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It was Boy George who did a cover version of Crying Game for them movie (the song is actually quite old). I really love your diary. Unlike most bloggers, you don't require fancy pictures or graphics; your engaging writing style is all a reader needs to visualize your rich weekly exploits. I'm a fan (and I found you completely by mistake!) Cheers!

from aengus :

We are simply time moving forward morphing into time not yet passed...

from sapphoplanet :

Hello-- guess who I am? I'm looking for Byron but can't find him in any of your entries... probably my heavliy rambling mind... Surprising experience to read all this -- for the second time after more than two years. Greetings from sapphoplanet!

from laughin-leo :

emailed your girlie thing and hopefully you receive it so no sick people can intrude...hahaha. now i dissapear...LOL.

from laughin-leo :

rambling on a Friday night... (or a Sat Morn') do you understand what innocence is/was? my emotions were everywhere... i don't blame you for everything... we all just found another path to help us cope and adjust to ourselves and the people in between... I'm into kite surfing now... why??? i love sports that connect all of the elements into a ride that hinges on life and death... There really is no point to my ramble... I'm just glad that you understand me and in an "ironic" kind of way, I've entered your home invading your privacy. LOL.... (it really is funny so laugh...)

from laughin-leo :

oh i hear your truths.... :) ... it really is all good. you know...i approve of her love... i always had this thing where i would leave her to find her own true love while deep inside hoping she would chose me... instead, money, security, and fame caused her own deep goals to keep revolving making mine look and seem futile in some "obscure" way when it all was pretty much standard role play... you know what was interesting? i knew she would marry... i expected it but could not intrude because my heart was in her hands. she still holds one i gave to her... but women love this shit and soak it up and then never deliver BACK Do you think that's true... hey the worst this can be is a FUN argumemt... LOL... I still remember one thing that makes me recall why i fell in love with her... She was looking at me through her glass door as I made my way my car holding her gifts to deliver for another... she waved to me... i couldn't because of the box of gifts... she just looked at me in her plain white cotton shirt and her ragged blue jeans, and I saw her eyes twenty yards away... i felt them and her wave and after finding out she got hitched with some "good" guy, that image appears and i just want to cry and kill myself thinking there is nobody else but then i realizer it's all protocol... haha... "protocol" She'll divorce him in ten months, take his money, and go fuck somebody else... is that true? that's what scares me... i was an associate producer for "Artivist" the film festival that is going on right now in Los Angeles California in a Swarzefucka voice...should have stuck to acting...don't get me started... anyways, artivist was all about child abuse, global consciousness, environment shit, and pet abuse... hold on...let me kick my dog... no... they were about $$$$! I left. I thought for ONCE in my life, I'd get over this shit and help people help... themselves... maybe i should stop writing... but of course, isn't that what enticed you to begin with??? Guilty. Now... ignore everthing I just said! LOL>>>>>>> SORRY :(.... ;)

from laughin-leo :

in short... you entered my life and pretended to be somebody else. if others are listening which i'm sure they are.... you broke my heart indirectly and consistently made me more confused. you talk about a year ago???? then why did four months ago some fucking bitch used your name in reference? huh? i left you alone too!!! now i want answers. wouldn't you feel the same if you walked in my shoes??? either way, i'll meet you in heaven when you deny me the simplicity once again... my person would say it straight up. are you related? haha. of course not. i think you are hiding something and i don't really want an answer. i just want you to remember that you helped her break my heart. yes. and that you can never deny..............................................................................................................no response necessary. goodbye. (tell all your friends...i'm sure they already know....) p.s. (i still thank you ;) My heart breaks but you were meant to do whatever it was...had fun...truthfully did...with all the pain in between... take care person.)

