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from lousrose :
whoa. i'm logged in for the first time in probably a year. i checked my buddy list and you're the only one who updated kind of recently (except for unclebob haha. it's really sad how i've lost touch with everyone though) but your diary is locked so i can't see how you're doing! still, i wanted to say hi! it's been a long time, i haven't forgotten you. i hope you are happy and that life is treating you well my dear. :) *hugs*
from fuzzems :
hey hun, i wanna read your diary...email me the password! beckers
from christicrab :
yeah so u basically suck and now i think i have to be mad at you. just so u know, i am abandoning ship at myspace. i'm truly a dland diehard, i like the anonymity!!! btw, stop ignoring me. it's just mean!!! *watching u from a little further EAST today!!!*
from christicrab :
GOOD GIRL, I'm proud of you. Trust me, losing the loser gets easier. Had you tried any harder to make THAT work, you'd have ended up as angry and bitter as I did. Smart move, moving on sooner than I did!!! So now you and ~my~ Andrew are back together??? Ps- you need to clean up your myspace, get rid of the chris/brianage! That was part of the deallllllll…. Damn, I can't use my rating system here.... See, d-land is just BETTER. We rock over here.
from christicrab :
I kept my promise! (I actually updated.) And I wrote this so God wouldn't kill a kitten. I admit I did get scared when I read that on your profile, I can't be held responsible for any feline deaths. MWAH!
from lousrose :
it is: go away/private could i have passwords, too? (pippa@mail2italian.com)*hugs* i miss you a lot. and everything is good!
from fuzzems :
here is the username and password for my diary : friends friends
from fuzzems :
THANK YOU LAURA!!!!! hey can i get the password to your diary again? thanks hun
from stalkingtodd :
hey you, check your email, i sent you a picture! ;)
from stalkingtodd :
sssshhhh. its me. dont tell anyone ;) ~super mommy~
from notnecessary :
HE'S HEEERRRREEEEE!!!!
from notnecessary :
An ex boyfriend of mine, who is still a really good friend, passed away. He had cancer.
from notnecessary :
OMG! that is totally awesome! i forgot that was your brothers name! i hope my little guy turns out as awesome as your little brother! Im glad you like the name. Its a name I have always loved! (p.s. i wish i could read your diary.... hint hint) ::HUGS::
from notnecessary :
**BIG HEARTS** back at ya babes!
from notnecessary :
Elijah Sky Williams (Williams being the daddy's last name of course). Do you like???
from notnecessary :
Hey hunni! Sky sounds like a good strong name!! I unlocked my diary, so its open again. ::HUGS::
from sockpotato :
Hey hon. I tried using the name and password you gave me to get into your journal, but it's not working! What's going on, is everything all right?
from christicrab :
Lockie lockie! :o*****(
from notnecessary :
LLLLAAAAUUURRRRAAAAA!!! where are ya hunny?? we miss you!!!! hope you are okay!!!! .:.HUGS.:. <3
from notnecessary :
*knock knock* im sad, i dont have a key to get in :(
from notnecessary :
babykanu is baaaaack! honey i miss ya!!! im here now! come visit!! ;) ::HUGS::
from fuzzems :
Jeremy and I are still together. I am not giving him up for anything. Thanks for being concerned.
from fuzzems :
Oh no I mean I still dont have a high school crush on Joe. He has been my best friend since the seventh grade and I mean its kinda hard to change something that has been in motion for almost eight years. Thanks girl. I needed someone's advice!
from sockpotato :
Girl! Please send me a name and password! I was so upset when you locked it, but I'm dumb and didn't read your notes. Durr. Oh, and the concert I went to was Dog Fashion Disco, Mastodon, Killswitch Engage and Slayer. Freaking amazing!! Next time I come up to Buffalo I will leave you a message. Best wishes! <3
from fuzzems :
Okay, its okay that you dont know who Gretchen Wilson is. She is a rebel country singer who is part of the music mafia in the country biz. She is REALLY COOL and I think that if you have never heard of her, you so need to check her out. www.gretchenwilson.com Her first single was Redneck Woman, then Here for The Party, and now When I Think About Cheatin. Later girlie! oh yeah and UNLOCK YOUR DIARY GIRL...I COULDNT GET INTO IT!
