messages to wherwhenwhy:
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from flicka :
would like to start reading you again. I just took up the journal again (it's unlocked). I thought it would just be freeing to just feel free to express who I am without feeling ashamed or embarrassed. I closed it when my sister read it and proceded to read parts of it to my mother. She isn't talking to me now, so I doubt she's reading anyhow. Missed you and I hope to hear back from you sometime soon.
from flicka :
lost key and passcode to enter......
from ottodixless :
I'm glad you seem to be sorting things out. I'll be a bit sorry if you stop your diary, but maybe you'll still drop in occasionally if you have something to say. But it's been interesting reading you. Good luck!
from flicka :
Happy belated Yule..... It's been a while; I've missed you're olive colors and writings for a while.
from ottodixless :
Hi. I guess it's a bit late to wish you happy Christmas. Since it's Boxing Day. But happy new year, and I hope things are ok for you in the meantime. And don't be so hard on yourself, you need time and space to deal with things as well; there's nobody to blame when you or your father get upset. Also I just noticed you passed 1000 diary entries 3 entries ago, which probably merits drinking a very small glass of wine.
from ottodixless :
Thanks. I've got a Thorntons birthday cake all to myself so I definitely don't need any sweets. *feels nauseous*
from ottodixless :
Ick, Project 16 or whatever number sounds very Factory, and we all know what happened to them (if we watched 24 hour party people). I'd've thought anything concerning sheep would be dead obvious for Aberdeen, but maybe I'm prejudiced (I keep getting offered jobs in Aberdeen!). I'm sorry you had to pretend to like Rangers, oddly I got through childhood without ever being pressured to like any team, though my friends liked either Partick or Meadowbank Thistle, in the days when there were alternatives to Rangers/Celtic or Hearts/Hibs. Anyway, hope you're good. Take care. Or failing that get faking Jackson Pollocks. I have no idea.
from ottodixless :
Happy birthday. And have some Halloween sweets too.
from ottodixless :
I've never heard that version of Without You with the sad story spoken over the top, but now I really want to hear it, if only to find if it has any resemblance to Half Man Half Biscuit's equally tragic The Ballad Of Climie Fisher. But can I find it? No.
from ottodixless :
Hi. I'm sorry to hear about your Granny. Take care.
from calmish :
Hi, just read your entry about losing weight without losing weight and thought it may be to do with water. I was watching Oprah (sad I know) and she said that when you start getting healthier you retain all this water weight which makes you think you haven't lost anything but you have - or something like that. I was devastated when I heard about richard hammond too, I have this weird half-crush on him for some reason, he's amazing. Hope your ok! lots of love, Jo xx
from ottodixless :
This is pretty much the time of year for spiders to die, shortly after they reproduce, so maybe it died of natural causes. And they can survive being washed down drains so a little water won't hurt. (A friend of mine is obsessed with spiders, so I've done a lot of research.)
from ottodixless :
People keep phoning me up and asking me to go work in Aberdeen, so there must be some kind of economic boom going on up there, with jobs and house prices and stuff. I'm afraid that I politely declined all their offers, but somebody must want to live there. The National Trust will let you pay them money to go on holiday to historic places and build walls there, so maybe you should view this as a holiday, or charge people to help you.
from mycostume :
You're totally making sense about the weird at first....then staying weird freaking men out. So, I'm supposed to be myself at first and then turn into Pollyanna or some other woman? Pollyanna is weird too....she likes people and plays the glad game. I'm so screwed.
from ottodixless :
I can totally understand killing yourself in Shetland, but I don't know why so many women kill themselves in Glasgow. True, it rains and all the men are drunk and wear tracksuits and Pringle sweaters, and there's a river to jump in. But surely that's not enough? To change subjects, it seems you've got the weird/rambling/funny thing down to an art in your diary also.
from mycostume :
Well, I do like whiny English men... That's why if you read "flicka" you'll hear about my whiny English, non-singing man of 5-6 years! I will listen to the Echo and the Bunnyman as you suggested. I just purchased (goodbye all my money) Yeah Yeah Yeahs (Show your bones), 4 Bright Eyes CDs, 2 Enon CDs, and one Cursive CD. I was feeling manic--I even purchased Starbucks mocha.... Cheers!
from ottodixless :
Hi. Going to bed at 1230 doesn't really have the same magic if it's only to sit there doing stupid Japanese puzzles because it's the only way to force myself off the internet. Too many people I know have amusing stories about driving along while reading, taking notes, talking on the phone and drinking coffee and then finding themselves in a ditch, so I really should know better, but the only time I seem to have ideas is when my mind wanders as I'm driving along. But I got bored enough when I was regularly driving from Aberdeen to Edinburgh, if I had to go to Sunderland I'd probably get a TV fitted to my steering wheel.
from mycostume :
Echo and the Bunnymen? I really would like to listen to them. Thanks for your comments about my little one. My cat means the world to me. I have been reading you again after a long week of working doubles. I am a psych tech, which is a joke since I've been declared insane by the state. Talk about the blind leading the blind....or somesuch.
from calmish :
sorry you feel like shit, maybe killing your neighbour would make you feel better? take care. Lots of love, Jo xx
from cdghost :
what about licoroce?
from cdghost :
candy is cool.
from ottodixless :
The Water of Leith's really nice around Murrayfield, it's very wild and there's not much sign of the city (I saw a heron there last year and couldn't believe it was real and not plastic). It's a bit different down at the bottom end with the half-million pound flats stacked up very high next to the docks overlooking the flour mill. I'm a master at talking about creating; I think the main result of 5 years university is being really good at composing my own critical notices in my head, for things I've not even started on (maybe I should write funding proposals, just as long as I don't have to create what I've proposed). I think my attempts to play guitar failed because I had an acoustic, and I refuse to sing ever, and it's really boring to just strum chords. On the other hand, my brother just played the same nirvana riff for about 3 months.
from ottodixless :
Nah, "The search for perfection is the wrong place to start" makes too much sense. I like "Man on Regent Street is auto-destructive"; it has mystery and violence, and I still have no idea after all those years staring at it.
from calmish :
Just a wee thought bout JDB, I didn't like 'thats no way to tell a lie' either but I got the album anyway coz I love him, and it's actually really good, most of the songs are really catchy and it's definitely miles better than nicky wire's solo stuff. lots of love, again, Jo xx
from calmish :
that proposal(is that the right word?) sounded good, and professional! please don't hurt yourself. If you really need to vent then go out and find a ned and hurt them, not yourself. I sometimes cry instead of cutting, but that might just make things worse. PLEASE email me if you need someone to talk/rant to! lots of love, Jo xx
from calmish :
I remember those booklets well, 'what is depression?' 'what is self-harm?' 'coping with an eating disorder' etc. I used to cut them up and make weird little collages. Hope the counselling helps you a bit and you get someone nice, thats always good. email me if you need to talk/rant. lots of love, Jo, xx
from mycostume :
You and calmish should move HERE! No, I appreciate honesty. It's the best thing for me. I cannot have hope when none is there. I LOVE it when people are like "bla, bla, bla TRUTH....I know it hurts, but this is how it is!" I'll be less selfish soon, but my cat is in trouble and I cannot fucking think.
from calmish :
Your dog is so cute! And he looks so happy. Lots of love, Jo xx
from calmish :
Move to New Zealand with me! Seriously! When my ma qualifies as a mental health nurse in approx 2 and a half years time she's moving there and wants me to come with her. You should totally come with us, the air's purer and there's miles and miles of open space and me and you could get a studio and just paint for the rest of our lives (not in a lesbian way or anything). It would rock! Hope you feel better soon, hopefully before winter. Lots of love, Jo xx
from calmish :
Sorry about your grannie, that really sucks. Good luck torching you neighbour! Lots of love, Jo xx
from ottodixless :
It seems a bit obvious/superfluous to say that your pictures of Green Day stars are better than Fearne Cotton's art. But anyway, even though you may have a hard fight being cooler than Cyndi Lauper, it's definitely your job and your pleasure to set fire to Fearne Cottons's hair or whatever. She must be stopped. Even if you should be competing with Matmos's tribute to Darby Crash by telling people you've done worse things than stub out cigarettes on your arm. Clearly painting is the way to go. (I'm still hoping you'll make the RSA.)
