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Ah, yes, but I assumed you knew it was from me already before I said anything even though you hadn't picked it up. I had misunderstood what you said at the time. I was confused. You're welcome!

from cheshireluci :

Oh good...

from cheshireluci :

So he's the object of crushing?

from cheshireluci :

How did you know it was from me, btw? Does it have my name and address plastered on it? Hrm. Lemme know when you pick it up! So exciting that the world is actually connected! (Rather than a flat and a figment of our imagination! Beh, anyway.)

from cheshireluci :

I have not "gone" anywhere. I have always been insane. It's part of my unique flair. But since nothing has really been working for me, I was thinking that I had to send something nice out into the world so that I could get some nice changes back, you see. Kinda like the christians say about tithing or something except I didn't donate to a church's coffers. I like to think it was a better use of funds. Plus, I wanted to. I got excited when I found your amazon account, and thought, now what better way to make a person smile than to have an unexpected gift at their door, eh?

from cheshireluci :

Bwaha! Fooled again: the note link DOES work! You will have to sulk about something else now. Ty; saves me from clicking an extra three times or so. Totally worth it. ;)

from cheshireluci :

I'm glad you're going to look for something new, mainly for the energy you need. I'm in a similar boat with you. I know what interests me, but I don't know what I'm going to do with myself vocationally. I'm very frustrated about it. I really want to go back to school. Maybe when you set up the new job, you could extend your start date to allow you a week off for mental preparation and writing time.

from cheshireluci :

Add a notes link on your profile. Would save me some time. ;)

from cheshireluci :

Is the other love Johnny Depp? Because I could understand that. Sunshine would just have to step aside.

from cheshireluci :

I have no idea if the font I listed is the same font you're seeing because, against normal coding rules, I did NOT add backup fonts in case they didn't show. But I'm soo tired of Trebuchet, Arial (gack!), TNR, Georgia, Verdana, etc., etc. So I hope it shows up the same for you as it does me. They are Nyala (the entry font) and Pristina (the Sketchbook image font as well as the other texts.. headings, time stamp, and the side links).

from cheshireluci :

Oh, good so I was wrong! You didn't leave him! Yes, you definitely have a story to tell there. I thought things were getting stagnant and you were thinking of dumping him too for that reason. Whew!

from cheshireluci :

Ha! Or more like Aha! I will trick you into teaching me Dutch by using my Ignorance Super Power and irritate you with my babelfish translations until I get it down!! Mwahahaha! Mm'kay, so "praat met me," eh? What's the "met"? A preposition?

from cheshireluci :

What's stopping you from moving?

from cheshireluci :

Who is the one obsession? "What I need the most is inspiration and courage for a new beginning. And hope, lots of hope."- maybe me too. I've got plenty of hope, some inspiration, a bit of dimwitted courage, but I need a plan. If you've got a plan, I'll share my goods. Eh, I'll share them anyway. ;)

from argolam :

Congratulations on the new job. SAP is a wonderful thing.

from pigment :

thank you, you're sweet... But i won't be over there forever... i mean i guess :o) Have hugs luck and love.

from cheshireluci :

WOW! such beautiful architecture!! What is that man doing to that horse?! (just kidding) my Q's & comments: what are the padlocks for? man, gorgeous buildings!! I like the cat on top of the building! Too cool! So neat to see castle-like buildings.. we don't have those kinds of structures here, obv. What do they manufacture? All those rigs.. ! Your pictures are very good quality too, no fuzziness or anything. Do you know about how old some of those buildings are? They look like they are in excellent condition! Well-taken care of. Who's the guy friend? love you, babe. :*

from cheshireluci :

lol! thank you! you've made me laugh. it helps. :) we could have a constellation named after us. we'd be the Big Arsed Siamese Sisters. there'd be 4 roundish clusters of stars for each ass cheek.

from cheshireluci :

i'm stealing a hug. i need one. i hope you don't mind..

from cheshireluci :

boogety boogety boo! giggle giggle giggle... a hug, a dance-shimmy, a smile....... hiya! giggle giggle.....

from cheshireluci :

i played "The Other Side of the World" song, but the video didn't show. :( Hopefully, I didn't miss anything spectacular. At least I got to hear the song.

from cheshireluci :

you are too cute! :)

from cheshireluci :

HAHA!

from cheshireluci :

i need a hug. so i'm stealing one from you. (you're not fat. although, the entry made me laugh. not in a malicious way. just in a surprised way. it was said so.. blunt and simply stated. opened your page and then BAM! there it was.)

from ecappaccino :

You're NOT fat. Don't you hate those days when you think you're the flabbiest person in the world? Grr I had one of those yesterday.

