11:46 p.m. - 2004-03-13
Bipolar...?? What??
Well...I just found out that I might have an illness called Bipolar. It's very strange. The symtoms are exactly what I have. It seems as though that's why I couldn't get over Stephanie and I being best friends. I guess that's why I can't get over it when friends just don't want to be friends anymore.
But here's the problem, we are starting to fall back into our "mode" again. I don't want that to happen because I get hurt very easily and my illness makes it worse than it should be. I just need to ignore her and be real with myself. I know it's rude n all that crap. But I need to do this so that I can move on.
