messages to ionme:
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from sexyatheist :
yeah, so totally diaryland stalking you and saw that you said hello to a few people. how the hell are you doing? i've often wondered how you are. it's been years!
from daath :
Hey!! I haven't checked my notes and whatnot for ages. I'm doing pretty well. Still getting my degree, enjoying spending time with my girlfriend and working on writing projects. How about you?
from daath :
Hey J, I'd imagine you've long since moved on with your life, but I'd figure I'd try. I should PM Brian on MySpace, maybe. Anyway, I still occasionally update my journal. I hope life turned out better for you.
from some1swife :
Nina in Ky. again. My email address is HS42091@aol.com. If you don't mind sending me the password info again, I'd love to get caught up! Thanks.
from imperfectlyy :
Hey there! I used to be the designer of Render. I googled my screen name (trying to delete all of the bad things off of the internet to keep family and co-workers from stumbling on something they shouldn't see.) I found you in my list of google results because you once left someone a comment. You gave them a link to one of my old templates and said it made you think of her. Weeeeell that link has my screen name in it and like I said, I'm trying to degoogleize myself of most everything I can. This is where you come in! All you have to do is simply delete that comment and we'll be good to go! I have a cached page for you so you can see exactly what I'm talking about, your comment is about at the bottom of the page. If you would please just leave me a note back with either your email or a place where I can contact you, like a website or something, I'll send you the link so you can see. (Dland won't post the whole link so it'll end up broken). My email is kristingirlygurl@yahoo.com so you can email me there instead, if you'd like, and I'll reply with that link. I really appreciate all of your help! Thanks!
from some1swife :
Hi J, I used to read you all the time and miss it! Can I have the new username and password? Thanks, Nina in Ky.
from alure :
heya! thanks for the compliment :D and yea, that is my naked wednesday site...havent updated in FOREVER because my camera's cord is at the ex's place...soon though it'll be up and running again! how are things with you these days? xoxo
from neangel :
hey J! it's great to see you updating again! sorry to hear about dickhead. you really are better off. miss you baby! email me sometime at ob1angel@yahoo.com
from classygirl83 :
Hey Can I get your passwrod? Thanks!
from alure :
hi ionme, can i have your password?? ellure@gmail.com
from abittergirl :
Oh shit, Ionme. I'm going to send you an email.
from daath :
Hey you. The SN for AIM is Direhaggis.
from abittergirl :
scratch that. Can you send it to bellenuit7@hotmail.com? I can't remember the damn password for the other one. :(
from abittergirl :
Hi Ionme. Can I have your new password? I have the old one, too. :( abittergirl@hotmail.com. Thanks.
from salazabr :
You will NEVER be that person! You are not even CAPABLE of being that person and even if you were I would never let it happen.
from spacemuppet :
I'll join the throngs with your outdated username and password... XXXX-XXX doesn't seem to work anymore. Can you send the new stuff to senator_larry@hotmail.com? Thanks, J.
from daath :
Hrm, I think the username and PW I've got are also outdated. I miss my archived doses of sexiness. Could you send 'em to Daath4242@yahoo.com? You ever on AIM anymore, by the way?
from sweetnettle :
Hey, I had your old password "XXXX XXX" but it's not working anymore. May I have the new one? email me at nursing_year_one@yahoo.com A
from lyssbobiss :
Hey, did you change your password? I want to read what you wrote, please! :) Can you email it to me at lyss_bradley@hotmail.com? Thank you!
from bigmonayho :
You changed your password? If so just e-mail it to bigmonayho@yahoo.ca if you want to. Hope all is well.
from daath :
We're here for you, most def. It sucks that Josh largely turned out to be and remains immature. A lot of younger guys are like that (or selfish bastards like me), but the degree of BS sounds particularly high here. Just think: eventually you won't be with him anymore. I guess it's a question of time and when it feels right to unstuck yourself. I can't speak to the STD from experience, but when there's something pretty damn special in the equation, I'd think it wouldn't make a difference--especially if conventional protection would be fine. My best wishes to ya.
from sexyatheist :
ah sweetie. i wish there was more support i could provide so that you felt like you could get out of this. it's tough when you're in a situation where you feel alone and so you put up with something that you know isn't the best for you. in the past you've talked about moving away and being closer to friends. is there still any possibility of this? it would give you a change of scene, keep you closer to friends and get you away from a bad relationship. and as for the STD, a lot of people are able to be in relationships after contacting an STD. i know numerous of them. it's tough at first, but it's doable. we're here if you keep writing!
from kittysays :
heyI lost my password....could you resend? kittysays@hotmail.com hope all is well thanks
from daath :
Just thought about you right now. How're things in life? Stuff with Josh going alright (or at least ok), I hope?
from daath :
'course :) How's the hog ridin' going?
from daath :
I found this article that seems germane to your current job sitch--or at least may give perspective on it: http://finance.yahoo.com/columnist/article/millionaire/8551
from daath :
Miss ya :)
from spacemuppet :
Much missed your writing, J... it's been awhile. Unfortunately, you're all locked up now. Feel like tossing some of that access/password action my way? -Spacemuppet
from i-read-you :
gonna wait till graduation/move/new job before you ditch the boy? BTW, good to see you update at least once since january. Whatever you do, good luck! :)
from velvet-heart :
Let me in....please???
from some1swife :
OMG, I'm so glad you FINALLY updated! LOL. I was starting to wonder if you were still alive.. or if you started another blog/diary/journal somewhere else. I started to not check since every time I checked, I still saw the last entry.. but then I decided, what the heck, maybe, MAYBE, she updated. LOL. Glad you're still alive and glad you're back. :) Nina in Ky.
from daath :
Good to hear from you sweetheart [hugs] It sucks that your work cracked down like it did. But I take what I can get. Besides the usual curious mix of happiness and annoyance with research/grad school, I've been meeting more non-grad people around here lately. That's been good. So I'd say all is pretty good. Hope things improve for you. I miss you too! I wish I had the time to visit.
from lyssbobiss :
Hi! I missed you! Glad you're still alive. Not glad that you're unhappy. :( I know you don't want to talk about the whole relationship - I do think if it is something you want to pursue, it seems like it's a good idea to go to counseling or something to iron out what the problems are. That may sound bad, but everyone has snags in their life - why not try to work out a way to be together (if that's what you really want)? Love you!
from abittergirl :
Glad to hear you update, although not glad that you're so unhappy right now. It sounds like you really need to reevaluate everything right now and take the big steps to get yourself in the direction you want to be. It can be scary, but you're brave. Go for it.
from sduckie :
I'm sure you'll get to where you want to be... everybody has down times once in awhile! I am wondering what's going on with Josh! Be nice to yourself!
from daath :
The circumstances suck. You still rock. With a new job and/or a new place to live (especially if closer to friends that've moved away), things would hopefully gravitate to being more fun. And--so far as I remember--you've been gainfully employed through all or most of doing your Associate's. It's not easy finishing a degree if you aren't a full-time student. So hopefully there is less drooptastic ballsness in your future.
from azelya :
An entry! Yay! I don't really think they recorded us. Who knows though, maybe they have a corny porn website with all the videos of the horny people who go in their restrooms. Hehe! Sorry things feel so stagnant for you. I look forward to seeing how it all progresses. And hey, even if it did take you 8 years, at least when you're done you can move on to something different.
from azelya :
Hi J, you haven't updated in a long time, but I still think about you and hope you're okay. If you're ever in LA again, let me know!
from chickpea981 :
it's good to have you back. You'll never believe this... I was dirving around one day (had my camera with me) and saw a license plate that said "ionme" and I have to email it to you. email me: chickpea981@yahoo.com
from thegoodbiboy :
Yup, hard here!
from neangel :
Ahhhahah!! i've missed those entries!! well in more way then one i suppose ;-) glad to see you update again woman! i need to email you soon. xoxox
from daath :
Miss ya, butterfly.
from i-read-you :
what's the answer to the question "Are you happy?" good luck!
from bigmonayho :
I hope you'd let me read if you re-changed the password. Glad to hear you updated! I missed hearing from you.
from neangel :
so glad to see you updated. i've been horrible about emailing but i miss our emails!! Suisse is exactly the same way about doing everything he wants. especially when it comes to going somewhere with me and stuff that i enjoy... sarah mclachlan was one if not the only exception. well when I go out to visit he has been good about going with me to cheers but that was only because it was part of the time we had together and i had no other mode of transportation.... i'll try my best to email you later. xoxo
from daath :
Good to hear he's weaning himself from her. He definetely needs to take his foot off the selfishness pedal a little re: doing stuff you want to do, but at least it's better than it used to be. Miss talking to ya. Best wishes.
from sduckie :
sounds like a rough year... well hope you will let me know if you change your password... sittingyellowduck@yahoo.com
from thegoodbiboy :
Glad you're still around! Don't worry about that feeling you have where things are reversed, everyone goes through it. If it's meant to be, you'll know. You guys should try going away alone, without his parents. It seems you're always with them. Tell him to cut the cord!
from sduckie :
welcome back... i hope it wasn't something too bad that happened. i really hope josh is treating you better!
from i-read-you :
welcome back! write whatever you want, whenever you want, and show it only to whomever you want. wouldn't it me nice if insetad of just pursuing happiness, we actually were able to catch it once in a while?
from abittergirl :
Ionme; I'm glad that you updated...was worried with such a long time between updates that Josh had you barefoot and pregnant or something. Sounds like he's being better, but I know how hard it is to be comfortable after being betrayed. Remember; this is your diary, and you don't have to share anything you don't want to with anyone you don't want to. And you don't have to apologize to us for it, either. You can always lock certain entries to do with the event you want to discuss..
from lyssbobiss :
I'm glad you're still around! Quick question - aren't you already locked? Are you locking with a different password?
from neangel :
glad to see you update again! call me! i am at home all week long with nothing to do!! help! plus we need to catch up.
from alure :
i'm glad things are going better with you and josh. and 26! thats young! you dont have to settle down if you dont feel like he is truly worthy of your amazingness! you really deserve the best, remember that! xoxo
from i-read-you :
waiting for the next chapter . . . wondering where the happy ending is (and _what_ it is!)
from alure :
awww, honey. i'm sorry you have to go through this. just remember that you deserve someone who does not lie to you and who does whatever he can to make you happy. make sure you are happy. you are too good a person to have to deal with shit like this. xoxo
from daath :
I'm amazed the guy either has so little willpower that he consistently keeps giving in to her being lonely/whining/etc., or that he has the balls to promise things and then break those promises. I guess he doesn't try to weasel his way out of them or lie or some other silly shit. Instead of repeating the usual about how you kick ass (which you still do, obviously), maybe getting him some help might work. I'm not saying he has a mental disorder, but if he genuinely wants to modify his behavior and be with you, he's gotta change some mental or emotional processes that he keeps going back to--ones which keep hurting the fuck out of you. In any case, I hope things've gotten better/stable since several weeks ago. Best wishes.
from candoor :
I used to read you... I lose passwords too easily... but happy birthday and every day :)
from alure :
happy birthday!!! i hope you are doing ok. xoxo
from neangel :
Happy bday baby!! call me when you get home!! we so need to talk!!
from i-read-you :
happy birthday! treat yourself to new locks on the apartment AND window locks too. Hope your luck improves soon, as your mom's did after her scare! :)
from phangasm :
Wow, so sorry to hear about your mom.
from lyssbobiss :
Wow...I really wish I had known about all of this, so I could be here for you more! I totally understand not having the time or energy to update after dealing with all of this, though. But thanks for letting us all know. You're in my thoughts, darling.
from sexyatheist :
a month and a half seems like more than enough time to leave us waiting with bated breath, don't you think you tasty morsel you?
from alure :
hi! just wanted to leave a note telling you i was thinking about you! i hope you are doing okay! xoxo
from lyssbobiss :
I miss you! Please let us know you're okay. :) I hope you're doing well. Love you!
from xxlove :
hey i haven't read you in a while, it looks like i have missed some pretty interesting stuff ! I would love to find out but you're locked!!? email me: xxlove@diaryland.com
from bigmonayho :
It's good to hear from you!
from i-read-you :
you got it bad, girl -- and you know it. what's the next chapter?
from neangel :
AMEN!
from abittergirl :
thanks for updating...I was wondering what the hell happened to you! I'm sorry to hear that the situation with him hasn't changed, though.
from daath :
[hugs] I muchly appreciate that, thank you. I'm healing up well and I should be fine in a few days.
from barbiewoman :
DUDE MAN! You've left me (us) hanging for like over a month. You KNOW you have alot to tell. So spill it already! Hope all is well with you. My life couldn't be better!
from daath :
Feeling is mutual, sweetie [hugs] I hope you and GE enjoy the kick-ass sushi and other assorted fun bits. Wish I could join you two.
from daath :
Hey you :) I hope the drama has gone down to some minor swelling and that things are more sane in your life. Best wishes and warm thoughts.
from lilfoxyvixen :
So many points to this entry... 1)yes you deserve better 2)Yes, this relationship is very fucked up and dysfunctional 3)you deserve better 4)I miss boobies too 5)I get pissed and turned on by your entries.... Gee, I think that covers it all....
from neangel :
*sigh* I miss anal, sex & boobies...
from bigmonayho :
I'll say it once, and I'll say it again. You deserve better!
from thegoodbiboy :
This is the craziest relationship I've heard yet. Honestly, I don't think he'll ever leave her. Maybe physically, but not mentally. This is just my opinion, but I think she'll always be there, in the back of his mind.
from abittergirl :
sure, ionme...it's bellenuit7@hotmail.com
from thegoodbiboy :
That was a really good entry. I mean, a lot of it wasn't good for you, but it was interesting. And 25 is about the age when all that clubbing and other BS gets old. Doesn't mean you have to stop going out, it just means you have to change where you go. Find a good local bar and you'll be much happier with going out. Clubs suck. Bars rule. Good luck with everything.
from abittergirl :
The details about my experience I covered in my diary.... here are some links to the pages, or just read November. :( I hope it turns out better for you! http://abittergirl.diaryland.com/041111_80.html and http://abittergirl.diaryland.com/041116_7.html and http://abittergirl.diaryland.com/041119_68.html
from neangel :
have you thought about the possibility that perhaps he got whatever this thing is from his ex after she had sleazed around to make him jealous? don't always think that its you darlin cause you've been safe and always get tested. he is the uninformed naive one after all. i don't want to you think that he did sleep with her but it is something to think about. men are weak. and his ex is desperate. you're too beautiful darlin! i feel like an old maid as well. what is it about age 25?
from abittergirl :
take it from someone who found out the hard way... even using protection doesn't assure you of not catching anything.
from barbiewoman :
I had to lock up so e-mail me at barbiegirl4201@yahoo.com to get the password
from thegoodbiboy :
This is just an ex-GF, right? Geez, he needs to grow some balls. I'm not gonna feed you all the standard d-land BS of "you're better then him" or "he doesn't deserve you" and blah, blah, blah. It seemed like you really liked him, and besides the ex hanging around, had no real complaints. You have to decide if he's worth the trouble, worth the aggrevation. If he's not, then move on. If he's worth fighting for, then fight for him. The choice is yours. If it was me, I'd tell him it's her or me, you can't have your cake and eat it to. If he can't decide, that's when you make the decision for him. You either fight for him (if you decide he's worth all the aggrevation and the tears) or dump him forever. To me, there is no inbetween.
from daath :
"he didnít know how else to do it since he still likes seeing her". Regardless of whether that's his only friend, this is a no-brainer situation. Does he prefer a friendship with an ex he "likes" seeing, or a stable relationship with you? You're justifiably paranoid, I think. From that phone message, it's pretty obvious she's either biding her time to make a move or wants to fuck things up between you two since her old role of quasi long-term g/f is gone. It'd be one thing if she were purely platonic, purely just wanted his friendship and understood having to make concessions to keep that--but that just ain't the case, so the bitch needs her some walking boots. Since he's on the fence, though, I'd say walking away is best. Like you said before you got with him, he's immature. Not all of us guys are indecisively deceptive wang wonglers, however. GE can back my ass up on this point.
from i-read-you :
tough to break up when you have to see him at work every day. best of luck.
from lyssbobiss :
I think you are definitely doing the right thing (surprise!). I used to think that you could stay friends with your exes after you break up, but I think if you have slept with them, there is just too much personal history between the two of you to maintain a totally platonic relationship. You're totally justified in not wanting him to see her. There is so much history between the two of them that it puts too much pressure on you to be everything that she was in 6 years, you know? You are going to be fine. Remember, you are so much better than that.
from bigmonayho :
Hang in there hun! Know that you deserve to be treated with respect, and you deserve better than a man (or should I say boy) that appears to have absolutely no balls. Don't worry, there are people that can be trusted out there. I'm always here if you need to talk!
from neangel :
honestly I understand where you are coming from completely. if he wants to maintain any sort or friendship with this woman he has to let her know that he will not tolerate her calling you a bitch & disrespecting a woman she does not even know as well he should invite you along with anything they do out of respect for your relationship. Men tend to think that just 'not telling us' is not lying but it is - lying by omission. they are purposely not telling us what we ask about and need to know. he needs to understand that women take that types of 'omissions' as lies & there is no two ways about it. i don't know what to tell you about everything else. it seems very rocky but any relationship is hard work once the 'honeymoon' phase is over. it's the people that actually put in the hard work who reap the rewards at the end. *give me a call anytime girlie, i am here for ya*
from alure :
i'm sorry you have to go through all this shit. you stick to what you believe. dont take him back if you cant trust him because thats no way to live your life. you deserve someone who will tell the truth always. good luck honey *kiss*
from thegoodbiboy :
You're welcome! You just blew your cover....or did I???? Have a great weekend.
from thegoodbiboy :
He'll get over it. It might take a long time, and you might get pissed at times, but if it's worth it to stick it out, then that's what ya' gotta do.
from thegoodbiboy :
I don't get it. Unless, he feels like I did with my ex (and still sorta do)....guilty. If that's what it is about, I can understand it. But, he needs to get over it. Hopefully, he will.
from thegoodbiboy :
Maybe he needs to find a few guy friends!!!! It would still make me feel uneasy. You can be friends with an ex, good friends, too. I've seen it. I wouldn't trust her yet, though. Wear your crown with pride, also, with nothing else on!!
from lyssbobiss :
You know, I truly don't think that your expectations are too high at all. I think that there is someone out there who can make your blood rush and your heart race. I also think that you could have a nice life in C-town with Josh, but you might feel like you're settling. You seem to have too much fervor, too much spunk to "settle down" with anyone in Ohio, at least not yet.
from neangel :
The checkbook analogy is hilarious!! But if you are seriously considering it why don't you two have a long sit down about what the possibilities would be: Like the house. If he wants to start a 'life' with you there then your arguement would be for you two to make it more 'us' then his grandma. Now I wouldn't say it like that persay but make it more about a new house [decore] would signify a new life started and it would make it feel more as if it were both of your homes rather then his and you are just living there acting as a housewife. It sounds to me as I continue to read your entry that perhaps you really are ready to move in, maybe not this month or next but maybe it's about time in your life to move forward like this. I understand about the feelings of remorse & shame for the things done before. I went through that same phase between 17-19[ish] and I slept around quite a bit. The reason I did it was because at that point in my life I had absolutely NO self esteem [which looking back I looked the best I ever have looked] and needed any sort of attention, physical affection where I could get it. I don't regret it though as I've learned so much through those hard times and they all have made me who I am today [I heart me today]. Well that is enough of my 'wisdom' for the day... And on the Nicole issue: she said in an interview that it was the combination of quitting drinking, smoking & not partying like she used to. *kisses*
from neangel :
*gulp* you have sexy message from lizz?? I am so jealous! *giggles* dang it is getting hot in there. I have no girlies sending me provacative messages, well at least since I got rid of that psycho myspace chick [who btw still write shit about me in her myspace blog occasionally, come on girlie get over me!]. But that is more of a good riddance then anything. Suisse would love to have a 3some with another girl but honestly I don't know if I could. I have given him seriously strict rules for if we did but still I'd have to have the girl be a totally hot stranger someone completely random & in a hotel where she would never be able to see us or contact us ever again. I'd get too jealous of him seeing her again or something... So maybe I'll run into that girl in vegas that I hit up in one drunken karaoke bar night. She'd be fun & her little friend [girl] too. Damn that was the best night of my ego [and to think I was around 150+lbs at the time too!].
from thegoodbiboy :
I hear you, but that situation just seems poised for trouble. If he wants to move on, you gotta move on. I liked having pizza and watched re-runs of 'Roseanne' on Friday with my ex, but I still don't do it now. Sometimes you have to stand up for yourself, and at the same time, for this relationship you are in. It's not like you're telling him to stop going out with the guys or whatever. That a guy might get pissy about. But this is different. And I'm still here and reading you, as you are the Queen of D-Land!
from thegoodbiboy :
I'm sorry, I just don't get the whole he has to watch 'Survivor' with his ex thing. That's just odd. Nothing good can come out of it, if you ask me, which ya' didn't. I'm just saying.
from neangel :
It's the same way in a lot of ways with me and Suisse. I get that urge to be with a woman a lot but I have absolutely no desire to have sex with another man. Relationships aren't easy, especially if real love is involved - the people that just give up when times get tough or avoid any type of conflict really are just trying to play it safe for themselves. If it's real, it's always worth the work. Love is not the simplest of our emotions ;)
from bigmonayho :
Hey J. I was so happy to see you writing again! I think that with Josh, it's not fair that he's not 'allowing' you to work out simply because he doesn't want you to get home at 8. If working out makes you happy, and feel good about yourself, don't stop doing it. If he truly loves you, he will understand. I think it's sort of selfish that the only reason he doesn't want you to is because you'll get home late. In life I think first and foremost it is important to make yourself happy.
from daath :
Angel's right: most guys will not be clued into the fact that you are doing all of these things as commensurate sacrifices for you. For me, unless I hear there's a problem or it's incredibly obvious, I largely think things are alright. I try not to get paranoid about what I think might be a problem--otherwise you second guess everything too much. If he doesn't appropriately respond or give you more say after you've mentioned you'd like to do x, y, and/or z, the guy's gotta learn that shit doesn't fly in a committed relationship. Like you said, he's sweet but naive. I think just a little resistance at key times and he might be more malleable. I don't know him, though, just what I think his type is.
from neangel :
Umm unfortunately [most] guys do not see what you are doing as anything they need to do extra for you for. They feel as if you are doing it because you are wanting to & not expecting anything in return. This whole entry reminds me of Suisse. He is selfish & stubborn as well. I yell and then he just shuts down saying he doesn't want to argue about it & shuts up not saying anything more. About giving in... it's much easier to say then do. The only advice I can give for that is to just not answer your phone at all, shut it off if you have to. I always give in, even now but with this moving bullshit I am not going to cave. even though I hate Texas I will not move back to CA for us to start our lives together struggling, not to mention leaving my family again. You do need to have more 'you' time. But like I said especially with him being so close [at work] it will be extrememly tough. I know you're a strong girl, I believe in you sista! Ooh the girl checking out thing... it's the worst part about being bi & having a boyfriend. I usually always notice the girls first but I have learned to try to not point them out or say anything to him about them. Even after over 2 yrs with Suisse [off & on of course] I still get jealous at times even though I know him better then his own mother & he would never cheat or lie to me. I think its our nature being a woman to feel like that at times. The ones we love the most are also the most capable of making us mad/angry. The more you love the more it hurts & the worst it makes you feel. it sucks dick i know. but then again if we didn't care so much it wouldn't affect us as much.
from thegoodbiboy :
I'm not sure how you can say you are mostly happy and then write that entry. Sounds like a lot of work and a lot of drama to deal with. But, it's early in your relationship, so you can iron all this out. I will warn you this: jealousy will eventually ruin a relationship.
from neangel :
i lost GE's email address somehow *scratches her head* but i know he'll get this... "you got a modal wrap made??? how in the world?? you luck b!" =)
from thegoodbiboy :
Yeah, it's not the best taste from a woman! It certainly doesn't beat pussy!!! And thanks for the well wishes! We'll see what happens, I guess.
from thegoodbiboy :
He can still drink soda and have a good time. As for the taste....I guess bitter is a way to desrcibe it. It's like nothing I've tasted before.
from bigmonayho :
Sweetie, you'll never be boring!
from thegoodbiboy :
It's not called boring it's called maturing!!! I know what you are saying though, you can miss the old life. Doesn't mean you guys can't go out and have fun and drink though. Oh, as for the nip squirting, my GF must do the same thing. I've been sucking on those babies and defintely had something squirt out of there. Never heard of it, though...I bet there is a whole fetish out there that we don't even know about! Anyway, continued good luck with your man.
from ponfarr :
So what does a guy have to do to get a password? I'm ponfarr at diaryland.com if you want to email. ;)
from thegoodbiboy :
Glad to see everything is working out. That bathtub rim story was hot; what a visual that is. I'd pay to see that if it was on tape!
from i-read-you :
welcome back. good to see you so happy. :)
from lordpolonius :
Oooh... such a happy update. The previous post sounded so ominous. Sounds like one helluva weekend! (and a helluva lot better than mine)
from neangel :
whoa i'm so jealous but then again i know i will get a helluva lot of loving this weekend! i can't wait until tomorrow!! woowowoowowowo...
from bigmonayho :
I'm glad to hear from you again. I was afraid you went away forever. :p
from neangel :
ooh yeah so glad to hear about having fun in vegas!! whatever happens with him though... i will luv you no matter what so long as your happy! =)
from alure :
hi gorgeous, just checking in to see how you are doing. i hope you had a great time in vegas. xoxo alure
from velvet-heart :
Happy Valentine's Day sweetheart.
from lordpolonius :
Yes... we plan on having a helluva lot of fun in Vegas! Sounds like you will have a couple good chaperones who will keep you in or out of trouble--depending on what you need ;-)
from neangel :
don't ever take him back he's way too weak for you girl! you need someone strong & has something that resembles a spine. i'm still so jealous about vegas but then again if i were to go now i'd jump the gun with suisse. give us some good girl stories i miss reading those! ;)
from chickpea981 :
I've been reading this Josh saga and refraining from comment for a long time. I have held my tongue on it, but now? Fuck that. Get the fuck away from his whiny co-dependant ass and don't look back. Stay away from his soulsucking self. Stop treating yourself liek you deserve this shit. You have had (and still have) a fucked up life but that does NOT mean you are entitiled to continue that cycle. Tell yourself you deserve better. tell yourself that YOU ARE BETTER than all of that. Your family is not you and your past is not your future. Someone will come along and treat you the way you deserve to be treated and you will give him the same and you won't have to try, but for the love of fuck, get the fuck away from Josh and enjoy being single for more than a minute. There, said my piece.
from salazabr :
The homo's really not that bad once you get to know him and how to take him. ;) Besides...it's a small price to pay to spend time with the coolest girl EVER!! ♥
from bigmonayho :
Have a great time in Vegas! You deserve it!
from i-read-you :
sounds like you're well on the way to moving on. hearing all that crap about/from his parents lets you know what kind of family you've escaped! Two more reasons to say "no" if the guy ever comes back to try again! have a great time in Vegas!
from neangel :
i wish i were going with you to vegas! i need a girls weekend out or something. i need a vaca bad! ;) hugs
from abittergirl :
oh, ionme; RUN don't walk away from this guy. He's fucking with you big time, and you don't deserve that. You need to cut him out of your life- this will just go on and on if you don't. :( Have a fabulous time in Vegas. Be naughty and forget all about him.
