messages to sweetresent:
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from duplicitous :
Hello. Yes, I've seen Serendipity and I [somewhat secretly] love it. I actually wanted serendipity as a diaryland name, but it was already taken.
from melon-coly :
Thank you for your kind words. I'm glad that you stopped by because if not I would never have discovered your diary. Thank you for your mixture of quotes and song lyrics, after reading them (and some of them I've never heard of) I feel inspired.
from dinahsoar :
My prayers are with you and your father.
from dinahsoar :
Hi Asia. It is true. We often have nothing to back up the words we may carelessly pronounce. His word alone is faithful and true. His word shall not return void. His word is alive and quickens our weary souls. There is a balm that soothes and it is His word alone. Selah.
from dinahsoar :
Hi Asia. I just tried to leave you a note but left it on my own "notes". Du-uuuuuh! Thank you so much for your note and for thanking God for me! That means so much to me! I am very grateful and blessed to have you in my life, too. It is a way of re-connecting with "her" (in a way that can actually have an impact ... since "her" choices have been made and I am now living the results of them ... although things are great ... I am finally happily married (finally made a good choice to love someone who can actually LOVE! what a concept!) ... I have the career I wanted and feel very appreciated ... I am starting my private practice in addition to my work at the clinic ... I feel very close to God (who tenderly held me in the palm of His hand throughout all my chaos) ... I am happy! Thank you for re-connecting and for your lovely note. May His blessings overtake you (and may you allow yourself to receive them)! Love, Casandra
from jason75 :
love has a habit of just rocking up when it is least wanted and least expected. It is great like that.
from dinahsoar :
Hi Long-Lost Asia (I know you were there all along ... I was the one that lost track)! Thank you for your soul-soothing comments. You are such a beauty (and I get the feeling you don't know it ... which only enhances your beauty somehow). I realized in reading your note that I actually CAN communite (in real time!!!!!!!) with the girl I was trying so desperately to reach the other night (the girl that was me). I can correspond with YOU (because you carry so many of the feelings and thoughts that represent for me the girl I was in that apartment on Kittridge). Your talk about feeling like a tramp with the dangerous, racy guy is something I lived for so long. I guess what I most want you to know (and what I wanted to tell "her" the other night) is that God has NEVER let you out of His sight (no matter how far you have strayed). You are HIS (as was I ... and I didn't even know it)! I would come home (literally) from cheating on my husband and kneel down by the bed to recite the Act of Contrition (carefully leaving out the part that says "I humbly resolve with the help of Thy grace to sin no more and to avoid the near occasion of sin" because I believed so much in my heart that He was watching and still somehow loved me ... I couldn't lie to Him even though I was lying everywhere else in my life). Looking back, I can see His hand in the progression that led me gently back to Him. I was in the palm of His hand, "tramp" that I was. I really just wanted to be held, to be seen, to be loved and I sought it everywhere else before turning towards Him. He was patient. He kept me safe in times when I could have been raped and murdered (again, literally). I would go home from clubs with guys I had just met. I would get in their cars and ride off to places unknown (but He knew). It was Saint Augustine who said that He made us for Himself and our hearts will not rest until they rest in Him. It is true. I guess that is what I most want to tell "her" (you). Love in Christ, Cassandra
from dinahsoar :
Hi Asia. Thanks for your message. I just read back in your diary and was reminded of how beautiful a soul you are and how effectively you translate it to the page. Your generous musings always inspire.
from dinahsoar :
Sweet Asia, I'm so sorry I've abandoned you so long. And I'm especially sorry for all your losses. I haven't been checking in much on Diaryland and, sadly, haven't been reading anyone's diary (even yours ... I'm so sorry, because I always get so much from reading yours). I will keep you in my prayers. And I will catch up on your entries. Thank you for acknowledging mine. I'm glad it was comforting for you. I will keep in touch and be sure to stamp my passport back into Diaryland on Monday. Love, Cassandra
from mixedup :
You have no idea how your latest post hit home with me. I guess I was a fool to think he was something more. Thanks for helping me see that.
from minstrelite :
Asia, good to hear from you...what a pleasant surprise! I'm doing better than I was a year and a half ago when we last talked. I finally got on some medication, which is helping (it's depakote) and got into therapy. I kept losing jobs, and getting into negative interactions with people, and it took me a while to realize I had a serious problem. Anyway, I am glad you liked the poem! Hope you're doing well!
from nicim :
I continue my journey at http://cunhell.diaryland.com Kisses.. N
from realsnoopy :
LOL that was cute!
from dinahsoar :
Hi, Asia. I think you've really stumbled upon something profound in your marriage comparisons. And I really believe you'll be happy with your decision to wait. My new husband & I were "born again virgins". We got engaged last August and waited for our wedding night. This allowed every other aspect of our relationship to expand and deepen (not to mention we got to experience all that hot waiting time).