from that-freak :
You rock :)
from that-freak :
Yepp. I'm better. Thanks for asking.
from that-freak :
What are you sorry about, love?
from sockpotato :
I apologize about locking my journal, but someone has found it who I didn't want to. If you would like a name and password, leave me a note with your e-mail address and I'll add you. Thanks!
from fuzzems :
thanks so much for the confidence laura. i know that we can do it and i mean it is making our relationship even stronger when you stop and think about it. we are getting along quite well with it as well. how are you and your boyfriend? i hope as well as jeremy and i. later girlie
from wngsparadise :
Mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm MMM. Lookie here, we have not talked in ages! Well besides the fact that your last note was from me and it was pretty random. Oh, hush!! hehe ttyl.
from wngsparadise :
kill me now
from fuzzems :
hey laura this is velvetorange, well user formally known as velvetorange, Becca!!! my new one is well as you can tell fuzzems.diaryland.com talk to you later
from samoan :
My computers on the fritz right now. Maybe you can email me at sweetsamoan2004@yahoo.com 'cause my computer won't let me compose but I can reply. Every now and again.
from lousrose :
hey hon are you okay? what happened *hugs* i don't want you hurting yourself, although i completely understand. you can talk to me anytime. i'm always reading, but sometimes i'm just too depressed or distracted to write a note. i love you and i'm here for you! and i'm jealous you got to see incubus lmfao. *hugs* xoxoxo whit
from samoan :
Hey! When did you try to kill yourself? I tried again yesterday but I got sent to the hospital. The nurse gave me this nasty black junk in a tube. Love the name suicidalmuse. It reminds me of the band Muse.
from samoan :
Are you really suicidal? I am. I was admited to JPS hospital for suicidal attempts
from sockpotato :
boys just suck in general. i wish there was some way we could mutate them to get that freaking gene out. >.< ooooh well. muwah.
from myhairispink :
hey! I tried to call you today but your voicemail picked up right away. I don't like the way I sound on voicemail so I didn't leave I message, but I'm gonna try again soon....
from that-freak :
=D
from penpalqueen :
Like writing, why not connect with other diarylanders from around the world through penpalqueen?
from that-freak :
Oh I thought you said telling YOUR mom...as in my mom...I told my mom to date Eric. I goofed =/
from that-freak :
She knows. I told her to date him.
from velvetorange :
hey laura. well i seriously don't think that you are a "hefty" gal. the last time i fit into a size six was when i was a freshman in high school. now i am a senior and wear a 11/13 sometimes a 10.so hush "little" girl. that dress is cute. i am goin to be selling mine on ebay because i need some extra cash and i will never need them again. and i will not let anyone that i know wear them to a prom/dance here because everyone remembers the dresses...especially the red dress from last year's prom....oooh mamma cita! anywho muah~
from twstdtnc :
Hey. Sorry I haven't updated in a long long while. I got grounded off the internet and can only check it at school. I'm in the process of getting a new name, so I'll add ya as soon as I get it runnin'. Love ya much. Twstdtnc(kris)
from stripclub101 :
hee!! you do!! Gee, that just makes my night. :D
from myhairispink :
fine....jeez...i'll update, but only since you miss me ever so much. You should hook it up with your new phone number, I've tried to call you a few times but I must have the old one. Happy 420!
from hopeless17 :
hopefully the sunshine will bring happyness as well... and tanning sounds pretty good right about now. i need to get back to the beach, its the one place i feel normal. lol
from dead-wings :
heyy its vicki from FSD... yep, you can use the picture, but you muuuust link us =) could you pleeease note me back [or FSD] and tell me when your done the layout?? thanks!!!