from cheshireluci :

well, i've been distracted with other things, like class and stuff. mainly, until i updated that entry the other day, i hadn't felt like doing that so i could write normal stuff. and i didn't want to just skip the topic; i wanted the update on that topic to be the next entry, keeping it all together. that kind of blocked me from making entries. yeah, you'd get sick of my moods and stuff too. ;) it was how you were talking (why pregnant) about that and how your nipples hurt and stuff. i thought, "uh ohhh!". :) i hope things work out well for us too. even though i think i sabatage myself at times. thank you! you two doing well?! how long have you been together now? it's been a bit, hasn't it?!

from cheshireluci :

i miss you too, but think of you often. :) maybe part of your apathy recently has spawned from not wanting to deal with things. maybe you could write each problem down and work on one thing at a time. like, how you feel about this and what to do to get you through it, and then move to #2. or do them out of order. that would offer the opportunity for you to visualize each random, floating distraction in your mind and make them surmountable. i promise i'm not trying to step on your toes or tell you what to do; just offering possible options for help. hopefully. -- ye know, in hypothetical terms, if you and i lived in the same town, we would probably be best friends. isn't that funny? (not in a "haha" way). so far away. not to mention, help each other with problems and giggles. love you.

from cheshireluci :

don't mean to nose into your business, but maybe you could write your mum a letter telling her how you feel about her. it's sometimes easier than telling her in person with words. you can also make sure you hit all the points you want to express that way; sometimes you forget when you're emotional and talking/crying. a hug and kiss.

from cheshireluci :

are you pregnant?!

from cheshireluci :

i'm assuming i'm one of the two with a January birthday you were asking about- and that Bertrand would be the other. or maybe i'm just self-centered. ;) but yes! if you were talking about us, mine is today! happy Joy's birthday to YOOOOOOOOUU!!! and his is... the 24th. a hug for you!

from ivoryfaerie :

Hey. You've been on my favorite list for awhile and I just wanted to let you know that reading your entry "I'm having the time of my life and I owe it all to him" that you wrote awhile ago has helped me feel pretty good about my current situation;) I'm going through a break up and the first part of that entry is exactly how I feel. Just wanted to say thanks;)

from cheshireluci :

well, i'll have to email you to answer your q about Jon and me when i get some time. won't all fit in here. weird how our lives have become busier and distracted from dland, isn't it? i rarely talk with anyone anymore. :( love you!

from cheshireluci :

yes, everything's hunky-dorry here. how about you? :)

from pigment :

Waouh, congratulations, you're good! Though, i would have expected a bit better on Dutch poetry 20th and Shakespeare... not that it's bad, but i know you are better than these results... oh well.

from cheshireluci :

:) HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGG! sorry i've been busy with "viva triviality"...

from pigment :

well, i must say, girl, that that impresses me... You impress me, girl, liking NIN like that... Are you gigantic, for instance...? dhhu...!

from pigment :

Hey!!! you like NIN!!! ... !! .. Ok, so maybe you're gonna like some hard stuff i put...

from cheshireluci :

i had a dream about you the other night. we were meeting; i came to pick you up from your home (? :) -haha!), and you were getting in my car. we had a few minutes of awkwardness and then it was like we were old friends again. which i'm not sure why i say "again", but whatever. i dig it, i like your last entry about being lazy. i feel like i'm being lazy- and although 60% of me IS, i still feel like the other 40% is just worn thin. bleh.

from parlance :

Oh man..I can't imagine the work involved in that one. I was never really a fan of Shakespeare myself, but at least your teacher is giving you a bit of a break.

from parlance :

Ah =) Don't worry about it. It's hard to motivate yourself to write such papers.

from parlance :

King Lear. Gah. 10 bucks says I have to write that essay in 3-4 years time.

from cheshireluci :

040419_1.html, 2004-04-19, 4:37 p.m. - awwww! sleepy Minne.. :) and awwww!, 040418_44.html, 2004-04-18, 6:43 p.m. - sleepy Sunshine! :)

from cheshireluci :

had a chance to read the new book yet? ;*

from argolam :

Still here in my quaint little hellhole. But by this time tomorrow I will finally be gone. And thanks for the nice note.

from cheshireluci :

you're welcome! you're welcome! you're welcome! you're welcome! you're welcome! :D i'm assuming you got the book then. ;) hehe..

from pigment :

but anyhow, first, i will have to go to a detoxification centre... Will keep you posted.

from pigment :

mmmh... yeah, ok... but give me an idea, i don't know what to write!! What could i write in about, huh? HELP ME!! YOU!!

from rite153 :

aww, i hope he gets better!

from argolam :

