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from lilmisskewl :
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from lilmisskewl :
i know your name as you sent me an email once with your password and i tried to add someone with that same name a while back and asked if it was you from diaryland and she said it wasn't... from winnipeg? mutual friend s. ings? if not, there is another person with your name with University of Manitoba Alum '07 Vancouver, BC - is that you?
from lilmisskewl :
thanks for the note. i wish i still wrote sometimes too, i used to really enjoy it but life is pretty busy now and i don't have much extra time to myself for that. i am on facebook though, are you? i have tonnes of pictures of my little girl on there if you want to add me. and of our wedding etc. too.
from teachin-usa :
i actually lost yours too when i changed computers. mine is naked lunch. and I thought you left vancouver! are you still there?
from furiouspuppy :
[email protected] I forget my password and username for your diary!
from biodtl :
You know, after the fish, I swore I wasn't watching again, but being a TV addict, I did and the asparagus appaled me too. It defioneitly looked real. I thought at least they could have donated it to a shelter or something, until the jackasses started throwing it around.
from lilmisskewl :
You are doing the right thing... at least it is what I would do, so it must be the right thing - LOL. You gave it your best shot and there is no point in staying if you are that unhappy & if there are no benefits to you staying. All the best to you :)
from anita-girl :
Hey! That is funny that you talked about the new Waverly West area. As you know I live iN royalwood and love new areas. What I want to see is lots that aren't sold by the builder and anyone can buy and build a hosue! It really is so retarded! In royalwood the builders said to Ladco for the new phases they wouldn't build there if they sold to private people! Chad said that gov't is getting annoyed and wants these changes to be made that people can. But he also thinks that the builders may just pull something so it won't. If we could buy our own lot in Waverly west or any new area we would!
from teachin-usa :
I am so impressed! You really did it! Yeah I guess it is hard for people who aren't used to the grey cloudiness. Some people need to get those therapy lights. Next time I'm in Vancouver I'd love to invite you for a coffee- or beer or whatever- I usually stay near Kitsalano. Too bad everyone you work with is so much older- how did that happen? Anyway, happy adjusting...
from teachin-usa :
omg!! You are in V BC now!?? You did it!! Wow! Do you love it?
from lilmisskewl :
WOW! Just like that, 'eh?!? All planned & packed & ready to go? Have a place to stay? Good for you! :-) How exciting!
from lilmisskewl :
Sorry about the boyfriend... it's too bad he wasn't ready to accept how much he cares because it might have been difficult. But good for you about chosing your life & career first - in the long run it'll be worth it and there will soon be a guy that appreciates that.
from teachin-usa :
Hi! The Vancouver opportunity sounds great! It is really a cool city. I would advise that if you decide to accept the offer, negotiate to get paid more as living expenses in Vancouver are higher than elsewhere in Canada. And, you need to think of yourself and your career first, boyfriends come later.
from lilmisskewl :
I am so sorry about your kitty... I haven't lost mine yet but dread the day & it must be very hard.... BIG HUGS to you.
from anita-girl :
I am so sorry for the loss of your kitty. That is so hard especailly since it has been with you since your childhood. I have never had a cat or a dog but I had a few canaries growing up and it was hard when they died (and when the one flew away!) But I think that losing your kitty would be harder. I am glad that you were with him so much before he went (I think he was a male?) and was able to spend time with him. And what's this? You were working for Hockey Canada? What are you up to now? You need to update more! And by the way do you have myspace or facebook?
from teachin-usa :
Sending my sympathies your way. Sorry you lost your kitty. I think better to die at home naturally.
from anita-girl :
Oh my gosh! You totally hit the nail on the head! I actually talked ot her on sunday night and will update about that in my diary. But she basically made me feel horrible about myself as a person and friend since I make her feel bad about herself everytime she sees me apparantly. I couldn't stop crying, I really thought that maybe I was this horrible person but the next day my close friend said no way you have tons of friends, it can't be true! She brought up the fork incident and yelled at me telling me that she would ALWAYS take her children's side, I got mad back and told her she shouldn't be still mad or at least not bring it up as I felt horrible and appologized for it right away. I feel bad for her since she doens't have many friends but I don't think I can be friends with her at what it was because she only wants to hear what she thinks is best and I am an open person. Plus I can't handle taking the child's side everytime. Thanks so much for your comment! I needed that!
from anita-girl :
No he isn't clinically depressed or anything like that. It's more that he gets down about money woes and gets negative, which to me has no purpose and gets no where which is why he needs to seek God instead of getting down. I understnad when he is frustrated but this is different from that. Thanks for the comments on Ariel! I plan on putting her hair in the pigtails everyday until I cut it!
from anita-girl :
Good to see a post! I knew you were there since you leave me notes! Keep updating! I missed you!
from lilmisskewl :
Hi. I just wanted to wish you a very merry Christmas before I leave on my holiday. All the best to you & yours :)
from lilmisskewl :
Good to hear you are doing well...busy, but it all sounds good. I am happy you have found a good guy too. Take care, and don't forget us here in Diaryland! :)
from lilmisskewl :
Hi. Thanks for your comment. Been wondering where you've been and how you are... you ever coming back to Diaryland? I miss you! Hope everything is well with you. Take care.
