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from skinnylizzie :
Just wanted to say thank you for your note, I have just gotten up after the worst night's sleep (you know the kind I mean...every hour you wake up, wondering why you are miserable, and then you remember and it takes you another half an hour to get back to sleep. And I love sleeping!) and your note really did make me feel better. Sometimes it's just nice to be reminded that I'm not the only one who's ever been through this (even though I rather melodramatically like to pretend I am), and similarly that there's also people who have, shock horror, survived it as well! Thank you xx
from skinnylizzie :
Haha thank you! If I ever decide to suddenly become a very good writer and write something publishable I shall let you know, although to be honest I think most of what I write at the moment would just get me slapped with a lawsuit or even just slapped if I tried to publish it...goddamn ex-boyfriends. Hope you are well, it's been forever since you updated woman!
from skinnylizzie :
Hmm, I wouldn't be too impressed, I am experiencing severe PANIC today as a result of it! And also, I do still remember his login details....I am trying hard to resist using them, but it doesn't really mean the same thing when you know that, does it?!
from lifeasme66 :
I'm so sorry, my dear. If it helps any, I'm kinda in the same boat. Alone, horny, hating men (mostly) but whatever. Life goes on, right? Hang in there, you'll pull through **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
Oh, my dearest... *HUG* That was heartbreaking to read! But honestly? I'm proud of you for putting your foot down and calling him out on his insensitivity. If anything, you deserve to be told you are loved and missed... and not just at 3am when he's feeling lonely. Real love does not work that way. I know the timing really sucks, especially since he'll be so close so soon. But remember what happened in NM, would Alabama be different? Stay strong, my dear. We will find the love we deserve! **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
Sorry my dear, limited internet! Just wanted to say, I've often had the same musings as those that you talked about in your last entry. I guess we are just victims of society, girls who want to find their Prince Charmings. **HUGS!!**
from x-centricity :
Hi, sugar! Miss you tons!!! Can I have your password again. [email protected] *huggles*
from lifeasme66 :
I wish I could just jump into a Jake again too... **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
Hehe, just wanted to say kudos for hittin' the hot boy. But your profound shit is right on the mark... I hate that feeling. **HUGS!!**
from skinnylizzie :
I was really disappointed with that film as well, the majority of the characters were just plain annoying and Psycho Girl was definitely scary shit. There's two hours of my life I'll never see again...
from lifeasme66 :
Ah well... honestly, it is probably best this way. And if you guys can be cool with things as friends, that's the best possible outcome methinks. I'm still glad you wrote what you did, let him know how you felt. In all, it was a good learning experience for you, ya know? **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
Girl, I definitely have to say your email sounds so graceful and mature... it blew me away! TJ would never know reading that how upset you were. But you do get your point across. Kudos! I'm curious to see his reply... **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
Just wanted to see how things were going with your friends... I don't really have any advice, besides telling you that it's definitely a good idea to stay as un-involved as possible. But yeah, it sounds like a huge mess =/ **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
You know I'll always read you, my dear, through thick and thin, just as you've always been there for me =) I just wish I could do more to help you feel better **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
Girlfren, we are two peas in a pod. Believe me, I know EXACTLY how you felt when you wrote "I'm 31 and alone." That's me too. It's so hard, and I wish I knew how to make it easier. I'm tired of dating and I'm tired of being wrong... but it doesn't seem to get tired of me. Big hugs, sweetie... hopefully we both pull through **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
Wow, so much has happened! You need to write more often! =P **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
Aww, don't feel unloved, my dear. These boys are just stupid and they don't realize how special you truly are. Yeah, that sounds cliche, but I think it's true. Guys don't appreciate all sorts of things. Anywho, I like your letter to Jake, even though I do agree with you that you were way too nice! But, it gets the point across that you want to know where you two stand, and that's important. As for TJ... that was really slick of him to make other plans. Psh! Dumb boys =P **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
Ah hon, you and Jake ARE in a grey area. It might be easiest on you in the long run if you make your relationship clear. Is there one or isn't there? And if there is, what are the boundaries? Talking on the phone or IM weekly? Going out to see one another whenever you can? Because a relationship without the hope of seeing the other person again in a romantic sense, won't have anything to sustain it. You'll need something to hold onto. *sigh* Why aren't relationships ever easy? **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
Word, girlfriend. Men irritate me too. **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
Hehehe, you go on with your sexy self! ;) **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
Good for you for going with honesty. You wrote exactly what you should have in that letter. And I agree, his response sounds so... formal and official. No feelings whatsoever. (sigh) I'm sorry, hon. Men suck right now, don't I know it. **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
I'd be pissed too if someone said this to me. Feeling the need to point someone out on being immature is, to me, a sign itself of immaturity. Seriously, like you said, nobody knows what other people have been through. We all have situations and experiences that make us grow up, some faster than others, but you can't point out someone's experiences and say they were not valuable. Anyway, for what it's worth, I think you're plenty mature, especially after what you've been through. I'd like to see anyone else go through that and still have the positive outlook on life that you do! **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
What a total fucker!!! I can't believe that Jake. Seriously. And you're so right... I don't understand how men can be such idiotic bitches sometimes. I'm glad you had such a great time with your family... I wish you could have that kind of closeness while you're away, everyone deserves to be happy like that. But yeah, it makes me mad too, hearing that you had to give up time with them just to find out Jake has pretty much written you off. He should have told you, he shouldn't have been a coward about it and let you come out when things weren't going to be anywhere close to what they were before. WTF? I think you have every right to be angry and close things off with him. He totally blew it. Man, I wish I could take you out for a beer, girl... You need some girl time! **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
Oh my gosh, hon... I'm so mad for you! What gives?!? You deserve answers and I hope you get them tonight! **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
Just caught up on a bunch of your entries. Girl, I'm so excited for you that you'll be seeing Jake!!! Can't wait to hear all about that =) Oh, and good luck with the gym and pasta resolve. I'm in your boat too... **HUGS!!**
from skinnylizzie :
As a fellow pasta lover, I wish you luck for next week! You have much more willpower than me, I would just replace the pasta with chocolate. Actually, now there's a thought...anyway, I hope you get things worked out for your trip back home. Two years, that's a crazy amount of time!
from skinnylizzie :
Just on good old Facebook, the stalking tool of the century...don't fancy posting any pictures of them up here only to have them stumble across it and accuse me of being a dirty Nigel stalker!
