messages to ping-island:
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| from julymalaise : |
| Miss you!! |
| from stellarrobot : |
| It's 2019 and I still miss you Pingles. |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Little Pingles! I hope you are well, and reading interesting things, and watching wonderful teevs, and that your awesomeness has been uncovered by ever-expanding circles. |
| from whystinger : |
| I agree, depression sucks. I hope you are getting some type of help. I married a person with depression and saw how that affected her, then realized that her illness pushed me into a depression. What a difference it was for me when I got some help and was able to climb out of the depression and heal. I stay on guard now (against my own depression). You cannot really heal depression by yourself. Cool diary by the way. |
| from the-grey-one : |
| feeling like you might throw up on a person is awesome. i hope it goes well :) |
| from dangerspouse : |
| YOUR JOKE IS WORSE!! Haha! I didn't think that would be possible. Well done :) (My next salvo: "Why do mice have such small balls? Because very few of them know how to dance.") |
| from dangerspouse : |
| This old joke about Noah also makes me smile every time: "Why didn't Noah eat fish on the Ark? Ans: He only had two worms." |
| from voxophone : |
| i'm really glad i stumbled upon you because i feel like i'm reading my own diary. |
| from submarine3 : |
| I was just cleaning my room the other day and I found a card you gave me a really long time ago. I know we haven't talked in a long time but seeing that card made me think of you. I hope you're doing well. I also haven't gone on diaryland in a while but since msn is gone I didn't know of any other way to contact you haha |
| from julymalaise : |
| Hey, thanks! It'll be much easier to stick the weather widget right in my journal instead of just uploading from my Iphone. I knew the Weather Channel had a weather widget, but I never knew how to put it on my page, but I'm definitely going to put one on my page, lol. I love the weather! |
| from jaysthoughts : |
| How'd you get your entries to not show the date? I've been trying to do that.. |
| from the-grey-one : |
| "i fail at more basic things so i'm not startled by suddenly being good at something. " also that is hilarious and brilliant |
| from the-grey-one : |
| i really enjoy the tone that your writing gives out. :) |
| from cdghost : |
| note |
| from thruthecrowd : |
| I use a fashy hot water bottle. It isn.t rubber, its a soft plastic, and has lasted me years so far. And usually tap hot water is hot enough. I hope you find something that helps. <3 |
| from moodswing : |
| Background so pretty. Always so pretty. |
| from moodswing : |
| I like that there's a tracker for head injury. I don't know why I think that's funny. |
| from moodswing : |
| mood tracker app? what is that. |
| from thruthecrowd : |
| Thank you, reading that made me feel a little less alone. |
| from newschick : |
| are you kidding? i LOVE buttered popcorn jelly bellies! :) it's the pear ones that make me gag up my life! |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Oh my little Pingly, how I have missed you. I just got home from work, its Friday night, and I am bopping around the joint listening to Iggy Pop. I should be having fun but I can't shake some work anxiety. Reading your entry made me feel a lot better. I do enjoy the theory that mental illnesses in all the beautiful rainbow spectrum are survival strategies, it seems apt. I hope you will learn to lose the feeling that being all lovey will only lead to bad things, and enjoy the sweet moments you have. Nothing about you at all seems worthy of disgust. I, for one, worship your true awesomeness. |
| from dangerspouse : |
| I think the new color scheme is awesome :) |
| from loveherwell : |
| i am sure asking someone out will go much smoother than planned. most people are flattered that you'd even consider them that way! |
| from lanienaked : |
| why not just eat 3 meals a day at the normal times? and have a sleep schedule where you always sleep at x time and wake up at x time? |
| from moodswing : |
| i would kickstart that series |
| from seasons79 : |
| Hi there! You were my last note and I have to start somewhere at spreading the word. I moved to "rekindled720" after a little bit of internal drama. Feel free to continue to follow where "Seasons79" is leaving off, if you wish. :o) |
| from warpednormal : |
| HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY :) |
| from moodswing : |
| happy daaay after your birthday :D |
| from lanienaked : |
| happy 21st birthday! |
| from loveherwell : |
| happy birthday! |
| from julymalaise : |
| True, True, men are fucking nasty...they have no balls to say anything else after they act dirty! |
| from julymalaise : |
| Oh gosh, I feel your pain. It is especially worse at night because you cannoy see the person who is catcalling. Ugh, hate it! Thank gosh ypu told them to fuck off. Did they respond back? Whenever I am being catcalled, I just laugh in their face and be like "Fucking idiot!" My friend was telling me that when she was walking home the other night, some middle-aged old man followed her in his car, checking her out and sticking his tongue out like a fucking deranged dog. Ugh, men are gross!! They need a fucking life. I am sorry that thry did that you, but glad you told them to fuck off... |
| from loveherwell : |
| that aug 7 entry i identify with an awful lot. |
| from college-kid : |
| Jeebus, I don't think I've ever had a blatantly racist prof. What area of the states do you live in? You can either a) ignore it or b) go talk to the head of the department and later, the dean. Say you wish to remain anonymous, but certain comments said in class are very disrespectful. If you can, get it tape recorded. You may not be able to get them fired, but at least you wont have to hear that type of bullshit anymore. |
| from loveherwell : |
| i've been reading you for a while. i just wanted to stop by and say i like the way you write and the way you think. hope you're having a nice night. |
| from moodswing : |
| soda is tough. years ago when i 'quit' mountain dew, i went through such a bad withdrawal that i had to give in and wean myself off. it's still tough to quit, but then, so is coffee. green tea? i wish i liked tea more. |
| from college-kid : |
| During the semester, I drink way more coffee than soda. I thought coffee was supposed to be better in moderation. :( That is, unless you add tons of sugar to it. Crazy Chiropractor. D:< |
| from stepfordtart : |
| We have a whole department devoted to that kind of stuff at the school I work in. Cant be THAT different where you are, can it? Maybe ask about pastoral support volunteering and see what happens? s x |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Fortunately for the rest of us, this is your home planet :) |
| from julymalaise : |
