messages to jelybeanie32:
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from lou86 :
hey megs, just wondering if you still use ur diaryland diary..can i please have a password so i can read some of ur old stuff again. Luv Lou
from shai2 :
Dear, I hope you are doing well. Just wanted you to know I'd been thinking of you.
from fetalpig86 :
you locked your Diaryland? why for?
from adeliatala :
Thanks for the suggestion :o)
from adeliatala :
Thank you so much for the congrats :o) We are very excited!
from shortcake004 :
Love, don't ever say that Kevin or Kaeli are the only people who love you. You know its not true. Have you gotten the book thing that I sent you weeks ago? If not, I'm worried...But I love you too.
from kabiagi :
That's such a great song! I heard it awhile back and I think I posted the lyrics on my journal.
from pillowfight3 :
Megan I loooove you, I got your card, what are you doing thanksgiving? Your so dramatic.
from katiedidit72 :
Megan, it's like I'm reading my own thoughts as I'm reading your last few entries about the holiday season-- I'm so looking forward to being home to enjoy myself. Did you get my card?
from pillowfight3 :
Just so you know, I emailed you a couple days ago, do you like easymac? You can microwave it.
from shortcake004 :
Oh, honey! I'm so happy for you!!! This will be amazing for both of you. I love you both.
from lower-j :
hey, i found your diary through your banner and just wanted to say i really enjoy reading your thoughts.
from bamstroker :
thank you for your words.
from adeliatala :
That is some scary stuff. Although I am actually keeping the faith about the American people. Did you notice which states did vote for Bush? Not to bash any states or anything but they are not traditionally known for being the brightest bunch of apples in the barrell. Too bad the out number people with y'know, brains.
from shortcake004 :
Amen, sista. I am frusterated and disappointed and mainly...just sad. I don't believe that 18-25 voter data, its crap. Maybe Dubya will die in office, and Cheney...Hope hope hope hope...
from periwinkel :
me too...::hug::
from afinka-rose :
kerry is only behind by 7 electoral votes now!!!! there may be hope yet...
from shai2 :
hey hon. For December, my sister graduates the weekend of the 11th. The following few weekends are still pending. I'll have to get back to you on those. I really hope something works out. love ya.
from our-tears :
i loved your john kerry/ george bush ad. it made me laugh. i needed that. thanks.
from adeliatala :
amen sister.
from apostrophe22 :
RYN: I agree those moments stretch out like months.
from apostrophe22 :
I'm glad the answer was a no, believe me I know how nerve wrecking pregnancy tests can be. *hugs*
from shortcake004 :
Way to make me pee my pants. I literally fell out of my chair. Good lord, why didn't you say something to me when we hung out? I'm glad that everything turned out all pink for you. Lots of love to you and the baby that isn't.
from mycreampuff :
aww megan i love you! what are you going for halloween???
from adeliatala :
I completely agree with you about September 11th. I'll take it that you think I'm being unfair but I don't think I am being unfair to the majority fo Americans. I guess it just depends on if you want to take the ideal that Bush is in power because of the apathy of the people or Bush is in power because of cheating--but whatever you want to believe I agree that our 'leader' completely ignored us. I didn't bring that up or address it--but that's mostly because I wasn't writing a piece acknowledging everything in the past three years since 9/11 merely pointing out my views on the President and his place within our people. Sorry you felt so offended--but it's how I feel most of the time.
from shortcake004 :
Hi babe! Just got home after working 9 hours and I wanted to wish you luck and all that stuff. I love you, and once you start classes you'll met lots of new people who are interested in what you are! ~Michelle
from kabiagi :
Oh yeah, I went to Portland for the first time a month ago for a conference with my university and to visit my extended family. It is a very beautiful place! And oh, my cousin goes to the college in Eugene! Good luck with college. I hope that it is everything you are looking for and more.
from kittyleopard :
Wow, I just got your little note thing..I've been seriously lacking in the note-stalkage! But thanks for reading, and I hope you still find my random crap to your liking. Consider yourself added.
from angelbabie04 :
Hey darlin. I'm always here if you want to talk. And for the record, I don't, nor have I ever, thought you were awful or wrong or anything of that sort. I love you baby. Call me if you need me okay? :-)
from kabiagi :
Hey, you sent me a note about a month back but I hadn't had time to respond because of a crazy summer schedule and heading back to school. Thank you for your encouraging words--you're the only one who leaves me notes and they are always appreciated. I finally was able to catch up on your diary. I'm sorry about all the guy stuff going on in your life. Good luck with it all, good luck with freshman year! Never stop writing as long as it helps to fulfill some kind of need!
from shai2 :
Megan, I am missing you so much. I'm sad that I didn't get to see you this summer. Are you at school now? When did/do classes start? How is it? I hope all is well. Love you.
from blueeyes19 :
hi megan. I've read your's and penisnew's diary.. and i love them both. but i have to say, follow your heart. I'll still read the diarys because I love what you both have to say, even if you aren't together. you can't help falling in love with someone. that is why it is falling, because its out of your control. keep writing!
from katiedidit72 :
Hey Megan-- just wanted to thank you for the card. It came at a really good time today. I will (try to) write you a real letter soon, but in the mean time I just wanted to say thanks. Katie
from shai2 :
confused. but somehow I'm still so very heartbroken by this. is that strange?
from mycreampuff :
hey we need to make plans soon.
from shortcake004 :
Go to bed, Meg. I love you, and I am 100% excited for you to be going off to college in the fall. (A little jealous, too...) I hope that you don't see this summer as the end of one life, but as a new continuation into a bigger one. Your life will now revolve around classes you care about, frat parties and mixers, dorm life and trips back into Portland, which is no longer "home". I hope beyond anything that you discover what truely makes you happy, and that you go down a path that you will be passionate about for the rest of your life. Thats my speech. I love you. Night.
