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from jimbostaxi :
Thank you for the note. I think my journey through this would be infinitely worse without this place and all of you guys.
from swordfern :
As I read about his post about you, my heart clenched. Seeing something like that would make me very happy too. I'm glad that he did that for you, especially right now when you really need it.
from the-grey-one :
aww yay! so sweet!
from swordfern :
Jealousy can be viewed as a call to action. What is missing from your life, and how can you bring that thing into your life?
from swordfern :
Ugh re: coming across photos of the ex. FWIW, I came across photos of Russell's ex, and she appears dour and dowdy, which makes me wonder about his standards. Further, to reinforce this, I came across a pencil sketch that he did of her, and she has her arms crossed and is looking down with a frown, further reinforcing my impression of her. So if the ex is hot, then it's unnerving; if the ex is not hot, then it's also unnerving. Hahahhahahah ugggggggghhhhhh. (You're going through a relationship transition, with him being away for a while. There is opportunity in this. And it is also going to present challenges. Much empathy.)
from swordfern :
I'm sure you know this, but you show up better to support others when you take care of yourself. (I've also been thinking a lot about the concept of the individual vs. society/privilege. My current conclusion is that even though he is privileged, the white male can still have had a difficult, traumatic life. He must acknowledge that society has not limited his potential in the way that it limits people of colour and must not compare his trauma to racism. However, he, despite privilege, is not immune to trauma. I don't know where I'm going with this, and I am working to learn more and engage in conversations, but I wanted to let you know how your discussions have catalyzed an important debate for myself. If our conversations around racism aren't uncomfortable, then we are likely doing something wrong.)
from swordfern :
Reading your entries is such a gift. I was up in the night thinking too much about relationship 'trajectory' and whether I'm making the right decisions, and this entry is timely. "Making the most of now" - really, that's all there is. xoxo
from swordfern :
❤︎
from swordfern :
Hah! Yes, I know that I would advise myself to talk to him about it, and I will once I'm able to have the conversation from a less painful emotional place. I know exactly what it's triggering in me, and it has nothing to do with him. He's done nothing wrong, and it shows that he is committed and loving. I knew he was in a long relationship, similar length to my previous, but I didn't realize they had wed. "Other's successes highlight your own failures." It's triggered my internal pain of never having had someone love me enough to commit to a future together.
from dangerspouse :
Wow. Yeah. I don't normally comment on anything that isn't risible, but if you really are mired in this loop of anxiety and distress, you really perhaps should consider therapy. You work in mental health, right? I'm guessing you could find plenty of professional resources for developing coping mechanism...I hope. I don't know where you are, but many state and local governments have mental health outreach programs started up (gratis) for people who are understandably having a hard time with the current nonstop inundation of scary tidings. All the best to you, I hope you find succor. Soon.
from jimbostaxi :
I'm very pleased with her progress at the moment. She is resting at home without the use of oxygen and the fevers seem to have stopped. I want to say we are in the clear but no one knows for sure. The one thing I do know is that her smile lit up our dark bedroom and my heart. Thank you very much for the note :)
from swordfern :
I am (again) listening to the book "Untethered Soul" to help work through the anxiety that emerges when I am at home, alone, for long stretches. This book has taught me a lot about problematic thought patterns. Not sure if you've spent time with this book before but it could be a useful companion to talk therapy. I feel as though I'm treading water lately, my head just above the drowning water of anxiety. I think a lot of us are experiencing this, but I don't think it needs to be normal. I can tell that your partner wishes to help you stay afloat; and that is a measure of honest love.
from swordfern :
I love our mirrored relationships. I get so excited when I see your name lit up in red on my buddy list. Reading you is a highlight of my day. xoxo
from frankie123 :
andrew is the cutest
from swordfern :
Thank you for sharing the story of your relationship, which sounds so similar to mine. And for evidence that it can last, that I may never have to accept that things have to change.
from swordfern :
Ahhhh!! I'm so happy that it went well!! I had a somewhat related experience where I thought I could be pregnant and didn't want to tell him because I considered it my fault and didn't want him to have to stress about it. When I got my period, I decided to tell him about the whole thing and instead of it becoming an argument or blame/defense thing it was a bonding experience. He wished he'd known what was going on so that he could have helped work through it together and immediately suggested that it was just as much his fault. Such a difference from how things would have gone in my previous relationship... Anyhow. My conclusion is that you can use these moments to determine the character of your partner. Sounds like you have a good one in your man!
from swordfern :
I'm happy to help you work through things like this. Intrusive thoughts like this need to be let out and processed. He has chosen you, chosen to move forward with you. That's your vulnerability, your trust in him. That's one of the hardest parts about love to bear. xoxo
from swordfern :
Just throwing this out there - would you ask him directly about it? It could be a good conversation to have, if you can manage to bring it up in a way that is not accusatory or defensive. FWIW - I look up my ex on social media and have ZERO interest in being with him. I would have to think about more why I do this - maybe I want more evidence to confirm my decision, maybe it's just curiosity about what's going on in his life after me.