from that-freak :
Thank you lady ma'am! I'm doing okay. My best friend betrayed me and told me I'm a horrible friend and I'm ruining his life. But I'm just so happy and giddy lately I don't really care. He was becomign a pain in the ass anyways.
from that-freak :
That means we gotta hang out today 'cuz you know how cool I really am. =D
from parlance :
No problem..
from parlance :
=/ I'm sorry to hear about your aunt. That's awful.
from that-freak :
I hate how those spaces don't work in Notes.
from that-freak :
Of course m'dear! Check your mail! <p> And these last words... <p> Could you be llooovveedddd?
from drunkenmime :
*mouth drops open* billy wrote a boook??????? eek!
from that-freak :
Aw thank you. That really made me smile. Ironicly after writing about how my life sucks, I had a really good day, and my friends were great. And they don't even know about my journal 0.o it was odd. But I didn't hate it =)
from ladyvamp :
your diary rocks
from wngsparadise :
Wow, my mother said the same exact thing. I swear mothers seriously has some psychic connections with other moms.
from wngsparadise :
Family problems... Damn do I have those, especially with my mother concerning this college shit... BLAH long story, eh
from wngsparadise :
Wow long time no .. uh read! hahaha. So come on girl whats up? Whats wrong?
from babykanu :
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!! ;)
from lackoftrust :
hey you...my diary is locked, but my profile says that if you want a password, you just need to ask. I just don't want the whole world to have it. Tell you what. Leave me a note or a guestbook entry with your e-mail address in it, and I'll be sure you get that password. ;-) 'kay? okay doll, love you!
from pink-faery :
Hehe.. I'm still hanging around, just not writing anymore. You can still read me at LJ!
from lousrose :
omg hon!! are you okay? *hugs* i'm SO sorry your mom did that! i'm so fucking pissed off at her. i can't imagine how you must be feeling but you seem to be dealing really well. i'm here for you all the time and if you ever need anything you can come to me. *hugs* i love you hon, hang in there!
from jesusfreak19 :
im so praying for you laura...i am so sorry that your mother is like that...u need to move out of the hosue and in with andrew! ill be prayin for you i promise...love yah tons...God bless...celia
from babykanu :
hey babes! hows it going? tonight, im signing everyone on my faves list guestbooks! or leaving notes! so just wanted to say hi and let ya know im thinkin of ya! take it easy girl! you rock! ::HUGS::
from that-freak :
No prob, Bob. I would get one of those. They seem cool. But I don't have many diaryland pals. Oh well! I have you! lol. xoxo
from jesusfreak19 :
im waitin to hear from you...dont apologize for bein difficult at times, it happens. God bless..celia
from lousrose :
i'm really glad your dad is okay, thank god *hugs* and your determination about school is very admirable and i can relate as i am going back to school in less than a week :) so i am feeling you! lmao. i love you hon *hugs* i'm very proud of you! xoxoxoxo.
from jesusfreak19 :
it was God laura...of course i think it was a God thing that he ended up without a scratch...what else could it be?
from stripedeyes :
hi, i'm emily... what exactly does your hair look like?
from darkoverlord :
Hello Minion Number Seven. It is your minion duty to suggest an item/type-person for the scavenger hunt. That is all.
from pixiecuts :
hey, i read your entry on cuttersclub. i feel the same way. ive have just recently stopped cutting and i now have 220 scars on my body and the thought of going back to that dark place scares me everyday. i was haunted with dreams like you, and im still having those thoughts to rip at my flesh. youre not alone. if you ever need to talk, just IM on AIM (riotangelxx) or send me an emial (punkrockchic006@hotmail.com).
from broken-face :
http://www.digitalpose.com/mbr/1/12086/p/167222_8074755807215800520_vl.jpg It's not a very good picture, but it's what I have. I can probably send you a better version if you IM me.
