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well, the pregnancy thing is scary and the cycle must be broken -- but as for god, that kind of stuff falls under "free will." unfortunately. and you KNOW i've read "dry." love it. have you read "drinking: a love story"? that was my first inkling that something might be wrong with me, years ago.

from gettingnaked :

Oh my... The stories you told about your famioly remind me so much of my mother's side of my family. I'm so sorry... The only up side is that it makes for good storytelling...

from dragprincess :

hot damn, i missed seeing you around.

from nimiiwin :

Forget the hot girl-girl action ... there is NO action in this diary AT ALL. Where is you?

from nimiiwin :

you are hilarious. I hope that if they are foolish enough to read without telling you that they tell the rest of the crew how you really feel. :)

from dragprincess :

i really needed to read that entry -- that's what i'm thinking about too right now. did you get my email about the new diary? if not, email me at [email protected]. love, abby

from gettingnaked :

I've always felt like we create our own good fortune. So maybe you're blessed or maybe it's luck... or both... but no matter how you look at it, you deserve this, and deep down you know it or else it never would have happened. Go you!

from nimiiwin :

You, darling, are definitely blessed. Enjoy the feeling - most of us get so caught up that we don't recognize grace when it hits us.

from dragprincess :

YOU DID IT!! You are realizing the dream. You go and go, miss thing!!! love, the writer formerly known as cactustree

from nimiiwin :

Okay. No unannounced visits. I promise. I'll give you ample time to hide the laundry and make some coffee. It'll have to be decaf though - you do NOT want me over on caffeine. Oh, boy. How did the job interview go? I'm sure you rocked, chica.

from nimiiwin :

You are a stitch. I highly doubt that C is going to leave wonderful you for a neurotic, chronically late, messy woman with THREE kids just because of footwear. Hm. Just in case, I'll wear flats when I come to visit you! :)

from nimiiwin :

I'm glad you're back! And that the vampire is gone! And ..shoot. There was something else. Oh, yeah! I saw an ad for a lesbian spa just outside Tucson. I'll try to get you the info next week - it's brand new and I can't even remember the name of the place! :going to check email:

from nimiiwin :

What is your life�s work? Once upon a time, I would have said that fundraising was it. That it was what gave my life purpose. Now, I�m afraid to say, I�ve become a clich�. It�s raising my children. I never would have believed that I could love something so much as I love being a mother. All in all, I even liked staying home. I thought I ought to be making money so I got a job, but I wish I were home. If you could change one thing about your personality what would it be? I tend to be crabby with PJH a lot. What qualities do you need in a friend that are non-negotiable? In a friend? Reliability, I guess. Loyalty. A good sense of humor is probably important or else they�ll think I�m a nutjob. What one thing did you do in your life that �crashed and burned�? What would you do differently today? Hm. I think that, though we�ve managed to stick it out thus far, the beginnings of my relationship with PJH could have been handled much, much better. I don�t know what got into me back then.

from nimiiwin :

Okay ... now I tried to send you an email with all the answers to my questions but you are no longer saucee, apparently. Send me the addy, I'll send you the email. All you ever wanted to knwo about Nimiiwin and then some. :grin:

from nimiiwin :

PS If you email me your email address (mine is nimiiwin at yahoo dot com) then I'll send you my snail addy for you to send my cookies! :grin:

from nimiiwin :

HEre you go! More questions to answer! McMenses 1. What made you decide to study horticulture? 2. If you had to live somewhere, anywhere, besides near Lake Michigan, where would you go? 3. How did you choose McMenses? 4. There are a million and fifty different femme �labels� � sporty, high, ultra, etc. What�s yours? How would C ID � soft butch, butchy-butch, stone-butch, what-the-hell-do-you-mean-butch? (Though, that�s two.) 5. What do you want to know about me?

from nimiiwin :

Where were you the first time you were kissed? I was about 8 years old and I was in the basement of my mom�s friend�s house. It was her son. Brian, was his name. I wonder if he remembers? Brian Lamb. He�d probably be quite shocked to find out I was queer. My first girl-kiss was something of a clich�: I was in a bar called Radclyffe Hall in Grand Rapids, Michigan. It was Dyke Drama at it�s finest: the girl, Holly, was my aunt�s recent ex. I was drunk. It happened. Eek. What�s more important to you in a relationship: good sex or a good sense of humor? This is a hard question. I think that they are both important in their own right. I can�t say �oh, I could live without sex if the person were funny� or �oh, I could live with someone boring as hell if we had great sex.� Wait. Yes, I could. Great sex. Tell me one thing you did in your youth that you�ve come to regret? The aforementioned aunt incident. If you were cremated and sprinkled anywhere in the world, where would it be? I don�t know. I haven�t given enough thought to my own death. If nothing becomes particularly meaningful before the time comes, I�ll let my family decide. What is your favorite word, expression or phrase? I have a few. I am trying to teach the boys the few words of Ojibwe that I know, so we say �migwetch� (me-g-wetch) for thank you. I call a small person I know �pobrecita mia� whenever she is feeling pitiful. My sister and I both took Spanish in high school and we crack each other up with some odd expressions like �a ti te toca� which, according to her, means, �take your turn.� :)

from nimiiwin :