from swordfern :
What are your worst fears?
from swordfern :
Hah! Thanks for the encouragement. It will happen soon. And I know it will be like a dam letting go: I won't be able to stop saying it.
from jimbostaxi :
My theory is we are not ready to know yet. When a new Tesla or Ramanujan are born they will bring us into the time of enlightenment and exciting things will follow.
from jimbostaxi :
Was going back through your stuff and got to 10/26 entry and Im like wow,,, the words were so deep and moved me... :)
from loveherwell :
that was so kind of you to say (in your note)! it sounds as though 2019 treated you quite well. i hope 2020 does the same :)
from the-grey-one :
dr gabor mate was a physician in van’s east side for years and he’s been doing a lot of work with ayahuasca in regards to treating addiction/trauma, you can follow him on facebook (he’s also got some good books as well). plant medicine is gaining ground for sure! i first got into it 10 years ago and have gotten to see it get a lot more attention. if you’re interested in trying it yourself feel free to email me!
from swordfern :
Ahh why have I not been reading you?! A local Dlander! Thanks for the compliment! Merry Christmas!
from frankie123 :
"love is not guaranteed, especially the romantic kind. And it is an honour a blessing a straight up miracle to feel that kind of love whether it is reciprocated or not. And that’s all that takes up my heart these days, this utmost realization that I am one of the lucky ones" -- woow! i love this (& happy belated)
from the-grey-one :
i know, it suuucks, spent the rest of the day physically and emotionally hungover. 0/10 would not recommend
from frankie123 :
so chill and so sweet
from elusive-you :
if you want to share, i'd like to keep reading. regardless, hope you're doing well.
from frankie123 :
yooo that's the field of work i'm studying to get into right now! super cool. best wishes for your trip; i hope it's exactly what you want
from the-grey-one :
hear hear!
from jarofporter :
i find that changing the way you think requires input from like-minded others. without that, we tend to drift back to old habits.
from the-grey-one :
yes absolutely! i tried getting it to you a long time ago but with the site broken i couldn’t get through (your profile is still unclickable for me!) , my email is lazi_(at)hotmail.com, happy to bring you back into the fold!
from jarofporter :
3/16 - your entry sounds so much like me - I've felt that same sense of not belonging all my life. I understand, and I hope you can find somewhere to be you, and that you find your tribe...
from the-grey-one :
i know that jealousy well, you have a wonderful attitude towards it. i’m very happy for you with this entry : )
from the-grey-one :
hey! your notes are fixed : )
from elusive-you :
same. absolute exact same.
from jarofporter :
that's how it is for me, been that way for years...
from frankie123 :
you're in vancouver, too! i'd forgotten! the air sure smells sweet but holy it's like walking through soup today
from frankie123 :
i THINK i sent you an email? to that one that's listed on your profile?
from the-grey-one :
just wanted to leave another note saying how much i relate to your struggle/fight with changing your thoughts, or rather becoming aware of them, and accepting them to a point where they stop holding the same emotional charge. bah, just, yes. definitely relate, and love to hear how someone else is dealing with it all. i think you are awesome.
from newschick :
haha love this post. trader joes is very sneaky! :D
from elusive-you :
have a good time :)
from jaysthoughts :
Just checking to see how many diarylanders still actually check their notes and stay active.
from silver4 :
A couple of the more popular/busier clubs these days are Marquee at cosmopolitan and XS/Surrender at Wynn/Encore. Another good busy one is Light at Mandalay bay. That one is a bit newer and it is based on cirque du soleil acts. Marquee is PACKED but people seem to love it. Also 1oak at mirage is a pretty busy one too. I think those are the most oft discussed clubs of late :) hope this helps!!
from silver4 :
Have fun in Vegas!! It is insanely hot right now, enough that the long time locals are complaining, and there was a heat advisory warning put on until Wednesday. The weekend will be great though, only like 110!! Let me know if you need some suggestions :)
from jarofporter :
http://warpednormal.diaryland.com/140602_27.html i remember thinking this way before. wish i could get back there. glad to see these recent posts!
from jarofporter :
YaY! i'm glad you did - after recommending it to you , i decided to get my copy back out & re-read it (sitting next to me right now!). i'd forgotten how helpful it really is!
from jarofporter :
hey! did you find "three magic words" by U.S. Anderson yet? i really think it would be beneficial for you to read!
from elusive-you :
you're gonna be fine.
from jarofporter :
damn, sorry to hear it. and yes, it will be ok, eventually.
from frankie123 :
i can't tell you how many times i've read one of your entries and just wished i could learn to see the world the phenomenal way that you see it
from the-grey-one :
hey, just letting you know i think your diary is fantastic
from elusive-you :
happy birthday!
from silver4 :
I like that: "don't want to keep anyone around...just for the sake of having someone around". Spare the energy expense to everyone involved. Definitely not fair to anyone. I feel like I *try* to do that, too, but it just takes me a while to realize it's pointless to keep them around if I want something better. Ohh this never-ending quest! Entertaining though. I'm jealous you went ice skating. Everyone is going skating these days; I need to get my butt out there and do the same before the season is over.