I too am not a great expert on remote puddles of water. Especially in that whole Eastern Europe area. I'm still getting used to not calling it the USSR.

from rite153 :

yeah, i had to do a report on it in french class once. i thought it was pretty and WAY cooler than france... haha

from cheshireluci :

congratulations on your exams!! and Sunshine. - love to you both. :*

from argolam :

So what if took you weeks to sign my guestmap. At least you made it. And it's nice to finally find someone in Diaryland who's from this side of the Atlantic for a change.

from cheshireluci :

i'm glad you are so in love. it's so pleasing- even though that's not a strong enough word. "glad" isn't either.. anyway. can i love him too for making you happy? ;) heehee.. i think i'm a little in shock. :) but i loved ".. cried as i thought of his lips touching mine." magnificent!

from cheshireluci :

WOW... just beautiful, Minne. i wanna say 'i love you' even though we don't know each other reeeally.. but really.. adddddinng to my favourites..

from cheshireluci :

uh oh... HUUUUUUUGGG!! love

from cheshireluci :

it totally was my birthday yesterday! (Jan. 18th)!! thank you! :D

from irish-jack :

I think the light picture looks good.

from cheshireluci :

ya know.. even though you and i don't talk frequently, you're still one of my bestest friends. i don't know if that makes me look like a loser to others for having closer friends across oceans that i've never met, but i don't care. it's true. i miss you at times, that we don't talk so often. but for some reason i feel a trust that we're still close. it warms my soul. love for you! -joy

from cheshireluci :

i like the Big Button allusion to Pulp Fiction about what the french would call a big button.. that was funny! :)

from cheshireluci :

kisses to you too, sweetie

from cheshireluci :

pinchy pinchy- nope. you're awake; it's real. ;)

from cheshireluci :

hmmm, the movie looks like it would be cool. if i knew dutch and french (which i truly believe i should) then i'd be all set to watch it, but maybe it will come out here in like a year with subtitles? we'll see. i've seen a few dutch movies on an independent channel i watch frequently. the site didn't say much about its release and all that, prob because it's new.. well, i added it to my "to see" list at IMDb, so.. we'll see..

from cheshireluci :

HAHAHAHAHA!! "that Joris fuck"!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! that's awesome! i like the little copyright thing too! you crack me up! :D "NEVER"?!! that IS fucking creepy. i hope he does block you from his MSN list! what's he wanting to do? save your soul or some shit? i mean, c'mon!! he's a creepy loser. "that Joris fuck" actually fits. that "fucker" ( (c) Eveningsun). ;)

from christa02 :

hey cool taste in music..just had to say that...

from cheshireluci :

hi, sweetie! Bertrand told me you had a yahoo im id, but i don't have it! that's really the only one i get on, on occasion. so maybe we could chat on that so i don't have to redownload the msn? yeah! yeah! yeah!! c'mon!! yeah! or maybe, one of these days (does yahoo do this?) we could group talk, the 3 of us? that'd be neato too.. loves!

from cheshireluci :

mantras.. http://dictionary.reference.com/search?q=mantra .. i start with one phrase that i think will help and just keep repeating it my head or outloud, trying to reprogram how i think about certain things. most times, it brings about other phrases that will help too. like, i started with "i can handle change" and that evolved into other sayings that have helped. like, just for examples, "i deserve to be happy", "i am worthy of love", "i love myself", "i am beautiful" or something of the like. you can use whatever comes to you as long as it's positive. say whatever you need to to improve what you want. if you make it, and believe it, it will improve. and i say it as many times as i think i need to, as often as i feel is necessary. every day for as long as it takes. kind of like meditation. basically, all you're doing is manifesting this positive idea in your head (etc.), putting energy into it. it may be hard to start, but stick with it.

from cheshireluci :

that's hilarious! ye know, it took me 22 years to appreciate mushrooms too!!!! now i like them.. it IS all happening! that's great! :D hug!

from cheshireluci :

i think that in this way it does help to be "this contemplative" because it gives you that opportunity to change it. because this is what i've been realising lately. i have thoughts that aren't beneficial to me and i want to change them to better myself because i want to feel better about myself, with myself, and for myself. so i've been creating thought-changing mantras. even lame ones that seem like they wouldn't help, but they do. my feelings about myself have improved, so i'm getting back to being strong and positive and feeling worthy and deserving of happiness. whether you and Sunshine stay together is hard to say. but in essence, really all that you should deal with is "right now". try not to worry about your future, because at those future times, things will happen as they're supposed to, even if it doesn't seem "right" at this time. and you'll be able to handle everything that comes to you. whether it's marriage or separation. it'll work out. maybe you can use this opportunity to change the way you've programmed yourself to think about yourself. if you were to think more positively about yourself, it will help you out and would make you stronger to handle things. it could also improve your relationship with Sunshine. i think Sunshine would be excellently supportive. and of course, i'll be here too, if you need me. i don't think it's so much that you don't have as much to offer as he does, but that YOU don't see that you DO. i understand what you're feeling because i've been doing the same things. but, i'm improving and as your friend, i'd like to share my positiveness and hopefully help you improve too. tell Sunshine i say hello again! love for you!