from babykanu :
hey babes! merry belated christmas! hope ya had a good one! Love ya! ::HUGS::
from twstd-tnc :
Not much different from this one. twstdtnc
from bbreviews :
Your review is up
from darkoverlord :
Check out our awesome adventures. (From the people who brought you Broken-Face and Devilstear)
from wngsparadise :
peace doesn't exist... sadly. (well not for me, there is always some type of "tension" there for peace cannot exist)
from jesusfreak19 :
laura, hey babe...happy thanksgiving...ur in my prayers regardless how much that means lol...keep that head up, you'll see a brighter day!
from bbreviews :
Would you like a review?
from wngsparadise :
Long time no "leave a note" hehe. WOW! Yea so anyways, rain is depressing, I agree. sad sad sad. Alrighty time for me to stop wasting up space with pointless ramblings when I don't know what to say. So HI and BYE!
from sockpotato :
holy crap! laura, if you go to cortland, we'd be college buddies because i go there too! that would be awesome. my best friend goes to fredonia (i was just up there this weekend visiting her!) and a couple other people i know go to geneseo. wow... that's so weird to read about my school in someone else's journal.
from jesusfreak19 :
i havent talked to you in a while--everytime i get on aim, its your brother on your name. good to know you are doin ok...keep in touch celia
from jesusfreak19 :
laura, hey kiddo...(thats my new name for everyone!) didn't get to talk to you yesterday, sounds like it wasnt a good day from what i read on your diary. but hey, i dont think you are selfish...if you were you wouldnt have had time or even wanted to talk to me on aim, after the stupid comments we made. plus if you were seflsih, you wouldnt have been able to help me out the other night with that great quote you made! i wrote about yah in my last entry! =0) gotta roll chick...have a good one. celia
from lousrose :
hey baby. thanks so much for the entry, i'm reading you too but i'm lazy about notes haha i love you though. you are such a sweetie, and you are not selfish. any change to a medication is going to make you feel and act off. once your body is back to normal, you should be your old self- or better. if not, there are things you can do. don't worry about it doll :) Lots of love <3 whit
from jesusfreak19 :
yo laura whaaaaaatsssss uuuuuppppp....its celia, you just went to bed--old lady! haha kiddin...so hold up a sec, i got something to say to postbagboy (the dude who posted a mean note down there)-- but dont worry ill post it on his notes, so he's sure to see it. haha! evil little Jesus freak, i am. aight im kiddin...im outta here and goin to bed. gnite sleep tight and dont let the bed bugs bite. (if they do, bite um back) God bless!
from minstrelite :
By the way, I'll delete the original note you left me about the "religious nutcase," just so you don't get any more flack from anyone who might see it in my notes section and feel compelled to get on your case. It doesn't sound like you need that right now.
from minstrelite :
I accept your apology, Laura. In fact, I not only accept it, I think it is such a totally positive thing that after what happened, we would both find it in our hearts to apologize to each other. I know, even before losing my Mom, how hard it can be to lose a loved one, since I lost my dad eighteen years ago, and at the time, it really shook my faith in God. My faith is stronger now than it was then, so this loss isn't as hard, as I fully believe she is in a better place now. I think it is so awesome that you apologized - that shows a lot of character on your part. And I think it's sad that, evidently, you've experienced more than your fair share of loss of loved ones in your relatively short life. You will definitely be in my thoughts, and if you don't mind, in my prayers. God bless you, Laura.
from postbagboy :
I am a Christian, not really as religious as minstrelite, but I had to have a word in on this. Who gives a shit about what someone believes? Have you ever meet this guy in person? Do you have any right to mock him and call him a religious nutcase, even if he has different religious opinions to you, which i'm sure is the reason you flamed him in the first place? Respect people's beliefs, moron.