from dinahsoar :
Hi Asia! I know it's been forever. Alot has happened. I got married. We are really happy! Now I know what it's supposed to be like! I just wrote an entry and, just now reading yours, realized we are still "on the same page". I, too, wrote about the senses and God giving us these "simple graces". Hope you're well. Cassandra
from hardsauce :
I love unexpectedly hearing a favorite song while out in public--I don't know why it gives me so much happiness, but it does, even more than when I play it at home. (Perhaps everyone feels this way.) xxx ~Carolyn
from realsnoopy :
Beautiful....
from endthelies :
So, you work at a cafe inside a Borders? I work at a cafe inside Barnes and Noble. It's like we have the same job... but in parallel universes. Well, kind of. Parallel bookstores, maybe. Anyway, I'm glad to hear you had fun making the drinks, that makes me even more excited to start work! And of COURSE it's never to late to say nice things to me! People should go out of their way to congratulate me every day. Also, I just really like hedgehogs. Although Philip likes cats better, so if we find an apartment that allows pets, we probably will get a cat first. And I want to adopt an older cat (because no one else adopts them), but he really wants a kitten (because he's one of *those* people, who doesn't adopt older cats), so we'll see.
from sparkspark :
I love it. XO Violet
from realsnoopy :
Oh those trapped doors!!!
from endthelies :
WHOO HOO!! You got the job! And you have an awesome boss... that is so incredibly good. Congrats! And thank you =)
from dinahsoar :
UPDATE! I'm getting married TOMORROW morning! Thanks so much for your blessings! Say a little prayer for us around 10:30 am (California time)! I'll write when I return from my honeymoon! Love, Cassandra
from realsnoopy :
YAAAA! Way to go!! I'm so proud of you!!! *hugs*
from realsnoopy :
I'm so glad your writing again! I missed reading you! *hugs*
from endthelies :
Whoo hoo, a club! UG, Upity Girls? That makes us sound a little like cavewomen, though. Or maybe GSGE, Girls Stroking Girl's Egos? But no, that one sounds much too dirty. We'd have to put some thought into the name.
from realsnoopy :
Step back. TRY and let things chill a little and handle one thing at a time. *hug* I'm glad you posted. Maybe write some entries and sort through it that way.
from endthelies :
That all sounds really rough. I don't know what to say, except that I'm paying attention and I care.
from pandora111 :
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from endthelies :
Thank you for the comment, it's absolutely still relevant. And cheers that you're coming back!
from realsnoopy :
Where are you sweetie?????
from endthelies :
Thank you! It was sweet of you to comment, I love hearing from you. But when will I get to hear *about* you again? I miss your updates! And yeah, it's always a little ucky when exes come out of the woodwork, no matter how much you love and trust a guy. But she was just touching base, I guess, and not becoming a permanent fixture. So it was a finite discomfort.
from endthelies :
Mmmm... gotta love those long nights of Starbucks and papers! But you know, as snarky as I can be about that stuff in the moment, by August I'll crave it like crazy. I really am glad you're still around, and posting, and I'm sorry about the guy- but at least you figured it out. And at least you're one of those girls with a strong sense of self, so you can survive crappy-guy encounters.
from endthelies :
I'm still a faithful reader. And I'm glad your back!
from realsnoopy :
where have you been? I was worried something happened to you and then I was affraid you wouldn't write anymore! Sorry, I'm sounding like a nagging Mother. *hugs*
from endthelies :
I like that most recent quote a lot.
from third-person :
I agree with you, lust is very real and has the potential to be addictive. I battle it too, while passion's fire burns. But for some reason, it seems to burn out rather quickly.
from dinahsoar :
This entry just wrote itself. I'm glad it spoke to you. It spoke volumes to me. I woke up with it burning inside me. It just tumbled onto the page. Thanks for letting me know you related. My Valentine's Day was the best I've ever had! Thanks for asking!
from dinahsoar :
Happy Valentine's Day to you, Asia! I'm glad you enjoyed the entry. I actually got insecure about it & didn't think it was up to par (writing wise) & so I deleted some of it. Oooops!
from endthelies :
I like to think that Valentine's day is about the love we feel for our friends and family as much as any other kind of love. Even though you're not my neighbor and there are some basic things we might never know about each other because of that, you're understanding and supportive here. Diaryland is an intimate community that I'm glad to have. You know some intimate things about me that next door neighbors won't ever know, and in my book, that's a friendship. Soo... HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!
from realsnoopy :
Happy Valentines Day honey!!!
from jason75 :
Plenty of support in the diaryland sense of things. I remember those feelings. Isnt any easy answers I can remember either. Is just one of lifes battles than eventually you can win
from endthelies :
I've felt like that around 3 am too. You'll be ok. Hugs!