from cheshireluci :

i'm going to write you an email.. wait for it... waaaitt for ittt.... hehe.. (hug)

from cheshireluci :

this Joris fuck seems like a fuckhead. mind games, and guilt trips and- want me to kick him in the balls for ya? ;)

from cheshireluci :

:D thank you. :D it'll be okay, but i understand about the nervous best friend meeting. maybe you'll learn more about Sunshine too. that will be interesting, yeah? :)

from cheshireluci :

"liever dan jij".. was this about Sunshine? i am ecstatically happy for you! you can tell Sunshine that "the american friend" (hahaha!) says "hi! hi!!" again. :) maybe 'one day' we will meet and we can laugh together- or maybe we won't have to. (because we are already connected) either way, you guys are so cute and i, of course, consider you my friend (s). of course. :) that's funny about him thinking about meeting me! i laughed as i read it too! warm hugs and love to you for you both to share.

from cheshireluci :

HI!! [huuuuuuuuuug] :)

from cheshireluci :

i just wanted to say hello.. to reach for you. trillian, my im thing, still isn't working so getting on msn mess. is still a little fuzzy. i miss you, but i'm not exactly sure why. maybe cuz we used to chat more. it's okay though, i guess. tell Bert i say hi, unless you don't want him knowing about all this here, then i send a hello in spirit. :) much love for you and a big hug!

from cheshireluci :

did you take that moon picture or did you find it somewhere online?! it's gorgeous! [big hug!] i'm so thrilled about your Sunshine.. mildly envious- ;) hahaha! i like that he makes you happy!!!!!!

from cheshireluci :

GAAACKKK!!! you've been busy!! kissy kissy and drunky drunky and .. yeah! and i don't really know what to say about your dad and mom. i mean, i have words and all i just don't have enough space to type them all. i tend to collect words. anyway, maybe this Olivia woman is pretty cool- maybe she has no idea of the other sides of the story because she only heard what your father said. then again, she could be a conniving bitch. but i understand you feeling upset. uhh... yeah, i HAVE words.. just.. - i talk too much. i'm kinda giddy about the kissy kissy! waaaay cool! (which translates into a longer group of paragraphs of incessant bubbly girlspeak that wouldn't fit here.) my im thing (Trillian) stopped working properly so i haven't been able to access any of my im's in awhile. i'm very unhappy about that. otherwise, i'd like to believe that we would have talked sooner and maybe we could have had some girly talky over some funny ims! ah well.. later. def, def, definitely later. yeah. (RainJoy as in Rainman, ye know, the movie.. with Dustin Hoffman.. yeah.) :D hehe..

from cheshireluci :

i don't think you did a bad thing. saying how you feel isn't a crime- at least most of the time. but this is your diary, so if he got all pissy about it, it's his fault he's pissy. now, maybe because he may have liked you, his feelings were hurt worse, but you have the right to feel what you do. as far as not telling him, i can understand being upset with that, but not about how you feel. i liked the non-contagious hug, btw.. :)

from cheshireluci :

yes, it is nice, too i think.. about the tenderness. and the picture! whoa, totally beautiful!! and totally captured your topic. [hugs, babe!] i'm totally okay, btw! just trying (yes, i said trying!) to work through feelings and history and pains when they come up, while i can. because, don'tchu hate it when you're at work or something and you need to feel something, but really "shouldn't" for example, like you need to cry? god i hate that. ;) anyway, so yeah, i'm doing most excellent, but it was still nice to "hear" your note. :D it was verrry sweet!! :) :*

from cheshireluci :

[huuuggg]

from cheshireluci :

uh.. whoops. what day was your birthday?! i sorry.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! was it tuesday, when you were writing about it? i'm sorry. :( but still.. :) HAPPY BIRTHDAY! and one i like to say too, from Alice in Wonderland, MERRY UNBIRTHDAY! cuz i assume, if your birthday was a few days ago, then it can't be today.. right? ;) you wanna know what's ironic? today's my unbirthday too!! whoohoo! haha! [a birthday hug]

from cheshireluci :

maybe it's nothing? maybe he's just busy.. maybe you're overthinking it? we women tend to do that. but, like you said, you'll see the 27th.. i'm sure it's not so bad.