| I missed you, glad that you are back writing!! |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Oh no, wait...I think I have already mastered all of that. I'm thinking that possibly, if we put our heads together and wrote a book on this abstinence thing we could start a revolution. Think of all the cash we could reap from young Christian soldiers trying valiantly to keep it in their pants! |
| from stellarrobot : |
| This vow of chastity thing...how does that all work? I think I need a How To Guide. |
| from stepfordtart : |
| Its still 'bunking off', too! ; ) s x |
| from stepfordtart : |
| heeheehee. Aaaaaaaaand relaxxx! s x |
| from college-kid : |
| You could archive your entries? That's what I do. It almost feels like starting fresh. :) On the lefthand tool bar there's a link that says "Archive older entries" |
| from stellarrobot : |
| It makes me chuckle to think of you giggling your way through your arrest. Enjoy the notoriety, you are a total rock star! I am not a sociology major, but I have done about 10 sociology subjects, so I may as well frigging be. Sociology seems to have a reputation for being soft-core academia, and not as respected as other disciplines. Clearly people who think that though have never actually done sociology. My god! Deceptively difficult. However, you will be fine, you are intelligent and highly literate. So I look forward to your future help on my essays! :) |
| from stellarrobot : |
| And happy birthday, young Pingly :) |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Arrested?!?!?!?!? You are way hard-core. I am duly impressed. Also: Sociology major?!?!?!?! Rock on! When I resume studies, I will be asking you for help. |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Being hurt is just suckful. You are truly gold though, so don't let it shake you. |
| from redsilk : |
| Wow, you sure know how to put emotion into your writing! Kudos to you hon! xx |
| from stepfordtart : |
| Aww. The kindness of strangers is always a little bit uplifting. Here! Have a bit more -(((squeeeze))) *pops a slice of cyber cake into ping-island's backpack* s x |
| from fairybones : |
| you seem fun, so i've added you. just wanted to say hello! <3 |
| from college-kid : |
| HAHA! I went through kind of the same thing last week. We can be stupid together. |
| from blacksheet : |
| Haha, I'm the same way! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| aw...that's how I am. It's like, she needs to get a strap-on on before you actually see that, hey, okay, I suppose she likes me. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I think she likes you. . . a lot. Maybe a little too much for just starting out. But then again, it's always good to see people so enthusiastic. |
| from blacksheet : |
| I love the picture. I'm not sure what your hair looked like before, but it's definitely cute now! Which major did you decide on? Good luck with your classes! |
| from stepfordtart : |
| Over here in the 70s it was standard practice for the teacher to give out the text books and then you were supposed to take them home and cover them with paper to 'keep them nice'. All the other kids covered theirs in brown wrapping paper. Mine were a heady mix of 70s floral wallpaper and glittery stuff left over from Christmas. I feel your pain! s x |
| from stellarrobot : |
| What the what!?! Your hair is the bestest. You win this round, Pingly...(*shakes fist*). And is that a wicked ear piercing I spy? |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Sounds like a real little pickle re: the car. Do what feels right for you. |
| from stepfordtart : |
| It sounds like that car was just a piece of shit. The seller chose not to come with you when you test drove it (thats pretty unusual over here - after all, you could have just driven away in it!), I cant see a single reason why you might be liable for any supposed 'damage'. Sounds to me like the car was already on its last legs (reason for sale?) - you guys just pointed it out. Choose a different car. If the others want to wrangle over it, let them, its not your problem. s x |
| from college-kid : |
| I was in a car accident and my parents told me not to call the police because my mother knew the guy who hit me. It was my PARENTS telling me this, and it felt weird because every instinct was telling me to call the police. My boyfriend, who had my best interest at heart, told me to call them, so I did. Everything worked out fine, but to this day every single person I talk to tells me that they were completely wrong and asinine to deny me my right to call the cops after the accident. Truth is: Parents don't always know or do what is considered morally right. Do whatever is in YOUR best interest or what YOU think is the right thing to do and everything will be fine. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| also, that particular car, I don't think it's worth it. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I love your hair! i would have cat-called. :) |
| from college-kid : |
| I love your hair! I bet it must be nice and cool in the hot weather. I wish I had the courage to wear shorts to class. :( Alas, I didn't get much sun this summer and I'm scared my white-out pale legs would blind people. |
| from stepfordtart : |
| Super cute hair! And fab earrings, too. Glad you found some shorts - luckily (!) for me, its been too cold and rainy here for shorts so I didnt have to go through the trauma! s x |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Shorts are dangerous terrain for all! I have an awesome shot of me in shorts that only a mother in the 80s could have rocked. Alas, it was in the 2000's and the shorts were WHITE, no less. I might share this pic with you at some point. Long live skirts anyhow :) Also, young lady, I need to see your new hair. |
| from stepfordtart : |
| I am thin, and I still look exactly how you described in shorts. Its just one of those things. :-S s x |
| from blacksheet : |
| You might want to check out the courses you need to get a geo degree. In my state, you need to go beyond intro chemistry, biology, & physics to get a bachelor in geology. These all require math. I'm really good with math and I struggled a bit with these. I don't think the required courses vary much by state. |
| from stellarrobot : |
| I actually intended my previous note in a very PG-13 way. In retrospect it was very clumsy. |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Was that really your voice??? It's the goddamn cutest! Pingly, you are pure gold. I wish you were not sad but filled with smiles and cup-cakes. But no cheap-ass cup-cakes, the ones with the really GOOD icing...or, um, hmmm...I can't think of the word for it...FROSTING! That's the one. |
| from warpednormal : |
| i just wanted to say, you are amazing. and you are and will probably always be one of the most interesting, most honest, most lovely diaries i have ever had the privilege of stumbling upon. just thought you should know. <3 latar! |
| from raygirl999 : |