from endthelies :
I'm glad you found it amusing. I hope you do a 101 things page, because I look forward to reading it! Also? According to that test, I should date an Australian guy. That kind of made me giggle because Philip adores Australia and idolizes Ausrtalians. He's always wanted to live there. Once, he even did quite a nice, large painting of Ire's Rock. He thinks it's the most beautiful spot in the world.
from dinahsoar :
Asia, thank you for your kind and sensitive words. You always "get" me. I honor your feedback because I know you really understand my writing and my experiences. Thank you for your blessings and your kinship, which comforts me. May God bless you as well.
from endthelies :
Too late! I'm already to excited!
from endthelies :
I love the Eagles.
from dinahsoar :
Hi Asia! I loved your entry of 1/14. Your strength and resolve. For now, enjoy your tea and get well soon.
from endthelies :
I'm sorry you feel sickly. But YAAAY!! The Tick!!!!
from endthelies :
Wow. That last entry was great.
from dinahsoar :
Wow!
from pandora111 :
I feel like I have a biggest fan! the majority of my notes are from you--know any good publishers!?!
from pandora111 :
I a weird girl too--I think you just sucked my thoughts from my mind
from endthelies :
That's amazing! I LOVE that you have a library list! OOOOH! We're like, headtwins. And don't you dare stop rambling in my notes =P
from endthelies :
"A woman should never criticize herself. Her friends do enough of that." What a great line!
from realsnoopy :
I loved that! How true it is!
from pandora111 :
Well, it may not be my latest when you get to it--it's the "to shelly" entry
from pandora111 :
Check out my latest--I need feedback!
from endthelies :
I thought it made sense. I hope you're enjoying the build up to the new year!
from malthus :
Did the last entry make sense to you? That's what counts. The rest of us can go fly a kite! Happy Festivus and a Merry New Year (Beef Jerky?).
from hardsauce :
Hi, darling--Happy New Year a couple days early. I hope all's well with you, and look forward to reading you in the new year. XOXOXO Carolyn.
from malthus :
No worries...I was just wondering. A little worried too - thought you might have adopted a stalker or something. Glad to hear that's not the case...
from malthus :
Whoa - what happened? Your diary is locked...
from malthus :
Yes, hopeless...floating free through the ether...oh look, a tree (SCHMACK!)
from malthus :
Thanks again...and again...
from malthus :
Wow...I don't know what to say...I'm humbled by your gesture. Thank you. The Hobbit is a great book - full of stuff that young guys like and can use to build character. Funny, I first read it when I was 8...
from malthus :
No not ball licking...she doesn't have those. The other kind...
from dinahsoar :
Thanks for citing my diary. I'm always glad my entries speak to you (as yours always do me).
from endthelies :
Yay for good boyfriends, eh? And I love Maroon 5!! That's an awesome song. I hope you're doing ok heading into the holidays; I know I always get a little burnt out this time of year, but the promise of vacation keeps me going. Good luck staying afloat till then =)
from endthelies :
Ack, I love Starbucks! I love you! It's amazing how much you get it. I don't even know what to say. Just, exactly.
from malthus :
Hey, it's all good, as the kids say now-a-days. If I didn't dig you, I might feel upset, even cry (a little)...but for now I'm smiling!
from malthus :
Thank you for the wonderful compliment and for pointing out WHERE I used the wrong WEAR.
from sparkspark :
Thank you! I was very happy about the Monopoly money. Even though I lost the game and was banned for life (for another reason).
from realsnoopy :
Your a very smart cookie!!!
from dinahsoar :
Well, I have green eyes. I always liked the song (before your time), "Green-eyed Lady". So, am I Eden? I enjoyed your reference to Emily Gilmore. That's my favorite show.
from malthus :
Thanks so much for the link and the prayers - they're going to need all the help they can get. I had thought of the home maker-over folks, but wasn't sure where to look...now I know! Thanks again...
from malthus :
Thanks again. I really like your latest entry...I can relate.
from dinahsoar :
Hi, Asia. I tried to read your diary today, but it required a password. I'll email you (as you said), but I thought the password was removed. I'm sorry you're having a rough time. I will pray for you. Do not ever worry about flooding my notes - I am always touched and inspired by your notes. Thank you for your deep understanding of my writing and emotions.
from endthelies :
I'm not particularly religious, but I like that last entry. Can't wait till you list all the perfect man physical characteristics =p
from endthelies :
Seems like you had an exciting time. I guess I missed the entire phase.
from endthelies :
Ack! I feel so special.
from endthelies :
I loved the entry about your mom. I've only recently gotten close to my mom. My most recent break up was the first one I ever really, intentionally confided in her about. And she was so awesome. I just appreciate her more and more all the time, and it makes me feel like I'm growing up.
