the only fact I know. Ciao.
from the-moo :
*RUNS AND HIDES* AAAAAAAAAAAAAAH xxx
from frogeye :
Oy Veh! Such a Yiddisha Princess, but such a Shiksa! The dicotomy of life.
from clairecav :
Well that Thumbelina quote was just too good to ignore! (Look, no typos!)
from frogeye :
Brain imploding! I, for one, would love to hear you rant on about that. Pictures are a must. Unfortunately, with a mush brain, I am sure your words would be somewhat garbled, but what fun we would all have trying to decipher your output. Put me down as a YES! Good luck on all of your interviews. With your outstanding talent and superior presence, I am sure your will land a choice position.
from pink-fairy :
Good luck with getting a job chic! I know its quite a stressful time but its good to enjoy not working for a while I promise. Your CV sounds fab, and kidneys also sound pretty hardcore so GOOD LUCK! XXXX
from skinnylizzie :
Ah, I know that you're subconsciously reaching out to me with that 'Nigel - call me' comment! We all know you can't resist my Nigel-like charm. Anyway, I hope you get that interview, kidneys are massively exciting (we have two! But can live with one! It really does boggle my brain, and I wish I was joking). And I think you should come and live in the cupboard under my stairs instead of going to Manc. It might smell a bit funny, but I do make an excellent cup of tea. Ohhhh...and to end this beast of a note, I apologise for being so distracted in those texts the other night, all of those red and yellow cards got me unnecessarily worked up xxx
from frogeye :
Don't fret at the job situation. Yeah, maybe this one is a bit more than you want, but isn't nice to know that you are being considered for such a lucrative position. You'll do just fine and will find the one that suits you best. Good luck on the medical front. One of those quacks should be able to beat the MI.
from strawberrri :
*shakes fist at mystery illness* i am really happy about your 2:1 though :)
from onlyemma :
hello lovely you, sorry you're feeling so crap right now. I wish I knew what to say, but I hope that you find out what your MI is very soon so you can be made better. It's awful knowing how down you are. Thinking of you always, Em xxxx
from theswordsman :
Hey Holly. Sorry the doctors are giving you such a runaround. I've had to learn the lesson the hard way a few times, but when times get rough, remember that things can get better if you hang in there long enough. Two years ago at this time, I was scraping by on unemployment wondering how the hell I was ever going to get a job again when I didn't have a way to get where the jobs are. Things got better. Enjoy the world cup and your friends. Get out and watch the World Cup in a pub so you can soak up the energy. Keep giving yourself things to look forward to. And keep us internet rabble posted because we worry about you too. Take care. John
from blujeans-uk :
Hey you! Many many MANY congratulations for getting your shiny 2:1. We all knew you could do it :) Wishing you lots of luck for your interview, Miss H E BSc!
from skinnylizzie :
Bonsoir, my little Hollipop! I have sneaked onto my brother's computer very quickly (a mission fraught with danger, I'm sure you'll understand) to tell you that my phone and I are going through a rough patch in our turbulent relationship, and if I don't text back to one of your messages it's because the stupid thing has refused to give me it until the NEXT DAY (sorry, residual anger). I hope you did indeed turn to alcohol, that your gran's is going okay, and I'm sorry that you think yesterday was crap. I'll keep those fingers crossed again xxx
from wombaby :
CONGRATULATIONS!!! That is very fantastic and I'm pleased for you! And also *good luck vibes* although since it's about a week since I last got on the internet and I'm not sure what day of the week it is, those may be too late. If so, I hope your interview with Dr Cho went well, at least. And again: CONGRATULATIONS!!! Can't say it enough.
from anibananie :
Hehe, I quite like its creepiness, it's almost endearing. =[) MWAHAHAHAHAA! (It's slightly better than my current favourite creepy threat: 'I'll make the Beatfreaks guy sneak into your house while you sleep and EAT YOUR FACE.' Not that I need to threaten you, just as a weird point of info...)
from skinnylizzie :
Good! No, seriously now, I hope it does go okay. And that he doesn't prod you in unnecessary places, that always seems to happen to me at the doctor's so I'm hoping you're a little more fortunate. The Lincs Show was AMAZING, but the goat tent was the best, I got far too excited over a pile of goats that fell asleep on each other, and then over goats in rugs, and then over baby goats in rugs...alas, I couldn't steal one, but I did try. And there is now a disturbing picture in my Facebook pictures of me looking alarmingly similar to a goat. xxx
from anibananie :
If only there was a letter better than a D. Curse the English alphabet! The best I could come up with was this: =[) which just looks a bit creepy and axe murderer-esque really... As it happens my day has been pretty shit but you'll be able to read my little rant about it later ;)
from skinnylizzie :
So I know I already said well done already, but I shall say it again because I'm sure you're not even remotely tired of hearing it - CONGRATULATIONS! I shall keep that joyous crackly voicemail forever in your honour (well, for the next 30 days until it gets deleted, wench 3 network). And I know I didn't say it in my text last night because I ran out of room (and spent too long trying to spell 'raucous' in predictive text), but GOOD LUCK for your interview. I shall even cross my little toes for you. It may make walking rather difficult, but you are one of my bestest buddies so I'm sure I'll manage xxx
from anibananie :
Aaw I grinned like a loon when I read you got a 2.1 :D <-- as demonstrated there. I'll be sending the gooooood vibrations - I mean good vibes for your interview!
from clairecav :
Woo for the 2:1! You big smart bean, you! Good lcuk with Dr Cho or whatever, I am sure you will do marv.
from frogeye :
Way to go Holly! Yes, all that hard work did pay off.
from randomrabbit :
Congratulations my dear. I hope you did the 'I've got a 2.1 dance'?
from pink-fairy :
COngrats! I know that happy results feeling. You deserve - make sure you spend the next week celebrating. When I got my results I couldn't stop smiling for a whole week!
from theswordsman :
Congratulations, Holly. I just KNEW that you wouldn't have to be a pigeon or something. They say good things come in threes, so you've got your 2.1, a second interview for your dream job, and next your referral doctor will write you out a prescription for a large banana split which will be a miracle cure for MI (Hey - I think I'll try that fo rmy leg!). I'm sending all positive vibes your direction, and I have high-speed Internet doing it, so there's that. Take care. John
from clairecav :
I would actually really, really love that. And here's a fingers crossed for your degree results!
from frogeye :
But SPAM is a marvelous meat (I think it can be put into the meat catagory). I'm going to try grilling it on the outdoor grill this weekend. Slice of cheese on top and away we go! Concrats on the prego-meter not registering. And be good to the old man, what's a little weed between friends?
from wombaby :
Glad you're not pregnant! Greetings and love from Singapore. Good luck with neurologist.
from blujeans-uk :
Sending good luck wishes for the results day, and I hope the neurologist appointment goes ok. Glad you had fun with Em, she's always fantastic to have around :)
from anibananie :
Lives are positively RUINED by Firefox. And due to its devilspawnity I bet it's the source of the MI. KILL IT, KIIIILL IT! Ahem, I may be getting carried away. Good luck with the results! :)
from theswordsman :
Hey Holly. Congrats on your good medical-type news over the weekend. The Reluctant Swordsman is the name of a book written by Dave Duncan. It's the first in a trilogy that has my favorite sword-figting (and practicing) characters of all time. I used it at my first diary when I was actually fencing three times a week, and it just kind of felt right. Have a great week. John
from onlyemma :
God I love you so much! Thank you for an absolutely brilliant day. As soon as I find the right words I'll write about it in my diary too. I seem to have a touch of writer's block at the mo. Love you loads and loads xxxx
from frogeye :
A bag of chips is NEVER too big! Especially with a SPAM dip. Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm SPAM!
from blujeans-uk :
Ah, no worries. The first time Mario said where he was from (waaaay back in first year when he was still going out with She-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named) I had no idea where it was either. Bah, I need to go down to Notts but sitting at home being lazy takes so much less effort... And the dogbert will reproach me if I try and persuade him to go back in his cage.
from clairecav :
I will now and try and beat your personal score of 4 metres. I probably won't be able to.
from wombaby :
Haha I recognised all the housekids except for Vicky whose name I forgot!
from the-moo :
I HATE job hunting but I LOVE reading about your "adventures" and I especially love the pictures WOOHOOO YIPEEEE etc xxx
from anibananie :
Partly why I'm choosing a Scottish one - it's 4 years instead of 3 ;) I have a feeling I'll love it, it's just getting there that's the problem...
from skinnylizzie :
Hmm, I am a little nauseated which I'm blaming my crap tea for, but other than that my day has been okay. I just had to tell you that there is a player in the German team called SCHNEIDER. Oh, happy days! xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Ha, it's not actually a fish factory, but yes, I would make you work for me. Or at least accompany me to keep my spirits high whilst surrounded by equally grumpy students also desperate for money. I hope you're having a bitchin' day, Schneid lady. And also, that is a huge amount of money you were given today, that's just sheer craziness! xxx
from frogeye :
Hey cutie. Sorry it's been so long since I've written. Not much to say, I guess. Hope you are feeling better. Loved the pics you recently posted. Any luck on the job search? The weather here has actually been quite nice, give or take a thunderstorm. This weekend the heat is supposed to creep in. Heat I can take, it's the humidity that kills me. Ta ta!
from anibananie :
Aaw I always love it when you post photos! Your house looks wonky... is it really like that? There's a wonky house (so wanted to write wanky house then) across the Lune next to a pub and I want to live there one day :)
from onlyemma :
*ON Wednesday (There was no way I could have just left that mistake there) xxx
from onlyemma :
Hello! I'm sorry you're feeling so bad, could I come and try to cheer you up in Wednesday? Don't worry about not doing much, we can just have a drink somewhere/have a meal/sit and chat somewhere. You know I'm not the most active of people so I don't mind :P love you loads, can't wait to see you! xxx
from wombaby :
*hugs* I'm sorry. And you shouldn't feel bad about whinging in your diary, though I know what you mean, but that's what a diary is for. I hope the MI buggers off soon.
from pink-fairy :
*gives you big tight breast hug - so tight that you turn blue* =)
from theswordsman :
I'm sorry my arms are too short to offer the needed hug. There's a crosswind over the Atlantic anyway, so even with longer arms I'd probably aim for you and end up hugging a stranger in London. And they've asked me to stop doing that, so oh well. Is there any chance that a chiropractor could help with your problems? I don't want to, um...oh hell. There's stuff that's none of my business. I hope the large red note gets someone's attention and the system actually does something to help you. I'm glad you had a chance to go out in the country for a while. Take care. John
from strawberrri :
Dear Holly's Mystery Illness, FUCK OFF, love me. Big hug for you though holly, *bighug*
from skinnylizzie :
Guten Tag! I'm feeling in one of those truly bizarre moods again and so leaving a note probably isn't the best way to convince you of my sanity, but oh well. I'm sorry I didn't text back again the other day, the 8th - 11th of each month is always a funny time for me because I don't know which day my phone contract counts as starting a new month...and I always go over on my texts because of it, ALWAYS. Okay, enough rambling. I can feel your gritty charm, I hope you're enjoying the beardy vibes in return! Schneid out xxx (again, it's all your fault that I've started saying that)
from clairecav :
Nooo! NOOO! I wrote 'right' instead of 'write' (AGAIN!)... and I was really, really concentrating as well!
from clairecav :
I just wanted to leave a typo-free note. HAVE I SUCCEEDED? I think I have. I'll end this here now, because the more I right the more I increase my chance of typo-ness. So hello. And goodbye.
from skinnylizzie :
Just ambled by your notes page to tell you that I love you. In a totally smutty and lesbonic way. I just went to Matalan and the Dock Tower has DISAPPEARED. I can't believe you wanted to go and see it, that memory still makes me chuckle like a loon. Can you feel my beardy vibes?! Okay, oddest note ever. Schneid out. xxx
from the-moo :
*HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGS* I wish I could still be s student but a RICH one... that would be EXCELLENT!! I miss summer the most I BLOODY hate that I don't get 3 months off anymore - instead I get like odd days here and there BIG WHOOP!! stupid world stupid work lovely you though... and YIPEEE for pics!! xxx
from wombaby :
Just to let you know, I'm thinking of you even when I'm not leaving you notes.
from randomrabbit :
I love all the songs from Dirty Dancing! I should go.
from clairecav :
Mwaha, thankyou for feeling my pain. Though how you can like Ouzo (or the DRINK OF THE DEVIL) is beyond me. It taste like buring shite.
from blujeans-uk :
Fluoxetine is Prozac, the happy happy SSRI. Not sure if you're getting it mixed up with something else. Mefenamic acid is a non-steroidal anti inflammatory, used for menorrhagia and pains. God, I wish there'd have been some questions on that, I actually know that stuff!
from theswordsman :
*Boldly go* I really don't read what I write.
from theswordsman :
Well, I can't remember EXACTLY, because I don't actually pay attention when I write - it just comes out, like drool or snot. Almost TOO much like the aforementioned. but it had something to do with me saying that since I had unexpected free time, I'd try to bravely go where no man has gone and become part of a pseudo-lesbian international Internet love triangle. "Or maybe I'll just buy another fish. Yeah, probably that one." Which is where my title for the day came from, and makes no sense since I deleted the reference. Luckily, my remaining readers exhibit great tolerance. Now remember, not a word of any of this to Zoe.
from theswordsman :
Hey Holly. Just wanted to let you know I'm rooting for you for all kinds of things. The job would be pretty amazing. In my post from last night, there was a kind of reference to you and Zoe, and oddly enough, to me, without names or anything, but for some reason I woke up at 3:15 this morning, and since neither of you had seen it, it's been deleted, so we'll never know what that said either. Good luck with everything this week. Take care. John
from theswordsman :
Yes, most of my advice is rubbish, but you should always, and rightly did, take my suggestions concerning nice beverages. Don't worry - I've deleted your note about Audrey Tautou so that there's no way Zoe will know that you were still going on about her after her objection. The secret of how sexy and beautiful and exotic you think Audrey is stops with me - no one else will ever know. Take care. John
from theswordsman :
You're right about Audrey Tautou. That last scene, when all the pressure was off, and she got playful...yum. I gues most women look better when there's no one trying to kill them, but, again, yum.
from blujeans-uk :
Congratulations and commiserations for reaching the end of your undergrad life :) A big wide shiny future awaits like a big wide shiny thing on your horizon. I'm so grateful that I could share your journey through this diary - please don't ever stop writing, the internet would indeed be a barren place without you xxx
from skinnylizzie :
You have a crush on Audrey T?! I'm devastated! After that text about lesbian smut I just sent you as well! xxx
from clairecav :
You see, YOU SEE, rockers from Finland do weird things to me!
from randomrabbit :
I feel slightly chuffed that you like Sheffield, which is odd because its not like I made it or anything. Anyway, I agree, Sheffield is indeed wondrous and Mingdom is indeed very much shit. Although I think you might have phrased it slightly better.
from the-moo :
aaaaaaaaaaaw *multiple hugs* welcome to the real world... you'll have far more money than you had in your uni years - but far less time too :( I HATED uni when I was there but I miss that my biggest responsibility then was getting home from a bar at night!! haha that's a lie I had far more responsibilities (as do you) but yeah.... you'll find you'll romanticise your time there more and more as time goes by... it's just how it works!! many many many MANY loves xxx
from clairecav :
Ooh thankyou, you're such a very nice person! I have to make this note short, because that insane Eurovision song 'Hard Rock Hallelujah" or whatever is playing and I think I might right something a bit mental.
from clairecav :
Ooh get us with our shared, brilliant(!) taste. I am demanding some kind of nice, flat-screen for Christmas because my telly depresses me. And my video doesn't even work. Retard.
from skinnylizzie :
Hmm, it would indeed warrant a big fat WOO...except my exam doesn't start for another hour! But come 4pm, it shall indeed officially be Pimms o'clock, and it will be GOOD. Schneid over and out xxx
from anibananie :
Thanks :) Poor you, up at 6am! That must suck a lot.
from theswordsman :
Time must move quickly, because I was already at the gym when you wrote that. Take care. John
from theswordsman :
I forgot to mention iut at the time, but "Oh, it's you lot again." was one of my favorite Dland opening lines ever.
from theswordsman :
I read Netscape News every day, and she's someone from the University of Sheffield that had a study mentioned there yesterday, Hope you feel better soon. John
from theswordsman :
Hi Holly. I hope you're feeling better. So you know Dr. Sharron Hinchcliff? Take care. John
from skinnylizzie :
Okay, I'm leaving my state of doom and gloom (why did I think it was a good idea to come back to Grimsby for a couple of days, why??) for a second to say SCHNEID! And that is all.
from anibananie :
Thanks :) I'm ok about it now, as I realised yesterday that it's only 17 (or 18 if they're wankers) marks lost out of a total 120. So not all is lost, thankfully! I've had exams where I thought I'd done well too only to find I did shit. It happens to us all... Hope you're well xxx
from theswordsman :
I didn't say I wasn't stalking you other ways, I was just going to leave you Facebook as sanctuary. Well done on the Nebraska guess! The guy at the website still doesn't have the code written for me to share the new map, which has the state initials and some cities marked along the route. The bad news is that up the new one, I slipped backwards from one end of the state to the other. I wrote him and told him that I knew I'd been backsliding recently, but didn't think I'd lost an entire state. Yes, pseudolesbianism is like the denim skirt - it will never go out of style in my eyes. Good luck with the revision, and I hope your legs come to their senses very soon. Take care. John
from katanabright :
Just to tell you - still pulling for you & praying for you & sending so many positive vibes your way that my forehead is actually radiating heat waves and setting off UV detectors :o) Much love your way dear H... julian
from randomrabbit :
I think I might be the slowest reader ever. Ive just spent a good hour or so reading backwards through your entries and have only just snuck in to April. Hey ho. I do very much enjoy your writing though. So anyway, hello.
from onlyemma :
Haha, oh joy of joys! I saw in Kirst's notes that you recommended Google imaging "my lesbian", so I thought I'd give it a go and it was lovely to see your smiling face pop up on the third page. It's not too bad a search word though Hol, you can get to my diary if you google "mucky bum", which has far worse connotations. Love you xxx
from theswordsman :
Hi Holly. Thanks for the note. Congrats on the presentation, I'm sure they'll be recruiting you for the talk show circuit very soon. It's good to hear that your arms are doing better - hopefully you'll be fit as a fiddle in no time. Have a great week. P.S. - I found your photo on facebook but didn't add you so as not to be all stalker-like. I only really signed up long enough a few months ago to see who the people I see at basketball games are hooked up with. And the British women's basketball player who has photos posted of her kissing cute girls. John
from onlyemma :
Aww poor you with Mr Vet. Patrick Steward is pretty cool, though according to a few drama students he's a bit of a dick and is up himself. I'd LOVE Sean Bean though! Mmm, Seen Been. I'd swap Patrick for him any day. Love you loads. Now get on with your work!! xxxxx
from onlyemma :
NO WAY! I just left myself a note by accident, when I was writing one back to you. What an idiot. I may leave it there to remind myself of what an imbecile I am. Though saying that, I may try and delete it... I'll copy and paste my note for you xxx
from onlyemma :
Thank you Hol! I would love a reading certificate! I think it would even feel better than when Patrick Steward awards me with my degree in November. Sorry about your mystery illness still being a miserable mystery. I'd let you borrow my legs if I could; not that they're particularly attractive, but they function quite well. Yesterday they let me do a handstand. Love you so much, good luck with your revision. You can do it! xxxxxx
from skinnylizzie :
I love that you've connected us on Facebook via 'hooked up in hot lesbian romp' or whatever it was...made me chuckle for a good 15 minutes. Although I'm not so sure why my friends are going to say when they see it, it's a surefire way for the lesbian rumours to start again! And revision sucks, I applaud you for finding another way to avoid it and I may just follow your lead right to the Apprentice website xxx
from blujeans-uk :
You're probably not panicking because you're too busy worrying about the fact that you're not panicking... I'm doing the same though, so you're not alone. I have an essay due in for too soon for my liking and I've only done 800 words. I keep finding other things to do (like read your journal and make stupid quizzes on that quiz your friends site thing.)I tried to find you by google imaging lesbian and you weren't there... That or I just got bored early scrolling through lots of pictures of porn actresses kissing and pride demonstrations...
from silly-moose :
Where are all the pictures of lesbians???!! And why have I missed them? xxx
from onlyemma :
Haha! I'm so glad you do that too! Do you remember when that science teacher at school (I can't remember her name) used to walk around with a smile on her face all the time, humming? At least we don't hum (much). I hope you get lots of work done today, though I am incredibly impressed with your distraction techniques. Love you loads and loads xxxx
from anibananie :
Fret not, it's 14.01 and I've done about an hour and a half of revision - huge improvement on yesterday's 30 seconds... have fun watching The Apprentice! :D
from skinnylizzie :
Just here to tell you that you rock, and you are currently my most favourite person in the whole entire world (despite loving Yorkshire!). I wish you lived closer so I could shake your hand and congratulate you on being so fabby, but alas, all I can do is leave this note of joy and pseudo lesbian smut and love. PS: Us Apprentice fans are clearly the coolest people to ever be born xxxxx
from the-moo :
HAVE. A. HUG. *HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUG* xxx
from anibananie :
Persevere with the work! If not for your sake, at least for mine... it's 12.12 and I haven't started revising yet. If you're working then it'll make me think, "Come on, Annie, you're being a lazy bastard, now LEARN THAT MEDIA! MUSH MUSH." Have a good day xxx
from strawberrri :
meh your illness clearly sucks a lot. wish i could offer some advice but i don't have any so i just thought i'd let you know i'm thinking of you :*(
from wombaby :
And thanks for your note too. :-)
from wombaby :
Oh dear Holly. I'm not quite sure what to say, but I'm thinking of you, and I hope it does either sort itself out or get sorted out soon. *sends painkillers*
from skinnylizzie :
*this is...I can't type well under pressure, apparently
from skinnylizzie :
Oh Hol, I don't like hearing about you being so under the weather, it makes me want to kick whatever on earth this in the arse, very very hard. I'm so sorry for whining on at you yesterday, I realise you're the one who needs to vent and I just clogged you up some more, I'm really sorry. Just know that I am here for you, and if you did want me to visit during your 24 hr neurological test thing I totally would, because you rock. (oh, and I did that thing on my myspace blog as well...one of the sentences was to you) xxx
from katanabright :
Pee Yess - do you still check your hotmail account? Might be -
from skinnylizzie :
Ack, a pleasant day?! I'm currently listening to the Lincoln vs Grimsby match and am vair, vair nervous. Yesterday was good though, I succeeded in fulfilling a lifelong ambition and got a message printed in the Grimsby Telegraph, hehe :). Yeah, pollen sucks, I hope your sinuses of doom aren't too bad today as the weather seems to be less summery xxx
from skinnylizzie :
God, sorry I didn't reply to your text last night, had an early night to try and get rid of the beginnings of this stupid tension headache that was threatening yesterday... Hope last night was good, although how couldn't it be with southern fried chicken in it? xxx
from frogeye :
"then it can go fuck itself" My sentiments exactly! Feel better.
from blujeans-uk :
I'm glad that's not so bad then. It might just be a post-viral fatigue type thing. Hope you feel better soon. xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Ah Holly, you know I have nothing against Sheffield (how could I, when it's home to my fellow pseudo lesbian smut maker?), it's just Yorkshire...I think I've been living in Lincolnshire too long, that's all. And I know I've already said this today, but I'll say it again: I am vair, vair glad that the bloods turned out okay, and also BOO on the NHS, it's bloody ridiculous. And I can't believe the Badger choked! Not that I got to watch it, because I was out getting drunk and had to stop myself from ringing you to see what was going on. And to end this note (as I really desperately need some sleep after last night), I've felt extremely nauseous all day which I'm claiming as sympathy pains for you. Woot, stupid note over! xxx
from wombaby :
That's a huge relief. I'll still worry until you get the all-clear from everything though, I'm just like that. Hope you feel better soon. *hugs*
from blujeans-uk :
Sending my support for tomorrow. I hope it's something easily fixable. Much love xxx
from wombaby :
Please update tomorrow morning ... like, the second you get home from the Dr's, so I can find out you're ok before I go to work! I hope you're ok. Crossing fingers.
from strawberrri :
you're in my thoughts and will be tomorrow...i think you're very brave indeed x
from frogeye :
Hoping for the best for you tomorrow. Probably a vitamin deficiency or maybe the doctor's sweet on you. You are in my prayers.
from skinnylizzie :
I shall keep my fingers crossed for you, all of tonight and tomorrow morning. Let me know how it goes or I shall be forced to get on a train down to Sheffield to check that you're okay for myself (and I'm fairly sure that a Zoe on the rampage is the last thing you need right now!). Chin up, my lovely, and don't forget to cheer on The Badger tonight :). Thinking of you, xxxxxxxx
from pink-fairy :
I want to go to Paris and pose for pictures too!
from anibananie :
Aaw I loved seeing the photos of you in Paris! It looked good. Sad about your stupid virus-but-not-virus thing. If it's any comfort if I were able to I'd visit you in hospital for your 24 confinment...! Also, rhesus monkeys! I love those guys. We had to learn about them at the beginning of Psych this year when we did attachment. Cute little buggers :) Hope you feel better soon, though I seem to have said that in every note as of late, it still stands.
from katanabright :
Hello dearest friend, glad your trip went pretty well; thanks for sharing the photos, they're lovely. Yes, the stained glass is definitely worth an ooooh aaaah; btw, was the older man behind you in line, closing his eyes and sneezing, or squinting at your bum? Oh well - I'm also wondering if maybe you're suffering from fibromyalgia and/or CFS ? Sometimes doctors don't seem to check for those, although they can be managed with several different treatment options. Anyway, praying for good things for you and hoping you won't let it worry you too much. With SO many people sending SO much love and prayers you're bound to turn out OK. And put me near the top of that list :o) - j -
from wombaby :
I hope it's nothing. I'm thinking of you.
