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from the-grey-one :
you are missed around here!
from moodswing :
"uhhhhh" is correct. that's a super awkward position to be in
from loveherwell :
happy birthday!!!!
from moodswing :
hey! happy birthday!
from loveherwell :
yay 4.0!!!!
from loveherwell :
do it! to heck with the giant phones.
from the-grey-one :
i really appreciate how committed you are/have been to keep taking care of yourself. even as your moods can dip up and down. it reminds me that it is actually something i can do too. just, wanted to say that.
from warpednormal :
dude! that is so exciting. do you get to do a community mental health rotation? that's the world I live in.
from the-grey-one :
o_O .. yes.
from loveherwell :
CUTE cute cute cute cuuuuuuuuute!!!
from loveherwell :
i wonder if this is just collectively a bad time for, like, everyone. it's almost a comforting thought.
from the-grey-one :
swweeeeet, please do!
from the-grey-one :
i would so super love to see your painting! please post if you can!
from the-grey-one :
oooOoOoo
from loveherwell :
i miss girls. my best friend used to always say she was the marnie and i was the hannah. (i accept it a bit begrudgingly haha.)
from moodswing :
umm so i have been trying to write an entry for like a week now that includes severe moodiness and also an answer to your app questions BUT my goodness, holy toledo, i am also glad you didn't burn your house down and i hope your hand is okay. <3
from the-grey-one :
bahahahahah! ahhh i love it.
from the-grey-one :
please do become a cult leader! we need more cults lead by women, i say.
from loveherwell :
hahahahaha. i like the ones that describe my patterns toward friendships and mostly relationships — it helps me see what i do tend to think or do in certain situations. and yes, sometimes it is super complimentary (which i don’t hate, haha)
from loveherwell :
FRENETIC is exactly the kind of energy i'm giving out right now, i feel you
from the-grey-one :
ahh, i’m sorry, that’s so scary : (
from loveherwell :
shit, that’s scary. i’m glad your mom is okay, but your anger is valid, too.
from moodswing :
yeah, i was pretty mad at it when i first looked at the app, to the point that i almost got in a fight with the friend who recommended it (i was very crabby that day.) either it didn't feel accurate, or it i was just mad at what it was saying. the next handful of days were all about relationships, which is something i've been thinking a lot about... i think i was mad because it didn't give me any positive feelings, just.. "yeah, your shit sucks right now. do something about it if you feel like it." which is not what i want out of my free ai personality apps, damn it.
from loveherwell :
my energy is WAY off today too so, solidarity. also, i too love the pattern more than co-star.
from moodswing :
i recently downloaded an app called 'the pattern' which is more interesting than co-star. still, not everything fits. it seems very interested in knowing my exact birthtime, and i have to estimate the minute, so it could be off for that reason, or it could be off because it's astrology. but... it definitely has more of a worldview, larger scope type feeling to it.
from the-grey-one :
i don’t think anyone can blame you for feeling like the world is ending. *gestures vaguely at everything*
from the-grey-one :
merci frankielady <3
from loveherwell :
i agree, 100%!! i took a bit to write back because i wanted to finish rereading “raise high the roof beam, carpenters,” and that’s exactly what i’ve just done. my heart both swells and breaks for poor seymour. i think your idea of salinger being seen as a romance writer is spot-on — he does truly write as though he loves his characters, he wants them so badly to be seen and understood and loved by us, the readers. and i’m a sucker for stories about families, and the intricacies of relationships between brothers and sisters, and how much they care for and get each other feels so incredibly realistic and like something to aspire to. i am so happy you inspired me to reread these!!!! it is making my summer!
from loveherwell :
i just finished rereading “de daumier-smith’s blue period” (the penultimate story in nine stories) and i’ve just been so touched i had to tell someone. it really is quite incredible how much feeling he puts into the narrator’s musings, and his reaction to sister irma’s art/existence (and what she could present to him in the future) and his subsequent realization that she can do what she wants (as “everybody is a nun”) had, for whatever reason, my heart racing til the very end.
from loveherwell :
oh! and i forgot to mention that tattoo sounds AMAZING!
from loveherwell :
i find myself at the end of each story needing to literally just sit and think. and honestly, like with bananafish, the way he can pack so much information into just a phone call between the mother and daughter — how much is said without being said — what craft!! also, i reread (and rewatched) the hunger games in 2019 because i was teaching it to my sophomores. those books hold up for sure, and now that i’m older and can easily move past the “love story” (if you can call it that), i found so much more to admire. regardless of all the literary musings, i am glad your knee is getting better!!
