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from frigidair :
Surprisingly, I had fun answering your survey. Thanks, nice to know I'm not alone. Cheers! =)
from smokelicker :
Any time love. I glanced at your diary and you're a doll. Breathe easy, k? One homo to another.
from carrotsrevil :
amanda. plz email or call me asap. im worried about you. [email protected] ily. <3 Michele
from hothead :
welcome to senza_radici. *smiles* you know, i had you in my mind too when i was creating this on LJ. if you still hve an account there, please join so i can show off my little sis properly! love you, honey. again - misspissed82
from hothead :
oh my god! i tried to put you on my buddy list, but it says you're not online anymore. fate IS a cold-hearted whore...find me: misspissed82
from hothead :
i miss you, little sister.
from carrotsrevil :
dear amanda... i want you to know that im only a phone call away if you ever wanna talk. i def dont hate you. and i def wont call you stupid. i promise. can we please stop all the nontalking stuff? i really want you as a friend. youre an amazing person amanda. come on... you gotta remember all the good times we had hanging out. please think it over. i really miss talkin to you. Michele
from carrotsrevil :
my birthday is tomorrow and it made me think of yours. happy birthday ahead of time. thats all i wanted to say Michele p.s. and i dont know why you hate me but could u return cruel intentions to me? thanx.
from carrotsrevil :
my birthday is tomorrow and it made me think of yours. happy birthday ahead of time. thats all i wanted to say Michele p.s. and i dont know why you hate me but could u return cruel intentions to me? thanx.
from hothead :
a shoutout!! i love it! read the latest entry. it'll explain everything. ah, i love you so much, and i'm hoping you, me, and your cat all come out of this thing alive. :)
from gayteen14 :
Hi..If you've read my latest entry you'll know what this is about. You've been chosen! Yay you! opendiary.com/semi-queeryouth
from gayteen14 :
Wait, you're names not jessica! Oh man, I feel like an ass. I'm so sorry. Your names Amanda, isn't it? Again, I'm sorry. Angela
from gayteen14 :
Wow, I feel for you Jessica. I'll always be here if you just need someone to listen.
from hothead :
full force and gutsy = what i think of when i think about you. love.
from hothead :
oh, and totally off the subject: first, why can't i get to any of your older entries? let me know if you need help, i know *this much* html. and WHERE do you get that FABULOUS music player thing? i need it for my page! thanks doll!
from hothead :
oh baby girl...what is going on?? you know that i'm here for you. you've got my email, and that's *always* private. love you honey.
from hothead :
it's my birthday! thank you so much for remembering! whoooooooo!!
from hothead :
oh honey. thank you so so much...your love did indeed come across the wire. i felt every bit of it, you darling girl. it'll all be okay, i'm in the best of hands and i'm feeling tough and fierce and calm. here's to femme power, fabulous friends and the love of a good man. love you too, sweetie.
from gayteen14 :
that's so weird that you put 'my happy ending' in your diary...'cause that's the song that I keep watching the video for over and over again lately. woo avril!
from gayteen14 :
well...when i pushed play it played incomplete by backsteet boys...
from gayteen14 :
amanda...why the hell do you have the backstreet boys video in your diary?
from hothead :
you lovely girl, you...
from gayteen14 :
You're cute!
from wannadiesoon :
I'd like to talk to u. Write me whenever u can: my e-mail address is [email protected].
from hothead :
oh christ. how awful. hope you (and your boy) are feeling much better today. love to you both, little sis.
from gayteen14 :
I am sorry for your lose hun.
from hothead :
oh my...i am so sorry that y'all have to go through this. i was thinking about it, and you know, i woke up this morning with my boy in my bed, and i thought, one day this will be the two of you. it's coming, my dear, as fast as it can. all you have to do is hold on. let me know if i can do anything at all...
from hothead :
oh YOU...thank you, honey. i know, most of the feedback i've gotten has been "you know, i struggle with that, too." so it's good to see that we're not alone, you know? love you too, dearest, and so glad your boy found me. he's delightful. :)
from spikiez :
Also how to I add you and make comments instead of notes? I got the rest down obviously.
from spikiez :
:-p whats up baby I wanted a journal I could write in without everyone I know seeing it. Where we can write freely about one another and myself. Te amo mi amour.
from gayteen14 :
toetoe12 that's what I'd like my password to be :-)
from hothead :
thank you, baby. you know, it IS tough. it's tough to see the person you loved and thought you knew inside and out turn out to be someone completely foreign to you. oops, did i say that out loud? oh well...you know the drill. i pick myself up and move right along. thank you for your support, chica. you're wonderful and i adore you. *mwah*
from hothead :
you joined my diaryring. that's hot. :) i love the new template, too. whoo.