from and-darling :
Gah. I do agree... I used to fall in love so easily and now I just can't. Sometimes I feel like I'm not giving them a chance to prove something.
from jarofporter :
agreed, it's not fair. guess that's why i haven't dated either - waiting for something amazing. hope you find it...
from samcorday :
Hey I haven't been on D-land for quite some time but i'm back and i read your last entry and saw something abt you going to Trinidad someday. Is this Trinidad in the Caribbean you mean? Cause if it is look me up. and if it isn't you should really visit here! :)
from atwowaydream :
"love love is a verb, love is a doing word." - Massive Attack. Do it, girl.
from silver4 :
Beautiful words you speak..write.. I follow your line of thinking on happiness
from elusive-you :
i always seem to be taking bits from your entries and only saying yes to them, so here goes again: "that there are TONS of people out there, and yes, YOU should be the one to choose whether or not one is good enough for you." YES.
from jarofporter :
not sure if you'll dig it, but "three magic words" by U.S. Anderson was a big help to me in clarifying things - might bring a new perspective? i'm re-reading it again, since i just picked up a new copy...
from elusive-you :
"i've been so fixated on romantic love being the only kind of love that could make me happy that i forgot how much love i have otherwise." yes, this.
from silver4 :
That's beautiful about the light getting in where there's cracks. It's a nice thought. Glad you shared it, and that good people are bringing you light!
from silver4 :
I'm sorry to hear that.. Nothing I can say will help, but hang in there, and you are loved <3
from jarofporter :
i'm sorry. i remember that feeling all too well - hang in there...
from portlypete :
It's possible to learn without a teacher. Put another way, life is the best tutor.
from portlypete :
It is possible to be bored and low at the same time - believe me.
from silver4 :
<3 your message brought me happy tears Thank you :)
from silver4 :
Thanks :) I have started feeling sad that he hasn't replied at all and is basically being an ass, but I read your note and it grounds me again, and I know I was right to stand up for myself, regardless of the outcome. We do deserve to be happy and loved, it's just such a crappy path we have to go through to get it!
from elusive-you :
that post is my life
from frankie123 :
early mornings when the skytrain's stopped and somebody offers you a smoke outside a pub that's closed now, too -- haha god i've been there too many times
from elusive-you :
it's good, isn't it??
from elusive-you :
i love that post.
from newschick :
whatsapp just uses your data...no roaming or text charges. you're good!
from elusive-you :
abed is the most perfect character ever.
from samcorday :
Whats app is free for the first year and 0.99cents per year after that. And no it doesn't cost anything to msg anyone ANYWHERE
from cymbals :
hahaha just got home from the bar and i am totally feeling that most recent entry. xoxo for 2013
from samcorday :
Merry Christmas dear, hope you have a good one! :)
from samcorday :
Happy birthday you! sounds like you had a good one :)
from doctorkaysen :
i hope your birthday stays fabulous. :> you deserve a great one!
from elusive-you :
happy birthday!!! :)
from raygirl999 :
Happy birthday!
from jimbostaxi :
Have a great Birthday! :0)Whatever you do please dont vomit in the taxi LOL LOL!
from samcorday :
Just had to leave this cute one for you http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L60QLKLxSg4
from elusive-you :
that last entry... i quite like it. a lot.
from samcorday :
song got youuuuuuuuuu!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CZFKw3BhveI&feature=relmfu
from unhealthyme :
Do you use Tumblr?
from crazy-raver :
It's always going to hit and miss, but when you hit...Smiles...Smiles from ear to ear, every time.
from elusive-you :
that's good for you. xx
from samcorday :
SONG- The Beacon by A Fine Frenzy http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IZl53bwHuaE
from crazy-raver :
Loving how you wear your heart on your sleeve, life seems so much better like that ;)
from samcorday :
because of your last entry.Human-civil twilight http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-lU0ZCFIB8U
from samcorday :
hey i'm back...maybe you've heard this maybe not but i remembered u appreciate interesting music http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yMuuc_pqx2s&feature=share
from thatgirlx :
Just stumbled across your diary... and I'm liking what I'm reading so far. Hope you don't mind if I stay around and read more??
from silver4 :
Oh my gosh that song is beautiful...
from sexyatheist :
period my friend. if he wants to be with you, he will be with you.
from theways :
damn right, girl. dumb as fuck. (oh and i love the show OZ too, just noticed that on your profile)
from raygirl999 :
Sorry about your Aunt! *hugs* from me! And how did I never realize we both love OZ!!?? One of the best shows ever!
from kabukicharms :
Same address as the card?
from kabukicharms :
I really hope it all turns out well for ya doll, I really do.
from samcorday :
I'm back and i most definitely have to catch up!! :D
from raygirl999 :
Congrats! I'm glad your evening went well.
from kabukicharms :
Don't you just hate it when people love you and clap along to your original creations. Pfft come off it, your gonna be great. Whats the worst that can happen, people will hate you, you'll retreat to the seclusion of living in a van then you'll write songs about it, turn into Jewel and sell a million albums.
