messages to koorikaze:
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from stepfordtart :
30! Awww, I could be your mama! Heehee. I hope there's pictures of the newly coloured bangs. And Happy Forthcoming Birthday! s x
from stepfordtart :
*thinking of your mum* s x
from stepfordtart :
Hoping the new stuff does the trick, dear! *hug* s x
from stepfordtart :
Wishes good wishes for your CT scan (and absolutely POSITIVE that it wont be like mine - see HERE: http://stepfordtart.diaryland.com/111220_64.html if you want to see how badly it went! s x
from talktogod :
Wow. Scary story that turns a bit funny later. But still...creepy scary at the time.
from talktogod :
Wow. That was scary with Stevie. Glad he's okay.
from talktogod :
I love your entry, "a nice day." Such a lovely description of the day.
from talktogod :
Ahem. Hey...remember me? I started wondering about my old friends from D-land, so I came over to check on some people. I'm sorry I was gone for so long. I'm writing at Wordpress now.
from stepfordtart :
Going to church doesnt make you a Christian - no more than standing in the garage makes you a car. But yeh, Id be finding another church - you dont need that sort of people around you. s x
from stepfordtart :
You sound so much cheerier (washer/dryer trauma notwithstanding, of course!) and thats so good to hear! s x
from bombasine :
i think many people who are dogmatic about children and television lack insight into how tv works as a positive, social experience in many people's lives, especially in fandom. there's a big difference between using tv as a babysitter versus bonding over a shared enthusiasm, just like there's a big difference between passively consuming media content and critically engaging with it. i know it's hard to ignore negative comments especially when depression is lurking in the wings, but i think people who react judgmentally are revealing more about themselves than they are saying about you. please don't feel bad about enjoying a cute show with stevie! ps. i'm glad you're feeling better.
from bombasine :
nice to see you're unlocked :)
from tobehis :
Thank you, and I hope you feel better soon. I'd rather have a cold/flu than a stomach bug. So miserable!
from tobehis :
Hopefully you'll sleep much better tonight!
from tobehis :
I understand about wanting to exercise but not overdo it. It's a fine line, sometimes. Have fun on your date with your hubby! I'm not married and I don't have kids, but I feel that it is VERY important for moms and dads to have time alone and date nights. Hopefully you and your husband can get that at least semi-regularly.
from stepfordtart :
Got it! Thank you! s x
from stepfordtart :
Hello dear! If youre giving out passwords will you send one to [email protected]? That should get to me ok, or you can leave one in my notes - I'll delete it as soon as I get it so it wont be hanging around on there. s x
from bombasine :
i miss your writing, but i understand why you needed to lock your journal. if you're comfortable sharing, i'd love to have a password - do you still have my email?
from tobehis :
Feel better soon!
from sunnyrain828 :
Hi! I'm a friend of tobehis. I just found your diary via her page the other day. I'd like to keep reading. My name's Stephanie and I'm a Christian, young wife, no kiddos yet. My favorite color is purple and I was an English major in college. LOL...I just said that last bit because I felt like I was giving a personal ad and thought I should add some extra factoids. ;) My guestbook is located at: http://www.freeguestbooks.net/mg/guest.pl?39351::0 and you have the option to leave private message there if you would like to give me your password privately. I can also get you my diary's password if you are interested.
from tobehis :
Oh, and I'm glad you're getting some things figured out about your health. Maybe now that you've got the antibiotic you'll start feeling better.
from tobehis :
Thanks for the password. The email address is one I just created this past week for situations like this (I set it up so it only shows my first name, so it's more private than my main one), so you can delete it or leave it, I don't care.
from tobehis :
I'd like the password, also. You can leave it in my guestbook (it has an option to make the message private so only I see it) or email it to me at [email protected]
from illusionless :
Hi Koorikaze. I would love the password to your diary. I'll send you the new password to my diary if you want.
from enurta :
are u ok????????? im so worried. sorry i haven't been around. you locked your diary, huh? e-mail me the password plz. love u mwaaaaaaah
from tobehis :
Thanks for the note. :-)
from pink-sapfire :
Lol I think we are all guilty of packrat symptoms from time to time. I had way more stuff to get rid of, him not so much because I tend to collect things that don't need to be collected lol.
from pink-sapfire :
As of Tuesday I had a phone again, it was seriously missed lol. Thanks for the words of confidence. Just gotta get the closets set up and then we will be done getting the apt all fixed up.
from tobehis :
I hate to think of babies having nightmares. It's unsettling enough when we have them as adults, but when you're a little guy and it seems so real? *shudders&
from tobehis :
Thanks. :-) ~ Hey, guess what? I'm going back to the gym today, after two weeks off. I'm so excited. :-) ~ Hope you have a great day!
from stepfordtart :
We have a studio, too! Wanna see? http://www.loustonehill.com/studio4_home.html s x
from tobehis :
Thanks for the note. I'm glad you're feeling so much better. I did have a nice time at the shower. :-)
from tobehis :
Be careful about going to the gym while sick...You could really hurt yourself more than help if you work out when you're not well. Hope they figure something out for you soon!
from enurta :
Tom will always remind me of N. He gave me Tom as a valentine's day gift 8 years ago. I honestly don't know how to deal with this. I've never been so scared in my entire life.
from enurta :
have u ever tried camomile tea? it's very calming and soothing. I don't like the taste, but it's okay if you add a little vanilla flavored soymilk or ricemilk. *hugs*
from stepfordtart :
How about something like this: http://www.owning-alpaca.com/celtic-knot-bracelet.html Im not keen on the 'woolly-ness' of it (looks itchy!)but it would be nice in something a bit silkier. Hope that helps! s x
from tobehis :
You're feeling better this afternoon and I'm feeling worse. :-( I've had this congestion and wet cough/body aches for a couple weeks and can't decide if it's really bad allergies or sinus crud. Yuck! That's great that you've lost 2 dress sizes...how long did it take you? Keep up the good work!