from lifeasme66 :
Glad to hear you're doing well, albeit lonely. Those song lyrics, cheesy as they may be, actually made me tear up. I'll have to download the song. You do deserve to get some answers out of Jake regarding your future. I mean, I wouldn't want to fight that battle alone. And it really does take both people working to keep a relationship together. **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
Honestly, I don't understand these guys. How can they so easily forget what you guys had? Are they trying to move on without telling you? I would have thought Jake would do more before calling it quits. I'm sorry, hon. Maybe it is best to move on. You don't deserve to wait for someone who won't wait for you. And hearing about that married girl really irks me. I can't believe he tells you about that... I mean, doesn't he realize how much that hurts?? **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
OMG, I totally love David Archuleta too! He's definitely my favorite this season. He's just so freakin' cute! And he's a great singer. I hope he gets far. Oh, and good luck with the email to TJ. **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
Woah... how totally unexpected. I wouldn't know what to say either. I mean, he pushed you away for so long, it just seems not right that he change his mind once Jake got into the picture. I dunno, hon. If he wants to be friends, maybe that can happen, but I think he should know that you tried for a long time to make things work and HE was the one who pushed you away, HE was the one that needed time, HE was the one who continually turned you away. So you're definitely not entitled to even acknowledge him now. Good luck, my dear! **HUGS!!**
from skinnylizzie :
Oops...my bad...just as I clicked 'done!' I got your note. That'll teach me to be totally over-eager!
from skinnylizzie :
Hmm...did you change your password or am I being a complete idiot and typing it in wrong?
from lifeasme66 :
In no way do you "deserve" this because of what happened with J. I remember you two, and that wasn't a good relationship! I ask myself the same thing you're asking yourself here, how to know when it's over and you should just let go... and how to actually do that. When it doesn't FEEL over, how do you even begin to come to terms that it might be over? *sigh* I'm sorry, hon. And I hope you do get to talk to him soon **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
Damn, I'm mad enough for you too! With all of the different ways we can keep in touch nowadays, there isn't any excuse for not calling. Unless you're stuck at the bottom of a well. But geez, I really don't understand men right now. Even after you think you have one who loves you, how they seem to turn that love on and off as if it were a switch. I don't get it. Do they really mean anything that they say?? **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
You know, your sad entries always bring me to tears. Nobody else's blog writing does that to me except yours. It's like I just feel everything you're feeling, and I start aching with you. I've always kept my little "terms of endearment" with the boyfriends I've had. It just feels wrong to call anyone else those words. I think guys see it that way too. **HUGS!!**
from skinnylizzie :
I'm so sorry, I can only imagine how you're feeling right now. Have a totally crap-pretendy-but-still-sympathetic hug from me x
from lifeasme66 :
=( My god, I can't even imagine what you must be feeling right now. I am so, so, sorry. Why does life have to be so unfair? If you need to talk, please don't hesitate to call me... seven one four) eight seven five - nine five seven zero. **HUGS!!**
from arazi :
Hey its Stacy. I actually read your diary today. I was thinking about you! I almost could not rememver your user name! But I sure did remember you password "boyfriends suck!" I am sorry your sweetie is leaving and you know you can call me anytime, even if it is in the middle of the night!
from lifeasme66 :
Gah, I'm just so sad reading your entries, seeing how happy you are with Jake, and imagining what it must feel like to know you are going to lose him. My god, I don't think I could be as strong as you've been. I keep praying a miracle will happen and you guys will be able to stay together. **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
You're such a good friend to stay with Chrystal for Christmas. That is totally cool of you. As for Jake, I'm so sorry you have to go through that. I remember your times with J and TJ and honestly, I believe you deserve a happy ending for once! I'll keep you and Chrystal's dog in my thoughts... **HUGS!!**
from x-centricity :
Oh, Sweetie....I wish you were having a better holiday. *hugs*
from silvaciv :
hey i just added you as a friend on myspace, in case you were wondering who it was :-)
from skinnylizzie :
Just wanted to say thank you for your lovely note, you have no idea how much I appreciated it. I know it's something you hear about but it's still comforting to hear somebody reassure you they got through it. And luckily, I have time in spades at the moment! Oh well, eh? Might just crack on with that lesbian plan (or perhaps not).
from x-centricity :
I'm really scared for you. Take care of yourself, Sugar. *hugs*
from silvaciv :
hey what's your myspace page?
from lifeasme66 :
I'm glad you wrote the letter and were able to get those thoughts out of your head. Writing always releases me that way. Even if nobody ever reads it, just writing it makes me feel better. But I'm glad you did show Jake and that he's going to keep your words to reread and think upon. It sounds like you guys are set to live it up until the end. I'm happy for you both =) **HUGS!!**
from skinnylizzie :
Ooh, Hogmanay, lucky you! The Scots really know how to do New Year, I bet it's amazing. On a different note, I'm glad you were able to tell Jake how you felt. If that had been me I probably would've spontaneously combusted with rage so I've no idea how you dealt with it in such a calm and rational manner! Plus, Paris? I am so very, very jealous.
from lifeasme66 :
I wish I knew what to tell you. You're definitely in a hard spot. What I'd probably do is try to collect all of my thoughts in a letter to him. Tell him how much he means to you, how special and different your relationship has been for you, and why you can't just let it all go. I'd have to be honest with him and lay all my cards on the table. For your sanity, you need to know what the next month will hold for you. Will you try to live it up, spend as much time together as possible, and enjoy your last weeks as a couple? Or should you use it to slowly distance yourselves as an attempt to make it hurt less once he does leave? I think you need to know which it will be. I'm so sorry, hon, I'm sure this can't be easy. **HUGS!!**
from x-centricity :
*hugs*
from lifeasme66 :
=( I'm so sorry, hon. I hope you guys find a way around all of this. **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
I'm hoping it all works out for you and Jake. I love hearing about you two! **HUGS!!**
from skinnylizzie :
God, THANK YOU! You may just have saved my hair (and my sanity!). I'll get on the hunt straight away! Also, I know you weren't looking forward to your birthday, but I hope the day wasn't a bust :)
from iluvleena :
Un-Happy birthday to you girl! 30 is the new 20!!!! I am glad to hear your trip was amazing...and I'm glad he said he loved you back.
from lifeasme66 :
Aww. I'm going to wish you a happy birthday anyway cuz 30 ain't that bad. Well, I've only been 30 for a couple of weeks so what do I know? **HUGS!!**
from x-centricity :
30 is the new 21. It's when life really begins. It's when orgasms get better. It's your sexual peak and you mental awakening. 30 is awesome.
from skinnylizzie :
Crikey, just read the news about the foiled terrorist attacks in Germany, I know you're away at the moment and they were stopped but phew, hope everything's okay when you get back.
from iluvleena :
Have a good trip!!! Be safe! So jealous.
from lifeasme66 :
Aww, I'm jealous too! You'd better have extra fun for all of us stuck in the States. Oh, and I've read that the best thing you can do for your man at a time like that is exactly what you did. Say you're available if he wants to talk, but don't force him to open up. He will appreciate your just offering to be there. **HUGS!!**
from skinnylizzie :
Enjoy your holiday! I am so very jealous...
from iluvleena :
I am so HAPPY for you finally finding a guy that treats you right. YIPEE!!!! Have a great time on your trip. It sounds hella romantic and fun!