from anita-girl :
Hey! Good to see your back! I am so sorry about your dad! That's so good that he came back early! Did they have insurance to go down there?
from teachin-usa :
Hi GB. I have been catching up on your diary. Glad to hear you are having a fun summer so far. Job stuff is very interesting.
from grandbeach :
I totally checked out their website to see what it said. It says 100% of the net funds raised will go to CC however, that is NET. So I mean, how much they are spending to put it on is deducted first, which is completely reasonable except they are paying a lot to be advertised as heavily as they are. so yah, it still kinda stinks. let's just think about it this way though...it is still getting the word out to people about breast cancer so that is always a good thing.
from lilmisskewl :
This was bothering me, so I had to check in. This is what I found out: The company 'Cause Force' is a US company that is putting on the event. I was assured that all money stays in MB that is raised in Mb. Apparently the person running was charged a $75 fee in the beginning for her food, lodging etc. & what is left for advertising. Apparently after the event it is going to be published how much money was made and spent so it will be public knowledge - I will be glad to see that.
from lilmisskewl :
That is totally crappy - I know a few people running/walking & I have pledged & supported quite a bit. That sucks.
from lilmisskewl :
Glad to hear you are sounding better. A new job will help gt your mind off of the yucky things in life. What is a "Jill Job"?
from lilmisskewl :
Depression sucks. You sound like me at your age. First, I would get some professional help. That is not a bad thing and nothing to be ashamed of. We need to get this stuff out and work through it and maybe even some medication to help you. I have done it and don't know where I would be if I hadn't. Being a girl at this age is difficult, and men (boys) that age sure don't help. It could be just something you are going through, but it could also be a chemical imbalance that you have no control over and might stick with you for life. I still have it, but as life gets better and I have learned to better cope with the condition, it is not near as bad. You just need to be strong. It is hard, I know, and people with such hearts as yours get broken easily, and I know it sure hurts. Seems like the worlds gonna end, doesn't it? It's not though, believe it or not. It may be shitty for awhile, guy-wise, but trust me, it does get better. These guys just don't deserve you. You are too grown up or them. Just be patient, Mr. Right will come along and you will forget about how hard it is now. If you ever need to chat, you can message or email me. I will listen. I know what you are going through, and you will get through it, promise. *Hugs*
from randh :
You're right GB. I'm done being mad though. I wrote about it all last night and I feel much better, I'm just disappointed that James didn't think about Greg before sayin something. Thanks so much for reading me and giving me your perspective on things!
from randh :
GB, I guess the thing that bothered me the most about James talking to Rose is that I just don't like or trust her. She's been very cruel to her family in a variety of ways, including trying to break Greg and me up, and also making her mother and father choose between her and Greg, which is something no parent should ever have to do. I don't want someone that cruel to ever know anything about me. I know the wedding to Greg should be a happy event, but Rose knowing anything about our impending plans means she could possibly show up to crash our wedding or create some other havoc. Which she would do. Not only that, but she also said she wanted nothing to do with Greg or I if her parents took Greg's side. So why does she care if Greg and I get married? She doesn't want to be in the family right? I thought she didn't care? *sigh*. It's a just a really big and messy family fued that got out of control a long time ago. All I know is that Greg and I don't bother her (especially since she moved away and nobody has any idea of where she lives, including her parents), so I don't know why she wants to pop up all of a sudden and ask about Greg.
from anita-girl :
Hey how did you know? Yup Ventura built our house. It's almost been a year since we moved! Were inn Royalwood. Ventura was an okay company to build with but as many people do we won't probably build with them (most don't use the same builder) Apparantly though I just heard that MANY people who worked there when we were building don't work there anymore all of a sudden, ineresting eh? Why did you want to know?
from anita-girl :
Your locke dup? Please send me the info at [email protected]
from anita-girl :
Hey!!! Happy Birthday! I wish you the best day! And an even better year! Have a good one!
from lilmisskewl :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!
from anita-girl :
Hey! That was Chad! I wonder what he would have done if you came up to him! It would have been nice since I could have grilled him to tell me what you look like! I agree with you on the first move thing, something about it being a guys job! And if someone told you that he was watching you and such it totally sounds like he likes you a lot! I am happy for you!
from bebegracie :
Thanks for your comments, they are very much appreciated x
from lilmisskewl :
YAY YOU! I am so excited for you!
from lilmisskewl :
Re: "Boy I am Angry": I TOTALLY AGREE!
from teachin-usa :
Great point about the rapist having parental rights. I had never thought of that before.
from teachin-usa :
Hi GB. Racism and homophobia are two different things. Ha ha. That's a joke. People who know me would know that when I say "gay" like that it's totally toungue in cheek, but you are right, It's irresponsible and can be offensive. In real life I'm very gay friendly and supportive. I know how you feel and thanks for commenting on that. I'll avoid using it. And that racist guy interviewing me- I have not met any Canadians like that - I was so shocked- especially someone who owns a sizeable business meeting me for the first time. He must really be an idiot!
from anita-girl :
Hey! That's funny that we have so many of the same "werid" habits! I shall inform my husband that I am not the only one! I also do the pee int he middle of the night and drink water thing too!