from tobehis :
Feel better soon!
from tobehis :
I wouldn't be able to survive without my car. I do good, unless the conditions are supposed to be snowy/icy. We had an early dismissal today from school (I work at a preschool), so I didn't go to the gym...I figured if they were expecting things to be bad enough to dismiss early, then there was no way I was going to go to the gym and spend an hour there before going home. Good luck with those "terrible twos" ... some are more terrible than others. Hopefully Steven won't be too bad. LOL. My birthday is in March, too!
from tobehis :
Is Steven an only child? How old is he?
from enurta :
I had blood work done a couple of months ago. there is nothing wrong with me. it's just all the meds...I'm on 11 different medications.
from tobehis :
Of course! I'm Amy, by the way.
from tobehis :
Thanks! I love it when I find other Christians here. Do you mind if I add you?
from stepfordtart :
Having been a 'stalkee' for many years, I can categorically say, no, I am not a stalker! And Im not big on spam either! heeheehe. Thanks for your note (and the hug!) s x
from stepfordtart :
Two dress sizes! Thats pretty impressive! Yay you! s x
from enurta :
Happy holidays sweetie *hugs*
from glorycloud :
Merry Christmas & happy New Year!
from enurta :
I hope you'll have fun with your hubby <3
from enurta :
I'm glad you and your family are safe. thanks for the note. you are always so sweet to me :) *hugs*
from stepfordtart :
One of my kids used to have a talking doll that would go off at inopportune moments - even when it appeared to be switched off. It used to scare the holy hell out of us! Sometimes it would just sigh, or start crying or say 'I love you, mama'. *shudder* creeeeeepy! s x
from enurta :
yay!!! he's okay!! :)
from stepfordtart :
Glad to hear all is OK. Go get your tests done and Im sure youz twos will be fine too. s x
from enurta :
It's okay hun, I know you've got enough on your plate already. last thing u need is to worry about me. love you. *hugs*
from enurta :
thanks for the note sweetie. your dad will be in my prayers, your mom also. *sending positive energy your way* love you! *hugs*
from stepfordtart :
Thinking good thoughts for your ma and pa, dear. s x
from jondavid2010 :
Hey you. I locked my journal. If you would like to read it (and I'd love it if you did), please email me at [email protected] with koorikaze in the subject somewhere. I'll respond with your username and password.
from bombasine :
Have you seen "Loom Knitting Pattern Book: 38 Easy, No-Needle Designs for All Loom Knitters" by Isela Phelps? There are excerpts up on Google Books, including the complete directions for animal-ear hats by Kathy Norris. I think this should link to the pattern: http://bit.ly/rrfPlT So cute!
from illusionless :
I would be very interested in that link. Please and thank you. :) It's so wonderful to see you so happy lately.
from enurta :
I don't know what I want. Everything I do is for others. But thank you for the note...I hope you get better soon. And I want you to know I cherish you as a friend. *hugs*
from stepfordtart :
If he's starting off like that, then there's a good chance he'll still be turning to you with BIG arms outstretched one day, for a cuddle before bedtime. Jooj (16 in 4 weeks) still homes in for a good old-fashioned snuggle up before bedtime (and usually a "I loves my mumsie" with it to!). s x
from stepfordtart :
Heehee! The "car journey as lullaby"!! I remember that SO well! I can also remember walking round the garden a billion times in the fog to help when Jooj had a case of croup. Thank goodness Im past those days. Feel better soon, dear. s x
from enurta :
wow, you've lost that much? wish I could do that...glad you are doing good! but sorry about the cold and about the little one being sick. I hope you both get better soon. *hugs*
from stepfordtart :
Sorry - no tips! When I had it I just took to my bed and was whiny about nobody looking after me properly! Hope you feel better soon. s x
from stepfordtart :
Yay to good news in all its forms! s x
from enurta :
'Yesterday was our 7 year anniversary' yaaaaay! congrats, congrats!!! that's so cool, I've been married for 7 years as well...our anniversary was back in august though. you haven't updated your other diary yet so I am assuming you are alright. wish you all the best. *hugs*
from stepfordtart :
Happy Birthday from across the pond, dear! s x
from fat-teen :
Go for it. (: I'm glad I could inspire you!
from enurta :
sorry about your mom. my father in-law has the same problem...I'll pray for them both, your entry reminded me of him. *hugs*
from stepfordtart :
***sending transatlantic good vibes***! s x PS I have theeeee best Sarah Brightman story for you...although you may not think so highly of her once Ive told you! When L gets back I will check the details - if Im gonna be a bitch, Im at least gonna be an accurate one!
from enurta :
it's your birthday next week??? omg. i want to send you a present!! can I? e-mail me your address and I'll send one as soon as I find the perfect gift.... ;) can't wait to go shopping!!! yayyy!!! I love buying presents.
from pathofruwen :
Oh, and thanks, I have a feeling they will. Faith. . . . *hugs*
from pathofruwen :
Unpredictability. You just never know. I absolve you (humor). :) It'll be OK. Remember what he always says? Yeah, those four [oft misused, sometimes annoying] little words. Well, let's apply them to ourselves, all of us, here and now. It'll be OK.
from pathofruwen :
How on earth were you the idiot? Can't be. Not saying things HAVE to be his fault, but still.