from hellchild666 :
please read it...it'll probably help
from hellchild666 :
username: me password:justin its only locked coza my parents ok? x
from hellchild666 :
I read your entry as I cut so the word cutting drew me in. I'm sorry, I don't wanna make you feel bad. If you read my diary you'll realize that I hurt like you do and that I'm a shitter girlfriend than you'll ever be. username:me password: justin Plz...
from xtrinax :
hey how are you doing??? hows everything going w/ ur partner?? i hope all is well with u. Me and Amanda like you already know have been going thru so0 much and all that shit she put me thru is kicking in. And now im not sure what i want. its so0 crazy. B/c like 4 other gurls wanna be with me. ahhhh help me!!. I dont know what to do. Last night me and Amanda talked for a long time and she cried alot. I felt bad but i need to get my shit str8 right now. you know??? anyways tell me more about u...
from gayteen14 :
hi, i noticed that you haven't updated in a while and i was just feeling lonely and felt like leaving notes for some of my old dland pals. hope everything's well and hope to hear back from you!
from hothead :
8:30 it is, cupcake. :)
from hothead :
okay, just read your diary entry...until i talk to you, please know that you are NOT a fuckup, and it IS NOT all your fault. it breaks my heart that you feel that way about yourself, you're *such* an amazing girl. love you, honey.
from hothead :
you mean friday morning at 8 am, right? you got it, kiddo. it's a date...hope you're okay. let me know, honey....love you, hothead.
from xtrinax :
Damn...so much has happen since we have last talked. Im gonna give you the basics. It all started about 2months ago. Me and Amanda started agrueing alot. Stupid people got back involved in our relationship. Causing stress and drama.I knew she didnt wanna talk to me. I tried to work shit out. She was always busy or didnt wanna talk. She started hanging out with people I didnt even know about. We fought more and more. Then for like a week Amanda began to avoid me. She was talking to this girl more and more. It was clear to me she liked that girl. Whenever I asked her about anything she would get so mad. One day I couldnt take it anymore and I was like Amanda if you like Chantel you need to tell me right now and she said 'No I dont like her' I knew she did. So a few days later Amanda calls me and breaks up with me..im like wtf? Why? she didnt have a clear answer. I knew it was because she liked that other girl. I tried my hardest to get Amanda back. I cried so much. My spilled my heart out to Amanda. I was hurting so bad. They were hanging out alot. And me I was just a nothing to Amanda. So I called my Big sister Nicole and spit everything out to her. Asking for advice. What should i do? what could i do? Nicole spoke the words i did not want to hear but i knew they were true. I could not do anything expect move on...so heartbroken that is what i tried to do. I tried not to think about it so much but all i could really do was cry. It sucked so bad. Then I got a phone call from Amanda she was crying and she said she made a big mistake. She loved me and she wanted to be with me and everything. I was so confused by it all. I asked her why? what changed her mind? she said she was thinking about me so much and missed me and wanted to work everything out. i felt better but i needed time and Amanda said she would wait however long it took. So 2 days later i called her and no one picked up so i called back and she picked up and she was like im taking a shower and then im leaving to the bank and i was confused im like why with who and shes like i got to go ill call you later and hung up. I was confused. But I couldnt do anything. So i went out with friends to take my mind off shit. I came home she never called so i went to sleep cuz i had SATS that next saturday morning. I came home from my exam and she had called so I called her back. She was being very shady towards me. I knew something happen. She began to cry. She wouldnt tell me. It took her sooo long and she was like after I tell you im gonna hang up and i was like no please just tell me babe and she said dont call me that and im like why and shes like cuz ur not gonna wanna after i tell you and i knew it something to do with Chantel the girl she liked =( Amanda finally told me that the reason she got off the phone so quick with me the day b4 was because Chantel was at her house and they made out alot and cuddled and everything on her bed. My heart ripped in two. I hung up. Cried my eyes out. I called her back asking her why she did this? and she didnt have an answer. im like so you do like her right and she was like yes. I dont think i ever cried so much in my life. the next 2 weeks were hell for me. I didnt understand. Amanda said she wanted to be with me. She would wait and just 2 days later she makes out with some chick? I didnt know who to feel. We talked and she said i should move on. I should see other people. damn. it hurt me soo much. And slowly I pulled myself away from her. I began to talk to this girl named Katie. she took my mind off of everything. She made me feel better. She liked me. and I liked her alittle bit too. We talked all the time. Then Amanda tells me she wants to be with me again. she loves me so much and she was crying. i didnt wanna get back with her. i didnt wanna get hurt. I didnt fully understand. she was in my shoes for once cuz she tried hard to get me back but i was too hurt from wat she did. So i spent the whole new years weekend with Katie. We went to a party. Got drunk. Made out cuddled and shit. I came home. Amanda had called so i called her back. I told her about Katie. She cried. The next few days...all i could think about was Amanda. Me and Katie..it was fun but i wasnt feelin it. my heart belongs to Amanda. with her im happy. i can be myself. we have been thru EVERYTHING together. 2 years 6months. So me and Amanda talked alot. she cried. I broke down and opened my eyes and realize this is the girl I asked to marry me. We were suppost to be Engaged. We both agreed we had made mistakes. We love eachother and so I asked her back out. She cried and said yes. So now its me and Amanda and that is how its gonna stay. I love her so much. And i feel so much better now. so that is what happen between me and her. I know its long. Sorry. Thanx for caring tho. Im here to listen too hun.