from feesticka :
Hey -- got your note. Send me an email to [email protected] and I'll send you the info. TTYL!
from biodtl :
I know what you men about the size 0 with hips - i'm actuialy the same way (or at least i was when i was skinny). No matter what size I was/am, I can never find pants that aren't either tight in the hips and/or huge in the waist. It's just so much easier for men to find clothes that fit!
from teachin-usa :
Do you know the Beach Boys song Surfin'USA? That might help you remember it. I have all my passwords so my comp remembers them. Can you do that?
from teachin-usa :
GB, cheer up!! As they say, this too will pass.
from furiouspuppy :
The colour of the layout is good but you need some sort of focal pic, I reckon!
from teachin-usa :
Actually I like the yellow. Is that Ikea yellow? Its cheery. It's easy to read. Some your other ones were cool but so cryptic. But of course I need a new monitor so anything darkish is a problem.
from kingbuk8 :
Hi, I don't know you, you don't know me. I'm just saying hello. Bored and lonely, just picked your name at random. LOL Don't you feel special? Sorry, that sounded creepy.
from furiouspuppy :
because boys are stupid. the sooner we all figure it out, the better!!!!!!
from anita-girl :
That does not sound like you had a nice few days! I am sorry! That sucks! I have never had a y infection but I can only imagine how horrible it was! I hope that it's gone and that you never get one again! I have a female doctor, one that I got when I found out I was pregnant, when your pregnant no doctor can refuse you if you dont' have a doctor! She is really great I am very happy with her, women are better!
from teachin-usa :
Yeah- this woman, Sarah, I guess they found some of her DNA also in that field. What drives these men to want to kill women? What? I don't get it. Do they get that from pornography? I just don't understand it.
from viperj :
Yeah thats a good song, I had downloaded it back in the day, loved it, then I heard it a few years later on that dancing show, and I was like...thats a good damn song, then I had realized I had already listened to it prior. Anyway, gett'r done!
from anita-girl :
Your diet sounds like one that my friend did who had the same tummy problems as you have. She did it for three months and it totlaly cured her stomach problem. She didn't have one stomach ache from the moment she started the diet, and afterwards she could eat most things again, but she had to introduce them slowly and watch what she ate. I think it's a great idea that your trying this! She did buy gluton free crackers and could eat those. I will ask her the name of this diet she did, and what book (I think there was a book on it) she got it from. Hope it works! Nto being able to eat everything will be worth no pain right? :>
from trillkey :
Hey! I got the LG 3200, and I really love it. Not too flashy, no cameras, nothing like that. Plus it's smaller than a lot of other phones. I really like Telus, they were (and now are!) so much better to me than Bell was. Honestly, I couldn't get them to do anything right the first time. Anyway, hope your tummy is feeling better and maybe you got that all sorted out! Take care.
from anita-girl :
Hey! I hope the naturalpath went well!!! And they are expensive but worth it if they find a remedy that isn't medication or not as medicated as what a doctor does!
from randh :
Hey there, to respond to your entry in my guestbook, I wasn't trying to say that there's anything wrong with people who have a mental disease of any kind, but what I was trying to say was that it's a sad state for the shape of the american society when people can't afford to recieve treatment for they're aliments, or can have it in a quick and safe fashion. Hell, I know people who have mental diseases, and it's not a laughing manner or something that's bad, they're just sick. Either way, Canada rules (and I really do mean that) and I'm glad to see such a eliquent posting. I'll be seeing you....
from teachin-usa :
Hi GB. You know, like Mexican: Rice, beans next to the rice, guacamole, sour cream ,salsa, then chicken chunks on skewers. Just, you know, some people aren't into beans because they think they will get gas. But I guess it's no different than baked beans or chili- right?
from theswordsman :
Hi. Sorry. Another D-lander last spring held a fiction writing contest where I had one minute to come up with an idea and then had like ten minutes to write. I posted mine in my diary - it was about a character named Ishmael (I only had a minute) and his sword master. Good luck. John
from caraxus :
No worries - you should come anyway, seriously I should start a business hosting Canadians in Oz...I'd make lots of money!
from teachin-usa :
Try to remember what he really emphasized. He really should give you some idea. What a jerk.. He probably hadn't even made up the test yet, that's why he couldn't tell you!
from furiouspuppy :
I know, I'm totally a freak. It must be a perfectionism thing. Thanks for the support though...it's really appreciated. :)
from luckeme :
Thanks for the note. I'm not sure how I would go about doing that? Do I put on the invitations no children? I guess I should look it up. :) Thank you!
from lilmisskewl :
Honey, I am SO proud of you for writing that email, and talking about it. That is awful, and you did the best thing by getting out what you needed to. This is totally big for you in healing from this. I feel for you, honestly. *HUGS*
from bigmonayho :
Wow, I'm sorry that that had to happen to you! I think that it must have taken a lot of strength to write that e-mail, and you should be proud of yourself!
from anita-girl :
I didn't know that happened to you and I am so mad that it did. That sucks at how you were treated afterwards by YOUR friends. And I think it was okay to tell him the truth, he is going to feel like such a moron and may act stupid because of this. Date Rape is still rape, how are you doing with this? Have you ever talked to anyone about it? I found that after the robbery I was offered so much conceling and went to a group session and it really helped and that was just a robbery. I hope that everything will be okay.