| I wonder about you! I consider you a lovely enigma. I don't know anything about you but I love reading your diary. I assume you're a chick but that's just based on your cute layout lol. I don't know your race, ethnicity, religion, nothing. And I don't need to because I like you for you not for the labels society makes us wear. Whoever you are, you are wonderful! |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Argh. Cup. Now I feel infinitely less cool. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| the up needs a good bitch-slap. |
| from moodswing : |
| but your soul is what allows you to dance |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Ooh, I love the new background. . . so perty. |
| from julymalaise : |
| You are amazing at making templates for blogs. You should make one for me!!! =) |
| from raygirl999 : |
| I'm sorry you are sad :-( |
| from newschick : |
| yes...it's a good read. the way you write reminded me of the author of that book, so i read it, and yep, i think you guys have a similar style. and i mean this as a huge compliment. your ability to look at different aspects of our world is pretty awesome, to be blunt. ;) i lack that in my own writing. keep it up, i love your site on here :) |
| from julymalaise : |
| Hey, we both go to the East Coast blizzard!!! Hope you had a good holiday.... |
| from atwowaydream : |
| I cannot agree enough with the whole snoring thing. I've sat up nights, staring at the ceiling, wrestling with the idea of a smothering homicide. Once had to share a room with my grandfather at a family vacation hotel; I threw a balled up sock at him and slept in the bathroom. But I had bloody thoughts most of the night. |
| from submarine3 : |
| Can't we talk? |
| from newschick : |
| a curious question: did you ever read the perks of being a wallflower? |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Get well soon Little Pingly! :) |
| from raygirl999 : |
| Hello. I've been reading your diary for a while and I just wanted to say "hi". I like your layout and you seem like a fun person. |
| from julymalaise : |
| You're quite welcome, and it does fit lovely for the holidays =) |
| from julymalaise : |
| Love your layout, girl! |
| from julymalaise : |
| Hahhaha, you are welcome, I was just wondering why you locked it! And lol, I always mess up my templates when I changed mine as well, so you are not alone! |
| from julymalaise : |
| I've seen you locked your journal. If you issuing out passwords to your readers, I would like to have one if you don't mind. If you don't, I understand =) |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Haha! I just began the process then. Pretty anti-climactic. More just satisfied I got deeply felt feelings off my chest. Because my feelings are important. And so are yours! |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Crikey! I'm in a little pickle like that of your latest entry. How do I tell people I am not cool with (insert painful episode here)? I think if you told her what you said in your entry you would be pretty fine and justified. It's all about setting boundaries. So just go for it. (PS. I look hideous when I cry, so I hope you felt doubly guilty!) |
| from atwowaydream : |
| It's like that Family Guy episode where Peter put peperoni all over Chris and made up a disease about it. Personally, I don't think I could get any attention from congress unless I became a hooker. A very, very freaky and willing hooker. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| Also, when these wise children want to meet some vapid pop-star or has-been and that vapid pop-star/has-been comes and it's like something out of Extreme Makeover: Home Edition. The star tends to put himself on a altruistic pedestal and the whole world thinks they are possibly God for taking five minutes to show up in a hospital in Iowa and smile for crappy local media pictures. Sorry. That was a tangent, possibly a rant. I like when people are sincere, too. |
| from stellarrobot : |
| I just want you to know that I will totally do a little cry if you leave the DL! No pressure or anything. And I am not saying that to guilt you into staying (I am, I totally am.) |
| from moodswing : |
| i do. i <3 tumblr. i am teslala. i have photos and words and sometimes music. and reblogs of course :DD |
| from moodswing : |
| i will miss your stories if you go away. but tumblr. tumblr is the hot spot. |
| from warpednormal : |
| you are too brilliant. diarland would not be the same (at least for me) if you leave and continue your story elsewhere :( |
| from newschick : |
| lol i went to munich this summer and, while it was very nice, i would meet people who acted like my teachers...it was a bit post-traumatic and freaked me out! |
| from newschick : |
| lol totally get it, but these were germans first, lutherans second! think dictatorship. while they could not physically beat us, they COULD give us in school 'reflection' periods where we were placed in a room the size of a water closet. actually, in hindsight, holy crap. i wonder if that is still there! god! |
| from newschick : |
| ya i was also in a backwards private school, haha. a very strict lutheran german school. i am not lutheran. or german. ;) so it was annoying. the reason the girls didn't really like me was because they WERE on all those sports teams, and thought they were pretty handy, until i'd come along and beat them, because i didn't do school sports til i was older, i only swam on a club team. :) |
| from newschick : |
| i know i always dote on you, but what an AMAZING entry. it brought me right back to my own 8th grade PE. (yes, we did that presidential thing in my school too. for me, the hardest thing was the sit and reach haha!) i enjoy hearing your experience, because it's a bit different than mine. i was incredibly athletic. won the mile every time and beat about 99% of the boys too. but i was not popular because of my athleticism. actually, the girls used to whisper and gossip about me, probably because they were pissed off that i beat them. anyway, to run a mile in under 10 minutes is amazing, so you should be proud of that. actually, despite what society tells you, you should be proud of anything you do athletically. walking laps should not be frowned upon... nothing should that is healthy and good. keep writing. you have a great literary voice. |
| from newschick : |
| i think you will make a great mentor... your outlook on life is so realistic... and you are a very thoughtful person. if i was a twelve year old lgbt i'd love to have you looking out for me! also, you are not a failure, or a recluse. you are participating in a VERY important group for young people. for so many people, those groups are validations that they are not 'weird' or 'freaks'...you know, the stuff that the idiot kids at school call you. that you are a normal person with normal feelings. i personally think you are amazing! :) |
| from college-kid2 : |
| Try it in the mornings one semester and the afternoons another semester to see which you prefer. Personally? I like morning classes. Yeah, it's a pain in the ass to get out of bed so early, but once you're awake it's not so bad. I like it because my day feels longer. I usually try to schedule my classes anywhere from 9am-3pm, that way if I want to take a nap, I can. Some students are able to get ALL their classes scheduled on Tues. and Wed. so they have a 4 day weekend and a break on Wednesday. It's pretty flexible. =) |
