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that last entry hit me in the heart--so many of the things it expressed are so common amongst us yet for some reason unspoken. it's a mad world out there, and it's hard to keep it from getting to us and thinking that that fucked-upness transfers to ourselves and that there's something wrong with us. it takes a while, but eventually we get it. i just figured it out last night myself. you seem like a wonderful person and i have faith that it will all work and that one day you won't need that daily dose of medication. Take care and much love, nicole

from tithonus :

*hugs*

from hayl-storm :

Awesome Sara, fuckin' awesome!

from cuillin :

You have awesome friends and the most adorable boyfriend....I love pictures! I was in the grocery store the other day and saw a big jar of Nutella (I don't think anyone here knows what it is) with Kobe Bryant plastered onto it. "Kobe's favorite!", it raved. Man did I ever want it. I hope everything is going okay for you, sweetie...what is going on with your boyfriend?? You should definitely email me if you want to talk about anything at all, okay? I'm watching a knife infomercial and I don't think I'm ever going to sleep. Much love to you xoxoxoxo psssst...Jessica's a HOOKER!

from jeanisdead :

I miss you. Sorry for the silence on my end, as well. LETS MAKE BABIES RIGHT NOW. Since, you know, I'm owning up to loving the cock *and* the vagina. Um ... yes. Anyway ... yeah. There is no way to end this and sound like a normal person. So. Ciao.

from cuillin :

I'm so, so, so out of the loop. When is/was your birthday??? Ohhh I hope you have the best one ever. I'm thinking of you! xoxoxoxoxo love you much!

from hayl-storm :

Hey Miss 21! Hope you had heaps of fun! I want to see photos and hear all about it! I was stoked that you posted some from your actual birthday. Oh, I'm guessing that your perty will be this weekend since I haven't heard about it yet. I just wanted to check in with you, did you get some photos off me and a card within the last month or so, of course the card is more recent. Ummm... I think that I wrote you a letter ages back too, not 100% sure though since the email is just so much quicker. It's 20 to 12 but I'm going to stay up and write a diary entry because I'm sure that you are itching to hear about Dave and Rochelle! Seeya Sweets!

from jeanisdead :

Its official: I love you. Have my babies.

from cuillin :

hey sweetie. I just wanted to stop in and say mwwwwwah...I've been a true loser lately, not keeping up with anyone's diary...I've missed yours! Oh, and about being out of the loop? I don't think I've ever even SEEN the loop. xoxoxoox take care!

from hayl-storm :

Hey Sara, Do you know who the Home and Away actress is who was getting harrassed? I know that I haven't written in my diary for ages, I've been slack. I'll write now.

from hayl-storm :

Hey Sara, Do you know who the Home and Away actress is who was getting harrassed? I know that I haven't written in my diary for ages, I've been slack. I'll write now.

from elipsis :

thank you so much for your note... i *have* been feeling a little low, lately.. not for any particular reason--maybe just to balance out the nice weather. :) your entries are filled with so much life, they make me smile (and you make a very classy and lovely busty wench!!) hope your day makes YOU smile, ~me.

from hayl-storm :

Hey, Me again! I just caught up on your last few editions coz I've been away. I have to tell you; you and naomi looked so beautiful in those pictures. All tanned and gorgeous and glamoris! Good luck with the whole living together thing. Oh, and well done on fluking your Spanish! I got a C+ and I was happy enough with that coz I reacon it's pretty hard. Seeya, Hayls.

from hayl-storm :

Hola! Como estas? I'm really glad about what you said about when someone asks how you are and then just starts going on about their own shit. I realised that I am totally guilty of that and your comments are helping me to be a better person! So, I'm glad you were so honest and I really should have been asking about your Pops instead of complaining about exams. But guess what? I think that I did a good job on my Spanish final! Plus, I got a B+ in my oral!!! Yay Me! I'm glad that your boy-toy is arriving safe and sound and that you made it through the long wait. I feel the same way about you guys missing out on Khaine. When he does adorable things, and smart things, and funny things (everyday!) I think about how I wish that you guys were here to share the moment with me. You were robbed of that right and I'm really sad for all of us. Adios!

from tithonus :

It's really my pleasure. :)

from hayl-storm :

aaaawww... I just read your new comments for everyone, they were very poetic and I'm "a punnet of red ripe strawberries" !!! That's so sweet!