from teachin-usa :
I think they are all trying to get laid all the time. They can't help it.
from teachin-usa :
Gangs suck.
from theswordsman :
Thanks a lot. I'm just trying to be honest and keep things as positive as possible. Take care. John
from lilmisskewl :
Just remember, it is much more expensive to live in Alberta, and much more, it seems, the further west you go! It is a great province though, I must admit, being from there. And I will always recommend to anyone making a move like that. Even as scary as it is, you can always move home if you hate it, but you will never know what's out there if you don't try. It was the best thing I ever did for myself, totally life-changing. Maybe it will be for you too. Good luck, whatever you do :)
from lilmisskewl :
Can I come? Hehehe. :-)
from lasvegasliz :
Thank you so much for the help, I emailed the university and hopefully someone can do something about that. How annoying!
from lilmisskewl :
Uh-oh... what happened? (Re- your 'Unbelievable' entry)
from curiouoso :
Thank you for checking out my diary. Midnite says "woof" (Hi). So do I (Hi, not Woof!) Curiouoso*
from biodtl :
I read your entry and did the same thing - started off with a comment and ended up with an entry...
from teachin-usa :
Oh man-that is hearbreaking! I hope somebody can give him a good home to grow up in!
from trillkey :
Hey! Thanks for the message... yeah, I just heard from them now, an email saying nothing that I didn't know except that I can register after all. Oh, university bureaucracy. But seriously, I felt bad about writing such a long, whiny, convoluted entry, but I was just so exasperated. Anyway, keep it up and take care!
from lasvegasliz :
your dog rocks! :)
from lilmisskewl :
Sending HUGS from me.
from bigmonayho :
Hang in there.
from anita-girl :
That just sucks with how he treated you. In a text he tells you? Then avoids all calls and messages left by you? Serioulsy that is rude he could have at least done it over the phone. I wish you better luck and hope things work out or that you meet someone else. :>
from viperj :
yeah that was one crazy storm, but it was definately something that we'll remember for a long time! Welcome To Winnipeg: Home of shitty weather, and Mosquitos!
from anita-girl :
When I was single I would always go and hug my mom or dad. I would let them know that I needed it and often cuddle with them too. They are there to provide it for us until we meet our other half. Now I go and sit in Chad's lap and put my head on his shoulder, whenever I need to be held. And soon when I have my baby and as they grow Chad and I will comfort our child. Go hug your parents!
from f-i-n :
spooky
from anita-girl :
I heard about what happened at Monty's. I am so sorry that you had to wittness that. It's so dumb that it happened, it's a good area it's so hard ot understand. I thik that it would be a good idea to take it easy now. I wish you never had to see that!
from beezy :
that`s so scary and sad!
from bigmonayho :
Hang in there! Life has it's ups and downs, and we need to learn to appreciate having both bad and good in our lives, and realize life is never perfect. Know that you're a great person, and good things happen to good people. Guys our age are usual young and immature, and don't know what they want. Don't worry, you'll find someone who treats you the way you deserve to be treated!
from lilmisskewl :
I'm sorry to hear you are hurt and things are so shitty. But I hate to hear you say you hate yourself. I am sure you did nothing to deserve this, you are a good person. Chin up ;) It'll get better, and you will find a guy who deserves you, even if it takes awhile. You may have to kiss many frogs before finding your prince, just like me, and trust me, I know how discouraging it can be and you can get so close to losing faith in all men, but there are some good ones left out there, and one is just waiting to find someone just like you...
from caraxus :
Oh...hugs...Boys are not all bad (actually...maybe that's not ture...) Hugs again, Caraxus
from teachin-usa :
exactly what i was thinking. i am so excited about this discovery- because this perception thing hasn't manifested itself in their written work, so i'm going to look into it. neither likes to read much.
from viperj :
WATCH OUT...and I'm saying that from doing so. When a guy says he wants to take it slow, 80% of the time it means he's exploring his options. He could tell you one thing, then call someone and hook up with that person. Dating is the crap, but it's a game, and someone always loses. I'm sure you know what you're doing, but I'm just giving you a heads up, beacuse that's how us dudes think...we only want what we can't have...Summer from OC said it right..."you only want me for the chase cohen." Take care, all the best!
from pokable2 :
Ahh! What a cliffhanger! Post again, I want to hear what happened. Just as a note.... and of course, advice from others hardly ever helps when you're the one who's been hurt, but I'll give it a shot anyway.... no one's the same. That is so shitty that someone you considered to be a best friend screwed you over so badly (well, I'm assuming it was pretty bad since it affects your relationships now).... friendships are definately areas of trust and the fact that someone would breach that (in whatever way) is disgusting. But-- like I said above, no ones the sane. This new guy could very well be one of the most amazing relationships you've ever had. Or he could be a three week stint. There's only one way to find out though, and sadly, that involves putting your heart out there. Of course (as in most cases over the internet) I don't know the whole story. Tose are just my thoughts from what I've heard. Post a followup entry, can't wait to her what happened next!
from bigmonayho :
If a guy makes you feel like crap (especially in the beginning) he's not worth it. You deserve better than that!