from silver4 :
Supporting you from afar! Good luck, I know you'll do awesome <3
from atwowaydream :
I'd be there if I could! Sing your little big soul out.
from raygirl999 :
Good luck with your singing performance! I suck at singing and have intermittent stage fright. I am rooting for you!
from raygirl999 :
Good luck. Libras rock! And funny enough I see "Go Canucks go" and think "Go Spurs go" our local nba chant. Different sports but same hometown love!
from atwowaydream :
Yay for excitement and story-telling from libras on the beach.
from sexyatheist :
i too would like a pw if you are so inclined. thank you!
from frankie123 :
are you disappearing? :(
from blacksheet :
May I have a password?
from raygirl999 :
Well I think that YOU think a whole bunch. You might be like me in that you think TOO much. It makes it hard to get the thoughts out because they crowd your mind. Good luck with everything!
from offbymyself :
hey, i noticed that you added my diary as a favorite. [thank you for that.] but i moved to unhealthyme. =]
from silver4 :
hey, for me it's been longer! i envy you!! :)
from raygirl999 :
*tears brim in eyes* That is the most beautiful note I have ever received. I believe you have adonis DNA.
from atwowaydream :
Let's facebook beat that detoxing bitch up.
from frankie123 :
...you mean not everybody gets like that two days before?!
from raygirl999 :
Yikes a car accident! That's scary. Glad you are OK!
from newschick :
wow! professors don't just do that...they must see a lot of post-grad potential in you... what a compliment!
from flowermouth :
I should tell you about my many meetings with the fellows in Lucero. I didn't squirt beer out of my nose, but many fun things did happen :) Ooooh, those were good times.
from blacksheet :
Thank you for the birthday note! It made me feel a little better :)
from raygirl999 :
OMG open heart surgery. I just gagged at the thought. I am so squeamish but that is so cool!
from raygirl999 :
YES please add me as a friend! I love new FB friends. I have embraced my attention whore ways and they make me happy :-)
from famelicose :
I also want to shit on people at school.
from flowermouth :
I've asked myself the very same question and it was worth answering.
from offbymyself :
You have an amazing voice and you conquered that song beautifully.
from kabukicharms :
Was that you? You'r a brilliant singer, even if I had to turn my laptop on its side.
from silver4 :
AMAZING! i love your voice, that made me smile :)
from raygirl999 :
Thanks for the note. I cause these problems myself I swear. I'm trying to be calm and not jealous at all this year!
from frankie123 :
:(!!!!
from frankie123 :
so stoked for the snow! it's about time, remember last september everybody thought we'd be twenty feet in. then rain and more rain -- i hope the snow really falls
from frankie123 :
drag your best friend to the ocean push her in everything will feel much better
from omfggwtf :
have a lovely new year :) xxxxxx
from raygirl999 :
It seems we are in a similar space in time right now. i feel your pain. jealousy is a bastard but it seems impossible to tame.
from atwowaydream :
You have gold. Yay. Kabuki is super sweet.
from flowermouth :
We call guys like that "stalkers."
from frankie123 :
i am still here! just tired of certain persons reading my online diary, but you more than welcome. fire/fly!
from theways :
yey catcher in the rye :)
from flowermouth :
Happy belated birthday. Also, poutine is and always has been kind of a mystery to me.
from blacksheet :
Happy Birthday!!
from raygirl999 :
OMG that snake is lovely but also terrifying (for someone scared of snakes like me)
from atwowaydream :
Oh, I'm totally excited about seeing Black Swan. . . it looks like such a beautiful and distorted nightmare, and Natalie is awesome, and I can't wait to see her in this role. Yay for lesbian clubs. If you see a girl who looks like Shane from The L Word, tell her I said. . .heeeeey.
from frankie123 :
happy belated birthday, beb
from nessus :
"sometimes i wish to god i could stop having such intense feelings for people who could give two shits about me." If I were a super hero that would be my super power.
from kabukicharms :
Agreed. Having sex with us is no way to make us love you. General adorableness, coyness, and cake however will do it in a cinch.
from samcorday :
LOL.Mozart....good stuff
from samcorday :
You have no idea how eerily familiar u sound. This was me a couple years back. The only way to not feel like this is to make massive changes in your life. But change happens only when you're ready for it....in the meantime i know they don't make you feel the wonderful person you are....but you are! (great taste in music for one!!lol) persevering at this amazing career. You'll find your way..:)
from samcorday :
You have no idea how eerily familiar u sound. This was me a couple years back. The only way to not feel like this is to make massive changes in your life. But change happens only when you're ready for it....in the meantime i know they don't make you feel the wonderful person you are....but you are! (great taste in music for one!!lol) persevering at this amazing career. You'll find your way..:)
from flowermouth :
I swear I've lived the love-life you're living. So very much been there. Learn what you can from it and, when the time is right, if you need to, make the changes that are right for you.
from atwowaydream :
these dudes that you're meeting, i don't know if any of them could truly handle you, anyhow. you're lovely! You have a good heart, and that is so important.