from shortcake004 :
It's not that you really affected me. Don't take it in the bad sense, either. It's just that I was thinking about that sort of thing before, and then you and Chris happened, which kinda cemented my own ideas about that whole thing. It made reality come closer.
from shai2 :
Friday will probably be best, that would be great if Chris tagged along. I'll call you when I get into town. I can't wait!
from shai2 :
Let me know what your schedule is going to look like. I will be getting there sometime friday afternoon or evening and will be free that whole time. My first game isn't until 11 on Saturday.
from shai2 :
Well, I'll be down there this weekend. I will somehow make time for you, even if it means skipping post-game dinners with my team. I don't care about those so much anyway. Be expecting a call on Friday, Saturday, or Sunday. Is it bad if I'm hoping that my team doesn't have games on Sunday so that I can have the whole day to see you?
from adeliatala :
Absolutely about the phone fighting. Although one has to wonder--will all that change when eventually (and I'm assuming all relationships that are long distance have this 'eventually') you are in the same room and no longer are forced to communicate? Will that communication early on in the relationship still stand, or will silent treatment and slamming doors take over? I suppose we would have to ask someone who's been in a long distance long term relationship that moved in with each other. Maybe I'll be able to answer this question this time next year ;o) Good luck Hun!
from mycreampuff :
oh you got the job at subway?? how cool we need to hang out soon!
from periwinkel :
yes indeed, amen to that.
from typelove :
just go to the join page and fill out the form and leave me a note or send me an email with the info, and i'll email you the password! ;)
from typelove :
hello. i saw your link on the love-online ring and i was wondering if you would like to join my diary. it's a place for people who are involved in online relationships to write their feelings and support each other and give advice.
from periwinkel :
aww i feel loved that someone cared. :) long story, unlocked now, don't guys suck?
from angelbabie04 :
I always will darling. :-D
from shortcake004 :
I hope life gets better...I think you may be getting a call from Ricky about a second interview....Love...
from jelybeanie32 :
It would be hypocrtical of me to read my brother's journal, as I've spent so much time teaching him not to, so I will not do such a thing...
from periwinkel :
John Mayer AND Maroon 5? ::EXTREME JEALOUSY BUBBLING:: dang you. lol.
from shortcake004 :
Whoo!!!! John Mayer!!!! Ahem. Just wanted to post a little thingy saying how much I appreciate you and how important you are to me. Love ya lots!
from shai2 :
Well, assuming that my postcard made it to you safely (and hopefully in one piece) I am here to announce that I have even better news than was provided there. While the tournement is in Vancouver, our hotel is in Portland! It is the weekend of July 30 and 31. I will be gone this next week, but hopefully I will hear from you sometime after I get back. I really hope that you will be around and that I will be able to see you. I miss you. xoxo-Shai
from angelbabie04 :
Hey Megga...I'm back from Eugene (for a couple weeks anyway). We should get together. Talk to you later darlin! Kae
from periwinkel :
i really envy you when your entries so clearly prove you are intoxicatingly in love. let me ask you- how do you know whether a relationship is worth fighting for or not? i'm so confused, i can't stand it.
from periwinkel :
i can sympathize with your brother laments, my family wants me at their beck and call lately and i just want to cut loose. the sooner i leave for college the better, sigh.
from shai2 :
Wow, that is terrifying. I'm so glad that you're doing alright--at least physicially. But I must say, that's not the kind of thing a girl wants to hear in the first week she has her license. (Yes, I got it on the 17th. exciting and frightening...) love you
from angelbabie04 :
Sorry Megga. Fact is, I like lj better. But I'll try to keep this one updated too just for you. Did you sign up for intro-duck-tion yet? Call me darling.
from imaphatpig :
I clicked on your banner and I must commend you for such a well put together diary. It's unlike others that I have read kept by people your age. That is so refreshing to me. Congratulations on graduating. College is definitely the best time that can be had and I am green with envy that you get to start in the fall. Have a great summer until then. -A
from mycreampuff :
I like your new layout
from mycreampuff :
megan i love you
from shai2 :
What you read at your baccalauratte (which i do not know how to spell, for the life of me) is beautiful. I think I might put it on my wall, if you don't mind. Love you, hon.
from pillowfight3 :
Yo babes, just wanted to say I've had a new journal for a while at livejournal it's jellylover
from an6elo :
Congratulations on graduation.. i'm sure many, many years from now, you'll look back to this day and say... "Wow, that was a long time ago!" :P
from wonderwall :
congrats on your graduation xox
from pillowfight3 :
why did you take me off your favorites list? You suck!
from shai2 :
Hey you! I'm still waiting for prom pictures... sorry it's taking so long! I loved your picture that you sent me! Thanks for the graduation announcement. How did things turn out with your prom? xoxo
from mycreampuff :
hello dearest friend magen... hey i heard you cant take Chris to the prom is this true?
from shai2 :
Oh, I miss you too. And it's strange because I was just thinking that I don't even know how long it's been since I've had any actual contact with you other than on here and maybe an email or two. But I have still felt "in touch" with you from reading this. What sort of relationship is that? It just all seems very strange to me that I can feel like I still have an idea of who you are when it's been so long since I've carried on a conversation with you. Yeah, I miss you.
from shai2 :
Your diary makes me so very happy. Well, when it is sad, i feel sad. When it is angry, I am angry. It makes me very emotional for some reason. But right now, it is making me very happy--for you and for the world. :-)
from shai2 :
AHH! Your anniversary? I wish you'd told me sooner. I'll get on a card ASAP. Now I have another date to add to my calendar... love you.
from i-n-c-jewel :
I am still loving the way you write. Now that I'm back on diaryland, I'm reading your words and I'm feeling the same way you do. It's nice to have someone to relate with.
