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i'm not sure if you're still here or not, or if you know that i'm back now. but i thought i would let you know that my diaries are open and i'm doing wonderful. come find me someday? -L

from acidreams :

ehhh.... i lost the password agian.

from lastofthsane :

works now. :) heh i didnt wanna press the matter. figgured you were buissy n stuff :)

from serenaville :

As ever, I am horribly late responding. "Don't hate the playa, hate the game", and all that? Yes, I do still read here... and absolutely, I'd love the info. Thank you so much for the beautiful comment about my diary, in your profile. You're in my heart as well, my friend, straight up... and that's forever. Now that I'm not working, I'll keep in better touch. Miss the hell outta you!! *HUGS!*

from finallywoken :

Sorry it has been awhile,but I wanted to let you know that preshushthorn is doing fine,things are going very well for her and I.We hope to be able to move together this summer,but we shall see.We are both taking one day at a time.I'm sorry I haven't left anything for awhile or told you anything.I just wanted to let you know she is doing fine.

from meesh03 :

I can't stop you, but I can thank you. This drama has an end to it. It's called "putting my foot down." I haven't lost my faith in men, just one. He will have to work his ass off if he ever wants to make it work. Otherwise, that other stuff was worthless ranting. I can't help it when the poison seethes through. Sometimes you just have to be blunt and let it out there. Hope you're well. ;p

from acidreams :

Dont give me the credit. You too are stronger than you give yourself credit for.

from chikyblonde :

Do me a fav (unless it doens't bother you because afterall, it is your diary...) in your code, go to: #sd, #sd1, #sd2 and change left: to 245px, 250px, 255px respectively, all 3 widths from 400px to 485px, and all 3 font sizes from 20px to 18px. This will cause your short-descriptions to now fit inside that box and not cover up part of your entries. if you have probs, let me know but you shouldn't.

from acidreams :

thank you. Have I told you lately that I love you?!?!

from chikyblonde :

and you shall NEVER live it down that i FINALLY beat you.....hahahahahahaa....yeah you will. I'll stop being giddy eventually.

from lastofthsane :

Damn dude, its probably already to late, but GOOD LUCK, at the job interview!!! *crosses fingers*

from chikyblonde :

i really like how you presented your writing today.

from bleakchaos :

Dude...that things with your mom is shitty. I used to get that from my dad, saying I was gonna be a failure and shit...whatever. I admire you though. You're strong, you still carry on. Keep your head up...never let down...\m/

from entragian :

wow...and i thought i was the only who felt *that* way, (referring to your last entry). <3 nomi p.s. i am a completely random person, so no, you do not know me. p.p.s. meshuggah is the shit. p.p.p.s i think you're awesome.

from meesh03 :

You are ranting like a crazy person. But I completely understand. Anything is hard to swallow when it comes from our mothers, but you just gotta say fuck it and move on with life. You'll get through this dark time just like all the other times, only this time, you'll come out on top and saying "booyah motha fuckas.." so perk up pepper... :)

from acidreams :

I wish I knew what to say. I know nothing I can say is going to make anything better or make you feel better. Im sorry/

from acidreams :

Oh my god!! you locked your diary. And didnt even tell me. Im hurt.

from chikyblonde :

fuckin' THROW THE HORNS UP DUDE!!!! \m/ \m/ if i was a dude, that entry right there woulda given me a total hard on. you spoke everything i've been feeling about lame-asses lately. RAWK!

from acidreams :

yup. Im really bad at calling people back. im sorry

from vix280 :

my diary is officially Locked for a while...email me at [email protected] for a username and password!!! XOXOX Me

from acidreams :

hey....did u get my letter?

from entrapta :

Horns up yourself...whatever that means. Crackhead. Give me a shout sometime.

from acidreams :

I got a new screenname....MyCrimsonDemise

from chikyblonde :

just don't keep me in the dark. if you need to let it out, let it out. who cares if you think it might not be the right thing to do or say...you taught me that very well. A woman HATES guessing. at least i do. and im trying very hard to not fuck it up this time with being too emotional or open with my feelings. friends first and always. that is my mindset that gets me through most of the inner turmoil. my mom found Monster for $1.99. So when your sale is over and if you want, I'll get you all the monster you need for dirt fuggin cheap. G'YEAH!

from chikyblonde :

i too am afraid that with the passing of each day...that with the setting of the sun, it will rob me the memory of your face, your beautiful eyes, your gorgeous smile...until nothing is left. But i will never let that go no matter how much time passes until i can once again see you. On a bed of nails i wait. oh shit now im gonna cry. DAMMIT.

from acidreams :

I finally added an entry to my diary. DO you hate me for never writing you back?

from acidreams :

hey. It's been awhile. I still intend to write you back someday.

from meesh03 :

And it's always a pleasure to hear from you too! Sorry for the distance. Hope all is well in your world.

from herdarlinsin :

I have preshusthorns password if you need it. If Sheri hasn't sent it to you as of yet. Just email me at [email protected], and I will give it to you. Toodles.

from finallywoken :

I would love to send you the pass for preshusthorn,but don't know where to send it.I don't want to leave it here,because I don't know how she would feel about that.I do know she would be happy to know that you have read the entry she has put in and I am sure she would be glad to hear from you also.So let me know how to get the pass to you.Thanks

from vix280 :

Go look at my new template and WATCH THE BANNER AT THE TOP....

from finallywoken :

I just wanted to let you know that I have spoken to preshusthorn and she is doing as well as can be expected given the circumstances.We hope to have her back soon.She has gotten the chance to leave an entry in her diary and as usual it is beautifully written.

from chikyblonde :

dayum....you got me beat on the running. But alas, I will get back into it and SMOKE YOUR ASS when I get back to those 5-7 mile runs. hahahahahah. yeah right.

from lastofthsane :

I know a happy dude when i see one!! Good time at the OTEP show ey? :)

from chikyblonde :

photobucket is about to DIE!!!! they're hosting our images for the sites and they're having some issues right now...if it's like this tomorrow, I'll send you a link to the file on diaryland...fuckers. THEY'RE RUINING DRINKO-DE-MAYO!! hahahahahaha

from vix280 :

BETTER!!! YAY!!!

from chikyblonde :

good thing I'm secretly an android. Your template's almost done

from herdarlinsin :

Its changed for me since I havent been to your site since Letti's been gone :P

from herdarlinsin :

I love your new template

from chikyblonde :

get a scuttlebutt from waffle house. Shit's off the heezee.

from vix280 :

I am SO proud of you and happy to see you giddy..I love the tine you sent me and as soon as you got 4 or 5 on a demo I wanna review it for the Shug Love you

from chikyblonde :

Well, it's not like it's gonna be anything all THAT fantabulous. But I still get to sit in "The Chair" and listen/feel the wonderful buzzzz of the needle. I'll be sure to get you the pics when it's done.

from chikyblonde :

ok, I'm gonna take that as a good thing!!! HERCULES HERCULES HERCULES!!! Dude, if you only knew how much that has pegged today's I'm-having-a-fuggin-fantabulous-day meter! And I'm getting inked tonight!

from acidreams :

I am going to need your email again. Yes, I do like heavier music.

from lastofthsane :

nana nana nana nanaaa ... hit me :) smurfd AT smurfnet DOT homelinux DOT org (replace " AT " with "@") (replace " DOT " with ".") :P

from acidreams :

Forgive me. Whats your email again? Are you online

from acidreams :

I locked. If you want the password leave your email.

from entrapta :

put the song on the internet so people can steal it and find out. It's the only way to go.

from acidreams :

Got your letter the other day. I was excited. I'll write you back ASAP!

from serenaville :

I am not ignoring you, promise. Thanks for the comments, notes, and calls... you get a blue raspberry-flavored Cotton Candy Bucket for being so spiff. ;D I will get a hold of you the minute an opportunity presents (Read: When I'm home, and C.E. isn't using the phone as life support, for it being constantly attached to her head!), I'm VERY interested in knowing all you have to tell me. Missing you dearly, my friend. Talk to you soon! *HUGS*

from vix280 :

I been telling you to get the fuck outta there. Go see your fam and come see me too...baby...you need outta that life sucking state!!!

from chikyblonde :

