I need to shut the fuck up and forge ahead or I will die, I will die, I will die! My friend will move here soon and I'll have some needed distractions from this mental state I'm in. I've seen Tarzan and His Mate. How can you compete with Tarzan? Why don't I shut the fuck already before I make things worse? It's ironic considering I reserve myself from speaking most of the time. Very few listen, very few care. I think it surprises some that I have feelings. *Shudder* i just want to be an asshole the rest of my life. at least then i wouldn't have to self-analyze as much. I'd know the reasons, know that i was being honest, although within the same sentence here I also know that I'm talking a crock of shit. Lies. Goodbye.
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