from laughin-leo :

u were so right until the "lust" part came into it. you actually won your argument until that point and then it all was b.s. and you claim that you are "so" innocent when still you entered my life and acted as if it was somebody you knew when you knew that you were in "lust" with me. oops. i guess i was right until then. when you entered my life, you both broke my heart and saved me at the same time. i had a p.i. check my records, they told me that she was reading. so who was the person that used my pen name and used your name to include me? you came into my life. NOW I WANT ANSWERS! I DESERVE IT!!! STOP BEING SELFISH AND STOP MAKING UP BIG STORIES THAT SOUND SOMEWHAT TRUE. I tried your email long ago and you cancelled it so stop bullshitting me. I like you in many ways but don't you understand that what you did and said changed everything? What are you? Her sister? Must be... You're both nuts in my book. (No worries, that's what your sis said about me) Sorry I had to act this way but you have no idea the pain you caused as a third party so claiming innocence is pretty much a no-no. I'll move on when you tell me who is fucking with me and using your name and playing stupid only makes matters worse.

from laughin-leo :

only one blank really: somebody used my pen name a few months back telling me that Molly and her were better than me. It made me question the honesty involved. I thought perhaps you would ease my mind by answering that question yourself. Hope you still remember my email. I can give it to you where I write if you need it. Thanks.

from laughin-leo :

...you may not think you've changed but you have...in a great way of course... you know how to find me Ms. Universal. I need you to fill in some blanks if you don't mind... Nuthin to serious... J.B.

from pink-circle :

lol. To join, you simply enter the diaryring called "circle." I suppose it doesn't exactly say that anywhere because I expect to be noted if someone is interested. :) ~Pink

from pink-circle :

Hey girl. (wonders if you read your notes) *gets call from boyfriend who suddenly gets mad at me for no reason and tries to remember what I'm noting you about...* Oh yeah. Hey, you gonna join the circle writer girl? There arn't really requirments... ~Pink

from pink-circle :

I'm glad you are interested. Not every member has to contribute to every single thing. To join, enter the diaryring called circle. :) Thank you for replying to your invite - have a nice day. :) ~Pink

from pink-circle :

{Circle Invite} On behalf of the circle, I invite you to join our writer's group. I have noticed your shown interest in poetry/writing. If you are interested, please note back. :) ~Circle Counsil

from mousepoet :

write me / email me. i think it would be cool to strike up a correspondence of sorts. if you're game: michael [at] thepies [dot] com.

from mousepoet :

born there. raised here.

from pitbullshark :

I'm so glad to read of the breakthrough with Bubbles! Truth and goodness wins out in the end, despite the thousands of obtacles. I am sure of it. Congratulations!

from pitbullshark :

I know what you mean about feeling like what you are putting out there into the ozone simply blows away. I feel the same way from time to time, but then whenever I complain, somebody always comes through with a "hey, I've been reading your diary everyday!" So people are out there. Of course, I think it would be great to have the entries provoking discussion. I've been thinking for the past couple of days about what you said about when men get their male needs met, then they are nice and reasonable. That seems to be true in the animal kingdom, too (the REST of the animal kingdom). I read that if there are six female ducks to every one male duck, everybody is happy and the females want sex and keep the males happy, but when there is just one more male or one less female than that optimal ratio, then rape occurs in the duck kingdom. Weird, huh, but it seems that the sex drive has its own agenda.

from pitbullshark :