from anita-girl :
That is so confusing of the boy. He totally gave all these signals LIKE CRAZY that he really liked you and was into you. With all the messages especailly when you were gone. Here is what I think you should do. Let him know that you understnad that he wants to take it slow blah blah blah, but your not going to wait around, you can still see each other but you may see other people too. And then don't be so easy for him to 'get' he doens't call you till late to get togahter, you have plans, show that oyu have a life but still be nice to him. My husband tried somehting like this with me once, oh I am not sure whether if we have a future, I need to think about it, he quickly smartened up when I said well guess what you can't have me then, you can't keep kissing me, being with me if you don't think we have a future and you want to take it slow. he quickly went back to normal. Boys are so dumb!
from beezy :
boys are so confusing! :( things are going great with my boy right now, except we're still not official. something like he doesn't want to tie me down because i'm going to quebec (and we'll have known eachother only 3 weeks by the time i leave). might be because he wants to get some elsewhere while i'm gone. eep. i hope not. anyway... i hope it works out good, hang in there. you might end up being hurt, but at least you know you can survive.
from biodtl :
I just read your comment and I totally agree. I hate when people cry discrimination over everything and up until that point, I was skeptical about it (for the same reasons - I just can't fathom it), but that experience really shocked me. Thanks for the comment.
from feesticka :
Hey -- sent you an email re: Calgary to your hotmail address. Have a great trip!
from beezy :
ha. our lives are parallel right now.
from pokable2 :
Ohhh dear. Midol has caffeine in it?? Guess I should have looked into that before.... *laughs* I'm twins with you in the sense that I'm downing them like nobodies business right now! Maybe that explains the lack of sleep.... lol. Thank you very much for your comment on my page :) That's very true, self-doubt in the situation has been kind of an issue b/c of a fight we had over the weekend. Here's hoping thats it!!!! Good luck with exams :)
from lilmisskewl :
I would assume it means call him. Are you interested? It seems apparent that he is, so call him one night, chat a bit and see what happens, maybe he plans to ask you out, but is waiting to see if you call - to see if you are interested first.
from bigmonayho :
Why not? He wouldn't have made sure to give you his number. If he didn't want to talk to you he could have just taken your number and not called.
from bigmonayho :
I personally have a 3 days in the evening after 7 rule. Don't wait longer than 5 days though.
from furiouspuppy :
Hahaha! I had the same prof as you! Soooo, how are ya liking the female Albatross? (like the clever code name?)
from anita-girl :
Oh my Gosh! That is crazy!!!!! Just the thing to happen when you are writing an exam, no other time in life will it happen!!!! Glad to hear that she was so understanding!
from teachin-usa :
hi grandbeach. thanks for your notes, and a belated happy birthday to you! about sex ed- no there is nothing up top grade five that i know of. and every year one of my 4th graders gets her period and has no idea what is happening to her. i am a little nervous about showing that video (gulp) although i know it was the right thing to do (it was NOVA for gods sake!), but this community can be pretty backward--so we'll just see what happens this week.
from adorabilly :
You know. I found your diary because you like mine. and I find that as I read it, i can relate. BTW. Happy Birthday. P.s you can complain to the dean, but if it is like an american school, the dean will usually agree with taht B.S. and tell you the same thing. Too many college professors hate their own cultures, societies, and even countries. Complain to the dean, and I hope it actually works out. Been there, done that, and got the tatoo and scar.
from lilmisskewl :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Hope you had a blast! And very well put in your racial entry.
from anita-girl :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! I HOPE THIS YEAR IS GREAT FOR YOU! That sucks abotu what happened at school. And I am so tried abotu hearing about rasicsm when many people do the EXACT same thing to white people and get away with it and if we did it to them WATCH out! When my parents came ot this country they saw how things were and adapted, now when people come they expect us to adapt to them and when we caryr on with our customs we are seen as rasist, or not accepting. I am tired of people htinking that since they are a certain color they have suffered so much when it was more than GENERATIONS ago that the suffering took place. Everyone who works for somehting deserves it, I don't have more becasue I am white. In fact it's harder sometimes since I have a harder time getitng a job when they are only accpeting certain races of people. I totally think that you should say somehting to the Dean.
from beezy :
I totally agree that racism is a two way street. I'd complain!
from beezy :
Happy birthday!
from beezy :
I just wanted to take a moment to thank you for all the notes you've left me whenever I needed someone to hear and care. I'm sorry I haven't done the same! I'm a horrible note writer/gbook message leaver/email writer and I've got to break that habit. Starting now. :)
from lilmisskewl :
The font colour is much better now - I can read it without highlighting it now! Yay you! :)
from lilmisskewl :
Awh, I hate to hear you so sad. You are usually so bubbly and seem so strong. I don't know what happened last year and I know I may not be the person, but if you just want an ear - I'd love to listen. If there's anything I can do to help you through this depression, just let me know. Hugs to ya.
from bigmonayho :
Don't ever feel as if you're not good enough for someone!!! If he makes you feel that way, then he is not the person for you.
from bigmonayho :
Hang in there! Have you eevr told K how you feel?
