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Rosebush

So this page is going to be a bit different.

I had my last session with Anne today. We took a walk down memory lane, and she looked me straight in the eyes, and told me that I had come so, so far. She told me that, in my heart, I really was in that Jeep with the top down, at the Summit, on my own. She told me I was the Queen of Analogies, and that I should write a book on them. She told me I was a natural-born leader. She prayed over me, she prayed for me.

I teared up.

I teared up because I realized that I really had gotten this far. And I was okay with being okay. The pain, the messiness....I had gotten through it. And I learned a LOT. I am learning a lot.
I'm in a beautiful, hard place. I'm learning redemption. I'm learning to live outside my box. I'm learning to let go. It's amazing. God's Love is incredible, no one can fathom the depth, the heighth, the width, of his Love. He has pursued me since before I could talk, or walk. He formed me. He knew me. He knows me. He will know me.

He fashioned my every step. He will do what it takes in a broken world to draw me closer to Him. He is relentless. He is becoming my Lover.

I hugged Anne for the first time today, also. It felt like a weight leaving my chest, but it was bitter sweet. I was THROUGH! But it was like saying farewell to an era. Pride hasn't gotten a hold on me, though. I still have much to learn. I will always have much to learn.

And I planted a rosebush today.

11:28 pm - 05-17-07

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