from hayl-storm :

Hi Sara, I just read your last two entries. It was really beautiful what you wrote about your Grandfather. I'm glad that he has left such a positive inprint in your life. Sara, we treasure you too. Love you, from Hayley.

from honungslen :

well, now you've gone and done it... you've inspired me to paint a huge flower around my belly button! i know that it wasn't exactly what you had in mind, but my imagination runs wild at the moment. if my boyfriend calls me nuts one more time, i'll blame it on you. just so you know ;). anyway, i read the eulogy (did i spell that right?) and i found it absolutely beautiful. simple and loving. i can't even imagine how hard it must have been for you :(, and you know i care. don't you? hugs, y.

from honungslen :

i would have cared to read it. and i'm proud of you ;). many hugs, y.

from tithonus :

Good on you. And please do type the eulogy here; just because I didn't know him doesn't mean I wouldn't want to read it.

from cuillin :

hey honey! I hope I have as good of a time as you did! We definitely plan on committing the same sins. Hopefully I'll have some pictures to send too, though we're definitely not going anywhere as beautiful as where you were. love you MUCH and miss you! xoxoxox

from elipsis :

i don't think i felt sad... i think, more than anything, i felt relieved that it was a dream. as dull as "real life" can be sometimes, it can also be very comforting. :)

from honungslen :

hey sweetie! how many times have not worried about that kind of thing? luckily, my boyfriend makes the decision to pull over and sleep for a while when he's in that kind of situation. you don't know whether to hate them or love somwtimes, do you? anyway, i understand your anger and worry... i'm sure he'll be ok though ;). and i have the feeling that you're not a very sad girl in general. actually i'm quite sure you know how to have fun and make the best of things. and yes, the way my body is now is strange and amazing at the same time. since i'm abroad paper work delays everything, and i haven't seen or heard the baby yet... it's difficult to understand that there's actually a small living thing in there. i feel like i need some kind of proof, to be able to believe it! unfortunately, i'm also a bit of a fatalist and i don't dare to be truly happy about it until i have seen it, heard it and felt it. i have heard to many horror stories, i guess. i'm still worried about losing him/her. i am, however, completely fascinated by my belly :)! i've always had a very flat one, and it's definitely not flat anymore! i'm talkative tonight it seems, losing track of my initial purpose... i wanted to make you smile a little and give you a big comforting hug! btw would you like to join csa (clean sheets anonymous) with me? lotsa love /y.

from honungslen :

i was missing you around here! glad to see you back :). i must have read your entry just a couple of minutes before you left the note. you seemed sad and i didn't know if i should leave you another note or not. i'm happy to see you seem to be feeling a bit better now. and thank you! for stopping by just to say hello and thanks :). me? i'm doing just fine. i hope that goes for you too ;). take care! hugs/ y.

from honungslen :

i'm so sorry to hear about your grandfather... transit sucks :(. *big hug* /y.

from honungslen :

and you are too sweet for words! and yes, it's mostly in the practice, but i'd like to think that it has something to do with talent as well. and a certain class from birth ;). my theory is that if you can throw up with class, there's nothing you can't do with class! (eh well, it's not one of my strongest theories, i know.) the name he's come up with really is terrible, isn't it? he knows it too, but he loves bugging me with the idea. and thanks for making me feel less lonely :), for "talking" to me. you always make me smile, you know that? ru has actually offered to go back to sweden with me for a while so that i can lean a bit on my old and familiar friends and i'm thinking about it. and i'm just lecturing you about the weed in a very friendly way ;). my boyfriend is the same way and i lecture him the same way. why did i write this before checking if you had updated? silly me. i'm so proud of myself for actually being able to change template all by myself! i'm going to take a peek in your diary now :). take care. and again, thanks :)! xoxo y.

from honungslen :

hey... i'm in a good mood today, just slightly bored ;). i just wanted to tell you that i hope your brother realizes what a great sister he has. but take it easy on the weed, sweetie. last night a saw this horrible movie about someone who actually thought he was a super hero. the problem was just that he was not really in control of his super powers... imagine the combination of weed and super powers;). teasing you a little (i'm awful when i'm in a good mood). and just so know, even if you think you're not being personal enough in your entries, your personality shines through. the sweet and funny one. how's it going with the swedish boyfriend? *nosey* looking forward to a message in swedish! *kram* (hug) xx y.