Girl, you *have* intellect ... you just don't feel a need to toss it out in the room and try to beat people up with it. Me, too.

from nimiiwin :

did you know that Michael Jordan also shares our birthday?

from cactustree :

that's because you are 100% fierce!

from nimiiwin :

It's your birthday?! It's *my* birthday! Happy Birthday, Lovebug!

from nimiiwin :

Girl, Milwaukee isn't even on the list of Possible Places to Live. We'd go somewhere colder? Are we nuts? No. HOwever, PJH has a cousin and a favorite aunt in WI - and I think near Milwaukee so if we ever get around to visiting them, maybe we can meet up then. ;)

from nimiiwin :

PS I'm definitely not the sparkly sort!

from nimiiwin :

I'm definitely femme. I don't know about the rest. Nurturer, definitely. As for earth mama - I don't think so. I'm too tense about germs and infections and being neat and tidy, I think. Except for when it comes to my hair. I no longer care about that so much. Got any good template sites I could check out?

from cindreviews :

Cinderella Reviews is a brand new review site. So if you would like a review please come and check us out at http://cindreviews.diaryland.com/ . We hope to be hearing from you soon. Thank You!

from nimiiwin :

Thanks for the well wishes. We all appreciate it. I just re-read your last note - I think that the Aveeno body wash is awesome but lately I've been using Suaves Oatmeal shower gel and it works well too. Eucerin lotion is the bomb. There you have it. :)

from nimiiwin :

Personally, I'd skip the Retin-a. But then you didn't ask me that, did you? :) You can use the Cetaphil without the baking soda. It's apparently the wonder cleanser. So far, I like it alot. And it's gentle. So try that. :) Good luck.

from nimiiwin :

Hey! I wear turtlnecks all the time! And I'm about ... oh, 130 pounds above "waif like"! :)

from nimiiwin :

You're not more deranged than the next guy. It is hard to make real friends when you're an adult. Don't worry. It'll happen. PS The apartment? Take it! Heat rises! You'll have the benefit of your lower neighbors heat, too!

from nimiiwin :

Wow. You've had a busy few days. I have to say that with regards to that man ... I'm not terribly surprised. Arrogance never shocks me any more. The punk. As for the death penalty ... I'm divided on that one. On one hand, I'm shockingly Republican-like ... if they are goign to have to spend the rest of their life in jail, why not? Sounds callous, doesn't it? But the more rational part of me agrees with you that no more how certain we are that a person is guilty, there is the smallest chance that he is not - and it almost always is a "he" in these cases. So ... I can understand the feelings of some people but i guess in the long run, I'm with you. Better not to risk it.

from nimiiwin :

wiseass. :)

from hothead :

down girl, down! wow, i had no idea there'd be such a demand...but no worries, love. you can get the poster at http://www.hotheadpaisan.com/poster.htm, and diane dimassa'll even sign it for you. see? everyone's happy. now let go of heidi's dog...

from purplebanana :

It's not a bad thing at all; uncomfortable things make us grow. But...what does your comment about me on your buddy list mean? What is the headline of the paper you are hiding behind?

from nimiiwin :

Thanks for the note! :) By the way ... I need a new comment on your diary! I'm not sweet! I'm ... edgy, and dark and ... okay, so I'm not. But I'm not sweet either. I think I'm more ... tart.

from hothead :

i just realized that i never responded to your note about the target job. i thought i had. wow, i suck. anyhow, yeah...thanks for your thoughts there. i knew i couldn't be the only one who wanted a better chance for herself. you rock, my dear. hard. :)

from nimiiwin :

Thanks! You can borrow it if you want! :) You pronounce it Nuh me win On duh quay.

from sapphicpoet :

I wasn't put off by the cutting; as a matter of a fact I can relate to it. It's human nature to fear and turn away from what we don't understand and the simple truth is that a lot of people just don't understand self-injury. Love your diary BTW.

from nimiiwin :

I think it's easier for people to deal with things that are "socially acceptable" like shopping and drinking and too much TV and crappy food. It's almost universal. Cutting isn't. I hope you don't think I was put off by your writing. What I am is concerned since you've said you feel badly. I wish you didn't.

from nimiiwin :

*forehead smooches* I'm sorry your friend was such an idiot and that you are in so much pain. I'll be thinking about you. I wish there were something more profound, more helpful that I could say but I can't think of anything.

from hothead :

pssshht. of COURSE we'll keep in touch! and steal away...i think everyone has that list by now, doll. love hothead, queen of "better late than never"

from nimiiwin :

Y'know what's weird? When I look at your webpage when I'm at work, you can't see me or a couple of others under the links. But when I look at it from other computers, you can see me but not other people. Isn't that odd?

