messages to wifemotherme:
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from wifemotherme :
12/10/20
from life-my-way :
I'll also be praying for you, in my way. Loss opens doors--hoping yours are good doors that you'll feel safe and supported walking through.
from wifemotherme :
2/19/19
from h2ophobic :
Hi! I'm sorry it took me so long to get back to you...my laptop died and I rarely get on the PC. I locked my DL because I don't write there anymore. I'm now at h2ophobic.wordpress. I haven't written there in quite awhile either tho. Take care!
from life-my-way :
Congrats on the writing gig, it sounds like a lot of fun! I did change my words, email me at mkklose at gmail dot come and I'll send them along. Great to see your typeface back on dland!
from h2ophobic :
So sweet and sad. Blessing to both you and Lucy. {HUGS}
from life-my-way :
What a beautiful tribute, which I loved even though it made me cry. I'm glad she's being called by her real name, but for the life of me I cannot imagine that you are not her real owner. Love and sympathy, K.
from h2ophobic :
HUGS! I can't think of anything to write that won't sound stupid, but I wanted you to know that I'm thinking about you. MORE HUGS!
from h2ophobic :
I've started my new blog. It's h2ophobic.wordpress.com. I hope to get caught up with my reading too. Take care! P.S. Are you writing somewhere new?
from nikkifoofoo :
I'm sorry, dear. It's unlocked now.
from aspenkitten :
Hello! I am back on Diaryland after a few years off. I am a single woman age 45. I have recently re-committed to God and Christ. I am having a terrible life crisis right now. I am unemployed. I got evicted from my apartment. I did seek public assistance and did find another place to live. I owned a house in another state, ie New Hampshire. I had tenants. In May, 2009, they moved out. I could not get any other tenants. I could not sell the house either. The bank took it and foreclosed on that house. I had heard the economy was bad, but now I have experienced it first hand. I have hit rock bottom. However, I am now building on the true Rock of Ages now. That is the good thing that has come of this.
from wifemotherme :
2-10-10
from wifemotherme :
11-10-09
from artgnome :
email anytime if you would like prayer with no lectures or judgment. May God bless you and continue to heal you.
from twisted-mind :
I've got some catching up to do but first I must say you look amazing! Way to go!!
from ingridwrites :
Thank you. YOU are awesome. :)
from life-my-way :
My goodness, you look fabulous! And your skin--where did you get those products and how long have you been using them? Inquiring (and covetous) minds want to know. Congratulations on the fantastic accomplishment, I hope you are very proud, you should be.
from artgnome :
hi, I am also a Christian and my UN is artgnome, and my PW is gnomeart. Have a good one!
from lisaannlm :
That's the thing about giving someone advice on Diaryland. Alot of times they're writing just to vent or whatever, they really have no interest in changing the situations or traits that are negative. I have gotten to the point where I'm very cautious about giving people advice through notes, guestbooks, emails and blog entries. Some users are just looking for validation to justify things that they know are wrong and what they end up doing is sucking the energy out of you. I get so depressed when I read journal entries by people on my buddies list who brag about using drugs, drinking too much, or the odd one from somebody who is contemplating suicide. You try to be supportive and give advice, but at times they act as if they didn't hear or don't care. If someone here gives me advice, I take it to heart, because perhaps there is something in what I write that they went through or something in me that they used to struggle with. That's fine. But I certainly do not intentionally set out through my diary to make others feel sorry for me or to steal other's energy or happiness, otherwise, why read?
from lisaannlm :
~Laughs~ My boyfriend has a thing for Miss Piggy actually. We watched Muppetts In Space about a month ago because he'd never seen it before. When Miss Piggy came on, with all her curves and cleavage, he started drooling (I KID YOU NOT). I gave him a playful slap and told him she's BACON. LOL!
from jimbostaxi :
Good luck with the new house.
from wifemotherme :
5/1/09
from cocoabean :
glad to see you posting again!! welcome back!
from harts-desire :
Hi. Your diary name caught my eye. I agree wholeheartedly about the puppy thing. No one seems to even think twice about all the raped babies and children. Maybe everyone just wants to pretend like it doesn't happen?? I dunno, but this whole planet needs some serious therapy.
from ingridwrites :
(((hugs)))
from requiel :
Welcome back, and congrats on the weight loss.
from samson111 :
I am feeling great, the new job is really kicking my ass though. I will post soon, much to post about. Thanks for asking. Can I have your password so I can catch up? Thanks again
from tiedyed714 :
hi - i just read the note you left me. i had no idea you were still reading! i'd love to read what's up with you if you ever feel the urge to update.
from wifemotherme :
1-19-09
from cocoabean :
Your old password doesn't work. Are you updating again? drkchoclover AT gmail.com! Thanks!!
from ingridwrites :
Thank you.
from ingridwrites :
It gets easier - or you find a new job. :) Then, when you start the new job, you'll wonder why you wanted a job. Apparently the grass IS always greener on the employed/unemployed side of the fence.
from ingridwrites :
Leaving a job and regretting part of that decision is normal. Not having a schedule or people that need you the same way can be very difficult to adjust to. People define themselves with work and how well they are doing at their job - with no job, how do we define ourselves?
from bantenhut :
gorgeous layout! good luck in your new home :)
from requiel :
Ooo, thanks for adding me to you list! I can't wait to read up.
from cardiogirl :
Hi. I found you from Pantrypuff. She wasn't able to leave you a comment so she wrote an entry to you. So I had to come over here and say hi. I have to tell you I just loved this line: "While it's true that money will not buy happiness, it has bought me a couple designer handbags, a stunning new wedding ring, a few fun trips..."
from cocoabean :
hooray for new lives!!
from nacwolin :
I am glad your blog is not locked! I haven't been able to read it in a long time. I am journaling at http://nacwolin.vox.com now; check it out if you get a chance. Have fun traveling - sounds great to me!!
from twisted-mind :
Sounds wonderful. I hope you have the time of your life.
from smokefree-me :
Well hi there. Thanks for droppjng me the note. Feel free to peruse. For me, some really polarizing events happened in May of '06 and mmmmmm, Sept/Oct of '07. Well, then there's the whole quitting smoking/getting healthy stuff too. YOu'll have to send me your seekrit codes so I can catch up on you too!
from deepest-blue :
Hi. I just read your profile blurb and laughed - love it. I'd love to read your diary if you'd like to let me?
from h2ophobic :
I haven't seen the video and have no intention of watching it. I agree with you though...why do we only get upset over what the media tells us to be upset over? Anyway, it was so good to see your name in red!
from twisted-mind :
I saw it and it was a horrible video. I am an animal lover but still I agree with you.
from h2ophobic :
I miss you and have been wondering how you are.
from marlen816 :
Kudos to you for quitting smoking! I wish my dad and FIL would quit!
from tiedyed714 :
Remember the non-working e-mail address i sent you? my first name is the username, my pw is my last name. these are netnames, but they stay consistent. you can have access to all of me. i trust you implicitly.
from wifemotherme :
1-5-08
from ingridwrites :
Good luck!!! Take it one day at a time. Today first. Worry about tomorrow when it gets here.
from tiedyed714 :
I can't even find myself on any of my e-mail addresses. Damn drinking and setting up passwords! I'm out here somewhere dancing on the wires live without a net catch me can you catch me before i fall (it's ok if you can't cuz i'm always falling down) like the girl in the Cure song
from h2ophobic :
I also tried to leave this in your guestbook, so you may get two of these. I can't remember when I wrote about it. In a nutshell, my mother died from kidney failure (she had juvenile diabetes) when I was six. My father died 6 weeks later in a fishing accident. My Grama was 59 at the time and took me in to raise as her own. I called her Grama, because in those days we were taught to spell phonetically and that's how I spelled grandma. It stuck and she forever became Grama.
from ingridwrites :
Thank you for the honest comment ;) Sometimes I don't like looking back - but somehow I know it is the only way to go forward.
from pantrypuff :
Send me password again!! I'm a loser...
from pantrypuff :
Really? You can't see my layout right? It looks OK here... What is it doing?
from seasons79 :
I tried with the aol email. This time it's my email that's being funny, so let me know if it doesn't work.
from seasons79 :
I sent the PW along to the email address in your profile. ;o)
from ingridwrites :
The rant makes less sense. :)
from yankee-chick :
So glad you're back and that you found me! I missed you. I sure hope that if I EVER find a job and get back to work, that I can find something as amicable as your job. I so hope to work with a group of interesting, fun people again!
from ingridwrites :
I love FREE and I love EASY.
from ingridwrites :
Thanks! I'll look into fitday. I've tried sparkpeople and, while it is ok, I don't think spark is for me :) One day I'll get my groove and find what works. Until then, I keep on keeping on.
from h2ophobic :
I'm so glad you're back! It was such a great surprise to get your email.
from smashley719 :
i'm glad to see that you're back! i'd love to keep reading ( i took a long hiatus myself lol) :) i'd love to have the new password and username :)
from ingridwrites :
I'm glad you are saying it now!
from noaddedme :
[email protected] :)
from dnyl22 :
I would love to continue reading, if you'd share your password! Good to see you back
from seasons79 :
I would like to read, if you're sharing. I think I must've found you through Dandydandy right before you locked up before. [email protected]
from nacwolin :
I would read it - you can send the info to [email protected]
from renovatingme :
HELLZYEAH I want to read you:) ooxoxox send me a pass!
from batten :
I would still read. You've been missed. I'm locked up right now but my login is myjournal and the password is mylife. Come back, okay?
from twisted-mind :
I've so missed you. Of course I would continue to read. mrsgroovy(at)gmail.com
from pantrypuff :
Hey!!! So glad to know you're around! Let me know if you ever start writing again :)
from renovatingme :
if you are sharing a password please send me one. xoxo
from nacwolin :
I will miss your entries! Take care.
from dandydandy :
Your comment made my day & I just wanted to let you know that. I'm sad that you are no longer updating! Don't be a stranger!
from wifemotherme :
3-13-07 After almost 7 years of DL, it's time to put this baby to bed. I will no longer be updating or witting on line (subject to change.) Since I will not be updating I am not sending out the PW. If you see me in red, I am simply editing what was already written. Thank you to all my readers for your kindness, support and wonderful advice. My time here has been invaluable. You helped me to be a better WIFE and a better MOTHER and for that I will always be grateful.
from warped-one :
Sorry that it was found. Although I rarely update anymore, I still read all my contacts. If you're updating while locked, could I have the username/password? [email protected][REMOVETHIS]yahoo.com
from forty-plus :
I am thinking of you.
from nacwolin :
Hey, sweetie, I see you've locked up. Would love to have the username and PW if you are willing - will keep it confidential. Email me at nacwolin at hotmail.com. Hope you are okay.
from noaddedme :
Don't give up writing! Just lock!
from h2ophobic :
I'm sorry that you're leaving. If you change your mind and decide to keep writing, please email your password information to me @ [email protected] I'll miss you!
from renovatingme :
Oh man don't lock me out. you can read mine as well -- [email protected] send me a password I used to write as trinity.
from marlen816 :
I want the PW!!! Don't lock w/out me! Email me - [email protected]
from yankee-chick :
Don't go! Why do you feel you are done here? You could have a locked diary and let only those you choose to read it. I will miss you as will many others. I'll be thinking about you.
from twisted-mind :
Aww I'm miss you tons.
from nakedbarista :
This makes me very sad. Please keep in touch.
from nakedbarista :
I understood what you meant. I can see how it would be hard to understand my point without knowing the rest of the story. I care about Sarah, which is a shock considering all she's put me through, but I care enough not to enable her to continue hurting other people. I'm jealous you got a nap in. Only... 5 more years until I can nap at will. : (
from nakedbarista :
I decided to delete that entry because I have gone all of these years leaving the drama with her out of it, but this was the response I had typed up for you. "I don't mind you asking at all, WMM! I wish I had some background written here to explain who she is and what she's done to me, but I have tried for a long time to remove her from my life as much as possible. Sarah is a very acidic, distructive person and no matter how many times in the 20 years I've known her that she's said "Ok, I'm ready to change", she just goes back to being hateful and malicious. I tried to stand by her like a true friend, but when I read her email, I don't see someone waving a white flag on life, I see someone who is trying to manipulate a situation to try to gain sympathy. She is right that she has ruined her own life. She's throwing a massive pity party and I jumped ship on that years ago when she tried to ruin my marriage by spreading around that I was having an affair. Sarah doesn't need any more people blowing smoke up her ass, she needs people to tell her the truth. The problem is, when someone steps up to finally do it, to say "Yes, you suck pretty bad and you've hurt a lot of people, but you CAN change and it's WORTH it!!" she lashes out because the "correct" answer is "No, Sarah, you're perfect, you've done nothing to accept the horrible things that have befallen you in life. I'm done stroking her ego. She's hurt me and people I love way too many times to keep pretending. This isn't the first time. I say it to her every time she sends me this email, or makes this phone call. It's a cycle. She promises she'll change and then goes right back to hurting everyone."
from pieridae :
"The separation anxiety that wasn't" -- LOL! Oh, I love that you are appreciating and enjoying the re-claiming of your space (and deodorant!). I have to say that my own relationship with my mom was often strained as a teen, but now, as an adult "child" (I am 30)we are beginning to have an amazing relationship -- I love it! pieridae
from forty-plus :
I'm glad you are adjusting to N being on her own! It must be nice to be able to stay on top of things and not be playing catch up all the time.
from dandydandy :
I say you wait and wash 8. But that's just me. I'm glad to see that you are happy with your empty nest--it is one of those things that I worry about often.
from yankee-chick :
So glad you posted today. I was gonna write to ask if all was well. It's great that you are enjoying your new found 'freedom'. Sometimes it's the little things that make such a difference.....especially when there are SO many little things, LOL. I hope you can continue to enjoy the change. **Hugs**
from luckygirll :
by the way, i grew up in clearwater/st pete. i don't know how close that is to you, but it feels good to have a common florida thread.
from luckygirll :
hey there, the user name and password are both erika. read entry titled 'oops' to find out why its locked.
from wyndspirit :
What a guy! You are blessed.
from smedindy :
Hey, you're on a lot of my buddy lists and I thought I'd just say hey. I pace a lot too...and have paced when I eat. Take care!
from dandydandy :
This entry is wonderful!
from yankee-chick :
What a wonderful entry! I envy you. A few short years ago, my list would have been very similar....heavy sigh...You are a very lucky lady and the best part is, you know it and appreciate it!
from twisted-mind :
Your husband sounds like a wonderful man. You are lucky to have him and he is lucky to have you.
from pieridae :
wonderful! i love the idea of doing a top-100 about someone else. great job! ~pieridae
from forty-plus :
What a beautiful and loving tribute to your husband. Completely wonderful.
from grt8f84me :
Oh, yeah...I, too, will be going through separation anxiety. My oldest is planning to use her federal refund to get an apartment. This will be her third time moving out. But this time, she has my LilAngel! My grand daughter put the life back into our family. I cannot imagine not having her around on a daily basis! Everynight at bedtime, it like the ending of a Waltons episode. She lays there with her mom, and she says, 'Ita...mom tells her, she's sleeping. 'Ito...mom says, Tio is sleeping. 'G'ma...mom says, Grandma is laying down. 'Bk-rack...mom says, Grandpa is sleeping to.... She goes down the list until she covers her dad, her mom, and herself. At the end, she laughs and laughs when her moms tell her..."You're right there, Baby!" and tickles her. Oh...I'm going to miss that! Hang in there, and it will get easier.
from chaosdaily :
my kid was just dying to move out, got an apartment with a friend, and 4 months later moved back home. she never realized how expensive it was!
from ingridwrites :
Ah yes, the freak out - when they obviously know so much better than you do. Give her some time and enough leash to choke herself a little and she'll come running home. ((hugs)) good luck. Kids! don't you just wish they'd stay little and cute like puppies?
from chaosdaily :
i didnt have trouble with my daughter till she turned 19. shes worse in some ways than my son, who is 16, and hes pretty bad. hang in there, eventually she will come back. we all think of things we should have done differently with our kids, but N sounds pretty decent for the most part....
from dandydandy :
Gosh I relate to this! My 16 yr old recently decided to end joint custody and live with me full time. When Liv told her dad of her decision, he went off on her about how I'm an irresponsible parent and how if she lives with me she will fail out of school, etc. etc. All of this is ridiculous nonsense. But why is it then that I feel absolutely devastated?? Most likely because there's nothing in the world more important to me than being a mother. I'm impervious to most crap, especially from people whose opinion I could care less about. And yet, deal a blow to my parenting and I fall apart inside. It's like kryptonite in the hands of Superman.
from noaddedme :
I'm sure part of the hurt has to be that N has a father like that. How could it not? My goddaughter's father is a jackass and treats he like shit (tho not a phedophile as far as I know) and my heart aches for her. Being blamed for that ache would bother anyone who's DECENT. He's the kind of "man" who will spend all of forever blaming everyone else for what he lacks.
from so-charming :
Have you tried fish oil for your depression? It's supposed to be good for bipolar (as I recall I read about it in a book about bipolar kids.) I've been taking it for about a year and it's really helped me. I had to take quite a bit and it took a few weeks to help but once it kicked in my moods really became much more stable. Abruptly changing the subject, I'm writing sporadically at livejournal now. Come see me at http//:amian.livejournal.com if ya want to. :)
from ingridwrites :
Sorry. Had a phone call. Yadda, yadda, yadda. It should be there now.
from chaosdaily :
right!!!
from ingridwrites :
I'm emailing you!
from marlen816 :
((Hugs)) girl! I so wish I was close enough to hang out with you - although right now it may be like misery loves company between the two of us, but I'd love to share a hug and a big ol'cup of coffee with you!
from h2ophobic :
I know. I'm sorry. I think about you a lot.
from nacwolin :
(((WMM)))
from cosmicrayola :
I don't know enoght about depression to discuss it, so you will get no advice from me, but know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope things turn around for you soon. ((hugs))
from chaosdaily :
instead of calling, which it doesnt seem you want to do, maybe you should write her back.
from forty-plus :
You are very lucky to have each other. I'm sure N loves you as much as you love her. I hope you will tell her exactly what you said to your dad.
from dnyl22 :
I'm glad your daughter is ok. I think its awesome that you guys have such a wonderful relationship! Take care :)
from janetplnetoc :
Maybe all these things she is doing are just her way of celebrating surviving on a date that has bad connotations. Who can know. But I can tell she has a good relationship with you, she shares things with you. You are lucky.
from just2cusmile :
im so glad that she is ok-that had to be so scarey but getting the nipples pierced would scare me more :) ouchhhh
from twisted-mind :
I'm so glad N is ok. Still keeping you in my thoughts... always.
from h2ophobic :
What you wrote about your loss of faith...I could have written that myself. I think those thoughts every day. I miss my faith. I miss the JOY I found in my faith. I've prayed daily for so many years that it is a habit. I still pray every day, but it is different. I still believe that God CAN do what I ask...but now I don't believe that He WILL do what I ask. I used to believe that praying for the safety and health of family would keep them safe and healthy. Now, I know differently.
from janetplnetoc :
I think that's what makes it so hard for bi-polars like you and I. We don't just throw up our hands and let the insanity ensue. We spend our entire waking/puplic life trying to keep it in check, trying to reign in those crazy thoughts and impulses. By the end of the day, we are exhausted by the enormity of the task. It is why I sometimes feel the need to stay in bed all day, that way I don't have to, as I call it "Put on the heavy mask of sanity"
from forty-plus :
{{{Hugs}}}
from ingridwrites :
Here is to hoping your New Year provides new peace and a new faith in yourself. I understand that feeling, so much more than I can express, I wish there was something I could do for you. ((hugs))
from meandmyhouse :
Ok.
from hoodia :
I am SOOOOO sorry I have been so insensitive.I will give you your much needed space. I love ya' Hoodia
from so-charming :
Oh, man, I hate that feeling where you can't just step back and breathe for a bit because you know if you do everything will come crashing down. I hope things ease up for you soon, and 2007 is a much better year for you (and me too!)
from forty-plus :
Happy New Year!
from l-empress :
SignMyGuestbook doesn't like me, and the e-mail address I have for you got bounced back. Just wishing you the best of New Years until you're back in the swing of writing.
from meandmyhouse :
I wish I could give you a really big hug. Please drop me a line and let me know if you are okay! ((cyber-hug))
from dnyl22 :
MERRY CHRISTMAS!! :)
from wifemotherme :
12/22/06
from chaosdaily :
where ya been?? are you coming back??????
from gaygirlsgirl :
Hey You! Hope you had a great Thanksgiving too! The house is definitely full but I will update this weekend, I promise!
from nakedbarista :
Thank you very much! Classy was what I was trying to go for, but still have my own signature touch to it. I felt a lot better about wearing so much black when I saw the coordinator in ALL black with a black hat on that had a veil. Those are my wedding pearls so I always feel special when I wear them.