from stepfordtart :
My Uncle Ken was the set designer for the UK segments of Fraggle Rock! Yup. Really! s x
from enurta :
miss reading your diary....I hope you can get a new laptop soon. love you. & thank you for the note. I hope you're alright. *hugs*
from pathofruwen :
I had a laptop's hard drive crash a little over a year ago. Thankfully, it gave me warning signs. The speakers stopped working, the driver failed or something. Odd lines of colors were appearing on the screen. Startup wouldn't work right. I transferred all my files and just a few days later, it went dead. Dead metal and plastic. I try to keep things backed up or stored somewhere online now. I'm sorry that happened to you. Like you need more to worry about!
from enurta :
lol. i hate english dubs too :D
from stepfordtart :
Saw it on the BBC this morning! Looks like nobody was hurt at all, luckily. A few squashed cars and some fallen masonry but mercifully no loss of life. Huzzah! s x
from enurta :
thank god you are okay!!! *hugs*
from stepfordtart :
Just saw this over at julymalaise! Glad youre all OK. s x
from julymalaise :
I'm glad you are safe too! I read your entry and I was really surprised! It was really a rude awakening. I was on the couch and I felt everything shake! It was nuts!
from enurta :
don't worry, I'm not going anywhere. I love life. love you, thank you for your kind words *hugs*
from stepfordtart :
Found it on youtube! Yay! Thanks so much for that - next time L is whining on about some hideous production job and saying "three days Ive been working on this *sigh*. Well, I suppose you cant polish..." I will be able to step in and say "Oh, but you CAN! Adam and Jamie say so! Now, get to work, slacker!" s x
from stepfordtart :
Would a babysitting circle work for you? I used to run one when my kids were small - quite an easy way to buy yourself a couple of hours peace in the afternoon if you're not much into going out in the evenings. And the sitters tend to be people like you - ie completely used to (and therefore unfazed by) cranky toddlers. s x
from stepfordtart :
I found the episode, but I couldnt get it to play :( Will try again tomorrow and see if I can see it then. I stole the saying from my (musician) husband who often gets 'turd polishing' jobs for clients, s x
from stepfordtart :
Sweeeeeeeeet! (and deleted!) s x
from stepfordtart :
Forgot to say, both mine were biters for a while, but weirdly they used to do it as an extension of 'love'! Like you? you get a hug. Love you? you get a sloppy kiss type thing. REALLY love you? Bite your FACE OFF!!!!!! Usually whilst squealing with happiness. Bizarre! s x
from stepfordtart :
do you have a 'free ads' newspaper over there? Ours is pretty good - you place your ad for free as long as you're a private seller and everyone looks there first if they want to buy something. Otherwise ebay? s x
from enurta :
I'm praying, hun. I'm praying for you and your family. thanks for the note btw. love you. take care of yourself. i hope to hear good news soon. *hugs*
from stepfordtart :
*does* s x
from pathofruwen :
I'm old school. I send }}]]))vibes(([[{{. :D
from pathofruwen :
If it's not privacy issues, it's the crazy people who get on there and harass others, often to do with old friends and old boyfriends/girlfriends and the new wives/husbands who prefer to believe they are the only ones who've ever been in their SO's life *ever*! Hell, all I ever did was tell the new wife of an old friend that he'd been a really nice guy when we were friends in high school. Well, duh, that just made me her public enemy #1! Of course! Naturally! Why didn't I know she would hate me and threaten me just because I told her that 17 years ago I was good friends with the man who's been her husband for a mere three years??? *rolls eyes* Facebook is Hell.
from pink-sapfire :
Thanks. Yeah my bf and I aren't married but she calls herself my mother n law. He's away so instead of livin in our apt wit me she stays here. Hugs back atcha Jx
from pathofruwen :
Don't worry about it. I've been the same. Reading a lot and just not being very active online. I try to catch up at least once a week with everyone's entries, but I can totally relate to not knowing what to say.
from pink-sapfire :
Glad to see things are improving and I hope that continues. Sounds like you've been going through a lot lately. Hope things continue to get better for you and your family. Take care, jx
from bombasine :
glad to hear the good news about stevie! and if you can track down an ice cream maker, homemade non-dairy ice cream beats the pants off every commercial brand we've tried since my husband discovered he is lactose-intolerant. i've gotten very...creative...with my recipes and only one turned out poorly. (i know "make it yourself at home!" is probably not the most practical suggestion for a busy mama, but i thought i'd mention it anyway - an ice cream-free existence is such a sad idea.)
from stepfordtart :
Oh! Yes please, I would. s x
from enurta :
I'm sure Stevie is alright honey. love you. *hugs*
from stepfordtart :
Jooj was like a zombie when she had her shots, Treacle just sailed through them. Jooj is a straight A student and everything I could wish for in a daughter. Treacle is too. Im sure Stevie will be up to his old tricks and full of beans in the morning. Get some rest, dear. s x
from stepfordtart :
Deffo looks wearable to me! s x
from stepfordtart :
Yowser! I once knocked one of my kids out cold by opening a door onto their head. I feel your mum-guilt! Glad your we'en is OK tho.....not sure I can say the same for my daughter heeheehee! s x
from stepfordtart :
I dont think its necessary for you to take responsibility for someone else's bad behaviour, whatever your religion says. You dont have to do anything about this person and the way they behave - you made your feelings known before (and it sounds like you did it in a nice way) and he's chosen to ignore that. Just get on with whatever you want to get on with and let it go. Its the other person's problem, not yours, surely? s x
from enurta :
<3
from enurta :
it's your hubby's birthday??? sounds like fun :) how old is he? *hugs*
from enurta :
You have so much good things going on in your life. Enjoy it! Be happy! *sending positive energy your way* MWAH! (ps. that kiss was for you but mostly for the little one because he is so cute). still waiting for the e-mail with your story though. hope to hear from you soon. *hugs*
from enurta :
I hope it's not diabetes, just make sure to get yourself checked out by a doctor again soon, alright? it's friday so I'm going to light incense and pray, you and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers *hugs*
from stepfordtart :
Im really surprised they didnt tell you - Im sure they'd be quick enough to point it out if it was your kid doing the biting! My daughter bit my face once, in a fit of over-excitement - YOWWWWW! s x
from stepfordtart :
Im not sure I can do prayers but you can have all the good thoughts Ive got. Oh, and I'll throw in a ((hug)) if you think you could make use of it! s x
from stepfordtart :
Of course not! In fact, please do and I shall do the same! Thanks for elaborating re the shoes - Ive done the same a couple of times, its good fun, isnt it - I remember a particularly stylish glitter paisley pair I did once, which bled dye all over my feet! I looked like I had some hideous circulatory disease. s x
from enurta :
�ou're not pathetic sweetie, you're beautiful inside & out. never forget that. nothing you do can make that fact change.
