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from alifewithin :
Where have you been?? I hope everything's going super!
from catie-dids :
it's been ages - i hope all is well, mister!
from bigdog70 :
It's FRIDAY!!! Also a long weekend to come!! Have a great one MC. Kevin PS - Tell the little domer Whazzup from Uncle Kevin
from g-ladon :
Thanks for the notes! I never want to have a nose surgery again!!! I've missed you ;o)
from marinka-mp :
where are we going
from grt8f84me :
Temptation seems to be all around today...I was thinking about contacting my special friend. But I'm afraid, and I chickened out. I want to escape, too. :(
from cuddleslut3 :
i love love LOVE your new layout. shes so cute in that pic. :)
from iamheather :
I'm glad you went to visit your friend too! I'm sure you both needed it.
from dunkin86 :
I'm so jealous, your having good weather? its sill over 100 here every day.
from marinka-mp :
yes it is too bad that I dont live in NY. cut you know you cn always come to LA
from iamheather :
Hope you enjoy your day with Danny and your visit with Patrick. I know seeing you will lift your friend's spirits a great deal. I'm sure your support means an awful lot to him. Take great care and don't forget to give away some smiles today, someone else might need them too. ;)
from finjamartens :
WHY do you like this pic? Is it cause they are going to hook up,or do you like Joey or her itself? I like Joey,but,hm,I donīt like them as a couple that much. In the first season they were all the coolest though.
from marinka-mp :
So nudie bar, huh?
from catie-dids :
Thinking about you today, mister! I hope today goes super quickly and ends up being profitable.
from grt8f84me :
Hey, long time since we've noted each other, eh? Your last couple of entries made me feel sympathetic to your situation. Trying to figure out what to do with a relationship, how to move on from one...just the loss of it, is a sad occasion. I hope your spirits are lifted pretty soon. And I'm happy you were able to talk to your friend...knowing how much you wanted that.
from dunkin86 :
love the new layout!
from beelucky :
Having a personal trainer sounds like a great idea. Is it expensive?
from fightn4life :
Big...BIG {{{{{{hug}}}}}} from cyber space. :) Sandyz
from iamheather :
Hi there! I wish I had all the right things to say. Unfortunately, I don't. I hope all works out the best for all of you. I know what you mean about wanting a "mom hug". I'm sure there is a little guy running around in your life that would be happy to give his old man a great big squeeze.
from dunkin86 :
found your diary through a banner i believe, love d what i read. I'll be back for more!
from fightn4life :
My thoughts and heart is with you as you start a new journey in life. Give yourself time to heal and as you said, one step, one day at a time. Sandyz
from beelucky :
I understand your empty feeling, a huge piece of what's been creating unhappiness in your life has been taken out of you. Fill that space with what makes you happy: your successes, the love of your friends, and the thoughts of a future that is sure to be positive for you. Am I making sense? I hope I am...I sometimes confuse even myself! Anyway, have a great day today, okay? :)
from candoor :
I must come here more often...
from evababy777 :
thank you!
from marinka-mp :
Hey Mikey! Thanks for the email, phone call and the comment you are the best. Now if i can figure out which diary is the one that you are going to write in I will keep better track of your thoughts. Love ya lots
from g-ladon :
I think you're making a good move at home, my friend! I'm proud of you for trying and making the effort!!! I'm always here for you ;o) Hugs, Me
from beelucky :
I'm proud of you for taking these steps forward. You may think they're small, but sometimes the smallest of changes can have the most profound results. Good luck my friend, you have my sincerest wishes for your success.
from fightn4life :
I too like change so I understand the moves back and forth. No problem, I just follow your link. My prayers will be with you while you're trying to work things out at home. When you put your trust in God all things are possible even when at the time it may hurt like hell. May the angel's be with you. Sandyz
from your-fitness :
wow, that's really amazing that you're losing weight, i hope you keep it up. My boyfriend says that about ten years before we met he was really heavy also. I can't picture it at all, he looks so fit now (he's just about 5'11" and 180 lbs.). I think at one point he was well over the 250 mark and doing drugs and drinking alcohol as a teen :( but he got out of all that and except for the cigarettes he's pretty healthy now. well, I hope you come by my diary again, it really helps me want to exercise and write when other people come by and say hello.