from meandmyhouse :
http://www.myspace.com/rootin_tootin
from meandmyhouse :
My body spontaneously aborted the babies, making my decision for me. Just wanted to let you know, in case you wondered about it.
from nakedbarista :
I'm glad I could do that for you. I know it's an incredibly small possibility, but if there is ever anything else I can do for you, please let me know.
from pantrypuff :
You're back! I'm so glad you're back! I didn'tknow they had homeless people in Key West. I went there once and really liked it.
from meandmyhouse :
((((great big hug))))
from dnyl22 :
I've been trying to get caught up on your diary, reading a few entries a day and I just finished reading the one from October 21, 2002 about your meds. I just wanted to comment on it, my doctor put me on Celexa about a month ago for depression and it made me freak out. I had only been on it for 3 days and started having panic attacks. I stopped taking it immediately, but I had been having mild attacks for a few weeks. Its only been since this past week or so that I've been feeling better. Ok, just wanted to comment about that. Back to reading! Take care :)
from dnyl22 :
Hi there, I found your diary through Nikki (nakedbarista) and read a few entries, if you don't mind I'd like to add you to my list.
from nakedbarista :
Good lord!! I had no idea you didn't have the password either! I thought for sure that I send messages to everyone who had me listed as a friend what my password was. I'm so sorry! Please send me an email at nikkifoofooATdiarylandDOTcom and I'll get you the password superfast.
from sunnflower :
I am so sorry for your loss and all the pain around that. I went back and read some of your back entries and feel bad that I missed your entries about this. I have been reading wifemotherme for a number of years and I hope you don't ever feel forgotten by those who read you words here. I think it is just easy to get out of circulation if you are not regularly posting or reading. I know that it is hard for me to do that sometimes and I do start to feel lost in the shuffle. Again, I am so sorry for your loss. Many hugs to you.
from forty-plus :
Missing you.
from hoodia :
You know I am here for ya'. That's all I can say. It breaks my heart to see you and J hurt so much. I love you both. And one more thing on an upbeat note-- that new grandbaby needs her grandparents to tell her all the cooky stories about her aunt!! Again, Love Ya' Hoodia
from pantrypuff :
The baby's probably eating cake now, right?? I hesitated to write that because I didn't want to demean your fear or worries. That's one of the things about have a micro-preemie: you can come off sounding like everyone else's trauma is nothing when that's totally not the case.
from grt8f84me :
Oh, congratulations on the new grand-daughter! Maybe there's a reason for her early arrival...it's a blessing, and I'll say a prayer for you to be able to see her as soon as possible. How truly wonderful! So wonderful....
from h2ophobic :
Congratulations on your new granddaughter! I'm sorry you're still grieving, and I understand. It will soon be 6 months since we lost Jeff and we still cry almost every day. It's just not non-stop crying anymore. I would have never imagined that grief would be like this. Friends, co-workers and even church family...they don't understand. They want and expect me (and you) to pick ourselves up and get back to life. If only that were possible. Life without Jeff has caused my entire being to change - the way I think, the way I believe, the way I perceive the world. HUGS from MT.
from cosmicrayola :
I have thought about you but I didn't want to seem pushy, so I kust let you be. I know you are till in pain and I can't imagine how you and J are dealing with this. Congratulations on the new grandbaby!!
from meandmyhouse :
anything but forgotten. i wish i could offer you words that would mend your heart, but i know that they would never suffice. the Lord loves you, even when you don't feel it, even when you don't understand, even when it feels like nothing more could possibly go wrong. and i love you, too. and you are loved by many people, real ones and "online" ones. we are all pulling for you and your family in these hard times, and in all times, but especially right now when everything seems so black. i hope these words don't cause you grief or more anger, they are offered in love.
from pantrypuff :
What do you mean, you feel forgotten?? I read every word you write, you hag!! You just don't write enough of them, often enough. Anyway, I know you're still mourning. How can you not be? I still think about Jack and that's been 5 years and I didn't even really know him. Oh and 6 weeks early? Cakewalk. Don't even worry, I'm sure she'll be great :))
from chaosdaily :
i feel for j. i lost my dad on june 4th, and ive cried every day. i would think it would be 50 times worse to lose a child. and i doubt anyone could ever "get over" that kind of loss. but then theres new life... even if shes still in a "box" she needs contact.. ive seen babies like that at work, and they love listening to voices and being touched. if you can get there, go and tell her that her grandparents love her....
from chaosdaily :
it gives me a better idea of where youve been, more than just picking up your current entries. the one about the washing machine was truly hysterical!
from chaosdaily :
come back!!! i finally added you and read all your entries and now you are gone :(
from wifemotherme :
8-11-06
from meandmyhouse :
too much info for a note, send me an email or something, or i will eventually make an entry, but my email is [email protected] and i check it a couple times a week. um, ok, i have so much updating to do but no energy to do it. oh, i'm on myspace, also, (not sure if i like it yet) at username rootin_tootin or rootintootin or something. look up jody edwards and then pick the rootin tootin one. :P i gotta get some zzzz's! yes school (4.0) kids good, hubby and me workin on things, lots else to say but no time now. (no room either). *hugs*
from h2ophobic :
I've added you to my favorites. I hope that's OK. Thanks!
from forty-plus :
Poor Mr. Machine! You are a riot.
from marlen816 :
LOL! You are a mess!
from janie12975 :
That is hilarious! Although, I vaguely remember being a teen that abused my mother's appliances once upon a time. *blush*
from twisted-mind :
You are too funny!
from pantrypuff :
You are CRAZY!!
from hoodia :
ROFLMAO!!! If I see the suspect I will be sure to turn her in. I always knew she had an evil side!! LOL
from ingridwrites :
OMG, that is hilarious!!! HAHAHA! I love the drawing!
from cosmicrayola :
God put him in your family because you need him in your family. A beautiful entry today, my dear.
from pantrypuff :
Wow. That was so beautiful :)
from badbadzoot :
Thanks for the addage! I was just reading through some of you recent entries, and I'm extremely sorry for your loss. Words cannot express emotions sometimes. I had to stop because I'm about to cry. It's hard to believe, I'm 25. I have Crohn's Disease that my idiot doctor threatens me that I could die from. I hate doctors. They're a bunch of boobs. Except for one, he's a good friend and a super doctor. Too bad he's not a gastroenterologist!! Stay strong and much love xxxxxxoooooo
from forty-plus :
Congratulations to N! She looked beautiful. You're a great Mama!
from marlen816 :
Congrats N and Mom! WTG =)
from poolagirl :
WOW! What a gorgeous young woman! You must be so proud of her!
from naomibeth :
Wow. Congratulations! You done good, Ma.
from pantrypuff :
wow, N is so beautiful!! You must be so proud :)
from twisted-mind :
She looks so pretty. Your house looked amazing with all the green and white. You are such a groovy Momma.
from batten :
I'm so glad you're getting out on the water. There's something soothing and healing about being out there. And it's good you tow are getting time together even if he's playing "Cap'n Bligh." (grin) If you want some info on boating to shut him up, ask Cap'n Ron or Eastportgrrl. (I'm still learning.) Still keeping you wrapped in prayer. Big hug to you, woman. -J
from twisted-mind :
cute toes. :o)
from twisted-mind :
Just checkin in on you. Thinking about you.
from xnavygrrl :
Oh dear.. I am so...so very sorry. My heart aches for you..and truthfully..I feel like a jerk for not knowing what was going on with you. I'm sorry..I suck. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers..because I know nothing else I can think of to say would ever soothe your crushed and wounded heart.
from augustdreams :
Your new friend is adorable! Dolphins are amazing. I think the ocean (with all it's native critters) is a natural healer. You can always give me a call if you ever need to talk.
from pantrypuff :
Wow! Great pics of the dolphins!
from dandydandy :
I really hope you do write your "...shut up" book. You would be doing the world a favor.
from nakedbarista :
Good for you!! I bet that was very relaxing.
from h2ophobic :
Your entry was wonderfully honest. It's been 8 weeks since we lost Jeff and there are still certain people that I avoid. The ones who act like his death was a movie that we rented and should have returned by now. The ones who want me to talk so they can "share my pain." The fact is, we're a part of group experiencing a pain that others CANNOT comprehend. I'm praying for you and your family.
from poolagirl :
Take care and deal with your feelings and healing the way that works for you, dear one. Don't listen to stupid people. Please know I am thinking of you.
from twisted-mind :
((((WMM))))) You do what you have to do to deal and cope. Forget the rest of them.
from janetplnetoc :
Very well said. The best comfort I ever received was from someone who said "I don't know what to say but I'm here for you in whatever way you need. If you want to talk, I'll listen, if you want distraction, I'll distract you, if you want me to leave you alone, I'll do that too." Most of what people say to comfort us is bullshit that they spew so they can feel better. Grief just takes time and everyone's time frame is different. And you are right, knowing it will get better doesn't make it hurt any less right now.
from noaddedme :
How about "I'm sorry" and "I don't understand how you feel but I respect your right to feel what ever you feel for as long as you feel it" and "if there is anything (in my power) I can do that will help you, please let me know." I have no idea how you feel. Can't even fathom it or the depths of how hard it is. I think the book is a great idea really. I never know what to say. I'm sorry seems lame, yet I am. I wish there is something I can do, but I can't do what is wanted the most, bringing her back. I can tell you it sucks, but I do believe that's been established as common knowledge, as has the fact it's not fair, it's not right, and a million other things. I *am* sorry though that you lost someone that you loved and I do admire your ability to write through the pain.
from marlen816 :
That is soo cool! I love dolphins!
from dandydandy :
In times like these, my Dad quotes the verse that says there's a time (season) for everything. A time for anger is specifically written. I have faith that you will find peace. God won't fail you in providing comfort.
from forty-plus :
I am so sorry. I just caught up and my heart aches for your family's loss. There are no words ...
from nacwolin :
Yes, I think that anger can be okay, and even a good thing.
from twisted-mind :
Your faith, is so amazing. I cannot think of words to express my thoughts. I am thinking of you.
from pantrypuff :
I'm so glad you are finding your way through this. AS for J's family, tragedy brings out the worst in people sometimes. I just try to behave in a way I can be proud of later. Doesn't always work. You are strong and an inspiration to me.
from grt8f84me :
I just read your diary tonight 04/15/06 - I cry tears for you and your family and the beautiful person you so loved. {hugs}
from poolagirl :
You are all in my thoughts and prayers. Blessings to you and your family at this most difficult time.
from meandmyhouse :
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from bluebonnet :
I'm so sorry.
from pantrypuff :
I am so sorry. Please let me know if there's anything I can do for you...
from h2ophobic :
There are no words. I'll be praying for you and your family.
from dandydandy :
Please accept my condolences and prayers. I am very sorry to hear this news.
from aisling2005 :
So sorry for your loss, I'll be thinking of you.
from jamsjunction :
My thoughts & Prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time. God Bless ((HUGS))
from cleanstart :
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your precious family. I am so sorry for your loss. May the Lord bring comfort to your family~ HUGS~
from katress :
I am so very sorry for all that you're having to go through right now. (((hugs)))
from janetplnetoc :
I'm so sorry, I wish I could give you a big hug.
from ingridwrites :
I'm sending (((love))) and prayers to you and your family.
from batten :
I am so very sorry. I'm holding you and your family in my throughts and prayers. God bless you, dear heart. -J
from marlen816 :
((Hugs)) Praying for you and your family.
from so-charming :
Oh honey, I am so, so sorry. There are no words.
from after- :
I don't know you but I ran across your diary a little while ago and kept reading, and I wanted to let you know that I'm sorry for your loss...
from nakedbarista :
I'm very sorry for your loss. My prayers are with you and your family.
from bluebonnet :
I'll be praying for you. At least she has one person not giving up one her!!!!
from ingridwrites :
Big (((hugs)))!
from nacwolin :
Prayer offered.
from so-charming :
What an awful ordeal for your family. Your SD sounds like an amazing person. Hugs to you and to her, I'm thinking of you and sending positive thoughts.
from meandmyhouse :
you have my prayers.
from dandydandy :
You are wonderful for keeping the faith. Don't let anyone tell you different.
from twisted-mind :
((((((((((WMB)))))))) Keep your faith.
from marlen816 :
You are an inspiration, girl! I am standing in prayer with ya in Texas!
from pantrypuff :
Thank you! And right back at ya...
from hibiscus101 :
i just read your 100 list and it is wuite possibly the most interesting one i can ever remember reading.
from so-charming :
Hiya hon! Thanks for the nice welcome back message. It's nice to see you're still around. :)
from nakedbarista :
You have no idea how much that means to me.
from twisted-mind :
((((Wifemotherme)))) You are so strong, even when you don't think you are.
from meandmyhouse :
i love you! :)
from dandydandy :
That's what I'm totally afraid of (being glossy that is). It's such a pickle! Seriously, I want to be able to write freely, but also want to be respectful of the people in my life that I'm writing about.
from meandmyhouse :
TAG YOU'RE IT! lol See my entry called "FOURS" for more info. :) Sending hugs your way! *hugs*
from sunnflower :
If it makes you feel better, My eldest in 19 and I miss her even though she is going to college and living at home right now. She's busy and she's got her life. It's great to see it but it's hard too.
from pieridae :
hello! hello! thank you for the note on my poor little (until now) unupdated journal. i've decided to come back to diaryland for awhile. thanks for checking up on me! --r
from nakedbarista :
I agree with everything you said. Had I NOT been perfectly clear earlier in the day with how I wanted to spend the evening, I'd blame myself for the entire situation. But he knew exactly what I wanted because I had said "Kyle, tonight I would really like to...". He even later spoke these words back to me when I laid down on the couch for a quick snooze. He said "Don't sleep too long or else you'll be up late again tonight." He knew I intended on going to bed early. But other than that, yeah, I completely agree.
from passing-go :
I'm glad you guys talked it over. I so totally understand what you mean. Just call me another wifemother. You know when I was getting my new domain I almost stole your name. I have always loved your username because it fits me too. But then you've always said how similar we are.
from just2cusmile :
im sure he is missing you just as much,let him know what thoughts are running thru your mind and im sure he will reassure you that everything will be ok..
from passing-go :
Oh hon, just tell him how you feel. I bet he doesn't even know what he's doing or how you really feel.
from dandydandy :
Ah WMM, I hope things look brighter for you soon. As to your negative readers, screw 'em. Maybe J needs you to be strong and looking out for him right now? Just a thought.
from meandmyhouse :
oh dear. :( if you need to talk, ever at all, you have my number . . . email address . . . and everything. :)
from nakedbarista :
*hugs*
from trancejen :
Comments located in that little pill graphic under the entry. :)
from bluebonnet :
I'm glad to hear SD1 is doing better! Happy New Year! :)
from forty-plus :
I hope this is SD1's Christmas miracle!
from just2cusmile :
im glad your Christmas was nice and best wishes and good health thoughts going out to you SD1...
from nacwolin :
Glad to hear of the encouraging doctor's report! Keep us posted. Happy New Year!!
from sunnflower :
Merry Christmas. I'm glad that you got a good holiday bonus!
from duchessmoon :
I'm sorry for the unhappiness you and your family have had to deal with lately. I pray you all were able to find joy this Christmas season in spite of it all.
from bluebonnet :
Merry Christmas
from forty-plus :
Merry Christmas to you and those you love!
from nacwolin :
Merry Christmas!!!
from la-blue-eyez :
I wanted to wish you and your family a Merry Christmas and a very happy New Year!
from dandydandy :
I am late reading the 12/15 entry and late with my prayers and get-well wishes, but I do send them to you and your SD and will pray for a speedy recovery to full health for SD1. Your entry is beautifully written and brought tears to my eyes.
from noaddedme :
Praying for a new liver and the best outcome possible for SD1. I'll keep her and all of you in my thoughts & prayers ~
from nacwolin :
I am really sorry to hear about SD1. Prayer offered for her and for you and your family.
from marlen816 :
((Hugs)) and prayers for you and your family - especially SD1.
from forty-plus :
All my best thoughts and prayers for SD1 and the entire family. Gentle hugs for you too.
from poolagirl :
I am holding you all in my thoughts and prayers.
from bluebonnet :
I'll be praying for your family.
from passing-go :
I'm so sorry to hear about J's daughter. I will pray and hope everything turns out all right.
from janie12975 :
My prayers go out to SD1 and your family. I'm crying just reading this. No one this young should have to go through this. Those babies need their mom and that is what I am telling God. This just breaks my heart. (((Hugs)))
from xnavygrrl :
I identify with the saddiversary. My, you've had the lion's share of pain too. I'm thinking of you...
from twisted-mind :
So happy for you that J will be home soon. Enjoy your day with him.
from forty-plus :
I know you are sad but that was such a sweet entry of your love for J. It is very hard to be separated from the most important person in your life. Please don't be down on yourself for that.
from dandydandy :
Sorry to hear that you are feeling down. I sometimes think missing a loved one is about the hardest thing to endure. Been feeling a bit down myself lately. Hope your night out raises your spirits a bit!
from almostnormal :
You know, I was thinking about it and I came to an amazing conclusion: I'd look WAY better in gold lame balls than some lame evergreen tree! FYI, the real note was going to be, as a child I tried to convince my mother that instead of a tree we should have a little spot of hay in the corner of the living room with a wooden trough and a babydoll in it. She still thinks it's the dumbest idea ever. I still think she's wrong :)
from nakedbarista :
Crud. I just sent a bunch of email to your AOL address. : (
from nakedbarista :
Don't Panic!! I can fix it : ) Let me know if you need my help.
from naomibeth :
I understand your boss' personality. It's not that he likes the mundane, it's just that he likes stability and predictability. You call it boring. He calls it peaceful. He would not be happy living any other way. I'm sure he would love some excitement if he knew the agenda ahead of time. Not knowing what's about to happen or what exactly is expected of me in any given situation is terrifying.
from almostaflake :
Hey there! It's Alma!! The wedding was magical! I made it through it alive! No regrets. Yahooooo! Just wanted to say hi. ALSO.... Do you know....I want to save all my old entries and start anew w/a new diary. Do you know if diaryland allows for an export? Take Care... HUGS, Me
from dandydandy :
I absolutely love your template!! Thanks for letting me know you were stalking me today. I sometimes forget to be so polite in my own stalking adventures. That photo on my template is playing tricks on everyone. I asked a friend today if I bare any resemblance to Reese Witherspoon and she said: "Well, your face is a lot thinner and more oval but, besides having completely different features...sure, kinda." My friend Meagan writes a column for our local newspaper (actually, I think it's syndicated now, but I don't know in which papers it runs) that features a headshot of her--thus the quasi-celebrity. By the way, you are a great read! Did that sound too, um, nevermind.
from bluebonnet :
ummm whenever someone says "whoever you are" I feel like it might be me, since I stalk without leaving notes, lol. I am in Jacksonville, I know I know that's not [email protected]
from xnavygrrl :
This is not the best of news. I am not very happy about these developments, or the fact that the paper is going to follow every single development. The blog they're talking about is this one. But obviously, they don't realize that I started this years ago and it definitely wasn't sparred on by anything with her because I didn't even know her years ago. The ho.
from forty-plus :
The Life and Times of WMM, the Wild Woman!
from marlen816 :
LOL You crack me up!
from nakedbarista :
I, too, have a "lesbian encounter" entry a few pages back. It must be a full moon. I laughed my butt off, though, at you saying that to Prude. What band did you hear play?
from candoor :
sounds like your peaking right on time from all I read... 16-18 for boys, early-mid 30s for girls... nature's got a cruel sense of humor :)
from hissandtell :
Hi - clicked on your banner and enjoyed your writing very much. I'll come back when I have more time to catch up on your older entries. Love, R xxx
from ingridwrites :
This is not abnormal. I felt the exact same way - at nearly the exact age. Take advantage of it while it lasts is the best advice I have. It won't go on forever.
from nakedbarista :
I say that I'm in heat. It pretty much sums it up for me. I feel the exact same way as you sometimes.
from nmnohr :
I'll be thinking of you - and praying that Wilma skips your area. Be safe!
from marlen816 :
Praying for Wilma to head back to Bedrock without visiting you! ((Hugs))
from twisted-mind :
Hope it passes right over you.
from caguilera :
I really love your diary, would you mind if I added you to my favorites?
from xnavygrrl :
Thanks for the note and support. No article yet though. It's starting to tick me off!
from marlen816 :
((Hugs)) I can not imagine being in a situation such as this. I'll be praying for you.
from forty-plus :
Gut reactions are not always a bad thing. Nor is sharing them here. "We" should have been there for those people much sooner. Never mind the Canadian Mounties got there before our own officials. Politics and the media are two really difficult mediums to shift through to get to the truth. The heart is never wrong though.
