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(2004-11-04 - 11:38 p.m.)

Weirdness. Char hasn't touched her diary, her guitar, or food all week. She has barely touched me. She keeps saying that nothing is wrong. I don't know whether she wants me to believe her or not. But I think something is definitly wrong. She has had this empty look on her face. Not so much that she isn't there. She just looks like she is broken. I can only compare this to last year when she got depressed. I have been keeping a close eye on her to make sure she isn't doing anything that is bad for her. She started acting like this after she got back from her home town last weekend. She has been sleeping progressively less and less. I have tried everything to get her to spill. It's obvious that something is wrong. When she comes home from class instead of playing her guitar or doing things on the computer she just lays her head on my shoulder and gives me thing look of pain. I think she started drinking again too. She knows how I feel about that. In her therapy session she just stayed locked up tighter than a drum.(I go with her that way I can tell them what I see happening). I don't know what to do except for keep trying to get her to open up. And maybe I can snag some of the papers that she keeps scribbling on and then ripping up and burning. I mean that has to say something is wrong. right there. I am going crazy about this can you tell? Look I wrote like a page or so that isn't normal. I hate writing. Fuck, baby come back to me.

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