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I'm sorry that things have been so trying for you. I know from experience how difficult separating can be, let alone trying to find a resolution of sorts in ending what you've worked so hard to create. However,in light of everything you've been through with her, how can you say taking off and leaving the kids with her would be what's best? They've apparently blatantly expressed their feelings as to whom they feel more secure with...how can you feel that it would be best for them to be in a situation like that without the stabilizing influence you bring into it? Maybe I misunderstood something.... I tried to post this at your new blog but I don't have an account there and didn't want to make one. Did I just misread something?

from amomsmusings :

Married but single would be the absolute worst. What's the point, right? I'm glad that you and your wife are good again. That's really fantabulous!

from hamiltonian :

Well there is so much going on! *POKE* *POKE*, what will it take you to write!?

from hcatty :

yeah... write more.... either that, or feel groovy and write less.... but write SOMETHIN ;o)

from hamiltonian :

I miss your writing on dland *poke poke*

from candoor :

happy new year :)

from theyknew :

Have a great holiday!

from asdotcom :

There's a great book on religion and science and history that deals partially with the idea of pluralism (believing that what's truth for you may not be truth for everyone). It talks a lot about the evidence for Creationism and evidence for the Bible being true (and by extension the belief that salvation comes by the blood of Christ). I read it in two days because I simply couldn't put it down. It's called "I Don't Have Enough Faith To Be An Atheist" and might be a good read for your vacation. Here's the url (broken up so I don't mess up the formatting on your notes page -- take out those two spaces!): http://search.barnesandnoble.com/booksearch/ isbnInquiry.asp?userid=Ft1qTtRAGv&isbn= 1581345615&itm=1

from omnipre5ence :

Hmm...I don't think so, actually.

from omnipre5ence :

Hi.

from hamiltonian :

Hope you come back and start writing again

from sweet-indigo :

You know, in Britain a 'Liberal Democrat' is a woolly sort who'll never get into power... I actually find it kind of nice that so many Americans say that they're liberal Democrats :D

from karamazov :

First of all, I�d like to congratulate you on having a Hispanic wife, a black nephew, and gay friends. You are very much a paradigm of tolerance, respect, and magnanimity. I�m sure it lets you sleep with a clean conscience at night. I will not celebrate Rice�s appointment to Secretary of State after her disastrous, incompetent performance as National Security Advisor simply because she is black. That, my friend, would be truly racist. It dehumanizes her and judges her solely on the basis of her race. I will hold her morally accountable just like every other human being. I drew the parallel between the gay and racism issues to point out how the right wing uses transparently false indignation over racism or insensitivity to homosexuals to attack the left. The Republican Party has derived its power from such prejudices for more than forty years (NIXON�S SOUTHERN STRATEGY!!! Exploit resentment of civil rights and cultural liberalism, allowed the South to become the Republican stronghold it is today). Ergo, I am suspicious whenever conservatives attack liberals for racism. And I do loathe the �trailer-dwelling, gun toting, uneducated, Bible-thumping, xenophobic, and homophobic� idiots who voted for George Bush in droves last election. Since when have conservatives become such sentimentalists? Liberals are supposed to be the effete espousers of endless tolerance. I have values, and I am not afraid to judge people according to them. Christophobia? That�s a new one. But you�re right, I am terribly afraid of Christianity, given all the atrocities committed by its most zealous fanatics over the last 2,000 years.

from hamiltonian :

as you know i am not biased toward democrats or republicans. As for Consi Rice I do dislike her appointment. I dont care whether she is Democrat, Republican, Independent, Libertarian, Green, or Socialist! I also feel we need to look past seeing that she is a black female. That isnt the issue and shouldnt be needed to be any basis for her appointment in anyway. Same goes for Alberto Gonzalez.. Like MLK said about judging content over character.. damn right! I dont judge these people on color/race but on their conduct over the past several years and their character. They dont follow or abide by the Constitution in regard to their duties and decision making. So I call personally that they should do the 'RIGHT THING' and resign from office. Great entry btw...

from karamazov :

Poor bleeding-heart conservatives. What noble humanitarians! Sorry, but the right-wing being upset about racism is only slightly more believable than the outcry over the gross insensitivity in John Kerry's "outing" of Mary Cheney. Sorry, she was already out of the closet. And there's no shame in saying someone's gay. Unless you're the Republican party and your power is derived from the exploitation of homophobia and other prejudices.

from breathtaken1 :

I just read your blog for the first time and I loved what I read. Of course, it could be that I am just such a fanatical conservative that I love anything which mirrors and supports my opinions ;) Looking forward to reading more.

from hamiltonian :

Thank you

from hamiltonian :

I dont like those either but generally I layoff harsh critism of cartoons. I mean I defend Crumb all the way too. As you know I consider Michael Moore a political cartoonist-filmaker rather than a journalist-filmaker.

from plastroncafe :

I can't say as I find the first two all that offensive. Then again, I am the one sitting here being pissed off that we have pictures of our president kissing two of his cabinet members. I'm sorry, to me that's just unprofessional behavior.

from hamiltonian :

I do not trust any country having such weapons, nor any leadership which justifies having them and their use in any way.

from for-you-only :

Hey, thanks for the note. I've been hearing a lot of the same - but you put it nicely - most people just say things like, "get over it, he obviously doesn't love you anymore," like it's that simple. lol. :) -Pink

from hamiltonian :

I dont believe it is inevitable though I do believe the threat is there. NO ONE MUST EVER USE THESE DOOMSDAY WEAPONS, for they are a crime against humanity itself. I know your nort but understand it appauls me. Check out Graham Allison's site. Hes quite knowledgeable. If you want I will send a link...

from hamiltonian :

I am just passionate on my feelings concerning nukes.

from giantkiller :

Hi there, Rick! This is Beth from No Nannies. My account was hacked and the password was changed. I moved to a friends blog: http://smartngoodlookin.sirblogalot.com . I had a thought- would you be interested in becoming a blogger there? Your words would be much appreciated and your name "Mr. Know It All" Would REALLY fit the theme. My friend is Mr. Write, and I'm Ms. Priss- see? You'd fit right in. Anyway, if your interested, just drop in and leave a comment on one of our articles. Have a great day! -Beth

from theyknew :

Thank you!

from hamiltonian :

I had to speak up, and especially after Limbaugh and Savage comments on such a thing.

from hamiltonian :

Mr Know it all, you know i like you and respect you. But what the f*** is that s*** about nukes and iraq?

from hamiltonian :

Many people have told me of personal problems they had voting. One such is they could only vote Bush or Kerry for President in Texas, despite others on the ballot. Some could only vote Bush, and there are many suspicious vote counts. If we as a people do not question this, then we give up our rights and our right to vote as a whole. We have our rights, our freedom as long as we make sure that we do. Excellent entry btw...

from for-you-only :

I'm okay. I'm actually better than usual.

from chubbychic :

That was an insightful, honest and respectful response. Great entry.

from bassclargrrl :

YIKES! I may not be thrilled, but at least I'm not being hateful. I had no idea that stuff was going on. Ugh. Politics seem to bring out the worst in people.

from hamiltonian :

Well my note for some reason didn't make it own here. I am saying you did not fully get what I am saying. You also say you disagree but do not list any specifics... I also want to ask why you show fox news, cnn and gutter trash media on your page?