from almostaflake :
Hey there lady - yea, big bummer...BIG GUY found my diary. I made the mistake of eons ago putting a survey in one of my entries that had a real (kinda) unique nickname of mine. He googled it...and found the diary. I caught it - when I noticed someone had looked at over 200 pages! I know no normal person would be that interested!! ANYWAY, I've got mixed emotions about the whole thing - but know almostaflake in it's old form is finished. SO, if I start a new diary, or decide to keep writing in my current (password protected) I'll drop you a note. IN THE MEANTIME..I'll keep reading ya and wishing you the best. TAKE CARE (write me any time at [email protected]
from maxsmom :
i feel your anger... i've been sick to my stomach since hurricane katrina...
from ladypoetess :
I'll point out simply that it is fully possible and acceptable to disapprove of the *person* and of what the *person* has done, and still respect the office of President. Bush won't always be president, but his actions will always be *his* actions.
from princessreva :
AMEN!!!
from bluebonnet :
Things like that are never shown until after the fact. It makes me so angry that all they are showing is negative, which in turn makes some people's view of the situation and the people living in it negative. Have a good weekend!
from twangry :
Thank you for the add. I like your diary too. :)
from twisted-mind :
You poor thing, that sucks he's gone. When will he finally be back to stay?
from forty-plus :
Maybe the long distance verbal loving will become such a good habit it will be a part of your face to face relationship. That would be sweet!
from almostnormal :
That's one of the most romantic entries I've ever read. Thanks for sharing :)
from ocd-and-me :
I'll be joining you there in a few months. DH is getting deployed to The Sandbox. Rah.
from xnavygrrl :
:) You're making me blush! Stop! Oh, do go on! You're a sweetheart. Thanks for making my day.
from xnavygrrl :
:) You're making me blush! Stop! Actually, go on! Thanks for the encouragement...
from almostnormal :
An update! I was getting worried about you :) Glad everything is going pretty okay for now, sorry you're missing your hubby. Mine just started working a week ago and I feel like I don't see him at all. Him being really gone for that long...you are such a strong woman!
from soon2bjjj :
aaaaaaaaaaaaw I wish I were thankful like that all the time...U look on the bright side of life about all the stuff u go through. thats big of u.
from sunnflower :
I was so happy to read your latest entry. A great job and in finance. Feeling better too. I'm glad for you.
from almostnormal :
New job! Go you! Glad you're enjoying it, you deserve it :)
from andreeb :
Sounds like things are going great!! Congrats on the new job.
from sanetwin :
Yay for the new job!
from ocd-and-me :
No, it's fine!! I wouldn't have put you on my buddy list if I didn't want you to know where I was : )
from ocd-and-me :
Oh my goodness!! I didn't realize you missed me switching over!! You must be all sorts of confused, haha. Read all you want, but be sure you start with the first entry. So much has happened that it doesn't make any sense if you don't.
from ocd-and-me :
"Poor thing, she was so heartbroken for about a minute and half." That cracked me up!! Yay on the new job!! Woot!!
from twisted-mind :
Oh and YAHOOOO on the new job!
from pinky77 :
<3 i'll be praying ,and i miss you <3
from momma-at-17 :
I'm glad that your sister is with someone that can help her whenever she needs it, also so that you don't have to worry so much. You guys are in my thoughts. I really think that things are going to work out though! Take care sweetie! ♥
from almostnormal :
You're in my prayers. I'm glad your sister is with your mom, and I'm thrilled that your daughter is doing well. Just try and remember that God has a plan for you and I'm pretty damn sure it doesn't involve a cardboard box under an underpass! Have faith.
from sunnflower :
I hope your financial situation soon brightens. I am glad you write honestly about the situation because I think it helps others.
from almostnormal :
me=psychostalker (because this is note #3 in one day) - Good for you! I really think our situations were so similar, except I refused to ask for help longer than you did. You're a smart cookie!
from almostnormal :
If you can explain to me why it NEVER EVER EVER SHOWS when you update on my buddy list, I'll feel guilty for not reading your entry *big wink* - I'm off to do some heavy reading of your past few entries right now!
from almostnormal :
*laughing* I had such high hopes for you! What were you fired for? Did you not "fit in with the culture" like they told me? You can email me at almostnormal at diaryland.com if you don't want to post it in the notes!!!
from thruthefire :
Found your diary through another one. LOVE this song, "Held" by Natalie Grant. I saw her sing it live a few weeks ago at a Women of Faith Convention. I have a pic of my daughter with her and she signed her CD. I've been a few for about 1 1/2 now of Natalie's. Great choice of songs!!!
from momma-at-17 :
LOL. I wish. Made me *SMILE* though!! Thank you!
from andreeb :
Whew! I was so broken-hearted!! diaryland does suck. we need to make a mass move to blogspot or someplace else.
from andreeb :
I have been DUMPED????? You dumped me as a fav??? I am so dejected. Or maybe I never was a fav and someone else dumped me...
from momma-at-17 :
Yeah I do. It's Sammybear86. Just give me a holler if you'd like to chat. =)
from momma-at-17 :
=) LOL. I'm working on it. I'm leaving notes in between my contractions. They are currently 20-40 minutes apart. Also just got home from the doctors and he said that I was 3 cm dilated as well as 50% effaced. =) Yay, I'm so excited!!
from momma-at-17 :
Thank you sooo very much!! Happy Birthday as well! Hope that it is very fun and relaxing.
from poolagirl :
An amazing song with an amazing message. Love to you and yours.
from cosmicrayola :
She is in my prayers tonight.
from nacwolin :
Prayer offered for your sister.
from marlen816 :
Prayers offered ((Hugs))
from twisted-mind :
I'll be keeping you and your sister in my thoughts.
from laughinplace :
I can relate to the family that worries more about reputation than getting their daughter help, I have a sister-in-law who is abusing heroin and my mother-in-law turns a blind eye repeatedly. I will include you and your sister and your parents in my prayers. *hugs for you*
from dailypieces :
I leave hugs and a promise to pray. **hugs**
from andreeb :
I'm so sorry to hear about your sister. I'm glad she's getting help. She's lucky to have you.
from almostnormal :
Your sister will added to the family's evening prayers (even though I'm sure God already is workin' on it...) Hope you're okay, I know being far away can be hard.
from poolagirl :
Blessings to you and your sister - now and always.
from bettyalready :
I am so sorry S! I will pray for her and keep you and your family in my thoughts.
from ladypoetess :
I'm glad you are happier now. I will say that mandatory 15 minute breaks are somewhat standard in lots of places, because it is a -law- that employers provide lunch and break times.
from marlen816 :
Yea for being fired and for burning bushes! I can not wait to see what the Lord does next especially in the area of a job! ((Hugs))
from laughinplace :
I love prayers that are answered in a way we can understand clearly. I need more of those!
from irisheyes70 :
Let's hear it for that burning bush! I've had very, very few instances of the Lord talking to me that way. How awesome for you!! I hope He leads you to another job that you adore.
from duchessmoon :
Thank you for sharing that experience. I needed to be reminded of just how great He is. He has something so much better for you. (hugs)
from twisted-mind :
I think I need to have a talk with the big man. I'm glad things worked out for you. Hope the next job is soooo much better!
from poolagirl :
OMG! How amazing is that! We have such power when we tap into our inner Divine! YAY! I am soooo glad for you! I have been there many, many times. Hoo-Rah!
from andreeb :
Yay! That's pretty freaking amazing. I never get signs like that.
from ingridwrites :
Yay for getting fired? ;) I'm glad things have worked out for you.
from almostnormal :
Oh shug! I'm (like everyone else) so sorry about your job...but remember...you are who you are and they hired you because of who you are...so if you're nice to the customers, no one is going to yell at you, and if they do...fuck em. You're not going to get fired for being nice. What's wrong with being the worker that once the person encounters you they can SMILE and defend civil servants to their friends? You can't make a difference in the whole world all at once...so why not make a little difference a little bit at a time in the lives of individuals. You may not have chosen your current situation but you can choose who to be within the context of that situation. I have faith in you!
from bettyalready :
Oh man, nothing worse than hating your job. I am so sorry!!! Government. Ugh.
from auntie-mari :
Sorry to hear about the job being such a bomb. I know things will work themselves out and I hope your sister gets better soon.
from moodymama :
i hope your sister is doing okay. :| your job...i'm learning that whatever you're doing at whatever moment in time in your life, you have to kick ass at it. i know what you mean about depression lifting and all of that. i'm glad that your did too. (((((((((wmm)))))))))))))
from andreeb :
Wow, job sounds likehell! Maybe you could make a difference by actually being nice to people and making your coworkers feel like the trolls they are.
from poolagirl :
Get out NOW! Sometimes, we are put in these positions to test our courage and strength. You are VERY strong. I admire you.
from duchessmoon :
I'm so sorry the job isn't all you had hoped. My thoughts are with you.
from almostnormal :
*high five* Faking being an adult rules! Every day I keep thinking they're going to realize that I'm the only one in the company without a degree, even though I told them in the interview...As long as we just keep on keepin' on, we're gonna be great!!!
from forty-plus :
This job sounds like a great challenge. My best thoughts for your sister.
from marlen816 :
Yea for a new job! Prayers for your sister.
from la-blue-eyez :
I hope your sister has a speedy recovery from the accident, and I do hope she's able to straighten up once it's all said and done. {{{HUGS}}}
from la-blue-eyez :
Thank you! :)
from almostnormal :
Me? Confident? HAHAHAHAHAHA! I didn't sleep a wink last night, I couldn't figure out what to wear today, and my first pair of nylons ran the *second* I put them on. Work went okay, but then I took the wrong train home...TWICE! I only sound confident because I try and think things through so much before they happen so I'm as prepared as possible...and even then I'm never as prepared as I wish I would have been :) - I look forward to hearing an update about your new job!
from almostnormal :
Isn't it odd when you think you're going through something alone and then someone else is going through something SO similar? I just had the same job dilemma, and I picked the one in the city with benefits as well. Here's hoping we're fantastic!!! So sorry about your sister, my aunt (my best friend in my teens) did the same thing. My prayers are with you.
from forty-plus :
Congratulations on the new job and I am praying for your sister.
from poolagirl :
So sad to hear abut your sister. Thank God she has you! Congrats on your new job - even though you have to wear clothes.
from duchessmoon :
So sorry to hear your sister is having a hard time. May God show Himself strong on her behalf and help her overcome what's harming her. Congratulations on your new job! You must have what it takes or they wouldn't have offered it to you! Once you get settled in all will be fine. How wonderful!
from andreeb :
So sorry tohear about your sister. That's not good news, but maybe it's not true. You never know. But congrats on the job, anyway :)
from bluebonnet :
Congratulations! Things will be just fine once you get used to it!
from xnavygrrl :
Thanks for the notes! I get so exasperated with people like them sometimes. It's like, they really need to move on and find something else to fixate on!
from xnavygrrl :
My pal, keep the password handy. It's only for a week that i gotta keep everyone locked out. I'm on a mission. They messed with the wrong female!
from almostaflake :
I missed you. Glad you are pulling out of the funk sistah. HUGS
from bluebonnet :
Not yet, just trying :)
from andreeb :
Well??? Get to it! Start writing....now! :))
from xnavygrrl :
Thanks for the note!! I hope you had a Happy Mother's Day too!
from duchessmoon :
Hope you had a wonderful Mother's Day! Your note made me laugh...practice, I like that idea! Thank you so much for your support. I hope all is well with you and yours.
from almostnormal :
Happy mother's day to you too!!! I did receive your email, but I was so flattered and floored (and embarrassed *blush*) that I didn't respond...because I didn't know how to :) Sorry for being an inconsiderate dolt...and thanks for being so kind!
from bettyalready :
Happy Mother's day!!!!! I really hope you had a great day!!!!! We went to church early and then out to brunch and then I got to sleep. The girls gave me bath fizzies so that'll be later.
from msmmack :
Happy Mothers Day to you too!! The link is at the bottom of the entry where it says free sparklies, but I'll just link you here to save you another trip : ) http://silverjewelryclub.com/default.asp?affid=341
from augustdreams :
Happy Mother's Day to one of the sweetest moms I know. (And thank you for your note! That absolutely made my day. *hugging my fuzzy ones*) :)
from andreeb :
HMD to you too!!
from forty-plus :
Happy Mother's Day!
from fightn4life :
My prayers are with you...and...I agree, it is ok to be angry. :) Sandyz
from almostnormal :
Be prepared, I'm about so sound like a nosey stalker: Ack! What happened? I hope you can talk about it when you're less angry (which i'm sure you have EVERY right to be, no matter what it was that happened...) If you can't, of course, that's totally your perogative...and none of my darn business! I hope you feel better soon.
from twisted-mind :
((((((((((WMM)))))))))) Hang in there, its ok to be angry, you have every right.
from ingridwrites :
((hugs))
from wifemotherme :
4/22/05
from msmmack :
What's comical is that that was all my mother's exact sentiments, hahah. I have told her where to go, numerous times. The problem here is that she is 19, graduated high school last June, and has absolutely no experience with life. She's still stuck in the school girl mentality, which, unfortunately, runs rampant here. The joys of being a military wife. Thanks for the back up, though! : )
from andreeb :
Does chubbychic still write? I was reading her for a while, but she wasn't writing much, so I stopped looking...
from duchessmoon :
Just found your note! Thanks for checking on me. Hard times lately, but should be getting better. Stayed away from the computer the last month and sure enough, he asked if I still type in that diary! The only way he'd know that is to catch my keystrokes! Now I have to catch up with my fav diaries!
from andreeb :
Death to Manchild! Three cheers for missing Manchild! Meanwhile, I'm sorry you're feeling distant from J. I know it happens, especially when you're stressed.
from bluebonnet :
Hmmm, should I rewrite that? we didn't win this time. But J won a little bit in february. I was venting cuz he bought a one day draw and then my numbers hit the next night. I was heartbroken. But I did win a free instant ticket! ;)
from xnavygrrl :
Thanks for the note...that is really sweet of you!
from la-blue-eyez :
I've already experienced my mom "hearing" my ex-husband and I having sex. It was NOT pretty at all! lol
from laughinplace :
[email protected] <-- please share. 4/5/05
from la-blue-eyez :
Ok, so I've worked around the system for now. To access my diary, the username is ninja and the password is turtle.
from la-blue-eyez :
My diary isn't supposed to be locked. DL is holding it hostage at the moment. I can't even access it myself because there is no password or anything! I've reported the problem, but it hasn't been fixed yet.
from andreeb :
No joke, I'm really pregnant. I'm shocked to death, truly...
from bettyalready :
You are so right! The three's are the worst!
from bettyalready :
thanks for bringing the pell grant up! I did look into it and found out that since I filled out a FAFSA, they automatically consider you for one? I'm looking at other options, but it's tough. We have no extra money and the chick at the school was saying save money, use a credit card, etc. Uh hello, can't do either.
from forty-plus :
{{Hugs}} to you and N. Believe it or not, you both will survive! In the meantime, keep praying for and loving her.
from xnavygrrl :
It is so nice to always know I have a friend out there praying for me. God bless you too! My daughter is such a beautiful little soul. Even though she gets on my nerves I can't stay mad at her for long. I just think about being that age, and I try to make life memorable for her. As far as the case, I think the feeling this time around is extreme anger. I think most people would get that by reading my profile. :) You're right. I've already went to the news media. I think the reporter is investigating. Go girl! I just love her. I just said a prayer for you too. I don't know what I'd do without my diaryland sisters.
from andreeb :
Thank you! As for the Easter entry: never fear, you'lll have the last laugh when I'm burning in hell!! :))
from wifemotherme :
3/26/05
from andreeb :
Thanks -- it's so weird, I really don't know much about it. I knew I had been nominated and now I'm a finalist, but I haven't voted yet or anything. Not sure who I'll pick :) By the way, you mother and sister are adults. Childhood comments sting and make an impact, but they need to take responsibility for themselves.
from fightn4life :
First, forgive yourself. You were just a child, your sister a child. You must not beat yourself up for things said so many years ago. My heart is with you. Look at the knowledge you have walked away with…teach your children not to say hurtful things to each other. For every act lies a lesson we learn. I think you're awesome. Sandyz
from r-y-r :
I think your recent entry is one of your most beautiful and honest ones. I know that you feel bad about the things you said to your sister, but believe that you have already made up for it by being there for her when she needs you and better yet, admitting you were wrong and doing everything in your power to fix it. You will be in my thoughts througout the day, its been a while since I have read someone elses entry and it made me think as much as yours has.
from pumpkinhouse :
My first weigh in went well - I lost 3 pounds despite a box of peanut butter patties and some mindless snacking. And those damn Slim Jims. Ugh. Anyway, you were saying something about a hex to ward off Girl Scouts and their evil sweets???
from poolagirl :
OMG! Lamb is one of my favorite books too! Of all time! Josh and Biff are the best!
from duchessmoon :
Found your note. Yes, I will be taking the computer in to see what can be done. I'm going to wait until he isn't allowed into the house any more. Otherwise he'll just put whatever he has on the computer right back on. If they can't find the bugs I'll just turn this computer over to the kids for general use and buy a personal one as soon as I can afford it. Until then I'll not type anything too detailed about legal matters. Still waiting for the book to arrive! I have to see why you love it so much!
from pumpkinhouse :
I feel like I have a "hangover" too. Coming out of a food coma is no easy feat. Plus those damn Girl Scouts were pimping their cookies when I went to the grocery store for grapes and Mrs. Dash and other things healthy.
from duchessmoon :
Hello wifemotherme, I've locked for a little while, just until I serve the divorce papers. I've left a note in my notes section for my buddies, if you still want to read.
from krugerpak007 :
Hi, I did get your note and tried to email you, but the email keeps returning. Can you email me at [email protected] so I can reply to you with the details? Have a good weekend. xoxo Kathy
from duchessmoon :
Thanks for letting me know N's experience. It helps. I also left an entry for you in my diary. Take care.
from pumpkinhouse :
I could most certainly use a diet buddy - although I liken it more to an AA sponsor. The second day of THE DIET I felt like a recovering addict who knows she can never again do a line in the bathroom, have cocktails with her usual crowd, or dive to the bottom of a carton of Ben & Jerry's Chubby Hubby. I was really chafing at the idea of portion control but I like to think I won that battle and hopefully I'm a little more fortified for the next time THE DIET sucks big ass. Yeah, all that to say thanks for adding me, I've loved your diary for a long time (I used to be Megin-Says, Nutmegli, and Stinkycookie - no more moves, I've already promised myself and several other people that). Oh, and FRIDGE MAGNETS RULE!!!
from msmmack :
I can't watch romantic movies like The Notebook. I get bored out of my mind. But I have heard lots of good stuff about it. And as for the font... If I were Genie, I'd be nodding my head right about now : )
from xnavygrrl :
I'm sorry about the situation with your sister. Don't let her blame you for everything! I have a sister like that too, but all I can ever see is that I tried to help her. Guess she doesn't see it that way...
from andreeb :
dieting is a bitch. I'm right there with you. In fact, my scale broke, so now it's just up to me to decide if I'm thinner. I say YES!
from duchessmoon :
P.S...you know, writing that birth story was strangely healing. It's probably very boring to read (good thing people can click away), but until then I could only talk to my mom about it. Maybe when you're ready you should write about yours as well. I promise to read it.
from duchessmoon :
Hello sweetie! Thanks for the note, it had me in tears. I swear, I have to stop crying soon. I'm so dehydrated I don't know how I can form tears! I will order that book and let you know when I finish it. I like the way you think with the Heel brothers. If only that were possible! Have a blessed night, oops, day now!
from fightn4life :
Allow me also too ask you to forgive me for misreading your comment. You are correct; Phillip Yancey did in fact state that when we walk with the sorrows of life we understand the human toil of life. I understand now what you were trying to express to me. I felt terrible thinking there was someone that felt I represented myself as superior. That has never been the case. Thank you so much for taking the time to explain what your message meant. In addition, of course I forgive you for being human.  I too look forward to reading more about you from your diary. I read several entries this morning before responding to you. Oh BTW…I too was a teen-age mother and in turn have a daughter that is a mother to a teen-age daughter. My granddaughter. I too adore my husband in one breath and desire to choke him in another. Sandyz
from fightn4life :
I was saddened when I read your reply to my entry… {{"When questioning grief the question should not be "why me" - but simply "why not me" - what makes you so superior to the rest of humanity that you should be free from the very nature of life? Do not wish grief away."}} In no way have I wished grief away nor felt superior to humanity. I write to come to terms with grief that rides within my heart over the loss of my nine-year-old grandchild, now the loss of my son living life, as we know it to be. A mother's anguish is at times unbearable but me knowing our Lord has never left my side and grieves with me …that I find comfort in. I harbor no hate towards the young boy that drove the car under the influence that took my daughters son from us. I harbor no hate for those that walked the path alongside my son that inadvertently help place him in harms way and now separated from those that love him. I feel when searching back through the chapters of my life and questing what might have been if I had chosen another way is a normal grieving process. I do not question why the Lord has allowed bad thing's to happen as I am aware the Lord has given us all free will and the paths we choose in life all lead to the now. The book you referred me to I want to thank you for, I have that book and read it often. Another wonderful book is "God Calling." A daily read written by two listeners. And Edited by A.J. Russell. Another wonderful read when sadness takes a grip on your heart…"When Bad Things Happen to Good People." Much of my sorrow knows those very close to me have suffered loss as I have. Being a mother and having no way to make things better for her children or grand kids, is anguish. I want to thank you for congratulations on my stop smoking. It has now been over 16 months, almost 500 days. I at times find a rainbow in the most unusual places. Thank you for reading my diary. And the positive comments. Through my writing, I find healing. Sandyz
from loner-blues :
LOL No problem. :-) -cat
from loner-blues :
Wow! Thank you. I had no idea you were even reading me! I love the image too. In fact, I love the entire layout...there's something about it that is resonates with a hint of tragic romance. Granted, I do my best to deny I'm a romantic every chance I get, but I'm really just a big marshmallow at heart. -cat
from bitchslap69 :
~ you say the nicest things to me ~ (blush)
from twisted-mind :
It must be a sister thing or something because my sister still blames me for shit that happened when I was 9! ((((WMM)))) You are an amazing person don't let anyone else tell you otherwise. Besides quitting your job didnt make you a failure, it makes you a survivor because you fought the injustice.