from calmish :
awww! saving baby ducks, you're such a good samaritan! I once waded across a disgusting polluted river in order to save a load of fish who were being baked alive in a sunlit pool on the river bank. We're definitely going to heaven! Lots of love, Jo xx
from calmish :
I don't remember seeing a ginger rogers postcard, but I do remember the queen and princess margaret photos when they were really wee, and also a weird postcard with chimpanzees at a dinner table? I'm sorry to here about your cataracts, I wish I could say I knew how you feel but I can't, tho I do know what it's like to have shit eyesight and worry about going blind. Can you not get them removed? lots of love, jo xx
from mycostume :
I found you again! I have my diary locked too. Calmish reads one of my diaries..... I used to read you, and then I lost you, now I've found you again and you're locked :*( cdghost was reading mycostume before it was locked. Let me know if you want my passcode or my other journal.
from calmish :
yay you for phoning the police! seriously, I totally know how it feels to be harrassed by scummy chav sprogs, every time I'm at the fucking bus stop they start pestering me, throwing cans and broken bottles etc. The only difference is I let it get to me. Good for you sticking up for yourself and not letting them get you down! I think there should be a government cull, thank god I'm not the PM. lots of luv, Jo xx
from ottodixless :
My shinbone is bumpy. I hope it doesn't mean I've got any disease. I don't understand why anybody would come from the USA to play golf in Scotland, don't they have rain machines and wind machines and refrigerators and locals speaking incomprehensible languages throwing rocks at them, back home?
from calmish :
Thanx for the note. It's exciting your looking for a new job, at least I think so, especially if you get one you really enjoy, and you might meet someone you really click with. Good luck, I hope you get a new job soon coz the one you've got now sounds miserable. Lots of love, Jo xx
from calmish :
thanx for the email, you're right, they were bastards but they'll burn in hell so it's all good! glad you're staying sober but maybe try to pace yourself with the whole fitness jaunt, you might hurt yourself or give your body too much to deal with all at once. lecture over! take care, luv jo xx
from calmish :
I hope you're feeling ok and manage to stay away from the drink, don't know what else to say. lots of love and support, jo xx
from calmish :
There was an exhibition in the Fruitmarket Gallery in Edinburgh a while ago by this woman who had done what you did with the drapes, only she did it with flowery wallpaper and felt tip pens. Yours is much better tho. Lots of luv, jo xx
from ottodixless :
You don't want to be a functional depressive. It's like functional alcoholics; they can drink a bottle of vodka and still do a day's work. That's not really to be proud of and will end in tears. You should be a functional not-ill-at-all. (Unrelatedly, I hope to see you in Edinburgh at the RSA if you get there.)
from calmish :
I wish I had a point of view gun to shoot people with, I love the hitchhiker's guide, but the books are better, obviously. Why are u interested in beheaded wives, thats kool. fingers crossed u find a new job soon-X-. luv jo, xx
from calmish :
u sound just like my mum! ur probably right tho, it probably is just a bug. there's always trillions of bugs going round so no doubt i've caught one/all of them. paranoia always wins... luv jo x
from calmish :
hi. sorry about your 'protector' scaring you. Maybe it's just a ghost thats pissed off and its annoying you coz you're sensitive and its feeding off you. if it keeps bothering you, you could maybe get someone to come and put it over? I know someone who had that done, tho it doesn't always work. Oh and I think you're totally being taken advantage of at work and you shouldn't put up with it. Anyway, hope you're ok otherwise. luv jo, xx
from ottodixless :
Hi, I think the problem with the Pixies was I couldn't stop jumping up and down long enough to take a photo. I threw out all my old pop magazines in a very boring way without taking advantage of a window; like most people my dad said "get rid of those magazines..." It sounds like you had the reverse. New Scientist is good, though.
from cdghost :
take anything you want. it's all for you!
from cdghost :
let's talk about ice.. which leads to snow.
from ottodixless :
Watching people shave is either depressing or scary, but you're not wasting your life (not completely). I'm sitting here writing stories and too scared to send them to a magazine/publisher, but you're making art and showing it (I wonder if post-exhibition depression is a condition like post-natal depression).
from ottodixless :
Ha. Unbelievable article. I know Aberdeen is a little backward when it comes to modern art, but even so. They should be objecting to artists painting the countryside when you can just go out your house and look at hills and stuff for free. And as for pictures of people. Still, it's something to be proud of (both the exhibit and the reaction).
from calmish :
hi, remember me? my laptop went to the big PC World in the sky so I haven't been online for like, months. It sucks. Anyway, I hope everything's going good for you and I miss reading you're diary, but I'm working out my finances for a new PC so hopefully I'll be moving my sorry self back into diaryland soon. til then...
from ottodixless :
I'm sure the best hope for Aberdeen's tourism is for making it some kind of Fundamentalist Presbyterian Theme World, which sadly means not being nice to artists. Though on the positive side it also means not being nice to nudists. And are the boulders to stop the beach washing away, or is there a plan that in a heavy storm they'll be swept up by the sea and dumped on Codonas?
from cdghost :
how does your garden grow?
from cdghost :
monsters. are real.
from ottodixless :
I'm actually surprised that the Mail has sufficient interest in art to get upset, or to notice; you should certainly put it on your CV/posters (was it a SHOCKING EXPOSE?). I can't express an opinion on the P&J because it's far too dull to read and I don't believe anyone under the age of 60 actually reads it unless they're farmers or oil company executives. I wonder if the SAC would give me money to buy enough Star Wars lego to make a house (and employ an assistant to build it); as long as it's not an opera house.
from ottodixless :
I'm so jealous! I want the Daily Mail to hate me. It's one of my major ambitions. (I've decided not to go with the flat in the river, btw.)
from ottodixless :
Wow, that looks amazing. Claustrophobic yet oddly calm. Shame I'm not going to be in Aberdeen any time soon.
from candoor :
hope all is well in your world... Merry Happy New Year to you and all you love and may 2006 be the best year you've known so far :)
from bambamam :
hey im curious what u write about. can i read ur diary please?
from cdghost :
as long as we can do it together! it does not matter to me :)
from cdghost :
we can practise..together. it'll be a gas!
from cdghost :
let me see you 1,2 step
from refusal :
Hi, if you came to Edinburgh today, you seemed to have timed it just when most of the galleries were shut and had finished their shows and were redecorating. Did you find anything to actually see? (You missed the Francis Bacon and Paula Rego shows which were the best here this year, and most of Ian Hamilton Finlay, but I hope your trip to the fiery sunshine and tropical weather here wasn't totally pointless.)
from carinolaffz :
hey mama!!! damn i didn`t know that u added me lol my bad...but anyways, i locked my diary so please send me a note with ur email addy on it and i`ll give u my username/pword asap! thanx =] btw! can i have ur info too? please send it 2 msangie_2k4@yahoo.com and thank you once again
from amomsmusings :
Sorry about the paint. I know it's frustrating, but don't give up. I'd like to see the finished product. *hugs*
from baggage :
hey there sexy. If I'm gonna be in your favorites list, then what about letting me read your ramblings?
from refusal :
Congratulations on leaving the most incomprehensible diary comment. And yes, that's the message, but not the secret message. I am being very bored-person-does-silly-things. Good luck in breaking floors. I guess you could get something big and hollow like an old metal water-tank, prop it up on trestles or scaffolding, and then fill up it with water or rocks till the trestles broke. Or would that be cheating?
from calmish :
hey. thanks for the note and I wish I was as strong as you, but I'll probably end up doing all the things I don't want to do coz I have a huge problem saying no to people, especially my sister coz I know she'll get pissy about it. Oh well. Oh and thanks for letting me read that thing, it was very insightful and well written. I hope I don't sound patronising, I just thought it was dead good, despite the misery and stuff. luv Jo xx
from amomsmusings :
Ah, I love Jaguars. Perhaps your dad would like to ship one of his to me!
from refusal :
I'm afraid Arts for Social Inclusion isn't just an Aberdeen thing. I used to know someone who worked in Edinburgh in a "social inclusion" project, where most people were tackling poverty and rights and stuff, but she did "social inclusion thru arts" (art shows in towerblocks, community theatre, etc). Her job largely involved meeting members of that excluded social class, art administrators (seminars, parties, etc). Maybe I'm being unfair, but most artists don't want to be included in society anyhow. (A few months ago there was an advert for Arts Social Inclusion person in Aberdeen, which seemed to place most of the emphasis on building links with businesses, another group excluded from society with good reason.)
from refusal :
Surely every child sets fire to things just to see what happens, no matter how big control freaks their parents are. I hope. It's the only way to learn about fire safety. I was lucky to have a metal bin in my bedroom, though it was never the same after I threw a burning newspaper into it (after spending ages running round my room in desperation unable to open teh window one-handedly). You're probably right about the rest of it, but even if my parents let me paint everything I owned, I'd still be a shit artist.
