girl2go's Diaryland Diary
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LOVE HURTS: A Short Story
He lifts up my pink camisole and stares at my boobies and I grow warm all over. I know he�s thinking about how easy I am, like he didn�t even have to kiss me first. I also know the only reason he�s out with me is because David told him I put out. David�s telling all his friends that so his new girlfriend won�t think he still likes me. She knows I still like him.
Guys like to talk. David will ask him how it went with me, and he�ll brag and tell David he got laid. I want him to tell him that. I want David to remember just what he�s missing. I want so much for him to want me back.
He leans way over and starts to suck my right boob, which is larger than the left. I close my eyes and pretend its David. Even if it isn�t David I still love the feel of it. That�s why I let boys do it, and because it gets me so hot. I don�t care if it gets them hot. If they want me to suck their dicks they have to suck my nipples first. Just after a few seconds of his sucking I can feel my pussy getting wet. I start to squirm a little in the car seat so that my nubbie gets rubbed.
I wish, I wish, I wish boys would suck them for hours. That�s what I hope heaven is like, just getting my nipples sucked all the time. It probably isn�t, though. Boys probably think the same way except they want their dicks sucked all the time. I�m pretty crazy about sucking dick, I just don�t let the boys know that. I sort of let them think I�m doing them a favor. Boys like you better when you�re not so eager.
I know something, though. I know David�s new girlfriend, Coralee Shaffer, isn�t sucking his dick. I know Coralee. She�s majoring in Women�s Studies and is this big feminist on campus and she believes women shouldn�t go down on their knees to men for any reason, and that includes sucking dick. This is despite the fact that her tits are melon size and every guy on campus wants to go down on those. She�s not opposed to fucking, though, and I�m sure David is getting plenty of that. She probably wants to be on top all the time.
Now he�s sucking my other nipple. His name is Juan, but that�s not important. Juan doesn�t mean anything to me. I�m not going to fall in love with Juan �cause I�m not even attracted to him. I like the way he�s sucking me, though. He has both hands around my boob and he�s squeezing it while he sucks. I like my boobs. When they first started to grow in I was a little alarmed because I hadn�t been expecting it so soon. My dad kept teasing me about them which really embarrassed me. But pretty soon every boy in my class started to like me and so I didn�t mind having them anymore. Also at first I tried to hide them and refused to wear a bra. Now I refuse to wear a bra because I like boys to notice them.
David told me that�s why he asked me out the first time. He said the way I bounced under my sweaters gave him a hard-on. And then when I let him touch them right away, the first time he tried, he said he couldn�t believe how lucky he was. I always let boys touch them though because that�s what I want. I want to be touched every bit as much as they want to touch me. I want boys to like me.
Juan and I are parked in the one safe place to park, a place where the cops never come by and shine a flashlight in the window. David and I came here all the time. I am hoping so much that he�ll come here and see me with Juan and get jealous and realize what he was missing. Every time I hear another car pull up, I open my eyes and check to see if it�s his pick-up. So far no David.
Juan says, �Want to get in the back? There�s more room.�
�OK.� I start to climb over the seat, but he opens his door and gets out, so I do the same. My top is still pulled up over my boobies, but I don�t care. Sometimes things happen perfectly. I�m standing by the door waiting for Juan to unlock it, my boobs lit by the full moon, when David�s truck pulls up and parks next to us. I know Coralee is with him even though I can�t see her through the tinted windows.
I start to cry a little. I know he is going to do the same things to her that he did to me. I don�t want his hands on her or his mouth. I don�t want him inside her making her feel so good. It isn�t fair. I thought he was mine. I thought we would get married someday. We even made up names for our children. You don�t do that if you don�t really love somebody.
I act like I don�t see him and get into the back seat. Juan has one of the only cars in town without tinted windows, and since David�s truck is much higher, I know he has a good view of us if he�s interested. I�m hoping he�s interested. All he would have to do is just motion me out of the car and I would dump Juan in a second. David is my soul mate and now he doesn�t seem to care anymore. I can�t even understand why that happened.
Juan wants 69 next and that�s OK with me. I get naked and pretty soon Juan is naked too. He has a good dick, nice and thick. I like a big one in my mouth. Juan doesn�t seem to know exactly what he�s doing but it feels good with his tongue in my pussy so I don�t care. I just want to suck him. Guys don�t know that sucking them is one of my favorite things to do. Maybe David figured it out since I was always begging to do it, but mostly they think you want to get eaten. With David I wanted everything. I wonder if David saved all the pictures he took of me. He probably showed them to all his friends. I don�t mind. I�m not ashamed of my body. Maybe I could get Juan to take some so he could show David later. Or just to look at by himself if he wanted to.
Because of my allergies I�m having a little trouble breathing as Juan�s dick doesn�t leave much room in my mouth for air and my nose is stuffed up. I keep sniffling but maybe that�s from the crying. Even though Juan is very close to making me cum, I can�t stop crying. He�s sucking on my nubbie, which really surprises me because I didn�t think he would even try that. I can feel myself getting close to coming from his sucking, and even though I�m crying, and even though my mouth is full of dick, I still scream when I cum. I�m shaking really hard and squeezing Juan�s head with my thighs. My shaking dies down and I start crying again, and also sucking on his dick better as I had kind of been ignoring it. It feels comforting to have my mouth filled with dick again.
I wonder what David is doing with Coralee. He probably spent some time kissing her first but then I know he would want to see her boobs. All the guys are dying to see Coralee�s boobs. Coralee and I both go out for tennis so I�ve seen her boobies in the locker room. She�s built like Scarlett Johansson, slim all over except for her chest, which is really something up close. Her face isn�t much, just average, but boys seldom look any higher than her chest.
Juan doesn�t seem to want to cum in my mouth because he sits up and moves around and climbs on top of me. I�m sorry not to have dick in my mouth anymore but I like it just as much in my pussy. I could stay like that for hours, just being fucked, but he cums really fast and then falls on top of me. This is the point at which David would kiss me and tell me he loves me. Juan doesn�t do either of those things. I want to tell him I love him just to make him feel good but he would tell David. It�s hard to do something like fucking a boy and not feel like you love him.
Juan starts putting his clothes on. �Want to go?� he asks me. �We could stop by Sonic and get a burrito.�
I like sex better than food so I would rather just stay and do it some more. He seems to be done for the night, though, so I say OK.
I dress and get back in the front seat. I try to ignore the noises that are coming from David�s truck. Juan walks right over to the driver�s window and knocks on it and David rolls it down. I see Juan give David a thumb�s up and then they high-five. I start to cry again.
Juan has a huge grin when he gets back in the car. �Man, I got a good look at Shaffer�s tits,� he says, sounding so excited I want to die. �Mierda, what I wouldn�t give to cum all over those babies!�
I turn my face to the window so he won�t see my tears.
9:26 a.m. - 2009-02-03
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