from minstrelite :
Hi Laura. My name is Andy. We exchanged a couple of nasty notes a while back, and I would like to apologize. I have been deeply affected by my mother's recent death. I was very close to her. As a Christian, of course, I do believe in heaven and hell, but I shouldn't have lashed out at you the way I did. I'm sorry, and I hope the best for you in this life. I heard a little bit about your situation from someone who read your diary, and my heart goes out to you. I am not a religious nut-case, although I don't deny that such people exist. I'm a well-balanced and respected man in my community, I earn a decent income, and generally get along well with all people, no matter their beliefs. But I have to admit, I've been a little "off" since my mother's death, and I've made a few mistakes, the note to you being one of them. I hope you understand, and harbor no hard feelings. I have none toward you, and as I said, I hope that life will hold the best for you.
from jesusfreak19 :
im leavin this note in reguards to the note you left in minstrelites notes. something about religious nutcase? well i think we can all say religious nutcase, but reguardless of who in here is literate, i dont think this man's religious-ness is what you need to post on. he's apparently hit a rought spot in his life, and needs pray...and if a non-believer and you do not pray, well then keep him in your thoughts. he never did a thing to you, only asked for a little thought or prayer...
from minstrelite :
Sure, you can say it, but it won't keep you from spending an eternity in hell. I will pray for you.
from myhairispink :
Did you miss me? I just tried calling your cell phone and you didn't answer, and the evil gods of voicemail wouldn't let me leave I message, so I've been forced to text. *sniff* I miss my Laura. I'm going to keep trying to get ahold of you, I haven't been keeping up on reading diarys so you're going to have to tell me what the fuck is up. Goodbye!!
from babykanu :
LOL! well, ive picked my location and im stickin to it! sorry for all the inconvenience! but i promise, from now on, its BABYKANU FOREVER!!! Luv ya, doll! ::MAJOR HUGS::
from christicrab :
u know, in my not-asked-4 opinion, u outta lock it. i wanna hear u talk without talking like u r being WATCHED! no offense, but even your bf reads it??? girl u need more privacy than that! glad things r kewl again w/him btw!!! ~~~air hugs~~~
from babykanu :
sorry for the inconvenience but im staying with babykanu. screw the other diary~
from babykanu :
i know i wrote the exact same thing in your gb, but at the time, it wouldnt work, so i pasted it to your notes, but now it worked in your guestbook! but hey, double the love now, eh? ::HUGS::
from babykanu :
hey laura! i still love you! i dont think you're a slut! i really hope you and andrew get things worked out! if ya ever need to talk, my number is 306-261-6147. ::MANY HUGS FOR YA DOLL:: im always here for ya babes! take care grrlie
from babykanu :
sorry babes! i got jipped! that entry of mine that says "im not ok" was supposed to be lyrics from a face to face song, but they didnt copy. only that one line did. but thank you soooo much for being caring and concerned! that means sooooo much to me!!! but no worries, im ok! i just need to learn to copy and paste better, and to check my entry before logging off of D-Land!! Have a super day!
from badgrip :
Dude, it is locked and I cannot get in. help me out here laura...please!
from wngsparadise :
WAA u locked it! boohoo
from skitzarella :
hey. im samantha, i really love your diary and i was hoping u could give me your password since its locked now. please and thank u! sammey_146@hotmail.com
from babykanu :
its holly (no more lies-undone, no more xbabygrrlx.. this is where its at, so password me at hmassier@shaw.ca!!! Love ya!!
from safetypin101 :
Hey, do you think I could get a username and password for your diary? I'd really appreciate it. Thanks!
from lifew0ntwait :
hey i love your diary. the template is striking and so are you. :-) cool. cheers
from that-freak :
It's not gonna be a habbit.But check out my blurty sometime why dontcha?! http://www.blurty.com/users/trinityxlove/ .:Me:.