from skinnylizzie :
Oi you, yes you! How was Paris? I would text but alas, it's that time of the month again (I mean...run out of texts time, that is) xxx
from blujeans-uk :
Hey lady, sorry you're feeling bad at the mo. But I'm glad the drive made you feel a bit better. Sending an e-hug to help you through xx
from clairecav :
I'm sorry you're feeling so un-brilliant right now but I hope you have a fab time in GAY PAREE, which I am very jealous of you visiting!
from skinnylizzie :
Mwahaha, I hope you enjoyed your SCHNEID ice cream, I sat here in Bridgeland munching on my Ben & Jerry's laughing at The Apprentice (cheerio Paul!). Do you realise that we spent an hour talking about ice cream, bridges and purple clouds?...
from anibananie :
I hope Paris does do you good. Perhaps a change of scenery will help. Hope it does xx
from wombaby :
*hugs* poor old Holly. I don't know what to say or suggest to make it better, but I certainly don't think it's stupid! I hope you wake up in the morning feeling better and that you manage to enjoy Paris.
from skinnylizzie :
Oh Hol, I don't like it when you're sad. You've got my number if you want to talk to anybody, and you know I'm always lurking on MSN if you don't fancy the phone xxx
from anibananie :
Heh. Is it slightly weird that he's now holding the mini card and is on the bannister for everyone to see...? :P And I saw the lovely comment about me in your profile, love you :D Have fun in Paris, it's gorgeous and I expect photos!
from strawberrri :
WHAT A LOVELY ENTRY! (oops, caps.) and yay paris! :)
from silly-moose :
C'est bonne, mon coeur, pas bon (sauf si tu es un mec et je le crois pas). Tu me manques. Bon voyage et dit salut a Alice pour moi. A bientot :) xxx
from theswordsman :
"Au revoir y'all"??? Must be from the South of France. I think that if you wear a beret, and you forego the stupid grins, you could pull it off. Hope you're feeling better. Take care. John P.S. Thank you for the scoop on the whole fairy/pony thing. If I should win zillions of dollars for knowing that answer on a quiz show, you can expect a nice handwritten (possibly by a servant) thank you note.
from wombaby :
I love the library too! I feel safe and somewhat less of an anti-social recluse (which is clearly what I am) when surrounded by books. Doesn't necessarily mean I do any more work though.
from clairecav :
Oh NO! I must have convinced myself that he survived, because that is obviously a nicer ending. I am quite sad now, sob.
from strawberrri :
oh you poor thing, i am sat here and wishing you good health!
from wombaby :
Yeah, I do feel a bit better today - except that I have some kind of hayfever/cold/allergic reaction to home, so I'd really like to hurt whoever sandpapered my throat. But psychologically somewhat improved, and I just discovered that I can now feed a strawberry to Hodgeheg (my little pet just under my tag-board) which has totally made my day! Hope something also makes your day. *sending something vitaminy*
from blujeans-uk :
I'm glad the docs say you're ok(ish). Now just don't go doing anything daft like developing glandular fever or post-viral Guillain-Barre... No worries about the missing note, I figured it must have been something like that (or my note had gone missing...). Look after yourself, drink plenty of fluids and all that. Luck for the revision thing. xx
from anibananie :
Hehe maybe you were thinking about peanuts when you typed that... Yes, that was sad, but I only cried at the end, oddly enough. I think that, seeing as I've had 6 dogs in total, I've become desensitised to dog death? I dunno. But whereas Joe said I was a wuss, Dad said that "I have heart" Yeah, I'm a wuss :P
from anibananie :
Glad you're ok :D And yes, I did see Dr Who! I watched on Saturday & Sunday night and I cried both times at the end. God, it's like I'll read about the most depraved and horrible murders you can imagine without batting an eyelid and then I go soppy over Dr Who. Something's wrong with me, I think...!
from wombaby :
I'm glad you have a virus (and therefore probably not something more sinister and neurological!)
from silly-moose :
Go Hol, no more LQT! Well done chicken, I shall have to read it when we live in our castle. 7 weeks till I'm home by the way :D Found me a research project in Shef too so all is good. Sorry, didn't mean to ramble on about me. What did I want to say? Oh yes, did you know Crazy American Psycho's name means surprising in French? And get better soon.....I'm sure you're just worn out from the stupid amounts of work you do and when you finish and get that first you'll be fine! I love and miss you lots. Email or something soon OK? xxxx
from blujeans-uk :
Well done for the LQT good stuff :-) I need to start writing about Malaria soon and it looks like this big mountain of work that I don't want to climb... Doesn't help that I don't have a PC at home though... I think it's just the med student in me, but I hope your symptoms don't end up being one of the conditions I had to learn about before Easter. Keep us all posted on how things go? Animal Rights activists all have a screw loose. Maybe we should test out new life-saving drugs on them instead...
from wombaby :
Hope your blood test comes out ok! Eat some chocolate ... it's got iron in it. If it's any comfort, I got told today at work that "you look like you've died and just not fallen over". *hugs*
from anibananie :
Hmm dunno if you've tried it, you probably have, but maybe you're not sleeping enough? Maybe you should set aside a day just to sleep and let your body catch up, it's not like you've had it easy lately...! Take care, hope you feel better soon.
from clairecav :
I think you have journal-related issues which you should maybe get tablets for. It's worrying. Oh and I do believe I've said this before but I am damnwell going to say it again - ANIMALS OF FARTHING WOODS ROCKS. I don't think I ever saw the last one though, when they actually reach... what was it... White Stag park, or something? So I don't know if they even did make it. The last one I seen, which was number 4 I do believe, was set in winter time and the badger nearly died. Upsetting stuff.
from the-moo :
I have a really similar photo of one of my cats and she looks JUST as cross about it!! haha *hugs* glad things with Paddy are more comfortable and even more glad (gladder haah) that you've stopped being mean to yourself *morehugs* xxx
from theswordsman :
First of all, thanks for the answers to the faery questions. I feel better equipped to navigate through my life knowing that should I be quizzed, I can respond like a champ. Students at my college LIVE on facebook. they have a hundred or more pictures each, including incriminating ones, and they link to their significant others, etc. It's like myspace on crack. They also list their addresses and everything, which I guess is okay but I don't know. Do they have their own ponies, or do they have to go searching for one when they have free time? This may be harder than I thought. It's good to have you back. John
from vanoonoo :
oops! sorry I made the messages go funny! xxx
from clairecav :
Thankyou! Not sure there was much to rock though. =D
from wombaby :
My strategy for post-slightly-alcohol-induced-indiscretions is to try to find the positive in them. Think of it as a learning experience, and think of it as a bit of fun. If there's no other plus sides occurring to you, take heart from the fact that sex is very good exercise. And no, you're not a slag. *hugs*
from pink-fairy :
Cheers for the random man! I want more! xxx
from anibananie :
Don't beat yourself up about it. Though I can't actually say I have any personal experience of what you're going through, it's completely natural and you won't find one single adult who hasn't done something like that (unless, of course, they are very religious). Hope you're ok xxx
from onlyemma :
Hol, you are beautiful and wonderful and you shouldn't beat yourself up about what happened. Though I haven't been in the situation I can sympathise with the feelings involved and trying to get over someone but finding it's not so easy to try and block them out with someone else. No one thinks any less of you, you did what you thought was right for you at the time. You are still just as amazing than you always were. I hope you start feeling better about things soon xxx
from the-moo :
*hugs* xxx
from the-moo :
Honey - I have been there done that got the t-shirt and I TOTALLY understand!! I really really do *hugs* thank you for sharing and I hope today goes well!! MUCH LOVE xxx
from the-moo :
oh no no no sweetheart don't stop writting I will miss you so much I will sit at work and cry and everyone will think I'm weird - actually they already think that but *huuuugs* email me if you can - I would never judge you or dislike you or think less of you I will only love you even stronger to make it better!!! ooh I'm so sad that you're sad you can honestly talk to me - I understand if you don't want to but if you do.. I'm RIGHT here --> [email protected] xxx
from silly-moose :
What's going on chicken? Please email me. I love you and am worried about you xxx
from anibananie :
Aaw, you poor thing. You're in my thoughts.
from wombaby :
*hugs* You can leave out what you want, just please don't stop writing, cos yours is one of the diaries that makes my heart lift a little when I see it in red. And I hope you're ok, and if not, that you will be soon.
from theswordsman :
So, did you cash in that free massage coupon? Take care, Holly. And write about what you want, and leave out what you want. At least we'll know you're okay. Take care. John
from zanks :
Hol, hoping things will get better for you soon. If there is anything I can do just let me know. Love and hugs Meg XXX
from onlyemma :
Oh Hol, I hope you're ok. I really hope you don't stop writing because if you do I'll miss you so much xxx
from strawberrri :
the hazard perception's not too bad it's just the theory crap - i have a bank of 900 questions to get through. ooh and i'd personally rather it if you didn't stop writing, but that is a bit selfish i suppose :)
from clairecav :
Here here!
from frogeye :
Stop writing? Please say this is not true. You are such a joy to read.
from anibananie :
No, you can't stop! But if you do I will begin to pester you on MSN, be forewarned...
from the-moo :
*huuuuugs* *hug* *hug* *hug* and a boat load more on top of that!! xxx
from wombaby :
NOOOOOO don't stop writing Holly! Please no!
from wombaby :
Awww. Thanks. You have just brought a smile to my face. *hugs back*
from strawberrri :
your poor thumb! :( i hate digit wounds of any kind. did you know superglue was invented to fix cuts? though i'm not suggesting you fix yourself with a tube of bostik.
from frogeye :
So sorry to hear about your damaged thumb. And yes, I did cringe while reading your entry. I tend to do that when I see or hear about cuts and scrapes that I have actually had. Last good cut was probably an unknown very sharp knife in the sink when I was washing up. I like to keep all knives sharp and stuck my hand in to clean something and ouch! Took quite a while to stop bleeding as I remember. Oh well, just another scar to add to the list of injuries. Life would be so dull without all this mishaps.
from katanabright :
Dear friend, I'm truly sorry for your 'owie', but more sad for the deep, dark red hurts you've held in for so long. If only I had magic words or a magic wand or even imported French Foo Foo Dust to sprinkle over you, to lift away those sorrowful and painful moments. It hurts to read them but thank you for sharing them; soemtimes they have to come out, you know? Yet you have not allowed them to make you bitter toward others. I salute you, and have more respect for you than you can imagine. much love your way... j
from wombaby :
I love plasters. And the smell of savlon. But peeling fingers/thumbs is a bitch, I have slightly done it before, although not to the extent of yours I think. It's gross. However you have reminded me that I have a slight scrape on my finger from cycling (it gets caught between the brake and the handlebar) so I have an excuse to put savlon on. Which I haven't done for ages due to having been self-harm free. Sorry, very random note. Hope your thumb hurts less.
from onlyemma :
You read The Time Traveler's Wife too! Did you cry? Oh how I cried, I didn't think I'd stop. I had swollen eyes the next morning and my mum looked at me and said "so the book's sad then?". My swollen eyes and glum face gave away the fact that the book isn't a barrel of laughs at the end. Anyway, I love your pics Hol, you look lovely. And your notes look excellent. It was lovely seeing your writing, it's funny how I miss that. I found one of your letters when I was at home a few days ago. We'll have to try that old pen and paper thing again. Love you loads xx
from wombaby :
Indeed. Although I have to confess, I have very little idea how my Dad's TV works ...
from katanabright :
Loved the pics - you & the cat are both strikingly lovely, you know. And about your papers and project & not remembering much of what you'd written..when Lynn was going for her Master's, I helped a bit by translating her voluminous handwritten notes and making up term papers and theses and such on the computer for her. Her biggie was almost 30 pages + the footnotes and appendices, on Congenital Diaphragmatic Hernia in NeoNates and the (then) new ECMO blood exchange treatments. Worked on it for weeks. Don't remember one syllable of it today :o) You're a delight. Best to you always...j
from wombaby :
Your Dad has the same TV (or at least the same remote control!) as mine!
from theswordsman :
Hi Holly. Congrats on finishing your paper! I think all photos of you from now on should be taking without your knowledge so that you don't have a chance to pull a face. You look lovely. Take care. John
from frogeye :
Here's a quick and easy SPAM recipe to try: SPAM Wellington: 2 cans Spam 1 can Pillsbury biscuit dough 1/2 cup brown sugar Preheat oven to 350. Place SPAM, as close together as possible on cookie sheet. Sprinkle with brown sugar. Pop Pillsbury can. Cover SPAM with dough. Mash edges of dough together with fingertips so that SPAM is not exposed. Bake for 30 minutes or until dough is golden brown. Let stand 10 minutes before carving.
from frogeye :
SPAM! Click here for the SPAM Song: http://bau2.uibk.ac.at/sg/python/Sounds/spam_song.au
from kate-lee :
Just wanted to post an observation on Caneston - have you noticed that in the advert the woman's using it in the 70's, then all of a sudden it's 30 years later and she's still using it? They're blatantly admitting that it doesn't work!
from frogeye :
Wonderful entry today. I especially liked your foreign language lessen at the end. Didn't understand a word of it, but, I'm an idiot anyway. But don't you agree that a delay in cardiac repolarization creates an electrophysiological environment that favors the development of cardiac arrhythmias. A delay in ventricular repolarization can be measured as prolongation of the interval between Q and T waves on the electrocardiogram (ECG) (normal interval is typically < 440 ms). Have a great day!
from frogeye :
Not real food? SPAM is the essence of life. Mother's milk if it was a liquid. In this case mother's musch, but none the less a member of some food group. In fact, I'm making a SPAM Parma...something for Easter. SPAM, SPAM, SPAM..........
from the-moo :
*hands you massive fatfreecaloriefree choclate bar* there you go.. maybe that will lift your spirits.. oh and *hugs* xxx
from the-moo :
I have biiiiiiiiiiig love for you also *mutual big love* xxx
from frogeye :
SPAM = The supreme food!
from the-moo :
gorgeous on a stick?? that made me die of happiness oh lovely misled friend who I love *huuuuuuuugs* hehe xxx
from theswordsman :
I left the previous one to myself as well. I didn't win Powerball last night, but neither did anyone else, so now I need to take from my tiny pile of cash and play two different lotteries that are both up around two hundred mil - we potentially wealthy folk call them "mil" to show that we're really very casual about the whole thing. Would it be too embarrassing if I buy my lotto tickets with small change? Thank you for the invitation. I'm designing a new workout regimen today and will be certain to give bounding the proper attention.
from theswordsman :
Don't just say that if it's not true- I also have a crazy Scottish accent, but I'm not sure I can do it while I'm bounding. Sadly, I'm not the bounder I used to be, but it's on my list of things to improve. I used to be known as quite the bounder back in the day.
from theswordsman :
You don't like my Mexican accent? :(
from wombaby :
I remember when Cif was called Jif. In my head, it still is.
from theswordsman :
Okay, if I win Powerball tonight, you receive both a falabella and a massage. It's up to you if I make arrangements for them or deliver both myself. Have a great weekend. John
from anibananie :
Aaw, thanks for the note, it was very much appriciated :) I think she just gets moods sometimes, thankfully it seems to have passed. For now... *spooky music*
from skinnylizzie :
Sitting is GOOD! I've been doing a lot of it since Monday...my legs are still crippled. I wobble like Bambi whenever I stand up. Still can't believe I managed to get lost, that'll teach me. Ooh, and don't worry about your email, I have no objections to receiving them. I'll reply to it tomorrow xxx
from wombaby :
I think it's cool that you can play Cannonball :-)
from frogeye :
I, for one, really enjoy all of your entries. They all show that you are a real person with real feelings. As for crap moods, don't we all have them?
from katanabright :
Please, dear friend, no more apologies - we love you, love reading your stuff; love knowing what's going on. I USED to love playing my Yamaha nylon strung, but sold it some time ago for some much needed income, so yes, your guitar musings are good, too. So just hold on, it's gonna be good, you wait & see. Oh - and check your email, holly leaf. best to you, j
from strawberrri :
i'm so tired that i can only think of the cannonball song as going 'and after all you float like a cannonball'. nice song though (the right version) :) thanks for your note. i hope we work stuff out. pretty much every day we're either with each other, texting a lot, emailing loads from work or on the phone in the evening...it's just too much time spent with one person...
from blujeans-uk :
I'm sorry you feel crummy again. You're lovely, it's the Pad-man who has the problem, not you. He's probably just afraid that your wonderfulness will make him look rubbish by comparison. I was thinking, since you're in Manchester, do you want to come over to Liverpool for a day or something? It's not all Scallies and Lacoste tracksuits...
from katanabright :
Hey, now - we are all going to make one big, collective, Roman chorus of an "Awwwww..." and then your most humble servant ( moi) will point out that - you do NOT suck, are NOT pathetic, and you are SOOOOOO loved by SOOO many of us...I know, it's not the same, I do know that. And I recall, even through the mists of time, that personal hurts are so much more painful in the earlier years. But believe me - believe ALL of us! - that it does pass, it does get better, and NO ONE is worth you suffering so much. Really. If a man can't appreciate you, then he is not deserving of you...and better to learn it now, than after investing more of your life in a dead-end relationship. Chin up, eh? And since I didn't find an email addy for you, I will actually re-post a true, if boring, story of my own, about a failed relationship which took me almost a year to spring back from...just so you know that we really DO recover and move into something far, far better! Love and hugs to you...j
from theswordsman :
You're special.
from anibananie :
I wish, I wish, I wish there was some way I could help.
from frogeye :
You are a wonderful person. Don't let one relationship get you down so much.
from wombaby :
*hugs* Paddy doesn't know what he's missing!
from skinnylizzie :
Ha, unfortunately for you I am indeed a real person (I can't lie to save my life), but anyway...the fish catching shall be joyous. I am indeed mentally preparing myself for it now (there was a bit in the paper last week about a 60 year old GIANT halibut being caught locally, I'm hoping for that kind of thing)
from wombaby :
Hmm, afaik they are entitled to a carer to come in to get Dad up in the mornings and put him to bed at nights but have refused this - not sure if I just heard that somewhere or if it's fact. The speech therapist, physiotherapist and neuronurse all make fairly regular house visits, and they also have a visitor from the MNDA. Any help?
from theswordsman :
If i win the lottery, one of the adorable animals I need to buy is a fainting goat she's going to call Bert. Now you suspect a dwarf named Bertie...coincidence? The movie I went to this afternoon should just be ending now, and I've been home for over an hour. Otherwise, it's been okay. I went to the restaurant and had a nice chat with one of the girls about her fiance, her parents pending divorce, etc. She's got a sense of humor about it all. I'm just trying to psyche myself up to go to one gym or another and then become an Accounting student for 28 more hours. Have a great trip tomorrow. John
from theswordsman :
Wow, you and Zoe together in person. makes me wish I had BBC America because something newsworthy is bound to happen. Have a great time, and please let me know if she turns out to be purely fictional. I'll probably ask the same of her.Take care. John
from wombaby :
If you want to know anything about MND from first-hand observation ... let me know :-)
from strawberrri :
how exciting about tomorrow! hope you two scamps have a good time and don't get up to too much mischief. also, cake is quite a nice thing to daydream about.
from skinnylizzie :
!!!!! - that is all I have to say on that matter!
from skinnylizzie :
HA, I laughed so much at that, a little bit of wee might have come out (I'm clearly not as hardcore as you). Just let me know what time and I shall be there, with my mad hair and stupid brain in tow...
from skinnylizzie :
It is absolutely up to you! I'm free on Monday (depressingly free, actually), so it's fine by me. And who wouldn't want to visit la belle GY?! I understand your overwhelming excitement on the matter. I'm really, honestly fine with whenever you want to show up. Just let me know what time you want me to show up at the station and I shall be there (because as nice as Grimsby pretends to be, I'd still not let anybody arrive here on their own)
from skinnylizzie :
Ooh, and Waltham is a crappy suburb of Grimsby. The only thing worth seeing there is the windmill, and even that gets boring after 5 seconds (bet you feel enriched now!)
from skinnylizzie :
That was an impressively long note! Well, I am free most days except Fridays and Saturdays, and I am quite happy to jump on the train to Sheffield if you are violently opposed to breathing in the fishy air in ye olde Grimsby Town (have no idea why they call it that on the train...officially its full name is Great Grimsby (!), I think N.E. Lincs council just want a finger in every pie). I shall leave the day to you seeing as you seem to be busier than I could ever be! But yes, it is indeed the only fun event on my very tiny horizon too! Well, that and stalking my future footballing husband tomorrow afternoon, of course... xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Ack, I always get IDed at Lloyds, they're MEAN there! Talking of which, I got IDed in the pub last night which was fair enough, but then the woman said to me and my friend 'this isn't a bloody youth hostel, if you want to sit here you have to buy a drink' - just because we hadn't got round to going up to the bar yet! So there you go, avoid the King's Head in Waltham at all costs. ANYWAY, I'm vair sorry for not texting you back the other day, I have indeed gone well over on my stupid free texts again and I have another week left to cope...and going to sleep wasn't rude of you because I took an absolute age to reply to the last one! (mainly because I was leaping around my room dancing to Madonna, fool that I am). Hmm, long note...sorry about that xxx
from the-moo :
we have a "bar one" at our uni too... how odd!! haha anyway HI *Waves* and have a hug *hug* xxx
from theswordsman :
I had to - I run a disclaimer that says that no animals are harmed in the process of making this diary...
from theswordsman :
First of all, it wasn't an attempt at a joke, it was an actual joke. My best friend's brother told it to us out on the tennis court not long after Viagra came out. There was much laughter. Hah! It's ten after five, and I just got BACK from the gym. Time do do some Accounting and figure out my future.
from theswordsman :
Did you hear about the trucklaod of Viagra being hijacked last week???...........................Police are searching for a band of hardened criminals.........barump bump.
from frogeye :
Sorry to hear about you and Paddy. But sometimes, what is broken is broken and it's better to remember it as it was at its best, rather than mend it and see the broken places forever.
from clairecav :
A belated Happy Birthday!!!
from skinnylizzie :
Apologies for the oddness below me. I blame the Bran Flakes I ate earlier. Anything with that much fibre in can't be good for the brain
from skinnylizzie :
Yo, fellow worm-lover! How does it feel to have my beardy, fishy vibes radiating at you from a much closer distance? I checked the distance between Grimsby and Sheffield on a map and it's nothing! It amazes me every time (simple things...). So yes, I think our joyous cup of tea should occur soon. Preferably whilst I still have money. And I'm really glad you had a nice birthday in the end! I'm looking forward to seeing what your shiny new camera can do... xxx
from anibananie :
Happy biiiirthdaaay toooo yoooou! My gosh, you're all grown up. How scary. But mmm, bagel. Good snack choice.
from pink-fairy :
Belated birthday wishes. I would have streaked had I known sooner =)
from katanabright :
Hello dear friend, sorry I'm a bit late but Happy Happy Birthday, Hippo Hippo Birdie and a thousand wishes for this to be a better year for you than the last. May your heart grow strong and your joy be great. All my best to you.
from wombaby :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Whoo.
from theswordsman :
Hi Holly. Happy Birthday! You're old enough to have a drink in America now, but since you're not here and I don't want it to spoil, I'll drink it in your honur cause that's the kind of friend that I am. Have a great year. John
from frogeye :
Hey Holly. Haven't been around much lately. Thanks for the note. Have a wonderful birthday tomorrow. Have to catch up on my reading. How's your bluegrass coming along? Have you tried Arkansas Traveler?
from strawberrri :
sorry it's a bit early but happy birthday for tomorrow! i loved your recycling comments - so frank and unpretentious :) x
from wombaby :
Yes, oddly enough it does rather :-)
from vanoonoo :
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from skinnylizzie :
Holly, you are as mad as a badger. And I say that with all of the love in my heart. When I got your note I was simultaneously trying to pack up all of my worldly goods and also managing to burn bacon, that is how good I am at multi-tasking! And alas, I do indeed remember that song. Never mind, we can be cool kids together. Dammit, when are we having our joyous cup of tea? I want to show you my worm! (OO-ER MISSUS) xxx
from wombaby :
Lol shhh! That was supposed to be a secret ... I don't stalk most people ... um ...
from tishandpish :
I wanted to say something supportive but it turns out I have nothing. Ill have to settle for saying hello and giving you my love.
from wombaby :
By the way the 50 page views from UEA you'll have this morning are just my procrastination, not some weird stalker. Or you might think I'm a weird stalker, I don't know ...
from vanoonoo :
jsut htought you could do with a grin - I was happy you're bck here writing but obv sad that you're hurting.
