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from papotheclown :
Hi, thank you so much for all the kind words and for honoring me by reading throughout the years. That feels awfully good to hear. And you didn't overstep anything at all. I too have just started down that psychological rabbit hole and it has been very helpful so far. I am definitely anxious/avoidant in my attachment style and have recently been wondering if I have the avoidant or schizoid personality disorder. As of yet, I don't know what to do about it. I know relationships are a necessity, but they are always so uncomfortable for me. They just don't feel safe. And that's any relationship, not just romantic ones. I've been trying to force myself into these things for years, but I think that's just making things worse. It gives me hope hearing that you've found some value with this toolkit. If you have any specific resources you'd like to share, we can exchange emails or something. I am going to look into the name you mentioned (but presently can't remember) this morning. Thank you for reaching out. I can't tell you how much it means to me.
from jaysthoughts :
Just seeing who is still active and checks their notes.
from the-grey-one :
huzzah! :)
from the-grey-one :
aw man. that is sweet of you, thank you : )
from the-grey-one :
annnd i read some of your lj, can definitely see the similarities! thank you for sharing and also, your thought processes are pretty danged impressive!
from the-grey-one :
woah. thank you so much for your awesome comment! now i am super curious about your diary! but mostly just very grateful for the kind and encouraging words you gave me. so yes. thank you : )
from monkeybeast :
Just thought I would say that that is a GOOD QUESTION. Love you.
from monkeybeast :
yes
from snippitysnap :
: ) msn i have not; but, my aim sn is megschmidt.
from headbroken :
not to push this but whore eh? if ya can't forget forgive. peace & love
from monkeybeast :
um dito... that wasn't about you.
from monkeybeast :
um dear candice... you don't ever talk to us anymore. love us aka me aka rosemary aka someone who would like to know what these entries are about, and what you're going to do aboUt them.
from wiz-designs :
Hi. Thanks for visiting my site! The template you are currently using has just been edited (December 18) so I would advise you to return to my site and recopy and paste the codes. I would also appreciate it if you can give me the password to your diary, just so I can give the layout a once-over to see that everything's working.
from monkeybeast :
soo hunny bunches. something's drasticlly incorrect. i'd give you perspective, but... i don't think it matters. i guess what i'm trying to say is. i guess, don't pretend... it's hurting a lot of people, just that you're not dealing. aghhhk i can't explain what i mean at all. BASICLY... people want to be your friend, but you're too busy/frazzled. RESULT: you being MORE so, and the rest of us barring our middle fingers. i guess we should all just shut ourselves up. and i won't bother with you, if you don't bother with me. ps: i know "everybody's trying to blah blah fuckin' blah", but could you get your priorities straight and spend some time avec... actually never-you-mind.
from monkeybeast :
i. i. i. i. i. I. I. I. I. I. !!i!! hope you see the problem. it's not like that's... wrong. it's just... i.
from snippitysnap :
(and i think the password you gave me died)
from snippitysnap :
oooooooooooohhh! ......#*...you have no idea, how much that made me happy....(!!!#*#*!!!)
from driftinaway :
OMG! that is SO crazy that you watched it too!! hahaha. didn't you just LOOOVe it? it made me laugh. it was so cute. and the guy was really hot at times and really not at others. but it was such a cool story!! AHAHAHAH... i enjoyed it. crazaaay that you watched it too ;) love ya
from monkeybeast :
... maybe you should. or shouldn't you... anyway, i love you. *hands you some optimism*. use it well, my friend. *floats off into space*
from monkeybeast :
SHUT THE FUCK UP, BOOTS!!! i love you, and for what it's worth, you're worth it.
from tippycup :
if you care >> snippitysnap.diaryland.com
from driftinaway :
candice what did you up and do to lock me out of your diary? my pass doesn't work no more and you never gone 'n' sent me a new one! :( hope you're havin a good summer babe! hahah we're gunna chill sometimee alright? indeed, indeed...
from monkeybeast :
firstly, don't delete the "i'm gonna delete this" entry. feelings are important, no matter how... i don't know... 'negative' they are. secondly, i hate something. i hate the way you help us and me and everyone every day, almost no matter what. but then when you're hurt, sad, angry, in trouble, self concious, in love and such, i don't know how to help you. i want to. i think about what i can do/say, but you're unreachable. so i guess, like the last time, and all the other times, i'll have to resort to the only way i know how to make you feel a little better. i love you. i support you, and admire you, and think you are very beautiful. not to sound stalkerish or noor-ish(lol), but... something along the lines of you're an amazing person, and i'm here for you to tell you exaCtly what's on my mind, and for spontaneous outings, and family crap, and early morning unwanted phone calls... all the good stuff, and the bad. i love you.