from dinahsoar :
Today's entry was particularly touching because (not to sound vain or that everything has to self-reference me) many points in your description of your mom reminded me of me (appreciating every little nuance of nature, being intrigued by unusual or "crazy" people, singing loudly along with the car radio (with my son, when he was little), dancing no matter what and being able to be amusingly tangential (maybe we've discovered some of the substance of the bond we share). It would be so validating to know that my child was actually looking all those years & knew & admired & loved who I am as a person, not just a parent. My son and I are cordial, but unfortunately not that close. I hope that, even given the many mistakes I made in raising him (focusing so much of my emotional energy on finding a man to love - as you know from my diary), he remembers some of the things you mentioned. Your mother is blessed to be so known by her daughter. You are so beautiful, Asia!
from dinahsoar :
Asia, I just finished writing my own entry for today when I read yours. I am, once again, astonished at the similarity of our messages. You said so beautifully what I have been telling those I am close to - it took seeing myself in my own story to "own" myself, to actually honor and love the person that emerged. And that has made all the difference. The choices I am now making reflect that change. I am no longer just doing the same habitual dance. Thank you for being so courageous as to share your story. I am always amazed at how often and closely our steps intertwine. I so value you and the voice which provides such confirmation for my own.
from pandora111 :
You are amazing!
from endthelies :
Hey, quote away =) You can also friend me on MySpace... http://www.myspace.com/wonderbunny
from theswordsman :
Hi Asia. So you went over to the Dark Side (myspace) less than a week ago, and you're a scampy Lolita with trysts and sexy showers for two? And I actually PAY to be at Diaryland??? You obviously (and expectedly) rock way more than I do. But the day is young...John
from malthus :
Hey, thanks for the exceptionally kind comment. I'll have to check your diary out too.
from gumphood :
I like you age idea of ageing. I am a man, but nevertheless I am not really jumping up and down over the idea that I am going to turn 30 someday. I would much rather turn 22. again.. and again...
from realsnoopy :
go buy it! you deserve it!
from gumphood :
hi
from dinahsoar :
Your words make MY eyes fill will tears (so, here we both are). I am always touched by your gentle and poetic assent to my story. God really managed to cut us from the same cloth (however separated by time and space) and I am blessed by you. Thank you, Asia.
from endthelies :
Hey, I'll totally send you the name and pword, but I don't have your email. Clicking on mailto links doesn't work for me, so can you drop me the address in a note?
from dinahsoar :
Hi Asia, I finally dropped back into Diaryland (such a wonderful place)and read over your entries that I had missed while playing hookey. As always, your impressions and your poetic vision touched and resonated within. Your writing is stunning. Your candor is courageous. Your self reflection inspires me. Thank you (I've missed you).
from endthelies :
Wow. That definition seems pretty revealing about people's ideas of femininity.
from dinahsoar :
"when to cocoon and when to emerge". You are treading that delicate line between healing and flooding. My prayers are with you. You are brave and sweet.
from theswordsman :
Thanks, Asia. I'll add "making sweetresent laugh as often as possible" to my goals for the rest of the year. How's the running going, BTW? Take care, sweetie. John
from hardsauce :
Thanks, dear sweetresent. Today is a very dark day, and I appreciate your words more than you know. XXX Carolyn
from realsnoopy :
You really make me "feel" like everything I "feel" has been felt before. Your writing is so wonderful! *Big Kisses*
from hissandtell :
Hi, darling - just catching up on your recent entries I've missed. I wanted to tell you again how much I enjoy your excellent writing, which is making me think hard on this hot Tuesday afternoon. Love, R xxx
from endthelies :
Wow, I had never heard that song before, but I liked the lyrics so much I went and listened to it. Wow. Thank you.
from realsnoopy :
Thanx sweetie! *big smooch*
from endthelies :
Whoa, it's freaky how much I feel on the same page as you sometimes. The "wall" analogy is a recurring thing for me. And no matter how often I take a step back and consider my walls, it never gets old. It's always so fitting.
from realsnoopy :
Your quote really hit home today! *hugs*
from endthelies :
Right on. We probably just need to find men of adequate caliber.
from endthelies :
I liked that entry. I always romanticize my own past. And it's so temping to look back on things that way...
from realsnoopy :
I would be insulted if you didn't! *wink*
from theswordsman :
Hi Asia. The coolest people don't realize they're cool, or care. So that's why you didn't know. I don't believe the "blimp" thing for a minute, but the word "thin" scares the hell out of me. Please promise to stop when you reach the "smoking, flaming hot" stage. Have a great weekend. Take care. John
from dinahsoar :
Thank you so much, Asia, for all your support and encouragement and prayers and kind words. You are very special to me.
from theswordsman :
Hi Asia. You mean you can be even cooler? That's not even fair to the rest of the world. But if you actually do decide to start writing about making out, could you please put a warning at the top so I can either give it a pass or get drunk first? Thanks tons. John
from realsnoopy :
Your not a nerd!