from lifeasme66 :
Such a nice entry! I love hearing you happy =) Isn't it great when you just know the love is there? **HUGS!!**
from errantnights :
what gives this mess some grace
from iluvleena :
How is your feeling? Is it gone yet? I know how it feels to have a mother who loves you but doesn't understand you. My mother is the same way. I will call her and it always ends up being about her and I never speak up. I also hate when people lolli-gag when you are helping them move. It's not like you don't have other crap to do during the day other than moving all their crap. It's very annoying! Keep your head up. I hope you can come to an agreement with your military choice that you are happy with. best of luck girl!
from skinnylizzie :
Oh, aren't you lovely! That note gave me fuzzy warm feelings! I apologise profusely for not having said much recently, especially vis-a-vis the boy situation; very much a case of having no good advice to give and realising it's probably better to stay quiet. I am still reading though, I do love reading your updates!
from silvaciv :
I'm still reading and cheering for you! Everything will work out for you. And you're doing such a great thing for all of us by serving in the military. I know good will come your way in the end :)
from x-centricity :
*hugs*
from iluvleena :
Are you alive? Haven't heard from you lately. Stop by the new blog, I have decided to leave dland for good. http://luvsea4life.blogspot.com/ Hope all is well.
from lifeasme66 :
Yay!!!! So happy for you =D **HUGS!!**
from gracieskates :
On my own, pretending he's beside me. All alone I walk with him 'til morning. Without him I feel his arms around me, and when I lose my way, I close my eyes and he has found me. ?Les Miserables My thoughts, if you feel this way about him try if not don't. But you have to sacrifice quite a bit, and personally I don't think it's the right time.
from lifeasme66 :
Tough decisions to make, my dear. But yes, I think you need to gather some more information first... namely, how long do you have before you must decide to reenlist. Hard decisions often get easier (if just a little bit) if you don't act right away. So I'd say not to do anything impulsively. **HUGS!!**
from iluvleena :
I meant to tell you in my last note to write a list of pros and cons about jake and pros and cons about the military. this always helps me with making a huge decision. But give it a little time and see how you feel and talking to him might help as well.
from x-centricity :
You are a resourceful lady. You can accomplish anything. Yeah, life out of the military is going to be different but I know that if anyone can do it, you can. Just have that talk with Jake and see what happens. Sometimes the best thing to do is close your eyes, hold your breath and jump.
from iluvleena :
Girl it sounds like you are in a tough spot. He sounds like he just can't commit to being with one person, no matter where he is. Some men really just can't fight that urge to spread their seed. Since I'm a romantic, I would stay in touch with him while he is away and tell him that you both need to be honest with eachother, like if he hooks up with another girl. The only way this would work out is being 100% honest with eachother. I hope it works out for you, but don't give up something you like (if it's the military) for a guy you know has committment issues. You could get even more hurt than you are now. I'm sorry you are sad and quiet, but it shows you really have feelings for this guy. Stay strong.
from lifeasme66 :
Wow, hon. Well, I do see Jake's point. And you're right, you were concerned about where things were going too, and what kind of future you'd be looking at. But I dunno, hon. When you feel that something is very rare, the level of comfort and happiness that you feel with someone is unlike anything you've had before... I mean, that makes you really evaluate giving that up, you know? I went through a lot of the same thoughts after I broke up with Sean that first time. There were too many things about how easy and comfortable it was with us that made me question if I was doing the right thing. Inevitably, I saw the light and I took him back and decided to give it a REAL try. Honestly, not a day goes by where I'm thankful that I did give us another chance. I think if you find something that special, you should do whatever you can to keep it. Maybe I'm just a hopeless romantic there, but reading Jake's email kinda led me to believe his heart is true... and boys with true hearts are hard to find. **HUGS!!** (sorry for the mini-novel here!)
from x-centricity :
Well, you're going in the right direction by having an e-mail conversation. Most guys have a freak out when they start to fall in love with someone. This may be the case with your guy. In a way he was right in doing what he did though. You have to really consider how painful this is going to be in a year from now. If you can handle breaking up with him then. If I were in your shoes, I would choose to be happy for a year, with someone I adore, just so that I could have those memories and that experience. Who knows...maybe it'll become more then just an experience. *hugs*
from skinnylizzie :
Oh no, I'm sorry about Jake. Bloody men. Do you ever think that it would just be easier to be with women? The only problem is the not fancying them thing, which kind of puts a whole dampener on it. Oh dear, I'm rambling. Hope you're okay x
from x-centricity :
Oh no....*hugs*
from lifeasme66 :
Oh hon... I'm so sorry =( **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
You get to see my Amy... w00t! **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
Super cool weekend, kiddo! Glad you got a chance to spend time with your boy. And yeah, I could totally say not to spend too much time thinking about your futures together and just to enjoy the time you have, but that would be bullshit in my head too cuz I'd be just as worried about where it was all going as you are. **HUGS!!**
from x-centricity :
All of these fellings are natural when you finally meet someone that completes you. *hugs*
from iluvleena :
Drunken thoughts over guys are never fun! To answer your question you may never be over TJ. You may always keep him in a small piece of your heart. it sucks I know. keep your head up girl!
from x-centricity :
It's never over, Sugar. *hugs*
from lifeasme66 :
Ugh. That is a tough situation. I don't know what I'd even begin to do =/ I'm sorry, I hope you find some sort of resolution **HUGS!!**
from x-centricity :
What a horrible predicament.... If you guys are meant to be together, things will work out. *hugs*
from x-centricity :
It's so nice to see you happy again. *happy sigh*
from lifeasme66 :
Glad you're doing well and having fun! And that Jake and you are happy =) **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
I agree with x. TJ messed with you for way too long. He gave you mixed messages for way too long. I would have said to him, "You pushed me away for a year, of course I gave up. How long did you expect me to wait for your feelings to come around?" You deserve someone who doesn't make you wonder where your relationship stands. I think Jake is much better for you =) **HUGS!!**
from x-centricity :
TJ always had a tendency to play games with you, not just your head but with your self-esteem. It was almost like he had control over you, your schedule, your relationships, your schedule.... If he felt like things were "going good" and he had expectations, he should have SAID something. Instead he continued to play the stupid games. This new guy....he's incredible for you. You SHOULD give him and the feelings you have for him a chance. *hugs*
from lifeasme66 :
Yay!! I'm happy for you hon, and I knew you'd reach this point eventually =) **HUGS!!**
from x-centricity :
It makes me happy that you are happy now. *hugs*
from x-plicity :
I really like this new guy.
from x-plicity :
*huggles*
from lifeasme66 :
Finally an update! I was waiting, girl! Glad things are going well with Jake, although yeah, I would wonder why he's leaving the officialness out of your committment. It's probably a good thing to stay cautious, not write until he writes you, etc. Can't blame you, I'd do the same. I hope he doesn't slip up though and proves he's a good guy. **HUGS!!**
from skinnylizzie :
Oops, sorry for double posting :)
from skinnylizzie :
Ooh, I went to see The Killers on this tour as well, I LOVED 'When You Were Young' and 'Mr Brightside', best songs of the evening!