from cheshireluci :

giggle! yes, maybe siamese twins! which might explain why i only have 2 legs instead of 4. ;) hehe.. i know, i know! that doesn't make sense... but i do have this strange crack on my backside.. which could very well be where we were connected and why i show no other visible scars of that magnitude. do you have a small ass? cuz i seem to have plenty for the both of us! you're more than welcome to take some back! 'that's just sick, Joy! you weirdo! have you ever thought of social counseling? that's just not right, Joy..' like i said, if you want some back.. i've got plenty! :D haha!

from cheshireluci :

ahh, thank you! (for the hug and the hope)

from cheshireluci :

that is the best line ever! "sodd off, you goat"!!!

from cheshireluci :

ye know.. the more you talk about Sunshine, the more i like him. :) he sounds pretty damned cool! and what's important is he makes you happy. you have my friend seal of approval. ;) lol!

from cheshireluci :

GACK!! Exhaust closed shop! [hi!!]

from cheshireluci :

do you have pictures of Bert the Sunshine?

from cheshireluci :

hi! (yay! you're back! and doing okay! basically.) 030815_83.html, this entry cracked me up! "fuckers"!

from cheshireluci :

it's wednesday.. haven't heard from you.. wondering if you're doing okay.. i'll be here when you're ready.. [hug and luvs]

from cheshireluci :

ohmygod, girl! i'm sending you lots of positive energy to deal with the situation. and you're not a bad person and you're not a slut. you have these feelings, and they're justified, no matter what. and i think it's the right choice, if it's what you feel. maybe later things will change but for right now, maybe you're telling yourself this is what you need, and you should go through with it. otherwise, it would be wasting both his and your time if you're not fully diggin' the relationship. if you were sastified in the relationship, you wouldn't consider looking elsewhere. and that in itself shouldn't cause guilt. that's how people are, that's how relationships are, ye know? maybe you and Michiel will be best friends and will have a better relationship than now, and then maybe not. but don't feel bad for not wanting to sour what you have. i understand though. it sucks, it truly does. just be honest with him and yourself and even though it may sting for awhile, it would be better than causing more grief with shadiness and making a choice by not choosing. ye know? and maybe Michiel and you are meant to be together, but it's like that saying, 'if you love something, set it free. if it's meant to be, it'll return', etc. it'll work out the way it's supposed to. and just because you have these feelings doesn't mean that you don't love or care about him any less. your love's just changed or is different, ye know? crap. i feel like i'm rambling. anyway. [huuuug!] it's nice to have you back. :* :)

from eveningsun :

lockup because i don't know what to do yet but if anyone for some absurd reason still wants to read this, just ask..

from cheshireluci :

Hey, Babe. I've probably missed you already, but if you don't catch this before you leave, then you can read it when you get back. Have oodles of fun on your trip. I'm going to miss you, but I'll be happier knowing that you're having fun. So if you're not, having fun that is, I'm going to pretend you are anyway. ;) hahaha! And you haven't been ungrateful that I've noticed. And I'm such a ditz, it probably doesn't matter if you have. lol! And I soo understand about the missing computer time and all! I do the same thing. My apartment has gone to shit. :) It's not just 'dirty here', 'dirty there'- It's dirty everywhere! Anyway, have great times and a good vacation from the internet and I'll see you when you get back! [BIG hug!]

from cheshireluci :

i understand this is your place to rant. :) and that's okay. i get depressed often and sometimes it's comforting and you have to bathe in it for a while.. until your fingers get all pruny. :) so i understand wanting/ needing to write it out. i won't get too upset anymore, yeah?! k. right on. [hug]

from cheshireluci :

yeah, i locked up for diary makeover. the crying face was because of you.. i didn't know what to say, but your entries are very sad lately. :( so [BIG HUG] for you and i hope YOU'RE doing okay?!

from cheshireluci :

:'(

from eveningsun :

please stop reading this, every word is untrue and impure.. this is just a phase i need to get through and maybe i'll reach some epiphany in time, but right now, this body is a shithole. there is nothing here. please stop loving me / please stop loving me / i am none of these things / for a split second i wished i could drive a car so i could just go out and lose myself on the freeway. try and make it over the bridge to see if i can fly. see if i can make it through the clouds. see if i can make it through that wall over there. i am sick and tired of myself. i am doing good, but i'm shit. as big a paradox as that is, it's true. my words are not worthy. i'm too tired to let anyone read me.

from cheshireluci :

definitely!! we could sing backup or something. :) hahaha! that would awesome! unlikely but awesome.

from cheshireluci :

yes, but the chorus is what sticks in my head.. :) definitely a fucked up song. ye know, i think Tori Amos should cover it. i think that'd be neato!