from wombaby :
YOU DON'T LIKE MARMITE! Oh no Holly, how can you not like marmite?! I just read over my last note, by the way, and where it says "to being with" I meant "to begin with". Just shifted a letter. Anyway. Spring has begun so go find yourself an ice cream van :-) *hugs*
from the-moo :
I wish a hug would make it better *hugs* it's so unfair that you're sad and it makes me cross STUPID PADDY!! WHY THE HELL CAN'T HE SEE WHAT HE'S LOSING?? boys are stupid you mark my words the second he thinks you're over him he'll be crying on your doorstep and declaring his eternal undying love and saying he loved you all along and I will kick him in the head and say "I COULD HAVE TOLD YOU THAT" haha oh sweetie *hugs* xxx
from vanoonoo :
:D
from blujeans-uk :
Ah, the irony... Nope, I too shall be home on Sunday, enjoying a sunday roast for the first time in months... I think the Sheffield fencing idea was a good one in theory but the fates have decreed it not to be... I may just come for the hell of it when I don't have so much work on. Hope you're ok xx
from strawberrri :
my old housemate and good friend tori didn't like bread (and consequently pizza!!), pasta, and salt and vinegar crisps. she did like rice though. and bernard matthew's turkey drummers. i think you should make hannah LEARN to like bread. lock her in that cupboard thing with a loaf of bread. open said cupboard in one week. it'll work, trust me :)
from blujeans-uk :
I hope today went ok. Friends willing to buy you chocolate ice cream and a drink are always good, so hopefully someone will. If not, I send virtual icecream and virtual alcofrolicy goodness. If you're in Sheffield this weekend, we will be fencing at the EIS (?IES?) if you want to say hello. Look after yourself xxx
from wombaby :
Good luck smiling tomorrow! I don't always like bread; when it's mouldy or stale and was extremely cheap processed sliced crap to being with it's not that fabulous. But generally toasting it and covering it with something acceptable tasting does the trick (unless it's actually mouldy then I usually throw it away). Freshly made, home-baked bread, however, with margarine and vegemite or marmite on it ... mmm mmm. Which side of the marmite poll were you on? I may have just said something really terrible. And dark chocolate contains iron, right? I bloody hope so cos I've just eaten half a bar.
from clairecav :
I was going to send you a 'Sorry things haven't worked out...' note but thought you'd probably be getting enough of those, so was trying to wait for something cheerful to note you about. But um, all I can come up with is I think 28 Days Later is a FABULOUS film and I think Cillian Murphy is a right Sexy Beast. Which is actually really, really pathetic on cheerfulness. Oh well, *high 5!*
from theswordsman :
You're quite welcome. Sorry I've been out of touch. As a guy who once gave away a trip to Ireland I'd paid for to avoid four days of more intense agony so I could suffer in peace, I can tell you that the most important thing is to look forward, not backwards, and to know that there are lots of guys who will show an interest in you if you give them the chance. Talking to a variety of people is a good thing - it doesn't all have to be about the future. That's way too much unrequested advice. Take care. Go visit the ducks. Get cleaned up and dressed up and head out the door. John
from katanabright :
03.08.06 - wish I had "Magick Words" or something to help you feel better. All I can do is send warm hugs and loving thoughts your way. You really are terrific, you know? :o) all my best - julian
from zanks :
Sorry things didn't work out the way you wanted but I'm so impressed how brave you were to let him know to begin with and I'm even more impressed at how you've handled it. I'm so proud of you. Love and Hugs Meg XXXX
from strawberrri :
wish things had turned out the way you wanted, but you can and you WILL move on and get over him...you deserve great things xx
from vanoonoo :
you may never meet someone BETTER, but you will sure as hell meet someone DIFFERENT. thats the key. or you'll both change enough that you can adjust in whatever way proves to be right. I am so so sorry that you are angry and sad and hurting xxx
from theswordsman :
I hate to ask, but are you 100% sure that he's into women?
from theswordsman :
I'm sorry you've been going through all of this. Knowing is actually better - at least the healing process can start. From way too much past experience I know that alcohol helps. You're really special, and once you give the rest of the guys in the world a shot at you, someone wonderful will step forward. Maybe you've been a bit like a fallabella with blinders on (little, tiny blinders). Maybe there are guys out there that you haven't noticed. And I've always felt that the best revenge a woman can get is looking her best. Take care, Holly. John
from onlyemma :
Love you Hol. You're amazing, I'm so proud of your bravery. I'm sorry it didn't work out how you wanted, but just remember that so many people love you and now you know, things can only get better because you're not wondering anymore. Even though it must hurt now, you did the right thing xxx
from vanoonoo :
arse *hugs* too
from wombaby :
*hugs*
from strawberrri :
fingers crossed for you :)
from skinnylizzie :
Firstly, WHOOP and WOO, thank you for the birthday wishes! Secondly, I hope that putting it down on paper has helped you somewhat, because I don't like to see or hear that you're sad, it makes me all sad too. I have tomorrow off as well so if you want to talk to anybody after the deed is done, I'll be kicking around all day. It's a brave thing that you've done, but I also have a gut feeling (me and my damn gut) that it's a good thing too. Wuv you (my, I hope that wasn't too soppy for our emotional retard gene!) xxx
from the-moo :
*hugs* aaaw I know I hate the WAITING in situations like this I get all shakey (like ACTUALLY physically shakey) and feel really sick and teary and on edge!! tomorrow is friday and it will be a GREAT day whatever happens because it will be the start of a new chapter!!! I'm here if you need to rant or anything my inbox loves company!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from the-moo :
aaaaaaaw yaaay *hugs* you changed my profile comment how exciting!! *loveS* xxx
from the-moo :
THAT WAS FABULOUS!! it is totally the right thing to do either way... and just so you know.. if you wrote me a letter like that.. I'd drop instantly at your feet!!! *hugs* you don't need luck but I will wish you love!!! xxx
from pink-fairy :
Reminds me of one of the many dilemmas I was in during my first year. My head is screaming don't give it him. My heart is screaming give it him. Good luck whatever you decide xxxxxx
from anibananie :
Aaw, what a letter. If he doesn't like you he's a fool. Huge luck, thinking of you x
from vanoonoo :
great letter - is he the sort of person that will get in touch or do you need to ask him to actually let you know by a certain time type thing? best of luck sweetie x
from wombaby :
Lol, I *always* need hugs! thank you :-)
from wombaby :
Good luck with the letter! I read it and went *awww* at the end. And also I think that's a very brave thing to do. I really hope he feels the same way.
from wombaby :
*hugs* my poor old Holly. It'll get better. One of these days.
from vanoonoo :
just didnt want you to think I was odd for looking forward to the traumatic entry. I know you are too scared to confront paddy but if you dont - nothing will ever be resolved. and you know you know this, I know you know this, and its all just blah blah blah. so, how about you set yourself a deadline to "deal" with it. or. have you talked to him about whats going to happen after your finals? is the "worst case scenario" worse than the miserableness you feel on occasion at the moment? thats a genuine question btw - not a trick to make you double think! above all, do not screw up your finals over this. and your friend with the now deceased alcoholic mother needs to really approach his course tutor for guidance. he may be able to defer for yet another year and pick up again in september with this years grades carrying forward for the ones he did ok in and the others being done part time til the following semester. or something. maybe?
from onlyemma :
I see the Murder She Wrote bug is catching! It definitely does have the best theme tune ever. Thank you for the internet hug earlier, it was just what I needed :) I'm sending one back to you too (no charge for p&p). Love you loads xxx
from anibananie :
Aaw, poor Hol. Good luck with whatever you need to do, you deserve every happiness and hopefully you'll get it soon.
from the-moo :
aaaaaw I wish I could say something to fix all of this or DO something or just.. I HATE that you're sadbecuase you're so sweet and so kind to everyone!!!! *hugs* if you ever want to offload PLEASE come and find me!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from anibananie :
I neglected to mention it's volume 2 I got... so unfortunately I can't listen to the track you said :( When I have more money I may go and get volume one, but right now I have to manually type in all the tracks as Windows Media is a bitch and doesn't recognise it (what is the world coming to eh), so I am going to be kept busy methinks... And thanks about the results :D
from vanoonoo :
OMg - what a palava for ya - thinking of you and oddly, looking forward to your next entry - sorry if that is weird x
from strawberrri :
i escaped plagiarism accusations by footnoting everything i took from books but did not understand...just about worked! you're a good friend and if hannah doesn't know that then she smells, of wee AND poo!
from strawberrri :
thanks, unfortunately the cranberry tablets don't taste like the delicious sweets i'd anticipated, very disappointing...that last lab session song is genius :) DOO BE DOO!
from wombaby :
We're playing Night on a Bare Mountain in orchestra. Also The Kiev Gate (or The Gate of Kiev, something like that, I've only been to about three rehearsals ...) by Mussorsky too.
from the-moo :
thank you for taking my survey and for enjoying it and... just for being you and bring your own brand of warmth all the pages you visit!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from pink-fairy :
I love the YMCA hat pic! :) made me chuckle xxx
from the-moo :
*huuuuuuuuuugs* for the angst and *cheeeeers* for the photos!! woohoo xxx
from vanoonoo :
is there really no way you can talk to Paddy about your feelings sweetie? x
from skinnylizzie :
Oh no, I haven't long realised I had a note from you - I'm so sorry, I was at the union tonight until not that long ago. If you want to whine to me tomorrow then please feel free, you know I'll listen to it xxx
from lexikahn :
I like the word "trawl."
from anibananie :
Thankee :) I think all I need is a hug really but do I get one? Do I balls. Just remembered about my frees so I've decided I'll do my work then, so I feel a bit better now.
from silly-moose :
You could cry on me instead...you went away from the internet! Where are you these days. Love and miss you chicken egg. Send me a fun email or something soon. xxx
from the-moo :
hehe thank you.. sending and abundance of creepy internet hugs back to you too lovely one xxx
from the-moo :
aaaaaaw you can cry on me if you like.. I mean it'll be internet crying but I have a very cosy shoulder from all the pie eating and not being active that my life is full of!! hehe lovelovelove xxx
from clairecav :
Ooh thanks, dearie pops. And yeah, I forgot to say congrats for the 2:1. I don't really know what that means but I gather from uni-types that it's good!
from theswordsman :
ARE there mafioso named Holly? Not that you aren't up to the job or anything, I was just wondering if you were going to use a criminal alias like Stiletto or Heather. Enjoy the PARTAY and let off a bit of steam. God, I wish I could. And my program has turned me into a much worse student. I can't understand one-sentence assignments from my teacher. We have to do things that we haven't been taught and aren't in either of our textbooks, and we have stupid deadlines. I was supposed to have something e-mailed by 8 am Friday but didn't know it, then something again by 8 last night, and something else by midnight, another e-mail of something I'm clueless about by 4 this afternoon, and something else by sometime this evening. I'm great in class, but when I try to figure out the homework it takes hours and makes me want to cry, and I just don't cry. So taking a weekend off in your final year isn't a big deal. For the good of the Internet world, go ahead and delete this nonsense once read. Enjoy tomorrow. John
from the-moo :
hehehe If it had been my car I would totally have appriciated the "woooo" ahaha and you're a perfect student.. thats what your student years are for!! haha I worked my ARSE off in third year and it did NOTHING for helping me get a job *bitter bitter* haha ALSO.... I'm so sorry you've been worried and sad and that you would have to cry.. but sometimes it's good to cry.. the tears give your eyes a good wash and make it easier to see more clearly!! Hope you have a lovely birthday and PARTAY!! etc xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
from the-moo :
you're lovely... so so so lovely and you don't even know it!! *huuugs* I creepy internet love you and I hope you had fun in primark xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Ooh, it would be freaky deaky...and you would have to hear my BAD voice. And see the bad eyebrows. I think the wee Christine is coming as well and I'm not entirely sure of the situation at the moment (I should really find out what me and Christine are meant to do whilst Laura visits the other half...!), but you shall definitely be getting a text when I am in Hollyland. And I demand that you come up north too
from skinnylizzie :
Ack, guess where I'll be tomorrow?! Oh yeah, la belle SHEFFIELD! Forget coming to the north baby, the north's coming to you! Hurrah! (Laura's going to see her boyfriend for the day and we're trekking down with her because we are cool kids)
from baoshi :
*inhales sharply whilst jumping with glee and waggling hands around like a children's tv presenter* I LOOOOOOVE moments!!!!!! Moments are what life is all about baby! Enjoy it, and take it as a VERY GOOD THING! People don't usually feel "moments" unless the other person is feeling it too, (something I have recently come to realise), get in!!! Have fun *hugs* gem xx
from zanks :
Congratulations on your results Hol! Am well proud of you! Love Meg XXX
from skinnylizzie :
I believe there may well have been a 'I'm in a boy's house...NOT IN THAT WAY!'. I might have to transcribe it for your benefit. Still makes me laugh, even now xxx
from theswordsman :
Congrats, Holly. So, why don't you find the sexiest Mystery costume you can, get your hair all shiny, have a few drinks, and let the evening bring what it will bring? Tempered of course by the fact that the advice was given by a guy with no love life whatsoever. Hmmm. Be happy. John
from baoshi :
Congratulations angel!! Fantastic news!! A 2:1 overall for these exams is something to be VERY proud of!! Enjoy yourself, *hugs* gem xx
from wombaby :
Fantastic! I'm so pleased :-D I shall now wear a big grin on my face (and totally confuse my housemates by looking all happy)
from strawberrri :
well well well done! i did laugh at this though 'but at the time it made me do a wee' before realising that wasn't where the sentence ended :)
from wombaby :
*hugs* go out and have a bloody good time tonight. You sound like you could do with it. I am sending loads of sympathy your way.
from the-moo :
*huuugs* xxx
from wombaby :
Bloody hell, that bugs *me* - you must be climbing the walls!!
from wombaby :
Please Holly, please please end the suspense. I'm struggling to work with my fingers crossed!
from kate-lee :
Just found your diary through someone elses profile and will now be adding me to your favourites. I really love how you write xx
from wombaby :
I so so so hope you get that 2:1!!
from anibananie :
I, too, quite fancy Simon Pegg. It's rather worrying. But you're right, he DOES look like he'd give great hugs! Much luck for tomorrow, I'm sure you'll have done great. And like you said, you'll have Paddy with you so that's one good thing :) Aaw, you and Paddy... so cute.
from onlyemma :
Thank you for my note! I love getting notes, though they are quite sparse these days, but I suppose that's why they bring so much joy when I do get them! Good luck with your results tomorrow, I have faith that your hard work has paid off. I'll e-mail soon. Em xxx P.S. There's hardly a need to say it because I'm sure you know, but you're so lovely too. So, so lovely :)
from wombaby :
*sends huge hug*. And thanks for your note.
from pink-fairy :
the diet coke cancels out the dairy milk! :)
from frogeye :
Couldn't sneak in a tiny hypno? I've lost my skill(never had it anyway). Will remember to stear clear of the rainbow coalition stringed instrument.
from frogeye :
I like the way you titled your entry to coincide with your meeting Paddy in the rain. Eye of newt............
from frogeye :
The hat, the CD, the gay guitar. It all makes sense now.
from theswordsman :
Sorry I intruded last night - I should have known you had other things going on. Have you heard any more about the job? Take care. John
from wombaby :
You're welcome.
from theswordsman :
Thanks - I can rest easy now. And I'm impressed that it didn't phase you in the slightest that I randomly thought about your boobs while driving home from the supermarket. Have a great week. Good luck with the job thing. John
from theswordsman :
You CLAIM to be all share-happy. I wsa driving home from the store earlier, and I remembered back to when your boobs started myesteriously shrinking, and you promised to keep us updated about the situation. Not a word on the subject since. And didn't the "major Hollydays" remark even make you smirk or something???
from wombaby :
There's nothing wrong with lesbianism! :-D
from theswordsman :
The good fortune was mine, and you've now sucked up sufficiently to have earned a symptom-free fallabella when the time comes.
from theswordsman :
People read mine and they think I'm a nice guy who gets occasional threats from adorable British women. Actually, my Notes section is so interesting I don't know why people bother with the diary rubbish.
from theswordsman :
Okay, you've talked your way out of the flatulence, and I think people's reaction to that statement should be enough to get rid of the bladder control problem as well.
from theswordsman :
So, in the past few days you've hit me with "damn you," "I dare you," and "I'm gonna kick your ass." Keep it up and I'm giving you a cute, affectionate fallabella with a bladder control problem and flatulence. Have a nice day.
from theswordsman :
I saw your note over at the girl's page. I think I'll form a group called Catholics in support of Pseudo Lesbian Smut. And I apologise in advance for the Google hits this note will bring you. Hope you're feeling better. John
from skinnylizzie :
God, I'm sorry, I've left MORE lesbian smut on your notes page! I dread to think what your other note-leavers might think of me now
from skinnylizzie :
Wow, go you vis-a-vis the research job! I really hope you get it, I'll keep all my fingers and toes crossed for you. And don't fight the lesbianism, it just upsets me when you try to spurn me and my pseudo-lesbian affections ;) xx
from theswordsman :
Okay, then. I suppose some things just shouldn't be joked about. Good luck with the job, if it's the one you want. Have a great rest of the weekend. (Let me double-check - no nothing here I might pay for in the future). John
from theswordsman :
So, I win the Powerball drawing and hand deliver to you a wonderful brown and white fallabella. You, rather lazily, I think, name it Maria. You don't want to share with the other housekids, so you keep it hidden in your room when you can't sneak it outside. One evening one of the housemates suspects that there's fun being had without her in one of the rooms of the house. She happens down your hallway just as Maria whinnys. The house kid thinks that you're singing some new avant garde tune, but that your voise isn't as melodious as usual. She calls into you - "Holly, is there something wrong with your voice?" You respond, "no, it's just a little horse..." Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha hahahahahahahahahahahahaha. You've gotta love fallabella humour. Cheers. John
from theswordsman :
Because I celebrate ALL the major Hollydays:)
from theswordsman :
Actually, the pictures you've seen of me were from seven years ago, so maybe I don't need the wig? Remember, my barber didn't show up the other night. Quite possibly from fear. I'm now trying to win $365 million in Powerball, and seem to have avoided your question once again.
from theswordsman :
Yep, a classic film. And I actually have the same outfit he's wearing.........................Okay, I don't, but when i lose weight I'm straight away to the Swordfighter Clothing Shoppe. Take care. John
from theswordsman :
So when exactly is your birthday???
from frogeye :
Long QT. Can we package this crap and assail our enemies? Maybe in an envelope that says; "Hi, I have a present for you!" Kind of like a spam-o-gram, but in real life. Of course, I jest. So much to learn in this life and so little time to learn it. Good luck on you paper.
from frogeye :
Ah yes, the potassium channel Long QT syndrome and the sodium channel. Each can kill you in their own little way. Hooray for mutations! Not that I really know anything about these things, but I did look them up after you mentioned your project.
from skinnylizzie :
Don't fight the pseudo-lesbian way, Holly, you know its charm will get you in the end ;). Crap on a stick, I meant to send you a message the other evening and just realised I never did it. My beardy self has been hoping that things will pick up for both you and Rich soon, I don't like it when you're sad. My course friend Stacey was going through the inbox on my phone yesterday and when she came across a message from you, she went into a state of utter delight about how much she liked your name and how she was going to change hers to it. Little things... :)
from theswordsman :
Oh, by the way - I know you had at least one funny looking link in your stats because I tested it myself. When I wrote my Monday entry, I originally said, "I don't know if anyone else read the entire 6200 word besides the lovely, adorable, and musical buffylass (Link)...Another reader left me a note saying that she had read them all...you can read it for yourself. Anyway, she seemed upset that you had been the only one mentioned when you had so obviously cheated by leaving me a note or something. I changed the entry and noted her that you had been responding to a note from me and had just tossed in the compliment as an add-on. Sometimes life is too hard for me. Friday night I drink sangria. Cheers. John
from theswordsman :
Still five minutes left your time - Happy Valentines Day, Holly. John
from frogeye :
This day is passing amazingly slow. I was thinking of relocating three time zones back, just so it would be over already. Or move to Australia where it would be tomorrow. Where's old Einstein when I need him?
from frogeye :
Don't feel bad for having sad feelings. You had sad times also. Stay strong as I know you can.
from strawberrri :
thanks! i spent a grand total of five minutes on it, was having a very apathetic day. i miss being this lazy...
from anibananie :
You're far from selfish, you're one of the most selfless people I have had the good grace to meet. You're being a wonderful friend to Rich right now and I guess all you can do is keep going. If I could I'd lend you Phoebe for the day, she's helping me feel better right now!
from pink-fairy :
Your in my thoughts honey, I hope your gran will be ok.
from frogeye :
Rich is lucky to have a friend like you.
from theswordsman :
Hi Holly. Sorry you had to have another of those weekends. Your gran is in my prayers, as are you. Take care. John
from the-moo :
you are definatly not less important than him I love you for so selflessly wanting to hide and repress your feelings though!! He is so very lucky to have a friend like you and I hope he knows that!! If I can help YOU at all (because I totally don't have a problem with you talking about you or him or both) come and find me!!! *huuuuugs* if not.. know that I am praying and happy thoughting my ass off for you!! xxx
from strawberrri :
*hugs*
from katanabright :
02.11.2006 - Hi - just to say, will be praying for Rich & his fam. My Dad was an alcoholic too, which is what killed him; when he was not drinking he was very kind, unbelievably generous, and had a genius level IQ; when he was drunk he was someone else. And don't think that Rich's suffering, or anyone else's, negates or minimalizes the reality of your own suffering. Write what you feel and know that there are countless of us here who care about whatever touches your life. So, keeping you & your Grandmother in my thoughts too. all the best, j
from wombaby :
*hugs* you're important too, and you have a right to feel bad (or good) if that's how you feel. And from reading your diary, you seem like a fantastic friend. So I'm sure you are.
from anibananie :
Alcoholism is crappy. My dad's dad drank himself to death, leaving behind 8 children (to 2 different women). I feel bad for you and Rich right now, it's not a good thing to deal with :(
from frogeye :
Hooray! "Brits for Bluegrass". I think you should start a movement. Don't despire, I've had to explain what bluegras is to several people. My favorites are the more traditional players, David Bromberg, Norman Blake (fantastic guitar), Bill Monroe, Lester Flatt, Earl Scruggs. Don't you just love "Dueling Banjos"! Last night I downloaded a ton of Nickel Creek for my MP3 player. Nice sound they have. I'm partial to finger picking, but I do well at flatpicking also. Never really tried on an electric though. Ever try flatpicking on a 12 string? Excellent sound. Go here for some midi tunes: http://absastro.tripod.com/bluegrass/dueling2.htm. Keep on picking!
from clairecav :
Ooh, that wonder that was Blazin' Squad's "Flip reverse", they just don't make 'em like that anymore! I hope your gran's going to be okay, I'm *sure* she will be (looking into my crystal ball, and all that). Adios!
from wombaby :
*hugs* sorry about your gran.
from frogeye :
From what I hear Nickel Creek is a very nice sounding country/bluegrass band. My favorite genre. Get dad to break out the mandolin! Hope you enjoy the show.
from skinnylizzie :
Well, I shall think positive thoughts vis-a-vis your gran because it's the least you deserve, especially after keeping me amused for a while on my hideously boring train journey earlier. Oho, I am back in the fishiest land of them all and I am sending you beardy vibes; can you feel them? CAN YOU?! (my, this was an odd note...)
from frogeye :
Maria....., I just met a guitar named Maria. And suddenly I found..... Oops, sorry. Flashback to the "West Side Story." How are things Britolicious?
from skinnylizzie :
Heh, of course they'll kick Newcastle's ass, they're a much better team apparently! Unfortunately, it doesn't matter how many things Sheffield wins, it still has the terrible stigma of being in Yorkshire (sorry...I really have to stop slagging it off in front of its residents). And you'd better come to Zoeland soon because my beard is so fine that it needs a good public outing
from the-moo :
I'm so glad to have found this diary I don't know how I felt complete without it even!! you make me smile and you're a sweetie with it!! xxxxxxxxxx
from anibananie :
Aaw I for one love hearing about you and Paddy. More, I say! I'm not feeling especially better. He can apologise till he explodes, it doesn't make a difference. Bah. I've slipped into the "blurry bastard" stage, oh dear.
from anibananie :
Haha, Wake Me Up... is playing on Q now. What coincidence. I was going to say Paddy sounds like a funny guy, no sarcasm intended. And Bridget Jones moments are common; I had one when Tom said re: my underwear (sure you want to know this) "I'm wearing something similar myself." I half-expected him to go, "Hellooo, MUMMAY!" Thankfully he did not.
from theswordsman :
Okay, that waas the penultimate note of the day. You're welcome. Five four is an excellent height. The Super Bowl is the championship game for American football. There's a week of publicity, and a many hour pre-game show. The Rolling Stones are performing at half-time. People have massive parties with foods like hot wings and little smoked sausages. Most of the time one of the teams really clobbers the other and there's no excitement to the game. But billions of people are watching, so companies like Nike and Anheuser Busch come up with their absolute best commercials - sometimes just shown the once and then scrapped. More people will be talking tomorrow about the best commercials than about the winner of the game. Okay, that wasn't exactly wikipedia, but you get the gist of it. I need to get away from the internet now. Have a simply smashing week. You're not the least stumpy. John
from vanoonoo :
hiya - added you after finding you thru gem - hope thats ok :D - mines locked but if you want in let me know x
from theswordsman :
Okay, that sounds like a name the Cherokee Indians might have given. Stumpy??? Where did that come from? I've resisted mentioning it, but you're actually quite cute when your tongue is put away where it belongs and you're not scrunching your face up. That's definitely the last note of the day. I need to go watch the Superbowl, or at least the multimillion dollar commercials that everyone will be talking about tomorrow.
from theswordsman :
There really wasn't any thought put into it - it all just happened spontaneously at various times. I love writing here - I'm addicted to it. But there are things I could be doing with the time to make my life better. It's one thing when all I've got going is work and exercise, and I just miss out on TV time. I don't know if you saw the entry yesterday with my future schedule on it, but it really will come down to writing time coming out of maybe six possible hous of sleep. So, what do you think the squirrels and pigeons call you???
from theswordsman :
Of course it was a compliment. I'm not sure about the "still around" part. I really did plan to just stop writing and leave everything else as is. Then Friday night someone I read and know well totally upset me, and I started changing buddy lists and diaries and deleting things in a maniacal way. Then I just simplified things. Today I decided to honour my promise and tell the story of the 21 year old grandfather. Just so you know, ninety percent of the time I do picture you jumping on the bed singing and flinging refuse out the skylight to the point where squirrels and pigeons have awarded you an affectionate nickname.