from forty-plus :
You continue to impress me as a wonderful and strong woman.
from duchessmoon :
goodness gracious, this guy could be Heel's brother! If you can figure it all out let me know, OK? Good luck.
from rickscafe :
FWIW: Federal Bank regulations require deposits/credits to be run before withdrawals and debits. It's all good, assuming they are done on the same day.
from duchessmoon :
It's nice to meet you. Thank you for the note today, you actually cheered me. It was very kind. Please feel free to stop and chat anytime. I hope you feel better soon, and I totally understand the teen girl issue. That was what Girl's angst was over this week. She needed another ride from me! Please take care, Jennifer
from chubbymum :
Hi.. I don't know what to say about your post that I read today! I got a really sad feeling when reading it and just wanted to hug you. I don't know exactly what bipolar is and I have a friend with it and I don't pretend to be an expert... but wouldn't it be better to get yourself out and help your situation.. I mean hiding is only going to make you feel worse isn't it? It sounds like you need a challenge.... like you were getting at work. I mean with all the other people there it was making you think of other things than just you and your situation. Maybe getting out will help you think happier?? does that make sense? The only thing with notes is that they don't come across right sometimes... I am trying to sound like I care (even though words can't always do that){{hugs}}
from andreeb :
Poor WifeMM. Teenagers suck, truly. N will get it more when she's older, but right now the world revolves around her. Ahhh, to be young and oblivious again...
from sanetwin :
I keep struggling with how I'm going to handle telilng Analise about my bipolar disorder when she's older. Right now my moods are just a fact of life for her. I hate to think of how to handle it when she ?'s it. I'm so sorry you're down (((HUGS))
from gag-me :
It was wildorchid... :) By the way, I think the new doo is adorable!
from chadin :
Thank you for the birthday wishes.
from chubbymum :
Woohoo on your hair cut!! It makes you look so much younger or something than the first photo! Wow I wish I could pull of a hair cut like that! And it is soo healthy and shiny looking.
from marlen816 :
I love the short boyish cut! You look great! ((Hugs))
from poolagirl :
Your haircut is CUTE! You look adorable!
from xnavygrrl :
I love your new haircut. And you are a beauty, by the way.
from msmmack :
My GOODNESS your hair is shiny!!
from andreeb :
LOVE the new hair. Very sassy and stylish!!
from forty-plus :
I love the new style! Very, very becoming.
from obsidianfrog :
Thank you for taking the time to link my diary... It made my day :) I saw your hair too, and its beautiful! Thanks Again, Obsidian
from twisted-mind :
I love the new hair. I like the shorter look. I was actually thinking of cutting my hair about the length in the first picture but I so love the second picture too. I think it makes you look younger.
from cindreviews :
Cinderella Reviews is a brand new review site. So if you would like a review please come and check us out at http://cindreviews.diaryland.com/ . We hope to be hearing from you soon. Thank You!
from pischina :
Thanks for your note, it made me actually laugh out loud! VERY funny. Unfortunately, I don't see Brad Pitt anywhere near my house - then again, he could be lost in the lawn, the grass is so high, haha! Anyway, I hope things turn around and go much better for you. I know you'll get through this, and things will be better in the end. Thanks so much again, Love, Me.
from msmmack :
Aw, it was just that Mr. Mack was being a turd and I was afraid I was going to have cause a scene to get him to calm down. He's just been super stressed, so I think that after this weekened, he'll be much better.
from andreeb :
I agree. You are being too hard on yourself. You were in an unhealthy environment and did what you had to do to stay sane. Telling people what other people say about each other is not always wise or necessary. Or even accurate. Sometimes we say things we don't mean, so repeating them doesn't help. I think it shows great insight for you to be considering your own part in the events of the last two weeks. But you are not solely to blame and your presence certainly did not injure the church. The fact that you care so much shows me you really do have strong faith and one to be proud of.
from nmnohr :
I honestly think you are being entirely too hard on yourself. I still think you did the right thing. I still think you are a wonderful person.......in my eyes, and in God's eyes.
from msmmack :
Ok, I finally had the time to catch up on your diary, and Holey Moley!I missed a lot! I have to say that I'm very proud of you for standing up for yourself, but even more proud of you for your disclaimer stating that Bossman is by no means a poster boy for Christianity. Just remember, it takes all kinds, honey, and without jerks like him, there's no one to make us look that much better.
from almostaflake :
You are so brave. Thanks for sharing you with me (us). I will be praying for you, keep the faith lady. Change comes whether we like it or not. Things will keep turning........
from forty-plus :
I realize you are feeling low, but to read your words is inspiring. You are so right about love and the wall!
from xnavygrrl :
Thanks for the vote of confidence. I really needed that, because I was feeling really inept and for once in my life, I was at a loss for words.
from r-y-r :
Good for you, I am liking the optimized WMM
from revmetalhead :
You go girl! Nobody has the right to treat you that way. Look at it as "experience" to help others in the same situation. Sadly, there are many. But not you anymore!
from forty-plus :
WMM Optimized is AWESOME!
from laughinplace :
hey. good for you! you make me feel empowered!
from chubbymum :
Well done!! Isn't it great to know you have done the right thing.. But you know what you will get another job and it will be better and you will wonder why you stayed in that job as long as you did.
from twisted-mind :
I'm proud of you and you should be proud of you too!
from forty-plus :
Aw, you made me cry! :)
from bitterwineuk :
wow, where you live sounds so lovely. Dolphins practically on your doorstep.... awwww. Becca
from chubbymum :
OMG I have a pit in my stomach to think that a church could be so cold and callis (if that is how you spell it). They could have had a farewell for you or something... they could have said sorry that you are going and thanks for all the hard work. Sorry but they don't seem very Christian like in my eyes. But you know what God is watching and he sees all. They will get what is coming! I am so sorry for your sadness (big hugs)
from poolagirl :
Well........it's over now. I was actually fired from a church job, so I can appreciate your feeling of loss. It sounds like Bossman is a toxic personality. Staying there would have killed you. And he is a wussie butt too - assigning someone else to do his job. Not good. You are better off without all of this. I know you feel aimless and a bit lost right now, but it passes in time. I am holding you in my heart - knowing a better truth and a grander unfoldment of creation for you. Blessings.
from nmnohr :
I just wanted you to know I was thinking of you, and I will keep you in my prayers. Good for you for standing up for yourself, and making the difficult decision. I think you have done the right thing, and over time, your boss will realize exactly how valuable you were to them........and he will see the mistakes he made.
from forty-plus :
You are doing the right thing. You may not see the immediate reactions to this revelation, but more people know about the underlying situations and there will be many questions to be answered, people to be held accountable for their actions and inactions. There is NO place for yelling in a professional situation unless you are coaching a basketball game! Please remember - those negative voices do not have to be there. You have His power. {{Hugs}}
from ladybug-red :
(((HUGS)))
from laughinplace :
guts! glad you have em. wish i did! :( god bless, you did the right thing, i'm thinking of and praying for you!
from chubbymum :
You don't deserve to be treated like you have.. you should have to go to work and do the job and not have all that on your back as well. You did the right thing and it is hard when you like your job so much.... but the rest of your life will suffer if you don't do what is right for you. {{big hugs}}
from bettyalready :
you so deserve not to be totally stressed out and wasted at work. Thanks for the tip about the eye make up because I wouldn't have thought of that!
from andreeb :
Ah yes. Working in a church could be very bad. I went to Catholic school for 8 years and that was tough enough...
from poolagirl :
WOW! I support your decision 100%. Greater things are in the stars for you. Trust your heart. It will never fail you!
from twisted-mind :
((((((WMM)))))))
from forty-plus :
Gigantic {{hugs}}!
from forty-plus :
That was a perfect disclaimer with the bullies entry. Hold on and remember God does not want us to be a doormat.
from poolagirl :
Ah, yes....the bullies. I work in a church too, and I can relate to those political nasties even there. We have an interesting belief system in my religion (Religious Science - NOT Scientology). If someone doesn't show up expressing love, they are expressing fear. There are only two core emotions we human can express. Anger, hatred, being a bully, etc. All of that is simply fear when you boil away the meat and look at the bones. It's a weird thing - fear. It's good when it gets us out of burning buildings, etc. It's bad when it pushes God out of the way. I am holding you and your situation in my heart and prayers. (((((hug)))))
from daze-of-rain :
from the start of it all? You, my dear, are ambitious. Thanks for letting me know...I always wonder when I see so much reading going on. Thank you so much for even WANTING to read all of that. lol
from so-charming :
Thank you for your sweet note. I am doing ok, just feeling a little blah right now and can't for the life of me think of a thing worth writing about. I'm sure I'll come up with something to write about eventually, I always do. :) Glad to see you're updating more regularly yourself.
from chubbymum :
Wow... I always thought that my boys looked sooo different. I have been reading your diary for sooo long now... feel like I know you. I used to be auntykio (here in diaryland)
from chubbymum :
Hi... Yes those are my two boys on the picture. The little girl is me as a child. The bottom left hand corner are recent photos of both of them.
from la-blue-eyez :
I have thought about it, but the problem is that if I relocate, even to another city here in FL, I need a hospital that will give me relocation assistance. If I stay here in FL, a hospital won't give me enough to move me and get me set up in an apartment. I haven't worked in so long that my savings has dwindled down so much I can't afford it without help.
from janetplnetoc :
I know very few people who had good 2004's. Everyone I know is so relieved that it's over. I read my archives too sometimes to see where I've been. I'm really hoping 2005 kicks some ass.
from dailypieces :
Lmao. A drunk 2nd grader? Im an excellent typist, its just my bad fingers. :P Yeah that sounds good eh? And funnily enough I read all my archives today. Wow. Thats all I can say. I do bitch too much about housework. Man I need a life! It was that and the laundry lol.
from andreeb :
Thank you so much:) Click on the following link to see the story. It's a long story, I warn you.. http://www.statesman.com/metrostate/content/metro/autism/index.html
from almostaflake :
Wow, the love you have in your heart is such a treasure in this world. Thank you for your entry today.
from forty-plus :
BeBe has a great support foundation with your family. This is will be very important to her as days go by. I wish more Christians felt as you and I do.
from almostaflake :
Hey there Sistah, Best of luck in the controling the emotions thing. The best thing I've done is just not to ACT on them and start realizing what they are and what they come from a little earlier (and JOURNALING IS A GREAT WAY TO DO THAT!) I've NEVER been able to stop being a sponge, will I ever be able to?? I certainly don't believe will power stops it(or can). BUT, you know who, Higher Power/God has the power, and has relieved me of my "insanity" many times. Just my two cents. I don't want you to be mad at yourself when your grand plan is thwarted by your humanity. SMOOOTCH, and happy new year.
from sanetwin :
I think "not be so nuts" is a great resolution! I may add that to my list!
from andreeb :
Please, I am honored to be stalked by you! You're a great writer. I was just wandering around this afternoon and found your diary. Loved your layout, so I took a look. Love the pics of you and your family. You're all so good looking :)
from twisted-mind :
Happy New Year you posty note loving freak.
from janetplnetoc :
Thanks for sharing your pictures. I always wonder what people look like. You and your daughter are both beautiful and J looks like a great guy.
from sanetwin :
N and you look exactly alike! You're both beautiful. You ahve the same blue eyes.
from augustdreams :
You're beautiful! And you and N both have such lovely eyes. You two are like my mom and I - clones! :D That's a really cute picture of J too, although he has that nervous I-hate-being-photographed expression. (Most of my pics have that expression too!) I hope everyone's feeling better now. The CFS has been really flaring up on me but I did just do a couple of quick updates. :) Happy New Year! I resolve to keep in touch with you better in 2005. You can always call or drop me an email. Anytime. *hug*
from la-blue-eyez :
N looks just like you! You have a beautiful family!
from forty-plus :
Beautiful! Happy New Year!
from twisted-mind :
Aww you are sooo pretty. Such a friendly face. Your daughter has such beautiful eyes. Who's the male model? hehe
from la-blue-eyez :
I loved reading about you watching Will and Grace with your sister. That was very very sweet!
from sunnflower :
There's nothing like Will and Grace viewing. Glad you survived the season. Hugs.
from pashiesplace :
Just wanted to finally leave you a note. I've been reading for awhile and love your diary. The only thing better than watching Will and Grace is watching it with someone.
from xnavygrrl :
Thanks for the Christmas wishes. I hope yours was wonderful as well. :) Happy New Year.
from twisted-mind :
Merry Christmas! Hope yours was super great!
from almostaflake :
Happy happy holiday my dear on-line friend. I hope it's a very peaceful one for you and your family.
from sanetwin :
Merry Christmas!
from bettyalready :
Oh you're still here!!!! Merry Christmas!
from rickscafe :
Thanks for stopping by and leaving me a note. It's always nice to know you vistied.
from almostaflake :
Thanks for the note lady. You are SO right. I keep trying to feed it everything but what fits......that's what happened the other night. I was reminded and my ache was lifted immediately. I am grateful your in my life to remind me as well :) Hope your weekend is wonderful.
from xnavygrrl :
Aww. Thanks for the kind note. As far as that other one goes, I'm hoping she is someone like me and not related to the creep that killed my mom. I often wonder if they could find my journal, and that would be unnerving.
from gemille :
hi. =) thanks for the birthday wish. i'm 23! that sounds... old. lol i'm just not a kid anymore. anyways. thanks alot.
from chubbychic :
omgosh! Thank you so so so much for the cutest Christmas card in the whole world! You are such a sweetheart! *hugs*
from trinity63 :
All of this going on in a church amazing, isn't it?
from forty-plus :
I don't think you are being judgmental at all. It actually sounds like you got it straight and you're being very mature staying impartial. I really don't think it is your place to do anything but pray and stay out of it. If Bossman wants help, he will ask. All you are responsible for are your own actions. Good luck & hang in there. {hugs}
from almostaflake :
Man, did we used to hang out? I did the same thing w/my girlfriends. Now it seems pure evil. I wonder if the women who answered could tell I was a 14 year old? Sheesh..I hope so. It just goes to show that the yuckiest teens turn into lovely people. You give me hope as Plum walks around the house in her "Hi Loser" pajama bottoms.
from janetplnetoc :
I used to do something similar when I was a kid. My friends and I would find the husband and wife names in the phone book and then we would write love letters to the husband. I, too, hope we didn't ruin any marriages. At the time it seemed fun. But now, it was just stupid.
from almostaflake :
Dahlin... Thanks for the note. You're balanced view is just what I'm missing. It's so good to have you caring. THANKS A TON!!!
from bitchslap69 :
~* wink *~ you'd be my best horse if you never won a race!
from badbadbaby :
we write in cyberspace to get our feelings out...but most of us write in such a public fashion because we love to be heard. we love to see that people are reading us...and understanding...and even agreeing sometimes. i love comments...and knowing when people are reading me! i'm flattered that you actually took the time to even read my archives! that's seriously impressive!! come back soon...and i'll start trying to read some of yours. :)
from janie12975 :
I'm so sorry. I am in tears for your family. I can only think of my children, and to know how short life can be. What a blessing though, that they were able to donate his organs. (((hugs))) to you.
from twisted-mind :
((((((((((Wifemotherme))))))))) Thinking of you.
from vanillakitty :
I'm so sorry about the loss. I do love the last paragraph of your entry. It made me cry, ehh the whole entry did, The little things you fuss about will be the biggest things you miss. Makes ya think. Lots of prayer-filled huggs for you & your family! *mwah*
from marlen816 :
So sorry for your family's loss. Will be praying for your aunt!
from vanillakitty :
Happy Gobble Day!!! *mwah*
from forty-plus :
Happy Thanksgiving Day! I hope you have a wonderful day with your loved ones.
from sunnflower :
How sad. One of my cousins was killed by a hit and run driver on Easter. He was about the same age. I'll keep the family in my prayers.
from trinity63 :
I will keep the little boy, you and his mom in my prayers -- on another note, regardless of whether or not she remembers TSD's birthday or not -- he is still obligated to pay his childsupport.
from nmnohr :
I will definitely keep your family in my prayers.
from notjustamom :
Hugs and prayers for you and your family.
from twisted-mind :
Will be thinking of you. Hope your trip is safe and your family is well.
from msguided :
Oh no! I think if anything happened to my children, I'd need to be hospitalized too. Except I'd have to share a room with them, because I couldn't ever be away from them for a single second! Prayers for your family.
from forty-plus :
Have a safe trip and I'll be praying for your 12 year old relative. So sad.
from smashley719 :
As a pretty mature 17 year old, I think that 10:30 on weeknights and 1 am on weekends. This is 2004! Even if you go to see a 9 o'clock movie, it's not over until 11:30! If she's as mature as you say... just trust her. She knows what she should be doing and shouldn't.
from trinity63 :
9 PM on week nights and midnight on the weekends (Friday and Saturday Night) and if she is ever late, then it drops to 11 PM and if she is late for that 10 PM. Stand strong and firm. You you need to know who what where and how regarding *N* all the time -- and she needs to realize dating is a privlidge not a right.
from msmmack :
Ohmigoodness!! I didn't realize my links were the same color as the font! The link is on the words 'the website' at the bottom. I'm off to change the colors!
from starke- :
Thank you for visiting my diary and leaving a comment. It means a lot! :) The picture on your layout is absolutely gorgeous. And I think 11 is an absolutely perfect curfew, if even a little late! ♥
from forty-plus :
For my two teens curfew all depends on the activity. With your daughter only being three streets over - at someone's house? With the parents very aware and very awake? -- I would think for just hanging out 11:00 would be late enough, unless they all went to a 9:30 movie or something of that sort.
from laughinplace :
My plan when my daughters (and son) are of age is to make them stick with the state curfew. Every night at 10 p.m. a commercial plays that says "It's 10 o'clock. Do you know where your children are?" Kids aren't supposed to be out and about after 10, and so I figure I will use that as my guideline. No chaparone? Home by 10.
from opalanne :
11/19/04 - Hmmm...I guess signmyguestbook.com does not want me to sign your guestbook! I will leave a note instead! I think 11:00 is a very reasonable weekend curfew for a 16 year old girl. Of course, what do I know? My oldest never made curfew on time - now I'm a Grandma; my youngest, who does absolutely everything I say and has earned more trust doesn't get home until 1:00 am or later on weekends because he is a closing manager for a local fast food restaurant. Good luck - parenting teenagers is not for the faint of heart! ;)
from nmnohr :
Is there anyway I can skip that whole dating thing with my daughter? I don't know if I can handle it! IF only our kids would realize we really do know what we are talking about. If I would have listened to my mother more growing up, I would have spared myself a lot of heartache. I suppose it helped make me who I am today though. IT's a double edged sword.
from janie12975 :
Oh man, I am so not looking forward to the girls being old enough to date! You seem to be handling it very well, and giving great advice. Not that N is listening, but you're a mom, and how could you possibly know what you are talking about. ;) Nice to see your layout back up and running! Looking good!
from la-blue-eyez :
I still see your layout perfectly, but if you want a decent place to host images, you can go to www.imagestation.com. Hope that helps.
from msmmack :
The easiest thing for me to do is to add it for you myself. If you are willing to do that, just shoot me an email with the password (you might want to change it to something different than you usually use and when you're done, change it back). It's up to you though.
from trinity63 :
www.photobucket.com will host your images. Easy Peasy.
from moodymama :
http://imageshack.com provides free hosting and you don't have to sign up or anything like that. just upload your image and copy the link.
from sanetwin :
I upload mine to an MSN community I belong to. You get like 3MB of storage space through MSN groups. Just upload it and then link to it. It doesn't work if the community is private though. I use all of my photos that way.