from whystinger :
Saw your banner and found it interesting and clicked it. If I find more time, I would like to read a bit more...
from evababy777 :
you're intro - "in dreams and in love there are no impossibilities" - reminds me of my favorite short story, which is entitled "in dreams begin responsibilities." :)
from meganwaits :
beautiful diary. peace everyday.
from perceptive :
thank you for the words of wisdom from your every day life. so simple, yet profound. i hear what you're going thru b/c it's hard to lose people you care about. i wish you the best in all you do, your pains and struggles, losses and strife... know that there is always a new day. tomorrow brings great joys if you open yourself to them. there's a light at the end of the tunnel. i've learned nothing lasts forever, but i've become appreciative of the moments that have ignited my heart w/love, joy, and happiness. it makes tomorrow seem brighter. :) you rock! keep the diaries comin'!
from fan4 :
You're welcome for the hug. *hugs you again*
from finjamartens :
Hi,I listened to that bit. I think Iīve seen the movie,and there wa also a reference to it in Dawsonīs Creek,when Pacey gets suspended from school-so,they also said it was important. Was Renee Zellweger in this movie? I love Tom Cruis though. Although I didnīt,or canīt remember the importance of the movie,like what was it about...? Itīs just about leaving a worksituation where you are being treated badly and then kind of empower yourself and free yourself,right? I mean,I do love the fish thing! Fish is coming with me,haha,thought that was funny.
from grt8f84me :
I second that emotion! Just curl up by myself, and just...I don't know. Just not be bothered with shit, don't worry about shit, don't have to do shit...Just to be me by myself...with my thoughts. I just feel like crying...having a good cleansing cry.
from fan4 :
*gives you a hug*
from grt8f84me :
Dude...your comment is still there. It is in the previous entry. Man, I thought someone was messing with my diary!!! As Ivette would say, I was about to Latin on someones ass!! ;)
from fightn4life :
Oh my…I just backed up in your diary and read about your dad. You and your family are in my prayers. I understand what you mean by us not understanding how Gods time works. Our family dealt with the tragic loss of my 9-year-old grandson. Just when you "know" you cannot take another loss, life spins a curve ball your way. My mother is a breast cancer survivor. I know the pain and heart ache that comes with this news and having a loved ones life being uncertain. Mom went through radiation and chemo. This was not an easy time. We had help with information about how our loved one is dealing with this dreadful diagnosis. I hope that you will be given some valuable information that will help you cope and understand what your father is going through. There is hope, as I said my mom is a survivor. Never lose faith that the Lord will help you walk this path in life, you will never be alone. My heart is with you. Sandyz
from fightn4life :
Oh my…what a cutie your little guy is. I remember when my daughter was a cheerleader for flag football. She went on through high school being a cheerleader and their team made it to the state finals. Sports were a Godsend for her. She ended up being an honor roll student and even today, I am so proud of the awesome young women she is. These years will be some of the best years of your life. The memories….priceless. Your weight loss is awesome. Sandyz
from alifewithin :
I'm sorry to hear about your dad. My prayers are with him and you.
from grt8f84me :
Aw...thanks for the support! I really appreciate it!
from gumphood :
Yeah, its a good diary indeed. Good luck from a stranger.