from stepfordtart :
"my shoes are almost done"???? What could that mean? Are you baking them? Making them? Finished with them? What? WHAT? Im eaten up with curiosity here! s x
from enurta :
omg cuteness overload!!!! give the little one a kiss from me :)
from journalmine :
WHOA. You mentioned "today" . . . I didn't even know he posted today until just now, like, hours later. I'll go have a read.
from journalmine :
Oh snap. I'm just now reading the 6/23 entry. How did I miss that? But you have described the cycle of interacting with him in a nutshell! It's like he was playing us for suckers the whole time. I just found an entry of his I'd saved in which he said that he didn't believe in God. But then he did, and then he didn't, and then he did, repeat, repeat, etc. Hate you, love you, hate you, love you. Attack, apologize, attack, apologize, etc.
from enurta :
I texted you about 30 minutes ago, I hope I had the right number. I'm sorry if my text disturbed you, I 'guess' it's morning where u are right now....anyway, text me back anytime. I hope you are ok. and thanks for the note. *hugs*
from enurta :
sweetie, I read your new entry just a couple of seconds ago and I'm so sorry he is doing this to you! you're such a good person, I don't understand him at all. he is pure evil. I tried reading his diary but everything is gone. what did that coward write about you? hun, please don't be sad or angry! he's crazy, and you're right, he *should* be locked up. I'll pray. love you. *hugs*
from raen :
I can't keep a good attitude, either. I agree with everything you said.
from journalmine :
That's what I'm gonna do. I'll email you the username and password.
from stepfordtart :
Hi! Dont know if you have stats here but if you noticed a bit of a spike today, it was only me, having a nose around. Bearing in mind recent events with a mutual friend (!) I thought Id better explain myself in case Id spooked you. s x
from raen :
Oh, I should mention that I'm using this username because it doesn't show up in the users lists. - - - I really thought MAYBE he could be civil and we could work this out. But all I'm seeing is crazy. I'm not in league with Satan, I'm not a witch, I didn't contact people in California and set them against him. It's all nuts! Grr!
from raen :
I did send him a Facebook message. I didn't want to play any games. I told him he had my attention and that I'd listen to what he wanted. Basically, I told him to bring his trouble to me, privately, and get it sorted out. I mean, he returns, calls me swine, links to his new journal . . . maybe I'm reading into it, but I don't think so. It seems obvious to me that he was seeking my attention. For once, I directly gave it to him by sending him message, asking to get it out and over with in a FB message. - - - As for the death threats he mentions, all I can say to that is WTF?! And I am NOT a practicing witch! God! He keeps saying that. I am interested in witchcraft, just the same as I'm interested in dreams and ghosts and dragons and vampires. But do I, say, drink blood? No. Damn it all!
from raen :
*facepalm* I've only just now glanced at his latest entry. Dear Lord! Yeah, I'm not touching this one on my journal. Screw it. Guess I'll give it a read, though, just to be aware of what's been said. Ugh. . . .
from enurta :
Thank you so much for the youtube video, the song was really beautiful and the animation was really cool! You�re very talented :) love you. *hugs*
from journalmine :
I think "he" was onto something when he said he was "under crystalline delusion" � as in crystal meth? And so . . . we're swine? What were his pearls in the end? They weren't pearls at all; they were rainbow glass bubbles filled with wax. And his profile . . . what's up with that? To see if what he writes makes any difference? What does that mean? Just A being A again, I guess.
from enurta :
yeah, I know, but it feels like I keep hurting them even *more* by living and harming myself. if I die, it's over. they never have to worry about me purging, cutting, burning, crying, they could move on with their lives. I feel like I'm in the way.
from enurta :
thanks for always being so supportive and understanding. it means a lot to me <3
from enurta :
thanks for the note sweetie. you are right about the comfort thing, whenever I feel sad or lonely, I end up binging and purging. I don't know what else to do. i thought i had gotten better but it seems like I am going to keep fighting against bulimia for the rest of my life. btw, I think it's so cute that the little one has started eating big boy food! I remember when you sent me a pic of him and he was so to tiny and cute, can he talk yet? or can he just say certain words? love you!!! *hugs*
from enurta :
<3
from enurta :
Thanks for the note...you made me feel a little better. sometimes i feel like I'm the only one in the world who feels this way, thanks for reminding me that I'm not alone. don't worry about me, please. I'm okay. I just needed to get all the negativity out. *hugs*
from enurta :
thanks hun. I hope you know I'm there for *you* as well. take care and kiss the little one for me *hugs*
from enurta :
thanks for looking out for me, don't worry. I'm alright. no matter how tempting it is to commit suicide, I would never do it. because of my hubby, my mom, and my sister. and my best friend Tabby Tom the cat :)
from jondavid2010 :
Thanks. My Dad died two years ago. Exactly two years ago. It's an old grief, but the anniversary feels significant and . . . heavy.