from cuillin :

mwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwah! xoxoxoxoxo

from luvr :

r u on now

from honungslen :

hey you :)! it's funny that we often seem to be connected at the same time, isn't it? and you know, i'm very difficult to get rid off, i will never really disappear ;). i've just felt quiet lately; thinking more than using words. but i'm around, and i read your diary every time i notice that you have updated. and yes, i have the feeling that it will be fine. no matter what. and when/if i actually know (not assuming ;) ) i'm quite sure i'll be happy too :). anyway, i just wanted to say thanks for encouraging me and caring! your notes always makes me smile.*hug* /y.

from throwingjuly :

i wonder if dinosaurs made music...

from tithonus :

Ooh, it sounds mega-dodgy but also exciting! Like the kind of job where you'll have lots of stories to tell about it...

from amser :

hi..., i just wanna be u'r friend! please have a time to send me an email to [email protected] sincerly,

from hayl-storm :

Hi Honey, I know Swim Fan sux but I loved Sweet Home Alabama! Reese Witherspoon is my favourite actress. It's just come on DVD and I hope someone buys it for me for my birthday. I loved your last entry! You should write a book or something. I can imagine it being famous in 5 years time or whatever and everybody in the world having read it. People will say; "what's your favourite book?" and everyone will say.... well, I don't know what you will call your book but it would be that. It will be like how everyone knows "Are you there God? It's me, Margaret" but way better. And everyone will say that Sara Carkagis rocks! And I will be like, "yeah, I know her! We lived accross the road from each other for 8 years. You're right, she does rock!" And you will be my brush with fame story forever. Hasta Luego!

from tithonus :

My pleasure. :)

from tithonus :

Friends are magic. :)

from tithonus :

Yay, you're back! Um, and thanks for the email, sorry I didn't reply, it would have been, uh, anyway, yeah, hooray for holidays!

from jeanisdead :

[this might come up in your guestbook a few times ... the two of us had a fight, and i think it won, but i'm not sure ... ]. eat more meat! its begging for you to eat it! "eat me," the cows moo! "EAT ME! MOOOO!" heh, really, that wasn't sarcasm. i love meat, and i like to believe the cows are really mooing that to me. not that i'd feel guilty, otherwise. meat is too yummy for me to ever not eat it. oh, and i want to see that movie. poor chuck, that gun-crazy old man. but, as eddie izzard says, its not guns that kill people, its just that certain noise they make.

from throwingjuly :

some wise advice offered and taken. thank you.

from hayl-storm :

Hi Sara, I didn't know that you had a tattoo! Tell me all about it. When did you get it? Where is it? What is it of? What does it mean to you? I am intreaged by tattoos because they tell a story, a story that I always want to hear. There was this guy in my American Film class last semester and he had tattoos on his arms and I would stare across the room constantly trying to figure them out. I really should have asked him but at the same time I didn't want him to think I was trying to crack onto him. Maybe I'll ask him if I see him around this semester if he isn't around people. I really want to get a tattoo of a little fairy on my lower back but I'm scared out of my mind. I mean, the belly ring was scarey for me but at least it only took a few seconds. I would like to give Kathryn an idea of what I want because she is really good at art. I want something that is drawn by someone I know and reflects my personality. Did you know that she was once concidering being a tattoo artist? Cool, huh? I'd probably have a tattoo by now if that was the case. Hey, I heard that you might be coming my way in a year! I hope you do, it would be great to see you again. Love ya sweety-pie xoxox

from cuillin :

Hey sweetie! I've missed you! I've been thinking of you...I've been reading this giant Paul Theroux book about Australia and it makes me feel closer to my beloved Aussies. Please write and tell me how you've been...I sure have missed you. The blame is on me; I haven't been keeping up with anything lately. Lazy. Lazy and blaaaah. I love you! xoxoxoxox

from honungslen :

hey you... the talkative little me suddenly find herself lacking words because of your wonderfully sweet message. it belongs among those rare compliments that i never forget :). so, thank YOU. and "fucking �m�l" is great! if you liked that one i strongly recommend "tillsammans" (together), by the same director. it's about sweden, the 70's, peace, love, co-habiting... and it's for an older audience. changing subject completely; when do you think you'll be able to go to mexico and see the world? and again, thanks ;)!