from amomsmusings :
I won't tell you who won the election, I'm surprised that I even know, but I happened to overhear the news. An iron will make sewing easier (presumably) but I've found that they also make you feel guilty. You'll start an iron pile which you will feel obligated to make wrinkle-free, and then you're caught in a vicious cycle. But don't listen to me, I think I've just got some weird hang-up where ironing is concerned!
from amomsmusings :
I wish I had taken one of those lovely 2+ week vacations that Europeans enjoy, but in reality it was only a week. *sigh* I don't know what happened, I think I just had so much energy when I got back that I went on a tear and worked myself into a frenzy. Anyway, I'd love to read you if you're giving out your password. Thanks for missing me!
from refusal :
But Moto Kinross has the award-winning best toilets in Scotland, so I'm sure it's far better than anywhere in Edinburgh, if only you didn't have to drive to get there. And hello.
from calmish :
yay! thanks for the advice and encouragement, its much appreciated, especially coming from someone with so much experience of the art world. I was actually thinking of inviting you to the exhibition (when it happens) but I was apprehensive in case it was a bit cheeky since I don't know you, so I was dead excited when I read your note, I would love for you to be there. Luv Jo xx
from calmish :
Kingseat looks creepy. sorry for leaving so many messages. xx
from calmish :
I'm sorry you're having such a shit time, I know what it's like when you know you need help but the psychiatrists won't give you any coz you're not quite 'sick' or 'mental' enough in their eyes. I hope things get better for you soon. Take care, luv Jo. xx
from calmish :
fanx
from calmish :
Hey, thanks for the note, its much appreciated and sorry it's taken me so long to get back. Anyway, I was just wondering do u live in Aberdeen? I'm not gonna stalk u or anything I just think u said something about Aberdeen in one of your entries, and I was born and raised in Bucksburn Aberdeen and all my family who I never see still live there. Anyway, just tell me if I'm being too nosy, I was just interested thats all. Its a shame u lost your pictures, have u ever been to see the manics? I love them and I'm seeing them in a couple of weeks. Take care, luv Jo xx
from amomsmusings :
Hey, thanks for taking the time to explain the rules of faffing. I think that perhaps the more I indulge in guilt-free faffing the better off I'll be.
from amomsmusings :
Well, I'm back and want to thank you for giving a name to what I do...faffing, huh? I like that. Probably due to my Scottish roots. And yeah, I'd love for you to dig up the rules for faffing when you get the time.
from leapyear84 :
Hello Just a wee note to say thanks muchly for adding mine to your favourite diaries list, I've just noticed. Any modicum of popularity is much appreciated! And from a fellow Belle and Sebastian fan, it's even better. So thanks.
from ska-t :
when i comes to "letting things bother you", i guess that qualifies me to an opinion... i mean, i was ready to go all kung fu on my neighbor's arse on assumption. exclamation point. can't see the forest for the trees, occasionally. hold tight, dahling.
from ska-t :
i know you don't need preaching, but wrecking yourself to get the arseholes to notice seldom works. in my experience, they never notice anything, anyway, unless it's arse kissing. so... keep your strength up, if only for yourself. can't always be this way. so i say to myself.
from amomsmusings :
Sounds like things are going better for you. I'm glad!
from refusal :
Hi. I guess nobody can escape diaryland. I really hope things will get better for you, it's been scary just reading about it the past few weeks.
from amomsmusings :
Reading your posts was like watching someone self-destruct in slow motion and not being able to help. I hope you're feeling better both on the outside and the inside. *hugs*
from evilreindeer :
Holy crap, are you OK? I'm sorry life is so rough, hang on. *hugs*
from ska-t :
damn... <i>that</i> was an emotional rollercoaster! took a year off my life... and i don't have that many left!
from onewetleg :
well, where are you going, then?
from refusal :
Hi, hope you're ok and not leaving us in any way. I'm waiting for your film to be made.
from ska-t :
hope the ground gets a bit more stable for you... it's a little shaky on this side of the pond, too, i can assure you.
from amomsmusings :
Sorry that the day is so sucky. Hope it gets better! *HUGS*
from refusal :
Ah the joys of German compound nouns, which make German the most fun language in the world. "Entfernungseinstellung" means focussing, so "entfurnungseinstellring" must be focussing ring. I found this website http://home.arcor.de/Objektive/Phictionary.html which has some photographic terms in different languages. It doesn't have everything though; I translate "einschraubgewinde fur kinoleuchte" as screw-thread for camera light (a light you attach to the camera?). Otherwise, there are people who specialise in collecting and even selling/copying old instruction manuals. Good luck anyhow.
from amomsmusings :
"Available in large print for the partially sighted." No way! It's a good thing a glass barrier is provided. Somehow it's comforting for me to know that the US isn't the only country that provides employment for the totally incompetent. And much thanks for giving me permission to openly be a Muse fan. I'm changing my profile right now. :)
from ska-t :
big article on Manic Street Preachers in January issue of MOJO. the one with Sid Vicious on the cover. you may like.
from onewetleg :
i've never been able to keep a pet alive either. i can barely manage a plant. thank gods i never had kids.
from evilreindeer :
My great uncle committed suicide in the grounds of Kingseat in 1963, age 43. He had been a patient there... off and on for years. Schizophrenic, but also perhaps PTSD (because of the war). Anyway, he disappeared one day and was found dead a few days later, still surrounded by the sunday papers. I believe it was the april. weather must have been nice. he'd saved up his medication. those grounds are huge. I don't know, never been there. anyway, just thought I'd share that little gem!
from candoor :
wow, I am amazed at how many diaries have many hundreds of entries and I've only now discover them through a banner... Happy V-Day :)
from sodead4 :
Hey there just wanted to say sorry for taking soooooooo long to reply to your note my computer has been very poorly damn computer highjackers! they all must be punished lol. Thanks for your note it made senses i try not to think about the past and future but its just so damn hard!but when i look back to when i was 16 and to now i can see it has got better doesnt seem like it sometimes but it has!guess you just kinda grow up and things arnt as bad as you think they were/are. now im the one pratteling on! sorry wont bother you anymore take care x
from satellitebob :
i like the idea of the artists world cup. if i could draw i would be in. for about two years me and some drinking buddies who play in bands have been talking about getting a team together, that would be kind of art like... but we have only been talking about this when we were drinking, so nothing has gotten off the ground yet.
from to-my-heart :
kewl site...and don't limit yourself to jumping in front of a bus. Be different. Jump in front of a llama.
from impetuousme :
well you're mighty welcome... and .. uh... "bollucks" is a nasty word then? mmm... better consult my brithish dictionary on that one. anyhow, thanks a kajillion... keep up the good work...man... Sam
from impetuousme :
hey, i just found your site. lovin it... truly. great shit, but one thing, where the hell is the link to go BACK a page, ya know, to read what you wrote last time??? am i to use your "Once upon a Time" link to read your other entriesd???? anyway, like i said. love your page. keep on man. Sam
from onewetleg :
good job on the layout. it looks lovely. love, jj
from sodead4 :
Hey there, just wanted to say I LOVE your manics pictures on your diary love your site :)
from ska-t :
i'm thinking that i need to start listening to the Manic Street Preachers... i've always been a Clash/Rancid fan. i just got the message with the Libertines. i, for one, like your sitework.
from refusal :
I grew up near Ravelston Dykes in Edinburgh and it always seemed a very strange and mysterious and cool name, since there are no dykes or other things dutch boys stick their fingers in anywhere near there, and I always imagined it must be below sealevel or something. But it's also very posh, which is probably why it's in furniture adverts (though they could have had an iguana called Morningside). The Northern Hotel always looks sort of like bits are going to fall off or it's going to fall down so you shouldn't stand so close to it, whtich I think is quite appealing in a building.
from ska-t :
cheers to your motivation to jettison yourself from a no-win situation... would that more of us were so proactive. self-determination... is good. have an excellent holiday.
from onewetleg :
http://members.diaryland.com/edit/survey.phtml?survey=onewetleg-footwear&user=lulu-burden have you seen the list of peopl who have takne your footwear survey lately? this one didn't have very good answers. i hate it when people take a survey and answer it like they think no one is on the other side. anyway, there are a few good responders on the list. any time you have a new survey, id be glad to host it. love,
from satellitebob :
that is a damned fine letter.
from satellitebob :
the job is safe, thanks. I'm hungry, damnit.
from onewetleg :
mucho congrats on buying the flat. maybe i can come live with you. kidding. love,
from satellitebob :
we may or may not be losing our jobs, so when the GM was walking around handing out envelopes I was a little worried that he was saying his personal byes to us. but he was just handing out checks because the normal person was not here. i forgot that the next two days are holidays and thats why we are paid today. I'm all better now.