from lilmisskewl :
1. YAY! She's outta the picture - now are you going to go for it?!? 2. Where do I find "practically glowing"? 3. Nice layout... little hard to read the black on blue though - but maybe that's just cuz my eyes aren't so good. Also, call me old and out-of-it, but who are the girls in the pic?
from anita-girl :
Hey! Is sounds like you have what I had at the begining of the month. For me it started as a cold, then becasue of my sinus problems it went into there. My head killed, my nose wouldn't stop, and my ears hurt...everythign hurt. By the end I was sooo sick of being at home. Nothing got rid of it for me but some medicine, have you seen a doctor yet? The nose hting relaly sucks eh? Feels like a tap? It's the worse at night when your trying to sleep!!!!! I hope you feel better soon, being sick sucks!
from lilmisskewl :
i hope u get that apology - and also hope you don't always get accused first! :)
from furiouspuppy :
That is soo freaky! We've all been talking about that incident since it hit the papers...
from bigmonayho :
Wow, that's really awful that they went to all that trouble for such little money. It really makes you wonder about people.
from furiouspuppy :
Yay! Got the criminal record check...have to wait 10 days now, though. Sounds like Manitoba is taking after Ontario legislation...
from lilmisskewl :
Hi. I'm not sure who K is and the situation or relationship between you and him, but I wonder what it means by you not wanting to be 'good friends' but just friends. I think any friend should be good, by any definition and should be there for each other through good and bad and to listen and give advice on things whether trivial or life changing. Again, that's just my opinion and I don't know the situation - but when you asked "Reasonable?" I wanted to give you my answer, and I am sorry - but I don't think so. Unless there is more to it that I don't know - which there probably is... Ah.. whatta I know?!? :-) Just babbling again I guess.
from feesticka :
hey -- if your loan doesn't go through, have you talked to the Finacial Aid and Awards Office about getting an emergency loan from them? Its a little known program that they don't advertise, and im not sure what the criteria are to get approved for one, but you might want to check into it. My friend got one while we were at the UofM.
from teachin-usa :
I'm on a weird sleep schedule too- up all night. Again-the naps! Beware of the naps! Naps will turn us into nocturnal beastesses!
from krazieespy :
Happy 2005.. Hope you have a great year... :)
from teachin-usa :
hi! i had a great time in canada! i wanted to wish you a happy new year and give a word of advice- go for it with the guy, but GO SLOW- then you can figure out if it is working or not and not break any hearts (his or yours). adios!
from furiouspuppy :
Hey, thanks for the shout-out! Merry Boxing Day shopping, ya cleaned up! :)
from krazieespy :
Merry Christmas too hun.. Thanks for the note :)
from omnipre5ence :
=) Hi.
from feesticka :
Merry Chirstmas, girl! Congrats on being done your exams. Wishing you all the best for 2005.
from bigmonayho :
I hope you have a great Christmas! Thanks again for your support!
from lilmisskewl :
I suppose I should stop whining about how I get it all done in a day... girl, how DO you do it? School AND three jobs?!? You amaze me! I guess I had two full time jobs when I was about your age - but I couldn't do what your doing now, and you still seem to find time to play. Impressive!
from teachin-usa :
uh--let me clarify: like 55% black and 45% everything else. That makes 100%. Yup.
from teachin-usa :
Hi! Thanks for the note and the good wishes. You are right about Victoria not being all white- I guess its just soo white compared to Chicago where I live that is like 55% percent black and really multicultural- the remaining 35%. It will be a cultural adjustment! But your note reminded me that YES there are opportunities for ESL. People in Victoria are soo polite, last summer when I visited, I worried they may just kick me off the island for my loud brusque Big City ways. :-) Adios!
from lilmisskewl :
Am I the only one curious about what the hypocritical statements were/are? Hope you're not afraid of offending someone, it is YOUR diary, afterall! If the person you're speaking of reads your diary, they might want to know what annoyed you - I would... even if it hurts a bit... or even so they could try and explain themselves... but then again... what do I know?!? :)
from lilmisskewl :
All this talk about how to do your hair, and I try to picture it... it's funny - because of your pic on your site - I always think you must look just like Avril! What's weirder - when I hear the song "Nobody's Home" (I think that's what it's called) I think of you!
from feesticka :
Congrats on being so diligent with your studies. It will pay off! Good luck with your exams.
from grngrl75 :
Thanks so much for your comment. I'm going to counseling and have been diagnosed with depression and I think I have a bit of anxiety too. It's all something to think about though. Thanks so much for your comments:)
from grngrl75 :
Good luck on your presentation!
from bigmonayho :
No kidding huh? :P Good luck with your new jobs!
from lilmisskewl :
What a sweet gesture to help your bro out like that. Not many sisters out there like you... hope he appreciates!
from bigmonayho :
Girls can be huge bitches, especially when they're wearing 4 inch spike heels. Oh well. Getting your foot stepped on sucks either way :P
from furiouspuppy :
Yeah; it can be fucking impossible to meet girls. They are such haters! It's probably because you're better looking than they are. Bitches.