from salazabr :
Fuck her is she can't handle an independent strong young woman who's also drop dead gorgeous! You can always go shoot at her pic in Vegas, they have ranges with fully auto weapons I hear. ;)
from lordpolonius :
Sounds like you are in a better place, now. His parents do sound a little out of touch... getting married before 25 is the surest way of fucking up your life (as far as I'm concerned). Trix and I are headed to Vegas on Sunday... we'll probably be passing each other in the air... have fun... no... have 'Too' much fun!
from alure :
how are you doing honey? i'm sending you love and happy thoughts...xoxoxo alure
from sexycreature :
Hi, no updates from you makes me worry... how are you doing girl? I'm thinking of you and sending you comfort.
from princesstosh :
I am so bad about leaving notes--sorry in advance for that. I cant really tell you anything that you dont already know (you're better, you deserve more, and he'll be back) Your strength amazes me. I say, taunt him a little and then throw him out in the cold. Let them be miserable together. But, I also know that affairs of the heart are tricky--and he really did a number on yours. Just dont let him break it again---remember shame on him if he fools you once, shame on you if he fools you twice. Good luck & Take care!!
from bigmonayho :
With the way that boy flip-flops with his decisions I can guarantee he will be back for more. I say taunt him, but don't go back for more. Take consolation in the fact that he'll be thinking about you every time he's with her, or the fact that she'll throw your relationship with him in his face every time they fight. Look at this way: They deserve eachother. You, deserve much better, and it is out there.
from neangel :
wow girl so much strength & courage going over there! he is so going to be cheating on her.. i give it two weeks tops! ;)
from i-read-you :
thegoodbiboy and sexycreature are right -- if he comes crawling back, turn your back on him. not only do you deserve better, but you'll only hurt yourself to take any "sloppy seconds" from him.
from thegoodbiboy :
Honestly, I wouldn't try to bang him again. Move on. You're better then that. Respect his relationship with this girl. If he comes crawling back to you for some side action, take it as a victory, tell him to fuck off and leave him standing there like a fool. That's what I would do. Fuck him and forget him. His loss.
from sexycreature :
Hey, I think you should just drop this guy completely. Don't let him fuck you again. He doesn't deserve it. He's been jerking your chain from day one, as far as I can tell. He's toying with your emotions, and whether he means it or not doesn't make a damn bit of difference. It still hurts you, and if he had any sort of consideration for your feelings he would have waited until he was clear in his head before building so many feelings between you two. I know it's hard, but move on. And then, the next time you meet a guy, if there are red flags at all in the beginning don't let it progress. There should be nothing but good times when you first start a relationship, and that hasn't been the case with Josh. March is soon, and hopefully your feelings will have waned by then, but if not I hope to make you forget all of this mess!
from lilfoxyvixen :
damn girlie.. yeah I agree, make him pay by making him want YOU, think of YOU... hehehehe Chin up girl!
from thegoodbiboy :
Paula has some problems. At least with you, you're OK, it's the guys who are nutso!!!
from abittergirl :
i'm sorry. Josh sucks. boys suck. ex-girlfriends suck. i just went through the same thing. you'll find someone better who truly deserves you.
from lyssbobiss :
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I can't imagine how you must be feeling right now. This guy had no idea what he had. At least he will spend the rest of his life kicking himself in the face for being so lame. I love you. Please take care of yourself, and let me know if you need anything.
from bigmonayho :
Do you really want to be with a person who could see something in a woman like that? You deserve so much better than that! Know that you're a strong person and you'll get through this! HUGS!!!!
from fruitncreme :
Aww girl...I'm so sorry to hear all about all that drama with him! Seriously, it sounds like you'd be a million times better off without him...he needs to get some balls! I know you've already heard that tons of times, but it's true! Feel better soon...
from sexycreature :
Hi girl, just wanted to let you know you're in my thoughts, and I hope you feel better soon!
from alure :
aww hun. i'm so sorry. you deserve so much better than what you have been through. i hope you know that you will be happy and you will find someone who is worthy of you. feel better darling, xoxo
from neangel :
i tried to email you the password & stuff but it bounced back as undeliverable... anyways... it's my sn here & then of course ahemhisnamecoughcough dland coughnamecough
from neangel :
Wow I am so sorry to hear about all of that darlin. you are so much better to be without him but i know how difficult it is to go through that emotional teeter tottering. you can do so much better & he's just pathetic for going back to that biotch. trust his life will be miserable for this decision he made... i bet you anything that when you called him from work she was there. i bet he had her come over as soon as he left your house. sounds just like something he would do too being so pathetically jealous & concerned about that biotch. i can't believe he played right into her trap, that's just too too too damn sad... *big hugs & kisses* PS I am going undercover with some private entries cause a girl that i just started to kind of date [last entry] read all about suisse & so now i have to privatize all my suisse thoughts entries to keep them under wraps... i will email you the password etc...
from i-read-you :
love hurts! so does being forsaken for another. you may be better off without his wishy-washiness and all the drama, but it's still a pain to wake up in an empty bed. for what it's worth, ((j)) -- a cyber-hug for you.
from thegoodbiboy :
I'm sorry, that totally sucks. You can always send that pic of him you took to the other girl just to fuck with him. That might put a smile on your face. You'll have no problem meeting another guy, as you know. I don't subscribe to that only one person for everyone crap. It sucks now, but it will get better and at the end of the day, you'll meet a better guy and he'll be miserable in his fucked up relationship.
from barbiewoman :
My Guest book was fucking up so I put this in your notes too-I am so sorry you feel like this J. Love sucks- we've all been thru it. I've even done this to people. And you CAN fall in love with a rebound- I did...for 2 years. He was my rebound and I was his- A totally messed up situation. He cheated on me and I cheated on him (not really cause we were technically broken up) but he broke my heart- he slept with his ex of 5 years along with 2 other whores. I was in love with the idea of BEING in love. After I had enough I stepped back and changed my life- I made new friends and surrounded myself with a different crowd, I have now been single for over a year and I am happy being alone which is what I needed. J...let him make his own mistakes- you're better than that. Its not your fault and has nothing to do with you- It's him- He's right. Seeing as how you are so much better than her- he'll see that eventually and hopefully you'll be moved on from him and on to better things like new friends or a new life or maybe even a new man...and he can sulk and feel like a total jack ass for letting you go. J- I know you've been thru things before so I don't have to tell you it'll get better with time but keep yourself busy hon- Don't think too much or you'll get down on yourself and start blaming yourself. You didn't do anything wrong- You say you should not have slammed the door in his face or said FUCK YOUR SORRY but YOU MEANT IT J! Don't go back on your feelings cause you miss him. That's how he made you feel- He's already put you thru enough of his crap with "taking breaks" and talking to her and what not. He's got issues- not you my dear! Remember that shit too! Your diaryland family loves you! I know you'll be fine- you'll come out that much stronger in the end. Hold your head up J- You're in my thoughts!
from sduckie :
sounds like he is a bit addicted to the drama- he knows he has two girls that want him. and it's really not fair that he is using you to talk about her-- that's hurting you. Are you a friend supporting him through his last breakup, or his new love? I think it's been proven you can't be both, it's messing with your head and your life. he'd probably be better off seeing a therapist. but enough about him. take good care of yourself. hugs.
from lordpolonius :
I'm so sorry to hear that. I know that there is nothing I can write that will put a smile on your face... but do just that. Smile. You have you and you didn't compromise that... you didn't play any mind games with him (when it could have been easy to do). I'm so sorry.
from thegoodbiboy :
I rolled my eyes, but at him, not you. He's got a lot of issues.
from lordpolonius :
I didn't roll my eyes once. But I do think you can fall in love with a rebound... it probably hurts to read that. Maybe love is like a rubber band (oh great an analogy)... at first, it's reluctant to expand--but once it has been worked through a few times it comes easier. He is/was ready to love. You were there and his heart let him love you and throw a lot of emotion into it which you caught and helped you feel love for him. Love's great... and it hurts worse than being numb. But you are probably right... he probably was with her. I'm sorry for what you are going through, I really am. I'm going through just a bit of that right now. But I'm not going to say get over him... I'm going to say wait a few days. Let it fester. Maybe this break really is good for him and maybe it's the last one. But keep in mind what's good for you... he doesn't sound like he's it (at least right now)... but you've fallen in love with him and there is a reason why. Do you know why you fell in love with him? Just don't let those feelings get any deeper until he can clear his head (if he ever can). I blather... sorry
from lyssbobiss :
I hope that didn't upset you. I appreciate that you value my opinion, as I always value yours. I guess what I meant by that is that I can see in how you write the way things with Josh can go from amazing to horrible through the course of a weekend. Does that make sense? And if I'm totally wrong or out of line, I apologize. I just know from experience what that's like, and how emotionally draining it can be. Anyway, I'm around if you ever need me. I know I'm not one of your homos, or GE, but I am a fellow bisexual diva trying to survive life in the midwest. Love you!
from lordpolonius :
Doesn't seem bi-polar... seems like love. Love has a tendency of fucking everything up... especially your squash. Sounds like things are at least looking better.
from salazabr :
You make perfect sense to me and I don't think your entries have been bi-polar at all. =)
from i-read-you :
the pain of a breakup is so intense and so overwhelming . . . been there, done that . . . :'( ============================== the guy has shown you what he's about . . . can he really change? I wish you all the best! :)
from lyssbobiss :
J, I love you bunches, but I have to be honest - this guy sounds like trouble. My experience with men is that those who have drama when you meet them tend to have drama all the time. They're the type of people who aren't satisfied without something going wrong in their lives. This guy sounds like he's making you nuts, and you shouldn't be treated like this. Plus, it sounds like he's been pretty clear about the fact that he's not going to be able to cut the strings with this girl for a while. He always says that something is definite, and then changes his mind...how do you know this won't happen again? As far as feeling bad after being apart from him, I say this: Doing what's right for you doesn't always feel great at the time, especially when it involves a breakup. When someone has been important to you, it will hurt to cut them out, but sometimes the best decisions take time to get over. I just really hate seeing you like this - it's like your entries have become bipolar, and I think this guy is having that effect on you. Don't ever let a man have that much control! :)
from thegoodbiboy :
Why do you need all this drama? It's crazy.
from alure :
hey sweetie, i'm sorry about the josh situation. i'm glad you told him to grow some balls, cause he definitely needed to hear that!i hope the rest of the day goes really well for you! xoxo
from lordpolonius :
I just caught up (I've been away)... so sorry to hear about Josh, but it sounds like you might have him pegged on the 'get a life' issue and being 'needy'. That kind of shit drives me nuts, I'm glad Trixie isn't that way. Hope you have a smile on your face, I'm sure lots of people are thinking about you (I am).
from lyssbobiss :
Hi, gorgeous. I just wanted to let you know that I've been thinking about you lately, and I hope everything is going okay. I'm so sorry about this Josh situation. That's definitely unfair. You truly deserve better than this. Keep us up to date on how you're doing! Love ya.
from sexyatheist :
hey hottie, did i miss something like a password change?
from hotwetdesire :
he REALLY doesn't know the good things he had...to me, he's making no sense at all. you're completely in the right on this situation, dear...don't let him make you believe otherwise.
from thegoodbiboy :
We all have issues. Maybe he is a little like me, he just doesn't like to hurt people, especially people he sort of likes on a personal level. I was like that with my ex, but when I went to get a lawyer, she told me to stop feeling guilty, to get over it. So, I did. He needs to find out if it's guilt over hurting her, or he really misses and needs her. It's his dilema(?).
from barbiewoman :
He's got issues- I say stay away but at least go on his family vacation to NC so you can come see me! I live in NC- so you can run off with me and he'll feel even shittier cause you'd be running off with a hot chick! HAHA! Seriously if you come here- you gotta go get drunk with me! where in NC does he saty? Near Charlotte?
from thegoodbiboy :
This guy has issues. He needs to stay away from you for awhile, and stay away from the other girl, too. He should see a shrink.
from sexycreature :
I don't have a problem with fantasizing, just that I usually have fantasies that I don't like at all, and that I typically have to have them or I won't cum. Being a slave to nasty fantasies just isn't my thing. Indulging them sometimes, sure. But other times I just want to enjoy thinking about past times or concentrating on the guy I'm with, instead of just essentially masturbating with my husband's dick. Does that make sense?
from i-read-you :
don't be so quick to take him back when he comes running -- Feb. 13 is about right but not until then. best of luck! :)
from hotwetdesire :
man...that really sucks...i'm sorry to hear that...hopefully he'll realize that he has a great thing with you, and leave miss no personality for good.
from neangel :
i know what you mean about being the strong one... back when i was milwaukee man 2 yrs ago i was the strong one & i got so sick of him being a blubbering cry baby! i am the emotional one in relationships okay? lol yeah this weekend is going to be a blast. i have it planned for us to go to the aquarium in dallas that is if we ever leave the hotel! ;)
from thegoodbiboy :
what is with these guys you meet? Man, they don't know a good thing if it slammed them in the face I guess. I don't get it, but I have no doubt you'll get over it real fast!
from alure :
i'm sorry honey. i agree with neangel, he'll come running back. you just make sure you think about whether or not you want to take him back. make yourself happy first. xoxo lauren
from neangel :
aww darlin, sounds so familiar to me but once you walk away just watch him come running! suisse is doing that with me right now. i am working on getting him to move out here with me, it just takes one step at a time! hell both his sister & mom in switzerland are now emailing me! they even know we are perfect for one another!! ;)
from daath :
My pleasure :) I miss talking to you too.
from neangel :
yet i know but i knew that this week was going to drag on sooo slow! i hate that i have to work at both jobs today! someone shoot me now!!
from neangel :
i can't wait for this weekend to hurry up & get here I am horny as hell now!! thanks!1
from daath :
"Iím so fucking SICK of anxiety & anticipating something to go wrong. I just want to feel good about a relationship for more than just 24 hours for once. Fuck!" You and me both, yo.
from bigmonayho :
Be careful with that girl. She sounds like she can be a psycho, and would go to any lengths to have "her man" back.
from neangel :
wow, what an emotional weekend for you. i would have gone over there too, it's okay for them to cry once in a while & it makes your relationship stronger being there for one another like that... you go girl!
from neangel :
well lucky for me my store is a dual gender store so i DO work at Xpress for men... :( i've even bought stuff for Suisse recently during this HUGE sale.
from neangel :
i've done that before!! it's cool huh? [holding their penis while they pee] thank goodness i didn't get any on me! ;) i think it was white noise that got to you both which is why he freaked out. i saw the movie too & wasn't that impressed, but i really want to see the dakota fanning one too! girl... i think it is serious!
from thegoodbiboy :
"I even held his penis when he went pee" That's kind of hot. Sexy.
from salazabr :
Thanks for the very nice shout out but you're problems are NOT petty. They are YOUR problems and therefor are VERY important too. What happens halfway around the world doesn't affect you directly but some stupid little teeny-bopper making a move on your man sure as hell does. Don't ever feel bad for worrying about what's wrong in your little corner of the world.
from salazabr :
Well thank you VERY much! I'll do my best to keep it up. :D I feel strongly about lots of things, I just don't update about them for some reason. ;)
from alure :
horray for the lovely boy you have. i'm so happy that you are with someone who is making you happy! as for the sad, pathetic ex, what a bitch! and the funny thing is, she is just showing josh what a loser she is. also. horray for outstanding oral sex. definitely a pro for the boy ;)
from neangel :
Ahhh it sounds like you are falling in love my dear!! that is so wonderful! my S is coming to see me not this but next weekend, he sent me the hotel confirmation today & i had received the flight stuff this weekend! I can't wait! raunchy sex for me finally!! [although sssh i've been dating this girl for a lito while] i can't write about it really here cause i think he is still reading but i want to tell you all about it! great, amazing, sex - wow!
from salazabr :
lol...
from salazabr :
from salazabr :
Taking care of you is an honor and privilege I am gratefull to have. Never something to be sorry for. &hearts
from sexyatheist :
thank you my dear. yeah, you can keep your snow. i hate the rain but it's better than snow. and i think GE will understand about josh. he's a cool kid and he loves you. but in the future, maybe you should just tell josh the truth. he's going to find out about GE eventually anyway. happy new years hottie!
from bigmonayho :
Hope that you have a great Christmas!!!!
from phangasm :
Damnation, J, that was one hot story! You're some cockswoman!
from thegoodbiboy :
Definitely do him while he's on his back, this way you can jerk him off at the same time. You make him cum like this and he'll never do anything bad to you again!
from imadad2 :
If you work in a cubicle environment, you need to rent "Office Space". Or, if you are cheap like me, borrow it from the library. I checked the TV listings, and it won't be one for the next two weeks.
from sexycreature :
Oh god, if I weren't married I'd let you do me! Thanks for the note, girl.
from salazabr :
lol! Dead SEXY as hell!!
from thegoodbiboy :
That just got me so hard here at work. I'd love to have witnessed that. I'm jealous!
from psod :
Thanks, I'll get by it. Just have to play it by ear and hope the time goes fast...
from thegoodbiboy :
Everybody does it. Those were my two worst that I can recall. I see that drama has quited down, that's a good thing.
from abittergirl :
'two for me, one for you'- You mean that's not how you're supposed to Christmas shop? Oops. I'm in trouble. :) Sometimes, it's three for me- can't find anything you'd like... Ha ha.
from salazabr :
You're not stupid or crazy, you're following your feelings and that's all anyone can do.
from abittergirl :
J. I've been in this situation. For years. He is a lying piece of shit, I'm telling you. I've been that other girl, and I swear, he is lying to you both. PLEASE, do not fall for his shit, I've seen it before. You seem like a nice girl, get out of this while you can. I wasted almost 12 years; don't make the same mistake. Follow your intuition. It's never wrong. You knew that she would be there; you know that he hasn't ended things with her. She wouldn't be that upset if he had. Right?
from bigmonayho :
Man, that was a story! I'm so sorry to hear that had to happen to you. You don't deserve shit like that.
from thegoodbiboy :
That, my friend, is the best entry EVER from anybody. Can I just say that this is the best line ever, too: "Jesus, I kept having to back up & pull in for her she couldnít make up her mind." That is fucking classic! I'm sorry you are going through this again, but it's more his fault then yours. I would have loved to have been there watching all of this unfold. And that A.M. call....what a load of shit. What a pussy. Sorry, I know you like him and all, but...please. She made me call you??? Grow some balls, sir!!! I hope it works out for you. But, that was the best entry ever!
from salazabr :
Please! You are so NOT high maintenance. =)
from bigmonayho :
Josh sounds like he's good for you, it's shame he has this whole ex shit thing. Be really clear to him about it. It sounds like he's just having trouble moving past the comfort of his ex. Ask him why it took him dating you for his ex to realize she wants to be back with him. Good luck!
from alure :
have you told him why it bothers you that he wants to maintain such a strong friendship with his ex. i think you need to be really clear why you have trouble accepting this. and just remember, you deserve to be happy! good luck!
from princesstosh :
Ugh, Men. He cant have his cake and eat it, too. Lay down the law girl. Good luck!
from abittergirl :
oh, Ionme... this whole situation with the ex doesn't sound good. Guard your heart, girl.
from ms-turner :
Men suck. Plain and simple. (But I still love having 'em around!) Of course, so do women, but isn't that a good thing? ::wink wink::
from neangel :
i got the job... the best part is one my first purchase i get 50% off up to $200! woo hoo! yeah i hope i can control myself. i start sunday!
from salazabr :
Fuck Rich!! You know he's just being a jealous asshole and the wishes you were with him instead.
from alure :
i'm really happy you are happy! thats the most important thing, dont you think? have a great week!
from ms-turner :
Love the bike! Something about having that power and an engine purring between your legs just makes the world seem like a brighter place.
from salazabr :
I think Josh is right...you will only look better and better as you get older. :D
from alure :
i'm so excited about you and josh! its nice to have someone to cuddle with during the holidays, even nicer to have a regular sex-buddy, specially someone who is willing to take it up the ass! you lucky girl;) Thanks for your nice comments about my hair. i made it look a lot better the next day cause i knew what to expect and stuff. and i would love to do your hair and perhaps, more... ;) all is alright on the home front. my mum apologized which was nice of her. and i will try and stay while i go to school cause school is fucken pricey! but matty and i have talked about moving in together in the near future, so i'll see how that goes. thanks again for your advice, i really appreciate it!
from thegoodbiboy :
If you wanna have meaningless sex on the side before/during a relationship, make sure it's not with a lame-o with a small dick! Make it worth your while!
from classygirl83 :
Hey~ This is girlygirl83, and I added you to my favorites on this diary! Hope that you and Josh are doing well! Have a great week!
from bigmonayho :
Awwww, J got bit by the holiday lovebug! lol I only kid. Hope everything goes well.
from bigmonayho :
Wow, that guy sounds super creepy! I hope everything's okay.
from phangasm :
Damn, that Jason guy *is* scary. Not like you needed me to tell you, but stay the fuck away from his stalker ass!
from bigmonayho :
Don't worry, there are honest people out there! Unfortunately the number of them with penises is quite low :P
from alure :
i'm hoping to fuck my boy in the ass someday. he's not keen on the idea at the moment, but just give me time!! and i'm not sure how i looked like a tube. i was wearing an A-cut skirt so maybe that gave me a tubish appearance... i'm not really sure, lol. but it was so funny at the time. i'm excited you are getting new furniture! i'm on the lookout for a new bed; big and comfy. i'm stuck with a single which can be fun, but fooloing around on a king size bed could be even more fun!! have fun tomorrow ;)
from bigmonayho :
I don't find Jude Law hot at all, but hey that's just me. Be wary about Josh.
from neangel :
hey love thanks! I think i like the idea myself ;) i really really want to thank you for sharing all your juicy details... have to admit it made me a bit juicy just reading it! damn it's been so long since i've been with a woman! I'm so jealous. maybe i should just check out all the lesbian places out here and start going in that direction again! i wonder if there are any lesbian places around here even... damn and i hope texas doesn't only have butch women...
from alure :
hot hot hot!! i totally got off thinking about you two! loved it!!
from thegoodbiboy :
I guess some things aren't always what you think they would be. Oh well. The visual of you in a 69 with a girl is awesome! And I cracked up when you said you were getting bored eating her pussy. Classic!!!!
from jackthripper :
Email me if you want the password to my diary JckthRppr669@yahoo.com
from thegoodbiboy :
You got it!
from pattymelt :
have you seen all the new styles? i was somewhat underwhelmed when his stuff first came out but am more than impressed now! i am raggin' too, and for some reason not hungry. odd but i am ok with that.
from alure :
dont be scared, but i may be stalking you ;) just cause i love hearing about what you get up to! too bad boys have been programmed to tell you shit cause they think it'll help them get sex. i had a boy tell me he loved me after we met for 45 minutes. i was like, let's just fucken stop that right now. you want sex. just say it. thats all i want to hear. lol boys can be so silly! i'm happy you got your new furniture! and QAF! i used to have regular QAF monday nights. so much fun! have a great day!!
from azelya :
Hey girl, you don't have to get a gold membership to find out who's stalking you. Just go to sitemeter and get a free one. It won't be as detailed as if you pay, but you still get your referrals and the isps of all your hits.
from salazabr :
Hey! No fair rubbing it in for those of us who have to wait until March for QAF 4 on DVD. ;) Nice quote and cute bracelet, I've had one of the silver ones on my left wrist since Dec of 1996.
from salazabr :
LOL!! You ARE evil! ;)
from thegoodbiboy :
I think I need to move to Ohio...
from bigmonayho :
I'm so jealous of your exciting life :P
from asitwere :
I'm blue.
from i-read-you :
when does the friday night/saturday morning video come out? is the sequel as good?
from thegoodbiboy :
Congrats and welcome to the pussy-eaters club! Isn't it great to be a member? That was a great entry. HOT.
from neangel :
wow talk about some hotness! i am so proud of you girl! ;) glad to hear you had a lot of fun.
from phangasm :
As a matter of fact, I dressed up as a hooker for halloween one time!
from thegoodbiboy :
Oh, I know, I even said that. You don't need a costume to be a hottie!
from i-read-you :
sexual attraction/chemistry counts for MUCH more than others' opinions of her looks! And take the costume with the broken zipper and a couple of safety pins!
from thegoodbiboy :
You don't need a costume. Just put on your clothes and go as a hot girl. Remember in 'Friends' when Joey is walking around looking for "hot girl?" Well, that coule be you! Say you're the hot girl from 'Friends.' That's all ya' need to do, nothing to stress about!
from sexyatheist :
babe, maybe it will work perfectly. i hope it does. it just didn't work on me but hopefully it looks smokin on you. at present i am not sure what i'm going to be. the french maid thing only works marginally. chances are i'll be wearing a man's football jersey and stripper heals and go as a football player. i'm too tired of bought costumes not working.
from neangel :
Wow this girl sounds like she has fascinated you quite a bit!! i am glad to hear this! have tons of fun this weekend and she will love the flowers no matter how you decide to send them - but i think at work would be lovely! ;)
from bigmonayho :
Can't wait to hear about the upcoming weekend. Still going as a flight attendant?
from abittergirl :
Sounds like Josh is giving you a line about the 'ex'- he certainly spends his time with her. Watch out.
from thegoodbiboy :
Google knows all! Well, most. I almost can't read about you and Liz because it's just mindblowing to me. You should tape it and sell it, you'd make a fortune! Have a great weekend!
from salazabr :
Very VERY exicting!! YAY!! :D
from salazabr :
OMG!! I would pay money to be a fly on the wall in your apt with H and the homos there!! Good luck!!
from thegoodbiboy :
I googled those lyrics, it's a song called "I Can Tell You Wanna" by some group called the 504 Boyz. Never heard of either the song of the band. Here's the link: http://www.lyricsbox.com/5-4-boyz-lyrics-i-can-tell-you-wana-xzjc5b7.html
from alure :
i will definitely be posting some pics! and isnt Dave Barry the best? I love reading his articles in the morning...they make me laugh and i start the day very happy!
from thegoodbiboy :
I'd love to be a fly on the wall if you and her ever hook up. Or a guy in a closet jerking off. Either way.
from sexyatheist :
ah thank you sexy lady. you do have the power to make me blush. and you're right that what other people say means nothing. it's so irritating though, isn't it? this liz chick sounds awesome. i can't wait to read about what you two do together.
from thegoodbiboy :
Wow...the thought of you getting F'd by a hottie with a strapon won't be leaving my mind anytime soon. I saw a girl at the bar Sat. night that reminded me of you (not that I know what ya' look like!) Anyway, from your descriptions she reminded me of you. Needless to say I was trying not to stare at her to hard! Like you, she was pretty hot with big boobs!
from alure :
ooh!! i hope you get your chance with liz! i've always thought about having a girl use a strap-on on me. plus i've always wanted to wear one and use it on my boy. he's not to into that though. oh well. i guess and girl-girl threesome will be in order so i can take it and give it! have a great rest of the day :D
from abittergirl :
earl grey tea is my favorite; I drink it every day. But it's black tea, not green. :)
from barbiewoman :
I got the red riding hood costume! Yay! I was bidding right down to the last second! I want to read you- E-mail me a password at barbiegirl4201@yahoo.com if you don't mind!
from thegoodbiboy :
You can never be replaced!
from thegoodbiboy :
The appliance sex thing was hysterical and your OM is totally thinking of you while fucking. No doubt. You're probably getting her off.
from salazabr :
LOL!! NO ONE talks shit like Adam does!
from spacemuppet :
was anyone rooting for you to get together with heather? hell yes, babe... congrats, and if there's more in the future, I'm sure I'm not the only one that would love the intimate details. have a great night!