from samcorday :
Lol .....the Stars song just sounded like you...Nightwish is like a symphonic rock band....mixed with opera....maybe you'd like this one better http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VwbtbfAnI80
from samcorday :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5juc6fmgylw
from samcorday :
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sxeIivNDtFU
from samcorday :
LOL....i do sound really depressed, don't I? It's just that sometimes i think i know where everything is headed and i'm happy or at least contented and then suddenly!!....i don't know anymore.....:(
from samcorday :
I'm still smiling...:)
from samcorday :
I love Snow Patrol, i haven't listened to this song in ages. i forgot how emotional it always makes me feel.it made me teary but it's so beautiful....thank you :)
from samcorday :
i hope things get better very soon for u......hugs and best wishes sent your way..:)
from ping-island :
thank you! i do like diaryland a lot but i wish there were more avenues for actually discussing things, in a group, like how lj has communities and whatnot. and also, it has just occurred to me that i couldn't actually make a new diary without paying money, which...is not cool.
from newschick :
HA same life. and then i get kind of disappointed, because i had planned it all out, and then i'm thrown a curveball. oh well. ;)
from samcorday :
maybe this is a stupid question....but David does know that you're mad about him?!! Right?
from newschick :
great entry... it's good to know i'm not the only one who has full conversations in my head! :)
from atwowaydream :
You could probably write circles around all of them, darling.
from enurta :
thank you for your kind words. you made me smile. sorry it took so long to reply. about glee...who is your favorite? I really like artie :) and about my so colled life...I was *SO* inlove with jared lito at the time...omg...he is so hot in that show. i still like him, haha :P have you ever listened to his band? I think they're called 30 seconds to mars.
from enurta :
'my so called life' is the best show ever. and i love glee btw. it's so damn good. watching the second season now...only seen three so far. so there's three more, and it's still airing so I'll get to see one new episode every week for a while :)
from atwowaydream :
Netflix rocks. Right now I'm watching one on the raging planets, but I will definitely check out the one you mentioned. Drug ones are almost always the most fun.
from kabukicharms :
From your writing I assumed you where a lot older, well not a lot but at least mid twenties. I kinda feel like I put my foot in my mouth. Hahaa woops.
from kabukicharms :
Oh I know that one, its easy to find fleeting relationships. With me though I think I look for them. Im not ready to settle down even if my heart keeps trying to convince my brain otherwise. But lately Ive just been dating younger, twenty, twenty one. Theyre easy to date, they dont have pre conceived notions of the ideal relationship, and if so even thats easily malleable. Theyre just happy to be with you. Plus the only girl I would really like to get to know, who is my age, is impossible to talk to. Well its impossible for me to talk to her. I become some strange middle school child that cant seem to form the right words. Its all very sad and pitiable. Do you believe in idyllic love?
from kabukicharms :
What rejection are you talking about doll, you always seem to have some boy or another flitting about you?
from silver4 :
I love stone temple pilots! I've seen them about 4 or 5 times; I'm way overdue for another round :)
from frankie123 :
with campbell as our premier at least the HST referendum woulda been successful; now we're almost certainly stuck with it for good
from atwowaydream :
Shame is usually quite boring, anyhow. :)
from silver4 :
Ah yes, I would have to say xs, surrender, and Tao are some basic faves. I keep hearing about haze lately, but haven't been yet. I will have an accurate list for you before you come out here :) :)
from silver4 :
men are stupid. that's my professional opinion. but yaaaay vegas!!! a little early but still. have you been before?
from samcorday :
take a listen..... If i die young by Band Perry http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7NJqUN9TClM&ob=av2e
from newschick :
great entry. love it.
from samcorday :
i see u love the song :) i had it on repeat for the longest while.......his whole album is a miracle.....Grace by Jeff Buckley.
from samcorday :
this is for you.......Lover you should've come over by Jeff Buckley http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hXe1jpHPnUs
from samcorday :
You're going to be ok *hugs*
from kabukicharms :
You know its been my experience that if you can not find a situation in which you can satiate both the body and the mind simultaneously whatever aspect wasnt satisfied always inexorably suffers.
from enurta :
hey, thanks for adding me. you seem interesting. I'm going add you to my buddylist :) *hugs*
from newschick :
RIGHT there with you. i have a love/hate relationship with weekends
from duplicitous :
"like if i knew someone was loving their life because it wasn't as bad as mine i would punch them in the nuts for sure." Hilarious. Ahh I've always hated that saying too.
from kabukicharms :
Its just that your so brutally honest about your personal life. There is no softening no padding. I like it, it just catches me off guard.
from silver4 :
holy crap i've already had a bunch of people contact me on pof, i don't think i'm ready for this! this is crazy...
from kabukicharms :
My word! I totally hear you on the Good Luck Chuck" syndrome. All my exes are married, engaged, or in serious committed relationships. The last one was two months ago and she just got engaged!!