from satellitebob :
very cool! you have a flat and an attic. If i had a giant cup of beer in front of me instead of this cup of ice, i would hold it up and scream something like NICE ONE! and take a big gulp.
from satellitebob :
lucky for me the dogs were wearing no Burberry, that would be kind of fun to see. America's crime fighting dog, McGruff, wears it though. like an inspector or something. he takes bites out of crime.
from cdghost :
john peel *sniff* beautiful entry..
from satellitebob :
i almost stabbed word last night. i made tons of changes to my resume, thought I saved it, then you know what? I didn't because my word is fucked. fuck. so i fixed it and it sent me in a tizzy of sorts that i yelled at my cat for jumping on the keyboard and he ran to the living room and started scrathing the couch and I felt bad so i apologized to him but then the election happend and i cursed some more then I couldn't go to sleep and i have an interview today and I am fucking sleepy and i don't even know where the interview is and i think i just wrote an entire entry here, on your notes. enjoy. and kick some ass.
from heelandlass :
Oh god, good luck. I hated this whole flat buying thing, I'm sure it's been invented by some sadistic twat who enjoys watching people feel more angst in one go than they will ever feel again for the rest of their lives. The best bit of advice I ever got was this though: even if you don't get this one, the flat you do get will be the perfect flat for you because you're not going to go for a flat you don't like. I know that sounds really obvious, but I lost sight of that when we were looking for our last place. Each flat we saw was THE ONE and when we didn't get it I was gutted. However, the flat we've got is better than all the rest we went for. It's a horrible game though. I have everything crossed for you (except my eyes) xxx
from satellitebob :
know what? I hope you get it.
from satellitebob :
you could turn waiting for the phone to ring into a game called "drinking and waiting for the phone to ring". every minute it doesn't ring, you drink. after some minutes, you forget what you are doing, but probably keep drinking. but then if it does ring, you might be too sloshed to bother with it. this could cause a problem that I feel you will be able to overcome when it gets there. good luck.
from onewetleg :
gah. i hate new shoes. i just want to wear my old ones. hey, only 8 days to your birthday! love,
from satellitebob :
I think you have a plan there. just put an ad in the local paper, find someone you wouldn't stab in the neck and marry them. I could come over for the wedding, maybe meet me a rich girl, and bam, we have a win win situation.
from satellitebob :
yeah, its time for me to leave this friggin work! Been here too long, i just put this message on my notes page, because I'm smart. ----------------------------------- or you could be like that guy phil collins played in that movie, maybe rob some trains. do trains still carry money? i really meant to marry rich... damnit.
from satellitebob :
i just saw jj's note below this. I wanted to get 10,000 loan to consolidate my debt, i needed to make 100,000 a year to get that loan, now if i made that fucking much, i wouldn't need 10,000. damn fuckers. but what i was here to say is that I did get 4 hours overtime today. thats like 6 hours of extra pay, so i shouldn;t be pissing and moaning like i am, but if i weren't pissing and moaning you'd think to check me for fever or something.
from onewetleg :
i tried recently to get a loan of only $2000 dollars from the bank that i keep my money in. they wouldn't give it to me because i had no credit folder. not bad credit. just no credit. life is very unfair to the working class.
from satellitebob :
cleveland seems like it would be a shit place, but according to people who have been there it is actually a rocking kind of place. I think the Rock n Roll hall of Fame is there. Never been though.
from satellitebob :
As you loving step-brother, I say go with the mortgage. You don't really have to live there for the next 25 years, in a couple years, sell for a profit and move into a new place, new mortgage. mmmm profit.
from onewetleg :
i read your last entry in a scottish accent. out loud. to tommy. it was beautiful. i wish i could hear your voice. our condolences on the loss of your friend. love, jj
from onebluegreen :
I'm very sorry about your friend.
from satellitebob :
sorry about your friend.
from onewetleg :
you should be almost back from holiday by now. i hope you find a place soon. i remember last year. wow. has it really been a year?
from satellitebob :
hope you and your crazy hair have a naked filled happy happy holiday.
from satellitebob :
driving is a lot of fun, and I would think that driving a jaguar is even more fun than a lot. I don't like it when landlords don't renew leases. I am lucky because I have been living without a lease for 2 years, as long as i pay the rent they are happy. You can always live in the car.
from onewetleg :
i can relate with the bubbly on the outside dying on the inside feeling. i get that all the time, though its not so bad anymore lately. i'm waiting for a big crash. no, i don't wear the scarves, i just collect them. i have them hanging over my computer now getting polluted with cigarette smoke. i should have them in ziplocks stored somewhere but they are so beautiful i can't bear to put them away...
from satellitebob :
when i was younger and able to handle a head full of the acid we watched phantasia backwards while listening to Front 242... we didn't kill anyone, but bjork did make me see skeletons dancing on the ceiling of my darkened room.
from onewetleg :
that porn entry was positively brilliant. you are so smart, woman. porn is good. people are bad. love, jj
from satellitebob :
I have no god parents, but my uncle set an island on fire when he was young. they were having a picnic on this island in the middle of a lake, and he was playing with the fire. they jumped in the boat and sped off. FIRE! This is crazy stuff.
from satellitebob :
sounds like dads could have their own tv show.
from satellitebob :
That was a very good entry. it had it all, ups and downs and your dad catching the fence on fire. my dad caught himself on fire, but i think he was high. he dropped and rolled like a good boy, so he's ok. and i don't think pain is a very memorable experience, i mean you feel it when it happens, but you just know it as pain when you remember it, can't feel it. don't know if that made any sense, and if it didn't, then fuckit.
from satellitebob :
I hear ya on the not being listened too. I think its because I am not so big and look 12. they think I am, so i grow beard to look old and my age and now I look like a 12 year old with a beard. And still, no one listens to me. you could always fill baloons with soapy water and throw them at her, but she might call the police, and you don't need that.
from satellitebob :
I think I could go for a glass of whiskey and a dab right now. the bastards frown upon it at work though. I think I need to just go back home before the boss gets here.
from satellitebob :
sorry about your dog. i'll do a shot in the fellas honor. and for you. and for me.
from cdghost :
good to be home
from marsist :
I'm so sorry... :(
from onewetleg :
please, let me fix your diary. yours with utmost respect, jj
from heelandlass :
I would actually associate Robbie Williams fans with something as yoblike as pissing in someone's gardens. Another reason to hate that smug fuck! xxx
from heelandlass :
I would actually associate Robbie Williams fans with something as yoblike as pissing in someone's gardens. Another reason to hate that smug fuck! xxx
from heelandlass :
Oh my god, I am so glad I wrote about Aberdeen yesterday! You've reminded me of all the hellish parts of it. We decided last night that we wouldn't move, it's a huge lifestyle change and really, I know I wouldn't be happy there and neither would bandito. Thanks for the reminder though - a little refresher never hurts! xxx
from satellitebob :
according to my records you have not taken the survey before, but the records have been known to drink as well.
from satellitebob :
I don't like having pointy things stuck at me so the fencing is probably out. Play a bit of soccer though, and I call it soccer not football or footy, so i hope thats not a problem. Don't drink much tea and when i do i throw the bag away. one month trial is only fair, I mean this is family and all.
from satellitebob :
I could be your brother. I'm kind of responsible. almost 32. won't tell on you. will only piss you off if i think its funny. so theres my application.
from onewetleg :
wow, your footwear survey got a lot of hits. 9 so far
from onewetleg :
one word. earplugs. i got ear plugs and i have been sleeping soundly (no pun intended) for about 4 nights straight now. ok, that was more than one word. sue me. ahhahaha. love,
from onewetleg :
'oh, pants! i just want to go to my bed.' you are such a nice girl. i hope you feel better. maybe it's but another allergy that is making you feel tired. blame it on the allergies. 'oh, the weather, it brings up my allergies.' tomorrow will be my sixth day working. but after that, i get 2 whole days off. i am going to sleep, and sleep. and read. read, read, read. i got my hands on a copy of 'bringing out the dead.' i can't wait to have some alone time with it. ok, im done. love
from onewetleg :
with all respect to cdghost, dreams suck and i hate them. i don't understand why my brain has to torture me while i sleep. we don't get overtime either. because it's illegal not to pay overtime here, what they do to us is make us work longer if they need us and then give us the hours off on another day. does that make sense the way i explained it. like i work 9 hours today, and then tomorrow i only work 7. yeah. love,
from cdghost :
dreams are good, even the ones that confuse you. hope you are well/
from onewetleg :
ah, i see. the problem was you didn't get drunk last night. i know when i don't get drunk it totally screws up the next day for me. love,
from onewetleg :
ok, maybe it's because i am reading american psycho for the fifth time, but your notes about poison and stabbing are starting to raise a red flag for me. is everything ok? well, of course it isn't, but are you killing people? or small animals? i hope not. let coldooze fix up your template. she could make it load faster and have a much more efficient navigation. i know you serial killers love efficiency. love,
from onewetleg :
my granny had those little balls attached to her ears when she had motion sickness. thanks for the link i did get a good laugh out of it. don't listen to the leg, it doesn't know what its talking about. straw is no replacement for a gall bladder. i think it's purpose is to produce stomach acid to digest food, isn't it? eh. what do i know? love,
from onewetleg :
yesss, stabbesses, the little manssss... wait a minute, when did you get a bunch of money? i must have missed something. feel better. love,
from satellitebob :
Yes, please stab that little man, go for his knees first, he needs to learn a lesson. that lesson being,"don't stand in the way of the satellite's plan to rule the world". then you can make an evil laugh, he'll get the point. what if there is a plot twist and the little man is actually *DUH DUH DUUUUUUUUH* a woman!!!!!!! whoa.