from realsnoopy :
I stole you from the wonderful "endthelies" I loved the poem and your writing. I added you to my favorites if thats ok? *wink*
from endthelies :
I read your last entry, and boy, I would sure like that too.
from dinahsoar :
As ever, your comments elate, touch and inspire me. Thank you, Asia.
from questquecest :
"Singing in your head you know it will be all right" - that sounds so familiar, and I know how much it hurts and how hard. A good mantra - I should take it up myself.
from theswordsman :
Hi Asia. It's great to hear from you again. I hope things are going well in your "I'm 21 part deux." Anyway, I'm glad to know that you're still stopping by. Have a great weekend. John
from endthelies :
That's a brilliant mantra.
from dinahsoar :
Thank you, darling Asia. I hope you are right.
from endthelies :
I love that quote. I can't find a thing wrong with it either.
from dinahsoar :
Beautiful Asia, may all your birthday wishes come true. Thank you for so generously touching my life.
from egoslap :
Glad i could make you smile. =)I totally agree with that last entry!
from dinahsoar :
Just starting my Sunday morning and thought I'd check my Diaryland notes ... now I am sitting here and hot tears are pouring down my face. To have my soul so affirmed, to be so understood by someone I wouldn't recognize on the street, someone who perceives the guilt I carry from a few words on the page ... who knows my heart so inside and out ... has got to be God. I thank you for speaking His words to me so eloquently and in a way I cannot pretend not to hear. To say thank you is redundent. Thank you.
from theswordsman :
I just noticed the mention in your actual diary. I'm not worthy. Bye.
from theswordsman :
Hey Asia. Okay, I think I can keep it together long enough for another shot at this. I hope you have a wonderful birthday - 22nd, second in a series of 21sts, some geometric progression I couldn't possibly understand, or whatever makes you happy. But 22 years ago the world became a better place. That much I know already. Cheers. John
from onebluegreen :
Thanks for the link. I wish someone had said that to me too. I have read several entries in your diary and I want to say it takes courage to face such horrific betrayal.
from theswordsman :
Hi Asia. First you call me a gentleman, and then you break out the heels and/or thong, which of course I can't even comment on because I'm a gentleman. I need to go now. Have a great twenty-first birthday, and feel free to delete this note. Take care. John
from dinahsoar :
God will use the wonderful talent he gave you to bring a brave and healing message to others. You touch my life. Thank you. I am privileged to touch yours.
from dinahsoar :
Thank you, Asia, for making it impossible for me not to write today.
from dinahsoar :
Oh, Asia ... I just read your entry of 9/14. I hadn't read it yet when I sent you my note. Oh, Asia. I am so sorry for what happened to you. The eloquence of your story is so startlingly poignant, so bare and real. Yesterday, I heard what Samantha Runyan's mother said to her childs molester/killer - about how he must have looked into those "amazing brown eyes" when he stole her innocense and her life. You are courageous, Asia. And you words will serve as balm to others who experienced similar betrayal, but were unable to give it voice. You are a strong and beautiful person, as well as a gifted writer. I am blessed to know you. Cassandra
from dinahsoar :
Hello, Asia. Thank you so much for sticking with me through my "silent" phase. I've had extra work (we train therapy interns and have a new batch that just started and need to be brought up to speed). I really appreciate your loyalty. Sorry I've been so absent. I intend to resume with regularity soon. Your words inspire me to get back to it ASAP. Thanks again, Cassandra
from theswordsman :
I wish there was something I could say, but I have neither the wisdom or the words. I hope you have a good day today. John
from sparkspark :
Hi, Bella--thanks for the props! I look forward to reading through your archives. XO Violet
from theswordsman :
Hi again. The fiction writing was a strange experience. I really did think for sixty seconds and start writing. It just kind of unfolded. The weird thing for me is that I know that I could go back to that place, and ask questions, and find out how they got there and what was happening next. I'm always a bit hesitant when people go to my old entries because I'm afraid they'll find a reason to not like me. But my attitude as theswordsman is total honesty. You're most welcome to any part of my diary at any time. I'll leave the porch light on for you. Take care. John
from theswordsman :
Hi again. I just began reading from the start of your diary, and just kept going for a bit. Then it occurred to me that sometimes that bothers people. May I please read your older entries? Have a great weekend. John
from hardsauce :
It is such a good reason to not do the dishes! I'm thinking of you, sweetheart.
from theswordsman :
Thank you for the sweet note. John
from endthelies :
I've read a couple entries out of your diary before, at pretty much random points, but I really love this last one you wrote in which you compare yourself to Psyche. It might just be my human instinct to try and identify, but I'm pretty sure I've been there. And the allusion just makes it all the more poignant.
from dinahsoar :
One of my favorite Beatles songs (but where's the surprise there ... of course we would respond to the same song).