from wngsparadise :
erie how I keep coming back here to read!!! Its a spiderweb and I am trapped! ... but i like it.. :)
from relybigtease :
hey.you seem like sumone i woud be friends with...my names jennifer.e-mail me sumtime... flirtshop101@yahoo.com
from wngsparadise :
just popin in to say HI!... WAZZZUUP! hey did u hear. I am in love, weird isn't it. Never thought that I would see the day since my life has drastically lacked the whole romantic thing. Now be honest with me, did you think that I would ever find love? HA!
from lyricalviews :
Your review is up at: http://lyricalviews.diaryland.com/suicidalmus.html
from utter-views :
Your review is up- http://utter-views.diaryland.com/suicidalmus.html
from darkfairy13 :
Cooooooooooooool diary.
from carlz1519 :
Thanks for the note, it was really sweet. Really, I appreciate it, that wasn't all that was to the letter, the rest will be posted on Badgrip. Really Laura, thanks for the support. Carly
from quitenasty :
Your review is up. http://quitenasty.diaryland.com/suicidalmus.html
from safetypin101 :
hey, thanks for the note, sweetie! you're so nice. i've read a bit of your diary and i really like it, so i've added you to my buddy list. you're awesome. :)
from lousrose :
hey hon. i saw this diary a while back but didn't add you because i didn't know if you wanted anyone reading it- well now that you've written that entry in angry-tears i hope its okay if i do add u? love you hon, hugs.
from sweetiepie34 :
You have a great diary! Would you like to be reviewed by Honest but Sweet Reviews? If so, stop by and let us know! : )
from diaryreviews :
review is up at http://diaryreviews.diaryland.com/suicidalmus.html sorry it took me so long. i've been lazy. my bad...
from carlz1519 :
Hey, I am sorry about life as of late. Sorry I hadn't got back to you sooner, since I was on vacation, i was gone for awhile. Just taking a break, I hope you feel better and if you need something, drop me a line. Carly
from radio1 :
Check out the latest entries, see what tomorrow's schedule looks like. If you know anyone on this who'd be interested in contributing a nasty story for me, send 'em to www.Radio1.diaryland.com. Thanks.
from clauren :
Hey. THanks for being a part of addict2sims diaryring.
from fuckers-inc :
i live on the other side of the country actually, in alberta :)
from xbabygrrlx :
hey grrl okay my pics are up. the top one is most recent. but it was taken last july. my hair is way cooler now. and only one of my star tattoos is visible *the other one is hiding behind my tank strap* but please dont laugh at me!
from badgrip :
Yo, if you want the password when I lock it, email me at Carlz1519@yahoo.com and I'll send it to you. Carly
from lotekruls :
hi.
from eatingglass :
I'm sorry I locked it. Turns out my best friend knew I was cutting and she'd known for a year! How did you find out? She found and read about 3 entries from my old journal. So, for the moment I'm going through a phase where I just don't feel safe with my private thoughts online. I'll probably get over it soon, she read it over a year ago and she felt really guilty about it, I don't think she'd do it again. If I still don't feel save soon I'll give you the password. And, wow, thanks for reading and caring so much. :-D
from carlz1519 :
Wow I thought you left and I didn't get to getting your new diary, but was happy as hell this morning to find it. You seriously made my morning.
from radio1 :
What do you want me to do to you in that bed of yours? You're only 16, but I'm sure you can bend those nice little legs of yours, get them up by your shoulders so I can lick that slit till you drip down your thighs. Or would you rather we sit across from each other and masturbate in front of each other? Continue back at my message board...
from radio1 :
I thought you were going to leave me a dirty little fantasy.
from radio1 :
Sure, feel free to leave a fantasy with Andrew in it and myself. Make it dirty, please!
from angeloffear :
Oh.. And your design better than your last one! Not that your last one was bad, this one is just better.. It's awesome.
from angeloffear :
You added me.. Thank you :)
from radio1 :
How come there's no sexual fantasies of yours for andrew?
from xbabygrrlx :
i really really like this diary! i like it better than your other one! (no offence to the other one, i liked it too, i just like this one better)
from xbabygrrlx :
i like this diary alot!

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