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from cindreviews :
Cinderella Reviews is a brand new review site. So if you would like a review please come and check us out at http://cindreviews.diaryland.com/ . We hope to be hearing from you soon. Thank You!
from gumphood :
I saw Traggically Hip once in a bar in buffalo.
from mysteria :
Um, congrats, but what is it with people keepin their pregnancies secret? I know you (and Meghan) said it's a past-history thing, but it still seems weird to me... 3 months is a long time to pretend nothing's changed, no?
from cccerberus :
bhasma: baazz-muh. ayurveda is taught via the ancient sanskrit language, which i'd love to learn, because i believe it is the language of the akashic records. if you lived closer, we could study together. i highly recommend reading books by Dr. Robert Svoboda. He's a very intreguing man and one of my teachers. i went to the ayurvedic institute in abq, NM and studied with dr. lad. ayurveda is transformative, it is a path and lifestyle disapline I recommend highly. i know there's websites out there one can find in searches that you can figure out your elemental constitution (AKA "Prakruti" in sanskrit). Theres a free place to start. Blessed be!
from a-victoria :
congratulations!! :)
from elysium1982 :
lovely diary. =)
from methybeth :
<!DOCTYPE HTML PUBLIC "-//W3C//DTD HTML 4.01 Transitional//EN"> what does that mean, do you think? and how the hell did it get there? when I went "that looks wrong" and took it out--poof, everything fixed. P.S. I changed my password now. Sorry I was bad before.
from cccerberus :
wouldn't expect you to remember. it was maybe 2 years ago in new orleans. you were the guest of le marquis, and i was visiting elizabeth. just wanting to read some new diaries, and remembered you!
from velvet-heart :
Happy New Years love. May this new year bring you more happiness than your last and may you have a greater learning of more things to come. Much love, Huggles
from a-victoria :
Merry Christmas!
from velvet-heart :
Password is in my profile, if you read my diary, I mean
from velvet-heart :
I love your banner- but your words are magnificent! :) You shall never go unnoticed in my eyes doll. Hang in the there my lil poetry celeb. *huggles*
from mandahm :
<333
from xliextoxmex :
Awesome site. Great writting I can totally relate to the comfortably numb thing. I hope you feel better anyways. Take care, doll. <3<3 .|M|y|l|e|n|e|. **nice banner by the way**
from banshee-rose :
Great site. Love the banner.
from velvet-heart :
Well, I'd love to say I'm from some place exciting, but I can't. Currently I feel like I live in hell, right in the heart of Missouri, that I have daintily nicknamed Misery. It sounds the same LOL feels the same, so heh no difference in the motions of feeling how I feel It all seems to fit right now- shitty aint it? Anyway, I'm glad that I kept you company, too - - you did the same for me. Thank you ma'am :)
from velvet-heart :
Well, you're very quite welcome miss :) So where yah from lol I feel like I'm doing that cheesy asl thing Gah
from velvet-heart :
You're a riot.
from velvet-heart :
I do??? LOL please help me understand muahaha.. what dream is that hon? The insane one?
from miklusz :
Please, visit my website and leave the note. I've started to prepare the English version, and I'm waiting for you opinion and suggestions! http://miklusz.prv.pl
from morguecrawl :
No, I'm pretty sure this is of my own doing and I've been this way for a while. I'm just sick of people and I remember when I used to be cruel and distant and miserable. Why would I want that again? I have so many more friends without it. I'm much healthier. *shrugs* I don't understand it.
from m0nique :
Just wanted to say hi , and well done ! what a wonderfull diary . Powerfull writeing .
from heyjuderevu :
I'm kicking it on the reviewer arena at Hey Jude Reviews and wanted to invite you to be reviewed! - Love Christy
from funda :
beautifully uplifting entries about your man and the woods and power tools, in time, I shall come back for more :)
from banefulvenus :
your banner attracted my attention. Just wanted to let you know that your banners are doing their job! You have a great site too...
from keryanna :
You do yoga AND you live in France. Man, I'm so jealous.
from deadrifleman :
Heh. I don't know. Dad thinks Goths are bad. I think they're too quiet and need to wear more bright colors and play more videogames. :-)
from deadrifleman :
I'd rather see you commenting on my mutant/hive mind speculation than my depressed-ass whining. Ha!