Funny you should say "It's scary to me how those that are truly in touch with higher powers can see the things that I try my hardest to keep hidden." Because something very interesting happened last night pertaining to you...I'll elaborate if you ever wanna hear.

from chikyblonde :

ijust wonder one thing...why the fuck do we need relationships anyway when they end up all fucked up and people get pissed at each other and then they don't talk to each other unless it's to tell you how worthless you are or they are or that they fucking cheated on you during the last few months and just when you think you healed, you end up right back in the same shit just a new relationship. Yeah...slightly bitter. I know what you're saying though! [wink]

from acidreams :

I wish there was something I could say besides thank you because just saying thank you doesnt even begin to express the thanks I feel. I know you are right. I should just stop worrying about other people and just think of myself but I hate hurting other people more than I hate them hurting me. It's a viscous cylce. No, i havent recieved any letters from you but im still waiting. I will email you my address.

from finallywoken :

Hello,this is preshusthorns girlfriend and I an sorry I didn't tell you sooner thank you.Thank you for supporting her.I also wanted to unedrstand why she reads you so much and she is right when she says *raw emotion*.I love the fact you are who you are and do not let society put demands on you to be someone you aren't.Again,Thank you.

from entrapta :

No you goober, WE sneer at the Yuppies, not the other way around. Sorry I haven't written you lately, I've got three jobs and no spare time really... I'll give you a call soon.

from acidreams :

whichever one I can IM you on

from acidreams :

Hey...whats your screenname?

from herdarlinsin :

This is Lettis best friend. Sendme an email and I will tell you some of what is going on so you aren't confused anymore. Ok? Thanks, Chrissy

from vix280 :

I locked My diary...email me for a user name and password..Yea it happened...

from chikyblonde :

Isn't it nice to get little tokens like that when you least expect it? I won't throw my pity party. You are very special though.

from acidreams :

Things do need to slow down. Ive just never been in love before and Im the most impatient person in the world. I want to hear and say those 3 little words, I want to know what it feels like to be loved. I want it all right now and i just cant wait. But slowing down in good. It's really good. Thank you for caring about me.

from herdarlinsin :

That is THE funniest thing I've ever seen. You made my week, really. Thank you.. I'm just going to toddle off and take my Fukitol pill now.

from acidreams :

Thank you. I hope you dont mind.... you gave me something to say to him as to why I do this. That was beautiful.

from acidreams :

You wrote me a letter? How sweet! No, I havent recieved it yet. And once again you are right, in order for me to be happy i had to let him go but thinking that he might be hurt hurts me. It makes me feel like shit. I just keep telling myself that his secerts and privateness was all a bunch of bullshit. Enough about me...how are you?

from chikyblonde :

Thanks for taking the quiz!!!! Now GET ON YOUR KNEES and bow in submission to the mighty Quiz Goddessssss!

from chikyblonde :

I decided I was going to have to "manually" remove the nonbiodegradeable toxin called Ramen Noodles...Binge and purge...binge and purge...

from acidreams :

That quote, is beautiful. I can see how that would remind you of us. Well, atleast me anyway. Whats it from? And your right about Danny, he is so much better than brian was. I just cant help but make myself feel terrible beause I know how bad it hurts to "lose" someone and I never wanted to make anyone feel that shitty.

from thetoxicsoul :

You are SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO lucky I'm still on your buddy list.

from chikyblonde :

i don't know what it is that has caused me to start writing more but I know it was awakened that night we had talked about how we got started writing when we were kids and stuff...and oh how I've missed it. thanks for reading and glad you enjoy. It's nice to share it with people who appreciate it.

from acidreams :

you are so sweet. I hope your hand is getting better! *LOVE*

from vix280 :

I dunno...rumor has it only 3?

from vix280 :

shoulda killed them fuckers...I love you ..log on when you can or call if you wanna...im around...

from meesh03 :

You are a complex person. Fucking take charge, and kick ass. You rock. Just in case you didn't know that already! ;) Miss me?

from vix280 :

I do that all the time...NOTHING is wrong with you..you are capable of emotion..doesnt mean you are a pussy...I love you

from acidreams :

Happy Valentine's day! Be my valentine?

from thetoxicsoul :

And you should miss us you sexy beast. Also, you look very hardcore in your pictures...keep up the good work! Thinking of you... Cheers, Me

from vix280 :

HORNS UP!! I love you and aI miss our talks...UBER SEXY pic BTW....

from acidreams :

hey....

from serenaville :

*HUGS* I'm here, if you need to talk. Love ya, my friend.

from meesh03 :

you and are i drunk too.

from meesh03 :

Shit is rocking in my world. I can't complain. I'm glad you like my little change I made about you! And I have to say that I'm sorry for being an ass, and not wishing you a Happy Birthday. But since we don't talk that much, you can't be too angry with me. I know you rock, and you know IIIII rock, so it's no big deal. We grow older and then we die. But hey, you just gotta keep on livin.. L I V I N. So what I'm sayin is Happy Birthday late and all that fun jazz... your home girl, Meesh ;p

from comma-abuse :

I just wanted to apologize for coming off as so rude when I got so distracted last time we talked. I had so many people IMing me, and even when I had less people were just IMing me like ding ding, dingdingdingding! So anyway, maybe we can talk without my coming off like a bitch next time.

from thetoxicsoul :

Yeah, I'm with the other girl! WHY DID YOU SAY IT WAS YOUR BIRTHDAY! Aahh! Happy Birthday guy!

from serenaville :

I'm stunned! Hon, did you even TELL me when your birthday was?? I am so, so sorry for completely missing the occasion!! Please forgive me? :( Happy belated birthday, sweet one, for what it's worth...

from vix280 :

Happy Birthday baby!! Mines 15 dyas away and I am NOT looking forward to it...But lets make this year the BEST year okay!?! Love you always!

from thetoxicsoul :

You'd hump it any ways you scurvy dog. You're probably humping it right now! Happy New Years Love!

from chikyblonde :

Of course, you know what line I just used from your entry to update my buddylist profile with right! And funny thing is...I got a mental image of that!!! :b

from lastofthsane :

I hear you! Ive read some of your stuff and ive totaly thought the same way.. This fella and I seem to share alot thoughtwise. Its weird how that is :)

from comma-abuse :

Just got to reading entries of yours again. I've been pretty off lately. It sucks that we haven't spoken as much. I'll make an effort to get on yahoo, promise. It made me happy that you mentioned me, anyway. And I won't be forgetting you, no worries!

from chikyblonde :

and I get to attend one of those yuppy luncheons tomorrow...our office is going just to get a free bottle of expensive wine.

from comma-abuse :

I know where you're coming from... Down here it's not even yuppies with charities, it's people with canned food drives who treat those unlike them like shit outside of a holiday fundraiser.

from serenaville :

WHOOOOOOOO!! I knew you'd nail that audition!!! Congrats, hon... hope you 'mesh' with your new bandmates. Maybe one day there'll be a way for me to hear the songs you create. Kick ass and take names! Talk to ya soon. *HUGS!!!*

from meesh03 :

I miss you like hell. How is life? Sorry for being away. I forgot how much this community of people connected through cyber-space really helps me out sometimes! Good tidings to you!

from chikyblonde :

that was Goooooooood. I really like that entry. You write so well. How was your Thanksgiving? I'm going to call you this weekend to chat a bit ok!!

from krugerpak007 :

Yip. Sometimes thinking too much is just not healthy I guess. I hope you are feeling better. Just dropped by to say hi and read a few of your entries. Take care. xoxo Kathy

from lastofthsane :

Hey man! cool to hear that things arent bad atleast :)

from acidreams :

I think that is an awesome idea. People are so stupid and desperate these days that even if it didnt work they would spend a stupid amount of money on it anyways. As for the island-Ive always wanted to live on an island. Away from civilation.

from snow666white :

I enjoyed your rant-like entry "Bleh"...very effective indeed! :) ~Snow~ o.x.o.x

from chikyblonde :

CRAP!! I'M NOT DONE YET!!! I don't know that I could meet this sick human being and not spit on her or beat the living daylights out of her. I like what that one person said how someone should make art out of her...YEAH!!! Now i have to go to the bathroom and fix my makeup...love ya babe!

from chikyblonde :

