messages to kacklefight:
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from zenkitten :
Hey Paul. I miss talking to you. I read your life story and it's beautiful; you should be a writer. I hope you are having fun in London. Get online more, eh?
from zenkitten :
hihi. imma try and update my diaryland more. i like lj better though... you should get one? for me?
from bagelbean :
I'll see you Sunday, crackerhead! <3
from bagelbean :
Since you are like me and you ignore your phone: We haven't bought the tickets for The Universe Within (the plastic dead people!!) yet. If you're still interested, the website is www.theuniversewithin.org. We are pretty sure we're going Sunday, June 5th at 11. Tickets are like $17, and $15 for po'h students. Afterwards, we'll either stay in the city (the exhibit is at the Nob Hill Masonic center, I think, by the way) or head to Berkeley for Thai food. Let me know if you're still interested! I also have another proposition for you... =]
from zenkitten :
hey pauly, you ever heard of aim???
from nosuperman :
it's good to see you back on! i'm glad to see you return, though i wish that it were under happier circumstances. ::hugs::
from nosuperman :
i think that you have dissappeared. that would not be good. i would miss your entries if you really dissappeared. and i sound lame...so im me sometime
from kitty-kaboom :
the second story wedding dress shop that would be on your right hand side when driving south down 101. The second story wedding dress shop that you only notice at night because of the tinted windows. The second story shop that makes every girl go "awwwww" until they realize what a scary thing marriage really is.... ♥
from kitty-kaboom :
I know just what store you're talking about! ♥
from mehiel :
Did you know that prostitution is legal in Germany, now, and that jobless women who refuse to take jobs as sex workers from local employment centers lose their unemployment benefits?
from turningleft :
Life isn't too bad being a dead <bagelbean>.
from mehiel :
Ah, but what did your friends say?
from candoor :
happy new year :)
from geezmichelle :
hey whore, i called you today and talked to your dad, although it sounded frighteningly like you... and he said you got a new phone and wasn't sure if i had the number, point being, i didn't get a hold of you. call me you formerly curly bastard!
from zenkitten :
no sign, just bad girl picking talent... :-D i larf you though!
from geezmichelle :
i'm using you paul, for your car. drive you candy ass down here and have lunch with me damnit! it's winter break and you said we would, don't lame out on me!
from mehiel :
A new layout--nice and "Brazil"ian. We can often do to our memories with Qu'ballah specialists do to the Torah: re-ordering the syllables, looking for the true name of God. But this is dangerous magic in any case, in memory or on the page. In re-writing either, in re-arranging our fragments, we sometimes write curses on ourselves. Be careful.
from bagelbean :
I would bet on her (she is the one with claws), but not to come out on top - because my mountain is too far away from her peak of lifestyle. It's funny, because the scenes are made days apart, but then put into one hour. The scenes are manipulated (because my lines were different each time; the original script was modified and re-posted without my consent) to make me the bad person, when I was just improvising with words from my soul. Who would have known that your life could be a soap opera, with all of the Erica Cane's and Kendyl's and Greenlee's, and you were looking no further than a 17" monitor. I could easily leave the show, taking my sums with me, because my character fell out of love with another character a long time ago, and there was nothing left for her in the show, but she knew better than to not remember him - because he offered the same sense of intellect and childlike habits (which he lost with bad tidings). Those were my character's original opinions. I still have the script open to the page on my desk, and comparing it to the other on the screen. I wasn't saying "I am in love with you still, you curly bastard (it's nice to know that she could mock my feelings and say I never felt a thing)".. because I cannot love a missing face like that, you heard that more than a year ago, and the second half of my newest rotted relationship has heard the same. So then I just love you, because I love your MIND and taste in thoughts - and she would never understand that. It would take too much observation and understanding, too much picking at her parent's relationship or perhaps even her own, to know what I mean - we'd all be damned if we loved anybody once while we're young. Even this she or her mother will track down, and make a mockery of me, but I know that I am offering you my epilogue... the final comments about a failed soap opera. I will take those want-ads now, and tell my mother her dreams of me being a movie star are vanished... there has been too much spotlight already, and I'll take my exit gracefully.