from msmmack :
I use photobucket.com. If you don't want to fuss with it, you can just email me the image and I'll host it for you.
from sunnflower :
I am glad you are writing here again and I hope you will write more often. Your honest words and perspective on life are very valuable. Thanks for your note on the dog. I think you are right about the big softie thing.
from msmmack :
Yep, I mailed it yesterday right after I finished writing it. I was too passionate about it to not send it off.
from cosmicrayola :
errr, that should have been Carol. I just washed my fingers and can't do a thing with them.
from cosmicrayola :
I looked it up. Yes, it is by Carlo Wimmer and it is beautiful.
from starlight42 :
So glad to hear that so many people are voting, I hope it keeps up :) Hope everything is going well...
from auntie-mari :
OHH my gosh that last entry is exactly what I have been thinking lately.... OYY!!! I want all the adds and crap to go away too!! I am happy thing are going better but bummed you and J have to be apart. I hope your dad gets better quick too. **Hugs*** I wish we could chat some time!
from xnavygrrl :
Thank you for the note. I have to admit I almost started sobbing when I read it. Why? Because somebody, you, believed me. Back then, no one did. That's powerful. Thank you for being my friend.
from augustdreams :
Thank you so much, for the Halloween note and for the lovely comment. I love you 365 days a year, too. :) I've still got some more Halloween stuff to post - I refuse to let the flu ruin all my fun.
from msmmack :
If I had to pinpoint the change, I'd have to go with the obvious catalyst: God. When you're this loved, how can you not let it shine through? God is amazing. I couldn't neglect to say, also, that since I've been on Prozac, it's been a lot easier to let the positive energy out. Depression is a terrible trap, and I'm thankful that I've been able to free myself. I've always been the person I am today, I just haven't been able to show it. Now, I've got no reason not to! But I thank you for your note. It's always good to know that someone recognizes how far you've come in your journey.
from xnavygrrl :
Oh, I am SO happy you're okay. It's great things are going good for you too...:)
from starlight42 :
Glad to hear things are well :)
from ladypoetess :
Glad to hear that things are looking up for you! I understand how hard it is to do it all on your own, but you are strong and I know you can do it. ^_^ And N's not-boyfriend sounds very cute and like he's probably a good one!
from inkdragon :
Take good care.
from laughinplace :
I've been so worried for you, what with the weather down there and the job situation and all. Glad it's going better. I know how hard it is for a husband to work all day every day, but I also know how hard it is to do without work, and that any work is such a blessing from God. I'm so glad he's got something, temporary or no. *hugs*
from marlen816 :
God is so good. Glad to hear things are well with you.
from twisted-mind :
Good to know all is well with you. You big girl you. :o)
from pinky77 :
come back lady,i miss you!<3
from gaygirlsgirl :
I will have to send you an email with the details. I am stressed but this will pass!
from sunnflower :
Hope all is well with you as you haven't written here in awhile.
from inkdragon :
It's been a while, I hope you are alright. Miss you.
from moodymama :
miss you much and hoping that all is well with you. :)
from xnavygrrl :
You know, you are special too. I want to thank you and artofliving for writing such sweet things to me. It made me get a little teary-eyed. It just goes to show how many wondeful people are out there on the net. I mean, in my quiet moments, away from the computer, away from everything..I think of you. I think of the drama of your financial duress and other equally emotional situations that you are dealing with. I always tell my friends that "my heart knows your heart..I'm telling you the same thing now. Mine knows yours. God bless you for reaching out and comforting me.
from xnavygrrl :
It's amazing what cleaning the toilet will do for your soul....:)
from twisted-mind :
yay for feeling better! :o)
from bitchslap69 :
you pretty much got it all! we dated in the 80s when we both were in college, and kept up an on / off relationship ever since. always felt like he toyed with my emotions, playing me against the psychobitch, but then i pretty much did the same w/ him, b/c out of all the ppl i know IRL, he is the only one i share my site on dland w/. i think i did that to make sure he kept his distance from me so as not to get too close, then hurt me. of course, he read things in my old diary that were painful to him, and it caused problems. but he will always be in my heart. i hope to always be in his, but don't need involvement with (another) married man!
from catsmeow1224 :
Think nothing of it. We all have days like that. *wink*
from hopeanew :
ive been thinking about you all this past week, since i heard of that darn hurricane coming your way. i cant believe tere is yet another one onits way! (sorry 4 typos, one handed!)
from ray0flight :
Glad you made it out ok!!! :)
from twisted-mind :
Hey you. Just been thinking about you and hoping you are ok.
from catsmeow1224 :
Wow. You completely misunderstood me. I wasn't saying "Yay, Florida deserves to get their butts kicked." I was saying "Dang, why is this happening to them?". It just makes you wonder, is all. People there are in a whole world of hurt. It's one of those phylosphical scenarios: Why does God do things like this to good people. I've got nothing against Floridians (If I did, that would be stupid, considering this time last year I was living in Pensacola) nor do I believe they somehow asked for it. I was simply pondering out loud.
from nmnohr :
Done deal......it's off there! Sorry.
from sunnflower :
You are not a bum, dear. You are a person going through a difficult financial period in your life. Hang in there. Hugs. :)
from hopeanew :
hey, we all have days like those! some of us more than others (i should know!). give yourself a break, you've had it rough lately! sheesh! *big hugs* you are loved! :)
from cosmicrayola :
awwww. ((hugs)) It won't last forever.
from moodymama :
(((((((((((((s)))))))))))))) you're not a baby. :)
from bitchslap69 :
thank you for pointing me in the right direction
from als-pals :
Wow, that La entry was really amazing. Thanks for sending the link. However, I think you have great entries too. I'm not sure, but I THINK you were trying to say, your entries aren't as good as others. That's just the thing, why does it have to be made into a "competition" of sorts. Why can't we all just write, and just understand, some people are better expressers than others. But that doesn't matter, 'cause we're writing for ourselves, and if other people happen to read, good for them. I don't know, it just sort of seems silly to me. And yet, it's really no big deal. Thanks again for responding.
from bitchslap69 :
i guess i don't feel i'm deserving of His grace. most of my prayers are for others because, as a sinner, i don't feel that i've earned the right to ask for things for myself.
from moodymama :
what do you think He Up There is trying to tell me? i feel like He's trying to point me somewhere but i'm not sure where...
from bitchslap69 :
i do believe. i know He is real. at least once a day i speak to Him in my own way, say thank you for what i have been given. it's hard for me to ask of Him, though. and that is what i need to do the most.
from la-blue-eyez :
lmao! Thank you for the encouragement! I'm getting back to work now!
from lovelydaisy :
Hi, this is CarrieM, i have decided not to use that diary anymore for personal reasons, so I am writing here :) Thanks :)
from myexodus :
Can ya believe your letter was my trigger? =] I really am sorry about that message I sent you, but the group mailbox is fine.
from xnavygrrl :
I also thought "The Butterfly Effect" was a trigger movie. I started thinking about the night my mom died, and what if the man who killed her got in a traffic accident instead, or his mom was sick so he went to take care of her. I know I'm rambling..my other trigger movie is "A Beautiful Mind" because I have some strange things in common with the main character. Plus, I work for the government. Me being bipolar, I have tended to be a little paranoid at times. Well. I understand the trigger stuff too.
from hopeanew :
I just sent the tidbit you can copy/paste into your template in an email. :) I also include a link to the page on d-land that explains how it works, etc.
from starlight42 :
I just noticed this morning that if you're on this main DL page, click on Help Section and FAQ's- click on misc. stuff- and down at the bottom it lists a tag you can put in your diary. Hope that helps.
from augustdreams :
There's a couple things you can try. One is plugging this script into your template: <html> <head> <meta name="robots" content="noindex,nofollow"> <meta name="description" content="This page ...."> <title>...</title> </head> <body> There are some other things you can try. I found a page that's helpful, but some of the html and scripts etc. that they use are a bit over my head. :/ But here's the address: http://danzcontrib.free.fr/en/pieges.php Love you!
from hopeanew :
it was a trigger movie for me, too. so was good will hunting. a movie my husband loves that i "hate" because it is a good movie but it triggers. i'm so sorry your evening was ruined. *hug*
from myexodus :
I'm sorry for the pain you've had, bad things do happen to good people. But like the movie 'Butterfly Effect', to go back and change one thing creates a spiral effect, some of which isn't good. We should take those bad experiences and make a positive out of them. To have them continuously bring us to our knees only gives the preditor more power than is rightfully owed. As for the movie 'Bastard Out Of Carolina', I do know it was an excellent book....if you want I can mail you my copy...just go to the group and let me know.
from moodymama :
not sure if you've seen this one, but don't ever watch Bastard Out Of Carolina. it stars Jennifer Jason Leigh. hey, maybe if we come across movies like this we can let each other know. :)
from inkdragon :
"Contemplating...." was so thoughtfully written. It's never simple, is it?
from moodymama :
there should be a list of potential trigger movies in mental health clinics, i think.
from moodymama :
((((((((((((s))))))))))) hey girl, just wanted to say hi. :)
from poolagirl :
Thanks for the lovely comment you left me! You are just the sweetest one!
from lanne :
Keeping you in my thoughts and hoping God keeps you and your family safe. Big hug!
from augustdreams :
Could you please send me your phone # again? You can email it or put it in a private g*book message. Our cell service is STILL out but should be back up by tomorrow. I'll feel better once I've talked to you, too. I'm so glad you and yours are okay. *HUG*
from moodymama :
i thought about you and the others in our group that are from florida when i was watching the news last night. i hope everything is okay. (((((((((((you)))))))))))))
from hopeanew :
You are in my prayers! *hugs*
from augustdreams :
Me too, sweetie. Stay safe. *HUG*
from trinity63 :
I am thinking of you I really am, you are in my prayers. Hang in girl.
from xnavygrrl :
I'm praying for you. My sister lives at MacDill Air Force base and had to evacuate yesterday. They said on CBSnews.com that MacDill will most likely be underwater when it hits. Scary! Many prayers....
from augustdreams :
Thank you for the comment. Your kind words mean so much to me. More than I can possibly express. Just know that your friendship is a light in my life that burns brightly no matter how dark things get. *HUGS*
from suprgoddess :
um...i don't know why there's caps on that d there for "daughter's..." gosh, i should proof my notes damn. let's just pretend that it's lower-case, yah? :P
from suprgoddess :
i read excerpts of your entry of your Daughter's party to my daughters...about how you used to sing her that song by Bad English. They remember too, the song just for them. That was so touching. *sniffle* That had me tearing as well! <3<3
from starlight42 :
the party sounded wonderful. and i bet the house was beautiful! what a caring mom you are!
from gaygirlsgirl :
I'm glad everything worked out well for you guys! Nothing makes us happier than to see our kids happy. I hope all is well and talk to you soon!
from mommylap :
I am so happy that this party was gorgeous and flawless! I think it's so generous that you let the sperm donor be there, and I teared up when he asked to take her shopping instead of J. In any case, you are the best mom ever. I mean that too. I hope you completely enjoyed every second.
from sunnflower :
I am so glad that the BD party was a wonderful success!
from moodymama :
awww, i've been wondering how her sweet 16 party went. i'm glad everything turned out okay. :o)
from hopeanew :
Wow! I wish I had a sweet 16 like that! Sounds like it was so wonderful! I'm glad you were able to have such a great party for her, and that everything went so smoothly for you! *loves*
from janetplnetoc :
I'm so glad she had such a beautiful party. It sounds like SpermDonor really came through for her. What faith you have too, and how inpsiring it is to see how much you trust God during this difficult time in your life.
from inkdragon :
N's party sounded fantastic! I'm so happy for her and for you.
from la-blue-eyez :
lol If you REALLY need it to rain for a few more days, I'll hold off on asking God to make it stop... But after that, I'm gonna have to ask for at least 2 WHOLE weeks of no rain! Or at least for it to stop on my way to and from school.
from purplebanana :
You've got the most interesting profile description I've ever seen. If I was on a committee, I'd give you a shiny star.
from bitchslap69 :
hey sweetie - your note made me laugh! there's nothing mediocre about you at all, don't worry. it helps to hear from ppl who are struggling too. thanks, as always.
from leilei49 :
wow, talk about miracles of all miracles! your husband is a real man, btw. :o)
from hopeanew :
so glad that worked out for you! :) sending prayers your way!
from vanillakitty :
Hey woman! Slowly I'm working my way back!! I'm glad to see you are still around & kicking. Hope everything goes ok with the visitor!!! *mwah*
from trinity63 :
You know what -- your house is going to be just fine -- and really deep down you could give a shit what the sperm donor thinks. he's doing the right thing -- he's helping his kid have a memorable 16th birthday party. It's going to be fine:) xoxoxo
from la-the-sage :
YAY!!! And no decent person EVER gets tired of hearing about miracles. Happy for you, ~LA
from inkdragon :
Remember it's all about N. God worked a miracle with Sperm Donor, let Him calm your heart also. I'm so happy for you.
from gaygirlsgirl :
Just wanted to say a quick thanks for the note. It's nice to know that some crazy people out there still enjoy listening to me ramble! =) Hope all is well!
from leslieirene :
Wow! That's saying something if your highspeed has trouble loading my page! I confess to having added TONS of extras on my index page, and I probably should get rid of many of them- like several of the Tara Lipinski pics.! I don't need all those! Thanks so much for your kind note! Blessings to you! Leslie
from hopeanew :
pls let me send you something. promise the $$ has already been spent - don't let me waste it! ;)
from la-the-sage :
I was thinking something similar for the birthday. A fancy dinner at home with candles and a pretty table set with wild flowers. Make a memory lane with photos and such. Tell her all about her life up to now and the dreams you have for her future. Special doesn't mean expensive. I know you want to throw her the whing-ding you never had, but that's YOUR dream. Right now knowing you wouldn't change a single thing (even the bad stuff) because it means that you have her is the best gift you can give her. Honest! Keeping you in my thoughts, ~LA
from poolagirl :
You're in my thoughts and prayers, kiddo. Not knowing your little one very well, it's hard to offer a good suggestion about her birthday. Maybe you can promise her something like a peanut butter sandwich picnic adventure once a month for a year - just the two of you - off doing something silly together. I really don't know - but I DO know that you will make whatever it is loving and heartfelt.
from leslieirene :
Hi there! I love your template, and your writing,too. I read your profile, and my eldest sister is bipolar as well. She's o.k. as long as she takes her meds. I added you as a favorite, and I can't believe I didn't have you on my list before! What's wrong with me?! Wait! Don't answer that; we don't have all day! Anyway, have a wonderful day! Blessigs, Leslie
from mommylap :
I'll be thinking of you. I think your luck with nice debt collectors has everything to do with your attitude with them on the phone- you are so nice and don't yell at them, so they don't escalate with the same. I hope the little blessings continue until the big blessings can.
from starlight42 :
sorry to hear things are still rough...I know how it can be when you get so stressed that you're physically ill. I've got you in my thoughts!
from notjustamom :
Having been in your postion many times I can day it will pass, things will get better, its a matter of time and patience and faith. Out of the worst times we've had have come some really fantastic changes! Its almost like the odl has to be completely broken down before the new can begin, ya understand? Cant build a new house until the old foundation is gone. **hugs**
from la-blue-eyez :
lol That made me giggle! Thank you, I needed a smile. If it makes you feel better though, the accident was north bound going to Tampa and not coming from Tampa. Maybe in the back of your mind you knew none of your family was in it because there's no way for them to get on the Howard Franklin unless they go south bound? lol I don't know, I'm just trying to make it not so twisted. :)
from la-blue-eyez :
I keep trying to remind myself of that. Only 10 more weeks and I will only have to see her once a week. I just have to hold out that long without drop kicking her. :) Thank you for thinking of me. I've heard that accident was a 30 car pile up.
from la-blue-eyez :
I just updated. :) I actually got lucky with that accident. That was the day we went to the hospital and I went across the Gandy. If it hadn't been for that, I'd have been on the bridge at the time all that was going on and possibly been in it. God was looking out for me that day!
from dragonbuds :
What a wonderful rainbow!
from sunnflower :
Amazing story. I think things like the gift you were given - little and big signs from God - happen all the time. Often we just ignore them in the rush of daily life.
from say-good-bi :
omg that ahs happened to us. after my mother in law passed away a few yrs ago we recieved an annoynomous letter in the mail similar to that and inside was a hundred dollars then a few weeks later we got another. Our friends ahd that happen to them as well after a brain surgery,we believe it had to be from someone in our church. blessings come in all sorts of ways dont they? lol. good luck to you.
from lanne :
What a great blessing. Thank you for sharing. I sure hope things get even brighter for you soon! Big Hug - LA
from dani-lou :
Oh, my prayers are with you. I'm so glad you found relief. Hugs, Dani.
from notjustamom :
OMG! Thats wonderful!!
from r-y-r :
:) Those are the stories that bring tears to my eyes, in a world where we constantly see bad things happen, it is these things that really make my day. I told you things would get better. I am happy that they at least just a bit. Give AW a big hug from all of us that are so happy for you.
from trinity63 :
Oh my gosh I am just so happy for you.
from janetplnetoc :
That story of the envelope is so amazing and it even lifts up my faith.
from twisted-mind :
That is the kindest thing I've heard. What a wonderful woman.
from moodymama :
that is awesome. :o)
from brandi-babe :
Be strong. Sometimes we have to lose everything we think we wanted so that we will recognize what God really wants for us.
from naomibeth :
I have a question, but I don't want to ask it here. Check your e-mail. I'll send it to your @diaryland.com address.
from r-y-r :
I dont mind at all that you left me a long note, I absolutely love when you do. I understand completely what it feels like to not want to send notes or to give encouragement when you yourself dont feel encouraged. I have gone through it too, I have started leaving notes when I feel that someone may need a nice word or two because I have seen the good it does for me. I really appreciate what you said, and I will take your advice to heart as I always do because when I do things always seem to be a little better. Thank You
from starlight42 :
So sorry to hear all that you're going through. I hope that things begin to look up soon, usually that's how it happens, you make one decision and all of a sudden things just start to improve...
from r-y-r :
I am going to give you advice that I should take myself. I know things will get better, I know for some reason things seem so low and dont ever seem to get better, but I have faith that they will go better for both of us, we have both been through our share of bad things and have seen the rainbow at the end, I am sure this time will be the same. I will be praying for you.
from calulu :
I know this sounds trite and cliched but I think you know that God is using all of this for a greater good, growing something within you. But it's still tough, I'll be praying you get a miracle and soon, a nice million dollar windfall would be nice...
from xnavygrrl :
God honey, I am praying for you and your family...I know this an extremely bad time for you and that there's nothing I can really say except that I am praying for you. God bless and keep you.
from pinky77 :
im still here ,praying and loving you .........tomarrow im getting in prayer line for you <3
from twisted-mind :
You are in my thoughts. (((you)))
from dragonbuds :
I'm sorry your family is struggling so badly right now. I am sure it is only temporary. You've survived worse and come out much stronger for it, I am sure this will happen again.
from r-y-r :
I know I dont have to say this, because I am Positive you know it, but things will get better, I have faith that they will. :) You and your family will be in my thoughts and in my prayers.
from hopeanew :
*hugs* Would you mind sending me an email at [email protected] with your address in it (can you trust me with your address?)? I have something I want to send your way . . . :)
from sketchedpony :
Thanks for the message.
from trinity63 :
I am just hugging you and keeping you all in prayer. My thoughts are with you.
from la-the-sage :
Oh boy, that's just horrible about your finances. Your daughter is a peach. Sending you the good thought. ~LA
from moodymama :
(((((((((((((((((((you))))))))))))))))))))))) you're in my thoughts.
from auntie-mari :
I can't being to fathom why you dream about tornados but as for the air being sucked out of the room if you have ever seen the movie "Night of the Tornados" there is a scene in that movie where stuff and air gets sucked out the window. That movie by the way was based on a real story about this town getting hit with multiple tornados over night. That scares me a little. YIKES! *S* hugs..
from say-good-bi :
hi there,just checking in to see what ya been up to. wow sounds like you have a full plate,phone scams and tornados! I have dreamed of tornados or huricanes and there so vivid,but truthfully I dont know what it means if anything. They usually say that when you dream about something specific it rarely has anything to do with that particular thing,but I dunno,dreams are weird.
from ladybug-red :
I dream about tornadoes and tidal waves all the time. I have been told that they are both symbolic of feeling overwhelmed and unable to control situations. While the tidal wave dream is usually just about me, my tornado dreams almost always have one of my children in them. They are very unsettling so I can relate. -S
from trinity63 :
Air, atmosphere or the interior of a room show the dreamer’s state of mind. A tornado indicates mental stress or mental clutter. The fact that you have been having these dreams for a year indicates that your environment changed in some way to cause this stress. The dream is asking you to point out the source of the stress to others (presumably those who can help or are part of the cause). The destruction is symbolic and most likely indicates a health problem caused by your situation. If you could let me know exactly what tends to get damaged by the tornados in your dreams I could be more specific. When you get through one disaster you always feel that the next one is close by so this does not help the situation either. Try to change your circumstances to where this source of stress is eliminated. You need clear rather than cluttered vision. I hope you find this useful and I would very much appreciate comments on this interpretation.