from deadrifleman :
Hmm. I don't really know what to say to that. Birthing a tribe isn't a -bad- idea, but you need a mate first. Like, one you'll stay with. For a good long while and such. I dunno, at the moment I'm still in the food mode of life. Fuck/Kill/createchildren is rather beyond me. Still gathering my loot from the world as it were. greedy, I know, but I'm not ready myself to think about keeping my genes going.
from deadrifleman :
Indeed, I shall be seeing bob. I'll post a diary entry up while I'm there and leave you a note with his e-mail and poop. Sound good?
from deadrifleman :
I blame Slashdot for the sudden agreement in our politics. That, and a vague sensation that while I like ass-kicking as much as the next red-blooded American male, I don't like the idea that I can be arrested and held without trial indefinitely, or have all my shit examined without a warrant. Heh. *hugs*
from deadrifleman :
Hmm. Check on Yahoo, they have it credited to NPR reporters embedded with the Marines attached to the 101st Airborne. I tend to trust them, and this report was pretty detailed. If it turns out to be false I'll be quite suprised, and more than a little mad. Still if it's not, I'm going to relish the French doing the old "We are shocked, shocked!" routine, regarding Iraq's possession of expressly banned weapons. I'll keep you posted on what I managed to dig up online about this, I'm sure it will be blazoned all over the news. What really amuses me is the Iraqi information minister claiming the US isn't in Baghdad, still.
from deadrifleman :
As it is, he was just doing an april fool's joke. Meh. No big deal. Anyway, done being disillusioned with work, time to figure myself out a new job before I start hating everyone in this one.
from deadrifleman :
All that illegal stuff I used to have to buy is now more or less unecessary nowadays. It takes less than a year to translate anime and dub it, so there isn't the ridiculous time lag for getting a good series anymore. And all anime that I've gotten fansubbed, I end up buying DVD copies of so I can actually see the art, instead of a crappy VHS simulation of something that should look really cool. Basically, fansubbing used to be necessary. Now, while it's still a labor of love on the part of the people who do it, the people who download watch/tape it are getting free rides, claiming to love something while denying the creators the money to make more. I respect hackers, anarchists, and even some bums. I have less respect for guys too cheap to pay for something they love. As for the music, hmm. That's tougher for me. I'd like to think at this point that music has become self-supporting so some fringe use such as I do, primarily in the home, is okay. I know I'm stealing too, but... A lot of the music I listen to won't ever be released in the united states. And I do try to support every band I end up liking. But it seems like so little of the money ends up in their hands. If I felt more connected to the musical world, I'd probably be more inclined to pay for it. In anime, I know that I'm going to like what I buy, music seems like a damn gamble anymore, because of the deceptive nature of what's on the radio, as opposed to what is on the rest of the CD you buy. Greh, I'm probably a horrible hypocrite. But I must say, I think there are degrees of wrong. Wholesale screwing over of an entire industry because you're too cheap to help it out, that's uncool.
from in-my-life :
Thank you for the very lovely comment earlier today about my daydream. I needed that. I like that I can get all sorts of validation through complete strangers. In order to make myself less of a stranger, I visited your diary, and I'm glad that I did. Anyhow, nice to meet you. Cheers!
from deadrifleman :
I would absolutely love to hear you sing.
from deadrifleman :
It is for these truely interesting recollections of where you have been, and how you've gotten to be who you are that I read your diary. The day-to-day stuff, to me, is overshadowed by the history. But then, I'm a historian by choice.
from deadrifleman :
I alternate between road to the West, and Adieu, depending on my mood for that quiz. And yes, I already took it. I got Adieu the last time, and Road to the West, this time. Those are two of my favorite themes from it, so... well, it's perfect. I'm not sure if I have any artwork from the episodes those songs on are in on my diaryland, but I'll check.
from deadrifleman :
Your writing, as always, reminds me that life is infinitely more interesting and tragic than just my own petty little existence. Thank you monstre, because today you gave me some real perspective. *smiles and hugs*
from bmoviemaven :
mon dieu! you said 'dude'!