| from college-kid2 : |
| The nice thing about college is you make your schedule. If you don't want classes until 2 in the afternoon, make it so! You're your own boss. =D Many colleges offer online courses too, but I recommend starting on campus first so you get in the flow of being back in school. PS: I know someone who used to be a carnie. He's quite a cool dude. |
| from college-kid2 : |
| PS: Best cupcake site EVER! http://mingmakescupcakes.yolasite.com/ I use them for study groups and thank yous. Everyone LOVES them. |
| from college-kid2 : |
| CALL THAT PERSON! NOW NOW NOW!!! College changes people, and if you don't stay in touch, they could slip away forever. I'm not saying this to freak you out, but speaking from experience, there's people I wish I'd never lost touch with from Highschool, but now that I have, I fear I'll never be as close to them again. SO CALL! NOW! |
| from svenhard : |
| i visit rationalwiki every morning to shake my weary head, here's the link to soulless evangelists - http://rationalwiki.org/wiki/Category:Soulless_evangelists |
| from svenhard : |
| you could try rationalwiki.org, they're pretty up to date with bent pastors and lying evangelicals |
| from julymalaise : |
| I know, right, they are so nasty, and it does make you want to throw up. Almond Joys are so digusting by the way (They have coconut in them, as well) My uncle loves them, so I'd always used to give them to him whenever I recieved them for Halloween. |
| from julymalaise : |
| Coconut is just nasty. I would of done the same thing if I was a girl scout too! I think I did tried those same cookies by accident, not thinking if it had coconut on them or not, and when I had it, I was like "Ughhh!" |
| from julymalaise : |
| I understand the not liking coconut, I should've said I was allergic to coconut when I was little! But I never did, but it was good because noone never gave me coconut, which was good. I did not know why I do not like it, it just tastes nasty. |
| from college-kid2 : |
| It's okay to not like something for the texture. In fact, the guy on the TV show Bizarre Foods(the same guy who travels to third world countries to eat their strange food like bugs and stuff) says it's far more likely for someone to not like a food based on texture rather than taste. If it "feels funny", they wont eat it, simple as that. :D |
| from college-kid2 : |
| Y'know, I have no idea. I haven't cut myself shaving in a LONG time, I think it just takes practice getting the motions down. When I first started, I'd accidentally let the blade slip-- no big deal, but then again blood doesn't bother me. It's more of a, "Oh nuts, can't believe I just cut myself" sort of thing. Basically, don't move the blade side to side and you'll be fine. =) |
| from college-kid2 : |
| I rather enjoy the new layout. :D And yeah, Venus razors are the bomb-diggity. I loves them. :D I just recently bought some BIC that have 4 blades and they're very nice as well. |
| from newschick : |
| i'm very much enjoying your entries lately. you write very well and i think you are very wise beyond your years! keep it up. :) |
| from college-kid2 : |
| Ugh, I know. My high school offered courses like that. I'm actually web design certified and thought that's what I wanted to do( I got it through a high school class), but I changed my mind. My high school also offered a pharmacology class-- which I .REALLY. regret not taking. I didn't even know we had such a class. I wish I knew then what I know now. In all honesty, like you said, I don't think community colleges expect much. My friend got in with a 2.5 GPA and I'm not even sure if she took the SAT. If she did, I'm pretty confident her score wasn't very high. Not that she's not smart, she just doesn't care about grades. I'm glad you feel okay asking me questions-- I have an unnatural enthusiasm for education and learning. LOL. |
| from college-kid2 : |
| I completely understand the "lesser college" concept. I had it myself when I first started going there. I graduated top 15% at my HighSchool in a class of 500+; having such decent grades, I was kind of ashamed to be going. But, I found out the one I went to had an honors program, so I joined up. They offered me a $500 scholarship per semester, so I only paid about $200 a semester while I was in the honors program. And honestly, from experience, the professors are more dedicated and easy to talk to. I don't regret my decision at all; in fact, I feel it's the smart thing to do. While others are 40k in debt, I haven't taken out a student loan until just recently when I transferred to the University to completely my 4 year degree. Even that loan is through the government and I don't have to start paying it until I graduate. And THEN, if I don't finish paying it off in x amount of time, but I've made steady payments the entire time I've had it, it disappears. Poof. No more loan. I think it's something like 20-35 years. You'd be surprised about how much money is out there for college students. For instance: the University I go to has a plan where if your family makes less than 60k a year, your tuition is FREE. AND if you're set to graduate on time, you get a $500 scholarship. If you're really serious, do your research. :) Another thing I'd like to add: I'm not dissing ALL big Univeristy students, but some are ONLY there because Mommy and Daddy are paying for it. That being so, they're not always the brightest/most intelligent people. I found that the students at the community colleges were USUALLY paying for their own education and, as a result, more serious about studying and learning. |
| from college-kid2 : |
| In reference to item number 3: This is something I obviously have some experience in. My advice? Start at a community college, especially if you don't know what you want to do. 1: It's affordable. If you take a full schedule, the semester will cost you ROUGHLY $800. Most community colleges have payment plans where you can do monthly payments and you WILL have it paid off by the end of the semester. The monthly payments are usually anywhere between $200-$300. If you're living at home, this should really not be an issue, but I don't know your situation so I can't say for sure. Another thing that's GREAT about community colleges is you can take ANY classes you want and figure out what you're interested in, and you wont be throwing away thousands of dollars. I changed my major 4 times before finally figuring out exactly what I want to do. I took a Biology class and I LOVED the subject and the professor; therefore, I am ultimately majoring in Biology. Don't let the price tag fool you, even if you only take one or two classes a semester, at least you can start getting a feel for what you like/what you want to do/what you really enjoy. That's my two cents. :) If you have any questions or anything, I really don't mind answering them-- and I hope you're not offended by my advice. That's all it is, my opinion. =) |