from nimiiwin :

Do you know what's beautiful to me? The smiles of my boys, the way PJH looks when she's snuggled into bed for the night, the yard behind my house. Those things make me *so* happy. I'm glad you're doing better, toots. I knew it was just a matter of time.

from nimiiwin :

Hey! I'm so glad to hear things are going well for you. This is an exciting time. If things get tough, just remember: you might be starting at the beginning again, but it's the next level up! :)

from nimiiwin :

Lord. 4th note *in a row*. Seriously, I need to get a life! :) Anyway, do you know that we have the same birthday?! How cool!!

from nimiiwin :

:snicker: I think it's more that you're from WI than that you're Midwestern! :) *I* don't love the Allman Brothers Band and I surely never aspire to have a pickup truck. But then ... I do think being vegan is next to impossible. What's life without cheese? And ice cream? Great Lord, what's the point? :)

from nimiiwin :

Today I'm not sure I deserve any "credit" for being a mom-in-training. I'm exhausted, my hair looks like hell, I was 10 minutes late for work and we don't even want to talk about what my house looks like. Sigh.

from nimiiwin :

It is rather frightening actually ... if I were you, I'd worry. Before you know it,you're going to have a houseful of kids and a house in the freaking middle of nowhere. :)

from purplebanana :

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from nimiiwin :

Aw. Aren't you nice. Thanks for the note. I won't even do the typical woman "if you knew me better you'd want to be nothing like me ever" thing. I'm just going to enjoy the compliment! :)

from hothead :

AND i just saw your note. christ. thanks for that, too. so much for your smart, articulate, smooth description....

from hothead :

thank you for your guestbook niceness. sorry it took so long to reply...i guess i kind of suck, huh?

from nimiiwin :

Ha! Find me a butch who can get ready to go anywhere in less than an hour and I'll be shocked! I can get ready faster than damn near every butch I've ever met and I have to do all kinds of stuff they don't: shave my legs and all that, blow dry my hair, makeup, etc. It apparently takes *time* to get those short hair styles in the exact right freaking place. :grin:

from delighted :

The travis song Driftwood: "You're fishfood floating on the water, you've been fishfood for a long, long time."

from nimiiwin :

Good for you for making such a hard decision! It isn't an easy one and the people who are usually complaining about others' decision to have gastric bypass are the ones who have never struggled with their weight. To hell with them! I'm sure you and your doctor will make the right decision for you.

from nimiiwin :

I so understand ... my dad (the guy who raised me, not the recently-met father) and I are beginning to have a good relationship, now that he's sobered up but it's hard to deal with the memories that I'd shoved away, the hurt and the anger. I'd rather do the laundry too.

from nimiiwin :

So you'll be easy to find if we ever have a reason to go to WI?:)

from nimiiwin :

Wait a minute! You're in Wisconsin?!! We're practically neighbors! Where in WI? I'm in Kalamazoo, MI, which is about just across the lake from Milwaukee. At least I think. But an hour inland. And where is UWM? Is that in Massachusetts or Missouri?

from purplebanana :

O Gorgeous Bookshop Girl - you DO know that the Gold Membership still uses the templates that mere mortals are offered? Here's a plan: go to http://beautify.diaryland.com. There are a million and a half people who make free templates, with or without images, and all you've gotta do is copy and paste them. Nice. (Pretend there is a paragraph break here). Also, your diary is now a whore like mine, if you are writing for other people and not yourself. I always wondered where the 'whore cut-off' was, but apparently it hits at three readers. Congrats!!!

from nimiiwin :

At least you're watching the science channel! Me? I'm watching Style Channel and TLC. Pitiful, aren't I?

from nimiiwin :

Lacking in swear words? I know it. I'm trying to quit. It's an ugly habit that has a tendency to pop out in the most inappropriate places ... board meetings, for example. Job interviews. I gotta stop. You do it for me. Thanks for stoppin' by, Fellow Femme. Know any good butch diaries I can read?

from cactustree :

cheng to your eng. you fool. that's fucking funny.

from nimiiwin :

I wanted to let you know I dropped in and will definitely be back.

from cactustree :

ok, buddy. let's talk about this lesbian identity thing. cause it's making me think. and let's also dream and reminisce about the fabulous, mystical wonders of our old friend Charlie. mmmmm. coke.

from purplebanana :

no. most of us can't.

from delighted :

I forgotten how to type, but what I want to say (more eloquently) is that I understand about the whole remainders of love thing, six years is a long time. Maybe we never get cured.

from luvmunky :

what a great idea! I like croutons, too! The banner above your page said something like, "Jesus is the life," which kinda cracked me up. I crack up easily, y'know!

from her-she :

I have a new template design site and it specializes in "gay themes". Stop by if you'd like!

from guavagrrrl :

i do dearly love my croutons. gotta tell you.

from guavagrrrl :

rock the casbah

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