from bluecomix :
I took the quiz you posted. I belong in Paris apparently. Grandma always said I looked like a lil French girl. Except I shave my armpits.
from dinahsoar :
Hi Asia, I was going to take the "city test", but the first question stumped me. There was no box for Mizrahi for Target (I'm sure I even spelled it wrong) or my favorite thrift shop, so I'll just have to tell you that I belong in Hawaii (and when my book, which will acknowlege your encouragement in the dedication, hits the best seller list that is where I plan to relocate). Have you tasted the Aloha?
from dinahsoar :
Your note contains some of the most beautiful and validating things anyone has ever gifted me with. Thank you for knowing me so. I will treasure your words in my heart.
from dinahsoar :
Hi Asia, I wish I would have know what you know when I was 21. Just about everything you said in your introduction, I could also have said (but where is the surprise there, we already knew we were identical twins separated by a couple of decades). I remember your once telling me that you wanted to be me when you grow up. I want to be you.
from dinahsoar :
Thank you for so generously offering me the 'virtual' window into your "window-less" house. I find that very sacred.
from dinahsoar :
I know I keep saying this but (I am presumably so good with words, right?) I can't really express how much your insights as well as the subtlety of your discernment mean to me. You are picking up the essence of what I intend with my writing. You have consistently intuited even the subtext of my writing. I am truly honored that you are getting so much from my diary. Thank you for taking care to find just the right words to pour upon my soul.
from questquecest :
Naturellement nous devrions nous r�unir ensemble! Ce serait une chose gentille. Merci de vos commentaires sur le mon "I'm Trying". C'est bon la dire � quelqu'un d'une mani�re dont l'incitera � �couter - parfois il oublie d'entendre les pi�ces que je dis. Si elle vient de quelqu'un d'autre, frappe-t-elle plus dur, non?
from dinahsoar :
Today's entry was SO good. "Ammo ... which makes the poison". Somhow, you protected your soul. There, in that house. And I am privileged that you open that diamond encrusted box to share the contents saved over time. You are beautiful.
from questquecest :
J'aime l'entr�e (10 ao�t) cette vous ai �crit, et je t'aime pour le 2�me commentaire que vous avez �crit. Solidarit�!
from dinahsoar :
Now it was your turn to give ME a laugh! You want to be like ME when you grow up? (But, really, thanks!)
from bluecomix :
You're....laughing at me?! You just wait! Someday, when I'm famous, well, you just wait...Oh, I'll show you all.
from dinahsoar :
Are you kidding? You won't be first in line. You'll be at the book signing. You'll be in the dedication! I can't express how much your support and kind words mean to me.
from dinahsoar :
Oh, this entry is one of my favorites of yours! It is so vivid, so sensually visceral, I felt carried along by the wind. Your resonance with all of nature in stark contrast to the ominous return home was very poignant and left me wanting more of your story. Wanting to know what awaited, ready to crush your sensitive soul with the very opening of the door. The beautiful way you enliven your words with a strong spiritual vision is unique and very effective. I savor each phrase the way you have told me that you do with mine. Your "mood ring eyes" and ballerina grace. Your description of the boy's mouth - "a flickering sunset". You are a very talented writer. I feel privileged to read your work.
from dinahsoar :
Your words mean so much to me. I never tire of your feedback or think it is anything but genuine. I so resonate with your insights & your evocative and impassioned style that I take your comments very seriously. You are a great encouragement to me. You are also very discerning with regards to my writing. We think so much alike. I found it really interesting that you especially liked this last entry & considered it one of my best. I felt that way as I was writing. It just wrote itself through me & I actually thought it was one of my best, too (hope that doesn't sound un-humble - I'm just letting you know that I recognize how alike we are). Thank you so much again. Your beautiful expressions never fail to provide salve for my soul.
from nicim :
i have not figured out who King Zulu is - he/she keeps leaving me very wierd messages and i erase all but the readable ones (some aren't). I'm a Pisces - March 14...when are you? We are thoughful, artistic, romantics you know!!
from evababy777 :
thanks for the great note. it definitely made my day after being called "nasty" and "judgemental." :)
from dinahsoar :
You are such a kindred spirit. I so appreciate your insights & the beautiful & unique way in which you express them.
from dinahsoar :
Thank you so much for the understanding & supportive note you sent when I was so sad. I've just been catching up on your entries. They are so beautiful, so raw & real. I smiled at my desk when I came across, "I want my mommy." You are very special.
from questquecest :
Parfois je me fatigue des hommes, mais pas tellement du journal intime. J'ai eu beaucoup dans le pass�, mais je fais un effort de se concentrer sur ce journal exclusivement. Je parfois deviens juste paresseux et n'�cris pas.
from fuck-- :
Me too! It's fucking great!