from bombasine :
aw, thanks for your concern about my missing kitty. your thoughtful words mean a lot. (i'm sorry you had to lock your diary - i hope life is treating you kindly.)
from fan4 :
Thanks for the note. I'm sorry you had to put Smitten down. *returns hug*
from journalmine :
Count me in, too.
from enurta :
i'd like to keep in-touch! guess u already knew that though :D
from illusionless :
I read your diary as well. Even though I don't comment. I find you interesting to read.
from enurta :
I read your diary. So pelase let me know if you switch. *hugs*
from enurta :
*crosses fingers* :)
from enurta :
please be safe, keep fighting! thinking of you. *hugs*
from enurta :
oh hun, I feel really bad for you. i hope things work out. you'll be in my prayers as usual. love you. take care *hugs*
from enurta :
I'd love to see some pics of your new hairstyle! sounds cool ;) *hugs*
from enurta :
thanks for the note sweetie! wow, steven is walking on his own??? that's great news. he is growing up so fast! :)
from bombasine :
wishing you and your family all the best.
from enurta :
sorry about your grandma, but don't be sad. you will see her again :) *hugs* and I hope little steven will get better soon! <3
from enurta :
thank you so much for your kind words <3
from jondavid2010 :
Indeed! How do you know when they've started saying it on purpose, though?
from fan4 :
Happy belated birthday!
from enurta :
I hope that you will get well soon. you're in my prayers, and so is your grandma. *hugs*
from fan4 :
What's puff paint?
from fan4 :
Did you see last year's Harry Potter film? I wish I didn't have to wait so long to see the last one!
from fan4 :
Get well soon! I'm sorry your Granny is dying.
from try2conceive :
Thank you for your note and letting me know you'd been reading. I'm still hoping that all turns out well, but like I've mentioned a couple times, eve if not, I so very thankful to have this right now!
from enurta :
i hope stevie gets well soon! please don't worry to much. *hugs*
from enurta :
I will pray for you and your grandmother. i hope you both get well soon. take care *hugs* and thanks for the note u left! I am lucky to have you as a friend.
from enurta :
what kind of manga do you have? and how much?? btw, just saw the pic of stevie you sent...hehe, he's the cutest baby I have ever seen!!! :)
from pink-sapfire :
Zumba is gr8 onceyou get the hang of it. I miss it myself, but just donKt feel like traveling all the way to the other side of town to go to the Ymca. I hope to get dvds come next month we'll see Have a blessed day
from enurta :
this maybe will sound stupid but why avoid toys made in china? are they dangerous or something? and tell stevie CONGRATS from me, his first step!! wow!! must be really exciting :) how old is he now? Mwah!
from pink-sapfire :
Thanks, my template took me like 1-2 weeks to figure out.... alot of the sites to get templates these days don't work UGH... I got an A, B, C, & a D in my classes. Not as well as I was hoping but my GPA is a 2.556, so I'm pretty content with it all. Hope all is well!
from enurta :
thanks for the support, you always have a way of making me feel better. thank you for being there. of course I'll pray for you and your parents. <3
from enurta :
thanks! how are u? I miss reading your diary, guess you have your hands full with the baby :) give him a kiss from me! *hugs*
from tsulnagrom :
hey! (sorry i JUST noticed you wrote me a note). it's really cute that my niece and your son look alike. babies seem to look similar which is really funny. did you post some pics of your son yet?
from jondavid2010 :
We read that chamomile was no good for kids under 6 months. Is this true, or just people overreacting?
from enurta :
thanks...but the same goes for you! remember that. *hugs*
from pink-sapfire :
Not at all! Add away, I'm Jasmine :)
from pink-sapfire :
I will be adding your diary to my list. Nice to find a fellow Christian on site
from enurta :
hey...it's been a while since you updated your diary. is everything okay? I'm a little worried about you. Send me a note or an e-mail after you read this. just so I'll know you're fine...*hugs*
from enurta :
my intention wasn't to binge...I just thought 'why not? it's yummy'. that was basically it. thanks for caring. I almost purged, but talked to N instead and now I don't feel full anymore. I'm actually hungry again but I've had enough food today. Going to drink water and later, some green tea. *hugs*
from enurta :
that sounds rough to deal with on your own, does your hubby help out sometimes? or does he work a lot? and tired when he gets home? I remember what it's like ot have a little toddler aound, I was 10, almost 11 when my mom had my sister. me and my brother had to help my mom with the cleaning, dishes, feeding the baby (when she was too tired, she had a c-section too). It was really hard the first months. do you have friends/family who could help out? I know you don't get along well with your in-laws... :( *hugs*
from bombasine :
always nice to see you here - and your new hairstyle sounds gorgeous!
from enurta :
I'm glad do hear (read) that you are doing okay : ) Have fun with your mom *hugs*
from enurta :
thanks for the support. you should tell yourself the same thing :) if I'm beautiful, then you are too. and i'm drinking lots and lots of water (but I cheat and drink diet coke from time to time) :P *hugs*
from enurta :
aww! he's already crawling? how cute :) i hope you have a good time at your parents. Enjoy the weekend sweetie. *hugs*
from killsoft :
as you can see, the snide remarks have gone both ways.
from enurta :
I'd love to get an e-mail from you :) looking forward to read it! I'm glad you and Stevie are doing better. too bad your hubby is sick now though :/ 'I don't care how I think my bathing suit looks on me as long as it fits. I need to overcome these negative self-image issues. They are not good for my health nor for Steven. I want him to grow up confident and to do that, I need to be more confident.' so true! and you are beautiful my dear, so you SHOULD feel confident! you deserve it, girl! *hugs*
from enurta :
it's been a while since you updated, I hope everything is OK, I'm a little worried. sending positive energy your way. *hugs*
from enurta :
so sorry about stevie! I hope he gets better soon. I will pray for his and your whole family's safety. *hugs*
from talktogod :
Sorry I have been around lately. I find myself very short on time in the mornings before work. I got caught up today, though. Glad things are going well for you and your son is progressing well. Hugs!