from nynaeve16 :
I clicked on your banner a few days ago, so you're still a new read for me, but I can tell already that you have a wonderful diary. I am so sorry about your dad, and your mom. I lost my dad to cancer last summer, I cannot even begin to imagine how it would feel to learn that both of my parents have cancer. Technology has developed so much in the last years, I hope dearly that your father will be okay. Sending good thoughts your way- nynaeve16
from finjamartens :
Yeah,I think that happen,that the other parent wants to follow then into death.You know,some weird attempt of balancing it or whatever,you know,as if then "fate" would be "right",again,you know,as if then it wast unfair anymore,that cancer hit your mom already,you know. Iīve read books about this;sometimes really weird thoughts underlie those processes. As far as that spiritual thing goes though,I suggest that he could talk to mum in spirit,you know,cause Iīm dead sure she would not want him to die and would want to live till heīs 80 or something,and then they can still be unified. In case that is a word. Cause,itīs true,I mean,it does look a little like he wants to imitate his wife although there is no cause....well,I donīt know,just tell him he must be a rela soldier,you know,and fight it,this death wish,too,you know-cause,if he feels like dying,I think that makes it easier for the cancer to kill him!
from dulligirl :
What kind of cancer was he diagnosed with? I can tell you that my own father was diagnosed with prostate cancer 4 years ago and with treatment he's completely cancer-free now. I'm very sorry that you're going through this after losing your mother.
from finjamartens :
You should also ask the questions you want to know.I think you are abstaining from it on purpose!
from evababy777 :
i love your banner ads. anything beach related is pretty awesome. also, after reading a few entries, i can tell that you and i have some things in common - wanting to be passionate about something, average joe, loosing weight, extreme makeover: home edition, etc... you sound like an interesting person and i hope that you're able to be happy again. :)
from fightn4life :
You sound wonderful...Lord you bring back so many memories of the beach. I am home sick now. Maybe I'll get back to the Ocean some time this fall. Having time off work would help. Enjoy your day and take many pictures. Sandyz
from thatgrrrl :
I don't remember how I got to your diary, but I've read every word, and I'm in awe of your determination. Keep it up! And btw, you're looking good. :)
from dulligirl :
Just wanted to say I clicked on your banner and added to you my buddy list. Take care!
from waztukin :
All of your hard work is certainly inspiring. I look forward to seeing your new pictures as well.
from beckybaggins :
You are an inspiration!
from iamheather :
I liked the old pictures, please don't be ashamed of them. Yes, you are healthier now, but I see the very sweet and smiling face of a good person those pictures. I hope you are so very proud of your accomplishments. You really are an inspiration for those of us who need a kick in the ass, to shut up and do what we need to do to better our health. Congratulations to you, I know you'll reach all of your fitness goals (and probably sooner than you even thought).
from candora :
oh yes definitely continue and I shall do my best to use your writing as motivation for me to get started again... whatever I do, I cheer you on :)
from grt8f84me :
You are the man, Mister! I have started and stopped many a time to get fit...I guess I have to figure out how to cross that abyss within myself. Anyway, installment three of "La Storia" will be sent out tonight! Hugs, Smiles, and all that jazz to you!
from marinka-mp :
Mike, I am Proud of you. Way to go!
from finjamartens :
Hey,yeah,thatīs pretty cool,I also believe in those things!! I also think that itīs soo important to have dreams and to follow them. Yeah,but also,I mean:what fun is life when you donīt even give yourself the luxury of pursuing your own dreams,right,I mean:how appealing is that to live like a robot or something,I mean,that would be just too boring for me anyway. But itīs always very good to strive for the higher things,you know,that lifts you up,cause then you got hope and your spirit is able to rise higher,like on spiraling stairs,you know. Like:even if your dreasm seem impossible now,itīs still better to have the dreams then to let them slip away. But of course:I never dared to dream of meeting someone who I would like,you know! And still it came true-sometimes you ARE lucky,I guess!
from iamheather :
Thanks for the note! I Hope this finds you with a light heart and a smile on your face.
from finjamartens :
Oh,youīre so cute. I say:If there are voids,then they will be filled. Like:when youīre hungry,then thatīs a void,too,and what happens is that something gets done to fill that,right? You know what Iīm saying? Iīm saying that if you have voids,then you are also pulling at answers,at the filling. Hm,the same way a girl is pulling at a guy! You know? Itīs like two things that fit together:the void and the answers,or the hunger and the food! Right? The void you have is like a negative magnet and it is pulling,attracting(cause that means drawing close),attracting the fitting positive magnet,the exact right answer. Thatīs what I think. Itīs like:it must be. A question HAS to be answered,a hunger must be filled,uh-yeah,ok,except if you die from hunger,but that would be really bad luck now. So apart from that now.