from kabukicharms :
Hahaa its actually really weird to update this much. I haven't been a regular on DL in years. But I enjoy the anonymity of it. I unfortunately did leave for other less cool things like LJ. Have I mentioned how much I love your journal I find myself smiling and cringing all in the same movement.
from kabukicharms :
I love your post from like a month ago about just watching How I Met Your Mother and eating ice cream. This Saturday I was supposed to go out, but I ended up canceling so I could lay on my friends couch watching reruns of HIMYM and eating ice cream sandwiches.
from omfggwtf :
haha thanks. i dunno. sigh. i wonder what happens now. xo.
from silver4 :
aaah i love that song! :)
from famoustn :
Hope you don't mind that I added you as a diary I like. Stumbled upon yours under recent entries.
from sexyatheist :
haha, i love when i time travel! it's so cool arriving before you left. and i'm glad to hear you survived your near death experience. it sounded really scary.
from adarlingdiva :
Hey! Could I trouble you for the title and author of the book you borrowed from the library about how "young women pursue sex, delay love, and lose at both?" It sounds like interesting read. -Vivian xoxo
from nessus :
Yeah, I think that was the single most painful part of the experience: meeting someone on those dating sites who had already rejected me who then proceeded to message me and joke about us being on a dating site.
from atwowaydream :
you look so beautiful. you look quite natural and lovely with the guitar. :)
from duplicitous :
I admire your courage in putting yourself out there - it's something I'm to scared to do.
from comebacktome :
I second Silver. And I understand what you mean, but that is part of what makes it so cathartic, that you can just put all the shit out there, without worrying what people think and then sometimes it touches a stranger and makes them think about something in their own life and so the symmetry of universal experiences continues. On a personal note, I just hate watching good people get treated like shit by arsehole guys and then blame themselves. It's not you, it's never YOU, it *them* being insecure/screwed up/manipulative/all of the above. And I think they all deserve a good bitch slap *decisive nod*.
from silver4 :
It probably doesn't mean much since I'm some stranger out there and don't really know you, but I care :) and always hope for the best for you. And not in some weird stranger way. Just in a normal stranger way...
from comebacktome :
So I know you don't know me, but I have been reading with interest and I just have to say these things and then I shall shut up 1) He's a douche 2) Don't feel bad for being with him. You did what you felt was right and what you wanted to do at the time. Maybe if you had known he was a douche you wouldn't have, but at the same time, how could you possibly know that? Certain guys are very good at pretending to be what they think that someone wants for their own ends- this does not make you stupid or crap, it makes them arseholes! 3) At least you got some good pussy loving out of it, think of it as him paying homage (as he should) 4) I love my brother/s too. They really are the best. And remember that he will always love you, unconditionally, coz you're awesome! 5) That Stephen guy really is a douche, don't let him determine how YOU are. Being open is not a bad thing, being bitter is just as exhausting, I promise. Chin up sweets, you're great and trust me, I doubt I'm the only one to notice :)
from nessus :
"i'm the luckiest sister in the world" If you haven't told him that already, you should.
from sarahisok :
Just let me know where to email the password and it'll be on its way :)
from doctorkaysen :
you deserve your bike.
from blacksheet :
You are 100% right. You do deserve someone that wants to know about you and that will listen to and care about what you say. If that's what you want, then don't settle for anything less! You seem like an amazing person. They're out there, and for you, they shouldn't be too difficult to find. :)
from atwowaydream :
okay, he's so beyond not worth it. you're a beautiful person, and you deserve someone else who will not let So you think you can dance not play on fox (i watch this show secretly sometimes too) and ignore homeless people. you really do deserve better.
from strayrecluse :
thanks for the supportive words, but i found out that i have an std. it's real pain.
from samcorday :
awwww...hope u feel better soon sweetie:)
from silver4 :
"or we can look at our mutual friends on facebook" haha... I had to laugh when I read that. So profound before about how we are all connected somehow... And then there's facebook hahaha
from samcorday :
hmmm.....sometimes when i talk guys get this vacant look on their face and that's when i know they're thinking "she's so awesome. when do i get the puss puss" sigh.....take it slow
from theways :
hugs xx
from samcorday :
i am not liking this David character too much.....to have someone treat u like that whe your a wonderful, hardworking, sweet person is NOT ok...he obviously does not know how to treat ppl and is very much wrapped up in his own thoughts and feelings. don't let someone like that, define the extent of your self-worth : )
from samcorday :
hmmmm......is it possble that someone who lives thousands of miles away, life mirrors mine exactly!!