from nosuperman :
i just wanted to make sure you had a smile and a hug to look at when you want or neeed it. :) and ::hugs:: ~Meghan
from mehiel :
Is it a "fight club" kind of day? The first time I saw Chuck live, he told me that one of his fans actually did give himself a chemical kiss. (He later said it was the stupidest thing he'd ever done.)
from mehiel :
Your entry came just at the right time.
from mehiel :
It's not horribly disfigured. I think I have a kind of facial myopia that closely resembles anorexia. It's impossible for me to see my face the way others see it. It's the law of subjectivity, I guess. All I see are flaws and scars. I think my face looks haggard for its 21 years.
from mehiel :
Without any light, I would much better enjoy showing my face. :)
from geezmichelle :
you know, vacaville is really lovely this time of year. so is davis, very lovely indeed. hey! i have a great idea, come visit! i'll buy you a tasty sandwich. how can you resist a sandwich?
from mehiel :
And he pulls it out of the hat with Radiohead awesomeness!
from sanetwin :
I'm sorry about your dog. To be fair to Calvin, however, he DID think all mankind were disgusting worms writhing on the bottom of god's bootheel and unworthy of heaven. So, yeah I really think he wouldn't be too surprised by our nation's fate.
from mehiel :
I've gotten A's on all my erotic pieces in my Sex, Myth, and Media interdisciplinary, so far. This most recent piece, completed around two this morning, was by far the most explicit. Last time it was about power struggles between a male robot and a human woman who very much wanted to be tied up. This time was just lovestarved teenaged girls making out--no real ethical issues. I try to challenge myself with whatever it is that I'm writing.
from mehiel :
I keep on missing the pictures from your layout. I didn't know you were into Japanese culture. I'd like to see pictures of your dog. Last night on our way to pho I exclaimed over a woman who had a Boston Bully puppy in her shirt. 'Nii-chan pushed me into the street to make me cross it. The skyscrapers make an interesting reflection in my television screen.
from mehiel :
My face is already all cut up and too old for its real age. At least you can limit it to the knees--literaly as well as metaphorically.
from threeletters :
that's okay.
from threeletters :
Haha...I live in Canada and I don't make it to your Japanese class so much. You must not read my diary (?), but that's cool.
from mehiel :
I'm still alive, and you are too.
from threeletters :
I've been thinking about one day experienced almost 2 years ago for a lot of this past week, and it's like the neglected time in between has just slunk away forever. .....similar to your 10/14, which i really like. Keep up the good work.
from bagelbean :
Is the smog the same as a hazy ash-filled sky from that fire near Napa the same for you as it is for me?
from bagelbean :
As of 6:52 pm on 10/13/04, you have had enough entries to fill a whole year. A year's worth of subjective responses... has it been as medicine?
from zenkitten :
hey paul, i miss you!
from nosuperman :
thanks!
from bagelbean :
I read it too, jerk.
from geezmichelle :
i read
from nosuperman :
i want to give you reassurance that won't be too cheezy, but there really is no way for me to do that. i hope you find your way away from the empty void. if i'm online feel free to get an objective opinion. <3 an avid reader
from sanetwin :
I read.
from mehiel :
I know I need food to heal, but the coffee I need to wake up assures that hunger leaves me in moments. I hope you find that loophole you're looking for--wormholes, I'll warn, have a tendency to being dangerous.
from mehiel :
Over "here"? You don't live over by me, do you?
from myownjourney :
hi. Thanks for the note. Although I disagree with you on the point ( I think that was totally the UN and Saddums fault) ,I appreciate the honest words.
from mehiel :
Summer at least dies beautifully. Would that we could all be so lucky. How does she feel?
from bagelbean :
Never call me old again. <3
from brutalyoga :
i am kind of a diaryland hermit these days. i just dont read diaries that much anymore. that being said, nice bit about the jigsaw carving the puzzle. nice bit.
from mehiel :
I am returning ever-so-briefly to Toronto, for a family wedding that isn't quite with my family--almost-in-laws. As I told the groom: "My attendance has nothing to do with your mother's charm, and everything to do with your brother's." This is a good thing.