| from college-kid2 : |
| I wish I had the guts you have. I've always been "curious". You've inspired me to seek out such a parade, but sadly, I doubt there's one in my area (North Texas)... |
| from julymalaise : |
| It is very nerveracking when you are in the car and someone is bitching at you, over NOTHING most of the time (I know how you feel...) I don't know, it seems very clastophobic, you start to sweat because you do not want to hear this person. It definetely does feel like you are trapped, no escape. It makes me nervous too as well because the person who is yelling (Who is mostly the driver in this situation.) sometimes does not pay attention to the road or sometimes speeds because they are angry. And thank you, ping-island, I apreciate the kind note you sent me =). That goes the same for me as well, I'll be there as well if you need anything. The problem is quite resolved now, but I'll still write down what the problem was. |
| from julymalaise : |
| Yeah, I know, people overeact so obnoxiously and it gets on my nerves greatly. They should respect what you have to say and not get all freaked out about it. And they have to stop acting like it is a crime that you said that, it's unbelievably ridiculous. |
| from julymalaise : |
| I know how you feel, and that girl you know is totally not helping. I hate people who just automatically assume that you are not doing this, just because you say something. I mean, that irks me really bad, and the worst part of it, it is that they said all really loud. I know how you feel, because sometimes when I would hang out with people, I would feel like they feel bad for me too as well. This can be true in some cases, but you will surprise how many real friends you have.... |
| from xorbit : |
| What a wonderful use for a feather :) |
| from xorbit : |
| That whole "I never said that, you misunderstood" thing is called 'gaslighting', I believe. One of my exes used to do it all the time. Now he's much nicer (mellowed with age), but he still denies he said stuff (like now he'll deny that he would ever deny saying something that was "so obviously" true). Feh. |
| from newschick : |
| I LOVE YOUR DIARY BACKGROUND!!!!!! |
| from stellarrobot : |
| re: your June 3rd entry - I thought I would quote this from something I was reading tonight: "to be capable of friendship we must be able to honour in the friend the enemy s/he can become". I have been reading about friendship this week and your entry reminded me of that distance in friendships, that never being able to truly know someone. Perhaps this is a shambolic note but it is 4am and I am going cross-eyed. Also, I HATE cockroaches. They are impossible. Everything they are supposed to hate they LOVE: spray, potato scraps, me chasing them around the kitchen with high-pitched screams. |
| from xorbit : |
| While the other half can do roaches, he's a big girly girl when it comes to spiders. |
| from sonicprayer : |
| the "i'm too cool for enthusiasm" crowd is ageless and universal. you'll find them at every concert/show you go to, and the more popular a band is the more likely there will be people who are attending just because it's their day off and they don't actually know the band(s). if you feel like rocking out, i say go for it - i bet there's at least one person nearby who loves the band as much as you do who's afraid they'll look dumb if nobody else is visibly enjoying themselves. as long as you don't get in anyone's way, hey, it's dark, who cares? |
| from xorbit : |
| We have a lot of big roaches here. I hate them :( tho I am better than I used to be - back in the day I would scream and run out of the room. Now at least I am brave enough to spray them (unless they are flying, in which case I scream for the other half to do something). |
| from svenhard : |
| mmmm raspberries nom nom nom |
| from xorbit : |
| Your "limbo" sounds heavenly :) |
| from axde : |
| ooh yes. i'm fine. it can very well happen. i just have a loss of appetite. i'm over it now. was just for a day or two. i hope youre well. |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Well it's true, you are a lovely presence, and I feel very lucky to get to read your diary. I am sure anyone who was upset about your schooling was thinking primarily of your best interests. I say that not finishing hasn't held me back, and it hasn't in most ways, but it took a long time to get rid of this panic that I would never be able to achieve anything because I dropped out - even while I was going ahead and achieving things. I think it is really over-stated, this need to finish high school, but if the opportunity is there, you should totally do it. Get that high school thing done and dusted just to save yourself unnecessary panic, if nothing else. |
| from stellarrobot : |
| I'm a high school drop-out! I'm not sure what is happening with your schooling, but I think you're amazing and wonderful and high school hasn't got a goddamn thing to do with learning and education, it's about shunting people into a nice little box to make them work-force ready. And I am in...er...a nice little box regardless. (That analogy was so very impressive). Also, I haven't been on DL for weeks and I always go straight to your diary and catch up, which is what I did just then, and now I feel like everything is ok with the world. |
| from axde : |
| ahh i bet youre getting the whole "your future is gone" thing from people too. i dropped out and got my GED real quick. i ended up at the same college as my friends who did graduate. it really only matters how your college career ends up. you'll be good. when i dropped out it was my therapist who said i probably should. my mom went along with it after that. |
| from axde : |
| hahahah i would shop there, too. i would also probably like to work there. just give out free hugs and tell girls that everyone in the media is wrong and they're more beautiful than anyone. and mean it, too. |
| from atwowaydream : |
| the slave maker game sounds awesome. is there an option to covertly dispose of her body, or is she okay with sharing? |
| from moodswing : |
| (bug vs serial killer coming through the window) thanks for making me laugh loudly on this fine friday morning |
| from submarine3 : |
| I think it's great too. It's like the forces of natures themselves are protecting you. It's kind of comforting to know. Have I ever told you you're a beautiful writer? You really are. |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Lol, Ayn Rand! You rock! |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Pingly is adorable, it's totally you! I have the same ambivalence with dreams, but I know too many people who insist they have prescient dreams for the phenomena to be disregarded. Also I just read on your profile your offer to bake for people but I think I live in a different hemisphere - so that's not fair! I demand that you write me a recipe for something truly devilishly bad and then I will bake it. Only, write it as if for an infant. I got no idea how this oven thing works. Or what flour is supposed to be used for. But I can paper-mache, and that's the main thing. Paper-mache will take me places in life, I am sure of it. |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Yes, Pingly. |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Do you remember that dream you interpreted for me? I just re-read it, and given some temporal distance, it all makes a fuck-load of sense to me now, given events that have happened etc. Is it wrong to place faith in dream interpretations? Also, since I have no idea what your name is I have decided that I shall nickname you Pingly. It has a nice ring to it. |