from jondavid2010 :
It's been a while. It's been hard for me to be online for any period of time recently, for many reasons. I tried to catch up with your writing today. It's exciting to me to read aout Steven's development and imagine Grace and Eli there in twelve months. Please include me if you lock up.
from talktogod :
Sorry to hear about the cat. We get very attached to our animals, so I understand. Of course, I would like to keep reading if you would send me the password. [email protected]. I think you already have that somewhere, maybe.
from enurta :
ops. sent the note twice...sorry for bothering you :(
from jondavid2010 :
thanks 4 da encoorajments.
from bombasine :
i'm sorry about your kitty.
from enurta :
I always smile whenever I read about Stevie. I'm so happy for you. He really is a blessing. I'll pray for you & your family to be safe and happy. <3
from talktogod :
First solid food. Those moments are so very wonderful. I can still remember the day that our oldest daughter discovered her toes. :-)
from bombasine :
it makes me smile when you write about your son.
from enurta :
artificial sweeteners? Do they make you gain weight? I use it when I drink tea, and I always drink diet coke which contains a *lot* of sweetener. Birth control always fucks up everything, I was on it a while (years ago when I was 17) and it gave me terrible mood swings. What is your goal weight? Mine is 140 pounds. That�s a �healthy� weight for my height. Were you really thin before getting pregnant? I was underweight until I started taking meds (4 years ago). Since then my weight goes up and down, the most I�ve weighed is 220, the lowest 96 lbs during these years I�ve taken meds. <3
from enurta :
I weigh 165 lbs. And I haven't had a baby! You shouldn't be so hard on yourself...how tall are you? I'm 5'3. wanna be my diet buddy? my plan is to only eat 1600 cals a day, and take long walks every day. there no 'forbidden' food. i can eat whatever i want as long as i eat under 1600 cals. want to join me? *hugs*
from enurta :
I'm so happy you feel that way! It's a good thing to be thankful, grateful for what we have. Sometimes life is so hectic that we forget the ones that mean the most. I just want to say I'm happy for you! Love, /M.
from enurta :
may I read your other diary too? I love reading your words. I really like you. you're so kind.
from enurta :
who are these dumnb, stupid, ignorant people who are saying those mean things to you? I really want to know so I can give them a piece of my mind!!! stupid fuckers. just ignore them hun, they are nothing. don't lock up, because that is what they want....they want to take offense. just think of them as annoying ants. step on them. they are nothing. love you! *hugs*
from enurta :
I'm so sorry about your friend! But you will see her again...she is with God now. Please, don't be sad...I know it's hard but...try to see it like this; everybody dies. It's a fact of life we cannot ignore. Just have faith. I will pray for you and your friend. Please take care. <3
from jondavid2010 :
The most difficult moments of Eli and Grace's life so far have been concerning my mother, and her relationships to this family. Boundary issues. It's so, so hard. And it's very hard to be a husband and son in the middle. I'm sure you've talked to him about it. Anyway, you are Steve's mom, and you're a good one. Don't let your mom-in-law undermine the truth of that.
from enurta :
If you ask me, I think 'weight challanges' are stupid. You should stop doing it, and try to lose weight on your own without competing with anyone. I would *never* be able to handle the pressure of competing with others, it would make me bonkers. please, take it easy. rest. you can lose the weight later. you have a baby you have to take care of, just that is hard enough. you don't need stress yourself out over your weight. how many pounds are u overweight? nobody is perfect. i understand that u want to lose weight, because u gained because of the pregnancy etc....but please, put yourself and your family in first place. losing weight isn't everything. take care and god bless. <3
from talktogod :
Don't compare yourself to anyone else, especially in the "weight loss challenge." If you've lost five pounds, celebrate that. If you compare yourself to others, there will always be somebody better, and that leads to, well, feeling defeated. You are your own person, and you do what you can at your own pace.
from enurta :
thanks for believing in me. it means a lot. god bless. <3
from talktogod :
Hurray for second opinions!! And good parents who will take the time to get them!
from jondavid2010 :
Well, I read all your entries since Steven's birth. Thanks. They're encouraging. Any advice for supporting a woman with baby blues?
from enurta :
cupcake earrings?! I'd love to see a pic!! :) *hugs*
from talktogod :
Haha. Rolling babies. Good luck keeping up with him now...LOL. They are SO precious!! Savor these days, my friend.
from glorycloud :
before you know it your baby will be walking-children are a blessing-peace
from jondavid2010 :
Thankyou. It looks like you're a new parent, too. When I get the chance, I'll read you. I can't promise it'll be soon, but I will.
from jondavid2010 :
Thanks for the prayers.
from bombasine :
i am glad to hear your cousin is doing better, and your little guy is in my thoughts. enjoy your date night!
from talktogod :
Thank you for your kind comment. I'm glad you were encouraged. By the way...how is your cousin?