from mehiel :
If you are so very similar, wouldn't mutual love begin with loving yourself? Or with recognizing the lovable qualities within the Other that you share? Realizing the Other's mute appeal for empathy in mutual shared humanity?
from mehiel :
One in which you fit, or one in which you walk parallel lines?
from mehiel :
The loss of a loved one, any loved one, can induce numbness. This too shall pass.
from brutalyoga :
gotta love the gangsta rap!
from mehiel :
It's good that we can diary to one another about it, though, yes? Is this not what the net, this philotic web, this library of Babel, is really meant for? (If not also for my shameless references to Orson Scott Card and Jorge Luis Borges?) I'm glad we can write about it, and leave notes for one another.
from mehiel :
That is strange. It's good that you can have such communication with your animal companions, however.
from mehiel :
(Just updated.) It's good that you have a strategy. Dogs really do try to tell people when they're ready to go, and they appreciate being said goodbye to. My mother, who works with veterinarians, has had plenty of experience with this particular phenomenon. Good luck, and my condolances to you.
from mehiel :
My parents called me the night before they put down my dog. I was away at school and couldn't do anything. The next day in class, I couldn't help but cry. Say goodbye--it's a luxury, for animals as well as people.
from kitty-kaboom :
I hope the puppy gets better! She is so beautiful!
from nosuperman :
:-(i'm sorr
from bagelbean :
What's wrong with your first entry? I! was actually in it! ;P To think that I let you know my snorting ability so early. ;[
from mehiel :
I read your first entry in this diary just now--it's amazing how your style has changed.
from mehiel :
Pixies show review under "gender nazi." Here comes your man...
from mehiel :
tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow...I've definitely been creeping in this petty pace from day to day, and so have you, it seems. Thank you for your profile comments. That's a lot, coming from you.
from sanetwin :
Would I be crazy if I said I did believe you about the aliens?
from mehiel :
On a related note, you indirectly encouraged me to update my profile.
from mehiel :
It's true, I have met Chuck, about three separate times. Once I thought he was flirting with me...then he outed himself. Boy, did I feel silly. Thanks for checking out the diary; I hope you keep reading. After Monday, I should have a review of the Pixies reunion tour.
from mehiel :
A perfect read to fit my Michael Ondaatje/Don DeLillo mood.
from bagelbean :
Sorry things didn't work out. I told you we are crazy. A better heart will come along and life will move on with every breath, even though the wait can make us feel like we've actually stopped breathing. I'll catch you later, super kid.
from brutalyoga :
really? why? have you got an amazing girl in your life too?
from bagelbean :
This one (sometime between 8/12 and 8/13) was very, very ... touching. I still say I like zombie Paul more.<p>By the way, pill popping is bad.
from bagelbean :
I know it's nice. It's just sad that I practice with our gardeners. They like me though!
from bagelbean :
I'm sorry my connection with you (as frail as it may be) dropped some nonsense on your lap. However, how else would Kelly have gotten those fabulous counter hits she needs to nearly be NUMBER ONE?... If it wasn't for you, who knows. Neheh. You're a good guy.
from boxx9000 :
kackelfight (Paul) is friends with bagelbean (Ali) and wanker (Aaron and Leah) and zenkitten (Jamie) You tell me what the connection is?
from sanetwin :
Wow. Cops at 2 a.m. was beautiful. You have such a magnetic way with words. I envy it.
from brutalyoga :
thanks for the comment(i think..) i do wonder which entry you are talking about. i think that your latest one about cops at 2am is some really nice stuff. i dont know how to put it, but usually your stuff reads like gasoline, and this last one was more electric; quieter, cleaner, and if you read to close, it will shock the darn outta you.
from bagelbean :
Do you say somebody to help you, like you mean it? Of course, I've been around before but my assistance wasn't adopted... I'll be here as a familiar face that you won't touch - just something you can ponder about. Smile, little one.. before I break out the cheese.
from bluperspex :
many times i have wished for that ever elusive book with all the words of my life... the one which tell me which way to go, how to stop myself from getting hurt, how to make the right choices... and the more i look for it, the further away it seems to get. where is that damn book!!!