from theswordsman :
You know, you write at such a high level, and then I picture you playing loud music, jumping up and down on your bed, and tossing apple cores out the skylight. Stupid dancing is the only kind I know. Take care. John
from wombaby :
Whoops I think I just insulted you by saying Sheffield Hallam, sorry. I thought it was Sheffield, but Mum said Sheffield Hallam ... and you did mention them once so my mind made a connection. Anyway it's still exciting. Tell me when you come to Norwich! It's a city, not a town. We have two cathedrals! Let me know if you need a floor to sleep on.
from bitterwineuk :
hey, I watched Taleneted Mr Ripley once for a while. I fell sound asleep for nearly 3 hours. I don't get Matt Damon movies. Why is he so rated when he is so boring?
from wombaby :
HOLLY HOLLY HOLLY!!! My parents went to an MNDA event today, which was a researcher talking about causes and lines of research into cures, and he cited the work being done at Sheffield Hallam! i.e. the work that you were working on! How exciting is that? I'm going along too to the next event (in April) - they forgot to take me today. (And yeah, Katana could be right about Hannah and depression, cos I definitely had that paranoia thing until a year or two ago - I read what you wrote about her and though "hey, I can be like that ... oops". Didn't realise it was related to depression though, I just thought everyone hated me ... but good luck resolving all the house angst!)
from katanabright :
02.05.2006 - Well- here I go, asking a question you've probably addressed, but - do you think your friend may suffer from clinical depression, either chemical imbalance or from home/environmental/childhood issues ? It is such a typical reaction, such people often don't 'argue' just sit in silence. Just a thought. Glad you apologized after, and maybe she will see you as more 'approachable' for that. PS - let me know when you release your first guitar CD & I'll order one. Unless you want to make a DVD and combine your guitar work with Stupid Dancing. That would be worth twice the price! best, j
from theswordsman :
Hi Holly. sorry there's always so much house drama going on. You did the right thing. I hope your weekend starts to kick quite soon. Maybe it would be a good day to visit ducks and not fall into any bodies of water. Take care. John
from wombaby :
*boing* I think a holiday is a good idea. Visit Norwich!
from baoshi :
Hon, just read the whole Hannah incident and I'm sorry that it had to get to that, but to be fair she really has had it coming! And good for you for speaking up (and for apologising for sounding harsh - shows that you really do have respect for her feelings!), I hope that stuff starts to change soon, *hugs* gem xx
from frogeye :
Here, this should keep you busy fo a while: http://www.fetchfido.co.uk/games/8_queens/8_queens.htm
from frogeye :
You know, I thought you might have a channel one after I posted. Dumb of me not to check. Over here the FCC assigned the band to mobile radios years ago and never took it back. Damn government intervention. And why are you not out galavanting on a Friday evening?
from frogeye :
Why is there no channel #1 on a television?
from frogeye :
Very good! Did you already know that or did you figure it out? I'll have to dig deep into my bag of tricks for the next one as you are an admirable foe.
from clairecav :
MEGA-disturbing, I OBVIOUSLY meant. Mage. As if.
from clairecav :
Hehe, I feel that I should blame you for the word 'wank-fest' creeping into my vocabulary. And probably any other swearwords, you foul-mouthed loon! But anyway. 'Dance Magic Dance' is one of my favouito songs but I too have to try and block the image of David Bowie and his inappropriate tights from my mind when I listen to it. Even though I actually think he's a bit of a Sexy Beast in that film, he's still mage-disturbing.
from katanabright :
02032006 - Love the entry - and your handling of the Dropped Fish Coverup reminded me of a young lady I knew long ago who had been cleaning some fish that her boyfriend caught. She, too, tried covering that unmistakable smell by using a lot of cologne, as they were going out later that evening. I asked her, the next day, how it went. She replied, "I smelled like a mermaid prostitute.". Thanks for letting us all come along with you. AND - I seriously think the Powers That Be should consider letting you write all their official online communiques to students and non-students. It would be a step toward honesty and candor. best to you - j
from frogeye :
Try lemon juice for that fish smell. Glad the exams are over for you.
from theswordsman :
The fallabella is a standing offer for "if I win the lottery" for as long as you're single. I don't buy adorable animals for married women. Have a great day. John
from ishouldcry :
wahey for end of exams. Well done for getting through it. Becca :)
from baoshi :
GET IN!!! Done well on the final exam, mate!!! WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO - now go and get lashed :D!!!! *hugs* gem xx
from bodily04 :
Hey you, guess what?? I am coming home on Sun for a week!!! Nobody knows yet, am going to surprise Linda and mummy and daddy. So when are you free next week??xxx
from the-moo :
poor lovely lovely love *hugs* it will be over soon and neighbours will heal you ;-) hehe xxxxxxx
from skinnylizzie :
Eep, thank you. I probably shouldn't have eaten all that chicken for tea because coupled with nerves, it's made a big sloshy mess in my stomach. I too hope the same thing. I also hope revision's going well, not long now!
from wombaby :
Lol well I packed up and left the library right after I wrote that ... decided it was too dark to see in my carrel, and that instead of finding a more brightly lit desk, I would actually like to come home. And have dinner and eat more chocolate, because I really haven't had enough today - only two creme eggs, a bar of fruit & nut and two bounty's. (Bounties?) No, that is not enough chocolate. Oh, I'll pay for this when I step on the scales!
from frogeye :
Catch something? That would be a novel approach. I generally don't have too much luck in bringing anything in, but I don't really care. It's the experience that give me the thrill. Trout season opens here on April first. I can still remember the days I was out with snow coming down, standing in freezing waist high water. And then there were the 95 days with swaet pouring off me. Probably caugth nothing or possibly something insignificant, but who cares. I love to fish and that's that. Give me that and the old 59 Bugeye and I'm in heaven. Barlow Fishery seems to be a great place. Is that in your area?
from katanabright :
01.29.2006 - Hi, I came by for a visit because Ms. Mandy Moo, the Celestial Queen of All Sweetness, recommends you so highly. Enjoyed the site greatly; whoever gave you the idea that you were 'unphotogenic' was most mistaken. You are lovely...and strong, to have come through so much hardship and hurt at such a young age. I salute your courage. And finally - about your 'lesbian cap' picture...how does one actually know that one's hat or cap is lesbian? Does it snuggle up to your socks in the drawer at night and croon Melissa Ethridge tunes? Besides, we know that it is not that unusual for hats to go through sort of an 'experimental' phase....well, anyway, thanks for the chance to visit. I look forward to returning!. best of everything to you, j (kb)
from the-moo :
aaw I can't help but feel happy that my exam days are well behind me *hugs* sympathy for you though lots and lots of it!! xxx
from theswordsman :
It's actually a good title for a short story - Flowers for Satan. They could make it into an After School Special. Good luck with the last exam. Plan something great for afterwards, and then tough out the revision - you'll be glad you did. Take care. John
from wombaby :
*Bottom* of her bag ... that could do with being in her hand! :S hope she's ok.
from wombaby :
And another *hug* cos now you sound like you need one!
from wombaby :
Yeah. Thanks. I do. *hug* to you too!
from the-moo :
"When I was little I found a butterfly whose wing had come off, and tried to stick it back on again with sellotape" - that is the cutest thing in the whole wide world I even nearly cried!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAW *loves you* xxx
from the-moo :
wheeeeee how have I missed you?? where have you been all my life *hugs* thank you for your bravery.. the first step is admitting you have a problem!! ;-) xxx
from baoshi :
That's cute about the whole Paddy thing - my belief is very much if you start off like great friends and see what happens, if you're meant to be together you'll just know it, and if you're just meant to be friends, then so be it. Let's face it, it's far nicer to have a superbly close friend who's male than some random boyfriend, so don't rush into anything!! but then you know that anyway : ) - Hurrah for tha final exam, good luck, and get very, very lashed afterwards!!! ;D ;D *hugs* gem xx
from anibananie :
Plus, he's called Paddy. Which is exceedingly cool. Wahey!
from anibananie :
Aaw Holly, the thing about Paddy... aww! If he makes you feel like that and he feels the same about you then do it. I know I'm the person LEAST qualified EVER to be spouting this, but reading that broke my heart!
from frogeye :
Just found that the ponds about Crookesmoor are loaded with pike and walleye. I'm on the next flight. Fishing is my ultimate hobby. I never catch much, but do enjoy the experience. Tighten up the fly line, here I come. Best of luck on your exams. You'll ace them I am sure. I need some wooly buggers to start the morning catch...........
from theswordsman :
So, I read that you and Zoe are back together again - I think that's just great! Kiddin, I saw her note lower down. But onmigod, Holly, the guy who wrote Bring It On has written a new movie about very hot looking gymnasts who go out and do very hot looking gymnastics. P.S. Do you know a good way to get drool out of a hoodie? Take care. John
from skinnylizzie :
I have an exam in 45 minutes and yet I am farting about on the internet. My stupidity amazes me sometimes. Anyway, it makes me laugh that you named your supposed stalker 'Nigel'. Actually, it made me laugh a lot. And WOO for the Newcastle trip! I still plan to point and laugh at you from the safety of my beardy disguise
from blujeans-uk :
Well, if we win our league (and that depends on the result against Manchester next week), we will probably be fencing Sheffield in the BUSA playoffs, but I'm not sure when they'll be. If we don't win the league, our secretary should be organising a friendly. Either way, it will probably be towards the end of this term or early next term. Good luck with the ion channels! xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Oh my, I'm sorry, you know what I get like sometimes - all excitable and writing silly things that gets pseudo-lesbian affairs revealed...I just can't help it. And I do NOT think it is fab! I have a text message that proves I'm not the one who thinks that! But I do apologise for besmirching (what an excellent word) your innocent notes page. I do agree that it was unnecessary. Hope the revision's going well!
from frogeye :
Obviously, you have a brain full of facts and knowledge. Don't give up fair one. I feel success for you, even though you are a mile ahead of me on the subject. Good luck on the exams, my prayers are with you. I think St. Jude needs to hear from me anyway. Tootles!
from skinnylizzie :
I only have one thing to say to you, and that is 'CUNT IS FAB!'. My, I hope nobody else ever comes to your notes page ever again. (Laura read that earlier and just looked at me for a very long time before just leaving. I'm waiting for these damn lesbian rumours to start up again, it's only a matter of time). Shut up Zoe! My favourite Greek letter is zeta, because it's fun to write. Amazingly, I am completely sober and not at all hyped on sugar, and yet this note is beginning to sound a bit trippy...I'll leave now. (it's FAB!)
from wombaby :
I read the whole skim-readable passage. Every word. Not sure anything actually penetrated beyond my cornea, but there you go, I tried. And the idea of literary orgasms made me chuckle (although thinking about it, I'm not entirely sure what they are ...). Good luck, anyway.
from baoshi :
Masses of luck with the revision!! And I'm with you on the whole religion thing!! So many things about religion just don't sit right with me, but hey - if I start on this subject now, you'll probably have a dissertation on this page, haha!!! Anyway, *hugs* gem xx
from anibananie :
Hmm we seem to be examined on the same subjects! Fruit flies, stress... We must be linked in some way. Ooor... we just get examined on the same stuff. Either's good.
from baoshi :
Sorry I've been so crap at stopping by and saying hey - glad that the exams are going well, and I hope that the revision isn't too evil!! *hugs* gem xx
from anibananie :
114 slides of crap... I can relate. When Mr Psychology was off to begin with he left us 18 pages of slides to read through and answer questions on in his absence on the physiological side of stress. I doubt I'll ever quite forgive him for it.
from theswordsman :
Okay, but sonce I'm going to the gym and movies for you, and now I suddenly have to study all weekend (with breaks to do work work), it's only fair that you have a couple of drinks for me. Enjoy the time with your sister completely. Live in the moment and forget your responsibilities for a couple of hours. Cheers. John
from theswordsman :
Okay, I'll carry the recreation load this weekend. I'll work out at Golds for me, and at the Y for me. I'll go see Brokebaack Mountain and actually watch the guys for you, and enjoy Anne Hathaway topless for the both of us (hey - you are predictable!) O just this second checked my mail, and the financial letter I expected next week was there. And it will actually be easier to spend twenty hours studying this weekend than it would be to get to the school during business hours on Monday, so I might just stick in the program now. That noise you just heard was all of the free time and fun being sucked out of my weekend. She probably mentioned it, but since you and I are painfully honest with each other, I did e-mail Zoe before you posted to see if she had heard from you and knew that you were okay. Feel free to delete this. Take care. John
from theswordsman :
Thanks Holly. On MSN when you wanted to ask a "random question," I knew what the question would be. It's come up a lot in my life. But thank you for the compliment. I hope you're having a bit of rest and recreation after the exams you've completed. Take care. John
from bodily04 :
how confusing....diaryland keeps telling me you've updated but nothing is showing up. Grr. Hope the revisioning's going well chicken xxx
from blujeans-uk :
May the knowledge fairy reside in your house and sprinkle memory-dust throughout... Or something. Go show those exams who's boss!
from frogeye :
Monty Night in the USA with a splash of Fawlty Towers. Here are a couple of links for you: http://www.intriguing.com/mp/_video/fish.avi & http://www.intriguing.com/mp/_video/spanish.avi. Was thinking of getting tickets for Spamalot on Broadway. Can't imagine how much they must be these days, but I'm sure they are worth every penny. What ever happened to the $25 seats? Guess they went away with the nickle hotdog. How's that whale doing down in London? Catch you later toots. PS: Monty tickets range from $70 in the balcony to $250+ for better seats. EEEEEEEEEEEEEYA! There goes the paycheck. Too bad they weren't playing under the big tent. I'd sneak in after the clowns made their entrance in hte Mini Cooper.
from frogeye :
I've been trying to go thru life incognito. Unfortunately, too many people like me, damnit! Kinda left everyone alone for a while so you could study and get thru your exams. Hope you are or have done well, as I a sure your will. Life remains as is for me, but I just received my next DVD shipment of Monty Python, so I am as happy as can be. Will make it a point to catch up with your writing this weekend. And I do have to add an entry! Be good and buy bonds!
from anibananie :
I laughed out loud at your entry at least twice! Once when you sent the text about the car and the other about "Parky D". I stopped laughing when I read about the Huntington's Disease thing because one of my friends has a 50/50 chance she has it... but still! Glad you're back :)
from ishouldcry :
That's it. He was Cole. I recognised him from somewhere (and it wasn't Baywatch) and had to check it up on a web search to find out who on earth he was. It's amazing how much info you can get in a few mins isn't it? Are you watching Invasion? Well worth it. Good replacement for Lost. I like American Drama/mysteries.
from wombaby :
I'm glad you're back :-)
from theswordsman :
I'm glad you're okay. Good luck with exams. I've got one of my own Monday night - that just seems wrong some how. Have a wonderful weekend. Take care. John
from wombaby :
I can understand the not writing. But are you ok? At least in an alive-ok kind of way, if not an ok-ok kind of way? *hugs*
from theswordsman :
Hey Holly. Are you okay? Just post a line or two so we don't worry about you? Take care. John
from clairecav :
I've been meaning to note you for a couple of days. Basically sending a gazillion hugs your way. This must be the hardest time ever, I can't even begin to imagine how hard it must be for you. And of course you care, the fact that you're not in floods of tears about it all doesn't mean that you don't... it just means that you handle it differently.
from anibananie :
Also, I forgot to mention it at the time - hypno guy was screwed up. What kind of thing is that to say in a session?! Unprofessional git.
from anibananie :
No one thinks you don't care, so don't think that. You obviously care a great deal, and just shutting off is a common way to deal with it all. I think writing it down though will have helped a lot, and if not at least you have some people who understand how you feel. At least the anniversaries are over for another year now. Hope you feel better soon xxx
from bitterwineuk :
Hugs to you hun. I am so sorry to read all that. You coped in your own way, the same as I do by shutting things out. I am happy you are getting these emotions out though. It's never easy to go back to the times that cause the most pain but I really admire you for having the strength to do so. Take care. Love Becca
from wombaby :
No, not everybody else gets upset and cries a lot. I just get numb and empty most of the time. *hugs*
from theswordsman :
I had missed the hypnotherapist thing - report the bastard before he takes advantage of someone else. Damn the man.
from theswordsman :
I wish there was something I could say. Take care. John
from anibananie :
Aaw, not an easy day for you. Hope you're feeling as ok as you can be.
from wombaby :
That is (at least) harrassment. Well done for leaving, that is wrong wrong wrong. Good luck tomorrow, I will be thinking of you *hugs*
from baoshi :
Hang on... Did I just hear you right???? He said those things to you at your sessions??????? What an abuse of power - damn right you shouldn't be going there anymore if that's what that cheeky fucking cunt was saying to you!! Hope you're OK, *hugs* gem xx
from bitterwineuk :
hahaha, I'm another becky that quite likes Richard and rather scarily I am 25. I thought he was older than that. I prefer Lee though. Hope he stays to the final but my bet is it'll be a Richard/Andy Corrie final as they are more famous.
from strawberrri :
hannah's friend's unsmiley face made me laugh a bit but i'm not sure it should have :( and i just wanted to say i'm wishing you strength for tomorrow x
from clairecav :
*Is massively concerned over weird Roy man* That is totally wrong and probably brekaing some law. You know, doctor's can't go out with patients so what on earth gives him the right to speak to you like that? I think you should report the horrible pervert.
from pink-fairy :
Reading what he said I think thats kinda over the line - i'm sure you can report him for saying things like that. It isn't professional and certainly not meant for anyone to feel better about themselves. *Sends you a big hug*
from blujeans-uk :
Sending an e-hug, just in case you need one. Put it in your purse or something :)
from baoshi :
Can you swing a Paddy this way ;D And honey, if you EVER need a chat or just need someone there over these next few days (or just anytime!!), then you can email me, or I'm on msn ([email protected]) pretty much all day, I'm always here, *hugs* gem xx
from clairecav :
I want a Paddy *deep sigh*. That neverending Pill idea is very groovy... it's just a shame my doctor is mean and took me off it so as to put me on these new tablets. Bitch.
from wombaby :
That's ok, I correctly interpreted the sentiment :-) thank you
from clairecav :
I wonder if you could just take the pill over and over and over... and never have a period again? I doubt it very much, but rar, someone must have tried it sometime?
from bitterwineuk :
It's funny how our imaginations run riot and we imagine things to be completely different to how we get to see them. I might add an entry soon to get my readers to guess what I look like before I post my pics and leave their answers as comments or in a poll. Hahaha, but you will have the slight advantage as I gave it away a bit earlier. :) Have you been watching Soapstar Superstar? If so who would you like to win?
from wombaby :
Ooh, do let me know if Ciaran is in the Lynx commercial :-)
from baoshi :
Drunken convos, hey? Gotta love em!! I must have the spent the best part of Friday night on MSN chatting ti a guy from work about FUCK knows what!! I might check the msn history... Anyway, good luck with all the revision - it's tough, but if anyone can do it, you can!!! *hugs* gem xx
from bitterwineuk :
Hiya, I've just been looking at your photo's. They are great. I can't believe I've never looked before. I don't know how to explain how I imagined you to look like but I didn't expect you to look like you do. (which is lovely by the way of course) I expected someone a bit gothic I suppose, by the way your diary designs are and the way you love your guitar, I was expecting more moody like Avril Lavigne I guess.But you look lovely. Something spooky is that I look quite similar to your friend Lise, same sort of build and facial features etc. I will try to get some pics of me on in the next few days after Matthews party. Becca.
from wombaby :
I don't even try working at home, just read some French occasionally. It really isn't the same! Hope you're surviving it ok.
from baoshi :
ahhhahaha - you make me laugh honey!! *hugs* gem xx
from wombaby :
Yes, I do know what you mean. I keep thinking "oh, I'm not working, I'm just reading". Then realised at half past five that perhaps it was a bit sad to be upset that the library closed at six not nine like I was expecting. I'm becoming a bit library-mad right now though. </para> <para>Has your paper been published yet? I shall go have a peek on WoK.
from frogeye :
Maybe the girl looking at you in the library was Ginger Ron in drag. What a queen!
from blujeans-uk :
I am currently doing similar and have been in the library for almost 4 hours now, looking up journals for my CTM. I empathise with the funness thing. Incidentally, What's the title or subject of the paper you're cited on? I found a few with H Evans as a contributor but not sure which is you...
from wombaby :
Ah, go on, you know that spending all day every day in the library rocks. Or at least, I have had nothing better to do with my time for the last three days ...
from strawberrri :
maybe rundll32 is vital for a computer's well being! *goes to google it* ... *returns with findings* 'This program is important for the stable and secure running of your computer and should not be terminated.' oops. oh well, it's too late noww32 (hehe).
from clairecav :
Ooh, my stabbing abdominal pain WAS on the left hand side. It hurt lots. And okay, I am still alive so it probably didn't rupture, but I am convinced it was twinging in some unfortunate way.
from frogeye :
Maybe you can lend Ginger Ron your lesbian hat.
from pink-fairy :
Hello Chicken, you do know that as students you are all exempt from paying council tax? H xxxx
from anibananie :
I also thank you for the nice comment about my hair :)
from anibananie :
I was desperate to do dissection in GCSE Bio and the closest I got was a flippin' kidney. I was pissed off when I found out you only get to dissect in years 12 and 13, and even then only animals like fish and rats. Bah! (I am not morbid; just fascinated.)
from bitterwineuk :
council tax is always evil no matter where you live. Wahey for Lost but what's gonna happen when it finishes next week? What tv will fill my brain for the next few months? oh yes, there's celeb Big Brother, always worth a look and celebrity fit club. I like that too. But what is going to replace Lost in my little heart. It's the best thing in ages!!!!
from skinnylizzie :
Newcastle, woo! The home of ME! Well, not technically the home, but you know what I mean. As I have said before, I am totally going to come and point at laugh at you during bridge photo taking. Except I'll be in disguise (I've grown a beard) so you won't realise it's me, mwahahaha! Pointless note over
from theswordsman :
Thanks. I'm expecting it to kick my butt. Have a great day. John
from anibananie :
I think you spelt xylophones right. Manchester is indeed the business, I have been on 3 BIG shopping trips there in just over a year. The last one was the best, in October. Aah, I wish I could relive that day again... Still, will hopefully find some goddamn jeans and/or trousers in Manchester. They have an H&M too, which I shall be making a beeline for seeing as we don't have one in Lancaster. (Primark, as cheap as it is, can kiss my ass because it's TOO EFFING BIG.)
from wombaby :
*hugs* well done for standing your ground. Think positive. (I know that sounds like a really daft thing to say - when I am back on my own computer I will email you "chinks" which explains it a bit more).
from baoshi :
I think that's what a lot of therapists make people feel like - but who says that you WILL go back to the way you were?? My honest opinion (and I hope you don't think I'm trying to put words in your mouth)? I think you know that you've gone as far as you feel comfortable at the time being, and that's not saying you won't EVER go back, but at this point in your life, you've done as much as you can. God, I've gone all kinds of Trisha again!! lol, anyway, it's up to you, whatever you feel comfortable with, honey - only you can decide this : ) *hugs* gem xx
from baoshi :
If YOU think that you're ready to end the sessions, then you should end them. A professional can only guide us to a certain point, only we can be the ones to know if we need the guidance! OK, OK I know it sounds like Trisha bollocks, lol, but it's true - don't feel guilty, you're an intelligent woman and you know what's right for you! *hugs* gem xx
from theswordsman :
If you'd like to chat about it on msn messenger, let me know. Take care. John
from frogeye :
And a very Happy New Year to you and yours. I can't wait to see how many times I continue to write '05 at work. As far as hypno email - read the bloody message! Take the bull by the horns, as they say, and face it. You keep it in control, don't let it control you. You are much too smart for that. I see you guys had some tough weather lately. I'm expecting rain & snow tonight, but will probably end up with all rain as it is much too warm right now. Received my second set of Monty DVD today. Kind of a late Christmas gift, the kind you always like, as I ordered it for myself. Never go wrong with those. Catch you later!
from skinnylizzie :
Bloody funny though - 'oh my GOD, why am I even ringing? I'm so DRUNK!'. Mwahaha, just you wait, one day I will return the favour!
from bitterwineuk :
It does sound very dodgy doesn't it but that was the last thing on my mind when I was severely drunk. :) So many moons ago.....
from bitterwineuk :
Happy new year. All the best for 2006 and here's a helpful hint to avoid hangovers in future. (I'm not actually sure if it is safe but it always worked for me in my younger more exciting less mumsy days.) Before you go to bed after drinking shit-loads, take a couple of paracetamol. They work and perk you up when you are sleeping it off. You wake up kinda happy and excited and raring to go again. May be kind of toxic to the body, but hell it works. Have a great 2006. Becca
from baoshi :
Hope the hangover shifts soon, hon! Happy New Year!! *hugs* gem xx
from anibananie :
I'm not delightful enough to keep your dad awake? Heh. I have a lot of fun with my name and THAT musical.
from wombaby :
Actually, I think your degree sounds quite interesting. Not sure I'd want to do it myself; bits of it sound like they'd require brainpower (although I do sometimes wish I was doing a "hard" science degree still) ... but then, Adam the medieval historian thinks I am weird because I actually enjoy sitting in the library reading economics. Coming from a medieval historian ... !!!
from theswordsman :
A) I was afraid that you had read something between the lines with the "yearn" thing. Glad to hear it was just champers-induced typing. B) I hope that your New Year is off to a flying start despite the hangover. C) I looked at your photos again, and skeptical is a very good look for you. D) Take care. E) John
from clairecav :
Go you, you stalker-challenger! And also, a happy new year to you. May 2006 be happy, bright and totally stalker-free.