from shai2 :
well... hm... so i guess my spring break is not an option. any time that is best for you?
from mycreampuff :
ohh i'm sorry that sucks but i have your valentine so i guess you wont be at school tomarrow so i KNOW sylvia will call you and then maybe we can hang out some time over the long weekend
from mycreampuff :
hey are you alright i heard that you got sick again? what are you doing valentines day??? hope your alright
from angelbabie04 :
Aw Meggie...I'm so sorry...you can spend Valentine's Day with me! We can make up another list of things to get your boyfriend just to piss him off. *kiss**kiss*
from shai2 :
i just discovered that April 11 is Easter... but i have that entire week off. I talked to my mom, and she said that if that week works for you, it may be the best. that way my sister could take me to the train in tacoma when she went back down the April 12. Then my mom could pick me on Friday and take me to my youth group thing by Mt. St. Helens since it is so close and all that. So if that time works for you, it is probably best for us and the most time i'd be able to go for. But if not, i would love to see you ASAP! love ya.
from pinkglowstyx :
My prediction is that this is going to be the Valentine's Day that will suck for all girls...~Lani
from katiedidit72 :
Your writing makes me smile. :) --Katie
from starfuxxer :
I'm not sure if anyone's mentioned this to you already but the Their in the code for the allowchoice ring is mispelled. I just thought I'd let you know. Adios.
from pinkglowstyx :
Hello my dear! This is the old ilvlansten, ihumpyourleg, and maybe more...but I'm not sure. I use to write you notes a long time ago...but I'm just checking up on you to say hey and I hope that everything is working out well for you. Take care! xoxo ~Lani
from angelbabie04 :
Call me if you want it...I'm pretty sure you have my #. Or you could call Alex.
from angelbabie04 :
You didn't Meg, I was kinda annoyed that she felt she had to take you up on that, but it was mostly left over from other stuff. If you want to know about that though you have to email me. And yes, I love the present...I'm finding that we tend to think in the same way. I've heard myself say many of the things you said. Love you Meg
from mycreampuff :
i'll be proud of you for the both of us then. i'll miss you while i'm away oh yeah and i need your address love Jula
from shai2 :
I am so very glad that you enjoyed the gift. I wish you didn't live so far away! I miss you!
from shai2 :
Thank you so very much for the christmas card! i loved it! i also thought it was sweet that it was not just from you, but from you AND chris. (even though i don't know chris) thanks! love ya
from kabiagi :
Everything you said is exactly how I feel about my boyfriend. I too, am wondering what to get him for Christmas. I wish you the best of luck with everything with Chris!
from shai2 :
Megan-- Oh dear. I have been thinking of you lately, so i thought i'd leave you a note. quite possibly i am thinking of you more now than i had been soley for the reason that i have been catching up on reading your diary for about the past hour. but it is also true that i have been thinking of you more than that. I am making a scrapbook of fir acres. it's lame. cute, but lame. anyway, there's nothing like looking through pictures and trying to think of what to write beside them that makes me reminisce like crazy. so suddenly every waking moment of those two weeks has flooded back to me and things i thought i'd forgotten are proving me wrong. you know, some things really weren't as great as we thought they were... but then again, some things were much better. it's strange to think of these things and what kind of affect they will have on us all in the long run. or will they? anyway, i guess i just wanted to say hi. Hi.
from cdghost :
hello.i enjoyed reading your words
from fetalpig86 :
I did notice the updates, which are nice, fastest way I can know what's going on with you. I haven't been very good with them either, but it happens. I don't know what's up with you and Kelsi, how would I? Anyway, I got your card and the keychain! woot! Tomorrow my mommy is taking me to see love actually (hopefully with josh too, but he has fall kalah all weekend...ho), and right now she's off running a "secret errand". I'm not having a party. How odd that you aren't here. It doesn't even feel like a birthday is coming up. It didn't feel like Halloween. Things are weird here. I don't know. I'm writing you another letter tonight, so expect something in the mail soon.
from xcountrychik :
I love your mind, darling. I really do. I never thought of relationships that way. "A friend to share a bed with..." that's so genius. A friend with benefits. And affections can be a side treat. That way, deep down your heart won't get broken...but wait...most of the time, you fall in love and nothing can help it. So is love really, TRULY avoidable? You can't stop feelings for someone, no matter how hard you try, they just come. I know I tried not to love Ryan at the very beginning because I saw how my parents were towards each other and what not..and then I finally fall deep, without any return, and mi vida was taken from me by a speeding truck and an unseen stop sign. If it isn't a break-up, it's a death...concluding my agreeance with you and your entry (Nov. 6, 2003).
from shai2 :
hey hon! i miss you! i am forgetting... i thought i had it written down, but obviously do not. when is your birthday? i love you!
from an6elo :
hii!
from lilnik :
Hey hun, you will do awesome on the SAT's.. believe me. Anyone who can write like you is easily smart, and if you care about your results, work hard for it, and believe in yourself.. You'll do awesome! Best of luck :)
from fetalpig86 :
guestbooks cost money now. But I can let you leave notes there, I'll go set that up now...ooh...I need to call you. Got a great idea today.
from periwinkel :
love might not be as important as you may have thought, i agree with everything you say about it's importance and the way it works. that's why i'm a hopeless romantic, i guess
from pixie-42 :
my friendship resolving energies are being sent to your cause. Good luck.
from periwinkel :
i'm lookin at Pace, NYU, Hampshire and U of Delaware, reluctantly. heh if we both by some chance winded up at NYU that would be awesome, but i'm seriously doubting my chances.
from periwinkel :
i was just wondering, what colleges are you looking into?
from shai2 :
i don't know what to do. i am hating school. loving the increasing social opportuinities and connections i lost over the summer, but i am not enjoying my classes. and really, the people i want most to be with don't even go to my school. and i miss you so very much. but i am confused about one of your entires. i hope you can email me soon and clear things up... just tell me what it going on with your life now. i love you!