from bagelbean :
Me too. - snicker, snicker. -
from bagelbean :
Just give the woman her damn movies, you lazy ass. ;] hug.
from boxx9000 :
7-10-04 Paul, I'm pissed. You've had my DVD's for 7 months! Do you plan on ripping me off? Do I need to come to your house personally and request them? WTF?
from rivelea :
That is true. I just have a bad habit of exaggerating. and am lazy. I'm sorry!
from boxx9000 :
7-4-04 Paul, would you please be so kind as to return the DVD movies you borrowed? I am really missing my Waking Life and others. Just leave them in my mailbox or front doorstep. I'm just down the street. Thanks.
from brutalyoga :
its a little place called Easterling Falls... :)
from rivelea :
That's it. You are definitely on my list of people to kill and assume identities. I live in England, which means all the bands I like rarely even touch foot on the same island. It is very annoying. I haven't heard anything about a new BSS album, there was nothing on the boards or site, but that is not exactly definitive.
from brutalyoga :
has anyone heard about a new broken social scene cd coming out?? i heard something about it awhile back, and now nothing.
from rivelea :
Oh, i hate you. Apparantly Anthems (for a 17 year-old girl) is clearer live; I have been lurking on their forums. I think you use Times New Roman, I don't know why but whenever I read your updates I wonder which font. Not to say that your entries are boring, it's just the font is conspicuous :) Jesus, I've just realised I've been listening to Broken Social Scene on repeat for about 3 weeks now, it's even pushed out Deerhoof!
from rivelea :
No, I haven't seen them (yet). I just found out that they played near me (i.e. in the same country); very annoying. Have you seen them? (If so, much bad karma and envy shall be directed your way) What font do you use? I hope you don't mind me asking, just curious. :)
from brutalyoga :
i believe i suggested three band you already have said you like.... you do list death cab twice though.. they are certainly brilliant enough to list twice!
from brutalyoga :
hmmm. maybe things like belle & sebastian, iron and wine, the stills, optiganally yours, snow patrol, guster, deerhoof, the beta band, the honarary title, azure ray, cat power, and rilo kiley. for starters.
from bagelbean :
Let's go to the beach hooray!
from brutalyoga :
excellent choices in music. cool site too.
from bagelbean :
Is Arabic perhaps one of them?
from bagelbean :
Fruity.
from bagelbean :
I don't know if you got this on your phone or not- because you never get anything on your phone... if your phone is even your phone anymore.. : What's better? Somebody that loves you unquestionnably, fully but you don't love them back- or somebody you take glimpses of and you receive all sorts of feelings that make you set a date with a bottomless cliff?
from and-um :
brilliant irony. how have you been?
from bagelbean :
I am a habitat for humanity?
from bagelbean :
So you go camping and don't even bother to tell me. Oh, I hate you so bad right now? Hah. Go with me to Big Trees this weekend? ;[
from spacegirl33 :
beautiful, enlightening entry..its nice to know that others havent been brainwashed with the idea that you have to have a religion to be happy..
from bagelbean :
.. Reminds me of when I was sitting next to you on the beach, and you told me you were toying with Buddhism. All I could do was smile at you, because I finally met somebody else who wouldn't know what to do with a higher being if they found one.
from spacegirl33 :
my campus is doin a play of lullaby on friday which im gonna go see id love to talk to you about it though and get some imput on palahniuk come online sometime i see yer aim name mine is on my profile
from spacegirl33 :
catpower...coolness
from spacegirl33 :
tom robbins is very awesome..i just recently got into chuck palaniuk you should look him up you might enjoy..
from and-um :
as well you should be. i'm terrifying. well, not so much today, as i'm a titch creaky from that workout... but tomorrow, man, watch your step. "fear my wrath! please, fear my wrath..."
from bagelbean :
You, pumpkin.. are very, very frustrating.
from boxx9000 :
All misery is caused by WANT.
from and-um :
that note just made my day. continue in the search, paul! for SCIENCE!! i'm behind you one hundred percent.. ~ maggie
from bagelbean :
I am in love with that entry, Paul. Very, very wonderful..