from theswordsman :
I meant 2006/1, but of course it's not #1 at all, and it's still 2005 here, so I guess I'll just bugger off now.
from theswordsman :
2005/1 And was "yearn" a typo?
from theswordsman :
You've obviously made it past midnight. Did you do something kickass?
from theswordsman :
HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR NEW YEAR!!!
from wombaby :
... nah.
from baoshi :
That rocked, hon! Have a wicked NYE and start to the New Year!! *hugs* gem xx
from wombaby :
Please don't stop writing when you leave uni! There'd just be this horrible gap, and I'd have to stalk you by email ... now I don't admit to missing people, cos I don't *do* missing people, but for a while I'd be aware of something missing. Don't you do it!
from theswordsman :
#10 But you left off the #9 on your reply, so now my Notes section is unbalanced (more so than usual).
from anibananie :
Ha, tough Claire! Christopher Eccleston is garbage compared to the delectable David... and Holly, another thing to add to the unconventionality: THE SCOTS ACCENT!!! Damn I love it. "There is more to be seen than can ever be seen, more to do than can ever be done - wait... no, that was the Lion King."
from clairecav :
Ahh, don't go censoring. Then they have won! We must stand up and fight for our right to write (way too much rhyming going on here) whatever the heck we want. Or something. By the way, I just googled it myself to see what else comes up, so don't get even more paranoid when you see it's been googled again - just letting you know ;) And oh Annie, I didn't want to tell the world about my David Tennant admission yet, I want people to think I am still extremely loyal to Christopher Eccleston as Doctor Who!
from anibananie :
Yes! Everyone seems to be discovering the yumminess (Word is stupid) that is David "I'm-A-Sex-God" Tennant. Both you and Claire have admitted it now... just remember, I saw him first, or at least I saw him and proceeded to loudly declare my love for him first.
from clairecav :
Ooh, that sort of thing would scare the bareepas out of me. But still, woo, we're so popular, so popular...
from theswordsman :
#9 - No, the gratitude was totally sincere. Could be my best day in weeks. Boobs boobs boobs boobs boobs. John
from theswordsman :
#8 Great - it's only six in the morning, and now I know I'm going to be thinking about boobs all day. Thank you thank you thank you.
from theswordsman :
#5 WOW - two pictures of you with a normal expression on your face - you look nice. #6 Keep a close watch on the whole bra size thing and keep us posted. #7 Your superhero disguise may need a bit of a rethink:) John
from theswordsman :
#1 Maria is a BRILLIANT name for a guitar. Some day when I win the lottery, I'll collect guitars and name many of them Maria. Besides, it's too late to change the name - you have a relationship. #2 When you go to the gym, for gosh sakes stop doing the boob reduction exercises. #3 I can't see the new photos you posted #4 Have a KICKASS New Year. John
from skinnylizzie :
Aww my lovely, you know I'm always here if you want to talk. I shall get on replying to that email the next time I can prise the computer away from my dad (they're due back from football now or I'd do it right this instant). And it snowed here in lovely old Grimsby, hurrah! Couple of inches as well!
from bitterwineuk :
Sounds a good enough christmas to me. I so understand the suffocating family thing too. This is the first year I haven't spend Boxing day with all my family at my grans. the other 24 years I did, I felt somewhat out of place. Also the older I got, the more I felt resentful and began feeling a failure for not being shagged senseless by some sort of boyfriend over the festive period. Still, that seems a long time ago now. I haven't had that trouble for the last 3 christmases. ;) Hehehehe. TMI there. Have you got anyone special or are you happily single. You don't give much away on the personal front. Good luck with the revising. Becca.
from frogeye :
Just took a virtual ride on the Line One Tram going to Nottingham. Very interesting. I like the way it goes right thru the town's streets. Can't imagine having anything like that over here. We would need a heck of a lot of body bags. With the electric you'll have to get a distortion box and wawa pedal. Crank the sound!
from theswordsman :
Sorry! I'll add Maria to my "corrupted by me" list. It IS a very nice looking guitar. The picture didn't really look feminine to me. I would name it Angelina, and shorten it to Angel once she and I got to know each other. But then, I'm a guy. Have a great day. John
from frogeye :
God,, I can't believe it's been so long . Sorry! Good to hear that Christmas was a pleasant time this year. They should all be that way. Electric guitar? I thought you hated them? How about Jezebel or Desire for a name? What would BB King say to that? Rock on baby!
from theswordsman :
Glad you had such a nice Christmas. I woke up on the floor Christmas morning as well because my air mattress sprung a Christmas Eve leak. I got it patched last night. I'm giving up the phrase with the new year, but, er...um...isn't Maria sort of a pseudo-youknowwhat name for a guitar? Take care. John
from clairecav :
Oh, I like to think it gives out very cool vibes of "I care... deeeeeep down... because I'm a very deeeeep person..." That's what I like to think.
from clairecav :
Ahh thankyou, I'm alright. Maybe I've caught your flippant disease? Woo for Maria, your sexy new guitar!
from theswordsman :
Glad I FINALLY supplied something educational at my diary. Happy Boxing Day. John
from bitterwineuk :
I've just been reading your 101 things. I too, rather sadly fancied Aladdin. He always reminded me of Rick Alessi in Neighbours in the early nineties. Have a great christmas. I am getting drunk tonight and avoiding boxing day at my grandparents for once this year as I can use the excuse it's hubby's birthday and he normally has to work it but this year it falls on his day off. So a nice early night with lots of snuggles is on the cards. Hehehe. Have a great one. Becca,
from anibananie :
We didn't decorare our tree til Xmas eve either. Woo! Merry Christmas Hol :D
from strawberrri :
drunk grandmothers are fantastic! anyway, merry yuletide :)
from baoshi :
Merry Christmas!! Hurrah it's time to get pissed : ) *hugs* gem xx
from theswordsman :
Merry Christmas, Holly. John
from wombaby :
*big grin* thank you
from baoshi :
Enjoy your bath - it's sooooo nice to have baths and food that isn't Tesco Value and to be able to have the heating on for ages!!! Ahhhh, that's such a good thing about comiong home!! Well, for a couple of days anyway ;D *hugs* gem xx
from blujeans-uk :
Will definitely be looking the journal up! How comes your current link is sending me to october 13th?
from wombaby :
Ooh, which journal? Will it be available through Web of Science / Elsevier? (Cos I actually will try to read it, or at least the bits I understand, I'm that sad).
from bitterwineuk :
oh wow. Someone else who understands the specialty of fish finger sandwiches. My mates think I'm barmy for liking them. Extra tasty with lots of vinegar and brown sauce. I could eat a fish finger or too myself now. hhhmmmmm, freezer attack coming on.
from clairecav :
Alright, you've got yourself a crazy kid pact! At least you finishing uni in a year or so means that there's a whole new fresh thing for you write about. I'm stuck in school for two years yet, and then just boring Sixth Form, before I do anything remotely interesting! The worrying thing is, I can never see myself NOT wanting to update, because I am now past the two year mark and still update practically every day. Which is probably really sad. Ah well!
from bitterwineuk :
I've had my diary here for 4 years on new years day and the one before for 2 but I came to a stage where I wasn't "that person" anymore. As my life changed, so did I. You could always do the same. I'd really miss d'land if it stopped running. I also think it was set for Shayne to win X Factor too. Have a good week,
from clairecav :
You MUST keep your diary going. For ever and ever (Amen).
from blujeans-uk :
I wish I could miss my housemates. Unfortunately there is nothing about them to miss and I can't wait to get out of that damn house... Being home, with central heating and non-drippy walls, is brilliant though. Hope you have a good week xx
from final137 :
Merry almost Christmas.
from baoshi :
Priceless text messaging, honey, haha!! God I want to go out and get pissed - haven't been properly out since the Summer (hmm, now I just sound like an old fogey...) Anyway, glad you had a good night out - it's always good to end up getting very lashed and really enjoying yourself!! *hugs* gem xx
from wombaby :
I like "Can you stop the cavalry" too! I made them back-track to it earlier cos I was on the phone when it first played.
from baoshi :
Hurrah for finishing all that work!!! It's bloody harsh, but I know you'll do great! And yay for the Christmas break! Wish I had one, haven't sat down since Sunday night, lol! *hugs* gem xx
from frogeye :
Hey, you'll get through everything fine. You made it this far with flying colors. How's the hat war coming along?
from frogeye :
First you go to church and then not to the pub. Are you training to be a nun? Sister Mary Christmas, bless you sister.
from baoshi :
Sorry to hear that work and housekids are being pooey pants - just keep plodding on, and one day you suddenly realise that you've done all that work! It's a harsh year, but you will be fine!! I got through it and so will you! : ) *hugs* gem xx
from frogeye :
A plague on both your houses! I happen to like "Die a slow death!" I pity the poor person who sneezes within my hearing range. Nice to hear that you also have a chicken fixation. The chicken police are everywhere these days.
from theswordsman :
Hey Holly. I just wanted you to know, I've had an average of about thirty women on my buddy list for like a year, and a lesser number before that. So I'm looking at maybe ten thousand or more female diary entries when I say what I did about the Lysol. Take care. John
from wombaby :
*big grin at being back on the list*
from wombaby :
I think cooking meals and cleaning the house is about one of the best things you can do for someone depressed. *hugs*
from frogeye :
Great entry. Perhaps the hypno is helping to let you clear your feelings, not only thru dreams, but in your writing also.
from baoshi :
1. This is YOUR diary, so talking heavily about you is not only accepted, it's expected!! 2. I like the fact you've been updating regularly - it's good for you to get your feelings out, and you write well, so we all love to read you! 3. You rock, honey, and that's a compliment and it's true and you must take it exactly as it is - the straight up truth : ) *hugs* gem xx
from wombaby :
:-( I may cry with no festive email ...
from theswordsman :
I'll type from the Lysol aerosol can. "Disinfectant. Kills viruses, mold & mildew. Kills 99.9% of germs in 30 seconds. Eliminates odors". I presently have the Summer Breeze scent, and if an attractive woman so much as looks at me, she's going to get it right in the face. I'm ruined. Cheers, though. John
from frogeye :
The Spam hat stolen by Zoe! This means war. Damn the torpedoes, full hats ahead. You shall be flooded with the most horrendous, wacky and silly hats on the planet. Victory is yours! But you will have to wait as Fawlty Towers is on tonight. Sure, Zoe gets the penis hat and still shoves the Spam hat in your face. Has she no shame?
from theswordsman :
I've been learning WAY too much about female diseases. Now when I see an attractive woman, I just want to spray her with Lysol and make her go away. There are unsolicited hats in your e-mail inbox. Hope you feel better soon. John
from wombaby :
Lol. Yet another reason to never give Holly my address then ... ;-)
from baoshi :
Ooooh! Cystitis is EVIL and sent from the devil!! I've only ever had it twice due to stress (and probably wearing thongs too often!) and NOT rampant sex either!! And it's fucking SHITE!!! My advice is to get thee to a supermarket and fill up on the ol' Ocean Spray Cranberry juice (actually - bollocks to that! The own brand is usually MUCH cheaper!) And drink tonnes of water you will feel sooo much better in 24hrs or so!! Don't bother with those cystitis relief tablets - they suck dick! Hope it clears up soon! And those earrings are a, um, TREAT! lol - hope they sell for vast amounts of money!! *hugs* gem xx
from bitterwineuk :
hiya, hope you are feeling a little better. I got cystitis for the first time this year too and I could only explain it as serious stabbing pains myself. Luckily it only lasted a couple of days but that was more than long enough. Did you get the link to the pics you requested and did it work? I'm also on MSN if u ever fancy a chat, feel free to drop in. Becca
from wombaby :
Yet another reason to *never* have my ears pierced!
from theswordsman :
I just posted a picture of an octopus hat for no apparent reason. It's funny that you two are going around reading each other's notes all over. I hope this doesn't get out of hand. Take care. John
from clairecav :
Ahh, you see IF I get a guitar and call it Antonio, it actually will be because I dream of sleazy Latin lovers. Not that Antonio Banderas is sleazy, and if you say he his, I shall join Zoe's side in the hat competition. Which I want the Spam hat from, by the way, as I too like Spam. I especially like the Spam song, you know, off the adverts. "SPAM UP..."
from baoshi :
Can I come and watch your nativity play??? Can i??? Can I ???? Oh, please say I can!!! :D *hugs* gem xx
from frogeye :
How about this one: http://salito.freeservers.com/images/weird-headgear.gif
from baoshi :
And for added disturbance... http://www.spottycat.com/marlos/bodypaint/Halloween98/s_lucius02.jpg
from baoshi :
I was having a quick trawl around the net and I found this page - now, tell me if I'm wrong, but isn't that Big Keith from The Office???? http://markrubin.com/diary/headgear.html
from baoshi :
LOL, yes, it IS odd how I manage to suddenly think of gentialia-related head gear and then manage to find a perfect specimen, haha!! I really should be less transparent... *hugs* gem xx
from frogeye :
Lesbian rumors? It's the hat sweety. Doesn't matter which hat, they are all lezzie hats now. God bless the Rainbow Coilition!
from skinnylizzie :
HELP IN KICKING ZOE'S ASS?! Lord, you're all off my Christmas card list!!! (I am joking, please don't hurt me) It's too late, I found a Spam hat, there's no saving Holly now!!!
from baoshi :
BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! What a fucking SPLENDID competition!!! I had a quick scout on the internet, and was mighty pleased to find this gorgeous specimen : ) http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v150/Phonk99/penishat1.jpg And woohooo for the Jaxx!! They rule, and dancing to them should become law!! *hugs* gem xx
from bitterwineuk :
hurrah for Basement Jaxx. I love them 2. I always end up re-listening to Rendevouz, Red Alert and Good Luck. The Greatest hits cd is probably the one I most listened to this year. Good taste. Becca
from clairecav :
To help in kicking Zoe's ass, I found a terrifying photo: http://www.hatsinthebelfry.com/hatstore/prods/Crazy_Funny_Hat_Clown_Hats.html Truly worrying. Also, how was Jarhead? I thought the trailer looked good.
from wombaby :
Thanks. I'll cope. *hugs* and you?
from anibananie :
I wish there was something I could say that would vaguely help :( Unfortunately, nein. Don't bottle things up, it won't help. And don't be afraid of crying. Lots of love xxx
from strawberrri :
that was a heartbreaking entry, and so beautifully worded x
from clairecav :
That entry was really moving. I, super-hard bitch (that's what I like to THINk of myself as anyway), was moved. I feel so bad for you because of all the hard times you've had. I suppose that now your future will be fabulous, because people only have a certain amount of poo in their life and you've already had a great deal, so you should really have a fasmagorical life from now on. I'm sure you will, with or without a mohawk (which I think would rock, but ultimately add to the lesbian rumours). Peace and love xXx
from baoshi :
Oh God, honey, it's good that you have an outlet for these sorts of feelings for a start! I wish I could say something enlightening and helpful, but how can I? I've never been through anything like that so I don't want to be all patronising and say something bollocks. But I will say remember the good times - all your beautiful memories of her singing out of tune, arguing with your gran and driving you to piano lessons are precious and after all, isn't that what life's about, enjoying the time we have with those closest to us. I'm glad that you can write about how you feel, angel, even if you can't really speak to anyone about it. I'm always here, ***hugs*** gem xx
from frogeye :
Memories are what it's all about. Keep your mom tight beside you, as she meant the world to you and I know that she would want to be there. "Ive lost out on so much". No, you have the memories and remembrances of her and the love she had for you. What better way to say mom, I love you? She is in your heart, she watches after you each and every day. Death sucks, but isn't that our final destiny?
from skinnylizzie :
Ooh, I got a D in it as well! I was supremely proud (especially when I found out it was one of the best marks in the whole damn year, apart from the crazy Further Maths gang). And you laugh now, but just you wait...when my super hat turns up on your doorstep in Sheffield, who'll be laughing then?!
from skinnylizzie :
Ugh, I did P3 on OCR as well, just thinking back to that exam makes me want to poke my eyes out just to take my mind off it. I don't think people who didn't do A Level Maths understand just how truly horrific that exam is. They don't call it the Arsing Cunting Bastarding Mofo of the exam world for nothing (okay, so that is what I called it, but I bet it could catch on). And my mum referred to 'Meadowhell' yesterday, it made me laugh a lot and now she thinks I'm insane. And you just wait, I'm gonna find the king of all hats for you for Christmas!
from pastagirl :
Thanks for the note :)
from frogeye :
Well, you did mention that it was not exactly the hat you were looking for. Check out ebay for Baker Boy Hats and I think you will be able to find the exact one you want. Do svidanja!
from silly-moose :
Hey you, only just read about Orange, am so sorry hon. It sounds as though you had a bon time in Notts though. Loving the pictures, may steal one for my bebo profile if that's OK. Keep an eye out for the post this week :). Miss you chicken. xxx
from clairecav :
*Worried about the mullet note below* I too admire your groovy hat and hair, though. And your guitar! Ooh, I fear I am developing a bit of a fetish.
from frogeye :
Those pics are absolutely beautiful. I wish we had the old time beauty in our buildings. Most are stark and glassy. Best I can offer is oheka.com. That castle here on Long Island, I believe, is the second largest house in the USA with 127 rooms. Now it's used as a reception hall, etc. There are other monster homes on the north shore, but they don't match this one. A drive out to the Hamptions would result in a tour of the rich and famous. What Hollywood star doesn't have a home there? Interesting place I live in. Eight miles away and the homes exceed 5mil easily. Yeah, like they let me troll their private roads. Anyway, love the new hat and the hair looks great.
from skinnylizzie :
Ooh, the hair is just fantabulous! And I LURVE the hat, it looks a bit like my baker boy hot which I love more than any other hat in the world at the moment. Hurrah for hats and hair! (still no mullet yet, although I am sorely tempted today) xx
from baoshi :
Sorry - mispelled the word "hat"!! I didn't mean to write "hate"! g xx
from baoshi :
Wicked hate, hon! And I thought you looked quite sophisticated in that photo - you definitely didn't look stoned or tired, you beautiful, beautiful creature : ) Ooooh - was going to write a note after your last entry, but I completely forgot and was then called away from the computer - anyway, I just wanted to agree with you about that scene in Harry Potter, something about it really got to me and I had a tear in my eye - I can understand why it brings back so many memories for you. And I'm sorry you feel so down at the moment - Have some huge ***hugs***, some chocolate, a hot cup of tea and a little cry and I hope you feel tons better soon, : ) *hugs* gem xx ♥
from theswordsman :
I like the hat. The brim is small enough that you can still catch snowflakes on your tongue if you want to. And feel free to mention anything involving boobs at any time. Take care. John
from anibananie :
That photo of you kissing the guitar is ace! I have a hat like that that I've had since year 7. It's now known as THE hat. In the summer whenever I wore it to a party you could guarentee that someone would nick it off my head and it'd get passed around all night.
from theswordsman :
I just saw the scen from The New Kid where Eliza Dushku tries on bikinis, and I simply HAD to share it with someone who understands. I was really sorry to hear about your lovely orange cat. Take care, and don't even think about not writing. John
from skinnylizzie :
YAY, mohawk!!! I'd better get on to achieving that mullety goodness...my mum would have a fit. As would my evil grandparents. Maybe it's worth a go?...hehe! And if you tried to stop writing for a month, I would catch a train all the way down to Sheffield to give you a good (but friendly) beating.
from wombaby :
I think we'd miss you if you disappeared for a month.
from frogeye :
Can we see the new hair cut? Please post a pic without the lesbian hat(which I love).
from frogeye :
Dear Holly: I made a few mistakes in my time and not giving you appropriate tears was my fault. When you were created you asked what line you were on and I said the line to learn how to cry. You must have thought I said goodbye and went on another line. Same thing happened to another gal who got brains and trains mixed up. What a dope she became. Sorry about the mix up, but think about the other wonderful attributes you were given. Your pal God.
from frogeye :
Yes, the gym is a mecca for all ailments and worries. I could be having the worst day of my life, like today, but after the gym, the slate seems to be cleared. Like after a good run. Must be the adrenaline rush.
from baoshi :
I think we all have our own little ways that we get stuff out, it's been a stressful week for bad news for you, hon, just remember how much you rock : ) ****hugs**** gem xx
from frogeye :
Surround yourself with your friends. They are the shoulders you need. And don't forget to cry!
from pastagirl :
I'm sorry to read about your cat :(
from clairecav :
Oh, poor you and your poor orange cat! Pets shouldn't die, they should be around forever. xXx
from skinnylizzie :
Aww Holly, sorry to hear about your cat. Just holler if you need someone to talk to or anything xxx
from strawberrri :
sorry about your cat, poor little orange :*(
from anibananie :
Aaw, little Leo. He looked sweet from the photos I've seen. It's crap when pets die, especially so young :( Still, at least it was painless for him. One of my dogs died from jumping out a 4 story window... and not even instantly.
from wombaby :
[related to previous entry] have a look at geoffchaucer.diaryland.com. [related to current entry] *hugs*
from frogeye :
I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your cat. I can fully sympathize with you, as I had a similar experience with my first dog, Tasha. Acknowledge your grief and give yourself permission to express it. Don't hesitate to reach out to others who can lend a sympathetic ear. Write about your feelings. Prepare a memorial for her. Yes, life goes on, but sometimes we have to stop for a moment and remember. All my best, Tom.
from baoshi :
Oh god, angel, I'm so so sorry to hear that : ( Massive, massive, uber-extra-massive ****hugs**** gem xx
from wombaby :
I believe (and you probably know better than I) that you can live with MS at a moderate rate of disability for years. Poor Mel. Good luck to you both. (And to her sister.)
from skinnylizzie :
Okay, here is the conversation I've just had with my wonderfully blonde flatmate - Me: 'Laura, my pseudo-lesbian lover Holly says hi.'. Laura: '..........what does pseudo mean?'. She is now suitably confused. Mwahahaha!
from skinnylizzie :
SCANDALOUS. Not your defending, I mean, but the fact that somebody from Hull has obviously addled her brains. You need to tell her that your pseudo-lesbian lover (my, there's that lesbian smut again!) lives in Grimsby and has visited Hull, and is staying where she is, because Hull is a DIRTY, DIRTY PLACE and the only bad things about Grimsby are its name and its fishy reputation. Besides, Grimsby is up and coming, and Hull will forever languish at the bottom of the pile of Crappest Places On Earth. Sorry, I shall end this rant now, Hull just makes me SO DAMN MAD!!!!!
from baoshi :
Ok, a link in a different colour you say? You can pretty easily do it actually, but you need to have a basic grasp of what CSS is. I've done a page for you just showing you how to do it and what the effects are and it's here http://www.zen13191.zen.co.uk/fake.html . Just view the source code by clicking the "View" menu at the top of your browser and selecting "Source" (or "page source" if you use Netscape or Mozilla) then you can see all the comments I've written and exactly how to do it : ) Hope that helps!! And if you need to ask a more in-depth question, you can always email me at [email protected] - *hugs* gem xx
from baoshi :
Glad that you sorted stuff out with Rich, and well done for having it out with him - he DID deserve that and I'm glad he apologised for his behaviour! And oooooh, i remember my first roast I cooked was at uni too - man, I miss those days : ) *hugs* gem xx
from frogeye :
Salmon or beef, or perhaps both? We got a large budget on this show.
from skinnylizzie :
I have just finished my bedtime Penguin and I've also examined my cupboard under the stairs, it's not at all damp so GET ON THAT MEGABUS BABY!! (this will make no sense at all in the morning, I bet)
from wombaby :
Oh Hols, you just had me get up and search for a ruler mid-entry-reading! Evil. And my little finger is 6.5 cm long. I have a pair of gloves which is way too small for me though, they might fit you. Good luck with the Rich thing.
from frogeye :
Christmas diner 'ey! If you are the carnivorous type I'd start with a monstrous roast beef, medium rare with a fabulous gravy seasoned with sage and mint. If not, baked or poached salmon in a fresh dill/mustard sauce. Sides would include roasted garlic mashed potatoes, roasted winter squash with gorgonzola cheese , string bean casserole mixed with bacon, broccoli, mushrooms and water chestnuts, topped with French fried onions. You'd need a nice mixed salad on the side covered with ranch-garlic croutons. Oh, and to start things off, what else - roasted garlic soup topped with fresh chives & cheese. Of course, pickles, olives and fresh rolls would complete the meal. For desert, maybe a cranberry-pecan pie or just a simple pumpkin bread, topped with fresh whipped cream and sliced strawberries marinated in brandy. Or, you could have a warm fruit compote of cherries, orange and cranberries over vanilla ice cream topped with a drizzle of warm chocolate. To round off the feast - Hot Chocolate with Peppermint Schnapps. I'd better get cookin', as this would take at least a week to get it to you. Happy Dining!
from frogeye :
Hate is such a strong word, but with inanimate objects it is OK. Still suggest projectile vomiting or a good kick down into the cellar. Won't make the printer work better, but will sure make you fell better. Goal!!!!!!!!! I still have my first dot matrix printer here in the 'computer' area, basically the I don't have anywhere else to put things room. I was going to chuck it but it still works fine for what it is. Kinda like an old friend who you haven't talked to in a long time. Good memories, but lost feelings. Anyway, good luck with the new printer. I love electronic gizmos. Hey Santa, what you got cookin' for me?