from starlight42 :

It's funny that the people who like to share their opinion with you are seemingly the same people who are not open to your opinion. That's what annoys me about some of the people I've read on DL lately. Everyone has a right to their views and opinions, but respect others. I think you're very respectful in the post's I've read, and passionate for sure!

from hamiltonian :

You missed my points...

from for-you-only :

Hi. How have you been?

from rumblelizard :

I'd be a lot more inclined to believe your protestations if you weren't writing stuff like "Bushies... watch your back... these people say they believe in diversity, as long as you agree with them. Diversity in their eyes does not extend to you." That's nice. Why don't you make a few more dismissive and nasty generalizations? Oh wait, that's right! You did! ...And I cannot **believe** you just compared yourself to Jews in Berlin in 1942! Are you the group that has been called treasonous, unAmerican, unpatriotic, and all the other bile that people like Ann Coulter, Sean Hannity, Rush Limbaugh et. al. spew? Was it hinted darkly several times by the vice president that if your party won, we'd have a nuclear attack on an American city? Are liberal bloggers writing stuff about "curb-stomping" people like you? Frickin' please. Secondly, it's true that Dems have been losing ground for a host of reasons, but the reasons are not the ones you seem to think. You'll be finding that out in the next couple of years. Third, Tom Daschle's constituency was largely conservative, which is what made him such an ineffective minotiry leader. His seat finally reflects the constituency. This example is NOT "proof" that the Dems can't appeal to anyone, it just shows that he lost a seat it was incredible that he had in the first place. Third, how is it that what almost exactly HALF of the people in this country believe strongly in "isn't popular?" That's kind of delusional, don't you think? Lastly, you want bipartisanship? Then maybe you should stop making the implication that liberals are acting like Nazis and scaring poor, poor, powerless little conservatives to death. That's incredibly offensive, and disingenuous, and I actually would find it kind of humourous if it didn't seem like you were being absolutely serious about it.

from hamiltonian :

I saw that link in andrew's journal; I completely disagree with the author's perverted view on the issue. It is much more complicated than taking that simplistic approach. I buy into his idea as much as I buy the idea that World War I was the "war to end all wars". Pacifism's logic has its place and rightfully so, to dismiss it would be to adhere to utter ignorance.

from poolagirl :

Hey Rick. Thanks for stopping by my diary - and yes, I really do respect your views. We've got to polish up our bootstraps and make our government work for everyone. I truly hope that happens.

from dullstar :

You're absolutely right, you could jump to conclusions. But then you might end up, you know, starting an unjustifiable war and humiliating your country. Or looking like a dumbass. Or both.

from dullstar :

When did I say there was a conspiracy?

from dullstar :

The why? was directed at your reasons for voting Bush, the fuck you Ohio was directed at their lagging at counting. Otherwise I would have directed the fuck you at all the pro-Bush states, but you can interpret it whichever way hooks you up with the warm fuzzies.

from hamiltonian :

its on the left side of my journal.. my profile page links are full...

from dullstar :

Being a Kerry voter, from California, I'm obliged to say ... why?

from hamiltonian :

If posting that I would suggest putting link to who said it. Just my opinion though. I always leave my email and url when signing guestbooks...*ALWAYS*. Btw.. do like my link to you in my journal?

from asdotcom :

This is my favorite so far: http://dullstar.diaryland.com/041103_41.html

from theyknew :

thanks for visiting http://theyknew.diaryland.com and please come again!!!

from hamiltonian :

I know it and its been heated. I call for radically different views from either of you. But get to know him.. hes a great guy. Stay in touch Rick.

from hamiltonian :

I dont think Andrew is a Michael Moore all out supporter. I truly advocate getting to know him better before judging him. I like both of you... Take care...

from hamiltonian :

I really admire your passion.

from hamiltonian :

I agree about Libertarians need to do exactly that. I also do differ on a few things with them. The one thing I steadfastly support Democrats on is labor laws. But then again I have extremely personal reasons for that.

from hamiltonian :

Just letting you know I read ya'! Take care...

from irisheyes70 :

I miss you, Rick! What's your take on the debate? I hope you're doing all right.

from moodymelinda :

Ops....I just found it.....I always talk before I think......don`t mind me.

from moodymelinda :

Hey.Can I have a peek into the personal diary`?

from nixtress :

Yep. You're there. Gonna open your notes or should I just stick 'em here?

from starlight42 :

ya, it was probably a good idea to give Bambi her space!

from nixtress :

Hmm..so where's the personal one?

from starlight42 :

Congrats at becoming a Junior in college!!

from chubbychic :

EXCELLENT excellent response. I'll be interested to see if anyone tries to respond to that in a logical manner. The chances of it being "logical" are a billion to 1.

from starlight42 :

I think the reason why people are so unhappy with the unemployment, even though it's only at 5.5%, is that especially in some areas, there's so many people out of work. For instance, in the last couple of years I've known several people who lost jobs, and many companies that downsized. I guess it was just a big shock. But then again, I'm older and am now in the "working world"- this may just be normal. I like the Kerry is Scary sign!

from guitkoko :

Thank you, Mr. K. See? That person who dropped you as a buddy is crazy - people who love Bush and people who hate Bush CAN be kosher with one another and it's no big deal. People CAN be dumb, can't they? Hope things are well with you. Congrats on the weight loss!

from jonnybox :

Yup. And their causes are...

from enondoiel :

Sounds to me like someone's a little bitter? ;)

from bytwilight :

you should renew my gold so that I can update the ring picture.

from hamiltonian :

I love that quote

from asdotcom :

May I repost this with credit given? Also, I thought you might find this interesting enough to leave a comment: http://www.markybob.com/?q=node/view/256

from cynedra :

I didn't know that you didn't know until now that he had only served four months in the war. I'd find it odd that he could get hurt that many times in that short of a time. I heard on a radio talk show that the first and third purple hearts may have been from self inflicted wounds, but I have never been able to confirm that at all so I don't usually say anything about it, but maybe you can investigate. Regardless, it seems telling to me that he could get injured/wounded three times in four months.

from hamiltonian :

http://www.washingtonpost.com/ac2/wp-dyn?pagename=article&contentId=A64323-2004May3¬Found=true

from asdotcom :

I heard on WTOP News Radio (www.wtopnews.com) that the commander of Kerry's ship is saying that two of his purple heart wounds were self-inflicted and he never spent any time in the hospital. Self. Inflicted.

from bassclargrrl :

Thought you might enjoy: http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/kerryedwards.php

from hamiltonian :

Stephen Ambrose was a great man as well as a great writer.

from asdotcom :

PPS - If that last note was too graphic, I'll understand you deleting it.

from asdotcom :

PS - I heard that Kerry likes to pop a straw in babies and suck out their insides and that's what those pictures are.

from asdotcom :

Nice job on debunking the uranium myth. There's nothing I like to see more than facts debunking propaganda. -AS!

from nixtress :

You're just not having a great week, are you? Happy Almost Friday.

from nixtress :

Of course you will. Just wanted you to know that I was rooting for you :)

from zarfmeister :

Hope you and your wife get things figured out. I know that sounds trite...but I enjoy reading what you have to say and have come to respect you and your opinions, so I have a desire that things go well for you. ~ Buma

from cynedra :

