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Luck... @ 10:12 p.m. on 2004-12-12

is not with me lately�it absolutely hates me. So I had the church painting sleepover last night. Well, then. It started out with me being mad at my parents for being twenty minutes late to church instead of at 5:00. Turns out that no one showed up, except Coleman, until 7:30 or so. I inhaled so many paint fumes that I felt like I was dieing. So I went out of the room to take a break and Coleman did too. The first thing he asked me was, �Do you have a boyfriend?� I said, �No.� of course. It was silent for a few seconds and then I realized he wanted me to ask him back. So I said, �Do YOU have a GIRLfriend, Coleman?� and he said yes -- bladdidy blah. But of course, this was not enough. So he continued asking me things like, �Did you and your boyfriend just break up? And I lied and said, �No it was a while ago.� because, really, I�ve never had a boyfriend.

There have been SOME guys that liked me and I just didn�t get around to dating them. Like, Ricky (we liked each other but I switched schools before we ever actually went on our first date � he sent me cards in class and gave me presents and stuff), Pedro (he liked me � kinda still does � but doesn�t count cuz he�s like a year younger or something), Chris. M. (we were in Oliver together and we spent sp much time together and his friend Cooper (funny name) got mad at Chris for it. Turns out, Dana found out that Cooper said he liked me too. Whodathunkit? Chris kinda looked like Jimmy T. now that I think about it�and he was really cute!...ewww�that�s like saying Jimmy�s cute!! weird�.), Chris p. (he�s related to someone at church and I saw him at these dances and we emailed each other ever day for a while and he said things like, �love, chris � miss and love you so much!� at the end of each of his emails, a little different every time), Evan (see, I did NOT catch this one. It was all Kate. I seem to have a problem observing crushes aimed at me. Dana told me about cooper, Cooper about Chris, Emma about Pedro, Amber about Ricky, etc. I can never see it myself. I guess sometimes I feel like it�s so impossible for a guy to like me, that I don�t notice it when someone, actually, kinda does. I know it�s bad. I just�I don�t know. I don�t see why a guy would like me. Anyways, once, I was walking � this is at camp � and my feet hurt from walking on the sticks and rocks while barefoot. So Evan stood to the left of me, held my left hand with his left hand and put his right hand on my lower back to kind of �guide� me across. I didn�t realize how cute is was until K told me. Aww� That�s probably the ONE nice thing that Evan did for anyone the entire trip. hehe. I�m honored. HA!), and eh� Mitchell (those many moments with Mitch�where do I start? The night of �you helped me out, ill be there for you now� or the glaring at Evan for the whole �guiding across the painful grounds� moment. How about I start no where because I don�t feel like reliving any of those�eh�interesting times), then there was Bryce(I NEVER LIKED HIM HE LIKED ME. There was this joke that Trevor and James had. �Fast break� because I�d ask for part of his FB every time he had one and I guess that was flirting *rolls eyes* so that�s what that was. (insert free sticker from diary that says �A mysterious creep��)� he was. ewww. and then he spread rumors about me and Kate cuz neither of us would go out with him. ..he�s such an asshole�), and James(I don�t know if this counts�I didn�t think he liked me I THOUGHT but I guess I was wrong. I liked him on and off for two fucking years. The two most wasted years of my life�anyhoo, Kate and Michelle said he was really into me and like in love with me. And Lucy did this stupid note in 7th grade that said, �Rate how much you like Emily� and 1 being worst, 10 being best, 5 being �kind of crushing� and he circled 4,5,6,7,8,9, and 10. really weird. Yeaaahhh�enough. forget him), and I guess there�s a few more but many of them I don�t want to remember.

So yeah, that was my little �guy reminiscing.� Oh yeah and there was Jake L. forgot about him. Sorry A little side tracking there. Anyways, after asking me about my love life (followed by 20 minutes about his girlfriend), he admits that he used to like me. A lot. For all last year. then, said he, he realized that �nothing would ever happen between us and that I would never like him back.� I didn�t know what to say so I just replied, �seriously?� Now, of course, I know that that was an incredibly horrible answer. I was just kind of in shock. I mean, I expected it when everything I said was replied to with, �That turns me on� and �That�s hot.� Or out of the blue when he blurted �I want to have sex with you� or �I love you� I thought he was just horny or high or something. He was joking, duh, but less than I thought, ya know?

It�s weird. If I had said that (meaning what Cole said to me) to a guy I liked, I would have wanted him to respond with, �I liked you too� or something a bit more romantic, and then we would kiss and live happily ever after � the end�I am such a horrible person! If I had liked me before, I would HATE me now!

So besides all that crap with Coleman being all over me and touching me non-stop, the DVD player didn�t work so we all got high on paint AND couldn�t watch more than half of Saved! or the Breakfast Club. So now I�m really pissy. And I have SO MUCH HW to do.

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