from bettyalready :
We're in such a similar situation. Financially. I'd rather you not go through it, but i'm glad we're not alone.
from la-the-sage :
I dream about tidal waves. All natural disasters are tidal waves in my dreams. Bout scares me to death. No insights about your tornados, just empathy and commiseration. ~LA
from cosmicrayola :
Antie Em! Antie Em! There's no place like home! (We don't get them in New England, thank God. Well, not it this part anyway.)
from bitchslap69 :
thanks for all the notes you left me over the past few months. they made me smile! your tornado dream puzzles me. if it were scary or threatening to you, i would automatically say that you are afraid of chaos or turmoil in your personal life, but the fact that you're not scared is confusing. maybe you are comfortable with chaos? but that doesn't seem right either. maybe you could look it up in a dream book and see what they say. take care!
from auntykio :
Yayyy you are back. I miss reading your diary. Can't say I have been any better I haven't written in around 83 days arghhhh. Can't get into the habit of doing it everyday.
from lanne :
That's crazy! Thanks for sharing. It amazes me how some peoples minds work - to take advantage of people in that way! How disturbng.
from sunnflower :
I'm glad my NYC story helped!
from sunnflower :
Don't feel bad about trying to do a good deed. We all get taken in at times one way or another. Here's my sad story - http://sunnflower.diaryland.com/fitydollars.html Also, the police officer shouldn't have been so superior but it's probably hard when you see this stuff all the time. He does his dumb stuff too and if he were really smart, he would have known that was the last thing you needed to hear. I'm sorry you're so tight for money right now and I hope things turn around for you soon.
from brandi-babe :
I understand your frustration. I have to deal with TWO "sperm-donors", 5 children, and the man I'm married to now is an ass. At least you have the support of a man who loves you. I'd give up money for love any day. Keep your chin up... things will get better. :-D
from starlight42 :
wow- that sucks that you tried to do something nice for someone...well, now we all know, in case we get a call like that! Hope things get better with your ex paying child support, what a frustration!
from sanetwin :
Don't let one jerk hurt your kind heart. It's crappy that they did that. You're a much nicer person than I am. I wouldn't have done it.
from moodymama :
sperm donors...psshhht. don't get me started. :o)~ almost fainted when i saw your name in red. at least i have access to you elsewhere :o)
from twisted-mind :
She lost the election but seems to be ok with that. Travis is Lei's husband! She might be mad if I gave him a little. hehe
from almostaflake :
More MORE we want more! I'm thinking of you and hope your are still hanging in....
from inkdragon :
Thanks for the compliment, it's all camera, not me! I use a Canon Rebel EOS with a 75-300mm lens for sporting events.
from xnavygrrl :
Thanks for the note. I kind of think he and I had a lot in common but the culteral differences and the language barrier proved to be our undoing. Oh, well. I tried.
from say-good-bi :
hi. Do you remember me? I know its been forever since Ive been around your way. But I had issues of my own and kinda dissappeared for awhile. I wanted to come by and say hello. If you are interested in reading leave me a note for the pw. Ü. I always wanted one of those bibles.
from lanne :
First off, thank you for your note about you jumping up and down raising your hands - that was VERY cute!!! I'm sorry you are going through a hard time right now and found the verses and thoughts helpful yesterday. I know how hard it is to be patient, especially at the times we need to most. Thinking of you and hoping everything works out soon! Big Hug.
from bitchslap69 :
i am alive, not incarcerated, still w/o computer, dealing with a lot of stuff . . .
from helderheid :
http://www.livejournal.com/users/vrijheid/ Helderheid's new addy :)
from hopeanew :
*big hugs and lots of love* Thank you for thinking of me on mommy's day! It actually makes me wanna cry, isn't that pathetic? lol I'm so emotionally weird these days, I guess. But thanks, thanks a zillion. :) Also, you can send me email at [email protected] and it will forward to my email address, if you ever want to. Take care!
from starlight42 :
sorry to hear about what's going on...glad you still have your faith though. I know it will help you guys get through this.
from sunnflower :
I really missed reading your diary and I am glad you updated. I am so sorry that you are having so many difficulties right now but I am impressed with the way you are dealing with them. I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers and I hope things turn around for you soon.
from hopeanew :
ok ok. they're on. *big hug*
from moodymama :
it was nicole. :o) glad you finally updated, yay.
from ladybug-red :
Welcome back. We have missed you. Sorry about the business issues and finances. Hugs and good thoughts are coming your way. -S
from twisted-mind :
Its about time. Yay and update. I'm sorry money things arent going well right now. I hope they get better soon. (((hugs)))
from moodymama :
alright missy. i see you leaving notes all over the place and yet you haven't updated! hmph! :o)~
from twisted-mind :
Dang lady you ever gonna update or what? I didn't watch them beg for the money. You know you can vote as many times as you want too. Hope your mommy's day was great. Thanks for the note and the email. You rock ladeeee! :o)
from naomibeth :
Thanks for the note. You haven't updated in forever. I was thinking that maybe you'd had to shut down internet access as part of budget cuts. Good to see you're still around.
from inkdragon :
{{Hugs!}}
from poolagirl :
Hope your Mother's Day was super! I see you got the washcloth link - and be careful with that handheld shower!
from inkdragon :
05/10/04 I hope you are alright and had a wonderful Mother's Day.
from r-y-r :
I hope you had a great mothers Day, I know you deserve it!!! I miss your entries
from xnavygrrl :
Happy Late Mother's Day to you too! :)
from catsmeow1224 :
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!! I posted a picture of Ginger right after she was born. I believe it was on the 18th. Just go back a few entries, and it should be there. I'll be posting new ones tomorrow. : )
from sunnflower :
Happy Mother's Day!!!
from bluebonnet :
Thank you for my bday/md wishes. It's ok that bday were late. Everybody was late with it this year, well family anyway. I hope your having a good mothers day!!!!
from moodymama :
happy momma's day! :o)
from twisted-mind :
Happy Mommy's Day!
from augustdreams :
Happy Mother's Day to a *wonderful* mama. :) And thank you SO much for that sweet note. I really can't tell you how much that made my day. Aph says thank you, too.
from sanetwin :
Happy Mothers Day!
from xnavygrrl :
Gosh, I thought my stories were sort of boring. Thank you for reading them...and thanks for you sweet comments.
from almostaflake :
Where are you .....I miss you!!! Hope everything is going ok.
from poolagirl :
Here's the nun story! Hope you like it. http://poolagirl.diaryland.com/030908_33.html
from ladybug-red :
Hope everything is going ok - I have missed you. -S
from moodymama :
time for an update? a what, you say? AN UPDATE! :o)
from flyinby :
I stole my notes. ;) I deleted them all to prevent my husband from knowing who my friends are - the ones who actually read and comment on my diary. I will do this daily to prevent him from knowing too much, just in case. I hate to have to do it, but I think it's better that way if things get icky he won't bother people. There are other reasons, too, but I'm too muddle-brained today to go into them. Take care!
from twisted-mind :
I agree. Most of the time its great, sometimes not so great. I always thought I was just born in the wrong era. Bra burning poohie!
from lanne :
You are so funny!!! I hope you and the family had a great Easter. Our easter bunny came inside the house and laid his eggs b/c it was too rainy outside :) tee hee
from kitty9 :
[email protected]
from sunnflower :
Hope you are having a very lovely Easter weekend!
from twisted-mind :
Hope your Easter is filled with yummies.
from sunnflower :
Thanks so much for the nice note back re my email. I am glad your dad's visit went well.
from xnavygrrl :
Thanks for the note. I'm going to stay for a while.
from twisted-mind :
Thanks sweets, dont know why I ever left. :o) Its nice to be back and to recieve sweet notes from you.
from xnavygrrl :
I haven't check my email in months. I'm sorry if I missed your email. :(
from lanne :
thanks for your note. yes, i am keeping her in my prayers every day! I have gone to the hospital once, but she was drugged and asleep when i went. i've offered to watch the kids if they need me to. i feel i've offered and really that's all i can do.
from almostaflake :
Funny!! It did kinda wig me out! I was thinking...hmmmmm. Could it be BIG GUY!! Eye Carumba!! No probelmo! PLEASE email me anytime at "[email protected]" (Remove the -nospam- part!!) Hope you have a great afternoon!
from starlight42 :
wish I could give you on idea on what to do...I'm kind of stuck like you though, I don't know what I want to be in the long run either! Don't forget though, working your way up in a company, would you ever want to be an executive assistant? They make decent money. I guess I haven't read you long enough to know what you're good at yet!
from almostaflake :
How about a counselor or social worker. I think you are amazingly insightful and very empathetic and warm. You can even do this w/a Christian slant? Best of luck w/da money stuff. It's so scary but anything worth it is tough! Right!!
from sanetwin :
I'm sorry that you're having money problems. It's a perpetual problem with me as well. I just don't know what I want to do with my life. I hope you can find something that you really love to do and can be happy with it.
from wifemotherme :
4/5/04
from shortst101 :
Thanks for your note!
from r-y-r :
Thanks for your note sweetie, you always make me feel better and we both know that when I take your advice things always get better. Thanks!!!
from drewbears :
That is horrible. I cant believe he said that. I am sorry, but you don't even say that in jest about ANYONE! ((((HUGS)))
from r-y-r :
I admit, I would feel really bad too if someone said that to me, people here are very rude with there comments about peoples weight, my answer when they call me fat is: "Really, I hadnt noticed because every day I wake up and look at myself and think what a beautiful body I have". It usually shuts them up, and I love the look of shock on there face. PS. I miss your input on my entries. :(
from xnavygrrl :
Thanks for the support and well wishes. Much love, Missy. :)
from starlight42 :
oh my god!! I can't believe he said that. how stupid. I hope after your talk that he will change is ways...
from inkdragon :
Both my parents will make comments like that about me. Yeah, maybe they're just stupid. Sorry you had to live through that.
from flyinby :
I know what it's like to be introduced that way by a parent, and then have them shocked when you object. My mother introduced me, as a teenager, as "The Big Fat Moose Over There" and today introduces me as "Molly Mormon" (a jibe at my faith) or "The Big Dip". Sometimes I'm "Miss Gullible", too. *shrug* And then she's shocked when I tell her I didn't appreciate it.
from sunnflower :
I agree with the positives of the Passion movie you wrote about in your last entry. I heard Mel Gibson talk about the way he portrayed the devil as trying to mirror good but not being able to get it right and I think that really came across nicely in the film.
from xnavygrrl :
Thank you for the kind, sweet note. I appreciate that you extend me such sympathy. I used to not tell people about the attack because a) they thought I was making it up or 2) they'd treat me like a total fruitcake afterwards. Now, it's a painful part of my history. The only thing I can hope is that people who are being stalked realize it is a dangerous time for them and to document and report to the police when it happens. May God bless all who walk my road.
from xnavygrrl :
I was telling Kaire, that I almost told the guy that going to church doesn't make you a Christian anymore than going to Burger King makes you a whopper. Hee! I just don't think he would've gotten it.
from kaire :
Oooo! If you beat a holy roller with a CROSS made of 2x4s then it's probably ok right? Uh oh ... lightening strike! Gotta go!! *grin*
from mommylap :
A note from you is always like a kiss. I am so glad you wrote your thoughts about The Passion. I haven't seen it yet, but since your faith is so inspiring to me, I am glad to know your reaction going in.
from kaire :
Hello - the person I'm refering to probably doesn't even read my diary ... but she is one that is judgemental and very condemning of others, to the point of being mean, then says "God says that you know" to make it ok. I understand how you feel about your moral code. I have a very strong one to and I try to live my life as a good person. Part of that is understanding that others differ from me, their opinions can be drastically different, and so forth. It's when they use religion to force a moral change in others that I get sick of it. Does that make sense? I think everyone agrees on "major sins" such as murder, abuse, etc. but it gets muddied up as things trickle down (the issue at hand with my friend is abortion) and it becomes something that varies in opinion. When it gets to a point where there is no clear cut right or wrong I hate that people soley push God as the arguement. I suppose that makes more of a mess, I just wanted to attempt to explain. I'm by far not anti-christian (in fact I am one) ... I just don't do well with holy rollers!
from xnavygrrl :
You cried before the movie too? I thought it was the most powerful and inspiring "movie" I'd ever seen.
from la-blue-eyez :
The weather here is perfect! I'm hoping it stays like this all week! I'm wanting to go to the beach everyday while I'm out of school this week!
from p-o-y :
Welcome to Pieces Of You!
from flyinby :
Nope. I tried to get it out of her daughter, too, but I couldn't figure it out. *shrug* Maybe she was just having one of her mornings . . . sometimes she forgets to take her meds and it makes her act a little . . . off. ;) I'm not gonna worry about it, though, or it will make me nuts! lol
from starlight42 :
sorry to hear work isn't going well. I know that feeling...hope it improves soon!
from saved0803 :
Just wanted to say hello. I've been writing in another place now: seagulls.scribblejournal.com. I'm praying for you, sweetie!
from mom-on-roof :
My Goth Girl was the same way, her birthday was the "cut-off" day for kindergarten, so we had a choice. I sent her early. I knew intelligence-wise she was ready. But socially, she could've used that extra year. (20/20 hindsight) She has herself caught up now in 7th grade, but the first 5 yrs of school were very tough for her, and I will always feel responsible. I sent her early, basically, to get her out of the house, because I was ready for her to go, she knew all her little ABC's and her little 123's, and we had another child on the way, and OUT GOES Y-O-U. Plus it was a pride thing, she's MY daughter, she's VERY smart, why SHOULDN'T she be able to handle it? I have list of about 38 things I wish I could do over in my life. That one is number 7. (I don't really have a list, but some days it feels like it) I hope you don't beat yourself up, your daughter will find her way too. Just don't make the mistake of telling her you regret that decision, because she'll spend the rest of your days clobbering you on the head with it!
from trinity63 :
hang in chickadee:) xoxoxox
from sunnflower :
Prayers said. I think it is easy to get tangled up in organizational politics so don't be too hard on yourself. Remember this - And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God. (Rom 8:28) And I am sure from your diary that you do have a loving heart for God even if you do feel like you didn't get this quite right. So have confidence in God and do the best you can to conduct yourself ethically in the current situation. (This is just little scripture quoting from a nice Catholic girl). Hope it helps. :)
from funda :
can a stranger help?
from augustdreams :
Thank you! {{{Hugs}}} I'm glad it made you giggle! :) How are you doing? Drop me an email or give me a call sometime this weekend. I'm usually out of work by around 9pm Take care!
from poolagirl :
That's okay - go ahead and laugh at the bunny. I laughed at the bunny too. Go ahead! I like it when you laugh at the bunny!
from catsmeow1224 :
It's very very hard to watch something like that coming and not be able to warn people. All you really can do (if it applies to the situation) is to be there for people when it all erupts. Since you're not catching the brunt of it, you'll be the only one grounded enough to help people heal and move on.
from flyinby :
sending prayers your way! *hugs*
from gumphood :
hey there. I see that you added me and I wanted to thank you and ask how you found me?!
from lanne :
Thank you for the birthday wishes!!! Will you let me know if you still have to scroll on the bottom to read my entire enrtry? I think I fixed it :)
from xnavygrrl :
Thanks for the note. I too felt a lot of trepidation about seeing the movie, also out of uncertainty. It is a bit harsh, but then, punishments were back in those days. :)
from augustdreams :
Thank you so much for the sweet note. :) I've got my first interview for the new job on the 10th! *crossing my fingers* Thank you for helping give me the courage to go to General Manager Guy. If I'm strong, it's because I've got so many wonderful people standing by me. It's friendship that gives me strength and courage. :) (That and knowing if all else fails Aph could fart in Evil Manager Woman's general direction. She's the world's fuzziest source of natural gas!)
from summer-gale :
The Moose is an organization similar to an Elks. You can read about it here http://www.mooseintl.org/public/default.aspx But it does have a social quarters which is bar.
from lanne :
Thanks for the note. Your too funny! Don't ya hate it when that happens!! :) I've gotten over being dumped but it's caused me to think more about Trip. :(
from xnavygrrl :
I read your profile. I'm bipolar too. When I'm not on medicine I'm a real wench, however, I'm on medicine now and it's made a world of difference. Nice to meet you.
from lanne :
I am a christian and one thing I always try to do 'as a christian' is to not push my religion on someone else. I remember in high school, a guys once said to me "how can you believe in something you cannot see. prove to me he's real and i'll believe." Ten years later and his words still weigh heavy with me. Just as abortion and gay marriages, I feel each person should have the ability to make their 'own' decisions on what they believe in. It takes a lot to be so open and I really enjoyed reading today's entry.
from almostaflake :
I missed YOU!!! Your entry today was quite brilliant. I have been struck by BOTH issues you discussed as well. I have feelings that I thought were ALL mine as a Christian - but you reflected my inner thinking quite well on both the movie and the ammendment issue. I had a great debate w/my brother and am SO grateful I don't live in the south anymore where I would have felt condemed or a "bad" Christian for my thinking.....(at least in the crowd which seemed to surround me there). I am going to cut and paste your paragraph on the rights of the significant. You worded it so perfectly - captured the jist of the issue.... Thanks again for updating wifemotherme. YOU WERE MISSED!
from starlight42 :
ya, I'm pretty lucky, a lot of people who read my diary leave notes & feedback. But then I get a lot who don't too. I guess it just depends on the issue. Some days I get no comments, others, tons! I love diaryland though, because of the feedback. :)
from starlight42 :
Love your entry today. My sentiments EXACTLY. I was really surprised when I wrote an entry about a week or so saying that I felt that gays should be able to marry...and I got several disagreements. Oh well. Well written though!
from inkdragon :
"Mine, Mine, Mine," was very well written. Faith is personal.
from calulu :
I really enjoyed today's entry and I cannot state strongly enough how much I agree with the sentiments. Apparently it's only a-okay to bash Christians now, everyone else is a protected person group.
from flyinby :
I don't know how my step-dad is doing, he's still in the hospital, and as far as I know he's still on life support. My mom hasn't contacted me about it, I think she's at the hospital, or possibly at work (I dunno if she'd be working during this or not), she's just not at home. After the daycare kids go home I intend to hunt her down, via phone or email or SOMEthing. :)
from inkdragon :
Thinking of you. Hope you're okay.
from starlight42 :
that's funny about Brad Pitt's diary!
from preciousgift :
Missing you... I'll try and see if you're on AIM later. Have a good day. =)
from la-blue-eyez :
Yes I just checked my email and sent you a reply.
from augustdreams :
What a beautiful prayer, and what a sweet ending to your entry. I'll bet she got some of that unshakable faith from her wonderful mama. I'm glad you and yours are safe. Things like that make me want to gather up all of my friends and hold them close. *Hug*
from poolagirl :
Why, thank you so much! You are just too sweet. Want a lemon bar? I've got plenty left to share!
from lanne :
Thank you for not only sharing your thoughts on last Friday's events with us, but for the words you shared on my site. :)
from almostaflake :
Hi there...you are so amazing. Just thought I'd stop by and say that. I'm real by the way and am so glad you read me!! Your kid is the bomb too... How insightful of her. Doesn't it blow your mind when things so clearly truly independant come out of their mouths? I think my Kid prepares me for the "real" world sometimes. Peace Take care lady....
from trinity63 :
You know I thought of you when this whole thing with Carlie was going on, as I knew where you lived. I am sure your entire community is reeling. I am thinking of you guys.
from r-y-r :
I am glad you were able to take your own advice also and that it worked. I really appreciate it and I do not find it to be rude, I am extremetly private with my personal life when it comes to talking about it to family or friends here where I live so this is my outlet and your advice was actually what I was looking for. Thanks!!!
from r-y-r :
I just wanted to let you know that I did take your advice and it did work, yesterday was a really great day, no grouchiness, no snapping, just really nice and I found that after a couple of minutes of faking, I was really feeling it, loving the snuggling and absolutely loving the smile it brings to his face to feel loved.
from sunnflower :
Well, it's easier to try to blame good old mom then address the grade problem from her perspective. I've had kid's with D's too. It's a bummer.
from trinity63 :
Well I would be grounding her ass from here to eternity.
from absolutewhat :
OMG!!! i just read the story of ugly and DAMN YOU woman!!! You made me CRY. That poor rediculous CAT...It broke my heart that the dogs ate him.