from zerom3ph :
mmm good.
from brandone :
I just read your poem. I enjoyed it very much. Don't lose hope. Brandone
from black-dahlia :
IMPORTANT: Can you please send me Dan's email or phone number? He said I should ask you for it. Please leave it in my guestbook or email it to emperessluna@yahoo.com . Thanks.
from morguecrawl :
Well, I have a bit of money again and we're trying to iron out New Years plans. I read in your diary that you aren't sure about the rave. I don't think I was too sure about it either. We thought we'd go to Savage? It's a little more affordable. Let me know when you guys decide on a place if you like and I'll see if Jazzy and I can join you.
from morguecrawl :
Well, I'm at my mother's house and I was rotton about bringing phone numbers with me. I do want to have coffee with you guys, come around and see you. I don't have any money or anything for a good long while, but I do have a little gift for you somewhere. I opened the box with the soft black cardigan you helped my mom pick out. I've been wearing it all day. I really do like it. How come you say you don't have any taste when it comes to clothes, hmm?
from lunablossom :
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!
from morguecrawl :
Oh, FINDING yourself. It all makes sense now. Well thank you.
from morguecrawl :
*L* I have no idea what you mean...
from morguecrawl :
What is? *confused*
from black-dahlia :
Hi hun. Thanks for looking out for me on Saturday night/Sunday morning, and thanks for the loan. I had tons of fun. Let me know if you're going to the Darkrave on Dec 7th, so I can figure out when to pay you back. 'Love you.
from deadreview :
Take a look at me now!
from black-dahlia :
Blarg! I can't believe Derrek said I was clingy to you, after telling me he wanted to take me to New York and "take care" of me. That sure doesn't spell "one night stand" to me. Why he felt the need to lie to me is beyond my understanding. Everyone knows I'm about as easy-going as it gets. Boys are such silly creatures.
from natasha5 :
meow :x
from deadreview :
*gasp* Hey! How did you find me here? Did I tell you? *scratches head* Did I tell everybody? Ooooo, I have a creepy custom template being made any everything. It'll be good *nods* I hope...maybe... I thought about just reviewing random diaries for fun. Like, not having people ask...just reviewing. Maybe I'll do that too...or at first...whenever it's slow.
from diotima :
Le Poëte est semblable au prince des nuées Qui hante la tempête et se rit de l'archer ; Exilé sur le sol au milieu des huées, Ses ailes de géant l'empêchent de marcher.
from thai :
Amadeus is wonderful... it is weird to watch a movie for the music.... and it is weird how you manage to laugh him at times to make a joke and a select few in the room will get it... yes, Mozart is wonderful
from kstarr :
becos as far as i know MONSTERS are. but i think this is a whole new ball game, and i don't even like baseball.
from kstarr :
so .. are monstre's big and furry with big teeth and generally big [as we've established with the prior examples] scary features?
from morguecrawl :
Ugh...no? *L* It's okay, I'll do a more dedicated search for them when I get home tonight. I'm sure I'll find them.
from dorknoodle :
remember me? been too long. i'm floopin'. please floop with me.
from nappyhed :
eep, I have to admit i liked it better that way also, but i was trying to save room lol, and the quote was from a favorite band of mine.. they are political bitches that protest everything and there point was basically that that god never blessed them with beauty and further more they dont even believe in him and they are sorry for not being pretty or sexy and being exploited etc etc. Anyway. You can send me money at [ Sarah Bowles - 1698 pr 2539 - Quinlan, Tx 75474 ] do you have dollars in france? i've never been certain about the money system over there. Oh well toodles :D *MuahZ* get some rest :D
from nappyhed :
sure what's your user name? Mine's: sniddyhead
from nappyhed :
I sent the pic, i'm not sure if you have you diary - mail forward option on, so if you don't get it tell me your email and i'll send it to that one :] *muah*
from nappyhed :
sorry about that.. my computer went blue and then it went back to normal and aol was gone.. no internet whatsoever and i kept hearing a gushing sound like water or wind.. but i shut everything down and it kept going so i restarted, a really strange experience..