from nosuperman :
although the cliff is part of the adventure, one can still fear it enough to keep from going on. it just so happens that i often fear the fall, although most of the time there is beauty and greatness at the bottom.
from aperfectself :
Thanks for adding me as a favourite. Finally someone knows where I got those lyrics from! :)
from and-um :
we got nothing, i was pretty disappointed. there could be lots of confounding variables, though... not eating the -whole- grapefruit, per-say, eating other foods with said grapefruit... people lying about the whole thing to begin with... but i intend to see this through, yes i do. a is not going to be very happy with me or grapefruit by the time i'm done with this one. you should try it and tell me what you come up with... we have limited grapefruit access here at the college of saint benedict. but we do what we can...
from kitty-kaboom :
♥ thanks Paul ♥
from nosuperman :
ok then...operation breakout it is:-) now, how to find 100k?
from boxx9000 :
Thanks for the birthday wishes, that was sweet of you. You're right about the rain. Occidental road is flooded.
from utamog :
nice...the whole entry thing. aim me sometime: smirkngrin, or go to my site www.xanga.com/smirkngrin. I don't use "utamog" anymore. later
from nosuperman :
Yeah, AIM: meghquinn
from nosuperman :
that's cool... which show? i saw Dralion in columbus, oh.
from nosuperman :
yup, i've seen cirque. have you seen cirque?
from threeletters :
Fuck! I wish I didn't know I missed the Mountain Goats!
from and-um :
dude, that sucks...
from and-um :
uh, you all right paul?
from bagelbean :
iwillbuyyouanewoneforvalentinesdayjustbecauseiheartyouandyourbeastliness ok?
from xfrauline :
Thank you so much for the note you left me, it really ment a lot. i didn't literally disapear, i ment it as a figure of speak. heh (i wasn't sure if you were just kidding) That comment in your diary about censors for cuss words in porn movies made me laugh. :p
from lesbfriends6 :
Hey, that is what it means, so be happy again. Hope your having a good day, Bucky
from and-um :
yeah, it's a fantastic video, isn't it? i need to watch it again, it's really been a while since i've seen it... hope san fran (am i right?) is treating you well... ~ maggie
from and-um :
thanks for the link, i'm flattered.
from and-um :
fantastic.
from bagelbean :
.. Are you trying to say I'm funny? :\ Beast. <3
from ivoryfaerie :
hey-- I love your paintings! They're really, really awesome. (I especially like the eye and the one right above it)... you should definitely post more pictures
from zenkitten :
hey paul! great paintings! maybe you should paint more and post them all? hmmm. that sounds good!
from chickpea981 :
outstanding work. love the composition.
from boxx9000 :
What happened to your diary? There is some weird guestbook linked???!!!
from spacegirl33 :
i hope that doesnt mean yer not updatin anymore..cause if yer not..todays a very sad day for this spacegirl..
from spacegirl33 :
thanks for the endearing note..i will definitely keep that in mind
from bagelbean :
Nope, you really can never tell what's going to happen. Thank you for being around last night. :\
from ivoryfaerie :
boring?? There's nothing even remotely resembling the word in your diary, your writing is beautiful:)
from bagelbean :
You idiot optimist! ;o If I could just take a spoon and scoop up a piece of your brain, I would chew it up intensly, and then put it back.. just so you could feel like an actual idiot- that being because first you let me eat your brain, and then you let me put it back.
from threeletters :
Your writing is a weather system that gusts through my brain each time i visit. It's a type of weather i've never seen before. Thanks for the experience.
from and-um :
don't you dare kill this diary... i'll be rather disappointed. you write so well; i don't even notice that i don't understand. don't stop writing... please? ~maggie
from boxx9000 :
your NEW ukulele is so cool, but I mostly like it's case.
from boxx9000 :
1-5-04. The UPS Santa left a package for you today!
from redlinedeath :
i wont do that. those days are over. now i just throw yellow snowballs at people.
from kitty-kaboom :
life would be easier if you weren't so cute and if i could be immune to the desire to cup your cheeks in my hands and press my lips against yours for a really long time.....