from fightn4life :
I don't know if I can be much help to you as my life has been a series of stories within mini stories all interchanged here and there. Ok…a complicated mess. On a good note, I have learned much during my journey through life and I continue to learn about myself everyday. The most difficult thing I have ever done in relationship to the heart was to let go of someone I loved dearly. Still love and will pass from this world to the next loving them. I have come to terms with knowing the relationship I had with the kid's dad was not a healthy relationship. Very complex but I can say Viet Nam and the drug world captured the man I felt I was destined to love for eternity. It is possible to let go and move on. Life is too short to stay in the quagmire of an unhappy life. There is so much more to living than settling for a one-time love that may never work. Learn to trust yourself again and others. Open your heart and set the past on the back burner. I haven't a clue where your faith is but if you believe in eternal life you will know your friend will never be "lost" to you in reality. There will be a time that you will reunite, all bitterness gone. I find much comfort in knowing. I also believe in soul mates. When someone is very difficult to let go, and you find yourself unable to get him or her off your mind, you may have found a soul mate. Not to worry, if that were true you will be reunited in another time. Life is not an easy journey but every step no matter how painful is important to your growth. Love again, laugh more and when the sun comes up and you start your day…count things you are thankful for. You have a god heart, someone special will come along in this lifetime and you will again connect. The only thing I feel I could add is never give up on you. Life is a wonderful gift, a terrible loss when it is cut short. I do understand this from first hand experience. Live your life like each day may be your last. Sandyz
from marinka-mp :
Mike, all these things take time. Its too bad we cant wake up one morning and decide that we no longer want to miss someone and poof it happens. Sweets just give it some time, try to occupy yourself with other things. Trust me, happiness will come in time. And about the passion thing, you have to create it. You have to hunt for it and maintain it. There is no set formula for either happiness or passion. These are all things that you have to define in your own words. But most importantly, you have to always remember that there are many people who love you. And they will do anything to bring a smile to your face. So, SMILE!!!
from grt8f84me :
OH, I KNOW!!! Man, they were relentless! Looks like Eric is going home, eh? I hope in the end, Howie wins. That Kaysar is one smart, manipulative cookie! DAMN!!!! Ooooh, I can't wait until Thursday!!
from grt8f84me :
Big Brother 6 tonight!!!! I'm so excited! I hope someone uses the power of Veto and puts up that Blondie chickie...what's her name. The one that's working with Kaysar. She just rubs me the wrong way for some reason. No, I'm not jealous of her beautiful face and body...I'm really not. Not in the least. Nope, no way.
from cuddleslut3 :
yeah i think we talked about that before. you told me about must love dogs which comes out this weekend... are you going to go see it?
from marinka-mp :
Hey there. I just wanted to tell you this. You are a wonderful person, and amazing friend and an awesome father. {Hugs}
from alifewithin :
I love that you posted a picture of yourself. Now, I can imagine what you look like and follow your journal along better.
from iamheather :
Heard it from a friend who, heard it from a friend who, heard it from another...there I go busting on out into song again! Of course I remember that one. I'm doing okay, will be better once I get a definite start date from Co. #2. Have a great workout tonight and have fun crawling home!
from alifewithin :
yeah, I would like to think happiness is destined for all as well. That entry was inspired from the pain of my old, old, old entries from back in the day. I remember the pain. It sucked.
from beelucky :
Ahhhh....I totally hate filing. Talk about sapping your will to live, eh? To get through I do my best to shut off my brain and become a drone like the rest of 'em. I also sympathise with your lack of motivation lately, I feel like I need a long vacation away from everything to do "Bee" things. 4 more days until Friday? Too bad...but we'll get through it my friend, we always do!
from beckybaggins :
Boo! Hiss! lol ;-) If only the Red Sox had saved a few runs from Friday night's game for the rest of the weekend.