from nappyhed :
hey there.. *hates guestbooks* I really enjoyed talking to you, and i hope we can do it again sometime.. It really surprised me that you linked me.. that's never happened before :D thanks for the compliments.. hope to see you around.. -snid
from mysteria :
Also, it would appear that I am a face-sitter, which sounds pretty accurate, although I hope I'm the one on top...
from mysteria :
I love you, monstre, but I *hate* your guestbook. Does it ever work these days? I keep meaning to write you a note and then I get annoyed that it doesn't work and forget what I was going to say, SO (finally): we miss you and obviously want you all to ourselves here on this continent, but I guess we'll have to share you with the rest of the world until someone figures out how to clone you. Come back soon, though. And bring chocolate! ;)
from marvamillion :
No one answered the sexual position quiz? I'm a boring-old spooner, I'm afraid. Nothing as adventurous as a cartwheel. [sigh]
from loftwyr :
You're far too wonderful not to love. In return or unrequited, it doesn't matter. You're the best friend anyone could hope for. I love you too.
from marvamillion :
Nothing as fancy as Opera. Mac OS 9.1. Thassit. If you fix it, he will come...
from marvamillion :
Hiya Monstre, I've been trying to read you, but nothing comes up on my page. Either I must take it on faith that your writing is pure brilliance, or else your arrangement of stark colours is pure artistic genius (take your pick). Good to see you too.
from deadrifleman :
I must ask this. Are you still off smoking? Just wondering offhand.
from seb789 :
Reading the random diaries of those whom I share this city with is a nice thing to do at this late hour.
from kittykat202 :
hello random person :) helllluuuuuuuu!BABOON i love monkeys lol iam wierd i know love ya kittykat
from thediastema :
A she-Bender? I bow to your superior nonadherence to the Establishment. *Proceeds to eat hand.*
from monstre :
tsk, same old argument, except one thing. I CHOOSE to keep looking for tiny truths, because quite frankly I like them better than cigarettes and they make my orgasms all the more earth shaking. My base belief is that "everything is true" not "nothing is true" I don't have the self-loathing to be a nihilist anymore. Manic, yes, but never nihilist. I still believe in the kwisatz, because quite frankly, it pleases me to do so. :) (damn but it's good to have you back)
from deus-atrox :
Ergh. Always the same old argument. Forget about right or wrong, Gila. That's enlightenment. That's knowledge. You need to forget what you know, what you THINK you know. There is no right or wrong, and being "above" Joe Average in intellectual morality is so much ephemeral illusion. It's not only illusory, it's arrogant. That said, I hope you're enjoying yourself, loveyoubye.
from monstre :
I'm...what? Thank you, Verge but you gotta get me a pair of thems rose-coloured web-browsers you must be surfing the web with... ;) Seriously though, as I realized this weekend, Montreal HAS cobblestones, and beauty and all the little shops I keep telling myself I came here for. What I really came here for though, was a sense of perspective that I was afraid of losing. And that, for me, matters more than love. Knowledge, perspective, the ability to change and create things. To live... And whilte it is better to live WITH love, to live with all the fury of an ocean storm is more important to me. For now, at least. :)
from verge :
jesus, you're good, monstre. ah, but could you not simply board a magic carpet and drag the cobblestones and the byways of paris home with you? i'm wondering these days: what else matters but love?
from deadrifleman :
You don't need to worry about it. My anger has subsided, now I'm just sick to my stomach. It was a gut reaction. My fear is that the government and the American people are going to have the gut reaction I had, without the sobering up effect that me having a conversation with my history teachers had. I'm sorry I reacted so bitterly but in truth that's how I felt. My apologies for acting out and saying such things in anger. But I've got to acknowledge that was how I felt at the time. You'll see a new post in my diary, a much more thoughtful one. I said that was what I wanted in the heat of the moment. Monstre, you can't expect a man who's country has just been attacked and who's father is in the military to just nod and mourn quietly. Anger is legitimate as well, but now that's gone and I'm just numb. Forgive my words, but understand the reasons for them, please.