from lilmisskewl :
Hey there. Imitation is the finest form of flattery - so I hope you don't find it strange that I love the way your page looks and I have been spending hours trying to make my background with Jewel on it, and I can't figure it out. Can you give me some pointers? Or do you pay for your page, cuz I don't - maybe that's why... Thanks for your help... let me know at [email protected]
from lilmisskewl :
Nah, I wouldn't call... if you really want my opinion (well, even if you don't - here it is :P) he sounds like he is playing games with you. Either that or he is pretty inconsiderate. How old is he? Maybe not mature enough to realize it is just common courtesy to call when you say you'll call. If you like a girl - show it - CALL DAMMIT! So when's this 'date'? After that, lay down the law, girl, you deserve to be treated better. We should be doted on... if he doesn't, then move on, there ARE men out there that will treat you with more respect. Trust me, it took me long enough to find out, but it was so worth the wait and I am so glad I didn't settle for someone who didn't pay me the attention I craved and am worthy of. But then again, what do I know?!? Good luck, either way! :)
from krazieespy :
No dont call.. Play hard to get.. I think.. Give it a day... then call him... But who knows.. Im not very good at this stuff.. Just sounds good.. playing hard to get :)
from lilmisskewl :
I'm so cool? Thanx! But how come?
from lilmisskewl :
Hello. I wanted to thank you for the couple of notes you sent me. Even though I don't know you, it felt like it came from a friend. Take care.
from bigmonayho :
Thanks, I really appreciate that! Good luck on your test!
from krazieespy :
I am the exact same way with guys.. When they call im not interested, but if THEY DONT call, I want them even more.. Us Crazy Women :)
from krazieespy :
I totally forgot canada's thanksgiving is today? right? That is so crazy... Happy Thanksgiving anyways.. :)
from feesticka :
Ahhh.... the good ole' Dafoe. It was the bane of my existance for four years too. I LOVE on how on the second floor their "alphabetical" system doen't seem to follow any order whatsoever. Fucker. Heheh. Anyway, good luck with all your work.
from laura-diane :
*hug* thank you!
from krazieespy :
thanks for the new profile comment :)
from bigmonayho :
Look at it this way: It's better than having a penis.
from beezy :
Hey, whatever happened with you and that dude!?
from bigmonayho :
Good luck with everything!! Just remember, making the first move isn't that bad. I find it's actually easier than waiting for a guy. And seriously, if you think about it, what reason would he have to turn you down (he'd be an idiot)?
from cdghost :
stumbled across your words and enjoyed them very much.. have a good one and two..the cdghost
from feesticka :
Thanks for the note -- and have a great time at summerfest!
from bigmonayho :
Get better soon!!!
from bigmonayho :
I know what you mean about the friends and partying thing. It's almost July (2 months into the summer) and I haven't even been to the bar yet!!! Geez, isn't that what summer's supposed to be about?
from beezy :
Actually bad news... I think you can only cheat if you use a weblog diary. So you should switch! Hehehe.
from beezy :
You described Jeff! Stay away! :| hehehe... obviously I agree with everything you say. Ahh... boys... aren't they fun? And stupid. Can't forget stupid. *sigh*
from cuntracula :
hey, thanks for the note. i didn't say people couldn't write whatever they want to write, i just think some of these people need to quit bitching, get off the computer and get a hobby. updating these things every hour is pretty sad. anyways, i'm aware some of them are 14, but the ones i meant specifically are 18. it's definitely time for them to grow up.
from beezy :
Thanks for the note... I like it when people read my journal! :) As for my whole little romantic fiasco, I think I will follow my heart. That is if he ever calls me. Eep. Never thought of that. Um so let's just hope he calls first huh?
from laura-diane :
un: diaryland pw: password -- thanks for asking, hun. keep writing.
from anita-girl :
Hey! My husband had that laser eye surgery in Winninpeg a few years ago, his sis-in-law worked there and her hus got it for free and once Chad saw how good it was he decided that do it too. He paid half becasue of her and hasn't had any problems and has better sight than me!!!! So I totally recommend it to you, althogh I may wait until after your done shool when you are making soi much money you don't know what to do with it!!
from anita-girl :
Hey thanks for the note! I got my bra at Diva, and the one from my wedding from Ce Soir. Today I explained to Chad why I couldn't go into La Senza and other kinds of bra stores with cheaper bra's, simply they don't carry my size. He said oh I didn't knwo that. I am going to try to buy some while I am in Europe, but also my friends told me to buy from this UK site www.figleaves.com (go to the UK edition, it's actually chepaer) even with the exchange it's still so much cheaper than buying the same bra here and it has free shipping. That relaly sucks about your friend tellign you that she doesn't want you to talk to a guy who doens't like her but likes you who she likes. It's really immature, grow up already. We aren't in high school anymore! Hopefully you will be able ot see that guy when she isn't around, so that she doesn't ruin things for you!
from viperj :
do you have msn? If you have email it to me at [email protected] id rather talk to you on there!
from viperj :
hey, im just saying hey. I'm just finding people in Winnipeg to read about. Your diary seems totally rad, so i hope to keep in contact. Ill add you to my buddy list, take it easy!
from miss-paris :
Thanks for your note! I hope you fell better now after that food posioning. Yeah, I don't like dealing with cranky old people either-they act rude and make your job harder than it has it be. Geez, you'd think they'd have heard of the magic word "patience" or something.