from an6elo :
don't you ever take pictures?!? lol
from an6elo :
hahahaha - that's actually a really lovely thought.. lol... and no, that doesn't make you a bad girlfriend.. ;) and yes.. i think the last sentence you wrote is soo true.. ahhahaha
from an6elo :
Heyyy... i just tried to email you something at Meekiefreekie@yahoo.com but i didn't know if you received email at that address. Let me know if you got it or not. If not, then hook me up with your email address. I didnt know if it was just for-your-eyes-only type of an email, that's why. hehehe. It was regarding something from your Pussy News diary.
from an6elo :
i'm just trying to make up for lost time.. lol.. j/k.. but really, i miss talking to ya! *muah*... i hope school was good today!
from an6elo :
i hope you have a good start to the new schoolyear.
from an6elo :
words said in anger are rarely the reflection of what's real. i'm thinking it's the same in your case right now.
from an6elo :
things have a habit of turning out for the best, don't they? =)
from shai2 :
hey. i miss you. haven't heard from you in a while. yeah, yeah, california... excuses, excuses. so how was it? what were the highlights? lowlights? can't wait to hear from you... and i'm still impatiently awaiting that letter you owe me! love ya my dear.
from periwinkel :
why are you locked? i miss reading your diary
from so-in-love :
hey! u locked up?? :(
from shai2 :
yay! i can't wait to get this long letter you are supposedly writing me... i get very excited about these things, you see. REAL mail is SO much more fun than email! especially if it fills up lots of time... i miss you and i love you so much! xoxo
from shai2 :
hi Megan! I just wanted to say how much i love you and miss you and i really hope that we can find a way to see each other again sometime SOON! even if it just has to be for a day or even less. hope all is well with you!
from shai2 :
hey hon! i'm so sorry to hear that aug. 2 was such a terrible day for you! but i made and wrote out a postcard for you, so i sent that to you today. i hope you get it in one piece! (i was having a hard time getting it to stay togehter...) luv ya
from tash69 :
Ooh, never mind, I worked it out! Thanks so much for your help! xxox hope all is well for you lil fox!
from tash69 :
Hmm...my html editor says-"user=tash69">Profile</a><br> <a href="cast.html"></a><br> <a href="cast.html">Cast</a></p>' im so computer-stupid i have no idea what to do!
from tash69 :
Megan..how good are you at HTML? i need help with trying to link my cast page!
from mycreampuff :
umm sylvia says around 9 for the garrage sale. but i'm thinking you probably dotn want to that eairly so you just call us around 11 or so. yeah tongiht was really fucked up. sorry again.love you much~Jula
from mycreampuff :
hey i my email is being doofy so i dont knwo if you got my email ... sorry i would of talked to but iwas too busy sota yelling at sylvia. my bus was late and broke down so i had a bad tiem getting home and to make madders worse my mom said sylvia called and was saying somthing about how i was supposed to meet you guys there and somthing about a email... so i dont know but i'm really sorry about your car. love you much oh yeah are you going to be at sylvias tomarrow?
from shai2 :
Megan! Hey! I miss you so much... but i just wanted to say... i was reading some of your older entries--from your sophomore year... i got stuck in February somehow. i thought one said Feb. 3, then a few entries later--after pressing the 'previous' button each time-- i am somehow on Feb. 20 (2002)... but that's not the point. You're right, you were incredibly emo... but you know what? every word of that i can relate to. i just kept thinking, "this is me. this is my life." and the whole thing about how you were saying that after a few weeks in a relationship you felt stuck... that's me. and how you wanted to work in the fields of advertisement or law, but maybe interior design, but long ago you thought you could sing and that's what you wanted to do, then it was writing, or journalism maybe... this is all what i go through. I'm feeling a little like we are living mirror lives, only i'm two years behind you. maybe when i'm a senior i'll have a great boyfriend who lives 186 miles away... girl, you are like my soul mate or something. but i am really not sure if i should be happy to have found my "soul mate" or if i should be a little scared to be reading my own life in the words of someone else. anyway... just wanted to say hi and that i love you and miss you so much, hon!
from kabiagi :
I am sooooo sorry that it took so long to respond to the comments you made in my journal. I still love reading what you have to say and quoting you from time to time (if you don't mind). I hope that you learned a lot from the writing workshop (I'm jealous that you got to experience something like that). Have a great summer, keep writing (when you want), and good luck with all the self-expression.
from gabby8 :
I *HATE* growing apart. Especially when nothing went wrong in the relationship. You just grew apart w/ time. It seems as though there is nothing you can do to change that. It's a terrible thing to experience. Makes me sad:(
from periwinkel :
no it starts next sunday
from tash69 :
You think you don't write well in your diary? If that's your worst, I'd love to see your best work! DOn't worry-you're gonna be fine, fine, fine!
from periwinkel :
you know what is absurdly coincidental? we are the same age and both going to a writer's thing this summer. and you mentioned chris is going to Hawaii- well so is my guy, who is also a few years older than me..just thought that was interesting. hope you have a superbly educational and useful and enjoyable time at your writer's camp.
from tash69 :
Good luck lil Megan! Youre gonna be fine, youre a writer's dream pupil. *big hugzz*
from xcountrychik :
or the thought that people do care a little. Keep me updated on this writing thing as much as possible! I wish they would ask me to go to a writing workshop.
from xcountrychik :
wow...that is so scary! how are you feeling?
from sarahbaby9 :
I understand you completely. My boyfriend is 20, going on 21 in January, and I'm 17. Feelings of you wanting to be with him, since he lives far away, as does my boyfriend. I understand every word you just said in that single entry. The feelings, the sadness, the completeness. Good luck with Chris. Don't ever let him go.