from cheshireluci :

"How could U just leave me standing Alone in a world so cold? (World so cold) Maybe I'm just 2 demanding Maybe I'm just like my father - 2 bold Maybe U're just like my mother She's never satisfied (She's never satisfied) Why do we scream at each other? This is what it sounds like when doves cry"

from cheshireluci :

July 24, 2003: HUGS!!

from cheshireluci :

(different day than the other notes..) i understand your entry, however, i am very sad for you. not that it helps you out or anything. or me, for that matter. anyway. maybe you should come visit me for a week. (haha!!!) get out of town, ye know? that was a joke btw. i know that wouldn't help what you're feeling. maybe you could try to find a way to talk to Koen? i dunno.. i send hugs.

from cheshireluci :

mm.. interesting... possibly a soul mate friend.. or maybe just what needed to happen for some who needed something to happen... that made no sense.. anyway, camp.. interesting.. oh, i'm doing well.. you know how it is... :) lurves!

from anifish :

I read that note you left me, and I turned my head to one side and said, "Huh?" Haha. I was just commenting on your entry you wrote that day. I don't write mean notes to people on their diaries! So yeah, you didn't offend me. :)

from cheshireluci :

so, just a reminder that even though, lately, i haven't been here as often as i was before, does NOT mean that i don't think about you when i'm elsewhere. i hope you're doing better than your last entries.. i send love in all its forms.. whatever you want, ye know, chocolate.. caramel... a hug... positive thoughts.. a giggle.. ye know, whatever you need. see you soon..

from cheshireluci :

alright. on a less obnoxious note: i'm just letting you know i'm still planning on being around more. hopefully, (i know i said this before but cross your fingers) this week i'll get the internet. i probably could've had it by now, but i ended up sleeping through my days off this last week. lazy! plus, i was all depressed and you know how that crap is! you don't really wanna do anything.. but sleep.. and mope... or whatever.. and then with all this lovey-dovey mushy-wushy hormone crap i've been feeling lately, i really wanted a boyfriend- but not just any- ye know?! i HATE that! us girls.. yeah, we suck. but i like you. you're cool. :D

from cheshireluci :

GIGGLEGIGGLEGIGGLESNICKERSNICKER!! heeheheeheee man, i am just full of it today. i don't know what "it" IS, but i'm definitely full of it.

from cheshireluci :

threeeeeeee...

from cheshireluci :

k. just kidding. i'll stop. really.

from cheshireluci :

twwoooooo...

from cheshireluci :

onnnnnneeee....

from cheshireluci :

crap. this makes 10. that means i've still got 690 more notes to do...

from cheshireluci :

hehe..

from cheshireluci :

and then, together, we'll be like, "whooaaa!"

from cheshireluci :

and then i'll be like, "whooaaa"

from cheshireluci :

and then you'll be like, "whoooaa!"

from cheshireluci :

and i'll be like, "totally"

from cheshireluci :

see, when you get the notices for the notes, you'll be like, "how in the hell did i get 700 notes in one day?! must be Joy!"

from cheshireluci :

i'm blowin' up your notes, yo!

from cheshireluci :

hihihihihihihihi!! huuuuug again! you ARE coming back, aren't you? how unlike you to wait so long to write.. don't give up on me yet!! i was like, "whoa!".. btw, have you seen that yet? it's so funny! luvs, friend..

from cheshireluci :

HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUG!

from anifish :

I get really irritated at people when they don't keep promises to me. And then I end up making a jerk of myself and regretting it later. It is truly unfortunate!

from cheshireluci :

HI!!!! have but one minute.. i didn't give you my addy so you can send a post card... i miss you too.. and i have no idea who you're flirting with! damnit! i'm missing out! i can't read everything (curses!) but i want to say i'm coming back!! i haven't forgotten you, of course. :D and i think about you all the time! hugs!!

from anifish :

Oooh good quote.

from cheshireluci :

neato. :D

from cheshireluci :

I WANNA POST CARD!! I DO!! PICK ME, PICK ME!!!!

from phatgrrl :

tag, you're it!

from prowlingleo :

I know this is officialy random guestbook signing week, but I'm making it a 'thank you for reading me' day. So here is me, thanking you, for continuing to read me.

from eveningsun :

so again.. servers too busy when i'm dying to update. always too busy at the very wrong time.

from cheshireluci :

The entry about Terezin was beautiful and very interesting. I love the picture of the gravesite with the large star of David! The white teddy bear pic didn't show up though -from the other entry. :(

from eveningsun :

dear diaryland, i hate you. not only did my pc crash when i had written about a 1000 words here that i can't recuperate now, you also have to stop me from working out my frustration about that fact by preventing me from updating because all of america is online just now. just now when i need to VENT, you are testing me. i am telling you, this is a very bad idea. somebody stop me before i delete my diary. i want to delete myself. like. NOW.