from alure :
sat sounded like a blast!! i'm glad your needs were taken care of ;) take care babe!!!
from salazabr :
That was FUCKING HOT!! ;)
from salazabr :
LOL! I can SO hear him saying "HOT COUNTRY BOY COCK"
from salazabr :
Aww...thank you, I feel the same way about you. ♥ PS. ...baby daddy...LOL!!!
from bigmonayho :
I think that's my favourite episode of SATC.
from thegoodbiboy :
Thanks. I should be OK for the weekend, which is the important thing!
from sexycreature :
He has a futon in his office, and I just want to lay there all day and bask in the warm glow I feel when I'm around him... It's that bad!
from bigmonayho :
http://www.fredericks.com/product.asp?catalog%5Fname=Holiday2002&category%5Fname=Corsets-Intimate+Fashion+Styles&product%5Fid=52307 This is the top part of it.
from salazabr :
Sounds like a plan to me. That costume is H-O-T-T HOT!!
from bigmonayho :
Hot costume, but not as hot as mine.
from thegoodbiboy :
Hey there! I've been boring lately, nothing much going on....unlike you! I'm still reading and still jealous of all the good times you have!
from alure :
hi!! thank you for your sweet note! i dont think i would ever stop kissing you!! i hope your weekend is great...i'll be working and doing homework. arent you super envious?? *kiss* alure
from bigmonayho :
Hope you have a fun weekend. ;)
from psod :
WHAT?! If a chick invited me to a sex toy party, I'd be all over it! Thing is, you really have to be preferential in who you invite, because seriously - when Suzy Rotten Crotch grabs the "Pearl Rabbit," do you really want to imagine it in motion. I think I'd pass... /waiting for my invitation...
from neangel :
finally got the paris porn dvd. mine came with two dvds, did yours? haven't made it to the extras yet & you're right paris is a boring lay it seems but that was when she was 19 hopefully she's learned a thing or two since then!
from psod :
Right? Who doesn't love to get drunk and smacked in the face with a slice of processed meat?! A sex toy party is a great idea - plus, the more people you bring to buy stuff, the more free sex stuff you get - how money is that! Is it normal for a guy to throw a sex toy party? Screw it, I'm thinking about one myself...
from salazabr :
lol...good luck tomorrow at lunch ;)
from alure :
i dont think you are easy. you are someone who enjoys sex. men get away with having one night stands without any real discrimination from societ, but when a woman shows a healthy interest in getting some lovin' then she is labeled 'easy' or 'slutty' which is just bullshit. i dont think there is any thing wrong with you going out and having some fun. you are hot and you should be out while you are young! i hope the idiots from work get better...its so trying having to deal with morons, no?? anyway, hope you have a great day tomorrow! *kiss* alure!
from bigmonayho :
I just have yahoo and msn. I have the same problems with my sleep. I find that the only thing that helps (other than sleeping pills) is just exhausting myself during the day.
from salazabr :
Excellent entry, very insightful and I agree that no one is better at analyzing you than you and it's not like you are going to be doing this the rest of your life. You might as well enjoy life while you can.
from sexycreature :
Oh yeah, asitwere isn't the only d-lander you've made out with anymore!!!
from sexycreature :
Hey girl, sorry I haven't responded or given you guestbook lovin... work is killing me; I have a presentation this week. Thanks for the notes! When are you coming back to LA?
from bigmonayho :
It's one of those three-pronged curler thingies. It's always hard when you run into someone like Doggie, even when you think you've gotten past them. Out of sight out of mind right?
from phangasm :
You're not bad, just smart! Hey, if that boy wants some, he needs to act like a man.
from bigmonayho :
I hope you have a good weekend with the fam. I know you'll manage to have fun.
from aureate2 :
Miss P? Now that's a clever way to reference it. I'm going to tell my wife that one.
from bigmonayho :
Love the template. I'm in the process of making a new one with Brit right now.
from bigmonayho :
Well I'm quite flattered ;) BTW, 'How to Make Love Like a Porn Star' is a pretty good read.
from phangasm :
Oh, you're welcome for the reference! I think you'll like each other. As for 3somes, I know they're always on MY mind, but you know me... Hmm, cellphones. I need to get a new one, but I've been putting it off. Maybe I need to make a field trip this afternoon...
from sexyatheist :
that's exactly my issue. one of my friends in a class last semester showed me naked pics of his girlfriend on his camera phone. i know that my boy wouldn't want to betray my trust but i understand the appeal of showing people. so i think i'll stick with hands covering the boobs. it's safe and sexy.
from sexyatheist :
that's exactly my issue. one of my friends in a class last semester showed me naked pics of his girlfriend on his camera phone. i know that my boy wouldn't want to betray my trust but i understand the appeal of showing people. so i think i'll stick with hands covering the boobs. it's safe and sexy.
from jackthripper :
thank you for the kind compliment. im glad you enjoyed what you saw. I do hope you come back for more...
from thegoodbiboy :
Hey there hotness. Man, you have some crazy weekends. Imagine if you were here in NY were we are open until 4! I'm guessing you don't have a weekend off this weekend, I don't think it's in ya'!
from chickpea981 :
you know who it was that said it... he provided you with the dancing girl on your page.
from bigmonayho :
I hear you on the blackout thing with liquor. Thanks for the compliment by the way ;)
from neangel :
sorry luve. i can't really get on the net that much anymore again & it blows more goats then bush does. oops my bad. but much love goes to you always!
from salazabr :
LOL!!! ♥
from chickpea981 :
Girl! How the hell can you not remember naked men getting angry at you and standing outside? I'm not too good with the notes/book love. Spank me? I'll try to leave you more, okay?
from neangel :
you're so going to hate me! i am getting one night in paris for 23 bucks & now can get any porn i want for manufactors price. thanks to this dip robert that is training me. his gf works for a porn distribution company & now that i've talked to her i have their website & her email so i can order anything my little heart desires!! when is your b-day? lol
from phangasm :
Thanks, it was fun. Oh, and you're right about Teagan. I checked her out and her ass is perfect! I'm gonna have to go shopping for that vid.
from pattymelt :
yeah, i know what you mean. i am the same way. but it's how he has that whole FOOT crammed in his mouth. almost like it was a penis!
from salazabr :
I was proud of you for getting back in even afte the ocean kept kicking your ass, hopefully next time the water will be a lot calmer. =)
from phangasm :
You know I'm just jealous!
from phangasm :
Me, daring? Pot, kettle, black, missy! :-) S and I were talking about thursday, but his schedule is pretty tight this week. Maybe a quickie...
from salazabr :
Don't be a sillyhead, you have never embarrassed me. =)
from sexislife :
Hello! Love(d) your diary. Currently locked out. I'll be emailing you shortly. Hope you're well!!
from girlygirl83 :
Your diary helped to keep me entertained during class! You sound like you're haveing fun! Thanks for the Password. I hope that you have a great week!!!
from neangel :
October. Oops I forgot to mention that part.
from salazabr :
You are doing facials once a month silly. =)
from salazabr :
Just wanted to tell you again how PROUD I am of you for doing so well snorkeling in those crappy ass conditions. Next time we'll be better prepared and I think you'll really love it. =)
from raven72d :
don't forget to send me a password...
from psod :
yeah, nic and coffee is the worlds worst combo, that bitch. Seattle is green as hell but I still like the east coast better. I'll tell all about my trip when I get home. thx 4 stoppin in...
from salazabr :
I can't wait either and thank you, that means a lot to me. I feel the same way around you. ♥
from girlygirl83 :
Hey, I know you sent me a password, but I never got it, so if you want to will you please send me your un and pw to tahitiantreat00@hotmail.com, if not I understand too. I hope that your doing good!
from psod :
So hot and addicted to your diary like crack, you're great -p
from salazabr :
Yeah, and I have no freaking clue who she is either. *shrug* Thanks for the heads up, you've already got one waiting for you on it though from the gym this morning.=) Can't wait to see you.
from salazabr :
Muy excellente!! :D
from alure :
hopefully that class gets a little better...i hate having to drag myself to listen to some boring, long-winded proferssor. and i always want to kiss you ;) you are hot! lets makeout, hehehehe. i hope your day goes well today!!
from salazabr :
I'm totally excited too!! Yay for next week! =) ♥
from salazabr :
Re: Michael, yeah...wtf? that's whacky
from sexyatheist :
happy birthday you sexy woman. and i apologize for sucking so much that i've taken 14 months to tell you that. i am the worst diaryland friend ever. i really am sorry and i hope you had a wonderful birthday.
from salazabr :
LOL!!
from salazabr :
Good luck at the DT tonight and have fun!! =)
from neangel :
it's so expensive on the 1nightinparis site. i found on a message board that it's a lot cheaper if you find it in a local p*** shop. i think i will check out Ge's suggestion. thanks babes! i am at work too or else i'd be searching again. ;) i am excited to know that there are a lot of extras besides only paris
from neangel :
where'd u get it? & how much? i've been wanting it for a while
from salazabr :
lol! :D Glad you had fun with Emy for her B-Day. And yes of course you will make a difference...you already do. ♥
from lyssbobiss :
Hey! I totally did not change my password! Just remember that the username is not at all capitalized. I don't know, maybe that's the problem. I'm sorry! I hope it works now. :)
from i-read-you :
just curious to see if he would make any effort, given time/distance involved. wondering how much he has his eye on you!
from i-read-you :
wonder what would happen if you let trevor chase you a little?
from salazabr :
You're welcome. =)
from salazabr :
Good luck at registration. =)
from salazabr :
:D I'm SO HAPPY you had a great in time in NYX for your B-Day, so did I!! ♥
from fruitncreme :
Happy Birthday J! Hope you get lots & lots of greaaat birthday booty =p haha
from phangasm :
Hey, happy birthday! If you're going to ask for presents, though, you gotta post your sizes...
from asitwere :
Wow. That Asit guy sounds like a real stud.
from alure :
Happy Birthday!!!
from bigmonayho :
Happy Birthday babe! Now where's the juicy details ;)
from neangel :
i'm sorry.. happy birthday - do you have a wishlist somewhere to puruse though? ;) big kisses & hugs
from herdarlinsin :
LOl No Problem. Im always eager to give appreciation for my motivations. *wink* Of course trying to picture you doing the naughty to yourself in the presence of another person was the "Great Turn-On" of the century lol
from asitwere :
So... no friggin entry?
from herdarlinsin :
Feckin bitch. I read about 8 entries and I couldt hold myself back any longer.. I just.. had to lol.. Thanks for the inspiration
from sexyatheist :
then it isn't just me. new things are just so exciting. and here's the deal with not masturbating equating more orgasms with partners. at least for me. it doesn't make a damn difference for me. i've tried both ways and i can cum just as easily during sex even if i jacked off a few hours before sex. so since i can do it, i am not willing to give up wacking off. and i won't. so see how it works for you but it certainly doesn't work for me
from neangel :
I am sure it will be a much happier, healthier move. Iíve known her since beauty school where we met back in í97. Weíve always been best friends & I consider her a sister. I am just hoping that I can put all of that out of my mind soon. The image of all the blood is just haunting. Thank you for the loving notes though. I hope the computer is all perfect by tonight, and maybe you should try not masturbating for a while. Good luck
from salazabr :
Oh! And I hope the CD works too.
from salazabr :
:D
from thegoodbiboy :
Hey, I'm an IT guy and I have no problem coming over to your place and setting up a new PC while you're barely dressed and watching some guy/guy action. No problem at all.
from neangel :
thank for the congrats! bb sounds full of herself but that is just IMO. i think we are going camping that weekend but with suisse anything could happen.
from salazabr :
:D
from asitwere :
I heard a rumor you're coming back into town. Well, I'd love to see you if you're up to it. Tons of great things to do. Let's talk more.
from bigmonayho :
Hope that you're feeling better!
from phangasm :
No, I'm a cancer. I've always thought it was funny to say that: "I'm a cancer". But I have a strange sense of humor.
from neangel :
i don't know & probably won't until it gets closer. he's not moving now so that isn't a problem. i'll definitely keep u posted.
from pattymelt :
i guess i never really think about anyone reading my diary. it's so available, you know? and most guys i meet have read some of it via yahoo or aol. i don't know. i like this new guy but i am still feeling it out. oh well, if he reads it and finds something he doesn't like? it's really is problem not mine.
from neangel :
Ahh hun i hope u feel better & sorry about the shitty weekend. :( i feel ya there.
from pattymelt :
i can't believe you were out on the town with a kidney infection! you are more of a woman than me! i had one this time last year and just layed in bed for a week! can i ask you? when you locked your diary? was it because you didn't want any of your "men" reading it? i forget...
from thegoodbiboy :
Man, you are a good friend to go out in that condition!
from salazabr :
Just reading about that again makes me laugh. =) Can't wait for this weekend!
from thegoodbiboy :
I've been jacking it to her for years!
from thegoodbiboy :
You know, I can't decide whether I think Tom Cruise is a good fuck or not. I'm sure he is, I mean, he must have a lot of practice.
from thegoodbiboy :
Ah, the drive-by, a sure sign of rock bottom. Oh, one more thing, don't lump all us older guys in with one deuchbag!!! Just because he can't hack doesn't mean we all can't!
from salazabr :
One week from today we'll be in NYC!! WOO-HOO!! YAY!!!
from velvet-heart :
hit me up with the passy J - email is myangelsrock2@hotmail.com.. if i didnt ask right, I will get down on my knees and do "stuff" for you *wink wink*
from bigmonayho :
What's up with my move? I don't know exactly. I have to decide by Tuesday. I'm a huge chicken shit when it comes to making big decisions. :P Think I should just flip a coin?
from pattymelt :
nothing like getting the FART pounded out of you, right?
from salazabr :
I don't care what you say or think. I know for a FACT that the hottest person in your apartment last night was YOU! You are every bit as hot and even HOTTER!! than he is. And don't even bother trying to argue with me. ♥
from thegoodbiboy :
What's with this guy and the word 'sassy?'
from thegoodbiboy :
Ahhh, I'm not finding her. Besides, the original hot girl is in Ohio.
from bigmonayho :
Sex with a uti is fine, but the antibiotics that they put you on usually effect the effectiveness of birth control. Drink lots of cranberry juice (or go to a health good store and buy cranberry extract pills), it'll help it to clear up earlier and finally, have fun!!!
from neangel :
sounds like you're in for one hell of a night. i miss the boys/men i've had that can go more than once in a night. sheesh my record with Suisse is 3 times in a 24 hour period & that was only once!
from phangasm :
Hmm, makes your boobs look like basketballs and emphasises your ass... you say that like it's a bad thing! can I vote twice? :-) Seriously, I hope you're feeling better, and good luck tonight!
from thegoodbiboy :
I say #2 but I also say this guy is a dork and doesn't deserve your gold!
from i-read-you :
neither -- greet him in your birthday suit! Then he'll have ZERO excuse to think of stomach food!
from abittergirl :
Laughing at 'possible sex means break out new razor cartridge'. So true! I vote Number 2; then it's like a good surprise under clothes. Much better.
from azelya :
I also vote for #2, the lace boy short with bra!
from chickpea981 :
and here's something weird... if you copy it in from word, sometimes the quote marks get all fucked up. You have to re type them in the entry window
from chickpea981 :
it looks like you have a space between the = and the " in the linking. should just be <a href="webpage"> then again I could be wrong. Also I vote for #2
from salazabr :
Definitely the second one. ;)
from neangel :
i say #1 but that is just me ;) in regards to the links. don't use the "" when you use those it automatically added your url infront of it. only use those then posting a pic then it would look like this "/images/hotpic.jpg" but for regular links it should just be <a href=http://....> try that out and let me know how it goes! *big kiss* have fun tonight!
from phangasm :
My vote is for #2, very sassy!
from leebozeebo :
Oh, sure, plenty. They also use too many emoticons and enjoy dotting their "i"s with little pink hearts. I think I read an article on them in Playboy that called them the ideal girl, except in their version these women also think giving head during halftime is fun and relaxing.
from salazabr :
I know...I know...I thought I did it delicately but that's what I get for thinking. Once again I find myself saying I should've listened to you and kept my mouth shut.
from thegoodbiboy :
Who wants to get up early when they are on a mini-vacation....especially one where you are drinking. Bastards.
from salazabr :
LOL!! Good luck! ;)
from thegoodbiboy :
The entry about this past Saturday where you were hung over and didn't want to get up. That was a great entry, and a perfect example of why I love to read you. I was laughing through it.
from neangel :
lmao - what games guys play. i hope you get your big cock soon. i hate having to resort to masturbation if a cock is available! ;)
from thegoodbiboy :
And that entry right there is a perfect example of why you're my favorite d-land read. Classic!
from alure :
you are hot! i love hearing all your stories :D
from salazabr :
WHOA!! That is scary true, how freaky is that?!
from salazabr :
I still make myself eat new stuff, today at lunch I had some sun dried tomatoes. I don't think I could ever be glad to be that far away from you silly.
from thegoodbiboy :
I was going to tease you and send an email about what we could do with you and that penis, but I figured I'd be nice!
from salazabr :
I know I am, what's your point? ;) The problem is that I don't like anything so lots of stuff sounds good but I still don't eat it. :P
from thegoodbiboy :
Hmmm, you with a penis....that would be interesting. And hot! I get like that sometimes, and I just feel like doing all sorts of "naughty" things. Imaging you with a penis is making me feel pretty "naughty" right now!
from salazabr :
I have tried them yes, liked them...hell no. ;) I meant it sounded good for someone who does like fried green tomatoes, like...oh, I don't know...you! ;)
from salazabr :
lol! That does sound kinda good though. =)
from thegoodbiboy :
Your Friday night has mine beat! Although it sounded like an odd mix of people you were hanging out with. Anyway, I'm waiting to read what happened on Saturday, I can't even imagine!
from thegoodbiboy :
That's the best compliment ever!!!!
from salazabr :
LOL!! Sure you could...you'd just have to watch it alone. hehe
from salazabr :
Yup, for reals. =) I knew you'd like that about him. We should find the TV movie about James Dean starring James Di Franco.
from thegoodbiboy :
Screw the pics of this guy, I want to see a pic of you in that yellow see through dress!
from salazabr :
This will probably make you think James Dean even hotter...he was bi. =)
from bigmonayho :
Ooooh nice pic!
from neangel :
i have the entire alchoroscopes. Perhaps that is what I will add to my entry now.
from sexyatheist :
thank you my dear. it should be a good time but one never knows. and thanks for the shout out. it made my day. and in response to what daath said, my hood piercing hasn't made any difference in sensation and labial piercings would provide less sensation. so maybe it does for other women but none i know.
from daath :
As a random suggestion that I can't believe I'm typing: perhaps getting a clittoral or labial piercing might make stimulation easier or more intense, which in either case could be the small amount extra needed to more regularly orgasm. But Angel might be right: from what I remember from lectures, psychological factors are far and above the most likely reason why orgasm can't be achieved.
from neangel :
i have personally never experienced it when someone has gone down on me. it's all about the penetration & getting that certain spot. i don't think there is a penis that flexible enough to hit it - exceptions can be made for certain positions though that is if they can last long enough to stimulate it enough
from thegoodbiboy :
Nah, she's going to a bachorlette party. I'll be on my own!
from neangel :
i think it is something that just happens. perhaps you think too much during sex about trying to get off. i think every woman is capable of achieving it. not to toot my own horn but i have been known to give this experience with women whom previously never knew what a real O was. it's talent & technique. i think most men that are just one night stands or hook ups are just in it for themselves so they never give enough to the girl or just don't know how to.
from neangel :
Oooh yeah those mo's are awesome!!! i almost fell flat on my arse when i got up to go to the bathroom. i had to hold myself up!! you are missing out something fierce!!
from thegoodbiboy :
The Goth Police had me laughing, especially you guys holding up shit to them. That's something I would have done. And, I hope your friend doesn't pull that shit with the waiters in NYC, because he WILL get a piss coke back. Hell, if he tried that crap here on Long Island he'd be in trouble. Tell him to watch himself here. And I'll keep my mouth shut about him and his bathroom problems! Oh, and thanks for putting me in CAPS!
from neangel :
geez louigee, last time i saw pat benetar live was at the long beach pride festival years ago & while she was on stage i was rolling around in the grass making out w/ my friend sarah. damn. that was fun.
from phangasm :
Yeah, that's the way to get what you want in life, if what you want is for the waiter to piss in your coke back in the kitchen! He tells a good shit mishap story, though, so Adam can't be all bad :-)
from garypharrell :
Thank you, Thank you for the password. I will be right here, in this little area, a lot more now. Love ya! :)
from bigmonayho :
Wow, sounds like you had quite the weekend ;)
from thegoodbiboy :
God damn! Is this what I have to look forward to?
from salazabr :
He's like a ruder x-rated Jack on speed.
from thegoodbiboy :
You're always in trouble, why should next weekend be any different!!!!
from leebozeebo :
I'm right here. I haven't gone anywhere, unless you count one of my many ADVENTURES THROUGH TIME. Which reminds me - there's like a 50/50 chance that I'm your real father. Luckily I think I gave you all my SEXY GENES.
from pageme :
Hey, thanks for the luck...I need all that I can get right now!! ;) xXx
from salazabr :
from i-read-you :
I'll remember you when I win the LOTTO. :)
from chickpea981 :
dude, you have GOT to go to the public health department for hte STD testing. I went through my gyno (I don't have insurance at all) and the entire bill with STD testing was $620. All of them being the same prices you are listing and thankfully I'm a regular patient and they cut me a break, but it was still $450. So I started going to the public health department. Yes, it's limited when you can go and it's generally through the county, but it's fairly anonymous, it's free, and its just as accurate.
from neangel :
ooh okay no problemo! whenever ya wanna it's here! i got ge & adam confused my bad. i have short timers memory :p
from salazabr :
Aww...thank you! It's the least I can do since you always make me feel better too. =) ♥
from neangel :
does GE get you free flights?? how cool is that! Ya know what if you wanna move here we can be roommates & my friends bank is hiring like mad right now. i am even applying - well i did & she recommended me but this was just yesterday so no word yet. they have all types of positions open in tustin & mission viejo. if ya are interested let me know - i can forward your resume to my friend and have her put in a great recommendation for you too. she runs both the mv & tustin branches.
from salazabr :
LOL! It's not bad to think about someone dieing and leaving you money, we all do that. ;)
from salazabr :
You're very welcome, I meant every word and more. =) This morning is going to be a little busy but I'll let you know when I have a few minutes of free time. ♥
from thegoodbiboy :
To bad you don't live over here, you could join me! There's a little bit over something for everyone there!
from thegoodbiboy :
Now, I want to see the show. He's jack off material, eh? I'll let you know!
from thegoodbiboy :
Gale Howard kind of looks like Nick Leschae(?). You know, the lucky (or unlucky) bastard married to Jessica Simpson.
from alure :
hehehe, yea my mum has expressed many times that shes surprised i didnt break something during all those years of near death slippings and crashings. i think we still have dents in the walls where i came around a corner too fast only to ram into it. i used to describe myself as 'ungraceful' in an attempt to make it sound like i was only slightly clumsy. i think people caught onto that lie pretty quick!
from thegoodbiboy :
I'm an idiot. I answered you in my notes. I'll just cut/paste for ya': That movie just is exactly what is like to be single and a guy and trying to get laid and meet girls and have fun. It's so freakin' true to life. I don't watch "QAF" but I know of it and have seen it flipping channels and I would watch it. I saw a steamy guy/guy scene that was amazing once. But, no, I can't say I watch it. I watch "Queer Eye" though!
from thegoodbiboy :
That's funny how I was just thinking of you coming in this morning. Yeah, we'll figure something out. I'm going into the city of Thursday night, a friend of mine is moving to Cal. on Tuesday so I'm gonna go see him and say so long. I'll ask him for some good drinking spots.
from thegoodbiboy :
OK, so you have a few things in mind. I may be wrong on this, but I'm pretty sure the Statue of Liberty is closed. I mean, you can look at it, but that island is closed to the public since 9/11. Times Square is cool, but at night, when it's all lit up. We'll figure something out to do. Hell, it's New York City.
from neangel :
omg a month???? how can you survive? ooh yeah masturbation can do wonders ;-)
from liquid-mojo :
The "FUCKSPAM" part should be removed. It's just there to thwart webcrawlers from farming the email off my webpage for the purposes of spamming.
from bare-my-soul :
hey, i meant to get back to you sooner, but as you can see i've been busy! yes, i would love to show you around nyc. call me. do you still have my number. and email me at rose_calderwood@yahoo.com with details of your trip, when you arrive and leave, where you're staying, and your cell phone and we'll work it out. i have a few ideas in mind. i look forward to meeting you. and also leave me a usernam and password for your diary, i need to catch up! love rose
from thegoodbiboy :
Hmmmm, not sure it was a good move to text, but oh well, it's done. Sometimes it's better to let sleeping dogs lie. Also, I was thinking about you coming into the city soon and what you wanted to do. I'd hang with you guys all day, but I'm not much of a tour guide. I can find out some good bars to go to for later on, and if it's nice, we should definitely go down to the water and have some cocktails. But, yeah, I'm down for the whole day. What do you want to see/do? Oh, lastly, Long Island is filled with people with stupid things on/in their cars. I have to admit, I do have a Ranger sticker on the back of my windshield, but it's small and it's the only thing on there. And it's one of those plastic ones that just kind of sticks to the window, but can peel right off. No NASCAR numbers or pissing kids on my jeep.
from neangel :
i think it could be cause i used to do a lot of body building when i was young plus all the sports i played were very lower body stuff like track, cheerleading [well that i was the strongest base so i had the upperbody too - now i have those damn big arms]. i don't know. i just wish i would have never stopped cheerleading i was in the best shape of my life then. i think they should have that as a class at gyms. that would be fucking awesome!!
from neangel :
damn that doggie. whatever like you said it won't last but you're right about that you shouldn't have given the satisfaction of knowing that you know and it bothers you.
from neangel :
i have a tendency to bulk. my thighs are really muscular naturally so that is the first thing to start. i will try that machine - well see if i have one at my gym... i don't know what we are going to do. i'd rather do nothing since i moved all weekend last week. maybe play poker & have a lot of sex. that will be enough along with hitting my hot tub.
from neangel :
i have bad knees so lunges & squats tend to get too hard plus i don't need my thighs to bulk up & those exercises hit those areas before the booty
from liquid-mojo :
You can send to: liquid-mojo@sexmagnet.com :)
from thegoodbiboy :
Your entries are so funny. Hey, I drive an SUV! I have a Cherokee Laredo. I bought it used ('97) but I keep it in awesome condition. There are so many red-neck types here on Long Island with those stupid stickers on the back of their trucks. I have a buddy who has a big pick up (for no reason whatsoever, he doesn't use it for work or anything). He has a NASCAR number in back. He also listens to southern rock (btw, he was born and raised on LONG ISLAND!). I told him, all he needs is a Confederate flag sticker and a gun rack in the back of the truck and he's full fledged trash. He's cool, though. But, I'm with you with those stickers, thoses guys are funny in a loser type of way. And the guy in the Camaro or whatever with the thong...now that is soooooo Long Island. To funny.
from velvet-heart :
I havent updated here because i moved to here [herdarlinsin] I was going tot ell you but your aol went offline before I had a chance to respond. So, there ya be pretty J :) Have a great one and I will be talking to you soon. *mwuahs*
from salazabr :
LOL...4 leaf clovers, rainbows, flowers, little high heel shoes and bows...got it, I'll see what I can do. ;)
from neangel :
he's the freak for having a problem with it. there is nothing wrong. i love smelling my own hair too. we women smell damn good why not enjoy ourselves?