I friggin cried dude. I friggin cried. I thought about my cats and that's just sooooo friggin wrong. Why isn't the ASPCA or someone after her!!! SHE BEAT A FRIGGIN CAT TO DEATH WITH A STICK?????? SHE CUT A CATS HEAD OFF????

from meesh03 :

Hell yea. Deleting those entries was freedom to me! Plus, it eliminated the chances of certain people in my life to read it, and to find out what I really think of them. WORD. ANyhoow. Yeah, I'd love to know where you're writing more at. You can email me at [email protected] if you'd like. Peace dawg.

from vix280 :

Thanks for being a positive force in my turbulent and confusing life right now...I love you always!

from preshusthorn :

user; fuckingcunt pass; sluttytwat //i had no choice but to lock it. sorry for the inconvenience.

from meesh03 :

Dude, I need some advice. Say you had a girlfriend right now(give or take 6 months), and they told you they had a blog. But forgot to mention that they had it. Would you be irritated with them? Especially if they knew about yours and said they didn't read it, but come to find out they did and lied to you about it? Cuz I'm fucking wiggin and I need to know if I'm in the wrong. thx

from lastofthsane :

dude, you know it!! even with all the wining,its a price im willing to pay, ten fold. see you are writing again, cool cool! and yeah, that fuckin google *shrug*

from mr-sparkles :

The shirt is notorious western wear, made by ELY DIAMOND. Go into any western-y type store and you'll find them. They're a tad pricey, but come on.........the shit pays for itself.

from under-yuki :

I woke up scared as fuck and laughing hysterically at the same time. It was so awesome.

from acidreams :

whats your reason?

from meesh03 :

You fucking rule and I love you! ;p

from under-yuki :

Awww. I was mentioned first. I'm so goopy. And yes, you are that cool. Fuck the telletubies, I refuse to lie. I miss you laughing insanely at the dumb, dumb things I say. Hope things are well, overall, but it seems you're okay. WHEE.

from serenaville :

As I love you, dear one. Call whenever! Don't fret, ain't nothin' but a thang. You're sweet, missing my voice. Glee! Thank you for the shout-out, that's always a thrill. Talk to ya soon! *HUGS* :)

from meesh03 :

Damn skippy! It's on Monday night!! HEHEHE! take care babe.. have a fantastic weekend! ;p

from meesh03 :

I freakin love you. Hilarious stuff.

from preshusthorn :

you are always here for me, and that means more than you'll ever know. thank you -letti

from thetoxicsoul :

i miss you

from under-yuki :

Tell me where you are, I'm not just going to pretend you never existed. Promise.

from lastofthsane :

so "I" was good huh? well its on my "gotta buy" list, darn high too..

from meesh03 :

that is a beautiful poem. It amazes me, b/c I'll sign on and get ready to make an entry, read yours, and it's like we're going through the exact same damn thing. I have to give you props.

from meesh03 :

You're my most faavorite! You are the sunshine when it rains! Hope life is treating you right! Let me know.

from acidreams :

I am so sorry that I havent been able to talk to in forever. Are things alright? I see that you deleted your whole diary, what is going on?

from vix280 :

WTF is up with your Diary? Message me

from preshusthorn :

thank you, though im not sure whats so amazing. -missing you- letti

from lastofthsane :

Wow, how's that working out for you? cus i have decided to do so a couple of times too, okey, so maby 2 days, i get alot done, then on the third day.. im back to square one again.

from mr-sparkles :

hit me up with that new sizz-ite bizz-nitch!!

from vix280 :

you can deal with out the nic.... Oh and for the record ...google hits infest me constantly...who in the FUCK googles Vix280?

from meesh03 :

I'm doing a merry dance in my pj's for ya dude. I hope this and everything else can get swept up out with the rest of the trash.. word

from vix280 :

drive south

from lastofthsane :

dude, Congratulations!!!

from serenaville :

I actually squealed with glee when I read your comment about calling me on Talk Like a Pirate Day! That would kick. ASS. You have to be sure to refer to me as Pirate Agnes, and tell me why the rum is gone, when I ask you! Hee. *Touch, touch, TOUCH* ...You're that damn cool! :D Love ya! ARRRRRRRRRRR!

from acidreams :

The painful part is I know she will always be in my life and we will always be friends Just not the way we use to be; not the way I want. It's funny how when your younger you always tell each other that no man (or girl)will ever come between you. Because best friends; a person who has always been there for you is more important. And then they do. It hurts because I never allowed a guy to come between us. Ive lost boyfriends because I put her first. And she doesnt.

from chikyblonde :

bet you anything it was mike. Check the stats and if it shows The Computer Outlook it was him.

from vix280 :

Im leaving california...wanna come to Oklahoma?? I may need a roomie.

from acidreams :

You shaved????

from acidreams :

GOD!!!! You are soooo hilarious.

from serenaville :

*HUGS!!!* for what you wrote about me in your entry! Hahahaha - another major factor, but you wouldn't say. Too funny. You are always more than welcome, my friend. "Anything, anytime, anywhere." :)

from under-yuki :

There's no anything in Georgia. I hate it here.

from vix280 :

I GOT ONE!!!! and as soon as I have pics of me in it ill post it...However if you find some I wanna start an "Anti-Ass Clown Posse!!! Send em on baby!!~ Love you!

from lastofthsane :

Yes yes, archetype has been released over here too. Got some special edition, with a DVD wich had stuff from their Australian 04 tour.. Jupp, "I"'s been released too, and no, i havent heard it either [joining the corner]. but there was this 3 minute preview i know someone posted on the OTEP board about, thats what ive heard. Both has been released pretty recently tho. Funny thing that, spoke about Meshuggah with a pal of mine a while ago, cus over seas, they are Gods! and over here, they are just, meshuggah, wich is kinda weird since they are from here ;) hey, thanks for your words... and i know all to well, about needing to digg to the end, to find a ladder to climb up ... Seems you found the ladder, congrats!! now put that dirt back in the hole, and burry your digging showel with it.. lol

from under-yuki :

Sorry about things as of late. Things are going wrong, and I just... God, I don't know. I've been trying to talk to you... where are you?

from acidreams :

Im fine. For once I am JUST fine. But why do you ask? And how about you, are you doing okay?

from serenaville :

Whoa. 'The Callow'. What happened?? You okay? By the way, your archives don't come up, sweet... keep getting an error page. I'll try giving you a call tonight. *HUGS!!!*

from acidreams :

That was awesome. Beautiful. Poetic.

from chikyblonde :

hi! Remember me?! I just wanted to tell you I really like what you wrote. It seems to me when I'm not searching for something to write about, it comes. But we both know when you try too hard, it turns out crap so just write when you can and dont force when you cant. I love you!

from acidreams :

Of course you can keep them!

from lastofthsane :

rock some ass at Machinehead for me will ya? ;) cus they sure kickass.. you lucky one..

from meesh03 :

Dude. I can't even begin to tell you how frustrated I was when I wrote the entry about my blog. Apparently someone that I work with who is just above me was going to turn me in for something that I wrote on my damn journal. that's bullshit right? Right! so that's what the entry was about. If that person ever tried to use my online journal against me, then they'd have to be out of his/her gd mind. But seriously, some bullish. But I wanted to drop you a line to see what was up! Have a great weekend! I'm sure we'll be updating! lates! :P

from acidreams :

Well, the post isnt exactly reliable. But I'll be pissed if you dont get it soon. Maybe tomorrow.

from mr-sparkles :

Start writing shit down......your plans, your ideas, your schedule.........then bust some heads.

from acidreams :

You get it yet?

from serenaville :

What Under-Yuki said. I have every respect for your Mother after reading this, she sounds like excellent people. About damned time someone put some sort of fear in you, Buster. LISTEN TO HER, ya hear me?!?! *HUGS!!* >:)

from under-yuki :

Weird as it sounds, it makes me wish I was your mother. At least then you'd listen to me. Pshaw.

from lastofthsane :

hey cy! Well.. first of, havent been That much into FF lately, have their "Demanufacture", wich Kicks much-o ass!! and, ive heard/seen the video for "Cyberwaste", kickass, but then there was this calm parts.. um, wasnt prepared for that! But, hey, i never give up on cds... (okey there are Some rare occations,but very seldom) and i got a dvd with it, pretty cool, behind their Aussi tour. seems like a bounch of crazy mo-fo's ;) and hey, you'll figure it out, wich roads to take, and wich bridges to build etc etc..