from enurta :
oh and i forgot to write, thank you for the note! unfortunetly, I do not use yahoo messenger :( I use one that is only for hotmail. but thanks for the offer! I'm lucky too :)
from enurta :
don't push yourself too hard. why not start with something easy? like taking power walks or jogging? if you want to lose weight, taking a walk before eating breakfast helps. <3
from enurta :
You are not a loser! You are a smart, beautiful and kind woman. Don't say negative things about yourself. You deserve so much better than that. I'm sorry your baby is sick. Most formula have soy in it, I remember when my little sister was a baby, my mom couldn't breast feed and she had to give my sister formula. The formula made my sister sick, she kept puking it out, when she saw a doctor the doctor said she was allergic to soy. Which is a common ingredient in formula. so try to find a formula without soy, it might help. back in the day, (this was over 14 years ago), there was no formula without soy. so my baby sister had to drink cowmilk but it worked out fine. it was just for a couple of months. anyway, i hope things will work out. you are in my prayers. i'm trying to send positive energy your way :)
from enurta :
<3
from animejournal :
sorry I haven't responded! DDR is awesome! Love them! In fact I have so many of their songs!
from talktogod :
So sorry about your cousin. That's horrible. I will pray for her recovery.
from enurta :
I'm looking forward to seeing The Last Airbender too! Dev Patel is one of my favorite actors. have you seen the tv show called 'skins'? it's brittish, quite good. Dev Patel is in it, it's about a bunch of teens. it's really interesting. <3
from talktogod :
Hey, friend. Check out www.sparkpeople.com It's a free website/community that deals with having a "healthy lifestyle." Accountability, nutrition tracking, fitness tracking, literally thousands of recipes, and motivation. I've been on it for a couple months, and I've lost almost 20 pounds. If you decide to join, my user name is "bickleyhouse."
from talktogod :
Praying for you and for your husband to get a clue! >:(
from enurta :
thanks, and the same goes for you. i'm here if you need to talk. thank you for being my friend. it means a lot to me. you are a good person.
from talktogod :
I know about feeling insecure. I've been struggling with that so much since I lost my job. There are days I can barely drag myself out of bed, and then when I do, I hardly get anything accomplished at all. But then there are other days where I'm fine and I work hard all day, looking for work and doing house stuff. It's unpredictable, too. But what I keep right in front of me the whole time is that God is in control. Even when I'm feeling depressed, I know that this is true, so I know that, eventually, I'll get out of it and move one. But right this second, I don't feel worth much.
from talktogod :
*whew* Huge sigh of relief. Thank you, Jesus, for protecting this dear one. *HUGS*
from enurta :
I pray for you every night, no matter what. I pray for your husband and your baby too. so don't worry. <3
from talktogod :
Lord, please don't allow this to happen. Please let this dear girl know how much you care for her. I don't know what else to say, friend. My heart goes out to you, and anything I say would just sound like cheap rhetoric, and I don't want to do that. I do know this, though, that God cares for you. That's not rhetoric. <3
from talktogod :
I will certainly pray for you! You've got me worried.
from animejournal :
WEIRD AL IS MY GUY! HE WAS SO awesome back in the day!!! Amish Paradise was hilarious!
from bombasine :
take good care of yourself and your little guy! i'll look forward to seeing you here again when life lets up a little.
from talktogod :
That's right...I've heard you talk about doing DDR. I was going to suggest the Wii Fit. It's actually quite fun and a good exercise tool. Unfortunately, I'm too heavy for the balance board.
from talktogod :
Do you have a Wii?
from talktogod :
It's always good to hear that things aren't as bad as you thought. Praise the Lord for that. And I hope you have a nice trip.
from fan4 :
I hope you have a good weekend too.
from fan4 :
What are copic markers?
from fan4 :
I sometimes played DDR when I attended the University of Washington. I hope you like your roadtrip. I went on one in 2008.
from enurta :
thank you for being so supportive. I hope you have fun on your trip <3
from enurta :
I care about you a lot. I think you�re inspirational, the fact that you were bulimic and then got better and had baby�it makes me happy. It makes me feel like nothing is impossible <3
from enurta :
What you�re going through breaks my heart�but I�m sure the little one will be alright. He will pull through. I�ll keep praying. xoxo
from enurta :
I'm so sorry this is happening. You, your husband and your baby are in my prayers <3 I hope things will get better.
from enurta :
may i ask how long you've been married? I'm married too, we married quite young, when we were both 18. now I'm 24 so it's been 6 years. how old were you when you got married? I'm glad you went on a date, green tea ice-cream sounds delicious! wish I could try it. my hubby wants to travel to Japan with me. the food there is supposed to be awesome. have you seen this site? http://www.jlist.com/ it's really interesting! lots of yummy things to buy... :) anyway, itte irrasshai :) *hugs*
from talktogod :
It's great that you had a date night. Also...I don't think there is any other type of parenting course than "crash course." Haha...Sure, I know, there are books on it. But nothing can really prepare you for the real thing when it happens. You guys will be great! Your hearts are in the right place.
from animejournal :
I hope you will be okay! Don't worry hubby is just a little frustrated, but he'll be happy again! Feel better.
from enurta :
congrats! <3
from tsulnagrom :
congratulations! i'm so excited for you!
from talktogod :
I'm almost in tears reading the account. Praise God, and congratulations!!!
from bombasine :
what exciting news - i will be thinking of you all day tomorrow!
from talktogod :
Will be praying for a safe and healthy birth! God bless.
from enurta :
Thanks for your note, thank you also for the offer. May I send you an e-mail? I think it's great that you got cured. Even if you feel the urge to purge sometimes...it's so damn hard to let go of an eating disorder. It feels so safe. Whenever something bad happens, I turn to bulimia. This time it went too far though. I want to get better, I just don't know how. And getting help is scary. I don't want anyone to tell me how I am supposed to eat, because it would feel like I was not in control of my own life. and that scares me. I think I'd rather die. anyway, sorry for talking about myself when you have so much going on in your life. I will pray for you and your baby :) *hugs*
from talktogod :
You are not a hypocrite, my friend. We went into our first childbirth, my wife declaring that she wasn't going to have any pain drugs. As soon as that back labor started, her countenance changed and she said, "Give me that epidural!" Just because your ideals aren't met doesn't make you a hypocrite. Things just didn't work out the way you hoped they would. Oh, and after almost 21 years of parenting experience...that keeps happening, too. LoL!! Just warning you...HUGS!!!