from neangel :
hey what is wrong with smelling your hair?
from salazabr :
:D Yup, just like that! LOL!! Sorry, that's the only html trick I know. ;) WOO-HOO!! Can't wait for NYC!!! =)♥
from neangel :
i guess we'll all have to wait and see for everything!
from liquid-mojo :
No, I never got your username/password since you locked...
from neangel :
when in september? i hope not labor day weekend which it probably will be. i am hoping to go up north w/ Suisse for a mini romantic weekend perhaps in carmel. crossing my fingers.
from neangel :
nah i had tried to call him but he was all ready at the other Cheers. i did tell you all about him - HE RULES! ;)
from salazabr :
& h e a r t s ; with no spaces makes a ♥
from salazabr :
& h e a r t s ; with no spaces + ♥
from bigmonayho :
Ahhhh, he's balding though.
from sexyatheist :
but then you still don't want more men to be like him. because if they were, it would be more men who are awesome but don't get that pussy going.
from salazabr :
damn... :(
from salazabr :
WOO-HOO!! Congrats on throwing such a great party for OM!! That's awesome!! C'mon Supergirl!! One of us need to be going to the gym and kicking some ass and with me out of commission, that leaves you! You can do it and you know you'll feel good afterwards. Good luck!! =)
from neangel :
i don't know if i could move there... but it's tempting. if anything i would move near family but i don't know when even that would be. i wake up a lot & need to masturbate - i don't a lot cause i don't want to wake up Suisse but then again sometimes i do just so he will wake up & roll over... that gets him going everytime! thanks for the comments about torin too that means a lot. it's tough but yes it is for the best - for him it's the best. i need a work out partner - badly!! i need to get to that pilates class at 6:45 and the yoga classes again. i would LOVE to be able to wake up early enough to do that biking class but i am so horrible at hitting the snooze button. i am sure you look great. it's a nice image of the tight shorts too. lol
from sduckie :
hi, I've been reading you for a while, came back from vacation and you are locked up- can you email the password and stuff to me so I can keep reading? thanks!! sittingyellowduck@yahoo.com
from pageme :
No I didn't... and I must say I've been a little sad that I haven't been able to keep up with your diary. ;) You can email it to me, if you don't want to post it in my notes.
from thegoodbiboy :
I just don't like jealousy, eventually it will eat away at any relationship or friendship. I know she really cares for me, but she has to get over certain things that are A) in the past, and B) you can't change. We've all been there, though.
from bigmonayho :
Not unless you live in hicksville north dakota :P
from daath :
Hey you :) Could I get the username/password combo from you? If so, please email them at Daath4242@yahoo.com . Miss talkin' to you. Hope you're doing well, sweetie.
from thegoodbiboy :
Sounds like we sort of had the same weekend, did a whole lot of stuff, but really did nothing. And that Trevor guy sounds more like a dick then before.
from raven72d :
Hmmm... May I be allowed the password?
from thegoodbiboy :
At least you're not the kids teacher. You send your kids to school you hope to have some professionalism in the classroom. That being said, that's hot you would do him and I'm sure he would feel the same! There is something so sexy about being so bad!
from alure :
hey! just wanted to see how you were doing. great i hope. talk to you soon! cheers
from phangasm :
Yeah, and the worst part is that it doesn't get better with age, I'll still be a dirty bastard at 80! In my defense though, I do remember (usually) when my wife mentions something she wants for a gift. I'd be quiet about the surprise too - 50 only comes once and she deserves a big party, whether she wants it or not!
from neangel :
Ooh you mean i have to be gentle now??
from neangel :
Ooh you mean i have to be gentle now??
from neangel :
i still care... lol i have always wanted to have a cock for a day. although i kind of know the rush or power of the penis from my strap on days. there is nothing more powerful feeling then fucking a girl in the ass with a big black cock! lmao
from thegoodbiboy :
Not for nothing, this guy Trev sounds like a real dick.
from salazabr :
They did, and I now I have it along with Aveda Botanical Kinetics hydrating lotion (green glass bottle). :D They get here about 10:00 your time.
from salazabr :
NO!! Be strong, it might taste good but you know that as soon as you've eaten it you'll regret it and feel bad and all the greasiness is going to give you funky tummy too. Be strong! =) Think happy thoughts like Aveda styling foam with organic honey. ;)
from salazabr :
lol...too funny. Yup, can't miss step with your favorite instructor. ;) Have fun at step and dinner. =)
from salazabr :
LOL!!! Too fucking funny!!! hehehe!! I don't know you'll think of something, maybe LJ or BB or even Em will be able to do something fun. That other option is always open to ya know. ;) Oh c'mon...it would be fun camping out and you know they want to see their auntie J. hehe No idea what happened to Sexyoldman, maybe he had the same problem you did.
from salazabr :
Heather's coming down?! That's AWESOME!! Now I know you'll have a good time! ;)
from neangel :
nah it wasn't much more then a lot of sloppy making out. she kissed down my belly & wanted a lot more but she was really drunk & i wasn't comfortable doing that in front of bill [owner]& it was so hard to get her to stop. she was all up on my shit squirming on top of me & wrapping her legs around me & grinding. very very forceful & didn't take no for an answer until I said it for the hundreth time. should be fun down the road though! lol
from thegoodbiboy :
The latest entry (the foot entry) is a classic. There were a couple of laugh out loud parts. And I hear you about the lesbo girls. I was at a bar with the g/f and her friend and there were a bunch of lesbians at the bar that night for some reason. So, one is talking to our friend, they played softball together or something, and this other girl totally came over, interupted the conversation, and lead the girl away....and didn't leave her side after that. I guess even lesbians have issues!
from salazabr :
LOL!! You mean you don't have your own number in cell in case you have to cal yourself? he he ;) FUCK!! Are you serious?! That's fucked up, even for them that's pretty fucked up!! Hopefully he won't last long or something will fall through and you won't have to deal with him. ugh!! That just fucking sucks!!!
from salazabr :
LOL...got your text. hehe!! I know it'll get better, I'm just pissed is all. What about getting some sushi to go and catching some QAF for lunch? Ugh!! That sucks about this weekend but I'm sure you'll find something fun to do...you always do and you could always go capming. *wink* =)
from salazabr :
Nope, it's really not. :( What do you feel like for lunch? I'm jonesing for some seafood or sushi. Cool, I hope they're as good as the other ones were. ♥
from salazabr :
Getting screwed out of some OT, bastards!! Mostly I'm missing emailing...what are you up to?
from thegoodbiboy :
I'm online a lot, I'm on right now! Yahoo and AIM.
from neangel :
Oops that has now been corrected!! i am so bad at that. i rarely read my own profile heheh. miss u too!
from curioussara :
could i have access to your diary? sarah081069@yahoo.com.
from girlygirl83 :
hey can I have your un/pw.? My email is tahitiantreat00@hotmail.com
from pattymelt :
locked? what the fuck is up with that?
from phangasm :
I say the car salesman thing is right on, just make sure you get some good upgrades out of it! :-)
from neangel :
can't wait to hear/read about saturday? gd! I am jealous. in a way i am glad about s's mum leaving cause now we can be LOUD! let's get loud let's get loud! [singing to myself & groovin]
from salazabr :
LOL!! The Adam/Rich thing is really just too fucking hilarious. =)
from raven72d :
Great late night rendezvous... I do envy the guy... I like the thought of you in tiny black tee and grey shorts (but always-- no bra or panties)... I've always been a fan of late-night encounters...
from alure :
aww thanks! i cant wait to get my own house with a deck and entertain people under the glow of those lanterns! how have things been going for you lately? i've been so friggin busy with work. luckily i dont have to work at w@lm@rt very often and so dont have to deal with annoying people as often. you locked your diary? is that true?? can i have the password? i dont think i could get by without an ionme fix in my day! you can email it to me at alure_cross@yahoo.ca if you want. anyway, i hope you are doing great. and i'm glad you are getting lots of attention from hot boys!
from bare-my-soul :
when are yuo coming? are you coming alone? if you come alone and don't have a place to stay, you can stay a couple of nights at my place. i have a guest room! we'll have a pajama party. unless you'd rather a hotel. which i would completely understand. i'm looking forward to meeting you. very exciting! hey, J-Lo is conceited, not conceded. i've been wanting to tell you that for a while, but was waitinf for the right time. let's talk soon. love rose
from bixshortie :
'Iíd say heís about 5í11 175 & built like a fucking brick house. His waist is really small around w/ a 6 pack, his arms are mmmm wow Ė big ol biceps, triceps & shoulders & his ass was all nice & tight tooÖ.his skin was about as soft as mine which is surprising & he can kiss good too' ... wow! sounds just like my boyfriend. i kid you not. pics links are on my page, check them out!
from neangel :
Oohman i had that t thing happen in vegas when me & my best gf [lbg] got wasted at the club then ordered champagne while taking a huge bubble bath - apparently i was her first lesbian encounter & i don't even remember the kiss!! she did it all [according to her] & i am kickin myself in the arse for getting so wasted. it was a bitch to get out but i managed after a while just using my fingers. gotta love the booty sex - we just did the other night but we had to be quiet with his mom in the other room. we have sex nearly every night since his mom has been in town but always in silence & we are both so into drrty talk & being loud. we agreed last night that we can't wait to be alone again!!
from salazabr :
No, I'm not. I speak the truth and only the truth.
from salazabr :
:D As HOT as you think he was...YOU are and always will be the HOTTEST HOTTY in town, man or woman, at any given time. Trust me! =)
from salazabr :
:D As HOT as you think he was...YOU are and always will be the HOTTEST HOTTY in town, man or woman, at any given time. Trust me! =)
from thegoodbiboy :
OK, I'm over it anyway. I guess I'm irresistable to certain strippers!
from bixshortie :
good entry -- although i conclude that inebriated people should not get involved with tampons. in one of my states i once forgot to take the first out and inserted a second behind it, not realizing until the morning after... have absolutely no recollection of doing it. the removal... ew! gross story, but i thought you may like a bit of empathy... feel free to delete this note after reading! lol x
from raven72d :
This "Waffle House Guy"... I rather envy him his night with you...
from phangasm :
Wow, hot story about the waffle house guy! Too bad the day after's such a bitch :-( Sorry to hear about your mom, but it is good news it's not her heart.
from thegoodbiboy :
I'll check it out, see what it's all about!
from neangel :
woo hoo! give it up for horny spells. both suisse and i have been going at it since his mom arrived. almost everynight [only one night did we not] and last night.... ummm we shared some fantasies and really got into some good stuff - we're now planning on putting our haven't yet tried stuff but really want to fantasies into motion soon. man i can't wait!!! i've got to try that dancing naked in high heels sometime that sounds fuckin hot!!
from thegoodbiboy :
What's a grape propel???
from salazabr :
Does it have to be a grape one? *wink* Sorry you're so fucking tired.
from thegoodbiboy :
Wet sand in your panties? Sounds kinda hot!
from thegoodbiboy :
Thanks for the input. In this past year and 1/2, I've put up with a lot of crap, crap that if I was in it only to get laid, I wouldn't be putting up with, if that makes sense. From her issues to kid issues to stuff with her family....a lot of stuff. And no, I don't expect to get laid everytime I go over there, for a couple of reasons. The kid for one, and she's usually tired from work/kid that I don't even attempt to come on to her. BUt, I did tell her that on the weekends, when we are alone, yeah, I'd like to have sex. Usually we have one night alone, and we go out, and when we come back, I don't think it's unreasonable to want to have sex. This is not a fuckship, it's a relationship. If this doesn't blow over, then I'm getting out of the relationship business for awhile. I'm beginning to have it with relationships. Also, she is not PMSing, not at all. The bottom line is I can't be in a relationship with someone who doesn't think highly of me, and I'm sure she wouldn't want to be in a relationship with someone who thinks as lowly as she thinks I think of her.
from thegoodbiboy :
Your mother sounds....interesting (where interesting means a pain in the ass). Also, I can relate to being tired of perverts. Where I usually want to always be up to something naughty, sometimes I can be like, "nah, not today." Not all the time, but sometimes.
from alure :
lol, all the dumb fucks who overshare...i dont get why they would even think that something like that needs to be common knowledge! poor J, i hope it gets better!
from raven72d :
Wherever you live... get far, far away. Those people, that kind of place-- it'll destroy you.
from salazabr :
Yeah...someday...until then FUCK all those FUCKING ASSHOLES!! hehe =)
from neangel :
i;m such a retard - i always start on wednesday... doh!
from neangel :
my period hasn't lasted 7 days or more then 3-4 since I first started having it. i always start on monday & my period is like clock world. i could set the US satellite by my period. ;-)
from neangel :
Ooh good. hey i have a question for ya. i started last wednesday [period] and i just noticed i am bleeding again. i normally stop by saturday night or sunday morning. do you think there could be something wrong?
from neangel :
does that mean no updates for a while?? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! ;-) too bad you aren't coming out here for the next couple of weeks. how do you get so much vacation time? damn i'm jealous.
from salazabr :
I've got a huge smile on my face thinking of all the good times we had and am trying not to be sad missing you. =)
from neangel :
you are soo sweet for writing about me like that! I am all smilies now! Ya know if I can find a decent priced flight out there I will so come visit you! and I am going to start bugging you as much as GE about moving out here - you definitely need too!
from raven72d :
The California trip sounds excellent...
from purex :
oooo reading your entries make me want to go to a gay club SO BAD! i think as soon as i move to kc i'll do that.. thanks for the inspiration ;)
from thegoodbiboy :
Why would we be trouble (not that I'm disagreeing!)?
from azelya :
Damn, I should have gone to Girlbar that night instead of Key Club. Then you would have had a hot Cali girl to hook up with!
from thegoodbiboy :
Glad to have you back! I can't wait to read about more of your fun. I would have loved to have watched you girls dance. Damn, that must have been a site!
from salazabr :
I couldn't stop smiling...reading your entry and remembering... :D
from raven72d :
It took me all morning to figure out that Luna bars are Clif bars...
from raven72d :
Will we ever see photos of your sun-tanned self in shorts or short skirts?
from salazabr :
ROFLMAO!!! Yup,that's still fucking hilarious!!!
from neangel :
woo hoo can't wait to see you!
from thegoodbiboy :
Intrigued?
from sexyatheist :
i guess you're right. it's not too weird. but it is nice to know that i'm not the only one who talks outloud when i jack off
from thegoodbiboy :
Total skank is right. Boy, your weekends are just action packed. And I'm sure that girl hugged you, hot girls have this aura(?) about them, plus I'm sure you were nice. I would have liked to have seen an all out make out session, but a hug is nice! But it was good you can go up to her and talk in a civilized manor. That shows a lot of maturity. I feel like I should slap your ass like in baseball....or hot sex?
from salazabr :
I'm proud of you for how you handled seeing the cheater girl at DT. =)
from liquid-mojo :
Hey J, long time no talk. Since it has been like ages and since I'm starting to visit d-land a little more regularly, I thought I'd give you a holla.
from thegoodbiboy :
I'm glad I put a smile on that pretty face! That sounds great you'll be in NYC, we'll have to do something, for sure!
from thegoodbiboy :
Hi! That's funny you wrote about the behaving thing, because I was going to write the same about you! Self control is a bitch, but it's worth it for the right person! I got a kick out of the asl thing, as well. So teenage AOL! And I'd love for you hear my LI accent, especially when muffled by your thighs! J/K, but are you still planning that NYC trip???
from salazabr :
QAF is currently in Season 4. =)
from raven72d :
Hmmmm... Reading your entry, it's hard to decide: are you pleased or not that men notice you in shorts or short skirts? Is it a Good Thing or not to be a "pervert" and notice you as a physical/sexual presence? And what ratings (on a scale of...10? 100?) *are* you getting?
from phangasm :
Hey, I'm a spring pervert! "rating" your looks daily is pretty rude, though.
from thegoodbiboy :
I'll tell ya', you have a fun life. And you make me laugh when you describe it. You are a riot!
from salazabr :
LOL!! I can just imagine her in the courthouse making a huge fucking scene.
from purex :
Everytime I read "Doggie" I always think "Doogie" in my head. I must be retarded. I want to put glue in all of his locks for putting you on so many emotional roller coasters, DAMN IT!
from thegoodbiboy :
I have no idea what is going on in his head. The whole relationship is kind of crazy. But, like I said, if you're happy, that's all that matters.
from salazabr :
LOL! I actually did watch that Road Rules/Real World Thing last night too. How funny is that? ;)
from thegoodbiboy :
"You deserve my love." What the hell does that mean? How about he doesn't deserve YOUR love. I don't get it, but, hey, as long as you are happy, that's the important thing.
from salazabr :
Fuck anyone who reads you and judges you. It's your diary and you can write whatever the fuck you want to. It's none of their business.
from thegoodbiboy :
Your moms cats.....that's funny! Good entry indeed! And I don't get laid regularly, I get it weekly!
from neangel :
It's going to be so much fun! I don't think that was a slow or boring entry at all. i can't recall how nice that ass was as the majority of the time we hung out we were all sitting but i am sure it is quite the nice ass. ;)
from salazabr :
I can't wait either!!! ♥ And for what it's worth you have a SPECTACULAR ass!!!
from bare-my-soul :
we ALL have a lot to learn! and you will. and so will i. MWAH!
from salazabr :
I like your entry very eloquent. ♥
from garypharrell :
Um...it's a long story that i'm sure you don't want to hear, but it's all over now. I'm trying to remember the email address....I'm going to send one in a sec and just hope it's the right one. :)
from garypharrell :
Haha, you still have that crazy picture? Thank you :) Don't be sorry about the boy. They are nothing but trouble, just happy to be without the crazy one anymore. I shouldn't have stayed with him this long but it's hard to leave when you are scared of that person. If you ever get bored or need to talk...call me. I'm always around. :*
from thegoodbiboy :
Hi. First, I love just plain cheese pizza. I'll eat that anytime, hot or cold. At Taco Bell, I go with the soft tacos (3 or 4, depends on how hungry I am) with sour cream. As for beer, any brand really will do, but I drink Bud Light (or Mich. Lite) at the bars and if I go to buy beer for home, it's Rolling Rock, or their new version Green Light. That's good. As for your last entry, yes, I was still reading at the end because you're worth reading the whole entry. And as for the gym, maybe you're not losing weight because of the weight lifting you've been doing. Maybe your losing inches??? That's what happened to me, until I missed a week and a 1/2 and feel like a fat fucker. I lost inches but the weight stayed due to my lifting routine. Anyway, something to think about.
from girlygirl83 :
hey I just wanted to say that I LOVE reading you, although I had to delete you I still read you, good luck with the gym. I'm trying to start going again too, its hard to get in the swing of things. I'm alos gonna try to get a tanning membership, whenever I go to the gym I hope that your doing good! Dont worry about doogie, all guys are asses!
from thegoodbiboy :
I hear you with the diet stuff. My problem is I can't cut out eating certain things ALOT (pizza, Taco Bell) and forget about giving up beer, that's not happening. So, I'm looking for a quick fix. Forget atkins, I'm not doing that. I had shin splints before, fucking painful!
from sexyoldman :
Hi, here's an exercise for those shin splints. Get a towel, lay it on the floor near a chair or couch. Sit on the chair and put your foot on one edge of the towel. Then, with your toes, try to "scrunch up" the towel into a ball. Do that a few times a day with each foot. Also, get a paper cup, fill with water and freeze it. Then use it to ice your shins...do that twice a day for a week. Also, dont' run for at least one or two weeks. Hopefully, with the exercises, they won't come back. (And because we both know my background, I suggest doing all this while watching porn of course...lol)
from thegoodbiboy :
Jessica Alba is fucking hot, that's all I have to say about that!
from salazabr :
I promise that you're not unbearbale to be around. Quite the opposite in fact. I hope the Karma fairy finds you too. =)
from idiot-milk :
Saturday, May 29th! The Saturday before Memorial Day, to be precise. You should do all in your power to attend. There will be beer! And punch! And a giant inflatable Santa Claus! And gay boys making out in the side yard! And more! Just let me know if you might be able to attend, and I'll send along an invite with location and so forth.
from candora :
I write about emotional love and find myself browsing through sensual diaries today and loving every minute of it :)
from thegoodbiboy :
You're right on the money with that. Sex/Sleep is all the rain is good for.
from salazabr :
All the cool things in all the cool stores we're going to check out. =)
from salazabr :
I know...and think of all the BOMB things just waiting here for you to come get them. =)
from salazabr :
If you can hold out until you get here we can do some serious shopping in some really cool shops. =)
from sirkeljerk :
You know what, I would love to watch you drive yourself crazy with one of your own vibes! You're at the top of my list as well...
from thegoodbiboy :
I'm so honored to be in your top 3! Made my day! You know you're #1 on my list. That last sentence you wrote in the update was as sexy as you can get. I read it a couple of times. Be careful tonight!
from phangasm :
Whoops, my note and your latest entry crossed paths. Love Actually isn't too bad, I think. I didn't fall asleep or attempt to slit my throat.
from phangasm :
Congrats on your oral presentation, and seriously, what everyone else has already said about Doggie. Like someone else said, he wanted the last word, so let him have it and ignore him.
from thegoodbiboy :
Hey, it's me, pissy pants! You're funny. Also, you are not fucked up, he is. I think that message was his way of getting in the last word and making himself feel better. It was a half ass apology and not worth a response. I think that message was more for him then for you.
from bigmonayho :
You deserve a lot better than to be treated the way Doogie was treating you! Keep being strong, and everything will work out for the best!
from salazabr :
NEVER forget that you are an infinitely STRONGER and BETTER person than he will EVER be capable of being. Be as strong as we all know you are inside. Good luck!!!
from i-read-you :
Answers to your question: Delirium tremens, sometimes referred to as 'the DTs', has special features of its own. It affects people on alcohol withdrawal after a long period of heavy drinking. see http://www.nhsdirect.nhs.uk/en.asp?TopicID=150 for more. Also: http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/ency/article/000766.htm, and even http://www.yourdictionary.com/ahd/d/d0113200.html
from thegoodbiboy :
I'll stear clear of the cheat zone and keep it to myself! And, also, I'm still playing around with that camera. I had some good pics, too.
from thegoodbiboy :
Hey there! I'm sorry this all went down, but, in the end, it will be better for you. I know, I've been there. I've had that someone hurt me, and I did the whole wanting to sleep away the day. Eventually, it goes away. You move on, and start to have fun and meet other people and you grow up a little bit and learn. Right now, it's the worst. But there will be a tomorrow and the next day, and each day, it gets better and better. You'll see. Plus, you have some friends that can be there for you, either in Ohio, or CA or here on Long Island. It'll get better, and you'll be a better person from going through it. I know, I have been there. Like a little center going across the blueline with the puck, keep that chin up!
from i-read-you :
humor break: withdrawal from doggie AND the bar where you used to meet him -- would that give you the DT's?
from purex :
You sound like a super fun person, one heck of a human being, and your friend BB sounds awesome as well. Whats-his-nuts sounds like a giant douchebucket, and I am SO looking forward to hearing about all the fantaaaaaastic guys you are going to meet..! You should get all spicey and go to a bar/club you've never been to (or any place sans douchebucket).. I know the guys will be into you!
from alure :
aww honey. i'm sorry you are hurt. just always remember that you do deserve someone incredible, cause you are incredible. you will find someone who is worthy of you. feel better soon *hug*
from bigmonayho :
Hey, I locked my diary, but if you want the password, just leave me a note!
from leebozeebo :
It wouldn't have been right. Her laugh was mean-hearted in nature, and I was embarrassed. Damn you, pixie girl. If I see you dying I'm not clapping my hands at all.
from sexyatheist :
woman, never trust jessica's simpson advice on anything. that woman is dumber than can be
from salazabr :
:( For the record it's about 75 right now and not a cloud in the sky. Wish you were here...
from sexyatheist :
are you kidding? of course i'm in. i wouldn't miss it
from neangel :
actually no i'm free & clear. ;-) sorry cell phone joke. yeah i am in for gb!
from salazabr :
;P I'm not worried about my attire, we may need to go shirt shopping again but I'm good other than that.
from salazabr :
You'd think I would've learned by now huh? ;) If that's what you want to do Girlbar on Fri night sounds like a plan to me. I guess I'll have to break out the dress shorts and sandals.
from neangel :
as far as i know they only do girlbar on friday nights. i've never been on a saturday
from salazabr :
ROFLMAO!! OK...OK...you win, as always. I'll shut up and be good. =)
from salazabr :
lol! Ok...ok...I'm busted, but you were right there thinking it with me so :P. Damn! But now you have an excuse to talk to her, to ask her for her number again. ;)
from salazabr :
lol! I never said hit on her, only to strike up a conversation. If getting naked in bed together comes up then so be it. Don't you still have her number or vice versa? ;)
from neangel :
of course he can go but it's 20 bucks for him to get in & he has to all dressed up. it'll be no problem at all.
from neangel :
my baby LOVES ass play - on me. it took a year almost for him to let me try it but now i got him liking it too. we've been talking about buying more toys together for a while now. he love my toys & always asks [or actually tells me] to grab & use them so he can watch. we are such voyeurs together i love it.
from thegoodbiboy :
You know, I forgot all about the powder. Next time, for sure!
from phangasm :
I wasn't that horny before that entry, but now I am. Yes, please to anal play! If he doesn't like it, just tell him after he turns 40, the doctor's going to do it to him every year, so he may as well get used to it :-)
from thegoodbiboy :
You know I have. I've had fingers, toys (dildos, vibes and strapons)and tongues on and in my ass. Never the real thing, maybe one day. One of the best orgasms I ever had was with this woman who was into ass play with men. She had me lay on my back and jerk off while she rimmed and used a rubber dildo on me. Man, that was hot. Good times, good times! Maybe I'll write about this subject myself!
from elysium1982 :
i look forward to your entries all the time. wishing you better days. with or without the boy.
from thegoodbiboy :
Well, I hope I'm wrong, because you do love him and I do want you to be happy. It just seems everytime you confront him, it's, "oh, well, Miss is a bitch," or, "my kid is coming and I don't want to think about it." It's like he's stringing you along. Hopefully I'm wrong and it all works out for you two. I'll be jealous, though!
from bixshortie :
i thoroughly understand what you're going through, as i'm going through the same. jamie uses his son as an excuse in the same was as doggie is using his daughter; there's probably an element of truth in what they say but if they love us like they say they do, they'd find a way of having both in their lives somehow. looks like we're wasting our time, huh?
from neangel :
well since there is no huge lesbian convention anytime soon i would recommend girl bar in la. you can check it out at http://girlbar.com - it's a great place when there is no dinah shore or something. i'd love to go with & meet ya there! any excuse to go to girl bar is fine by me!
from thegoodbiboy :
I was working on some pics last night, but didn't like the end result. I'll try again tonight. I'm sorry, I don't like the whole my daughter is coming. That sounds like a line to me. I think he likes himself some cake, and he likes to eat it, too.
from salazabr :
There is a world of difference between concern and annoyance. I don't think I have ever been annoyed with you.
from alure :
awww its so hard to break that cycle, but doggie is so not worthy of your time. you definitely deserve someone who will treat you a LOT nicer than he has. i hope something works out for you
from thegoodbiboy :
You got, pics will be upcoming. If you have any requests, email me! I'll comply, anything to put a smile on that face!
from evilestone :
I've read you before... It's been awhile, but I have been here before. You are yet another in a long line of beautiful women I wish I had more time for... ; )
from salazabr :
No...it didn't suck. If its helping you at all then how could it suck?