It can be amazing what some therapy and perhaps medication can do. My BIL and his wife, Cheryl, were getting close to divorce when they found out she was bipolar. She is a changed person and was even able to go back to work which she hadn't done for several years. The frantic phone calls he got from her all the time had decreased to partically zero, and the children seem to be doing much better as well. On a different subject, how was your son's vacation?

from starlight42 :

sorry to hear things still haven't changed with your wife. I don't blame you though for wanting out. Divorce shouldn't be taken lightly, but it seems you've done all you can and more than enough. I would be just as upset too about the job thing, I have a few friends like that. The thing is, they never see it's THEM, they think it's the boss. Good luck!

from nixtress :

Rick, I miss our talks. Wishing I could do something to lighten your load a bit. Sounds to me as though you've got your head in the right direction and are trying to keep everything in perspective. Congrats to Katie on her hard work :):) and good luck to the boys on their upcoming seasons. I'm here if you need me.

from nixtress :

Nope, no can see :(

from moodymelinda :

me neither

from hopeanew :

nope - cant see the picture

from irisheyes70 :

Can't see it.

from guitkoko :

Cannot see picture. Koko

from mildchild :

Thanks for your note. I wasn't saying in that entry that I thought I could live up to God's standard. Just that I was sick of people (non-Christians especially) expecting me to be perfect because I was a Christian. I just get really upset when I acidently swear. I already feel bad for swearing but when there is someone standing behind you saying "OMG, did you hear that the little Christian girl just sweared." I kind of feel like crap if there is someone picking on me about it. Thant's all I was trying to say. I didn't say it well. Thanks though. God Bless. Ashley

from guitkoko :

I didn't know you had stumbled back to Diaryland. I removed you from my favorites when you said you were leaving. Liar. Thanks for the 'good luck'! It worked! Koko

from minstrelite :

Just checked out the photos of the boys. Pretty revealing, if you ask me.

from slkj131 :

Hi!, I stumbled upon your diary... don't ask me how. Funny pictures. The morning news here in CA did a funny thing about the Johns being as affectionate as they are. It included just about all your pictures. Anyhow, just wanted to say hello, and thank you. ~Sarah

from starlight42 :

Thanks for the welcome back note! Yikes, that ordeal with the dog sounds scary. It's weird timing because Dave's dad just got bit by his neighbors dog about a week ago. Also, loved your Hillbilly Dan story!

from harlemrain :

That's a very good question. I've asked my cat why she feels the need to give me the "one eye salute" but she just looks at me blankly and sticks her rear back in my face as if to tell me my question isn't worth thinking about.

from cynedra :

I'm sorry to hear about the dog problem - it is one of the main reasons I don't walk in my neighborhood - too many dogs barking at me, scaring me, etc. I hope it doesn't put you off of morning walks though, nothing really beats them except for maybe a long bicycle ride.

from for-you-only :

Ah, I'm not taking the job, my Dad wont let me.

from minstrelite :

By the way, it sounds as though in the morning of your recent entry, just as you were beginning to hear the Voice of God, you were distracted by the Voice of Dog.

from zarfmeister :

Yes, sometimes my friends and girlfriend get a little fed up with my undisguised hatred of that evil team. I have been known to chant Yankees Suck at any and all opportunities and almost shouted it as I walked across the stage at graduation...if that gives you any idea of how deep my hatred runs.

from soul-glimpse :

ohmigod, you're back!

from enondoiel :

Thank you! And: I'm glad to see you're back :)

from minstrelite :

Right on, and Amen! I couldn't have said it better.

from moodymelinda :

Hello to you too mr! :-)

from minstrelite :

I'm not sure if you were referring to 1 Corinthians 5:9-10 or not. If not, I think it provides the basic sentiment. Paul tells us not to keep "bad company," but qualifies that by reminding us that it is impossible not to keep a certain amount of company with the sinners of this world, because if we were to try to avoid them completely, we would have to leave the world entirely. And this is not possible. If, on the other hand, someone claims to be a Christian and partakes willfully in sinful practices without conviction or concern, we need to avoid that person categorically, lest our walks with Christ be tarnished by his influence. For those who do not know Christ and are still engaging in sin due to ignorance and unbelief, we need to provide a witness and an example, and we cannot forsake them. I think what you and I are both saying about ourselves is that the influence of the unbelievers can be so strong as to cause us to forget from time to time who we are in Christ, and to be honest with you, I do not know where this is addressed in Scripture. It's practical to take a step back and re-group, but it's cowardly to stay in retreat mode forever. Therefore, in my case, I would think that once I'm replenished in Christ and fully reminded who I am, I need to return to the world of artists and once again seek to testify to them, because that is the evangelistic ministry that the Lord has provided for me, and for me to neglect this opportunity is sheer disobedience. Thank you for helping me to figure this out.

from for-you-only :

True, they both have pits. :) I wasn't looking for any particular type of job, but I got a job at a bar serving drinks (I think) the guy is supposed to call me tomorrow. -Pink

from for-you-only :

Peachy is good. I once heard someone say that life is a bowl full of cherries. I heard some respond that life is a bowl full of shit, similar to the woman who made the first comment. he he he. -Pink

from for-you-only :

So how are you?

from boxx9000 :

7-4-04 Happy 4th of July!

from minstrelite :

Thanks for the encouragement. I was a little hesitant to post that entry, partly because of the drama involved (in the symbolic act of shaking the dust off my feet, etc.) and partly because of a strong compulsion to return to the cafe at some point, which would make me a liar for having declared my "dissent" with finality. However, I agree with you completely; the scene was getting worse and worse in terms of acceptance vs. persecution, and it's probably best if I leave those guys in God's hands. Mine obviously weren't working.

from zarfmeister :

Thanks for the congrats and by the way, it's good to have you back. I always enjoy what you have to say.

from jonnybox :

I saw! Howdy.

from for-you-only :

lol, yeah!

from for-you-only :

I see things....scary things...

from starlight42 :

I forgot you were in Ohio...ya, CP sure is expensive now! I haven't been in a couple of years either. I wanted to go this year, maybe in early fall when the weather cools down. I hate going when it's scorching.

from starlight42 :

Happy belated b-day! The Big 40...also, that is a nice "desk". Very cool.

from for-you-only :

Hey, sup. I am crAZY, SEEEEEE, SAHDFALKJFHA;LKFD!!!@! HA

from bassclargrrl :

So, I was slightly confused. Didn't realize that you had started blogging again and you never really had a "hey, I'm back" entry... eh. Welcome back, I guess? Hope things make a turn for the better.

from nixtress :

Happy Father's Day :)

from starlight42 :

wow- I just read your last 2 entries and the one about the kite. (I loved your metaphor about love being like a kite) I'm sorry to hear that things are still rocky and she's having such a hard time and acting the way she is. I give you kudos for sticking with it and trying to hard...I hope it pays off. I can understand she was hurt about your comment that day, but honestly, I'm shocked that she's still not gotten past it. When you were talking about the "incident", I thought you must have cheated on her...I know words can cut like knives, but she just seems to be really holding onto this grudge for too long, her response is almost not rational. She's blown it a bit out of proportion I think, is she maybe using that as an excuse to make you feel guilty & stay with her? Sorry if this I'm butting in or if this is too personal, just my thoughts...