from cheshireluci :

lol! No! Don't worry, I didn't take it the wrong way at all! Notta problem! :D I am patriotic in my own way I'm sure, but still, I'm not so much into politicizing (is this a word? lol.) the world. It's the tree-hugging hippy coming out in me, I guess. haha.. :) So, in this way, knowing me like I do (hehe) and assuming how I come off to others sometimes, I can understand why you were surprised at the colors. Now that I typed all that, I don't know if it made any sense. rats. :D

from cheshireluci :

Whoaa! K, so I was thinking, to prevent the american-ish look of the new layout, perhaps green instead of blue.. but I'll leave it as is at least until after work tonight, just to give me time to brainstorm. Cuz I was like you, "Whoaa!? [it's all... patriotic looking.. and stuff..] weeeird.." I'll figure it out though. But the purple was clashing with the red and looked.. not so good. I'm going to find me some food now as well! {thinking to self: [or maybe just a different shade of blue.. hmm..]} Jyah!

from cheshireluci :

omg, that's fuckin' great, freakin' beautiful, ri-goddamned-diculously hilarious!! it's like, mass Finding Nemo hysteria.. leaving us all saying, "whoaa, dude! Jyah.." :D LOL!

from cheshireluci :

and then i was like, whoaaa!

from pigment :

oh ok, i found it... sorry... Hey, you could have warned me, damned! :) k, i read it...

from pigment :

giveyouakgiveyouaigiveyouasandgiveyouanothersyo! hey, have you written something on your diaryland nickname finally? or not? will you give me the link? :)

from prowlingleo :

I am spoiled aren't I? I never thought people would actually believe me and leave so many comments! I'm 100 short, but I'll settle on 24. Love ya sweetie, don't worry, already updated twice!

from prowlingleo :

Thanks for the comment in my guestbook, glad you like the new layout! I didn't even think about the effect it would have on my words, you've given me something new to think about. Hopefully it doesn't make me seem to depressed or anything, but the movie is quite dark so it's unavoidable. I'm glad you enjoy my diary, I hope you continue to come back!

from liebstar :

Hope I can be of some help for you :) "La traviata" is the title of a famous Puccini's opera and the meaning of the verb "traviare" is at least "to lead someone astray", so "la"= the (its an article) and "traviata" means someone (feminine) who is led astray. That's it. Glad to help you. Take care!

from cheshireluci :

ahahahaHAHA! that's great! Monty Python!! hahaHAHAHA!!

from cheshireluci :

i agree with the mention of Edgar Allen Poe, As I Lay Dying by Faulkner, and The Great Gatsby.. As I Lay Dying was soo deep. god. if someone hadn't been there to explain the underlying meanings, i would have missed the whole point entirely. fucking brilliant. as far as my favorite books or authors, i cannot say. i would be here for days adding to the list. "oh! i forgot one!" ya know. definitely too much to type in a note.

from cheshireluci :

this is a good entry: 030415_8.html ("sensitive to the hour of the day"). very nice... very true.

from pigment :

hi! hey, actually, i don't know if you meant that i am "insane" or "cute"... i'm sorry... :) * well, anyway, i've got a question... Is your name because it is your favorite moment of the day? This is your name that made me write one of my entry...

from cheshireluci :

*HUGS* *LOVES* you are appreciated.

from dolly15 :

Questionnaire 1. Why did you start your online diary? 2. What motivates you to invest your time in your diary? 3. A diary is generally classified as a personal thing. Why do you choose to express these thoughts to an audience on the Internet? 4. Are you always aware of your audience when you write your entries? 5. Who is your audience? 6. What does the design of your diary say about you? 7. The Internet is regarded as a place where you can be anyone you want to be. Do you think that you use your online diary to express and portray yourself in ways that are not possible in real life? 8. Do you take any measures to protect the confidentiality of the people that you write about in your diary? 9. What do you think about private on-line diaries? 10. What interests you in other online diaries? 11. Do you correspond with any other online diarists? Do you think that you are part of an online diary community? 12. Do you use any support services offered to you by Diaryland? Any other comments. Thank you for your time. k

from cheshireluci :

hi, lovebunny! (it just came out. don't blame me for "lovebunny"!! :D ) so, you are still vacationing, but i was thinking about you so i thought i'd leave you a note for you to read later. just to say hi. i hope you're having fun.. things haven't changed much around here so you're not missing anything really. except Exhaust, but you'll see her when you get back as well. mm.. k. i'll shut up. Luvs!