from bigvulva :
no, i haven't seen smog live. but i callahan will make my day gor from good to grand.
from boxx9000 :
"but the feel of simultaneous lack of control and intimacy with the things you touch, that is beautiful." CEREAL?
from redlinedeath :
hmm, i like your outlook on everything. i found you on marvelchilds's notes. you have interesting things to say. i think ill add you. hope you dont mind.
from bagelbean :
And don't ask me why it's there twice. I only clicked once. More times to read it, I guess? =D
from bagelbean :
How many times must I tell you, little friend? You are not a writer. You are more- the painter, the miracle worker, the crab daddy. Those who write inspire imagination. Those who paint with words invoke.. yes, imagination- but emotion. I don't know about everyone else, but I can't remember how to touch my feelings anymore. Yet, when I observe your art.. it's like my feelings are touching me, like crabs crawling on the inside. <3
from bagelbean :
How many times must I tell you, little friend? You are not a writer. You are more- the painter, the miracle worker, the crab daddy. Those who write inspire imagination. Those who paint with words invoke.. yes, imagination- but emotion. I don't know about everyone else, but I can't remember how to touch my feelings anymore. Yet, when I observe your art.. it's like my feelings are touching me, like crabs crawling on the inside. <3
from candoor :
interesting synergy, or syncronicity...
from boxx9000 :
Kelly told me that you talk in your sleep. (the elephants)
from boxx9000 :
I'm so sorry about your CD's. You can burn some new ones on our imac??
from boxx9000 :
Paul did you make a police report? Do you have auto insurance?
from ray-andrew :
Hesse's "Damien" (sp?) is also a great lonely read. Deerhoof is so queer. Cursive was nice live in the city a bit ago, but I have to say the best shows I've seen in the last year are Gomez and Guided By Voices. So if you don't have any of thems albums, go and run and jump and throw green money at music peddlers to put permagrin on your face. Well, ciao for now. I am rarely online so you will rarely hear from me, but anyways, have a great holidays. I am all by myself for x-mas. I miss my family. Why do they have to live so far away and hey, I get to see them in January, so I can't whine tooooo much. Don't let the ded dugs dite. Ciao
from paulmx :
Hola, mucho gusto.
from daka :
Wow, I haven't written an entry in here for about a year now, If you liked my taste in music then, you should see it now! I now have a campus radio show, and access to every CD I've ever wanted to own. Actually, only for about another week, because of unemployment, I'm being forced to move to the city. Oh well, it's a good one. Where are you? Hey, I like you. -Daka
from romperstompr :
I see. Thank god I'm not a 13 year old then. Jacob's Ladder is one fucking great movie.
from bagelbean :
We shared a sunset. :]
from knock-first :
I like your entry on 12/15. Well spoken.
from palinode :
Me? Mean? Am I mean? A little. A bit. I like your site.
from romperstompr :
what's linkin park and AFI. are they emo?
from gumphood :
dude..talk to me
from bluechicken :
this did not appear in your guestbook when i checked; i think signmyguestbook is full of shit. but i will press on: it is good to be alive. it is good to breathe. death is impersonal; we only witness it through others. our own will go unnoticed to ourselves. that is very comforting.
from sallycat11 :
Guess who finally found the link to your diary? Oh me!
from silent-stars :
Thank you for the kind note. I understand what you mean, though. There are so many times when I just want to burst with emotion (good or otherwise), and no one is there for me. It's rather disheartening. Not so disheartening is your diary. To be honest, I've been ready to gove up on Diaryland the last few weeks. But your diary made me smile. I skimmed through several of your entries and I quite enjoyed them (and that's not an empty compliment, either--I truly mean it). Thank you again for the kind words--Jecca
from sadiegreene :
richer? can some words be richer than others? if so, mine are not, darling. god language is incredible. lets talk about it.
from marvelchild :
Funny thing is, I don't have to wonder, I know. Again, not exactly the most believable thing to digest, I'm sure. Whatever conception you have, its not quite as good as the real deal. You should get ahold of me in a medium that I could elaborate further, and besides U usem to many big words pal. Simpletons like me can't keep this cerebral banter going so long.