from silverchyld :

[hugs] I'm here if you need to talk, hun. Just give me a buzz or a ring. ~bri

from meesh03 :

I know the feeling. I feel the roof sinking in on my head someimes. My classes got cancelled. I bought my books for classes that don't exist anymore, and as I cried on my way home, I got a speeding ticket. Bastard didn't even care that I was bawling. Damn the man. Let's go to Canada! :p

from acidreams :

Im right there with you.

from acidreams :

That picture is in the mail tomorrow.

from serenaville :

Your comment was aces, thank you. I'll try to ease up on the gyn stuff though, just for you. ;) Very glad you ate something. I growled with concern the entry before that. You know what I said on the phone. *HUGS!!!*

from under-yuki :

I'm going to start singing Ode to Oren Ishii, which is terrible because I'm white and a girl and I've got no rythmn.

from acidreams :

Everything

from under-yuki :

Things can be symbolic and confusing, especially in such matters, and you shouldn't think you're on a side you don't want to be. To some extent you do have control. I'm sorry if anything's worse now. Come on MSN, if you can. There's something hovering over me just a little, now. Also... I don't think things will turn out as badly as you think they will, if my opinion matters.

from under-yuki :

Crazy. Hey, we should talk. I'm on MSN. (When am I not on MSN?)

from meesh03 :

I'll meet you somewhere. I'm ready to get the fuck out too. Just an FYI. Road trip. I'm dead serious.

from thetoxicsoul :

well duh.

from under-yuki :

the rest of me was like, gross. But that was one weird picture. Weirder than, say, nipples. Well, maybe not.

from under-yuki :

Dude, did you see the weird eye picture? ...Dude.

from under-yuki :

I'd like to try and help you, but I'm drained and delirious. Mayhap a hug?

from acidreams :

I have someone for you whose teeth you can knock out.

from vix280 :

what the fuck happened?

from under-yuki :

So... Do you know what's going on around here?

from under-yuki :

It makes me wish I had someone in my dreams. Maybe sleep would become a good thing, then.

from acidreams :

I need you. Im not just saying that either. I really truly need you.

from under-yuki :

Mew? I have no boy in my dreams. I think I'm okay with that, though.

from under-yuki :

I'm lovely? Hee. Liar. ...My mom just called me Kitty. ...Weird.

from thetoxicsoul :

[email protected] e-mail me and we'll talk.

from acidreams :

The only thing I can think to say to you is....I LOVE YOU!

from vix280 :

OH yea...New band for you...RammStein...DUDE...check it OUT!! Listen to 'Freuer Frei'....all german...hardcore fucked up shit.

from vix280 :

I like the new layout but babes its hard to read...okay nuff of that... COME TO CALI... I.M. me today i can prolly chat a bit... Lovz

from thetoxicsoul :

I e-mailed you. I don't know if you got it or not. Let me know.

from mr-sparkles :

Hey man............I'm just tellin' you right now.........your ass would be annihilated in some Goldeneye...........I was killin' mutha fuckas with chops.........I ain't playin'..........3 on 1..........choppin' bitches. I don't play, I DESTROY in that game.

from acidreams :

I am so happy that things are finally going good for you. You deserve it! I love your new layout too. Love me!

from acidreams :

Im glad to see your writing again. **Change is always good**

from vix280 :

Spin baby....I love you like this....ill talk to you today! XOXO PS Keep drinking coffee

from vix280 :

Come on to cali....If your gonna do it...DO IT RIGHT...the ocean air will make it all very clear...Im online talk to me

from under-yuki :

Write back to me, Sir Cyanide... You're worrying me.

from meesh03 :

I never know what to tell you. Email me sometime though [email protected], and I'll see what kind of perking up I can do for ya~ Stay true to yourself though, and if it helps, whenever you're down, write. Sometimes the greatest songs come from your greatest lows, and then who knows what could happen from there. Godspeed darling~! I thought of you in Florida! Just one happy moment for you and Nicole! haha! talk to ya lata! ;p

from lastofthsane :

MAN!! I've said it before, and i say it again: "time", give time time. It may not heal old wounds, but it patches them up, for One to heal them. I wont pretend to know what kind of problems your in, i wont pretend to say i feel the same, i wont pretend... i Do know, You whave risen from the ashes before, and WILL rise again, just give it time, stretch out, Before its even later than to-late... and there ARE reasons to be around. open your eyes, and look beoynd the shadows. Piiis dude!

from vix280 :

YOU....can not be like this...I know better...get ahold of me NOW!

from acidreams :

It's people like you that say words like your's that have kept me going. I know I always say a million thank you's but I dont think they will ever express how much I really mean it. You are such a wonderful person and I hope you know that. I think it may be save to say I love you.

from drayco :

Haha, yeah, you got lucky. If it was a hot chick I probably would have helped her chase down the street after the receipts, or, you know, chase down the street after her.

from vix280 :

Yes

from under-yuki :

Oh, and if you could get on messenger that would be nice. I'm bored. And lonely. And I have chocolate. ...Mmm. I could die alone as long as I had a Hanuta in my mouth.

from under-yuki :

Very un-charming, that note just then. You know, sometimes I think so hard about being close to someone I convince myself the sheer amount of emotion should make them feel it. I never ask, though. ...Duplo?

from under-yuki :

I thank you. I had half a bar of Ritter Sport, half a Hanuta, 2 Raffaello, and a Duplo. A few years back I could have eaten all the chocolate we had at once. Now, after not eating candy for almost a year, I had that and nearly hurled. I'm the most disgusting kind of satisfied right now. I'm asking all my friends to come over and eat German chocolate of the Gods with me. Except Alex, because he immediately assumed it had sexual implications. I could bathe in the Raffaello cream, though.... Oh God, I'm going to throw up and have an orgasm at the same time in a second. Come to me, and together we will pig out and die morbidly obese without the ability to walk! We can ooze to our funeral!

from vix280 :

Ya know I think you invite the stress my dear...there are a couple of things that work well to eliminate stress...but first you need to tell yourself you wont fall prey to the overinflation of daily life in your head...I wanna tell you that you need to align your chakras...I think that could start to help and I will give you directions on how to do it if you want...In the mean time...baby...its just daily life...stop thinking so much. Have you read my drama filled diary? Look...its life...trials, tribulations that build character, inner strength and the ability to take on anything that crosses our paths...Do you realize, that how much you think it is aweful...you are blessed and that you need to get up every morning...remember who you have fighting on your side and lean on them (us). Then go downtown and see the people that have nothing and know you will never be that way...Life, Time and US we are here for you and on your side...its not as bad as you think...and to help...go read this entry..the lyrics are perfect...http://vix280.diaryland.com/030909_76.html Love you

from acidreams :

Just tell me what will help and I will do my best to comply. By the way...thank you so much for the email.

from vix280 :

Weak Women...that dont like to lose something will use the PG thing as a tactic to keep what they would lose close...dont become a part of what usually is a mind game...if it is real..DNA tells the story...In the mean time...if you break up...stay that way yo...

from lastofthsane :

dude! You gotta let time work its magick, time usually gets the obvious creative talent of yours back, sooner or later. take care!! (never heard your music, but read your writings..)

from acidreams :

Im walking a mile in your shoes. Except....alone.

from serenaville :

Thank you for the nice compliment you paid my voice, hon. I'm warmed it has that effect on you. It very well could be the 'motherly thing'. As for your being worthless unless you are making music... don't forget what I said about a 'hiatus', until you get your full plate cleared. In fact, also recall what I said about this entire experience being possible inspiration for future songs - no more block. Never know. As ever, I am pulling for you, and only a phone call away. *HUGS!!*

from vix280 :

I'm not tryin to fake it And I ain't the one to blame No there's no one home In my house of pain I didn't write these pages And my script's been rearranged No there's no one home In my house of pain Well, if I learned anything from this It's how to live on my own

from vix280 :

sell it all...you have shelter....you knwo where...

from chikyblonde :

yes we should...like a litter of unwanted kittens. OH slap me! Can't believe I just said that...