from skinnylizzie :
Ooh, I went to see The Killers on this tour as well, I LOVED 'When You Were Young' and 'Mr Brightside', best songs of the evening!
from silvaciv :
hey where have you been? im missing your entries! hope all is well!
from iluvleena :
you go girl! I read that same article in Cosmo! LOL! You should have reservations and after time they should start to disappear once you really get to know him. I hope he works out! Don't let TJ ruin this for you! Good luck!
from x-plicity :
You know, Mike was considered kind of a whore. Well except all of his ex's stayed on as his friends...he has a lot of female friends. The reason he went through so many women was because he was looking for Ms. Right and wasn't going to settle. Maybe your guy is doing the same thing. Just a thought. *hugs*
from lifeasme66 :
Glad to see you so happy! But I agree with your reservations... I'd be cautious too, especially with the player bit. Hold out on the sex part a bit longer if you can. Not that good things can't happen if you have it too soon (me and my boy started off with the sex first and the relationship later), just that I do think it's better to have the upper hand for as long as possible. And it does keep your feelings in check. You feel more after the sex is had. About TJ, I don't think you should feel guilty, but I understand that you do. He ignored you and put you through hell for so long, how can he even begin to blame you for dating someone else? You snooze, you lose, buddy. Really, he had plenty of chances. I still don't like that he messed with your feelings. **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
Oooh, glad to hear your date went well! I like this guy. Keep the details (and the dates) coming =) **HUGS!!**
from iluvleena :
sounds like you guys really clicked! Hopefully this guy is good to you! Congrats!!!
from x-plicity :
It's hard not to be pulled back into the arms of a man you love. Especially if you two have such awesome chemistry. Just but tough and try to avoid physical contact with him for a while. *hugs*
from skinnylizzie :
Good luck for your date tonight!!
from lifeasme66 :
Ooooh! How exciting! I can't wait to hear all about it =D Good luck, girl! **HUGS!!**
from iluvleena :
sorry I have been away from dland. I was reading your post today. Congrats on the new guy! It would be awesome if he turned out to be a good guy. I hope that he does and maybe TJ will realize what he gave up being a vague person!!!
from lifeasme66 :
Ooh, exciting news! I like hearing about the new guy. And personally, I think it's just what you need. Not that I think you guys will hit it off and start dating seriously or anything like that (but it could happen), just that I think you could use a new, mysterious guy to flirt with and take your mind off the other men ;) Hey, and be careful what you say about being torn between two guys. It could happen!! **HUGS!!**
from x-plicity :
You're not a slut unless you fuck them in the same night. *grin*
from lifeasme66 :
Hey girl, good to see you posting! And about TJ, the mom part of me that cares about you would say just what you thought. That you shouldn't be messing with TJ and that it might only make things worse in the long run. But then the real me, the me that knows what I'VE done in the past, knows that you're gonna do whatever you're gonna do regardless of what anyone tells you. Hell, I had a bunch of my irl friends tell me I was messing myself up over sleeping with Sean even though I'd pretty much dedicated myself to Ryan. So I can tell you not to sleep with TJ but I'd be a major hypocrit. And really, he isn't seeing anyone, you aren't seeing anyone... nobody else is getting hurt so I say shit happens. Take it a day at a time and try not to do anything illegal... twice. ;) **HUGS!!**
from x-plicity :
I will never forget you!! Priceless!
from skinnylizzie :
God I'm so jealous, I've been trying to go to Rome for about a year now and STILL haven't managed it!
from x-plicity :
You have to admit, you so have a sensual look to you. At least what I've seen in pictures. You're hot. Accept it. *grin*
from skinnylizzie :
Haha, I don't have a problem with singing American girls, just girls that sound like chipmunks! The fact that she had a different accent just made it all the more painful. My poor ears! And yeah, I can't imagine herpes is too much fun AT ALL!!!
from x-plicity :
Pee watching and crazy sex parties! Wild!!!
from skinnylizzie :
You didn't sound like an idiot at all in your note! I appreciated you leaving it, any kind of advice is always welcome. Things sound like they're beginning to settle down over there although I can't imagine how tough things with TJ have been on you. BUT...yay for Christina! She's playing over here soon and I really wanted to go but couldn't get tickets, so I am incredibly jealous of you right now :)
from x-plicity :
That man is such a wierdo....
from iluvleena :
what an asshole! I'm sorry you had to hear about that! How can he be so cruel not to even call and apologize...err men suck!
from x-plicity :
Wow...what an asshole!!!
from iluvleena :
I'm sorry that your evening was ruined by the mention of TJ. It sucks and it's hard...stay strong.
from x-plicity :
Wow...I just read that and it sounds like I'm a spammer or something. *grin*
from x-plicity :
I started using the new Dove mousse. It's incredible! Actually ALL of the Dove products are wonderful. My hair has never been this healthy. I started just using the shampoos and conditioners and now I'm using their other hair products. They're very luxurious at half the price.
from x-plicity :
Have fun!!!
from lifeasme66 :
*sigh* I am so sorry, hon. I know how much that hurts and I wish you didn't have to go through it. But I'm glad you cleared the air with him and now you know what needs to be done. Be strong, things will get better. And if you ever need to talk, you know where to find me **HUGS!!**
from silvaciv :
happy belated birthday..and i'm sorry you're having such a hard time, but hang in there.. let him get his head clear (as clear as guys can get), and hopefully things will get better. stay smiling :)
from x-plicity :
Maybe your inner self is trying to tell you that you need to mourn him and be done with it. *hugs*
from pyt223 :
hey homey, i can't check my myspace or my hotmail from work anymore so just wanted to tell ya HAPPY BIRTHDAY BBIIOOTCH!!!!! love ya much old lady
from iluvleena :
Hsppy late bday! I totally get what you said about TJ and him not telling you he was going to be deployed. I had a boyfriend I was very in love with and we were no longer together and he was deployed overseas and I called his house one day and his mom told me he was in Iraq and won't be home for a few months. It hurt because I still felt feelings and love towards him. I cried for like a week. Keep your head up girlie!
from skinnylizzie :
Happy birthday for Tuesday! Sounds like you had a great weekend, I wish we had alcohol festivals over here :)
from x-plicity :
*hugs* Walking away could be the best thing. You need to be able to move forward.
from lifeasme66 :
I don't know, hon, but I don't think anyone is worth the anguish you're going through. It IS a matter of self-preservation... you're going to drive yourself crazy if you don't have any answers. Since he isn't going to give you any, I think you've gotta answer for him. I know it's easier said than done, but try to be strong **HUGS!!**
from x-plicity :
Relationships with people should enhance your life, not depress it. If someone creates unhappiness in your life you should really consider if their friendship/whatever it is, is worth your decay. *hugs*
from iluvleena :
smile and eat junk food. Periods suck and they make you so emotional that every thing seems worse than it is. I cry at the drop of the hat when I'm about to have it. It sucks. Keep your head up. I'm sorry about TJ.