from invisibledon :
happy holidays
from xtrinax :
Hey!! how have you been? Yeah it has been forever. I am gonna start writing in this more. And letting everyone know whats been going on. As of right now im single. I dont wanna work shit out with you know who. I can tell you all about it if you'd like. Pretty crazy. Hit me back and lemme know how things are going with you!!
from hothead :
i know you're away, but i just wanted to say that i was thinking about you...i hope you're okay, darlin. i also hope that you have the most amazing christmas and that you get to spend it with the one you love. take care of yourself girlie...and you know where i am if you need anything at all. love you, c. "we're gonna be the ones to have it all, you and me..."
from hothead :
LOVE the new template! and by the way, yes you are gorgeous. hope all is well with your boy.
from hothead :
let's see...not eating or sleeping. christ. i hear you. too bad you're not here. we'd go out for 2 am coffee. i feel like hell. i'm sorry you do too. take care of yourself, darlin.
from invisibledon :
thanks for doing my trulymadly survey - really enjoyed reading your answers
from nimiiwin :
Well, thank God you're okay now. I'm glad things are settling down for you. And congrats on your good news! :)
from nimiiwin :
Hey, rainbow! Where are you? You haven't updated in a while and I've been wondering about you.
from nimiiwin :
Aw, thanks! I think they're pretty cute myself! :) Of course, I'm slightly biased.
from nimiiwin :
Oh, he told me. It did break my heart adn it was all I could do not to cry. All I have to say is that his mother and I are going to have a chat soon. This just can't go on. Poor kid. Thanks for the note. :)
from science-girl :
That story you posted gave me goosebumps. :-)
from nimiiwin :
Thanks! The boys are awesome and as soon as I can, I'll get some photos on the web so you can see how precious they are!
from cactustree :
you know, my parents had a difficult time with me as a teenager and there was violence -- but with time and therapy, we worked into a much better relationship. i agree -- tell the counselor and try to help your parents see this as a way to get your family back on a healthy communication track.
from nimiiwin :
Hey, you! Thanks for adding me as a favorite. I'm glad to know my comments are more helpful than nuisance. :)
from nimiiwin :
Good luck, Rainbow. There are horror stories about foster homes but the boys we are planning to adopt are living in a very good foster home, so I know there are good ones out there.
from hothead :
hey, you. your entry made me smile...i'm glad i'm able to help lessen the blow for you. you've got a lot of shit going on but i am glad that taylor is there for you, too. talk to you soon...keep your chin up, ok?
from nimiiwin :
Hi, Rainbow. Sweetie, there are definitely those of us out here on dland who can relate. I came out a little older than you, so you have some different things you're dealing with (Like living with your mom) but I, for one, am always happy to offer an ear and an encouraging word or two. Or however many you need. Hang in there. There is life after high school. Thank God.
from xtrinax :
Hey? Hows it goin? I feel you about bein 18 and leavin cuz my mum is kinda the same way. I know both mah parents much rather me have a boyfriend and shit but thats jus not me. And I mean why live wid ppl who dont accept who you are? Its not like we changed our personality or anything rite? You cant help who you fall in love with. And if my parents cant accept im in love wid a gurl then fuk dat. So I def get what your sayin. When are you gonna be 18? Ill be 18 in Jan. So I have awhile to go. Hit me back. Take care. ~Trina
from gayteen14 :
hi, i just wanted to tell you that you're on my fav diaries list.
from xtrinax :
hey thanx for da note im jus hittin u back and i feel u cuz i used to be like dat but i ended up bein like fuk it n told mah fam so yeah good luck.
from hothead :
Hey there. I got your note and read your entries...wow. I have so been there and I'd like to think that I could help out. I am SO sorry to hear about what happened to Taylor...look, email me anytime at [email protected] and we can talk. Look forward to hearing from you.
from nimiiwin :
Hi, rainbow. I found your diary via cactus so I thought I'd drop in and say "hey!" I'll be back to see what's up with you.
from cactustree :
thanks for joining the lesbianfab diaryring! also, i wanted to let you know that my girlfriend (hothead.diaryland.com) also used to date an FTM, and i'm sure she'd be happy to talk to you about it.
from xtrinax :
hey jus stummbled apon ur page. i like it. and i like most da same bands as u. iight later

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