from under-yuki :

You, my friend, are something else. I'm grinning for you.

from lastofthsane :

hey, thanks for the note. lol. well as i said.. kinda tolate.. and "goldy-locks" isnt really sumthing i flatter getting called so.. ;) i wish i had one of those strait-hair-types, that nomatter how long it was still strait.. but for me, it starts to curl once i get it abit long.. and i HATE it.. ;) rofl. we will see.. as i said.. kinda just cut of abit so..

from vix280 :

Hun believe it or not they are at fault. The same thing happened to me and believe it or not it is renters paradise. All you actually hafta do by law is honor the face value of the check. If they refuse to accept it and you attempt to pay...well they void the contract. They are esp at fault for not leaving you a note or calling...So before you flip a switch take a look into renters law okay...do a little research on the net...and while you are doing that call the property manager and WORK SOMETHING OUT. They will work with you if you calmly speak eith them and tell them you dont have all that cash. If you want to talk further leave me a note and I will give you my email or my instant messener ID okay? I can help you...And remember we all love you arnd are here to help...

from serenaville :

Holy. I'd seriously call a lawyer for a free consultation, and see what your rights are in this matter. You need professional advice, if things are that dire. In general, know that I've got your back... and I'm willing to do whatever is within my power to help you out -should you decide you need it. Just saying. Call anytime. *HUGS!!!*

from vix280 :

So comeout and go with....the guys from PBF and Fp are all going with us...come on it isnt til July 31st!!!

from vix280 :

I love the way needles feel ya know? Tattoos carving into your skin...keeps me grounded ya know? Anyways...dude...got my tix for OzzFest and yep I get to see OTEP!!! I thought about you and wanted to tell ya...I wish you were gonna be here cuz there is nothin like seenin a band with someone who REALLY digs em...I drink and rock out for you...

from under-yuki :

You make me giggle, sir! As always. I grin like a fool for your flattery. Feel free to go on, my ego's purring all over that sexy Face-metal.

from meesh03 :

Yea you should do it. Even though I have no idea what you're going to do or not do. So I just wanted to leave you the same message I left for chikyblonde, which was to say hi, and let you know I was thinking of you. So hope all is going well. Hope to be in touch soon.

from under-yuki :

There's a strange music box playing and it makes me want to go out and be noir. (Random note.)

from under-yuki :

Ahh, we forgive ya. If I had been talking to miss Serena it would have probably kept me away for longer. It's all good, as long as you're feeling better.

from under-yuki :

Amen.

from preshusthorn :

i have that written on my wall lol the pimp name generator was also very "pimpafying" ~Precious Thorn~

from chikyblonde :

That was SOOOOOO funny. We all laughed heartily in the office. Me and A that is.

from acidreams :

I say go for it.

from preshusthorn :

I was searching through the members directory and you were at the top of the lsit and I see now that wasn't a coincidence. Thank you very much for adding me and for the comment in your profile. And the things you write are well worth delving into. Talk soon? ~Precious Thorn~

from preshusthorn :

Youre welcome, you're a pleasure to read. And don't be disturbed, I haven't been lurking or stalking or anything for months lol. I went through your archives and found that quote in my profile. Thank you for the compliment. ~Precious thorn~

from under-yuki :

So then we are in a similar boat. As for me, I've just sort of shut down. I'd talk about it, but I wouldn't know where. Most certainly not diaryland.

from vix280 :

Bravo for dealing the Whoop Ass...Now GET THE FUCK OUTTA DODGE....Dude what is it gonna take to convince you? Shit.

from under-yuki :

Haha, well. I'm horrible at giving compliments, but let's say it was easy to look past the homoerotic poses.

from under-yuki :

Oh, and as far as the high school kids thing goes... you know, it all comes down to them not realizing there's anything beyond their immediate surroundings. It's kind of sad, really. There's a few good ones, though. I swear. Just take the nude artist! ...Actually, she's not in high school anymore. Okay. Nevermind.

from under-yuki :

Ohh, notes make me so giddy. Especially ones calling me hot. I thank you! And might I say you aren't so bad yourself, I would go back to that picture, but I repressed commenting to save you. ...As I am doing now. ...Eeeyep.

from acidreams :

If only it were as easy as those words spoken.

from under-yuki :

...Was.... was that Freudian? I didn't mean "I'll do it anyway", I meant "do it anyway." ...that's awkward.

from under-yuki :

You know, I feel as if I've been neglecting you. You're really the only person that notes me. And I do so love notes. (Hint, I won't pay in favors or anything, but I'll do it anyway...) On the bright side, I ranted about videogames and boobs! That's quality programming right there. ...Or something. (I'm sorry.)

from serenaville :

06/06- Just a quick note to say that I've not forgotten about you for a minute, despite being insanely busy of late. Soon, I will have something for you. Keep an eye on your e-mail meanwhile, sweet. When the house nonsense stops kicking my ass, I'll make good on that promise to be in closer touch. Not just 'pinky swear', 'Devil horns' swear. :)

from acidreams :

Once you decide what your new name is gonna be please let me know.

from thetoxicsoul :

You're too right, not nearly as sexy, that should have been my first clue! I check out your diary from time to time to see how you're getting on and there were pictures of you with a cat, so that's how I knew what you looked like (or some close facsimile of what you looked like anyhow).

from thetoxicsoul :

Do you live in Calgary? I thought I saw you at Lilac Fest.

from meesh03 :

As much as I hate telling you this, you're not the only one going through some serious S H I T. So in retrospect, I'm trying to say, You're not alone! I hope you had a good retreat and things are looking up. Remember blue skies! Reason being, you're looking at one, then that means I am too, and thinking of you! late gata!

from under-yuki :

There was indeed a scare. If you feel the need to drop by the chatroom at all feel free to do so. But everyone needs to retreat on occasion. Hope everything sorts itself out all the way.

from vix280 :

Yea baby I could use you here....plus I thionk the salty water could help your hand...Pack your shit and get out of that hell dimension...

from under-yuki :

Man, my ass does that. ...The numbing and pain. All the time. Swear to God, it's like I only have one half of my ass not numb at once. (Oh, and do you want song?! Have song! Japanese song! Chu chu, chu chu chu! Summer Party! Chu chu! Kitai shichau wa chu! [It's this crazy little song about a first kiss at a summer party. ...Yeah.])

from meesh03 :

Oh for sure, I am a closet fan. As I've said before, I can dig some metal and the like. Thanks for the note~ Always a perk to hear from you~ late gata..:p

from vix280 :

Dont stop writing...all that crap cant be built up inside ya know? Ditch the crap and come to the west coast...And smile for the sake of all thats holy and rockin! Cant be THAT bad...I loves ya

from under-yuki :

I give you a quick Freudian slip to (mayhap) improve your mood. "Thanks for riding me!" "..." "Driving me!" ...Right. I'll listen, I swear! Except I haven't been on mirc at all as of late. I'll get on just to try and catch you. Muah.

from serenaville :

Just a quick note to say that I miss the hell outta you. Once this moving nonsense is over, and I'm back to square, I'll be in closer touch. Swear. By the way? I'm not worried about our friendship/relationship whatsoever. We're going to be aces, full on. You'll see. Much love on ya, sweet. I'll drop you a letter when my internet connection returns! 'Til then, stay fierce. *HUGS!!!!* :)

from acidreams :

The "clean end of the stick". I like that.

from meesh03 :

I haven't left a message for you in forever, and I just wanted to say hello. As far as the sex and allergies stuff, I say, "Don't Panic." All good things come to those who wait. You're gonna find your rocker chick sometime, but you're young, so have fun and enjoy the life you lead, cuz to me, we have it pretty good, and things could be a hell of a lot worse. Just keep on keepin on as I would say, and it'll be all good. Take care of ya self, and yea, let's see this new tattoo already! HA! *hug* lates

from under-yuki :

Haha, YEAH they are. I get the overwhelming urge to hug everyone with fanboy t-shirts. And you know what's best? Conventions. It's like a nerd-farm! God... wonderful. Mmm. X-men. I tried to get rogue hair, once, and it just made the front of my hair a lighter shade of purple. Having the chelsea would make that a little odd-looking, though...

from under-yuki :