from mycreampuff :
Hi megen! i'm sorry i didnt send you a post card but i didnt have any stamps or really any time. today was the firstday my sister finally got her internet to work again. but i'll be home in two days so i'll call you when i get home email me or leave me a note and i'll get back to you. Jula
from periwinkel :
chris mentioned you are going to a writer's workshop in about a week- in what state? i'm going to one too and it would be awesome if you were there. just hoping, however unlikely.
from falenangel :
wow... i love what u and chris [[haha penisnews... sorrie feels wrong calling him chris]] have. ::sigh:: i wish i could spend the nite w/ my kevin... :) you lucky girl... keep him
from falenangel :
haha well not infamous... jus.. i dunno... hehe couldnt think of another word i guess. your luckie n speicial! hehe
from falenangel :
haha well i wasnt sure if YOU were the infamous megan. im kinda slow... haha now that i know.. i shall change it! hehe :)
from falenangel :
aren't u penisnew's girlfriend?! i always thought so!!! hehehe well PLEASE tell me who u are! hehehe :)
from bratnatch :
oh you poor dear. we were forced on that awful book sophomore year... haven't been the same since... ::shakes head sadly:: i feel your pain
from xcountrychik :
do you ever get on AIM? I have you added...just waiting for you to get on!
from xcountrychik :
haha....you got excited about me writing about you in my diary!
from xcountrychik :
wow...that is cool. she has some guts...seems like the right medicine for teachers like that. i think i'm gonna post a note in your diary...because that's majorly cool!
from xcountrychik :
i figure, i should reply to the message you made in my diary on here so you'd find it faster...but you know...some teacher's suck and aren't open minded enough for different writing styles. I've found that some writing teachers have their mind set on certain types of writing...but it sounds like he lightened up and got use to your style...which is very cool and making a teacher open to your style is probably a greater compliment i could ever give. :o) glad your day got brighter...
from xcountrychik :
woo-hoo! someone's with me :o)
from bratnatch :
[re: abortion. again.] ::raises fist in defiant i'm-with-you gesture:: agreed. pro-choice does NOT equal pro-abortion! *ahem* i've said my piece. i like your writing style. vaguely hemmingway-esque, without the whole sucking bit. that was a compliment, i swear. :)
from xcountrychik :
you know, i've come to find that when people don't like someone else's writing, they simply just not comment on it at all. so if someone DOES compliment your writing, stop doubting and accept the compliment whole-heartedly. face it megan, you're a good writer...your style is unique. now take the praise as sincere and not just sympathetic because i wouldn't bother to waste my time on complimenting a bad writer. i'm sure that applies to the rest of your readers. :o) cheer up and have some more self-confidence...you're a wonderful person.
from kozuki-miyu :
looks like jelly beanie's not feeling that well.. love problems?? cheer up!! evryone luvs u!! :)
from periwinkel :
just noticed you are back. missed your insightful and funny way with words.
from me-whoelse :
remember mike in general. you know, before his overly oppressive girlfriend stopped allowing him to speak to us. I've decided that near the top of my favorite things list needs to be goodnight kisses in the rain.
from samantha-m :
Nice new layout. Oh, and welcome back :)
from gabby8 :
sounds like an emotional day...or past few days for that matter. I hope everything gets better for you:)
from kozuki-miyu :
is that so?? that's so cool! i like ur nick too.. jelybeanie.. sweet! wel, i hope u keep writing.. till then! am reading urs right now, and avi's !! :) bye!
from kozuki-miyu :
actually, i read all your previous stuff! and i luv your layout!! :) hehe..
from kozuki-miyu :
hey! i really like ur diary! it's so pretty! stitch is so cute.. and oh.. u have nice cool posts. go megan! :) ~_O
from an6elo :
actually.. i lost my old phone and i don't have your number anymore. if it's still ok, i'd like you to email it to me if you can... An6eLo@yahoo.com
from an6elo :
hi... it's me.. just saying hello
from kb8 :
Thank you for your candor in filling out my survey. "No legacy is so rich as honesty." -William Shakespeare
from kb8 :
Hi-Will you take my survey?
from gabby8 :
I miss you
from oubliet :
Hey don't stop writing in this journal! Take the pressure off of yourself, and just write when you feel like it! Ignore us, and just write, write, write. Oh happy day, you're now two cents richer.
from gabby8 :
I'm going to miss reading your diary:(
from me-whoelse :
you'll never bore me.
from gabby8 :
Congratulations on your one year anniversary!! My boy and I are creeping to that one year also!! (can you tell I'm excited???)
from an6elo :
happy valentine's week
from epipie :
hello. this is your monthly check in. how are things with you? I hope you are happy. Love is difficult, but at least you're strong enough to keep yours thriving. *muah* have a happy valentines!
from ilvlansten :
Ohh...it's so great to read what you and Chris write. It's so hard not to envy you two for you two have such an amazing bond. I'll be stopping by as often as I can to check up on you. =) I'm only a few clicks away. I hope your wishes with each other come true...I really do.
from ilvlansten :
I'm basically gonna leave the same note on Chris' notes...long term realtionships get hard. It's a fact, you two know each other basically as well as yourself and you expect things to go smoothly and perfect but if one thing goes wrong...it's over. You fight, you make up, you laugh about it later, you fight about it later for some odd reason...but if you love someone so much...isn't it worth whatever gets put in front of you? Love is strong, work together and the two of you will be...invincible...from what I've been reading, you two are amazing together and I totally envy that. You're really lucky. It's rare for someone like Chris to come along. *Why am I talking as if I actually know you two!? I'm gonna shut up now!* Things will be fine, things happen for a reason. You're an amazing pair!