from boxx9000 :

HEY, I didn't know you were back? You have to ANNOUNCE things like that. We don't agree on hardly anything, but I still like you lots. How goes life for you these days?

from starlight42 :

are you back now?! :)

from nixtress :

Hope you're doing okay. Supposing you've battened down for whatever's going on in your life. Know that I'm thinking about you and hoping things are going well.

from starlight42 :

awe...you're deserting us. I can understand though, it's hard to keep up at times. Anyway, best of luck!!

from parlance :

Oh, oh -- and you're Mary Tyler Moore B)

from zarfmeister :

Rick, even funnier is the video I saw at the commissioning of the Reagan (CVN 76). To test the catapaults on that one they shot off an old tank. A little Go Navy, Beat Army enthusiasm.

from starlight42 :

ouch!

from soul-glimpse :

and am i no longer a favorite? :(

from soul-glimpse :

uhm maybe things have changed since i was in high school? :O

from soul-glimpse :

haha, i think that's all girls do in high school. i went to a fucking boarding school and i still managed to call boys. when did girls turn into such whores? it's the ones with blonde highlights already that you want to watch out for (you think i'm kidding but i KNOW this stuff).

from batten :

Yup. I know that. Been reading you for a little while now and that's quite apparent. BTW. Nice to meet you. You have to go back to the May and June entries of last year to find out what and to whom I'm referring. Thanks for the note, Rick. My father is also Richard and up until last year I'd never met a bad one. (wry grin) I hope you are doing well. Peace out -J

from moodymelinda :

hi there. thanks for the note. and thank you for adding me as a favourite, that is very flattering. :-)

from zarfmeister :

Hope the mom-in-law is ok. I'm keeping your family in my prayers.

from gerg69 :

Oooooh yea, I forgot I wrote that at the bottom, and yea, that is where I got that. I finally finally FINALLY bought holy grail on DVD this christmas. No DVD collection would be complete without that one.

from gerg69 :

I am a monty python fan, but what is that in reference to? (sorry about your sister by the way) Oh, are you talking about hubert?

from nixtress :

Have a good weekend! :)

from bitsofmylife :

that's one thing i'll never understand: my mom is constantly going "well i can't make you do anything anymore, but i would hope you wouldn't" when it's stuff she's done plenty of times before. like some days she'll act all shocked when i call someone a bitch and the next day she says fuck. and she's all "why would you smoke pot?" when that's all she did when she was my age! it's just finding out how doing certain things make us feel, i think. we all go through it. i think. clearly i'm not a parent.

from cutielatina :

Thanks for the note and compliment! Wow..and to tell you the truth, I actually said Tee,hee.So, there goes the facade of sophistication..LOL.Take care, and I don't mind sneaking in once in a while to see how you're doing:).Cuidate.

from jcjohnna :

Thanks for writing. It is nice to see that someone reads....I think. I, too, have found that God has brought me through some things so that I could have compassion for others. W/o that, I would be a pretty narrow-minded judgemental person. ~~HF

from zarfmeister :

Thanks for adding me as a favorite. Hope you enjoy my ramblings as much as I enjoy yours.

from nixtress :

Hey! You! Happy Valentine's Day :)

from candora :

This is a test. (beep) This is a test of the Emergency Valentine's Day System. (EVS) This test is to see if leaving notes around DLand will make this a wonderful day in spite of not particularly being with anyone romantically at the moment. (ummm) May the results be that all this love in my heart found some productive use. (smile) And maybe a giggle or few :)

from bitsofmylife :

i know your comments weren't directed at me personally (i'm not that obnoxious) but when you generalize, as you did when you said: "It�s a prison we all individually hold the key to. It�s like the alcoholic: they will never be well until they want to be well," it is a comment that encompasses everyone who has dealt with depression, including myself. i agree that you can't force someone to do something when they don't want to and your argument is valid about her needing to take the initiative. i did get a little fired up, for which i apologize; i've just heard people always tell me that i *CHOOSE* to be depressed because i don't. i want to get well: i would love to be happy and i felt like by your saying that everyone holds the key to their own depression, that i've just locked myself in this box and it's my own fault if i suffocate. i don't know. i wasn't trying to be mean. it's just sensitive with me lately because more than ever, i feel like i can't get out, that there is NOTHING i can do and there never will be. it's a vicious cycle.

from treewillow :

Thank you for your help in my question. It really did help me understand how now to direct my son on this. And I now also know where I am going when I have questions regarding Religion. I will of course still post them in my diary, as I love to hear the different comments. Thank you again for your help, hugssss

from nightdragon :

Rick, do me a favor. One of my favs is desparate on a theological question. Perhaps you could help her, devout Christian that you are: http://treewillow.diaryland.com/040205_57.html. Thanks!

from madam-rose :

ty so much. I have always been told i sound and act like i am a lot older. most ppl think i am in my 20s ....i am actually only 17 18 in april :)

from madam-rose :

thats cool i wish u luck with it. my adobe photoshop was a gift so i got lucky and didnt have to pay lol

from madam-rose :

anytime lol i tried that program i didnt get along with it lol but vlad uses it and loves it and hates photoshop which i love so i guess it just depends on the user lol

from janie12975 :

LOL, I forget there are men out there that read my diary. Feel free to skip over the next few days, as I am sure your wife subjects you to enough PMS already. ;-)

from bitsofmylife :

and i'm quite insulted. it must be nice to be happy and belittle people who don't have the same luxury.

from bitsofmylife :

i resent the "they can get well when they want to get well" statement about depression. it's not true. if you've been there, and truly you been there, you know it's a force bigger than yourself. this is the prozac-chewing emo kids aside: the serious stuff. i am so sick of adults (ie my parents and christians) telling me it's all a choice. i'll start believing THAT bullshit when i start believing sexuality is a choice too.

from jonnybox :

Yes of course, I wasn't talking specifically about just being excited! All sorts of people deal with all manner of problems so I don't think that is an automatic disqualification or anomaly. While I don't know your specifics and am no authority on the matter, I believe that everyone can be helped in some way or other. So it's really up to you in your situation to know if it can work and if it's meant to be(you're currently undecided right?). I'm really just trying to say that it might take a little more imagination to do the er...christian thing. You're welcome.

from nightdragon :

No, no -- you mean you haven't had a FAG in four years ... the word "faggot" has the same connotation here as it does Stateside. But "fag" always means cigarette here, and if it doesn't, then it means you're hearing a North American ex-pat, not a Brit, speak.

from starlight42 :

OH!! You know what, the other week I was going through & moving around my profile & favorites & I managed to delete some. Of course, I wasn't sure who all got left off. So when I remember I've been going on & adding some back. Sorry! But now I've got you back on. Now you can smile :)

from nixtress :

BTW, I've spent countless amounts of time this morning catching up on the entries I'd not read. Think I'm about all caught up now, so don't be surprised if your stats reflect that :)

from nixtress :

Grrr..cruddy guestbook. At least you have your notes and comments. Happy Friday--hope you're geared up for a pleasant weekend.

from nixtress :