from bigmonayho :
Sorry to hear you had such a bad weekend! Things will get better, don't worry!
from sexyatheist :
WOOO HOOO! well then that means we must do something fun and exciting. i'm really glad you'll be visiting again
from salazabr :
Thanks and I know you're not so I'm not either. As long as I keep improving and don't make the same mistakes twice I'm not too worried about it. =) PS. I'm already getting excited about the end of May, are you? =)
from frail-fairy :
Oh hunny - I'm having a depressing time with my bf right now! For the same reason! I've kinda fallen for him too and I feel just like you! Maybe we can help eachother through it LOL! Mail me okay! Thinkin of ya... L x
from pattymelt :
good luck with BB. i have been there you know. i finally just had to give up. the letter sounded go tho.
from thegoodbiboy :
Sounds like a good idea to me!
from bixshortie :
toxic, hmm... listening to that right now. freaky! my man (kinda my man) is toxic too, but then we all know I have a problem with substance abuse, lol. we're being fuckwits because we're on a learning curve. we'll get rid of them eventually, just can't force it to happen. xx
from salazabr :
I don't think you're too fucked up to recognize love. In fact I pretty much know you're not.
from thegoodbiboy :
Hmmm....I just don't get it. What are you addicted to? All those non-orgasms? All those lies and half-truths? Or how he disrespects you by trying to force himself into you without protection? The only explanation is you love him. There are so many other fish in the sea, but you keep hooking this one, so there has to be a reason.
from phangasm :
Hmm, good reds. You might try a Pinot Noir. Lately, I've been liking Beaujolais as well. Have fun this weekend!
from salazabr :
:D
from thegoodbiboy :
If you need any help with the sex thing, just let me know!
from thegoodbiboy :
Just read the entry you mentioned.....very, very, very hot!
from idiot-milk :
Dude. That thing you do, where you visit the Columbus area and only tell me AFTER the fact has got to stop! One of these days you're going to have to give me some advance notice, and perhaps we can get together for a BEvERage or three. Sheesh. Also? If you're not doing anything, we're having a party on May 29th, the Saturday before Memorial Day. I'm not sure yet of the theme, but we're determined to make this party count like a motherfucker since it may well be the last in this house. If you're interested, let me know. I can send along the invite when it's done, and give you all pertinent information.
from salazabr :
I must have missed that outtake...sounds hilarious. I want to say something but I can't think how and it's nothing I haven't said before...
from bigmonayho :
You have a very captivating diary. By the way, I think you should give doogie a swift kick in the balls.
from sirkeljerk :
Umm, your note was really hot, want to have dirty sex? Grrr, I am sooo feeling it tonight...
from salazabr :
OMG!! Why don't I ever get good dreams like that?! I'm getting exicted just reading/thinking about it...all the more so because I know how fucking HOTTT you both are in person.
from thegoodbiboy :
Great entry, a classic! I was laughing the whole time! Sorry you got stood up, though, but hey, his loss, certainly not yours! HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!
from salazabr :
*feeling even more specialer than I did yesterday* LOL! You weren't the only one laughing at "fuck him and his fucking ass cock". For the record I LOVED shopping with you and had a great time. =) And we've covered that you are NOT a snob. You just expect more of people.
from neangel :
wish u could come to vegas and hang out with and the girls! *licks & kisses*
from thegoodbiboy :
Of course, you are worth so much more then a dinner and sex! But, hey, I would take what I could get! Also, I just read where someone wrote that you can totally crush Doogie, I agree. Actually, I suggest you call him over, have him go down on you until you cum, then kick his ass out! Throw him a non-chalant, "thanks" on his way out the door!
from neangel :
NO SHIT!! If Suisse had an online diary I'd have all my answers!! things would be too perfect. if only...
from salazabr :
I didn't mean tonight or maybe even ever sillyhead...it's just something that occured to me. I know...I know...you already knew that and once again I'm a step or two behind.
from salazabr :
Well that too...but I meant by telling more about me and the trip...that sort of thing. But I like your thinking better. You are much more emotionally mature and stable than he is.
from salazabr :
Thank you, it's a fact that you're pretty special too! PS. You do realize that you do haev the power to compltely crush Doogie emotionally whenever you want to right? ;)
from salazabr :
LOL! That's not what I meant...it's yours to do with what you want. I wouldn't tell him where you got it though. ;) I meant I feel special because of what you said: "People in my life would pay some big fucking money to get a hold of my diary, lol. " I like that I'm the person who gets to cross all the boundaries and know the real you. =)
from salazabr :
I feel very special right now. =)
from salazabr :
You're going to have the lemon pepper shrimp at PF Changs aren't you...aren't you? I'm jealous.;)
from adrastos :
Hey babe - LOVE your diary :) J
from thegoodbiboy :
I just felt bad because I know you like him. But, from what I read.....he seems like a huge a-hole. The hottest girls always fall for the worst guys!!!
from thegoodbiboy :
The fact that he knows you want to use condoms but he insists on trying to do it without them makes him a huge a-hole. Sorry.
from sexyatheist :
they really are huge liars. it amazes me sometimes the shit that comes out of their mouths. ugh
from alure :
ahh dont keep me hanging!!! and thanks for the nice note :D
from salazabr :
*smiling like I just got caught with my hand in the cookie jar* I know...I know...but it seemed like the perfect thing to say. ;) Besides it's so rare that I ever get the chance to do it. =) I'll be good now.
from salazabr :
As a very wise woman once said: "When you've had enough, you'll know." You just haven't had enough yet. ;)
from purex :
Halle really does have a wonderful ass. You should rent Gothika sometime! Sounds like you were looking pretty good yourself in your outfit (that Doogie didn't get to see). That's awesome what you did -- ignoring him!
from salazabr :
I remember that jacket and how HOT!! you look in it every time you wear it. I can imgaine how hot you looked in that outfit and I wish you had been eating sushi with me here instead of there. =)
from leebozeebo :
Aw, you weren't dying for any of LeeboZeebo's sweet loving, girl. We'll just have to hang together and do things that friends do, like knit.
from alure :
i hope you feel better soon! thank you so much for wishing me good luck! i hope they get funding so i can make some money this summer! school is so fucking expensive and i dont want to get a loan.
from i-read-you :
you figured out where you are and why -- that's a good start. Next question is "do you want to change that?"
from thegoodbiboy :
Don't get to down on yourself, we've all been there and done that. Don't worry about it to much, things will turn around. They always do!
from salazabr :
You're no more messed up than the rest of us. Have faith in yourself that's you'll do what's right for you. I do. =)
from thegoodbiboy :
I have to try the g/g/b thing, that's one I didn't do. Or at least better bb/bb/g action.
from attngetter :
And to think Ms. Jenna lives minutes away from me. I promise to get something autographed for ya the next time she's shopping at the Fashion Square. I'm there way too often. Crush the stalker and let all of your supporters know who she is. : )
from pattymelt :
i am with you one the gettin' paid part. "honey, just leave it on the table, "thanks!"
from thegoodbiboy :
Hey, girl. You can use a strap on on me any time you'd like!
from ionme :
hey fruitncream - tried to leave you a note but it said you don't have a profile yet. thank you for reading :D don't be a stranger!!!!
from fruitncreme :
Hey girl, just letting you know that I read your diary all the time, and I think you rock! You're funny and interesting, and I always enjoy reading you. =)
from pattymelt :
like i need alcohol to make me a porn star? get real!
from chickpea981 :
Oh yes, and the strap-on thing... definitely one of my favorites. Hard to find the right kind of porn to suit me, so maybe I shoudl just start asking you!
from chickpea981 :
Has it been that long since I left a note, or are people just leaving you a bunch? Man. I think I might finally be caught up. That gym thing - yeah you're not alone. Cut the fucking cord on Doogie and his Miss. They are both mentally ill fools who need leashes! And who is this reading harassing bitch? I wonder if we have the same stalker.
from salazabr :
:D
from pattymelt :
well, stop it! you deserve so much better! you know you do! any time you see HIM or any of his "friends" say to yourself, "who? i see nobody. those people i THINGK i see? they are not real. they do not exist in MY world." plus, it's really funny when non-existant people try and talk to you and you look right thru them. :)
from bixshortie :
hey, that was an eventful weekend! why do we always end up hooked on guys that we know are bad for us? like me, sounds as if you just have to ride out the whole Doogie phase, there will be no stopping it, and we all have to do stupid things now and again... xx
from azelya :
Hey, thanks for listing me as a favorite! As long as you keep striving to improve your personal relationships to get what you desire, you'll see changes here and there and everything will work out.
from salazabr :
You're an incredibly strong individual and all this drams is nothing you can't handle. You're absolutely right that you can do and deserve better. =)
from thegoodbiboy :
Be strong! If you go to a bar and he's there, go to another, the beer taste the same! You're such a great girl, you can do so much better!
from samantha-rhs :
Hi J. Im also one of the 100.
from neangel :
right on GE!!! lol ;-) thanks for the note hun. everythings gonna be all right & i'm just focusing on tonight at girlbar
from azelya :
Hi, I'm one of the 100. I read you daily!
from pantypulldwn :
is tha someone i need to read the archives for??? wrestler?? i'm not familiar with that one, but hey. maybe you can inform me??? oh, yeah i have a couple like that....but boss OMG. he rocked my world.
from salazabr :
I'm sure Daath, Sexyatheist and neangel would back me up on this. You ARE REALLY REEEALLLYY HOT!! =)
from salazabr :
*sitting in Cali with a huge smile on my face* YOU rock the Kasbah!!! I still think you would look smoking HOTT!! in the BMW or the Mercedes too. ;)
from neangel :
i'm just as pervy at the gym! it's torture sometimes well actually all the time but what can you do aside from where a big i'm bi poster on your forehead so those who are interested can feel comfortable approaching or vice versa. ;-) *so jealous of the goodies!*
from sexyoldman :
If I knew your pussy was pulsating as you did that bench press, you'd have to lift more than that bar off you...I'd be on top of you in a flash! Thanks for the mental image...now I'll be closing watching all the women on the benchpress...lol!
from southernfun :
not sure about other people, but i'm bi.. i just hit on 'em until they tell me 'I'm not bi' or they tell me to stop... it works out somehow... makes great friends, to
from salazabr :
YAY!! For you for getting back to the gym!! =) Also Bound is definitely worth watching I think you would like it a lot. ;)
from thegoodbiboy :
'Bound' not only has some hot girl/girl scenes, but it's a pretty good movie. I'd recommend a rental.
from pattymelt :
you're not a bitch. some people are just fucking annoying!
from leebozeebo :
Maybe it's my browser, or maybe it's something you did, but your little dancing girl has gone APESHIT. Man, she's bumping and grinding at about 2,000 RPM. That's hardcore....hardcore SEXY.
from phangasm :
I was thinking about it, and I think the attraction of seeing if a woman would do it for money is sort of the same thing that makes people watch Fear Factor, you know? I think I'd much rather fuck some stranger than eat a bucket of worms, especially if someone was filming it, but who knows?
from salazabr :
lol! I like mine better too, mostly because it's the truth. =)
from bixshortie :
my notes are enabled, you left me one the other day... they're just... temperamental. for some reason... xx
from xwiseassx :
You just reminded me of a session I had with her years ago. Yeah, a new idea for an entry...Thanks
from xwiseassx :
Thanks for the note, It was short and staight to the point. I spent well over an hour, lost between my wifes thighs the other night if that makes you feel better.
from phangasm :
Glad you liked it! I actually wrote it with you and goodbiboy in mind.
from salazabr :
lol! I know you're not and knowing you're enjoying it makes me happy...among other things. ;) I know you would send it back but I don't want you to. I want you to bring it back or I'll come get it. Besides as far as I'm concerned it's yours now anyways. =)
from salazabr :
Ok...now you're just teasing me. Sure I have a great memory and sure when I still had it and was watching it. I was really thinking about something much hotter I saw...but still. I still haven't found another copy and kind of miss it. Oh well...I'd rather you be enjoying it. I don't really need that stuff anymore anyways. ;)
from conquestgirl :
Yes m'dear, I'm quite good. At least, I think I'm as balanced as I get! It's just that my diary reflect my life, and once I was out for the conquest and now I'm not. At this stage in my life, I think I've tried every thing I've ever wanted and the last thing I want is to settle into something sustainable. If that isn't possible (as we both know it probably isn't in this world), then I'll be happy being a girl on my own. All this time, I've explored sex because I was looking for the new experience and at the moment there isn't anything I want...which is to say, I think I'm actually content. :)
from garypharrell :
My boy is just that...a boy. I love him but he erks my nerves more than anyone I've ever met. Life is ok, on my end but not nearly as interesting as yours. Thanks for letting me live through you. You keep me entertained.
from sexyatheist :
oh god would i. but i can't even get the boy to ok me kissing a girl, let alone having her go down on me. maybe someday...
from garypharrell :
J, oh J...you never seem to have a moment to catch your breath! Atleast you can't get too bored. Well, I'm always here to listen if you need me. :::lots and lots of love:::
from bacaguy :
Ooooooppppsss you did it again!!!
from velvet-heart :
Its Friday?! Wtf... where did the week go? I need to seriously get L a i d. You avaiable? *snickers*
from salazabr :
NO! WE ROCK!!! *I want to say your my____ and I'm your ____ but I won't. )*
from salazabr :
Thanks! Duh! I knew that. *smacking my head* I'm also strutting around the office and cheering a little bit. ;) I've got to go to lunch and the post office. WE ROCK THE CASBAH!!! <3 U
from salazabr :
lol! Ok, I'll keep guard over our purse. Hey, remind me again what your eBay ID is. Like an idiot I forgot it. ;)
from salazabr :
Keep breathing and relax, she has no idea who she's messing with. You're damn right I haven't and I'm sure as hell not going to let some spoiled little brat get in my way. ;) (PS. Those aren't bids after the names. It's how much feedback she has. She's a rookie messing with a pro.)
from salazabr :
Ok, I looked at it again and I can see the paperwork and stuff so get an idea of the size. Relax...has your ____ ever let you down before? ;)
from salazabr :
Really?! Ya think? I always defer to our judgement on these things. =) Holy shit! Have you been watching it? Someone really wants it bad. ;)
from salazabr :
Yeah, I know what you mean too. ;) It's hard to judge size but I'm guessing it's close to your wine Coach wristlet. Consider it done. =)
from salazabr :
I would say around a $100 or so, no more than maybe $120 total. Just say the word...=)
from salazabr :
*huge grin* You can hurtme whenever you want to and I'd be on a plane in a heartbeat to let you. =) Duh...you don't think I know your favorite colour by heart by now. Remember the keychain I picked out. ;) Are you going for the purse?
from salazabr :
LOL! Hey, if you keep rolling your eyes at me I just might buy this purse and keep it for myslef out of spite. ;) ;P I thought it was that one. Didn't we see one like it at the store in Vegas?
from salazabr :
lol! I was joking around, hence the ";)" and the *smiling*. If I didn't want you to have them I wouldn't have given them to you silly. ;P What red dior? Want to shoot me the link? =)
from salazabr :
*smiling* I need to stop giving you all my best stuff. ;) I NEED to find another copy of that one. THAT scene is so fucking hot! =)
from velvet-heart :
Which one do you want love? jellybean461@yahoo, or myangelsrocks2@hotmail or seasons6@fidnet.com? Take your pick precious. What are you going to send me? ohhh that's right the picture... ooooooo hottinessss *grins*
from salazabr :
lol! Yup...I knew you'd know. ;)
from velvet-heart :
Link doesnt work for me..I wanna see hottiness too.. no fair you get to masturbate without me. Hmmpf.
from salazabr :
=)
from pantypulldwn :
roflmao! well he made his bad of lies now he has to lay in it! that's probably what's got his dick in a wad.
from velvet-heart :
I am? *wo0t* Go me.. how come you're never on aim anymore miss?
from salazabr :
Yes, they are both definitely seriously fucked in the head and you're MUCH better off without them. You GO GIRL!!! =)
from pantypulldwn :
good for you! that so sounds like something i would've done, call up the ex who is still emotionally tied to him! what an ass! high five sister! that so rocked!
from alure :
aww honey, doogie should be taught a lesson, the fucker! you do NOT deserve that kind of shit! i'm sorry you had to go through all that.
from bare-my-soul :
who preytell is the goodbiboy? if you're referring to ross, i'm sure there won't be any hesitation on his part, or mine! mmmm
from chickpea981 :
once again, I must reitterate that Cowboy = Doogie, Doogie = Cowboy. Crazy how you and I got in and out of relationships around the same time. Boys suck.
from velvet-heart :
Lets not forget all mean are dicklickers ok? I know I haven't left you a note in a very long time, but dammit J, I told you that you were better than that. And you agreed with me. So yea you rawk the panties off my bottom with my jeans on, and you aren't the displeaser that you think you are, its the guys that can't keep thier lies straight and never know why they end up getting fucked in the ass in the end. You should phone his work place and pretend to be a nurse and tell his superiors hes got ghonnorea. *rolls over in laughter* Hang in there babe you still rock the body and always will.
from salazabr :
;( No, you don't deserve any of the fucked up shit he is putting you through.
from bare-my-soul :
sounds like you've been up to no good! it's hard to catch up after a trip, or a long weekend, isn't it. at least you're onto saturday. i'm just finishing off friday! i just want to get to the part about today. i do hope you'll come here for the summer. looking forward to meeting you. love you, rose
from alure :
aww thanks hun. i know the mother situation will improve, its just so frustrating right now. I'm sorry about things with doogie arent going well. you deserve the best and shouldnt put up with anything less! if hes going to act like that to you, you should not have to put up with it. i'm glad you had some fun with a boy though ;) although it sucks you didnt cum :P oh! and i'm glad you had an awesome trip! thats so great :D
from neangel :
Umm yeah I agree with GE. I've talked about that too & men expected us to do that so they have an excuse to tell all their friends as to what happened with the relationship or whatever. SECOND. I am so jealous, you have so much sex. i can do that with women but not men. it's only suisse for me but gimme a hot chic anytime & i have no problem doin her! ;-)
from salazabr :
You are so NOT that girl! Don't let him make you cazy and do something you might regret later. He's not worth it. If he's stupid enough to let someone as amazing as you go so easily that's his problem and NOT yours! *huge hugs* =)
from pattymelt :
"i told you so"? me? never! **said with smug look** i know what you mean abotu coming back from vacation - talk to me about it next monday!
from salazabr :
=) My update is on the way, ladies first remember. ;) *hugs* back...I miss the real thing...
from neangel :
ooh i forgot to mention how jealous i am about GE lending u porn! i am in desperate need for some new stuff to view!
from neangel :
next time all 3 of us will get a room in hollywood on a friday night & take a cab over to girlbar & party the right way! ;-) if i didn't say it enough... it was so wonderful meeting you! we all are hot stuff & will have so much fun together! but no boys allowed [pour moi anyways] ;-)
from neangel :
i can't wait for u to come back out either! It was soo much fun!
from salazabr :
*beaming* "He treats me so good Ė too good even." It is IMPOSSIBLE to treat you too good. I'm glad and eternally thankful we found each other too. =)
from salazabr :
*huge grin* I can't wait to see you again and have another REEELLLYY (;P) great time together. =) I wish I had a pic of you in your coach hat. You have no idea hot cute you look in it. =)
from thegoodbiboy :
Of course I miss you!! I check your site everyday for an update, I can't wait to see what you've been up to!! Keep it wet, sweetie!!
from southernfun :
vacation vacation (sings a little tune) i wish i could go on a vacation somewhere other than my grandparents house..
from asitwere :
Hey cutie... hope all is well! I miss you. :-)
from bare-my-soul :
and YOU are so good, in being bad, that i love U! and when are you comin to NYC?
from neangel :
m'kay the # I gave u is my cell so i'll jump on the freeway to head there & hope to hear from you before I get there! ;-)
from neangel :
all right 7:30 see u there. should i ask for a certain table? will it be under someones name?
from neangel :
This coming tuesday? i don't see why not. which mac grill? i know the one in huntington beach but not fam w/ the long beach one. is there a long beach one? lol - i will make it though!
from neangel :
OMG! i haven't been able to keep up w/ my d-land buddies but i'm glad to have read today! YOU'RE COMING TO LONG BEACH?? If you are gonna be in Cali around my neck of the woods, which you are, we have to get together for a drink at least. There are a few good places to dance & drink in the LBC - well there is also girlbar in west hollywood on friday nights! We've gotta get together! ;-) call me or something 714-404-2645
from salazabr :
I can't wait to see you and thanks for the plug. =)
from salazabr :
*evil grin* Me too...and I remember a lot of details (like some of the ones I told you about) that are only for you, Lin and I to know. ;)
from bixshortie :
hey, ur description today of sex with doogie got all of my favourite positions... except missionary with my legs over the guy's shoulders... I swear, I could be you on so many counts. strange... xx
from salazabr :
Woo-Hoo!!! Vegas and Cali!!! I can't wait to see you again!! =)
from pattymelt :
i'm sorry! i just had to say that cause WBF is doing it like mad! and i know not all guys are shit but....you're not making him out to be mr wonderful. he sounds like a dick. plus, well, i hate a pussyman that says he hates something then doesn't have the backbone to get out, you know?
from salazabr :
In one week I get to pick you up at the airport, give you big hug and head to Vegas! woo-hoo!! =)
from purex :
mmmmmm, Coach bags
from salazabr :
It's never too late to ditch Adam and do Vegas without him ya know. ;)
from pantypulldwn :
roflmao! at least i've never shit my pants! not that i'd like to either! too damn funny, i tell ya'
from thegoodbiboy :
I didn't think you'd like my SATC page, but, hey, it's my diary!! Check out that movie, though, that's more like the single girl life that I've seen.
from velvet-heart :
Since your life is so busy and I don't see you online anymore- I'd though I'd take the time to drop a hello and a hug to you J. I miss your laughter, and funny sex jokes- oh wait - was that you that did that.. :) I still ♥ you cuz you rock my pants off. *huggles and snuggles*
from garypharrell :
Of course! I read you everyday, without fail. I will be more vocal now...it's so much more fun to read your diary than write in mine :)
from garypharrell :
I know I don't write alot...but I'm still reading you and you just get more and more interesting by the day...the Black Eyed Peas song is "Hey Mama", in case you were still curious. ;)
from bare-my-soul :
Please donít take that personally, I was worried about that. itís like the OscarsÖ.you have this speech ready, and you always ends up leaving someone out. I have all these buddies listed, and I knew someone would take offense. Iíll make it up to you. A blow job perhaps?
from chickpea981 :
Rock on woman! We should start a no-fake-orgasms-club or something equally lame. And seriously, how do you put up with the same job for 7 years? More power to you honey.
from i-read-you :
did doogie's ex stop living under the same roof with him or did you give up on that condition for sex? am I your only reader confused about that?
from salazabr :
WAY COOL!!! Yeah skirts would probably be best anyways, but you might need shorts when we walk around the strip with you on my shoulders and Adam laughing his ass of at us. ;)
from ionme :
primalgent - i can't sign your book or notes, you need to turn on your notes. thanks for leaving me one (that is if you ever see this) and that's not the newest single - there's a brand new one out but thank you for your help :) peace
from salazabr :
I refuse to believe that you wouldn't look incedibly fucking hot in shorts. We might have to add those to the list. ;)
from girlygirl83 :
hey~ I just was in the neighbor hood and decided to swing on by and say hey! and that I'm still reading you!
from primalgent :
I think the newest single from Black Eyed Peas is 'Shut Up'. Pretty good video and there is some eye-candy of the girl in there FYI.
from methybeth :
Bleah! I hate the smell of anything ribber or latex....that's why I can't go down on a guy if he has a condom on....yarf, it's disgusting. But then, a lot of people think it's weird that I love the smell of gasoline.
from bare-my-soul :
mwah! xxxxx
from sirkeljerk :
I so wish I could help you out with that. I can do clockwise with my tongue!!! :)
from salazabr :
*hanging head* check your email. I would have said it's chicken shit, not crap. ;)
from salazabr :
*hanging head* check your email. I would have said it's chicken shit, not crap. ;)
from salazabr :
Sorry...I acutally write more but sometimes I just don't post it.
from salazabr :
=) Glad you enjoyed the room and had a good time. Sorry you didn't like the finale, it seems like a lot of people didn't.
from salazabr :
"I donít think he knew what he was getting himself into in the beginning, I just hope that I am not too much for him to handle some day." That will NEVER happen! The rewards from US far, FAR outweigh any small bumps in the road. And yes, you don't really belong there, that place is not who you are. =)
from salazabr :
I hope you feel better too. =) Want me to burn you your own copy?
from asitwere :
Feel better. Aunt Flo will soon be gone!
from frail :
don't be so hard on yourself. you didn't do anything wrong! just be glad you see through the bullshit now and not way later down the line when you could be seriously hurt! some men are dicks. i wish an alarm would go off everytime a dick on a stick man was around. it would make life much easier. in the meantime, hang in there! u r too cool for this crap!
from salazabr :
You're not an idiot or a fool. You are an amzing person whom I care a great deal about and nothing will ever change that.
from salazabr :
Don't worry about me or us, we'll be fine. Just focus on you and whatever you need to do. I don't love it when he fucks up (that means you're hurt and that's the last thing I want) and I don't want you to be dependent on me. Your incredible strength and independence are two of your best and most attractive traits. I KNOW you can take care of yourself and you actually take care of me a lot more than you know. Thank you for that. =)
from salazabr :
*huge grin* Thanks again!! You deserve to be spoiled. PS. It didn't really surprise me either, I was sober and it didn't bother me to change in front of you. ;)
from salazabr :
Thanks, I can't wait to write the rest! Words can't realy do it, or YOU, justice though. =)
from salazabr :
Thank you!! I only treat you how you deserve to be treated. =) Hopefully you'll meet Mom sooner than later. ;)
from phangasm :
I'll fess up to being an unimaginative guy. It's true though, a little goes a long way. I still get the mindset sometimes that you have to spend a ton of money to impress, but the little things count for a lot. Maybe doogie just needs to learn that. My wife loves to get a card, but that's something I never even think of. I've had to get beat up a few times to understand that. For her, a card and breakfast in bed, or something surprising works well. I'd say you're not too unreasonable if that's all you want.
from bare-my-soul :
thank u for giving me a place in your life! when are you coming to nyc? love rose
from phangasm :
Hey, thanks for the note. That's a good point, confidence is a huge thing. Nobody likes a wishy-washy person!
from alure :
hehehe, maybe i should give you my address...geez i can be so blond sometimes! its alure_cross@yahoo.ca
from alure :
is your browser explorer? i hope not, cause then you should be able to see this http://www.geocities.com/alure_cross/seductive.jpg...you may have to retype the seductive part to get it to come up. otherwise, if you wanna email me an address for me to send the pic to you... later babe!
from alure :
wohoo! sounds like a very fun time with lin and GE, lucky girl ;) have a great week :D
from salazabr :
I don't know...I'm still debating and just trying to update about the rest of the weekend. Which was just as awesome and great. =)
from bare-my-soul :
i felt the same way about SATC, sweetie, the same fuckin way. i was sobbing. ridiculous. feel like i'm the one that's moving to paris and i'll never seem my friends again. i love miranda this season. she's coming into herself. oh paris. i love her new hottie, but he's not right for her. when will she learn? love rose
from sirkeljerk :
Pretty fucking hot J, pretty hot...
