just bitching
11:27 a.m. - Friday, Dec. 24, 2004
i'm so frustrated..
i feel like a fat waste of time. greg and i had a big fight monday night.. and now.. yeah now everything seems off...i dunno.
i guess it's just that monday night i was really bummed about how i have no friends, except scott. and even scott isnt really around that much.. i just feel like everyone is movingon with their lives.. they're all involved with college and activities and all i have is work. and the fact that i moved an hour away from everyone right after graduation doesn't help anything..i dunno. scott was sort of the last link to all those memories and my past... and knowing i'm slowly losing him too really really stings. so now i feel like i had to decide b/n greg and scott.. and being that scott lives 10 hours away and is busy with his own life i chose greg... and i just hope it works out well..
argh, this week has just blown. work has sucked, i've eaten like a pig and probably gained 5 pounds, and i have been trying to get all these things done for christmas.. argh, i purged in the bathroom at work last night. what a fucking failure i am. grr.