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8:45 a.m. - 2023-02-22
Day In The Life
What a great feeling. I know some folks are up and at ‘em people, but I enjoy bed. Coffee and lingering. I woke around 7 and played on my phone, got my coffee, and now I’m settling in with a good book.

My biggest issue with now retired life is coming to terms with the ability to do exactly what I want to, when I want to!!! There are so many voices in my head telling me what I should or shouldn’t do. They are quieting but this is something I’ll probably always struggle with. Coming from a family where secrets were to be hidden and perception by others was important, it is hard to shake that!!!

I have had pretty productive days lately. (Look! Judging myself already!)Yesterday I went in for my skin check and this Florida girl got an A+! I cringe to go for this because I came from the iodine and baby oil era AND because my sunscreen use is not 100%. As I explained it….”I use it when I’m prepared to be in sun, but I don’t carry it in the car.” I think I will start being more prepared. The thought of having pieces of me sliced away isn’t pleasant. Or cancer.

I did a little cleaning. I went and bought a few groceries. I walked 6000 steps. I listened to a webinar with my financial planner. I hemmed some curtains. When I say it out loud I see that I’m forming the life that suits me and keeping fairly involved. I also tuned in to a lovely Monk I’ve been following twice, once for meditation at 11 am and again at 8 pm for Buddha book club. The subject was fear and it was a good listen.

Two days ago I met an interesting woman from our community. I was waiting for my car and heard her husband check in with the name Huecker (pronounced Hooker lol) and that was all I needed to initiate a conversation with his wife. What a ball of fire! I’m no stranger to oversharing but within one hour I knew TMI on this lady. She uses pot by the pool ONLY, as her husband doesn’t approve. She misses sex. She and her bestie “own the pool” at the clubhouse lol. (I later found out from the gal at the front office that she and the General Manager observed her solo at the pool one afternoon very high and navigating the seating shakily.) I shared my stories of travel and adventure and showed her Ryan and her words immediately were “Did he service you?!!!!” I assured him that if that had happened, we would but still have the loving friendship we share now!!!

All these things my new friend spoke were kind of sad. She’s 12 years older than me and I sensed a kind of sadness about her. Maybe that will be me? It’s hard at 64 to be staring down the final chapter. I’m trying to come to terms with it though, so it doesn’t detract from my present joy. 12 years is not a long time! I also was keenly aware that she and I both share a habit of wanting to be seen and get attention with our bluntness! She invited me to join them next Tuesday for Birthdays and Burgers at the clubhouse and I’m going. I told her I didn’t feel I fit in well in gatherings. Her prompt response “Why?, you’re OLD!?” Old yes, but slightly different. More adventurous. Hang mostly with my kids so I’m more immersed in current trends. I don’t know…I’ve never been a clique kind of gal. I told her I’m antisocial. Outgoing when you get me cranked up (her husband was a little overwhelmed I think with our fast paced chatter lol). But I’m not big on group activities! We’ll see how it goes. She has to use a walker to get around, after having a stroke.

I have experienced an onset lately of hip pain and I’m going to the doctor to see what is up. I push through, I’d say it’s about a 6 or 7 in the morning and less later after activity and Motrin.

Looking forward to a BeeGees tribute show tomorrow with my sister and niece and babysitting the granddogs Saturday night. Mystery movie on Monday. I got free tickets to hear Holocaust survivors play music and speak at a local synagogue for March. I think it will be moving. Soon all survivors will be gone and I want to experience this piece of history.

Going to settle in and read a bit before meditation. Stray, by Stephanie Danler. And be grateful I was able to retire early and have this restful time🥰

 

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