from satellitebob :
that is odd strange and wierd that it wouldn't always work for ya. I'm happy that you can now read it though. thank coldooze for that, like magic and junk. grammy didn't dance on the table naked at the party, but it was still a damned good time.
from strummer- :
Interesting history. It is strange to think of how and why things happen. Why so much suffering seems to be necessary.
from refusal :
Hi, you're mistaking me for someone else if you think I care about my towels matching my bathroom. I was unable to find wooden towels anywhere, and have no idea what other colour is in my bathroom, so streaks might go nicely. Your entry today did remind me of childhood holidays in Scotland: paddling is a sadly unappreciated activity. Even if it gets a bit carried away and ends up waist-deep/sitting/drenched, no matter how shallow the water is. But I must admit I was too scared even to paddle in Loch Ness (more because I was told how deep it was, rather than from the monster).
from marsist :
cool! your username color goes pretty well with your page.
from onewetleg :
what do you mean you are getting a teen? like a teen that needs homecare? that would be interesting. take care of that leg, elevate it and maybe put some ice on it for a few minutes a day. love,
from onewetleg :
couldn't agree with you more. cars suck. everyday i almost get hit by some ass that can't wait for me to walk across the street. like it will really slow you down to wait for three seconds while i walk across the street. fuck them.
from onewetleg :
ironing. first a little history. back in the old days, before electric washers and dryers, the iron was used to kill the germs in the cloth after being washed in dirty water. next, to test the iron spit a big glop of spit on your finger and don't actually touch the iron. just touch it with the big glop of spit. if it sizzles, then the iron is ready. lastly, never throw the iron. just unplug it and stick it in the toilet. no one gets hurt but the iron and the steam and sizzle noise is very satisfying. DON'T FORGET TO UNPLUG THE IRON! very important. remember, ironing isn't about getting wrinkles out, it's about killing germs. have a nice day.
from marsist :
thank you...
from onewetleg :
i hate dozzy theresa tourists too. when i was a kid i lived in a little town that was overrun my tourists every summer. we used to yell at them and harrass them in general because they were in our park and we wanted to be alone to do naughty stuff like we did all winter. love,
from cdghost :
hey you, when i come back i hope to see you still here so I can spend all my time catching up on reading.
from onewetleg :
oh, for the love of theresa! can't you turn these people in? this is less than care and more like elder abuse. it makes me sick to think of it.
from onewetleg :
hello. are you the one that signed my comments anonymously? i hope you feel better soon. love,
from marsist :
HAHAHA you are so right. :)
from refusal :
PS: From Tuesday's news, "Hollywood couple Katharine Hepburn and Spencer Tracy were the best on-screen lovers, according to a study by the Royal Society of Chemistry." http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/entertainment/3662251.stm
from refusal :
I'm afraid I've never been to Washington Services. Tebay in Cumbria has always been the gateway to the south, and the welcome stop coming home, for me. I always thought a pedometer would be a good excuse for not exercising, since you can see how much exercise you get walking around doing all your normal daily stuff, which might be more than the exercise you get when you're wearing shiny/tight clothing and showing your knees to the world. But I guess if you only use it while actually officially exercising you'll not have that excuse.
from refusal :
Katherine Hepburn died last year. Sorry. I don't know why she'd be on the news. Maybe they're remaking another of her films, or something equally evil.
from onewetleg :
it sounds like you have shin splints. i got that. the doctor told me to take ibuprofen for the pain, stretch before walking and the most important thing, good shoes with thick soles. i got dr scholls arch support insoles and now i have no more pain. have fun with grannie.
from strummer- :
ARgh! I hear you. I know i need to pace myself. It gets rough. Thanks for the note. :)
from incinerated :
That's awful that she was denied that sort of care. Who cares if she doesn't need medical care? It's still obvious that she needs some assistance and supervision during certain tasks. You're right, how is someone supposed to fully recover when put in a situation like that? Infuriates me as well because my grandmother has been hospitalized many times and I couldn't even imagine. She was lucky though and when released from the hospital was given home care. I don't know how the health system works over there, but she had an assistant (not always a nurse) come in once a day to help with toileting, dressing changes, and food prep until she was well enough to do it on her own. No medicine or IVs, etc, just a little extra help with her ADLs. Seems logical to me. Anyway, I'm rambling now. I wish the best of luck to your grandmother for a continued recovery and to you as well.
from onewetleg :
and the book list. it was just for fun. if you weren't having fun doing it then you shouldn't do it, right? take care and have fun. love,
from onewetleg :
oh, it's beautiful. you're the best. love,
from onewetleg :
i want to stab people all the time. the fact that i work with a sharp object in my hand all the time doesn't help. countless numbers of people don't know how lucky they are. i only did it once. with a pencil. in his leg. i also want to jump in front of cars all the time. or a train. glad to hear that your granny is coming home. i am having a hard time loading your page. please, think about making a separate page for your rings. as a favor to me. love you much, jj
from onewetleg :
i don't understand how a finger could hit the escape key either. i hope you and yours are ok. fucking doctors.
from satellitebob :
I like to yell at the pinky, it makes it sad, but it really does deserve it. And it makes me feel better. But a pinky guard would be bette for all involved.
from satellitebob :
one escape key incident was because I was screwing around with my keyboard while thinking and some how the left pinky hit it. and another time the pinky just smacked it somehow. maybe it is the pinky's fault as much as the escape key. and I wouldn't really kick a poodle, just don't like them. but if there were one next to me right now I would still shake its head all around saying nice things to it, because its a dog, and they're all mostly cool in my book. as for the not loading thing, I don't know. blame the pinky.
from not-so- :
Thanks for the words of support - I really appreciate your kind thoughts x
from marsist :
I'm with you on the doctors thing. I *know* there have to be good doctors in the world; I wish there was a big listing of them so I could find out who they are and go to them. hope you feel better.
from amber-darko :
Hi! My name's Amber and I'm 23. I am writing a book about my personal account of self hate and self harm. I'd like to include some personal stories from different stages in healing, different sexes and different ages to show that no one is the same, but we all are hurting in ways that we are unable to convey. I do not intend on printing names, there is no length restriction and I will not censor. I have decided to also include poetry or just general opinions. Please email me if you are interested. amberwilliams43@sbcglobal.net
from onewetleg :
good entry. i remember working in bars and drinking in bars. good times, bad times. going home at sunrise with my stocking in my bag and my dress ripped. trying to throw up it the toilet and missing but hitting my shoes then going and having another shot with puke on my shoes. people passing out in the bathroom. every saturday night someone would rip the towel dispenser off the ladies room wall. love,
from onewetleg :
the porridge sounds really good. and i like the colors. better than black and white. love,
from onewetleg :
wait, one more. maybe you could dash on some vinegar and be a nice salad dressing. just kidding. i'm really glad you are feeling better. more love,
from onewetleg :
glad your skin is doing better. olive oil is a good moisturizer. have you tried sunflower or almond oil? or maybe you could get garlic flavored olive oil and keep away the vampires. love,
from not-so- :
I found out how to do the dictionary thingy. Cheers x
from not-so- :
Hey. How did you get that cool word of the day link from dictionary.com? I just went on there and couldn't work out how to do it... x
from onewetleg :
sorry about your gramma. i hope you are doing ok. love,
from evilreindeer :
So sorry to hear about your loss. Thinking about you, with love. Take care. Nx
from marsist :
I'm sorry for your loss... this has been an awful time for you... I hug you.
from marsist :
thanks, dear... so glad you're feeling better today...
from faith5by5in :
Just letting you know, my new username on Diaryland is MarineBoi. Hope you come check it out sometime. Luv ya. Ta.
