9:04 a.m. - 2009-01-29
and....
to finish that thought.....

My last post was rambling...I had heard from my mother and it tends to send my off-kilter.

Anyway, I'm jealous of all those incredibly lucky women who had "normal" mothers. But sometimes they hurt me even if they dont know it.

They have no clue as to the chaos I grew up in and the nightmare I've lived.

What I want ppl to see is that I'm a survivor, maybe not a very good one but I got thru it. And I've made a decent life for myself.

Its far from the perfect life but its not a nightmare either.

I feel like I've spemt my entire life digging my way up out of that deep, black hole I call my childhood.

And now I'm here in a pretty good place. The women with the great mothers can't ever understand. But I wish they would try.

I wish they would try........

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