from x-plicity :
*hugs*
from iluvleena :
Hey girlie! I agree that 8 Mile was way better than 50's movie. But I also love Eminem... I'm glad you and TJ had a nice evening. Sounds fun! Have a good weekend!
from x-plicity :
But, Sweetie. He divorced her and still sees you.
from lifeasme66 :
Hey girl, I'm sure you knew I'd respond to this one =) It IS possible to love two people at the same time, but it's a totally different kind of love for each person. Like, you can have total chemistry passion love for one person, and a deep respecting adoration type love for the other. Yeah, I dunno if they're REAL love... hell, I ain't no expert on love! But it feels like a bitch when you're going through it. Anyway, glad to see you're doing well. And since you're updating more, just wanted to tell you I love it! **HUGS!!**
from iluvleena :
love the drunken entry!
from lifeasme66 :
Cool, I'll have to hit you up on your myspace page! **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
I'm so sorry you're feeling that way. I understand. I dunno, if you feel you shouldn't be waiting, maybe you do need to leave? Sometimes a guy doesn't know what he's got until it walks away. **HUGS!!**
from iluvleena :
locking the diary, leave me a note if you want the info..I don't have an email addy for you
from lifeasme66 :
Hey girl, just catching up with you here. Glad things with you and TJ are looking up. As in, not stressing you out so much. Sounds like a good plan, take things slow and just let nature run its course. As for your Myspace thing, that happened to one of my forum friends. It was a stupid glitch thing but yeah, she couldn't get her stuff back after she rejoined. So dumb! I hope yours isn't this same thing **HUGS!!**
from iluvleena :
Keeping things light for now is a good thing. I hope you had fun!
from skinnylizzie :
Hope it goes okay :) xx
from iluvleena :
Have fun watching a movie with TJ! Should be fun! Good luck!
from iluvleena :
dirty jokes are great! how cute!
from lifeasme66 :
Nothing like a dirty joke to lighten the mood =) **HUGS!!**
from x-plicity :
Good reply!!!!!!!
from lifeasme66 :
Wow girl! Hmm... I'm thinking he wouldn't tell you about Sarah if he didn't really want you to know. I think it means something good for you two, but I wouldn't be in his face about it. Just play it cool, continue to give him his space (the fact that you guys are even emailing is a good sign), and let him decide the pace. =) **HUGS!!**
from x-plicity :
Do you know what I think? I think he's confiding in you. Which is a good sign. Just take it as it is. Normally guys aren't very deep. They say exactly what they mean, they don't try to mask feelings in their words. Be happy that he finally let the ex have it. *hugs* X
from x-plicity :
Here it is: http://www.myspace.com/dreax
from iluvleena :
You don't sound like you watch too much TV, you just like a girl who loves a boy and just wants him to love her back. He must care for you since he's going to come over and let the dog out. Maybe he just needs time to realize that you are the one for him. Just be patient and do what feels right for you. If that means waiting for TJ till you die, then so be it! Let your heart guide you
from x-plicity :
*hugs*
from pyt223 :
good for you that things are working out...just take everything in stride like i know u will...oh yeah, i'm not going to SC anymore so i get to take Dominique to his 1st day of kindergarten!! take care homey
from x-plicity :
....talking about a turn around!
from lifeasme66 :
Wow, such great news!! But yeah, I'd be careful too... don't wanna get your heart smashed again. I'm anxiously awaiting the rest =) **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
Try your hardest to be strong, hon. Honestly, I'm mad at him for suggesting sex like that... you ARE so much better than that!! I know I'm really not the one to be talking about having willpower when it comes to sex (Hello pot, I'm kettle!), but do try your hardest to stick to your weekend plans. They sound fabulous, btw, and I'm sure you guys will get a kick out of "The Break-Up." **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
So glad you have (potential) friends! It may sound silly, but I worry about you! **HUGS!!**
from gracieskates :
What up. I feel bad that I can't just get in my car and come there, have a drink and shoot the shit. But it sucks, fuck its shitty. And I know 110% how you feel cause I've been through it and still go through the bullshit. And its going to take more than a minute to get over it, but I am here for you and if you want to talk you can call me at anytime. I'll wake up or stop working and talk to you! Why cause you are my Bestest Friend and I Love You!!!
from pyt223 :
wud up court dawg? i'm soo sorry things are so shitty for you. i agree that all men suck and u can never fully trust any of them. but try not to get ya down too much and try to get out there and meet some friends cuz te more u sit in the house the worse it gets...i know!!! love u much and hope things get better
from x-plicity :
Sending love your way, hon. Visit my Myspace. I'm under dreaX
from lifeasme66 :
=( **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
Honestly, hon, yours is the only diary that makes me tear up when I read it. That's not a bad thing, it's just that I feel for you and I so wish I could help you. Maybe you could give me your phone number... I'll make your phone ring =) **HUGS!!**
from skinnylizzie :
I think even having a dog is something of an achievement, I'll never be responsible enough to own my own pet! I hope your new house isn't still getting you down by being all lonely and things. I can think of one good thing for you right now, and that is that you're sharing your country with many hot footballers! Not much help, I know, but it's more hot men than there is here at the moment :) xx
from iluvleena :
I am so sorry to hear that you are having to come home to an empty house and what TJ has done to you. I hope things get better and you heal. It will take some time.
from silvaciv :
i'm so sorry you're having such a rough time right now..just keep hanging in there and take only one day at a time; and you'll get through this. and you're right about not knowing what will happen between the two of you in the future, but just remember everything happens for a reason..and i'm sure things will work out for you! keep your head up!
from lifeasme66 :
Your latest entry broke my heart. I'm so sorry, sweetie... I wish there was something more I could say or do for you. Part of me is mad at him for not realizing how you've been waiting for him, and how much it must hurt you to get such cold treatment from him. Even though it isn't his fault, I'm just mad he isn't more sympathetic to your feelings. The other part of me knows that this is all just bad circumstances, bad timing, and that neither of you can really do anything about it except to move on. I really wish I was there, hon, I'd so take you out. =( **HUGS!!**
from x-plicity :
I've been in these shoes, sweetie. The first entries of my diary were ALL about it. But things do change and life has this wonderful habit of moving on. Good things will happen for you, you just have to be open to it. *hugs* X
from skinnylizzie :
I'm really sorry about everything going on at the moment, it does sound like an impressive amount of shit to happen to one person in such a short space of time. I'll be thinking of you and keeping my fingers crossed for you that things sort themselves out xxx
from lifeasme66 :
Wish there was better news... but at least you're sounding okay. Either way, hon, I think it's gonna be a hard couple of weeks coming up. You can do it though, we have faith in you. **HUGS!!**
from x-plicity :
Don't leave yourself to be tortured. You need to make yourself happy. If that means walking away, then maybe you should. It's obvious that all this waiting is only going to lead you right into a depression. *hugs* X
from i-found-him :
Okay...that goes to show what happens when you say you're going to read someone without looking at the diary first...you're locked! I'd like to read your diary, if it's okay with you. My e-mail address and IM info are in my diary if you're interested in sending me the username and password. Thanks!