from monstre :
miss my thoughts? Why, where'd they go? ;)
from deadrifleman :
Jesus. I'm sorry you had to experience that. Makes me wonder whether nice guys still exist within the world. Or gentlemen in general. Gives me a good deal of anger at my own gender. I still exist in this unreality where everyone treats each other with respect. I'm quite sad, though, to know that us guys are still like that, no matter where we are in life. For the record: I do not become a bastard when drunk. I become shy and thoughtless and generally frightened of every woman to the point of actively avoiding them. Oh, this message was to bid farewell, for now. It is vacation time for me, I shall miss your thoughts. Farewell, ms. Gila
from deadrifleman :
Heh. Kick. Ass. I'll be interested to see what happens and what you decide and do in the coming weeks, friend.
from cordeliameg :
You're still the best. *hugs*
from deadrifleman :
Nice to see you moving in the direction of educating yourself again. THe last few entries seemed to be insights into the process of you convincing yourself that you should be studying again. I'm glad you've come to a decision you are happy with. :-)
from deadrifleman :
Heh. Gawth. Not all vampire roleplayers were. Although I dig the whole cathedral with the gargoyles deal too, my personal paradigm is closer to an action movie or a really out-there anime flick than that whole dark depressive thing. I'm never sad because I'm going to die. I'm only sad to think that my death might mean nothing. I'd like to hear your thoughts on death, sometime, Ms. Monstre. Preferably in person. I'll find a way north, be it sober or drunk, and jabber at you. And it will be good. Maybe I'll pick up Deus-Atrox along the way and we'll all watch anime and drink and I'll listen to you two and watch you two. Cause I'm... really just an average guy. People like you and BoB are like nice shiny things for me to look at. And envy. :-)
from deadrifleman :
Urgh.... tummy ache. Anyway, friend, it was good to hear from you again, even if it was pushing me towards something I'm not sure I'm ready for, the idea of becoming my own divinity. However I had a thought while drunk last night which might be of some help to me, and I'd appreciate a response... Perhaps man's struggle to do that perfect thing is what makes him worthy of the Grace that I want to believe we are given. That is, I we go after that silly brass ring I get so cynical about maybe, just maybe I can achieve it. Argh, I've got a headache and most of a bottle of scotch to finish. I think it's called Glenfidditch or something, and I've got to stumble back to the hotel. You have a good time in N'awlins or whatnot, and I'll think about what you said and what Deus-atrox said and maybe come up with a new paradigm that doesn't involve me turning into a drone. And there is a hell of a lot more to me than muscle, as I continually learn. I'll send you some of my better achievements sometime, along with a pile 'o anime. *hugs and stumbles away*
from deadrifleman :
Lucky, you have a beloved. I have alcohol and a number of neuroses. I envy you, my dear Monstre.... Gah, I'm drunk and lost coherence a while ago. Check out my diary, I got a neato new spiffy layout. Goodnight and god bless
from deus-atrox :
Accepting responsibility isn't scary in itself, it's the near-subconscious nagging knowledge that accepting responsibility is ridiculous and illusory feel-good bullshit in the back of your mind, the realization that you're doing something ultimately stupid that's terrifying.
from deus-atrox :
In reference to the first point: Knowing what you know about me, my life, etc., can you really say with a straight face that my ideals and I never been tested? The very fact that I've MAINTAINED my ideals and not either ended up gibbering in an asylum whilst mentally cavorting with satyrs and faeries and gorgeous nekked women bearing endless pitchers of Irish beer, completely severed from "reality", is a clear indication of the strength and durability of my ideals. Second point response, permanence runs directly counter to everything I hold dear. Permanence is stagnation. Why do you think all my dreams and goals involve complete destruction of society? So we can start again from the zero point, make something brand spanking new, then someone else like me can come along and wreck it again and start over when it stagnates. It's man's pathetic and ultimately futile attempts at scrabbling for an ounce of permanence. It's weak, and it runs counter to the very core nature of things. We should flow with the universe. I don't fear change: I revile crippling, binding permanence, and marriage is an institution of those same loathesome qualities. I am the Kwisatz Haderach. I am an engine of dynamism.