Hey! I tried to leave the following message in your guestbook but it wouldn't stick. It took forever to try to post and then came back with the error. So...it's here instead. A sort of pseudo-guestbook love :P " Guestbooky love. See? It's gettin' used and abused!"

from zarfmeister :

Good luck with that test. I know the feeling seeing as how I just studied for and failed one.

from starlight42 :

hey, I like the jokes site. Also, glad that Katie's party went well. we were surprised too that everyone we invited showed up for our party. I guess Superbowl is a good time when everyone is looking for something to do.

from ugottafriend :

Hahahaha man that's funny! Great personal ad. I was also glad to read that Katie's party went well. :) And yes, this Alabama girl loves her "cokes", haha!

from shibbykiddo :

I've never had problems on Mondays, but that may be because I've been on these medicines for so long. The only time that I've ever had trouble was on ritalin, after summer was over. However, I don't know if all medicines have that effect after three months, as since I've switched to concerta I have taken classes over the summer and so have taken the medicine through them. For strattera, I think, it would be a more pronounced effect, since the medicine takes an average of two months to start working in the first place.

from madam-rose :

thank you my good sir for your kind note. :)

from autumn-dove :

Just hit onto your banner. I begin some of my entries with a joak. I got them from Milton Berle's book on his favorite joaks. If you like them, your more than welcome to any. Like your spiritual thoughts. I am a Christian also. I made a rickety typing and spacing start with my beginning here.(sigh) I am thinking to open another diary to remedy that and do it all over again. It's the wee hours of morning, and I gotta get some winks. I am looking forward to reading more of your entries in the future. Good luck. I really think the joak idea is "good stuff" here in diaryland. Laughter is definately good medicine. Thanks for sharing the sunshine!!!

from shibbykiddo :

I hope Katie does well on the strattera. My brother just started it this week, and had the same side effects as you emntioned the first day. I myself have been on medicine for ADHD for 11 years, both ritalin and concerta, and the beneifts of a non-stimulant seem worthwhile. However, since it is reported to take two months to take effect, I cannot afford to go onto it myself, as I attend a very academic science magnet hgi school and two months is too long to be without the benfits. Let me, however, offer some advice, if I may be so bold: My parents kept me off the medicine on weekends and breaks from school due to the side effects, as the drugs tend to cause loss of appetite and moodiness. Thats the only thing that seemed to work, otherwise I'd never eat. Good luck with the medicine. I admit, I battled the idea at first, but it really has helped in the long run. I wish your daughter all the best.

from zockendland :

I never lauphed so hard. Whipped the magazine is da best!

from kimbaleigh :

Hello, just came by to thank you for the note. Running in the snow is very cool! Me and my dog had a lot of fun. Ive always wanted to learn to play the drums, good luck with that. Oh and i hope things work out for Katie, take care.

from ezleeamuzed :

Word. Thats a good idea! I love your banners, I've seen them around dland

from starlight42 :

ya...I think it was just about getting a day off of work! Anything for that. Oh well. Oh- and I loved that personal ad for the dog!! lol

from trinity63 :

Thinking about you, and hope you are okay:) Things will look up, I promise:)

from heyjude85 :

hmm, you sound my like myself, except I'm a girl and I'm probably less than half your age lol! Anyhow, keep up the good work, I'll be back again sometime.

from nixtress :

Hey you, I hope everything falls into place with your Katie. What a shame. Hopefully the meds help and she finds her niche. And beat those drums for me, will you? I've only ever played the violin...

from sindustries :

dear mr. knowitall. greetings and salutations. i stumbled across your little diary a short time ago and have now grown attached. well as attached as you can be to something electronic. wait.. my father loves his remote. crap. i really like your diary. let me tell you why... yes more reasons to gloat. gloat away my dear man. i like your diary because 1. it makes me smile. thats more than i can say about some people in my life. 2. it makes me feel. i've grown to be so numb towards it all you've actually been able to awaken a little part of me thru your words. eternally thankful. 3. sometimes my eyes well up with tears and its not because i'm a woman. yes mr. knowitall sometimes i come close to crying while reading you. i never imagined a 23 year old girl would have so much in common with a 40 year old man... but hey, stranger things have happened. and 4. thank you for being as open and honest about your faith as i wish i could be. thats a long story. but thank you for having a backbone. its a sorely missed comodity in todays world. lastly please excuse my spelling... i'm weird like that. *high kick and big finish*

from kimbarley :

Truly beautiful. I can only imagine the dissappointment when they found out it was about a dog, a real dog. P.S. Thanks for leaving a note the other day... sorry my 'thanks' is belated.

from oldpenguin :

What does a person say to the man who knows everything? Nothing would be the intelligent answer, but let's just shove that under the proverbial carpet. Clicked through your banner, and I really liked what I found. Thanks for an interesting read. OP.

from nixtress :

I'd gladly borrow your Katie for a bit. Sunshine comes from the most amazing places sometimes. Hope you have a great weekend :)

from techielove :

oops i didn't mean to send that to you a bazillion times. sorry man.0

from starlight42 :

saw your banner today...ya, I couldn't believe it last year when I first saw Amer. Idol! Those people are mentally off. Seriously, do they think they are singing well & everyone else in the world is wrong? I love it when they make them go to the mall to find someone to say they're good & they can't get anyone. They should ask them after that, do you get it NOW?!

from treewillow :

Hmmm will going to Washington help me here in Canada lol. Will they pass it world wide in Washington? I really need this passed NOW!!! Wednesday night, which is tonight it's going to -47c here :( I am not a happy camper lol

from techielove :

nice diary

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from candora :

and suddenly, from another computer where I am logged in uder another name... it was your subliminal that I was referring to, but the Socrates one deserves mention as it originally sucked me into your madness. Your mind is a playground I am enjoying very much.

from candoor :

I tried to steal your banner but this computer would only save it as a bmp file, so I'd lose the gif effects... at least I have finally found a reason to use the term buggar-all. I am nominating your banner for best banner of 2004, pity it came out so early in the year and the academny will probably forget about it by the time the awards are voted on. Well, there should be an awards show, anyway.

from madam-rose :

interesting....

from serenaville :

I just had to leave a note to say what a PHENOMINAL banner that was. Very original, and exceedingly clever. I'm impressed. I'm also bookmarking your space for more thorough reading at another time. Take care!

from nixtress :

I think that's the one I saw...I just saw your trademark Mr. Knowitall at the end. We've got blue skies here--just thought I'd share :P

from nixtress :

Your GB was being a bit of a snot so I'm posting this here. Scootergirl was all about gimmick. And Simon was in rare form. He's the lovely abrasive one :) BTW, I just saw your banner---figured you should know.

from zarfmeister :

No, the friend was misspinkkate actually. Yeah, I could see how you'd like to have Belichick, though I'd have to disagree about your misgivings. I can't say as there's a coach I'd rather have. Maybe Gibbs or Vermeil, but not likely. You've given my Pats quite a spread though. You thinkk they can close that deal?

from blueforever :

Beautiful diary Mr. Knowitall

from judybean :

Great news about the car! But giving the Patriots that much of a spread for the final score? If the Panthers show up like they have in the past few games I think it could be *much* closer. But.. overall I think the Patriots are the better team as far as overall quality and consistency are concerned. And yeah, where the heck were the Colts? Somewhere else obviously... and I wasn't sure about those Panthers but they came to play. I think there is a shot they could do it, but I'd still put my money on the Pats.