Nerds are hot. Hot, I tell you! And me? I have an unhealthy love for comics, as well. X-men in particular. Green Lantern kicks my ass. ...Heh. D&D.

from vix280 :

OKay the links didnt work...SHIT Go to www.velvetrevolver.net And read my diary entry from the 18th. Yesterdays are lyrics from Slither.

from vix280 :

Duff, Slash, Matt and Scott Weiland STP <a href="www.velvetrevolver.net">Velvet Revolver</a> <a href="http://vix280.diaryland.com/040518_38.html">Vix Diary Entry</a> Listen to Sliver...HOLY FUCK! Get out here you can go to the show with me...

from under-yuki :

*Giggle* Self esteem, yay! Thank you for the eye compliment. And don't worry, I'm an eye freak, too. Did you know my drunksitter actually has a phobia of eyes? It's quite funny, because her eyes are so fascinating. One is brown-green and one is blue. I attempt to compliment her, or see them up close, and she has a fit. It's quite funny. ...Right. Anyway. Thank you again, and I'm glad you had some fun! Just don't get too worked up over the actions of some random asshole, all right? They're anything but worth it.

from vix280 :

AAHHHHHHH VELVET REVOLVER AAAAHHHHHHH

from chikyblonde :

I just now saw your pics of Lotus. She's sooo cute!!! I like the one of the two fighting.

from serenaville :

Uhm, yeah. So. "Supportive". I can spell, really. Guh.

from serenaville :

Thank you so much for the wonderfully supoortive comment in my space recently, hon. It really lifted my spirits. No better knowledge in the world, than knowing who's at your back, and ready to get it when needed. Adore you for that, and in general, always. Thank you again, dear friend. *HUGS!!!*

from under-yuki :

Mmmm. That girl HAS to like it rough. (I'm going to hell.)

from drayco :

Hey man, just thought I'd drop a line to let you know I read you too, but haven't updated my diary in god knows how long. (It's assassin from IRC by the way)

from acidreams :

If you lock your diary I most definitely want the pass!

from vix280 :

ah good shows and lots to do....lemme know when you are comiin and ill clear some space...come visit see whats up....it'll be a good fit for you ...I know it!

from under-yuki :

If you meant me, I so am Kat. And I so do read you. And I better be getting that password if it locks. *Muah* (I am giddy, for I am seeing A Perfect Circle tomorrow. May I transfer some of my giddy to you!)

from vix280 :

i want the star countere and a password...please...

from vix280 :

AH HA!!! ANswer number 9....My bud Britt and I started a musician registry...we hook musicians and bands up and let them hold ausions at our rehersal rooms/recording studio we have...no worries on finding a band...ahhhh...next lame excuse please???

from vix280 :

Car+Gas+clothes+Geetars = road trip and fun West coast is a callin....

from vix280 :

Come on to cali...and bring the guitars.... Offer is open.... oh and thanks for the plug on your site...youre the BEST!

from vix280 :

You need to read my Diary entry today...of all People YOU will appreciate it... Lovz ya

from sparklejaxie :

Hahahaha... I feel goofy all the time. =) And I will think of you. ;) *grin*

from vix280 :

Baby I live with 2 guys...they love more testosterone...trust me...you wouldnt impose...at least come visit me...I need a head banging buddy...mine all vanished...Save your money and give So-Cal a try before you settle...I promise not only will you have eternal friends but you might just find the gruve that fits you. I DID.

from vix280 :

Break the lease and come on...Get on your feet while you stay at mi casa...i know what it is like to feel stifled and baby...SURFS UP!!! Rock and Roll awaits you...

from chikyblonde :

hey, just send me the pic and we'll come up with something new. i was thinking it's time to do something different also and my skills are better than when I first did templates. Plus there's a few minor probs I see with you site and it bugs me to no end because i'm such a perfectionist.

from chikyblonde :

from vix280 :

Come to California

from acidreams :

Doesnt it suck when you can feel the end of something that you never want to end And there is just nothing you can do about it?

from meesh03 :

You've got a gift whether you believe it or not. I mean, I know I've never heard you sing or play before, but damn. More power to you for getting up there and giving it your all. Be pumped about that. You rock socks off.. ya know this.. later on :o)

from serenaville :

*HUGS!!!!* Great sentiments! So true. Go mental in the pit tonight! How I miss those days... I could mix it up with the best of them. Damn. Will respond to your e-mail soon, sweet. You have been on my mind all morning long. Will explain. Much love and respect, always! :)

from meesh03 :

And I just read your entry today, I understand completely. (The fingernails are what go for me, and I'm going friggin insane.) Hug!

from meesh03 :

If I could just hug you back for real! You have no idea...thanks babe!

from acidreams :

I thought it was completely amazing. I know what you mean when you say it helps out with the demons. If I didnt write I probably would have killed myself a long time ago.

from sparklejaxie :

thanks sweetie! *hugs*

from acidreams :

Amazing. Is that a song? If so who sings it?

from bleakchaos :

You're more than welcome. :) Lately that same frustration has been leeching at me for the same reasons...so I related to that. And yea, I gave a shit too...if I see someone going through a shit I am, then I let out words of encouragement. We all need them once in a while. And they're FREE!! Nice, eh? :D

from serenaville :

UM? The 'Failed' entry?? O_O Write me, if you want to talk. We could even meet up in chat. Very concerned. *HUGS!!!!*

from vix280 :

If the connection is real...and you know it...follow your heart and the rest will fall into place naturally....

from serenaville :

Very mysterious. Whomever she is, she's a very lucky girl! Hope whatever obstacles lie between you, are eventually able to be overcome, hon. That's a hard situation. *HUGS!!*

from chikyblonde :

now you know how I feel about Andre. ha! Your's is probably more realistic than mine.

from serenaville :

Thank you for your reaction to my entry, it delighted me!! Your responses always tickle me. :) That update wasn't only sweet, it was SUPER sweet!! That drawing was incredible, whomever drew it has talent. That rocks hard, hon! *HUGS!!!*

from serenaville :

Thank you so very much for the updated comment for my diary, sweet. I am quite touched, and deeply honored. Never, ever taken for granted. Pong, with much affection. *HUGS!!!!*

from sparklejaxie :

just happened to find you by accident, really. :) I was browsing through the members area, and your name caught my eye. :) I'm like.. ooh! And then the entry that I fell upon made me laugh and hit so close to home, I couldn't help but read more. :)

from acidreams :

Somebody once told me they wished there was something they could do or say to take my pain away (much like you did) But what this person didnt realize was just saying that was enough; It made me feel 100% better. And please dont feel like your words are not worthy enough to be said. I think you are a very intelligent person and every advice you have ever given me was complete right. If it werent for you I never would have made the attempt to apologize to my ex-boyfriend for cheating on him. It's something Im glad I tried to do. Even if he was too immature to handle it. Thank you so much. You may never know how much you truly mean to me.

from cdghost :

your words are wonderful to read

from chikyblonde :

how 'bout a can of pork n beans and freezer burned tater tots (thawed, not cooked, had no electricity in the house)?...and man did it taste good.

from sparklejaxie :

Rough time monetarily right now, eh? At least you're not alone... I'm in a major slump right now, though I'm willing to bet I don't have it half as bad as other people... anyhow, just dropped by to say hello :)

from vix280 :

Talked to Taime this AM...PBF tour is starting in June...W.A.S.P. is playing the venue down the street and Darrell Roberts is gonna play Torchy...should I go on???? Fuck that place...Take a break from chikies...Lets take over the world and show ev'rone how to Rock & Roll...Your Gypsy Road will Take you Home!

from meesh03 :

hey there! sorry it's been awhile, but thanks for leaving me a note about my dream. They are getting wilder and wilder these days I tell ya! One day, I'll write a book and publish them. Heard about the new tattoo!(FINALLY!) whoop! Hope it rocks socks off!!HAHA ..I couldn't tell ya what picture to use, but they all look good! I'm sure one of these days I'll have something up of myself, so you all can know me for me! take it easy...

from vix280 :

all you need is a ticket and a little spendng money...you can crash at my place...now get on a damn plane...summer here ROCKS!!

from serenaville :