from questquecest :
Je vous vois avoir tout � fait un vieux journal intime. La mine regarde assez nouvelle, mais j'avais �crit dans la diff�rente pendant environ trois ann�es. J'ai apprendre encore � �tre heureux avec un. Si tout va bien j'y arrive avec celui-ci. The name does go with pretty much any mood I want ;)
from questquecest :
J'ai besoin d'une vie juste comme beaucoup comme le faites vous. Tout retentit plus sexy en fran�ais.
from loserkid-88 :
just wanted to say thanx for caring. AND i kind of agree with the losing hope in harry living. I mean I don't actually think she'll kill him cuz there will be alot of crazed harry potter fans upset. some might even attack her. lol j/k. i personally would rather have dumbledore live then severus, i really don't like snape at all, but from my thinking dumbledore told snape to kill him, snape had no choice. i get what you were saying tho. about the third book and stuff. PoA is actually my favorite one. I love Sirius. Especially at the end of that book, when him and remus are explaining everything to harry.. =)
from wonderbunny :
Excellent about the Andy's, love the way you think! I also happen to love matchbox20.
from loserkid-88 :
haylo!! it's like 4.14 am. i'm really bored. I just posted a long post about my theories after the half blood prince. i kno you have j.k. rowling listed as a fav author so i assume you've read the new book. if you want to read my theory.. go ahead. lol. i'd love to here what you think. I'm interested in other peoples thoughts, theories, opinions.. ya kno
from vanoonoo :
ugh they are a nightmare arent they ;)
from pansycline :
yes, thank you! practice makes, well, if not perfect then less terrifying, right?!
from bluecomix :
I just read your last entry, about finding purpose, and I can totally relate. Even feeling sick from heartbreak is more satisfying then feeling nothing, because then at least you remember that you're alive. Kudos to you.
from pansycline :
hey thanks for the note. so, since we're in the same boat, can you tell me how these paddles work? what are you doing with yours? I'm worried that I'm just gonna fall into relationship after relationship and dump dude after dude and I really don't think I can take that. what do YOU say to all the guys who are falling at your feet? "gee I'm really flattered and I'd love to hang out, but, uhh, even if we really like each other and have sex multiple times I don't want to be a girlfriend"? --- i.e. do you know how to date without being "dating someone"? if not, that's ok, but I thought I'd check. bye sweetpea.
from dinahsoar :
Thank you for your comments. It means alot, especially since I am completely moved by your writing. Today's was well timed (for me). I really needed to read ..."no man contains my soul or my heart ..." I can't tell you the solace that gave me today. I read the back entries I had missed while away. Really strong! Thank you so much for the hard-won insights you so vividly and beautifully portray.
from hardsauce :
Hi, Ms. Sweet! Thank you for your message. He is indeed a bad, bad, bad, bad boy. I have managed to stay out of range, but it was iffy for a while. Courtly/remote is a dangerous combination. And ultimately tiresome, but initially, electric.
from dinahsoar :
Wow! Your writing grabs me by the nape of the neck & forces me to look at the heartbreaking beauty of an illumined mind.
from luminence- :
I'm glad we see things on the same terms. >_>
from drowning13 :
Yes, it is a spine. A spare. My spinal reserve. For those days when I'm all nerve and no backbone.
from hardsauce :
Thanks for adding me!
from bluecomix :
Thanks for the note. I don't get a whole lot of comments from readers about what I write, but whenever I get positive feedback, it makes me happy. Thankyuh vewy much.
from nicim :
thanks for adding Anna and Ben and I to your reading. be warned there are occasional R-rated entries, but well-marked. meanwhile, look forward to hearing more of your adventures and catching up on the past.
from minstrelite :
:-)
from minstrelite :
That's a beautiful quote in your recent entry (the Longfellow). Thank you.
from vickithecute :
Wow, what a beautiful entry! It really is the little things that make all the difference. Thanks for adding me; I'll be back!
from dinahsoar :
By the way, the quote on your profile from Miss Rhode Island is particulary funny to me, as I was born there (left at five, however, so don't remember much). I wanted to let you know (being my new friend) that I will be in Hawaii for a week & won't be posting again until Friday, 7/22. I'll write you on my return. Thanks for you wonderful notes.
from finjamartens :
Hey,you�re a whole lot of fun!
from dinahsoar :
Thank you more than I can say for putting me in your prayers and for assuring me that I will get through this. The message is so much clearer and powerful when it comes from someone who has been there and survived it. I can't say I've ever had this kind of dark night and spiritual crisis, but I know that any worthwhile relationship can survive anger and doubt and even distance (absence makes the heart ...). Have you seen the film Breaking the Waves? It's pretty weird and shocking, but it deals with that. There is a woman who communicates very familiarly with God all the time. At one point, He is gone. She cannot hear or feel Him anymore. Her solution is pretty shocking and may not be to everyone's taste, but she is redeemed. I thank you for shining a light in this moment when it is so hard for me to see. I will treasure your kind words in my heart.
