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2024-03-17 - 7:02 p.m. Two more hours of work ! The one place I work only has a businss line so Sunday nights it is silent. The other place I work on weekends has busier switchboard as there are phones in ever hospital like room ( skilled nursing rehab place with some long term nursing home residents). It was a busy few days. Thursday night my boyfriend and a few of his friends took me up on the invite to come see the play put on by the arts org for disabled individuals where I have volunteered for a dozen years. It was the org my two oldest first acted together in a show. They were so good and the show was so much fun way back when. I am sure I have mentioned before that there is this huge blown up photo from that show that was chosen to be hung in the office of the Arts Center where the stage is. I mean of all the things they could have hung there, they chose this special arts group I have a VHS of that show somewhere. So my boyfriend's friends came and it was so apprechiated by me that they legit enjoyed it and that one said "Maybe we can make this an annual tradition" with earnestness. It feels like I found my tribe here. For real his friends are so great. I have my own friends of course too... The guy I met through work and befriended but don't really hang with (but for coffee one in a whil ein the role of emotional support) In other words just the one on one.. So it is really nice that my boyfriend actually has a group of friends who all like to do things together. They invite their families. Their kids actually like hanging out ( some of them at least so it seems.) Its a nice thing- The one odd one out unfortunately lives out of state so I think that makes it hard. And he is sober and some of them still drink when together so I think that makes it hard too. Newly sober, as in a year? in May? Oh why does it seem the wine helped that along? ( but it did... sigh. The catch 22 I HATE as tried to argue agaist the premise of any substances helping folks be open to meaningful conneciton. Alcoholism is SUPPOSED to be said to be an emotional block, right? Supposed to be said to block expressing real emotion... I don't really see that with moderated drinking- but for some moderate drinking perhaps the reduction of inhibition and increase of trust and the oppostie? (If trust misplaced and lack of self boundaroes are an issue that can be a HUGE problem.. but IF NOT , as itwas last year when the few folks really got to know eachother, then it is NOT a problem). That the weird thing. These besties of my boyfriend did largerly bond over heavy usage of alcohol as they were winding down together after working thirty years ago. And have remainded friends since. BUT OMG I did not drink last night at all ( but for water) but I did not get much sleep either. It was so nice to talk with the folks we did meet and chat with, but not quite the same as last years connections. BUT still nice. OH Thank God my VPN is connected. � � |