from bixshortie :
hey, lucky girl! you got assorted roses, jewellery, body shop goodies, porn, satc and an aveda facial all in the same weekend. i am eternally envious. your kisa puts mine to shame (i got one rose, and perfume), but meh - I'm happy! and still you remind me of me. lol! xx
from salazabr :
YES!! I am a very luck man (who will be updating soon) but it has nothing to do with "The HOTTEST and SEXIEST Thing I Have Ever Seen" and pretty much everything to do with "We have only begun this lifelong friendship as far as Iím concerned. Of course, friendship may not be the appropriate word. We do have a very strong bond that surpasses just a friendship..." Thank you for the incredilby kind words and know that you are worth everything I have ever done for you and SO much more. If I'm your KISA it's because you bring it out in me and make me want to be worthy of my Princess.
from phangasm :
Hey there, thanks for the note. I just caught up on your latest and I'm extremely jealous of GE!
from pantypulldwn :
sounds like youhad a great vacation. lol! except for the whole throwing up thing, that sucks. good luck on the next one!
from bare-my-soul :
hey, thanks J!
from salazabr :
Yes, it is really happening. Relax everything is going to be just fine.
from salazabr :
lol! Yes, yes I am. ;)
from salazabr :
"He inspires me; we feed off of each otherís strength and energy. We are better people because of each other. Thatís for sure. " Aww...Sweetie! Thank you for that. You inspire me and I know I am definitely a better person because of you. =) PS. I can't wait for tomorrow night so I can finally be there.
from salazabr :
Thank you, I knew you'd understand. Of course I don't know that I'd ever be able to not be completely open with you. =) Want to hear something funny? There's like a 40 degree difference in the weekend forecasts between here and there. ;)
from salazabr :
Right back at you Babe. It's been wonderful being in your life and haveing you in mine. And YES YES YES YES YES you do deserve everything and more. =)
from pantypulldwn :
hey, i was leaving sirk a note and read the little pink panties note you left, was that the color for the day? lol! hope you're doing better!
from salazabr :
NEVER settle for less than what you want and more importantly less than what you deserve. You deserve nothing but the best. =)
from methybeth :
hee! yes, weird...but good weird. :) thans for the kind words...it's funny, if someone had told me before she died that she was going to, I wouldn't have believed I'd make it though it either. But what choice do we have? humans are pretty amazing critters. thanks again, J.
from pantypulldwn :
cool, yeah. i'm going to have to do something about the text. you know?
from pantypulldwn :
oh, no! don't don't don't let things get you down and please don't tell me that you've been crying! that's so heart breaking, i know that they say they don't mean to hurt you, but it does hurt. it's like as soon as they say i don't mean to hurt you, the words just follow you already did, then the tears flood out. oh, god! if you need to, email me-leahsaa96@hotmail.com
from pantypulldwn :
have fun! sound like you're going through the same shit that i am going through with tjay. you and doogie, you're too much of a woman for me. i'm ready and he's not so i'm walkin' sister. you know?
from salazabr :
=) I'm scared and excited too but I think we'll be fine and it will be great and worth it.
from chickpea981 :
http://www.mypleasure.com/store/product.asp?cat=&dept_id=9081&pf_id=0677 and http://www.mypleasure.com/store/product.asp?cat=&dept_id=9081&pf_id=0505 I bought the second one a few eyars ago and when it came out it was $125... I got it for $100 and I felt like I had gotten a great deal. *sigh*
from alure :
ohhhhhhhhhh i love rabbit vibrators!! goodluck with the phone call, just remember that you deserve the best!
from bare-my-soul :
hey bubba, good luck with the phone call. love rose
from chickpea981 :
I had the REAL rabbit vibrator, the $100 one. My ex destroyed it in a fit of stupid jealousy. I've missed it so much. Nothing quite compares to that wonderful toy. *sigh*
from salazabr :
=) I like the facial! My turf or yours? ;)
from pantypulldwn :
i thought that maybe someone would. hey what did GE say to methybeth or what ever her name is. i'm still waiting for his response but i haven't heard from him??? oh, well. my advice to you is live and let live....life goes on and there are other opportunities knocking at your door right now, so go with it!
from salazabr :
Good luck I hope everything works out for the best and you get the resolution adn closure you need. =)
from salazabr :
Try to relax and focus on the good things in your life right now and not the bad.
from chickpea981 :
WHAT THE FUCK??? Kick his fucking ass! Just up and leaves for fucking Florida? It's Doogie-bashing time.
from salazabr :
lol! Next time I'll send some beans just for him. ;)
from salazabr :
Thank you Princess! I'm very thankful and grateful for you too!! =)
from bare-my-soul :
my last entry is for you my dear! we all go through it. love u, rose
from salazabr :
I can't really think of anything good to say that I haven't already told you. So I'll just say again that no matter what happens I'm not goping anywhere and if it takes me the rest of this lifetime to prove that then so be it. PS. Thank you Frail. =)
from pattymelt :
oh, and can we step back a few and take an inventory of the enormous amount of baggage that doogie is toting? lots girl! and you have done good by making your no casual sex rule...why not a no married/attached rule? after my last attached affair, i did and it has worked wonders!
from frail :
i've been with enough "asshole guy- bad situation relationships" to suggest a clean break with doogie may be the best thing for you to do. it sucks when your feelings get mutilated and you turn into psycho girl. that's not very becoming. i say give GE a chance. he may seem too good to be true. ( i thought the same thing about john and look, i am madly in love and i am going to marry the guy!). hey. you never know. good luck. & if u need anything i am here. :) cathy-ann
from frail :
i've been with enough "asshole guy- bad situation relationships" to suggest a clean break with doogie may be the best thing for you to do. it sucks when your feelings get mutilated and you turn into psycho girl. that's not very becoming. i say give GE a chance. he may seem too good to be true. ( i thought the same thing about john and look, i am madly in love and i am going to marry the guy!). hey. you never know. good luck. & if u need anything i am here. :) cathy-ann
from salazabr :
Princess, I'm scared too. But I have faith that nothing is ever going to jeopardize what we have now. Our relationship is only going to continue to get deeper and stronger and I wouldn't want it any other way. I'm not the one who's too good to be true...YOU are. Neither of us is perfect but have you thought that we might be pretty damn close to perfect for each other? I have and it scares me...in a good way, but still scary.
from alure :
i agree with sexyoldman. i hope it gets better! i dont like that you are feeling upset. boys are a good cause of grief, but they can also cause such happiness. just make sure you get more happiness than grief. hope you feel better honey!
from i-read-you :
profound thought: you deserve that for which you are willing to settle. you're the one who chooses what you deserve. Think about it! Hope you choose wisely, j. :)
from sexyoldman :
sorry about last night and all the crap you dealt with yesterday. Hey, sometimes a guy has a limp dick, it happens. It doesn't mean it will be limp next time. BUT, his comment to you that it was somehow your fault was so out of line you have a right to be pissed. You can take some solace in knowing he's probably freaking about it and wondering if he has permanent erectile dysfunction. If there is a next time, he'll be paranoid that he won't get hard and it could spiral downward from there. He needs to seriously apoplogive to you.
from methybeth :
I have every idea. I meant it, seriously. But man....I wrote that before I even read your latest entry. I'm not going to lecture you or even comment other than to say put. yourself. first. Who's WORTH that crap? Yeesh. You're welcome to come to Canada and hang out in my man-free condo with me, if you want. Bring ice cream...oh. wait. Atkins. *sigh* Okay then, bring bacon. Oh, and one thing about GE--try not to overthink the whole gift thing. I know it's hard, it was for me too...but he just DOES that. He's insanely generous-he still sends me stuff (not that kinda stuff, don't worry :^p) and we're just friends. I think he's one of the people who's actually made really happy by giving people gifts.I'm sure no strings came with it.
from salazabr :
I wouldn't say none... Ionme, right now my ONLY focus and concern is you and your wellbeing. Nothing else matters.
from methybeth :
Ok, screw everyone else's advice. FUCK boys. None of 'em even approach being worth any of this crap. *whew* Okay, carry on!
from salazabr :
Princess, you have my word. I'm sorry last night sucked, I really am. Are YOU ok?
from chickpea981 :
I know you want to trust Doogie, and maybe you should just give a little. Don't giv ehim full trust all at once. Trust is a wicked thing. It's so easy to break, it takes eons to rebuild, and yet you're expected to have it in a "good" relationship. I don't envy how you feel. Same damn situation I was in a month ago. He thinks I trust him, but there is a part of me that just can't quite do that. And anyway, diaries are meant for venting. They are meant to get your frustrations and inner thoughts out. Don't give a flying fuck what other people think.
from salazabr :
Sorry, but in this public forum I don't want to get into specifics. Unless you want me to.
from salazabr :
WOW! That was fast! ;) Do you remember the first time I talked to LJ with you? THAT is what she is helping me with.
from salazabr :
Thank you. =)
from frail :
hey. congrats on getting to the gym 3 days a week. & good luck with all your "make my jeans fit again" goals. i have those same fucking goals. god, i laugh at the slow-pokes at the gym. thinking the ten minutes at level one on a stationary bike will get them skinny! it's hilarious. hey- prozac is great for getting LOTSA sleep. but there is always xanax. (yum)! that will really calm ya down. take care!!!!
from salazabr :
*blushing* God, I LOVE it when you call me that Princess! ;)
from pantypulldwn :
listen, ionme. it's not the same you could suck all the cock you wanted and it still wouldn't matter because somehow this blow hole of a suck ass that you have at work has found some way to bond with the boss and it wouldn't help even if you did suck cock, really! lol! i hope that things get better for you at work, at least tolerable!
from salazabr :
I know, I'm thinking of you too. =)
from raven72d :
And do feel invited to explore my entries, too.
from salazabr :
Don't worry about me right now. Do whatever you need to do to take care of yourself and your well being. We'll be fine. =)
from velvet-heart :
Hey J dollface. Things between you and G will work themselves out just fine, try not to fret so much. The more you worry the worse it gets. If he cares for you as much he says, it shouldn't be a problem. But, if he'd rather have his emotions control the situation then he's a freaking moron, because he'll be losing you, rather than you losing him. *hugs*
from raven72d :
I'll be a reader from now on...
from salazabr :
Of course you didn't upset me. It's me who should apologizing to you (and am in email) for last night. Once again I let other drama affect us and I should know better by now.
from raven72d :
The "salt and magic boobs" entry was a delight... My first thought: in a Maine winter, do you have to spread salt on implants?
from salazabr :
Still feeling like shit but thanks. =)
from pattymelt :
hurry up weekend and get here! and i have monday and tuesday off too! whoohoo!
from salazabr :
Thank you for the incredibly kind words. I look forward to the chance prove your O.M. wrong. =)
from pantypulldwn :
just keep your head on straight and make educated decisions. in the end everything will work out, everything happens for a reason.
from pantypulldwn :
just keep your head on straight and make educated decisions. in the end everything will work out, everything happens for a reason.
from pattymelt :
haven't done anything yet. i have a couple of days off next week. i'll look into it then.
from girlygirl83 :
Hey~~~ I know that you don't really know me and vise versa, and that we don't really talk alot or whatever. I feel compelled to tell you that you should meet GE. I know that I talk to my 'online' guy alot, just as friends but the thing that keeps on running through my head is "what if" "what if we really did actully meet and what if we really liked each other" "if we did meet would he be a gentleman?" or "would he just try to get some sex with me, and that'd be that" You know. I think that if I had the chance to meet my 'online guy' I would. I don't know though. The more that I Think about it the more I think that my guy would just be a dick to me and try to have sex with me. I kinda know that would be the only thing on his mind.............. I just got on a huge long tangent. I'm sorry. I think that you and GE have a better relationship than me and J and I think that you should meet him. Oviously there are feelings there. I mean I know that you have a b/f now, but if it's just as friends and it goes no-farther- than that. I think that you should. I know for a fact that "what ifs" are always gonna run through my mind about my guy. I don't know. I assume the worst and that he'd only want to do one thing with me. I can't really think that he'd want me to be his friend and be nice. I don'tk now. I am just writting about non-sense now. Sorry. If i do think about how it could be very positive, I'll get sad. I hope that this has helped you in some way
from salazabr :
LOL!! I'm sorry but I think I just felt a shift in the force and can't tell if it's a good or a bad thing. All joking aside. You are getting some great advice from some great people. All I'm going to say is this. YOU need to do what's right for YOU, and no one else, and what's going to bring YOU happiness. That's all that the people who truly care for you want.
from methybeth :
Meet him. Things can go one of three ways, as far as I see it: -you stay with Doogie and are friends with GE -you get together with GE and stop seeing Doogie (staying friend with him or not is irrelevant for the purposes of my point) -you ditch both of them and end up with some other great girl or guy, or on your own. The thing is, all four of those options are great and have their ups and downs and decisions--but none of them can even get started, either as a relationship or as healing and just being friends--until you meet. 'Til then it'll kind of be a purgatory. Which is not too far from heaven sometimes, but you can always feel hell, too. I know. I'm not going to tell you whether or not to be honest with Doogie, 'cause I don't know the guy and he's not my concern. But that's my advice, whether you want it or not (heh)--meet GE sooner than later.
from pantypulldwn :
just give it a little bit of time. don't rucsh into any decisions right now, this seems like a very crucial moment in your life right now.have fun and see where things go. btw, i wouldn't take you off my buddy list because yuo aren't slutting around like me, lol! it's not for everyone. just don't over analyze things, take them one day at a time. tomorrow is another day, and your life can take a turn at any given moment!
from chickpea981 :
I feel your pain, I really do. I don't write about it, but I went with my GE and I'm glad I did. Sometimes you have to let down one of the good guys. It's the way things go. If you find that GE is as wonderful in person as he is elsewhere, then you might be wise to break it off with Doogie. But if it doesnt click in person, then you don't have to worry about it. Just try and breathe and be yourself.
from xwiseassx :
I really don't see a problem juggling the two of them. I figure egos would get in the way though. My problem is that I don't know if I have a small ego or the jealousy factor switch has never been activated in me but I would never and never did mind sharing a girl the one time I knew about it. I guess it bothered the other guy a lot. Too much ego. I say let things ride a bit longer and stay sensative to those little warning bells that say when something is not kosher the act accordingly.
from xwiseassx :
I am not a huge fan of pubic hair. I fear gagging on a hair and ruining the moment. Done that. I puke if there is an eggshell in my eggs, or a bone in my fish. She is so happy with them though, I can't ask her to shave them off. Wish me luck.
from salazabr :
I know, me too :D Thanks again. =)
from salazabr :
It didn't occur to me but it doesn't bother me if it doesn't bother you. I mean all the major players know anyway, right? =)
from salazabr :
Go right ahead, I would have more links but I don't know how to do it. ;)
from frail :
don't worry. whether you are miserable or elated, your true fans will stick around. :) !!
from bare-my-soul :
you wont' lose me. you deserve to be happy. keep it cumming! love rose
from pattymelt :
in mind? like for a new layout? some sexy hot boy....just that. why? you gonna do one for me? it might keep you out of trouble!
from xwiseassx :
Sounds like you had a good weekend and no conflicting emotions this Monday. We not any seriously conflicting ones anyways. I'm glad for you. Talk to you later.
from pattymelt :
new layout? maybe when i figure out HTML? or when i talk someone else into doing it for me? (i like the last one better)
from chickpea981 :
budda belly? arms that are 22 inches around? *drool* I lust after your man! I give serious respect to you for standing your ground and not letting him fuck you. Even more respect for spitting that spunk OUT! Love a girl who sticks to her principles!
from salazabr :
I'm going to ignore the whole costanza esque worlds colliding feelings right now and just say that someone very intelligent and wise gave you some pretty good advice. Except for the whole "nice guy" part, the juries still out on that one. ;) Remember that all the "buts" can add up very fast and even the nicest guys can turn out to be compete fucking assholes.
from pattymelt :
ok, i'll admit i haven't read the WHOLE last entry. damn, girl! you really need to update over the weekend so monday's aren't so fucking long! i stopped when i realized your BOYFRIEND picked waffle house over craker barrel! when the fuck! oh, and i am right there with you on the finger and lick the clit at the same time. so good! so any guy reading this needs to bone up!
from methybeth :
Christ. I've had that pulled on me before, too (the whole "I'll just slip this in here real quick and maybe she won't notice/mind even though we've talked about it 80 billion times" thing). Why do guys DO that? I understand getting really worked up (probably as well as anyone.), but if you've talked and established what you want and don't want--yeesh. And it's so insulting, because of course your body WANTS the sex, so it's like they're hoping your body will override your brain. Which is scary. Fortunately, not all guys are like that. Also fortunately, it doesn't sound like he's a bad guy--just got carried away, maybe. nice to say hi to you--and thanks for the compliment. You have a nice voice, too. :)
from salazabr :
Thanks Babe. Stay tuned for the entry about the amazing woman who "I have connected with beyond all other means in the past". I'm working on exactly how to describe how much she means to me and how important she is but words might be inadequate to describe my feelings for her.
from salazabr :
Thank you. Right back at ya. =)
from velvet-heart :
Have I ever told you how much I envy you J?
from salazabr :
Yeah, the psycho hose bitch ex sounds pretty bad. Hopefully he'll get his shit together sooner rather than later and she won't be a concern. Just keep doing all the right things and don't let his drama and problems infect your life. =) Don't worry about GE, if he's as good as you make him sound he'll understand and want what's best for you. =)
from bixshortie :
sheesh, his ex *does* sound like a psycho... or maybe she just loves him too much. love can be destructive sometimes.
from xwiseassx :
I am not in any way condoning your boyfriends lying, but maybe impressing you is very important to him. Or he is a pathological liar. He is either a hopeless romantic or a defective person. Sorry I can't be of better help here.
from salazabr :
Aww...sweety...I'm sorry things aren't looking so hot right now. But don't rush to judgement until you know everyting. In the meantime remember to protect your heart, keep doing all the right things like you are and you'll be ok. =)
from bixshortie :
Hey, for some reason can't sign ur g-book, keep going round in circles... anyway, stumbled across your diary somehow, and finding it compulsive reading. Sounds like you're really into Dougie - if it's true, follow your heart. But hey, it's your life! Keep up the good work. xx
from xwiseassx :
Looks like you have a good plan, good luck to you.
from salazabr :
Great note. Good luck and remember not to let his drama invade your life. They're his problems, NOT yours. Don't let him drag you into them. You're doing all the right things, keep it up. We're proud of you! =)
from bare-my-soul :
good luck with this new relationship...sounds like you have your hands full! the ex sounds like a bitch! love rose
from salazabr :
LOL!! again. If he does ask you that I hope you RUN not walk away. ;)
from salazabr :
Still ROFLMAO!! Yes, yes it is. ;P
from salazabr :
ROFLAMO!! 2
from xwiseassx :
I would be suspicious of any advice from an ex about my ongoing new relationships. He probably wouldn't mind seeing you go down in flames so to speak even if you two are amicable, his ego might be a touch resentful. I would just wait and see what you get dealt and not force any issues yet. Enjoy the ride Sweetie.(The last is just a figure of speach by the way, not an endorsement to throw your New Years resolutions out the window).
from salazabr :
Yes, you're little and cute but I still think it's a little weird. ;P
from pattymelt :
i am always up for dishing out advice! i just want everyone to be happy! (but not in that creepy, sweet way. just content i think!) good luck honey!
from salazabr :
You're doing the right thing. You need to worry about and take care of yourself and YOUR feelings and happiness first and foremost. If he can't understand that, it's his problem not yours.
from methybeth :
i have a hard time sleeping, a *lot*, and sleeping pills don't do fuck all for me, nor does Tylenol PM or anyof those. the one thing that does is NyQuil, for some strange reason. Not the caps, just the liquid.
from salazabr :
huh? I have no problems at all with Doogie or GE. Your happiness is all that matters. ;P
from salazabr :
Thanks alure =) Beware of humor as a shield, sounds like Doogie likes to do that. You've got a good head on your shoulders, make sure you to use it. I'm all for following your heart but no one hear wants to see you get hurt again. =) Doogie might be moving a little TOO fast for comfort and that makes me wonder why.
from pattymelt :
go to pureromance.com and look for coochy. it's one of the top sellers. you'll love it!
from alure :
i agree with salazbar message 1 and 3 :D hope the rest of your day is great and you get to see doogie :D:D:D
from salazabr :
Of course I don't care if people talk, I was making a joke. =) I say go with it for as long as it lasts. Why can't you be happy and think about your guy? Sure it's maddening but if it makes YOU happy then where's the harm? Enjoy it while it lasts. =)
from salazabr :
If Doogie cares about you as much as he claims to there should be nothing he wouldn't be willing to handle or deal with. Especially if he is your friend. Fuck...is this 4 in a row? People might start to talk. ;)
from salazabr :
LOL! Only laughing because I feel your pain, been there and done that. I think that the friends thing will be ok too. You seem aware of it and want to try to avoid the whole "ditching friends for your man" thing and that's the first step. On the other hand your good friends should understand that this is the early stages of a relationship and that you want to spend lots of time with him.
from salazabr :
Thanks, I hope I can find a good one close to work and home and that I'll actually get motivated and go. ;)
from salazabr :
Good luck with going to the gym. Although I am sure you are beautiful and have great legs, just the way you are. Make sure you are doing it for you and not anyone else. =)
from xwiseassx :
Thanks for being a bit envious but that is not a lot of sex in me and my wifes case. It is practicaly celibate, brrr, there is a horrible word, celibate.
from salazabr :
Yeah, three months is definitely a little early. Just my two cents. =)
from alure :
hey hun! doogie sounds like such a great guy! i'm soooo happy for you :D:D:D i was also wondering how that stuff is working for you???
from purex :
congrats on the prince charming!.. he sure sounds like one at least :)
from sex-n-pot :
AH HA! i found one.
from chickpea981 :
GIRL! I go away for a few days and you find a man? I'm trying in vain to catch up. Sounds like he's a good one. And guess what, I'm also in the gushy irritating stage so you're not alone!
from sirrybeans :
Oh how fun!!! I'm so glad you had a good time. He sounds dreamy. The first night together should be memorable!!!
from sex-n-pot :
like i said, i cant use designers who don't host the images. i have no money to host them myself, i am but a poor sex addicted fool. what can i do? :-)
from neangel :
so glad to hear about doogie! congrats girl!
from salazabr :
I hope Doogie brings you nothing but happiness, good luck. =)
from bare-my-soul :
i'm so glad you met a real gentleman! happy new year! loev rose
from girlygirl83 :
awwwww, that's cute that you got a man!! He sounds cute and nice!! When is it gonna be my damn turn? haha.
from velvet-heart :
Happy New Years love. May this new year bring you more happiness than your last and may you have a greater learning of more things to come. Much love, Huggles
from sex-n-pot :
yea, i know, not very original...but i dont have the money to get the one i really want made for me, nor can i host my own images. so i have to deal with sloppy seconds...i dunno i might end up going back to my old one. i dont think im liking this one.
from salazabr :
:D
from sirrybeans :
I cannot wait to hear how your nite goes. Sorry about the dirty hands. FUCK the people at your work. Jealous assholes. I hate people like that. Have a great time and update soon.
from salazabr :
Oohhh!! Roses, how cool is that. Have you ever thought that maybe he doesn't deserve you? Just a thought...
from sirrybeans :
You'll love the spray on tan. Promise no streaks. It's wonderful!!!!!
from neangel :
yeah it's from tiffany's & he is trying to think of something good to have engraved on it. hence why it is not engraved now.. aren't they beautiful
from sex-n-pot :
got a new template...tell me what you think. i dont know if i like it or not.
from pantypulldwn :
so you haven't seen a pic?
from pantypulldwn :
btw, i'm dying to read part two.
from pantypulldwn :
you must tell me, is he as hot as he sounds?just the dirty emails he sends me is enough to get me fantasizing for weeks. he really knows how to talk to a lady, plus he's a great writer. i love that sotry that he wrote for you. i've been waiting to sent him a pic. until he gets back anyway.
from pantypulldwn :
you must tell me, is he as hot as he sounds?just the dirty emails he sends me is enough to get me fantasizing for weeks. he really knows how to talk to a lady, plus he's a great writer. i love that sotry that he wrote for you. i've been waiting to sent him a pic. until he gets back anyway.
from ionme :
yes, sirk is definitely a hot one, not that i've seen his picture but we talk a lot through email and stuff. your notes are really awesome, thank you for your support and encouragement. :) good luck on getting new toys!!! ciao
from pantypulldwn :
did i mention that confident women get hit on a lot more than shy ones, most men would like a woman with confidence and personality. not a dead fuck. hah!
from pantypulldwn :
i so would love to see a picture of the two of you! you sound so damn happy! god, i miss that feeling. isn't sirk a hot little number? sounds like the kind i would give the ride of his life, chaps and all!lol! i'm investing in some new electronics today!hah! oh, yeah and before i forget, it's your body language that you give off. men react to it, so they take things are far as they can go, after all that's all they have. we're on the other side too, it's a guessing game we may never figure out.hope you're having a good day!
from salazabr :
LOL!! I know you were, I was teasing too. =) I'll explain the Deja Vu thing later. Hope your day is going ok. Only 3 hrs left. =)
from salazabr :
Oh christ, I'm getting a serious Deja Vu feeling! ;) For the record, I WAS NOT flirting and I apologize to everyone if it seemed that way. Yes, I am an idiot and found where her notes are. I am in fact a dumb ass. Can we be done torturing me now or is it still fun. On second thought, if torturing me is in any way making your day a little brighter, then by all means. Please continue. =)
from salazabr :
Hey!! Not flirting, just wanted to send my support and well wishes to someone who I enjoy reading. Someone who has no guestbook, notes and I can't email. ;P
from salazabr :
Ok, is anyone else dying to know the other sides of these conversations? And Pantypulldown, if you read this. I'm sending you good thoughts and good luck in this new phase of your life. I think it will be for the best. I wish I had a way to contact you.
from pantypulldwn :
yeah, the fuckin' bastard. i wanted to kill him. the nerve of some men!
from pantypulldwn :
that FUCKIN' rocks! i'm so happy for you. just play it by ear, besides the guys financially stable and two hundred dollars really won't break him. he's got his own vehicle and you probably wouldn't mind spankin' that ass either, am i right?lol! see, cool shit does happen to you!
from pattymelt :
get someone to take a new years pic of the two of you! then you can send it to me! hey, did you see where enrique cut his mole off?
from pattymelt :
maybe it's a sweller. WBF's is a bump when he is drunk but swells to enormous size with a little sucking! i will cross my fingers for you! (not just on the size thing but on the whole relationship thing)
from xeriphism :
hey u, merry xmas and happy new year this is a bit belated i've been um, offline for a while updated the site at last too :) yay hehe anyway talk sooner or later :) G.
from pattymelt :
you so did not answer my questions!
from salazabr :
Good luck with the new guy. He sounds like he has potential, baggage, but potential. (PS. I DO think he's too old and not even remotely worthy of you.) Oh...and thanks for the note. :-D
from pattymelt :
glad you had a good time over cmas. mine will not really be til new years day. we'll see how it goes. wouldn't it be nice if mom's just gave us dildos and porn? perfect! oh, and maybe some cash! so about the new guy...so he has good lips...did you cop a feel of his package? what would you do if he was hung like a mouse? just wondering????? :-)
from leebozeebo :
Hey, baby girl, how was your holiday? I have to say, that milkshake song just doesn't do it for me. I fail to even see the booty-shaking beat. I can't dance to it. It lacks the real dance club action that a good Missy Elliot tune brings to the table.
from pantypulldwn :
he left today at 3 p.m.
from purex :
Hey, just started reading your diary and wanted to let you know you sound really cool - I'll be adding you as a favorite!