from marinka-mp :
Hey cutie. Im sorry you are feeling down. But look we all know that its for the best. I also feel like such a horrible friend, i have been busy with my Boy Toy that I have not had the time for our regularly scheduled chats. I will make it up to you, I promise. :: KISS :: Feel better, and always remember, I am here for you.
from fightn4life :
Love your new lay out...awesome new look. I think you may be healing. :) Time for you now. Sandyz
from fightn4life :
I second that. Weekend is here. :) You're my inspiration right now...I am going to lose that 10 pounds if I have to out run it. I have a log I started that I am keeping track of my exercise days & time. Now I feel guilty if the page is blank, or if I see in your diary, you have been working out while I sit and daydream. Time to hit the treadmill or get in some Yoga time. . Sandyz
from iamheather :
Glad you're feeling good today, hold onto that! :o)
from alifewithin :
I totally agree with everyone else. 55 pounds!! That's awesome!! You are a VERY attractive young man, so be proud of it, good lookin'! :D
from grt8f84me :
Wow... you look great. Be proud of what you accomplished! I am struggling to just get started. You have no where to go but UP!!!! or down...however you want to look at it!
from fightn4life :
Great photo...and a 55 pounds lost...wow. Be proud, that is awesome. I am still working on dumping the last 10 I gained when I put down the smokes. Still working on it but at times I think that weight is attached my super glue. Sandyz
from iamheather :
Your accomplishments are much to be proud of! Thanks for posting the photo, it's always nice to have a face with the words. :)
from beelucky :
I really admire your tenacity and motivation regarding your health and fitness level. It sounds like you have a lot of heart. I wish I had half of the drive you do my friend!
from iamheather :
I don't contact my friend either, even though I know I could, because it hurts. We can't be together the way we want to be because of his situation and it's hard to be friends. He, too, had to "get off the pot" so to speak and that included stepping away from me.
from iamheather :
I sometimes read what you've written and secretly wish that my friend misses me half as much as you miss yours.
from finjamartens :
Itīll go away.
from fightn4life :
Swinging emotions are a part of missing those we care deeply for. Some how if you can take a bigger step than the pain in your heart, you may be able to move on. I always keep you in my prayers. Sandyz
from marinka-mp :
Anytime. As long as i can help Im here.
from beckybaggins :
Thank you for your compliments on my Fenway pictures, and apologies for not thanking you sooner! I've been MIA for the past few weeks. It sounds as though your heart is ready to move on after your phone conversation with her. That's a great start. Baby steps! :-)
from beelucky :
I'm sorry things didn't go the way you wanted them to. I wish I knew how to make you feel better.
from tarkis :
I send you the warmth of gold, the healing of green and the laughter of orange.. may your day be less sad, less filled with memories and more expectation of what may be.
from tarkis :
sometimes all we have is what has been in front of us all the time.. nature & the gifts they give .. wind is one of my favorites. its sound and the feeling one gets of a completely new soul under all the trappings of the day.
from grt8f84me :
Yes...the waiting is the hard part. Mr. Man called me two weeks ago, and have not heard from him since. I know our situations are very different...but I still miss my friend, and I'm hoping to hear from him again, soon!
from blindessence :
of course!
from iamheather :
This journal of yours makes me very sad. It makes me think of someone I can no longer be friends with. My "friend" was married and our feelings got very messy. I continuously fight the urge to contact him.
from marinka-mp :
Mike you have to play the waiting game. If you have any questions please consult with Dr. Marine
from blindessence :
Oh my god.,.. I HATE waiting for the phone call. "THE phone call" is the worst call to be waiting for, especially when it never comes. I get so nervous playing the waiting game, I almost feel like puking. Anytime, anywhere. It's crap.
from fightn4life :
Wow...your entry today made me smile. I will always believe where there is love, there is hope. :) Sandyz
from alifewithin :
yeah... I was waiting for support to help me with my layout, but I got sick of waiting for months, so I just fixed it on my own. Tell me if you have problems!