from theswordsman :
How can I not leave notes when people ask me why I'm not leaving notes and I have to respond? Sometimes I get a little too involved in the whole Internet thing, and then I leave notes for people which in hindsight annoy me (my notes, not the people). So from time to time I take a break from it. I'm going to go give the gym one more shot, then come home to the chilled sangria and watch some flicks. See ya. John
from theswordsman :
I'm glad you had a great day. Since my knee and back are givig me problems, and I could barely work out again, of course I was just looking for bigger goals. I was just looking at running clubs and fun runs for next summer. Oh yeah - I'm swearing off leaving notes for the rest of the year. Gotta go check on my sangria bottle. I hope your weekend continues to rock. Take care. John
from wombaby :
Boys are *all* wankers, and you are not a crap person.
from frogeye :
Can we cook up the mouldy potatoes? You can then force feed the old printer till you get it to projectile vomit all over the cellar. If you haven't kicked it down the stairs yet you might want to try to reinstall the software and download the lastest drivers from the manufacturer. I have a Canon that can be tempermental at times and that usually does the trick.
from theswordsman :
I think if you talk to him the way you did your printer, and include the little kick, he should get the message. I hope you have a great day today. John
from bitterwineuk :
Don't you feel that way. Feeling cheap and awful does you no favours. I've been in the same position before and I had to break free in the end. It wasn't easy but nor was being messed about. You have nothing to feel bad about. You are just human after all. Have a nice weekend. Becca
from theswordsman :
Dear Holly's Conscience. You are very wise. But you should lighten up on her a bit, please, because she's a very good person, and also because she doesn't really know if she'd go through with it if plans had been made. As you know better than anyone, she could have changed her mind at the last minute. P.S. As of today, the entire Internet is waiting for her and Zoe to get together:) I'm just saying...
from ishouldcry :
damn all those electric accessories I can so sympathise with you. My world almost ended when my old pc died. I am the only person I know who is not deeply offended by the "c word" I don't know why it upsets people so much. Ah well, I'm just a tough old bird I guess. Have a good weekend and great photo. Becca
from wombaby :
You have a cellar! I'm jealous!
from wombaby :
I've just sent you a forward about the Sex Fairy, but not from the email you know me at. So I thought I'd better reassure you it's me.
from skinnylizzie :
Well, I knew you'd understand what I meant, but you know how messages get misconstrued, I didn't want to scare you! It was still freaky, the way she was 'oh, that's cool!'. I reckon the truth would probably have got more of a reaction. She is as mad as a sensationally mad tiny badger. But yes, we would make a mint lesbian couple! And on that note, I'm leaving, seeing as I've just covered your notes page in lesbian filth, hehe :D
from frogeye :
Hey, thanks for the holiday greetings. This year wasn't too bad. The cauliflower dish actually came out very well albeit a bit soupy as I didn't discount the moisture in the veggie itself. If I do it again, no added liquids. I managed to add two different cheeses, which helped with the flavor. Did indeed resemble mashed potatoes though. Please don't change your face. How would I recognize you in a crowded room? For phlegm I would suggest a good chicken noodle soup. It's the Jewish mom's remedy for any sickness, tastes great and does the trick. Of course, it's the sodium that does the trick, but who's counting. Gonna be cold here tonight with high winds. Might see some snow overnight. Happy trails!
from bitterwineuk :
hiya, hope you are feeling a little better. I so sympathise with you. I have a never ending cycle of cold after cold with nothing coming of it. I get the sneezes in the morning and a constant headache but no more. It drives me mad.Thanks for your note by the way, it was a while back now but I am here for good now. Take care and get some Lemsip in ya, Becca
from anibananie :
If you think Marabella and Tallulah are bad, think how stupid we looked when we made ourselves Teletubbies. (I was Po.) "GO TINKY WINKY!", "La-La, it's your go.", "Dipsy, can you get me some chips?" etc etc
from frogeye :
Private Pytle. Check out this site for some great mp3 sounds: http://www.moviesounds.com/fmj.htmlrivate Pylew
from frogeye :
People can do whatever they want, just don't do it with me or in front of me. That's about as liberal as I get.
from blujeans-uk :
Wood was kinda weedy. Malfoy is growing up yummy though... Did anyone else think Herm looked like a big pink christmas tree?
from frogeye :
I can only think he'd be called a 'homo'.
from frogeye :
That's funny as I call my best friend 'a gay blade' all of the time.
from ava-reborn :
I totally agree with the Philip Schofield thing!! Oh, and I saw Harry Potter yesterday! Still prefer Oliver Wood to Viktor Krum!
from baoshi :
haha! Yes, we know it's wrong because it's like fancying your mates dad! g xx
from frogeye :
"pseudo-lesbian" Yo, yo, yo , what's the status on that? I love the hat picture, but..............!!!
from frogeye :
Nutella. Here's a link to win a free case: http://www.nutellausa.com/giveaway.htm. Good luck. Glad you did the smear thing, it's very important yet uncomfortable.
from skinnylizzie :
Erm, I feel bad for getting your hopes up...it does this weird thing where it looks like a blinking eye, it basically rotates to let boats sail underneath it because it's so close to the water...or so I've heard. I've never actually seen it myself. Plus, I wish I hadn't read Sarah's note below, because now I'm definitely NEVER going to a doctor if it involves taking my pants off... And to end this bizarre bridge/naked note, Philip Schofield does look oddly attractive, especially with all that grey hair. Hmm...
from baoshi :
LOLOLOLOL!!! I am soooo glad that I'm not the only one who fancies Philip Schofield!! Dang, he's quite hot : ) *hugs* gem xx
from strawberrri :
i'm not looking forward to having a smear test, though i'm more put off ever going to the GUM clinic. two of my friends have recounted horror stories of how the nurse pokes something sharp up your wee hole and that it hurts. lovely!
from skinnylizzie :
Ah, the Tyne Bridge. You'd think it'd be more interesting after all the hype...at least the Millennium Bridge does something interesting! And I would, of course, be jumping at the chance to have a smear test, but I have this odd thing (this is gonna sound so stupid) where I violently dislike being naked...I just have a thing about my body. I'm fine down to my underwear, and then I FREAK. I can't believe I just told you that on your notes page. I'm going to try and hide it in the middle of this note by writing complete crap on the end. That photo with Paddy was bloody funny as well, it's the top email in my inbox and it makes me laugh every time I delete one and that pops up...I'm going to stop now!
from theswordsman :
Nope, just a really cool woman. John
from skinnylizzie :
Holly, I don't think you've failed to make me laugh yet...although now I do have some idea of what to expect if I ever pluck up the courage to go (unlikely, but oh well!). You shall have to warn me when you are lurking in the bridge's (which bridge is it?! Last time I counted, there was about 8!) vicinity, because then I shall come and point and laugh in my kind-hearted way
from theswordsman :
We find the same women attractive, and now you're suggesting guy movies. Curiouser and curioser. Must rush to work. Have a great rest of the day. John
from theswordsman :
Great pics. And ducks do tend to rock. Take care. John
from frogeye :
As it's (USA) official representative, I hereby declare that you are our adopted American/British little one. As such, I have to educate you in the American ways. Tonight we will start with American humor. Click here to listen to Abbott & Costello, a comedy team of the 40's and 50's. This is perhaps one of their funniest routines of their carrier. I hope you understand the basic of American baseball. http://www.phoenix5.org/humor/WhosOnFirstAudio.mp3
from skinnylizzie :
That's crazy, I saw the photo of the Christmas tree and was convinced it was Newcastle, the one here looks exactly the same as that. Hmm. Are you sure Mel hasn't dragged you to see the bridge earlier than expected?... Mysterious
from baoshi :
Yay for photos! : ) *hugs* gem xx
from frogeye :
That was a question, sorry. Had you seen the movie? Quite scary for it's time. Most would barely blink an eye now with what the film makers can do today.
from frogeye :
But the hills are alive with the sound of music and the DVD with 6 new hours of footage was just released. I'm waiting online right now, waiting to get my copy. Maybe I'll get two so that I still have one after I fry the first one in the microwave. Can you add "Psycho" as one of your favs? For black & white, that was a great film.
from blujeans-uk :
Cranial nerves are fun, especially on kids... You get them to pull faces at you, it's fantastic... Ahh, I miss paediatrics now... And it's flippin cold in this library! I had a thought... Maybe I should just email you instead of leaving notes all the time...
from frogeye :
No!!!! Don't change a thing. It wouldn't be you with the "Sound of Music", "Mary Poppins" or the "Muppet Movie" listed. Good flicks, but that would be sappy, like telling everyone you cry at the end of "Casablanca." Rick walks off with the policeman to begin a "beautiful friendship". Pass the tissues please.
from frogeye :
You know, I was just reviewing your movie favorites again. Please put down and sharp objects. "The Shining", "Silence of the Lambs" & "One Flew...". My God, you have turned into an American psycho. Those are some of the best films ever made. "Here's Johnnnnny!"
from frogeye :
I just realised you like Full Metal Jacket. What a great fucking film. "This is my rifle and this is my gun." You so rock!
from baoshi :
I keep meaning to say whenever you say about how freezing your house is - get one of these... http://www.argos.co.uk/static/Product/partNumber/4159373.htm Our student flat was freezing pretty much all year round, the central heating sucked dog dick and we didn't want the gas bill to be extortionate - electricity is cheaper than gas, and a fan heater was our absolute lifesaver! They heat a room in about 10 minutes!! Just don't leave it on overnight or you may have a fire engine situation on your hands!! *hugs* gem xx
from barefootruby :
I thought Andy was pretty good. Not that I was watching it, you understand
from barefootruby :
Please, please, please don't vote for Chico
from wombaby :
hehe thanks. sorry to be so anal!
from frogeye :
Angst is a German and Dutch word for fear or anxiety. It is used in English to describe a more intense feeling of internal emotional strife. For God's sake man, snap out of it. Surely, I jest! Why is it that we allow ourselves to set these emotional highs and lows, while others can whistle their way through life? Catch ya later.
from strawberrri :
aw i liked nicholas. i always thought he looked a bit like johnny depp, despite the ethnicity difference. about the overdraft thingy - as long as you credit your account occasionally after you graduate you should be fine. i hate banks.
from wombaby :
p.s. I called it St John's too, when I first started. Was vociferously corrected on many occasions :$
from wombaby :
ARGH! It's St John Ambulance, not St John's Ambulance!!!! (sorry, sore point)
from frogeye :
My day was a complete waste. That driver really unnerved me. I wish I had known what he was up to. And of course there's never a cop around when you need them. Tonight I'm going to try making garlic knots, as garlic is the magic elixer of life. We have places over here that have garlic festivals. Anything and everyting is made with garlic somewhere in the recipe. I wouldn't mind a garlic soup but I call it quits on garlic ice cream. Wonder what garlic gum would be like????
from ava-reborn :
I know!! My god, why wasn't he in the third film???!!! My friend puts her hair dryer under her duvet when she can'tr sleep!!! I thought she was alone!! Oh, and I smoked for about 7 years. I quit 11 years ago. But I still have the occasional fag when I'm pissed or desperate for comfort!!!!!
from frogeye :
Just checking in to say hi. Got pretty cold here last night. Think it was around 29 or 1.66C. How's the temp over there today?
from anibananie :
Times that by a whole DAY... and you get one dead Clare. Nah, just kidding. She and Hanna decided to annoy me the day before by doing that for 20 minutes solid though. Chuh.
from blujeans-uk :
I loved the animals of farthing wood.. I had the magazine and everything, and the episode where the hedgehogs got squished made me cry for two days.. I always thought Vixen was a bit of a tart though. Everyone else was Mr and MRs Rabbit, Mr and Mrs Fieldmouse, but it was just Fox and Vixen, and one day she turns round and tells him she's 'carrying his cubs'? Slapper...
from baoshi :
lololololoololololol!! The stories of your house really make me giggle!!! Hairdrying her FEET?? lol!! God bless uni acommodation : ) *hugs* gem xx
from skinnylizzie :
You make me laugh so much I'm fairly sure it's unhealthy, wench. (sorry, I just really wanted to say wench...maybe I should go to bed too. When did it get this late?!) If I ever pass you in the street if I happen to grace lovely Sheffield with my presence, I shall bow down at your feet, because you make me laugh so much it's untrue. Oh man, I have that word vomit problem again. Zoe to brain: SHUT UP
from skinnylizzie :
Haha, you're not alone though! I've been trying to work all evening and it's just not happening, damn Children In Need. Ooh, and I will be doing the leggings/Mega Fringe/blue eyeshadow fandango tomorrow afternoon when I pack Christine off to work, hurrah! (although I have a feeling I am asking for trouble, advertising it on your notes page...)
from skinnylizzie :
Oh, I do feel your pain! Still, our local section is being done at the Sage and they seem to be doing a sponsored tap dance...I didn't really understand. Ah, Look North, how I miss it! With Secretly Gay Peter and Paul the Weatherman! Lincolnshire and Yorkshire really are the places for cool kids :D
from frogeye :
Inadequate as I may feel, it is better to try to do something than to do nothing at all. Tears and anger are an important part of the healing process. Grief is not a sign of weakness. It is the result of a strong relationship and deserves the honor of strong emotion. Our job is to simply listen. The lingering close bond to your mom is sometimes thought to maintain the memories. In fact, just the opposite is true. In learning to let go and live a new and changed life, memories tend to come back more clearly. Growth and healing comes in learning to enjoy the memories you have. Entering adulthood without a parent (even a parent who died years before) can cause past grief and trauma to resurface and lead us into depression. We depend on people, especially our parents, and they hold a special place in our hearts. Losing a mother is like losing a part of yourself that cannot be replaced. When we remember someone that has been gone, we are reliving that piece of us that has been torn away. However, grief is the process that can heal this hurt. Tom
from clairecav :
Ah, you talk so much sense. I suppose they can't be that terrible, or nobody would ever go to them. And I have to go to one sometime. But it's too early to think about that! I think I'm going to retire to my bed now, thanks for talking to me, you've been a big help xXx
from clairecav :
Argj, I just hate having to think about hese things. And then tere's the whole funeral-thing, which I can't even stand to think about yet. I've never been to a funeral, but I've become so close to her in the past year I feel I will have to go, definitely. But as I said, I'm not going to start thinking about that yet...
from clairecav :
Your words are wise... but I think, what if she's not the way I always knew her and I remember her the way she is in hospital? I'm scared that she'll be so different and I'll just have a spasm right there. Which nobody wants to see..
from ava-reborn :
I so understand that feeling of losing a parent! I lost my dad 4 years ago. But I don't know how you coped losing your mum at 13!! I found you through Gem by the way!!! And I love Harry Potter too!! Can't wait to see the Goblet Of Fire!! Haven't seen Viktor Krum. I used to like the guy who played Oliver Wood though!! Cute as!! Oh, and cross country??!! That's worse than community service!!! Especially in those ridiculaous humiliating skirts!!!!!!!!
from clairecav :
I send huge hugs your way! Death is quite a bitch and I'll never know how you managed when your mum passed away. You are incredibly strong I think. *More hugs*
from frogeye :
"spag bol"? Have no idea what that is but I'll take it to be a form of spaghetti bolognese or some other delight. I on the other hand made a scratch Sloppy Joe mix. Basically it's ground beef, tomato sauce, garlic (of course), onion (ha ha), whorchester, crushed red pepper and whatever else the palette wants, ketchup and a touch of sugar. I then added a bit of sausage and a splash of Louisiana Hot Sauce(just enough to wake up the taste buds). Throw this mess onto a roll, cheese optional, and enjoy the slop as it drools out and slips off the bun onto your shirt. Mmmmmmmm....Sloppy! Check you out later toots!
from theswordsman :
Why aren't you at the movie? First of all, it's not my favorite bridge in the world or anything. To cross the Mississippi from Illinois into St. Louis, Missouri, there are only a couple of bridges. One is the Poplar Street, which radio people change to "Popular Street" because everyone takes it. That's the bridge for the Type A people who talk on mobiles while drinking coffee and putting on makeup or scratching themselves. The people all start off in the wrong lanes and then merge, which causes them to crash into each other, or in the case of a large truck, flip ove on its back like a turtle. A few years ago they reopened the Eads Bridge. I have to drive through the armpit that is East St. Louis, Illinois, to get there. But then it's two lanes each direction, and there's a protected walkway on one side that gave people their first chance to walk across the Big Muddy since the year it froze over. When the bridge first opened, there were only like three of us that took it. During the summer, they close it down for a couple of weekends and change it to the "Eats Bridge." They cover it with tables, and have various restaurants sell people food. So I take the "Unpopular Street," or "Type B" Bridge. But I love Tower Bridge, and have an excellent photo of it raised to let a small sailboat pass through. Feel free to delete this because Andrew will have to buy a bigger server to hold it all. Go to bed, or to the movies. Good night. John
from silly-moose :
Heh how I miss Ms Collier and her tracksuits. Remember that woman (can't remember her name) who wore blue eyeshadow up to her eyebrows and a PE skirt despite the fact that a) she was in her 50s and b) it was november. Think she fancied Mr Davies. What was her name?? Aww you've made me miss school, uni, England, you and all that I know and love. Damn you! No baby Jesus for Christmas for you. Off to ring you now so you better be in! xxx
from skinnylizzie :
God, that was a long note about sweet naff all, wasn't it?
from skinnylizzie :
You are currently my favouritest person in the world following that email. Mwahahaha, I LOVED cross country! We had to run 5 miles through the stinking Lincolnshire Wolds at the end of November, one year I lost both my trainers to cow pats, and then got chased by an entire herd of cows and three dogs who tried to bite me. I think that was the year I won it, coincidentally... (hot damn, I really just wanted to use this note to boast, if I'm honest). Ah, school, how I miss it!! Oh yes, and I have a DATE, a real live date! And my last random topic for this note: I am so ridiculously over-excited about Harry Potter that it's not even funny :)
from baoshi :
BAHAHAHAHAHAH!! Ginger Ron!!! Sorry, that just made me giggle :D! I'm so glad that I never went to one of those schools where we had to do cross-country - I would have DIED!! I quite frequently wanted to keel over during the 3000m!! God, PE... What a crap lesson that was! *hugs* gem xx
from frogeye :
Ah, a good vomit. Projectile vomiting is the best as you can just about hit everything and everybody within reach. Damn them for being so close anyway. Don't be down on yourself about talking with Mel. Obviously you wanted to get the words out, whether three sheets to the wind or not. I think that's part of what makes you you. And don't you love those crusty old mugs? My coffee mug sometimes gets a green family growing in it after a couple of days. Nice bunch of people but I do have to kick them out.
from baoshi :
Noooooo the dreaded drunken texts!!!! lol! God bless FastText, it's motto should be "Helping Pissed Idiots Since 1999!" :D *hugs* gem xx
from frogeye :
Sorry about the hiatus sweetcheeks. Didn't mean to snub anyone. Life doesn't change much for this guy. Shit, shower, shave as the saying goes. How is hypno treating you? I was thinking of entering the hypno world to attack my recently acquired claustrophobia. Refer to my MRI entry for a good laugh-(http://frogeye.diaryland.com/040106_85.html). I am into cooking these days as I can't relax outside after work. Tonight's entry is delicious. Hope you enjoy it. Tom
from skinnylizzie :
Was BLOODY funny though...
from blujeans-uk :
Thank you very much :) I'm quite flattered you remembered actually (when's yours?) xxx
from clairecav :
Thankyou. May I second the note under Zoe's by saying that you are NO WAY A SLAG. You're groovy and go to hypn-hypno-hypno. And how many slags can truly appreciate the Animals Of Farthing Wood, anyway?
from skinnylizzie :
Okay, I have just got back from a Greek lesson where I tried to use the word 'yamas' instead of the thing I really meant to say...you are definitely getting the blame for that :)
from baoshi :
In NO WAY are you a slag! Yeah, I can definitely understand feeling WHY you're feeling cheap - guys really suck with their decisions sometimes and I think he could have put that text message in a much nicer way but that's another story. Anyway, I can understand the way you feel, but it in no way makes you cheap! On top of that, I can kind of understand where he's coming from - everyone wants the first time to be special (it very rarely is, but, again, another story...), and I don't think that it's anything against you. In fact, I think that my be the first bloke that has actually thought about wanting to be in a stable relationship before losing the V-plates! Sorry, veering off subject there - I just hope you feel better soon, but please don't let some innocent flirting make you feel bad, sweetheart, ***hugs*** gem xx
from wombaby :
Two things. People change, that's ok. And you are NOT a slag.
from theswordsman :
I said that horribly again, but the sentiment was right.
from theswordsman :
Hang in there, Holly. You've done nothing wrong. You were thinking about getting together with someone you care about and are attracted to. You're not a bad person because you thought of it. There's a strip club near the interstate highway I drive every day. Once in a blue moon, I let myself think about what it would be like going inside. But I never actually do it. Being a human with urges and desires and moments of weakness isn't a bad thing. You'll be fine. Take care. John
from clairecav :
THE ANIMALS OF FARTHING WOODS IS THE BEST THING EVER
from wombaby :
You want inspirational, only have to look at my mum! I go home to eat and sleep, the rest of the time I'm running away. She's there 24-7 and she never ever stops.
from baoshi :
That was such a wicked entry! I completely agree with you - if I ever read over past entries I think about what sort of person I sound like (mostly a whingey one who likes to swear a lot, lol!). It's nice to get to know you more : ) *hugs* gem xx
from wombaby :
Haven't read the whole entry. But yes, MND is heartbreaking to watch. And thank God for people like you doing something about it.
from theswordsman :
Thanks again for an even sweeter note. I guess I'm wording it wrong. I'm 100% sure that Gwynneth would like to go out with me. I've never asked her, for reasons I'll probably explain in my entry today. I'm a "dissapointment" because I'm obviously attracted to her but don't do anything about it. Have a great day. I just got up and have to see if I have fallabella money. Bye. John
from theswordsman :
Thanks, but I'm a dissapointment to Gwynneth, and to the blonde who sells tickets, and a couple of other women I'll see tonight that I haven't mentioned yet. Have a great weekend, though. Maybe I'll win the lotto, buy a fallabella, and be able to say I satisfied one woman this weekend. Take care. John
from wombaby :
not a whore. or if you are, i'm worse
from skinnylizzie :
I'm already digging out my leggings. Early 1990s, here we come!
from clairecav :
Heck, I already talk to flowers. But still! Glad to see your hypno-hypno-hypno seems to be going ok! Though how your hypnotherapist can resist the temptation to make you do something painfully silly is beyond me. Let's just say I think I am too immature to ever consider a job like that...
from baoshi :
bahahaha!! I LOOOVED looking at graffiti on the desks at uni!! Mostly because it was either me or my friends who made it :D! A lot of the content was heavily South Park based or tutor based - one of our lecturers used to constantly shout at one of my mates Steve by saying "SteeeeEEEEEeeeeeEEEEEEEEven" in a really long drawn out voice, so obviously THAT made it to the back of a lecture hall seat :D - Olga does look like the sort of lecturer who rocks - this is the lecturer that rocked at our uni http://www.cms.gre.ac.uk/web/staffdetails.asp?id=223 Sorry, this was a pointless note!! *hugs* gem xx
from wombaby :
I know where you're coming from with the fuck buddy thing! Not sure what else I can say, just wanted to send a bit of support ...
from frogeye :
It's not that I really hate people. But there's less of a chance of being let down or hurt by someone if you keep them at a distance.
from frogeye :
Garlic not social? I put on a garlic after shave today, my favorite! O'd Stench! Still, maybe that's why most people leave me alone. If that's true, then I'll bathe in the damn stuff.
from frogeye :
Nothing better than garlic no matter how it's served. You could cover a dead cat in garlic and it would taste good.
from frogeye :
"Wily ways?" Me? Innocent little (eye of newt) me? Tried to insert a little spell in there just in case you weren't looking.
from qjan :
Nice guitar pic =) And the owner of the Dummy, I repeat the owner of the dummy, you're parked on the curb.
from baoshi :
Cool - the username and pw for my old diary are username: boyslike password: boobies gem xx
from baoshi :
Hello! I started reading you and decided that you rock, and am henceforth from this day adding thee to my buddy list : ) gem xx
from frogeye :
Damn, I thought I had you under my control. I must now devise another sinister spell! "Eye of newt my ass"... Where were you guys when I needed you?
from frogeye :
"Eye of newt, and toe of frog"
from frogeye :
I find the whole hypno thing facinating. Especially where your anxieties will be brought out in your dreams. Unfortunately your will have to live them out, so to speak, but in the end you will feel much better. Since the falebella wallpaper didn't work, how about a Ribena one: http://www.ribena.com.au/games_cool_stuff/cool-stuff.htm
from wombaby :
Ribena's the best thing in the world, after chocolate and tea. I hate dreams where parents die or are dying. Just remember, it's going to improve things for you in the long run. (The dreams and getting rid of it all, I mean).
from strawberrri :
thanks! :) fish fingers and pizza sounds like a meal of the gods, in my opinion.
from clairecav :
Me too! I HATE JACK! With his litle squeaky voice and annoying shirts. I much prefr Sayids sexy vest.
from frogeye :
Hypno rules! Glad you had a clear head to stay out of bed.
from wombaby :
Ending up in bed with a housemate (or ex housemate, or close male friend for whom you *really* don't have feelings, or close male friend who doesn't have feelings for you) is a BAD idea. I speak from a summer's worth of experience! Well done for stopping.
from clairecav :
I shall forgive you for your forgetfulness, because I am so pleased that the hypno-hypno-hypno went well for you :)
from anibananie :
Hypno-hypno-hypno! I think it'll soon become a cult thing... And I love the photos! More!
from clairecav :
Hypno-hypno-hypno! WOOOHOOOOO!
from wombaby :
I'm glad it went well. There was a sign up in Co-Op today saying "we reserve the right not to sell flour, eggs or silly string to young people".
