Sunday, Aug. 28, 2005

One more time...

So, someone closer to home is what I wanted eh? Yeah, well. Julie and Matt ended up breaking up. Matt went to Farmington Falls to live with a different guy he worked with, Jose, and Julie came back down to live in Readfield with her mom. Well, being single, Julie liked to have her share of men. While we were picking up one of my coworkers to bring him home one night, Julie asked another guy I worked with if he new any hot guys she could get booty from, and Dan says, hold on let me call my friend John. So he gets off the phone and comes over and says, go to the House Of Pizza and ask see John, he's always up for some booty. Well, John at the House of Pizza was, of course, John Hodgkins, from VIP, the one and only.
We went and visited him at work that night of October 23rd 2004, and we've been together ever since.
Has it been easy? Fuck no! Not with the hour call to Dorothy on the cell phone I generally pay for. Or the letter she sent him asking for him to come see her because she hadn't "gotten any" in so long... which is funny because shortly after she called and told him she was engaged and pregnant. Or the gross pictures of her posing for him, the dildo I found under his bed - "little Johnny". The clothes she left behind in his closet including her bra and panties, the christmas cookie tin full of love notes from her and the baby book from the only baby she gave birth to, (not John's) who was taken away from her by the state.
But by now, I'm pretty sure I've gotten rid of almost everything that belonged to her. I hope so, anyway.
Other than the fighting that came from the above and some other petty jealousy things... (like him getting trashed and cheating on me back in February), we've been doing pretty good. Do I love him? Oh hell yes, how else would I be able to deal with his crap? Although he's not even close to being perfect, he still has his moments, and it's nice.



So why have I come back to continue this for the hundredth time now? Well, I'm pregnant again! And I want to be able to get rid of some stress and things on my mind by writing about it, it helped last time I was pregnant, and hopefully it will help this time too. Only this time I'm keeping it. I'm having a hard time quitting smoking, but I have a good job. So the challenges of this relationship/pregnancy are much less difficult, (Jamie was a heroin addict, John's more or less a drunk) and the odds are a little better this time around. So I'm sticking this one out and I'm going to see if I can make it this time around. Hopefully things will turn out good.

Any suggestions for boy baby names? Leave them here

my-uhuru at 7:09 P.M.

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