walls come crumbling down
2007-02-16 -- 9:51 a.m.
And I have not been this silent about wanting to shoot myself in the head in a long time. I am usually very vocal about it but as I have learned I can no longer be that way. I need to talk to someone in the worst way but unfortunatly the shit that is going through my head this time is completely different and I actually know what is bugging me. The unfortunate part is it is a deep dark secret that I could not tell anyone in the world about or else my world as I know it would come crumbling down before my very eyes. Then again someone elses world would come crumbling down as well and they enjoyment of seeing that may just as well be enough to sacrifice my world. Perhaps I am evil. Oh god how I would love to open my mouth just to destroy this one persons entire life. Is it worth the sacrifice of destroying PART of mine as well. I emphasize on the world part because it would not destroy my ENTIRE world as it would this otehr persons...hmmmm...how much longer can I keep this secret...