from bagelbean :
A few words here and there are suffice for some; enough for me. Take care, my brilliant boy.
from marvelchild :
I hope you find a way to understand... Either way, my contact information is not too difficult to find... It seems that for now we are at an impass, but I'm confident that you'd agree with me in a hundred years. Hopefully we could come to an understanding before that day, but if not, see you there. :)
from marvelchild :
Without attempting to provide a biased response to you, I will say that it is enough to find your own answer, and that is the ONLY answer that will ever be true to you... But at the same time, the truth does not change depending on who unveils it. I think if you truly overturn every metaphorical stone and seek until you can seek no more, I have absolute assurance that you would find the same answer that gives me life.
from nosuperman :
thanks for the second note. i understand completly for being anxious of praise from here. you are a great writer, please believe i mean that. thanks for the advice on Kafka. i want to read some when time allows.
from marvelchild :
I wish that my own example were more definative to you... But I am entirely glad that you even wonder... To ask why is the first step to finding an answer. I think any intelligent person who is trying to understand life, and if there is meaning or if this is all just a fleeting, chaotic accident, would lean toward the notion that there is at least some degree of design in the universe. There is a whole world of information and a sea of great minds who have proposed their theoretical conclusions at your disposal. I admire anyone who chooses to look deeper than is necessary, as opposed to merely floating by in a complacent mindstate. The best way that I can help you believe the truth is to urge you to find it for yourself, and when that happens no one can take it away from you.
from and-um :
st benedict's college... in tinytiny town in mn
from amorrequiem :
done.
from knock-first :
thanks for your note and perspective
from liliocaloni :
its all about the ass...if you move it to the left the ball will hit the pins...but it has to be a happy ass.
from sadiegreene :
ah yes, pergatory, a most undesirable location I am sure.
from boxx9000 :
Favorite pie? (and don't say 3.14)
from bagelbean :
.. Or are you in recovery from all the fewofus know what? Call me. I'm here.
from unseen-evils :
...thanks for the note...?
from hand-painted :
Yes, but is it life that is throwing you up against the walls, or are you throwing yourself?
from hand-painted :
So are you saying that you find constant beauty in negative emotion? I can understand finding beauty in it, but to find a consistent, faithful beauty, in something that is negative just seems wrong. Do you understand where I am coming from?
from hand-painted :
did you really side with constant beauty, because you've seemed more depressed in your more recent entries.
from bagelbean :
.. what's the matter, booger bean?
from arsenic-kiss :
ahh music! the best way to brighten up anyday!! <3<3
from boxx9000 :
11-12-03. Your horoscope today. VIRGO. "The quality of correlation is inversely proportional to the density of control." I thought you would like that.
from arsenic-kiss :
some postal service? what do you mean by that darling? <3<3
from pieceofmind1 :
Hey, we both like to travel light years into the scientific mind, and we have similar taste in music, too. Have you heard the album Sea Change by Beck?
from discothekid :
Thank you sir. Right back at cha. Aren't we the kings of fabulous taste?
from lilmzlonely :
no..no need to be scared...lolz
from malex :
heya! thanks for the note you left me :) it's cool getting feedback, heh. you write really well...
from laswell :
so what artistys did you check out. and what did you like most about them.. thanks for backing me up i appreciate that others respect the freedom of speech as i do also. thank you.. peace
from kacklefight :
does anything in my journal have to mean anything to you???
from tasuki-kun :
Was any of that supposed to mean anything to me?
from trapidi :
gee..sry bout the suv
from urine :
Well hey, it's nice that you agree with me and all.
from herkinerf :
Thanks for leaving the note and for visiting. Hope you get a laugh outta me once in a while :)
from liliocaloni :
boy you crazy as fuck.. but you know thats kinda why we love you so!!! by the way that lama looks like a mighty comfy pillow..for me to poop on!
from pieceofmind1 :
I love Radiohead and your sense of humor, not necessarily in that order. Thanks for visiting my journal page. My son is not that much younger than you are, and I am writing about him tonight...