from jeanisdead :

fucking guestbook! anyway, i was going to say ... well, you see, i have small boobies. so when i see boobies (especially those of people i *know*, in one form or another) i get excited ... way too hyper ... like a 11 year old boy discovering porn. so, i'm ashasmed now. but still ... BOOBIES! okay, time for a cold shower. ;D

from neurotic-one :

Eve, I loved the comment you made about sins to tell. Thank you for adding it to your list of favorites.

from elipsis :

:) thank you for the wonderful welcome-back! it made me smile out loud. it will be a while before i can really catch up on everything.. but i hope you've been having a wonderful season as well!!!

from honungslen :

i wrote an awfully long note for you yesterday, but the diaryland god decided to punish me immediately by crashing the server or something. it all disappeared :(. i think i wrote something about not being a lingual master. i love words and i used to love learning new languages. i think i over-did it though, because one day i had had enough. it's slowly coming back now, the desire to learn. and yes, this place is wonderful and different. i can only imagine what australia must be like! i think most swedes dream about going there some time. i have to admit i was both envious and impressed to hear that you're going to see the world with your brother! it sounds great. personally, the very thought of going around the world with my lil' sister, makes me terrified. i love her to bits and pieces, but we would kill each other within a couple of days! i read your post last night and i want to go to mexico too... and i've been waiting for that movie. i'll probably have to wait a couple of more weeks (or months), since they have to dub everything inot french before they actually show it. it seems like you had a great christmas and a fun new year's eve so i'll just wish you a wonderful year 2003! hugs, y.

from throwingjuly :

you're absolutely right. growing up entails some strange goodbyes, as well as some grace in doing them. anyway, sounds like you're in for good times, so have the best of new years, paving the way for us over here in the U.S. and cheers to your hermit. hope she has a warm fire.

from jeanisdead :

had to leave a note because i can't leave a gb entry again this quick ... anyway, this is really strange. to find the name of that episode, i check out the imdb(http://us.imdb/com). like i said, he played a guy named kor, and the episode was called lifeblood and it aired march 18th 2000 ... and then i looked at his filmography, and it seems he was in a movie in 1999 called "Amazon High," where he played a guy named Kor and selma blair was in it and played a girl named cyane, and it was directed by michael hurst and written by rob tapert, amongst others. i'm a supergeek, so i shall find out more about this and get back to you ... isn't it sad that i'm so intruiged? oh well! off i go to be geeky!

from honungslen :

i just wanted to say thanks :), it warms my heart to hear that you like my writing! since english isn't really my mother tongue, that's a huge compliment. and to answer your questions... besides swedish, i actually only speak english. my boyfriend speaks french and creol and i understand both of them quite well, but i still don't speak either of them fluently. i've studied spanish and german, but can't seem to remember more than the basics. oh, and i studied ancient greek too! i haven't exactly used it since... but it was interesting. and yes, it truly is beautiful where i am now :). i'm curious about your stay with a swedish family. was it in sweden? i have to admit it i miss it this time of year. silly me, i almost forgot. i'd like to return the compliment! your thoughts, your writing and your life intrigue me :). a very merry christmas to you too! ~y~

from elipsis :

:) i love your diary! you write so vibrantly... i can imagine how lovely it must be to live so vibrantly (and know it)! thanks for your kind words.. i hope the rest of your nights give you as many things to smile over...

from miraii :

I did not mean it like that at all! To the contrary, it was rather delicious!

from throwingjuly :

ooooo--sounds like yer in for a crappy one tonight. at least you can still enjoy solid foods. anyway, merry christmas, and cheers to you for sticking it out with grant.

from tithonus :

Admit it, you really did mean PARNETS, you just changed it to "parents" in order to cover your tracks - PARNETS are of course a species of strange alien invaders whose only desire is to steal all of planets earth's precious olives, for devious purposes shrouded in mystery...

from miraii :

I am all for never reading the newspaper again. I try to live in ignorance whenever possible. Otherwise I wouldn't get anything done and I'd also be dead from the high blood pressure all my anger would have given me.

from tithonus :

I know you've deceived me, now here's a surprise...