from beko :
hey candice, I just thought I'd say hi. so here it goes.... Are you ready for it? ... Hi!
from monkeybeast :
even though this'll determine our destinys as druggies and alcoholics, YES PLEASE!! so sad. *worries* (btw let's do it with guys)
from monkeybeast :
OMG I'VE NEVER LEFT A NOTE BEFORE. i think. so here it goes: my first note. i love you. *goofy smile*
from beko :
Thank you Candice, that means alot to me, if I could hug you I would. You know what? I don't think that we hang out enough, no offense intended but I don't think that we(I) consider us good friends, and I'd like too... well...I love you anyways
from driftinaway :
cannice!! i just want you to know that i love your new template and that because i loved it so much i thought hey, these peeps'll prolly have a nice one for me!! and sure enough they did! and i'm really happy. and i love you! and also i would like to know what you did to your hair!! what the heLLO did you do to your hair?!! :D:D:D
from beko :
Hi! I saw that ad too! I stopped everything and clicked it and almost lost my entry! No my cisv people don't read my diary, they don't know that I have one and I'm not going to tell them unless they ask, that goes for everyone. I love you Candice!
from tippycup :
...how could i forget?
from tippycup :
" every human emotion possible... changing rapidly between them... By the way, I'm a bit crazy- ..." Holy Moly, how much that sounds like me...must investigate
from keylessentry :
Candice, I think that by being fake can actually get you somewhere. If you can distinguish the fakeness when a little red light bulb in your head goes, "ding-a-ling-a-ling" you'll be closer to finding yourself (since you can tell the difference), but what you do with the warning is up to you.
from laura-diane :
thanks for adding me to your list of favorites. if you send me your password i'll catch up with yours!!
from driftinaway :
cannie, i like your new template and i got your e-mails with the bubble ones thanks but i 'm gunna stick with mine... too complicated to switch. lol :) i like to read your diary, every time i read , i find something i never knew before... about you, or other ppl , or your past... i guess by not going to your school i miss out on a lot so i really have no clue whatz going on ... but one little thing you say gives me a taste of whatz happening. i wish you would come to where you'll be happy for highschool :) don't say you are cuz i know you're not. please say you're not. i miss you cannice, you might not think it, but you are a very important character to me. i like to be around you so promise me this: when we find our club, we'll go together on a weekly basis. and we'll talk and hang out plenty. thank you :)
from keylessentry :
Hi Candice. I like your writing style. I hope that you can pursue it whenever your mad because it really seems as though you can let your true colours show. I know I'm not the first person that you'll come to when you're feeling under the weather, but I'd really like it if you could keep on writing in the diary more often...and after you're finished your homework :P because I truly enjoy reading what you're feeling... Make use of the talents that you already have [please don't insert a cynical comment here about how you don't have any, because remember...if you don't have any confidence in yourself, it's highly unlikely anyone else will], and don't think you'll sound snobby if you actually confess your awareness of your talents it's just another step of unveiling yourself... -Smiles, and call me ;) Honeystone
from driftinaway :
candice, i wish we were closer... i wish we could talk more. i am so sad. you make me happy. you were always there when i looked over my shoulder and you were always there to smile. A contagious smile so radiant even if i was furious inside, i could smile and be happy for a moment. but a moment so long, i forgot my anger. and i was happy. but now i'm sad and i miss you.
from keylessentry :
Oops, made a spelling error in the last one "let DOWN",
from keylessentry :
Hey Candice, I talked to you on the phone about your decision, and you know what? Even if you may have let done some people (example me) it doesn't really matter as long as you're staying true to yourself, and besides, if they really admired you, they would be able to see you side of the story and accept it (example..me lol, aren't I flattering myself over?). Oh and, I know you aren't looking for a new template or anything, but I kind of like looking for templates and I found this one that you may or may not like... http://www.thegeekhost.com/lisa/templates/tear.html just go there...oh well, it's kind of gloomy, since I don't know if you prefered any bright colours...Lots of love, call me whenever you feel like it.
from driftinaway :
I read your latest entry. Now I want you to read mine and please change your outlook on life... think of it through me. It might be hard, but please do. I miss you so much, thinking about you and d roy just gets me all depressed :| You are amazing, and as much as you may convince yourself that you're the opposite, as much as you try not to be, you'll never succeed because I believe in you. And there are so many others who love you as well. Love yourself, okay? Is it that hard to ask? ;) lol since when did i get all corny? sigh... shit changes...always changes... :(
from keylessentry :
:'( Candi, there's not much that I can do about how you feel about yourself, and the ppl around you, but I'm here for you if you need someone to talk to you know I love you B

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