from ilvlansten :
Hey thanks for leaving me a note! I love your layout too! I hope things go alright with you and Chris. You two seem so cute together. =)
from falenangel :
hi. i jus read your boyfriend's entrie bout the wedding. all i have to say is u have THE perfect man. dont ever let him go... you are SO luckie to have him. i wish you guys the best thru everything.
from i-n-c-jewel :
You're has much more depth and substance. I wish I could could perfectly word my feelings into an entry like you seem to master :)
from ghostie :
Traitor! Judas! Turncoat!
from i-n-c-jewel :
i love the way you write much more
from our-views :
There is no link to our page that could be found! Get one up and resubmit!
from cheerbaby12 :
yeah sometimes we all need that reassurance of love that we really feel deep down, but somehow, just can't feel it at times. it's more fear of someone not loving than actually thinking he doesn't.
from ghostie :
Why did you take me off your list? Why? Don't you love Ghostie anymore?
from ay-ray :
Well, your so very lucky for having a someone to love ya, no matter what! I understand that it is so lonly when everyone is far away! I understand everything!
from lilnik :
Hun, that's not lame at all... believe me, I know what you mean. That's a great thing you have, at least from what I can see.
from lilnik :
Merry Christmas! Hope Santa brought you everything you wanted ;)
from golfwidow :
Just surfing around, saying Happy Holidays to whoever's awake! So, Happy Holidays!
from ay-ray :
I understand how you feel exactly, and I can't tell you what will be ok just cuz I haven't figured it out myself. The one thing I do know is it'll all pick up and be ok, and the go right back to suckin and so on and so on
from ay-ray :
Yes faith is a good thing, and so are friends (and sometimes the men we love) haha......
from ay-ray :
Haha I guess so. It funny I read your diaries and I feel like i'm reading my friends. It kinda does give me a little hope, and peace that someone is getting what i'm not.....gratification (if that makes sense)
from ay-ray :
My friends and I stumbled across your boyfriends diary and have been reading it (and yours) almost everyday. How sad and pathetic we must seem, but it's still some good reading!
from ciots :
thank you thank you! :) im loving yours...im a huge bird lover...hehe
from ay-ray :
Hey I just wanna say you and your boyfriend are too cute.
from ghostie :
I was referring to the "coconut" entry where you talk about how much you long for me, but now that I say it aloud it seems rather absurd, doesn't it? Nevermind. . . .
from ghostie :
That last entry was addressing me, right?
from ghostie :
You need a boyfriend that understands that there is no greater love than that which we see on TV - or at least one that likes to swing!
from katiepooh :
He loves you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
from drukenpink54 :
sorry If I have been a biotch lately, it's just I have been depressed with homework, my birthday coming up. For some reason makes me be hateful jerk to other people, when anything good happens to me, and people congrajulate me, I always have this problem, is I don't like that much attention. It's the holidays. I will watch myself. Plus I rarely confide in people with my problems. -Sylvia
from caffeeotter :
hwy i like this layout much better, completely cutter.
from falenangel :
i think you are just SO damn luckie megan... i wish i had a guy even REMOTLIE close to chris ((penisnews)). i had a guy that jus lived like 10 mins away from me, and u see chris more than i had him. i just want to say again you are so luckie, and ((im not trying to take your man but...)) IM IN LOVE WITH HIM! hehe
from an6elo :
congratulations
from hihihihihiyo :
How did you get your diary like that?
from tofubacon :
sorry if i didnt make sense ... you've gotta see Third Eye Blind (3EB) live ... better?
from tofubacon :
hehe yeah, they're awesome songs, especially motorcycle driveby. gotta see 3eb!!
from amphisbaena :
Oh my god I DO know them!! Hopi is in my PE class! Woah.. Craziness... Uh, I live reeally far from Grant, in SE... Near 62nd and Flavel... Haha that would be insane if we met eachother... Wow
from periwinkel :
do you know how lucky you are to have the certain and absolute love of Chris? do you? i hope you do. right now..what i wouldn't give to be you.
from sweetbuzz15 :
megan I haven't been able to get a hold of you, cause your like always talking to rahnia, or not on messenger, i want to ask you a question. call me or e-mail me dammit, love you
from neon7c :
:)
from neon7c :
which comment is that? i'm confused. not that this is abnormal for me. *sigh*
from amphisbaena :
WOW! I can't believe you go to Cleveland!! I would have gone there, my neighborhood school is Marshall but uh.. Yeah, I'm sure you know why I don't go there... Yeah, I'm a frosh (it's pathetic, hahaha)... I know a lot of people at Cleveland, I doubt you might know them though. Only, if you see a girl with red and black bihawks named Marcia, say hi for me... Hehehe. She probably stands out in a crowd..
from amphisbaena :
Wow how did you find my diary? You and your darling are extremely popular in diaryland.. Hahaha. Uh I go to Grant... You?? It'd be really interesting if I met you.. I like your diary, by the way. Loves
from horngoddess :
the banner was nice...interested me to see what his diary is really all about. *S* keep in touch...and kudos to you for the banner.
from vintagebliss :
well, then why do you keep on commenting about adam this and that? who cares.. heh you shouldn't if you have a bf already and that was a year ago or whatever that you went out with him..
from vintagebliss :
hmm. seems like you are still not over adam..
from periwinkel :
you're not the only one who lives off compliments
from pick-it-up :
:D thank you. i am on the road to wellness. for some reason it meant a lot that you said that. and then i read your diary and i love the way you write. i can relate to it and yet it makes me wish i could write that way. going on my favourites.
from liteningsyrp :
Hi. My name is Brianna, you don't know me...but I understand completely the fears of falling behind, and not being able to pass IB exams...my French teacher last year taught us nothing, so this year I have to hall butt to learn last year's French grammer, and this year's...Good luck...