from samcorday :
that's the spirit sweetie!! fuck 'em all the asses with a sand paper condom!! lol. it really does sting when ppl dislike you for no reason....but damnit!! ppl who haven't ever even met u in person like u so very much like moi!! :)
from silver4 :
grad in june!! hopefully... no. definitely, dammit! glad you're getting some ;)
from submarine3 :
Aww thank you!! I guess i will post it ;)
from silver4 :
"sometimes you have to lose a part of you to find your whole self" definitely inspirational clip/line there. i love that :) enough to add it to my quotes on fb
from samcorday :
thank u sooo much for the note :) it really made me smile and feel bette....maybe i really know the wrong ppl.....it's strange sometimes how u can bond with ppl who live thousands of miles away and not get anything but dislike from the ppl right in front of u. but thank u for that...what u said meant a lot to me
from blacksheet :
Thank you so much! And while I'm here in your notes, I also wanted to tell you that I really enjoyed your singing! I hope to hear more in the future! :)
from samcorday :
lmfao!! xD.....i had a real shitty long day and when i read ur note..i bust out laughing...gay porn.....lol...so gay that i'm not alone in my strangeness lol
from samcorday :
i just realized that u listen to janis joplin. Sweet.she is the best :)
from axde :
ohhhhh city of god, i officially think you're utterly fantastic. such a good movie. and i have a friend who reminds me of your friend tony, as far as girls go. i refuse to watch him date some girl who isn't completely perfect and who doesn't think he's the mightiest human being on the planet. i will personally gut any girl who hurts him! errgh!
from theways :
he's cute! hope it works out
from friskyseal :
thank you so much, it means a lot to me.
from avox :
Thank you! =D
from soul-bride :
Hi :) thanks for adding my diary, its nice to know somebody else is reading it too. I always get excited when your diary is updated, because I find a lot of similar experiences and thinking, not trying to be weird or anything lol. And you are an amazing singer! thanks again :)
from omfggwtf :
you have such a beautiful voice :) xo.
from theways :
you sing beautifully
from silver4 :
you are absolutely crazy to say that that was awful! you have such a beautiful voice! i love it!! i would love to hear more :)
from samcorday :
dude!!!! u sounded awesome!!! never mind that u thought u sounded kinda messed up....i can only imagine what u sound like when u get the song right!!!
from omfggwtf :
thank you very much!! <3 xo.
from omfggwtf :
ah, well. i shall continue then ;) xo.
from omfggwtf :
happy belated birthday.. and i am still interested in your diary aha. what a stalker o_O haaa, xx
from sexyatheist :
congratulations on your grades! that is awesome and you are a total stud my dear.
from deriveazure :
Let it go, let yourself free. You deserve personal validation that you can manifest -yourself-; anything else is just fleeting. When you write, let it sing. Anything that comes out has worth. I may not be so beautiful it's retarded, but I am just a message away when in want of a friend. We may not always have the answers, but that's no reason to go it alone, eh?
from blacksheet :
Happy Birthday!
from silver4 :
Happy birthday!
from axde :
wow! happy birthday to you!
from omfggwtf :
well interesting diary (: i have been reading aha.
from ping-island :
this is me hugging you over the internet :(
from sexyatheist :
HUG! i know it doesn't really help but it's the best i can do.
from fangbanger :
The one I met up with is off the site you gave me, so thank youuu!! He is so lovely :D xx
from silver4 :
your priorities are on point. i like the way you think. you are multitasking and you will rock finals! gl with the men :)
from fangbanger :
Haha, I went on that site... I have had loads of responses, more than on like match.com and this other one I went to. Quite good. :D so let's see what happens now!
from axde :
maybe something invisible is just serenading you to sleep. [wouldnt that be great if it were true?] you're not crazy. it's just rare!
from ping-island :
i wonder about the young girls who are reading new moon and think that that kind of relationship is normal and acceptable. i hope i don't have daughters that exist merely as satellites of men.
from doctorkaysen :
I hope we're telling ourselves the truth.
from blacksheet :
Sure.. Just leave me a note with your email address and I'll send you a password. I'll delete your email address from my notes.
from sexyatheist :
me too! it's so hot. i guess that makes us both perverts.
from sugamaniak :
Aww, thank you for the happy bday! That made my day! youre pretty awesome yourself.
from sexyatheist :
i know it's scary. but you can do this. if ultimately you decide this isn't where you should be, fine. but don't give up just because it's scary right now.
from jimbostaxi :
Nice pic, and its ok to try something and fail, but its less ok to fail to try..... hope you stick with the program it will be worth it in the long run.: >)
from nessus :
"Know that feeling..." All too well.
from darthuae :
i say lose your mind and never take it back. the mind is so shallow, it has no idea what the world could be without it.
from darthuae :
meds ♥
from sexyatheist :
thank you. it definitely sucks right about now but i'm just getting through it day by day. and i'm glad you enjoy my diary. it might be awhile before it gets sexy again though. but i will work on it!
from sexyatheist :
good luck! you are going to kick so much ass
from nessus :
I didn't even know what Uggs were until yesterday. I'm actually quite proud of my ignorance in this area.
from sexyatheist :
that was a most excellent south park reference. and good luck on your final!
from ping-island :
it feels weird to say so, but showing empathy can also be reduced to a formula, if you are so inclined. i think a good way to handle situations like that is to acknowledge the person's feelings ("wow, that must be really tough, i'm sorry to hear that") and then express the wish for them to feel better or get through the situation or whatever ("i hope things work out for you" or "i know you'll be able to do it" or even "i wish there was something i could do to help"). haha geez i hope you weren't being sarcastic there because this will be an awfully silly note if you were!
