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||2003-09-09|| - ||3:16 p.m.||
Lifes no movie
Sometimes we get pulled back into places and things we left long ago. I'm trying to remember the reasons I gave up some things...the reason I decided they were no good for me. I could swear if I believe in such a thing..that some things were put here to test us and tempt us. I would fail horribly. But I don't believe in such things...so I'm left to simply wonder how every secret thought or wish I've ever had is so easily known and acted on. Everything inside of me screams run...and yet I stand to watch the scenes of the movie like an idiot. I allow myself to cast into a role I didn't want and yet I long to play. I've seen the end before. It's not pretty but it does keep you on the edge of your seat. Where is all my control? Snap of the fingers and I gave it up like a spellbound victim...all the right buttons pushed and I became the person I used to be long ago. The person I swore I've never be again...and yet I'm powerless to stop it...so far.
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