7:58 a.m. - 2002-11-18
The Worst Feeling Ever
Today being Monday the 18th, I have a few things to mention regarding the past week: We�ve cried a lot and some more. We went to the OB/GYN on Tuesday, but they had given the wrong date for her appointment, which was said to be the 12th, not the 14th. On the 14th, the Doctor couldn�t find a heartbeat, so our baby was dead. The following morning we went to the hospital and had it removed via D&C. It had ceased to live around the 8th week so it was in there a few weeks for naught. Of course, we were shocked, so denial, sadness, anger, and guilt are several steps of grieving from which we�ve been dealing. I could go into details, but I don�t want to rehash things. All I can say is that I�m relieved that Jennifer is physically fine; after reading A Farewell to Arms long ago, I can appreciate the fact that things could be worse� though I feel worse than I have ever in the past.