from sbbabe :
yeah, i kinda hate to admit it, but keeping busy isn't enough. sometimes you just have to concentrate on and make urself keep going. Not pleasant by any means, but I have hope for you. It's only over once you say that it's over. in Him always, Lin
from marinka-mp :
Mike i just read your diary. im sorry you feel that way. i wish i could do something to make you feel better. But the only thing that i can say is just hang in there. i know its tough i know you are tired of hanging in there. but try it for a little longer. Believe me, over time it will get better.
from blindessence :
How did you go about getting a song to play when your page opens up? Is it some secret???
from beelucky :
I read a quote today that reminded me of you, and it's rather fitting for your last entry: "Friendship is certainly the finest balm for the pangs of disappointed love" - Jane Austen. So take comfort in your friends and know we'll always support you, and that we wish for you nothing but the best.
from f4sakndauter :
aye, the thought of someone happily enjoying anything creates a smile
from invisibledon :
Well not to give away the ending but I end up on the low road on Sunday
from sbbabe :
i just recently started reading your diary, and i love it. i did smile, but in the beginning instead of the end. i love the song that you used for the title. :)
from tarkis :
thank you for the smile you gave me this morning.. may all your days be filled with smiles
from alifewithin :
I love that picture and yes, you made me smile today.
from marinka-mp :
Yes it did
from wedge-o-lime :
I smiled........... :)
from beelucky :
You're doing all of the right things. You're keeping busy, you're making yourself a better & stronger person, and you're expressing your feelings honestly. You'll do great - I know you will!
from beckybaggins :
Glad I clicked your banner. I hope she's home the next time a jog brings you to her door.
from tarkis :
Thank you for your note.. great days seem so seldom that one must celebrate their existance. No one ever completely leaves our souls but I have found on the day to day living, we must try and stay away from memories of what was.. If there are no yesterdays.. only today and the unknown of a tomorrow.. it gets you thru a day.
from marinka-mp :
Mike, people who had such influence on you can not be forgotten. Give her some time. If it is meant to be, she will return to you
from jakalope :
In regards to that quote, who new a fluffy, romantic comedy starring the "Fresh Prince" himself, could inspire something like that? Beautiful.
from fightn4life :
Many times someone triggers a past moment in time. I work with someone that triggers one of those memories of long ago. A lost love, (can love ever really be lost?) I understand this pain. ~Sandyz
from marinka-mp :
Yes, i think everyone does. Its this feeling that shows up out of nowhere, without a warning.
from alifewithin :
I like your writing. It kinda reminds me of how I write, but I wish I knew more about you...and this girl you're writing about.
from marinka-mp :
Whereever you are runing to. Can you please take me with you? Please. I want to runaway from life as well.
from jakalope :
Aww, thank you. I hope you find what you're looking for too. Take care. =)
from horror-rocky :
I loved your "Sometimes the most desirable relationship is the one you cant have." banner. I totally understand it.
from jiltedsoul :
How I envy your courage sometimes, and your ability to express yourself. I'm glad you came here, it's nice to see this side of you.
from cuddleslut3 :
oh oh oh! i just saw that one of your favorite movies is cant buy me love. i LOVED that movie as a child but just watched it again the other night. actually im infactuated with it again.. anyways sorry to write you two notes in one night... im not psycho. promise :) it just made me smile to see your favorite movie.
from cuddleslut3 :
im in love with diane :) not sure why but there is something about her. i think i remember seeing a preview but couldnt remember the name of the movie.. anyways thanks for the note and hope you are having a nice weekend :)
from blindessence :
I hate love lives... they never quite work out for me. My diary explains it all.
from fightn4life :
Thanks for the nice send off...it was awesome to be on a trip I didn't have to keep opening my purse for. I did get in a few nights of shopping. :) It is nice to beack home to hubby and my cat's. My thoughts are with you...Sandyz
from fightn4life :
I pray this "friend" of yours will read your words. How could she not fall back into your embrace? Your words are formed by a romantic, and one that loves deep within the heart and soul. May you and her destiny be to reunite. Sandyz
from soror :
How sad...