from bare-my-soul :
happy holidays gorgeous! love rose
from sex-n-pot :
got a new sex story up, read it and enjoy...and happy holidays
from pantypulldwn :
it's all there baby, read it and weep. from laughing that is! lol! shitty things always happen to me!
from pantypulldwn :
it's all there baby, read it and weep. from laughing that is! lol! shitty things always happen to me!
from pantypulldwn :
i bet it doesn't beat my weekend! lol!
from phangasm :
For a guy who's not supposed to be getting any, sounds like Jim-Boner is going to have a lot of fun! How cool is it that he's playing along with you? Can't wait to hear how it turns out.
from alure :
hey hey! hows the stuff working?? i hope it is :D do you get this week off for christmas or do you still have to work your ass off? i sill gotta work my ass off :S oh well, its money
from phangasm :
Very hot entry! I wish that my lady was into masturbation, but alas. Forget fuckbuddy, I need to find me a masturbation partner.
from neangel :
Wow! I just love to watch guy's masturbate! Suisse does it for me all the time & he always places my hand on myself so he can watch me too! Good for you too I am so proud!
from pantypulldwn :
i know what you mean, i tried to consolidate my credit card debt and they pretty much laughed in my face because i didn't have more than 5 grand in debt. bastards! i'm right with you sister.
from conquestgirl :
:). Thank you for your kind words and for suggesting my diary to your friend. Very cool.
from xwiseassx :
Now I promise you it will be easier to fulfill you latest urge with a guy than it is to pick up anothe girl...lol. Thanks for the suggestion about conquestgirl, she has an awesome diary.
from pantypulldwn :
you should get into sales. i'm a mary kay consultant, as well and my first booking i sold $800.00. where else can you make $400.00 and not be selling your ass, you know? i'm not agressive about it and my cutsomer keep coming back for more product and the product sells itself. go for sales, that would rock.
from velvet-heart :
You are adorable and make me laugh all day long. I love it. I *heart* you :)
from neangel :
hahah I love pink. not only does my exgf look just like her but her mom is pink's esthetician. she gives her weekly facials etc.
from alure :
thats so rad!!! i'm so glad to hear it :D good luck on that exam :D
from i-read-you :
I won't elaborate on your notes page. Find Me another way. ~grin~
from xwiseassx :
Do see the problems us guys have? It is hard work to pick up a girl, hell, its hard enough to figure out we might have a chance. I'll let you in on a secret. Everytime, and I mean everytime I have ever gotten laid it was always a big surprise. My face must be comical as the head of my dick enters a pussy I'm sure my eyes are bugeyed and my mouth is a big 'O' . You women were and are a huge mystery to me....lol
from pantypulldwn :
sounds like adam is a capricorn. the little fucker.
from xwiseassx :
But I don't want to die from V.D.!!!!
from velvet-heart :
Have I ever told you how cool you are? I mean uber awesome bombing rocking the floor sexy movin' shakin that ass gettin the grooves on sweat dripping off your body making me moan kinda cool.. *grins* I'd give anything to go out with you just once. Pity I live so far away. Tisn't life a shame.. Glad you got to hook up with Lynda tho. She is fucking awesome aint she? And I only by what I read- her humore would open up a comdey club. God damn if she wouldn't be rolling in the dough, gettin all the hotties and saying fuck you to the mall. *hugs babe* Have a great one...*sneaks off to write porn*
from alure :
horray for odaban!! does it have those nasty side effects like frickin drysol does?? hope work is going well :P hehehehehe
from idiot-milk :
Oh, absolutely! I must thank you for setting up me and my little love monkey, LeeboZeebo! Though, as I mentioned, I am now conflicted. I want so many boys! Why can't I have them all?!
from i-read-you :
chuckles, seeing how much pantypulldwn likes your Czech boy toy. Reads your words "Iím telling you, I need an older man. These boys my age arenít grown up enough yet." and smiles.
from alure :
oooh i like that one! hope all is well with you :D
from pantypulldwn :
that's the type of guy i would back into a corner and fuck the hell out of. don't blame yourself for all the ugly people in the world that think they're beautiful. jsut feel good that you let them know the truth.
from pantypulldwn :
that's the type of guy i would back into a corner and fuck the hell out of. don't blame yourself for all the ugly people in the world that think they're beautiful. jsut feel good that you let them know the truth.
from pantypulldwn :
that's the type of guy i would back into a corner and fuck the hell out of. don't blame yourself for all the ugly people in the world that think they're beautiful. jsut feel good that you let them know the truth.
from pantypulldwn :
that's the type of guy i would back into a corner and fuck the hell out of. don't blame yourself for all the ugly people in the world that think they're beautiful. jsut feel good that you let them know the truth.
from alure :
awesome! hes totally gonna get what he deserves!
from neangel :
yeah!! kick his arse to the fuckin curb!
from velvet-heart :
And you're very welcome sweetie. If you want to talk you know where to reach me. *huggles* You sweet thang *wink*
from velvet-heart :
And Jim is an ass. Don't even waste her breath on him love, you're worth so much more than being someones' fuck matt. You're not a dog, not a whore or anything else for that matter. You have morals set for yourself. Don't lower them because of an ex.. especially one like him- careless selfless bastard. Hes doesnt' deserve your love. *Yea* Stick to your guns heart, and let him blow in the wind. *muah*
from pantypulldwn :
seems like i spend a lot of time here, i know but years back i would sleep with all kinds of guys and suck cock left and right. you right, there was something missing. i didn't care about myself or respect myself and before you can do that, you have to be happy inside. i completly understand.
from pantypulldwn :
that's what i ended up doing! lol!
from alure :
hey hun, i dont think you want to get re-involved with jim-boner. i know hes not going to give you what you actually need. you need someone way way way better. but about finding that someone...i dont know what to say, i believe in fate a little bit so if it happens with someone its meant to you know? i think the major issue in breaking your cycle though would be to figure out what you really do want, stick to those qualities, and push past being afraid. dont let being afraid stop you from getting to know a person really well. it'll be hard but firstly, you need to to get away from jim-boner and the like and secondly, i know you can do it! i dont know if this makes any sense or if it evens helps you at all. you can always email me if you wanna chat more too (elle_ehx@hotmail.com) or just leave me a note. :D
from pantypulldwn :
can you email me, i'd like to go into something in your last post a little deeper. i'm at leahsaa96@hotmail.com
from pattymelt :
i just think we need to party together. before i get too old!
from i-read-you :
you know that "deep fried" is really "boiled in oil," right?
from neangel :
you're not the only one. i can't wear them to bed & half of the time i don't like wearing them during the day
from velvet-heart :
I added you to my old aim sn ok? I hope to talk ot you again my lovely lil flower.. *ha J is no flower - she's deflowered.. and then some* You rock my socks off.. Oh I should so tell you what I did on the cam *faints from self absorbing shock* [Fans self] and wooo you missed it by 20 minutes babe..♥!!
from i-read-you :
make up your mind -- do you want notes or a shower buddy? ;)
from pantypulldwn :
listen sister he's the only man that does it for me. of course he doesn't touch me but i'm telling you, even if i were a man enrique would give me wood. ever have an enrique fantasy?oh, i live for those. lol! you crack me up.
from pantypulldwn :
enrique? he makes me wet, my favorite song from him is, si tu te vas. the boy is hot like his father never was, i mean i would spank his ass anyday. he looks good in everything and anything he says in spanish sounds like the sweet nothings you wish to hear from any man. he could be saying go fuck off in a nice way, but as long as it's in spanish i deep to my knees for him, high five!
from neangel :
the draw back of having a tag-board = no one leaves notes or comments. the draw-back of NOT having one = same damn thing! hopefully that chick calls you she sounds hot.
from velvet-heart :
Password is in my profile
from idiot-milk :
I thought I'd already responded to you, but it turns out that I suck and didn't do it. Yes, we mostly got rain. But that didn't stop the anuses here from bitching and moaning and generally pissing me OFF. Stupid fuckheads. And I don't believe this talk with Karma will do ONE damn bit of good. At least it hasn't yet. Bah.
from neangel :
yay hockey! I love me some hockey.
from girlygirl83 :
I wish that Aiden would come to my door too! I laughed when I read that! He is hott!
from salazabr :
Hey you. Just wanted to leave a note to show people still use this thing other than xwiseassx. =)
from xwiseassx :
Keeping you knees together does not garrantee Mr. Rightwill come along Sweetie. Hell. me and the wife were doing the deed hours after we met. Shit happens. Phylosipher Allan has spoken. As an aside, when I get 'It' on a regular basis, I seem to get more chances to do it with other women. I think this is so because I lose that hungry hunters look that scare women...lol
from xwiseassx :
Keeping you knees together does not garrantee Mr. Rightwill come along Sweetie. Hell. me and the wife were doing the deed hours after we met. Shit happens. Phylosipher Allan has spoken. As an aside, when I get 'It' on a regular basis, I seem to get more chances to do it with other women. I think this is so because I lose that hungry hunters look that scare women...lol
from xwiseassx :
The new year is fast approaching, are you sure you want to be a goody-two-shoes? They are usually a bit on the dull side you know...lol And I don't think there is a dull aspect about you. Later.
from girlygirl83 :
Hey girl! It sounds like you're living it up! That's soo cool! I bet you're haveing fun! I wish I got that lucky!
from sirkeljerk :
With all of my...er, cock. And my balls. :)
from sirkeljerk :
You slut! Damn, I sit home and write about it and there you are out, putting my poor fantasies to shame...so sad.
from alure :
hehehe, the experimenting was pretty innocent, we were little and would just get all naked and i think we played doctor or something like that. but later on my best friend and i would read her dad's porn and get off ;)
from xwiseassx :
Maybe the taste has to do with a guys personality. Well, maybe because I'm sweet and nice my cum tastes nice...lol
from velvet-heart :
*rolls over in laughter and hits the floor* Thanks for the virtual screen of self satisfying sexual oragasms J. You floor me. *picks self up and dusts the cobwebs out of my head* In minutes eh? Damn. I wanna watch......
from velvet-heart :
You make me want to run to my closet and get it on all alone while I have fantasies about the things you write. Is that a bad or a good thing? Heaven only knows, oh yea Chrissy is gonna do the finger ma diddle tonight- which takes me hours.. dammit! Oh well the longer the better the sensation the harder the orgasm.. Thanks J! You've made my night to be memorable. *hugs*
from xwiseassx :
An old girlfriend said she could taste curry in my cum. She hated curry. Being the selfles guy I am, I havn't touched a curry dish since. What I'm trying to say is diet affects the taste. As an aside, I have come in a lot of girls mouths with very few grimacing and holding the throat and gagging episodes, I attribute that to my clean living....lol
from pantypulldwn :
to tell you the truth if you did talk to slim he would probably cum all over himself. he sounds like the type, you should tell the people you work with that you're looking for someone with a little more balls. lol! see what they think about that. besides do they think you're easy or what? it's kind of insulting, like you can't find a man on your own who you don't work with! take an advil and a water pill you'll be fine. as far as the bitchiness, you may never be cured. i still can't find a cure for mine.lol!
from pantypulldwn :
to tell you the truth if you did talk to slim he would probably cum all over himself. he sounds like the type, you should tell the people you work with that you're looking for someone with a little more balls. lol! see what they think about that. besides do they think you're easy or what? it's kind of insulting, like you can't find a man on your own who you don't work with! take an advil and a water pill you'll be fine. as far as the bitchiness, you may never be cured. i still can't find a cure for mine.lol!
from velvet-heart :
Yes it is, and well to be honest I found you through Anegls diary, and I was intrigued by the letter J and I followed your link to here and I was like OOOOOOOOOOOOOO tra la la~! Sex and other secnes of fun and I started reading your entries and read quite a few. I do love your words and I realize underneath the hurt and love for lust and sex, there's still the baby in you that wishes to be held and told that every things going to be ok. I do hope that you can handle the entries that are the worst in my diar.. there's quite a few. (From Otcober) In one of your entries you had said that you wondered if anyone out here suffers and feels heart ache like you do *raises hand* I do. And, we are now hereby joined at the hip, so to speak. Take care J and have a lovely day- well, in hopes of getting laid *wink*
from velvet-heart :
I have added you to my list- beneath everything you are - you manage to turn me on with your sexy words and scenes of lustness and Italian memorabelia. *winks*
from xwiseassx :
It is never a disaster, and I won't hold a grudge if a girl won't let me cum in her mouth. After all, its the actual blow-job that counts. I bet the juice behind the ears would really work, all those sex pheromones....let me know...lol
from xwiseassx :
Can you write something that doesn't turn me on? Sheesh, lying in bed with your friend masturbating. I do have work to do but now I'm way too uncomfortable....I love it!
from leebozeebo :
Sorry, bunny bear. I'm rather red-faced, now.
from alure :
i totally experiemented with my friends! we used to go into my sauna where we could lock the door...;)
from alure :
hahahaha i used to do that when i was in elementary school! i used those thick markers, and whatever else had a somewhat cylindrical shape!! hahahahahaha
from frail :
the new layout looks great. and i think i may need to borrow that accounting book of yours. : ) !!
from neangel :
i love it! the pics are awesome! i need to go to a strip club again... it's been waaay too long. hehe i've been told i'm f***in amazing in the 'food' department. i love it what can i say? geez that's twat i miss most! ;-)
from lesbiansex :
sorry! i didnt mean to not give you the password! username- fuck, password - me
from bare-my-soul :
awesome entry! wish i could have been there. was on the other side of that equation in my early twenties. always preferred to dance for women. love rose
from xwiseassx :
I would have sacrificed my left testicle to have seen you at that strip club getting a lap dance. You better believe I'm all hot and bothered now. I couldn't sacrifice my right one as it is a persoal favorite of mine...lol I really loved that entry.
from xwiseassx :
I love your layout, Next in line to breasts, lips are the sexiest thing going. nice choice.
from xwiseassx :
It is high maintenance guy friend I was reffering to..lol. As I never ever had a real just a friend as in the female gender side of things I don't know if they would be high maintenance or not. As for dating you lovely creatures, I insist on taking the tab for everything, I mean thats what credit card were invented for, right? Later.
from alure :
awww, thanks sugar!! good luck with you too! you are gonna rock the casbah! and i love the new layout! trŤs belle :D. hope the work day improves/did improve :D ppl at work can be the biggest fucks ever, i sometimes wonder how those kinda people made it through highschool alive you know? anyway, have a great day :D and good luck with everything!!
from chickpea981 :
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Que Bonita!
from chickpea981 :
I didn't think you were accusing me! I figured you were just flustered about the layout. That shit happened to one of my other diaries once, so I understand. Anywho, sounds like your job and my last one have a lot in common. I up and walked out one day after being humiliated in front of a waiting room full of patients. Found a job in construction and then for my dad and it's been the best switch I've ever made! Maybe you need a career in a whole new field?
from designsbyh :
glad you like it. i'll email you the code :)
from pantypulldwn :
glad to know that someone elses life sucks too. lol! yeah i know what you mean. my second husband isn't going to be a broke joke. i would lose the blind date, if he's over 25 and has no cash, don't walk away, run away as fast as you can. you know? also a factor, does he still live at home? because if he does, that's really shitty living at home and still being broke. good luck!
from bare-my-soul :
hey you, how's your accounting class going? great to hear from you again. let's talk soon. love rose
from liquid-mojo :
Sure, my skills are available to you at any time. ;)
from liquid-mojo :
Hmm, you wouldn't happen to have a copy of that image saved somewhere would you? If not we may have to find another image...
from liquid-mojo :
Glad I could be of inspiration... ;)
from neangel :
mine is this saturday too but now I am just worried that suisse will have still not called me & flake out then I'll be stuck there alone & also in a huge king bed/hotel room at the Hilton alone. i don't want that.
from neangel :
I'll look for it oniine! thanks doll!
from xwiseassx :
I used to like your old layout, a nice fad in and out gave it a serene, erotic feeling Too bad its gone. Don't give up all hope girl, there is better out there...lol
from xwiseassx :
The last paragraph in my entry today is for you. You were gypped honey, bg time. Those amatures give other great cousin teams a bad rep.
from azelya :
Umm.. that guy Mick sounds like a total jerk. How come those cousins weren't working to please you, instead of the other way around? Personally, I would not give that guy another chance, no matter how hot his ex is. Heck, you can just meet up with her without him!!!
from neangel :
cool deal look forward to it!
from neangel :
ooh is it good? what's it called?
from neangel :
well good luck getting it fixed. you can add it back really easily yourself.
from neangel :
ahh i miss the tag board. i know how you feel. i've done the same thing [years ago] & have felt the same way. it takes a while but it will pass. mwah
from chickpea981 :
No I didn't, I lost your PW and login a while ago. I noticed that a password prompt showed up when I went to read your diary the other day. I'm guessing the person who hosts your image locked their diary? Don't have a clue about the tagboard.
from xwiseassx :
I hope you had a blast! My cousin and I have double-teamed a girl a few times and never heard a complaint yet....except for soreness...lol
from alure :
kay-bug locked her diary! why??? can you help me?? oh and i want more on your night ;) talk to you later
from xwiseassx :
Never wash the good fingers after eh? Another excellent reason us guys should be kissing ladies hands when we meet them..lol
from ms-ashlynn :
He turned 11 last friday- 11 years old!! When I think about that Im always like- da-yum, what the hell would I do with an 11 year old you know? I can barely take care of myself. So I guess it's a good thing I dont have him. Although there are times I have to remind myself of that fact. I used to talk about it more in my dairy- it's in my early stuff, but I dont talk about much of anything anymore hehe. Oh well. Have a good T-day.
from xwiseassx :
I just answered you on MY notes. Pretty smart eh?. What I said was "Hairy or not hairy, I'm positive you're perfectly acceptable. Have a great and raunchy night!.
from liquid-mojo :
Yeah just when you think you are totally over someone, BAM! some wicked reminder comes up. Anyway thanks for the note of encouragment J. I definitely wouldnt mind a little happiness in my life and I wish you find yours as well. :)
from xwiseassx :
Good luck on your match tonight if it cums about. Try to get a pussy sleeper hold on his fuck stick and you'll win...lol
from ms-ashlynn :
My mom and dad didnt talk to us about sex or anything like that either. It was too 'personal'. My mom was great in every other area, but she never talked about sex. It reddened her face hehe. So for you 2 months into your freshmen year you lost your virginity, and 4 months into mine I had a kid. At least when/if we have kids we'll know that we have to talk them right hehe.
from alure :
awww that was so sweet of you! thank you so much! i really really hope that it works *crosses fingers* how have you been lately? i hope well!! i've been busy like hell...not even enough time for sex *sigh* i hope to hear from you soon with positive results!
from frail :
i just wanted to let you know, i greatly appreciate the notes, emails and insight you provide me with. oh- and i LOVE your diary. thanks, cathy-ann
from xwiseassx :
That was a sadder story than my spin the bottle story, by far. I'm sorry to have dredged those memories up.
from girlygirl83 :
that was really hot entry! I liked it. tahitian is now girlygirl83
from xwiseassx :
That was a scorching entry. I too am a wreck.
from sirkeljerk :
Consider me wrecked...
from sirkeljerk :
Plus the thought of you and Sara masturbating is going to wreck me...
from sirkeljerk :
Glad that you took my confession well hun, it was meant as a high compliment. I really enjoy reading your diary and think that your outlook on life, sex, and fun is fantastic. Plus a exhibitionist streak, man, we really would be gangbusters. *Fans self in attempt to cool down at work* Hope the good day continues!
from curioussara :
If you can't messenger me, I'm going to masturbate and think of you....will you do the same?
from curioussara :
The idea of you masturbating to my entry is enough to make me want to masturbate...yahoo messenger me at sarah081069
from ms-ashlynn :
Oh My Santa Claus- that is the cutest thing Ive heard in a while. I must steal it once or twice ;).
from xwiseassx :
I think you knew exactly what you were doing to your poor unsuspecting male readers, hopefully some female ones too. Tease! Tormenter! Torturer! Don't worry about this dudes hairy bag catching fire, I can always soap them babies down...lol. As an aside, us Canadian sailors were called Hairy-bags, go figure. I have no idea if other nations sailors are called that, but it is funny.
from xwiseassx :
Are you trying to give me a spontaneous orgasm on purpose? That you were telling one Heather what you asked another Heather to do to your large breasts is, to put it mildly, extremely erotic. I'm at work with a tent-on and I get called to the floor. With some frantic adjusting I can sort of hide it but in my mind, my crotch is playing a trombone and waving sparklers around. It feels that obvious. If I give my hours of work, would you ladies keep it mild? Just kidding, I love getting wound up like that, it's so, so, sexual...
from xwiseassx :
Austin Powers had 'Tackle n bait' and Twig and berries' and probably more...
from pantypulldwn :
glad you're feeling better.don't let anyone hold you back from writing in you diary. that's what it's for. if you start a new diary let me know, so i can put you on my fav. list. btw, i hope you never become a "cutter". it's very very sad. i have a cousin who's a cutter, and she hates the world around her. it's a never ending battle. you're not a whore either, I AM! lol! keep your head up kiddo!
from xwiseassx :
How do these tickle you? Winkie? Willie? Or johnson (never understood that one, I think its British), tallywhacker, woody, pecker, rod, staff, stiffy, chubby, pudgy or pole? there is Love stick, heat seaking moisture missile and my all time favorite, the one-eyed-trouser-snake! That kind of burned me out...Later
from chickpea981 :
see... I don't want a relationship. I don't want this restriction either. I can't make up my fucking mind. To me, it's a simple: What he doesn't know won't hurt him. End of story. And amen to the dildo and debit card thing. I'm starting to think you're right.
from sexyoldman :
I hope things improve. Man, what a bummer...the only sex that happens in your apartment is between two other people? Oh well, I'm sure Michigan will kick Ohio State's smug ass. Go Blue.
from xwiseassx :
That's the way to bounce.....back! I swear I wasn't talking about your boobs! Hee, hee, I even giggle typing boobs! What a lovely word.
from tahitian :
and a whole lotta feeling sorry for my self and tears. Sorry i forgot that part!
from tahitian :
Hey girly, I've been where you are right now. I was there two weeks ago. It hurts really bad. I know. Its weird how we can have 'feelings' for someone we don't even know, but I sure as hell know we can. Its weird. I hope you feel better. It took me 2 weeks of not talking to him to realize that even if we can't have 'feelings' that I still wanna be his friend. I hope you feel better soon! I'm sure you'll meet another guy soon!! I know it hurts. I hope you feel better!
from xwiseassx :
Where is that damned number dispenser? (Peering around desperatly)
from xwiseassx :
I am not belittling your heartache in any shape or form here. Keep in mind that us guys are so interchangable it isn't funny, we are literaly a dime a dozen. Unless there is a 12" schlong with a matching tongue you'll have nary a problem getting over and replacing the jerk, Remember, men are common/numerous.
from pantypulldwn :
i love queer as folk. i would so spank hal sparks and bryan (not sure what his real name is) well they're all pretty cut e in my book. except emmit he doesn't do it for me.
from bare-my-soul :
now you're talking. get to the heart of the matter and FEEL it. cry. it's good to cry. why are we all ashamed to feel? to be honest? to be vulnerable? underneath all that fuck talk there is a little girl that just wants to be loved like everybody else. give her a big hug for me. a week from now you'll be in a better place. love rose
from xwiseassx :
I hope you don't have to lock up, but if you feel you might have to, well, follow that instinct. Something is making you wary and you should head that feeling.
from xwiseassx :
I think we all would like to hear your lost virginity story. What if we all asked nicely?
from bare-my-soul :
hello my love! yes, you must have gold. gold gives you a way to track how many people are reading you, and how the heck they're finding you! very interesting stuff! worth the 10 bucks for the three months. hope you are well. love rose
from xwiseassx :
By the way, I find the fact that you made out with her extremely erotic regardless.
from xwiseassx :
I know a lot of guys would pull that stunt on a woman, hell, I probably have too, though I can't recall any time, but to have a girl do that to you is just strange! Maybe she has a lot of male hormones coursing through her...lol
from xwiseassx :
Sounds like you met a class A cunt tease...lol
from neangel :
ooh good i didn't get you into trouble! You have a great weekend as well! I can't wait to read about it on monday!
from pantypulldwn :
you don't have to have a lightening storm just to have a power surge. if you pretty bad power outage that can cuase all you electrical stuff to get fried. also just the satic electricty from running around on the carpet, with shoes on or off or what ever... is enough to give your tower a bad enough surge to blow out your modem or ethernet. i work for a computer company.
from pantypulldwn :
i've always lived in south texas where it never snows. i so jealous! beside sounds like you're an attractive woman, go out there and find yourself a lust cock. there are plenty of men out there that are more than willing.
from neangel :
yes I was serious about missing the snow! It's been over 10 years since I've been back to Alaska where I was raised. I probably wouldn't want to live in the snow again but to visit it for a while - sigh! I need a vacation again!
from firefly4u2c :
I know I have been neglecting you...I'm sorry. There has been too much going on to even be able to think straight. Involves new living arrangements, packing, moving, current money issues, parent issues and much more. If it would make you feel better to say those not so nice things, then feel free. I deserve it and I'm sorry for adding to your bad day. When someone is around the house more than usual, I don't really find time to be able to type or call. I'm sorry, I have a lot going on.
from pantypulldwn :
it turned out to be a threat, that really pisses me off. i was really excited, even called up some friends and made plans.
from bare-my-soul :
thanks so much for your support! sorry to hear about your hair. if you were in nyc i'd tell you to go to my friend lola. she's the BEST! love rose
from xwiseassx :
I want to go and get that porn now! If your not in sales, you should be...lol
from xwiseassx :
By the way, your little comment on how you just masturbated to anal porn was the most erotic off the cuff remark I have ever heard. Now I have to go mastubate.
from xwiseassx :
I thought I might have had the wrong porn. No, I have never seen her have anal. Though I have see her tongue a girls ass, again I think it was Jill Kelly, they did a lot of movies together. I think they even lived together for a while.
from xwiseassx :
Eye Spy Jenna, is that the one where in one scene she did something rare? Like let the male cum in her mouth? Not the usual 'open mouth wide and spray over face' et al. Then she grabs Jill Kelly and drools the cum into her mouth. Very hot scene, and no pair of girls has ever done that for me.
from xwiseassx :
But I love watching my wifes face. She bites her full lower lip, slightly off center, turns her head to the side and has a wonderful frown. I especialy see this when I go down on her...Jeez, I am horny...lol
from xwiseassx :
Enough of my face already, where is that damn light switch?...lol
from xwiseassx :
I have seen my cum face in a mirror, it ain't pretty!
from neangel :
yeah I did last night w/ suisse & I ended up sitting ontop of him & before he knew it I slid him into my ass & rode him long & hard! omg! it was fucking amazing! i can't get enough of the dvd!
from xwiseassx :
I'm going to scour your diary looking for those two episodes and the fem kisses...I have to find them, I must!
from sirkeljerk :
Is Jeni Jenna Jamison? Regardless it is hot that ordering even an imaginary friend to go down on you gets you off...
from xwiseassx :
What a coincidence, I too have masturbated to Jenna Jameson on occasion! When she performs oral on a male or female, she gives 110% effort. I find her one of the all-time hottest porn actresses around. It took many, many hour to figure out what was tattood (sp?) on her tiny ass. I loved that research...lol
from xwiseassx :
You don't hold your breasts like they were a baseball bat..lol you just swing your chest side to side, mmm meaty silky soft breast weight hitting my face. God I love breasts!