from talktogod :
YAY!!! That is so exciting!!
from enurta :
that's great news :) I'm happy for you! <3
from talktogod :
Father of Life, I pray urgently for this dear sister. Help her to see that she is NOT a failure! She is a precious child of yours and needs your hand of encouragement on her life right now. God, lift her spirits and send someone special to her right now to help affirm her life. Bless her, Lord, bless her mightily!
from talktogod :
That's interesting news...my wife had a vaginal birth for our second daughter, after having a c-section on the first. There was no question about it at all, and it went fine.
from enurta :
I will pray that your baby gets better. I don't know what else to say...i can't even imagine how you must feel <3
from talktogod :
I suffer from occasional cellulitis. It's no fun, that's for sure. Mine is in the calf/shin area. Mainly caused by my weight and type-2 diabetes (which is also mainly caused by my weight). You would think I would get motivated and do something about that...
from enurta :
Thanks for shedding some light on the situation. You are right. Thank you.
from talktogod :
I understand your hesitancy to upgrade. I'm seriously considering moving from Diaryland to another blog, because there are others that don't cost. Only problem is, I've got a couple of years worth of devotional journals over here.
from talktogod :
Whew. That's a relief. Thank you, Jesus.
from talktogod :
Oh no. Dear Lord, please protect the baby!
from bombasine :
yay! i've looked through my yarn stash, and i was wondering if you have a preference on (1) blue or neutrals? and (2) cables or no cables?
from fan4 :
I'm not a morning person either.
from talktogod :
Happy New Year! I wish you joy and peace in the coming year, and great health for you and your new baby.
from fan4 :
My voice came back around the 30th. of December. I had missed being able to talk. Yes, I did have a good Christmas. I recieved early Christmas presents from a friend, on-time Christmas presents from my parents, and a late Christmas present from a former celebrity. (I had ordered a book from him, and it happened to arrive the day after Christmas.) In 2008, I wrote "Christ is the reason for the Season" in all my Christmas cards. I still used the saying last year, only I didn't write it in all the cards.
from fan4 :
Did you have a Merry Christmas? Guess I have a lot of catching up to do. I didn't know you were pregnant. Congrats!
from eco-mama :
Happy Holidays to you as well!
from fan4 :
I don't have tea, but I have been drinking water. I've also taken airborne. Thanks for the note.
from talktogod :
Merry Christmas, my friend!
from talktogod :
"The American dream...has been ground to dust." That was amazing!! I might write a song with that in it. Or I might just say I'm going to and never do it. That's probably more like it.
from bombasine :
i was wondering if you would like some handmade things for the baby - once i've finished my holiday knitting, i won't have any projects on the pins, and i'd be happy to make something to suit your color and style preferences. (now, if the idea of getting stuff from a stranger on the internet is not okay with you, please don't be afraid that my feelings will be hurt if you say no. otherwise, i am sure we can find a way to get things from me to you in a way that doesn't cross any lines with regard to privacy.)
from fan4 :
I start working on my cards either on Thanksgiving or the day before. That helps. Thanks for the note. :)
from talktogod :
Lifting up prayers. No matter how much we struggle with our own problems, there is never so much that we can't stop to think about/pray for others who have needs. That's what this "family" is all about. <3
from bombasine :
i will keep you and your family in my thoughts. hang in there.
from talktogod :
Thanks for the nice note.
from bombasine :
it's awful to feel like you're a burden on everyone - i've been there and i know. but there may be a particular grace you can find in it. i mean, allowing other people to practice their values in being of service to you is...very humbling, in a way that is not necessarily very comfortable.
from talktogod :
Praying for you today!! I don't have any great words, but pray that God will heal your hurts.
from enurta :
thank you for your kindness. I'll keep that in mind <3
from bombasine :
...mind if i add you to my favourites? i don't want to compromise your privacy...
from bombasine :
happy birthday! all the best to you.
from talktogod :
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
from talktogod :
Have fun at the beach! *jealous*
from talktogod :
Yay! That makes me happy. Funny...I just figured that out yesterday. *doh*
from talktogod :
Wait!! Are you...?? I'm so confused... LoL! Thanks for the encouraging notes/comments!
from enurta :
thanks for the note. you are probably right. and you seem really interesting! I love manga and anime too. do you have a myanimelist.net account? If you don't, you should get one. my name is deadpassive over there if you'd like to add me. have a nice day. xxx
from fan4 :
One of my friends has a home version of DDR. Her pads didn't want to work correctly though.
from fan4 :
There's a DDR Extreme game at the UW (located in the HUB's game room). I can only play beginner mode though. (I tried light mode, but didn't do too good.)
from glorycloud :
I enjoy receiving notes-peace
from animejournal :
Thanks for adding me up. I have to agree with your latest entry. The world is changing, and cartoons back in the day were amazing. These kids have a bunch of junk.....
from fan4 :
I've seen selections from the CCS manga and anime, and like the anime better. I haven't heard of the two mangas you mentioned in your note.
from fan4 :
Do you have a favorite manga? Mine's Yu-Gi-Oh!
from fan4 :
TV show wise, I like Cardcaptor Sakura and Sailor Moon. Movie wise, I like Spirited Away, Kiki's Delivery Service, Pokemon 2000, and My Neighbor Totoro. Can't yet comment on Ponyo, since I haven't seen that film in its entirety. (I wanted to, but kept being distracted by the people around me. Reached the point where I walked out of the theater to calm down.)
from fan4 :
Do you have any favorite anime shows and/or films?
from fan4 :
I like cats too.

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