from starlight42 :

I love the cat pics! Also, that's great news about the car!! It's nice when good things happen to good people. And as for your note, it's ok to turn into your parents, as long as it's the good qualities! :)

from dragonblade0 :

mmmm new car. thats awesome. i like the layout too.

from zarfmeister :

Friend of mine sent me the link to your diary and I've got to say I enoyed reading your previous posts so much I had to add you as a favorite. Also, my apologies on the Colts loss, but as a die-hard Pats fan I've gotta say that Brady was definitely the better QB and quite probably deserving of MVP honors this year.

from candora :

Someday I hope you might understand and share the chuckle I feel as I say... after reading your intro and some more, I think I could learn to enjoy our differences :)

from candoor :

I leave this note before I even begin to read because of your Socrates banner and cat/fish pictures and now I return to bookmark your site and read...

from enondoiel :

In one of my polite moments I figured it was only... polite (excuse the vocabular shortcomings...) to let someone know I've exploited your banner and clicked it. I can see I'm not alone. So out of politeness and the fact that you have a great diary and talent, hi. I was here :) And I think I want to come back. Yes.

from erato :

I found you through your banner. Most amusing. And the pictures of your cats were quite a treat. Thank you.

from bitsofmylife :

kika is ADORABLE. i miss my kitten: she's at my boyfriends. i'm inspired. i'll have to post a picture.

from kittyleopard :

You assume I'd be cold with one sock? Hm...I didn't really notice actually. I just realized a week ago my dad bought a new truck. Way to go Nancy Drew. Yea yea.

from ana-warda :

re: sandals in the snow avec tie.. Classic, classic W&L wear. He should consider applying here! lol.

from kittyleopard :

Hm. Sandals with a tie...sexy yo. No no. Didn't say that. Not one to talk, realized this morning was only wearing one sock.

from kittyleopard :

Kick ass diary!! I lub it! Karma! You rock my socks. :D

from bitsofmylife :

and in all of my negativity, i forgot to say thanks for the note. i was pleasantly surprised that people read, tried to understand... anything. i will not give up on your gender yet :) seriously, any shred of comfort was keeping me on the edge yesterday (as in from going over). it really means something to me.

from bitsofmylife :

god turned his back on me. there is no "one set of footprints because he was carrying me." he ignored me. i sought him and never found. i persisted for over a year. and i finally got to the point where i was done with all of my hardships being trials from him that would make me stronger... or my fault for not placing enough faith in him. i got tired of my accomplishments being only because of him, like i was incapable. so yes, i've thought about the church. i've also thought about suicide but i doubt i'll be pursuing either anytime soon. how's that for an uplifting answer? ... still waiting on you to return to normal entries! and be nice to cheryl. hating yourself is not as simple as it sounds.

from ugottafriend :

Hey the username is ugottafriend and the password is knb.....read at your own risk, I've had quite a few bad days lately! Things will get better though. Thanks for checking on me. Hope all is well with you. :-)

from starlight42 :

sorry to hear about the flu striking your house! I can relate- the flu this year was the worst! Hope you're all feeling better soon.

from ugottafriend :

I have heard that trash before about the Bush and Hitler connection. Give me a break. Anyone with a brain knows that the Hitler of today is Saddam Hussein. I'm thankful that our leader had enough backbone to put a stop to him. Hope you are doing fine Rick, Happy New Year. :-)

from almostaflake :

I hope you and your family have a really wonderful and peaceful holiday. Thanks for not yelling at your kid (with the garage door)I loved the story. Peace Mr. Rick!

from nixtress :

I hope you have a safe and wonderful holiday! Take care :)

from plastroncafe :

I concur, our government is already doing plenty to fuck with the healthcare system of this country. They are the ones loaning the money for the medical training. They're the ones allowing the pharmacutical companies to get around patent laws keeping drugs from going "generic", and thus easier to afford. There is no free market where the FDA is concerned. Just as the mayor of Boston who is now in trouble with the Feds for buying Canadian drugs for Boston City Employees.

from trinity63 :

[email protected] yeah send that photo to me:)

from trinity63 :

Hi you:) You know I too have ADD and it's served me well. I only wish I had medication when I was a kid. It was hell for me not having it. But the good news is that it is controllable, and you can live with it. And if you need to take time off until Fall -- go for it:) glad to see you posting again:) hugs, xoxoxo

from starlight42 :

hey, sorry to hear about everything! I agree with you on the trying the med for ADD. It's worth a try, and if it doesn't help, you guys can re-think. Good luck! And have a Merry Christmas.

from nixtress :

Tried to sign your guestbook but it's all wacky so I'll leave this here instead. I think this is the second time I've wandered across your diary and the first I've actually popped in to sign somewhere. Hi from north central Ohio.

from starlight42 :

I love the pics! Glad to see things are going well. That is very cool that you got to hear from an old friend, things like that make me smile :)

from lightedpath :

Hello! Lighted Path is now up and running! You are more than welcome to come and add your site to our Christian Directory! Can't wait to see what God does in and through us as we all work together! - with much love, Christy

from wench77 :

hey, only just read an entry or two in your blog, but wanted to say i liked what you said about "I am able to make it clear to her how ridiculous she sounds, and I'm tired of my kids emulating her self loathing. It shuts her up. It makes her think too. "... sometimes kids are our best self-mirrors if we have the guts to realize that the words we hear are straight from our own mouths. It reminds me of when i was 15, and my father would say "where did you learn to talk like that?!!!!" and i would truthfully say "that's what you tell me all the time" (in that case "dont respect anyone's opinion unless they are informed on the matter"!!!)... sometimes it would be great if we had a husband who could make us realize how ridiculous we sound, and kids to mirror us.

from starlight42 :

hey- I hope this year goes well for all of the kids, Katie especially!

from ugottafriend :

I know how Katie feels right now. That is a very difficult time of life to begin. Just be as open-minded and patient as possible. It is unbelievable how much hormones play a part in a girl's emotions and mental stability. I have been a mess since the age of 13, and although some of it is due to my home life and my illness, my hormones played a huge role in how I dealt with life. I was absolutely unstable at times, and even at the age of 25 when my hormone therapy doesn't kick in I get a little crazy. She is probably feeling very weird and uncomfortable right now, to put it lightly. I know it's probably not easy, but hang in there with her as best as you can. P.S. - Math is a nightmare, I don't get it either! LOL

from starlight42 :

I forgot you're in Ohio! They said the place where they were giving out the food was I believe south east ohio. Ya, it's sad when you go out, like when we go to downtown Detroit, and you encounter bums begging for money. It can also get annoying too though. Have a good weekend!

from starlight42 :

That is very true, I might have an evil twin lurking...too funny! Oh and I wanted to say that's really cool that you're going to school- what are you studying?

from vanoonoo :

hi :)

from onedaftcow :

Just wanted to let you know I stopped by to read. Also wanted to say I'm sorry for the loss of your beloved pet and friend.

from tudor-diva :

No way man! Cherry Coke rules ; )

from trinity63 :