It is so unfair to have to choose only ONE pic. *fanning self* Pressed to decide, I cast my vote for the third picture down of you in slight profile. To me, it's the pic that has "edge"... the look in your eyes and on your face is FIERCE. Why, oh WHY, must I be an old, married woman?? ;)

from chikyblonde :

I like the third or fourth pic of you. oh and the kitty....she's so pretty. my brother's looks just like her!

from vix280 :

use the second pic

from vix280 :

I get the Tattoo Satan shit all the time ...and add to it that I am Wiccan...OH FOR THE SAKE OF ALL THATS DEEMED HOLY...Baby people judge what they dont understand....and then top that off with a bit of jealosy whipped cream...I mean they cant think for themselves..would NEVER do anything out of the ordinary...Oh god forbid dye their hair pink or get tattoos...I say? Fuck em! And for Holy Helen...'splain to her....NICELY...that witchy Vix said...You cant worship the devil if you dont believe in the devil...and believein in the devil takes too much energy that can be used for drinking Jack Daniels....LOVE YOU!!!

from serenaville :

*HUGS* Thank you for the supportive comment, dear one. Missing you like crazy, feeling really disconnected with being so busy of late. Hope we can catch up in chat one day next week, or something. Hope all is well with you.

from vix280 :

Please do....music is what makes me get up evrey day...and keeps it real...Im glad you got your head straight...remember ...im here if you need me

from vix280 :

AHHHHH..you are awesome...but you must learn For Whom the Bell Tolls...as I know the drum riffs for that and when you come to Cali, cough couch, we can jam...Did I fail to mention my part ownership in a recording studio/rehersal facility? Oh yea... I am working on learning some Faster Pussycat myself on Torchy...shit...lets rock this place's sox off...I am off for a weekend of "enlightenment" with Taime Downe...my life DOES NOT suck either... Love ya!

from serenaville :

I about jumped in surprise at your mention of me, old school metal, and the Metallica songs you are learning. WHO was just CRANKING Metallica in her car yesterday and the day before that?!? Yeah you right. (The poor Things will both be stone deaf by age 5.) I was especially rocking out to "For Whom the Bell Tolls" and "Fade to Black", over and over. AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW yeah, I know what's up!! Damned proud of it too. ;D By the way: No more funk. Just FUNKY. That's an order. Hear? ;) Much love on ya, my friend. *HUGS!!!!!*

from vix280 :

i tried emailing you here...but it bounced back

from vix280 :

Ah you are welcome my friend...looks like we are in the same boat with the single/attached issue...damn life is hard..where in lies the real spendor? In what makes YOU happy...thats the final answer...fuck the masses..they dont live for you. And I have decided that I am gonna do for me (hell thats all I have ever done)...if you need to vent...well I am here... Rock & Roll baby!

from vix280 :

Ima freak...lol...put an entry to you...check it out..if it doenst come right up its in my oder entries... Peace!

from vix280 :

Okaydidja read back in my diary and see pics? why why would you think that the chickies wouldnt dig ya...theses peeps here are freaks and if I (ole southern gal) can turn the heads of my Glam Rock Idols then baby ...anything goes...heres and offer...come for a visit...stay for a lifetime...i got an empty sofa...take no prisoners

from vix280 :

I moved from fuckin Texas...its not that expensive cuz you get paid more...So-Cal is the only way to go...Orange County...LA is fun to visit but way to jaded...come out..visit...and I'll take you and intorduce you to real rockers.... Hell I am goin out with Taime this weekend...Life is GRAND!!!I love being a rocker. oh and for the record...I have negativity, bitchiness, drama and oddly good moods too...I think you are my twin...

from vix280 :

Ya know I was just thinking...they (whoever 'they' are)are all a bunch of fuckers huh? Read your entries...Im hooked...Come to Cali and help me show them how its done... Ill be readin ya every day...keep in touch... peace!

from vix280 :

I AM ADDING YOU TOO!!! KEEP THHE FAITH AND ROCK ON FOREVER!!!

from chikyblonde :

Eh, you can come to Missouri, kill off the bf with your jeweled meat hammer and move in with me and gracie and zoey. Ahhhhhhh THREE females. You'd be such the pimp(we won't tell anyone two of them are cats, now will we...)

from serenaville :

You are always welcome. Come to New York! (If no certain females are here.) What the hell, right?? :D LOL!! *HUGS!!!* Miss you. :)

from arletterocks :

Go ahead and link or copy. I'd prefer linking, since people would be able to comment on it, but go with whatever suits ya best!

from meesh03 :

So you already got one "perk up" note from other fellow readers, but I figured I'd add in my two cents worth, and leave you one also. So PERK UP PEPPER! (If I knew your address or something, I'd sent you a real card, b/c I make them for my friends when they get upset! Try not to let the little shit bring you down. It all seems like a pain in the arse now, but in the end, something always works out. Plus, there is always more coffee..(but I feel you on it, b/c I am literally addicted to that stuff. Take it easy!

from serenaville :

*HUGS you close* Steady, sweet one. You've had a spate of bad days. Those do happen. "This too shall pass", and other platitudes. Don't lose your positivity, it looks so good on you. Repeated deep breaths get me through many of my days. Some days, I damn near hyperventilate. Maybe it would help you, too. Compared to the past, this is a cakewalk, right?? Just know you are adored, always.

from meesh03 :

thank you for the message! I'm doing better now. The other night was just a bad night... I was perplexed with the boyfriend.(first time it had ever happened, and I didn't know how to handle myself!) But it's all good now! How you doin? ;op Talk to you later man! take it easy!

from mr-sparkles :

Robot suit, 2 parts box, 2 parts dryer vents, 1 air vent, 2 tuna cans, 1 slinky, 2 rolls metal tape, 1 roll aluminum foil, 2 cans of chrome, 1 can gold, a pair of snow gloves, chrome Saucony classics.....Voila!

from acidreams :

It kind of breaks my heart though.

from chikyblonde :

OMGosh! YOU HAVE A TORTOISE SHELL! SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PRETTY!!!!!! My fav picture of all of them, you kneeling down with the tubie thingy (I don't know what its called!!!)

from serenaville :

*brow furrowing, at your newest entry* I'm not going to pry, but just remember that there is no need to hide a blessed thing from those who genuinely care. I'm just saying. If you feel you want to talk about whatever it is, you know where to find me. Just an offer. *HUGS!!*

from serenaville :

Thank you so much for the wonderful support, hon. I've seen Freakazoid only in passing, but I was able to intuit the meaning, and it DID cheer me up. How could anything NOT cheer me up, coming from you?? Also, thank you very much for the last e-mail you sent. I'll reply soon. You know, the Freakazoid thing kind of reminds me of your recent Juggalo entry. I was only glancingly familiar with the concept, but could "follow along" due to the context. I feel kind of silly and out of the loop, but it's nice to learn new things, and enjoy them vicariously. At any rate, HUGBEES back!!! Much love on ya, my friend. :)

from meesh03 :

So I haven't heard from you recently! Hope all is going well..Take it easy buddy!

from chikyblonde :

I gotta meet you and carlene! Bless others and God blesses you! Gracies not well, at least her bum isn't. Seems I gave her medicine for something she doesn't even have. Eh. Later!

from acidreams :

You are so completely right. I really do need to apologize. What is the worst that can happen? Thank you so much for your advice I really needed it.

from serenaville :

Thank you for the wonderful note! So lovely to find on my return, you have no idea. PONG on the favorite person, sweet man. You never fail to warm me to the core!! ("Pong" is my unique way of saying "Right back atcha". You know, Ping pong? Heh!) I would adore reading the Cyanide Bible, please do send! Also, didn't you mention pictures of you a while ago? Still hoping to see those as well. Would be glorious to place a face with the name, and if you do send, I promised to reciprocate. :) Also, I'm still hoping beyond hope that you will eventually make it to my chat room. No pressure, just hoping you will, whenever you might be able to. Keep up your positive attitude... I love your confidence of late. You can do ANYTHING you set your mind to, I believe that with all my heart, because I can sense the untapped reserves of strength in you. What is the key to life, but mindset anyhow, yes? *HUGS* to you, my friend. You bring me such joy, on a continual basis. Thank you! :)

from serenaville :