from deadtomorrow :
i like llamas, they are my friends, i like your diary, (hug)
from punkalici0us :
hey. you can live in my house in england yes but im afraid plants do need food...they need water. and if i dont give u water, you would die. not good.
from anaisnin13 :
I like your taste in music and literature. Now, I'm going to check out your jounal. Thanks for leaving a note. Fondly
from boxx9000 :
there is a poem (string) about the physics of love, particles and matter I think you will like. Go to: http://pieceofmind1.diaryland.com/index.html
from tasuki-kun :
Concerning Ayah-chan: (1) If you don't like what's in it, you don't have to read it. Such a simple matter. (2) It was just a twisted dream, nothing more. (3) You shouldn't be putting such dirty words in someone else's notes. (4) You don't even know Aya well enough to say stuff like that, temae hiretsukan!!
from dork-wad :
thanks, but youre fucked up. my words are meaningless.
from rumblelizard :
Hey, thanks! Hope to see you again soon.
from spacegirl33 :
you have an amazzzzinnnggg taste in music..some of my top bands are on yer list..lewis rocks my socks as well..thanks for your note..awesome diary as well..
from kacklefight :
yes, well i suppose i am. my oh my, what a mad world if i just found out i'm a girl... or a block of wood or something
from ladivina :
hello. very lovely diary. are you really a guy?
from deadtomorrow :
the way you write is insane, very cool! much much like your diary, thanks for the note
from threeletters :
......pastels? I don't even really like em. I did ask rucker to use some one day, though, and i think she found it easier to simply steal yours instead.....supply limitations and all that shit. I felt bad about that at the time.
from kacklefight :
wait... jessica? umm wait, we graduated together? yuo always wanted to use the pastels that mrs. rucker only let me use?
from threeletters :
dude. You must be Paul from Analy. And I'm that tall Jessica chick. We were in the same Rucker class....junior year? How bizarre to see me listed as a favorite diary o' yours. And you probably think so now too. Well. Have fun.
from kacklefight :
haha, what about the "basket treatment" that the hookers give in bangkok? that is knowledge supreme...
from scanzilla :
Don't listen to that last person, the pursuit of infinite knowledge is getting your knob jobbed by a pair of asian hookers. Only then will you know all.
from faschwaa :
Laswell, you need to understand that the pursuit of knowledge is a vast and branching trail. You can go your way and ask people to follow, but I have my own road by which I will travel. You have absolutely no right to tell me that my way is not THE way, because there is no THE way. Those who claim that there is will inevitably end up preaching. All I ask is that you respect the fact that not everyone will follow you, especially when you insult them for disagreeing with some of the most minor facets of your theories.
from laswell :
hmm. i wondered if you ever took my advice i too am a big fan of sigur ros and like where they are heading with music.. i hope you look in to my intentions to spread useful information. i am not trying to scare ppl but ppl like fashwaa and darkcreation hate my message of peace. hopefully someone will com by and help my out.. im not negative like they are and they never answer my questions for them but intend for me to know every answer off the top of my head.. i would like ppl to help me spread my word. but it seems like ppl are more obsessed with putting each other and me down. maybe ppl dont share the lust for knowledge like i do maybe human beings forgot about our own curious george. curiosity didnt kill my cats.
from boxx9000 :
The new template looks great.
from kitty-kaboom :
New template for Paul! Weee! The tag board is gone, but I got you a guestbook. it's not up and running yet but it should be by tomorrow at the latest! I hope you like it! (If you don't we can tweak it, or build you a new one!) LOVE YOU! - K
from laswell :
If you like music, in general we all have a mellow side and the only music that can make you really mellow is pure instrumental. Words only make us sad in the end cuz all love songs make you jealous if your not in love. Thats why we need to think outside of lyrics and focus on the beauty of audio waves. Try Bill laswell, buckethead, praxis, shawn lane, bill frisell, and the mars volta. They are hard to find so you need to look at amazon or something like this. Let me know what you think and if you like them help them spread their message they have a good one that we all need to understand.peace.
from kitty-kaboom :
i heart paul!

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