from loll-y :
hi read you latest entry only and your nightmare that your guy had cheated on you is probably just because you needed to realise how much you really dont want to lose him mabey your just subconciously thinking that you dont give enough and things are unbalanced or you need reassurance btw dont take this too seriously as i dont know all the det's hope its just a dream and not a prediction xox lolly
from periwinkel :
i read your diary and Chris's too..you two seem like such cool people, especially you now that i know you've read Speak! i love that book. you also introduced me to John Mayer. Like i said you and Chris sound really cool and i wish you both the best of luck, it can be real hard i know. im me sometime on periwinkle830 if ya like.
from an6elo :
can you IM meeh? LoL
from an6elo :
wrong title... its: "If I Don't Tell You Now" - by Ronan Keating
from an6elo :
I reserve the right not to answer your first question but I think itís already fairly obvious who it is by my refusal to admit to who it is.
from an6elo :
or... I'll Be Your Secret - by Tim James
from an6elo :
If I Could Tell You Now - by Ronan Keating
from an6elo :
doubt is part of being human. just like love is. we can't control having doubt just as we can't control who we love.
from an6elo :
you're human. blind faith can only work so far. once you reach the boiling point, it's hard not to rethink what your current situation is. But yes, to answer your question, i sometimes DO wish that my feelings can be controlled by a switch that i could just turn on and off whenever i want to. it would make my life so much easier. less drama if anything at all. but it's also the cowardly way out. loving someone shows how much heart you truly have.. even if there are doubts that hinder the "blind faith" theory along the way.
from an6elo :
You love him.. so of course it's okay to worry about him and you guys' relationships.. with him as well as how it affects what's around you.
from an6elo :
I miss you too.. lots. And of course I still read your diary.
from me-whoelse :
Isn't that a seriously good book?
from sipthis :
Hello. I came across your diary. Very very nice. Take care. Carpe Diem.
from wonderwall :
saw your banner... such a great song. as usual, good work :)
from perceptionss :
I know exactly how you feel when it comes to thinking about things that can make you cry. I couldn't sleep the night before school and mind was cluttered. I felt like nobody could possibly know this feeling. You are not alone, so hang in there. Love, Booby
from tofubacon :
nice diary ... i like what you have to say. you write very well. rock on!
from lhsbarbie :
What outdoor school training place are you going to? I'm going to Namanu...(I'd leave a message in your book but it's down)
from dancincallie :
music is everything, and even though it hurts cuz it's so true and the lyrics cut deep, it helps a lot too, it's therapy. :) ~callie
from pinkrazor :
i feel the same way... passion that arises from tragedies is amazing... i think you'll see it again, tomorrow.
from pinkrazor :
very pretty corner of the internet you have here. i try to not be jealous, but he oh so dashing and very far away...
from invisibledon :
Thanks for visiting
from perceptionss :
Megan, Thanks for taking my survey. I hope that angsty feeling subsides a bit. Smile whenever you get a chance:) Love, Booby
from lilnik :
ok.. you gave me a note asking if I only read your diary because you were Chris' girlfriend. The answer to that is no.. I found your diary before I found his. Tell you the truth, I read yours more than his anyway.. and I think you do have more of an identity than just "his girlfriend"...so don't worry hun. It's all good.
from me-whoelse :
"as you grow older it gets harder to just believe. It's not that you don't want to, it's just that too much has happened and you can't" -Now and Then About your wonderings...yeah, wouldn't it be nice if our little group never changed? Something tells me that we'll start out together still, out of habit, but I don't know what'll happen after that. Stupid Adam. But I think we're pretty much stuck with the people we've got, because we've all stuck together thus far. Kind of amazing, really. If you think about it...you, me, and Adam especially. Who knows, maybe someday we'll be inseperable again. But things are gonna be different this year. Jula will be here! All the GLGs in one school...whoo hoo!! And now I'm rambling on and on in your note section...so I'll stop now...and see you later today. Love ya!
from forbidnthawt :
no, i don't read u because ur chris' girlfriend. i read u because i like to see both sides of the story between u and him
from sugarbutt925 :
no i don't just read your's because you are his girlfriend. A friend of mine told me about Chris' Diary and I read it for about a week before I looked at his profile and saw your diary in his favorites. The comment in my diary could have been used visa versa. I only meant that reading both diaries makes it more intersting... seeing both sides of a relationship. I hope that clears it up... I meant nothing condesening my comment. I love your diary!
from always-crazy :
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY weezer. although i must say that brian bell is the yummiest of them all. :)
from qtebabe2103 :
you have a an intersting diary read. it seems like i can mix with a lot of the way you feel about things. just thought i'd send a compliment =P
from blushingcece :
thanks about the banner
from blushingcece :
Oh, my gosh I must be old! New Kids were before your time. Sigh...
from blondedoll :
~~hi~~Who is that a picture of on your site?
from blushingcece :
Wow, I swear you are the only other person I know who I love all their same music choices. CRAZY! I'm going to the Jimmy Eat World concert on the third of August. Thanks for signing my guestbook. I love your diary design.
from me-whoelse :
life sucks, doesn't it
from invisibledon :
take my survey --it's called invisibledon
from me-whoelse :
hey...not sure why I'm leaving you a note, just felt like it. you should explain to me sometime why, if you hate adam, you still hang out with him. Because I could explain MY reasoning, I'm just curious about yours. if I were you, I wouldn't want him in my life... ps - you're right, I kinda am in denial. test work?
from celestial03 :
Answering your question.. I'm reading this, because you're an awesome writer. I'm reading this, because your love story is absolutely beautiful. And it sounds too much like the one I'm going through right now. Heh.