| from college-kid2 : |
| I took my ex-boyfriend to prom, only because one of my friends ditched me at the last minute. He happened to be available. For the record, prom is over-rated. |
| from julymalaise : |
| Ahaha, it's always fun cheating on The Sims! |
| from college-kid2 : |
| I never could get into Harvest Moon. Animal Crossing, however... that is COMPLETELY different. |
| from stellarrobot : |
| I was reading one of your entries where you said "sexy therapist" and I mis-read it as "sex therapist". And then it got me thinking about who actually goes to sex therapists, why does it seem to be only married couples who go to them, because plenty of people are having, or not having sex, so why should they be disregarded? Bah, this world is crazy. Other than that minor rant, I just wanted to say that you are IMPOSSIBLY cool. |
| from submarine3 : |
| Hahaha I know right! I don't think she is really bi, and if she was, I don't think I could date someone who sees love as a shameful thing. |
| from college-kid2 : |
| Omg, I know!!! I only go shopping for clothes by myself or with my boyfriend. He hates it as much as I do, though. D: |
| from college-kid2 : |
| I have the same issues with shopping for pants. :( I hate shopping. |
| from submarine3 : |
| I'm so sorry you had to remember all that again. It's just terrible. |
| from svenhard : |
| i'd love to see a gay Gatchaman team spring into action and get all ninja on their arses |
| from svenhard : |
| below the radar is a safe place to be, lets hope the westboro' fucknuts don't find out about it... |
| from svenhard : |
| how does a lgbt bible study group go down with the local hardcore god botherers ? |
| from moodswing : |
| funny. you discuss cannibalism, i always bring up inter-species sex with dolphins. mm, dolphins. which then begs the question.. would you eat a dolphin? ;) |
| from warpednormal : |
| :( i agree. jealousy is the worst. |
| from submarine3 : |
| Yes I can!! |
| from submarine3 : |
| Ones I have that you don't have: one heavy february, souvenirs, like it or not, debbie, vanishing, city calm down, where you've been hiding, like a call, kindling, spring 2008, to and fro :) |
| from submarine3 : |
| If you want any of the aih songs I have, I can send them to you! |
| from stellarrobot : |
| I was a recluse once, and I just wanted to say that you should avoid that at all costs. You are way too special to hide away from the world. |
| from submarine3 : |
| Haha YES it was Into The Wild! I've never read the book but in the movie the guy was fairly cute and you DID kind of feel sorry for him. |
| from submarine3 : |
| I know! I like the idea of it more than the reality though :( |
| from submarine3 : |
| I like the colours! They remind me of this really delicious drink I had in Mexico. It's kind of worrisome to think that any drink could be that bright of a colour because I highly doubt that happens in nature but still... |
| from julymalaise : |
| Thanks for the advice. We're not in any classes right now, me and Martin, but we were last year and we would talk all the time, it was fun. You're right, I reallly have to sum up my courage to speak to him, it's not rocket science, after all, I guess. But it's so hard!!! But I just have to suck it up, beofre someone else does.... |
| from submarine3 : |
| also you seriously just made my day with that flowchart ahaha |
| from submarine3 : |
| awwww thank you so much :* I love you! |
| from submarine3 : |
| Man if it was possible to rid yourself of inconvenient emotions i swear i would... |
| from moodswing : |
| tell them bitches to raise up off your proverbial nuts. damn. |
| from omfggwtf : |
| sorry to hear about this guy, by the way aha xo. |
| from omfggwtf : |
| sorry to hear about this guy, by the way aha xo. |
| from omfggwtf : |
| i like your diary :) xo. |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Maybe what sets you apart is you can't get any clarity on what your worth is because you are stuck inside your head and body and cannot view you and your actions objectively. So take all the good things people are saying and run with it. I am utterly disturbed by your emotional maturity and intelligence since I am old enough to be a kindly grandmother who knits you things. I wonder if I can start using senility as an excuse...hmm... |
| from submarine3 : |
| Haha YES! Hopefully you get to do that with someone exciting sometime! Sometimes i have ones where the car breaks down in the middle of a scary forest at night and i get to comfort the girl :* |
| from submarine3 : |
| omfg I do that too. I have more comfort fantasies than sex fantasies. Often some girl has just been emotionally injured in my fantasies and then I walk her home and make her soup and tea and wrap her in a blanket and VALIDATE HER EMOTIONS! Yeah, eerily similar. |
| from submarine3 : |
| Are you still going to therapy? :( i think you should talk to someone about this because you don't have to feel this way! |
| from submarine3 : |
| I'm sorry to say that the hottest pic of all has been removed from last.fm :'( but to make up for that loss i found these: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3czFfBvk48U http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GP8O5D_ArV0 |
| from submarine3 : |
| Yay okay thanks!!! And i thought you would appreciate the nick loving going on here. |
| from submarine3 : |
| It does explain it! I don't even like the original one all that much. |
| from submarine3 : |
| Oh my god you are right!! By the way, did you know that I Wish I Knew is a cover? I found this out yesterday because I was listening to the Voxtrot radio show thing and the original one was on there. It's all jazzy sounding and it's sung by a woman. |
| from submarine3 : |
| I can't go on msn tonight either because my dad is making me watch a movie with him :( but i hope you feel better! |
| from submarine3 : |
| I'll go on msn tomorrow!! Because right now i've been awake for like 20 hours and can barely see from fatigue. I want to hear all about your stuff too! |
| from axde : |