from flyinby :
You didn't have to add me to your faves! I only checked cuz you said to, and I didn't want you to think I was a fake, cuz I've read some that I thought were totally unreal myself. A few that have lives that are too . . . fantastic. Anyway, :) Thanks for the note! :)
from twisted-mind :
Thanks for sending positive vibes my way. I'm not giving out the password to my dland diary but if you want to keep reading me at scribble I'd be honored. :o) Oh and I'm not a fave either but very real and very honest.
from flyinby :
Well, I'm not a fave but I'm real! :)
from lizbathory :
Thank you for showing interest, but my diary is locked for a reason, and I have to decline.
from poolagirl :
Thanks for the support! YAY! A template! I am running with the big dogs now! I got rid of that green ring in the middle of my page - just gonna access those from my profile. Keeping it simple. WAHOOOOO!
from sunnflower :
Oh you poor thing - I'm glad it doesn't hurt right now. Nobody knows all the answers even if they think they do by the way. I hope you can find some low cost dentistry.
from bluebonnet :
We have a low income dentistry clinic. Ours is part of the WIC office. But I am not sure if they are a government agency. They take payments and are pretty cheap. Maybe there is something like that around you! And if not most dentists will take payments if you sit down with them and make arrangements BEFORE the procedures are done! Good luck. I hope it doesn't cause you any pain!
from wifemotherme :
1/31
from absolutewhat :
Thank you. i'm quite amused with myself at the moment. Could you be so kind as to tell me what all this "reviewing" is about? Do you sign up to be reviewed? Or is it like random? I hate to think anyone would want to review my diary...it sucks. It's two years of, well, crap. But, it's my crap. Anyway, I feel ya on the whole singing thing...my kids tell me to hush and they sing worse than i do!
from poolagirl :
Thanks so much! I am SOOOO excited to get started!
from la-the-sage :
What you wrote about that Sept 11 piece is one of the nicest things anyone has ever said about my writing. Thank you. ~LA
from kickassrvue :
Your review is up!
from lanne :
Thank you so much for the kind words! It's just refreashing to know people care! :) Have a terrific weekend.
from sunnflower :
I can't sing either but it's great your heart is so filled with song!
from marlen816 :
The Bible says to make a joyful noise, so as long as your noise is joyful you are pleasing the Lord! ((Hugs))
from needisaymore :
I'm so sorry your weekend was so rough. All his passive/aggressive behavior must be so hard to handle. Hang in there.
from bluebonnet :
Scribble show you the first line of the GB entry. So I saw, check your potatos. I thought what the heck is she talking about. Then I read the whole message. Thanks for the tip. I do have a yam in there I should check. I have been out all day and forgot to look for the source.
from r-y-r :
I just wanted to take a minute to say thank you very much for your note, that feeling has been eating away at me all this week and talking to anybody about it was way too difficult. I also wanted to say that I am very sorry you are feeling neglected, I know how it feels, the first month of marriage for me felt that way, Thank God things have gotten better now... I pray to God that they get better for you also.
from gaygirlsgirl :
The low to no carb thing is coming along but I've been sick the last couple of days. I'm sure it's just from being ran down. =)
from poolagirl :
Playing on those ships was a dream come true! TOTALLY!
from notjustamom :
oh poor Ugly! how sad! :(
from kickassrvue :
Hey! I was just writing to let you know that Kick Ass Reviews would love to review your diary and that you would be one of the first ones. Just come on by and stop in, give us a go. Thanks!
from r-y-r :
Thanks for the note. I know the feeling, I really hate dieting too and its not easy when all around you all you see is snack foods. I would really appreciate it if you could give me some info on Atkins, maybe it could work for me. Thanks a million. Hope everything is going well.
from lanne :
I might have to print your poem for my 7yr old. Very funny!!!! :)
from inkdragon :
Loved the "clean your room" poem. I can't even tell you how many times and ways I've asked both my teenaged boys to just clear a path! This too shall pass and we'll miss their messes. Yeah, sure!
from r-y-r :
Just wanted to say hello and Happy New Year. I cant remember the diary that listed you as a favorite, but I remember it said start at the beginning and read it completly, I gave it a look and now I am hooked. I still have a year to finish, but I have to let you know its great. Also, I wanted to let you know that I read your "Story of US" and was compelled to write my own, please give it a look... till then, Becky
from poolagirl :
Just tell your doc you are experiencing NSE. Poor doc probably never gets to do that, huh?
from sunnflower :
It's easy to pick up weight. I know I have. I am going to get back on the diet wagon this week. I think I am going to go back to ediets.com. Congrats on being good and sticking to your diet.
from leslieirene :
Wow! That's a new one...I'll have to find it first! Dang. Thanks for letting me know! I wonder how the heck that happened? Blessings, Leslie :)
from opalanne :
Thanks for the advice (gelcaps) - I am keeping my fingers crossed that this will work for me! How did day one of Atkins go? I am on day three (not Atkins, cause I think I would rather die than give up carbs!) - so far, so good. My success will lie in whether or not I am able to work out. We are both going to have a tremendously successful 2004 - we will bring in 2005 in sexy little black dresses to show off our svelte new selves! ;-)
from wifemotherme :
1/1/04
from ursamajor :
Happy New Year! And, yes, it IS a beautiful lay out!
from poolagirl :
The best year to you too!
from bluebonnet :
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
from needisaymore :
Happy New Year to you too! I hope this is a year full of happiness and blessings for you, I truly do! I found the answer to the question. It was the hub. He failed to remember that he promised he would not read my diary. <sigh> We'll see what comes. I have hopes for the future, being the eternal optimist! I do wish you all the best!
from sunnflower :
Thanks and Happy New Year to you too!
from twisted-mind :
It was my layout and I gave it to her but didn't change that link because I am a lame-O. Happy New Year to you too.
from poolagirl :
Why, I am really honored that you read my stuff! Thank you so much for making me a fave!
from diets-suck :
I fell off track a few months ago. I am however starting back Thursday and will be sending you a pass so be on the lookout. :)
from diets-suck :
I fell off track a few months ago. I am however starting back Thursday and will be sending you a pass so be on the lookout. :)
from ladypoetess :
The Orcs have always been flesh-colored - the ones with blue skin were Sauroman's "Uruk-hai" - an Orc cross-breed.
from chubbychic :
I think Gollum is cute when he calls Sam the "stupid fat hobbit." heeeeee it makes me giggle.
from needisaymore :
Just wanted to say thanks for adding me as a favorite! Now I'M feeling the love!!
from needisaymore :
Very cool that someone took care of the Gold factor! You must really be feeling the love! And while I'm here--I'll send wishes for a very happy new year!
from bluebonnet :
Thanks for wandering over to bella, hehe. I go back and forth. I am glad your christmas went well. Mine was good too. I couldn't sleep so I came on to change my layout a bit, let me know what you think! I hope you have a good weekend! :)
from amomslife :
I have nothing new to report. The doc offered a blood test, but agreed with me that ten days is a bit early to get a positive result. I guess I'll just have to wait another four days or so until my period is due. Gotta love the gynie!!
from mentalblank :
I have nothing new to report. The doc offered a blood test, but agreed with me that ten days is a bit early to get a positive result. I guess I'll just have to wait another four days or so until my period is due. Gotta love the gynie!!
from flyinby :
Merry Christmas! I hope your day is going well and that you are relaxing and enjoying the company of loved ones. God bless! ~ Jody 12/25/03
from sunnflower :
Hope you have a lovely Christmas Day!
from angelmum :
Thanks for the Birthday Wishes
from flyinby :
Thanks for the compliment on my new diary layout. Those are, obviously, my little lovey dovey kids. :) Amber (the oldest) Becca (the middle) and Robbie (the little guy). Take care and Happy Holidays!
from wifemotherme :
12/12/03
from augustdreams :
Did you get the email with my phone number? No rush! Just didn't want you to think I'd forgotten. :)
from neverfull :
could you find a Christian church where religious rituals and age old traditions are not stressed, a place where you could find the support and encouragement to further your personal relationship with Jesus Christ? your walk with the Lord can't be static; you must be growing or else you will be shrinking, and the [email protected] where you work is not meeting your needs at all. try to find a progressive Bible church, a church full of love and not legalism, a Bible based and Bible inspired church. prayers that your walk with the Lord from now on will direct you to peace and love and comfort. merry Christmas! (ex-catholic happily growing in a Bible church)
from mentalblank :
You have to go read that entry again, I added a picture! And she actually dragged her ass across the carpet...OMG, I'm laughing so hard I've got tears in my eyes!!
from sunnflower :
I would have emptied the drawer on his head. Sounds like a bit of a control issue - maybe he needs to do his own socks so he can verify they are in the drawer and to his liking.
from flyinby :
Ugh! Can I smack him for you?
from bongo282 :
Thank you for taking the time and thank you for checking out my diary. It's one of the most honest things in my life that I do. I do it because no one I know reads this, so it makes it easier to be honest. I will also put you on my buddy list too. Thanks again for stopping by. Me :o)**
from augustdreams :
I'm so sorry you're hurting right now. Is there anything I can do? If you ever need a phone call or a virtual shoulder, I'm here. I promise things will get better. *Hugs*
from barely-jeri :
Hey, thank you for listing me as a favourite. <3
from willowdreams :
life always seems to cast it's stumbling blocks.. don't it? Use em as stepping stones *blows you a kiss*
from auntykio :
I don't know what to say to you to make things seem better. Just that you have to keep on trying. This must be scaring him and he probably thinks if he doesn't think or do anything then it will all go away. I know that is what my mum does and she doesn't go to the doctor cause she doesn't want to hear the bad things but it might not be bad at all but it is the fear. I just know that I have to say that I am thinking of you and that if I didn't say anything that would be worse... {{hugs to you}}
from augustdreams :
I wish that words alone could take away your pain. I'm here if you need to talk. Just drop me an email. If you ever need a friendly voice, let me know and I'll send you my phone #. You *are* loved. By a lot of people, I'm willing to bet. Marriage is so complicated, and nobody can hurt us like those who hold our hearts. I'm sending you all the strength and prayers in the world.
from brgriff :
Please don't be so down on yourself! It takes TWO people to make a marriage work, and likewise a pair to make it fail. I know exactly how you feel though, it's so hard for me not to blame myself for all of the mistakes in my marriage. Stay strong. Have you discussed counseling perhaps?
from sunnflower :
I like your entries where you express and consider aspects of your faith. It helps me consider all of that too. Sometimes I feel like I am my youngest kid too much lately - trying to nag him into his best self. I have been re-thinking this strategy and you underlined the importance of doing so. Thanks!
from mentalblank :
Of course you're forgiven! I know exactly how that goes! We'll have to chat again soon! I enjoyed it!
from mentalblank :
AOL: SpunkySpanks. I tried to IM you and it said you weren't available.
from mentalblank :
Imagine that...another teen mother, now married, bipolar, prone to bitching woman near me! Hot damn!! Where'd you move from?
from mentalblank :
I don't mind you asking at all. We moved to Florida. The Tampa area.
from janetplnetoc :
Just wanted to let you know that I made a "Story of Us" entry just for you...
from augustdreams :
I heart you, too! :) On top of the strep etc. I've come down with the flu. *moan* I'm a sneezy, coughy, fevery mess. But your note just made my day and cheered me up no end. Thank you! I think you're a wonderful, sweet, beautiful person with a good, kind heart. We'll definitely have to get together sometime. I'll gladly take you to Disney. (You could meet my Giant Anteater!) I'm off to lie down and let my body kick some flu germ butt. Thank you again for your note. It means a lot.
from augustdreams :
I don't think it's strange that you felt very exposed. Faith is something that is deeply personal. I'm honored that you shared your thoughts on it with us. It takes a lot of courage to do that! **hugs**
from augustdreams :
**HUGS** Thank you for your sweet note. :) Friends are the best medicine. I'm so sorry you're a carrier, too! (We sound like something out of a SciFi movie, don't we? Like the Strep's an alien lifeform!) I promise to write you a good, long email as soon as I'm feeling better. Take care!
from bluebonnet :
When I read your entry this morning my mind went to the email I sent you. I just wanted to apologize if anything siad was a contributing factor.... it wasn't meant to be.
from flyinby :
some people never understand that sometimes things are so special to a person that they become sacred. you ponder it in your heart, and don't throw it before the oinkers. ;) i can understand that. completely! you treasure your faith, so do i. <3
from flyinby :
a person's worth never changes, no matter what. it is the way they, or others, esteem themselves that changes. remember, the worth of souls is great in the sight of the Lord. :) I loves ya!
from bluebonnet :
I am [email protected] I tried to email it to you but it got sent back :( :)Bon
from grimm0826 :
I really do wish I had a get up and fix it kind of gal...
from cosmicrayola :
Thank you for the comment. Yes, he is quite a guy. He can use all the prayers he can get. Thank you.
from me-undaunted :
lmfao @ flushing the toilet while he's in the shower...you're too cute.
from grimm0826 :
You did not sound stupid, nor have you ever given me reason to think you are. At the risk of overexplaining: Yes, he wrote the notes and tattoos to himself. He couldn't remember ANYTHING for more than about 10 minutes. And here's the ominous hook - all the notes and tattoos were telling him to find and kill the guy who killed his wife, right? Well, remember at the end, he had killed someone, and then was begging the driver of the car for a pen? He needed to write it down before he forgot it. Unfortunately, he didn't get to do that. So, he would start the whole thing over again. Wonder how many times he had killed, and not gotten to write it down? If that doesen't give ya goosebumps, then nothing will...
from trinity63 :
Tell the motherfucker if he even thinks about touching you or anyone else in your parish like that again, you are going to report him to the police for sexual assault.
from flyinby :
I would make a report to the police about it, inform them at the very least, find out if this guy is a registered offender or whatever, see what you can do. Cops might be willing to keep an eye on him, or at least inform him that if he continues he could get into serious trouble. I'd be calling the police.
from poolagirl :
You were right to trust your instincts about the creepy man at church. We are so acculturated into being "nice" all the time that we often ignore the clanging bells of danger. Good for you!
from kramerachel :
thank you for the kind message. its nice to get positive feedback and advice. :) i really like the poem in your site. i am at a clinic now and its helping. i have a long way to go, but with support and with my motivation its possible.... thanks again kramerachel
from hisglory :
Helloooo there! I am back...craaaazy season I am in. But God is in control. Love and miss you....your diaryland buddy!
from millerswife :
I can't take them off, I'm sorry, thankyou for reading it though. Lord knows I don't have many doing that. So Hopefully you'll come back and read. Thanks!
from preciousgift :
I'm missing you too. :( Hope you come back soon. HUGS!
from marlen816 :
10/22 - Missing your updates. Hope all is well!
from irisheyes70 :
Just wanted to let you know I miss your diary! I hope all is well. *hugs*
from auntykio :
Hi.. me again. I totally know what you mean about there is so much more than we write in our diaries... I suppose I am going through this negative faze. I can so understand that if you don't get it out, it will blow and I think that is why writing in the diary over the last couple of days has been great and I feel relieved in a way. I finally got to the end of yours this morning and it is kinda sad that that was the last one till you write again... it has been a really good read and I have enjoyed getting to know you. I can so empathise with you about the Amazon lady at the start in some ways how you are is totally how I deal with things. You want to tell them what is bugging you and to Go away and leave me in peace (so the mounds of work can get done) but sometimes they can go and do the nicest things and you feel like "OH MY did I miss judge her". That is how I interpreted it anyway. Thanks for your note... it makes writing it a little more worthwhile when I know others are reading it and maybe understanding me a little.
from auntykio :
wifemotherme you are so interesting to read. I love reading your entries. You are so genuine and I like that. Keep up the writing!
from sunnflower :
Thanks for you wonderful note. I am sad to hear that I keep falling off your favorites list and I do hope you will keep sticking me back on it!
from sunnflower :
Sounds like the ladies are fun. Hang in there on the other stuff. Hugs sent!
from stinkycookie :
Thanks for the note...you do know it's me from nutmegoli, right? :P I get bored too easily so I moved to another diary BUT I hope to keep this one for a very long time because I too adore the username and good usernames are hard to come by.
from opalanne :
Thanks for the note. I will be back tomorrow to finish reading your diary (reading current backwards - just another indication of how backwards I am!) I love your layout!
from augustdreams :
I'd love to chat. I've got AIM my screenname's the same as my hotmail address. Drop me an IM anytime if you see me lurking about. :)
from augustdreams :
My closest friends from work are all around 30 years older than I am! :) I've always felt like an old soul. I connect better with them than the co-workers closer to my age, who seem to think nothing's as much fun as getting drunk. (Um, yeah. Impaired judgement and vomiting. Woo-hoo.) Keep the faith, sweetie. I wish I could help. I hate money. I wish we could just go back in time and be a society of traders. **hugs**
from grimm0826 :
May I suggest that you go to BraveNet.com and get one of their free guestbooks? They are fully customizable, and they always work. You can even program up to (I think) 15 questions for people to answer when they sign. You'll love it, trust me!
from sunnflower :
Isn't it amazing how hard we are on ourselves sometimes. You can lose weight but remember that how you look is not the sum of who you are. I know from reading your diary regularly that you are a fine person but like everyone else, you are not perfect. Self-criticism can be a step towards positive change or a constant unkindness to ourselves that beats us down. Be kind to yourself because you know what they say - if mama ain't happy, ain't nobody happy!
from saved0803 :
Yes, ma'am. That is how our follow-up works. We drop in on people. Most people are glad for the short visit. But I will try to be more considerate and call them BEFORE I get there. HEE HEE! ;o)
from grimm0826 :
Calling ME a slacker??? Ha ha!
from grimm0826 :
Thank you so much for reminding me of something I had forgotten...
from marlen816 :
Rick and I have been married 3 years and seem to be going through a rough patch, too. That is why I was wondering. I know you did not enter this lightly and I know that J loves you and you love him. I will continue to pray! ((Hugs))
from janetplnetoc :
I just wanted to let you know I made mention of you in my diary and quoted you about the broken glass. I read your entry a few days ago and hope things are getting better between you and J. My parents have been married 38 years and I know they don't wake up every day feeling the love. Just stick with it, it will get better. He loves you.
from marlen816 :
Glad you had a good time at the beach. ((hugs)) and prayers for you. How long have you and J been married??
from janysdrkpoet :
Thank you for adding me to your faves:)I love your diary!! yay for me:)yay for you! lol, can you tell I'm in a good mood or what?? hee hee
from saved0803 :
Thanks for the kind words, Sweetie. I appreciate them very much!
from saved0803 :
Thanks for the note. I'll try not to disappear again. ;O) Love, Rosie
from preciousgift :
Just stopping in to say, hello. =)
from mommylap :
Thanks for leaving me notes. I love knowing that your reading my stuff. Your diary and your thoughts on mine always make my day.
from preciousgift :
Guess what? More hugs For you! Need to talk?, you know where to find me. (((HUGS)))
from krugerpak007 :
And even more hugs from me too.xoxoxo Kathy
from flyinby :
{{{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
from augustdreams :
Hmmm. This'll be my first October working for Diznee. If there's some spooky Halloween goodness going on, I'll definitely be there. How far are you from D-World? I'd be happy to take you as my guest with my cool employee ID! :) I promise I'm no stranger in real life than I appear to be in my diary. Heh. Drop me an email and let me know.
from augustdreams :
**hugs** from your fellow 10 year old. :) We must get together for a tea party sometime soon. I've been trying to find a copy of "Where's God When it Hurts" - it sounds like a wonderful book. Thanks for the sweet note. I'm always here if you need me. Just drop me an email. Aph and Woodstock send you fuzzy greetings.
from saved0803 :
Howdy! You're doing the right thing by leaving all this to God. I know trusting Him with everything is hard sometimes, but it needs to be done. I know if I didn't, I'd be an emotional basket case like I used to be before I met Him. Also wanted to let you know that I'm still reading your diary. Praying for you!
from grimm0826 :
Ever watch Monty Python? "Always look on the bright side of life..." You do that quite well, you know!
from mommylap :
We could start a pastrentdue diaryring if you want..know that I know exactly how you feel, although giving it over to God is something I'm working on. I never trust that the little voice in my head is God when I ask for help and revelation, I suspect it's my brain disguising its voice like the humbug from Oz. "Pay no attention to that man behind the curtain!" Anyway things will work out because you have the best karma ever.
from krugerpak007 :
First of all, I hope you enjoy the time alone! Secondly, I ma glad you are not stressing and I am sure you will find something! Wishing you all the very very best! Kathy
from flyinby :
You'll find something! I like my job, (running my daycare) cuz I make more money than ever before and I'm pretty much my own boss. Ya know what I mean? Not for everyone, though. I have bad days, too! I wish ya luck getting something that's worth the time away - not easy. :) I hope life is treating you well, you don't update much anymore, and I've worried about you. You are in my prayers (and I'm not just saying that, I mean it!). God bless!
from poolagirl :
I had a grand old time reading your diary. You have just been added to my list of FAVES. You are amazing!