While I am so glad to see you posting, I am so sorry to hear about your cat. xoxoxox

from silverluna :

hi there! Thanks signing my guestbook! Camp was great, a little nerving at times because i was one of the many youth leaders. But all in all it was a good thing. And by the way, GUITAR ROCKS! I'm just learning, and I LOVE IT! of course, I've always loved it, as you can see by my background...Anyways, thank you and GOd bless!! ~Sara

from thespark :

I run a diaryring/community. I'd like for you to join the ring. E-mail me, if you're interested.

from starlight42 :

That's so sad about the little boy. Man...in my opinion it's not unfair to your kids if you choose to adopt. Honestly, they should understand, or it may take some time, but to understand that this boy needs a family too and how neat it would be if you guys could be that for him. I know it's a big decision so you'll be thinking about it for a while, but I think it can work. Of course, I know it's also expensive...I hope somehow something works out for this boy. If nothing else, he'd probably love you as a mentor.

from molzo :

I'm sending Annie (bassclargrrl) a few of your updates while she's in Basic Training. If you'd like me to send her a personal letter, e-mail me at [email protected].

from guitkoko :

Yes, feeling a bit bad. Things are better now. I've calmed down and Booie is buying toilet paper and going to one of those check advance places to get money. I hate money. Bye.

from bitsofmylife :

rick, i'm so glad you are becoming aware of/involved with some foster kids. for the past five years i've volunteered with a camp for foster kids that was founded about 15 years ago in california by some christians. they named it royal family kids' camp. it's really awesome and i would give more details but i'm stoned and can't really think of them. the link is www.rfkc.org. check it out; it might provide the balance between doing something for the community (giving a week of your time to these kids) and not overburdening your family. or something.

from nightdragon :

LOL. Now, Rick, who said I smoked??? I don't give a flying frisbee about smokers or smoking; I just don't wish to see anything prohibited. But if we're talking about cannabis, pure grass, we'll then I guess you could say that I'm a smoking dragon ... occasionally.

from trinity63 :

You can be a big brother for sure. Meet with is mom, and offer to take him places, have him come over, hang out with your kids, play ball etc..

from guitar-girl2 :

Prayer walking is exactly how it sounds. You go to a certain area that you want to pray for and walk either through or to certain locations. We chose our downtown area because it is an area where a lot of the youth hang out, but there is also a lot of crime, spiritual darkness, etc. It is an enjoyable experience and something I recommend you should try sometime.

from neangel :

thanks for stopping by & tagging me. I used word all the time before posting. it's great & I am such a spelling freak so that works nicely. lol

from trinity63 :

that's why Rick, I always always use MS Word do write my entries. and then cut and paste. Easy peasy, no entries lost. I learned my lesson long ago... xoxooxo

from starlight42 :

wow, it's cool to meet a guy who doesn't like porn! :) I'm glad your kitty got home safely! And that was funny about your neighbors. LOL

from nirvanazz :

As odd as it is (atleast for some people), I never hated my parents for getting divorced. I was five at the time, and my parents were (and still are) so friendly to one another, I don't think it occurred to me to be sad or angry. Your diary just sort of makes me wonder "Well, if they can be friends and civil people, then...." And it provides me with yet another way to try and understand my life. My parents' divorce is the least of my traumatic family experiences. It just makes me wonder.~Lauren

from cherryvines :

Hi I wrote this long entry in your guestbook and it wouldnt take it ;( but anyways .I'm a new baby Christian and I had a nother journal but last night closed it and started this one . I understand what you were talking about .I love your writing and I think your awesome . So your going on my favs ,and God Bless you ! Much love _______Jenny~//♥

from guitar-girl2 :

Hey, thanks for the comments, I appreciate them. I am back from missions now and just wanted to pop on over here to say thank you. You have a nifty site and I shall be reading more.

from trinity63 :

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHBUAHAHAHAHAHBUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA Now that joke about 710 was GOOOOD!!!!!!!!!!!! xoxoxoxo

from treewillow :

Sorry wasn't letting me put this in your guestbook. So I will put it in here :). I am glad that you are staying. I haven't been reading you all that long. But I enjoy what I read. I could see my son trying to use the vaccumm, or the broom to clean that up.

from moonblonde :

I laughed so hard on your 7/8 entry because we were just saying as they came out with "if your children play in sand there could be a hidden danger" and I was thinking how I'd played in sand my whole life and I'm still here! You put the whole spoof they try to pull on us in such a humorous light. Thank you and yes we're still..........the horror!gasp :)

from starlight42 :

I love that article of the lady in the car!!

from bitsofmylife :

a little bit of a delayed reaction but haha! i appreciate the offer extended to let me send you money :) it almost makes me feel guilty for downplaying my step-father who has done a wonderful job for stepping (play on words) in as my father. he's officially been around longer than my biological father and is a wonderful person. i got him the first season of star trek on dvd for father's day but have yet to give it to him. let's hope for the best. i am actually here for another reason as well. i just finished reading this book called "the da vinci code" and was absolutely fascinated by it as a) a history buff and b) a dedicated mystery lover. anyway it left me with a lot of questions raised and i am trying to find a christian to read it and discuss it with me. it's by no means top-notch writing in the sense of salinger, hemingway, et cetera but it is an intricate and alluring story: one i had a hard time putting down. would you be interested in reading and discussing? let me know.

from judybean :

I agree, I agree. It's an historical fact and should be treated as such. You can't change what happened.

from erlenweg6 :

Happy 39th! Don't worry about leaving your 30's. The best is yet to come! :-)

from judybean :

ugh. I screwed up the gbook signing! Anyway, male cat names: Boris, Vladimir or Viktor. Female cat names: Liliya, Nina, Katya. I'm keen on Russian names especially for cats because they have an uppity czar attitude anyway!

from almostaflake :

Your Poke was quite surprising and very satisfying - Thanks for stopping by and saying HI!!!!

from bitsofmylife :

hey it's been a while but i have been reading and wanted to express sympathy for your daughter: i know exactly what she's going through. i was a total outcast in middle and half of high school until i switched to an all girls' high school (the best years of my life thus far). anyway, i think it's good your wife let her stay home. most parents freak out about their kids missing school but i seriously missed around 20 days per school year and i was fine, academically and all that. it was just nice to have a break from everything. i hope things get better for her. as sure as someone can be that she will "get through it," it's significantly harder for the person actually GOING through it to believe. hope all else is well with your family.

from kimbarley :

My goodness I'm glad I wasn't drinking anything when I read todays post about 'being single'. I wasn't ready for such a response... guess you should be careful when you ask questions.

from erlenweg6 :

hey, we're playing message tag! my e-mail is [email protected]

from erlenweg6 :

send me an e-mail and I'll give you the code.

from chaos68 :

hello r..... feels weird toying around d-land again. trying to get my feet wet, figure if i flounder around long enough i'll once again get my sea legs. saying hi to a couple old d-land buds (pssst... that's the part that is 'spossed to stroke your ego and make you feel special)i'll be reading you, and damn are you s p r e a d out here now. i figure if you can keep so damn many balls in the air, i oughtta be able to kick myself in the ass to post some ramblings once in a while. -ciao a

from bitsofmylife :

no way do i hate you. i just lose my mind sometimes and say things i regret later. i should have just had somebody turn me off at like eleven o'clock last night. anyway, i hope baseball picks up soon for you guys...