from theways :
"i pretty much rock at finding ways to avoid things of real importance." - i feel you.
from avox :
I get like that sometimes too. All "oh shit I'm going to cry" when trying to explain something... Good times. Haha. As for the porn... I don't get porn, really. It's strange to me.
from deriveazure :
Wow, I'm flattered you think so. I've had a bit of a shitty night, and your note gave some much needed cheering up. Thanks a bunch. =)
from silver4 :
hiiii yes i'm in dental school, my program's pretty intense, so i can imagine what you are going to go through... only not involving teeth i guess. the men in my life drive me craaaazyyy, but in the midst of all the insanity, i have fun i guess. but then i get on here and whine about it all haha. i'd prefer to have my own, but.. meh, what can i do? thanks for your comments though, you're sweet! i like to believe that i deserve better, but i'm just waiting and waiting.. and waiting for it to kick in. you also have some fun guy stories! hope today was fun in nursing world!!
from jimbostaxi :
There are a lot of eloquent and poetic people here on Diaryland I know exactly how you feel. ;>)
from silver4 :
congrats on starting the nursing program! it sounds like it could be intense (because of the 2 years vs 4) but fun. one of my classmates was a nurse and she loved it. i'm happy for you and glad that you are doing it, it sounds like you are going to be busy... :)
from avox :
I wish I was in the boat of graduating at 21. Like you, I was focused on school, and my dad tried to buy me a backback that wheeled around but I fought tooth and nail against it (lol). Now that I think of it, and how heavy and annoying my bag was, I probably should've marvelled at the idea. Haha. Was in Academic advancement and all the like, but in the end I gave the big "fuck you" to the world and now I work a dead end government job in which I won't have in two months. You, my dear, are on the right track. 21 and where you want to be is a good thing.
from jimbostaxi :
Good luck on the nursing program :>)
from nessus :
She has those spidery Salvador Dali elephants on her calves! Also, thanks! Likewise!
from axde :
that's so funny, because i've found myself inebriated and singing the same damn song. what is it about that song when you're drunk? who knows. and thank you. i like reading yours, too. there's something wreckless about you, i'm not sure what. it's a beautiful wreckless, though. not a courtney love wreckless.
from axde :
i've been sittin heeeeere tryin to find myself
from avox :
Have you ever actually felt somebody before you've ever met them? It's quite an experience. I love Tegan and Sara... Ah. <3
from axde :
i went nuts when i turned twenty. hopefully yours will be more rich.
from avox :
And I'm back, but it's not because I have an intention of stalking you-- your user name is catchy is all. If it happens again, I may just have to add you on my reading list, because--well, it'd work out better that way.
from unclockwise :
Even though the Final Destination movies are pretty predictable and kind of lame, it seems like everyone gets at least a small bang out of them. (Including me! :D)
from ping-island :
something about making it through high school together always makes people think you're best buddies. now that i'm a senior all these other seniors that i've never spoken to before come up to me and say hi and stuff like we're friends. it's bizarre. i expect at the 20 year reunion i'll get hugs from people who actively disliked me.
from avox :
I've been on diaryland for ages-- a super duper diary name jumper, though... While reading through some of your entries, I gotta say-- yes! Don't let anyone think you need somebody to be Loved or in-Love or anything. You're right when you say you should give yourself time to fall in love with yourself. Loving one's self is one of the greatest journies a person can undergo-- more than having a significant other. When you truly learn to love yourself, everything you've ever wanted will land right in your hands-- doors will open to new adventures, and the world will love you back. You'll find someone who just can't get enough of you, for more than just a disposible one or two night stand. <3
from fangbanger :
I take care of myself on a daily basis now that I am single aswell. It is all good.
from fangbanger :
I thank you for adding me :D. I am glad my diary seems cool - I do aim for coolness, and winning the lottery.
from jimbostaxi :
Thanks for adding me and the note :>)
from stellarrobot :
Jesus. H. Christ. Who is that boy and why doesn't he have my number. I hope you fingered him back.
from atwowaydream :
as in regards to Dallas: Honey, you can do better. I mean, there's no comparison.
from xxholding-on :
hey i saw you were online and i really wanted the vote from diaryland members towards an art contest i joined. It's a coach marketing contest and i need as many votes as i can get, please help! In addition I just wanted to say this is not spam, its self promotion and I need as much help possible. Thanks again! http://www.brickfish.com/Pages/PhotosAlbums/PhotoView.aspx?picid=975395_34070543&pid=2767347&scid=452
from stellarrobot :
My god, kudos for sharing such intimate stuff. I really don't think STI's are for promiscuous people though, I heard that the W.H.O considers anyone who has more than one sexual partner a year to be promiscuous (what is that?!). Anyone who has sex, anytime, ever, can contract something, so don't let archaic attitudes about sexual behaviour affect your feeling about it. It's just a health thing.
from ceilings :
<3
from solitaryblue :
no no... don't end it all. you played by the rules. just hide away and think about what you want for a spell.
from solitaryblue :
hi :)

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