from i-found-him :
:) Thanks for letting me know you're reading me...which is perfectly fine, by the way! Have a good one! Oh...and I'll be checking yours out, too. I'm always looking for more reading.
from iluvleena :
You are a strong and brave woman and just keep your head up. It's rough but you will get over it and over him. I'm sorry men are such turds!
from silvaciv :
i'm sorry to hear that things with CB are not so great right now..but keep your head up, and remember that you're strong, because otherwise you wouldn't be in another country doing what you're doing! he probably needs some time to sort things out in his head. but it sounds like he truly cares about you and loves you, so keep that head up! and take care of yourself!!
from skinnylizzie :
I have indeed heard of it :). I used to live out Wegberg, Monchengladbach way, but we used to visit American air bases like Ramstein and Bitburg (god, hope I've spelt them right) quite often. It's a nice country, I miss it a lot (although England's not so bad really!). And I hope that the moving out goes okay, and that you two can work things out. I think the note below me put it very succintly, I came here intending to say some of that and somebody's already said it, and put it much better than I ever could! Keep on smiling chicken :) xxx
from x-plicity :
Maybe, after you move out, he'll have some space and then you two can start all over again. Just start off slow and then go from there. It doesn't necessarily mean it's over. *hugs* X
from lifeasme66 :
Aww hon... First off, let me say I'm so glad you're back and writing, I missed you so much! Secondly, I'm sorry about how things are with CB. To be honest, I think the divorce did do a lot to him emotionally. Boys, especially ones who are usually affectionate and sweet like CB was in Korea, they get hurt really bad in situations like divorce or the end of a long relationship. After all, he once really loved his wife... and they had a child. I can only imagine how much that would wound a soul to see a love like that die. Not to say he doesn't feel anything for you, because I'm sure he did and he probably still does. But right now, he's been very hurt, and he's tired of feeling vulnerable. I don't think it's anything against you, but simply that he isn't ready for anything at all with anyone for a while... not until he has renewed his faith in love. It isn't your fault or his fault, neither of you have done nothing wrong. It's a case of bad timing. Where this leaves you, hon, I'm not sure. I think it will take a lot of time for him to come around, and it is up to you whether you will wait for him. Tough choices, my dearest... I wish the best for you... and please email me if you want to talk: amyssister26 at hotmail dot com. **HUGS!!**
from x-plicity :
Talk to him. Tell him what you're feeling and demand that he be honest with you. It's not fair that he's pulling you around like this. Cut youself off, physically, and give yourself time to really think about your situation without having sex clog up your mind. These are things I wish I had done before El Diablo left. That way I would have been better prepared for the heartache. *hugs* X
from skinnylizzie :
That entry was very poignant...I really hope things work out for you, whichever way it may be. And so glad you're back and writing again, I've missed reading your diary whilst you've been away! Which area of Germany are you living in? (my, that sounds a bit stalkerish, I only ask because I just wondered if it was near where I used to live)
from x-plicity :
DAGH!!! I was hoping you would say more about your situation with CB!!! Can't wait for your next entry. *hugs* X
from iluvleena :
I am guessing you are in Germany now? Any good luck happen before you left? Sounds like you were having a rough time. Any word from CB? Good luck and be safe!
from x-plicity :
Be safe and have a good trip. Don't forget to always listen to your gut. *huggles* X
from lifeasme66 :
Have a safe trip, hon, and I'll be eagerly awaiting your return online =) **HUGS!!**
from skinnylizzie :
Can't believe it's time for you to leave already! Hope you have a safe trip home and enjoy your reunion with your gorgeous dog :)
from iluvleena :
I hope things work out with your dog. You're going to be in my neck of the woods soon...BMORE! Party central! Good luck with everything and hope all turns out well.
from x-plicity :
Thank you so much for your prayers. They mean so much to me. Love you!!!
from pyt223 :
whatever. I like Ace but I do agree with you that Kathrine or Chris should definetly win!! yeah, and Chris is hot. Call me sometime bitch, and don't forget our hot times in your bed......
from x-plicity :
You have to admit that CB lieing to his family isn't exactly cool. I know how that feels. It's almost like being dismissed. I also know that it's sometimes necessary. Just make sure he knows that you won't be accepting of it for very long. Of course I'm just a little protective of you. *hugs* X
from x-plicity :
Erin go Braugh!!! Happy St. Patrick's Day!!!
from x-plicity :
Happy St. Patricks day, Love! May all your troubles follow you for the rest of your life, and may they never catch up!!! *hugs* X
from iluvleena :
I'm sorry you lost your friend. That sucks! But the bright side is you get to see your boy in like a month! That should be nice! I agree with you about men and the sex and girls and cuddling. I love cuddling. Thanks for the nice note as well. I appreciate it! Have a good one! Where are you being shipped to next?
from skinnylizzie :
Congrats on the win!!! I might have to try entering more singing competitions if the prizes have gotten that good...
from lifeasme66 :
Girl, you crack me up... again! Enjoy your Ipod, I'm so jealous =) **HUGS!!**
from iluvleena :
Happy Vday! When you come to Baltimore, we should PARTY! I live like 30 minutes away! Let me know how your contest goes! You sounds like a winner!
from x-plicity :
Happy V-day! *heart* X
from xunleashedx :
Hey woman- Its Barbiewoman. I totally started a new diary- Whats your myspace link? Better yet request me as a friend- www.myspace.com/itsmyfuckinlife
from iluvleena :
I would try to make it to your brother's wedding. I cracked up reading the end of your entry with the dude from the doorknob issue. Sounded like you went all out with the Steelers stuff!
from x-plicity :
I would go to your brother's wedding, but that's just me. *hugs* X
from iluvleena :
glad to hear that the door knob situation was resolved and the asses got in trouble. Ha Ha Karma is a bitch! I'm sorry you have to wait so long to see your honey. it does suck. I was dating a guy in the army for awhile and it sucked when he was gone overseas for long periods of time. Good luck
from x-plicity :
What a nightmare!!!! Fuckers!!!
from iluvleena :
I was falling out of my seat laughing at the situation. being locked in your room must suck, but it is funny! Make sure you find those assholes who stole it and get it fixed. Good thing you can sometimes get in and out. I'm sorry for laughing but it was funny.