from honungslen :

actually i'm not even sure that i would like to publish it, it's my little baby and i want to keep it to myself a little ;). i guess i am selfish in that way. perhaps even more selfish than you... keeping your stories to yourself;). i'm less blue today:). it's been one of those quite good days and i relish it. and your kind note put a big smile on my face! (thank you) you must be one of those really sweet people that i stumble on from time to time. i hope you know that:). hugs.

from tithonus :

Yeah, Doug Anderson's good. Forget the rest of the paper. :)

from honungslen :

hey there! what a sweet note you left me :) (thank you!). just feeling a bit blue today... hence the sad entry.

from honungslen :

just wanted to say that i stumbled on your diary and i like it :)!

from throwingjuly :

thank you again. part of me knows might be the case, but it's still weird. anyway, that was a lovely entry--it's always nice when a hazy mist takes over our lenses.

from miraii :

Yeah, but there's using them excessively, and then there's inserting them in the middle of sentences. Two totally different things, yo. :)

from tithonus :

Hey, it's ok. Sorry, I should have said this before to save you all this frantic note-leaving... I'm more than happy to look like a girl, I was just having a little joke at my own expense and it sort of backfired... I've been mistaken for girl online plenty of times before, although never from a picture... it really doesn't bother me, in fact, I find it kind of flattering. :)

from throwingjuly :

thank you for that wonderful compliment. I think that many of us are feeling the overall lack of anything of genuine substance in our current culture, and how that fact is leading us to a spiritual starvation. the problem comes in articulation, because after you recognize it fully enough to start speaking it, where can you go? where is there to go? it then is up to us to find a new place for rebirth and to commit ourselves to it, as well as to the society immediately surrounding us, which is always easier said than done. as sartre observed, the mass of men don't want to be "freed", and even if they think they do, the reality of seeing it through may be too much (re: "The Flies"). so where to now? i don't know, but the answer has to be there somewhere. at least, that's what i keep telling myself.

from tithonus :

Harrumph! Girl! Harrumph!

from miraii :

Hee, thanks. I just finished it moments ago. Um, the midterm. Right. Also, Marquez in your favorite authors? Yay!

from cuillin :

hey you, where'd your guestbook go? Now i'm making myself confused. did you ever have one, or did i just write you notes and they're gone? oooh how weird! I have a billion travel essays -- a lot of them are about South America, some by Paul Theroux, my favorite...he took the train all the way from Boston to Patagonia. AMAZING BOOK. I have to make that list for you in the morning. "these pretzels are making me thirsty." -- Seinfeld!! "These PRETZELS are making me THIRSTY! These pretzels ARE MAKING ME THIRSTY!" We have to get someone to create that video game for us and take all the credit, we'd be millionaires! And I'm surprised that they even aired that "furity" thing here. No one said a single word about it! And believe me, people LOVE to make fun of Bushie here. LOVE it. God...Robin Williams put on the best live standup a month ago, talked about Tony Blair's eloquent angry 9/11 speech and then imitated Bush, scratching his head and saying, "Shiiiiit, I don't even know what those words mean." And: "Did you ever notice that Bush only speaks when Cheney takes a drink of water?" (ventriliquist's dummy.) The whole election was surreal, we didn't know WHO our president was for forever. Stupid Florida. Don't trust any state shaped like a gun. Anyway, I will get that list to you, of biographies and travel essays...I'm so obsessed with travel essays...I just got another Paul Theroux one about paddling through all the tiny islands in the Pacific. He's so great, you have to check him out. I also love the ones about Russia, Siberia...creepy South America...oh, and they're so clueless about the sniper case here that they're actually interviewing Taliban detainees about it. Wondering if it's 'that kind' of terrorism. No fanatic Islamic guy would leave a TAROT card that said "I am God" at the scene of a crime. Shows how inept we are at solving these things...and how they've suddenly turned eager to blame this on Muslims. Makes me sick. I know the whole Anthrax thing was done by an American...had to have been. And I'm being way too political or whatever these days. take care of yourself sweetie, goodnight! xoxoxoxox love, Sarah

from tithonus :

Ah, well. Much as I sometimes hate rewriting, I'd never give it up. :) And, when you say everyone else does, do you mean, everyone else has confidence in themselves, or everyone else has confidence in me?

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