from bitsofmylife :

hey i got your note and i really appreciate the comment; i read it later and realized it probably wasn't as hot as i thought at the time but that initial good feeling of accomplishment is always good. i have been reading your latest entries and i'm sorry to hear about your wife as well (i'm sure you're getting a plethora of others saying this). i will say i respect you for sticking it out and for the life you two have made together. i do hope things get better and that things will not be too hard until they do.

from erlenweg6 :

I'm sorry that things are difficult with your wife. It's great that you have hung in there for so long, but I understand that it's wearing and you do have your limits. Sometimes it takes drastic measures to get our loved ones to seek professional help for their depression. Is there any kind of intervention you could do?

from judybean :

Gross. Now I feel like *I* need to wash my mouth out!

from bitsofmylife :

four! i feel like a member of the army counting off. anyway, i am sorry for letting all this info out about my dad; usually i try to just forget he exists and most of my stories related to him are so appalling i feel like a liar looking for attention even as i remember them in my mind. if i didn't have my mom to verify this mess, i might have to wonder about it all. he definitely doesn't have values though, despite going to church with us for like 8 years. i don't know where he stands on god. ironically he blames his behavior on his childhood and has made mine ten times worse in the process. moving right along, my stepdad has actually been really awesome and consequently i took his last name almost a year ago as a way to kind of symbolize how i've moved on. in a lot of ways i'm blessed. so why am i on here complaining?! by the way, i'm rereading the body project and remembering how much i love it. i wrote a paper on it last spring; good times. anyway did you get a chance to get that one? i hope so. thanks again for the insight.

from bitsofmylife :

three in a row! i appreciate your note because it actually adds a little clarity from your standpoint as a father that what he does goes a little beyond deadbeat dad material into... whatever he is. i appreciate your advice even though it is sometimes hard to remember. it scares me because when i was born up until i was eight, i was like his little princess. the whole nine yards and everyone knew it. then when he left (was having an affair) he told me i was a bad kid. that he didn't want to have to deal with me anymore (talk about something echoing in your head). anyway. i just wish i knew what makes a person switch from on to off like that. as a father, is it actually a fathomable thing to have your affection for your kids change, like something you know better than to consider but think about or is he just a freak? you don't have to answer all this; they're semi-rhetorical anyway and i'm not trying to unload my deal on you. thanks for the information on the forums; i have been looking for somewhere to rant about this u of m affirmative action case for months and just might have to utilize! have a great day.

from bitsofmylife :

looks like i'm becoming a note-posting-regular: two in a row! unfortunately i have been building on my mindset that my biological father hates me for the past ten years and i don't see any break on the horizon. things like "what? only a 1410 on the sats? you dummy." and cancelling our visitation (which took place about every three months) to get laid... it makes a girl wonder. he's 45. when will this alleged growing up take place? any insight? is it possible to just regret a child? or do you become so miserable yourself that you want to take everyone, no matter how close of a relative, with you? by the way, i just noticed the preach-it and debate-it links from your diary; are those open to anyone? i listen to npr all the time and am always looking for a place to vent besides in the blank faces of my friends who, bless their souls, try to care and just don't. back to my point: thanks for the note. maybe with enough chips in the "he-hates-me" wall, it might eventually start to crack. and knowing that guys can genuinely mean compliments (however random they may be) is a nice boost to my faith in the male gender as well. now if i can just steer clear of frat guys for the next two years...

from bitsofmylife :

hey rick i'm really glad you're enjoying the book; i think it's awesome you're taking an interest in your daughter's well-being like that. and as always, loving the diary.

from kelifairy :

Really nice to hear that you are doing well rick! :p

from guitkoko :

Dear Mr. Knowitall - Thanks for being sorry about my dad. He will be okay though. He is a tough guy and will get through it. It would just be nicer for him if my mom didn't remind him every day that he doesn't have a job. But, what are wives for, right? :) Guitkoko

from outoftime :

great idea! I'm seriously going to start doing the return-mail thing, I'll show them who's boss! *pounds on chest and immitates tarzan* by the way, on a completely unrelated note: Solaris is a pretty good movie.

from cynedra :

Rick - I posted a message in your guestbook today (2/27), but forgot to change the name, etc, because I wantedto make sure I posted a link in the message first. So, in case you are wondering who name is - that would be me.

from squirrelx :

I really needed a laugh this mornin'. Thank you for providin' it. Best, Xtine / Squirrel X

from squirrelx :

I'd like to hear their rendition of 'Elvira'. I betcha Hussein sings base. Best, Xtine / Squirrel X

from cynedra :

"Rick, if you are reading this, I absolutely loved your 1/30 diary entry. I was going to tell you yesterday, but oh well. " Actually, I like a lot of them, but the one I was referring to was the one on procrastination - I thought you would get it from the "I was going to tell you yesterday - but oh well". I guess I'm not as funny as I though.

from rumblelizard :

Indeed, and I don't think all Christians are that way (although enough are to be very very troubling). My folks are Christians, and I love them more than I can say. Plus, they both have senses of humor that slay me.

from outoftime :

Yup, I agree on the WoW. Though in the picture she looks wow-isher then she did in The Two Towers. Of course you already knew that ;-)

from guitkoko :

Hello. Yes, I grew up in Miamisburg so, I am very familiar with Peerless Mill Inn. I read back through your diary, learned you lived near my old hometown and decided to link you!

from prettytear :

Hey it says i can�t sign this thing so fast again.. well you better watch me.. Still not working.. Damn guestbook. *Waits a few minutes* YAY for diaryland notes, i had to come back to thank you for blessing us! ;D

from cynedra :

Hey, I lived in Akron for a year and Streetsboro for two. Then back to Florida to the home of the Bucs, who somehow got a lot better while I was away.

from cynedra :

Hey, congratulations on scoring the tickets. I lived in Ohio for three years - most of the time there was no professional football team in Cleveland. I leave and they get a new team. Have fun. Also, completely agree with you on the Trent Lott controversy. Based on life experiences as well as the recent governor's race in Florida, you say a lot of stuff at a tribute that doesn't necessarily reflect your total and complete opinion of someone. But, for the good of the party and the nation, you do what needs to be done after you make such a statement.

from outoftime :

pay the bills, replace that stuff and enjoy the bike even more when you buy it at a point in time far away from now, because you had to wait longer ... that works for me :-D extend that wonderfull feeling of anticipation. note: can also be applied to different situations ... no that's not the one you're think of right now ... well ok ok, maybe it is heheheh.

from outoftime :

It's questioning those very foundations that makes people burst into to tears. Some things are better left unknown, the 'special agent' question being one of them ;-)

from lorigrrl :

There really is something sexy about vampires! It's not just you by any stretch.

from o-jasmine-o :

Wah! What a surprise!! Good to hear from you again. I'll be around xx

from trinity63 :

You have no idea how damn glad you are back. Love, Trin

from plastroncafe :

Scratch that...the guestbook site is down. My bad. Abraham

from plastroncafe :

Makes me wonder what would happen if the UN sent inspectors to the US to investigate our production of Weapons of Mass Destruction. On a lighter note,...your guestbook link doesn't work. Why is that? -Abraham.

from judybean :

oh rick. i'm so glad you're back. really. welcome back.

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