You wrote an honest and valid piece about the prison torture scandal. Without a doubt, the blame rests on the higher-ups and the civilian "security" forces. The higher ups have been looking the other way for decades, including one individual, Negroponte (but none of them are immune from blame), just recently approved as Ambassador to Iraq, who allowed horrendous tortures of Contra rebels to go on in Honduras during the Nicaragua/Irangate debacle. These types of things have been reported by foreign journalists as going on in Guantanamo. Most of the soldiers who make up the civilian forces have come straight from South Africa, their law and order and torture "skills" no longer needed there, now that apartheid has ended. Indeed, things like this go on every day in prisons in the United States. I was extremely horrified to read about Alabama prison techniques, such as "the four point restraint", spreadeagling prisoners to their beds where they can't move and have to lie in their own body wastes without release or relief for as long as TWO MONTHS, or the "hitching post" in which they are practically crucified, handcuffed standing up with their arms stretched out on the crossbeam of a metal cross in the blazing sun for fifteen hours (one man's entire face received second degree burns from the sun so that blisters swelled his eyes shut). One prisoner finally sued and won his suit and these things are now illegal. But so what, such laws really are ineffective against this kind of sadistic monster who will simply find something else to do somewhere else. (One of the most painful books I ever read was Robert Hughes's book about the shipping of British prisoners to Australia, "Fatal Shore". Imagine the combination of this kind of sadist and helpless prisoners on ships at sea, and then isolated in Australia as far away from Mother England as it is possible to be. They just about anything conceivable to men, women, and children who had done nothing more than steal a loaf of bread. It was possibly the worst chapter of man's inhumanity to man, they even outdid the Nazis.) People want to compare the Iraq war with Vietnam, but I think the historical period in U.S. history that this incursion more closely mirrors was the systematic extermination of the Indians during our westward movement. We've been bored with "from sea to shining sea" for so long now, now it's the rest of the world. I've said it before, bringing the people of Iraq "freedom" and "democracy" is just exactly like giving the Indians blankets, infected with smallpox. By the way, how has conservative talk-radio responded to these recent photographs and the responses to them? Well, Mike Savage, beyond blaming the media for being in bed with the Democrats for even showing the pictures, said, "Who are these Democrats in Congress to take the high moral ground over this, when they and their party have supported homosexuals all these years? [He assumes all his listeners will understand that supporting homosexuals is supporting the moral low ground.] These photos are nothing you wouldn't see in a homosexual bathhouse or displayed on a float in a gay pride parade." Yeah, yeah, trust the Republicans to somehow turn THIS around into another ANTI-GAY thing! The truth is, this kind of homosexual rape and humiliation is anything but gay, but the very thing that the sickest people do to hurt the pride of other people. By the way, a couple of months ago, there was a story on CNN that stated that there was a greater number of female American soldiers filing rape charges than there were American deaths occurring in the war. In other words, an American female soldier sent to Iraq has a greater chance of being raped by a fellow soldier than she has of being killed over there.

from wench77 :

Thankyou for doing my babelessdyke survey. I appreciate the thoughtful answers and feedback. I already live in Montreal which is very gay/single parent friendly. That is cool about your doting aunt. Personally my brother is dead and I have no nieces and nephews. I have another brother who lives far away who I think has no desire or intention to have kids that I have ever heard of. I agree with the financial/ emotional/ support network of things. If I had KNOWN that i would be infertile, I couldve adopted when I had all those things together, but 8 years later it is no longer true. Several good friends moved, as did my mother. etc. That is a problem about timing... it takes years to find out one is infertile usually, and then it is too late for many things, such as the egg harvesting you mention. Hehe about the playing outside and watching tv. As a child I loved playing outside alone, and leaving mom and the other three kids. She was a stay at home mom who made cookies and sewed our clothing and that didn't mean she played all the time with me etc. My dad tried all the time to get us to play games with him etc and often it was just annoying.. I wanted to read a book quietly and he wanted to play chess or checkers. Grrr! hehe. As for the adult relationship thing... my mom divorced my dad and never remarried, spending her off-time with her kids. Hmm. I am sorry about your son. That must be so hard and heartbreaking for you. We always forget our kids can reject US!! eek re "drunken male soldier" comment. Scary. Hmm, interesting story about the photos in the car glovebox. Personally I am already "out" in that there are publicly available photos, published artwork and writings etc, so it would have to be clear from the get-go. Funnily enough my parents were "normal straight parents" yet my father had books that are every bit as "kinky" as mine. Hmm. One thing that you have that I don't is a father of the child who can action for custody. That was always one of my considerations when looking for a sperm donor years ago. That they be at least as "iffy" in terms of traditional ideas as me and thus very unlikely to take me to court or to succeed once there. It DOES help that I live in a city, province and country where it is less oppressive than the states. In my experience being out and vocal works better than the opposite. No child can out me if I am out. Hmm. Anyways, thankyou for probably the most in depth and helpful replies to my survey. I appreciate it a great deal. Tah!

from pitbullshark :

You are certainly right, somebody's got to take the bull by the horns (or by something else) and effect a new paradigm around here. The people, ALL the poeple, have suffered enough and now the time has come to say "enough"!