from krazieespy :
I hope your eye infection gets better
from anita-girl :
Thank you so much for your note I really needed to hear that. It made me feel better. I did email someone at the mods (manitoba organized disk sports) telling them the situation if it is allowed and maybe it shouldn't be. So I just have to wait to see what they say. I can't believe there so stupid over a recreational sport!
from hoppus182 :
man thanks for caring. he was a good duck. the best in fact.
from jcesar :
weak again, I have to go to sleep, maybe mste
from miss-paris :
That happened to me yesterday! I was so overtired I feel asleep and then when I had to go to bed...I couldn't. Weird isn't it?
from feesticka :
Your dogs are adorable!
from bigmonayho :
Yeah, it is funny. Next time just come say hi.
from bigmonayho :
I was at TYC tonight too. We probably saw eachother and didn't even know it.
from anita-girl :
Hey! Just thought I would add another note, I also use the same products as Feesticka, altough I do use the toner too (30) in between. The Bay has bonus right now, and it has half the size of the wash in it so your oculd get the moisturizer and get the gift and try the wash too!! I love Lancome so much!
from feesticka :
I have to agree with anita-girl; department store cleaners and moisturizers are worth the investment. My acne cleared up when I started using Lancome's "Gel Clarte" cleanser ($30), and their Vinefit moisturizer ($50 -- but it lasts six months). Go to the Bay, Sears or Shoppers and ask for some samples or a consultation. It's worth it!
from anita-girl :
Hey! Through all my reading of different magazines about everything, I have learned that washing your face twice a day is perfect, three times is a bit too much, unless it's not done often. Sometimes it helps to change your face wash when u notice that your breakign out more. Since you have sensitive skin both Biotherm and Estee Lauder make excellent face washes for your type of skin. Another question could be your moisteruizer, with the weather change is it too heavy, that could also be clogging your pores. And wash your makeup brushes becasue often you forget too and they can carry a lot of dirt in them (appararntly your supposed to do that once a week!) And the stress from your exams have also helped with making your breakout more! Hope this helps!
from laura-diane :
your boss probably hires guys that aren't attractive so he'll feel better about himself. but he hires good looking girls because he wants to surround himself in them -- who wouldn't? what a weirdo, though. tell him you want some good looking ass to stare at and his isn't doing it for you.
from laura-diane :
hey - thanks for adding me.
from austinliz :
We think Charlie is part cocker/part golden retreiever. He's my little boy! :)
from bigmonayho :
Thanks! :)
from feesticka :
Good luck with your exams!
from krazieespy :
I know guys are a hassle. They confuse me. but then again I sometimes confuse myself :|
from feesticka :
Blah -- I hate losing an hour to daylight savings time too! I wish you the best of luck trying to stay awake at work today. :-)
from miss-paris :
Thanks for your note. Some customer pissed my boyfriend off and he lost his temper, but I'm sure he'll find a new job. Oh and from the looks of it, I'd day you're having a b-day, so in that case, happy birthday!
from incinerated :
Happy (early) birthday.
from bigmonayho :
Happy Birthday!
from incinerated :
Just go with the flow. If he's smart enough he'll recognize the great catch that is right under his nose and if not, well, then perhaps he's not the kind of guy you want to be with anyway. Those boys and their bands though, they're nothing but trouble. Always have been, always will be ;)
from bigmonayho :
When you stop looking, that's when they find you.
from bigmonayho :
Don't push anything. I know this is going to sound cheesey, but if it's meant to work out, it just will.
from laura-diane :
thanks for your advice.
from incinerated :
I like you. You've given me something refreshingly new to read.
from miss-paris :
I think it's cool you write about your dogs-not lame at all! So cute that one was born on April Fool's day too!
from miss-paris :
Thanks, I'm just glad someone likes my whiney little diary! By the way, if you were going to purchase an account, which membership would you say is the best deal? Just trying to get a 2ed opinion....
from bigmonayho :
Sleeplessness sucks eh? I have been to the doctor, and I had sleeping pills for awhile, but they didn't have much effect. Plus, I'm scared of getting addicted to them.
from just-jaded :
If you were one of the seven dwarfs, they'd have to call you sexy!!
from miss-paris :
Thanks for adding my diary as a favorite! I can sympathize with not being able to shop-it really does suck, esp. when you need new clothes but you have bills that need to be paid off or else...blah. Sucko-ville.
from bigmonayho :
I liked your frustrated entry. I totally know what you mean about just wanting to tell people what you really think about them!!! (It really gets you in trouble when you do though)
from feesticka :
Thanks for adding me as a favorite. Hope all goes well with your tutoring sessions.
from furiouspuppy :
Dude; Go to Australia. It's so worth it.
from bigmonayho :
Hey, don't be afraid to write whatever you want! I was just trying to give you some advise, because I'd been through a similar situation with a guy.
from xforget-mex :
dude. i live in winnipeg too. lol.
from allempty08 :
hello... i read you diary and i just want to let u kno that u can write whatever the hell u want in your diary. its your diary and you have the freedom of speech! take advantage of it! all u have to do is back up a diss with a compliment. well i hope after u read this u will actually do write wat your feeling cuz wat you are doing now is lieing (practicly)
from bigmonayho :
Going back will only make it hurt more.

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