from daisybell :
Hey Megan, just dropping a little note to say that I have some similar aspirations as you. Not only am I considering being a writer, but I would like to go into MI5 (the English equivlent to CIA) and am seriously considering it as a career after college. Just thought I would share. Take care xxx
from meuncensored :
Megan - I thought we all were allowed to say whatever we wanted in our diaries, not just you. I never said anything about your entry being pointless in person...I bitched about it in my diary. I thought we had a rule about not bitching about diary entries other than in other diary entries. See now I'm just confused...
from docterlove :
Hey... Just wanted to return the favor and say "hi"too. So..Hi!=) Your site is pretty cool also, you have the hottest chick ever on your layout...Avril Lavingne. Good Job!! Haha..Okay then, I'll catch ya later. ERiC*
from blondedoll :
Thank you jelybeanie ;)
from stilabebe :
He does sound like a bitch. I love your template, it's hilarious! I've been reading some of your entries and I like the way that you write. Definitely be back for more.
from so-in-love :
you're welcome:)
from so-in-love :
hey! I've been sifting through some of your entries and I must say that you're so awesome! I love your diary and I like the way you write and the design is pretty nifty too, lol. Good job:)
from dogged :
Nooooooo! Don't get married! Because, well, really I have no reason... just don't. Your husband is gonna make you massage his feet and he won't let you have any friends... and eventually, you'll end up on the Maury Povich Show: Controlling and Abusive Marriages. OH THE HORROR!
from r-e-v-i-e-w :
Hey, you asked how to become a reviewer? all you have to do is contact holly at gonzostar@hotmail.com and tell her that you would like to join. she'll reply and tell you what you have to do. Hope to see you on the staff.
from epipie :
hey. i like the new layout lots! but as you can see, the ribbon's lookin' a tad on the retarded side. may I suggest moving the site meter somewhere else? that would fix it. tis just a suggestion... *runs off with her librarian glasses*
from jelybeanie32 :
hello
from jelybeanie32 :
hello
from penisnews :
hey sweetheart... i think we should get married... so... yeah... picture me down on one knee. will you marry me?
from wonderwall :
i thought i was the only person who did that. wished that something bad would happen to them just to see if other people would care. just to be sure. i guess that's thing that sucks, you can never be sure. even if a thousand people came, you would never know if they came because they cared or if they felt obliged. jeez what the hell is wrong with me?
from clevelandsux :
is it my imagination, or was i dropped from your favorite diaries list? tis a shame...
from cheerbaby12 :
hey.. just wanted to say thanks for reviewing me and listing me as a fave! you rock!
from epipie :
hehe. sorryyyyy. sometimes i get all feminazi, and start with the "down with the 50's! up with the steel-toed boots in men's faces! those pigs!" but yeah. sorry if femminazi epi offended you. she's stupid, because she tends to get mushy, too. *knows what her future children's names are*
from ramanda :
Megan, I dig your diary too. Such a spiffy layout! Thanks for the sweet comments. You totally made my day!
from always-crazy :
thanks for the nice comments, and i enjoy your diary as well. the design is excellent, and you are extremely witty. take care, didi
from pireviews :
Hey Megan! This is Stephanie from Precious Illusion Reviews. I just wanted to let you know that you are up and posted! Thank you a million times for letting me review you! http://pireviews.diaryland.com/jelybeanie.html Thats the URL to see your score! Bye!
from wonderwall :
oh my god. what you wrote about me... that is the greatest thing anyone has ever said about me. (unless it's a crappy book or a poorly written character.) no, just kidding, but out of curiosity, would you mind telling me what book? and again, thank you. you made my day.
from perfxcked :
oh no, go ahead.
from perfxcked :
um.. okay. what anthology project?
from perfxcked :
i did, but when i changed the layout i deleted all my old entries. why?
from chris-cja007 :
you're smitten... you're scared... you're feeling something you haven't before... don't be afraid of something new... go with it... we can go wherever it takes us... we'll always have each other, right?
from dogged :
Okay, I love you for signing my guestbook and such, but I am gonna be forced to take you off the face of the Earth. You do NOT say bad stuff about The Matrix, and you certainly do NOT insult Keanu Reeves. Okay, so obviously, I am very much in love with uhhh... the above mentioned. ;) Anyway, I love your design. Do you not have a guestbook, or did I just miss it? I like your diary and all, but please, stop with the hating of my lover. Cool beans? Heh, okay. I'll be back to read more later. ;)
from adeliatala :
Oh my god, I HATED THE MATRIX. Everytime I said it someone thought I was crazy. . . it sucked ass. Hooray for someone who thinks like me!
from chris-cja007 :
you make me smile... you make me laugh... you make me so happy... just by being you...
from chris-cja007 :
you are an amazing girl... i love you... you are so beautiful... and i'm glad to have fallen in love with you... you're one of a kind and i can't imagine anyone better for me to love...
from chris-cja007 :
congratulations on your 400th entry!!!!!!!! i love you sweetie!!!!!
from r-e-v-i-e-w :
Your diary review has been posted.
from adeliatala :
I hope you feel better soon! I know how sickness can get a person down. Horrible horrible. . . I know you'll be up and around soon :o) Don't let boys get you down either. Must overcome two things in life. . . boys and sickness! Then it's all fantabulous from there. Or so I'm told ;o)
from penisnews :
what, i make an entire entry about you... and you don't even mention me. i know my place now.
from chris-cja007 :
smile sweetheart... i love you so much... just thought i'd leave ya a note here... you know i love you... tomorrow... i see you... yay!!!! and then i kiss you... yes.
from chris-cja007 :
babe... i just wanted to tell you... no matter what happens... no matter what you're going through... you will never be alone... not anymore... you are such an amazing girl... and no matter what... you have a special spot in my heart... i love you so much... nothing will ever change that...
from chris-cja007 :
hiya!!! just thought i'd leave ya a message... cuz... well... it's fun... ummm... i'll talk to you later, i guess... keep on smiling... it makes the world a brighter place...

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