from spinningleaf :
Thanks for signing my notes... the encouragement is appreciated! Glad you seem to be feeling better. :)
from preciousgift :
LMAO...ya know we often become that in which we marry or start to look like them. That's a scary thought, eh? Hope you're having a great evening.
from mommylap :
Thanks so much for your note! It led me here to your virtual goldmine of a diary. Besides having my all time favorite layout of any diary I've seen here (in terms of beauty, style, and accessibility) and what you've got to say seems great in general. If I didn't believe in karma before reading your diary, I sure do now. Thanks for giving the little voice in my head the extra ammo she needs during the Daddyman's attempt to woo me back to unhappiness.
from grimm0826 :
Hey, that's part of my self-image...a rock 'n' roll, redneck vampire genius from hell! :-D Besides, didn't you ever see 'Once Bitten'? It had a redneck vampire on it...he was goofy, but he was a redneck vampire. Oh, wait...rednecks ARE goofy!
from grimm0826 :
What's wrong with rednecks? I'm a redneck! :-)
from flyinby :
lol at today's redneck entry. :)
from ineedawife :
I totally agree with you about the extremes of "Sybil". You're right--I'll discuss it with my son. Perhaps that is one reason I went ahead and divulged to him the depression that exists in our family tree--to let him know it doesn't take extremes like that!! (And, hey! You can throw in your 5cents ANY time!!)
from grimm0826 :
I'm a big believer in the idea that things usually turn out for the best. I'm very glad they did in your case! Also, it's good that you got to talk with your sister. I'm smiling for all of your good news!
from flyinby :
I am having troubles with my significant other right now, nice to know that there /could/ be light at the end of the tunnel.
from sunnflower :
It is hard not to get irritable sometimes and taking things the wrong way can be inevitable at times too. But sometimes the other person is in the wrong and you are not being hyper-sensitive to think so. Sometimes I am amazed how tone of voice can impact things in my home. Glad things are going better.
from preciousgift :
Thanks for adding me as a fav. Hope to get to know you better soon. My AIM ID is TorridButterfly8...feel free to add me.
from myhorizons :
TY
from krugerpak007 :
I am such an idiot, spelt your user- name incorrectly on my buddy list and never saw your past few updates. Thanks for caring. I am going to catch up...:-)Kathy
from myhorizons :
:)
from krugerpak007 :
Thank you so much for your sweet note. I also wish I could make things better for you. I am here to listen though...Take care honey. xoxox Kathy
from pieridae :
Hi hon! Here's hugs for you! Thanks for the nice note you left for me. I wish I had some great words of wisdom to help you, but all I can say is that I hope things will start looking up for you soon. *Hugs* R
from krugerpak007 :
Wish I could make things good for you. Please take care! xoxox Kathy
from grimm0826 :
I don't know what to say, so I will just say this: I am praying for you, and hoping things turn out all right...
from nutmegoli :
I rented Secretary the day it came out and I watched it obsessively over and over and over. I am SO in love with that movie. And I have a HUGE crush on Maggie Gyllenhaal now, heehee. Have you seen it?
from grimm0826 :
I can relate. Sometimes, I think everyone feels like they are not good enough, smart enough, rich enough, strong enough, etc. But I find that we are our own worst critics...we don't need others doing it for us, do we? I hope things get better for you...I'll be praying for you and yours.
from minstrelite :
Thank you for the nice note, and for adding me as a favorite. We all need encouragement from time to time. I'll be holding you in my prayers. Take care, and God bless.
from ineedawife :
Bless your heart--and welcome to the club. Men can be jerks. The key is not to let THEIR insecurites and problems and anger become YOUR problems. Hang in there. You are not alone. You'd be amazed how many of us are going through the same thing!
from pieridae :
Hey girl, sorry you're feeling down. I know it sucks to work your a** off and have your man say, "why don't I have any clean underwear?" instead of, "Wow, you must've worked hard cleaning today?" The not cleaning thing isn't a bad idea. In my last two weeks of school I was hella busy and didn't clean at all. Not. one. thing. So boy says, "This house is filthy." That allowed me to launch a massive attack on how it was filthy cause I was too busy to clean and does he realize now how much work it is to clean up all the junk he leaves scattered around and how the one load of dishes and one load of laundry he does don't quite cut it, do they? Yeah, we fought for a bit on that one. But you know what, it didn't change a thing. (Here I am rambling again!) MAybe a fulltime job doing something you really love would be better for you than cleaning all day? I just hope you man will WAKE UP and see how much work you do for him. Oh, and there's this awesome site called flylady.net that has a saying - "Even housework done incorrectly still blesses your family." Remember that you are working to make your home a beautiful and joyous place to enjoy - so if you can't enjoy it, what's the point? Hugs ~~ pieridae
from flyinby :
wow, you need a 'girls nite out' or something. let him take care of the dishes and housework for a couple days while you are gone - say visiting family or something like that, be unavailable. he'll be forced to see just how much you do around the house when it doesn't magicly get done. a wake up call is in order!
from trinity63 :
c o u n s e l i n g. xoxoxoxoxox
from grimm0826 :
Hi, I'm the dorky-looking guy! Heh heh...Thanks for the comment on my page...actually, my page has a brand-new theme. The look is the same though, but I got rid of the dorky-looking picture. Your diary looks pretty interesting, as well...I must return to read more!
from cherryvines :
hey sweetie...sorry i have a poem journal and i write for a couple of sites as well that name is its a bad one lo ...fucked-raw so look it up and see what you think if you want lol .and i own weretheshit also . if you need to talk im always on ...i wanted to im you a couple of times but i dont like to bug people to much lol ....much love and i've been praying about your swich .love you ...jen //♥
from twisted-mind :
I'm so glad you talked. I hope things continue to improve. Keeping you in my thoughts.
from wyndspirit :
It sounds like you're working through figuring out what it's all about. That's a good place to start. Hang in there!
from pieridae :
Hi there! I've been browsing your journal only for a couple of days, so I don't feel I know you really well, but I resonated with your last entry (the It's not all about me one). I myself have been known to throw on the dramatics on occasion *wink* and it was only really recently (when I had a moment where I felt I might actually lose B b/c of it). I started to wake up and realize it IS all about me. I would get really mad at him for not listening to my babble, for example, but he has a hard time listening to anyone (not just me). I knew that about him b/4. Why does it bother me so much only on certain times? Cause I wanted more from him than to be my BF. I wanted a girlfriend too (not sexual). I was missing my friends after the move and expected him to fill their place. Or I'd be frustrated at my crappy job and somehow expect that he should know how to fix it. Or I'd be frustrated at my weight and get mad at him for bringing candy home (other times I'd be thanking him). It was ME. Not him. He is just his good sweet self day-in and -out. So Now I'm trying to be ME. Trying to do what I want, with or without him at that moment. Like if I want to take a walk and he doesn't - I just go (instead of throwing a tantrum about how we never work out together or some other silly nonsense. Anyway, this is a ridiculously long "note," I rally just wanted to say that it is about YOU and if you work on making yourself happy, everything else will improve too. Oh, I still can turn it on, now and again - but I'm working on it. I am still me, after all. *Hugs* ~ R
from trinity63 :
Before you jump to conclusions why don't you both see a therapist and work your issues out. Don't assume it's you, maybe he does have an issue that he is not comfortable talking about -- and yes sexual dysfunction happens to men who have diabetes. It happens. Take a deep breath, take a step back, and breathe. hugs.
from helderheid :
I just got through writing a long entry on you GB but it was trashed. I know where you're at - had the same thing with my 1st husband (but we didn't have kids). I'm so sorry. If you need/want to talk, I'm here. You have a lot of people who support you. Don't feel embarrased. Hang in there.
from brgriff :
I'm so sorry (HUGS). As you know what I just went through leaving my husband . . .well I'm here for you if you need to talk! Betty
from ladypoetess :
Re: Marriage trouble -- *offers lots of hugs* I am so sorry, sweetie... I know that feeling, I am going through it too, in a slightly different fashion. I admire your strength and your bravery, that you were able to write about it.
from twisted-mind :
Thanks so much for using your one guestbook entry to give me a hug. That was the sweetest! :o)
from cherryvines :
hope all is well //blessings //%hearts;
from cherryvines :
HEY ITS JEN (PINKY77) NEW DIARY // ~CHERRYVINES ~ LOTS OF LOVE //♥
from inkdragon :
Missing you Lovey!
from megin-says :
Long silence...hope everything is alright. I was actually wondering the same thing as pinky77.
from pinky77 :
omg-what did i do to get off the list ?did i make you mad?
from deepblue3 :
Feel better soon!
from sunnflower :
I felt like my brain was going to explode last week what with the cleaning up after people and the kids bickering and such. I know just what you mean. I was sick and finally said I wasn't doing another thing. Hang in there! Hugs.
from megin-says :
(((HUGS))) I'm right there with you on not feeling like a full contributor financially, cleaning up after your family, and being thisclose to running away from home.
from bettyalready :
I was thinking about your obsessing about the weight thing. I do that too. I got rid of my scale because I tend to get on it about 50 times a day if I do have it. I am no meat eater. I did the atkins thing about 2 1/2 years ago. Can you believe now I'm a vegan/mostly fruitarian? I try to do mostly raw foods but that doesn't always work for me. Of course I don't know what's going to work for you, everyone is so different. I've been having a lot of fresh fruit cut up and ready to go and I eat as much as I want. Lost 20 lbs just doing that.....I'll quit blathering on here....
from hisglory :
Been a while. Just to let you know I so enjoy your diary. You are very funny and when I need a good laugh you are there!! Thanks for being you...your candid,honest,sarcasticly funny in the best sort of way,but mostly loving! And Praise God, for not looking at life so seriously that you can't laugh at its moments of insanity. You my friend, are a blessing and joy. Have a great day! Heidi
from pinky77 :
hey sweetie! you've been on my mind lately ,strange yes cause i dont even really know you but im going to pray for you and i hope all is well with you .love -jen
from pinky77 :
you have such beautful hair!when are you going to inspire us with more writings hmmmmmmmmm?lol i looooooooove your journal i've almost read the whole thing -your sooooooo great -please dont stop writing -lots of love -jenny ;)
from pinky77 :
thank you for your note.your so sweet .im sooooooo glad i found your diary!lots of love and hugs-jen
from augustdreams :
Thank you for the congrats. :) Ooh, and You've Got Mail! (Um...or you *should*, anyhow. I sent you an ecard but lately my emails and cards aren't reaching their destinations. Did I offend the email gods? I must prepare to sacrifice some sort of SPAM in their honor, to get back in their good graces. Hee!
from pinky77 :
i love your journal -congrats on the smoking and diet lol.your on my favs -jenny
from flyinby :
congratulations of your thus-far success! you are doing great! i'm glad it's easier this time around, i know frome experience how difficult it can be to quit smoking. i'm also all-too-familiar with the subsequent weight gain problem that comes with quitting. i'm keep you in my prayers!
from klcranford17 :
You were sooo right girl!! LOL... So, now the quiz is fixed, go tak it again. Hay wait, you now the answers now, right? LOL..
from sunnflower :
I'm glad mama gets pissed sometimes and I'm glad you had the courage to say what you said. They were intelligent well thought out words. I, for one, am grateful you said them.
from say-good-bi :
hiiiiiii..you are never far from my thoughts and prayers...oh and relax woman...."aunt flo"spent about a week here then off she went to carlas Im sure she will be off to another niece to visit real soon!lmao.
from hisglory :
Go God! Go America! Go George Bush! Evil is evil. God had His enemies destroyed in the Old Testament...poor Goliath...yet it was Goliath coming against God's people, that positioned "himself" to be destroyed. Those that threaten to kill and have killed our innocent must be taken down. I am praying for an anointed slingshot and pebble to remove this evil that threatens our lives and the life our God has given us in this country and the life God wants the innocent men,women and children of Iraq to enjoy.I am opposed to evil but will embrace and desire the innocent protected. I am with you girl. I am not against people, I am against terrorist that mean evil against me,my family, my country or the innocent. Thank-you for sharing your convictions. Blessings, HB
from hisglory :
LOL! The morning dove this is too cute. Sorry about your yours, but just give it some time and he will come around. Hehhehe..shave your legs even, how about a peticure? Have some me time and enjoy the space. Soaking bath,candle light and some soft music for your soul.Yeaaaa...it won't last. Then you when you do get together you will be ready!! LOL! Blessings, have a great day! HB
from hisglory :
Hey, Just had you on my heart today. I am praying for you. Your heart is being conformed to His...even though you feel far from it at times. The Word says,"daily our "inner man" is being renewed." Praise God, like you I desparately need my inner man to be renewed!! LOL! Have a awesome week. Loving Him With You, Heidi
from bytemee :
[email protected] email me anytime.also if you have msn messenger....you can add me with that addy.
from dasauce :
What a kind comment! It is always swell to get a note from someone I have never visited and note that I look forward to reading their diary... which I do and I shall. And I didn't know I was up for any form of award? Thanks, I think? [scuffs toes in dirt and grins.] I give awards? See the Strom Thurmond comment mid-page here: http://dasauce.diaryland.com/021225_33.html I'll read at least a year of your diary. And you may just end up a fave-DaSauce. --SauceYaLater?
from saved0803 :
Hello, Sweetie! Thanks for the nice note you left. I had a great time with my parents. I'll be praying that you also have a great time with your dad! Take care! Love, Rosie
from ababystory :
hey. i didn't get your email on saturday... i even checked my deleted mail, just in case i thought it was spam, and i didn't see any. if you want to email me, my email address is [email protected] i'd love to hear from you!
from hisglory :
Hey there! Just had to say your bird issue with the parakeets,cracked me up! LOL! I guess we need to be careful what we pray for!! LOL!! Blessings and Unspeakable Joy to you!! Heidi
from bytemee :
oh ty and youre very welcome.yes theres lots of archives there to go thru..lol.fell free to come back anytime,of course Ill be back as well.Im adding to my favs.k?
from burnzreviewz :
Hey!! Your review is up!! You got a 97.5 Keep up the good work!! Take Care!!
from fiyachick04 :
Hi! It is me, Rachel. I wanted to leave you a note saying that there is no need to thank me for what I said. I was telling the truth. I feel that God makes us the way that he wants and that you should not juge anyone and everyone is special. I feel that you are a very special person and that your bipolar disorder makes you even more special. You are a very strong woman who can do anything if you are determined. You can be anything you want to be. Also, do not let anyone tell you that you are not special, beautiful, etc. because I feel that you are a beautiful person inside and out. You are especially beautiful in God's eyes. If you ever need someone to talk to, do not hesitate to leave me a note or e-mail me. Take care, Rachel
from lc-revues :
hi! Your review has been posted. Thanks for requesting a review from LC Revues. We really appreciate it! Thanks again! --Rachel
from fcprincesse :
hi. I'm wondering if maybe N isn't so smart that she needs to be put ahead a year. you know, because she's bored in school? just an idea.
from hisglory :
PS....I am praying JOY JOY JOY JOY unspeakable rise up in your Spirit and minister to your soul and you laugh until your sides are sore!!Heal her Lord, fill her up to overflowing and rise over the banks of her heart!! Let the River from your throne of grace bubble up!! A merry heart doeth good like a medicine. Give it to her Lord!! LOL!! HO! In Jesus Name.Amen...
from hisglory :
Hey Mighty Woman of God!! I am here in Alaska and just read your entry.LOL!! Had a great laugh. Sorry don't mean to make light of your fleshing out episode, just loved the drama. You are so cool and funny. I am praying for your dilema about homeless ministry vs.husband's wishes. I have heeded some of my husbands counsel and thrown some of the other out. I love Him, but love God and serving Him so much more. Hey lady you just keep hanging on "The Vine", GOd will bring you through all the moments of insanity life puts you through. Gotta go now,Later...God Loves you and so do I! \o/ Heidi
from hisglory :
Hey, This is Heidi aka... HisGlory, Thanks so much for your note. I am so glad God can use me to encourage someone. Go God!! Thanks for the prayer concerning Alaska. I sooooo need a good dose of HIM!! Blessings on all you are about. I will update on God's goodness in Alaska a.s.a.p. Please add my kids to your prayer list!!! Loving Him With You, HB
from kidneygurl :
Congratulations on your 1 year anniversary ! Please make a banner now that you are a GOLD Member! I just HAD to get you a little gift.
from kidneygurl :
Merry Christmas ! Don't forget to check out the article about us!
from jump154 :
Thanks for the greeting :-) R
from pitty-sing :
I'm going to have coffee with Rod Stewart!
from fcprincesse :
just thought I would let you know that I had an English professor in my undergrad who is a very well-respected scholar and couldn't spell to save his life. he says that poor spelling is a sign of genius. something to keep in mind... (Oh, and I also wanted to tell you that I also really loved the book Reedeming Love)
from alternamommy :
Leave it to the OCD girl. It took me nearly an hour but I tracked it down: http://alternamommy.diaryland.com/boringnot.html
from alternamommy :
Here's a link to the letter at bpkids.org: http://www.bpkids.org/learning/reference/articles/02-21-02.htm
from fcprincesse :
I just happened upon your diary, and read the entry where you listed the nicest things your husband has ever done for you--wow. That nearly brought a tear to my eye. You really do have a special man! Thank you so much for sharing your diary!
from mawce :
Thanks for the note. I've just started sifting through your older entries, but I must say I'm enjoying it :)
from treewillow :
Wow that volunteer work sounds great, you will be good at it. You have lots to offer people, just from reading your diary, I can see that.
from esoterotica :
Thank you for reading. I already have you as a fav and read regularly and enjoy! I hope your Thanksgiving was as wonderful as mine.
from sparklefae :
Thanks, it's cute isn't it? You sound reall cool =0)
from angelmum :
Thank you for your well wishes & the vote of confidence that you left in my notes. I needed a pick me up ! :) I hope that your sister will someday understand that you mean well for her.
from miss-edith :
Thanks for reading! I am going to check out your diary now. . .
from squirrelx :
Thanks for your message.! It was gratifyin' beyond description to have somebody understand about those 'in love' speeches Baptists make. Best, Xtine / Squirrel X
from gayfraud :
Thank you for your award! I'm so sorry I let you down and didn't even make the finalists. I feel like such a loser, but I can honestly tell you that (despite my overly competitive nature) the truly moving part was being nominated. You made me feel very special and loved and smart... I don't take compliments easily, either, and yours have really touched me. Thank you. I won't let you down next time!
from squirrelx :
Thank you so much for the kind words about my banner, and for the even greater compliment of adding me to your list of fave raves. I'll be reciprocatin' in kind ... sorta. I've run out of spaces on my profile, so I've had to start an indepedent page dedicated exclusively the D-land writers I most admire. Best, Xtine / Squirrel X
from esoterotica :
Hiya. I love your template. Very soothing and simple. I am still fidgeting with mine but it is my own design so it may take time. Thank you for the note. My journal may be a bit hard to swallow at times. I am here to be completely real.
from kidneygurl :
I am just starting a diary about my husband's kidney transplant that is scheduled for 10/29. That day is also his birthday. I am the donor. I read your diary ( and others) entries instead of working on mine! (Sigh) If anyone reads this please tell me to GET STARTED!
from prncsaimee :
I'm pretty sure that JC Penny (the catalog and online) offer "Junior Plus" sizes. My neice is a big girl at 13 and I believe that is where she gets a lot of her clothes :)
from gayfraud :
You nominated me? For an award? For a good award? How cool is that?! I'm honored and inappropriately excited! I just hope I don't let you down ;)
from treewillow :
Thank you for all the words that you write to me, in my notes. As well as in your Diary. It's amazing, at one point in one's life. Or I found this to be, I thought I was the only one who had my problems, or went through what I did. I hate to say it, but I am glad I am not the only one who went through this kind of stuff. I truly wish no one did, but it's nice to know I am not alone. Thank you :)
from treewillow :
Thank you for that, it made me cry, but in a good way. It's nice to know that other people go through what I have gone through and that they have survived. And that they can be happy. I know in time, I will move on and find someone, I am just not sure if I am ready. Some days I think I am, and then something happens and I think I will never be ready for anyone. :)
from treewillow :
Thank you for your note, sorry I didn't list my email address. I look forward to reading what you write. I am so glad that I have found this, and thank you for sharing your life with all of us :)
from prncsaimee :
Thanks so much for visiting my diary and leaving me a note which had me rolling on the floor! You are so witty and I plan to make your diary a daily read :)
from saved0803 :
Thank you for the nice note you left me. I've been out of town, as I'm sure you read, and I just got back today. I'm trying to catch up on your diary! Have a GREAT DAY!
from blueeyedboy :
There is NOTHING wrong with watching all that reality tv hehe. I miss the original Big Brother. Too many rule changes from each one to the next. Now to get cable in here so I can watch television again =0)
from willowdreams :
*ROFL* gave you a muffin huh? hehe maybe she read your diary *winks and runs* ~willow~

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