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It seems that its one thing after another and I cant just get back to that place of bliss in my life. First my car accident at the end of April. Then middle of May I started to get this pain in my foot. Well it was bothering me for a while but not this bad. Then it hurt me to even walk on my leg but I still worked on it because I dont know how to not work. Then while on my way to the bar in the morning my leg started to go numb and tingley. Then while working it kept happening... we got a lunch rush and it was not too bad but I could not really walk so I sat down for a few mins. Then around 130ish all of a sudden the other side of my body went numb and tingley so I called my uncle to come downstairs and called my sister and parents til one of them answered to come take me to the Emergency Room. Went in they checked my heart and and neck and did a cat scan and x rays and took blood and etc. Then sent me home and said to see my doc on mon so I did. They did some more x rays and sent me to a specialist. So they checked my foot for a fracture and I still have not got my results from the MRI yet. They still have to put me through nerve testing. But on this past Friday our one employee never showed up for work so I had to work, until then all I was doing was sitting answering the phone at the pizzeria. At the end of the night I was so tired and sorta weak but thought nothing of it felt good to work again but I was in such pain. Then woke up Sat and I hurt from head to toe, typing kills my arms, but when I tried to walk my legs shook and I have trouble walking on them even with the crutches. I have been sitting here all alone, with no one, no one is around. Everyone has a damn life and mine is put on hold. I cant get up and do things and I cant sit too long either. Life sucks right now. I need them to figure out what the FUCK is wrong with me. Not sure if its a pinched nerve or back issue or something worse. NO FUCKING IDEA! My dad also wants me to not take my Paxil to see if thats the issue but with my damn anxiety right now I need it. I'm a wreck. I cant leave the house, I cant drive, I have no one to talk to or keep me company. We dont have like anything in the house to do or eat. I hate all this shit I just wanna get back to normal so I can work my two fucking jobs and keep myself busy again. Man oh man life sucks!