| first time: i'd been dating a boy off and on for over a year. we just broke up for a few months and got back together. after 2 weeks i slept with him. it was my idea. he wasn't a virgin and i was. i wasn't scared. i was so comfortable with him, i guess. it was perfect. it was everything it should have been. then a month later i found out he'd been sleeping with my best friend. so, i guess that hurt me in a way i can't myself comprehend, because now i'm not comfortable enough to do anything with anyone. listen. you do what you want to do. but remember you can't go back from it. and that's okay. because if you regret it, well, that's that, and if you don't, then even better, but do what YOU want to do and never the other way around. if its taken from you then you will feel worse than if you give it away and not just because he wanted you to. |
| from warpednormal : |
| First time: was a mistake. i was sad and lonely because some silly boy named taylor didn't want to fuck me. so, i had sex with a boy i hardly knew on my bunk bed, where it was shaky and completely unstable. but i remember it feeling somewhat good. probably, because i was somewhat drunk. anyway NOT a very good experience. i cried after and felt all guilty and used and paranoid. in fact, i've had very few good sexual experiences. i'm still waiting on the one that's as good as i imagine. =) |
| from submarine3 : |
| Thanks! I wouldn't feel any different than i do now if i did have it and i don't feel all that bad now ao maybe it is okay! |
| from moodswing : |
| it was to the tune of Dave Matthews Band's "Crush" (the song was relevant at the time); relatively short; overly planned; decided upon, I think, because his parents had pissed him off so he'd decided THAT would be the weekend; still, very sweet. I don't recall feeling much different afterwards, but did know there was no turning back (there is either all or none in some aspects of life); I might not have felt different but my mother said she could tell from the look or the flush on my face..... [/ramble] |
| from submarine3 : |
| I KNOW!!! Lots of people have heard of neutral milk hotel but if we use beulah and circulatory system and stuff we might just be able to hold onto our cred. |
| from submarine3 : |
| Awwww that is so cool! I'm glad you had a good time!! |
| from submarine3 : |
| I agree! Rose kind of hates emotions.. |
| from warpednormal : |
| thank you so much. even one over the internet is better than none at all. i mean, i feel a LOT better now. just took a nice long walk in the cold air, looking at christmas lights. and my mind feels so, so much more clearer now. i was totally being just an emotional mush just then. haha. <3 thanks again! |
| from submarine3 : |
| Ahaha thank you! I have to admit that my life does feel pretty interesting right now and next time I TOTALLY WILL. If I ever do decide to smoke weed I don't think I'd want to do it with my sister but I guess that if I was DESPERATE she would totally supply me with it. |
| from submarine3 : |
| Thank you. I can't really believe it either :( |
| from submarine3 : |
| I'm sorry you feel like these things will never happen :( I think that someday someone will really really love you. |
| from submarine3 : |
| Some things are debatable and some things aren't. Human rights aren't. IF ONLY MORE PEOPLE AGREED WITH US! |
| from submarine3 : |
| I've never thought you were boring either! |
| from submarine3 : |
| That is only one of MANY things!! And you didn't leave me when I was boring and depressed. |
| from submarine3 : |
| GUESS WHAT if you wanted I could probably write a 10 page essay about all the good things about you and all the reasons why you're not a bad person. |
| from submarine3 : |
| http://img.waffleimages.com/9f5fa949859874144eefa2ac09ca388d7db1f3a9/police-report.jpg http://img.waffleimages.com/fc7b56a95f9f6c1b2db3d0628f2589f498d4342b/slender%20man%20window.jpg oh my god it's slender man :'( |
| from julymalaise : |
| That's cool you went to the permiere, my friend is totally obsessed with any Twilight, it's too crazy!! |
| from stellarrobot : |
| OMFG! VERY LATE birthday wishes. Also, let me know exactly how legal you are so I can up my crude factor. Go go Team Jacob aiooowww! |
| from julymalaise : |
| Love the background, yeah Alice is so gorgeous, and it is cool you got to see the midnight premiere! I'm sure there were a lot of girls than guys there! |
| from submarine3 : |
| Omg now I want to go see that. I can hardly imagine Alice being cuter but if it's possible I definitely have to see it. |
| from submarine3 : |
| haha that would sure be an interesting thing to try...isn't it weird that I'm the only one on my family who hasn't smoked? and thanks :* |
| from submarine3 : |
| ...are you going to??? |
| from submarine3 : |
| It's true that it is very tempting!! |
| from julymalaise : |
| You're welcome, and now you are legal! Wooooo! |
| from julymalaise : |
| Happy belated birthday if I am too late! |
| from julymalaise : |
| Yes, I totally understand. And I'm glad I could help and I am also glad that you feel better. |
| from julymalaise : |
| I love the new layout hunny! And I hate when people do that. They apologized, but then they are like "but.. you blah, blah, blah." It's annoying. Just say sorry for what you had done and get over it, don't try to add things to the situation! I hate that, seriously. So great that Cotton comforted you, so sweet! |
| from moodswing : |
| WHOA i said. dig that pink. |
| from stellarrobot : |
| You're just incredible in all of the best and sparkly of ways. I want to put you in my pocket! BECAUSE YOU ARE SO GODDAMN CUTE! |
| from submarine3 : |
| Good luck!!! |
| from warpednormal : |
| haha. i wasn't being sarcastic. and thank you. we've read chapters and chapters on communication and empathy, but i really don't think it's something we can overthink about. it'll just make you crazy. |
| from submarine3 : |
| Haha you're so RIGHT. I need to :( And I also need to figure out why the hell I feel like this all the time because it makes no sense. |
| from fangbanger : |
| :( i'm sorry |
| from axde : |
| i'm sorry. |
| from warpednormal : |
| he WAS probably a jerk anyway. =( i know it must still suck though..but there are 10000000 hugs waiting for you here in canada. and a coffee. =) |
| from fangbanger : |
| If you were thin, you wouldn't make a point of telling someone that would you? So no, I don't think that is something you should have needed to point out to him. It is not something I point out to people and I am overweight too, definitely. x |
| from stellarrobot : |
| And thank you for the tip on pizza toast, as luck would have it I am having pizza tonight. Woo! Party time at my place. |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Cheese-cake, good books, the ladies: If it involves generous proportions I am all over that. |
| from stellarrobot : |
| If anyone says anything about harpoons to you I will hunt them down and kill them. And, OMG, I am so incensed by something that hasn't even been said to you (and never shall be!!) that I was actually going to utter the words "face" and "fuck" in the same sentence. And let me just say for the record, because everything I say is terribly important: I LOVE GENEROUS PROPORTIONS. |
| from submarine3 : |
| I love you. Seriously, if there's anything I can do for you at all, tell me! |
| from submarine3 : |
| Remember: http://i40.tinypic.com/20sgj68.jpg |