from dinahsoar :
Thank you so much for your beautiful words.
from dinahsoar :
I just stumbled upon & love your diary. Your rigorous honesty is inspiring and your poetic expressions are soothing to my currently beleagured soul. Thanks.
from minstrelite :
I see--I must have zeroed in on that one aspect of it, for some reason. Anyway, thanks for noting back.
from minstrelite :
Well, you're much too intelligent to be an "idiot" really. I don't think anyone's an expert on male-female relationships, no matter how smart they are. But thanks again for the beautiful expression of what's going on inside.
from minstrelite :
Not to mislead you, those were only four strong male voices out of the ten or so people I initially told before I started to clam up about it. The first person I told was the cafe owner I saw in the morning, a woman who saw that I was a little disoriented, and she and several others were quite concerned. But the overall experience of blabbing about it while I was freaked out was enough of a downer that I figured I had been indiscreet. In any case, it's good that I'm in the position now where I can start dealing with it. I guess I hadn't realized until very recently how much it really had affected my sexual attitudes, but it's clear now that it has, and I'm looking forward to getting some help.
from minstrelite :
Well, to be honest with you, the day after it happened, I told about ten people, I was so freaked out. But I noticed that a couple of them reacted really uncomfortably. One guy went, "that really burdens me, Andy--you just burdened me." Another guy said, "what you just told me should only be told to a trained counselor." When I eventually told my best friend Kent, he became angry and said "You shouldn't talk about things like that." And when I told my friend Nick on the phone he said, "Andy, shut the fuck up!!" So I clammed up and stopped talking about it.
from minstrelite :
Don't admire me. It took me over a year to be brave enough to make that admission.
from minstrelite :
You're the best. :)
from piano-keys :
is that it?
from minstrelite :
Thank you!!! You are so incredible. I'm not sure I've met a person as witty as you in ages. I was apologizing because I was second-guessing and assuming I had offended you with my naked aggression while delirous. Let me ponder things a while longer. You are beautiful.
from minstrelite :
Yes, quite. Asia, I apologize. I just awoke from a nap (at 10:30pm of all hours) and am trying to pick up the pieces after the smoke cleared from my most recent melee, including credit card binges to corrupt organizations that won't allow me to cancel my accounts. Believe me, I've been there before. Anyway, I'll send you an e-mail. I believe you are a strong person. Please forgive me. ~ Andy
from minstrelite :
I think you are extremely intelligent.
from minstrelite :
I'm sorry to hear that you have to take lithium. Hopefully you can get off of it, or they will significantly reduce the dose. It's ironic that your "manic" score was so low, whereas mine is so much higher, yet I take no meds at all. Perhaps the meds really do reduce the mania. But as you can tell, I rather enjoy my "mania." However, I will more-or-less candidly confess that the extent to which I think about sex has been problematical at times, and the meds did significantly reduce that.
from minstrelite :
Hi, I hope you've noticed that I've taken something of an interest in you recently--at least to the extent that I've probably read half of your diary by now. I'm going in reverse chronological order, for better or worse, and there are an awful lot of entries to cover. Even then, I will not know the full you.
from minstrelite :
Hi, I'm in the process of password-protecting my diary. Please e-mail me at minstrelite at hotmail dot com if you would like a password. Thanks!
from luxlust :
Hi, thanks for the note. I moved, you are welcome to check me out at my new place. http://egoslap.diaryland.com. I am going to reopen luxlust soon as well.
from drowning13 :
Have patience dear sweet sweetresent. I am now so close to the individual who messed with me. So close I can hear their skin. And soon the lock will be tossed.
from tillylace :
Haha, that's so true about the princess thing. I wouldn't want to be no princess, I'd rather be the queen.... Anyways, thanks for signing my questbook and putting me on your favorites list. I'm sorry that you and your online boyfriend didn't work out, but I guess it just wasn't meant to be. Take care.
from invisibledon :
I did go out drinking but not tequilla - blah Guinness you know that whole Mexican Irish Cinco de Mayo thing
from invisibledon :
happy cinco de mayo
from invisibledon :
thanks for visiting
from cateldragon :
just want to say you've got great taste in music / movies / books etc!!!
from lazypoet :
*gasp* wow. thanks so much. i deeply appreciate your words. words cannot express. God bless.
from lazypoet :
yeah, i believe me and the guys here at the college were discussing sex at dinner, and how much we can't wait, but how we all CAN wait, because we're saving it for mr. honeymoon and all he has to offer.
from lazypoet :
sorry, try this... http://lazypoet.diaryland.com/020102_97.html
from lazypoet :
sadly enough, i'm not even sure if the men on my wall are wearing any sort of underwear at all. they're either going commando, or the picture doesn't go down that low. hey, from vegas, eh?!! i love vegas. i take trips out there all the time. here's a story about vegas (not meant to be offending).

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