from onewetleg :
argh. sounds terrible. i don't think its nerves that are making my tummy hurt. i don't know what it is. i am pooping ok. it's feeling better today but still twinges when i move. a very particular pain. right in one spot. oh, well. it will go away. sorry for the details. love,
from onewetleg :
hurrah! for allergies! maybe you are allergic to hair dye. nah, probably not. i'm so happy for you. do you have any idea what you might be allergic to? love,
from evilreindeer :
Why the missing Belle and Sebastian singles/EPs? And I noted a lack of Bernard Butler as well...
from credence :
Hey april :) I've changed locations...www.blurty.com/users/whitebutterfly. Take care!
from onewetleg :
no, that's one really good score. i was thinking of you when i took the test. love,
from not-so- :
It's true, we would soooooooo never have been like that. The youth of today ay?!!!!
from not-so- :
Yay, I finally got round to writing that entry about evil little boys!!!!!
from not-so- :
Yay, I finally got round to writing that entry about evil little boys!!!!!
from onewetleg :
i will write about it tonight. it's not really very exciting, i'm afraid. love,
from satellitebob :
on the magazine.
from satellitebob :
nice one!
from gothiceyes :
Thank you, and you are very welcome.
from onewetleg :
congratulations on the magazine write up. yes, you should definatley submit your work to limosine. not that i have seen any of it. but i would like to. love,
from gothiceyes :
Would you mind if I read your diary?
from onewetleg :
over one hundred people said happy new year to me today. i never want to work new years day again. i hope tomorrow is better. working for a company that screws you around is no fun at all. love,
from evilreindeer :
I'd like to say happy new year but I don't want to be shot, so I won't say it at all. OK. I didn't wish you happy new year. Take care in 2004. Nx
from onewetleg :
it sounds like interesting times are afoot. good luck. love,
from onewetleg :
the roadtrips with your dad sound wonderful. i remember when i had a van... here's wishing for a good new year. love, jj oh, and jjisjj told me to say 'hi back'
from cdghost :
happy holidays my friend.. best wishes for endings and beginings of the years..thecdghost
from clauren :
Thanks so much for filing out funkymunky survey. There are some collections that people just wondering why I created....
from jjisjj :
hi
from onewetleg :
http://onewetleg.diaryland.com/images/1notesbutton.gif try this one for the button i mentioned earlier. sorry. i'm still learning, too.
from onewetleg :
i see you put up a link to myimager. good site. also www.htmlgoodies.com good stuff there. love,
from onewetleg :
<IMG SRC = "http://onewetleg.diaryland.com/images/1notesbutton.gif" border = 0> here is an example of a button i made at myimager. it took me about five minutes. you can link to it if you want and ill make you more to replace diaryland gif in the upperlefthand corner. i will host them for you since you don't have gold. i mean if you want to. :) love,
from onewetleg :
i was looking at your page and it is coming along nicely. webmonkey is a wonderful thing. you can make your own button for the limosine bull site and send it to them. they will probably be grateful for it. www.myimager.com has a nifty little image maker. and it's free just beware the pop-ups they are out of control. love,
from onewetleg :
what ever you do don't tell your bosses. they could fire you. just leave in in his cookie jar or something. and i'm proud of you, you made a link. i will check it when i have more time. is any of your art in there? love,
from evilreindeer :
You could give the tenner to an old people's charity... Age Concern? Help The Aged? Don't know... Tell your bosses that you did it... Don't feel guilty. Life's too short.
from onewetleg :
i couldn't load your page for two days. who knows why? it just froze my computer. you have the night witch. tommy has her to. she comes in your sleep and sits on your chest. you can't move and you can't wake up. a lot of people have it. your not crazy. its just the night witch. it's like a lucid dream. one thing ive been spared of. i like what you've done with your layout. do you want me to make you some buttons for your older, contact, etc. we could make your diary very pretty. just let me know if you want any help. love,
from evilreindeer :
I love Century Of Fakers (as well as the rest) but, yeah, that bit you quoted... it's always punched me quite hard in the guts. In the nicest way there is to be punched. Take care, you hear?
from evilreindeer :
I'm thinking of you and hoping you're safe tonight, and tomorrow and .... always. Your dad is a star. So are you. Take care. Nx
from soillsich :
I know exactly how you feel *hugs*
from marsist :
oh honey. :( I wish I could do something to help.
from onewetleg :
you really can't judge americans by a poll in kerrang. i read somewhere that most scots don't even eat haggis and they just keep it around to feed the tourists. love,
from marsist :
I wouldn't trust the results of that survey. as a lifelong American, I'd guess that 25% of us have never even heard the word haggis, 30% know exactly what it is because of Scottish heritage, 25% were introduced to it at Celtic festivals, and 20% know because they saw Highlander. (and have a tendency to say "How revolting!" in a Sean Connery voice whenever haggis is mentioned.)
from onewetleg :
you could always make a page link and take them off the main page. i kinda like the way it looks. but, then, look at mine (: love,
from not-so- :
Read your diary entries and both seem very similar to experiences of my own. Firstly the damned typing thing - if you've read my entry today you'll get me. Plus, little boys ALWAYS hurl abuse at me - it's crap. You've inspired me to write an entry about the time a child attacked me with a shard of ice!!! Keep your eye out for it xx
from wherwhenwhy :
note to myself. Do something constructive like work and stop fannying about on this website all day!
from soillsich :
Hmmmm, sounds like it could be a cyst or something like bursitis. I had something similar on my calf about two weeks ago, but it went away eventually. It was quite "spongy" like you said, almost like a sac of fluid underneath the skin. Keep an eye on it but don't touch it (as in don't press on it or squish it) because that will only irritate it even more. It should go away pretty soon :)
from marn :
The glitter loving packrats will be the death of me, I tell you, the death of me. I see you and I are both rabid procrastinators. *Sigh*. I, too, have Christmas shopping to finish. Good luck with yours and remember, no head biting--blood is fiendishly difficult to wash out, after all. Who wants that kind of extra work?
from evilreindeer :
there's more than a few parallels between you and me; SI was never my thing but I did dabble. i'm glad all that shit's a long time in the past, where it belongs. take care.
from marsist :
heh... congratulations on the ungarbledness... though I'm sorry to hear you're "lost of love"... (I couldn't resist :)
from onewetleg :
a very good entry. i'm so glad you are still here with us. love,
from marsist :
you must have much strength inside you. I hug you. remember, always move forward.
from evilreindeer :
Riiiiiight. It's all clear now. You're allowed to be righteously proud. Definitely! I don't know if it beats the moment I realised I'd got a Sindy greenhouse for Christmas when I was 8 though...
from evilreindeer :
What the hell happened? Bus? Saviour of skin called Nicola (good taste in names...) Or is this another mad dream?
from onewetleg :
i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry. of all the bad things that have happened to me i was never bothered by old men as a child. i was a yeller. i yelled. that's what my mom told me to do. they didn't cut off the right part. and they didn't cut it off soon enough. love,
from guderian :
Aloha wherwhenwhy, all I want to say about your dream is Brooommm Brooommm Brooomm broommm mmmmmmmm (motorbike sounds you know)=D that story was a hoot! Lots of Love Martman and Guderian the Barbarian
from marsist :
MOTORBIIIIIIIKE!!!!!
from evilreindeer :
Hmmmm. My dad better not try anything funny this year... he celebrated my 28th birthday by having a near-fatal asthma attack, about 12.30am New Years Day actually, so I guess he actually got past my birthday... It was the first day in 3 weeks that I was not passed out or blacked out... suspicions had been raised and I was drinking more carefully that day... in hellish withdrawal... sucked especially on my birthday, I just wanted to pass out on the floor like every other day that holiday... but instead my mum and I spent 6 hours in casualty with him on a nebuliser. Just a good thing I was conscious at least because my mum flapped like a madwoman about driving him there in the snow after having had a sherry... Strange, she's used to calamity, being an intensive care nurse. I'm feeling icky today as well. Hardly surprising. Pressure's getting to me. And it's raining. Happy days are here again.
from not-so- :
Hey, found your diary through "cant_get_read". It's great by the way :o)
from strummer- :
ha. No problem. I'm actually a huge fan of rancid and the bunnymen. Very sincere.
from evilreindeer :
I think my head just created a hybrid Transvision Vamp track called Don't Call Me Baby... it was an IWantYourLoveBabyIDon'tCare crossbreed. Too many E numbers and BSE burgers in the 80s catching up on me. Oh well. Groove on sister... sister moon...