| from julymalaise : |
| Chocolate mousse is delicious... |
| from axde : |
| i so despise glenn beck. |
| from julymalaise : |
| I know nurses expect you to like agree with them about that stuff, it's really stupid. I love smoothies, they are awesome! |
| from julymalaise : |
| Same with me! I'm very sensitive with needles! And I used to cry too, but I hate needles. Oh my goodness I can't believe that nurse said that to you, how rude! |
| from julymalaise : |
| I can relate to you with the needles. I hate needles, especially in the mouth. Well, I do not mind needles when they put it in my arm, but I still think it is irritating that they have to stick up needles everywhere, it is so dumb. I know they like save you and stuff, but I wish there was another way, you know? Hahha |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Never underestimate you're own hotness! Also I think porn penis is grossly over-rated (and it's usually attached to someone with bad hair anyways). Or is that just cos I am a filthy lesbian? Yeah, probably. |
| from stellarrobot : |
| I find it hilarious when you date people who are so self-interested that they don't care what stuff you're into. It's just all about them, and their stuff. Sometimes I prefer those sorts of relationships because then they don't bother prying and being all intimate and shit. I like your diary a lot. |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Thank you for explaining what a furry is. Incredible. I love that there are so many goddamn things I don't know about the world and I love finding them out. |
| from submarine3 : |
| Haha me too! I would visit you if you were closer :K |
| from submarine3 : |
| Haha it was awesome because people were worried about me and I know this is kind of weird but I like when people worry about me because I feel loved :) |
| from submarine3 : |
| omg did I tell you that I had swine flu? IT WAS SO EXCITING! |
| from julymalaise : |
| That happened to me the other day.. the lights went out because of the storm! |
| from submarine3 : |
| well :'( i am not a certain person! |
| from submarine3 : |
| I don't THINK so. |
| from submarine3 : |
| ahahaha actually she thinks I'm in love with YOU because I kept texting you and I said you were pretty. |
| from stellarrobot : |
| I hate to sound horribly naive (nah, not really, I actually go out of my way to be) - what is a furry? That's not someone who does bad things to plush toys is it? |
| from submarine3 : |
| Thank you!! I can't wait for that either haha. I love you :* |
| from submarine3 : |
| Ahh okay! I'll definitely be able to talk to you tomorrow so I can ask my questions then. |
| from submarine3 : |
| Brittany's over tonight so I can't go on msn but now I'm REALLY REALLY INTERESTED. Could you text me or does it have to wait? |
| from submarine3 : |
| :( I love you. |
| from submarine3 : |
| I removed it THE MOMENT I SAW IT, I was so horrified. |
| from submarine3 : |
| haha with a name like "magic garden" you'd have to suspect something...that's kind of cool! I'd love to burn one of those and see everyone in my family panic or something. |
| from julymalaise : |
| I love animals!! A very wonderful creaton of god! |
| from julymalaise : |
| Wow, aquarium sounds waaaaaaayyy cool actually. I love looking the sea animals, they are so facinating and amazing. It's quite beautiful, isn't it? |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Sorry, Sea/Aquarium really. Also I like dugongs. |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Your sea-side entry was so good that I felt ashamed about my writing skills. It made me feel like a chimp, sitting in front of a computer, bashing keys randomly. |
| from fangbanger : |
| I am sorry for your loss. I hope you find some way to sort it out in your head, as that is the bit that people find most difficult. Take care x |
| from julymalaise : |
| Oh. I am very sorry about the loss. I wish you well. |
| from axde : |
| i'm sorry. be well. she is. |
| from julymalaise : |
| I'm not sure who you are talking about, but I am so sorry about the loss though. I can't imagine what you went through. And if you don't mind me asking, who was the person you were talking about? |
| from stellarrobot : |
| I'm sorry about your friend. It can be a fucking cruel world. |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Kidney punch him. And say: "Listen bitch!" (Works for me). |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Wow,that entry re: Bear and the clinginess was insanely wise and eloquent. I feel slightly retarded. |
| from julymalaise : |
| That is just plain nasty, and yeah they should wait before they stick their hands in the dough, ewwwwwwwwwwwwww!!! I always sucked at cooking class. We made pretzels one year in eighth grade and we didn't know what the hell we were doing!! |
| from julymalaise : |
| You're not alone on the hating cookie dough, girl. I hate it too, but apparently my dad likes it A LOT, it even buys the ice cream with cookie dough. I had it before and I must admit, it was pretty good actually, but I wouldn't eat it again, looks so nasty and it's just plain raw, ewwwwww! And lemme take a wild guess at that person's name...hm.... is it Thomas? Just wondering. Reply back! |
| from showinggrace : |
| I don't like cookie dough anything. I know that for consumer cookie dough, the eggs are pasteurized, but I just don't like the texture or something. Whatever the case, it surely does make people look at you as if they think you're an alien. |
| from warpednormal : |
| just wanted to say that your diaray is fabtastic. And i totally, and completely understand where you're coming from...about the whole becoming an adult thing. and the whole..friendship thing. <3 later! |
| from axde : |
| you will make for a beautiful adult. you'll probably be who you always wanted to. |
| from julymalaise : |
| You're diary is really cool, may I add? You can add me too if you like. I was just wondering around and found your diary, cool I must say. |
| from submarine3 : |
| Hey Ferris, it's Torie haha! |
| from stellarrobot : |
| Thanks also for the lighter explanation, I was genuinely perplexed. And now I am just my usual confused self. |
| from stellarrobot : |
| I haven't laughed so hard since, well, yesterday. Thank you, I feel reassured that my way in life is not going to be paved with the comments of mean lesbians, but filled with scuba diving adventures...oh... |
| from stellarrobot : |
| I had a dream recently that all these mean lesbians were being mean to me. Lilo was in it. What would dream dictionary say about that?!?! |
| from stellarrobot : |
| How can you have never operated a lighter? Thats genuinely perplexes me. |
| from moodswing : |
| +1 to the previous comment. secondly, sometimes i will very randomly shout LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT MY BOAT. it unnerves my boyfriend. therefore i have great love for your username. |
| from axde : |
| sex doesn't always hurt the first time. it's just a situational type thing. |
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