from bare-my-soul :
sorry your sinuses are acting up. your heart skipped a beat with jim because there has to be feeling there? as for the bunny at the porn store, is it pink and it vibrates? i have one! miss u too. hope you feel better. love rose
from asitwere :
Okay, though I freely admit to being a snob, I also freely admit to being a dumbass. Yes. Stupid. Me. Thanks for your support.
from xwiseassx :
Even if pop-ups infuriate you, DO NOT, I repeat, DO NOT buy 'Safeworlds Spam and Pop-Up Blocker! You'll regret it to the end of your days. I am not kidding. Shudder! I still think your diary is top drawer by the way.
from sexyoldman :
34DD? Those are perfectly sized to dangle in front of my face....yeah, I know, I wish!
from naughtysara :
I am so honored. I'm pretty sure that you are the first one to add me to your favorites.
from sirkeljerk :
Very nice dreams of bouncing DDs...
from xwiseassx :
Many more links like those and I'll be typing one-handed....lol
from chickpea981 :
MAN! that tin bitch was mean!!! We wanted a picture with her and threw 2 bucks in the can she had. She got all pissy and ASKED us for more money! Neither Red nor I make very much money and we both said something. She starts going off on how she only makes $28 a day doing that tin thing and blah blah blah. She was a nasty little bitch. I flat out asked her how much her silver paint cost her and she stopped talking. Nice little scam artist.
from xwiseassx :
Black looks good on any girl. Shear black stuff really lights my fuse. No I havn't lookes at the whole site yet. I have only read about fifty of YOUR entries too, but I like what I have read.
from xwiseassx :
I can honestly that is the nicest link anyone has ever given to me, It even gets through the companies firewall...LOL Thank you very much!!!
from xwiseassx :
Is 'Very Sexy' the name of the bra, or just a damned good description of it? Whatever it is, you sold me. My wife worked lingerae at Sears for five years. Pardon my crappy spelling. I always thought it a sexy job. Sometimes strippers would come in for fittings and she would tell me about them...lol She had some horrible custumer hygene stories too.
from xwiseassx :
The wife used to be one of those hide the large breast girls too. Now she is a cleavage girl and I love it. She even wear a push up bra to really get things going. Wow!
from xwiseassx :
They are such an obvious sex symbol. I mean they stick right out. I love them. A huge turn onis a girl who is not ashamed of them but knows the power they have. Don't you dare laugh, they have power. By the way, I have a mental image burned into my brain of one or both of them popping out at inoportune moments...lol In reality I am not laughing, but sweating a bit at the thought.
from xwiseassx :
The way you described your boobs made my heart skip a beat or two! Are you trying to kill me?
from firefly4u2c :
Hi sweetie, I know I haven't been around much and I'm sorry. Things have been hectic at work and home. I promise to stay in contact more. I'll write you an email tonight. Glad to have you back!
from neangel :
send it to neangel@diaryland.com - thanks!
from sexyoldman :
Don't drop a man because his penis is "anal-friendly", but I could never get over the salami breath thing. Hang in there my dear, Mike
from bare-my-soul :
hey there, i've been writing since i was a wittle girl. but i'm trying out different styles, different voices, depending on my moods. when i have the time, i like to be as creative as i can. glad you're back!
from xwiseassx :
I certainly don't mind a girl fondling it before sex or a blow job, but jerking I forbid....
from pantypulldwn :
you should have, what did you have to lose? very erotic!
from xwiseassx :
I must remember to wear trousers before trying that cock outside of the boxers thing.
from xwiseassx :
Leaving the cock outside of the boxers?!? Will that work at a straight bar too?...lol
from cumwithme :
In general, a penis stops growing when the person stops growing (length and height respectively). However, in my case, and judging from my adolescent friends, it grows quickly during the first years of puberty and then that is about it. I grew 4 inches in height two years after puberty, but I don't think my dick grew much. However, a hot women can make it longer and fatter, some erections are 10-20% more erect, so to speak.
from xwiseassx :
I'm not really a random reader, I actually read you on a fairly consistant basis. I couldn't pass up a fish observation though.
from xwiseassx :
If the fish is upside down, it ain't sleeping sister...
from sirkeljerk :
So its Gone till November is it? Well have a good time and think seriously about that orgy. You only live once, ya know...
from garypharrell :
Um...I must be losing my mind. I clicked on your diary and your tag board was on the other side of the screen...I check it now, and it's back to normal. Maybe I just need more sleep!
from stumblefall :
You're description of the clit intensity and men thinking their Kings just fits into my night tonight. You try your damndest to tell them it's too much and they have to stop but they don't. Then you have to get bitchy with them and it ruins the mood. Maybe I need a girlfriend lol
from liquid-mojo :
Nope, it should be the same email, derrick@alcobuds.com or my hotmail one...
from idiot-milk :
I have shorts from, like, five years ago that I call my shorts-of-self-loathing. I keep trying them on thinking that maybe NOW they'll fit, even though I KNOW that I've got pounds and pounds and POUNDS before I can even THINK about zipping the motherfuckers up. I'm not sure what the point of this note is. Er, something. Anyway, truffles are evil. The pumpkin truffles are the evilest of all evil truffles. BEWARE! STAY AWAY!
from sirkeljerk :
The thought of you involved in hot girl-2-girl wrecks me. And of course I did not miss the Saturday entry. that wrecked me, too, even though I had gotten mine. Cheer's to a visit between you and the FF
from liquid-mojo :
Hmm, I haven't gotten the e-mail greeting, sorry. But it's OK, it's the thought that counts and it was sweet of you to send one. :)
from sirkeljerk :
Yeah, she came. She's a big squirter, soaked my cock, which dripped onto my balls. Funny thing was because it was so cold, it almost killed things for me. Wet balls in the cold is a very distracting thing...but as you mentioned, I got what I wanted. So what's this thing that seems to be developing for you with the dlander? Seems nice, exciting too.
from liquid-mojo :
If you mean the greeting you left in my comments box then yes I got it. Thank you very much. :)
from bare-my-soul :
hey kiddo, whose your new love interest on d-land? inquiring minds want to know. drop me an email, i'll let you know who mr. celeb is. no biggie. love rose
from sexyoldman :
I liked the lipgloss and showering too in fly4u's diary. She needs to turn on her notes or get a guestbook. Thanks for the link. I also think meeting someone from Diaryland would be a rush. Many of us put a lot of information in our diaries that we wouldn't want our friends and co-workers to know. So, when you meet someone through Diaryland, he or she would know so much information...it's scary.
from garypharrell :
Yeah, I know...key is so permanent. I only have one credit card and it's maxed out. Thank God I don't have one for VS, or I'd be buying all the things you are. I just want a little BS just to make a little extra cash. Nothing stressful. I'm sure your sparkling personality is the reason that he offered to pay for you.
from ms-ashlynn :
Ok well a couple of episodes after the one you talked about in your entry Big got married, and Carrie started going out with Aidan, but then Big and Carrie started having an affair and they get caught...well carrie gets caught by Bigs wife and what ensues is sheer Sex and the cityness- that was in season three here: http://www.hbo.com/city/episode/season3/episode39.shtml Check out episode 40 too. I dont know if maybe this is why her friends are like that.
from garypharrell :
Training sucks! I'm a back-up lead here and I have the responsibility but no extra money. Apparently, I have the qualifications and know-how, but I'm just not old enough. That's bull. Atleast you get to work with guys. You need to take a notepad with you and write little important bits of information at night. I expect lots and lots of drunken stories when you get back...party some for me! :) I live in VA...u?
from bare-my-soul :
yeah baby, that was some conversation you had with copper! we shall see what happens with boss man. i'm not expecting him to say anything. what can he say? BTW i did extra work on SATC, and i work down teh street from the studio where they film it. AND i work at a studio where they do a lot of the sound editing for this show, and got off the elevator one day just as SJP was getting on! love rose
from garypharrell :
J, are you going to update while you're on vacation?? We'll miss you lots!
from garypharrell :
I am independant in the fact that I've been on my own since I was like 16 but not when it comes to the relationship aspect of life. I live by myself and sometimes it's hard to go home alone and other times I wouldn't trade it for the world. The relationship I'm in now is forcing me to grow up. He's not around as much as I'm used to. Plus, he calls out my childish tendencies. Loved reading the convo of you and Cop. You say all the things I wish I could say but just don't have the balls to. It's great that you can be upfront about how you feel, when you do find "that one", you'll know that he's right because you know exactly what you want and aren't afraid to back off when you're not getting it. Do you have to train anymore today?
from ms-ashlynn :
Whatever that guy has sounds like a physical problem...he might need to see a doc about that. Anyway on SATC there is something else that happens between Carrie and Big...I dont know the season or the episode though...It came on HBO this week. How helpful am I? I dont know if you know it, you want me to tell it or you'd rather see it yourself. I love that pumpkin fragrance you were talking about it's my fall scent- I have that one and vanilla sugar that's my winter scent. Sometimes I mix them. I have ginger for spring, and orange and jasmine for summer. My scents are always...food based haha. I love to smell edible :).
from rumblelizard :
Hey, thanks! Chip says you're cute too.
from bare-my-soul :
you're a very bad girl and deserve a spanking. now get that homework done now, or else! seriously though, hun, this is half your test grade? yikes. good luck. love rose
from stumblefall :
Hey thanks for adding me as a fave! I LOVE your diary... you get me so heated up with your writing! I found you thru Chickpea981's fave list. I definately tend to go after men I know I can't have. Something so desirable about it...naughty. I can't wait to go thru your archives ;)
from garypharrell :
Thank you for the advice. I know that I love him but I can't help but think that there has to be someone who can give me a better relationship. I'm giving all I have but I wonder if he is. If you ever have that fantasy come true...let me know exactly what you did to make it happen. I can definitely relate to wishing for that! Thank you for the constant updates. I wish I was as motivated as you. I really might die of boredom if you didn't update as much. Have a wonderful day! :)
from pattymelt :
let me know if that fantasy thing works for you - i want to try it!
from tahitian :
Hey, I added you as a favorite, I hope that you don't mind! I like reading your diary, it just captures me and makes me HAVE to keep reading haha, I hope that you had a great weekend. My diary is locked, but if you want to read it the user name is tahitian, and the password is girlygirl
from bare-my-soul :
my accounting class is not going well, girl. i called in sick and didn't have homework done. fuck me. are you around on sunday? let's try and talk then. hope you're well. love rose
from ms-ashlynn :
I knew you were a fire sign- Im an August Leo. When I was younger i would bite at a moments notice, but now since I am trying to be an older wiser lioness, I try to give two moments notice...and then i bite. haha
from liquid-mojo :
X-ray vision or instant teleportation perhaps. =p
from bare-my-soul :
i'm back...we have a lot to catch up on. i'm looking forward to reading your entries from the past few days and having the chance to talk at some point. thanks for your thoughts. love rose
from sexyoldman :
Going down on a woman is so wonderful! It's so nice to kiss, suck, and taste a woman at the same time. Thanks for your note.
from ms-ashlynn :
a pill specifically designed to induce wet dreams- My God girl you would be a billionaire. You know- one time I was with this guy who actually wanted me to fuck him with a dildo- I totally freaked out and ran away. I was 17 then, and I kept on wondering...why the hell does he have one of those? Ive never again had that opportunity. Ahh, oh well. That bag on ebay is beautiful- I would never even know how to find that hehe. I think you should put serious thought into that pill- science is crazy these days, who knows what they come up with.
from pattymelt :
i don't know if your GB is working so i will try this again. sorry if it's a dupe - anyway, sometimes it's scary how much alike we are! (besides the DD's) go ahead and be a playa! use those boys. fuck'em good! and let me know when you get a strap on! i want to hear all about it! i want one so bad! i want to fuck a boy with it!
from bare-my-soul :
i always love getting your notes and guestbook entries! yes, we need to talk some night, soon. wish you lived in nyc. by the way, i have a room for rent as of January, $400 a month including utilities. think about it. you are so NY! love rose
from ms-ashlynn :
I agree with you about the condoms. My children will get sick of me giving them and inquiring about the use of them. I know how I was when I was a teenager, and if someone did that for me, it would have saved me a lot of heartache. Im a leo too. Please teach me about purses one day :).
from bare-my-soul :
that guy gets the asshole of the year award. what year was that? sorry you had to go through that. another brick in the wall. love rose
from ms-ashlynn :
J youre so funny- Im with you, I love just about everything too except- I havent learned the fine art of the purse yet. I usually just borrow my friends' own, I dont know if there is any hope for me. I hope you have a good day.
from bare-my-soul :
hey, great dream. sorry it took me so long to respond. let's talk soon. love rose
from liquid-mojo :
Indeed I am a review whore... =p Hmm, let's see, for bold and italics you have to use the <b></b> and the <i></i> tags respectively. example: <b>this will come out bold</b> <i>this will come out in italics</i>. You can also combine them <b><i>bold italics</i></b>. Hope that helped...
from neangel :
I suppose that is a risk of a ring of the caliber. I guess I can stick to renting as well. good luck w/ the gym & i wish my gym had tanning!
from bare-my-soul :
i adore you!
from sirkeljerk :
Nah, day-to-day life, at least of some people like yourself, can be very sexy...but yeah, juicy is good too!
from ms-ashlynn :
Hey- You know I dont believe in wearing undies to bed either...they are totally unnecessary and mostly a hinderance. It's great that there is someone else who does this. I like you even more!
from sirkeljerk :
we have similar needs. I need at least a fine blowjob to get me through October...Arrrrrggggh! Probably I will have to be content with reading about your sexy ass!
from ms-ashlynn :
You know, my diary doesnt even contain 1/4 of the adventure that you have in yours. I dont even update it as much any more. You remind me of one of my friends, that's why I love to read your diary. It seems we have something in common though. You have 1000 Bras, I have 1000 pairs of underwear. I *love* panties. I am poor because of this love. Hell, I dont wear them half the time, It's just good to know that your undies can match your shoes. No one understands this but me haha.
from bare-my-soul :
34DD's, huh, wow. you would have made out! on a good night to my recollection, $350-500. but that was a good night. average was $200-300 at that joint. i could have made a lot more if i was willing to suck guys off on the side. the willingness to do this came later. but not there. and i don't recommend it. love rose
from gnomad :
Heya gorgeous! Great to see you back in my guestbook. I think your ears are fine. I've definitely got some suggetions about how you can make the dilrod do what you want .. email me.
from bare-my-soul :
thank you for your note today. and OH MY GOD, i was just cleaning out my bathroom TONIGHT and then i read your entry. i could open up a duane reade with all my products, and presently i'm shampooing with AVEDA also, it's for redheads - it's madder root - I LOVE IT! have a great weekend
from prettykay :
hey just letting you know i've added you to my favorites. i found you through katy-bug. see ya. :-)
from sirkeljerk :
P.S. I mentioned you in my diary here "http://sirkeljerk.diaryland.com/030911_1.html" as one of the sexy girls on DL. Just FYI...
from sirkeljerk :
Like I said, I like to watch *Grin* Glad you liked the story. I always enjoy checking out your diary and love that you seem so comfortable with your sexy self. Rock on!
from bare-my-soul :
ah-ha, yes the next item on my list of how men fail in bed, "JACKHAMMER"...or did i already mention POUNDING. is that the same? i love the "blue light special reference." oh god i want to tell you not to get involved with someone you work with, but then who am I to say!!!! you go girl. have fun!!!
from cumwithme :
Tell him what to do. I mean order him, if he doesn't like it, let him fuck someone else. However, be sure and give back in kind. Maybe even start by asking what he wants... be specific. For instance, do you want me to suck you off, lick your balls, whatever you are comfortable with that he will freak out (in a good way over). What you need to do is exert your power, which you can do submissively or asssertively. Demand or coax, but be sure to get your crank yanked too. Good luck, ps this is from a guy...
from liquid-mojo :
If we ever meet, I hope it's raining at the time... ;)
from cumwithme :
thanks, and I read the latest entry about crying in front of your boss, and well... I found it strangely exciting, in a sexual way. 'course that's me, horny at the weirdest stuff. ps-the title about shaving the hair on your nipple, well, that one too...
from pattymelt :
by the way - i meant CHEAP porn!
from pattymelt :
no he did not! i am still looking....
from pattymelt :
your guestbook is giving me pains...what i was saying....get yourself some fucky-fucky! whoo hoo! aaaaaaaand, i am with you onthe spending the night. i am not a cuddler. fuck me, eat my ice cream and then go on home. and the guy that worships you? niiiice! keep him around for awhile. it will keep you nice and moist during the day! and speaking of which! dude, i can't imagine not wearing panties to work! i am already horny all the time!
from liquid-mojo :
Well yeah, porn can do that sometimes, especially Jenna porn... ;) I'm hypocritical when it comes to smoking too. I don't like fuckers smoking around me but when I start drinking, forget about it. I'm a fucking chain smoking fiend. At least I try to be considerate and only light up at bars and clubs and outdoors and the like. =p
from garypharrell :
Thanks for leaving me a note...I feel so special...it's crazy to have someone that you read EVERYDAY without fail respond to something that I had to say. Wuthering Heights will be played again on Thursday 9/18 at 12:00am, Friday 9/19 at 6:00pm and Sun 9/21 at 8:00pm. So, make sure you watch it! The gift certificate is a great idea...his taste is way off from mine and I'd hate to either have to hurt his feelings or walk around looking like an idiot. I'll post pictures of my outfit if I ever get the uploading thing down. If you find that you still don't like the new girl...it's really easy to get her out...trust me...I did it less than a year ago :) Have a wonderful day!
from alure :
hehehehe i used to rewind the sex scenes in movies too! i'm glad i can get porn now though ;)! and i just want to say that i think you deserve so much better than jim. i'm sure hes nice but if he doesnt treat you the way you deserve to be treated and puts skydiving before you, you need to get rid of him. but i know thats easier said than done.
from liquid-mojo :
Don't worry, I wouldn't ask for a number if I had no intention of using it. That wouldn't be very gentelmanly. About the only think I can think of that will stop me from calling is maybe cold feet. Thanks for the vote of confidence though. :)
from justcircles :
hey! you certainly may have a password and thank you for asking (thanks for reading!): username=absence/ password=thinair
from cuddleduddle :
I'm sorry to hear about your uneventful weekend. If it makes you feel any better, I was sick with allergies and had to cancel all my plans! Bi the way, ;), being bi kicks ass! You should IM me sometime, we could have TONS of fun. ; )
from myhorizons :
LMAO *HUGS*
from sexyoldman :
Glad you liked(?) my last entry. However, it wasn't true...just erotica. I like erotica that reads like it really happened. Sounds like it hit a nerve with you *smile*
from neangel :
yeah we would have lots of fun! That sucks for her though! My peach/apricot/pica [my word] get way too juicy [unless intox], it usually gets embarrassing how juicy it gets... but never a bad thing!
from neangel :
Ooh you're too damn funny girl! I get the same silliness with a few of my good friends. man I miss those times... my suisse & I are starting to get that silly but it's not really the same. Hell I'd go to dinner w/ you! ooh the dried apricot thing she was probably drunk too. sex is no good for some girl when drunk I know I have a moisture issue when totally intoxicado. I want it bad but my 'apricot' go into dehydration mode sometimes... it sucks sheeeeit. srch4balance [another libra-dlander like moi] calls her a peach. either way we're fruity! ;)
from asitwere :
Indeed there shall be mass kissing upon our next meeting. You know... if you kiss straight boys. :-)
from neangel :
it's actually spelled 'wherehouse music', it must not be in your state. you'd be surprised where you can find porn for rent. lol
from chickpea981 :
Well if I sound like you, I'll take that as a compliment. And yeah, i really do hate peaches. I hate a lot of fruit, but I despise peaches. Apparently this goes all the way back to my infancy and is recorded in my my baby book as: "Does NOT like peaches!"
from neangel :
Where did you go to buy it? if you have a wherehouse music you can actually rent porn there for 1.99/day then buy it later. they have lots of where the boys aren't as well. & some great gg only stuff w/ jenna jameson [a real lesbian in her personal life]
from chickpea981 :
fucking guestbook... Why do mothers always do that shit? Just cuz they birthed you, they think they can criticise every fucking mundane detail. ARGH! (Can you tell I also had lunch with my mom today????) blech
from liquid-mojo :
I guess crack dealers need "clean lovin'" too... Still that was like a way too indecent proposal. =p
from liquid-mojo :
Damn, I only have $5... Seriously that was some really jacked up game. If he wanted a ho he should have taken it to the streets or somthing... O.o
from sexyoldman :
You may have mentioned it once or twice in your diary, but what part of the world are you in? lol! And yes, if they are able to say anything, it's generally 'oh god ohgodohgodohhhgooooooooooooooood!!!!! '
from neangel :
if you have yahoo im - i am on we could chat! ;)
from neangel :
Ahhh thanks! §blushes§ after reading your first comment & then lesbiansex[s] diary entry I had to go 'tate in the warehouse. tg no one is here & i can here the ding of the door when someone walks in the front door! lmao
from neangel :
wtf is up with the tagboards? mine works but only cause it's enhanced & even then it goes down more than my bf!
from sexyoldman :
Do you mean the type of movie where the woman flops around like a fish, eyes bugging out, mouth gaping open, body shuddering uncontrollably, voice incoherent, sweat glistening on the skin, hair tangled, and hands clutching at air type of orgasm? Damn, I see that every time I make love...lol (I wish!)
from liquid-mojo :
Yeah I figured it would be something like that. Now if I can only find a way for my heart to stop looking...
from sexyoldman :
Can you please end the mystery and just go up to that woman at the healthclub, look her in the eye, back her up against a wall, and lay a big ol kiss on her lips and cup one breast with one hand while your other hand presses frimly against the growing moisture between her legs...please!!!! Damn, the suspense is killing me!! lol
from sexyoldman :
Your store lost by 10 breasts? That was close! Personally, most of the women I've been with are average to heavy. That has been more by coincidence than by actively seeking out any particular body type. I know some guys are really into thin or muscular women, but most guys (at least 80%) are happy with whatever woman gives them attention. It's like the perfect breast. The perfect breast is whatever breast I'm allowed to touch. The most important part of being sexy is confidence. Confidence is sexy, don't you think?
from liquid-mojo :
thanks j...
from sexyoldman :
One of the things that turns me on is seeing a woman with cameltoe (i.e. the front wedgie.) There's even a website devoted to it under the word "cameltoe" I'll be yours was pure masturbatory material for all us guys who love jacking off
from liquid-mojo :
Thanks, I'm glad you liked it. Being good with words takes practice. It's just a matter of taking your most complicated thoughts and writing them out then looking them over and re-writing them till it comes out smooth. The more you do it the smoother and more flowing it gets. :)
from liquid-mojo :
If a guy say it feels good when he comes, you can pretty much trust him and you know he isn't faking it because there's the "residual evidence". There are a few things you and your partner can to to intensify the male orgasm, stuff like abstaining from orgasm for a while before sex or some Tantric practices, but the male orgasm is more or less at the same intensity. It's climax, plain and simple. If I were you I would worry more about your orgasm because it takes more effort to bring a female to orgasm... ;)
from sexyoldman :
I didn't see it at hotmail. Did you try threem3@hotmail.com Thanks
from sexyoldman :
what is the site of the "ringo" thing? thanks
from sexyoldman :
I'll send you a pic to ionmebi@cs.com Let me know when it arrives. (I'll send later today.) I hope you'll like *smile*
from sexyoldman :
My email is: threem3@hotmail.com Come by and say hi anytime.
from sexyoldman :
If you're ever up for a phone call someday around 4:00 pm (pacific), maybe we could help each other out. *smile*
from sexyoldman :
34DD means "hello girls!" Actually however, I profess that the most wonderful breasts are those that you are allowed to touch, whether they are 30AAA or 46ZZZZ. Yours, my dear, sound quite nice.
from liquid-mojo :
you can thank me later... ;) oh and thanx for the entry thingie, that was cool. :)
from sexyoldman :
Thanks for the nice note...I'll keep plodding along in my writing. So you take your reading "raw and unfiltered?" ...I'll do my best to please.
from sexyoldman :
Whoa, am I on the list of "previously enjoyed but not longer read diaries" because I'm married? Or did I make the "with the exception of a few?" By the way, I hope you're feeling better!!
from liquid-mojo :
i'll see what i can do. if you come across a picture you like just give me a link to that page.
from liquid-mojo :
If you REALLY want to give me some credit you can use this code instead: <a href="http://liquid-mojo.diaryland.com" target="_blank"> <img border="0" src="http://www.imagestation.com/picture/sraid38/pf9df4b97af7793904916a52dd3718dcb/fd136f5e.gif" width="64" height="89"> </a> -It links the pic to my diary. ;)
from chickpea981 :
That is one hell of a layout.
from liquid-mojo :
for the picture at least, you have to stick this code somewhere in your page: <img src="http://www.imagestation.com/picture/sraid38/pf9df4b97af7793904916a52dd3718dcb/fd136f5e.gif" border="0">
from liquid-mojo :
thanx for the note and adding me to your faves. you can use my bootie girl anytime ;)
from sexyoldman :
Dont beat yourself up with guilt! It sounds like you had a great time and craved the physical contact. There's nothing wrong with that. THAT IS NORMAL!!!! If it works out, great, if not..well, that's just the way it goes sometimes. (Shaves his pubic hair huh...doesn't that make him look like he's twelve? lol)
from garypharrell :
Do not feel bad for doing something that felt so good. If it's meant to be, it'll happen whether you sleep with him now or later.
from sexyoldman :
Yes,, that is a proper usage of the term diamond cutter. HOwever I'd much rather have you write," I loved the feel of his diamond cutter as we made love." Oh well, maybe that'll be in a future entry! Take care and thanks for the note
from sexyoldman :
I love dried fruit as well, but never made that connection...until NOW thankyouverymuch. I once had a girlfriend who always put a little tearose perfume on her pussy. It took me years not to think about her pussy every time I smelled a rose. (And hasn't your ex-friend heard of KY jelly?)
from ampagatha :
hey chicky I would just like to thank you for youre sweet words when i was feeling down. it really means alot to know someone out there actually cares! Btw I love your diary! Come to Oklahoma so I can do bad things to you with a couple of my body parts! =oř
from sexyoldman :
Glad you like my diary...I'll check yours out too. And it's been at least a year since I tried that self felatio trick (unsuccessfully as usual..darn!!)
from lesbiansex :
thank you for adding me ;) the favour shall be returned when i have time!
from justcircles :
wow, that did take 2.5 seconds (there're a few of us online all during the work day), welcome to our attention! thanks for favoritizing me, and for the compliments. I love diaryland!
from scanzilla :
My mind is drug free. Wait, is sipping gasoline a drug? Oh well, I'm glad you liked it. :)
from katy-bug :
Oh! Good for you, babe. Detachable shower heads are a girl's best friend in the shower. You should tell me about it. Kiss.
from katy-bug :
So, did you masturbate on your lunch hour? Let me know how it went if so. If not, make something up. haha. Kiss.
from katy-bug :
I'm not scared, babygirl! Kiss me! Thank you.
from jofetish :
check your email. i sent you a little private message.
from jofetish :
just wanted to stop by and say hey...so, hey. i liked your last entry. so, there is someone else out there with a bruised clit, it's not just me. haha. wish i could of gone with you on your wild night out. i need some excitement, and i'm not ugly...of course, i'm not a lesbian, either...i don't think. hmmmmmmm...later.
from scanzilla :
I once made love to a 6 headed dragon. She broke up with me though because each head claimed I was cheating on her with the other heads.

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