from x-plicity :
What's that lurking on the edge of darkness???? That would more then likely be me. *grin*
from iluvleena :
Sounds like you are doing so well! Happy New Year!
from x-plicity :
All of these entries about CB always put a grin on my face. I'm glad that you are so happy! *hugs* X
from lifeasme66 :
So happy for you! I'll look up your myspace page ;) **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
Glad you updated, always good to hear what you're up to =) **HUGS!!**
from iluvleena :
glad to see you are back. Sorry about the work issues. My cousin is in the Airforce.
from x-plicity :
Missed you!!! About CB, listen to your intuition. *hugs* X
from iluvleena :
where have you been? Hope all is well
from silvaciv :
hey - hope your time at home is great! it's funny that you say cats are so attracted to you even though you're allergic..the same thing happens to me! well, enjoy your visit with your dog!
from skinnylizzie :
Aww, I'm glad you've been having fun at home, enjoy your reunion with your gorgeous doggy :)
from lifeasme66 :
Aww hon, the most aware of us go through that. There's always risk and heartache that come with the possibility of finding love. But nothing good ever came without risk. Stay in touch the way you have been, talk and email when you can, and if things are meant to happen, you'll both be in the right place emotionally when you are both there physically. **HUGS!!**
from x-plicity :
The only thing you can do is wait and see. Don't ruin your chance at happiness just becasue you have doubts. It's better then to have love and lost...
from iluvleena :
sounds like you are having a good time and it is nice when you chill with people you have known for a really long time. there's no need to try to make a good impression.
from x-plicity :
Gots'ta have the Whataburger!!!
from x-plicity :
Even after a year of seperation, Vince still gives me the, "I still love you" shit. It's annoying. Especially since he knows that I'm in love with someone else. They never give up it seems. Have fun on your vacation!!! *hugs* X
from x-plicity :
You are VERY helpful! *grin*
from iluvleena :
glad you are going home! Hope your trip is safe! Have a good time at home!
from lifeasme66 :
Glad you get to go home and spend some time with your peeps!!! Enjoy! **HUGS!!**
from pyt223 :
Ok, I'm not going to be one of these sweet girls. What you are doing is selfish. But I only know this because when I read your entries they sound exactly how I feel about J. We're both selfish but we can't help it. Really, I've tried plenty of times to leave him alone but I just can't. I left Dominque's father easy and we have a child together. Not to sound stupid, but I do believe it's love. I love J to the point I'm just happy with what I get..phonecalls, emails, visits. Somedays, it doesn't bother me and some it does. I just think it's crazy reading your entries because what u say about CB is exactly how I feel about J. Except, when he's mad at his ole lady, I'm happy..:)
from lifeasme66 :
Nothing to feel bad about, honey. You can tell he needs someone right now, just for support, and that's what you're doing for him. Continue to email and talk. Even though his situation isn't the best, that's not your fault, and you are being a caring friend by being there for him. **HUGS!!**
from skinnylizzie :
'homegirl' - is it wrong that I'm so proud?! Thanks for the note, it was really sweet xx
from x-plicity :
Honey, coming from someone that was in your situation at one time. Try to make yourself hard towards him. It'll make it easier once he's out of your life. *hugs* X
from iluvleena :
yeah but i don't want to broadcast it because it's my first and last name. And so is my AIM name as well. What is your email and I will email you from my email address?
from iluvleena :
I can't read your journal because it's locked...
from iluvleena :
thank you for reading. I will keep it updated. Once I get some work today I will read yours as well. I love reading other people's thoughts!
from skinnylizzie :
Aww, I'm thinking of you right now, have a big hug from me. I can't even pretend to know what it feels like but I hope you feel a bit better soon xx
from lifeasme66 :
OMG, sweetie... I was literally sobbing while reading this last entry. I know how hard it is to find what you described, but that's why it's so special. People like that touch our lives once in a blue moon, and not that I want you too feel worse that he's gone, but having them there, if even for an instant, is enough to change you forever for the better. Never fear love, it makes you human. **HUGS!!**
from silvaciv :
i know you don't want people feeling sorry for you, but i totally do!! i enjoyed reading stories about the two of you - they were so romantic at times and just great to read...maybe you'll see him in your next life where he'll be divorced :)
from pyt223 :
hey court, i'm soo sorry u soo sad. but know that is was good while it lasted and finally u've had a equal feeling relationship. that does mean something. and not to put crazy thoughts in ur head but u never know whats gonna happen in germany...sometimes fate is a bitch! love ya
from x-plicity :
*hugs*
from lifeasme66 :
Yay, all four levels! Hehe, thanks for the shout-out, hon... and yeah, I have to agree, if you feel it that strongly, it's definitely something special =) **HUGS!!**
from x-plicity :
Don't let yourself get hurt, Sweetie. *hugs* X
from x-plicity :
Happy belated birthday!!!
from lifeasme66 :
Just reading about CB leaving makes me sad too. I guess there's nothing you can do to stop the inevitable, so you might as well live it up the best you can. Enjoy it and don't look back =) **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
I smiled as I read your last entry. Sure, it might be a fleeting thing, but I am so glad CB was able to show you how great some guys really can be =) **HUGS!!**
from skinnylizzie :
Thinking of you and your friends, I really hope they'll all be okay. Everyone in England is thinking of them all. xxx
from barbiewoman :
I've been thinking about you cause I know when I mailed that pic of me and my dog to you it was to Boloxi. I heard where J lived was wiped out too. I've been reading all the Yahoo news articles about it. I'll keep all your lobved ones in my prayers, And def. let us know when you hear something! This is so horrible. And Gas is near 4.00 a gallon here in NC due to this tragety. There's people here and in GA and all over that are offering their spare rooms to strangers who are homeless for days, weeks, even months. United we stand. I'll be thinking of ya. <3- Jamie
from lifeasme66 :
Oh hon... I know, what's happening out there is soooo horrible. I don't even know what I can say except I'll be praying for your friends and please let us know if you do hear from them. **HUGS!!**
from x-plicity :
Sending *hugs*.