from frogeye :
Good luck with your dad and the money situation. I'm sure everything will work out fine. And they egg your house over there also. Thought that prank was an American one. Do they also spray shaving cream all over the place? I hate when my car gets hit as the cream can really damage the paint. Happy trails!
from blujeans-uk :
Emma had hypnotherapy over the summer, so you're not the only one out there :) Glad the first session went well for you. Sounds like he made you feel better in that one session than C did over the whole of last year. Liverpool might be coming to clash swords with Sheffield again at some point this year, if you fancy meeting up afterwards?
from blujeans-uk :
Emma had hypnotherapy over the summer, so you're not the only one out there :) Glad the first session went well for you. Sounds like he made you feel better in that one session than C did over the whole of last year. Liverpool might be coming to clash swords with Sheffield again at some point this year, if you fancy meeting up afterwards?
from anibananie :
Glad the hypno went well! (Thanks to Claire I now get "hypno-hypno-hypno" in my head...)
from frogeye :
Hope your hypno session went well.
from pink-fairy :
leave me your email address and I shall email it to you again :) xxx
from frogeye :
Good luck on Monday. Maybe you can channel some of the hypno vibes this way. In the meantime here's a Monty video: http://www.amazon.com/gp/film-festival/generic/player.html/103-9768105-2204649?xmlURL=http://images.amazon.com/images/G/01/dvd/python/penguin.jpg
from wombaby :
Thanks for the hugs too, I needed 'em!
from frogeye :
What's shakin'? Life is good, it's Friday. Can't wait for 5 and I am so out of here. Need to make a stop at the beer store and I will be more than happy. And at 8 BBC America shows a couple of your brit-coms which I find funny as hell. What's your party like for tonight?
from frogeye :
Eye of newt, and toe of frog!
from frogeye :
Dr Hypno here! When you hear the words "Eye of newt, and toe of frog" you will slowly stand and begin cursing at the top of your lungs. After three or four choice words you will then sit down and continue what you were doing. When I snap my fingers your will awaken................SNAP! Hello dear how are you feeling?
from anibananie :
Good luck with the hypnotherepy, it sounds cool. Shame it has to be so expensive though :( you sound like you have good friends though, so you'll be fine
from clairecav :
Good luck with the hypnotherapy-lark. Just be careful that you don't start barking whenever you hear the word "banana". That would be unfortunate. Is it just me who gets the urge to go "Hypno-hypno-hypno-hypno!" in the style of "Techno-techno-techno-techno!"? No? Ok...
from wombaby :
Good luck!
from frogeye :
You're eyelids are getting heavy, very heavy. When I snap my fingers you will be in a deep, deep sleep...SNAP!
from frogeye :
Sorry about that chief.
from frogeye :
Your getting sleepy, very sleeeeepyyyyyyyyy........
from frogeye :
I think hypnotherapy is a great idea. I'd go myself but I'm afraid to face my fears.
from wombaby :
My parents thought about getting me hypnotherapy to deal with my fear of the word "essay" ...
from frogeye :
You should get the recording for "Somewhere Beyond The Sea" by Bobby Darin. He is the one who made the song famous. And it is a great song. Here's a link to a sample file: http://music.allofmp3.com/r2/Bobby_Darin/Beyond_The_Sea_-_The_Very_Best_Of/group_5164/album_2/albref_29/mcatalog.shtml Be well britallia!
from theswordsman :
It's wahy healthier to acknowledge they're attractive than to tear them down the way some people do. Oops - past my bedtime again. Cheers. John
from wombaby :
Cups of tea are one of my favourite new things since I moved to England!
from wombaby :
There's very little that chocolate doesn't help to some extent. Of course, sometimes it doesn't help enough, and then you just end up feeling bloated and not having space to eat any proper food ... or maybe that's just me.
from wombaby :
All I can say is I know that feeling, I hate that feeling, and eventually it does pass. *hugs* and *chocolate*
from theswordsman :
Again, I find it both comforting and a wee bit alarming that we find the same women attractive. Hope your weekend is going well. I am just up and thirty seconds into learning about Indie Rock. Take care. John
from skinnylizzie :
Thank you for the hug, I hope the trip to Morrisons with sexy (!) Rich was as much fun as a trip to the supermarket can be ;)
from clairecav :
Indeedly we all have bad nights now and then :/ I'm glad to see you're sounding a bit chirpier! And the number 1 reason to go to Morrisons? I don't know the official reason, but I'd say it was the sausage rolls. MMM!
from skinnylizzie :
Aww, I miss Look North for Yorkshire and Lincolnshire! I don't like the northern Look North. I think I even miss Paul the weatherman and Peter's secret affair...
from wombaby :
I'm wearing three layers (four counting my bra), and I'm still cold. I really think it's time to have the central heating on (as I'm actually sometimes colder inside than out!) but my housemates don't feel the cold much and are quite touchy on the subject of the electricity bill. I may add another layer.
from blujeans-uk :
I got stopped by Norwegian Mormon missionaries today, saw their name badges and thought they both had the forename 'Elder'... doofus... so I chatted a bit then wished them Merry Christmas (that and 'dirty plate' being the only two Norwegian phrases I know) and went on my way. If you like male opera, have you tried Andrea Bocelli?
from blujeans-uk :
I got stopped by Norwegian Mormon missionaries today, saw their name badges and thought they both had the forename 'Elder'... doofus... so I chatted a bit then wished them Merry Christmas (that and 'dirty plate' being the only two Norwegian phrases I know) and went on my way. If you like male opera, have you tried Andrea Bocelli?
from skinnylizzie :
God no! It's that one with Lisa thingy...a blonde woman...that probably doesn't help. It's on LivingTV, and good call on the Manlady thing, I thought I was the only one who thought that! (Plus, Your Song by Ewan McGregor? Like a kick in the proverbial balls, gets me every time)
from wombaby :
Chased by the Dragon, Caught by the Lamb? I've read that (a present from my evangelist aunt); it's all about a drug dealer who got caught, jailed, and then turned Christian. And thanks to God, he's a new man. Etc. Spot any flaws? (I wasn't totally convinced). Can I just say that Aqua may be embarrassing, but I love it anyway (in small doses) :-)
from frogeye :
A "needy sadcase", I doubt it. A person facing reality with a great deal of courage - yes. Hang in there sweety and what's the next assignment? Tom
from theswordsman :
Thanks. Hopefully tomorrow I'll wake up wealthy and spend the day shopping for fallabellas. Cheers. John
from wombaby :
I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not *hugs*. It can only get better ... I hope.
from strawberrri :
you've always come across to me as a very loveable person, just sorry i can't offer any words more helpful *hugs*
from blujeans-uk :
I can't really say much that hasn't already been said, but I second it all :) Have you had a glandular fever screen? And your housemates sound lovely... Mine are becoming quite expert at using the small-talk-reserved-for-people-they-either-don't-know-or-don't-get-on-with-that-well around me... Hope your cold goes away soon, and hope the rest of you feels better too. xxx
from blujeans-uk :
I can't really say much that hasn't already been said, but I second it all :) Have you had a glandular fever screen? And your housemates sound lovely... Mine are becoming quite expert at using the small-talk-reserved-for-people-they-either-don't-know-or-don't-get-on-with-that-well around me... Hope your cold goes away soon, and hope the rest of you feels better too. xxx
from anibananie :
Just because it was 6 years ago it doesn't mean it can't still hurt. People mourn lost relatives for decades sometimes so I guess there's no time limit. Hang in there (hugs)
from wombaby :
I don't think you suck ass at all. And I keep thinking I should be used to Dad's being ill, but I'm not. I guess maybe you never get used to losing a parent, you just get better at pretending you're ok. And grief is one of those funny things where it takes a stupidly long time to come back and bite you ... does that make sense?
from theswordsman :
Hang in there, friend.
from anibananie :
Ah, my treasured beanie... I do love it. I got it in Edinburgh last year from Topshop - 7. Extortionate. But cool :D
from frogeye :
Oh, I already know hell will be my home. We welcome you with open arms. Try reading Sarte, he has an interesting spin on Hell.
from frogeye :
Sorry to hear above the MSG crash. Maybe it's the Christian right trying to get back at you. Onward Christian soldiers marching off to ...................
from wombaby :
The caffeine has definitely helped the headache, and the joy of having finished my french coursework even more so! :-D
from wombaby :
Dear oh dear, hope you're feeling better soon. MSG is crap in general - Mum's got issues with it too, and I just hate the way it makes food taste.
from anibananie :
Beautiful rant... I did RS GCSE and when I heard about the missionary Christians I went a bit mad, saying, "Religion is a choice! You can't make someone believe!" Though I think I had an advantage compared to most of my class because I'm an atheist and therefore had a more... objective point of view, rather than the Catholics who were all "Woo, God."
from frogeye :
Wonderful rant! I agree that faith should be a choice and not forced upon you. I've found that the overly religious types have real problems with others who are not so zealous in their beliefs. Best way to handle it - let them go on and on, smile a lot. There is no changing their feelings, so I just let them be. Either that or start questioning the existence of God, that really sets them off.
from frogeye :
I love to help out. Actually learned something in the process. What's the next assignment teach?
from wombaby :
Do you know, that's an awfully tempting proposition. Sadly, she's in the States, and I'm not sure precisely where. May have to stalk a little (incidentally, she is the friend who taught me all I know about stalking ... she has some talents).
from wombaby :
No? What a shame.
from wombaby :
Yes, that's the one. Sometimes I wonder why I still speak to her. George Bush is quite terrifying. Assassinate Becky quick while she's not famous and nobody will notice ... (er, spot the holes in that plan?)
from wombaby :
I hate when people try to force their religion on someone else. Especially when they are manipulative about it. I've had a couple of friends like that; one of them appears to have outgrown the phase, one of them is psycho-Sunita.
from frogeye :
Rotten vegetables and bleach! Hmmmmm, what a wonderful new fragrance. I say we market it and let your dad sell it on ebay.
from theswordsman :
I finally got around to confessing it when I saw it at the theater last summer. I just couldn't make myself type Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants again. DOH!
from anibananie :
I haven't got the hang of studying either - so much so they've put me in a working detention! How crap is that?!
from silly-moose :
Hey you big (honorary) dyke. It made me very sad to read your last couple of entries, I know things are hard for you right now but I had no idea you were feeling so bad. I know I'm not there in person but please talk to me hon, we got quite good at that last year remember? I'm missing you millions and want to be there for you still. Started your letter in my last lecture today! And have a look at flybe flights for after Xmas, they're bound to be cheaper and we can have lots of fun together with the frenchies. Love you millions honey and don't forget it :) L xxxx
from frogeye :
Wish I had the wisdom of Solomon to find the words to cheer you. Hang in there baby, your perky liveliness shall soon envelop us all.
from skinnylizzie :
I know nothing I say will help in the slightest, but I just wanted to give you a big hug (from your friendly fellow Look North hater) and tell you that you DO have a lot to offer anybody, and things will absolutely definitely pick up for you, because they inevitably do for fantabulous people. And as for not being a good friend - you've always cheered me up whenever I've spoken to you, and we've never even met! And that takes some doing. So have a big pat on the back from me, find some Cadbury's Crunchie chocolate (because there's nothing that can't solve) and look forward to the good times, because they're a-coming. And here ends my Hallmark speech! :D xx
from wombaby :
*hugs*
from theswordsman :
Hang in there. People care about you. You have got SO much to offer. Okay, it's past my bed time and I barely slept last night, so there's no chance I can do this right. What if you took some time tomorrow and went to your favorite place in town. Or a movie? Spoil yourself a bit? People care. John
from theswordsman :
We have a T.J. Maxx. Not sure I'm welcome there, though. Maybe you're my hero. John
from theswordsman :
So, your ability to track cities and page counts intrigued me, because you're my hero and I want to be like you in every way possible. I just installed my own non-Diaryland stats counter, & it's so freaking cool! I wish I had it when I was running banners & 300 people a day passed through. Now where can I find a hat that will make me look more butch? Cheers. John
from theswordsman :
Cookie batter stirring has been a much underrated skill through the ages. Plus, especially if there's oatmeal involved, it's a good arm workout. No jiggly arms on the cookie stirrers of the world. Does stalker guy use the same computer all the time? You know you can block him now. It wouldn't totally keep him away, but if it would take away access from his home computer, it might help. Or her, I suppose, there is the whole butch hat attraction thing going on. Good luck with the letter. Have a great weekend. I'm off to increase my serotonin levels. Cheers. John
from wombaby :
Quite likely would! But I've never had a period last a month, whereas I have had a period start at 8:55 before a three hour practical starting at nine o'clock. I was not a happy bunny!
from wombaby :
Thought of something that sucks more: your period starting at five to nine when you have a practical from nine til twelve. Aren't you impressed? Bet you thought I'd never come up with something that sucked more than class at nine o'clock! (Although technically that is a cluster of things, so I'm not sure if it counts ...)
from frogeye :
Bleak would be a step up from this rat hole. But you gotta do, what you gotta do to get thru the day. I try to keep occupied, meet the minimum numbers and converse with the world. Did you get the router working? As an attic dweller, you remind me of Anne Frank.
from wombaby :
Nine o'clock lectures suck like nothing else. I don't know how I ever managed to get to work for eight o'clock in the morning!
from frogeye :
Even when grumpy and hormonely challenged, you are a pleasure to read. Feel better.....
from frogeye :
Well, thank you kindly sweet brit. I do try to keep my words light and lively. No sense bringing down the house. And speaking of the lesbo hat - keep it. Gotta love a lessi, as they say.
from clairecav :
Thankyou! You know, the Russian look is SO in, so if you feel the need for a hat like that, now is the time! We are talking far too much about hats, methinks...
from frogeye :
rickem-rockem-really-sockem---Go Holly! Just thought you needed a good cheer for today.
from anibananie :
Hmm automated email service seems to be screwing up!! Yours is (now not so private) buffylass, boyssuck. Nice and personal :P
from anibananie :
Oh dear. Good luck with that! (Also, if you get the chance... ask him what it feels like! :P)
from anibananie :
Aaw. I always think it would be SO ironic if someone was in love with YOU and you had no idea and you were fucking up their love life... not funny ha-ha exactly, but you know what I mean when I say it would be funny. I wonder what it feels like.
from anibananie :
Ah, if only it were that easy... Right now I'm in that sort of mindset where I'll settle for anybody, but I've done that before and know not to make that mistake again. I'd love to abstain from boys for a while but I'm so frickin' lonely! Oh well. Neither of us have had much luck lately have we?
from skinnylizzie :
You AREN'T an ugly hunchback, or even remotely ugly at all. I kid you not, my lovely. It's his loss if he can't see that; there'll be somebody much better for you out there. I also came here to say that the Cleethorpes train is obviously vastly superior to any other train because it occasionally has li'l ol' me on it! Now, wouldn't that just brighten up your train journey? ;) (don't answer that...and I'm sending lots of hugs your way)
from clairecav :
Matt = Twat (I am like, SO mature!) Forget him and go on a hat-buying splurge.
from frogeye :
"stompzinnig" Yes, you have to love the Dutch and there flare for words. Did I mention dumpkof and dullard? How about a chorteling bunghole (a favorite of mine). Cheers!
from frogeye :
A dork for you? Hardly, you are much too intelligent and interesting than that. A dunce, yes, but not a dork. Obtuse, of course! Or perhaps: stompzinnig, stupide, stumpf, beschrnkt or nudnick for that matter, but not a dork. Fear not, as things will certainly work out for you. So stomach in, chest out and face the world with rose colored glasses.
from theswordsman :
Sorry about Matt. The guy's a wanker. I paged back through a couple of weeks of your entries Saturday to get my facts straight about the "bluntly" and the "gutted." Have a good day. John
from skinnylizzie :
Oh, relationship angst is far more important than my crappy little diary! But I appreciate the welcome back note anyway :). As far as I know all bridges are still standing, but who the hell knows what these mad Geordie types will get up to next? They are an extremely crazy bunch of people - loveable but crazy, hehe
from clairecav :
Then dude, get your bum down to H&M because my purdy feminine hat is only 2.99 aswell! Then you could banish your Lesbian Hat (which I don't think is THAT lesbian, really) for good.
from theswordsman :
Then here's your daily smile from me:) Have a great Sunday, and enjoy the sunny weather. John
from frogeye :
Dont try to outguess the future, instead control your issues. If Paddy is meant to be, so be it. If not, NEXT! OK guys, keep the line moving. You #13, what are you bringing to the table. #6, straighten up you dork!
from frogeye :
Remember it is okay to feel sad. As a way of working through your sadness you could, for example, write about your feelings in a journal as you did, listen to music, go for a walk. Try to structure your time and take part in activities you enjoy. Remember that any relationship has something to teach you and that you have gained experience having been involved with someone. And finally; "The winds of change take us into a space where many challenges await the growing spirit." Take care little one, you have taken a gaint step.
from wombaby :
The X Factor! I may have to actually remember to watch that, if I can be bothered to work out what time it's on. Or I may just read some more economics .... You have made me crave chocolate digestives, and I don't buy biscuits. However, I'm going home tomorrow, and my parents *always* have chocolate digestives! :-)
from theswordsman :
I'm sorry - none of that is actually my business.
from theswordsman :
So, it was almost two weeks ago that you "bluntly" told Paddy about Matt, and you said he looked "gutted." The guy's had a chance to put on one layer of protective armor after another since then. If a woman I care about tells me she has a boyfriend, in two weeks time I've got more layers of protection built up than the crown jewels. Finding out that it's suddenly over, and that maybe it was the other bloke's idea, wouldn't be enough for me to let down my guard. The text message sounds like the outside layer of the security system. I could say something like that and then get drunk on my arse for six months when no one's there to see. Maybe he's just giving you a bit of space, or waiting to see how you really feel. Enjoy the television. Tomorrow you'll have a great day. Take care. John
from theswordsman :
Thanks. I actually resorted to looking it up in Internet dictionarys. I now know about twenty expression using the word arse. I also found out there is an English to American dictionary online. That cracked me up. I hope you're haveing a kickass day today. Take care. John
from theswordsman :
But what does it mean!???
from wombaby :
You tell him girl! *hugs*
from frogeye :
Regarding your profile mention of "Hot Tomato." It's probably a combination of the 1920's expressions "Hotsy-Totsy" (pleasing) and "Tomato" (female). A "femme fatale" if you will.
from anibananie :
No you're not crappy! Soon this will all be a bad memory. Just work your way through it and stuff karma!
from frogeye :
I never thought you were complaining, but rather looking at the reality of things. Dont you feel that you can like (love) two people, but in different ways? Impossible? No. Impractical? Yes. And that's why we try to figure out who's the "real" love of our life, so we can end the ambiguity. Of course, the answer might be that both people are "the real thing." Honestly, it's hard to find everything you want in one person. In the words of Tolstoy: As there are as many minds as there are heads, so there are as many kinds of love as there are hearts.
from frogeye :
Why in God's name would you think you are a crappy person? I think Matt has some soul searching to do to blow something like that past you. Perhaps he's not ready for a real relationship. Go with your heart little brit.
from theswordsman :
I just tried to leave you a long note, & the DSL gods intervened. I'll take the hint. I'm not online much these days, but if you ever feel the need to talk things over with a stranger, my msn messenger account is [email protected] You're a good person. Don't beat yourself up. Take care. John
from theswordsman :
You are SO not crappy. Are you sure it's karma? Is there a chance that he or someone he knows read today's entry? Anyway, don't feel badly. When I left home this morning after reading your post, I thought to myself that I'd rather be told immediately so I could get on with my life. I don't mean that as frivolously as it sounds, but I'm totally loyal to a woman and wouldn't give a thought to another while I was committed. I'll let you sort things out a bit before I say anything else. Take care. John
from frogeye :
I was thinking of a Northampton cooking pot, but alas, they are (were) only made in Northampton. What to make, what to make.....
from frogeye :
If only I had my pottery wheel.......
from frogeye :
To the contrary, you have outlined yourself with an interesting flare.
from theswordsman :
I spent the day in Nottingham once. I had hot cocoa at Ye Olde Trip to Jerusalem. I liked that a lot. I spent some time shopping for a pair of basketball shoes, including at Lily Whites, but of course that was as successful as looking for the castle. I spoke to a cab driver once who lived in Grantham, and he said that some day he'd make it to Nottingham to see the castle. I just couldn't break the news to him. I did really like the shopping mall, though. Take care. John (Feel free to delete - I went quite long as well).
from frogeye :
Great writing. I'm halfway thru your 101 list. Gotta save some for later.
from silly-moose :
heh i take it bastard wanking pipex cut you off. got to go now chick, talk to you soon. hurry up and send presents! love you xxx
from silly-moose :
Hey you! Greetings from the crazy world of French bureaucracy. Finally got registered today after a week of turning up at apparently the wrong places. First lecture tomorrow (I hope - was supposed to be today at 7.45 am but the lecturer didn't turn up). Bonne chance with the membrane thing. Send my letter pronto! Can't wait to see your spangly cream house again. Lisa xxx
from candoor :
once upon a time I wanted to study neuroscience, but somehow went to work instead of staying at university (alas, work offered cash, uni demanded it :)
from theswordsman :
You have GREAT taste in women:) Take care. John
from skinnylizzie :
Well, that's okay then, because I wonder exactly the same about you! Our conversations make me laugh, and that is DEFINITELY the best kind of conversation :)
from skinnylizzie :
Me scared of our conversations?! I thought it'd be the other way around!!!
from skinnylizzie :
I didn't even say bye to my parents, I was way too upset! They walked with me and my school friend down to the union and went 'right, better go now', so I looked the other way and said 'yep, see you round'. I heard a vicious rumour they were a bit upset. But if they'd hugged me I would've got down on my knees and begged them to take me home! Probably for the best...
from wombaby :
If it's any comfort, my cousin brought me to uni, not my parents. She made my bed for me though. And my parents were in another country ... seems like a good excuse.
from wombaby :
I always feel daft after I post the really down entries, when I wake up the next morning. But they were real at the time.
from skinnylizzie :
Did I say friend? I was clearly being insincere but just forgot to clarify that. Damn my idiocy
from skinnylizzie :
That is AMAZING news. If you get to actually meet Paul the weatherman, ask him if he really hates our mate Peter, and then tell him to give Peter a kick in the shins from me. God, I wish I was in Sheffield right now! (actually, I don't, because a friend of mine called Catherine Prescott goes to uni there, and she is EVIL. I meant to warn you about her before. Shudder)
from albygocougs :
never be sorry.
from wombaby :
No need to be sorry *hugs*.
from theswordsman :
Thanks for the encouragement. Have a great weekend. John
from clairecav :
I'm glad I can proivde such a flashback with minimal flashing, hurrah! I've read your diary many a time and always meant to add you. I'm going to give myself a kick up the backside and do it now, I think!
from skinnylizzie :
Ah...mega fringe...they were good days. That fringe was better than a chastity belt, I should've kept it!
from ambershine :
Hey. Just wanted to say hi. Love your diary, all though it doesn't view properly in my browser (1280x800), just thought you might want to know that :)
from strawberrri :
we won the ashes?! i feel like i'm living in a hole under the floorboards with my lack of knowledge... hope you're feeling less shit soon *hugs*
from wombaby :
Ooh, names on papers is extremely exciting! I share your excitement!
from pink-fairy :
I have just added this to my own notes by accident!: If he freaks out then he certainly isn't worth being with. But maybe when you do tell him, you should sugar coat it slightly and say that you get stressed out by stuff and so tablets calm you down. As I know some people can be so ignorant and will assume that if you take pills then you are mad or crazy. People like that aren't worth dealing with. Hope that made sense :)
from skinnylizzie :
Hmm, I too have gone far beyond the borders of boredom. I'm holed up in a house I can't leave with the curtains drawn because my neighbours have decided to retile their roof and are sitting on top of their conservatory watching me...I feel your pain
from pink-fairy :
Maybe don't tell him yet and see how the next meeting goes and if its goes good then tell him after that :)
from skinnylizzie :
Oh hell, I'd forgotten that... Sorry! :D
from skinnylizzie :
NEWCASTLE, BABY! Who wouldn't want to go there?! It's AMAZING! Not that I'm biased. At all. Anyway, I came to apologise for anything odd I might've said on Friday night. I was in a dangerous mood and my family had stupidly left me all on my own. I can only hope and pray that I didn't say something that may have frightened you :)
from strawberrri :
when bobby licked janelle's bare shoulder today i was nearly sick...
from silly-moose :
I didn't get pierced but I do now officially have shorter hair than my brother. Gone is the mullet, here is the hair so short it's nearly blonde! Meeting L's mother tonight looking like a big ole dyke. Arcade whatever was good then? x
from bodily04 :
hey you, here's a big hug coming at you from notts today. Off to see Fay and possibly get pierced in town this afternoon then back to the girl :) How's the Matt situation? x
from wombaby :
The fact that you consider that important to note suggests in itself that you're being over-analytical! Lol I was babbling a lot last night, sorry if I got annoying.
from skinnylizzie :
I think I just added you to my MSN contacts whilst in a dazed stupor (hey, it's early in the morning for me!), hope you don't mind. Not that I'm ever online at the moment, but oh well. And yes, I can relate to exactly how you're feeling re: the boy situation. I whined for ages about being single, and then when the 'beau' came along, I whined because I couldn't get rid of him. No wonder men say women are fickle!
