cardiacpatch

i spent the weekend in eugene. i graduated from my m.a. program and hung out with fam and friends. spent some quality time with my dogs which was absolutely essential.

2004-04-19 - 6:37 p.m.
ahhh... nothing like a little sun to make you feel like maybe you should hold off on hanging yourself a little longer. this weekend was fabulous. i had a blast with dillon, and becky's fam, and am looking forward to more work, school, and life happening to me in the coming week.

2004-04-14 - 10:41 p.m.
sad how you always miss someone once you say goodbye. i am confused by how much i miss something i didn't appreciate at the time. will i always look back and realize how fabulous life was? will i never be able to see it and feel it while its happening? these are the things i think about. i think that even when i find happiness i will not recognize it until i have let it go.

can you tell i was raised by the kids of the self-help generation?

goodnight.

2004-04-11 - 5:08 p.m.
yesterday i spent the day walking around downtown with becky, carol, and katie shopping. we shopped and shopped. i found most of the things i liked at urban outfitters. i couldn't bring myself to spend the money. so we went to joann fabrics in ballard and bought material:

here it is up close:

i am pleased! and inspired! yay for creations!

hope everyone is having a fabulous sunday afternoon.

2004-04-08 - 8:01 p.m.
today i expanded my brain, and for personal edification reasons, i found myself downstairs in the Minor & James Radiology watching a persantine thallium test. on monday i will watch dr. ali perform a cardiac catheterization on a patient at nine on monday at providence. very exciting. i realize i don't sound excited, but it's just due to the lack of excitement in my punctuation. i really enjoy working with her.

becky's fam is coming tonight!

amy and i are chattin' it up and drinkin' some beers. life is good at the moment. i crave this life where nothing is asked of me. only at the designated time.

2004-04-07 - 10:40 p.m.
here is a funny link. one day i will invest time and figure out how to do all these links and stuff on the side but for now check out homestarrunner

2004-04-07 - 10:18 p.m.
oh here is some explodingdog meets cardiacpatch artwork:

my ode to sam brown.

2004-04-07 - 9:42 p.m.

its ochoco's birthday! he is three years old, and in two weeks i will be able to post a picture of him on my weblog. he is a beautifully spirited pitbull with more charisma than most people have.

deep dark secret of the night:

1. due to the o.c. not being on i was forced to watch the swan.

the swan is quite possibly the worst idea for a show ever. and yet here i am.

oops! its back! later!

2004-04-05 - 10:10 p.m.
hey there

what a day.

i am an imperfect human being.

its a hard thing to accept.

i thought i would be a bigger person if i made mistakes. i am bigger than my mistakes.i feel inferior. like i should have known. hence nursing school. i learn more to earn more. go team!

night to the peeps.

becky rocks the house.

betsy is in a realm all of her...no one tops bets!

shannon will be a part of my life for ever.

2004-04-05 - 7:44 p.m.
here are two pics of my latest project:

and

enjoy!

2004-04-02 - 6:44 p.m.
tomorrow i head south to the hometown of eugene, oregon. with becky and a friend that she works with. shannon will be out of town but i will get to spend time with my mom, dad, and grandparents. hopefully effie will be there, too. i will get to have lunch at the famous saturday market.

today i awoke with a headache that won hands down.

the headaches have been too frequent lately. not okay with me.

dillon called from flagstaff, az. his family is moving from california to texas and they are three days behind schedule. moving is always behind schedule. in fact, with me i never even attempt a schedule!

a good weekend to all!

2004-03-30 - 10:59 p.m.

i am getting overwhelmed at work. i am too tired when i get home. so today on my lunch i took a 35 minute fast walk towards downtown.

the sun was not blazing, but it was warm nonetheless. i broke a sweat and it felt great.

"reading just gets you into trouble." god i love that 70's show.

oh. i watch way too much tv!

i have decided to wage war with at&t. i am documenting every time my phone has hung up on me, beeped at me, refused to dial, said i was roaming, etc. i will get out of my contract! i will!

go team!

2004-03-30 - 9:27 p.m.
i have been really focusing on taking time for myself during the day.

while at work i am one of those people who easily forget about seperation of self from task. so; i forget to eat, i forget to breathe, i forget to pee, and i forget to go home.

i remember only all the things i have to get done. its good for productivity and bad for sanity.

so i have agreed to take it easy on myself and arrive at work not before 8:30am, take atleast a half hour lunch, and leave no later than 5:45pm. 5:30 is a joke, and tonight i left at 6:15. some things are just not realistic.

i am going to start researching the steps to apply to Seattle Central Community College"s Nursing Program. Since the nursing program doesn't begin until fall term, i can hopefully get most of my pre-reqs out of the way before fall term.

i left work today fully intent on babying my whining headache with a bubble bath and thoughts of my happy place, but instead i got a surprise visit from my homies stara and becky!

yay friends!

2004-03-26 - 7:44 p.m.
it is friday night, and i am, as usual, thoroughly exhausted.

last night i went for a drink with my roommate and her friends for her 28th birthday. wow. 28.

listening to neko case and the gits on a mix i made. today was payday. i left early and had lunch with my friend and then headed home for an afternoon nap.

missing my fam, i was able to speak with shannon finally. that was good, and he said i was allowed to call and that his new girlfriend won't get jealous. that's good.

to the weekend!

2004-03-21 - 5:23 p.m.

today was beautiful and warm. becky and i walked through our neighborhood and found all sorts of interesting images like this haunted house:

also there were so many flowers in bloom:

everyone was out working in their gardens, garage sales were around every corner. these are the days that i love where i am.

i miss shannon, effie, and my dogs. my mom, excruciatingly.

2004-03-20 - 11:53 p.m.
days of sunshine in seattle. kinda wierd.

2004-03-20 - 12:14 a.m.
feeling uninspired...

hmm...

ahh...better!

2004-03-20 - 12:03 a.m.
it is friday night, becky and i got a beer at the grill house sports pub down on montlake. hot wings and beer is always a good way to begin the weekend.

2004-03-18 - 8:12 p.m.
what was remarkable about my day? hmm.... well, to be honest, i was not thinking at all about what could be considered remarkable in my day. so i missed it. but tomorrow i will pay closer attention to the remarkable events that happen throughout my day.

i feel good when i work ten hour days and am tired at the end. does this mean i am satisfied? does this mean i need a rekindling passion for my hobbies? does this mean i need to shake things up or let things lie?

hmmm....oooh! currently reading the da vinci code and it is super! i have finally realized that i love fiction, and there is no more denying it!

other favorites on the fiction list:

1. barbara kingsolver books

2. catcher in the rye

3. a wrinkle in time

4. harriet the spy

5. sherman alexie books

tomorrow the remarkable will be recognized as remarkable.