from frankie123 :
lol woops
from frankie123 :
i was so excited to remember how much i love salinger that i actually went and got "raise high the roofbeam, carpenters" tatted on my arm last week in sappho's orig ancient greek -- partly because i love sappho, too, but just as equally as an homage for salinger. isn't his perspective on the human condition just stunning? i think i had it in my head that his stories wouldn't hold up for me now that i'm fully beyond puberty (yknow that reputation he's got cuz of catcher in the rye) -- but holy fuck do they ever.
from loveherwell :
not strange at all -- thank you for that, actually. i kind of feel the same way, so it's nice that it's coming across. i finally picked up my copy of nine stories today and reread the first three, including "a perfect day for bananafish." those stories are simply so well written -- i'm enthralled the whole time and i can't believe it's taken me so long to reread them.
from the-grey-one :
😂
from loveherwell :
i adore the glass family stories. you’ve just made it a goal to reread them this summer. they’re somewhere on my bookshelf...
from moodswing :
today: a strange mix between lucille/s5 george
from moodswing :
also, yeah! I've been looking for ways to be more connected in this little corner of the internet, whether that's leaving more notes or.. referencing other people I guess. Back to the old days! Without diaryrings and such.
from moodswing :
"my bluth status fluctuates"
from the-grey-one :
i haven’t been to an ayahuasca ceremony for 3 years now, but i spent so much of my twenties going to retreats. it’s definitely helpful and impactful, but i eventually found that the meditation was more my jam, and stopped really feeling the call to sit in ceremony. maybe again someday though! i have thought about it recently.. the shamans i know are primarily having ceremonies in bc but before covid time they’d come to the calgary/brooks area as well. you can definitely email me if you want more info/introduction to the people who run them. :)
from moodswing :
so tired.
from moodswing :
yeah, the protests. he was murdered very close to where i live, and the fire zone is a little bit further but still not that far. i'm gonna try write an entry about it later tonight.
from warpednormal :
man do I feel the exact same. This past 6 months I've been so closely following all my friends here and it makes so happy. I'm really rooting for you too xx
from the-grey-one :
<3<3<3 i’m rooting for you too
from loveherwell :
SAME. and yes i think that was the banner, haha!
from loveherwell :
i find it constantly discouraging too. for it to really work for me, i have to be obsessive about it, but then that obsessiveness turns into a huge negative spiral... i had that app before too, and i see how it’s effective, but it just made me feel awful about myself. it’s all very difficult.
from the-grey-one :
i don’t even know - i mean, working from home - not gonna make work friends, so like, random activities? joining some type of group? no clue!
from the-grey-one :
i very much believe your hair will imbue you with superpowers!
from loveherwell :
on the contrary: i think always believing you’ll bounce back has to be a type of strength.
from loveherwell :
i am glad you could at least experience such a beautiful moment.
from loveherwell :
that’s awesome!!
from loveherwell :
i appreciate your note so much. my brain likes to think that nothing is progressing and that i'm always stuck in the same place -- but you're right, that's not true. thank you thank you thank you
from loveherwell :
i hope your doctor is right. i am sorry you have that on top of everything else right now.
from loveherwell :
i’m so happy they’ve figured out your knee — even if we can’t really go anywhere for the time being
from weatethesea :
Sure! it's p original: "username" and "password". :)
from the-grey-one :
hooray!!
from the-grey-one :
YEAH!
from loveherwell :
i wish i had something better to say, but: you’ll get through this. we’ll all get through this. i just read mary oliver’s “the journey” - it might be, i hope, the tiniest bit nice to read.
from moodswing :
strawberries and balsamic is intriguing
from loveherwell :
same. missing human contact like whoa
from loveherwell :
the hair sounds great tho, tbh
from loveherwell :
i am sorry things are so heavy for you right now. spring, the sun, is just around the corner.
from warpednormal :
Ah isn’t it the best when the sun returns after several weeks of rain and darkness
from loveherwell :
happy, happy birthday! and the fluffy alia shawkat look is a good look.
from loveherwell :
yes yes yes to the reading -- i keep telling my friends i want to have some sort of weird book club but it never pans out. i miss that in-depth discussion.
from moodswing :
I think if you have commented, it has been years and years. It's strange and funny to me that I interact so little with still-active dland senior citizens. We are a special group. I will look for the app! I tried one awhile back, but it didnt give many insights, or I didn't use it long enough, which was the problem with doing it on paper. But I'm definitely open to trying new stuff. 2020!

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