from strummer- :
hey there. Nice taste in music. :)
from evilreindeer :
To 'h' or not to 'h'? The perenniel debate in any subs department on any women's magazine that mentions food (that's all bar the mone style mags then). We don't know either. The dictionary says one thing, the pots themselves something else... Personally, I would not 'h'. It's the general consensus on most magazines I've worked on. But, it only takes one new chief sub who 'h's to throw the rest of the department into a frenzied, heated debate. Very similar to the one you've had. Issues such as these can cause huge rifts to develop in departments. Resentments can form and fester. It's such a divisive issue, that little 'h'. We are agreed on one thing though - we do not 'u'. Ever. You've got good yogurt-ing taste. I prefer the Yeo Valley Natural though. I like the calcium - and I hope my disintegrating bones and teeth agree. Christ knows what osteo-disaster my imminent bone scan will reveal... I'm not hopeful. Feh!
from onewetleg :
what a pleasant diversion! there are so many ways to spell yougheruort. just pick the one you feel most comfortable with and remember, soy yogurt is yucky. also, goat milk yogurt isn't the best. love,
from onewetleg :
it's okay to buy stuff. the idea is to think about what you buy and spend locally and not to give money to the big corporate chains. it's just about thinking where the money you earn and spend goes. i don't know what it's like where you are, but here there is a starbucks or a walgreens on every other corner. i just try to spend my money in stores that are owned by a person. try to support them if i can. it's a bugbear of mine. sorry if i made you go without your yogurt. go eat something. love,
from evilreindeer :
Thanks for your note... your dad sounds like one strong-but-stubborn-minded guy... sorry to hear about the wardrobe but it made me laugh... and - you are funny. It really cheers me up when I'm at work and you update! (Work is especially dull, BTW.) My folks are from the north-east of Scotland... Banff... I love it but then I only ever went on holidays... my grannie's still there... and the rest of the family's in the Aberdeen area... I was a Hogmanay baby... it amuses me that I ended up an alcoholic... born on the night everyone in the world is on the piss... Hmmmmm. Take care and keep writing. Nx
from onewetleg :
love you, love your phases. hate christmas. love,
from clauren :
I like that image too. In fact on this recent entry I put some image of that. I love it. I am going to keept this image.
from clauren :
I am sorry that it took some time to get back to you at your question. Cubicle island is someplace in KY. A nice place to work......And as far as that vision of me floating on icecubes, hmmm (visioning it) sounds good to me, just a little cold...hehehe...
from guderian :
Aloha Wherwhenwhy, In your last note you asked: You don't have a habit of bumping off old ladies and driving your family into harbours do you? And I have to ask why yes, yes I do, and now I must sue coranation street for stealing my ideas=D. No, actually I don't know to many old ladies right now and my family won't ride with me because of my crazy driving. Lots of Love and Blessings and if you ask me it sounds like your dad is done with the wardrobe, us guys see things differently! Weeeeeeee, errrh, splash, gluck, gluck, gluck, oh dang I just drove my car into the harbour!Love Martman und Guderian
from onewetleg :
well, you know what they say, if one's good, more's better. love the description of the mist in ardersier. maybe i want to move to scotland. hmm. i just want to move. i've been here four years now. maybe it's time love,
from onewetleg :
thank you for your note. i have always wanted to go to new zealand. i have distant family there, too. not entry for me tonight. i will leave two tomorrow. love,
from guderian :
Aloha Cookie, That great He finished the Wardrobe, now he deserves a vacation, and so you and your dad can come here to America and stay with me and my family! (Unless either of you has a history of chicken theiving, they frown upon that here=D)! I once had a Girlfriend named Taffy, and she had 2 sisters Candy and Cookie, I think their mom was partial to sweets! Lol, Lot of Love, Martman Und Guderian
from onewetleg :
"This is when I start to regret spending five years of my life starving myself" beautiful. way to write! i feel the same way about spending 10 years on drugs. step careful, my dear. and think about moving to a warmer clime. you can sleep on my floor. love,
from onewetleg :
it's just some tricks, really. not much rocket science here in diaryland. andrew really did everything for us. check andrews diary. and check pitas.com to see the prototype of diaryland, if you like. there is even a onewetleg.pitas.com but i only have 2 entries. love,
from onewetleg :
yay! he's finished the wardrobe. i think i missed an episode somewhere but congratulations nonetheless. love,
from onewetleg :
mm, acid. the last time i did it was about 3 years ago with the boyfriendthatdied. i can see you as a cookie. you seem kinda sweet and crunchy. hope you get some food soon. i'd hate to see you literally starve to death. love,
from guderian :
Aloha wherwhenwhy, I forgot to mention I added the picture to my A Gift for My Niece A Christmas Story diary entry! Well I put a picture of myself and my niece Synthia (katie's was just the name I used for her in my story till I got her permission to use her real name). This picture was taken this morning. I don't photograph well but at least you get an Idea of what my ugly mug looks like. Lots of Love, Marty, Synthia Und Guderian
from onewetleg :
it's not so much you are funny. you have a way of putting a twist on things. you say things in a clever way. your humor is dry and terse. terse. that means brief, concise. i know because i just looked it up. so it may not be the word im really looking to use. anyway. i shouldn't right notes just when i wake up. love, jj
from onewetleg :
sorry, the skinny entry thing was due to the random surrealism generator. thank you for drawing my attention to it, i have fixed it now. love,
from marsist :
I'm sorry you're not feeling good :( however, I just have to ask what a paracetomel is. every time I learn a new word from you I get intensely curious...
from scarstrucked :
My diary is unlocked(if you gave a fuck) so read if you want.
from guderian :
Aloha wherwhenwhy, So sorry I didn't write sooner I was sick with a bad cold and cold medicine wipes me out. I doubt you'd get shot in America, the stories are over played and exagerrated. Any ways the story about your Dad's workmate. Was pretty funny although I feel bad that he couldn't visit Disneyland. We take poaching in this country very seriously =D Hahahaha, we say "once a poacher always a poacher" hehehe! Bless You and Your Dad, With Lots of Love, Martman Und Guderian the Barbarian
from clauren :
also thanks for answering mumbojumbop2. I appreciate so much for you compliment. YOu are so sweet.
from clauren :
thank you so much for your notes. It mean a lot to me. I was so glad that somebody else understood what I mean. That means so much to me...Thanks again.
from marsist :
what's a squaddie? is that a Scottish word or an overall UK word?
from onewetleg :
no, you just spray it in your mouth. like binaca but not minty. strawberry binaca. it's yummy. too bad it fell behind the computer. i have to dig it out after the sun comes up. you're not disappearing on me, are you? i'll miss you if you do. anyway, goodnight. it's 6:30 in the morning here. i must close my eyes and let the dreamweaver cast her spell. hopfully i can dream about bukowski again tonight. love,
from onewetleg :
i don't think it really matters when you have the two minutes of silence. i'll bet it took about two minutes to type that entry. i'll be willing to bet that you were silent while you did it. you seem to me like a person who is silent alot. love,
from onewetleg :
yes, spray candy. it is a god send. i can eat it as slowly as i want and it doesn't get dusty. and in reference to guderian's note, even in america there are rude people who won't let you sleep. love,
from guderian :
Aloha wherwhenwhy! I read the entry of why your dad ended up in the hospital. and you know what he still has my undiminished sympathy! =D. I hope you both are doing well> I have to say I love the way you write the things you say and the way you say them is unique. God Bless You and Your Dad. Love Martman and Guderian
from guderian :
Aloha wherwhenwhy, I tried to find out where you wrote about your father going into the hospital. I just haven't found that part yet. But, you know what I wish you both could come here to America, I guarrantee people would let you get some sleep and relaxation without being noisy. If you want to e-mail me anytime my e-mail address is Guderian56@yahoo.com. Blessings and Prayers for You and Your Father, Sincerely lots of Love Martman and Guderian
from guderian :
Aloha wherwhenwhy, Guderian sends his love and so do I! How is you father doing? Love and Blessing, Martman and his trusty pooch Guderian
from guderian :
Aloha wherwhenwhy, I actually meant to send the message twice (sort of a deja vu joke)=D
from marsist :
you sound like someone who needs more faffing time... :)
from onewetleg :
i think you changed the time to military time. am i right? love,
from onewetleg :
i am going to delete the message in order to regain the symmetry of my stuff. no offence? ok. love, jj
from guderian :
Aloha wherwhenwhy, Did you notice I mispelled Deja Vu, I spelt it De' javu. Wait did I say this already. Best Wishes, Love Martman and His intrepid dog Guderian
from onewetleg :
no i cant tell what it is. you did such a good job that its invisible! love,
from onewetleg :
if only they made the little box for the rings tat big. and my message board will live. love, jj
from onewetleg :
the hardest part of living on this planet is having to deal with the stupid. that and the really high gravity. love,
from guderian :
Aloha Wherwhenwhy, It sound to me from the latest diary entry that what you are experiencing is the physical manifestations of depression, which is not an uncommon thing for artistic and creative people to feel. And it could have brought to the forefront this time because of that jerk screaming at that terrified puppy. As far as De'javu, (you spelt it right), Yes I have experienced that and I also seen things in my dreams sometimes exactly as they happen and sometimes in a riddle which I usually come to understand before the event occurs. Actually my name is just Marty and Gudrian is my puppy, it's his face on my profile, as I am not that cute=D. The Und is just German for and so when I sign Marty Und Guderian the Barbarian I really mean Mart and Guderian the Savage Beast. By the way I want to say you are very deep and talented person! And I mean that, hug your father for us. Lots of Love, Marty Und Guderian the Barbarian
from onewetleg :
hi. cabbage, cabbage, cabbage. i like to eat it to. i didn't know you could rub it on your body. yes, tell me about the pain-threshold theory. i think i have a very high one. and it has gotten higher over the years. love,
from guderian :
Aloha wherwhenwhy, I agree with you that not only mothers possess this ability, and I think it's neat that your Father also is like that. I often sense things or have dreams and premonitions as well, it really freaks a lot of my friends and family out (as well as myself). I think everyone has this ability in some degree but it must be honed and refined, I believe it is a God given ability that he gave us to look out for one another. Thank you for the compliment about my mother though that is not a good picture of her she is a very lovely woman. If you happen to read my Diary entry called Someone to Watch over Me, you'll see a picture of my Dad at the bottom when he was very young. I hope You are feeling better! I hate hangovers myself, and I have had a few. Love Your Friends Marty Und Guderian the Barbarian
from onewetleg :
you send the best notes. i think there is something to that childhood trauma top of spine thing theory. and did you know that your next entry will be your one hundredth? congrats. love, jj
from onewetleg :
thank you for your note. i am so afraid of another nervous breakdown. i'm feeling better today. but i am afraid of what the day will bring. i'm 36. i can't wait until im in my forties and then lose it all. i've lost it all too many times all ready. i don't really know what else to do. im going to the doctors. i have insurance now and should take advantage. love,
from onewetleg :
*throws rope*
from marsist :
you are so funny! :) although I know it's cruel of me to laugh at your frustration. you just describe it in a funny way.