from deadrifleman :
As usual, Monstre, your adventures are both inspiring and admirable to me. I look forward to your next entry, and the little minutiae of your life that you occasionally leave here in this diary. :-)
from deadrifleman :
Very cool. 20 runs in a day is most admirable. You understand the life that comes with skiing so hard, so fast. Cast your inhibitions to the wind and live with the snow, the mountain, and the speed. There need be nothing else, if you can feel it.
from deadrifleman :
I can help you with your lack of Evangelion problem. Simply give me your mailing address, and I'll conspire with Loomis and Lan and all my little anime setite gang to send you the Eva you need. And the End of Evangelion as well. And nadia... and err, anything else animeish I get hyper and want to send to you.
from rekhodiah :
In case you don't hear it enough from the many many monstre-fans that are undoubtedly out there but silent... *deep breath* You rock, Gila. Without you Monstreal would be much less interesting. I don't care if I'm helping or not... all I care about is making sure you feel good about the beautiful Monstre you are. So there.
from deus-atrox :
You're not helping, here. I was, after all, expecting my best input for the book from YOU.
from deadrifleman :
Quite a few of us like the new person you are becoming, Monstre. It is fun to watch evolution of a personality. *hugs hard* I'll keep hoping you find what makes you happy, and watch from my box seats in your diary. :-) Oh, and watch Nadia if you need some cool new anime, well, it's not new, from 1989 in fact. but made by Gainax, creators of Evangelion, and an excellent adaptation of the novel 20,000 leagues under the sea. Hideaki Anno+Jules Verne= one hell of a good story.
from deus-atrox :
I'm not denying that science and mathetmatics are ecstatic experiences. Quite the opposite, really. However, they're APOLLONIAN ecstatic experiences, like a nun kneeling in intense prayer or a Zen monk in meditation. I'm talking DIONYSIAN. Unless, of course, you draw black holes on logarithmic graph paper while ingesting dangerous alkaloids and dancing around a bonfire to the drumbeat in your head. Which isn't entirely out of the question. But just sitting at a desk and working out non-Euclidean geometry in a Euclidean medium is all Apollonian, regardless of how brilliant it may be. *grin*
from deus-atrox :
You're a regular Karl Jung a la Odysseus, depicting the beauty in a totally mundane day. Huzzah.
from methybeth :
Because you ARE love. You embody love. You spread love. You deserve love. You cry love. You are loved. And you know what that is worth. I love you. You are bigger and stronger than your memories, running faster than any pain can fly in its own dreams. Trust me...all of this makes up one zillionth of a percent of the amazing you. Ok?
from rekhodiah :
There comes a time when you realise that being with one person genuinely makes you happy. When just that person's presence becomes something you can't do without. And it's not possessive or obsessive or anything negative...because you don't feel anything negative when you're around them. And even if something bad happens, you know they will be there with love and support that you might feel you do not deserve. With that pure kind of love comes the desire for faithfulness and monogamy. Because you want to be the only one for that person. You want to be their primary, most treasured source of pleasure and joy. I understand because I am in that situation myself. The only difference is my other is an ocean away. So I do what i can to be happy in the moment, while saving my true feelings, hiding my heart, for when she returns. Until then, I'll go out and have myself the best time I can because I'm young, darn it, and I wanna live it up!! You're not alone, beautiful Monstre, don't ever think you are. Plug time: come to Imagicon, we'll be the better for having your looks and charm and intellect there. Hug time: *hug* Ciao time: I'm out. *smile*
from flatline :
By the by, you goin' to ImagiCon? I'm definitely giving it some thought, and I'd be all the more likely if I had the opportunity to meet the Monstre visage-to-visage for philosophical wrestling and what-all.
from flatline :
If I'm not acting on my own philosophies, then I have no place spewing them. You're right. So stop backpedaling.