from mentalimages :
I am still interested! [email protected]
from skinnylizzie :
"Your eyes kill me" - Aww, how sweet is that?! Jealous, very jealous. Oh, and I meant to leave a note after your entry the other day - your diary isn't even remotely boring! I have been an avid reader since Day 1, I enjoy reading about what's going on, especially with CB! :)
from pyt223 :
have fun with your boy, but when he leaves leave the shit alone...it will be alot easier to get over it. until then, do what you do homey...love ya
from lifeasme66 :
Nope, not bored of your entries... happy for you! Enjoy him! **HUGS!!**
from barbiewoman :
Awwww- I hate to hear ya so down. But I agree with the person under me- It'll be easier if you try forgetting about it now cause no matter what happens- it's still gonna be painful. And you know he's not the only nice sweet guy out there. There's plenty more- and you're a pretty, intelligent, sweet woman and any man with half a brain will know that. Just find the one who isn't married! LOL! I DO think his roommate talked to him about hurting his marriage. And that's why he's backing off. He is in the wrong for making out with you and getting feelings for you. But until he leaves his wife I'd put a stop to those feelings you are having of him. I'll be reading hunny! Much LOVE! Jamie
from lifeasme66 :
Aww hon, I know exactly how this feels =(. You don't want to feel anything because you think you shouldn't, but you know you do because it just starts hurting like this. Honestly, I think his roommate talked to him about his messing around with someone. Not necessarily you, but maybe he just talked to him about jeopardizing his marriage. Made him really think about what he was doing. So maybe now, CB feels guilty and he's backing off a bit. You didn't do anything wrong, but because of guilt, he's going to stay away from you. And I know you can't help but feel the way you do about it, even though you know it's wrong to want him. Very tough situation for the heart. Personally, I think you should let go because this will hurt no matter what happens. 'Course then, it's much easier for me to say that than for you to do it, don't I know. And regarding Hugo, they say, "the best way to get over someone is to get under someone else." Maybe you'll find another boy to help you get over CB... Best of luck to you, hon, I'll be reading =) **HUGS!!**
from skinnylizzie :
Don't mind at all! And unimaginative nicknames are always the best, that way you'll never forget them ;)
from x-plicity :
It's [email protected]
from x-plicity :
Hi, Sweetie. My computer died and I lost your username and password. Can I have it again? [email protected]
from lifeasme66 :
Glad to read things are going so well for you! Hehe, and yeah... gush all you want about the new boy, it's fun to read =) **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
Woo! Exciting, I love it!! Yes, kissing is the GREATEST... especially with boys who do it well =D Can't wait to hear more about this guy **HUGS!!**
from barbiewoman :
Oh and a new diary that I found that fuckin rocks is "supermom3604" look her up and read some of her entries- She's 25 and a mom of 2 boys- She is so totally me when I am married and have kids. She rocks!
from barbiewoman :
Good to finally hear from you! I have been wondering what was up with your mom and J. I have been praying for your family, God works in strange ways- So I hope its working one way or another. You have to find more time to update. I love reading your life! XOXO Jamie
from lifeasme66 :
Good to see you update! I'm glad you're doing well =) **HUGS!!**
from silvaciv :
how are things going? i've been waiting for your oh so interesting life stories! they are much better than mine :-)
from silvaciv :
congratulations on standing up to J! I'm so happy to hear that you're more happy now!
from lifeasme66 :
Wow girl. First off, congrats on getting the job done. It's never easy, but I think you handled it well. Yeah, may not be a good idea to continue talking to him, cuz you know he's going to keep fighting this. =( Secondly, your parties there sound like such a blast!! I'm jealous! =D **HUGS!!**
from pyt223 :
send the man an email...don't worry bout how heartless and shit it is and just do it. what would be heartless is for him to stay where he is and when u get back u don't want his ass. he'll move to CA or VA and he'll get over it. just send him one email and maybe answer some ?'s he has (thru email) and then just cut it off. about ur mom, don't blame urself for doing just what ur mom wants u to do. ur mom wants u to have a good life. just think of how damn proud of u she is! and be happy that u r able to help her like u can. god doesn't give us anything we can't handle and ur mom can handle alot dammit!! love ya talk at ya later
from gracieskates :
i have updated my diary. happy now? all men suck you should of got rid of the bitch a long time ago. but we know i can't talk. your moms will be fine i know she is strong and she always makes it through rough times. thank God you are there for her.
from lifeasme66 :
I hope things work out for your mom. Regarding you and J, breakups are hard, no matter how you look at it. Don't be too hard on yourself, hon. It's never easy to end things. It always takes me a long time to cut things off too... look at what happened with Jon or Phillip! If you must do it through the written word, then that is better than nothing! Despite what they say, it isn't easy for the person doing the breaking up. Yeah, it isn't as hard as it would be for the one getting dumped, but it's still no cake walk. Good luck, hon. **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
Wow hon, tough spot. I think #2 sounds like the best way to go as well. You know it will be hard, and that he will say all sorts of hurtful things... but I think it really needs to be done that way. And then you'll never have to speak to him again. Emails and such can be misinterpretted, but hearing the news leaves no room for doubt. Best of luck with whichever option you choose, hon, and yes, you must do it soon. **HUGS!!**
from pyt223 :
i've updated......and so should you!!! dammit
from lifeasme66 :
Wow, warm thought out to your mom, I do hope it gets easier for her too. And word about boys being stupid and selfish. They SO are. **HUGS!!**
from skinnylizzie :
Your mum sounds amazing, more power to her for coping through all of that. And go you for being so responsible at the age of 15 - I don't know ONE person that would've done that. Anyway, glad you're still around, I'm loving the stories!
from silvaciv :
thanks for the update..i hardly ever read my notes, i'm not sure why! but yes i got your new diary name...hope you're having fun with all the hotties!!
from mentalimages :
How strange to have someone list my diary as a favorite, only to find that i cannot read theirs. Is there a secret password, or a special chant perhaps that will get me into the private life of you?
from lifeasme66 :
Yeah, I hear ya about the "becoming a stupid girl to the boy FRIEND" bit. Sucks big time. Good luck though, maybe you can walk that fine line. I know that I, myself, have shit luck with that sort of thing... **HUGS!!**
from pyt223 :
first of all, don't even trip about "cute boy" fuck him...he probably ain't that cute anyways. and second, if u think u ain't gonna get fucked up again and do something crazy while ur there ur mistaken. thats how deployments are. nobody has a life so everybody gets fucked up. i tried myself to stop but it didn't happen till i got home to my "real life".
from pyt223 :
thanks for telling me bitch!! did ya get the pics yet? and read my diary when u get a chance
from lifeasme66 :
Wow girl!!!! You been busy! Oh god, and tell me about how a HOT boy looks over you. Mmm-mmm! I kinda knew you'd feel that way about J once you were able to get away from him. Yes, it isn't right, but I totally understand. With time, I think you'll be able to tell him. And I guess I can't end this note without the doctor in me just wanting to tell you to take it easy with the alky ;) **HUGS!!**
from lifeasme66 :
OH my gosh, girl, totally missed you. Can't believe Dland is being such a butt with your old diary! Yeah, it takes them awhile to delete old diaries, so I would suggest keep trying to contact Andrew. Make sure you say that you're a "GOLD MEMBER" in your subject line, it usually helps. Although, I've submitted a bunch of requests since the huge crash and they've gone unanswered too. I dunno, sucks bigtime. If you do decide to move sites, make sure you let me know where you've gone to! **HUGS!!**
from skinnylizzie :
YOU'RE BACK!!! I was beginning to wonder where you were! Stupid Diaryland, I think a few people have had problems and no response when they've tried to sort them out. They don't delete diaries for a few months, you should be okay for a while. Glad you're back!

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