from onewetleg :
hallowe'en is the 31st round these here parts. enjoy your dad's company.
from marsist :
you're right, there really is something to that... in fact, it's very good advice for me today... not talking...
from cdghost :
dude, im sorry about your dad, last year around this time my dad got in a horrible accident at the mill he worked at and was rushed to the hospital and i found out about it when i got home from school...and no one was home and there was a note on the fridge..i know how it feels...
from marsist :
I'm sorry about your dad-- hope everything works out. Alexandria Bay is in upstate New York on the border between the U.S. and Canada, in what they call the Thousand Islands area. it's very pretty but probably cold this time of year. it has a ruined castle on a heart-shaped island. very cool.
from guderian :
Aloha wherwhenwhy, I am so sorry that your father is not well and that you are unable to get to where he is at. I will keep you both in my prayers. Love Guderian AKA Martman
from guderian :
Aloha wherwhenwhy, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, I bet you are an excellent cook and like most artist to hard on yourself=D. I love the line about being the Loopy sister, and living in the basement of a Mansion, well that's not to bad or living in the small house by the beach, that would be primo to! I love reading your diary. Bless You and Your Dreams and the little old lady at work who seems to live in fear (how sad). Love You, Guderian aka Marty
from onewetleg :
happy birthday in advance. love, jj
from marsist :
"I need to give myself problems. I know how to deal with problems and find it hard to cope when there isn't one. So when things start going well I hit some self destruct button and create something for me to deal with." wow, that really hits home. I think I and some of my friends do the same thing but I never thought of it that way! now that you're aware of it in yourself, do you think it'll help you to curb the tendency?
from marsist :
are you a Macleod? I've never met one in real life-- just seen them in the Highlander movies :)
from onewetleg :
i just had tommy put it in the refridgerator. who is morag?
from marsist :
thanks, dear... :)
from wherwhenwhy :
Do what Morag does. Threaten to stab or suffocate hubby/partner/work colleagues/customers in their sleep unless they get rid of offending item. It usually works for her. She did threaten to burn someones house down at one point because she "knows where you live", apparently all you need is a name, she's very handy to have around, banana phobia or not. lots of love
from onewetleg :
thanks alot. i had no idea that other people had phobias of fruit. birds, yeah, they are scary. but fruit? the worst part is i know its going to sit there for days. mocking me as it decomposes. becoming more and more menacing as the days go on. love, jj
from onewetleg :
a job! that's great! and a stalker! wow!i hate to give advice but have you told him how your flatmates feel? that can diffuse the pressure of you telling him not to call so much by putting the heavy on your roomies. or do you call them flatties? just a thought. good luck, jj
from marsist :
1. thank you. 2. "faffing"... what an utterly perfect word. that one's going straight into my vocabulary.
from onewetleg :
has any one asked him who he is, yet? the mysterious caller, i mean. i love mysterious callers. you can mess with their heads. hope it all comes out well. love, jj
from clauren :
Thanks for taking my survey musicisland. I appreciate it bunches. And I will have to check out that folk band for Flower of Scotland. And do hope one day you would have a radio station. And if you are a hippie with a goth edge, you are def. one great special individual is amazing and creative.
from onewetleg :
frustration is frustration. i believe in you. that means you are real. love, jj
from marsist :
thank *you* for making *me* a favorite. boy, do I sympathize with the banging on furniture and the unemployment office problems. hope things get better.
from guderian :
Aloha wherwhenwhy, May what Pablo Picasso said has some bearing on your choice to become an artist:- Art is a lie that makes us realize truth --------------------------------- - Everything you can imagine is real --------------------------------- - Art washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life. --------------------------------- - Every child is an artist. The problem is how to remain an artist once we grow up Sincerely, From one artist to another artist, Bless You, Guderian
from onewetleg :
that was so funny. me and tommy will be doing columbo impersonations for the rest of the day. thanks.
from guderian :
Aloha wherwhenwhy, Judging from your previous diary entries, it sounds like you would be a far better person than the so called "professionals" who are presently employed at that office. Thank you so much for adding me to your favorites list. Sincerely, Guderian
from cdghost :
congratulations on entry 69...i hope you stick around to the very end friend
from davidnsac :
thanks for the comment :0)
from onewetleg :
congrats on the new flat. i knew you wild find one. remember when you move in the first thing you do is set up the bed. that way you can take a nap anytime during the moving process. good luck and love, jj
from onewetleg :
psychic dogs and snow. sounds like a good day. i am wishing really hard for good luck and mercy. i know it will all work out for you. homes and jobs and health! oh, my! love, jj
from guderian :
Aloha wherwhenwhy, Thank you for taking my first survey. I loved your answers, If you ever do talk to your mother, tell her I said you are NORMAL, but not average. Your words of wisdom The past is past that is why it is called the past, don't fret about things you can't change. Are great and they should enable you realize you are a sincere person, despite any and all secrets you may possess! Be at Peace, I really think you are a neat person, and you are so lucky to have had your first snow!=D Ciao, Guderian
from davidnsac :
hello how are you umm my name is david and thanks for some reason for putting me on your buddy list stuff if you ever want to chat let me know thanks.
from onewetleg :
what is marks and sparks? soon your itchy rash will go away. love,jj
from onewetleg :
well, i hate to think of you living in a tent. i have a feeling you will get a job soon. sometimes that works. tell your dad i said hi. love, jj
from onewetleg :
thank you for the advice. i do need to throw some stuff out. i stay up late and make stuff on the computer. then i get yelled at for being on the computer too much. whatever. thanks for the note. love, jj
from cdghost :
yes, I am quite a big mansun fan !!!
from clauren :
Thanks for answering my survey tinytown.
from cdghost :
i enjoyed reading your words.. take care and all the best Cdghost
from onewetleg :
thank you for adding me as a favorite. i read the last few entries in your diary and i like it. would you be interested in joining my rings? just go ahead if you are. ill add you as a fave and hope to hear from you soon. love, jj
from credence :
Oh I know what benefits _are_ :) I was just noting that if you lost your job, you lost the benefits that you would have gotten if they'd just fired you. Don't get yourself in too much trouble tonight. Your mind will need your body another day, so don't go ruining it quite yet. I hope you reach an upswing soon. You're in my prayers. *~n~*
from credence :
But what about the benefits???? :( today seems really bad... hm. Sorry.

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