from looloo6 :
stumbled across your diary by accident..but im amazed at how you have captured what so many people think and feel. im a nineteen year old female so couldnt be more different to you but just goes to show everyone has the same feelings inside them you put them across simply and beautifully
from tarkis :
thank you for your kind words, it is always nice to throw out positive energy ..
from marinka-mp :
Wow! I like you already. We can do without the uniform.
from beelucky :
Thank-you, but actually if you were to ask our friends they would tell you that we are quite boring and nerdy!
from marinka-mp :
You are amazing. Will you marry me? Please!
from tarkis :
how beautiful you are.. a gentle soul. I fell into your energy.. and it was good.
from reinphall :
Just came across your diary wanted to leave a note. A romantic man? You're like in the 1 percentile! :o) Nice Diary!
from jiltedsoul :
As I too am reading you, waiting for the right words to say to you, never finding them..
from blindessence :
Oh... I passed... no more driving tests for me ever!
from jakalope :
Ooh, I just realized my entry tonight was quite similar to the recent one of yours. I read yours last night, and it got me thinking. I love how thought provoking your entries are. I look forward to reading more.
from alwaysinhim :
Hello.
from jakalope :
Hey, thanks for the note. What you said made a lot of sense, in regards to "I'll call you" has kind have become the standard saying for when you say goodbye. Unfortunately, I called him before I read your message and I ended up getting his voicemail. I can only wonder if he was screening his calls...
from invisibledon :
Thanks for adding me to your fave list homie - I'll check in on your page but it's late and stuff so I have to crash. ciao invisible don 6-6-05
from beelucky :
I too miss a friend I once had. Unlike you though, I don't think I want to see them again. Too much time has passed and I'm different now. I'm afraid the sweet memories I have would be ruined if we were to meet once more.
from blindessence :
I think I will be fine. I have yet to mention anything to him and we've just started talking again at work today, and I said absolutely nothing of the sorts of any letter... and he's talking to me. So possibly it's just that he's over the initial "weird" factor, but I'll just have to see how it goes!
from invisibledon :
hey
from blindessence :
They make me want to barf! I had to kill one a week or so ago in my room with a shoe... I felt the spew wanting to make it's way to my mouth.
from fightn4life :
No, it wasn't much fun. My trip from here to Indy to PA and back was quite an adventure. That was the worst night. Not bad looking back...I was gone 15 days. It is nice to be home again. Oh yeah, I am leaving for Georgia, I have a week of classes for work. I'll fly out of Little Rock...That is about 150 miles from here. I know way too much info. :) Love your Diary layout. I have started a new layout on my computer. Let's see in the coming months when I am finished if I can upload it with out crashing the site. :) Sandyz
from blindessence :
Oh I know!!! I'm waiting for that someone to share things with! *sigh*
from blindessence :
Thank you for the note. It was really nice to read and hear your thoughts about my diary. I tend to feel my thoughts and word can sometimes be mundane, but apparently they're not. That's very nice to hear!! Thanks again!
from fightn4life :
Thanks for the wonderful comment...I wish you much peace in these new summer day coming to life. Sandyz
from fightn4life :
I loved your entry yesterday about your run...I recall doing the same thing years ao. Now today watching the phone while your mind goes on a field trip. Lord can I relate. In time peace will come, at least for awhile. :) Sandyz
from jakalope :
I think its admirable that you can go through something without any regrets to speak of in the end. I'm quite the opposite. And there's usually a little bitterness and resentment thrown into the mix as well. =)
from jiltedsoul :
I don't think you're nuts. I think it's something you need to do. Unanswered questions and what if's can drain a person. I admire your courage for going, as I probably am not that strong.
from jiltedsoul :
Always an inspiration you are. May we travel this journey of lost loves together.
from fightn4life :
Nice start on your Diary, kind of sad in a dreamy way. I love your lay out. I wish you peace. Sandyz

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