from Deadrifleman :
I like my world as more than Heroes. I love anti-heroes and black Knights and beserk warriors whom need to find a dream of peace. That is what everquest lacks, for me. That feeling of tragedy, of pain. I died, okay, I re-spawn. I'll take Vaxia, where when you are dead, you're dead. Fenrir's howls to the moon, claws slaked in the blood of his foe, or Cecil Brax's quiet smiles, or Scar's fiery oaths in the bursts of brutality that punctuate his life suck me in. I am an idealist, but I like to struggle for the ideal, not be handed it. I miss that world very much, and I envy you your world of heroes. Vaxia died last september in a server crash, RIP. And some of us remember, even as we re-write the items list for it to rise anew, as a phoenix. I look forward to showing you the URL when it does so. I know you as a person, and as the Monstre, but I'd like to know you as a friend. SHoot me an e-mail sometime. :-) And if Canadian VCRs work the same as US ones, well, I'll be glad to get you some of the anime. I'll send it by the box. *cackles* I do so enjoy bootlegging it. And again... I dissapear, like the howl of the wolf on the wind.
from Deadrifleman :
Dude, you... like Warren Miller. And anime... Particularly Evangelion, and roleplaying games... And you have pink hair. Why must you be taken? Must.... destroy things. Perfect women always taken. *loads up his auto-shotgun and logs on to counterstrike& Heh. Well, almost perfect. EQ is an evil time eater. At any rate, I hope you'll take my semi-nutso rambling on your analyzer as the compliment it was intended. You're a cool girl/woman/monstre. And I'm outtie!*poof*
from monstre :
Why Flatline... I do believe that you're being optimistic. How charming. What you've somehow neglected to notice however, is that Americans just don't have the gene pool to conquer anything. They exist to stagnate. (yes, I am being deliberately provocative, please don't cry) And Rekhodiah - I *do* mean a live GT - our EQ guild is coming up to MonStreal to raid a few of the cobblestoned camps and dig up some phat loot. ;)
from flatline :
AND FURTHERMORE!! Heh. Furthermore, I'm talking about abolishing cops and systems of law altogether. Giving EVERYONE guns will result in removing the moron and redneck strains from the gene pool. Maintaining a military, as well as having an armed populace, will keep foreign invaders at bay. Then, when everything's done and all is calm and all the weak strains have been weeded out, EVERYONE of fighting age goes into the military, and WE, the RESTORED UNITED STATES OF AMERICA, conquer everyone else. Build an empire, like. There'd be no more rampant consumerism after that taste of real life people have been given by the chaos of the first five years of this place, ignorance will plummet, the childishness and immaturity of the population will be no more. I'm talking genetically and socially molding the people of this country into what humans are SUPPOSED to be, by removing the artificial moral and social strictures that has kept man's nature at bay. So THERE. *pppppbbbbhhhhhtttt!*
from genocide :
Maybe it'll do this country some good to be conquered. Once again, mingling genetic strains and weeding out the weak through war. And I was referring to the BELIEF in technology as the supreme power, NOT the actual technological level. Pay attention, next time.
from rekhodiah :
Oooh, I bet you look smashing in velvet robes. *grinn* I might be in the Locke Cole costume in my Analyzer. It goes over well. And why log on to EQ and deal with pixels and load-times when you can meet some interesting people in real life? *sly wink* You got plenty of time to plan...
from Deadrifleman :
Nicotine withdrawal. Impressive. A cross to bear for you, for the moment at least. It's good of him, to bear it with you. And in the long run getting away from Cigarettes is probably one of the better things you can do, cause they'll kill you damn young. That's why I only have one grandma. Pink hair is good. I like women with pink hair. Like Utena from Revolutionary girl utena. I heard you were seeking anime. Watch that. And Beserk. Watch Beserk. Feel beserk, and understand the idea of causality. Other recommendations, bouncing through my brain. Giant Robo. Um.... what else. Aha, Weis Croize, or white cross. It's this anime about these guys that are assasins by day, florists by night. The Violinist of Hameln, but be warned, it's an acquired taste, it's almost like a manga with voice narration and subtitles. The Graveyard of the Fireflies I think it is, is also good, but super-depressing. It'll break you. Don't watch M.D. Geist. Don't be fooled. I'mma gonna sleep now, god bless.
from deus-atrox :
I applaud you.
from flatline :
"It's not that I care (truly), but you're that girl with sharp teeth who grabs at the walls and pulls me down." --Deftones
from flatline :
Fuck you, too, hon.
from greyarea :
Tu me flatte encore une fois! Merci. Je le cheris. Et je dois ajouter que ton ecriture est belle comme la lune.