from cheshireluci :

Minne! ah, pooey. you are gone. :( well, i hope you have lots of fun! i will miss you, but i will be here when you come back! :D and yer gosh dern right, you better write things down by hand. AND type them! ;) luvs!

from cheshireluci :

*big hug*

from cheshireluci :

hehe, only one, lol! you are a writer, love! but i understand what you mean. yes, i'd love to see.. i love architecture.. buildings.. bridges with stained glass in them- how sad. maybe one day!

from liebstar :

Thanks for your comments on my notes!Actually I can't remember exactly what font I used for my journal's title, since I edited the original font with Corel Photo Paint..I suppose it's Brush Script, though, because I like it so much :) See you!

from cheshireluci :

hee hee hee hee hee giggle giggle giggle giggle giggle hee hee hee.. i'm in a pretty decent mood and thought twas funny, you writing me in your entries and stuff. and all the entries. no, i don't think you should put all the stuff in one entry. separate em! and i checked out that mopey fish and went to the spiders. unfortunately, they only have two different tarantulas but i may get one, i'm not sure. twould just be adding another thing to do, another excuse to stay on the computer/ internet that much longer. we'll see. le urghh..

from cheshireluci :

just wanted to clear up, i'm not giggling at your thoughts of water and all. i was giggling at the funnies you made throughout the entry, k. just wanted to make sure you knew. k. buhbye.

from cheshireluci :

giggle. i enjoyed your entry! about the swimming and all. what's an ED? hmm.. all around good entry!

from eveningsun :

AHH COME OONNNNNNNNNN I WANT TO UPDAAAAATE

from eveningsun :

diaryland does not like me. sometimes i update 5 times a day, sometimes once in 5 days - like now. once again, the server is too busy for me. thanks a lot..

from keeds :

banned again.

from cheshireluci :

ello, love! just wanted to leave you a hello until next time we talk! hope you are handling yourself well/ better. i don't think it's just you, if that makes you feel a bit better. perhaps, some sort of gravitational, planetary, celestial, universal time warp, emotional, mental, physical, relationship-ial (hee hee), retrograde, yick rollercoaster that's affecting most everyone. maybe you and i (and a few others) are riding in the front car? hugs and comfort to you..

from eveningsun :

alright, i wanted to update to briefly say i'm too busy at the moment to update properly but the server is even too busy to allow me. *sings and isn't it ironic, don't you think?* so i make a quick update here :) anywhooo i'm tired and stressed out due to all my deadlines, although at this point i think the way i'm working on them i'll probably make it. i'm suspiciously positive, yeah. :P anyway whenever i sit still my head still feels like i'm running around, which is a very weird sensation, but i think a good night sleep will stop that. busy busy busy fly fly fly! you know when i'm in bed late at night and i'm telling myself to sleep because i have a lot to do and i have no time to lose sleeping in, but then when i start thinking about my long to-do-list, it keeps me awake. gneheheh.. *does the alanis thing again*

from the29th :

I appreciate your note and your entry and your kind words. "Enjoy the Silence" was not a goodbye and neither is my newly locked diary. Not yet anyway. The short version is that I've had my feelings hurt and I'm angry at myself for letting it happen. I thought all day about this place and tried to decide if the good {meaning the wonderful people I'm getting to know} were worth feeling that way and my gut reaction was "No." But I realize that it's all because I'm being reactionary. I know that locking out everyone isn't the answer and that the answer is something along the lines of developing a thicker skin. But when I have such a hard time letting people in, when someone I've let in very close rips me from the inside, when all I can be is a cliche of mistrust it becomes hard to remember that I'm the one with control over the bruises. So for the moment I'm locked down. I feel I'm being melodramatic about this but, again, it isn't anything I can help at the moment.

from cheshireluci :

ey! sorry about being confusing. i ramble a lot (obviously)and what may make sense to me (since i know the whole story) may not come out easy to understand. sorry! i added your icq and msn im info, i hope that is okay? email me if not!

from phoenixtease :

Thanks for joining the dramaqueen diaryring! :o)

from cheshireluci :

i thoroughly enjoyed your entry today (Feb. 3) with the poem from Philip Larkin and your thoughts. i've felt that way as well. i don't have an answer for you, but at least, i can give you company.

from cheshireluci :

here's a bundle of thank yous from me to you for your compliment in your profile! i bow in grateful awe. thank you!

from cheshireluci :

ello! just checking out your site. seems we have things in common. i'll have to hunt down that NIN ring! ;P

from miekepop :

heb mij al eventjes bezig kunnen houden met je dagboek te kunnen lezen ... doe zo verder, en bezoek het mijnne mischien ook eens?

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