from bitterwineuk :
Thanks for your comment. I agree with you 100% on that, if you are on the donation list, then it's your decision to help not that of next of kin. In fact I think it would be better if donation was done in all cases unless the person DISAGREED to it. For example, everyone goes to a GP from time to time, they should ask when you are 16/18 if you would have any problem with donating organs when you die. More people would get help and those who want to donate can have their wishes carried out. It would also be quicker and easier to find someone who doesn;t donate than those who do if it's true that 75% of us want to do it. It will also determine who is suitable quicker too. Sorry to rant on but I'm on a roll today. Becca.
from anibananie :
Ahem, adoption. Not asoption. Oops!
from anibananie :
I know how you feel - my family went through a long and eventaully painful process to adopt a child. We never managed it, and it still hurts. But whenever we see the asoption storylines on tv, we end up pointing out all the faults, and I can't vouch for the other members of my family but I get really nostalgic. It's quite sad - obviously not as sad as your story, but leastways I know how you feel.
from wombaby :
I saw bits of that Casualty thing. I thought it was tasteless having people phone in to vote on who should live and who should die. So I stopped watching and did the payout up instead. Anyway, good luck with Matt, it will be fine. I should be saying something profound like even if you get hurt you might decide that it was worth it for the good stuff. But that just sounds naff, so I won't say it. Just have fun! *hugs*
from skinnylizzie :
Hey, I might nip up to school and suggest that to one of my old maths teachers, because he really should not be teaching something as hard as P3! I used to cry with relief when I fell into my Classics and German classes (and with the latter, that's REALLY saying something...)
from skinnylizzie :
Whoa, if you are a stalker then I am most definitely a stalker! Taking A Level maths was the worst decision I have EVER made...I knew I should've listened to my teachers and stuck with biology, no matter how much I hated the damn plants and climate change!
from skinnylizzie :
That's fine, I'm not busy this evening, plenty of time to destroy a major Yorkshire landmark and make it look like an accident... :)
from skinnylizzie :
Ooh, good thinking Batman, I'll start a blockade on the Humber Bridge, cut them off at the source methinks
from skinnylizzie :
I couldn't have said it better myself. I feel your pain.
from skinnylizzie :
Woo yeah, you mentioned the Land Of Fish! Although I do have to say that I agree with you on the Hull thing, it is a dive and should be cordoned off from the rest of the country and the people there should be poked with pointy sticks
from boo40 :
sorry hol:-/ I am probably your mystery stalker, think I happened across your diary from Kates profile.I am only slightly loony, being as I am, mother of blujeans. sorry for any angst caused.
from theswordsman :
Thank you for writing it. Cheers. John
from anibananie :
Thank you for the luck! I'm gonna need it :S
from skinnylizzie :
Hmm, well I class it as a good thing but only because I'd rather forget the first time round, what a loser! I refer to him affectionately as 'that fat fucker' now. Oh, no love lost here!
from skinnylizzie :
Oh, you're not alone there, never fear!
from wombaby :
Dog racing, hm. So it'll be Sheffield this evening. Think of me, sitting boredly in a betting shop :-)
from bitterwineuk :
yay, dog racing. I went twice as work parties and it's great fun. Just make sure you have good company and loads of booze, that's how we got through it. :) Becca
from anibananie :
Meep! Poor me. If you nuke me, my diary will end... nuke Viv and all the world's suffering will end. You have one nuke. Who do you nuke? And one last thing... NUKE. I thought I hadn't said it enough in this nuke - I mean note.
from anibananie :
Haha, whoops. Didn't realise it would have that effect on you... I duly apoligise, and if you DO start having a sex dream about the hideous couple, try and nuke 'em. In the dream. And possibly in real life.
from pink-fairy :
I take Microgynon and its really good, very few side effects. The only noticeable one is that it will make you chest double in size :)
from anibananie :
Just found a picture of Paddy on your pictures page. But I still can't shake off this mental picture of the overweight Yorkshire vet... getting off with Viv. Shudder.
from anibananie :
Whenever you mention Paddy I am ashamed to say I think of Paddy from Emmerdale...
from skinnylizzie :
Crappy disco tunes rule! I also have a disturbing amount of sex dreams, which I think says something about my filthy subconscious. Go you for getting a boy!
from pink-fairy :
OMG! You have a boy! :) Am very chuffed for ya :)
from albygocougs :
Woot woot! on the dating. TMNT truly were the best - i think i liked donatello, didnt corey feldman do his voice? anyway, i met my boyfriend on craigslist (idk if you use/know of CL over there) but its essentially this free classified ad website. also met my ex-girlfriend (yeah, i like both girls and boys) of 3 years through a personals ad. no shame at all. half the people i know in the city meet folks the same way - personals and craigslist. the internet is a wonderful gift, hehe.
from ishouldcry :
sorry, it's bitterwineuk here, forgot i was signed in as my other diary still. Feel free to check this one out too. It's just the stuff I don't say in my main diary. Sorry if I confused you. Becca.
from ishouldcry :
hurrah for Neighbours. I love it. think the wrestling and spelling stories are crap at the mo but sadly I admit to fancying Karl Kennedy and Max's dad. lol. i must be getting old....
from bitterwineuk :
thank you very much. *:0) I'm adding your diary to my faves too. Good to see another uk person on board. Someone else who might be into Hollyoaks and UKBig Brother. hehehe.Becca
from silly-moose :
Oi you, trying to get in touch with you to get your key so I can go back to your house and trash it. text me! x
from somstar :
Yeah the Uni people never really care about the level, or you, unless you're in part of their clique.
from wombaby :
I know - I use IE on my computer and on my Dad's. But Mum is still running Windows ME or something like that, and it's starting to show ... And no, the PMT is *not* a friend.
from wombaby :
Quelle pain in arse. Your layout doesn't work very well in Netscape (which is what I have to use on Mum's puter as her IE is crappy) ... so I can sympathise! My diary doesn't show up properly on Mum's puter either, come to think about it. If I was clever at html-y things, I'd try to fix it. But I'm not, and being very pre-menstrual, I'd probably just balls it up today.
from blujeans-uk :
I think it helps that you can pin down the things that make you unhappy. And boys are stupid, especially the ones you think are going well then they turn round and say they were just trying you out (that was so disheartening...) or were only interested for the sex, even though you thought they actually liked you.. That's a bummer too. Hugs xx
from skinnylizzie :
Now I've sent 4 about the same thing, so take comfort in the fact that we are both as bad as each other :)
from skinnylizzie :
No offence taken, I'm not the most motivated person in the world! But I do know who you mean, and yes it is rather odd. She's better than the really smiley, annoying one who used to be on whilst I was still at school. She tormented me for years!
from skinnylizzie :
Oh Lord, I know, he doesn't even try to hide it. I like it when he has to go out into the community, he usually ends up totally humiliated in some amusing way
from skinnylizzie :
I forgot you'd get the joy that is Look North! God, people in the rest of the UK just don't know what they're missing! :)
from albygocougs :
i know exactly what you mean about the lonely feeling. i think ive always "seen" myself as being alone... like a nun or something. and ive always been uber independent... a little too independent... its one of my character flaws i think, but also caused by serious loss and major trust issues. it will all come together in time if its something you want to work on or change. and thank you for putting yourself out there and sharing the raw stuff.
from wombaby :
Oh the independence thing is all well and good, but doesn't it sometimes get so lonely.
from pink-fairy :
*sends you loads of love and hugs and pink fluffy things to make you feel better* men are shits honey, xxx
from wombaby :
Damn men :-( *hugs*
from wombaby :
I can't say you've ever struck me as ugly. Boys can be weird on occasions, but I doubt he'd've said yes to a second date if he wasn't interested. And if he wasn't, more fool him and he doesn't know what he's missing out on. Good luck and have a fantabulous time on Tuesday!
from wombaby :
7 1/2 stone is definitely far too light. Unless she's really short or something. I wish exams had that effect on me though!
from wombaby :
That's pretty butch! I want anyone but Eugene to win (I don't watch it) cos Susan at work has loads of money on him. I'm a bitch like that :-)
from silly-moose :
Hehe, in that hat I think you possibly look gayer than I do. And that's saying something as I'm currently wearing my lesbian jeans, Birkenstocks and new lesbian glasses (they're specially made for lesbians to help us pick each other out!) x
from skinnylizzie :
I'm sorry you're feeling down, have lots of *hugs*, I know it probably doesn't help but hey, it's always nice to know somebody's thinking of you :)
from wombaby :
*hugs* You should go back to the doctor; it's supposed to take a bit of jiggling before you get the right combination of drugs. If things are wrong, there's no point in suffering with them. And there is no reason at all why Adam shouldn't want to get to know you. You're far more than just an anxiety condition, and you're not supposed to be perfect! You'd be bloody annoying if you were. *more hugs*
from skinnylizzie :
I have that poster! You have good taste!
from silly-moose :
Woo go you! Now we can both be nauseating going on about our new girlfriend/potential boyfriends! I'll ring you this week sometime x
from somstar :
They like to talk a lot, because they get paid a lot to do something, and talking is the easiest thing to do ^^
from skinnylizzie :
Ah, I shall sleep easier tonight knowing that there's not somebody out there after my blood! No word vomit...does that mean it went well? ;)
from skinnylizzie :
Not a lie! Knock him dead, hehe
from skinnylizzie :
Haha, I bet you will! Chill, you'll be fine, wow him with your lovely new hair do and your fabulously good looks, I bet that once you get there you won't even think of worrying about word vomit! ;)
from silly-moose :
Date?! Why have I not heard about this?? Good luck chick and let me know all the details later :) x
from skinnylizzie :
Well clearly I win the prize for worst thing to say to somebody before a date! You'll absolutely definitely not get word vomit, because unlike me you are not a complete and utter idiot :)
from skinnylizzie :
I'm sure you'll be much better than me, I get terrible word vomit in one-on-one situations! I hope it goes okay, I'm sure it will!
from skinnylizzie :
Go you! Enjoy your date, and make him pay ;)
from anibananie :
BASTARD FRUIT FLIES!!!
from wombaby :
I'm sure it will get better. Living alone is generally pretty depressing, but people will be back in another few weeks. *hugs* (p.s. not trying to sound as patronising as i probably do!)
from silly-moose :
Hey you, just to say happy weekend and feel free to ring me when the boredom sets in. Especially tomorrow as, ahem, it's someone's birthday :) Heh, I am the queen of subtlety. x
from skinnylizzie :
You're very welcome, I'm glad it made you smile :)
from pink-fairy :
I can't believe he trusted snape either. But a few chapters before he does say about when he does make mistakes of judgement they are always very big ones. H xxx
from anibananie :
I was at the place where Pride and Perjudice was filmed last Sept and they said that eavesdropping comes from servants being told to hides in the eaves of the room (ie the beams near the ceiling) by their lords and ritually drop off. Haha, no. Actually to hide in the eaves of the room and listen to the guests' conversations. Not sure how true it is. But it's fun to imagine a Baldrick-style servant listening to someone's comments about the wall hangings...
from anibananie :
Aaw, poor Holly. Funerals are horrible. I've been to one - I was 9 and it was the most depressing day of my life. Big hug.
from skinnylizzie :
Ah, fear not, I too am equally worried at the speed at which I'm replying, my inner geek is out in full force!
from skinnylizzie :
Oops :) (although the word scum does seem appropriate for half of the clientele, damn chavs)
from skinnylizzie :
It's in Gateshead, only 5 minutes away from Newcastle on the train. It's the maddest place on earth as not only is it four shopping centres rolled into one, but it's also a mini theme park. Ah, Meadowhall...I've been visiting it since I was a wee nipper of 5, although I will agree with you that the Christmas scums are pretty frightening :)
from wombaby :
I squeezed Philip's hand very hard the other night as we walked past the crematorium. Good luck for tomorrow *hugs*
from strawberrri :
ah i've been over the top and under the bottom. the top's quite scary as it rattles a fair bit and you go past these gigantic cogs. all fun though!
from skinnylizzie :
I like Meadowhall! It's at least a thousand times less scary than the sodding Metrocentre which I succeed in getting lost in every time I visit the damn place
from strawberrri :
don't mind in the slightest! :) and if you want scary lifts you should try going on a paternoster, which is like a lift without a door but it NEVER ACTUALLY STOPS MOVING. you just have to hop on and off while it merrily goes up and down on a big loop.
from silly-moose :
Hey you, here's a little relief from the boredom you're almost certainly experiencing right now. Do you care to have a fabulous, entertaining house guest (ie me) for a whole week in August? Might be working clearing helplines - fun! x
from wombaby :
I think last night was the last one. Gulp. Maybe I should go back to watching The Bill again - I used to watch it when Des Taviner was still at Sun Hill!
from wombaby :
Hey, your Ciaran has a rather cute smile! He's making me cry tonight. Most of the program is; it must be the PMT!
from skinnylizzie :
I completely agree, life seemed fantabulous until I hit the last few chapters of that book. Bloody hell, I might amble off and read some Enid Blyton where people don't get killed and everybody's happy, seems a safer bet...
from pink-fairy :
I always play 'boom boom boom' by the Vengaboys when I feel depressed. If firstly makes me feel quite ridiculous that I have the song in the first place and the terrible lyrics do cheer me up a lot! :)
from wombaby :
PMT is fucking evil stuff. My period's not due til Thursday and the PMT started *last* Thursday!!!
from wombaby :
*hugs* I hope you find your swipecard. and that other stuff gets better too
from albygocougs :
YAY for you!!! good job passing your exams :) you deserve a special celebration. i say you go out and get yourself somethin' nice. a shirt, a pedicure, an ice cream sandwich... whatever you'd like!
from wombaby :
Oh well done on those results!!! :-D I'm pleased for you!
from pink-fairy :
well done! sounds like you deserve it! :) go and out and celebrate - a pub is always a good place to start xxxxxxxx
from strawberrri :
congrats! :)
from wombaby :
a wee bit, yes ... i suspect pmt! should be ok in a few days.
from skinnylizzie :
Well, who wouldn't fancy men in Burberry caps?! You want to get on a train through to Cleethorpes, there's plenty of them here ;)
from wombaby :
*hugs* too much death. hope you're ok *hugs*
from wombaby :
I'll forgive you for the lack of updates, just so long as you haven't got murdered or abducted by that creepy man who was in your garden a few weeks ago. Eep.
from anibananie :
Sherbert rocks. Full stop. "End of." (God I love that quote...)
from scar-r-ed :
Wet computers are the worst things ever. I'm glad yours survived the experience; mine never switched on again (and I left my The Who CD in it when I sent it off to be fixed - haven't seen either CD or computer since).
from skinnylizzie :
I was all excited too about the olympics, until I realised how damn old I'm going to be! 26, ouch. There is no way I'm ever going to be mature enough to enter my twenties, no way on earth
from scar-r-ed :
Good luck with your job. I hope it goes well and that you enjoy it. Btw, I've figured out which one Ciaran plays in The Bill now! Next time I'm working night racing with Matt, hopefully I'll get to watch some of it and see him actually on screen, then I can think "ooh, that's Holly's brother"! (Well, step-brother).
from blujeans-uk :
i agree with you about the style of writing in the da vinci code - it was the one thing that spoiled the book for me. have you read angels and demons? that's a good story, but the same thing with the writing. ah, hype is a bad bad thing. hope harry potter lives up to it, if not, i shall once again be sorely disappointed.
from albygocougs :
currently in the uber rural state of vermont, usa. a lovely part of new england, and will be back in boston massachusetts by september 1st. i think there is a sheffeld (sp?) here in vermont, saw it on the news.
from scar-r-ed :
I bought copious amounts of brown packing tape this time a year ago, in preparation for moving to uni. I still have most of it, in the loft.
from anibananie :
Thank you for the note :) Rowan being immature seems to be the general concenus, if I have spelt that right, so immature he is!
from scar-r-ed :
I feel guilty for not spending time at home too - but then last night when I decided I just wanted to go back, I felt bad abandoning Matt to an empty house, in case he thought I was leaving to avoid him or something. Have fun with your masking tape!
from skinnylizzie :
Eric Prydz, Call On Me, is my happy song too! It always cheers me up when I think life is shit. Glad you feel better today
from anibananie :
I've already had one where I get a C in science. Oooh the joy.
from pink-fairy :
omg scary! this is why it is handy to have a man in the house - send him out with the baseball bat :)
from anibananie :
Ooh... drama. Glad you're all OK.
from skinnylizzie :
You lucky soul. I have breathed in the Sheffield air, I was actually there back in April. Nice place, I like the city. Not too far either!
from pink-fairy :
watching wimbledon always reminds me of my summer in the first year of uni, days when it was dead hot and evenings working in a bar :) enjoy being a student as it sort of flys by and then you end up having to find a real job :)
from skinnylizzie :
Ooh, now a Thornton's factory would cheer this town up no end! Damn, wish I'd had the presence of mind to lie about my studentness. The purple hair was just so off-putting. And I'm so glad I'm not the only one who appreciates the small things in life :)
from bodily04 :
Yay! You linked e-sure! Can't wait for the bad girls fun to begin! xx
from silly-moose :
They didn't care about any of the buildings in the pissing rain anyway :) I also neglected to mention how good STA travel was.....think I gave them the (correct) impression that all us students do is drink and sleep. Disappointed you didn't mention my star distracting tactic....cilit bang cilit bang cilit bang bang bang (you love it, admit it) xxx
from skinnylizzie :
Lesbian hat! I hadn't even looked at it like that! It's my dad's GTFC football hat, I wouldn't be caught dead in it outside of the house (or garden)!!!!!
from blujeans-uk :
making jelly at 20 is fabulous! i made jelly last week too - jelly and ice cream in fact. brought back all the memories of hyperglycaemic, hyperactive childrens parties... funness :)
from blujeans-uk :
making jelly at 20 is fabulous! i made jelly last week too - jelly and ice cream in fact. brought back all the memories of hyperglycaemic, hyperactive childrens parties... funness :)
from katiedoyle :
well, i read some already earlier today, and i didn't read anything crappy. :) kd
from katiedoyle :
i was just going to say i dig your moniker, then i saw you used kickass as a word. now i have to read your diary. kd
from scar-r-ed :
It was made more distressing by the fact that "father" was spelled "farther" in the subject line!
from anibananie :
I am loving the new layout! And Cilit Bang (or whatever disgusting name you prefer to give it!) looks worryingly effective in the ads. If it can shine a penny that easily, imagine the damage to your fingers. Wear gloves... and maybe a hazard suit.
from scar-r-ed :
I did read that Cilit thing wrong! Is your flatmate a Links girly too? Go St John!
from scar-r-ed :
I've woken up feeling better. Thanks :-)
from silly-moose :
oi.......spill. I have done far more shameful things than what you could have possibly done. And I'm not necessarily talking about what you think I'm thinking about. I'm sorry your exam was shitty today....don't worry, at least it's nearly over now. Resits aren't the end of the world if you've done OK in your other exams. Best of luck for tomorrow hon. Love you millions. xxx
from scar-r-ed :
*hugs* yucky exams
from skinnylizzie :
Man alive, and you're still awake?! You deserve some kind of award for going through all of that inane crap, I applaud your tenacity! And I too was excited by the exclamation marks, until I realised what they were - I was gutted (but not so gutted that I couldn't use them to construct rude messages, as you've obviously seen, hehe)
from scar-r-ed :
By the way, I was on xanax (tranquiliser) for a few days - I wondered if I was going crazy too!
from skinnylizzie :
Blame away! Most of my flatmates blame me too when they've eaten too much chocolate, even if I haven't used the endorphine excuse, damn them. But ohhh, I bet the sugar and endorphine high was great after that fourth brownie, I'm almost jealous!
from scar-r-ed :
Thanks. It wasn't as bad as it sounds - or I am just "comfortably numb". I'm not sure which. I guess I'm avoiding thinking too much about it! x
from pink-fairy :
I don't know what has happened to the passwords, am in Ireland - shall sort it when I am back on Sat! Good job too - do some revision lady! :)
from skinnylizzie :
Brownie love is good! And don't forget about the whole chocolate releasing endorphines thing, that's what I tell myself every time I finish off three giant bags of Maltesers in a row :D
from anibananie :
I had the Bastard Fruit Flies on my Biology GCSE today, and I thought of you and your stirring rally cry... BASTARD FRUIT FLIES!
from anibananie :
Good luck! (Bastard fruit flies... or venus fly trap, rather.)
from skinnylizzie :
Don't worry about it, I don't think I've ever done a day's worth of productive revision in my life! Procrastination is everybody's friend :)
from skinnylizzie :
That's okay! I like knowing who's reading, thank you for letting me know - incidentally, I do exactly the same with your diary! Although I had to stop over exam period, stupid exams
from scar-r-ed :
And there was me thinking I'd never have been able to cope with what you've been through - but I guess we cope cos there isn't really another choice. I'm touched that you said that though. x
from scar-r-ed :
A good time was indeed had! I guess you realised I want the research to go ahead more than just for CV reasons. But the CV part is good too, and I'm glad I sort-of know someone who's taking part in it. Plus I think you will do a good job of it, cos you seem conscientious. (I can spell that when I'm drunk. Bad!) x
from scar-r-ed :
Whoopee! about the job :-)
from scar-r-ed :
I think you've done more revision for each of your exams than I've done for all of mine - good luck anyway!
from skinnylizzie :
Hehe, the cows are a constant source of amusement! Ooh dear, I really am sad, aren't I? I once saw them chase a woman in high heels until she had to run to the edge of the field and vault the fence, quite amusing really (but I never walk through the field when they're in it now)
from scar-r-ed :
Ooh I will :-) I've now read your entire diary. Which I realise is quite sad, but I still have one more exam to go ...
from scar-r-ed :
i didn't know you could die from a strepsil overdose! (yes, i'm up to dec 2003 - yes, i should still be revising!)
from anibananie :
"The horrors of the bastard fruit fly still await me." On my entrance exam for my school, there was a whole set of questions on a passage about fruit flies. BASTARD FRUIT FLIES.
from pink-fairy :
When you go to the gym, you must count how long it takes you to row 500m! :) mmmwah xxx
from silly-moose :
...I resent the implication that my modelling kit is not cool. You loved it. Also, you don't need any other gay friends, I have the gayness of 3 people at least. How did your exam go? xx
from scar-r-ed :
i hope you get that job.
from blujeans-uk :
i watched eurovision too, whilst baking cookies at my coach's house. there are people out there with just as little else (apart from revision) to do as you! (actually, three of us co-erced the others into watching it, but we know they enjoyed it secretly. it was taking the mick that was the most fun...) luck with your exams x
from scar-r-ed :
You won't like it! I am perpetually complaining, and write about as many entries a day as you do a month. If you still want a password, drop me an email to [email protected] and I'll send you one! Take care.
from pink-fairy :
you look lovely in your pics :) xxx
from scar-r-ed :
Hi, I'm the person from UEA. I'm not a scary stalker, I'm just avoiding my revision! I clicked on one of your banners you see.
from samgrey :
I had to lock my diary. Email me at [email protected] if you'd like the password.
from pink-fairy :
You can buy these plastic egg things from Asda for 99p which you put in your fridge and they absord bad odours. When I say egg - I think they are trying to disguise themselves and not look so obvious.. however they are bright blue.
from pink-fairy :
if you need to stay up honey, proplus + redbull = no sleep for a long time xxx
from ghostiness :
Just saw you through your cute banner. You remind me a lot of my friend, and I just gotta say: Buffy fans unite! Keep rocking on, and I'll be checking in again :)
from anibananie :
Twas.
from anibananie :
Actually, it was someone else's locker. But that's beside the point...
from anibananie :
I kicked my school locker once, in Year 8. Four years ago. And people still go on about it.
from strawberrri :
i remember the horrors of the a level biology field trip. i went to norfolk and had to count the number of periwinkles in rock pools *shudder*.
from albygocougs :
its definitely important to listen to your heart about what you want to do... but things happen for a reason, and going could be a real opportunity for growth, a break-through. what ever you choose to do, it will be perfect for what you need right now.
from blujeans-uk :
my cactus attacked me this morning too! it's a conspiracy!
from for-you-only :
you're funny
from for-you-only :
hellloooo.
from strawberrri :
howdy. i feel happy to have spread quiz-ness to the world. normally never do quizzes (i blame the sleep-deprivation). your diary's pretty cool :)
from katiedoyle :
i like your username. i am jealous you thought of it first. :) have a good day! katie d
from pink-fairy :
Aww thank you! :) You are a very pretty lady too. Belated birthday wishes! xxxx
from albygocougs :
sending you warm and caring thoughts. things will get better, it just takes time. and i know that sucks b/c it would be best if things were better now. but they will be. hang in there.
from silly-moose :
Aha, I won't say it but have I not been saying for months that you should go? Actually I think I did say it, in a roundabout kinda way. Sorry about that. Can't wait to see you and your new glasses - when are you back? L x
from sportyhawk21 :
HOLLY! whats up girl?? lol sorry. Aww umm do what megan said but add in some angel and charmed and read some amelia atwater rhodes books! YOU'll be fine then! ^_^ oh and watch willow skin warren to death!
from zanks :
Hey Hol, Cheer up! remember you have got your friends and they all care about you, I know family issues are tough. Recipie to make you feel better: Take a Buffy-fest followed by a LOTR-fest, add some chocolate lots of alcohol sprinkle in some good friends allow a good moaning session. Love Meg XXXX
from sportyhawk21 :
hey, thanx. YOur on mine too. IF you want to talk somtime im me and we'll talk. Awsome another person obsessed with [email protected]! lol
from sportyhawk21 :
hey im nik, and i love BUFFY! well mostly sarah michelle gellar, but i also like willow. i hope that we can chat sometime, my sn is Cruelfreshy3. So talk to me if im on and you feel like talking. -nik
from leirdalag :
hello holly, i just thought i'd leave you a note because you don't have any, so here it is! chemistry revision in making my head hurt... but it needs to be done, so TTFN x x x

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