from flatline :
I dunno about you, but despite my complete lack of moral brainwashing and concern, it still feels good to hug people. Media conditioning is not a requirement for the "pet me" reflex. I'm an animal, not a robot.
from flatline :
If I may be so bold, I think you'd make excellent breeding stock, and a fine parent. Just, for the love of God, find a man as genetically superior as yourself. Don't dilute the poor kid.
from flatline :
I love you, too, hon.
from flatline :
No, it wasn't you. It was a certain Linda Lee. Though you are one of those few people who qualify as wiser than myself, attempting a balance between Vision and Standard of Living. I'm an extremist, by it's very virtue unwise. So there ya go. I wasn't referring to you specifically, but you're in that same group.
from rekhodiah :
I told Bluekitten and I'll tell you too, beautiful...I'm here for you if you need a friend. Flatline met me once, you can ask him. Oh, and by the way, I think pink hair is pretty dang kewl. =)
from flatline :
Eh, depends on what you mean by my lending a helping hand. You want positive change for all. I've given up on the pigfucking plebian masses as a bad job, and am leaning toward personal enlightenment. All I picture when I think of my fellow man is a slug-like thing, maybe the size of a baby hippo, with no appendages, or mouth, or any similar human item. Just lots of eyes. It sits on it's couch, sweating and watching it's television with it's multitude of eyes, and the sweat gets in those eyes and makes them sting, and the only way it can express it's displeasure is by changing the channel rapidly... Or voting in presidential elections. So if you're angling for overall betterment, you're on your own, kid. I love ya, but I give up on 'em. Nevertheless, you ARE a visionary. That's what every free-thinker with a voice IS. Only problem is, if the vision's not acceptable status quo shit, you're a crackhead with a voice, instead. *shrug* All a matter of perception, I guess.
from monstre :
It's not entirely from the outside, and I'm not trying to stop it in it's tracks and send it back in the other direction. I'm just a pebble in the flow of things, trying to send things skitternig slightly off center so that it scrabbles for a new balance, and possibly a slightly nicer one. And I didn't think I was alone. Are you saying you're not with me? Funny, but for part of the opposition, you've certainly helped a lot. ;) And I'm no visionary. Just a crackhead with as much a voice as anyone else. :)
from flatline :
That being the case, well... You're opposing and trying to change what's possibly the largest and most concrete paradigm humanity has ever known, and single-handedly, no less. Not only that, you're trying to alter it's properties from outside it's bounds, which makes things even more difficult. You've certainly got your work cut out for you. It's a bitch, being a visionary, ain't it?
from monstre :
OUr society can kiss my fucking ass, how many times have you reminded me of that? I'm here to help change it, not wither within it or pretend like I'm escaping. And it can't be about the struggle. There has to be a purpose, and I'm finding it step by slow step. Each their own, and I'll have mine, you can hedge on that. I'm not going to claim it's war and set about stomping everything, without looking around.
from flatline :
There's no reconciliation between the ideal and the reality. In our society, they're mutually exclusive. The goal isn't the thing; it never was. The struggle's the thing, and you're doing just fine.
from flatline :
You hate beeches, the trees, or beaches, the waterfront? Come to Massachusetts. Most of the oceanfront is both beechless and beachless, just big jumbles of sharp rock and inhospitable wind, with water as far as the eye can see. It's good mojo. You'd like it, if only for the poetically bleak setting. Plus, y'know, *I'D* be present, and we can't disregard that factor. 'Cuz we all know how cool... okay, I'm not that cool, but it's a really bleak setting! Come! Come come come come!!
from flatline :
Happy birthday, love. Seems like you're living enough for both of us. *smirk*
from monstre :
Little?!?! Whoa, cool. Thanks. ;)
from cf188 :
Oooh, what a busy little monstre we have here. Nice to know your project works, though. You didn't sound too sure last time we spoke on the 'phone...
from zenboy :
It's never cold on the Internet, it's always tepid. Everything reaches equilibrium.
from zenboy :
Aren't you extra special happy that the Q-fairy has left you a steaming pile of shit? I know that I enjoy reading his idiotic shit everywhere.
from kaffeine :
I think you're a monstre. And I like that just fine. *hug*

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