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Today: November 07, 2004 - 5:41 p.m. |
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Today....I'll be your lazy girl |
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It's been quite a long time, but I just haven't felt like writing. I have so much going on in my life right now, and I just can't find time to do an entry.Anyone that knows me knows what's going on to an extent. My parents are getting a divorce, my mom found out that my dad has been having an affair for the past 10 years, and it's driving her nuts. Which....Is driving me nuts. I love being so close to my mom, but there is just some stuff that I really shouldn't know. My father has lost his fucking mind, and doesn't know what the hell he wants, but he knows that he doesn't want to lose contact with his kids. The ONLY reason I still talk to the fucker is because my mom has asked me to. Go figure. Anyway, everything will work out just fine, and I keep trying to ensure her that everything will work out for the best. It's so sad that shitty things happen to such good people. The man situation has gotten way out of hand, and I am trying to gain some self-control on the issue. Shawn....I finally told Shawn off and I know that I won't be with him anymore. We might still be friends, but I highly doubt that. Eric.....Is so addicted to me, that it actually makes me sick. I just can't understand that if he has a girlfriend how can he keep saying that he can't stop thinking of me? Doesn't make any sense to me. Ralph.....I have finally realized that I did fall in love with him, and I am now trying to get away. I have been doing really good. I haven't called him unless it's necessary, and I have just left him alone and I am feeling a lot better about the situation. Gaining more and more control over myself to leave him alone, and let him come after me if that's what he really wants. That guy drives me crazy though. Seriously...think about it. Why would you still talk and want to see a girl after knowing her for 6 months if you didnt' have any feelings for her at all? If you knew you didn't want to be with her, then why would you keep her around. Is this just me holding on to that small piece of hope? Or am I thinking logically for once? Some of the stuff he says to me is just crazy. Like something a guy that wanted to keep the girl around would say. I just don't get it, but I am trying to believe that it really doesn't matter cause I know we won't be together. Jean....Ohhh boy. Well I took a break from him for a bit. Actually he went to Vegas with his girlfriend. We still talk and e-mail and just have some fun, and yes, I did sleep with him, and I truly understand why they say that "Once you go black, you never go back!" My wife and I had a great weekend together. We went to a comedy club on Thursday night, and then out to Club Q which was dead but we still had some fun. Jean met us there. We both took Friday off and that's when I met up with Jean, and he stayed in my bed all morning with me. I tell ya, I didn't do anything after he left, and I prolly wouldn't have if I didn't already make plans with the crew to hang and watch a movie. I slept and was lazy the whole day Saturday until Jean came back down here to buy me dinner, and take a "Nap" with me. Ohh boy. Too bad he had to go to work. Then Tre decided that we would go to the Kong w/Juan, and have some fun. We did. I got to see Jean again, danced, and had some fun. I didn't get up until about 3 today, and I am thinking I might just crawl back into bed shortly. Whatever, I have been going non-stop since early May, and I haven't had any time to catch up on sleep and just be lazy. So that's what I am doing, and let me just tell ya....I am enjoying every minute of it. What a great weekend though. Went out, got some ass, got more ass, went out again, and now I am going to bake some cookies. Gotta love the single life! |
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