Cyanide. I am breathless. That had to be THE most gorgeously evocative, moving piece I have read in an age, plus some. I am deeply impressed. Bravo, sweet one. BRAVO. *HUGS!!!* Need to go remind myself to breathe now... seeing fuzzy dots before my eyes...

from meesh03 :

*speechless*...I feel the same way! I'm truly amazed at the way I came across this place, and to be honest, I don't know how I came across your journal...lol..Just know that somewhere out there in this cosmic world, people are in our lives at the right time and place. So keep on keepin on.. We will definitely have to meet up someday! You made my day (again!) today!!

from serenaville :

You know, I probably should have just e-mailed all that. I'm sorry to clutter up your notes with such a long post. I just had lots to say!! *HUGS*

from serenaville :

Oh. You incredible dear. I find it is my turn to cry... and such soul-deep touched tears they are. If I make any typos right here, you know why... my screen is all blurry!! I can't even find words adequate enough to fully or accurately convey just how very much what you so profoundly expressed means to me...but I'm still going to try. My heart is just fit to burst right now! So often, I am amazed at the profound connections I have made through Diaryland, as much as anyone can truly 'connect' or 'know' someone over a computer. Still, some people one just gets a sense about. I obviously had that sense about you, and no, I do not mind a whit that you posted my comments...Everyone should see and sense what I do about you, and know just how wonderful you are. Please believe you hold similar place within me... I told you that you'd gotten under my skin in a fond way, and I never say what I don't mean! I know I'm writing a book here, but please let me do some final heartfelt rambling of my own, to: 1) Tell you how impressed I am, with all the recent changes you've gone through since I first started reading you, until now. I have wanted to tell you more than once that I was proud of you, but didn't want to seem patronizing. But I AM proud. Very. :) and 2) You come hunt me down on tour all you like!! Just let me know when and where. I am SO there! Hell, even if you're not on tour! lol :D Seriously though...thank you Cyanide, for everything you wrote, from the bottom of my heart. Adore voi, il mio caro amico. *HUGS!!!!* P.S. And the pics?? Please DO send. I will happily reciprocate!

from meesh03 :

Don't hit her too hard. There is no doubt in my mind that she doesn't probably deserve it.. haha, but Just breathe.. it'll work out... plus, you're doing great.. so don't let some other people's issues become your own ya know! take it easy

from serenaville :

Rico!! You have gnomes and monkeys?? I am The Queen, and even *I* don't have gnomes and monkeys. How did *this* happen?!? Thank you for volunteering the help with the basement renovations... be careful, I might take you up on it! LOL ;) Seriously though, thank you also for wanting to be Rico. You're in like flint! As soon as I find a 'Tony', the parody shall commence! :D

from serenaville :

Heya ladies man!! ;) Thank you so much for the Non-day[tm supershan] wishes!! Little secret: I don't mind them so much from people I like. Lucky you, no maiming!! LOL :D The Queen shall make an important decree in the 'Ville a bit later on this topic, so stay tuned. hehehehe Thanks again, sweet one! *HUGS*

from chikyblonde :

thanks for the note! I almost thought you forgot about me *sob* *sob*....Lookin at your notes here...quite the ladies man! hehe

from meesh03 :

You just made my day! Thanks for the message! Glad to hear your spirits are lifting! I just wish I had someone cool to color my hair! haha...take it easy bro.. i'll try to keep you up to date more often!..

from arletterocks :

The Fuck You Monkey deserves a small tropical island all to himself.

from mr-sparkles :

Thanks and No Doubt.......*Cracks a Genny for you. Ahhh, afternoon delight.

from chikyblonde :

hey, I totally understand that wonderful feeling you had with your "dad" I went through the very same type of situation with my stepmom and it's soooo great to finally have her as a second mother figure & friend!

from chikyblonde :

from serenaville :

You are more than welcome. It was long overdue, but that's me... ever behind. lol I did notice that you linked me as well, when I checked out your kickin' new layout. To be in your faves is an honor and great pleasure. The comments in my profile were just from the heart. You have gotten under my skin in a fond way, what can I say? :) I do hope you'll eventually be able to visit chat, would love to have you! Let me know, if ever. Your note made me smile, and I am smiling still. Thank you for being part of my 'circle', you never fail to brighten my days.

from arletterocks :

The bit about retail enlistment started out as comedy, but every time I'd mention it to people who had worked service jobs they'd get this serious expression and start nodding their heads. I knew I was onto some greater truth.

from serenaville :

You are an absolute love. I can't adequately quantify how your note and feedback warmed me to the core. You, sweet one, have single-handedly saved not only the Monday I was so dispirited by, but the rest of my week as well. You make a difference, never doubt that. So tell me... how is it, that you don't visit my chatroom, hey? We could talk about the sheer righteousness of Clerks and Calvin and Hobbes. We could discuss music. You know, no big whoop. (Heh. I love Coffee Talk on SNL.) Think about it. Meanwhile, many warm thank you's! :)

from serenaville :

Thank you for the note you left! I'm delighted to know you enjoyed the entry, shameless feedback whore that I am. ;) Having you as a regular reader brightens my days, mark that. I am so backlogged on reading diaries, but I will make effort to get to your archives soon. Lots of pageloads = me. Take care!

from arletterocks :

My boyfriend and I keep telling each other that if we combined forces, we could take over the whole goddamn world if we could just take our hands off each other and focus on something other than sex for more than five minutes.

from acidreams :

I dont feel guilty about it at all. But sometimes I get so caught up in what "everyone" considers to be right and wrong that I just cant think for myself.

from acidreams :

Hey this is acidreams as Im sure you already know. Thanks for listing me as a favorite and everything but I think you should know I am a girl. So if you could please fix your comment about my diary I would be very grateful. -Jennifer

from meesh03 :

Dude, don't trip. I don't know what caused all your anger/confusion/sadness today, but whatever it was I hope it gets better. In any situation, no matter what it is, I always remember this phrase: "It could be a whole hell of a lot worse." I'm just gonna go ahead and get on my soap box and tell you to pray about it. Sometimes when we get down and weak, is when the devil works on us the most. Just thought that might help. It'll get better. Sometimes you gotta sink to realize you've been stuck in the sand... Just breathe!!!

from chikyblonde :

Hey, just flow with it. Don't look for the worse. My motto use to be Expect the Worse and you're never disappointed. I'll have to share with you an incident that, because I expected the worse anyway, I didn't fly off the deep end and stab him many, many times. But now, the positive vibe stays, and when the negative ones try to, I just choose not to accept them. I hope I don't sound like a pansy. And remember, I'm praying for you. And sure, I'd like to see pics of your scrubbiness.

from serenaville :

Thank you very much for adding serenaville to your faves/buddy list! I never take someone investing their most precious commodity - their time- and reading my space, for granted. It's an honor to be added. I've bookmarked your diary for more thorough reading when my cable modem gets repaired... using Mook's dial-up right now bites it. Thank you again, for making my week! Take care.

from meesh03 :

hey, it's no problem. I was scanning through people one day being bored, and just stumbled across yours. You happen to entertain me with stuff that I normally dont' have access to. There is no doubt your diaries could 'rock my socks off', however, read a couple of my entries... They'll definitely keep you on your toes. Keep in touch!

from arletterocks :

Dude. Swear more. You can do it. Have faith.

from arletterocks :

Dude. Swear more. You can do it. Have faith.

from chikyblonde :

I really liked your entry about mother, father, and sister. It was pretty good...

from chikyblonde :

so i'm really eager to try my new fangled skills at creating diaries. Would you mind if I try and create one for you. I have to stress try because I don't know how great at it I am yet. let me know the colors, pictures etc you'd like and how you'd like stuff oriented. Did you ever get my reply to your email you sent me? just email me at [email protected] and let me know. bye

from cyanideeyes :

Yeah, damn them. Damn them all to a Justin Timberlake concert. Glad I could amuse you though!!!

from chikyblonde :

I laughed. And I laughed hard. And I agree. I hate American Idol. I especially hate Kelly Clarkson. couldn't get a real record contract without "america" voting her in. Someones gotta die...

from chikyblonde :

wow. I'm glad my entry helped. If you ever have a question, just ask. If you want to change your design, check out frozen-kiss.diaryland.com. they have a directory of sites that have free templates you can use.

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